Since the Solar Eclipse’s reset, there’s been a rush of very different energy pouring in – for some intensely forcing changes and for others like a welcome jet propulsion into the new. Everything seems to continue to be a step-by-step process of taking it all slowly without rush and truly anchoring in each step with depth of intention and understanding. With tomorrow’s Full Moon in Pisces (my native sun sign), intuition will be on an all-time high, so listening to it and trusting it will be key to support moving into your true power. This moon will help you to gain deeper insights and understanding about the seeds you’ve been planting in your garden, the intentions you have for them, and will illuminate what truly is guiding your life so that you have a broader grasp on the creative forces at work and how to harness them.
Boundaries again are a constant theme in order to create well being and is a lesson for the boundless Pisces energy to understand how to balance in a healthy way.
This is a powerful time for deep soul level closure, to exercise greater compassion rather than judgment, and to practice radical acceptance, which helps you to release suffering. Suffering is a refusal to accept things. It’s time to give up the suffering, do an energy cleanse, and ask how you can make the changes then engage action to do them.
Synchronously we were at a free Celtic rock concert for the Young Dubliners on Saturday where I danced the hardest I have since my twenties. When I say danced hard, I mean hard…I was doing my own version of the Riverdance and literally was jumping, hopping, kicking, jiggling, and wiggling nonstop through about 6 songs with sweat pouring, heart racing, and just powering through despite feeling as if I might not catch my breath, but did, then was in the dancer’s-high zone. My friend who joined me said she heard me giggling and cackling throughout like never before, which made her see my inner Faery come through. That Irish music definitely released a DNA chord within. I literally shook free and coughed out all the old on the drive home after! Talk about an energy cleanse! And feet were recalibrating two days after.
Well, this Pisces Moon encourages the energy of dance since Pisces rules the feet. So dance like crazy and move energy through your feet, which will not only shake out everything from the core and move things fast, but will anchor and ground you as you connect those feet to Mother Earth – Terra. She will in turn help transmute the energy and send it back with a recharge!
That watery Pisces energy is also about dreaming – whether receiving prophetic dreams or engaging imagination to dream big.
This has been a big one for me. I’ve been engaging dream visioning and just going wild with them, as long as they are aligned with the “now” me in every way.
So yes, dream a little dream…..or make it a big one! I am!
Don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t do something and don’t let their doubts become yours.
Also, learn to temper engaging intentions and detachment, envisioning, but also not overly talking about them. Keep a little bit of the magick to yourself so that you don’t lose the momentum. Patience is key, but don’t give up!
True, it will take dedication, drive, endurance, time and major effort, but if you believe in it, it’s the breath of life to you, and it fills your heart with joy and passion then you owe yourself and those that will be touched by your dream who you can’t see right now or gauge analytically, the opportunity to make it happen.
Live life to your fullest and responsibly harness your creative potential as example.
I’ve been immersed in a lot here (I bet you have too!), but continue to have a good majority of my life focused on “Earthing” in Nature and working closely with the Faeries and Elementals of the land to co-create and manifest together. Not to mention, continuing to engage my Star family from beyond, including my dear ones who have moved on, as well as the magickal Cosmic Astrid. It’s a balancing and merging of Earth and Cosmos.
This has continued to lead me on paths to new portals of discovery and doorways (including literal multi-dimensional doors of possibilities – more on that another time) showing up and opening.
I can’t begin to tell you how much has happened so quickly and anchored in in the last 5 months. Incredible! And as I look back I can see how that balance of alignments, patience, release, intention, and action have all come together.
I’ll share the exciting news on things soon, but it really has all become this fluid experience with some things immediately showing up and others all percolating, but are their own realities on a different timeline that are and will merge once I continue jumping them. And at the same time I’m seeing how there is always “something better” that reveals itself, just as is always my intention I voice when working on manifesting things. This ends up bringing together the most aligned outcomes that combine the ingredients of all that I love in an alchemical recipe only the Cosmos Itself within me knows how to do. And that involves stepping out of ego and attachments, and being open, open, OPEN to any and all possibilities that result in the highest good for all concerned.
And during these times, although I’ve been super active and life has been full, I’ve also been very inner (if you can believe that). Truly a Yin/Yang synergy of experience. And it is the inner time and the things I do actually keep to myself that allow me to put out the amount of energy that I do, as it does help me to conserve and restore, as well as continue to fuel things with a gusto of momentum.
I have huge amounts of passionate fire roaring inside and yet I’m letting it out in the bursts needed without crashing or burning out and without ever losing its fuel.
I continue to hold the expansive visions, while allowing things to organically morph along the way. Sometimes I’m so excited I could burst, but that’s when the Earthing and Nature immersion aids me in bringing my energy back down to a healthy kindling and allows a channel of support to come from the Spirits I honor and cherish.
It’s been so interesting to me that I’ve seen the most snakes I’ve ever seen recently in the last few weeks here (5 total – my fav/special #). Potent transformation energy! We don’t have rattlesnakes, but I’ve seen every size of Garter Snake from the tiniest of babies, to adolescent, to mature snake – Maiden, Mother, Crone energy perhaps? All aspects of myself merging, just as Earth and Cosmic parts do (this echoing a very prophetic and powerful experience I had in dream time just a little over two years ago that was the doorway to where I am now, but could have gone a different direction.
It’s 1:11 here as I conclude and paste in this, which I recently shared in an Instagram/Facebook post:
There are times when being alone or pulling within are necessary especially if you are doing very public work in terms of your path. There are spirits who may seem very visual and yet most of who they are and what they do goes unseen and is kept to themselves. But even if others see you, it doesn’t mean they REALLY see you or even fully know you, as you may be a reflection…truth mirror…or simply can’t be seen yet in totality because what you carry or embody isn’t understood yet.
I love you.
