Yesterday’s Winter Solstice truly was a portal shifting one reality into another with so many truly magickal events culminating all in the same day that all went beautifully and couldn’t have aligned more perfectly. I wasn’t the only one who had felt this was going to be a powerful transition time and indeed it was. Not to mention had synchronous mergings all around.
I also felt that my bunny loves would have a hand in it all and so they did.
Without going into too much detail, yesterday not only saw an era end and begin with the Magick Bus being purchased by the most lovely couple and perfect new family for her, but saw Dave’s dad through a very successful surgery, there were two very special events that took place and were celebrated with a birthday and a union, my parents and we had some solidification of new anchored, we received more clarity on our living/housing situation, snow faery flurries of snow started off the day and created a wonderland fit for the Solstice, I created a Winter Solstice crystal grid with new crystals that will be utilized in some upcoming cosmic/faery/shamanic creations (this was a way to activate them set with the backdrop of the perfect Christmas card my parents gave me, as you can see having the words “A Gift…A Joy…A Miracle”):
I had prophetic dreams the night before of one of the events that took place and had smelled what seemed like roses and carnations (some kind of flowers for sure – the floral fragrance was so strong) wafting in the air during the time it was to happen that no one else could smell around me even though I was no where near the event (this felt like timelines merging and portals accessed), and I found the perfect private beach in Zephyr Cove (perfect name too) for some of Cosmo’s ashes to be spread on the lake per his wishes on this day, as his beloved Joy and dear friend Nestor had had theirs.
I even found confirming gifts of a white quartz stone shaped like a heart, and a lovely feather, on the beach just before reaching the stone pools where I lovingly dusted 5 small pinches of Cosmo’s Earthly beingness into a sacred little pool created by some of the beautiful, prehistoric rock formations of the lake.
There were other tie-ins with Cosmo and the Magick bus that made this day and events around these, to be much more than just symbolic, but also divinely orchestrated.
But back briefly to the Magick Bus. Dave and I never attached to any one person who would contact us to see her, as we knew when things were right they would just happen magickally. Plus, I’d already done a Reiki healing attunement on it all, so there was no reason to think in that way.
That said, I did have this sense that since these people wanted to see it on the Solstice, were driving all the way from Santa Rosa (4 hours away), which was the same place where the people who flew down and bought my Hunab Ku SUV outright for the exact price I asked were from, and I had the intention it would go before the end of the year, and maybe even before we left for our Christmas trip, it did seem auspicious.
Not to mention, it was the day I had Cosmo’s ashes with us and he and Joy had been actively working on bringing the right people to her.
My next indication was when the woman and I immediately learned that we shared the same favorite number and have had it our favorite since childhood – the number 5, which also so happens to always be a sign and message of confirmation from my beloved Nestor.
And more synchronicities came up during our conversations with the couple, which were uncanny. Then we were surprised by them offering us the exact amount we were asking, which had been the same with my car.
We were all just so grateful, as not only had they searched a long time for the right RV home, but we had intended the right people who would love and care for her in the same way. And we all discovered how we shared being meticulous people and how that was what sold them and what also one of the things that made us feel the Magick Bus was in wonderful caring hands. Yay!
AND, on the way to where we have the Magick Bus stored, we saw 18 hawks, which make a 9 for endings, numerologically. Then after our shaking/hugging on the whole thing and leaving, we saw 1 hawk for new beginnings. 19 total, also creating the merging of endings and beginnings in its 1 and 9 combination, but when added equaling a 1 again.
Needless to say, it was a day of big celebrations all around, bitter sweetness, and wonderful endings and beginnings.
We are now en route (yes, another road trip – 8 hours this time and with the kitty babies along for the ride) since this early morning after Solstice to Southern California for a long Christmas celebration feeling full in heart with love and gratitude for the incredible gifts received for the highest good of all.
I took this photo this morning at 7:30 am right when we’d gotten on the road. It was such a mystical view of the sun behind golden veils of mist and snow clouds. So mysterious! At times you could see the full sun behind a very thin veil with a soft golden halo around, against white blankets of clouds and lighting the tips of the snow covered trees in lemony gold. Stunning!
I’m not sure I’ll have time to blog until we return home Monday the 26th, but if I do it will be a brief message of holiday wishes.
Until then, I hope you enjoy the beautiful photos of my Solstice magick, as I always love to spread the energetic vibes and love to each of you. A way to share life from my perspective and to connect us across space and time.
I recently put out my last newsletter for 2016 and the first in quite a while, which was titled the same as this post.
Since I hadn’t shared one in a while and it has my end of year message and updates, I’ll share a link here for my blog community: Opening New Doorways to You and if you’d be interested in receiving upcoming newsletters for 2017, you can join my email list there as well.
If you don’t get around to reading the newsletter, I just wanted to share a few of the personal updates that are going on for me and the rest you can explore if you feel so called through my newsletter.
