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Peaceful Transformation & Updates on Changes Being Implemented

I can’t tell you enough how much I’m witnessing both in my own life and that of others, an incredible, consistent, and rapid amount of change taking place in really big, sometimes surprising, yet always supportive ways. There’s been an increase in the last few weeks of full-circle experiences, messages of re-strengthening boundaries, a need to continually reassess and realign ourselves with what’s truest and most authentic to our spirit and heart right now, the power of choice with committed action to back it up, wake-up calls in terms of health and life shifts, and experiences paralleling timelines, but on a whole other plane and frequency with the closing and opening of doors rapidly sliding into manifestation.

I keep hearing from many about these reflections and have been witnessing a wide gamut of contrasting experiences from people including death, suicide, marriage, endings and beginnings of relationships, births, pregnancy, career changes, reassessing life paths, health crisis, what was going forward suddenly and abruptly shifting gears, but also immediately opening to a better potential.

It all reiterates to me the power of choice and action that supports it without worrying over the fine details and whether it’s “the” answer, but merely following what you’re guided to follow in the moment and trusting All That Is/Universe/God/Goddess/Source to handle things from there.

Declaration of intent and willingness to move forward in all ways will manifest doors opening and closing for us that will mirror the paths most aligned with us following our truth right here and now. So releasing the worry over whether something is it right or wrong just simply can be surrendered, as we’ll know immediately where things are leading once we make a choice by what manifests as direct result.

We seem to get too caught up in decisions and tormented by being “wrong” when there isn’t a wrong…simply a trust that whatever you do, you’ll be supported in the highest way. So we just need to believe that and be open to how things manifest, as result of our movement forward, and its always being for our highest good.

Anyway, transformational energies are swirling around big time and this beautiful Moth (pictured above) that Lynne and I connected with on a hike at Fallen Leaf Lake while she was here, really embodied so much of this frequency, not to mention embodied the peaceful trust I speak of.

She was so serene on a pebble at water’s edge, with waves rolling in, both of us around her, a man and his dog with us whom we came across and were talking with, and even us nudging her pebble she sat on, while talking to her. She was anchored and peaceful, but also so royal in her presence, undisturbed or thrown off her own inner balance and harmony by anything around her.

If you look closely at her, especially her head and body, you might see what I do….how much she reflects her Faery Queen essence in this Moth form.

Powerfully potent energy that just mesmerizes me when I look at this, which is why I am sharing this photo, captured by Lynne and courtesy of her for this post. If you remember, I shared my own magical photo of her from the other angle in another post, but this one really captures her essence and otherworldly energy.

All of this also is in line with a conversation I was having with Laura yesterday about living a magickal life and what that entails, which we both reflected on in our own lives and those around us.

We both agree that to live a life of daily magickal experiences this entails a great deal of discipline.

That seems counter-intuitive, but in fact goes hand-in-hand.

I can’t tell you how many people I know and have seen, who energetically and physically crash while trying so hard to “be” something, rather than simply “being” because they think that will make the magick happen. Or who wait for the magick to start happening before they will commit to their authenticity and heart fully.

I’ve also been seeing people go through more periods of heavy-duty flus, colds, or energetic illness suddenly than they ever have (or perhaps hadn’t had) in very short periods because of extremes and perhaps still “trying” to fit a certain template of “being” they think they need to do in order to live magickally, when in fact magick is simply “being” in the discipline of authenticity and harmonious rhythms flowing in and out.

The key to life, at least that I’ve discovered, is balance so that you don’t have those highs and lows and ups and downs in dramatic ways and when you learn to discipline yourself in this way of being, a magickal life unfolds effortlessly. This also entails saying “enough is enough” to old patterns and cycles, so that you can continue to flow on your own spiral of life.

I feel that this stems from your committed responsibility to being you/the Source of you for the highest good of all concerned.

I went through the crashes myself. I went through the huge pendulum swings of extremes. I always considered myself an extremist in fact….and yet that wasn’t actually my “nature.”

My and our nature is harmony and a return to natural harmony is our spiraling journey I feel.

We really are at a point where everything instantly manifests and there are tighter and tighter reins on your luxury to deny or hide things from yourself, as well as assessing if you’re outweighed in any given area – big ones that come to mind is over-giving or over-receiving.

And in the spirit of this constantly shifting energy and my own need to keep honoring my own authenticity, boundaries, and most harmonious state of “being,” I have had to again reassess some things recently and even had a big flow-in of opportunities to help me feel that out with.

So as example, I’m sharing some of those changes that entail my connection with others, but I am experiencing quite a few in other more personal realms as well.

As mentioned, I’ve recently experienced a bunch of full-circle things that herald to me a big leap about to take place, but also reflected how things can come back around at another frequency/whole other plane of experience when you do the work.

But also, as I’ve mentioned in past posts, when you’re in process of, or about to make huge changes, a lot of things will flow into your experience that could confuse you at first because they may be the very things you’re shifting out of.

This is simply part of that transformational process and an opportunity to revisit your relationship to the things with greater peace and anchoring and without “charge” or “trigger”…like that cleansing that stirs things up for us to simply embrace as natural cycles.

So, also recently, I’ve received requests for my past services circle round in another abundance all at once and a ton of messages, which provided me opportunity again to anchor deeply in my authentic knowing of where I am now and what to say “no” to very clearly and with loving gratitude.

I’ve turned away potential new clients, credited back purchases of art prints, and said “no” to a bunch of requests, potential opportunities, and services, as simply it was most aligned with the new energy I’m focusing on and committing to, to do so.

And I did so with utmost gratitude and reflection on the beauty of it all and the honor that it was.

Sometimes things like this confuse people that maybe they’ve made the wrong choice to go in the direction they have, could possibly play on desperation energy (really big one I feel circulating these days) in reflection to still being in process of believing in their abundance or strengthening their belief in the new, or simply could feel like a message to split their energies between old and new.