Since I’ll likely not be posting a blog on my birthday or this weekend, I thought I’d share one today and to get the energetic ball rolling with the upcoming New Moon Solar Eclipse, which just so happens to fall on my birthday – February 26th. While I don’t have any grand plans this year, I’m feeling grateful for this grand gift itself of Cosmic alignment and there may also be a snow gift from Nature on my birthday and through the weekend, which all feels like a symbolic celebration in very literal ways for this Winter baby, Cosmic Pisces, Snow Faery. However this birthday unfolds, I will make it an intentional day, as I’ve learned it isn’t so much what we do, as the energy we carry forth through what we are doing.
But what a perfect timing to clear away the old, keep digging deep, making way for new beginnings, sharing your greatest hopes, and dreaming bigger than ever as a way of celebrating and honoring your journey.
I know for myself, I’ll be doing some more Reiki Healing Attunements on the 26th for my greatest intentions and biggest dreams I have yet to put forward, no matter how others may think I should be more realistic. That’s not exactly something a Pisces understands, although the Capricorn parts of me appreciate the caution. Yet for me that is interpreted more as making sure I’m aligning all parts of me with the essence of my dreams, making sure I can commit myself fully, understanding the responsibility that goes along with it, and the groundwork that will be needed with persevering and unwavering courage and strength.
I’ve been doing an amped up amount of Reiki Healing Attunements over the last few weeks – again a reminder if you have this tool in your toolbox – and have seen all of them except the long term ones come to fruition, although more clarity and steps have revealed themselves with the farther future ones too.
I have also been more willing in the last year or so to declare what I really want, no matter how big they seem or that they are truly just MY joys and desires, as I know that I matter too and I know that because I always intend everything for the highest good of all concerned, it is never selfish to ask from your heart what you want, as this inevitably will trickle to everyone we touch directly or indirectly. Plus, it is is powerful to voice your desires, without attachment or expectation, but simply as personal expression of what you feel and/or want.
I felt a big shift take place on the 22nd that asked me to anchor even more with the future potentials I’m creating and opened up greater ways to commit if in fact I want to manifest them. This provided different creative ideas and strategies I hadn’t thought of, to support my wanting to do more right now that I was feeling an unknown around how I could actually be investing into things even though it’s still off in the distance.
So, I will utilize the 26th, my renewal and rebirthing, along with the New Moon Eclipse to provide greater vision and roots with everything I definitively decide to anchor into and to “up the game” so to speak. Perhaps you might join in and do the same for your own intentions?
I do know that I have been having an increased momentum surge through me that needs precision and fine focus, which will continue to see me more immersed in creating, exercising more boundaries, and balancing my time and resources.
I love how this birthday is also my 44th, loving that double digit, master number and angelic presence surrounding the energy of this year and that I’ll be beginning a #2 personal year which speaks to peace, timing, nurturing, partnership, patience, intuition, trust, cooperation, and things not appearing on the outside while much is taking place in the internal world and foundationally.
I love what Numerologist, Christine DeLorey, shares about a 2 Year Cycle:
“The 2 year cycle is an inspiring twelve month journey in which you will find exciting connections between your past, your present, and your future. Eventually, you will be able to use this information to set an ambitious goal in motion. But make no mistake, what happens this year is going to take perseverance and, above all, great patience.
First, you must slow down and stop pushing to get results. What you want is going to take longer to achieve than expected, so tone down your high expectations of yourself and others, and pay patient and meticulous attention to the details of all situations.
You must learn to move more slowly, attentively, and with mutual interests in mind. If not, you will miss too many clues and connections to make any kind of measurable progress. Widen your lens. See a bigger picture. Discover your connection to everything that is influencing your life.
Of course, it can be difficult to slow down when you are so sure that you need to be moving faster, but until you do slow down – enough to see the finer and often overlooked details of your reality – you will have no idea of where you have come from, who you are becoming, where you are, what you’re doing, why you’re doing it, where you’re going, or the roles that others are playing in your life. Clarity is one of the principle gifts of the 2 year, just as long as you slow yourself down enough to be able to claim it.”
A perfect message for what had come to me this week and how I’ll be funneling my energies like my Tortoise, Gaia, with deliberate clarity and steadfast patience, taking into account the bigger picture and all seens and potential unforeseens, which my rabbit companion souls teach me with heightened senses, vision, and agility for transforming quickly when needed.
I love that I get to share my special day with a collective special day on this portal of possibility and potential, which seems appropriate for a collective Pisces soul.
This is a magickal and joyous energy we’ll be experiencing with opportunity to turn dreams into reality with enduring results and lasting happiness, by humbly honing in on our gifts for the greatest good of all concerned. Definitely a Solar Eclipse for making wishes come true. So we can all really go deep and ask what that wish is, or wishes are. Don’t be afraid to state it out loud, nor afraid to do what it takes to co-create it.
The Sun and Moon are also conjunct Neptune at this time which increases sensitivity, intuition, visions/premonitions, and empathy…something I’m hearing from many who are usually strong pillars of guidance and anchors for others. So be aware of nervous tension and anxiety, which can cause reactions versus responses. Keep personal integrity and responsibility at the forefront. And rise above the collective field so you can continue to do your thing and guide the way for others by standing in your personal frequency.
Rather than chaos pulling you in, let your inner peace draw others out of the chaos.
This is where boundaries come into play and conscious self-awareness to filter out what is and isn’t you.
Yet this doorway also provides very harmonious energy that can be harnessed for great benefit, not to mention access to deepest dreams, creativity, and imagination for manifesting.
There isn’t wrong choice, there’s simply choice. This can be a good time to get clarity on decisions and the momentum behind them to put them into action.
And this brings me around to responsibility. I shared this on social media today, but it feels important to add here, as more than ever this feels at the forefront of choices we make day in and day out.
