June feels ripe with much in motion and round-the-clock fullness, which is being mirrored in all the flowers and green blossoming everywhere. I mentioned recently in conversation that dream time is stepping forth in grand ways because it is where the layered realities of our multi-dimensionality are. This reality we are focused on in waking life is but one offshoot of what really is and things will flip when the collective is ready to “live the dream.” This last week has been layered with interweaving parts that are merging into a new creation. I’m sensing many can feel what I’m saying and are experiencing the difference, as well as likely have been involved in a lot recently too.
The first three photos you see here are of our home on the forest. Everything right now is coming up flowers and is completely enchanted. I can’t get enough of all the variety of wild flowers surrounding our house and throughout the forest, as we let our hearts wander the paths. I can’t help but stop to take them in with all of my senses, which sparks a feeling within to skip and frolick to join in Nature’s dance.
The layers of lush beauty and blooms seem to reflect the many layers of fertile potential stirring in the cauldron of our inner desires and dreams. Anything is possible. We just simply have to choose what we want to nurture, cultivate, and grow with all of that potential.
And speaking of dreams, I can’t emphasize enough how potent these are and have been for me. Things have been amping up and increasing there. I’ve always been a vivid dream weaver, but I’m experiencing so much more there than ever, including more of that cohesion of bringing together the multiple realities going on at once so that things are becoming more seamless.
I continue to dream in excess of people I know and having remote viewings, very clear psychic experiences – that I would rather say are simply tapping into the other realities and living and remembering them in the now, rather than actually being this psychic experience that seems supernatural – and when I touch in with people they confirm what I “dreamed” as being exactly what is going on with them.
This in part has to do with my Pisces boundless energy, but I’d like to emphasize that I feel this is where we’re headed as a collective in progressively tapping into our multi-dimensionality as no longer a concept in our minds, but a reality we live and co-create in. It would be too much for many if it simply opened fully and immediately, so in stages, the more each of us are tapping into it, the more the collective at large is, and vice versa it also speaks to the readiness of the collective that this is possible too.
This is the progressive spiral of humanity moving into a wider experience of dimensional cognition that the other parts of ourselves are already experiencing.
I’m finding that the more this happens, the more full my life is and the more I am experiencing the direct alignment and effects of every little thing I do very clearly. When we stop to recognize and be curious about it all, we expand and draw in more possibility.
It’s been a full week and continuing. I know many of you have found yourself with full plates as well. I always like to review things in my life and connect the dots, as it ignites things more and bringing things together.
And what a week it’s been:
- I read four books – just started my 5th – that had the perfect ingredients for the next leaps. I haven’t read much recently, but Dave has a library card and the last time I went with him I suddenly found myself with a stack of six books coming home – I’ll likely have the last two done here shortly. I followed my intuition and was led to the exact books perfect for the next phase of experience and creation. Even the order I’ve been reading them has unfolded in perfect cohesion.
- Cleaning out and organizing was at the forefront again – I am finishing our bedroom closet, started my office closet, and Dave and I have been working on our garage – the last piece of our house getting fully settled since moving in. We marvel at the fact that nearly 100% of the garages people have here in Tahoe are unusable, meaning they are full of stuff people store or throw in there and they park their cars on driveways – yes even in the snow of Winter. And even the few who do park inside have disorganized garages that are a storage area for mostly old and unused things. Feels very symbolic to me about the subconscious and unconscious parts of the collective that are running the show in the shadow. I feel that even our unseen spaces speak to our lives and it’s bothered me that the garage was, to us, unorganized even though to others it wasn’t. And the same for my office closet, although organized, just has way too much in it that I had to find space for at the time and now is going to be cleared. This speaks to clarity of mind, heart, vision, and manifestation to me and also of shadow integrated rather than hidden, denied, or tucked away. As I look through every piece it reflects a piece of my inner world I am putting into productive use or releasing. The timing on getting these clear as the last steps, mirrors what’s ready to come forth. We even decided not to just organize and open our last boxes for the garage, but are getting rid of things, got shelves and storage boxes to have it all organized, are hanging our bikes to have clear space, and before all this we’ve been prepping the foundation of the garage – also symbolic – by cleaning it, filling cement cracks, and painting it in a nice finish to keep it clean and look good. No reason the garage can’t be special! It feels like taking care of the shadow in a way of valuing and merging it as usable.
- I found a magickal horse duffel bag hidden in the garage – in the process of all the moving around a bag of stuff showed up that I thought I had lost, got stolen, or I threw away by accident. But in going through this process it showed up tucked away behind things. In the bag were some very cool things that were meaningful and special, including a portal tapestry I’ll be hanging downstairs in the guest room that will mirror mine and create a dual doorway reflecting layers of multi-dimensionality we have access to. Treasures found in the process of clearing.