While none of that would be wrong to do, as all things will lead us to exactly where we are to be in the timing that is right for each of us, and yet these could also create that straddling of two worlds, continually feeling confused and unclear, drain you of your energy because of not supporting fully what is speaking most authentically to your heart, or block other opportunities from coming in.

After all, if we truly believe we are abundant beings, then we ARE abundant beings. There isn’t only one opportunity that will arrive and by saying “no” that’s it. You have the ability to manifest limitless opportunities and each one will provide a different level of potential.

There isn’t just one way to do something for sure. Yet there are ways of choosing that can make you feel more in flow, clear, invigorated, and in alignment.

All that to say, “I hear and feel you.”

I’ve also had to continuously go through these processes in my own way over time as well.

And with discipline and practice, I’ve been able to move into a peaceful and easier flow that has enabled me to consistently experience balance now and harmony, whereas I mentioned, I used to experience extremes and then energetic crashes or physical manifestations of stress created by this feeling of being pulled in opposing directions, or of not owning who I am and claiming my authentic voice fully.

It is with doing so that I’ve come to be able to say I no longer experience stress, anxiety, worry, tormenting inner dialogue (to the point of thinking I’m crazy), fears around who I am and showing up as so, crashes, extremes, physical manifestations of being inwardly divided, relationships of all sorts that were doomed to go no where and reflect what I wasn’t honoring in myself, nor the need to monitor foods I eat other than remaining true to being 100% vegan to match my truth, and instead only draw in more of this harmony I experience.

It’s a drastic life change that others wouldn’t notice unless they really knew me “once upon a time” in all ways. I’m so grateful for all of it and what it’s all taught me, not to mention am grateful for the reflections that show up.

But I do have to mention that things have shifted even with recent offerings I’ve put out.

I had foresight to say when I did put them out there that I didn’t know how long I’d be offering them and they may be temporary. And now that has manifested.

This includes (at least at this time) my not taking on any more new Intuitive Energy Guidance/Coaching clients after I finish working with current clients already with me. I’ve so been enjoying the beautiful and so meaningful and timely way in which these soul contracts have come into being. I can’t say enough how I honor these people and the courage they have. I also am awed by the soul connections we share and I’m totally devoted to them with all of my heart.

I feel that my listening to guidance was aligned perfectly with these contracts with them, but that I am to revisit full commitment to honoring now one I have with myself and the collective with full devotion toward what I’ve put into motion.

This in part due to my need to put all that I have into my current project and something else soon entering my life.

I also will only make myself available to teach Reiki this Summer to the people I have already spoken to offering this to if they desire.

That means I’m back to no services offered, but all in order to be able to offer more later from the depths of my heart.

I’ll still be creating Magick Crystal Wands, as that feels in alignment with immediate soul-satisfaction and desire to create something tangible with my hands that balances the writing I’m involved with – it’s all about balance to me! But these are the only two things I’ll be engaged with.

I can’t thank everyone enough for your understanding. It’s truly meaningful to me how supportive you’ve been and how much love you’ve shared during my own transformational journey I’ve chosen to vulnerably be open about in order to support you into your own authentic choices.

Also, beginning this Sunday I will likely not be blogging for a while, or in very limited, short blogs because I will be focused on completing the first draft of my book before heading off to Australia on May 10th. I’ll feel that energy out, but my sense is I’ll need to withdraw there for the time-being.

I need to conserve my inspiration and creative writing for that project. So during that time I’ll only be sharing via Instagram/Facebook if you happen to be on those platforms, since they are quick ways to still stay in touch and share some daily inspiration and beauty with you, while creating that healthy balance for me as well.

Here’s to peaceful transformation for us all!

I love you!

Realizing Your Potential


“You enter the forest
at the darkest point,
where there is no path.
Where there is a way or path,
it is someone else’s path.
You are not on your own path.
If you follow someone else’s way,
you are not going to realize
your potential.”
~Joseph Campbell


While others indeed help open collective doorways, pave potential opportunities, and clear some of the debris and challenge along the way, only you can be you!

Even though you might share a similar energy stream with others, bringing your authenticity, voice, and heart into things will create a path that is yours alone and will need to be carved by only the frequency you carry.

Hence, courage to journey into the unknown and support the way that most aligns with you, will take you down a path where your own light will bring clarity with each step taken.


Embodying & Emanating Essence ~ How I’m Integrating Holistic Being on Every Level

So much rapid change taking effect in very literal ways for everyone and I’ve found it to be directly tied to greater embodiment of one’s own essence and authenticity, which then emanates clearly through. It’s connected to the messages we’re receiving about stepping up, raising our vibrations, and living out loud with greater courage and integrity to our nature of origins. And when we do, everything shifts in direct reflection to that in our environment, interactions, experiences, realities, and even how we start to look physically in correlation to our energetic frequency glowing from the inside out.

And the more we embrace who we are and aren’t afraid to put it out there, the more others feel greater ease and comfort in doing the same too.

I’ve written before on how my lifestyle and life path changes have changed so much for me as a result of embracing deeper integration of my uniqueness and what feels most authentic to myself, along with making balance and harmony a foremost focus and experience.

And while we speak often about the emotional, mental, and spiritual ways this happens and takes effect, we often overlook the physical because there’s an undercurrent of negativity placed there or invalidation of it because that’s thought to NOT be part of “ascension” ideas and living a spiritual life.

Time and again I’ll reiterate that it’s about integration….physical and spiritual together in harmony and each reflecting the other.

“The very reason each exists is to integrate wholeness and realize the partnership they share, one channeled through the other.

The physical becomes sacred.

The spiritual becomes tangible.

And together they exist simultaneously in harmony.”

(Excerpt from my book, Spiritual Skin)

I’ve always been quite literal in making outer transformations or taking actions that match my shifts internally or the shifts I desire to make, so as to create a space for me to grow into. Such has been the case, for instance, with my sacred tattoos. But it’s also been with things like my hair, my clothing, adornments, and even my body or face morphing.

A lot of this is that I tend to feel “not myself” if the outer doesn’t match the inner or where I’m headed and some of it is as a direct result of needing to express my personality, unique creative self expression, and way in which feels most aligned with the “real” me.