As mentioned, we’re currently hunkered down for the next 5 or so months in Lake Tahoe, which is proving to be just as I knew, very supportive and inspiring for my current focuses.
2017 will be very exciting for all I feel with its opening renewal of fresh energy and opportunities. And I’ll be revealing some of the things I’m working on during that time as they become ready. I feel like it’s a year of a lot of newness and creativity for everyone to bring forth and lead in new ways.
I will share that I do have a new book on its way and am excited about it. For now, I’m thoroughly enjoying immersing in the flow of inspiration channeling through.
This includes the my passion for channeling creativity in many ways. And as my newsletter shares, I’ve re-entered the Instagram world after over a year hiatus from there.
“It’s a creative outlet for all the photos, as a visionary artist, I love taking and sharing to spread the energy I see in everyday life and a quick way to share while I’m unable to write long daily blogs at this time. I’m still blogging and still on Facebook, but all things readjust to support the balance needed.
So if you are interested in quick inspirational photos, creativity, short supportive words and ideas for intentional, abundant, joyous, and conscious living, how to create everyday alchemy, loving reminders, and all things magickal, I am back on there and am enjoying reconnecting with my old and new friends there . Feeling so inspired and heart-full by the things I see.”
You can find me on there as @taniamarieartist
And although we’re grounded for a while, the adventurer and cosmic pilgrim in me is always being called, so there are travels upcoming and opportunities to potentially connect if you’re in that area.
This includes returning to Southern California for the long Christmas weekend to visit Dave’s family and handle our storage unit there, but will be limited to what is already planned. We’re looking forward to staying in the magickal Topanga Canyon/Malibu area during our time there and are bringing along the kitty babies.
Sedona calls in March, which is exciting. It will be half family trip focused and half personal for things we’re exploring. Looking forward to seeing a couple of friends while there.
And our Australia trip has been confirmed for March and will be likely a 3 week trip, which includes 2 weeks for a big event Dave has been invited as keynote speaker for around his book Meatonomics, which will take us through 7 cities. Then we’ll enjoy some personal exploring, which we’re still feeling into and seeing what we can manage time-wise, but could possibly include Easter Island and/or New Zealand. Dates upcoming and hopefully friend connections can take place while there.
I so look forward to the unfolding adventures ahead, which are constantly creating themselves and unfolding in expansive and surprisingly welcome ways. It’s truly exciting to watch how things align and unveil themselves the more we get in touch with our authenticity, personal frequencies, vulnerability, and are open to embracing our boundlessly creative energy as abundant beings.
New doorways await us all to step through! The fun part is in choosing which ones you’d like to explore, as you close others behind you and new ones keep presenting themselves with every choice you courageously make.
Lake Tahoe’s Portal Working the Magick Once Again ~ Cosmo’s Incredible Journey & My Mission Continues
One of the reasons I felt we were guided back to Lake Tahoe was for Cosmo in bringing him to both the resting ground and life affirming place of his teachers and best friends, along with the hope of getting him the best care at this time in his life. Tahoe has also been a portal entry and exit point for the major things in OUR lives, which I’ll share more on shortly, but upon returning here other synchronous unfoldings have confirmed all of this and our reasons for needing to be here at this time, regardless of what else may unfold or not. It never ceases to amaze how we can align ourselves so easily by simply supporting and following the voice within.
For instance my high-tech water filter that I purchased when living here 8 years ago broke down after arriving here and we just happen to be by its birth place in Reno for repairs if needed. Although, I’m considering a new and different filter since it is linked to an old cycle in my life.
Just like letting go of my beloved “Hunab Ku” hybrid SUV last year right when we moved into our Magick Bus, which just had its one year anniversary of selling on the 16th of this month, coincidentally just after arriving back to Tahoe a little over a week ago and coincidentally I’m in the place I first got it.
We also happened to be here to celebrate our anniversary and Dave’s birthday all within days of returning and on our first day up at the lake, I spread a bit of both Nestor’s and Joy’s ashes together on the water in celebration and so much more.
And of course there’s huge full circle closure and opening in terms of nearly all aspects of our lives, which I mentioned, that all culminate here in this portal including where both Dave and I went through painful divorces, lost our most beloved soul animal companions (Nestor and Kitty Boom Boom), where all of our current or recently transitioned animal companions (except Cosmo) came into our lives (Joy, Gaia, Sweet Pea and Boojum), where Dave went vegan 8 1/2 years ago and me 10 1/2, where I became a Reiki Master Teacher and started my teaching as well as truly committing to and fully embracing my path in totality, where I went through the tipping-point vigorous round of personal growth work that would catapult me, where we both went through major soul and emotional shifts with extreme lows and life-transformations that have set our current courses, as well as where we met, along with other profound low and high points.
So to say it’s a potent place for us is an understatement.
