Woo! The last 10 days have been quite the journey. As mentioned, I’ve been on a fast/cleanse since the first full day Astrid came home and right as Summer kicked in. Today is actually my 10th and final day of the process itself, but I won’t be returning to regular food until Tuesday (coincidentally the 4th of July!), as there’s a 3 day ease-in process to prepare the body and stomach for food again. So it’s really like a 13 day cleanse – or nearly 2 weeks. However, in some ways I feel I’ve been cleansing longer, as being in Austin, Texas for a week in the high heat and humidity, had me sweating out toxins too. And in general, have just felt like an energetic purge has been taking place.
I wrote before that I in fact had no intention of doing any kind of a cleanse, as I’ve really just not felt called to it anymore, having done so many in the past. However, I got the hit that it would be of benefit energetically at this time with all the new things coming, which is the only reason I followed the guidance.
Some people cleanse for health reasons, to lose weight, fast for longevity and spiritual benefits, but I simply did it for a complete energetic reset to shift my frequency and on all levels, remove any old, to start anew.
That said, of course all of the other reasons people do this for would still end up happening during the experience, but they were not my focus, nor goal.
Since it wasn’t my intention to do a cleanse, and literally was spiritual guidance, I wanted something easy in terms of not needing to buy a kit, nor buy a bunch of things and maintain a regime of preparations. I wanted low maintenance and low effort – other than commitment.
So I ended up doing the Master Cleanse (very effective especially for my personal goal), which I’d only done once before, about 6-7 years ago. However, that time I had to stop at 8 days because my hypo-glycemia was kicking in and I don’t play around with that. Always listen to your body!
This time I made it through the 10 days yay! And quite extraordinarily too.
Never do a fast or cleanse without consulting your doctor, if in fact you have other health conditions and are taking medications. I’m not a doctor, nor health expert, I just do things I feel guided to do and know only my own personal experience of them. But we are all different and need different things, precautions, and protocol.
I also don’t personally recommend this particularly cleanse for everyone, as it is really challenging. It takes a commitment, tempered with listening to your body, and will put you to the test for sure.
My experience was this.
The first 4 days were great. I loved the drink, felt good, and was active everyday doing hiking 3 of the days (3-5 miles) and kayaking 1 of the days. All of which was incredible, but I had the energy to do it.
Then the next 3 days became challenging in terms of waking in the morning feeling ultra weak, until I got going and started intaking the liquids I was supposed to, which then got me back on track and feeling fine. I also started thinking about all the food I wanted to eat when it was done and collecting recipes – living vicariously through the imagination. But while I’ve heard of people who fast getting lower back aches and pains, likely due to toxins from the kidneys and organs they’re cleansing, I instead had mild aches right above my knees, which was interesting, but uncomfortable and odd. This would happen at night before bed, making it challenging to find a comfortable position until I finally fell asleep and then it was gone when I woke. I wonder if symbolically this had to do with moving forward in life in a new direction and the increased flexibility needed for the next “leg” of the journey. I also wasn’t able to do the level of outdoor exercise/activities I was, and decreased it to just short walks and beach/swimming time to relax, but still get some good vitamin D and nature. Considering, these were pretty mild challenges since I know people can go through some crazy stuff.
But the last 3 days were back to being great. No more weak mornings, aches went away, and energy rose. I was able to do short 2 mile mild hikes and generally felt energized. I was able to work with prepping the wood for some of the Magick Crystal Wands, which took energy sanding and sealing. I wasn’t thinking about food anymore either, but instead what I also found in these last few days was that my body now was not really interested in intaking anything, yet had lots of energy. I felt more like a breatharian and light being, having a hard time consuming the amounts they say to drink, and so I listened to my body instead.
And here I am now completing the course today, feeling clear, light, and definitely in a different state of mind and being. I had made it over the hump and the detox period and got myself to the other end, or the “light at the end of the tunnel.”
I did in fact lose likely about 10 + pounds (I don’t own a scale, but I can vividly tell by the dramatic change in my body – Dave noticed too), which again was not my goal, but just happens of course if you’re not eating anything and flushing everything out during the process. You do have a special lemonade drink you intake, which is composed of water, maple syrup, lemon juice, and cayenne, but other than that you are taking a senna tea (which helps bowel movements since you’re not intaking any solid food) at night and a salt water flush in the morning (don’t leave home until that flush out is done or you’ll have accidents!), which is helping to eliminate everything and move out toxins, as well as clean out your colon and digestive system, inducing forced bowel movements.
I will likely gain all or at least some of this back, as I get back into a normal routine again, but the key is to keep on a healthy momentum, otherwise cleanses are a waste of time if you jump back into junk food and unhealthy food, in general, and the benefits will be temporary only. It’s a good opportunity to make those lifestyle and dietary changes you’ve been feeling called to do.
I don’t plan on another cleanse, unless something strikes me like this one to be essential for my evolution. But I did find this one to be perfect in timing with Astrid’s arrival, the onset of Summer, New Moon Supermoon, some things shifting in our lives, and a new path about to happen for me.
Again, I don’t recommend this for everyone and don’t even recommend it to anyone who hasn’t thoroughly been advised or looked into it themselves, as it is NOT a piece of cake. To me it’s like fasting, with the benefits of cleansing. But like with any cleanse or fast, you’ll bring up a lot of stuff on many levels, including emotional, that may be tough to handle. Not to mention, you’ll go through some physical adjustments while those toxins move out! Yet, there is opportunity to refresh and revitalize, as well as take your life to another level and feel more alive, clear, and light.
For me it’s been great, despite the middle challenge I had to go through to get to the other side, which is like anything in life worth having and experiencing.
I would never force myself, if I thought my body couldn’t handle it or was starting to show signs of deterioration and inability to move forward for its own good. I checked in and it was simply about embracing the uncomfortable for a bit because it was just part of the cleanse/detox that if flowed with and not fought, would get me to the side of ease and grace.
It also made me look at things in my life again, in review, which has been powerful, affirming, and grounding, and even my relationship with food, which has both deepened and expanded as well.
Getting to where I am now I know that I don’t “need” food, but I do love and appreciate that part and choice of being human and being able to enjoy the sensuality of life and nature’s goodness. It makes you experience both sides of the coin (our Cosmic and Earthly selves) and integrate them in a balanced way that works perfectly and harmoniously for you.