Some simply happens naturally and some with intention to match the natural.

So, as mentioned, with so many shifts lately for me in very dramatic ways, I’ve seen this naturally express itself with how I look and my desires to share how I feel.

Some results that naturally happened are my hair growing long very quickly, my silver grays growing in abundantly, but in a very almost deliberate way (someone recently called them “highlights from the Fae,” which I’ve now adopted and love), my body taking on a naturally balanced, more Earthly fullness rather than my waif self, my skin finding its healthy, clear balance because of my own, and my body becoming fully adorned with sacred and balanced art that feel like adornments reflecting the inside out I couldn’t imagine not being there (some people have shared they can’t imagine me without them and that they’ve never seen tattoos placed in such a way where they are like they’ve manifested themselves in transparency of revealing what’s underneath.)

And of course the way I dress has gone, and continues to go, through constant transformation, which is why I move out clothes often and bring in new that are more reflective and help me feel like “me” just as my tattoos help me to feel more at home in my own skin.

I immediately can feel “off” if my hair or clothing is not matching the vibe of how I’m feeling and what I’m creating in my life currently – literally, making me feel quite energetically icky and out of place.

And over this last year that has taken a huge turn, as mentioned already in my hair taking its natural, ancient and cosmic “roots”, and just this Saturday while visiting and taking my parents out to celebrate my mom’s upcoming 74th birthday tomorrow, I knew I needed to have my hair freshened and purged.

My mom used to be a beautician (what her family did back in France), so she’s done my hair a lot over time and Saturday we chopped off four inches to my very long hair. This felt necessary, as the ends are literally and symbolically the oldest parts and carry the energy of the past…so it felt important to literally shed it, just like my dreams of snake skins recently, and how I regularly enjoy body scrubs to slough off old skin too.

Being that my hair had grown so long, it still remains so, but it was amazing once again to see and feel how that made a difference even without getting a whole new hairstyle – yet. 😉 I not only looked different, but felt completely lightened and new and it even activated the next phase of change upcoming with more hair shifts to match dreams and visions I’ve been having of my origins.

But on top of this, I’ve purged, minimized further, and refreshed my wardrobe as well, and all of this has really become outwardly a reflection of the magickal parts of life and my wanting daily to, in all ways, live fully as all that I love and really am, and will keep me clearly focused on the path ahead in the most embodied and aligned way.

This has seemed to morph me literally into my Faery Bunny self, with hints of cosmic, ancient, and water nymph/mer qualities.

So while people may have felt this about me, it really isn’t something one would have to “feel into” anymore, as it’s becoming quite literal.

I feel and see this to be happening more and more with many people, as things shift and we’re lighting up those latent parts of our DNA, stepping up and out, and integrating more of our Cosmic and Earthly selves, we are seeing this in how we find ourselves walking in our human bodies as more of the otherworldy beings we have retrieved and remembered, through physical form here.

Exciting times and feels so much more natural.

So while most people know I’m a rabbit lover or perhaps a crazy rabbit lady 😉 some may not know how far that extends, but truly my life is immersed in Faery bunny energy through and through.

These are just some photos of the magickal bunny wardrobe I have and wear below. Photos include: 3 sparkly vegan rabbit shoes (I normally only wear flats, but bunnies have me reaching to new heights again these days when I feel so called), matching vegan rabbit purse, a one-of-a-kind amethyst carved rabbit ring, a purple satin skater dress with dancing bunnies, an aqua poodle skirt with bunny border, and my Peter Rabbit collection of vintage 60’s dress, wedge heels, vintage Beatrix Potter original sweater, and my Peter Rabbit statue from Laura.

Laura has even said I’ve literally turned into a Faery bunny, like this photo that briefly captured this in me seeping through in one of my shape shifting moments a couple of years ago and now seems to be the pervading emanation these days, although has integrated with the other elements I shared above, too. I’m curious to see how this will evolve and morph in the days and months ahead.




But what you don’t see pictured here is that my wardrobe and sacred space also include a vintage rabbit cardigan, 4 rabbit t-shirts, 3 rabbit tank tops, 3 rabbit leggings, 1 rabbit sweatshirt, several rabbit pendants and rings, 1 rabbit scarf, rabbit flannel jammies, rabbit artwork, a stuffed rabbit I sleep with (the surrogate bunny to my little ones that they enchanted), a rabbit support pillow, crystal rabbits, and other rabbit pieces for my sacred space.


And the rest of my wardrobe contains various other elements of “me” and anything that doesn’t I either have, or will continue to weed out.

I’ve fully cracked open the Cosmic egg and all the “me” is oozing out for sure without worrying what others may think. Just simply about living a life of passionate purpose by looking within and seeing what truly moves me and melting into that love.

One sweet friend of mine shared, “I love your daring use of fantasy fairy elements proving that fashion is for fun and personal pleasure and in this case also the delight of others.”

It reiterated to me, that when we embrace what truly brings us the greatest joy, express that in any and all forms, and understand how we can utilize all aspects of life and the material in creative, healthy, and valuable ways, we also bring that same energy to others to experience through our expressions and to mirror the relative possibilities within each other to do more of what supports this too in life.

So while I could just feel and emanate my essence energetically, I’ve been guided to literally take this through to all levels of experience, to include the physical as an expression of consistency and action in a holistic way and through every avenue of my existence here.

Having peeled back the layers I find clarity in my divine desires and that all things I’m about are truly encapsulated in the focus of what inspires me most. Channeling this into soul fulfillment, dream manifestation, and the reality of my choosing is the gift of letting this desire move through me and that includes moving through me in any and all ways – sharing and expressing my deepest divine desires and beingness.

