This year has been very different for everyone, shifting even the way many of us celebrate the holidays. While distancing became the passing norm, experiences that invited our creativity became the connective new.
Although 2020 dealt a mixed bag of surprises, one of the key themes Dave and I deepened into was how precious and fragile life and every moment is. So finding ways to make the most of everything and seeing only what there was to be grateful for, kept hitting home as the important reminder.
This year saw us sharing online gatherings with friends and family afar that we otherwise never would have had so much time with.
And personally, this year saw me being able to support and connect with so many incredible souls with online classes and events, that otherwise would never have felt possible. This in turn opened me to much more expansive possibilities I once had felt the doors close on. It also helped to raise the vibrations for others that were ready to take the next leap on their journey – and that simultaneously helps the collective.
Portals are becoming more evident as the veils continue lifting. A new doorway of experience is available as the collective shifts into accelerated being. When I’m in nature, I can feel the layers of richness evolving before my eyes and the possibilities stir under the surface.
This year, while challenging for so many, has offered us an incredible fertile ground for new growth and potential. Where we may have felt freedoms infringed upon, we had the ability to deepen into the most important freedoms no one could ever take away from us – and these include the way we choose to create our reality through perception and reflection and how we experience our inner world that no one can master for us, but ourselves.
We also have always had the music of our hearts to listen to, and our imaginations where we can harness creative energy toward manifesting our hopes and dreams. These are gifts of our spirit in body where we are always free to roam and explore.
It’s one reason I feel it’s important to never lose our innocence, because it’s in that purity of curiosity, wonder, and belief, that so much is possible.
This year we have been spending the holidays on our own. It’s been a year of feeling the connection and love, despite not being with others because that is a bond that can’t be broken by distance.
Love transcends all boundaries and I know this very well with the passing of so many who have been the most dearest to me. There truly is no separation within the vortex of our heart bridges.
Usually we’d be at my parents’ home celebrating Christmas, if we aren’t away on travels. This year we are having an intimate holiday instead, which goes with the theme of our year that also included a wedding on our own.
On some level this feels important for something we have yet to see the why’s of, and even if that’s just about anchoring more into our embodiment, essence, empowerment, and new relationship to everything and everyone through the relationship we have nurtured within over 2020, then that is good enough for me.
If it’s simply to know love more through the dance of our own parts merging as one, then this feels rich with possibility for experiencing a more expansive kind of love with all of creation.
Although we are sharing a sweet Christmas at home, I did get to have a wonder-filled visit exploring my parents’ Christmas realm that is the most elaborate of all years yet.
I didn’t photograph everything, but since it’s been kind of a tradition to take you on a journey through my parents’ ever-childlike-hearts that mirror my own, I thought I’d share some peeks into their gingerbread wonderland that can warm anyone’s heart.
The photos you have seen throughout the post so far are of their creative imaginations come to life.
My parents know how to create warmth and magick all throughout the year and it’s no wonder that I have followed in their footsteps with my own sacred space, as you saw in yesterday’s share of my Wonderland room.
The next photos are of my dear Queen Astrid enjoying her Solstice, Christmas Eve, and Christmas surprises, as every Faery Rabbit Queen deserves sparkly fun to tickle her heart too.
And it’s also part of my path to share how every soul is important, has consciousness, intelligence, feelings, personality, and their own purpose in life.
I may not live any kind of conventional life, nor do I have any resemblance to that kind of family or cocreative business partnerships, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.
It’s taken me a lifetime to fully embody, in peace and transparency, my human expression of essence. And while this feels like the beginning still, it’s pure harmony to me.
My dear soul mate in rabbit body – Astrid – The Queen of this realm and my heart, keeps me on my toes, centered, focused, and balanced, while helping to channel the work that we do.
Everything I do, create, and move through me is all done with a Magick Rabbit by my side.
“Creating life as a work of art with a Magick Rabbit by my side” isn’t my motto for nothing. It’s the reality of my life. It’s who I am.
And I wouldn’t have it any other way.
This is me in my harmony, heart zone.
And the Winter Solstice and Christmas season is part of that harmony, heart zone…the pieces of me that are most meaningful, find ease and grace during this sparkly and enchanted season of pure potential.
Sending out magickal wishes, sprinkles of pixie dust, and bunny nose twitches of energetic potency and love!
May your hearts grow in depth and size with each embracive breath taken.
It doesn’t take much to make an impact. Small acts of kindness go along way – even farther than you’ll ever know, nor need to. A simple smile, hello, or telling someone they’re beautiful or that you appreciate them can change the course of that person’s life just when they need it most.
You might never know how your little bit of heartfelt compassion will affect someone, but doing something “just because” is where the most value is. Only the ego needs to understand the result. The higher self and heart already know the intrinsic value that goes without mention.
Just recently, as Dave’s life has shifted tremendously with his work coming to closure, he’s been exploring and discovering new parts of himself that desire an outlet of expression. Like many of us, life shifts are anchoring and taking on new meaning and so, too, has he been enjoying the organic process of how that is evolving.
It’s been heart-warming and sweet to watch Dave’s unfolding creative soul finding a new voice. And while this will continue to shift, as they always do once we embrace and take action on what is showing up in the moment, the joy he is experiencing is the same I know others are and will from what he’s putting out.