And as I’ve been telling people a lot recently before this cleanse, it has anchored in the fact that I live for now and bringing forth everything possible that passionately lives in my heart and am not concerned about the future, nor of death. Nor do I strive for longevity. For me it’s about quality of life and as long as I feel I’m doing everything I can right now and living from the joy and peace of my spirit, then that’s more than enough for me.
I feel just so super charged with momentum of what’s in motion and ready for any new things that come my way. I also received some insights for my wands that will challenge my creative abilities. I also had future visions and heart ties that spoke through from the other side of their doorways. And lots of synchronicity and alignments showing up as fuel to my focus.
So overall, the nudge to do this in fact has been reiterated and I’m sure I’ll find out more of the benefits, as the days go on following full completion of this journey.
So much is rapidly unfolding right now in my life, and I know from what I’ve heard from others that the same holds true – Spring has sprung indeed! It’s incredible how all that I knew was percolating and being anchored over the course of the last months, Winter, and year, is coming into manifestation now. And the New Moon in Aries really kicked things in gear with igniting several layers of events unfolding, my own seeding of intentions with certainty of action, and even some surprise arrivals that couldn’t have been cosmically timed better, along with today’s honoring of my dear Nestor…aligning at once.
But first, a sharing of reverence to the spirit who has been my guiding light in life.
I can’t believe it’s been 14 years (today) since this incredible being found me again and re-entered my life in the physical. What a gift you are in my life, even from afar now where you travel the Cosmos like the Cosmic Pilgrim that you are. Thank you Nestor, my twin soul, for everything you have and continue to teach me, for challenging me to be more of who I really am, to help me know the real meaning of love, and for knowing me better than I knew myself. I wouldn’t be where I am and creating what I am right now without your guidance and the tough, tough experiences you threw at me and stood by with your unwavering love and belief in me, so patiently. Where responsibility failed me at times, love helped me rise to the occasion. You are cherished and honored now and always.
It is no coincidence that everything unfolding and arriving in my life right now is connected to this portal day of your arrival. I know, also, that Joy, Gaia, and Cosmo would not have found me either, if it hadn’t been for you.
I love how you continually weave your magick and soon it will be known just how much you’ve changed the course of everything.
It is also no coincidence that a new crystal friend found its way into my life, arriving home to me on the New Moon.
Because of your teaching to me to trust my nudges, this led me to divine alignment in seeing a post by a crystal keeper of a new offering in his collection. The crystal I saw was spoken for, but it wasn’t the crystal itself, but the description that had caught my eye….”Red Rabbit,” And so I inquired, nonetheless, discovering he had just two more available. And one of them I knew instantly you had in mind for me and had helped me navigate to.
It was even given to me at discount and I had a feeling I would find surprises in store. I was sent a quick video of the crystal that went so fast it was hard for me to fully tell, but I had a feeling this was a magickal one. I was able to only discern the number of sides to most of its faces, but one was hidden, so I couldn’t confirm and didn’t feel called to ask about, as I knew to just trust.
And when it arrived, it was in fact what I had felt.
This is not only a potent and beautiful crystal in its own right of being, but turned out to be a Channeler Transmitter Quartz, or Trans Channeler/Dow Crystal as they are known. These seem to keep finding me, as I discovered Fiver’s Quartz was also this, which sits atop my Magick Crystal Wand I kept for myself, and I found two other crystals that will be fashioned into a scepter, which just so happened to be this as well.
Dow Crystals have perfect 7-3-7-3-7-3 face sides and are rare, remarkable healing stones bringing balance and harmony.
AND, to add to that, it is self-healed, has wonderful “root” energy for grounding its high vibes, has laser crystal essence for focus and fine-tuning communication within and with other worlds, and also holds scepter energy, which helps transmit directional energy to the heart of the matter from the higher planes.
AND, another surprise I didn’t see in the video, because he was holding it in a way that covered this, it has a key! A key helps you gain access to information, healing insights, and hidden things, as well as aspects of ourselves by unlocking doors. So, yes, a little portal action to discovery. This is usually and easily recognized by a six-sided indentation on the side of face of the crystal caused by another crystal.
And add to one of its nicknames – “Red Rabbit” – this was like hitting the crystal jack”rabbit”pot for myself with this lovely one.
A little on the crystal properties and generals.
It is an Amphibole Quartz, which is only found in Brazil – a mine in the mountains of Bahia to be precise. They are also known as “Angel Phantom” or “Angel Wing Phantom” sometimes – this is because of inclusions looking like wispy angel wings, and “Red Rabbit” – because of the white streaks flowing through the red like a rabbit dashing through the desert (their white tails create the streak when they run).
They have a beautiful, sweet, pure, but strong energy.
Some of these crystals are more etheric (like mine) in their inclusions and others are very pronounced and more solid appearing – almost like those colored sand creations you can make. This can include hematite (the red), kaolinite (the white), limonite (the yellow), and lithium (the pink).
Because of this mix of inclusions and their infused properties, they create balance on so many levels and assist with grounding and manifesting that which is in the higher realms of experience.
It was a first for me to know of these (all in divine timing) and I can understand why this one has come to me, given I don’t really bring many new crystals in anymore. I don’t look for them or even intend to have more crystals, but a select few have seemed to find me recently due to the new being created.
These crystals bring peace, harmony, serenity, surety, strong sense of quiet confidence with decisions and taking on the unknown and new, but also ground and provide raw energy and drive to do so despite obstacles, and do so with clarity, cohesion, and practicality (hematite), support self-worth, joy, vitality and abundance of energy, and inspiration to share with self and others (limonite), emanate love, compassion, empathy, integrity, and working for the highest good (lithium), and channel inspiration, connection, and channeled light from Crown Chakra and Angelic/etheric realm.
They call it a “manifestation crystal extraordinaire” that assists when we are faced with mountains to cross over and that’s good because I will need it for things upcoming!
It’s also a very potent protector (with discernment to help avoid reactions and fear-based decisions) and cleanser of all toxicity within and without, great for lucid, restful, informative, and peaceful dreaming, past life recall, but also helps you to see your gifts, strengths, increase self-empowerment, and infuses the importance and presence of more high-vibrational universal love, joy, and beauty into your life.