One of my oracle tarot cards I recently pulled, shared this beautifully,

“Desire sometimes gets a ‘bad rap’ in spiritual circles, or it is celebrated as being something that should be pursued without restraint. The truth that will serve most spiritual aspirants best is somewhere in the middle of these two extremes. Desire need not be a distraction from your spiritual journey nor a goal to be pursued at any cost, even to your own integrity. Desire on the spiritual path can become a way to know what is going to move and inspire you enough to see you through the challenges that arise when you want to create a contribution to the world. If you long to bring your ideas to life, rather than keep them only as ideas, then desire can become enlivening fuel for the spiritual path, motivating you to act rather than hesitate. Searching for your true soul desires helps you find what it is you can believe in more than fear or doubt.”

I believe that living our authenticity in any and all ways that feels truest to ourselves and expresses our passions is effective use of creative power and supportive of personal empowerment and frequency, joyous living, and inspirational motivation that aligns and supports us with our intents, while igniting similar fires within others.

Plus, it simply brings a little sparkle of joy to the day, some giggles, and smiles…and if nothing else, that’s worth a lot!

Frequency Holders of the New

In times like these we need those of you who are the frequency holders to keep strong within that personal embodiment of pure energy you are here to emanate, regardless of what is going on all around, and yet transmuting it as you walk through it. I’ve been sharing my take on purpose being about the presence you bring to anything you do, and for some within the collective that is simply, but importantly, about being present with your frequency and song that you sing, above all else, and carrying this through anything you choose to be engaged in along your path. For these people, life is about doing everything as a sacred and seamless act – there is no separation as to what defines sacredness. These are the souls helping to anchor the new and may not live life out loud in the sense of being famous, but quietly do their most important work from behind-the-scenes and remain somewhat just under the radar. Much is tearing apart at the seams and being tugged to extremes right now, which all has its purpose and will create a mirroring reality of individual choosing. These frequency holders will embody new realities within the creatively unlimited potentialities of a middle way.

Stay strong. Your energy is much needed and your courage is much honored.


Your Energy Signature Expression Serves the Collective

Wow, the winds of change are blowing like crazy since last evening! Warm, wild winds welcomed us not long after we landed back in Malibu yesterday and continue rolling through this morning.

They are aligning with the transitions I’ve made, and supporting a clean slate, and swift tail wind of energy to move forward in. Thank you!

I announced some big changes for me in my February Newsletter on Saturday – you can sign up for these here with a message of your desire: Contact Tania Marie

Here is a video that I included, which summarizes the current theme I was inspired to share.


You are now, and always have been, whole, expansive, abundant, and miraculous. Harmony of being is your nature to remember. And when your perceptions widen to ignite this as your restored reality, there is no stopping your light frequency from accelerating in vibration, while seeding the same spark of recognition in others.

“I flourish when I realize I’m already complete.” ~Vironika Tugaleva

wholeness (1)“…we are by default, all connected. We come from Oneness and so we will always share that unified bond. However, I believe that part of why we incarnate here on Earth is to express our individuation in all of its unique and colorful beauty. I don’t believe we came here to master Oneness, but I do believe we came to experience being Human in such a way as to live out loud that sensual, raw and most vulnerable, authentically true expression, as pure Source of the personal home frequency we each embody.

I believe we are here to practice our sovereign free will through the alchemy of our heart and understand that what we imagine, we can manifest masterfully, because we are indeed powerful Source beings.

We share the same Source, but that Source created multi-dimensional possibilities and limitless potentials for a reason, of which free will and experience itself are a driving force…” ~Excerpt from my post, “Oneness is not Sameness – The Integrity of Your Personal Frequency Within the Group Dynamics”:

wholeness (2)Keep revealing yourself more and more. It isn’t that you transform and modify into something completely new…you simply allow yourself to shine as the wholeness you already are.


Finding Yourself

tania marie (1)Do you live your life for your parents, partner, teachers, friends, society, culture? Or are you living an authentic and alive life that is true to you?

You may be spending time searching for a life purpose, when in fact you are simply searching for yourself.

Each day, ask yourself what you can do to feel more alive, be more genuine, and do more of what you love.

Then start doing it….as this is the greatest service you can provide as example for others, through loving and expressing your creative free will and stepping into your personal frequency more fully and aware.

As you come to love and embody your uniqueness, you find yourself honoring and loving the limitless creative expressions around you, understanding everyone’s search for the same.

Keeping Your Balance

balanceI was at Crystal Cove yesterday taking my beach walk after a full week, and came across two mystical cairns. This one drew my attention and inspired this post.

Keeping balanced and centered in your own personal frequency will help you to navigate through any outside influences that temporarily throw you off. It will provide you a strong foundation to help return to your natural state of being, as well as be an empowered mirror for others to be able to choose the same. It’s ok to move in and out of energy expressions, as they are simply experiences no better or worse – different dances if you may. You might shift the beat and rhythm of your dance, but the harmony will always be present when you are in tune with you.

The Teaching of Your Soul – Everything You Need is Within You

clear-day-pic-of-womanI have been a seeker and I still am, but I stopped asking the books and the stars. I started listening to the teaching of my Soul. ~Rumi

One of the most liberating and empowering things I have discovered over the course of 25+ years of searching, studies, and self-reflection, is that the secret to beginning to discover your natural frequency of authenticity is much more simple than it seems, or that you’ve been led to believe it is.

Everything outside of yourself is simply a tool to discover what all of those “things” are reflecting about what you already have inside of yourself. Recognition and full embodied embrace of this will help to unravel the stream of innate wisdom within the Source of you.

Part of this comes with recognition that you are a boundless multidimensional being with no real basis for fear, other than a decision to keep feeding and believing in it, in order to set up whatever teachings and experiences you choose need to go through.

Part of this comes with learning wise discernment that stems from the core truth of your heart and Divine Source Center. Everyday you are bombarded by so many levels of over-stimulation that comes even in the form of New Age spiritual explanations and teachings, along with every kind of “right” and “wrong” verbiage that can be very confusing, as they all will play see-saw with your mind and feelings, as well as negate and desecrate each other.

It’s a constant war of duality and “either/or” mentality, completing ignoring the myriad of possibilities and experiences that serve only the Law of Free Will that everyone conveniently forgets when they “seem” to discover some breakthrough that feels really good to them.