But back to my original focus – Cosmo.
Upon returning here, I did some research to find him the best care possible and as things do tend to align with trusting, I was guided to the perfect person for that, who was just a few minutes away from where we are stationed.
This vet, who was previously focused as a small animal veterinarian in a busy general practice and has worked with wildlife like sea otters, elk, etc. along the west coast, now runs a small private practice focused on providing compassionate integrative and rehabilitative care that combines conventional medicine with natural approaches. She’s certified in veterinary acupuncture, veterinary food therapy, traditional Chinese Veterinary Medicine, and Canine Rehabilitation therapy. She’s a member of the American Holistic Veterinary Medical Association, American Association of Traditional Chinese Veterinary Medicine, and American Association of Rehabilitation Veterinarians.
A gem of a find indeed.
After speaking with several places and making nearly a dozen calls, I left her a message in hopes she may be able to help Cosmo, since other places weren’t wanting to take on a rabbit for acupuncture except for one in Reno that was an hour and a half away.
And at this point, although I do take him for routine check-ups when necessary, I prefer him to get more holistic care that feels aligned with where he’s at in life and his soul needs. He’s always loved acupuncture and so that was my focus….I was just grateful to find even more!
Anyway, the doctor called back and told me that she doesn’t take rabbits normally because she had bad allergies to them over the years, but when she heard my story over phone she said she wanted to try and help.
Her willingness to do so was a huge plus in my book, as I’ve talked to other vets in the past who said the same and had no desire to try.
So I took Cosmo in this past week and she ended up having no issues. Yay! Her exact words were, “He and I are good.”
I don’t like going to regular vet practices because it’s so stressful for Cosmo. There are so many dogs and cats going in and out, and the last time there was so much barking and a cat crying in the back, that it was just not conducive for a little sensitive one who is a prey animal to be going for peaceful healing care.
But here at this place in Tahoe, it’s complete peace since it’s a private practice so it’s just the vet, me, and Cosmo.
She took her time to learn about him and try a round of different things including acupuncture, non-invasive laser to help with inflammation, something called “Loop” that targets Pulsed Electromagnetic Field Therapy, and did a lot of therapy on his legs as well as Tui Na massage, which is a pinch and roll for the back along the spine.
She also got out different herbs to try and see what he liked, which are good for his blood circulation and warming, along with other healing benefits. Cosmo immediately went for the magickal Angelica, which the doctor was so pleased about saying they always know what they need. She actually snapped a photo of him eating it while receiving acupuncture for her own records. In the office this was the only herb he went for, but since home he’s been enjoying the others she sent me home with too to try.
He also liked the Body Sore pill, which is a Chinese herbal formula that helps synergistically to relieve symptoms of back pain, soft tissue injuries, musculoskeletal pain, and addresses underlying causes of these symptoms. Its an herbal blend to assist in invigorating Qi/Blood where there is stagnation, assist with channel blockage, and relieve pain.
So she sent me home with some of these, along with a container of herbs, and a list of herbs/veggies good to assist with these things I can either continue using (in the case of my already giving him) or add to what I give him.
She even helped assist with shaving some of his matted fur. As I’ve shared before, since he lays on one side all the time and can’t move away from his eliminations, I have to bathe, dry, trim, and groom him. So his fur goes in cycles every few months of being really great and then no matter what you do, getting really matted and eventually needing to shed/peel away. So she helped with that and gave me natural ideas to put on his skin like coconut oil.
Our session ran over time by 25 minutes, but she was so patient in wanting to be thorough and help. And again, not to mention it was such a stress-free zone with no one there but us. So that was greatly supportive to the process.
It was definitely like Cosmo was having a bunny spa day, which makes mom happy and him feeling extra nurtured and loved.
He’s a little king for sure, which I call him….my animal companions I always refer to as Queens and Kings. 🙂
The vet also learned that I am a Reiki Master Teacher and said that if I decide to teach up in Tahoe, she’d be very interested in learning so she can add that to her practice too.
We’re figuring out a routine of sessions for him, which for now will be weekly, then something like biweekly or every three weeks or so for maintenance.
I’ve missed his Orange County vet who was incredible with Cosmo and did acupuncture too for him, because he loved going there and receiving it, but I now feel we have a great doctor here who has even more wonderful things to offer him and minus going into a regular practice. It doesn’t feel like going to a doctor, but truly like receiving special care just like humans do when they go into physical therapy, acupuncture, massage, you name it.
Plus, he’s up at Lake Tahoe – a portal itself to assist with his soul needs and things he is choosing.
Also, the timing of his appointment last week aligned perfectly with his new orthopedic bed I got him, arriving right when I got back from his session. So he was able to stay in that healing, comfy zone from start to finish.
This was also aligned with us being here, because although we could order things and have them shipped to us where ever we were, it had to be timed out just right to ensure arrival while we were some place.