- I found our telescope – my parents had given us a telescope when we moved back to Tahoe and there it was in the garage all dusty and in a corner. I cleaned it up and brought it in and set it up downstairs for now. This feels like a treasure too with clarity, vision, and connection bringing the Cosmos in closer merging with Earth, as the two become one through our physical forms
- Honing in on details for more effectiveness – I/we have been doing a lot of this and especially so in the shared business/work I have with Dave. In the interim it may seem like more work, but sets things up to be passive and supporting the intents we have for our life
- Anchored in new sacred rituals – in bringing to light more ways to be effective and aligned, I’ve added in some different practices to enrich my/our life further and it’s definitely making a difference
- Deepening shadow work and increased daily vitality and magick – this has included another level of awareness and application to bring more unification to life and making things easy and natural to discern and experience in each moment
- Taking action on intuition and putting in place the steps for actualization – by listening to myself I’m seeing the thread on the weave tighten from being a loose loop and the image of the tapestry reveal itself by bringing things together. I’ve put my ideas out there vulnerably and have received welcoming yes’s to them. This is bringing together the perfect collaborations and I know will continue to
- Garden tower recycling prolifically – I’ve harvested quite a lot and the last big harvest left the tower quite bare, but it’s all grown back in again. This tower has been even more abundant and rich than my last one and I feel its reflective of the things I’ve shifted, as well as the endless abundance available to us in our heart wells. I love seeing everything as a metaphor for my life
- Blueberry sightings amped up – the wild baby mountain cottontail that lives here outside my office has been coming around abundantly. I named him Blueberry based on a dream I had of a bunny I adopted. The interactions between us and seeing him daily is another metaphor for things and to me is reflecting the path I’m on and have been cultivating, as well as the book I’m completing and its process
- Fun news about Astrid – TBA but not only have her ears healed, but she is stepping out more and more collectively in her work and visibility
- Sunshine immersion – during all of this I have been getting out daily in our beautiful 70’s weather and getting some great Vitamin D time, which I thrive on and that infuses extra vitality. I’ve also started using my Sun Oven again, which also infuses extra vitality in our food. So while dream time is revving, it is in balance with daytime immersions. All things in harmony create wholeness of being and experience
- Dreams going crazy with psychic, remote, and symbolic messages that are bringing waking and dream life together – I already mentioned that above
- And amidst all of it I’m still on track to finish my book this potent month of June with the Solstice portal aiding it. This is my last editing/reworking before I surrender it to the next phase and a professional editor
So, yes there are many layers going on and these are just the main ones I’m sharing to express how I integrate the meaning, reflections, and symbolism into my life as a unified field of experience.
These last photos are of the Forest Portal we live on, where this magick is unfolding, and of all the beauty blooming here in the wild, enchanted garden of my heart.
This is a magickal little share on a very synchronous and auspiciously aligned return that just took place, taking things on a new leg of the spiral. Some of you may remember my giant amethyst rabbit that used to be a huge part of my and my little ones’ lives for many years – about 7 – 8, I believe. Then about a little over three years ago it became time for us to part ways, as I had a new journey and adventure that was taking me in a new direction, our time then was complete, and she needed a new crystal guardian to cherish and work with her. That took her clear across the states to the east coast, landing in New York City.
Before then, I taught a crystal workshop, where her new keeper first met her and expressed interest. This also happened to be a very pivotal and transformational time in my life where I was hitting a conclusion on this Earth plane and had an invitation to move on, which I considered heavily. It was also during this time, four years ago, that I was experiencing similar rips in timelines, parallel realities, and odd things showing up, just as I mentioned in my post yesterday that is occurring now as well. I was actually reminded of this, this morning when on Facebook, memories from this exact time, four years ago, popped up on my timeline that shared the experiences I was having that mirrored now. And after that, a huge cosmic influx of experiences and messages kept pouring through that something big was underway, offering me a choice. It wasn’t too long after that that Cosmo came into my life and so did the Magick Bus, and everything took a renewing turn and a new choice was made for a while.
My rabbit, Joy, was with me at the time, and she was very affected by these experiences that she was highly aware of like me. It freaked her out, in fact, as she was seeing things walking alongside our shared reality. I remember the night experiences of seeing someone in our house going about their living, but obviously it was in another dimension than my current one. I would smell cigarette smoke and hear things, as well as saw a portal open through my painting one night (the same one of Nestor, Joy, and the Moon that I have currently in my office) with magickal creatures coming out of it. Anyway, needless to say, it was quite an experience and recently there’s been a similar one, which hasn’t been experienced since that time four years ago.
Joy also happened to be very connected to that rabbit amethyst, which came home to me right after she came home to me. It had a lot of cosmic energy and was connected with my rabbit, Nestor. Gaia was also here when it first came home to me and the two of them would spend a lot of time with it, sitting near or in it, gridding and connecting. The crystal was a portal in and of itself.
It was a big deal when she left to go with her new guardian, (and emotional for me) but I knew it was the right thing without a doubt, and would be very instrumental and helpful to my friend she went with. And in fact, she was.
There’s too many details to recount of recent, but I’d felt the amethyst rabbit a lot now and then, over the course of her being away. I’d heard some stories from my friend she went to and so the connection was always strong and never broken.