It can become very confusing to decipher truth, especially if you are seeking from “outside”, rather than turning “within” to run everything through your own heart filter.

I’m not negating the exploration of learning in whatever form you are led to, but I am making an emphasizing point that just because things “look” a certain way and a lot of people are following it, doesn’t make it the end-with-all answer. The answers will only come in the form of your own filtration of personal and authentic truth.

And far too often we are giving away our power and energy and feeling we need to keep searching for these epiphany answers and the flood of light that will bolt us out of this existence, in order to think and feel we are on the so-called “right” path and have discovered “the” answer.

Constant studies, while can help you to decipher what is you and what is not you, and to expand your perspectives, and abilities to discern and think wider, can also be a trap to keep you in perpetual soul-schooling devised to keep you from ever walking in the empowered embodiment of you that you already are.

It would be of benefit to take time in silence and in nature, to take portions of your days, or a day each week, to designate to feeling what it is like to be you outside of everything else in your life.

Yes, life will go on without you and you will benefit far greater than continuing to engage incessantly with the outside world, only. This will also help you to take back your energy and power and to learn what it feels to be in your frequency and what it feels like when something infiltrates that and takes you out of that balance, harmony, and centeredness.

You will learn very quickly how to then decipher what is really a reflection and alignment with YOUR truth because you’ll know when something triggers from outside, taking you off-kilter, and is just a passing story.

It will benefit you tremendously to stop all searching outside of yourself for fulfillment and start bringing your undivided focus and energy within yourself where the infinite Source of love, awareness, and liberating truth is.

It does not come without the need for courage to look within at all aspects of yourself, as it is here that you will also face your shadow parts – parts that are crucial and invaluable to the journey of wholeness you seek.

Laura Bruno succinctly expressed this belief I share, in her earlier post today:

“Part of effective Shadow Work includes sifting through the so-called darkness in order to find, heal and reclaim forgotten pieces of ourselves. We don’t transcend duality by rejecting half of it, but rather by empowering ourselves through love and wisdom, so that we can rebalance anything unnatural in ourselves and world.”

Yes, we have focused our attention long enough on the outside world and on every other thing possible that simply must have the answer or simply must be the “problem”. We also allow everything to suck us dry with worry over this, fear about that, who’s doing what, how you are told to look, act, feel, live, and what the next “quick fix” or “miracle” discovery is that will be the answer you seek.

But it is within your inner landscape, ultimately your best friend awaiting your recognition of her/his love for you, where clarity of the truth of who you are can reveal itself if you patiently, lovingly, and fearlessly reach out your hand in the dark to receive their eternally unwavering, outreached hand.

It is here that the answer lies and no where else. Any person or teacher that tells you otherwise, that doesn’t help to empower you into your own authenticity and truth, is someone to be wary of.

j0402579The inner world feels more unknown than anything outside because you have spent more waking hours exploring everywhere but there. This creates resistance, as the mind and ego doesn’t like the unfamiliar and certainly doesn’t want to know that it could be that easy to reflect within, when you’ve been taught that life is long, hard work, not to mention that there’s some ideal experience you must attain to reach.

It is ridiculous to think it could really be simple, right? It’s ridiculous to think that your natural essence is all there is to “be”. 😉 But it is.

And this unknown factor and the willingness to embrace your greatest fears and pains are the only reasons it may “seem” scary, but with engaging your FULL inner realm, this can become the most invaluable, fulfilling, and irreplaceable treasure you’ve ever experienced or had.

As I expressed in resounding agreement with this month’s energy forecast from Lee Harris:

I fully believe and agree that the more centered and grounded you are, the more ready you are and will be for ANYTHING that comes your/our way. And the more centered you are, the more empowered you will be.

Embracing your own sovereignty of heart, you are untouchable to anything and anyone.

And the more you reveal of your authentic self, the more whole and powerful you will become.

Oneness is Not Sameness – The Integrity of Your Personal Frequency Within the Group Dynamics

What are your feelings about organized groups, whether a group that resonates with you or not? This is an interesting topic that, like with anything, doesn’t have a black or white answer. And for me, in fact, it’s quite gray and something to explore further, as well as be mindful of. However, I would like to share my personal feelings and experiences simply as a dialogue and way to perhaps expand perceptions.

I’ve heard and seen so much, especially recently, that has driven home to me why from as far back as I can remember as a child, I have always been put off by organized group mentality, even when it is in support of things I believe strongly in and that have uplifting and empowering intentions.

I have always been one to cherish my personal free will and ability to be myself, without answering to others, nor feeling the scrutiny of  projected ideas upon me – even when those ideas are deemed as “going to elevate and enlighten me”. And for this reason (not the only), have never wanted to be an active member of a group, although may support their efforts from afar, with my own personal energetic or creative actions, or will dip in and out when I choose to.

That being said, we are by default, all connected. We come from Oneness and so we will always share that unified bond. However, I believe that part of why we incarnate here on Earth is to express our individuation in all of its unique and colorful beauty. I don’t believe we came here to master Oneness, but I do believe we came to experience being Human in such a way as to live out loud that sensual, raw and most vulnerable, authentically true expression, as pure Source of the personal home frequency we each embody. I believe we are here to practice our sovereign free will through the alchemy of our heart and understand that what we imagine, we can manifest masterfully, because we are indeed powerful Source beings.

We share the same Source, but that Source created multi-dimensional possibilities and limitless potentials for a reason, of which free will and experience itself are a driving force.

Yet, I feel it’s important to remember to maintain, cultivate, and express your own unique voice and not to allow yourself to be swayed by popular persuasion. Even if it sounds really good, everyone you know is doing it, and being part of that exhilaration of group mentality that invokes a personal sedative into temporary bliss-numbness, feels really good.

I believe that knowing yourself first, so that when you do actually come together in gatherings of like-mindedness, will provide you the ability to maintain wise discernment and personal integrity, as well as bring to the table your own valuable insights and expressions that can enhance the experience.