So being here, enabled me not only to get his new bed, but also a new Amethyst Biomat that I’ve been wanting for a long time, which was now able to be shipped and received to where we are. This provides “deep penetrating heat of Far Infrared Rays, Negative Ion therapy, and healing properties of Amethyst” to assist with joint pain, stiffness, muscle pain, arthritis, back pain, and has calming, healing benefits, providing peace and support for body, mind, and soul.
The Biomat will also be woven into Cosmo’s at-home therapy, and of course mom and dad will be using it too.
We have another appointment this week for him and so I’m happy to be able to provide routine, consistent care for a while and am so pleased to keep finding and creating more ways to support his special needs as an incredible soul in an aging rabbit body who is just a wonder to behold.
I’m reminded of how his foster family didn’t want to invest the time and energy into his needs and had felt putting him to sleep was the best option. Hence, the urgency of the woman at the organization that placed him in his foster home, to find someone asap. No one wanted to take him on, or perhaps no one was meant to, but me.
He and I are definitely connected because like Joy and Nestor, he was able to telepathically connect with me and send out a call for help, which I answered in an even more mysterious and profound way. And because of that and knowing I was meant to follow the promptings I felt, this amazing soul in rabbit body with spinal injury, major arthritis, enlarged heart, and inability to walk, had his life extended two years, so far, and still going at 10 1/2 years old.
I shared about how Cosmo and I magickally came together in my very first post about him coming into my life, but here is an excerpt from that as a reminder:
How did this all come about? Well, I would say magickally. I’ll share a little on why.
I mentioned in earlier posts how rabbit energy has increasingly been showing up and due to several dreams, I knew that I wanted to do more for rabbits, as they are so dear to my heart. I do already have an amazing little one, Joy, who is a powerful healer and potent being all around. And I have had two other bunnies in my life, including the magickal Nestor.
After the dreams I knew I wanted to be more active in helping rabbits, so I started volunteer work at a local rescue just a few minutes from my house. Rabbit energy continued to expand and envelope my life from there. Then one day, a week and a half ago, a friend tagged me in a post on Facebook from another rabbit rescue in Los Angeles, Bunny World Foundation.
They had just come into receiving two infant rabbits that were in need of care, with a traumatic story as to how they were now there on their own without mother and two siblings that are no longer on this physical plane.
My friend, like most people, knows that I’m a bunny person, or crazy rabbit lady😉 I constantly see posts like these and normally I will focus my action in sending healing energy, but for some reason I felt compelled to contact the organization and offer even more direct help. I felt drawn to care for them to help them get strong and healthy so they could then be adopted. I sat there and wrote my email, but hesitated hitting send.
On some level I felt something more from this action I was taking and it was like a soul pause taking a moment to check in on making the definitive decision of responsible commitment on a level I was unaware of consciously, as I’m an all or nothing person. I don’t know the meaning of half a–sing things.
So after a minute or two I finally hit send.
It took a couple of days, but I then received an email from the head of Bunny World Foundation, and the rest unfolded from there.
They had found a woman that specialized in infant care, as the infants needed special tube feeding you have to be trained for, but Lejla (the head of Bunny World Foundation) and I ended up having a long conversation connecting about so many mutual things, including knowing the woman who runs Save A Bunny, where I adopted Joy from. We concluded the call by my saying I’d love to help out in any way I can and asked if there was anything special she needed help with.
And then she told me about Blizzy (named this because he reminded his rescuer person who was caring for him when he came to the Human Society of an Oreo Blizzard). (Of course we know Blizzy soon became Cosmo, more appropriately soul named when he came home with me).
Blizzy was in need of a new foster home, as his current foster family was no longer able to care for him. They’d been looking for the last few months for someone and it was crucial he find a home that week.
And of course, here I come along at the right time….I now know that he had called out to me, just as Joy, Nestor, and Gaia had, and I heard his call.
I will say that, like with all things in my life, there is no randomness about it. I sensed this was something big for me…a mission in fact. And that was reiterated the day I picked him up. On my way out a hawk (one of my major animal totems at this time in my life) was sitting on the light post giving me the support, and on the way home, another. But while driving, a dear friend called that knew I was on my way to get him and she was sending me love and support. I said out loud to her, there was just something about this that I knew was so much bigger and I used the word “mission” to describe it.
And immediately after we got off the phone, a song came on and the words said, “it’s more than just a mission….” and at that exact simultaneous moment, I was just crossing over “Mission St.”
I got chills and knew in my heart everything was in divine grace.
And here is some additional background on Cosmo’s story, which I posted back in August:
This “mission,” I refer to as, is many-fold and has come to bright light, is being fully acknowledged, embraced, and actualized in embodiment for me, and anchored in while hiking here upon return to Lake Tahoe. This all manifesting as what I’m focused on and investing my energy into now and future to come.
But THAT is a story unfolding in its own divine timing.
