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Bundates – Fun Bunny Updates & Stuff


A few sweet updates I thought I’d share to keep up the Astrid Chronicles and document her bunny garden progress. This morning finds us with 52 of the 72 seeds I planted late Saturday afternoon/early evening sprouting away in just under 5 days already. Astrid discovered them yesterday on the floor, as I move them to different spots throughout the day, and tried to get at them, chewing the little revolving plastic window at top of the mini greenhouse. She did manage to get it off, but I stopped her in time and told her to wait until they’re big plants so she can enjoy them more.

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She’s SO smart and knows how to get into anything, including gated off areas we have downstairs so we didn’t have to bunny proof the room. And, she relishes in delight to show me just how smart she is, as each time I come up with a new way to keep her from opening the gate, she finds her way through it. She will actually wait for me to discover her and then springs in the air with glee and as I laugh, she darts around the room and then leaves and dashes part way up the stairs where she stops and waits again. Once I leave the room, she goes back and does it again. She’s discovered it’s a fun game to play with mom.

Needless to say, I decided to just go ahead and bunny proof the room, as the gate bothered me, so now she has full reign of the area and perhaps was her plan all along, as the Queen that she is. 😉

Anyway, it’s been exciting to watch the sprouts literally sprouting before my eyes, as every day more and more appear and even within a couple of hours. Plants are incredible! And I know these will be incredible delicacies for Astrid once they’re big enough to plant in my Garden Tower. Likely some of the outdoor bunnies will enjoy them too. So, I’ll have to think on that. Perhaps provide them their own plants on the lower level of the Tower so that they can have some too and tell them that those are theirs and the rest are for Astrid. We’ll see.

It will be another couple weeks before I get that going, especially since this morning we woke to a couple inches of Spring snow. I was excited yesterday to see that my daffodils already had yellow buds formed, but as you can see they are covered in snow this morning. It will likely melt off by end of today or tomorrow, but sure is pretty!

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Nature is amazing! And that includes her children like Astrid.

She continues to reveal more and more of her magickal self and abilities. I keep noticing how much she reminds me of Nestor too, which feels like another full circle experience for me and very healing and special. Her fur continues to reveal amazing and ever-evolving symbols, just like Nestor’s did too. Currently she’s sporting a half Chakana symbol, as you can see in this photo of her coming out of her second castle tunnel to commune with her Faery friend.

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She really loves her big sleigh bed that sits next to my desk and enjoys the afternoon sun there. I received a beautiful Swarovski crystal octagon prism for my birthday that hangs from my sliding glass door and creates rainbow light from the sun. It just so happens to fall on Astrid now and then too. Or is it that Astrid knows just the precise location, like a grid worker, to be in the line of its light and energy? OR, is something being revealed to me in this alignment? I love how it falls on her ears – telepathy connected.

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She often sleeps in this bed as I write, keeping one eye open with awareness even though she is away in Dreamland. This is the way she reaches my Pisces subconscious. She keeps a stream of telepathic energy flowing between us and channels of communication wide so she can send me thoughts to assist with my writing. We are a team and together our work is more potent than if done alone.

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Just as in life, cocreating and community is where powerful change is. 

She’s such a dear and wise helper and our bond exponentially increases by the day. We are inseparable and we understand each other clearly.

I love our snuggle time and I love our play time. She makes me laugh out loud and my voice fluctuations of her name let her know it’s time to play. She’ll flip her ears, twist her head quick, and take the ready stance when I add a tone of excitement to my voice.

And other times it’s the love voice that beckons her to come to me for a snuggle and kisses.

Then there’s the treat voice that calls her name, as I send her thoughts of goodies she’s about to get, and she comes running.

And of course there’s a more stern “Astrid” voice maybe followed with a “no” if she’s about to do something naughty. This one doesn’t happen that much, as she really is a good and smart bunny.

In general, though, there’s a huge difference from how she was in the start.

I’m happy to share that there is no more charging anytime you approach her. She only does this if she’s under something or in her tunnel and someone tries to put their hand there, which makes sense. Hey! No one wants to be cornered or bothered when they’re trying to be alone.

I try to let people know how she likes to be touched, which is on top of the head and stroking along her back, which also avoids the element of surprise. Often people want to put their hands under her nose and mouth and she doesn’t like that. Rabbits can’t see directly in front of them, so it’s also startling. Every bunny is different, and can have different moments of being okay with things and then not. But she’s doing amazing with no more defensiveness and the only grunts I hear are when I get her her favorite foods and treats, if I’m not doing it fast enough. She sounds like a little piglet grunting in anticipation and delight.