I love what Victoria of Ethereal Energies of Quartz Crystals shares about them:
“This is the perfect tool for the inter-dimensional era we have recently entered, so much unrest, worry, anxiety and fear are running amuck in the daily world news. We all need to take a deep breath and realize by our thoughts, feelings and beliefs today, we create the future we will live in tomorrow. The Amphibole Quartz is exactly what we need to give us that little extra boost of confidence, courage and protection we could all benefit from while we are creating the new us.”
My loves from beyond sure know just what I need for the journey ahead we’re co-creating and their timing is impeccable.
And yesterday, Dave and I had a bunch of things light up, but it was also a significant day just for me because I knew with clarity and conviction that I would get my first draft of my book completed by the time I leave for Australia, as so many things came together to support that. I hadn’t had that definitive feeling happen until then (as I’ve just been flowing along) and I anchored it in while I wrote another small, key part of the story as my action in support of that declaration.
Of course that doesn’t mean it will be done then, as there is a lot of reworking and editing to do, but to have the entire story done will be huge and finish off the cake, while the rest will be the icing that will unravel rather quickly I imagine from there.
Support is all around. It’s time, especially now, to manifest with certainty of action that backs your intents, connect with the essence behind your desire and how it can help bring more love and light into the world and is connected with All That Is, and believe the help and assistance will be there.
You can have the miracles and make the leaps desired.
You can write a new chapter in your life and recreate anew.
Be as You Truly Are ~ You Haven’t Lost Your Passion or Path, You Simply Can Choose to Dance & Sing Again
A little feather mandala with 11 that I found yesterday, encircling an orange calcite heart for New Moon in Aries … Stirring the fire within to unleash your most transformative expression that wisely harnesses your creative and courageous spark of truest nature and embodiment.
One might ask themselves:
How can I create more balance and harmony in the giving and receiving of energy?
What values call to my heart most?
Do I experience frustration due to unrecognized opportunity, limiting perspective, and lack of self love?
There is potential for more integrity of self-expression and recognizing your natural beingness as you truly ARE.
I recently had a dream about a small magickal creature I was given from the Netherlands and it rested in my hands and then gave me a bite on my fingers, although without the intent to hurt and it didn’t, nor did it bleed, but I knew it was getting my attention. There isn’t a creature that looks just like what I saw in the dream, but the word pygmy and vole came to mind…I did discover there are pygmy shrews and field voles in the Netherlands.
I’ve made several connections to the entirety of the dream for myself and the connections of awareness it drew me too, but also while later looking into this animal’s symbolism, I was struck by something I read about vole that coincides with this New Moon energy and felt to share it too for the collective.
It shared how vole teaches about awareness to what is going on all around you with both sensitivity and alertness, but also simply teaches about expressing your nature, naturally, which comes through feeling and listening to your intuition with loving trust.
They also carry an energy and growth potential in embracing the learning around nature’s expression of both destruction and rebirth. So in essence, asking you to look at what needs to change or that you feel could use shifting in your life and then by listening you’ll be shown how to harness those changes with vole’s help.
And synchronous to my dream, voles teach us how to “sink our teeth into” the things we’re wanting to create…in essence showing us how to harness the visions and ideas with creative tenacity so we can make them productive and actualized.
There is so much angst and frustration out there around worrying about not being on path, searching, yearning, seeking out guidance to what exactly you “should” be doing, holding onto the belief there must be some idealized version and bigness around an end result of what this looks like, and coming up short on these expectations placed on it all by self and the messaging out there.
Interestingly, at the same time you worry and search, you are also avoiding the feelings inside, your intuitive messaging, those subtle or sometimes loud nudges, are self-sabotaging with conditioned beliefs, ingenious inner dialogue, and avoidance tactics, or even creating every obstacle and energy drain on yourself, otherwise.
Yet, what it boils down to is a need to surrender to what IS right now.
Who you ARE this moment.
The intelligence within you ALREADY.
You miss the opportunities every moment to just be YOU and bring through the creative vitality that stirs within your spirit and heart.
There isn’t a perfect outcome you need to strive for.
You simply need to choose to walk in the frequency of your vibration right now and how ever that leads you, IS exactly what you are here to do.
Don’t wait for some perfect answer or precise conclusion to your quest.
Give up the quest and realize the truth of your journey that is a step-by-step unfolding of you being you.
The more in touch we are with our feelings and the voice within, the more we know exactly what it is in each moment that would be the best possible use of our breath here on Earth. And that may be much more simple than you were led to believe, although without devising it, could very well turn into something much bigger.
But don’t judge what is and isn’t extraordinary or how if you only do “this,” you aren’t doing enough.
If you truly are embracing your spirit’s song and commit to expressing its voice in each experience you have, then you will come to experience the peace and harmony you seek…the next notes will become clear…and naturally you’ll have a symphony at work with your instrument in sync with the the collective orchestra.
I find that people create inertia because they dwell too much on the ideas rather than the feelings moving through. I’ve been there too.
You have and always will be messaged by your inner voice to where would most be in resonance and alignment to your vibrational expression.
We simply don’t listen and listening, nurturing, and supporting that voice is more key than how things need to look, as when we cultivate that, we naturally will be doing and being our best possible version in each ever-expanding and evolving moment.
So it won’t be about what big thing you “should” be doing, but truly about embodying your own bigness through being.
The less we listen and support that innate knowingness, is where we come up against the challenges.
And that inner voice will tell us when making changes would be much more supportive to our life and everyone’s lives we touch.
I recently went through this in a big way, myself, before we went on our Magick Bus journey and made the changes that were key to my spirit’s expression in order to thrive here or elsewhere.
If you feel a loss of passion, it’s not because you don’t have any or you need to discover your passion, you simply need to tune back into you, as somewhere along the line a door was closed on your feelings and the connection and love didn’t receive the nurturing that other things instead did. The nature of you doesn’t go away, it simply awaits remembering and dancing with once again.
And yes, that does become important, if in fact you desire to live from that purity of your natural vitality more and find yourself frustrated and tormented all the time.
Loss of passion may also speak to your completing a cycle on your spiral of life and rather than continuing to repeat patterns that keep you stuck, or drag you backwards like a whirpool, you simply need to get on the next spiral and create anew, integrating ingredients to bring forth continual alchemy of being.
Take an honest, deep, intimately vulnerable look within yourself and ask the really important questions. You’ll discover what the true “block” is to your having the very thing you say you desire…or in essence, to being more of who you really ARE.
It’s a very interesting journey we experience in our lives.