Yesterday was filled with mystery and enchantment around every corner of Tahoe Meadows. A Faery’s delight for sure! Every season is beautiful, but I’m SO enjoying Autumn’s essence right now and the reflections of Nature’s messages. Everywhere I turned there were portals created by the arms of trees (sometimes double portals even!), meandering pathways through meadows and over brooks mirroring the journey of life, and golden essence everywhere hinting at a Middle Way – that Golden Mean – between extremes we are so much experiencing these days and learning to find that alchemy of balance and harmony with.
I even found a piece of an old honeycomb with its hexagonal cell symbolism of sacredness, which also reflects the cell matrix of our body template that holds memories and potential for soulful integration – all of which we are remembering and activating more and more.
Fluidity, Balance, Illusion, Timelines & Portals ~ A Surreal Drive Through The Great Salt Lake Desert
Yesterday we were on hyper speed again, as we hop-scotched original landing stop ideas, feeling the pull to keep moving forward in momentum, which we’ll be doing again today to our destination. Everything is about fluidity right now and our ability to have intents, but to be “fluid” to new information and energy coming in, while having spidey senses on supercharge high, as there’s a need to shift moment to moment, as well as be aware that with rapid change you may cross into invisibility at times while journeying through different dimensional doorways than others are.
Dave and I are both water signs, so this fluidity has been the full-on embrace of our native tendencies, and a lot of our sign posts and life changing moments have been involving water in big ways of recent – reiterating a need to be one with this essence and follow intuition instantly…no time for hesitation and questioning.
Inner knowing followed by action as a synergistic and supportive partnership.
Yesterday was a surreal day, which others reiterated to me feeling the same way when I posted these photos on Facebook.
I’m sharing them again here, as they really felt to capture this essence I’m sharing about.
As we were traveling between Aragonite, Utah and West Wendover, Nevada through the Great Salt Lake Desert, you can see (in the photo above) that there is salt water on both sides of Highway 80, but straight ahead on the road is a mirage of water. That’s something you don’t often get to see – the convergence of illusion and reality all merging together through the Middle Way.
A reminder also that the path taken will need to mirror the energy all around you. You can remain focused, but become the essence of both what you are working towards merged with what you’re being shown is the path of highest good for all concerned.
And a reminder not to let yourself be fooled by illusions and taken off path by sheep in wolves clothing. Keep moving forward at high awareness and choose only that which allows freedom and greatest peace and joy.
And also, a reminder that balance is key….the Middle Way involves living a life of alchemy…becoming conscious magicians.
The vistas of the Great Salt Lake Desert are so beautiful.
While we stopped at a rest area to make some lunch I was taken by this couple who decided to wade out together in the salt lake.
I loved their sweetness and playfulness, as they enjoyed the enchantment in partnership.
I loved how they just threw their shoes and socks off and went right in, following their feelings, and supporting each other as they gingerly walked through the uneven environment beneath them.
Working in partnership and balance with the Sacred Male and Female within us is key to our creative manifestation and harmony.
And if you have a partner, whether friend, family member, romantic, animal companion, etc…working together in the way that mirrors this relationship we have within ourselves is where your power will be as a unit to manifest hugely. Bringing your strengths together and not acting as an isolated island unto yourself will create things in bigger and overall optimal ways.
I love the surreal essence of seeing this sacred partnership walk across the salt waters and essence of life.
It was like watching a new reality create itself outside of time and space.
And soon after, as we got back on the road a very trippy potent thing happened
We’ve been journeying backwards through time zones in rapid speeds and just as we crossed the border into Nevada and crossed another time zone a double sighting took place, which was like revisiting a “past” me with a “future” me, reversed. LOL!
I’d seen the 1:11 portal time on the clock while in Utah…and then again the 1:11 portal hit in Nevada because they are an hour behind.
And soon after that I saw double 333 mile markers. This was extremely odd to see duplicate mile markers spread apart when they should be marking the same mile! I’d been looking out the window when I saw the first. Looked back down to continue my writing on my laptop. Then was prompted to look back up and there it was again. So bizarre!
And to complete this all with a triple, double sighting that happened also back to back. I woke up last night only to see the clock said 2:26 again (I have had super sightings of my birthday 2/26 showing up in crazy amounts recently, outdoing all the other recent number sequences, although the 1’s have amped up). I had gone over to take care of Cosmo as I do in the night, seeing the clock. Dave got up too for some reason and I pointed at the clock, which made him laugh. So this time I had a witness. Then right before I returned to bed, I looked at my cell phone and I had message and email alerts sitting next to each other on their apps of my home screen. One said “2”. The other said “26”. 😉
(I’d like to add that since posting this, the next day we arrived at our destination, which basically concluded these long days of travel for us, and our RV site at the park we were staying at was #26 – my birth day again.)
