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11 Year Brought to Light


Two years ago, today, was the official adoption day of Cosmo. Although I took him home on January, 25, 2015, this day marks his complete peace in knowing he had a forever home for the first time in his life. We’d taken him in as a foster bunny only due to the fact that I had to keep in mind my other bunny, Joy’s feelings and knowing there’d be a journey to bond them. Truth be told, I knew in my heart the second I held him, he wasn’t going anywhere.

He would have turned 11 this year, come May 17th, and synchronously I was just reminded two days ago by my metaphysical genius brother, while visiting my family, that I was not just in a #2 year since my birthday rang in on 2/26, but in fact this is an 11/2 personal year, which is quite significant. I’m not sure why I forgot this, but perhaps it was to have things deepen naturally and then light up in reiteration, after the fact of much that has unfolded, so as to just “be” with the energy and see the a-ha’s later.

So that puts quite a spin on things being that I also turned 44 – a master number – am in an 11 year – another master number, and my sweet Cosmo, who is  with me daily and profoundly so, would have been 11.

It kind of ignited something when my brother reminded me – he always seems to bring up things at the right time and it was so “random” in conversation how he just stated it in between other things that had no connection. I had to wonder if also Cosmo might have been nudging this message through him so I could make the connection.

As I mentioned, 44 feels like a year of building, business, being, and balance, but there is an undercurrent of bringing together everything one has learned, drawing in new wisdom, and integrating it for greater alchemy with this 11 year.

I’ve felt this year to be significant in terms of how my path is going a whole new direction and even in terms of the deepest peace, embodiment, creative inspiration, and intuitive harmony I’ve felt to be in, and indeed this is reiterated in the 11 year.

If you have been in an 11 year yourself before, you’ll understand this, or perhaps you might be in one or coming up on one soon.

Here are some insights.

11 years are powerful for receiving insights to your higher purposes in life, enhanced intuition and psychic insight feeling even more natural, leaps in soul growth and another spiral level of enlightenment experienced, greater collective opportunity in terms of being a source of inspiration and illumination, channeling, inspired thinking and originality, and working for a common good.

The latter especially comes in due to the 11 year combining both a double 1 (self, creativity, courage, self-confidence, innovation, independence…also divine inspiration and the ability to make things happen/manifest) AND the energy of a 2 year (collective/group dynamics, supportive of a greater good, partnership and relationship in all realms, cooperation, patience).

So it blends both – integration and harmony – and knowing that each are interconnected without separating them out, but simply by default of “being”.

11 = 1 + 1 = 2.

A year also in focusing on effectiveness in order to harness all the gifts and talents you have, and implementing them, your time, energy, and boundaries in ways that keep you balanced and not crashing, being flexible, fluid and expansive, and knowing where to invest fully.

It’s a year of mastering tortoise AND rabbit energy, in my opinion, and realizing how to pace everything as a marathon and not a sprint, while also being opportune for tapping into a clear channel that can bring a flood of enlightened ideas and projects to take action on quickly and flexibly in intuitively guided moments of opportunity opening (so mini sprints within an overall marathon). This involving the creation of a directional path that you’ve never been on before, which not only comes from your highest self and heart, but can have profound effect on others as well as you.

This all reiterates so much of what I’ve felt going on and knowing this is a time for going beyond what I knew of myself, courageously entering other territory beyond soul history comfort zones and any easier patterns without judgment, and doing so in confidence despite the new territory.

It’s reflective of that stepping up into the biggest version yet of spirit through self, for highest good with all things interconnected with each choice and action taken. Personal and collective are nurtured simultaneously despite what others try to define it as from the outside.

Tempering this balance is the process being refined during this year to seamless “Nature of Being.”

Definitely I’ve felt a new life path and manifestations have been seeded.

And I see this so beautifully reflective of Cosmo for sure and his self mastery that always shined through and felt like such a guiding light for my life, bringing to light the ingredients so easily understood to navigate life by.