With recent shifts, a new leg of my journey and potentials opening, as well as Astrid now in my life, and similar experiences beginning, it was not surprising to me that this crystal in some way would find her way to me again.
I believe Astrid has called it in, as well as the work I’m currently focused on, and what’s unfolding. Not to mention, her current guardian is also going through huge shifts (I see it’s 11:11 on the clock as I’m writing this) and a pivotal life change. She had mentioned to me months ago that the amethyst had expressed it would be breaking in pieces and she started seeing cracks.
Well, she did in fact break into several pieces, which was both very sad and also very beautiful to both myself and my friend, as it definitely mirrors shifts personally and collectively happening, as well as cracks in veils ready to be revealed, and expansion bursting in creative potential. She broke in mostly big pieces, but two smaller ones, too.
I messaged her just a few days ago, not knowing it had broken, to just touch in with her, as I was feeling her and the shifts she was going through. We hadn’t spoken in months. It was then that she told me the amethyst had done as she said and the piece at the very top broke just as she said it would and told me she wanted to send me that piece.
It arrived yesterday, along with the other smaller piece and the timing is auspicious given everything.
This piece is very meaningful to me, as it is the very top of it that was the ears of the rabbit. It includes the ears, top of crown chakra, and extending part way to the third eye.
Ears of my rabbits have always been key in our communicating telepathically and are in general, power parts of them. So having this and the other lovely piece that was part of the outside outline of the rabbit, really is a gift and lovely surprise to have back with me.
Not only are they smaller and more easy for me to hold and engage, but are easy for Astrid to connect with – I let her sniff with her energetic nose as soon as it arrived. I’m excited to see what comes next between her and the crystal, as well as for the three of us. It also keeps an open channel between my friend and I even more so with these pieces connecting us.
And the ear piece now can sit on my desk next to my computer while I work. I have it turned on its side so that the inner ear part is receiving and flowing out to me. I think it’s also very cool that photos of Nestor, Joy, Cosmo, and my crystal bunny statues of all of them, including Astrid are right behind it. You can’t see, but Gaia’s crystal statue and photo are to the right too.
I couldn’t be more excited and grateful.
Yesterday we took an afternoon walk along Zephyr Cove – a favorite go-to for us on busier days. And upon this walk we discovered an enchanted realm of ice sculptures, courtesy of Mother Nature, the incredibly powerful Lake Tahoe Queen, and good ol’ Zephyr. We stumbled upon exquisite, mysterious, and magickal ice formations, which we’ve never seen before except for one time last year at Fallen Leaf Lake. How lucky we felt to find them, feeling like we were walking through Earth’s natural gallery, as we explored and encountered each different ice spirit and their unique energy. They don’t call this Zephyr Cove for nothing, as that wind sure is a shapeshifter for the waters of Tahoe.
The ones we saw last December at Fallen Leaf Lake were much more ice castle-like and lacy. Whereas the ones from yesterday were all so organic and different. Some looking like extraterrestrial beings, sea creatures, fire, mirrors of nature around them, Elementals caught in motion, fascinating portals, and also delicate, Faery ones creating an ice kingdom.
I love the variety and even the large boulder rocks covered in cascades of icing and thick blankets of bubbly ice just oozing with frosty delight.
There was an interesting juxtaposition of a large controlled fire in the background and also red and fiery energy that was showing up in some of the photos behind the ice sculptures. Sometimes the red and golden glows were part of the natural landscape, but particularly in the first photo of this post, the red just appeared atop the ice.
Anyway, I thought you’d enjoy these beautiful and otherworldly creations, as I take you along the walk we enjoyed yesterday, stopping to explore each and every one of these beautiful works of art.
Since the Solar Eclipse’s reset, there’s been a rush of very different energy pouring in – for some intensely forcing changes and for others like a welcome jet propulsion into the new. Everything seems to continue to be a step-by-step process of taking it all slowly without rush and truly anchoring in each step with depth of intention and understanding. With tomorrow’s Full Moon in Pisces (my native sun sign), intuition will be on an all-time high, so listening to it and trusting it will be key to support moving into your true power. This moon will help you to gain deeper insights and understanding about the seeds you’ve been planting in your garden, the intentions you have for them, and will illuminate what truly is guiding your life so that you have a broader grasp on the creative forces at work and how to harness them.
Boundaries again are a constant theme in order to create well being and is a lesson for the boundless Pisces energy to understand how to balance in a healthy way.
This is a powerful time for deep soul level closure, to exercise greater compassion rather than judgment, and to practice radical acceptance, which helps you to release suffering. Suffering is a refusal to accept things. It’s time to give up the suffering, do an energy cleanse, and ask how you can make the changes then engage action to do them.
Synchronously we were at a free Celtic rock concert for the Young Dubliners on Saturday where I danced the hardest I have since my twenties. When I say danced hard, I mean hard…I was doing my own version of the Riverdance and literally was jumping, hopping, kicking, jiggling, and wiggling nonstop through about 6 songs with sweat pouring, heart racing, and just powering through despite feeling as if I might not catch my breath, but did, then was in the dancer’s-high zone. My friend who joined me said she heard me giggling and cackling throughout like never before, which made her see my inner Faery come through. That Irish music definitely released a DNA chord within. I literally shook free and coughed out all the old on the drive home after! Talk about an energy cleanse! And feet were recalibrating two days after.