Another portal seems to be in motion with things today activating, although there are constant mini ones available moment to moment that can be accessed by staying ultra aware and present.
It’s really surreal to move so quickly, backwards in time in the Magick bus through the states…as surreal as these images of the Great Salt Lake Desert.
It really feels like traveling inter-dimensionally and rewriting reality.
Just like the “theory” of our future selves traveling “back to the past” to assist the us in the “now” and understand what happened in order to return things to harmony.
Cosmic puffs of dandelions consumed me in wondrous inspiration.
Like whirling dervishes of eternal magick, they enchanted me into the dance.
The portal to a field of stardust dreams was opened and enchanting mysteries invoked alchemy within.
A rich truth was awakened without need to understand.
Any wish I had, I could command.
Welcome back the Faeries giggled.
Last evening’s portal sky here in Helena, Montana infused with creative potency….
Activate the heart of you by cultivating the art of you.
What do you dream your life to feel like? When you know this answer with all of you, the journey of bringing that feeling into creation of what you desire it to look like can begin.
Build a new relationship with yourself, as you explore your heart.
Learn to reflect your dreams into a beautiful creation of your own making – creating life as a work of art, as I like to call it (and is my personal motto).
Ever wonder what your life would be like if you started living the wonder?
Remember who you are and may all possibilities be open to you.
Last evening the rain stopped right before sunset and a rainbow appeared directly out front of the Magick Bus, shooting up and out from Arches National Park where all the portals are. Only one side of the rainbow appeared from Earth’s crust, while the other end came through an opening of light in the rain cloud laden sky. It was a perfect symbol to end the last few days with and our time in Utah.
This was quite synchronous with its appearance at Arches, since rainbows are symbolic of bridges and arches, or archways.
And since arches, as we know, are portals, gateways, doors, and openings, then rainbows are portals into other worldly or cosmic realms and heightened awareness or transcendent experience. They also indicate choice and initiation, as well as opportunity for transformation, maybe transition, or illumination and embodied harmonic light.
This morning we woke to sunlit, clear skies, and stillness…no more wind or rain in sight.
It feels as though an initiation has been completed here, readying us for the next phase.
And so we will take advantage of this beautiful day to welcome in our last hike of the area, which will take us along a stream to Morning Glory Natural Bridge where a pool lies beneath the bridge and we’ll find waterfalls along the way – another gift Nature has provided, as several waterfalls are present after a rain, which we just had all day yesterday. 🙂
That feels like a perfect closure to our time in Utah and to celebrate today, as not only did the rainbow open a new portal and clear the air for fresh beginnings, promise, hope, and harmony, but it also created a bridge to my dear Nestor.
Today is the 8th anniversary of her transition over the Rainbow Bridge and so I will be in deep communion with her as we journey and be reminded of all that she taught me, but most importantly about pure, boundless love – of All That Is within me that she reflects and of living from the heart as hugely as possible, since today may be my last.
Two bubbles found they had rainbows on their curves. They flickered out saying: “It was worth being a bubble, just to have held that rainbow thirty seconds.” ~Carl Sandburg
“Dare to love yourself as if you were a rainbow with gold at both ends.” ~Aberjhani
As we sipped hot tea and listened to the sound of pouring rain this morning (which we’re doing again right now), I peered out from my desk and saw a blanket of fog between us and Arches National Park, just revealing the silhouette of the rocks, but covering the portal arches from sight – a veil between worlds emerged to allow only inner sight to lead us through to a new reality.
The power went out again this morning – the second time in three days – and the raging winds of change have turned to downpours of cleansing sky tears mirroring a time for more unplugging, reviewing, releasing, and readying for new actions.
At times it has felt like things weren’t happening, but a lot has been in very deep ways with old programming getting an upgrade.
One must come to terms with letting go AND letting in, not just in idea and theory, but actualization.
Times of breakthroughs to the other side of the portals of experience rather than needing to make literal breaks are here, as we realize that not only have we changed immensely, but our processes do not resemble the old ones any longer either.
We can bend time and reality, and we can transmute through our flexibility and embrace.
Today has been another more quiet day with less outward doing, but more downtime to let the realizations of change take root.
Our last days in Utah are proving to be integrative, readying us for the journey forward into Colorado.
We’ve been in Utah for six weeks of deep exploration and the winds, rain, and electrical outages seem to be mirroring a complete rewiring and recharge, as we will literally be moving from one energetic realm to another and crossing the state lines into a different reality.
Yesterday was filled with symbolism too on the three mile Corona Arch Trail.
It’s set atop a stunning slickrock setting and you get two arches for the price of one hike, as you get to also see Bowtie Arch, which sits adjacent to it.
There’s an old ladder harnessed to the rocks at one point to help you climb up the pour-off and metal ropes in a couple of areas to help you climb up and not slide off the slickrock.