He is like this little Cosmic Wizard, both anchored in who he is and also humble. Like an ascended master in many ways. So much to learn from him and I continue to, as he’s with me daily.

He, along with Joy, Nestor (my bunnies), and Gaia (my tortoise) are all by my side, each sharing their parts when it is their turn in the “story” and each stepping forward or helping to work the behind-the-scenes alchemy in harmonized unfolding.

I am so grateful to have such leading examples to support this turning point in my life.

And it reminds us all how we have so much support and guidance beyond what we think, or the ways in which we look for it.

There is no “need” to make light of signs and reflections, as nature simply IS and so can we BE.

And yet, there’s also no reason not to see these things, as these can be helpful in retraining you back into remembering your true nature so you can just melt into that consistently, seamlessly, and naturally without need to point anything out.

Yet since there is a learning curve for much of the collective, to bring perspective can ignite latent parts of ourselves.

There is a journey we take and it doesn’t – although could – usually turn on like a flick of a switch that shoots us to that experience instantly. There is a process that teaches us the ways of alchemy and helps others understand too, then we can let go of the process and simply experience. Or, move in and out by choice without shifting our center.

It’s like all things at once, but also ok with each piece of ALL.

Thank you Cosmo for sharing your love and this special 11 year with me. I am honoring you, as I embrace this energy unfolding, and keep your guidance close at heart in every thing I do.

66 Apples


apples4It’s that time of the year again for apple harvesting, as we approach the changing of seasons and rhythmic flow of cycles. It sure isn’t feeling like Autumn around here right now however, with crazy heat in the 90’s. I’ve been noticing when out and about, how plants and blooms are doing odd things with all these global shifts in weather.

Are the natural rhythms being completely thwarted in mirror to a large portion of the collective being out of tune with nature and/or messing with it, thinking they know better? Or is it that everything is learning to cultivate a reality of its own new rhythm of free will, in a world that has opted out of that choice? Perhaps it is all of these and then some. There are many ways to interpret things indeed and I’m constantly reflecting on it all.

applesHowever it may be, the apples seem to still be in their natural cycle, ready to be gathered, and so that is what I focused on.

The tree is much smaller than the ever-abundant tangerine, loquat, and persimmon here, however it still yields a beautiful little bounty. And this year that came in the form of 66 sweet little apples. So there will be a lot of apple creations over the next week or so, as I explore some ideas for some easy vegan apple goodies.

Apples and apple trees symbolize love, truth, peace, beauty, honesty, remembrance, honesty, purity, knowledge, wisdom, joyousness, fertility, abundance, and earthly desires.

And I found it quite interesting to receive 66 of them – a spiritual master number of love – unconditional love.

I66 applest is also a master number for faith, healing, and deep trust in the Divine. Not to mention carries the energy of transmutation and expanding consciousness, sometimes in the form of Kundalini awakenings. It also infuses a sense of sacredness to the seemingly trivial daily experiences with the desire to search for deeper and larger meaning to it all through meditative contemplation.

The number 6 on its own brings the energy of humanitarianism, service, home, simplicity, and grace, while focuses on the material in life and daily needs, reminding you to balance the physical and spiritual aspects of your life.

And when you see how the two are connected, then by living with conscious intent, you will find yourself always provided for while serving your life mission. Basically, live the truth of your essence and all is well, without need for fear, worry, and anxiety.

It also imparts a message that you give love freely and unconditionally, and this source of enjoyment in relationships is important. When you see a number repeated, it doubles and amplifies the essence of its energy in its individual state.

Yep, that all feels very personally appropriate as messages. And it’s interesting that the apples and the number 66 embody very mirroring vibrational energy.

Astro-Numerologist, Tania Gabrielle shares some interesting insights about the number 6. She expresses that 66 exhibits “a double ‘6th sense’ – an ability to connect with others intuitively  on such a deep level that you are able to coach them and support their goals.”

