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Harnessing that Cancer/Capricorn Balance – New Moon & New Phase in Motion


With the Solar Eclipse New Moon in Cancer and yesterday’s magickal Friday the 13th, I was feeling another influx and opening of opportunities present itself. Cancer really has us paying attention to our emotional and psychic sensitivities around matters of home, heart, nurturing, creativity, compassion, and feminine energy, but also learning to keep that all in Capricorn check so that we aren’t giving our energy and power away, we learn highest use of boundaries, true responsibility, and courage and fortitude to support healthy vulnerability that can be evolutionary for self and humanity and help you to take action that leads to manifestation of dreams, goals, and intents for the highest good. We’re definitely working on creating new foundations in all areas of life and the New Moon encourages birthing new things over and over with each cycle. There’s always a window of opportunity and it’s never too late to make changes – it starts with choice. New Moons are great for planting seeds of the new, and when you commit to something during the window of its energy you really help to fuel and solidify maximization of that energy.

I found myself the last couple of days really multi-tasking and honing in on more closures, new beginnings, and clearing my plate as well. I really felt that multi-dimensionality kick in, as my mind was expanding and at times exploding with all the levels of complexity it was journeying into simultaneously. I definitely felt like I was getting a brain workout in a good way, as I traveled different paths of thinking, focusing, perspectives, and potentials.

I also was working with that courage and vulnerability I spoke of, as my book journey ignited phase 3.

This all synchronously finalized yesterday on Friday the 13th and in the New Moon energy, or rather, it all ignited, as I officially committed and signed the client agreement with my editor. Things went into motion last weekend, but she was away on vacation and everything aligned us when she got back for it to fall as such.

So, this is an evolutionary igniting of taking my new step of responsibility and committed action with my heart project, as well as fully investing myself to see things through – definitely that balance of Cancer and Capricorn energies in acknowledging both my vulnerabilities and strengths, and supporting a balanced and well-thought out plan of responsible and serious action.

I also spent a good portion of the last couple of days doing bookkeeping on Quicken – this is all VERY new for me this year – for Dave and I and our shared work together, which was a big project and hones in on my Cancer/Capricorn balances with its focus. Another expansive venture for me that exercises my brain and capitalizes on my strengths, while also developing my weaknesses. Whew!

And synchronously, the last of my two massage tables was sold yesterday to the perfect person. They both went to perfect people, actually. This closing out my Reiki teaching journey and the in-person sessions I once used to offer.

Synchronously, also, Dave sold his guitar on the same day. He had two, and decided only to keep one.

We both had really nice people come to get them who were both so aligned and we both ended up talking to for a while. Dave’s went to a wonderful family of a man and his really sweet 14 year old and wife, and mine to a really lovely soul I would never have met if not for this. She and I had a lot in common. We both had tattoos all over us, she does massage and other body work, we both are writing a book, she also just got an editor (and actually had offered to refer them to me, but I’d just signed with mine), and we said we should hang out some time. Gotta love alignment!

So phase 3 is in full swing and while it is going through its extensive editing review, I’ll be focusing on other aspects to prepare for more phases to come.

In the meantime I will also enjoy a little different creative focus with the Magick Crystal Wand commission and my own staff this week. I have 2 more Mystery Magick Crystal Wand commissions remaining. I only plan to work on these over the next couple of weeks, so please try to get in any orders, as after that I’ll not have a window anymore.

Some people who haven’t seen my wands were curious, so here is a link to the first batch I channeled. I went on to create several more custom ones after that, but they are in individual posts and were much more complex, larger pieces that are not part of this offering. You can search my blog if interested in seeing more. This link is just for an idea, but each is unique to the wood and the inspiration I feel come through when working with it:

Magick Crystal Wands

And here is the link where you can order one of the two remaining wands-to-be:

Crystals, Mystery Wands, Reiki Healing Attunement Zappers & Workshops

In this same post I was offering other things, but the only remaining is the last two wand commissions I mentioned.

All of the crystals have found new lovely guardians – thank you so much! – I will be packaging them up safely this weekend (which takes time) and shipping off either Monday or Tuesday depending on my time window Monday between two engagements.

The workshops still have space, but the Fall Equinox is getting close to filling. There may end up only being 2 spots remaining soon.

Reminder these are my last workshops I’m teaching and the first and only co-teaching with sweet, magickal Laura.

I plan to bake a cake this weekend – one I’ve been feeling the last week or two, which will be a vanilla lavender cake (perhaps with another twist too, but we’ll see what comes to me). I’ll be using my fresh lavender from the garden for this, which is what inspired me. I’m so loving the smell of fresh lavender and cinnamon basil blossoms right now in my kitchen that I made a sweet little arrangement of in a tiny vase.

I have some new flowers and succulents to plant too.

Will be getting outside as well for sun and exercise.

There was a lot of hard work going on the last couple of days, so its time to kick in some serious play. 🙂

All to continue experiencing greater balance and inner harmony and peace.

So, yes, it’s important to nurture ourselves with those Cancerian things – for me the creative infusion of some fun projects to shift focus, making a nurturing cake that I love so much, giving back to Mother Earth with some Nature time and tending to her blossom and plant children around the home and home garden, and nurturing others with some Reiki Healing Attunements, as I’ve already put into motion one for myself and Dave.