Just recently, on his own, he supported the nudge he got to start painting rocks and pieces of wood he found with simple messages and joyous images to leave on the trails we hike daily.
He was looking into buying some paints, but I told him he could just share mine. I was excited to supply him with the tools, including some inside pointers on using them and a lot of encouraging support with his idea. I happen to be working on two commissioned art projects currently, so we’re both in artsy mode, together, right now.
This is the first time I’ve ever seen him paint, let alone draw. And how sweet it was to watch!
I love what he’s created so far. He even made two rocks inspired by our rabbits, Cosmo and Joy, and some inspired by our Russian tortoise, Gaia.
He even included a bear, which is interesting because bear energy, as you might recall me sharing has been so prominent in my life this year both in the most recurring dream themes and in real-life sightings. And, just a couple of nights ago, bear returned again in an interesting unfolding that included a specific interaction with Dave – unbeknownst to him until I told him, but he’d already created the bear rock above.
So far he’s left two on a recent trail we did before the snow storm. I just had to document it for him, as you can see in these photos of him placing them for people to see along the trail.
Part of the fun, he said, is that the rocks will go to whom they are meant to be with. Being observant is part of that process and the rest is about alignment.
Some people may even just receive the message in heart, but decide to leave them there for other fellow explorers to discover as well.
It was almost like an Easter egg hunt with him placing them in different spots, except the rocks are not hidden. They are deliberate in terms of passing along a message and a smile.
I won’t say where these first ones were placed, but if you’re local to the area, you just might find one along a trail you explore.
He painted several more, some of which we’re taking with us on our upcoming road trip we’re leaving for tomorrow, so that he can place them on trails at our destination, too.
Spreading small acts of kindness through the creative heart is one way you can add a little light in someone’s life.
You might recall that while on our Magick Bus adventure, while gypsy-living in an rv for nearly two years, I started creating Magick Stones from the beautiful rock beings that spoke to me on our journeys.
I love that Dave came up with his own expression of rock art and how he wanted to share joy, peace, patience, and love with others – who knows what other messages he will add too! It’s fun seeing him having fun and letting his inner child out more and more.
I want this to be his project, but I did find just one rock that spoke to me while he was gathering rocks and wood for himself – it was a heart-shaped rock that felt important to share too.
And so I painted this stone yesterday before working on a mini wood portal painting, to add to his that we’ll be dispersing along trails on our mini vacation away.
I love the idea of merging our creative, child-like hearts.
So, yes, I’ll be away between the 12th (tomorrow) and 17th of this month, which put a short delay on sharing the new offerings I mentioned because of preparations and work I needed to get done. I’ve also been working on a couple of commissioned art projects and so my days have been full alongside enjoying snow shoeing adventures from our recent storm. I’m actually going to be doing a little fun work on this trip, as the energy of where we’re headed feels to be inspiring for both painting and idea-flow. So, there’s potential I might share a blog one time while I’m away. Otherwise, we’ll be immersing in our own personal journey this week to both celebrate and receive guidance on what’s to come.
Never underestimate the power of a simple act or expression. If your heart is nudging you to do something, do it. It could change someone’s life, including your own.
Whimsical Wednesdays ~ The Artist’s Corner: Nature’s Art Reflects Living Life Beyond the Veil – Beltane Peace & Heart Potential
I don’t post blogs as often these days, and mostly stick to themes when I do, but now and then I feel to share something that nudges me and today is one of those days with the energy in these photos coinciding with Beltane today.
Two days ago I went on a short evening hike out back by myself to take a break from manuscript work to connect with nature. The weather was lovely and warm and the air held something different in it. I took these photos, as the light called me.
Each time I looked at the sunlight peeking through the trees I would see tiny, fast shooting gold filaments, but the photos later revealed the unusual feelings I had.
I didn’t pay attention to Beltane approaching, but it was obvious the thinning of veils had already begun.
You can feel the dance of faery and sprite energy in the water, light, and forest. Faces and beings staring back at me all around.
But you can also actually see the light revealing what appears as a separation of dimensions – a veil parting ways.
The light this day was glowing differently and illuminating in unusual ways or radiating like an arrow.
You can see a golden ray shooting out in this one that then shifts into rainbow light that splits in two strands into the water.
After the couple of weeks of warming here, yesterday brought a cold day on in the middle of it with temperatures dropping to the 40’s after 60’s and sometimes even 70 degrees here in the mountains. Clouds moved in and out, winds blew in, and at the end of the day a very light veil of tiny snow flurries came down. Just barely enough to see with the naked eye, but did not settle. It appeared like an armada of faeries surrounding the house and created that separation effect of dimensions.
Today we are back to warm sunshine, as if the cold never was.
An interesting intermingling of Sacred Masculine and Feminine energies dancing back and forth, as the veils lift and harmony is revealed.
I’ve always loved this image of Cosmo out back in our yard where we used to live. To me, it is a beautiful reflection of his Sacred Male energy in total harmony and embrace of the Sacred Female embodied in our Earth Mother, Terra. The epitome of this precious dance of life and creation in its fertile abundance and purity.