Words she found that add up to 66 include, “Discipleship, Resurrection, Spiritual Work, Transformation, and Woman.”

Tania shares that “6 is the number of the ‘cosmic parent’, compassion, responsibility and love and looks like a pregnant woman – and it is from the body of the woman that a child is born. When you double the 6, it makes 66 and symbolizes both father and mother.” And, when you then add the numbers 6 + 6 you get 12, which reduces to 1 + 2 or 3. (I happen to be a #3 by birth)

So 66 is actually also the vibration of the number 3, which, as Tania Gabrielle shares, “symbolizes creative perfection – mother, father, and child.”

twin applesI also found this little one here to be quite a fascinating discovery among the 66 – a twin apple! Two apples growing from one and so perfectly balanced. Seemed to be reflecting that unifying of divine parts within self that create wholeness. Also speaks to twin soul energy.

In addition, it could be symbolizing the birthing of something new from the pure essence of self, and that transmutational energy in process of alchemically shifting.

There are always so many layers to the simplicity around us. Very fun to explore, but even more meaningful when you start to connect the dots and see the story weaving in and around you.

You are never alone, as a constant dialogue of support is connecting with you daily.

All this from harvesting some 66 apples. 🙂

Celebrating Six Years With Gaia


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Gaia checking out my painting, “Air”, as I paint it in my Lake Tahoe solarium

I may not physically be with Gaia right now (my amazing Russian Tortoise friend), but am with her nonetheless in heart and celebrating “with” her regardless.

Yes, Gaia is still M.I.A. – and literally she IS “missing in action”, as she is off on another mission from which she intends to, and will only, return once she’s completed it.

I’ve shared before how determined and committed this mighty little one is – a constant guide and teacher for me in this and many regards – and so my sense is that if her mission takes all of her to complete, then she will transcend doing and being her wholeness.

How can I not love her more for that and honor and respect her immensely?

She’s been gone now, deep within Mother Earth (Gaia is within Gaia 🙂 ) for about two and a half months. She went away before to do very intensive energetic work with and in support of the Earth, but returned once that mission was complete. And now has departed again and I await her happy news of another mission accomplished, however that results.

I love her unconditionally and it’s no surprise that the souls in animal companion suits that I (and they) chose to partner up with, are all very committed souls on a mission. Sounds familiar. 😉 And their deep, focused, and unrelenting truth of heart investment into who they are, is the best example and constant reminder for me.

I’ve never known anyone like them in this way.

Anyway, I hadn’t had a dream about Gaia in a while, which is where my animal companions communicate with me, but she did show up the night before last.

I do not remember the dream anymore, like I usually do, except for the fact that it was different from the others energetically and I saw Gaia in her vibrant joy. I have two specific images of her from the dream that keep replaying in my mind from when she and I first came together and lived at Lake Tahoe. They are the images you see here.

gaia looking out solarium window at lake tahoe

Gaia looking out at Lake Tahoe from our home solarium, which was my office/art studio

So I know that wherever she is, she is wanting me to know that she is really happy and in her joyous truth, perhaps mission accomplished?, as well as wants to thank me and remind me of our beautiful friendship, since the images I see in my mind’s eye are from one of our favorite times ever together.

She likely is also remembering our anniversary, as where she is time is different than here and there are gaps in the sending of messages.

I believe she is reminding me of my own truth as well and the things she loves about me.

July 8th, 2008 is when she first came home with me and on the way home from picking her up, I received her name. So this is six years today that this amazing soul has graced this life I am living.

Six brings to mind the symbolism of this number and its spiritual meaning, which I’ve shared on before in my post Hexagons and Healings, since the number six is aligned with the Hexagon.

This includes six representing harmony, balance, soulful integration, perfect union, communication, sincerity, love, truth, enlightenment, naturally revealing solutions for us in a calm, unfolding manner, delicate diplomacy in sensitive matters, reliability, lighting our path in areas we require spiritual and mental balance, and encourages compassion and forgiveness.