And, key to remember our Capricorn aspects – for me this is implementation of business minded focuses, action-oriented step-by-step, patient processes, courage and confidence in what I am creating, putting into place supportive structures for long-term goals, and persistent focus to see things through for the highest good of all concerned.

All of this helping me to feel most essence aligned and helping to create greater harmony within and without.

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New Moon Winds of Change


Yesterday’s Libra New Moon brought winds of change here to stir things up, clear, refresh, and provide new perspectives supporting the potential of creating greater balance in our lives especially in terms of the relationships we have with everything – each other, things, Nature, ourselves, the sacred feminine and masculine within all, and the world and Cosmos at large. There’s a continual offering presented where we can learn to cultivate bridges of deeper compassion and connection that will lead to new doorways of experience.

We experienced high high winds throughout all of yesterday and last night, which I loved hearing as I fell asleep, cozy in our bed with gratitude for the warmth to cocoon in. I had a lot of energy this morning for some reason, which woke me at 4 am and had me awake for the next two hours in bed listening to the snow blowing outside, until I fell back asleep for a brief snooze again.

I’d taken a peek outside and knew the morning would be beautiful since I could see the snow all around in the dark amidst the dense sky swirling with energy. And when I did wake again, the sun opened everything to beautiful clarity revealing a lovely dusting of snow creating this enchantment.

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Snow just for a day in between Autumn’s splendor.

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Yesterday was another busy day here, but I also had a hair appointment in the midst of everything, which was perfectly aligned without my doing, on the New Moon. I’d made the appointment a couple of months ago and it just happened to fall on this day, which seemed perfect for a refresh.

On the way there I saw a beautiful coyote out in the golden fields within the farmlands of Minden. The coyote was plush and nearly golden herself – almost undetectable except that I happen to have a hawk eye of my own. She was very focused and seemed to be stalking something. Not long after, a very large hawk appeared upon a fence railing, eyeing me, as I eyed the coyote. Coyote and hawk medicine seemed perfect for the energies around.

Anyway, I’d felt called for a bit of change and so I cut another nearly 4 inches off to recharge and we added more of my natural dark brown back into my hair for extra dramatic contrast with the silver that felt good for the current energies and Autumn/Winter seasons, not to mention got me back to my “roots”. 😉

In the Summer my hair had gotten so light all around, as you might remember, and that supported the shifting I was needing. And now I anchor back into a contrast of dark and light, embodying the merging of both, and reminding me that all is sacred.

I guess my hair was much longer than I thought, as even after the 4 inches off, it is still so long. Somehow the New Moon feels to have plumped and lengthened my hair, as it is healthier than ever.

Astrid and I are even more mirrors of each other physically now, which I love. I can’t get over it sometimes how perfect she is for me, and vice versa. We feel one and the same on many levels.

I also love how every step of the journey always feels so right these days because of following the guidance and flow of energy in every moment.

And so the winds of change blow through in many ways, including creating a bit of chaos in the midst of it all with everything in transition for us here. Our new home is in complete disarray, as it’s been virtually all internally demolished for the contractors to implement our remodeling visions. And even our current tree house is going through a bit of a face-lift preparing it, at the same time, for its new tenants. While we live with inflatable furniture, folding chairs and tables, and boxes temporarily these last months.

Add on my crazy editing mode I am doing as I can amidst it all (feeling to complete by end of year) and other aspects of our lives I’m co-managing that are all creating full time jobs for me right now (good thing I’ve switched gears), it’s definitely a process unfolding and there’s nothing to do but take it patiently, a day at a time.

I could easily get swept up into panic, anxiety, stress, worry, discouragement, and even dismay if I let current conditions and all of the collective things going on affect me, but instead my experiences paint me a different story. They teach me that all things have a season and reason, and that keeping focus, balance, and being grateful and not neglecting nurturing of needs along the way, will see me through…always.

It can be challenging when nothing seems to have a result currently, but that’s when we need to pull from our inner core like the tree and her roots that always keep her stabilized despite how the elements and seasons shift her outer appearance.

I could easily start judging it all, second-guessing, or even wondering what the heck I’m doing with my book that perhaps only I will ever love. But that, in and of itself, is enough for me – to be true to what my heart wants to share and express. That wouldn’t have been in the past when I was affected by other’s opinions of me or had a lesser version of self love, or what love in general really means.

I am grateful for my vision that can see beyond the current swirling of energy, as that is what anchors my peaceful embrace of it all and reminds me at any moment how it’s all necessary and key to keep riding those air currents flowing through.

Just as everything was dark in the wee hours today and I couldn’t see anything but swirling snow and wind, while a fog set in and covered the lake and everything around us, the light of day did come and the clouds parted, to reveal the splendor it was stirring into creation.

Interestingly, the same happened with my hair yesterday, as somehow an odd thing happened where for a moment my hair was deep lilac. I WAS wearing a big amethyst ring and a purple and pink top with spirals on it, so it was curiously peculiar my hair was reflecting this energy. My hair stylist was not worried though, as she said my hair follicles were really open and absorbing, so they just absorbed more pigments than normal and she knew that shampooing with a clarifying shampoo would immediately balance it back. And that’s exactly what happened without any cause for alarm, creating exactly what I’d envisioned and naturally balanced me out.