Beltane is about honoring life at this peak period of Spring unfolding into Summer when everything is blossoming with potent and abundant fertility and the conception of ideas, intents, and dreams are ripe with potential. We become pregnant with opportunity for renewal, growth, vitality, passion, and joy that offer a chance to bring hopes, dreams, and ideas into active fruition.
The faeries remind us to have fun with it all and not to forget that a time for play is much needed too.
Look around you at the landscape of sprouts and buds vigorously reaching for the Sun and dancing in the breeze. They remind us to bring forth the depths of our hearts into the light even when we think there’s no reason to ever shine that again.
If even just to feel the sunlight dance on your skin and dreams, so be it.
Nature reminds us that everything has a cycle and now is a time to take up that joyful part of your secret world you keep only to yourself and nurture it a little bit more.
Today is opportune to set forth intentions and promises to yourself and ask for assistance, as you take an active step toward what ever it is you would like to see more of in your life.
I plan to do another little hike out back today and spend some sunshine time to ground in my own peace and clarity.
I have to giggle, although had slightly gasped, as a spider again just scurried along the edge of my desk by my arm as I typed, making his way for my keyboard. I scared him with my quick pull away of my arm and as I just wrote that he was running down my tapestry in front of me. 😉
You might enjoy Lee’s Energy Update for May to kick off this month and help you to hone in on the intentions you’d like to focus on more and even ask nature, the elementals and faeries to assist with.
Lee talks about both a continued acceleration and grounded peace and heart energy that are dancing together right now. He speaks to a new wave of people awakening to greater awareness than they have before in different ways and will be more ready for conversations they weren’t open to in the past.
Heartfelt conversations are more possible with the willingness to allow your heart to find different ways to engage others.
He also talks about “happiness as peace” which speaks to finding more ways to bring through your joy into life as a means of creating peacefulness. Any little thing that brings that to you is valuable even if something small like sitting outside listening to the birds, cleaning, shutting off electronics for a bit, reading a book, taking a walk, doodling or painting, laying down to day dream….bringing forth more stillness and self-care creates peace, grounding, and greater fulfillment.
Saturday the 27th we welcomed the Gaden Shartse Monks to our new home to conduct a house blessing ceremony for us. We’d met them on Tuesday evening at the Green Tara Puja Blessing and Tea Offering held at The Loft here at the Lake and knew then that the timing of their arrival and our house completion was meant to be. Not to mention was within the influence of Wednesday’s upcoming rare Super Blue Blood Moon Total Lunar Eclipse and Imbolc, all creating some wonderful celebrations for this threshold to the new and our new life adventure in our new home base Forest Portal sanctuary.
The ceremony and experience was more than we could have imagined. We’d attended a house blessing once about five years ago or so, which had also been conducted by a female Buddhist monk. Although a lovely experience, it was very different than what we shared at our home, which felt perfectly aligned with us. We didn’t know what to expect and therefore expected nothing, which made it even more of a warm surprise.
Everything down to the number of people who were present, ended up to be divinely put together. We were 11 – the master number known as “The Illuminator,” “The Messenger,” or “The Teacher.” It draws forth the energy of illumination, enlightenment, inspiration, transformation, balance, inspirational guidance, creativity, vision, refinement, and fulfillment.
Through one reason or another, just like with Reiki classes, people weren’t able to come at the last minute and even one of the five monks didn’t come because of preparation for the event after our house blessing where he would be channeling a deity. Eleven also aligns with our house address numerology being 11 too! No coincidence there.
We did end up with five monks, as Lobsang Wangchuk – the director of the Gaden Shartse Cultural Foundation who was a monk for 25 years, but now coordinates their tours, came with them, which was wonderful, as he very thoroughly described everything that we would be experiencing during the ceremony and what the monks would be doing in their ritual.
I had prepared a light spread of hospitality for them, which we enjoyed after the ceremony was complete.
This included my baked almond cheese ball coated with field of flowers peppercorn medley and a mandala of raw chocolate truffles made with hazelnuts and dipped in cacao butter mixed with matcha green tea and ginger for the green balls and turmeric for the yellow balls.
The rest was store bought treats and veggie delights along with organic mint melange tea and organic, decaf French roast coffee.
Our home seemed to have the perfect set up for them, and it was fun to watch them prepare everything to ready the setting for this special experience. The TV cabinet above with bamboo runner and Buddha are ours, as well as the two plants they used to add to their ceremonial set up.
As you might recall, I had fallen in love with one of the Tibetan signing bowls at the Tuesday event, but not having cash or check with me, was unable to purchase it at that time. I kept feeling its connection and before the house blessing had texted with one of the coordinators, asking that if by chance it was still available, if it could be brought to our house when the monks came.
The first thing I was presented when they arrived, along with the sweet smiles and warm hand clasps, was my bowl.
Another wonderful blessing, as I love it so! It has a wonderful tone that I feel at the core of me and is so easy to play.
After preparations, we sat in the living room, listened to the explanation of what we were about to experience, and then went into a peaceful state of receiving from the melodious chanting, song, and tones of the monks. It was so beautiful.
We don’t have any of this long portion of sacred sound and invoking on video, but the sacredness feels too intimate to share that part of the ceremony, even if we did. I’m also not sharing any of the videos taken for the same reason, but the few photo captures give you an idea of the energy.