No right or wrong, nor timeframe. However, if you are feeling miserable or frustrated, that may very well be indication to try another way.
When we more actively engage ourselves as the truly empowered partners in co-creation, we can discover how to work with the alchemy latent within each of us to create.
How things evolve will be a beautiful spiraling of your nature unfolding her or his exquisite petals.
If you are feeling a squeeze on yourself, uninvigorated, and like you are suffocating, or ready to burst, then your spirit is messaging you to go bigger, expand, express, bring forth and wisely channel what is burning within.
If uninspired, this is your chance to choose to recreate yourself and do something that moves you, feels invigorating, and keeps your imagination and creativity engaged. Start inviting and bringing forth new elements to your life that stimulate newness and fresh perspectives to keep you thriving and challenge you to go beyond yesterday’s ideas and version of yourself.
That doesn’t always mean it has to be a huge outward change, but may simply be about inviting more of the little tweaks and perspectives to your current experience that inspire a natural unfolding from there.
You have the ability to choose completely new right now and to create something different, something more, but ultimately more you this moment.
This doesn’t need to be a do or die situation, but about really feeding your spirit’s song without any constraints on should’s and should not’s, nor about following patterns…but carving a new way that is more resonant aligned to you in the flow of energy streaming through that is simultaneously abound.
I feel that as long as we continue to touch in with ourselves, invite, and put into action ways to challenge ourselves to expand our capacity for creative expression and move into new areas of personal passion moving through us with expanding courage, we will find our lives enriched and continuing to unfold in amazing ways.
You are an intuitive being whether you think you are, or not.
When you reteach yourself to trust what you’re feeling and relax into a more peaceful state of presence, then you can be more mindful, discerning, and understanding of how to navigate the energy streams in healthy partnership of heart and mind where unnecessary risks, but invigorating challenge will meet in your always being exactly where your spirit desires.
Peace and harmony to you on this beautiful Spring Equinox portal. Where ever you are I hope you can take some time to tune in and anchor in your own “change of seasons” with some reflection on where you are on your journey, envisioning what you would like to be creating as your path continues to unfold, and honing in on what actions you can take to put it all into renewing motion. I was just thinking about the last few years and where I was on Spring Equinox…last year in the Grand Canyon on our Magick Bus adventure, the year before on the island of Amantani in Lake Titicaca for our sacred journey to Peru I organized, and the year before hosting the Reiki Renewal Retreat in Laguna Beach, CA. And now, sitting above Lake Tahoe in our treehouse in Nevada engaging in what I feel to be my life’s work come full circle.
My how things shift and yesterday and this morning I’ve been reflecting on where I’m headed and how much has changed to get to this more anchored place I feel to be in with solid direction and fullest embodiment of what’s in my heart.
This photo is from last year’s RV adventure in the Magick Bus while exploring my favorite Glacier National Park. I love the hint of double rainbow that shows up in the clouds above and the hawk flying in the blue area of the sky that wanted to be captured in this image too.
This photo not only embodies the essence of today to me, but anchors in the visions I’m supporting from the guidance channeling through and my own intentions and dream visions unfolding.
I hope it ignites a spark of inspiration for you too.
Renewal is yours if you are willing to lovingly close doors, take action, and open to receiving new portals of experience because you’re worth it as an embodiment of All That Is.
Everything to me right now feels like we’re planting our own spirit gardens and it’s incredibly liberating and enjoyable to choose the seeds we want to see blossom and learn what each needs to be cultivated and nurtured into fruition. All the while knowing you are Spirit in motion of being and everything you do is a merging of this.
And if you don’t yet know what you want to be growing in your garden, this is a wonderful and revealing time to receive revelations and inspiration that uncover the seeds of your spirit’s truest calling.
Words that come to mind are surrender, balance, harmony, integrity, trust, and renewal.
I shared this message, below, before around the same time of year, but it still feels to be the theme and so I’ll reshare it again.
Things you might ask yourself in line with the words above are:
In what areas of your life can you surrender and stop trying to do and control it all? What can you let go of to make room for allowing and receiving?
How can you maintain your equilibrium, and remain balanced? Are you fortifying your source of energy and learning to shield yourself from all externals that knock you off your axis?
Are you being consistent with the integrity of your life and making it a priority as to your vibrational resonance you embody? Where might you release things, people, and situations that aren’t reflecting the same integrity? Are you ready to invite higher discernment into your life with the choices you make? Are you living authentically in expression of your inner truth and essence or is false ego running the show creating illusions and lack of self love and self worth?
Do you operate solely in your head and forego the knowing in your heart? Are you willing to cultivate more trust in that gut feeling, or are you more happy allowing all of the “stuff” out there to determine the course of your life? Is fear your friend or enemy?
Can you commit to letting go of the old with love, gratitude, and compassionate understanding for the way things have been, but no longer need to be? What are you willing to release in order to have the new experiences you want? Do you talk about things rather than do them?
It all boils down to how seriously you are willing to make different choices and back them up with action. The first step is the most challenging, but it all gets easier from there.
We are just like energetic coils, spiraling through the cycles of our life and able to “spring” back and regenerate ourselves.
You are more resilient than you think.
What you believe and the actions you take in support of those beliefs are shaping your experience and either bucking the natural harmony of your coiled embodiment or flowing gracefully with that spiraling essence.
Asking questions right now feels even more potent than simply sharing inspirational words, as it engages you to partner more in the empowerment you seek.
If you are willing to honestly answer the hard questions, then the next question is, are you willing to take the actions in support of helping you toward different answers you perhaps may seek to experience?
Only you can do the work.
Only you can make the changes….embrace new perspectives…and realize more expansive potentials.
I can’t do it for you and neither can anyone else.
We can only help guide you back to you, if, and only if you are ready to go there.
There is no wrong. There’s only choice and free will.
There is no timing to meet except your own soul’s gauge.
To reclaim your sovereignty you’ll need to reclaim it.
How that looks is up to you.
If you feel you’ve lost your way, yourself, your innocence….you can always choose a different spiral of experience. True, it may take time and it may not be easy, but neither of those are reason to turn a back on yourself for.
Nature has many mirrors for us of challenge and resiliency, of symbolic death and renewal…and yet it goes on as that is the nature of its reality that knows what it is here to do and doesn’t judge it against anything else.
The nature of your reality is that you, too, are powerful beyond measure, are beautiful in all of your seasons of inevitable change, and no matter the roads your journey takes you, you are and always have been an embodied miracle.