The New Moon really opened things wide, but we have to be willing to go through some moments of oddness, confusion, disarray, unknowns, periods of chaos and potential upheaval, before things settle into clarity and balance again.

This morning I was excited to see our new home and land with its first dusting of snow and this is what greeted us by the light of day.

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I know so many are going through relationship shifts, job changes, moving to new homes, health crises, experiencing departures of loved ones, going through huge loss, and are at the precipice of making or needing to make huge leaps….Wishing everyone grace and ease with all the changes in life’s seasons you are experiencing and the ability to find peace within the chaos, and vision within the temporary fog.

Be as You Truly Are ~ You Haven’t Lost Your Passion or Path, You Simply Can Choose to Dance & Sing Again


A little feather mandala with 11 that I found yesterday, encircling an orange calcite heart for New Moon in Aries … Stirring the fire within to unleash your most transformative expression that wisely harnesses your creative and courageous spark of truest nature and embodiment.

One might ask themselves:

How can I create more balance and harmony in the giving and receiving of energy?

What values call to my heart most?

Do I experience frustration due to unrecognized opportunity, limiting perspective, and lack of self love?

There is potential for more integrity of self-expression and recognizing your natural beingness as you truly ARE.

I recently had a dream about a small magickal creature I was given from the Netherlands and it rested in my hands and then gave me a bite on my fingers, although without the intent to hurt and it didn’t, nor did it bleed, but I knew it was getting my attention. There isn’t a creature that looks just like what I saw in the dream, but the word pygmy and vole came to mind…I did discover there are pygmy shrews and field voles in the Netherlands.

I’ve made several connections to the entirety of the dream for myself and the connections of awareness it drew me too, but also while later looking into this animal’s symbolism, I was struck by something I read about vole that coincides with this New Moon energy and felt to share it too for the collective.

It shared how vole teaches about awareness to what is going on all around you with both sensitivity and alertness, but also simply teaches about expressing your nature, naturally, which comes through feeling and listening to your intuition with loving trust.

They also carry an energy and growth potential in embracing the learning around nature’s expression of both destruction and rebirth. So in essence, asking you to look at what needs to change or that you feel could use shifting in your life and then by listening you’ll be shown how to harness those changes with vole’s help.

And synchronous to my dream, voles teach us how to “sink our teeth into” the things we’re wanting to create…in essence showing us how to harness the visions and ideas with creative tenacity so we can make them productive and actualized.

There is so much angst and frustration out there around worrying about not being on path, searching, yearning, seeking out guidance to what exactly you “should” be doing, holding onto the belief there must be some idealized version and bigness around an end result of what this looks like, and coming up short on these expectations placed on it all by self and the messaging out there.

Interestingly, at the same time you worry and search, you are also avoiding the feelings inside, your intuitive messaging, those subtle or sometimes loud nudges, are self-sabotaging with conditioned beliefs, ingenious inner dialogue, and avoidance tactics, or even creating every obstacle and energy drain on yourself, otherwise.

Yet, what it boils down to is a need to surrender to what IS right now.

Who you ARE this moment.

The intelligence within you ALREADY.

You miss the opportunities every moment to just be YOU and bring through the creative vitality that stirs within your spirit and heart.

There isn’t a perfect outcome you need to strive for.

You simply need to choose to walk in the frequency of your vibration right now and how ever that leads you, IS exactly what you are here to do.

Don’t wait for some perfect answer or precise conclusion to your quest.

Give up the quest and realize the truth of your journey that is a step-by-step unfolding of you being you.

The more in touch we are with our feelings and the voice within, the more we know exactly what it is in each moment that would be the best possible use of our breath here on Earth. And that may be much more simple than you were led to believe, although without devising it, could very well turn into something much bigger.

But don’t judge what is and isn’t extraordinary or how if you only do “this,” you aren’t doing enough.

If you truly are embracing your spirit’s song and commit to expressing its voice in each experience you have, then you will come to experience the peace and harmony you seek…the next notes will become clear…and naturally you’ll have a symphony at work with your instrument in sync with the the collective orchestra.

I find that people create inertia because they dwell too much on the ideas rather than the feelings moving through. I’ve been there too.

You have and always will be messaged by your inner voice to where would most be in resonance and alignment to your vibrational expression.

We simply don’t listen and listening, nurturing, and supporting that voice is more key than how things need to look, as when we cultivate that, we naturally will be doing and being our best possible version in each ever-expanding and evolving moment.

So it won’t be about what big thing you “should” be doing, but truly about embodying your own bigness through being.

The less we listen and support that innate knowingness, is where we come up against the challenges.

And that inner voice will tell us when making changes would be much more supportive to our life and everyone’s lives we touch.

I recently went through this in a big way, myself, before we went on our Magick Bus journey and made the changes that were key to my spirit’s expression in order to thrive here or elsewhere.

If you feel a loss of passion, it’s not because you don’t have any or you need to discover your passion, you simply need to tune back into you, as somewhere along the line a door was closed on your feelings and the connection and love didn’t receive the nurturing that other things instead did. The nature of you doesn’t go away, it simply awaits remembering and dancing with once again.

And yes, that does become important, if in fact you desire to live from that purity of your natural vitality more and find yourself frustrated and tormented all the time.

Loss of passion may also speak to your completing a cycle on your spiral of life and rather than continuing to repeat patterns that keep you stuck, or drag you backwards like a whirpool, you simply need to get on the next spiral and create anew, integrating ingredients to bring forth continual alchemy of being.