On topographical maps Corona Arch is often times called Little Rainbow Bridge. You can see why in the photos of it and this name felt more resonant with its energy to me.
It feels so alive and almost like the cliff has extended its leg and taken a step forward, anchoring it on the Earth to create a bridge to the other side.
Both arches were pretty amazing, creating two gateways to enter.
The first more like a cave into the sky with a visible opening sitting atop a mirroring, but cave-like indentation that would seem impassable, but that’s merely what the physical eyes would have you think.
It’s almost like a male and female counterpart of portals at Bowtie Arch where two portals stand in unison, connected at center and are both accessible if you know the key.
One might seem more obvious, but my sense is to get through it, you must understand them both.
So, the obvious becomes the deep mystery of alchemy and knowing how to work both of your parts together.
I was wearing my braided pig tails, so I decided to have some fun with them at this arch.
While these energies are potent and yes, at times takes some serious reflection and commitment, it’s important to also have fun with it all.
Each of the arches we’ve seen have felt initiatory.
And these were no exception.
There are active train tracks you must pass on the hike and are warned to do so with extreme caution.
Dave made sure that our passing was safe, literally listening for the vibrations. Hehe!
You also pass this field of cairns, which is super cool. I’ve never seen so many in one place. From tiny to large, people have built cairns here from the broken rubble of fallen rock from the canyon cliffs.
Some of them made into mini arches too. It was like a miniature Faeryland.
On this hike I also saw more wild flower varieties than I’d seen in any one place at one time. I didn’t photograph them all, but there were varieties in each of the colors of pink, purple, white, yellow, and orange.
That felt very richly fertile for new opportunities and growth emerging and the ability to choose from many possibilities – or doorways.
On the way back, after our time at the arches we passed a blind man hiking with his wife. He had two poles he felt along the ground with and she was ahead letting him know what was coming.
That was really potent and reiterated the power of our inner eye to guide us, rather than only looking at the surface of things.
We could all do a little more “feeling” of our way through life than we are currently.
On our drive back, we stopped at two petroglyph walls that sit along the Colorado River. These were incredible with much more intricate depictions than we’d seen, and a variety of new images.
The petroglyphs have increased in detail along our journey and these were quite elaborate, and also so well defined.
They included a very large Bear (I intuited it was a bear right away and after we saw a sign that confirmed this feeling), which was pretty cool given the Bear symbolism I’ve had over the months.
The Bear was drawn showing all five toes on each foot, which is pretty detail specific. I placed my hand in them and it was an exact fit, as if they’d been molded after mine.
There were some other cool markings as you can see, different animal depictions, energy movement, and things like tracks, calendars, or pathways.
We then came across two wild turkeys after the petroglyphs, which ended off the day.
Turkeys symbolize abundance, connection with and honor of Mother Earth, harvesting the fruits of your labor, being nourished and satisfied with life, blessings from Earth, revealing your true self, endings, and beginnings.
Although we still have tomorrow before leaving, yesterday felt like a preparation of closure and bringing all things together. Today grounding that, as we’ve been more quiet and allowing action to take place on the inside while the rain clears way with our intents of release.
And after the hike yesterday I spoke with my parents on the phone to see how they are and what they shared went along with the symbolism of the turkeys and the abundance of flowers I’d seen.
They shared that they have started their own veggie garden.
A man they knew was getting rid of crates and they took a few of the two-by-two crates, filled them with soil and planted three varieties of tomatoes, red, green and yellow peppers, different lettuces, and strawberries.
I thought that was very cool that they were going to start growing their own food. They’ve also gotten a sun oven since I told them about mine and they do a lot to be self sufficient if needed, not to mention have been doing their own explorations and journeying to discover new places, as well as taking more time to do things they love.
The more we integrate and embody the changes, the more others around us will also start making changes and doing new things relative to their experience.
And so I continue on this journey with open arms and steady foot to greet the new with humbling honor and to step forward with deliberate and intentional action.
Yesterday’s trail at Devils Garden held both beauty and challenge, as we traversed the 4.2 miles of duality and deeply rooted, collective symbolism.
I had no idea that I’d be holding so much energy for all who had been called to explore the same area and energies on this day, but it became clear to me on our return route back what the theme of this journey was – reflecting the shadow and misconceptions around it.
So much so, that by the time we reached the car at end of the hike, I was energetically exhausted, having challenge staying awake while driving us back, and then feeling the need for major recharge when we got home.
The day began with the warmest temperatures we’ve had in a while – mid 70’s – which meant I got to wear my hiking dress and not get layered up.
So I put on my colorful dress I bought at a Himalayan shop in Sedona, grabbed my cowgirl hat, slipped on my favorite Chaco hiking sandals, and off we went.