Well, this Pisces Moon encourages the energy of dance since Pisces rules the feet. So dance like crazy and move energy through your feet, which will not only shake out everything from the core and move things fast, but will anchor and ground you as you connect those feet to Mother Earth – Terra. She will in turn help transmute the energy and send it back with a recharge!
That watery Pisces energy is also about dreaming – whether receiving prophetic dreams or engaging imagination to dream big.
This has been a big one for me. I’ve been engaging dream visioning and just going wild with them, as long as they are aligned with the “now” me in every way.
So yes, dream a little dream…..or make it a big one! I am!
Don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t do something and don’t let their doubts become yours.
Also, learn to temper engaging intentions and detachment, envisioning, but also not overly talking about them. Keep a little bit of the magick to yourself so that you don’t lose the momentum. Patience is key, but don’t give up!
True, it will take dedication, drive, endurance, time and major effort, but if you believe in it, it’s the breath of life to you, and it fills your heart with joy and passion then you owe yourself and those that will be touched by your dream who you can’t see right now or gauge analytically, the opportunity to make it happen.
Live life to your fullest and responsibly harness your creative potential as example.
I’ve been immersed in a lot here (I bet you have too!), but continue to have a good majority of my life focused on “Earthing” in Nature and working closely with the Faeries and Elementals of the land to co-create and manifest together. Not to mention, continuing to engage my Star family from beyond, including my dear ones who have moved on, as well as the magickal Cosmic Astrid. It’s a balancing and merging of Earth and Cosmos.
This has continued to lead me on paths to new portals of discovery and doorways (including literal multi-dimensional doors of possibilities – more on that another time) showing up and opening.
I can’t begin to tell you how much has happened so quickly and anchored in in the last 5 months. Incredible! And as I look back I can see how that balance of alignments, patience, release, intention, and action have all come together.
I’ll share the exciting news on things soon, but it really has all become this fluid experience with some things immediately showing up and others all percolating, but are their own realities on a different timeline that are and will merge once I continue jumping them. And at the same time I’m seeing how there is always “something better” that reveals itself, just as is always my intention I voice when working on manifesting things. This ends up bringing together the most aligned outcomes that combine the ingredients of all that I love in an alchemical recipe only the Cosmos Itself within me knows how to do. And that involves stepping out of ego and attachments, and being open, open, OPEN to any and all possibilities that result in the highest good for all concerned.
And during these times, although I’ve been super active and life has been full, I’ve also been very inner (if you can believe that). Truly a Yin/Yang synergy of experience. And it is the inner time and the things I do actually keep to myself that allow me to put out the amount of energy that I do, as it does help me to conserve and restore, as well as continue to fuel things with a gusto of momentum.
I have huge amounts of passionate fire roaring inside and yet I’m letting it out in the bursts needed without crashing or burning out and without ever losing its fuel.
I continue to hold the expansive visions, while allowing things to organically morph along the way. Sometimes I’m so excited I could burst, but that’s when the Earthing and Nature immersion aids me in bringing my energy back down to a healthy kindling and allows a channel of support to come from the Spirits I honor and cherish.
It’s been so interesting to me that I’ve seen the most snakes I’ve ever seen recently in the last few weeks here (5 total – my fav/special #). Potent transformation energy! We don’t have rattlesnakes, but I’ve seen every size of Garter Snake from the tiniest of babies, to adolescent, to mature snake – Maiden, Mother, Crone energy perhaps? All aspects of myself merging, just as Earth and Cosmic parts do (this echoing a very prophetic and powerful experience I had in dream time just a little over two years ago that was the doorway to where I am now, but could have gone a different direction.
It’s 1:11 here as I conclude and paste in this, which I recently shared in an Instagram/Facebook post:
There are times when being alone or pulling within are necessary especially if you are doing very public work in terms of your path. There are spirits who may seem very visual and yet most of who they are and what they do goes unseen and is kept to themselves. But even if others see you, it doesn’t mean they REALLY see you or even fully know you, as you may be a reflection…truth mirror…or simply can’t be seen yet in totality because what you carry or embody isn’t understood yet.
I love you.
Since I’ll likely not be posting a blog on my birthday or this weekend, I thought I’d share one today and to get the energetic ball rolling with the upcoming New Moon Solar Eclipse, which just so happens to fall on my birthday – February 26th. While I don’t have any grand plans this year, I’m feeling grateful for this grand gift itself of Cosmic alignment and there may also be a snow gift from Nature on my birthday and through the weekend, which all feels like a symbolic celebration in very literal ways for this Winter baby, Cosmic Pisces, Snow Faery. However this birthday unfolds, I will make it an intentional day, as I’ve learned it isn’t so much what we do, as the energy we carry forth through what we are doing.