We aren’t meant to be drones led by others to follow an ideology or some other form of idealization blindlessly. We each have a heart and a mind and the duty, as a human, to exercise them. And when we each do, we enhance the quality of life for the collective, rather than create a boring existence of monotonous “sameness”.

We CAN choose, however, if a particular ideology aligns with our personal frequency and then make informed decisions, moment to moment, as to how we proceed with that information based on its resonance with our own personal evolvement.

There is so much I could write on this topic and I won’t possibly be able to express it all in this post, nor do I want to belabor this more than I likely will 🙂 ), as I merely am guided to bring up some food for thought. So I will trust that the aspects of most need to be shared, will channel through and that the dialogue it creates will continue long after this share.

Before I delve into the full expression of this topic I’m being guided to address (which may journey through different branches of the same tree while I follow the energy flow), let me first share some precursors to my personal feelings surrounding the messages and beliefs that become known practices or are widely admired.

Where I derive my thoughts, feelings, and beliefs stems from my own personal heart filtering that deciphers what aligns with my personal frequency and what doesn’t. I don’t subscribe to any particular belief system, by name. I don’t follow any particular person or practice, and I am not one to “name drop”, nor do I even really know a lot of what is said to be a certain ideology from public figures. If I share a quote by someone, it is because I resonate with what is shared and since I am citing it in that person’s exact words, I give expressive credit where it is due.

But, even as an artist, while I am acquainted with works of art and styles, I wouldn’t be the person to go to in order to find out who created something. I left that knowledge back in school and developed into my own personal expression of me that desired to be as clear and pure of a channel as possible of the energy that wanted to come through my human vehicle.

Being a Pisces without boundaries, I guess you could say I knew one of my personal missions was to be able to decipher “me” amidst the “we”, since I was very familiar with the “we” to the extreme.

While I’m familiar with what people stand for and there are a lot of things I resonate with from others because it mirrors my own feelings, I have never felt that information “belonged” to any one person.

So although we may connect a certain idea, message, thought, quote, or belief with a person who is “known” for saying it, I see this differently. For me, I acknowledge that these people had the courage to voice their feelings and ideas, as visionary leaders, but I also know that the information does not “belong” to them and that many others, who go unknown and have been unheard, have channeled similar or the same information simultaneously (or perhaps even long before), but they were simply not meant to be known for it.

What each person IS capable of doing, is channeling things in a unique way to them, which may be through a personal style and ability they have for expressing it in a way that the people who are meant to hear or see it in that way would resonate with. This may be as a leader in a very public way vs. a leader among a small group or family.

However, someone living alone on the top of a mountain has the same access to the well of information and energy, as someone born to lead masses. And yet while the person who lives alone in isolation may never physically connect with others, simply their tapping into that well of inspiration and utilizing it in their own life (and through their interaction with the Earth and natural surroundings) will have a domino effect on the collective, helping to spread the light and expand collective awareness nonetheless – just in a “different” way.

This happens a lot, as you will often see how as a collective, we are constantly tapping into the same well of information and energy, since we ultimately are not separate. So I might say something and then others will share that they had been pondering the same exact thing at that moment I share it. The reality is, I simply voiced it in my unique way, but others were experiencing it in their own unique way, nonetheless.

This is one way in which I recognize how we are already so connected, yet honor that individual way we each channel things from a state of equality rather than that guruism that develops, or elevating others to a level we are ourselves uniquely also capable of.

We each have something valuable to contribute and even if it is in a similar vein of thought as others, it will be expressed very differently by you. And the people that need to hear it in the way you express it will only hear it when you do, and not when I do, and vice versa.

We need each and everyone of you to actively “BE” who you came here to be, express, and share with us all.

But what I see happen a lot when people create groups (not always, as there are some proactively aware co-creators out there), is that the unification and strength they originated that group development from (which honored and respected the individual), a lot of times turns into a self-appointed court system of the righteous versus everyone else that is different – and that includes people within the same group!

There is an astounding imbalance of ego, competition, and mis-directed anger and repression from groups you would otherwise think would be thriving and high-vibe living. Again, it’s not in ALL cases, but so much of this has been brought to my attention over and over from others and what I have seen myself recently, that it really felt time to address this.

What’s interesting is that people will consistently express their surprise to me when they share the experiences they, or people they know, have been having in these so-called “enlightened and conscious awareness” groups. It was as if they thought that anyone doing so-called “good” would be immune from unproductive use of ego. And yet, what I far too often find, is that this ego lives and thrives well in any setting, but just gets ingeniously hidden and explained away by the very practices set into motion for positive change.

I have seen the leaders of compassion-teaching, turn on anyone who is not part of their cause, and this also includes anyone within the group that does not live up to their ideals. And I can only say to this, “How can anyone following them, not see the inconsistency in their message?”

My only answer is that perhaps they do not want to also be targeted by speaking out, nor do they truly even know what they may stand for, or they find it easier to stay quiet and not ruffle any feathers, hoping it will go away. Ultimately, I find this to be an effect of not knowing, honoring, and activating what is your own personal frequency and taking on someone else’s tainted and confused understanding of their own, to be yours.

I know that people like to be with like-minded others to provide that supportive alignment that creates a safe space to thrive in. And I am the first to FULLY support and promote co-creation and co-supporting one another, feeling this is the now experience to cultivate. I also have first-hand experience of how this amazing synergy of co-support in the retreats and workshops I facilitate and have been a part of, can provide exponential growth, deeper sense of connection, healing, love and compassion, not to mention inspiration and valuable growth insights not so readily available to everyone when you are alone. And all of the services I provide are always with the intention of co-creation between the person or persons that I collaborate with.

There are many out there that are actively supporting and offering the same, which if you allow your body’s messages to guide you, you will be aligned with the mirror to your natural frequency, reflected in these environments.