Take an honest, deep, intimately vulnerable look within yourself and ask the really important questions. You’ll discover what the true “block” is to your having the very thing you say you desire…or in essence, to being more of who you really ARE.

It’s a very interesting journey we experience in our lives.

No right or wrong, nor timeframe. However, if you are feeling miserable or frustrated, that may very well be indication to try another way.

When we more actively engage ourselves as the truly empowered partners in co-creation, we can discover how to work with the alchemy latent within each of us to create.

How things evolve will be a beautiful spiraling of your nature unfolding her or his exquisite petals.

If you are feeling a squeeze on yourself, uninvigorated, and like you are suffocating, or ready to burst, then your spirit is messaging you to go bigger, expand, express, bring forth and wisely channel what is burning within.

If uninspired, this is your chance to choose to recreate yourself and do something that moves you, feels invigorating, and keeps your imagination and creativity engaged. Start inviting and bringing forth new elements to your life that stimulate newness and fresh perspectives to keep you thriving and challenge you to go beyond yesterday’s ideas and version of yourself.

That doesn’t always mean it has to be a huge outward change, but may simply be about inviting more of the little tweaks and perspectives to your current experience that inspire a natural unfolding from there.

You have the ability to choose completely new right now and to create something different, something more, but ultimately more you this moment.

This doesn’t need to be a do or die situation, but about really feeding your spirit’s song without any constraints on should’s and should not’s, nor about following patterns…but carving a new way that is more resonant aligned to you in the flow of energy streaming through that is simultaneously abound.

I feel that as long as we continue to touch in with ourselves, invite, and put into action ways to challenge ourselves to expand our capacity for creative expression and move into new areas of personal passion moving through us with expanding courage, we will find our lives enriched and continuing to unfold in amazing ways.

You are an intuitive being whether you think you are, or not.

When you reteach yourself to trust what you’re feeling and relax into a more peaceful state of presence, then you can be more mindful, discerning, and understanding of how to navigate the energy streams in healthy partnership of heart and mind where unnecessary risks, but invigorating challenge will meet in your always being exactly where your spirit desires.

Birthday Portals & New Moon Solar Eclipse of February 26th


Since I’ll likely not be posting a blog on my birthday or this weekend, I thought I’d share one today and to get the energetic ball rolling with the upcoming New Moon Solar Eclipse, which just so happens to fall on my birthday – February 26th. While I don’t have any grand plans this year, I’m feeling grateful for this grand gift itself of Cosmic alignment and there may also be a snow gift from Nature on my birthday and through the weekend, which all feels like a symbolic celebration in very literal ways for this Winter baby, Cosmic Pisces, Snow Faery. However this birthday unfolds, I will make it an intentional day, as I’ve learned it isn’t so much what we do, as the energy we carry forth through what we are doing.

But what a perfect timing to clear away the old, keep digging deep, making way for new beginnings, sharing your greatest hopes, and dreaming bigger than ever as a way of celebrating and honoring your journey.

I know for myself, I’ll be doing some more Reiki Healing Attunements on the 26th for my greatest intentions and biggest dreams I have yet to put forward, no matter how others may think I should be more realistic. That’s not exactly something a Pisces understands, although the Capricorn parts of me appreciate the caution. Yet for me that is interpreted more as making sure I’m aligning all parts of me with the essence of my dreams, making sure I can commit myself fully, understanding the responsibility that goes along with it, and the groundwork that will be needed with persevering and unwavering courage and strength.

I’ve been doing an amped up amount of Reiki Healing Attunements over the last few weeks – again a reminder if you have this tool in your toolbox – and have seen all of them except the long term ones come to fruition, although more clarity and steps have revealed themselves with the farther future ones too.

I have also been more willing in the last year or so to declare what I really want, no matter how big they seem or that they are truly just MY joys and desires, as I know that I matter too and I know that because I always intend everything for the highest good of all concerned, it is never selfish to ask from your heart what you want, as this inevitably will trickle to everyone we touch directly or indirectly. Plus, it is is powerful to voice your desires, without attachment or expectation, but simply as personal expression of what you feel and/or want.

I felt a big shift take place on the 22nd that asked me to anchor even more with the future potentials I’m creating and opened up greater ways to commit if in fact I want to manifest them. This provided different creative ideas and strategies I hadn’t thought of, to support my wanting to do more right now that I was feeling an unknown around how I could actually be investing into things even though it’s still off in the distance.

So, I will utilize the 26th, my renewal and rebirthing, along with the New Moon Eclipse to provide greater vision and roots with everything I definitively decide to anchor into and to “up the game” so to speak. Perhaps you might join in and do the same for your own intentions?

I do know that I have been having an increased momentum surge through me that needs precision and fine focus, which will continue to see me more immersed in creating, exercising more boundaries, and balancing my time and resources.

I love how this birthday is also my 44th, loving that double digit, master number and angelic presence surrounding the energy of this year and that I’ll be beginning a #2 personal year which speaks to peace, timing, nurturing, partnership, patience, intuition, trust, cooperation, and things not appearing on the outside while much is taking place in the internal world and foundationally.