But what a perfect timing to clear away the old, keep digging deep, making way for new beginnings, sharing your greatest hopes, and dreaming bigger than ever as a way of celebrating and honoring your journey.
I know for myself, I’ll be doing some more Reiki Healing Attunements on the 26th for my greatest intentions and biggest dreams I have yet to put forward, no matter how others may think I should be more realistic. That’s not exactly something a Pisces understands, although the Capricorn parts of me appreciate the caution. Yet for me that is interpreted more as making sure I’m aligning all parts of me with the essence of my dreams, making sure I can commit myself fully, understanding the responsibility that goes along with it, and the groundwork that will be needed with persevering and unwavering courage and strength.
I’ve been doing an amped up amount of Reiki Healing Attunements over the last few weeks – again a reminder if you have this tool in your toolbox – and have seen all of them except the long term ones come to fruition, although more clarity and steps have revealed themselves with the farther future ones too.
I have also been more willing in the last year or so to declare what I really want, no matter how big they seem or that they are truly just MY joys and desires, as I know that I matter too and I know that because I always intend everything for the highest good of all concerned, it is never selfish to ask from your heart what you want, as this inevitably will trickle to everyone we touch directly or indirectly. Plus, it is is powerful to voice your desires, without attachment or expectation, but simply as personal expression of what you feel and/or want.
I felt a big shift take place on the 22nd that asked me to anchor even more with the future potentials I’m creating and opened up greater ways to commit if in fact I want to manifest them. This provided different creative ideas and strategies I hadn’t thought of, to support my wanting to do more right now that I was feeling an unknown around how I could actually be investing into things even though it’s still off in the distance.
So, I will utilize the 26th, my renewal and rebirthing, along with the New Moon Eclipse to provide greater vision and roots with everything I definitively decide to anchor into and to “up the game” so to speak. Perhaps you might join in and do the same for your own intentions?
I do know that I have been having an increased momentum surge through me that needs precision and fine focus, which will continue to see me more immersed in creating, exercising more boundaries, and balancing my time and resources.
I love how this birthday is also my 44th, loving that double digit, master number and angelic presence surrounding the energy of this year and that I’ll be beginning a #2 personal year which speaks to peace, timing, nurturing, partnership, patience, intuition, trust, cooperation, and things not appearing on the outside while much is taking place in the internal world and foundationally.
I love what Numerologist, Christine DeLorey, shares about a 2 Year Cycle:
“The 2 year cycle is an inspiring twelve month journey in which you will find exciting connections between your past, your present, and your future. Eventually, you will be able to use this information to set an ambitious goal in motion. But make no mistake, what happens this year is going to take perseverance and, above all, great patience.
First, you must slow down and stop pushing to get results. What you want is going to take longer to achieve than expected, so tone down your high expectations of yourself and others, and pay patient and meticulous attention to the details of all situations.
You must learn to move more slowly, attentively, and with mutual interests in mind. If not, you will miss too many clues and connections to make any kind of measurable progress. Widen your lens. See a bigger picture. Discover your connection to everything that is influencing your life.
Of course, it can be difficult to slow down when you are so sure that you need to be moving faster, but until you do slow down – enough to see the finer and often overlooked details of your reality – you will have no idea of where you have come from, who you are becoming, where you are, what you’re doing, why you’re doing it, where you’re going, or the roles that others are playing in your life. Clarity is one of the principle gifts of the 2 year, just as long as you slow yourself down enough to be able to claim it.”
A perfect message for what had come to me this week and how I’ll be funneling my energies like my Tortoise, Gaia, with deliberate clarity and steadfast patience, taking into account the bigger picture and all seens and potential unforeseens, which my rabbit companion souls teach me with heightened senses, vision, and agility for transforming quickly when needed.
I love that I get to share my special day with a collective special day on this portal of possibility and potential, which seems appropriate for a collective Pisces soul.
This is a magickal and joyous energy we’ll be experiencing with opportunity to turn dreams into reality with enduring results and lasting happiness, by humbly honing in on our gifts for the greatest good of all concerned. Definitely a Solar Eclipse for making wishes come true. So we can all really go deep and ask what that wish is, or wishes are. Don’t be afraid to state it out loud, nor afraid to do what it takes to co-create it.
The Sun and Moon are also conjunct Neptune at this time which increases sensitivity, intuition, visions/premonitions, and empathy…something I’m hearing from many who are usually strong pillars of guidance and anchors for others. So be aware of nervous tension and anxiety, which can cause reactions versus responses. Keep personal integrity and responsibility at the forefront. And rise above the collective field so you can continue to do your thing and guide the way for others by standing in your personal frequency.
Rather than chaos pulling you in, let your inner peace draw others out of the chaos.
This is where boundaries come into play and conscious self-awareness to filter out what is and isn’t you.
Yet this doorway also provides very harmonious energy that can be harnessed for great benefit, not to mention access to deepest dreams, creativity, and imagination for manifesting.
There isn’t wrong choice, there’s simply choice. This can be a good time to get clarity on decisions and the momentum behind them to put them into action.