This was the first day in a while that my “spiritual skin” of sacred tattoos was completely exposed, and how fitting that we were exploring Devils Garden – as I wear misunderstood symbols like the dragon and serpent, not to mention, in totality all of my dark, black, symbolic tattoos to many whose beliefs are rooted in ways different than my own, would connect to “evil”, dark, wrong, and yes, the Devil.
I even had someone once a long time ago ask me about these symbols saying they were Illuminati connected and asked me about that and if I was connected.
My only response to them was, “Only you know the answer to that by looking inside your own heart.”
I had no need to defend or explain anything. One doesn’t when they embody the truth.
So on our hike, many eyes were upon me. I received several compliments from a few people, as well as shared smiles with a few passers-by that had a tattoo or two of their own.
But apparently there were other kinds of looks too, which Dave shared with me with giggles, as he said he finds it fun and fascinating to watch some people and how they will stare or react to me – most of them being middle to older aged people and couples that come from a different generational belief system that has been strongly conditioned and rooted beyond simply ideas – but rather a programming within their DNA they react from.
And he too thought it was all compounded by the dress, sandals, cowgirl hat, AND tattoos, as no one else was dressed like that since most people have a “norm” way of dressing when hiking.
So it all created quite a looking glass, but was it “me” they saw, or something about themselves?
I explain this briefly in a very short video I felt inspired to do at our destination point on the hike – Double O Arch. I’ll share it after this post.
That felt like the perfect portal for this share, as it is an arch that has two O-shaped arches, one atop the other.
To me, this felt like mirrors of duality that reveal and reflect your belief system and the hidden energies around your beliefs on the light and the dark.
And when one can face these truths, you can move on into integrating them, which is the shared bridge between the two O’s.
There is an extension to this hike that goes further to what is called Dark Angel.
We did not feel called to go.
Well, Dave asked if I wanted to, us both feeling complete at Double O, and I said, “there’s no need to go there, as I’m holding the energy of Dark Angel right here.”
Interestingly, when we arrived at Double O, people dispersed, allowing me time to sit alone within the smaller portal, as Dave felt called to ascend further up the canyon and sit atop a rock there overlooking the view of the Double O and beyond, which is how he captured photos of me down below.
While he was there, and I was at the portal we would periodically hear screeches from what sounded either like a hawk, falcon, or eagle that echoed through the canyon.
We met some very nice people along the hike there and back, and exchanged some words, as well as took photos for them.
Saw many lizards and ravens – one that cawed at us from across a canyon.
The trail first led us to several cool arches – Tunnel Arch, which had two deep arches, Pine Tree Arch, which as you can tell by the name had a pine tree growing from center (I took two photos here, loving the symbolism of a little girl that was in the foreground on one reminding me of my own inner child and a book I’m reading where the woman embodies the medicine of a Native American Indian girl named Little Black Wold Dancing), Landscape Arch, which was huge and looked like a frame to a landscape painting, Black Arch, and several unnamed arches.
Most people only go to Landscape Arch, as the trail then becomes more challenging to reach Double O, other arches, and Dark Angel.
You can either do the primitive trail to get there, which is unmarked and longer, or climb over sandstone slabs and fins with narrow ledges and exposure to heights on another trail – a bit scary for those with fear of heights.
I, once again, got to face that one head on and did.
I thought about the symbolism of this challenging trail to Double O and Dark Angel and how only those ready and/or willing to journey into these energies and reflections, would pass through to receive the messages awaiting them there.
But it wasn’t until I return back, as mentioned earlier, that things really sunk in as to the energy I was integrating myself, as well as holding in mirror for others. I believe my time sitting in the portal of Double O revealed this to me.
And on our return, I had this thought go through me about the connection of Devils Garden and my serpent tattoo, thinking on the irony of this and all the misconceptions around it.
I kid you not, the second after I said this to myself and integrated the depth of meaning, both Dave and I heard a loud, long hiss come from the bushes we had just passed.
He stopped in his tracks and we both looked at each other and said, “what was that?”
We both agreed it sounded like a large snake, like a rattlesnake before they are about to strike.
Dave decided to explore the whole area, but found nothing.
There was no snake in the flesh.
But it was unmistakably a snake.
I said, it was the cosmic serpent and shared with Dave what I had just been processing and receiving right before the hiss.
Talk about powerful messages.
I continued to further deepen into the energy here for me to process and embody more fully.
And found myself in deep dreams last night wandering through rock garden portals.
I’m feeling much more balanced again today, but still recharging from all that I was mirroring, integrating, and holding.
It made me go quiet and perhaps might lead to taking a mini break while things continue to integrate and renew.
So, just in case you don’t hear a share from me for a day or two, you’ll know why.
We embody both the light and the dark, but it is not seen in these limiting terms that words define and judge them by.
It is a melding reflection of both and beyond, where the creative impetus of Cosmic alchemy can be harnessed by turning everything inside out within the vortex of you.
(BTW, right after I posted this blog, I saw the word count and thought it would be fun to add it here: 1313)