Responsibility is key always and to be conscious of it consistently is necessary. Your actions, thoughts, words, shares, feelings, all have an impact on the collective in seen and unseen ways. And if you are in a role where others look to you as a guide in some way or if you are a leader or visionary as your path, responsibility is a moment-to-moment energy to temper all that you do with and choose from the place of greatest good to others while empowering/not enabling, and keeping the integrity of your message as consistent and pure as you can.
While everyone has choice, that also includes the choice to live responsibly and to hold your own frequency, regardless of other’s choices.
I’ve come to see over time how important one’s commitment to responsibility affects so much in your life. Not only will it support the things you desire creating, but also trickles out to how others will relate to you and want to cocreate with you. Think about the choices and commitments you make and the value impact they have in more ways than you may realize.
This is at the forefront of my intentions, dreams, and the energy I’m putting out there, tempered with a deeper kind of love I’ve come to experience that nudges limitations into greater expansiveness.
I can’t begin to share all that has transformed in my life over the course of it, let alone in the last year or two, but this rapid change seems to take place on a weekly and daily basis now, as accelerated experiences are embraced.
I know that so many of you can relate. It’s like a whole other person/or persons and worlds, right?!
And while none of the details really matter, I would like to take a moment to publicly express gratitude from the heart and core of my soul for everything I have chosen to go through at this collective time we share on Earth – the good, bad, ugly, thick and thin…or whatever you want to call it – simply experiences.
I didn’t actually think I would make it to this year and yet here I am because I chose another way to fulfill that which was unfulfilled. I chose a symbolic death instead of a literal one. I chose to take a leap, to have faith, to reinvent myself, to let go of everything, and to continue forward despite my soul family moving on, despite the invitations before me, and despite having no guarantee for what I was about to choose except knowing it is my heart’s joy.
And while I, or any of us, don’t know how much longer we may have in this embodiment, I do know that I can say I am truly living in every sense of the word without limitations and without regrets. I feel finally that I am merging my Cosmic and Earthly self.
My only regret would have been not to do what I’m doing now, which is immersing into the greater potentials and possibilities beyond what would have been soul expected of me due to the cycles and repetitive patterns I was repeating, fulfilling, and ultimately bringing around in a healthy way to close off karmically.
It would also have been a regret not to immerse into the simple and most valuable enjoyments and enrichments in the fullest possible way, not to immerse into the pure experience without any limiting ideas or other’s beliefs ruling my enjoyment of sensual living, not to immerse into more amplification of my personal frequency and vibration without hiding behind myself or holding my energy back…not to immerse into the pure harmony of it all, period.
While some may say I’ve been doing this, I would say not to the degree and greater consistency I am now, and this does and has made a huge difference.
So while I may never go back to things I once used to do, offer as service, or engage in as a human, I will be living with deeper conviction and clarity of my thread in the collective tapestry moment to moment.
44 feels like a year of building, business, being, and balance (4 B’s!) all centered around my passions and knowing the strength and support is there if I remain focused and dedicated.
And so I embrace this new doorway on the 26th, this portal of potential, with open heart and committed soul and welcome the fresh experiences that await my alignment.
Wishing everyone a creatively potent New Moon Solar Eclipse. I hope you will stretch yourself farther than you ever have into the seed of potential you have within you as your origin of being.
(FUN NOTE: When I hit publish the clock said 4:44 – gotta love it!)
Dream posts continue, as this was another meaningful dream I felt compelled to share now that I’ve had time with it for myself. The day after my dream I posted yesterday about the two blue snakes and gila monster, as you might recall was the day “The Tree Beckoned and I Followed.” Well, after that experience in finding the presence of orbs all around me inside the tree portal (appearing like I’d stepped inside the Cosmos) that night I had another potent and healing dream that brought full circle a gift from my beloved rabbit, Joy, who has also been showing up so profoundly lately.
Synchronously, this was also the night of the marches collectively taking place.
Since many of you so sweetly sent messages and love about Joy when she transitioned and have followed along with my bunny love’s journeys, I thought this might be not only conclusive as a companion piece to my share about Joy’s last moments and days on Earth in the physical I wrote and spoke about extensively in this post “In Life & Death, “Joy” Is Always There,” but may also be supportive to others who have experienced loss of their beloved animal companions and loved ones in demonstrating the eternal connection that does not end and how we are continually being supported by the connection shared.
In my dream on Saturday 1/21, Joy was with me and she had taken ill, just like in the end before she left in waking life. The odd thing was that her tail came off in the dream and it was very large – much larger than normal size. It literally broke off on its own, but perfectly. I could see all of the tiny bones and ligaments that connect it to her bum, but where it broke off was so clean and precise, without blood or any signs of injury. This indicates to me a sense of no suffering being experienced on her “end” and a clean “ending” and healing closure at the “tail end” of this experience. The tail being so large and furry feels to be definitive in this closure and the “end of an era” again reiterated for me, balance being restored, and that I’m using intuition, creativity, and wisdom in my life more than ever and this will be increasing.
Although rabbit’s feet are connected to “lucky charms,” the tail may also be considered as such since there is connection with rabbit’s tails as their way of escaping predators with the white flash of the tail confusing them as to their exact location when in pursuit.
I also feel this symbolism she showed me is directly connected to my book, but that’s for me to understand the connection, although I will say that direct healing is involved on many levels with its unfolding.
But back to the dream….
I then notice her feet, especially the left one, and they look exactly like Fiver’s – the mouse that I nurtured recently.
These mouse feet were only on her back legs, just like Fiver’s back legs were the only part of him that showed signs of his injury from the impact to that area and lower back.
That left leg on her was completely limp, red, bruised. I remember one spot on Fiver’s leg had a bruised, red area, so again tied in with him.
Then in the dream she comes and lays on me, as I comfort her and caress her.