I love what Numerologist, Christine DeLorey, shares about a 2 Year Cycle:

“The 2 year cycle is an inspiring twelve month journey in which you will find exciting connections between your past, your present, and your future. Eventually, you will be able to use this information to set an ambitious goal in motion. But make no mistake, what happens this year is going to take perseverance and, above all, great patience.

First, you must slow down and stop pushing to get results. What you want is going to take longer to achieve than expected, so tone down your high expectations of yourself and others, and pay patient and meticulous attention to the details of all situations.

You must learn to move more slowly, attentively, and with mutual interests in mind. If not, you will miss too many clues and connections to make any kind of measurable progress. Widen your lens. See a bigger picture. Discover your connection to everything that is influencing your life.

Of course, it can be difficult to slow down when you are so sure that you need to be moving faster, but until you do slow down – enough to see the finer and often overlooked details of your reality – you will have no idea of where you have come from, who you are becoming, where you are, what you’re doing, why you’re doing it, where you’re going, or the roles that others are playing in your life. Clarity is one of the principle gifts of the 2 year, just as long as you slow yourself down enough to be able to claim it.”

A perfect message for what had come to me this week and how I’ll be funneling my energies like my Tortoise, Gaia, with deliberate clarity and steadfast patience, taking into account the bigger picture and all seens and potential unforeseens, which my rabbit companion souls teach me with heightened senses, vision, and agility for transforming quickly when needed.

I love that I get to share my special day with a collective special day on this portal of possibility and potential, which seems appropriate for a collective Pisces soul.

This is a magickal and joyous energy we’ll be experiencing with opportunity to turn dreams into reality with enduring results and lasting happiness, by humbly honing in on our gifts for the greatest good of all concerned. Definitely a Solar Eclipse for making wishes come true. So we can all really go deep and ask what that wish is, or wishes are. Don’t be afraid to state it out loud, nor afraid to do what it takes to co-create it.

The Sun and Moon are also conjunct Neptune at this time which increases sensitivity, intuition, visions/premonitions, and empathy…something I’m hearing from many who are usually strong pillars of guidance and anchors for others. So be aware of nervous tension and anxiety, which can cause reactions versus responses. Keep personal integrity and responsibility at the forefront. And rise above the collective field so you can continue to do your thing and guide the way for others by standing in your personal frequency.

Rather than chaos pulling you in, let your inner peace draw others out of the chaos.

This is where boundaries come into play and conscious self-awareness to filter out what is and isn’t you.

Yet this doorway also provides very harmonious energy that can be harnessed for great benefit, not to mention access to deepest dreams, creativity, and imagination for manifesting.

There isn’t wrong choice, there’s simply choice. This can be a good time to get clarity on decisions and the momentum behind them to put them into action.

And this brings me around to responsibility. I shared this on social media today, but it feels important to add here, as more than ever this feels at the forefront of choices we make day in and day out.

Responsibility is key always and to be conscious of it consistently is necessary. Your actions, thoughts, words, shares, feelings, all have an impact on the collective in seen and unseen ways. And if you are in a role where others look to you as a guide in some way or if you are a leader or visionary as your path, responsibility is a moment-to-moment energy to temper all that you do with and choose from the place of greatest good to others while empowering/not enabling, and keeping the integrity of your message as consistent and pure as you can.

While everyone has choice, that also includes the choice to live responsibly and to hold your own frequency, regardless of other’s choices.

I’ve come to see over time how important one’s commitment to responsibility affects so much in your life. Not only will it support the things you desire creating, but also trickles out to how others will relate to you and want to cocreate with you. Think about the choices and commitments you make and the value impact they have in more ways than you may realize.

This is at the forefront of my intentions, dreams, and the energy I’m putting out there, tempered with a deeper kind of love I’ve come to experience that nudges limitations into greater expansiveness.

I can’t begin to share all that has transformed in my life over the course of it, let alone in the last year or two, but this rapid change seems to take place on a weekly and daily basis now, as accelerated experiences are embraced.

I know that so many of you can relate. It’s like a whole other person/or persons and worlds, right?!

And while none of the details really matter, I would like to take a moment to publicly express gratitude from the heart and core of my soul for everything I have chosen to go through at this collective time we share on Earth – the good, bad, ugly, thick and thin…or whatever you want to call it – simply experiences.

I didn’t actually think I would make it to this year and yet here I am because I chose another way to fulfill that which was unfulfilled. I chose a symbolic death instead of a literal one. I chose to take a leap, to have faith, to reinvent myself, to let go of everything, and to continue forward despite my soul family moving on, despite the invitations before me, and despite having no guarantee for what I was about to choose except knowing it is my heart’s joy.

And while I, or any of us, don’t know how much longer we may have in this embodiment, I do know that I can say I am truly living in every sense of the word without limitations and without regrets. I feel finally that I am merging my Cosmic and Earthly self.

My only regret would have been not to do what I’m doing now, which is immersing into the greater potentials and possibilities beyond what would have been soul expected of me due to the cycles and repetitive patterns I was repeating, fulfilling, and ultimately bringing around in a healthy way to close off karmically.

It would also have been a regret not to immerse into the simple and most valuable enjoyments and enrichments in the fullest possible way, not to immerse into the pure experience without any limiting ideas or other’s beliefs ruling my enjoyment of sensual living, not to immerse into more amplification of my personal frequency and vibration without hiding behind myself or holding my energy back…not to immerse into the pure harmony of it all, period.