And this brings me around to responsibility. I shared this on social media today, but it feels important to add here, as more than ever this feels at the forefront of choices we make day in and day out.
Responsibility is key always and to be conscious of it consistently is necessary. Your actions, thoughts, words, shares, feelings, all have an impact on the collective in seen and unseen ways. And if you are in a role where others look to you as a guide in some way or if you are a leader or visionary as your path, responsibility is a moment-to-moment energy to temper all that you do with and choose from the place of greatest good to others while empowering/not enabling, and keeping the integrity of your message as consistent and pure as you can.
While everyone has choice, that also includes the choice to live responsibly and to hold your own frequency, regardless of other’s choices.
I’ve come to see over time how important one’s commitment to responsibility affects so much in your life. Not only will it support the things you desire creating, but also trickles out to how others will relate to you and want to cocreate with you. Think about the choices and commitments you make and the value impact they have in more ways than you may realize.
This is at the forefront of my intentions, dreams, and the energy I’m putting out there, tempered with a deeper kind of love I’ve come to experience that nudges limitations into greater expansiveness.
I can’t begin to share all that has transformed in my life over the course of it, let alone in the last year or two, but this rapid change seems to take place on a weekly and daily basis now, as accelerated experiences are embraced.
I know that so many of you can relate. It’s like a whole other person/or persons and worlds, right?!
And while none of the details really matter, I would like to take a moment to publicly express gratitude from the heart and core of my soul for everything I have chosen to go through at this collective time we share on Earth – the good, bad, ugly, thick and thin…or whatever you want to call it – simply experiences.
I didn’t actually think I would make it to this year and yet here I am because I chose another way to fulfill that which was unfulfilled. I chose a symbolic death instead of a literal one. I chose to take a leap, to have faith, to reinvent myself, to let go of everything, and to continue forward despite my soul family moving on, despite the invitations before me, and despite having no guarantee for what I was about to choose except knowing it is my heart’s joy.
And while I, or any of us, don’t know how much longer we may have in this embodiment, I do know that I can say I am truly living in every sense of the word without limitations and without regrets. I feel finally that I am merging my Cosmic and Earthly self.
My only regret would have been not to do what I’m doing now, which is immersing into the greater potentials and possibilities beyond what would have been soul expected of me due to the cycles and repetitive patterns I was repeating, fulfilling, and ultimately bringing around in a healthy way to close off karmically.
It would also have been a regret not to immerse into the simple and most valuable enjoyments and enrichments in the fullest possible way, not to immerse into the pure experience without any limiting ideas or other’s beliefs ruling my enjoyment of sensual living, not to immerse into more amplification of my personal frequency and vibration without hiding behind myself or holding my energy back…not to immerse into the pure harmony of it all, period.
While some may say I’ve been doing this, I would say not to the degree and greater consistency I am now, and this does and has made a huge difference.
So while I may never go back to things I once used to do, offer as service, or engage in as a human, I will be living with deeper conviction and clarity of my thread in the collective tapestry moment to moment.
44 feels like a year of building, business, being, and balance (4 B’s!) all centered around my passions and knowing the strength and support is there if I remain focused and dedicated.
And so I embrace this new doorway on the 26th, this portal of potential, with open heart and committed soul and welcome the fresh experiences that await my alignment.
Wishing everyone a creatively potent New Moon Solar Eclipse. I hope you will stretch yourself farther than you ever have into the seed of potential you have within you as your origin of being.
(FUN NOTE: When I hit publish the clock said 4:44 – gotta love it!)
Dream posts continue, as this was another meaningful dream I felt compelled to share now that I’ve had time with it for myself. The day after my dream I posted yesterday about the two blue snakes and gila monster, as you might recall was the day “The Tree Beckoned and I Followed.” Well, after that experience in finding the presence of orbs all around me inside the tree portal (appearing like I’d stepped inside the Cosmos) that night I had another potent and healing dream that brought full circle a gift from my beloved rabbit, Joy, who has also been showing up so profoundly lately.
Synchronously, this was also the night of the marches collectively taking place.
Since many of you so sweetly sent messages and love about Joy when she transitioned and have followed along with my bunny love’s journeys, I thought this might be not only conclusive as a companion piece to my share about Joy’s last moments and days on Earth in the physical I wrote and spoke about extensively in this post “In Life & Death, “Joy” Is Always There,” but may also be supportive to others who have experienced loss of their beloved animal companions and loved ones in demonstrating the eternal connection that does not end and how we are continually being supported by the connection shared.
In my dream on Saturday 1/21, Joy was with me and she had taken ill, just like in the end before she left in waking life. The odd thing was that her tail came off in the dream and it was very large – much larger than normal size. It literally broke off on its own, but perfectly. I could see all of the tiny bones and ligaments that connect it to her bum, but where it broke off was so clean and precise, without blood or any signs of injury. This indicates to me a sense of no suffering being experienced on her “end” and a clean “ending” and healing closure at the “tail end” of this experience. The tail being so large and furry feels to be definitive in this closure and the “end of an era” again reiterated for me, balance being restored, and that I’m using intuition, creativity, and wisdom in my life more than ever and this will be increasing.