In the dream I start calling around to vets to get her in (just as I did in waking life when she took ill), but I get the sense she won’t make it in time to get there. In real life, she had just made it to the ER after a long over an hour’s drive and then passed not long after I left her in the doctor’s care to monitor over night, at her request.
So, now in the dream I am aware she won’t make it and I will just be with her to help her transition peacefully, just like I was there for Fiver.
She is in my arms and then suddenly she lets out a little cry, followed by one last big breath and I know she is leaving her body with that.
Nestor had let out a piercing, excruciating cry when she left this Earth, but this was different….it was soft and although rabbit’s only cry when in pain, it was an indication of release rather than suffering to me and not as tormenting to experience as Nestor’s was.
(BTW, this is how she actually transitioned when I left her at the ER, as the doctor shared this with me when she called to tell me that she let out a soft cry and took a big breath and went.)
I then rub her head softly, as she lays in my arms and tell her over and over that I love her, wanting that to be the last thing she hears before she completely goes and slowly her heart and breathing wind down to nothing.
I’m sobbing in the dream and at this point can feel my half wake state in real life and know and can hear me wimpering in real life too.
Although emotional, it was a gentle experience and was not at all a dream, but completely a reality she and I were sharing for a purpose and rewriting the end together.
I felt that she was connecting me to understand a deeper healing than I may have been aware of that I had through Fiver.
Perhaps wanting me to know she had projected a part of herself in Fiver when he had come to me, or that he had been sent to me by her, as a way for me to experience this healing with him through her.
This may include being there with her at the very end when she transitioned, since I was not when she passed, as I had left her at the ER by her choice in not wanting me to have to go through that experience.
Although I knew she wanted that and maybe thought I was not ready yet for this, I felt like I wished I’d been there. Maybe her seeing how I handled Cosmo’ passing, made her now know I was ready and she gifted me this experience in “dream” time and with Fiver, so I could relive being there with her.
And she gifted it in a gentle, beautiful way.
Even the way that Fiver jumped on the crystal when he transitioned, like blasting off into the Cosmos, could have been a sign of connection with her since Joy was so connected to crystals herself and always layed with them and had their points jutting into her body to receive their energy, working with gridding our homes and journeying with them.
This dream, as they all are to me, was very “real time”. And I did feel this sense of deepening closure and peace knowing I supported her this way and that I was strong enough now to keep going through these kinds of experiences in supporting these sweet souls in their transitions.
And afterall, Joy is a cosmic traveler, shape shifter, and portal journeyer. You might recall that she and Nestor showed up in Glacier National Park as the two cosmic deer on the day I spread their ashes, from this post: Spreading Ashes, Spreading Joy ~ Cosmic Encounters & Sacred Connections
So connecting with Fiver is not far from reach for her either. 😉 And creating timeline jumps for us to relive/recreate what “is” would be right up her alley too. I love how she changed the “ending” and that I could be with her.
Quick side note and speaking of Nestor, the day after that dream we headed down the stairs from our place and the crew was there shoveling the snow as they do and one guy says to the other to alert him we were coming up behind him since he was busy shoveling and didn’t see us, “Watch out Nestor.” I smiled so big knowing my sweet Nestor was wanting to chime in too with reiteration to the dream connections.
And to add to the timings and synchronicity, another tie-in with Joy took place just a couple of days before my dream of her. I received a voicemail message from the doctor in Jackson, Wyoming who did her surgery. The story line of this is included in the above post on her transition.
He was such an angel, who came in on his day off to do this, talked to me on the phone, provided me his personal number and went above and beyond in helping her/me.
A little rewind…..about a month or a few weeks after Joy passed I’d sent him a plant with a nice thank you note just wanting to acknowledge how grateful I was for everything that he’d done for us. He even called me the night she transitioned after talking with the ER doctor that night (late I might add) to give her background right before she passed.
I actually never heard from him after I sent the thank you gift, so I wasn’t sure if he got it, but figured that our crossing of paths was complete.
Then 6 months later he calls and in his message says he just wanted to say hello, was thinking of me, thanked me for the nice plant and thoughtful card…and told me whenever I had time to give him a call to talk because he had felt such a good vibe from me and really connected with me, so he wanted to see how I was.
I was so touched and it felt like Joy’s way of starting to get the ball rolling with her plan of recreating the “end”.
And then back to the day at the tree portal, right before that night’s dream, I now was able to connect the dots and that this portal was activating the opening to this experience Joy was setting up for me to rewrite “history” and I feel that larger orb above me was her.
What an experience and how gracious and loving Joy is to gift me this one thing I had wished.
There are no limitations to our connections, eternal love and bonds, and what is possible.
I feel a greater lightness and deepening of my love with her and my loves, and gratitude for her gifts in knowing what would be perfect for my journey and moving forward with my work.
Yesterday’s Winter Solstice truly was a portal shifting one reality into another with so many truly magickal events culminating all in the same day that all went beautifully and couldn’t have aligned more perfectly. I wasn’t the only one who had felt this was going to be a powerful transition time and indeed it was. Not to mention had synchronous mergings all around.
I also felt that my bunny loves would have a hand in it all and so they did.
Without going into too much detail, yesterday not only saw an era end and begin with the Magick Bus being purchased by the most lovely couple and perfect new family for her, but saw Dave’s dad through a very successful surgery, there were two very special events that took place and were celebrated with a birthday and a union, my parents and we had some solidification of new anchored, we received more clarity on our living/housing situation, snow faery flurries of snow started off the day and created a wonderland fit for the Solstice, I created a Winter Solstice crystal grid with new crystals that will be utilized in some upcoming cosmic/faery/shamanic creations (this was a way to activate them set with the backdrop of the perfect Christmas card my parents gave me, as you can see having the words “A Gift…A Joy…A Miracle”):
I had prophetic dreams the night before of one of the events that took place and had smelled what seemed like roses and carnations (some kind of flowers for sure – the floral fragrance was so strong) wafting in the air during the time it was to happen that no one else could smell around me even though I was no where near the event (this felt like timelines merging and portals accessed), and I found the perfect private beach in Zephyr Cove (perfect name too) for some of Cosmo’s ashes to be spread on the lake per his wishes on this day, as his beloved Joy and dear friend Nestor had had theirs.