While some may say I’ve been doing this, I would say not to the degree and greater consistency I am now, and this does and has made a huge difference.

So while I may never go back to things I once used to do, offer as service, or engage in as a human, I will be living with deeper conviction and clarity of my thread in the collective tapestry moment to moment.

44 feels like a year of building, business, being, and balance (4 B’s!) all centered around my passions and knowing the strength and support is there if I remain focused and dedicated.

And so I embrace this new doorway on the 26th, this portal of potential, with open heart and committed soul and welcome the fresh experiences that await my alignment.

Wishing everyone a creatively potent New Moon Solar Eclipse. I hope you will stretch yourself farther than you ever have into the seed of potential you have within you as your origin of being.

(FUN NOTE: When I hit publish the clock said 4:44 – gotta love it!)

New Moon ~ New Year ~ New Beginnings


I sent out this newsletter yesterday and thought the message in it might be of interest to share here as well, given the energetic dynamics and field of experience collectively.

Here is the link:

New Moon…New Year…New Beginnings ~ Reforming & Recreating with Creative Inspiration & Harmony

A New Moon & A New You


With today’s New Moon in Capricorn – the last of the year before we welcome in 2017 – I wanted to pause a moment to share how so much has shifted this year for me in terms of the structures and “routines” of my life, which Capricorn energy focuses much upon. While the energies abound also place focus on a time of review, rest, and nurturing of your own inner needs, Capricorn will assist with how to harness these in a responsibly resonant way that reflects who you are and the path of intents you are activating in your life.

This will involve honestly looking at the intricate details of how you’ve been living your life, how you go about your daily processes, your approach to life, and the amount of energy and time you extend to all things including, but most importantly – you.

Who are you?

Are you embodying the “you” you were born to be and share with the collective?

Do you relish in being yourself?

What are you doing to empower yourself and the gifts you were born to cultivate?

Are you ready to unleash your natural talents and release the limiting inhibitions, old patterns, and fears of increasing the magnitude of energy you came here to shine?

Are you willing to reclaim your origins of purity that naturally align you in harmony?

It’s time to hit the reset button, if you haven’t already, to revitalize your experience of life, restore your faith and trust in why you are here and how who you are can make a difference, and it’s an opportune time to do all things self-nurturing and supportive of regeneration and recreation of your life lived most authentically.

All this to mirror Nature with your own innate ability to renew through the cycles of life.

I know this year of 2016 was a challenging one for many and while I didn’t experience it in that way, I did learn what was important and vital to my own “nature” and have been implementing that more than ever.

Although I did see my two bunny loves transition and went through my own literal and profound death experience (allowing purification and a new “more me” to be reborn and step into my body while the old me was released) this year (the things that contributed to the collective #9 year of closure), I was able to maintain my vibration through it all and that came with my commitment to nurturing myself, flowing with the energies and inevitable transmutation that was necessary, listening to my needs, reclaiming parts of me, spending tons of time in Nature, balancing and softening my life, and returning to who I really am.

So, my experience of 2016 was cathartic and deeply nourishing and revitalizing, whereas I could have experienced it in a traumatic way.

And a lot of this, as mentioned, has been in realizing, embracing, and putting into motion the need for self nurturing and retrieving back my power in a personally empowering way that ultimately allows me to be more of a responsible contributor to the collective.

I’ve never nurtured myself and honored my energy as much as I have this year and this has continued to increase.

I saw so many things I desired personally and wanted to heal within myself, truly anchor.

I saw the anxiety and fixations on things disintegrate completely.

And life has become soft, flowing, responsive, and increasingly harmonized. It’s truly something I awe at when I really look at the changes that have taken place over the course of my life and how I feel now versus before. It gets me emotional to realize the difference I feel in comparison to the life I was once living.

And I have seen that when I honor these things within myself that the Universe/All That Is has been conspiring to support it all even more.

This especially so with the self nurturing, as my life has become surrounded with tangible and non-tangible forms of everything nourishing to my mind, body, heart, and soul.

I’ve shifted the way I approach everything I do and have shifted the anxious over-achiever-me into the peacefully flowing, confident, and anchored co-creator.

Even the place we live in currently is such a dream and has everything I could want to support this new cycle in my life to ensure well being and cultivation of what I’m birthing.

From a dream view in a sacred place that I love, which I face daily, a jacuzzi with light therapy and sauna to provide relaxation and purification, a biomat to nourish deeply, and Christmas gifts from my family and ourselves of a shiatsu foot massage with heat I use on my Pisces feet daily, a flameless candle fountain with flowing water energy, LED wax candles that can remotely be programmed for color therapy, daily nature immersions, creative time spent making delicious, healthy, and comforting foods, surrounding myself with reflections of my heart, having the ability to focus on my passions and doing what I love, blessed with incredible friends, family, and spirit guidance….I’m feeling like I live in a dream and day spa round the clock and almost have to pinch myself that this is the experience I manifested through a life of dedication, despite discouraging years of challenge.

To say I’m grateful is a HUGE understatement.

And that goes along with truly being grateful to myself for hanging in there, continuing to forge ahead, and never giving up.

I tormented for so many years in my teens, early twenties, and thirties with why life had been so hard and wondering if ever I would experience what I envisioned possible in feeling.