Although rabbit’s feet are connected to “lucky charms,” the tail may also be considered as such since there is connection with rabbit’s tails as their way of escaping predators with the white flash of the tail confusing them as to their exact location when in pursuit.
I also feel this symbolism she showed me is directly connected to my book, but that’s for me to understand the connection, although I will say that direct healing is involved on many levels with its unfolding.
But back to the dream….
I then notice her feet, especially the left one, and they look exactly like Fiver’s – the mouse that I nurtured recently.
These mouse feet were only on her back legs, just like Fiver’s back legs were the only part of him that showed signs of his injury from the impact to that area and lower back.
That left leg on her was completely limp, red, bruised. I remember one spot on Fiver’s leg had a bruised, red area, so again tied in with him.
Then in the dream she comes and lays on me, as I comfort her and caress her.
In the dream I start calling around to vets to get her in (just as I did in waking life when she took ill), but I get the sense she won’t make it in time to get there. In real life, she had just made it to the ER after a long over an hour’s drive and then passed not long after I left her in the doctor’s care to monitor over night, at her request.
So, now in the dream I am aware she won’t make it and I will just be with her to help her transition peacefully, just like I was there for Fiver.
She is in my arms and then suddenly she lets out a little cry, followed by one last big breath and I know she is leaving her body with that.
Nestor had let out a piercing, excruciating cry when she left this Earth, but this was different….it was soft and although rabbit’s only cry when in pain, it was an indication of release rather than suffering to me and not as tormenting to experience as Nestor’s was.
(BTW, this is how she actually transitioned when I left her at the ER, as the doctor shared this with me when she called to tell me that she let out a soft cry and took a big breath and went.)
I then rub her head softly, as she lays in my arms and tell her over and over that I love her, wanting that to be the last thing she hears before she completely goes and slowly her heart and breathing wind down to nothing.
I’m sobbing in the dream and at this point can feel my half wake state in real life and know and can hear me wimpering in real life too.
Although emotional, it was a gentle experience and was not at all a dream, but completely a reality she and I were sharing for a purpose and rewriting the end together.
I felt that she was connecting me to understand a deeper healing than I may have been aware of that I had through Fiver.
Perhaps wanting me to know she had projected a part of herself in Fiver when he had come to me, or that he had been sent to me by her, as a way for me to experience this healing with him through her.
This may include being there with her at the very end when she transitioned, since I was not when she passed, as I had left her at the ER by her choice in not wanting me to have to go through that experience.
Although I knew she wanted that and maybe thought I was not ready yet for this, I felt like I wished I’d been there. Maybe her seeing how I handled Cosmo’ passing, made her now know I was ready and she gifted me this experience in “dream” time and with Fiver, so I could relive being there with her.
And she gifted it in a gentle, beautiful way.
Even the way that Fiver jumped on the crystal when he transitioned, like blasting off into the Cosmos, could have been a sign of connection with her since Joy was so connected to crystals herself and always layed with them and had their points jutting into her body to receive their energy, working with gridding our homes and journeying with them.
This dream, as they all are to me, was very “real time”. And I did feel this sense of deepening closure and peace knowing I supported her this way and that I was strong enough now to keep going through these kinds of experiences in supporting these sweet souls in their transitions.
And afterall, Joy is a cosmic traveler, shape shifter, and portal journeyer. You might recall that she and Nestor showed up in Glacier National Park as the two cosmic deer on the day I spread their ashes, from this post: Spreading Ashes, Spreading Joy ~ Cosmic Encounters & Sacred Connections
So connecting with Fiver is not far from reach for her either. 😉 And creating timeline jumps for us to relive/recreate what “is” would be right up her alley too. I love how she changed the “ending” and that I could be with her.
Quick side note and speaking of Nestor, the day after that dream we headed down the stairs from our place and the crew was there shoveling the snow as they do and one guy says to the other to alert him we were coming up behind him since he was busy shoveling and didn’t see us, “Watch out Nestor.” I smiled so big knowing my sweet Nestor was wanting to chime in too with reiteration to the dream connections.
And to add to the timings and synchronicity, another tie-in with Joy took place just a couple of days before my dream of her. I received a voicemail message from the doctor in Jackson, Wyoming who did her surgery. The story line of this is included in the above post on her transition.
He was such an angel, who came in on his day off to do this, talked to me on the phone, provided me his personal number and went above and beyond in helping her/me.
A little rewind…..about a month or a few weeks after Joy passed I’d sent him a plant with a nice thank you note just wanting to acknowledge how grateful I was for everything that he’d done for us. He even called me the night she transitioned after talking with the ER doctor that night (late I might add) to give her background right before she passed.
I actually never heard from him after I sent the thank you gift, so I wasn’t sure if he got it, but figured that our crossing of paths was complete.
Then 6 months later he calls and in his message says he just wanted to say hello, was thinking of me, thanked me for the nice plant and thoughtful card…and told me whenever I had time to give him a call to talk because he had felt such a good vibe from me and really connected with me, so he wanted to see how I was.