The truth of it is, there is no magick.
Magick is simply when you are surrendering to your essence.
Magick is when you express your creative piece of life force energy moving through you.
Magick is simply you being you.
And when you are embodying your essence expression and trusting in the knowing of that beyond all else, everything you touch is a process of alchemy creating alignment, abundance, and grace.
That’s the “magick”. It’s a natural process.
When you aren’t being natural you don’t experience this.
It’s that simple.
From being in the core essence of you, you are then able to branch out into new things from a stable, solid, and sustainable energy source that isn’t being depleted by having to manage frustration, inner torment, or having to support inauthentic, contrived, conditioned, or illusory ideas of you, what you think you should be doing, or how you think you need to look to others.
For myself, I have come to a place of great clarity through letting go of personal stagnation I was feeling, although to the outside world would not have been detected.
This has resulted in cultivating and nurturing those key themes I mentioned at start: surrender, balance, harmony, integrity, trust, and renewal.
It’s come with letting go of EVERYTHING that doesn’t mirror the integrity I’ve become ultra sensitively discerning about.
It’s like a complete update and upgrade, which ultimately is a total renewal.
So, not only is it Spring time for the next quarter cycle of the year, but this whole year feels to be a year of allowing new blossoms to open from the work you’ve done all of these years, while also planting tons of new seeds and working them fully.
A time you can activate more trust and surrender to “knowing” while branching out and following new aspirations or creative directions.
A good time for cleaning out your spiritual, emotional, mental, and physical house literally and symbolically.
A time you can live more from a place of saying “yes” to your inner truth.
And tend to your own inner garden of blossoms, while planting like crazy.
Time to branch out into new areas that aren’t tied to anything but essence embodiment.
This photo is from yesterday.
I was in gratitude of coming full circle to “everything” that ignited here once in Lake Tahoe, NV and was seeded in my soul, now to actually surface through the sands of time within my essence. This unfolding after having followed the threads that tied up all loose ends, integrating, weaving, and retrieving, which helped me understand more fully their reason for being there and how Spirit truly has been designing it in perfect merging of love and mission as One.
All that I/we need to know is in my/our heart(s).
And then it comes down to trusting that.
The answers have always been there. You’ve always received the inner nudges. You/we just hadn’t been taught to listen to, recognize, and support them. Now you can by choosing to do so and it will get stronger the more you do.
Wishing you an invigorating, inspiring, and revealing Spring Equinox.
Since I’ll likely not be posting a blog on my birthday or this weekend, I thought I’d share one today and to get the energetic ball rolling with the upcoming New Moon Solar Eclipse, which just so happens to fall on my birthday – February 26th. While I don’t have any grand plans this year, I’m feeling grateful for this grand gift itself of Cosmic alignment and there may also be a snow gift from Nature on my birthday and through the weekend, which all feels like a symbolic celebration in very literal ways for this Winter baby, Cosmic Pisces, Snow Faery. However this birthday unfolds, I will make it an intentional day, as I’ve learned it isn’t so much what we do, as the energy we carry forth through what we are doing.
But what a perfect timing to clear away the old, keep digging deep, making way for new beginnings, sharing your greatest hopes, and dreaming bigger than ever as a way of celebrating and honoring your journey.
I know for myself, I’ll be doing some more Reiki Healing Attunements on the 26th for my greatest intentions and biggest dreams I have yet to put forward, no matter how others may think I should be more realistic. That’s not exactly something a Pisces understands, although the Capricorn parts of me appreciate the caution. Yet for me that is interpreted more as making sure I’m aligning all parts of me with the essence of my dreams, making sure I can commit myself fully, understanding the responsibility that goes along with it, and the groundwork that will be needed with persevering and unwavering courage and strength.
I’ve been doing an amped up amount of Reiki Healing Attunements over the last few weeks – again a reminder if you have this tool in your toolbox – and have seen all of them except the long term ones come to fruition, although more clarity and steps have revealed themselves with the farther future ones too.
I have also been more willing in the last year or so to declare what I really want, no matter how big they seem or that they are truly just MY joys and desires, as I know that I matter too and I know that because I always intend everything for the highest good of all concerned, it is never selfish to ask from your heart what you want, as this inevitably will trickle to everyone we touch directly or indirectly. Plus, it is is powerful to voice your desires, without attachment or expectation, but simply as personal expression of what you feel and/or want.
I felt a big shift take place on the 22nd that asked me to anchor even more with the future potentials I’m creating and opened up greater ways to commit if in fact I want to manifest them. This provided different creative ideas and strategies I hadn’t thought of, to support my wanting to do more right now that I was feeling an unknown around how I could actually be investing into things even though it’s still off in the distance.
So, I will utilize the 26th, my renewal and rebirthing, along with the New Moon Eclipse to provide greater vision and roots with everything I definitively decide to anchor into and to “up the game” so to speak. Perhaps you might join in and do the same for your own intentions?
I do know that I have been having an increased momentum surge through me that needs precision and fine focus, which will continue to see me more immersed in creating, exercising more boundaries, and balancing my time and resources.
I love how this birthday is also my 44th, loving that double digit, master number and angelic presence surrounding the energy of this year and that I’ll be beginning a #2 personal year which speaks to peace, timing, nurturing, partnership, patience, intuition, trust, cooperation, and things not appearing on the outside while much is taking place in the internal world and foundationally.
I love what Numerologist, Christine DeLorey, shares about a 2 Year Cycle:
“The 2 year cycle is an inspiring twelve month journey in which you will find exciting connections between your past, your present, and your future. Eventually, you will be able to use this information to set an ambitious goal in motion. But make no mistake, what happens this year is going to take perseverance and, above all, great patience.
First, you must slow down and stop pushing to get results. What you want is going to take longer to achieve than expected, so tone down your high expectations of yourself and others, and pay patient and meticulous attention to the details of all situations.
You must learn to move more slowly, attentively, and with mutual interests in mind. If not, you will miss too many clues and connections to make any kind of measurable progress. Widen your lens. See a bigger picture. Discover your connection to everything that is influencing your life.
Of course, it can be difficult to slow down when you are so sure that you need to be moving faster, but until you do slow down – enough to see the finer and often overlooked details of your reality – you will have no idea of where you have come from, who you are becoming, where you are, what you’re doing, why you’re doing it, where you’re going, or the roles that others are playing in your life. Clarity is one of the principle gifts of the 2 year, just as long as you slow yourself down enough to be able to claim it.”