The night of the Green Tara Puja Blessing was lovely, but this truly topped that taking our home into several octaves higher of frequency and transporting me through portals and elevated states of chilling and unbounded love.
During the ceremony I felt the sun’s glow come around and illuminate my face….it felt like All That Is and the presence of Love laying a warm kiss upon my spirit.
The ritual lasted about an hour and then we immediately moved into the individual blessing of every room in the house, where we guided them around, one by one and they added their love, protection, and seeds of possibilities to every space.
We do have several Buddhas in our home, and the way our house was set up created a perfect sanctuary for the monks to feel at home.
I love how they stopped at the meditation part of our downstairs family room where we have a wood Buddha sculptured plaque hanging between my two paintings, “The Mystic” and “Temple of the Sacred Heart” and Buddha statues. This wall is shared by my office on the other side that has a matching green round shag rug.
At completion, once we ascended the stairs, we were then presented with a certificate by the monks of appreciation, a Ruel to hang above our door or at our entry (a Tibetan amulet that is considered to be the most powerful protection against black magic and in general protects against any unforeseen factors that could affect your life at every level, as well as screens the energy of everyone who comes to your door to keep away non-resonant energy), a white scarf (known as a khata – white represents the east, water, and peace – perfect for two water signs), and everyone present received a five-colored, braided cord that represent the five elements and five pure lights blessed by the Dalai Lama and all 1500 of the monks from the monastery – meant to be worn always to provide protection and “according to traditional Tibetan medicine, health and harmony are produced through the balance of these five elements.”
We then enjoyed food and drink, along with conversation that included learning about the monastery and a personal invitation to visit them and be their guests there. We were also gifted the water used for the house blessing and the “nectar,” which Lobsang explained thoroughly to us and how we could keep this and drink of it in parts when we wanted to infuse our bodies with its radiant illumination.
The whole experience with the monks was a little over an hour and a half and then we continued with food and celebrations after a heartfelt farewell for now.
This was a very special occasion and for anyone who hasn’t experienced one, I am sharing just a few photos that some of the participants captured for us, since we were very absorbed and present with the ceremony. A way for us to remember this sacred day too.
Gratitude and love aren’t enough to say in words, for what we feel, but the sweetness and peaceful lightness of this day will always be remembered and cherished, and the monks will always have a dear place in our hearts.
The monks will be continuing their U.S. tour and returning to Carson City next year, so we’ll get another chance to see them before they head home. If this calls to you to experience one of their events or blessings (they do personal and house blessings) please check out the link to their website above, as they may be traveling through your area, or returning again through your area as they are doing here.
I’ve been immersed in house stuff here in an all-consuming way these days, but am beginning to see the light and space is opening for more. Yesterday a lot of major things came to closure with the house, including the end of a 4 1/2 day stint my mom put in to help me out with the hardest stuff here. We still have a couple of last big projects to finalize and then some last minute tie-ins, but we’re almost there and the days of having several teams of contractors in the house all at once are over. Holding the peace within chaos will now simply settle into pure peace.
And the timing couldn’t be more perfect, as winds started blowing in a little storm last night and this morning we woke to it snowing, perfectly timed to create a wonderland for Winter Solstice tomorrow. Timing all around truly is aligned for Christmas gifts galore and our having some stillness and relaxing for the holiday and New Year.
The seasons remind you of the ever-shifting and flowing cycles of life, change, and potential to honor and make space for. Winter Solstice reminds you of the light that you are, as a gateway of sacred reverence for a “return to light” in general.
I find it perfect that our fireplace is 95% complete, and will be finalized tomorrow on the Solstice…wonderful way to ring in this change of season with the flame of warmth and inner truth.
You can visualize this as well in seeing the light and inner fire of your heart and soul expanding and filling your entire body and emanating out and joining with the light of our Great Central Sun, allowing yourself to take up more space and be who you really are.
This entire home remodeling project definitely mirrors, to me, a support to that – being “me” – and the ending of the old and the onset of the new, as well as that movement inward at this time of year to do anchor in things that will be blossoming soon.
I’m super grateful to my mom who always comes to the rescue to help whenever I have moved over the years. She’s helped with all moves except the one from house to RV – Magick Bus – and back to house after that journey. We always get tons done quickly and inhumanly at times – all the while laughing along the way. We are definitely a two-Faery team that moves mountains! There’s nothing we can’t do.
I’m especially excited because my new office/Faery/Bunny Magick Room is 90% complete, which means I’ll be in action here shortly again – full throttle! Loving how it’s come together and how Astrid’s things are looking. I haven’t introduced her to it yet because I’d like it all complete before that. Plus, her new abode and things are meant as Christmas gifts to her. So the timing should be perfect for the big reveal on that to her too!
I’ll share photos when things are complete. I’m looking forward to getting back to my creative projects and especially full time on my book.
I was able to jump into it twice recently, which felt really good and got Astrid all excited, as she sat by my feet nosing me the whole time and acting as my little helper and guardian to ensure no one bothered me.