I even found confirming gifts of a white quartz stone shaped like a heart, and a lovely feather, on the beach just before reaching the stone pools where I lovingly dusted 5 small pinches of Cosmo’s Earthly beingness into a sacred little pool created by some of the beautiful, prehistoric rock formations of the lake.
There were other tie-ins with Cosmo and the Magick bus that made this day and events around these, to be much more than just symbolic, but also divinely orchestrated.
But back briefly to the Magick Bus. Dave and I never attached to any one person who would contact us to see her, as we knew when things were right they would just happen magickally. Plus, I’d already done a Reiki healing attunement on it all, so there was no reason to think in that way.
That said, I did have this sense that since these people wanted to see it on the Solstice, were driving all the way from Santa Rosa (4 hours away), which was the same place where the people who flew down and bought my Hunab Ku SUV outright for the exact price I asked were from, and I had the intention it would go before the end of the year, and maybe even before we left for our Christmas trip, it did seem auspicious.
Not to mention, it was the day I had Cosmo’s ashes with us and he and Joy had been actively working on bringing the right people to her.
My next indication was when the woman and I immediately learned that we shared the same favorite number and have had it our favorite since childhood – the number 5, which also so happens to always be a sign and message of confirmation from my beloved Nestor.
And more synchronicities came up during our conversations with the couple, which were uncanny. Then we were surprised by them offering us the exact amount we were asking, which had been the same with my car.
We were all just so grateful, as not only had they searched a long time for the right RV home, but we had intended the right people who would love and care for her in the same way. And we all discovered how we shared being meticulous people and how that was what sold them and what also one of the things that made us feel the Magick Bus was in wonderful caring hands. Yay!
AND, on the way to where we have the Magick Bus stored, we saw 18 hawks, which make a 9 for endings, numerologically. Then after our shaking/hugging on the whole thing and leaving, we saw 1 hawk for new beginnings. 19 total, also creating the merging of endings and beginnings in its 1 and 9 combination, but when added equaling a 1 again.
Needless to say, it was a day of big celebrations all around, bitter sweetness, and wonderful endings and beginnings.
We are now en route (yes, another road trip – 8 hours this time and with the kitty babies along for the ride) since this early morning after Solstice to Southern California for a long Christmas celebration feeling full in heart with love and gratitude for the incredible gifts received for the highest good of all.
I took this photo this morning at 7:30 am right when we’d gotten on the road. It was such a mystical view of the sun behind golden veils of mist and snow clouds. So mysterious! At times you could see the full sun behind a very thin veil with a soft golden halo around, against white blankets of clouds and lighting the tips of the snow covered trees in lemony gold. Stunning!
I’m not sure I’ll have time to blog until we return home Monday the 26th, but if I do it will be a brief message of holiday wishes.
Until then, I hope you enjoy the beautiful photos of my Solstice magick, as I always love to spread the energetic vibes and love to each of you. A way to share life from my perspective and to connect us across space and time.
I recently put out my last newsletter for 2016 and the first in quite a while, which was titled the same as this post.
Since I hadn’t shared one in a while and it has my end of year message and updates, I’ll share a link here for my blog community: Opening New Doorways to You and if you’d be interested in receiving upcoming newsletters for 2017, you can join my email list there as well.
If you don’t get around to reading the newsletter, I just wanted to share a few of the personal updates that are going on for me and the rest you can explore if you feel so called through my newsletter.
As mentioned, we’re currently hunkered down for the next 5 or so months in Lake Tahoe, which is proving to be just as I knew, very supportive and inspiring for my current focuses.
2017 will be very exciting for all I feel with its opening renewal of fresh energy and opportunities. And I’ll be revealing some of the things I’m working on during that time as they become ready. I feel like it’s a year of a lot of newness and creativity for everyone to bring forth and lead in new ways.
I will share that I do have a new book on its way and am excited about it. For now, I’m thoroughly enjoying immersing in the flow of inspiration channeling through.
This includes the my passion for channeling creativity in many ways. And as my newsletter shares, I’ve re-entered the Instagram world after over a year hiatus from there.
“It’s a creative outlet for all the photos, as a visionary artist, I love taking and sharing to spread the energy I see in everyday life and a quick way to share while I’m unable to write long daily blogs at this time. I’m still blogging and still on Facebook, but all things readjust to support the balance needed.
So if you are interested in quick inspirational photos, creativity, short supportive words and ideas for intentional, abundant, joyous, and conscious living, how to create everyday alchemy, loving reminders, and all things magickal, I am back on there and am enjoying reconnecting with my old and new friends there . Feeling so inspired and heart-full by the things I see.”
You can find me on there as @taniamarieartist
And although we’re grounded for a while, the adventurer and cosmic pilgrim in me is always being called, so there are travels upcoming and opportunities to potentially connect if you’re in that area.
This includes returning to Southern California for the long Christmas weekend to visit Dave’s family and handle our storage unit there, but will be limited to what is already planned. We’re looking forward to staying in the magickal Topanga Canyon/Malibu area during our time there and are bringing along the kitty babies.
Sedona calls in March, which is exciting. It will be half family trip focused and half personal for things we’re exploring. Looking forward to seeing a couple of friends while there.
And our Australia trip has been confirmed for March and will be likely a 3 week trip, which includes 2 weeks for a big event Dave has been invited as keynote speaker for around his book Meatonomics, which will take us through 7 cities. Then we’ll enjoy some personal exploring, which we’re still feeling into and seeing what we can manage time-wise, but could possibly include Easter Island and/or New Zealand. Dates upcoming and hopefully friend connections can take place while there.