A perfect message for what had come to me this week and how I’ll be funneling my energies like my Tortoise, Gaia, with deliberate clarity and steadfast patience, taking into account the bigger picture and all seens and potential unforeseens, which my rabbit companion souls teach me with heightened senses, vision, and agility for transforming quickly when needed.
I love that I get to share my special day with a collective special day on this portal of possibility and potential, which seems appropriate for a collective Pisces soul.
This is a magickal and joyous energy we’ll be experiencing with opportunity to turn dreams into reality with enduring results and lasting happiness, by humbly honing in on our gifts for the greatest good of all concerned. Definitely a Solar Eclipse for making wishes come true. So we can all really go deep and ask what that wish is, or wishes are. Don’t be afraid to state it out loud, nor afraid to do what it takes to co-create it.
The Sun and Moon are also conjunct Neptune at this time which increases sensitivity, intuition, visions/premonitions, and empathy…something I’m hearing from many who are usually strong pillars of guidance and anchors for others. So be aware of nervous tension and anxiety, which can cause reactions versus responses. Keep personal integrity and responsibility at the forefront. And rise above the collective field so you can continue to do your thing and guide the way for others by standing in your personal frequency.
Rather than chaos pulling you in, let your inner peace draw others out of the chaos.
This is where boundaries come into play and conscious self-awareness to filter out what is and isn’t you.
Yet this doorway also provides very harmonious energy that can be harnessed for great benefit, not to mention access to deepest dreams, creativity, and imagination for manifesting.
There isn’t wrong choice, there’s simply choice. This can be a good time to get clarity on decisions and the momentum behind them to put them into action.
And this brings me around to responsibility. I shared this on social media today, but it feels important to add here, as more than ever this feels at the forefront of choices we make day in and day out.
Responsibility is key always and to be conscious of it consistently is necessary. Your actions, thoughts, words, shares, feelings, all have an impact on the collective in seen and unseen ways. And if you are in a role where others look to you as a guide in some way or if you are a leader or visionary as your path, responsibility is a moment-to-moment energy to temper all that you do with and choose from the place of greatest good to others while empowering/not enabling, and keeping the integrity of your message as consistent and pure as you can.
While everyone has choice, that also includes the choice to live responsibly and to hold your own frequency, regardless of other’s choices.
I’ve come to see over time how important one’s commitment to responsibility affects so much in your life. Not only will it support the things you desire creating, but also trickles out to how others will relate to you and want to cocreate with you. Think about the choices and commitments you make and the value impact they have in more ways than you may realize.
This is at the forefront of my intentions, dreams, and the energy I’m putting out there, tempered with a deeper kind of love I’ve come to experience that nudges limitations into greater expansiveness.
I can’t begin to share all that has transformed in my life over the course of it, let alone in the last year or two, but this rapid change seems to take place on a weekly and daily basis now, as accelerated experiences are embraced.
I know that so many of you can relate. It’s like a whole other person/or persons and worlds, right?!
And while none of the details really matter, I would like to take a moment to publicly express gratitude from the heart and core of my soul for everything I have chosen to go through at this collective time we share on Earth – the good, bad, ugly, thick and thin…or whatever you want to call it – simply experiences.
I didn’t actually think I would make it to this year and yet here I am because I chose another way to fulfill that which was unfulfilled. I chose a symbolic death instead of a literal one. I chose to take a leap, to have faith, to reinvent myself, to let go of everything, and to continue forward despite my soul family moving on, despite the invitations before me, and despite having no guarantee for what I was about to choose except knowing it is my heart’s joy.
And while I, or any of us, don’t know how much longer we may have in this embodiment, I do know that I can say I am truly living in every sense of the word without limitations and without regrets. I feel finally that I am merging my Cosmic and Earthly self.
My only regret would have been not to do what I’m doing now, which is immersing into the greater potentials and possibilities beyond what would have been soul expected of me due to the cycles and repetitive patterns I was repeating, fulfilling, and ultimately bringing around in a healthy way to close off karmically.
It would also have been a regret not to immerse into the simple and most valuable enjoyments and enrichments in the fullest possible way, not to immerse into the pure experience without any limiting ideas or other’s beliefs ruling my enjoyment of sensual living, not to immerse into more amplification of my personal frequency and vibration without hiding behind myself or holding my energy back…not to immerse into the pure harmony of it all, period.
While some may say I’ve been doing this, I would say not to the degree and greater consistency I am now, and this does and has made a huge difference.
So while I may never go back to things I once used to do, offer as service, or engage in as a human, I will be living with deeper conviction and clarity of my thread in the collective tapestry moment to moment.
44 feels like a year of building, business, being, and balance (4 B’s!) all centered around my passions and knowing the strength and support is there if I remain focused and dedicated.
And so I embrace this new doorway on the 26th, this portal of potential, with open heart and committed soul and welcome the fresh experiences that await my alignment.
Wishing everyone a creatively potent New Moon Solar Eclipse. I hope you will stretch yourself farther than you ever have into the seed of potential you have within you as your origin of being.
(FUN NOTE: When I hit publish the clock said 4:44 – gotta love it!)
I hope this morning, this new day of a new fresh year 1-1-1 (as 2017 equals 10/1), is being met with an air of unlimited possibilities being awakened and stirred from within you that you will carry forth everyday following. I know I felt energized and revved to go as I woke up to another stunning, gift-of-a-day here in Tahoe. Yesterday and last evening were incredibly anchoring for me, as I sat in gratitude and review of this year and my life, in general, and could clearly feel the probable future I’m creating.
There were a few stand-out things I reflected upon experiencing this past year, which include, but are not limited to, deep embodied peace and fluidity, expanded heart and connection, greater alignment, and laser beam clarity and focus of my heart’s path like never before.
We spent a very intentful and quiet New Years Eve together, which likely is my favorite one yet and was filled with tons of gratitude for everything in our lives and where we find ourselves in the here and now.
For us this involved time in Nature and lots of self-nurturing, as well as solitude to fully be in reflection and stillness in our magickal sanctuary home and with the presence of all of my magickal best friends.