She’s been shifting a lot again lately, which is fun to see. Getting super interactive, snuggly, and doing her work moving energy through the house. With my mom here a few days she was also able to connect more with her Grandma, which was sweet so they have a stronger channel of communication between them now.
Reading my story from the Forest Portal felt oh so good. I could sense the energy difference and also how that will help with the editing process for sure. Other than getting our house in shape, my book is the most important project to me.
My loved ones, learning to anchor in more peace and more harmony, communing with Nature, tuning into the Cosmos, and being more and more me are my greatest joys and focuses these days.
That’s a little update here from the Forest Portal and how things are aligning and shaping up for the Solstice, Christmas, and the New Year. We’ll be spending Christmas at my family’s house and I’ll be continuing to finalize and anchor in things here so the New Year will be fresh and fertile for the new.
Wishing everyone an inner illuminating, peace and harmony filled Winter Solstice.
Being able to know and experience peace doesn’t equate to constant bliss, but instead speaks to your ability to move into that centered place of harmony at any moment amidst chaos.
To me, ecstatic bliss is the opposite of chaos or the doldrums and creates a “this” or “that” view, but the harmonic frequency is one that dances without conditions and judgment, is always in tune with the origins of its voice, and knows only of the IS.
Days have been CRAZY busy lately and increasingly will be in the coming weeks, as we prepare for moving in and remodeling continues to rapidly increase with overlapping contractors to accommodate that. Although work will continue through January, we should have enough done upstairs to get in at Thanksgiving, as long as things continue as they are. We’re also flowing with what shows up and ready to adjust that timing if need be.
We weren’t able to find a general contractor we liked and was affordable to handle everything that we are, so we are the general contractors to our 15 or so different contractors, at times shifting the responsibilities back and forth, as well as sharing them together to manage it all.
It’s A LOT (as many of you may know from your own experience), as it isn’t just one simple change here and there like just new flooring, choosing paint colors, or remodeling say a kitchen or bath. It basically has entailed literally gutting/demoing most of the entire inside of the house and starting from scratch, other than the foundational footprint and layout. Our first time doing a full-on remodel, as the closest we came was in our Costa Mesa house, which we redid a lot in, but nothing like to this extent AND there we actually had a general contractor. So it’s been a great process of learning and understanding how it all works.
The entire outside hasn’t been touched (other than adding our new 8 Austrian Pines and adding a walkway bridge from my new office here shortly), but the inside is getting a whole new face lift on every level, which to me symbolizes transforming things on the inside for us too.
When Spring comes we’ll look at working on the yard and implementing some ideas there. Step by step.
On top of this, we also had to manage, and in some cases did the work ourselves, some changes and fixes to our tree house condo to prepare it for the new tenants. So we’ve been managing both places, on top of scheduling everything to align timing-wise with all that each entails. You throw in regular life, work, our other side projects we manage together, and my editing and what not, and it’s quite a lot to juggle. We may not have human children, but we do have animal children, all of whom are very sensitive, and we can tell that they are anxious to get to the new place too and so we do our best to keep equilibrium with everything and hold peace for it all.
It’s not always the easiest thing to do when there is so much being thrown at you at once. It can kind of get overwhelming, so you do need to have those anchors in place to center and balance you back so you don’t get caught up in the stress. That entails a lot of flexibility and willingness to readjust your position, and for us, has strengthened our clarity with how to communicate with others and ourselves, and of course never take something personally. I/we are learning so much through this process, not to mention, growing in new ways.
So while things might appear the same on the outside of our new home, they in fact will be operating from a whole new internal circuitry, shifting us into a different feeling experience and reality. The new trees outside are rooting new pathways for us and connection to the forest and bigger picture collective reality we’re settling into, but the foundation is solid on which we’re working from, which is good.
So, since the foundation and structure is strong, that feels anchoring of the new we’ve been working on that is solid and in place already, which is holding everything together while we reconfigure, continue to shift, upgrade, integrate, assimilate, grow into the more expansive shoes holding space for us, and create what this new is like on the inside. The fun part is, it’s all our creative choice as to how we want that to feel and look.
It’s interesting that my foot has healed just as the major crunch time with the house is happening too and timely because Dave hadn’t been feeling well the last two weeks so there were things I needed to take over, which driving and walking allowed for. Everything sort of rewired at the same aligned time and it’s been cool that I used the forest backyard as part of my strengthening of my foot and the backdrop for all of this inner circuitry of moving parts and people weaving together.
Needless to say, this is simply a little break I’m taking to provide this update, as it feels reflective of things that others might derive some symbolism from too and may mirror what you’re experiencing, from one perspective of how to view them that you may not have thought of.
Plus, it’s always therapeutic, I find, to write about things and move energy.
It also lends to why you will increasingly see less posts during this crunch time, or very simple ones, because simply I’m quite occupied in other areas right now – like BIG TIME!
So much so that even my editing has had to take the back burner for the last nearly week (with sporadic bursts when I could), so that I can not only attend to things needed, but stay on top of self nurturing, rest, and keeping balanced.
I don’t force things simply because I have a goal, because ultimately if I’m not at my best, I can’t give my best to anything and what I create will only be a small or smaller percentage of its potential.
This home base feels key right now.