I so look forward to the unfolding adventures ahead, which are constantly creating themselves and unfolding in expansive and surprisingly welcome ways. It’s truly exciting to watch how things align and unveil themselves the more we get in touch with our authenticity, personal frequencies, vulnerability, and are open to embracing our boundlessly creative energy as abundant beings.
New doorways await us all to step through! The fun part is in choosing which ones you’d like to explore, as you close others behind you and new ones keep presenting themselves with every choice you courageously make.
Lake Tahoe’s Portal Working the Magick Once Again ~ Cosmo’s Incredible Journey & My Mission Continues
One of the reasons I felt we were guided back to Lake Tahoe was for Cosmo in bringing him to both the resting ground and life affirming place of his teachers and best friends, along with the hope of getting him the best care at this time in his life. Tahoe has also been a portal entry and exit point for the major things in OUR lives, which I’ll share more on shortly, but upon returning here other synchronous unfoldings have confirmed all of this and our reasons for needing to be here at this time, regardless of what else may unfold or not. It never ceases to amaze how we can align ourselves so easily by simply supporting and following the voice within.
For instance my high-tech water filter that I purchased when living here 8 years ago broke down after arriving here and we just happen to be by its birth place in Reno for repairs if needed. Although, I’m considering a new and different filter since it is linked to an old cycle in my life.
Just like letting go of my beloved “Hunab Ku” hybrid SUV last year right when we moved into our Magick Bus, which just had its one year anniversary of selling on the 16th of this month, coincidentally just after arriving back to Tahoe a little over a week ago and coincidentally I’m in the place I first got it.
We also happened to be here to celebrate our anniversary and Dave’s birthday all within days of returning and on our first day up at the lake, I spread a bit of both Nestor’s and Joy’s ashes together on the water in celebration and so much more.
And of course there’s huge full circle closure and opening in terms of nearly all aspects of our lives, which I mentioned, that all culminate here in this portal including where both Dave and I went through painful divorces, lost our most beloved soul animal companions (Nestor and Kitty Boom Boom), where all of our current or recently transitioned animal companions (except Cosmo) came into our lives (Joy, Gaia, Sweet Pea and Boojum), where Dave went vegan 8 1/2 years ago and me 10 1/2, where I became a Reiki Master Teacher and started my teaching as well as truly committing to and fully embracing my path in totality, where I went through the tipping-point vigorous round of personal growth work that would catapult me, where we both went through major soul and emotional shifts with extreme lows and life-transformations that have set our current courses, as well as where we met, along with other profound low and high points.
So to say it’s a potent place for us is an understatement.
But back to my original focus – Cosmo.
Upon returning here, I did some research to find him the best care possible and as things do tend to align with trusting, I was guided to the perfect person for that, who was just a few minutes away from where we are stationed.
This vet, who was previously focused as a small animal veterinarian in a busy general practice and has worked with wildlife like sea otters, elk, etc. along the west coast, now runs a small private practice focused on providing compassionate integrative and rehabilitative care that combines conventional medicine with natural approaches. She’s certified in veterinary acupuncture, veterinary food therapy, traditional Chinese Veterinary Medicine, and Canine Rehabilitation therapy. She’s a member of the American Holistic Veterinary Medical Association, American Association of Traditional Chinese Veterinary Medicine, and American Association of Rehabilitation Veterinarians.
A gem of a find indeed.
After speaking with several places and making nearly a dozen calls, I left her a message in hopes she may be able to help Cosmo, since other places weren’t wanting to take on a rabbit for acupuncture except for one in Reno that was an hour and a half away.
And at this point, although I do take him for routine check-ups when necessary, I prefer him to get more holistic care that feels aligned with where he’s at in life and his soul needs. He’s always loved acupuncture and so that was my focus….I was just grateful to find even more!
Anyway, the doctor called back and told me that she doesn’t take rabbits normally because she had bad allergies to them over the years, but when she heard my story over phone she said she wanted to try and help.
Her willingness to do so was a huge plus in my book, as I’ve talked to other vets in the past who said the same and had no desire to try.
So I took Cosmo in this past week and she ended up having no issues. Yay! Her exact words were, “He and I are good.”
I don’t like going to regular vet practices because it’s so stressful for Cosmo. There are so many dogs and cats going in and out, and the last time there was so much barking and a cat crying in the back, that it was just not conducive for a little sensitive one who is a prey animal to be going for peaceful healing care.
But here at this place in Tahoe, it’s complete peace since it’s a private practice so it’s just the vet, me, and Cosmo.
She took her time to learn about him and try a round of different things including acupuncture, non-invasive laser to help with inflammation, something called “Loop” that targets Pulsed Electromagnetic Field Therapy, and did a lot of therapy on his legs as well as Tui Na massage, which is a pinch and roll for the back along the spine.
She also got out different herbs to try and see what he liked, which are good for his blood circulation and warming, along with other healing benefits. Cosmo immediately went for the magickal Angelica, which the doctor was so pleased about saying they always know what they need. She actually snapped a photo of him eating it while receiving acupuncture for her own records. In the office this was the only herb he went for, but since home he’s been enjoying the others she sent me home with too to try.
He also liked the Body Sore pill, which is a Chinese herbal formula that helps synergistically to relieve symptoms of back pain, soft tissue injuries, musculoskeletal pain, and addresses underlying causes of these symptoms. Its an herbal blend to assist in invigorating Qi/Blood where there is stagnation, assist with channel blockage, and relieve pain.
So she sent me home with some of these, along with a container of herbs, and a list of herbs/veggies good to assist with these things I can either continue using (in the case of my already giving him) or add to what I give him.