Yet, the difference is, there is an honoring of each individual. Everyone has a say. Everyone is heard. Change is a constant based on what people bring to the table and feels aligned with each of us. And the outcome is individually experienced, as to what we each desire to see, feel, and take away from it, while also celebrates the melding of our unique colors to create a work of art together. And at the end of the day, while you feel you always have a family that supports exactly who you are and where you are in life, you can also choose to freely walk your own path and are encouraged to do so because that is why you are here – to share YOUR gifts – not to replicate someone else’s version of theirs.

For me, this co-creative energy doesn’t come with a conditional clause that says, I ONLY co-create from a place of compassion if you do EXACTLY what I say and do and feel and believe. Co-creation is the unconditional heart melding of empowered souls who bring to the partnership their authentic beauty and expressions so that learning, growth, expansion, and incredibly beautiful creations can be made that both celebrate the individual thread and the entire tapestry at once.

If someone has a differing opinion, is going through their own stages of learning, is at a different leg in the journey, well by golly that is THEIR journey and it doesn’t mean that there isn’t any value to the frequency they are sharing that couldn’t have benefit to your own evolution or to the depth of what you potentially could create by embracing and integrating what they bring to the table.

I see some groups that say they stand for and preach compassion, and yet viciously turn on their own members like an old-fashioned witch hunt (making it their duty to dig into their private lives) even though they share the very ideals and beliefs that brought them together. Somewhere along the line, ego gets a hold of people and righteousness based on the idea that they have “arrived” at some ideal and “better than” place than others, deems them the ability to cast judgment, shame, ridicule, or worse, on people similar, but different than them, along with people CLEARLY different than them.

And yet, they forget the principles of why they created these groups, which may be based on more compassionate ways of living, wanting to create more unification and conscious empowerment, and even because of feeling persecuted, judged, ostracized, isolated, and unjustly treated themselves.

Group dynamics are supposed to be at the core of understanding racism, sexism, and other forms of social prejudice and discrimination, and yet group dynamics have also the ability to create these same oppositions within the very framework they were founded upon.

Is it no wonder that even if the message they have to share made sense, and the person targeted may have been inclined to embrace it, for the mere fact that it came at them with confusing, judgmental, uncaring and deaf ears, and often-times aggressive energy, the open doors of their heart and mind quickly shut down to “anything” having to do with what they associate this train of thought with?

I understand the reasoning for groups and yet I always felt that the minute a group was established, it automatically created division between that group and anyone outside of it. This is duality in its finest, demonstrated through choosing one side that simultaneously creates an existing force equal to it, but opposite on the other side of the coin. This will undoubtedly and naturally create tension and the potential for “right and wrong” labeling and aggressive actions. And duality may be fine if you in fact know how to work with the energies and realize the value in what the other side has to share, for your integrative evolution. But ultimately if you truly enact unconditional compassion and love, you will see from a third position, or gray area, which will allow you to observe and understand from your heart and realize the free will we each have – the very will you so cherish for yourself.

Yet, this doesn’t seem to happen in any consistent manner, and people are often just pointing fingers and turning up noses. Yes, even in the spiritual, conscious living, and new age communities.

I see one-upping on Facebook posts where people have the inability to share an expression simply as a perspective from their heart and with gratitude for what others have brought to the table for thought, but instead have an air of “I know better than you”, or berating others and puffing overblown egos with “This isn’t new to me, I’ve been doing this for years”, or nit-picking and finding error in one small facet of what someone shares, just to appease the ego.

I’ve seen vegans fight vegetarians and raw foodists for having different reasons for their lifestyle choices than what they deem “more important”, or even righteousness that one is better than the other. I’ve even seen people bashing the Dalai Lama’s eating choices.

I’ve seen animal rights groups fight and persecute welfarists because they have the “all-or-nothing” attitude, not realizing the steps and journeys people are on (and how that facilitates change with the varying journeys of the masses) and how at one time they were on a journey themselves.

I see protesters of different groups who violently yell, call people names, and can even become destructive or violent, if someone even remotely looks, speaks, and acts differently than their objective – and yet all of this is done under the guise of “compassion”.

Many of these people are self-proclaimed atheists and/or anarchists who will vehemently express their disgust over organized religion and infringing governmental hands in their business, but will in the same breath turn around and force-feed (sometimes violently, but at the least, very aggressively) their beliefs and lifestyles on anyone who doesn’t fully ALSO agree and live as they choose to.

Now I’m all about free speech and free will, but my feeling is that people are taking advantage of this to mean “all systems go” and that they don’t need to be held responsible and accountable for brash and rash “acting out” without first looking within.

I also don’t see a consistent “living by example” being exercised into action or thinking on ways that they might be able to reach more people with their message if in fact they learned to feel as the people they are reaching (feel as the person they once were who felt backed into a wall or even uninformed) and how might they find a more productive way to create wider change that was more compassionate and individually honoring.

Educating and informing is one way. Creative action and expressions of your gifts are another. Living your principles certainly comes up high on the radar. And definitely working out your own shadow aspects indeed might help. Come on…we are boundlessly creative beings. Do you really mean to tell me that “force” is all we can come up with? There are many ways, all of which will be far more effective if coming from an unconditional heart.

And I definitely don’t see acceptance of the fact that if despite your TRULY unconditionally compassionate efforts, someone still consciously chooses differently, that it isn’t your free will to infringe upon theirs. Things always have a way of working themselves out.

Not only is there the opposition of people inside a group to people outside of it, but also to “their own”. Infighting also takes place because some people have different ideas than the leaders or larger bands within the group and someone gets picked on because they aren’t quite their ideal. And let’s face it, some people just really enjoy drama and don’t realize why they create it, as a message to heal their own inner landscape. There’s spiritual egos bashing each other for varying beliefs, one form of spiritual modality thought to be more ideal than another, one-upping each other or striving to be “better than”, rather than naturally “being” your beautiful, “natural” self and honoring the same in others.

We all do the best we can with what we have been taught so far, and honestly, bashing each other isn’t going to help anyone. And that goes for the inner dialogue you have circling in your head as well when you stay silent, but are still actively putting energy into these kinds of thoughts.