We all know exactly what is perfectly supportive and enriching to our needs and desires to anchor and for us, this was it…..a day kicked off with a pinky fresh smoothie creation reflecting an open vulnerable heart, innocence of renewal, and passionate wonder (blend of dragonfruit, mango, banana, orange, ginger, fresh coconut, ground flax, sliced almonds, cinnamon, and alkaline water topped with a sprig of chocolate mint), then spent out enjoying a deliciously fun vegan lunch (Blissed Out Nachos with cashew cheeze and Devilish sandwich with their signature no-egg salad), followed by a hike at beautiful Fallen Leaf Lake where I brought to life the snow bunny I shared with you yesterday (which was so meaningful for me to do on this day), and then an evening of candle lights, foot massages, baking vegan pizza from scratch and cookie dough brownies (we topped with salted caramel vegan ice cream and raspberries), jacuzzi time under the stars while stating our gratitude and intentions until the Moon moved behind the mountains, dinner, movie, and in bed by 10:15 pm – all done in my new white rabbits and snowballs flannel midnight navy jammies.
I knew I would wake up to ring in the New Year and I did, at exactly 11:59 pm I magickally awoke and watched the clock turn midnight, the stars twinkle outside, placed my hands upon my crystals and crystal skull that sit next to my side of the bed, and shared a New Year’s kiss before resting my head back on my pillow and snuggled my enchanted stuffed rabbit until I fell back into dream land.
As mentioned, we’d received news yesterday that really concluded the year so perfectly and filled us with excitement and full hearts. That was also a huge gift to start 2017 off.
I know so many of you have inspired hearts of delicious anticipation for what you feel opening for you in this year of great potential and I’m excited to feel how all of that will be anchoring in as a collective.
It’s not the specifics that matter, but the essence you hold in heart and intend with all of you.
So looking forward to all of the stories and shares that others will be flowing in over this year. I sense it to be a hugely fertile energetic field of experience, in relative ways for each, for sure!
Let’s make every day a fresh new start and not just the first day of the year. Keep those intents and goals fueled and make commitments that are meaningful to your life…ones you know you just can’t live without any longer. Then take it moment to moment with steps that are both ones you can see yourself able to do, but also challenge a little more of yourself each day.
In yesterday’s last Reiki workshop I’ll be hosting from this lovely space I’ve called home now for nearly four years, the group of souls that joined and the energy we shared together really provided a beautiful, fun, invigorating, and perfect closure to all that has been cultivated, integrated, shared, received, and grown while living here.
It was definitely a bitter sweet day, which much of the rest of the next almost two months will be before heading out of here into a new adventure of RV living beginning October 15th.
This home has provided a wonderful sanctuary space, which we’ve had privilege to call home.
And I’m happy to share, however, that the spirit of Reiki will live on in this amazing sanctuary home that has provided us peace and support for all the things in our lives we’ve been creating, as the wonderful family/friends renting from us are both trained Reiki Master Teachers that I’ve had honor to teach and will continue teaching from this space. Yay!
And not only that, but this lovely couple and their two sweet and tuned in children will continue with the care-taking of the garden, Garden Tower, and all of the lovely fruit trees, plants, and flowers we’ve nurtured here. Plus will add some more of their own. I hear a pomegranate tree is in the works. 😉
This home has been the sacred container for so much in my life in terms of expansion, deepening, and opening to my most truest nature ever. I can only imagine what will evolve from the next mobile abode.
So while yesterday was a wonderful affirmation for the souls who all came and chose to say “yes” to living a more gracious, magickal, and empowered life, it was also a blessed affirmation of the “yes” I’ve chosen to say to another experience of life on a whole new level myself.
After everyone left yesterday I took a refreshing shower to “cool off” from all the energy and spent the evening until dinner enjoying the backyard and garden.
Yesterday’s incredible group of people really activated a lot. Our internal furnaces were on fire and everyone left feeling so pumped up.
It’s all so exciting, wonderful, special, connective and yes…magickal to be a part of that journey with people and observe the life-enhancing transformations that take place. I love seeing people’s eyes light up and faces beaming from the light within.
How can you not fall in love with each soul and life itself when you get to see and experience that miracle?
Last evening and this morning I wandered the front and back yard to check on all the new growth taking place.
Alongside the amazing sunflowers out front that have blossomed, I have found so much more that is beginning to really take off, and in some cases also about ready to be enjoyed, including more lovely pickling cucumber blossoms.
It’s like all of the plants are seeing me off with a bang and not only are mirroring the big changes and new beginnings, but also that all things are possible with patient, loving care, nurturing, and unwavering belief.
My Garden Tower is looking amazing and will provide several harvests before I leave. The loquat and persimmon tree are abundant so I’ll see them get close to readiness. The plumeria are all flowering and all of the seeds I planted out front have grown into healthy little plants that will continue on. I just planted some more sunflower seeds to see if they sprout before heading out. (hehe that rhymes!) 😉
And another mystery guest made an appearance.
Well hello surprise hidden tangerine #3! I discovered a third totally out-of-season tangerine on our tangerine tree that is also going to be ready to enjoy before moving out. They aren’t supposed to come until February, but like me they are going against the grain and proving anything is possible.
New beginnings are blossoming everywhere. I love seeing the fruits of my labor growing.
And so much is already in gear for when I return from my three month sabbatical, as December is already quite filled with a continuation of work, but also new focuses.
I’m preferring to stay focused on the now however, as things can and will constantly evolve if the flow is followed rather than trying to create against that, or try to jump ahead too fast.
So, one-by-one I’m focused right now on finalizing the rest of my work as I’ve done with my last workshops, finishing out with still a hand full of designs and last coaching sessions. And then focusing on the fun of cleaning out fully (I so love that part), selling and letting go of everything but the essentials, and handling all the details of the move.
Then it’s Tania time!!
I can’t wait to work on my own creative projects, especially my writing, as a story has been channeling through and sitting in my crown’s storage bank for when I can fully immerse in the realm I’ll need to go.
Having the uninterrupted, full focus will provide me the ability to create a lot and write the full book. I’m not sure how many other projects I’ll get through during my time “off” – which simply means not working for others, and only working for myself – as I have a lot of things knocking at my heart’s door. However, without anything else pulling at my energy, I can accomplish quite a bit.
But I have promised and assured myself that I’ll continue with their focus as long as needed. And I’m also being shown glimpses of where I’m to focus thereafter.