She even helped assist with shaving some of his matted fur. As I’ve shared before, since he lays on one side all the time and can’t move away from his eliminations, I have to bathe, dry, trim, and groom him. So his fur goes in cycles every few months of being really great and then no matter what you do, getting really matted and eventually needing to shed/peel away. So she helped with that and gave me natural ideas to put on his skin like coconut oil.
Our session ran over time by 25 minutes, but she was so patient in wanting to be thorough and help. And again, not to mention it was such a stress-free zone with no one there but us. So that was greatly supportive to the process.
It was definitely like Cosmo was having a bunny spa day, which makes mom happy and him feeling extra nurtured and loved.
He’s a little king for sure, which I call him….my animal companions I always refer to as Queens and Kings. 🙂
The vet also learned that I am a Reiki Master Teacher and said that if I decide to teach up in Tahoe, she’d be very interested in learning so she can add that to her practice too.
We’re figuring out a routine of sessions for him, which for now will be weekly, then something like biweekly or every three weeks or so for maintenance.
I’ve missed his Orange County vet who was incredible with Cosmo and did acupuncture too for him, because he loved going there and receiving it, but I now feel we have a great doctor here who has even more wonderful things to offer him and minus going into a regular practice. It doesn’t feel like going to a doctor, but truly like receiving special care just like humans do when they go into physical therapy, acupuncture, massage, you name it.
Plus, he’s up at Lake Tahoe – a portal itself to assist with his soul needs and things he is choosing.
Also, the timing of his appointment last week aligned perfectly with his new orthopedic bed I got him, arriving right when I got back from his session. So he was able to stay in that healing, comfy zone from start to finish.
This was also aligned with us being here, because although we could order things and have them shipped to us where ever we were, it had to be timed out just right to ensure arrival while we were some place.
So being here, enabled me not only to get his new bed, but also a new Amethyst Biomat that I’ve been wanting for a long time, which was now able to be shipped and received to where we are. This provides “deep penetrating heat of Far Infrared Rays, Negative Ion therapy, and healing properties of Amethyst” to assist with joint pain, stiffness, muscle pain, arthritis, back pain, and has calming, healing benefits, providing peace and support for body, mind, and soul.
The Biomat will also be woven into Cosmo’s at-home therapy, and of course mom and dad will be using it too.
We have another appointment this week for him and so I’m happy to be able to provide routine, consistent care for a while and am so pleased to keep finding and creating more ways to support his special needs as an incredible soul in an aging rabbit body who is just a wonder to behold.
I’m reminded of how his foster family didn’t want to invest the time and energy into his needs and had felt putting him to sleep was the best option. Hence, the urgency of the woman at the organization that placed him in his foster home, to find someone asap. No one wanted to take him on, or perhaps no one was meant to, but me.
He and I are definitely connected because like Joy and Nestor, he was able to telepathically connect with me and send out a call for help, which I answered in an even more mysterious and profound way. And because of that and knowing I was meant to follow the promptings I felt, this amazing soul in rabbit body with spinal injury, major arthritis, enlarged heart, and inability to walk, had his life extended two years, so far, and still going at 10 1/2 years old.
I shared about how Cosmo and I magickally came together in my very first post about him coming into my life, but here is an excerpt from that as a reminder:
How did this all come about? Well, I would say magickally. I’ll share a little on why.
I mentioned in earlier posts how rabbit energy has increasingly been showing up and due to several dreams, I knew that I wanted to do more for rabbits, as they are so dear to my heart. I do already have an amazing little one, Joy, who is a powerful healer and potent being all around. And I have had two other bunnies in my life, including the magickal Nestor.
After the dreams I knew I wanted to be more active in helping rabbits, so I started volunteer work at a local rescue just a few minutes from my house. Rabbit energy continued to expand and envelope my life from there. Then one day, a week and a half ago, a friend tagged me in a post on Facebook from another rabbit rescue in Los Angeles, Bunny World Foundation.
They had just come into receiving two infant rabbits that were in need of care, with a traumatic story as to how they were now there on their own without mother and two siblings that are no longer on this physical plane.
My friend, like most people, knows that I’m a bunny person, or crazy rabbit lady😉 I constantly see posts like these and normally I will focus my action in sending healing energy, but for some reason I felt compelled to contact the organization and offer even more direct help. I felt drawn to care for them to help them get strong and healthy so they could then be adopted. I sat there and wrote my email, but hesitated hitting send.
On some level I felt something more from this action I was taking and it was like a soul pause taking a moment to check in on making the definitive decision of responsible commitment on a level I was unaware of consciously, as I’m an all or nothing person. I don’t know the meaning of half a–sing things.
So after a minute or two I finally hit send.
It took a couple of days, but I then received an email from the head of Bunny World Foundation, and the rest unfolded from there.
They had found a woman that specialized in infant care, as the infants needed special tube feeding you have to be trained for, but Lejla (the head of Bunny World Foundation) and I ended up having a long conversation connecting about so many mutual things, including knowing the woman who runs Save A Bunny, where I adopted Joy from. We concluded the call by my saying I’d love to help out in any way I can and asked if there was anything special she needed help with.
And then she told me about Blizzy (named this because he reminded his rescuer person who was caring for him when he came to the Human Society of an Oreo Blizzard). (Of course we know Blizzy soon became Cosmo, more appropriately soul named when he came home with me).
Blizzy was in need of a new foster home, as his current foster family was no longer able to care for him. They’d been looking for the last few months for someone and it was crucial he find a home that week.
And of course, here I come along at the right time….I now know that he had called out to me, just as Joy, Nestor, and Gaia had, and I heard his call.
I will say that, like with all things in my life, there is no randomness about it. I sensed this was something big for me…a mission in fact. And that was reiterated the day I picked him up. On my way out a hawk (one of my major animal totems at this time in my life) was sitting on the light post giving me the support, and on the way home, another. But while driving, a dear friend called that knew I was on my way to get him and she was sending me love and support. I said out loud to her, there was just something about this that I knew was so much bigger and I used the word “mission” to describe it.