The best thing each of us can do is to look at ourselves and ask, “Am I being consistent with every single belief, thought and feeling I hold of value and wish to see more of in the world?” Likely the answer for many will be no, if you are truly honest with yourself. And if this is the case, then while you have free will to do and say and act as you choose to, do you really have any leg to stand on, if you are not walking your own walk?

I think not.

I do understand, from past experience, how when you arrive at a juicy piece of information that completely shifts your life in positive ways, you have this inner desire to go out and shout it to the world. You feel, “If only others knew this, then they too would feel as good as I do.” Believe me, I went through this when I first consciously got on my spiritual journey in my mid to late teens and early twenties. I even cried from sadness often, as I was unknowingly judging from my side of the coin, everyone on the other side. So I do recognize how easily it can be to feel that it is your duty to help change others so they too can experience what you learned.

But in time you discover that everything has its own timing. We are all on different time trajectories and not only can you not make someone else change, but you also have no idea what their journey is about and what they have set up to learn in the way that is unique to them. So you discover, hopefully, that the most profound shift will take place when you live the example of your beliefs and choices and take actions in your own life to manifest the results of that.

Live from wholeness…cultivate wholeness.

Now, I’m not saying that this is happening everywhere and a lot of times it’s behind the scenes and in the recesses of your own mind when you are left to your own thoughts. But because it’s been coming up a lot recently from others sharing with me (and in some really vicious ways unfortunately), it seems to be an important dynamic to explore from all of the different angles involved, to see how perhaps we each might be able to contribute in a more consistently meaningful way.

Like with anything and life itself, if you are going to create and engage in a group, it would be to your benefit, and the group’s benefit, if you bring personal mindfulness to the table. As there are potentials that you can make a difference with by doing so, especially when injustice and inconsistency is being displayed. This could mean standing up for someone else being attacked simply because it is the “right thing to do”.

Do you remember the story about “The teenager that saved a man with an SS tattoo”?

And even if the only downfall is the potential of “losing” yourself to the greater group acceptance, then don’t you think that is still a really important reason for keeping your awareness on high? Your doing so could make all the difference in a split second experience. It could even mean the difference between life and death.

Being yourself isn’t about self-righteousness or separation. It is simply your loving privilege for being gifted a human body, and your service to the greater good, as an example of Source in all of its multitudinous glory.

I don’t identify myself with any group, nor like labels, and don’t even dignify my living in one country with any need for blaring out anything more than what is simply a state of where I happen to have been born and reside.

I find many (not all) organized groups to be like cults – where sameness is celebrated, being different in any little way isn’t accepted, and if not fostered from the true unconditional love and self-empowerment principles it may have been founded upon, has the potentials to create division nonetheless.

I, personally, prefer to wander in and out of where, what, and when calls me, as that feels most aligned with my own personal frequency, but that is just me. I do celebrate us co-creating, working and thriving together by contributing each of our unique gifts and equally listening to each unique voice for the value it has to share.

Everyone has something important to contribute and no one person “owns” energy we all have access to. Yet, we can each be an example of channeling that energy through our unique creative self-expression, so as to do this life we are gifted, the greatest honor.

Unification starts within. It begins by you unifying all parts of you in alignment with your own personal frequency and how that uniquely wants to express itself. When you are in that place, you will create healthy experiences in cohesion with other unified souls living from the authenticity of their own personal frequency. In this way, the unhealthy aspects of groups without clarity of this home source within the members that come together, will not have something to feed on and cultivate into what can be disastrous and even threatening collective experiences.

There is also the tendency for people not empowered in their own personal frequency, that are part of a group or in a crowd, to do things they would never do as an individual because they get swept into the energy of the moment, don’t want to feel different or be persecuted themselves, and are enraptured with fitting in and appeasing their righteous ego that erupts.

It takes knowing yourself and standing in the truth of you, to be able to step out of the pack and say, “This isn’t right. This isn’t consistent with my personal frequency, nor is it aligned with the consistency of my message I embody and align with.” Just like Keshia Thomas, in the article I linked above, demonstrated so courageously.

It takes courage to be you and to say “No”, even to the very people that made you feel perhaps loved and accepted for the first time. However, if you find yourself doing to others exactly the things that make those people feel the way you once did, even if it is under the guise of some new, more conscious, awakened, enlightened, and “elevated” place you feel you have reached, then there is something wrong with the consistency of your message and with what you are about to do, and even perhaps the group you have chosen to align with.

Take a moment, pause and breathe when you are feeling someone else’s energy shift into a place that makes you feel different than your own personal frequency. Ask yourself what they might be feeling right then and whatever it is (despite it being under different circumstances than your own), speak to them in the way you would want to be spoken to and wished to hear all of those times in your life when you felt similar. You will do both you and them a healing favor and shift things in that moment by loving yourself through them.

All of this being said, I recognize the power of many coming together, but it does make a difference when you understand yourself within that collaboration of energy, so that you are always aligning with the truth of you and recognize what is NOT your truth. This in turn will help others do the same themselves, as you walk in the example of your own consistency and convey the practices you are yourself embodying in the integrity of that reflection.   

The beautiful and empowering experiences of collective melding are seen when many people are holding the strength of their own light and heart-full energy to create positive change. Chanting together (although the same words or mantras, will come from the purity of your own musical tone), focusing and sending intentful energy together as channeled through each of you, making aware, conscious, and creative decisions and taking compassionate actions at large to create a wave of change, supplying your individual gifts and strengths together to support others, animals, the Earth, unifying our hearts with unconditional compassion and love…all of these can move mountains.

What is disruptive is when we lose sight of who we are, and fall prey to the judging we once ourselves have done. The need for close human connection is important, but maintaining your own frequency is equally so and will make all of the difference in any union you decide to collaborate and partner with – friendship-wise, romantically, business-wise, religiously or spiritually, or movement-wise.

Oneness is not sameness. Maintaining the integrity of your personal frequency is true empowerment and will create profound and lasting changes that you desire, both individually and when partnered with others also embodying their wholeness.

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