I have also found that currently this approach of flowing with the energy that shows up has been ideal for my editing (I’m on my second run-through of my book) because now and then we need to step away from things to return with a fresh perspective, sometimes completely removing ourselves altogether from it for a time period.
So unless I get a very strong message that I really need to amp things up to align the timing of my book with things energetically, I’ll be inclined to trust what is showing up as where to focus, so I will be invigorated when I return to it and the process will be speedy, rather than feel labored or take ages to work through even a few sentences.
Of course, we can self-sabotage ourselves and find ways to avoid things, so it’s important to stay on top of authenticity, responsibility, and being honest with ourselves for why we are or aren’t doing something.
I check in constantly to make sure of this and am assured that right now there is a window available of letting it sit in the background percolating, while I put into place important things and keep healthy and strong.
But I assure you that I do feel a sense of timing with my book, yet trust as long as I keep moving the energy in some way, I’ll know when to jump back in fully. And I also know when I do, that it will flow more easily than what I felt right before I stepped away to handle other things. The energy was heavier and not fluid, as I usually feel. Hence, a perfect transition time.
Amidst it all, I do still feel peace mixed with excitement, as well as moments of overwhelm mixed with complete surrender. There’s that feeling of perfection with the now and also this anticipation for the new anchoring. There’s that gratitude for all that has been to create the now and also this wonder about what I can envision becoming. So yes, lots of duality dancing with each other in balance, which I only differentiate when I write, in order to explain what takes place as this simultaneously seamless experiencing.
Perhaps it’s much like my hair’s unified duality that you see here in the most recent reflective photo of me beginning this new phase of my life.
I’ve also noticed Astrid is going through her own transitions with things right now too, which isn’t surprising. She is definitely reconfiguring things for herself, too, and learning what it means to be loved for who she is, which is encouraging her to discover how she really wants to share herself not because of fears or conditioning, but because it’s simply what feels right for her. So she’s working that out through explorations.
Interestingly, I have been getting ideas for the next project already, so I know that if that is anchoring, just as the house anchored in foundation while we rework the insides, that the infrastructure and insides of my book will rework themselves too in perfect timing.
Anchoring seems to be key, at least in my experience, then the pieces start to come together with the rest.
In the interim, so many animal spirit guides show up consistently for me due to my strong connection there, reflecting their own pieces of the story.
So many in recent weeks have shown up, that hadn’t for some time like the bears, the deer, and countless little ones all around.
I even had a hawk again outside our deck visiting several days ago. This time soaring with deliberate intent for me to see. You might remember the one that came and landed on the banister looking in on me. Well, this one my own hawk eye caught sight of down quite a ways below. I told Dave immediately, “watch, he’s going to come to us.”
And he did.
He suddenly turned around and started soaring closer and closer until he literally was soaring directly in front of our door going to the right first, disappearing at roof level, then soaring back to the left and directly in front again, then disappearing above one more time, and back to the right until he then flew off. Three fly-by’s, but each soaring in place so I could see all his feather detail and he confirmed hearing me tell Dave he was coming.
Hawk always feels to me to be about navigating and staying on path with deep presence and awareness, being open to and taking in wider perspectives, trusting my insights as they speak my truth, taking decisive actions with strength of vision and initiative behind them after surveying all creative possibilities, and knowing I have the ability to move through anything with grace and am being watched over by divine guardianship. Definitely good confirmation for it being time to bring forth gifts into action, but also a time to not act impulsively and await those air stream propulsions by assimilating everything to create alchemical alignment.
And just a few days, while on our way home, I counted 17 hawks that showed themselves (I think the most has been 44), and as we were on our way back up the mountain to our tree house – I was driving – my hawk eye caught two coyotes to the right at the side of the mountain.
They were very camouflaged and otherwise would not be seen, unless you knew where to look and how to make them out. I immediately told Dave and pointed, slowing down, and he saw them while remarking how much they blended in.
I normally have only see one coyote at a time, but two together felt significant.
Their medicine speaks to me of all things being sacred – so yes even the uncomfortable processes and the times you feel all you can do is focus on survival – that laughter and playfulness is always important to have running behind the scenes (a big one for me that I keep cultivated), about cunning and knowing how to balance risk and safety, about adaptability and the need to stay flexible always especially in seeing another way, about instinct being important to connect to, and yes about that trickster energy, but more about having integrated dual sides skillfully of wisdom and foolishness that help us learn. As way-makers they’ve been known by many to be symbolic of endings and making way for new beginnings. They also are known to mate for life and know how to nurture and protect their family – that stands out to me in seeing two this time for the first time.
And not more than two minutes after, my hawk eye caught two deer to the left on the side of the mountain this time. I slowed down again to point out to Dave who then saw them, remarking it was quite a wildlife sighting day. 🙂
The coyotes medicine was balanced out, and in some ways enhanced, with deer medicine of love, grace, gentleness, compassion, innocence, peace, beauty, fertility, femininity, humility, swiftness, acceptance, regrowth, renewal, creativity, spirituality, psychic power, subtlety, higher connection, awareness, abundance, benevolence, and watchfulness. Interesting to note there were TWO again. Really emphasizing that divine union, duality in balance, and sacred relationship with the parts within and without.