I was so touched and it felt like Joy’s way of starting to get the ball rolling with her plan of recreating the “end”.
And then back to the day at the tree portal, right before that night’s dream, I now was able to connect the dots and that this portal was activating the opening to this experience Joy was setting up for me to rewrite “history” and I feel that larger orb above me was her.
What an experience and how gracious and loving Joy is to gift me this one thing I had wished.
There are no limitations to our connections, eternal love and bonds, and what is possible.
I feel a greater lightness and deepening of my love with her and my loves, and gratitude for her gifts in knowing what would be perfect for my journey and moving forward with my work.
Yesterday’s Winter Solstice truly was a portal shifting one reality into another with so many truly magickal events culminating all in the same day that all went beautifully and couldn’t have aligned more perfectly. I wasn’t the only one who had felt this was going to be a powerful transition time and indeed it was. Not to mention had synchronous mergings all around.
I also felt that my bunny loves would have a hand in it all and so they did.
Without going into too much detail, yesterday not only saw an era end and begin with the Magick Bus being purchased by the most lovely couple and perfect new family for her, but saw Dave’s dad through a very successful surgery, there were two very special events that took place and were celebrated with a birthday and a union, my parents and we had some solidification of new anchored, we received more clarity on our living/housing situation, snow faery flurries of snow started off the day and created a wonderland fit for the Solstice, I created a Winter Solstice crystal grid with new crystals that will be utilized in some upcoming cosmic/faery/shamanic creations (this was a way to activate them set with the backdrop of the perfect Christmas card my parents gave me, as you can see having the words “A Gift…A Joy…A Miracle”):
I had prophetic dreams the night before of one of the events that took place and had smelled what seemed like roses and carnations (some kind of flowers for sure – the floral fragrance was so strong) wafting in the air during the time it was to happen that no one else could smell around me even though I was no where near the event (this felt like timelines merging and portals accessed), and I found the perfect private beach in Zephyr Cove (perfect name too) for some of Cosmo’s ashes to be spread on the lake per his wishes on this day, as his beloved Joy and dear friend Nestor had had theirs.
I even found confirming gifts of a white quartz stone shaped like a heart, and a lovely feather, on the beach just before reaching the stone pools where I lovingly dusted 5 small pinches of Cosmo’s Earthly beingness into a sacred little pool created by some of the beautiful, prehistoric rock formations of the lake.
There were other tie-ins with Cosmo and the Magick bus that made this day and events around these, to be much more than just symbolic, but also divinely orchestrated.
But back briefly to the Magick Bus. Dave and I never attached to any one person who would contact us to see her, as we knew when things were right they would just happen magickally. Plus, I’d already done a Reiki healing attunement on it all, so there was no reason to think in that way.
That said, I did have this sense that since these people wanted to see it on the Solstice, were driving all the way from Santa Rosa (4 hours away), which was the same place where the people who flew down and bought my Hunab Ku SUV outright for the exact price I asked were from, and I had the intention it would go before the end of the year, and maybe even before we left for our Christmas trip, it did seem auspicious.
Not to mention, it was the day I had Cosmo’s ashes with us and he and Joy had been actively working on bringing the right people to her.
My next indication was when the woman and I immediately learned that we shared the same favorite number and have had it our favorite since childhood – the number 5, which also so happens to always be a sign and message of confirmation from my beloved Nestor.
And more synchronicities came up during our conversations with the couple, which were uncanny. Then we were surprised by them offering us the exact amount we were asking, which had been the same with my car.
We were all just so grateful, as not only had they searched a long time for the right RV home, but we had intended the right people who would love and care for her in the same way. And we all discovered how we shared being meticulous people and how that was what sold them and what also one of the things that made us feel the Magick Bus was in wonderful caring hands. Yay!
AND, on the way to where we have the Magick Bus stored, we saw 18 hawks, which make a 9 for endings, numerologically. Then after our shaking/hugging on the whole thing and leaving, we saw 1 hawk for new beginnings. 19 total, also creating the merging of endings and beginnings in its 1 and 9 combination, but when added equaling a 1 again.
Needless to say, it was a day of big celebrations all around, bitter sweetness, and wonderful endings and beginnings.
We are now en route (yes, another road trip – 8 hours this time and with the kitty babies along for the ride) since this early morning after Solstice to Southern California for a long Christmas celebration feeling full in heart with love and gratitude for the incredible gifts received for the highest good of all.
I took this photo this morning at 7:30 am right when we’d gotten on the road. It was such a mystical view of the sun behind golden veils of mist and snow clouds. So mysterious! At times you could see the full sun behind a very thin veil with a soft golden halo around, against white blankets of clouds and lighting the tips of the snow covered trees in lemony gold. Stunning!
I’m not sure I’ll have time to blog until we return home Monday the 26th, but if I do it will be a brief message of holiday wishes.
Until then, I hope you enjoy the beautiful photos of my Solstice magick, as I always love to spread the energetic vibes and love to each of you. A way to share life from my perspective and to connect us across space and time.