It’s been a little bit odd living in two realities at once…one that is ending and one that is beginning, but it’s also been exciting and helpful in fueling it all and finally has become more natural and easy than it was at first.
Peace with the old has fueled invigoration of the new and invigoration of the new has created peace with the old….simultaneously.
While the mind wants to rush through it all and speed up the process, which only creates frustration, it’s been more helpful to allow both realities their fullness as they are one and the same, connected, and necessary to the natural cycles.
Much like nature and the plants and animals innately know….it’s a continuous and fully connected experience that only takes place by journeying the full cycle with embrace and trust in the eternal fluidity of consciousness and new creative sparks of life that always are within every experience.
My dear friend Mari shared this poem by John O’Donohue with me yesterday, in loving support and celebration of the “new beginning” that I am embarking upon.
It was inspired by my last newsletter message announcement and it couldn’t be more perfect.
I thought you might also enjoy and find it inspiring and resonant with what you might be embracing in your own life currently.
The images I’m sharing along with it are from a wedding attended yesterday of very dear friends – it was an amazing all-vegan wedding too I might add.
The sunset sky was on fire and wildly passionate with creative sparks of new beginnings. Perfect August 1st celebration of Lammas after the Aquarius Full Blue Moon.
For a New Beginning
by John O’Donohue
In out-of-the-way places of the heart,
Where your thoughts never think to wander,
This beginning has been quietly forming,
Waiting until you were ready to emerge.
For a long time it has watched your desire,
Feeling the emptiness growing inside you,
Noticing how you willed yourself on,
Still unable to leave what you had outgrown.
It watched you play with the seduction of safety
And the gray promises that sameness whispered,
Heard the waves of turmoil rise and relent,
Wondered would you always live like this.
Then the delight, when your courage kindled,
And out you stepped onto new ground,
Your eyes young again with energy and dream,
A path of plenitude opening before you.
Though your destination is not yet clear
You can trust the promise of this opening;
Unfurl yourself into the grace of beginning
That is at one with your life’s desire.
Awaken your spirit to adventure;
Hold nothing back, learn to find ease in risk;
Soon you will be home in a new rhythm,
For your soul senses the world that awaits you.
I don’t know about you, but I’m feeling an extra burst of enchantment emerging in my life, likely in part because I’ve been heavily immersed in Faery energy of late (moreso than usual, if you can believe that 😉 ). But also because I’ve been in process the last few months of doing what these two astrologers share in their energy take on tomorrow’s upcoming Cancer New Moon.
I like how astrologer, Cathy Pagano puts it:
“Since the New Moon is in a challenging aspect to Uranus in Aries, there is an opportunity to allow a new sense of yourself out…If you’re lost on a small island, you have to become the hero/ine of your own life. Let your archetypal identity come through and challenge yourself to make those changes that will give you the life you want and deserve…”
And astrologer, Robert Wilkinson adds:
“Just stay focused on how to demonstrate what your heart’s really into, go for whatever refreshes you and get the exercise you need, see things from multiple points of view, and be willing to transcend your old self, and graduate into a new realm of Being.”
For me, that “new realm of Being” is actually a deepening more into my truest soul essence like never before. There are always greater depths and expansion we can go to…after-all, everything is infinite.
My soul focus has been on going from joy to ecstacy…I personally resonate with that word, rather than bliss.
Since I’ve returned Sunday from British Columbia and the magickal time spent there at Epona Rise with the horses and Faeries, it’s like I’ve received access to another part of me that hasn’t been yet the time to bring forth, but is now taking form – permission granted, loose ends getting all tied up, slate clean, timing aligned, all systems go. Yay!
So, if you’re feeling like it’s time for a new lease on life, this is a great opportunity with the New Moon’s influence, to harness another level of self-love to take you there.
This Moon is a cleansing moon, full of feminine nurturing that can really support you into loving more of you, your feelings, and bring self-sabotaging illusions to light.
Stay on top of heightened emotions, fears, attachments, while gently and lovingly give yourself permission to gracefully let it all go.
Wishing you a beautiful New Moon beginning, as you allow yourself to be more fully you.
All of this pointing to a new, fresh beginning…or rebirth – something we can always embrace in every moment we are willing to embody the renewing truth of this potential offered to us.
I bring this up, as yesterday was a big energetic shift while I parted ways with two dear and powerful friends – my giant Crystal beings. They have been with me since 2008 and yesterday they were picked up to prepare for their journey to their new mom and Crystal Guardian to begin a new journey along the path of service they will all be sharing.
Our work had come to closure and this also represented a huge release of things in my life, including the full embodiment and realization that there is nothing I need outside of myself to be empowered. While things assist us and are wonderful to cherish and honor as the natural and invaluable beauty they are and what they have to share, ultimately, we are all that we need.
This was huge because the two of these Crystals – a giant Lemurian Seed Crystal and a giant Amethyst Geode Rabbit (both 150 lbs+ each) – came into my life at a major transformational time period in my life, supporting me all these years since with the work I was facilitating personally and collectively.
I got both from a dear Crystal Keeper based in Northern California and I giggle remembering how Laura, myself and Seann somehow transported and got the Lemurian in my SUV – 3 wee Fae ones.
It was a time period when I had just moved out on my own, was in process of a divorce, had just seen my beloved rabbit, Nestor, pass into her eternal essence, was going through major spiritual recalibration and expansion, and was beginning the foundational work that has brought me to where I am now.
I used to live in literally a Crystal Cave when I first created my new little sacred sanctuary above and looking out on to Lake Tahoe – my little home filled with Crystals and love, which I shared with my tortoise, Gaia, and my new bunny love, Joy.
These crystals have held the space of all that I’d been creating, were part of the grid here, and my little ones also adored them.
So seeing them off yesterday was nostalgic, as I honored each, energetically prepared them for the journey, gave them a bath of Crystal Elixir spray and a deep, soul and heart kiss.
It was also a very empowering moment, continuing in the vein of what I’ve been deepening into recently. I told them that we will continue our connection and work, but no longer would we need to do that within physical proximity. Our connection is timeless and boundless.
It feels different here at home without them, but it is not an emptiness. It is an expansion and lightness. The energetic footprint they have made in my life remains, but now we are free.
I am so pleased they are going to such a loving home where they will be honored by someone I hold dear. I look forward to seeing them again in May when I co-teach a Crystal workshop with their new mom and Guardian in Florida, as they will be holding the space for this.
It is only the beginning.