Interesting that there was predator and then prey – another balance exhibited in Nature’s cycles and not too far off from collective things exhibiting themselves a lot these days.
I will continue to draw upon their meanings for me personally, as I move through these full days and equally full and symbolic nights of layered dreams and even more animals spirit guides showing up in them to include, bat, spider, cats, and rabbits.
There is much going on with everyone everywhere and not only is there a lot of things being unveiled in the collective as well, surfacing as challenges in order to help to heal, but I know of many dear friends going through huge hurdles right now and I can’t help but feel both a sense of withdrawal to preserve my energy, but also this inversion within that withdrawal of deepening into greater ways of being able to share my love with them all. More duality playing out in a unified way that makes sense only to the heart.
I wish everyone greater peace with all that you are experiencing directly or indirectly. It’s something I constantly work on for myself as well, to know peace and harmony more intimately by the day.
We are reconfiguring things for sure and where it leads is unknown, but can only be navigated by a heart anchored in love.
Challenge Yourself to Find New Perspective & Create Balance While Moving Through the Times In Between
Finding gifts, meaning, purpose, opportunity for expansion and new perspectives, challenges to rise to and invoke greater creativity and imagination, the silver lining, and love in everything that shows up in my life is the way I choose to live and is what helps me to flow with the rapidly shifting experiences and potential hurdles that reflect themselves to me. There are many ways in which life can be lived, and many ways in which we can adapt our reactions into more conscious and present responses.
Currently, we have a lot going on here for the next few months, which could be stressful and debilitating if we allowed that to take hold, but each day I keep singing, giggling, and tackling each hurdle as they come, greeting each morning with gratitude and finding lightness in my approach and footstep I embark the moment’s journey on.
When I find myself caught up in the details, I remind myself of the bigger picture. And when the bigger picture seems too overwhelming, I focus on the moment and what I can do right here and now to the best of my ability. It’s a constantly evolving and continuously balancing dance to engage with ever-greater presence each day.
The Autumn beauty and light has painted its way into life here in the mountains, and it reminds me of how I can continually paint a new picture of how I want to be, the reality I choose to create, and the way I look at the world around me.
If there is something I don’t like, then I create more of what I do love. But to dwell in things feels counterproductive, except as fuel for the new. It is easy to become paralyzed by anger, fear, confusion, and over-thinking things. While I know of the dichotomy of experiences around me, I choose to be a creatrix of the way I want to see the world and send love to the things that need it.
Life is moving forward here, and alongside remodeling and preparations for moving, I am in the beginning stages of editing my book and have also begun some of the cleaning out for our new life in motion. It all feels very aligned with each other and aligned with Nature’s cycles. I’m definitely feeling that harvest of abundance, enjoyment of life’s gifts and nourishment, and also the preparation for Winter, and sense that Spring will be when all things come to blossom from this work and focus right now that is rich with gifts if I see it all that way and enjoy what each has to offer in the moment.
Official remodeling work begins tomorrow on the new home, and I’ve been slowly moving step-by-step through my book. If I were to think of all that needs to be done in a general way, that would likely throw me off center….instead I make lists of to-do’s and do what feels natural and in flow, but I don’t let it debilitate and stop me, otherwise nothing would get done. So even if it’s one small thing a day, this is still movement forward. I don’t judge the process.
And in the meantime, I pay attention to the sign posts and support that show up and I enjoy the discoveries along the way.
This has included seeing a lot of beauty in nature in what ever way I am able to with my still-healing-foot (which is at the half way point already at one month/4 weeks today!) – I’m about to head out later this afternoon for more – discovering new plants in our new yard each time I visit, planting 5 daffodil bulbs gifted to me by Faery Laura so we’ll have connected flowers come Spring, ordered our new Austrian Pines, already measured, mapped out, and ordered new things for my and Astrid’s room (it will be a bunny and Faery play world for creation making, imagining, and journeying), and have enjoyed some incredible new sightings and reflections.
These have included tons of hawks in the last couple of days….just Friday seeing 13 (a cool number) and extraordinary configurations I’d never seen, right after another. I’ve seen two hawks before sitting next to each other, which I did again, but right before them, literally several yards away, I saw THREE hawks sitting in a row, next to each other. Talk about incredible! Hawks are so dear to me and are my amazing navigators bridging Earth and Cosmos. They also always chime in with support and a thumb’s up that things are on track and magick is at hand!
I also saw out in a ranch field, what definitely appeared to be a fox, as it was very different than a coyote both in coloring and its physical appearance and attributes. I thought that was pretty darn cool, as it was the same day I reposted my black fox blog and had received a message from a friend that she just got a fox tattoo and we were discussing this energy abound for the collective right now.
So, I do find it hard to dwell in stresses or what seems wrong in the world, when so many things point to another possibility, perspective, and reality of things being aligned and on track…of support always around to help guide us another way if we in fact find things to be disappointing in other regards.
And as mentioned, I’ve already planned out my new room/office/Astrid’s sanctuary in the new home, which feels important and key to have that percolating and already imagined on a new plane of experience, and in the new reality unfolding. Since it always feels like the brain child of our home, where my office is, I feel like having already created/imagined this and put it in motion with planning it out on paper and already ordering things, seems to be anchoring all the new that is taking place there and will be.