These are perfect energies to feel into right now and so divinely reflect the relationship between Gaia and I, as well as focuses that would do the collective well to tune into and embody more.

I’m grateful for this reflection, as I celebrate the mutual love, respect, and honor shared between us. Thank you Gaia for being such a guiding light and powerful force, as well as for being so committed to supporting the Earth collective. I love you!

Surrounded by Serenity & Reflection: The Essence of a New Year Embodied in My First Day of 2013


First day of 2013

Gorgeous vista on the Bighorn Mine Trail

I always like to follow my own traditions and create new ways for celebrating that resonate with me. This year was no exception and having already felt like I had fully celebrated my idea of Christmas and the New Year while in Bimini just days before the holidays, I was feeling quite complete and ready to start integrating some of my inner journey that will hit come my birthday this year on February 26th, as I enter a #7 personal year in numerology.

I’ve consistently found that I am a couple months ahead in starting to integrate and process the next year’s energy right before it actually hits, always experiencing literal shifts that start to trickle in, as I put to closure the previous year’s energy.

Me on the Bighorn Mine Trail

For me, the trip in Bimini was closure to many things, as well as the beginning of a new journey. I foresee the promise of much beauty for all, as we enter a new cycle of our collective journey.

Violet energy surrounding a light orb

Moving into a 7 personal year promises to bring more deep reflection, introspection, contemplation, meditation, pause, and time spent exploring life’s deeper truths and how these convey through my actions. This seems perfectly aligned with how I have been feeling after quite a full year of experiences, focused work, and an integration of Yang that brought trials and tribulations and Yin that through embracing the process and doing the work, created a sense of harmonious peace within.

Glowing light orb as it moves from the violet

#7 years provide opportunity to come to a greater awareness of your full potential and to honor and understand when personal time is needed to be within one’s own experience or in quiet activities. A time for letting things come to you, realizing the power of intents and the foundations of hard work invested, so as to experience thoughts and ideas materializing now from all your efforts. Definitely it’s a time for gaining greater insight, efficiency, and powerful centeredness, to fully understand and experience the full circle of being alone, without every being or feeling lonely. In general, gaining depth of understanding, refinement of skills and talents, knowing when to withdraw or free yourself from outside responsibilities to find the balance needed for wholeness and inner peace, and a time when integrating clear thoughts are at a high. Cultivating these skills will produce valuable results.

Each birthday cycle we all enter a new personal year that carries with it the energy of the number it corresponds to numerologically, as well as do we collectively enter a new year of shared experiences at the birth of each New Year. I shared a bit about the collective #6 year we are entering in yesterday’s post on Reiki Workshops that support the energy of 2013.

As 2012 neared end, I was already feeling the shift into this more reflective mode and the need to bring in even more within time to myself or away from the outside world, so as to hone in on truly integrating and bringing fullness and depth to all that is being cultivated right now with my soul integration experience. Really honoring the need to balance the energies and what the body and soul desires to be of greatest benefit to it (being mindful of where to place focus and energy), is not only reflective of my personal 7 year I’m moving into, but is truly the way we are all moving into needing to learn to understand and honor to reach great potentials.

Of course this inner journey reflects through the type of work I will be focusing on and how that work also manifests, including the way things will come through me in the process – all really resulting in a deepening experience all around and the need to sit with the quietness in order to receive what wants to be shared and how. Definitely a tapping in to Source with greater conscious presence, as there are always unlimited ways to further our experiences. Sometimes I am able to be amidst tons of outer things and be fine, as the energy calls for that, but now there will be a weighing of what works best with the energy currents I am experiencing both inside and in mirror of the collective Earth’s energy, so reflection and recharging will become more prevalent.

Small light orb has now moved to base of left tree

Interestingly, this is the year I am feeling called to Tibet, which chimes perfectly in tune with my energy vibrations. On New Year’s day, I felt like the experience chosen to have, to honor the first of 2013, was in direct alignment with all that I’m expressing and what I am preparing for in Tibet.