And it wasn’t until I started integrating all aspects of my life and bringing physical and spiritual together in a sensual merging and honoring of the gift, beauty, and meaning of both being of stardust and living as a human, that life has emerged as such.

Now I’m truly seeing that the hope I held onto was not in vain.

And this is only the beginning…for me, for you, for us all.

I know this year was very hard for everyone and still may feel challenged, but I’ve also seen and heard of so many seeing the cycles of change through and coming out the other side with renewed zest for life and new beginnings emerging from seeing their dreams begin to manifest, realizing what they’ve accomplished, getting clarity on their path and direction in life, new more aligned dream jobs manifesting, engagements, marriages, pregnancies, births, moves to heart home places, dream travels actualized, new life adventures begun (several people jumped in rv’s this year too)….and more.

The end of one era and walking through the door of a new one.

And through it all it’s key to take care of you, as that will ensure all that you desire to do “out there”.

I realize the importance of taking care of me and it’s provided me so much more to give out to others without ever feeling depleted anymore and I’ve learned the most supportive way to be on path for me that will continue to honor myself and others simultaneously.

And this will include continuous self nurturing, reviewing my life to make any necessary adjustments that optimize things, continuing to strengthen my boundaries, creating intents and goals that keep me on point and utilizing more and more productive use of what I have available.

Capricorn energy is a guiding force in my life with it as my ascendant, North Node, and having Mars propelling it in my first house, and it wasn’t until recently that I’ve understood how to harness this energy.

I can only imagine what might be with continued cultivation and paying attention to the responsive integration of its energy in my life.

This New Moon highlights Capricorn essence for us all…and while this may be a cycle currently we’re moving through that can propel you when you harness what it is showing you in your life, I believe that working with all of the signs and energies in their most productive forms, throughout the year, will support us into living as the wholeness we are.

Living with Conscious Intention & the Release & Embrace that Reflects Your Truth


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This New Moon in Sagittarius drew out the Truth and offered us opportunity to expand into our empowerment. These crystal beings were my partners for this journey.

I listen to their essence and intuitively am drawn to which crystals would assist most greatly with current focuses and align most fluidly with the energies.

How do you harness the energies available?

Ritual, intention, going within, creating sacred space and sacred presence, inviting crystal beings, elementals, your higher self and divine forces into your daily practice, meditation, nature communing, creative self expression, greater wholeness of being…?

There are so many ways you can live life with conscious intention and work with all that is available to you to create alchemy.

Whether you utilize tools, modalities, your unique gifts, etc. the power lies within you above all else and the rest is your access to remember and stand in that truth and strength.

I’ve been blessed to have many crystal friends over the course of the years that have assisted me in knowing myself and harnessing my gifts to greater depths.

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Many have moved on to assist others (including these 2 amazing herkimer diamonds above) and nearly all moved forth to new guardians both during a public and most recent private offering directly after that, leaving me with the least amount of crystals I’ve had (not counting crystal jewelry) in my presence.

I’d been guided that the last 20 (which includes 3 crystal wands) hold the frequencies of my current path and are some of my most cherished friends connected in some cases with my beloved rabbit companions who have moved on.

At some point some of these may be ready to assist others, and like now, I know that letting go is what opens new doorways and new experiences and friends to join me.

It’s amazing to observe how our lives evolve and the reflections of those changes all around us.

In many ways I’ve seen nearly all of what my life was released to the collective well to make room for the new in my own, which others have opened for me, and to allow others to step into their own versions of space I used to hold.

It’s such a beautiful process and journey we are creating together and trickling out to one another by letting go and embracing simultaneously.

I’m so excited about the new recreation of my life and life’s work and look forward to sharing it all with you, as I also look forward to witnessing and experiencing your new.

There is so much creative expression being channeled right now and new versions of everything that’s ever been, which is awesome!

Dare to create outside of the box and don’t try to be like anyone else or fit yourself into a limiting definition and paradigm that squeezes the life out of you.

Your courage to create new and more expansive versions of you creates potential for us all.

Black Moon Rising


On the eve of September 30th’s rare New “Black” Moon, this musical expression seeding a new field of experience was inspired while stationed on the edge of farm fields in Big Springs, Nebraska. With the assistance of my Cosmic Golden Selenite Flower a sound channeling came through … creative storytelling through harmonic resonance.

It felt like no coincidence, once again, that days earlier I had been guided to bring home a new crystal friend – a small, but potent Black Moonstone. It was the only crystal that spoke to me, as we wandered through a metaphysical shop on the Saturday after Equinox.

At that time I was not aware that we were approaching a rare New “Black” Moon, which would complete the month’s cycle of powerful shifts. And I didn’t know about all of the Black Moonstone’s properties. I just knew it really resonated and spoke to me.

But I did immediately connect with the Black Moonstone’s properties with a big “a-ha!” when learning more and of course the synchronicity of it having an extra focus of New Moon energy for beginnings of all things.

Black Moonstone embodies the space from which all things new emerge and are created from. It is very protective, deflects unwanted energies, encourages inspiration, helps remove blockages for past trauma healing and profoundly deep emotional connection/expression, enhances intuition and inner knowing to bring you under guidance of your feelings rather than be led by intellectual reasoning.

They are crystals of the deep Divine Feminine energies and powerful Shadow workers that aid bringing you in touch with your Root Chakra to connect down to Earth with the calming and grounding they exude.