I’m so excited about Astrid’s new things, which will be her Christmas gifts, since the timing will work out for that with move-in likely. I feel she is too and has had a hand in the planning of it all.
So, amidst the craze of things yet to do, and things in process, but not yet manifested, I am working with what is at hand and creating the reality of my visions on another timeline ahead of the now, but simultaneously merging.
There are infinite ways to approach life and to choose how to embrace it all. These are some of the ways I do and what makes life enjoyable every step of the way.
Find that balance and see how to temper things with the inversion of what’s possible on the other side.
I’ve never felt more myself than I do now at this point in my life…a feeling of returning back to my origins…of being most naturally me… Grounded and yet expansive. Inspired and free. New and old, Earth and Cosmos merging… There’s a wholeness that is anchoring and it feels like peace. I embrace my silver highlights from the Fae as the anchoring of ancient lineage coursing through my veins. I cherish the innocence of childlike purity that lights me from within like a star amidst the black of night.
And it is all rooted in love that takes me deeper daily into a return to natural harmony.
I am grateful and celebrate being.
Mine, yours, ours.
A friend saw my photo below and commented, “I can see dragon energy in your eyes.”
It made me take a second glance that took a hold of my spirit in a way I can’t explain.
I felt like I was home.
And indeed I am, which is being mirrored by our dream home we’ve anchored in.
I worked diligently with the Faeries and all Elementals, as well as the Animal Spirits (and some friends from beyond) of our new home and the land surrounding it to help align things and manifest it all. I knew the moment I stepped foot in it, it was the right house for us and that solidified when walking through the yard and the forest that surrounds it. I didn’t give up on it even when things could have gone different ways. The Faeries told me to trust and so I did. I always just know something and feel to the heart of things – that silver lining beyond the hurdles to get there.
And oh the magick that will be woven here!
It will take several months of craziness with remodeling and prep, but the Faeries are excited about the new energy and this haven being created for them and all of us to share. Much will evolve over time, even after the main work is done, since we can’t do anything to the yard until after Winter’s snow except plant eight new 12 foot Austrian Pines for now to create our sanctuary, which up here need to be in by October 15th due to very strict planting restrictions. So, I’m excited to have some new tree friends to join the forest collective.
These photos are taken on site, pre-changes, and reflect a new me rooting with the heart of this land and home, inside and out.
I’d just done some braiding magick with my hair the night before, turning myself into Pippi Longstocking – one of my fav styles for a wild, easy, and free mane. Not to mention, makes me feel like all of the parts of myself beyond this human experience of Tania.
It’s also the first time my silver is really stepping out in a big way. Normally you see the chunks laced through my hair, when it’s straighter, but with braiding it really creates a whole other effect that integrates it and spreads it around in a way I imagined myself to look in my sage years – AND how I look beyond what you know of me.
So fun to see that now, and what it draws forth from within my spirit to emerge. I have always been a lover of dichotomy and felt like a walking one – now more than ever!
And I LOVE how Astrid and I have the exact same hair colors just blended in different ways, which is incredible given I had no idea she was the one coming home with me. Just the other day I was laying next to her on the ground in my Reiki workshop and Bean said, “omgosh your hair is exactly the same color as hers.” This wasn’t the first time, as both Marcy and Sharon had said the same on the day I adopted her. We ARE one and the same….a witchy faery and her familiar for sure. 😉
I’m sure there are many who might not understand why I would enhance my already silver stripes growing in my hair, or think I look better with their version of “ideal,” but it’s simply my way of feeling most myself and revealing who I really am. I don’t mind having something associated with “old” mixed in with otherwise “young” looking things.
Perhaps these are both inversions of the oneness that is innocence.
I don’t strive to fit in. I live in a reality of my own creation.
I just want to be me…..the lifetimes and eons of me, here and now.
While others might feel more aligned with doing everything to look younger or create longevity, I’m just comfortable in feeling at home and desiring creative expression and quality versus quantity of life for however long that is meant to be.
I still get told I look half my chronological age, but now my hair throws in a curve ball, which to me feels more aligned because while physically I may be one thing, in heart and spirit there is quite another going on.
I feel both that heart of a child skipping with Mother Nature and also sometimes feel like Father Time spiraling through the cycles.
I’ve written about the “silver lining” before and how this approach to life has trickled into embodiment for me by literally turning into silver-streaked hair. Had you asked me years ago if I’d be proudly wearing silver hair, I’d likely had thought no way, but I’ve learned that things turn on a dime. Just as certain trajectories we were on have shifted into new, merged versions that encompass a higher good.
Before I felt like there were multi-paths I was working on all at once, and now it feels like they’ve merged together, providing all the same things and possibilities, but integrated.
Kind of like having silver hair and yet dressing, looking, or otherwise being what you’d think is opposite to that. It’s all connected and more and more we are breaking down limiting ideas and rules and creating new versions of experiencing everything aside from conditioning.
Hard to explain, but it feels good and allows me the ability to root further, play more, and rest along the way.
This feels to be the reflection of my hair, as well as our home.
There’s a sense of returning home and yet the irony is, we never left.
It’s simply the journey made conscious and our origins actualized for our human beingness to realize.