Welcoming in the first day of the New Year immersing in the serenity and purity of the snow at Mt. Baden Powell was a beautiful way to kick start things. It was perfect and magickal to get away from everything in the mountains and be with the stillness that surrounded both within and without. Dave and I drove up to the San Gabriel Mountains to an area south-west of the town of Wrightwood with a packed picnic lunch of raw vegan goodies for the day and set out on a two mile trail that scaled the mountain side and then trekked another 4 miles in the snow on the Bighorn Mine Trail, perched at 7,000 feet, where we explored some old gold mines dating back to the early to mid 1890’s.

Bighorn Mine – notice sort of a rainbow energy coming from the mine shaft hole to the right

Bighorn Mile Trail: The trail starts in the Vincent Gap Parking lot, along with the Mine Gulch Trail. Soon after the start, the Mine Gulch Trail drops down into Vincent Gulch while the Bighorn Mine Trail continues around the side of Mt Baden Powell. Less than half way through the trail there is a mining tunnel on the side of the mountain, right on the trail. As you continue around the side of the mountain, eventually you will hit the main Bighorn Mine, which has mining structures and tunnels. This area is rich in history, as mining played a role in the past of the town of Wrightwood. The mine itself is closed off, however the views from this area are amazing as you peer over Mine Gulch, down toward the San Gabriel River Basin (East Fork). Like most places in the Sheep Mountain Wilderness, you can also see Pine Mountain, Dawson Peak, Mt Baldy, Iron Mountain, Blue Ridge, and Pine Mountain Ridge.

Rainbow energy inside the mine now – do you think there’s a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow they are leading me to? Certainly felt to be elves and faeries present on this hike

The first mine is closed off with a little flow of water coming from it. The second is no longer fully closed off, as a hole has been created large enough to climb inside and so we did indeed explore the first section of it where there is also some water run off. Enter at your own risk! Getting to this area in the snow was quite a trek and with areas of very narrow trail, snow and ice, with steep drop off on one side, it definitely is one to take with great care and patience, but well worth it for the serenity, majestic views, and to visit this old mine cradled in the side of the mountain.

There was indeed a presence of energy felt on this day and in and around the second mine, which showed up in a few of the photos. (See photo captions and click on each photo to enlarge for detail). The experiences and photos really seemed to tell the energetic tale of what I feel to come and what I received in my annual New Year’s Eve tarot reading share trade 😉

The signs are clear, the support is there, the foundational work has been laid, the commitments and responsibility embraced….This trek on the Bighorn trail was very reflective of my current journey, the orbs of support met along the way, both the ease and some of the integrated challenges still to come, and the destination of the gold mine at rainbow’s end, was a beautiful message of continued trust, gratitude, and patience, for all things are coming together beautifully in the bigger picture of creation.

Always grateful for the supportive guidance and love experienced, felt, and making itself known.

On the way home we were detoured through the Mojave Desert, which lies on one side of the mountain. It was definitely the out-of-the-way longer route home, but seemed to add to the energy of patient reflection and being able to take in the desert and mountain experience.

Red orb energy with something inside it showing up next to me inside the mine looking towards the opening

Same vantage point looking towards the opening of the mine with no red orb

The day was a beautiful experience within, reminding me of my beloved Lake Tahoe home I miss and how much I love to “be” in the stillness of nature’s beauty, as well as how much I love and thrive at high altitudes. Another foreshadowing of my soul connection to Tibet and how much I enjoyed trekking in the high altitudes of Peru up to 15,000 feet and living at the glacial, crystalline, and alpine lake of Tahoe.

It was the perfect way to experience and honor the new energy of 2013 and to anchor in the integration of a new experience personally and collectively.

I hope you all spent the welcoming of 2013 in your own sacred way. ♥ It is going to be a beautiful year.

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