Balance and cleansing are also part of their supportive energies and work powerfully during dreamtime.

Along with Root Chakra work they assist with the Throat, Third Eye, and Crown Chakras as well, assisting creative self expression and psychic gifts.

Some, like the one I have, also have Peach Moonstone embodied within the stone, which adds the Sacral Chakra connection and will help enhance emotional work, give your creativity a super boost, and supercharge the birthing of new ideas and creations.

They also are excellent for aiding the flow of synchronicity in your life.

I slept with my Black Moonstone under my pillow during the period surrounding and on the night of the Black Moon and continue working with it closely at my side because of its “synchronous” energies to all I am focused on.

Here’s the sound channeling encapsulating the energies flowing through the eve of the Black Moon Rising.

I hope it inspires and supports the energies shared above, within your own experience.

 

 

Empathic Resonance ~ Gemini New Moon 2015 by Adam Sommer


Astrologer, Adam Sommer, shares his take on today’s Gemini New Moon, which I feel you’ll find resonating and supportive.

In his reflective synopsis he shares:

“This Moon falls in the last decan of Gemini (20-30 degrees).  It is in this space where we experience the most extreme forms of polarity. According to the Egyptians, it marked the end of their calendar year. This has to do with the Summer Solstice.  When the Sun leaves Gemini, it enters Cancer, which also is both the highest the Sun will get in the year and the beginning of its descent.  The Lord of Light begins to sink, shrink, and wane.  And so we get images Cain slaying Abel, fallen men on the battlefield, Castor, the mortal twin being struck down, and a wise man laughing as the blade separates head from body.  It is symbolic of the extremes of mortality and immortality or how to work with the tension of our monkey mind and christ consciousness.  It’s a territory where the only discoveries will be found within, and will relate to striking a balance between the mind and heart.”

This seems to mirror my last post I shared about the interesting feeling of experiencing polarities of aversion and affinity at the same time to things – all pointing to getting at the heart of the matter where integrative balance and harmony can be created in that union.

Adam also shares this, which resonates with my own experience:

“In a general sense, I feel this Gemini New Moon will bring up issues like I mentioned above, but also plant a few seeds of wonder relating to what it would be like to step out of the electrical storm, and feel what it’s like to be outside of the cloud. Town and city vs. mountain and stream.  It is going to challenge us to unplug a bit, to bring our minds down a few decibels, allowing for the capacity of warm limbic resonance, open ears, and tearful empathy for what is actually happening around us. We will come face to face with our “evil” twin and learn to satiate them with love and compassion.”

To read his entire article please visit:

Gemini New Moon 2015 “Empathic Resonance” 

Cancer Full Moon – Rebirthing the You and the We in Harmony


We are approaching the first Full Moon of 2012 (Sunday, 1/8 at 11:30pm PST and Monday 1/9 at 2:30am EST/7:30am GMT) and instead of waiting until the actual day of the Full Moon, I thought it might be good to share info about the energies ahead of time, since the moon’s phases and cycles are felt in culmination and then peak, and even several days after. This way you can focus on and understand things unfolding in your life and how you can better empower yourself in the processing and integrating of energies. If you’ve set intentions on the New Moon then the Full Moon is a good time for releasing them out to Spirit, as it magnetizes their potentials. This is an ideal time for taking those courageous and exuberant steps forward on the path of action in support of something you’ve imagined. This “do it” action and mentality supports an idea into reality and the magic then begins.

This Full Moon in Cancer (The Great Mother) is an ideal time to activate the core soul origin within you in order to harmonize it with your cosmic divinity and birth it into form. It focuses on the energies in opposing partnership of the Sun in Capricorn and the Moon in Cancer, which focuses on the protective, structural, nurturing and creating energies – specifically highlighting the archetypes of father and mother – with impact on our emotional and social bodies and how they interrelate.

This is a time to look at our world environment and nurture, into development, a new way of being, which will have personal and collective effects. Important focus is on learning to be wise, discerning mother and father figures in our own lives – being present with timing on offering and allowing and understanding when and what to give most productively and with understanding of what is the most responsible thing to do with the highest good in mind. Learning to love your inner child and the child within us all unconditionally and with supportive encouragement to be all that you can be, while helping to develop tools and provide the tools and heart courage to step out and share your unique gifts with the collective, as is your divine destiny.

Realizing and nurturing the unique light of you, simultaneously understanding how you are an integral thread in the collective tapestry and your piece is much needed at this time more than ever, is the message of this Full Moon energy.

Ask yourself the important questions you may have been avoiding or overlooking. Look intuitively and heartfully into yourself to receive answers. How can you support yourself better, so you can provide the most authentic and productive help to others? Everything we do is not isolated to “me” mentality. We are all connected and realizing the collective unity and approaching everything from a position of “everything that I share and am, is for the highest good of all concerned, serving both my divine gifts and heart joys while adding to the collective pool of compassionate and loving creation of a new world,” is key. Are there matriarchal and patriarchal aspects that need healing and understanding within you so that you may realize your fullest potential and your contribution to the collective table?

This is a time for innovation and courageously bold moves in the direction of your heart’s joy in partnership with loving and compassionate service to the collective. A time for nurturing balance and integration while grounding our lives and focuses on this Earth for the highest good of all.

Enjoy the journey!

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