And immediately after we got off the phone, a song came on and the words said, “it’s more than just a mission….” and at that exact simultaneous moment, I was just crossing over “Mission St.”
I got chills and knew in my heart everything was in divine grace.
And here is some additional background on Cosmo’s story, which I posted back in August:
This “mission,” I refer to as, is many-fold and has come to bright light, is being fully acknowledged, embraced, and actualized in embodiment for me, and anchored in while hiking here upon return to Lake Tahoe. This all manifesting as what I’m focused on and investing my energy into now and future to come.
But THAT is a story unfolding in its own divine timing.
Yesterday was filled with mystery and enchantment around every corner of Tahoe Meadows. A Faery’s delight for sure! Every season is beautiful, but I’m SO enjoying Autumn’s essence right now and the reflections of Nature’s messages. Everywhere I turned there were portals created by the arms of trees (sometimes double portals even!), meandering pathways through meadows and over brooks mirroring the journey of life, and golden essence everywhere hinting at a Middle Way – that Golden Mean – between extremes we are so much experiencing these days and learning to find that alchemy of balance and harmony with.
I even found a piece of an old honeycomb with its hexagonal cell symbolism of sacredness, which also reflects the cell matrix of our body template that holds memories and potential for soulful integration – all of which we are remembering and activating more and more.
Fluidity, Balance, Illusion, Timelines & Portals ~ A Surreal Drive Through The Great Salt Lake Desert
Yesterday we were on hyper speed again, as we hop-scotched original landing stop ideas, feeling the pull to keep moving forward in momentum, which we’ll be doing again today to our destination. Everything is about fluidity right now and our ability to have intents, but to be “fluid” to new information and energy coming in, while having spidey senses on supercharge high, as there’s a need to shift moment to moment, as well as be aware that with rapid change you may cross into invisibility at times while journeying through different dimensional doorways than others are.
Dave and I are both water signs, so this fluidity has been the full-on embrace of our native tendencies, and a lot of our sign posts and life changing moments have been involving water in big ways of recent – reiterating a need to be one with this essence and follow intuition instantly…no time for hesitation and questioning.
Inner knowing followed by action as a synergistic and supportive partnership.
Yesterday was a surreal day, which others reiterated to me feeling the same way when I posted these photos on Facebook.
I’m sharing them again here, as they really felt to capture this essence I’m sharing about.
As we were traveling between Aragonite, Utah and West Wendover, Nevada through the Great Salt Lake Desert, you can see (in the photo above) that there is salt water on both sides of Highway 80, but straight ahead on the road is a mirage of water. That’s something you don’t often get to see – the convergence of illusion and reality all merging together through the Middle Way.
A reminder also that the path taken will need to mirror the energy all around you. You can remain focused, but become the essence of both what you are working towards merged with what you’re being shown is the path of highest good for all concerned.
And a reminder not to let yourself be fooled by illusions and taken off path by sheep in wolves clothing. Keep moving forward at high awareness and choose only that which allows freedom and greatest peace and joy.
And also, a reminder that balance is key….the Middle Way involves living a life of alchemy…becoming conscious magicians.
The vistas of the Great Salt Lake Desert are so beautiful.
While we stopped at a rest area to make some lunch I was taken by this couple who decided to wade out together in the salt lake.
I loved their sweetness and playfulness, as they enjoyed the enchantment in partnership.
I loved how they just threw their shoes and socks off and went right in, following their feelings, and supporting each other as they gingerly walked through the uneven environment beneath them.
Working in partnership and balance with the Sacred Male and Female within us is key to our creative manifestation and harmony.
And if you have a partner, whether friend, family member, romantic, animal companion, etc…working together in the way that mirrors this relationship we have within ourselves is where your power will be as a unit to manifest hugely. Bringing your strengths together and not acting as an isolated island unto yourself will create things in bigger and overall optimal ways.
I love the surreal essence of seeing this sacred partnership walk across the salt waters and essence of life.
It was like watching a new reality create itself outside of time and space.
And soon after, as we got back on the road a very trippy potent thing happened
We’ve been journeying backwards through time zones in rapid speeds and just as we crossed the border into Nevada and crossed another time zone a double sighting took place, which was like revisiting a “past” me with a “future” me, reversed. LOL!
I’d seen the 1:11 portal time on the clock while in Utah…and then again the 1:11 portal hit in Nevada because they are an hour behind.
And soon after that I saw double 333 mile markers. This was extremely odd to see duplicate mile markers spread apart when they should be marking the same mile! I’d been looking out the window when I saw the first. Looked back down to continue my writing on my laptop. Then was prompted to look back up and there it was again. So bizarre!
And to complete this all with a triple, double sighting that happened also back to back. I woke up last night only to see the clock said 2:26 again (I have had super sightings of my birthday 2/26 showing up in crazy amounts recently, outdoing all the other recent number sequences, although the 1’s have amped up). I had gone over to take care of Cosmo as I do in the night, seeing the clock. Dave got up too for some reason and I pointed at the clock, which made him laugh. So this time I had a witness. Then right before I returned to bed, I looked at my cell phone and I had message and email alerts sitting next to each other on their apps of my home screen. One said “2”. The other said “26”. 😉
(I’d like to add that since posting this, the next day we arrived at our destination, which basically concluded these long days of travel for us, and our RV site at the park we were staying at was #26 – my birth day again.)
Another portal seems to be in motion with things today activating, although there are constant mini ones available moment to moment that can be accessed by staying ultra aware and present.
It’s really surreal to move so quickly, backwards in time in the Magick bus through the states…as surreal as these images of the Great Salt Lake Desert.
It really feels like traveling inter-dimensionally and rewriting reality.
Just like the “theory” of our future selves traveling “back to the past” to assist the us in the “now” and understand what happened in order to return things to harmony.