But another huge difference is how she sleeps.

When I first brought her home she would always remain on alert and just sleep in a ball on all fours or lay down stretched out, but not on her side. I wondered when she would get into that relaxed bunny sleep, which indicates feeling safe. Sometimes I’d see her start to fall asleep and almost get there, but then wake herself up when she realized.

And now, we have this.

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She would never have done this in the beginning. Throwing herself on her side and sleeping vulnerably is a huge trust and comfort thing, which makes me so happy. I love when she throws herself at my feet when I’m at my desk and goes to sleep. Those little silver dipped paws and tummy are precious!

She keeps me on my toes too, and makes sure I’m keeping up with my writing. I’ll often find her sitting in my cozy chair in my office – Queens like their thrones! She’ll nudge my feet and ankles and makes sure to wake us in the morning by racing around the master bedroom to rise for her greens feeding time!

Sometimes she’ll hang with the cats – the three of them in a row – as long as everyone remains at least a foot or two apart. Boundaries are a must! She also keeps the cats amused watching her race around the room.

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She keeps a tidy realm here in Wonderland and sees to the happiness of all the beings that dwell here. It’s working, as everyone who walks into the room says things like, “this room makes me so happy,” or “this room makes me smile,” and most share that it inspires them in one way or another or definitely has the inner child vibe. We actually had four kids over recently with their parents and they of course went crazy over my room, which was a great sign of the innocence I’ve managed to reclaim and recreate here. That was a goal for me, to make this my inner child sanctum where all of my dreams could come alive – a world of pure imagination, as Willy Wonka says.

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And that makes Astrid happy too, as she loves her room – spending the majority of her day in it. And the cats pretty much don’t come into it. They try occasionally to eat some of her hay on the top of her castle, but that’s as far as they get. They hardly come downstairs in general. Sweet Pea actually won’t come down unless her dad does. Both of the cats feel it’s safe if dad goes down, and then they follow. It’s pretty hilarious how much Astrid has established herself. And it’s only fair that she should have her own space too, as we know cats think everything belongs to them. 😉

Astrid is doing so good inside and out, and her health is testament to that. Monday I took her to her vet check up. This was the welcome sign for her – I thought it ironic with the cat on it.

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We go to regular vet check ups every 6 months and sometimes 3 months to stay on top of any irregularities that could show up in her teeth. This is a must for bunnies since their teeth not only continually grow, but if not caught in time it can create huge challenges, or even be fatal with complications. I’m so grateful we have such a proactive vet who knows her bunny stuff and is just as sweet as angels come. She’s amazing!

And, so far so good. Astrid has continued getting clean and excellent bills of health. Marcy at SaveABunny had also said she never had issues as long as she was with them either.

We’ve been monitoring one tooth since the beginning but it’s doing well and no changes since the start. Sometimes a small irregularity is simply due to the way they chew so you just need to make sure it’s always maintained by your bunny or else will need maintenance. She’s doing well consistently maintaining it. We’re now keeping an eye on one other tooth where the gum is slightly protruding. She’s has no signs of problems, or issues in any way, and the gum and tooth is healthy, but the vet is staying on top of it to make sure it doesn’t turn into anything.

I love how gentle she is with Astrid and in general, she just has the softest energy about her, but not in any push over kind of way, as she has a strong presence, it’s just a gentle power. This vet has actually seen all of my bunnies (minus my first bunny Twinkie whom I had when I was in my teens) this to include Nestor, Joy, Cosmo, and now Astrid. So that also is pretty special given how much I’ve moved around. And this also makes Astrid number 5 – my fav magickal number.

Astrid did great and we’ll be back in 3 months to see how it’s all shaping up while I continue watching her for any slight changes. That’s simply a daily part of having a bunny…staying on top of knowing every little nuance since they can hide things well.

And that leads me to another Bundate – Bunny Update – from SaveABunny, actually.

You remember the white bunny, Big Sur (who to me is Zephyr) that I didn’t adopt. I mentioned getting a brief update from Marcy, but she had mentioned that she told his new mom to contact me directly. I hadn’t heard anything until yesterday morning and this was the beautiful news:

Hi Tania,

Marcy asked me to reach out to you and let you know that I formally adopted Big Sur. I know you had donated to help much with his care while he was at SaveABunny – thank you. In October we (my partner Ryon, my 10 year old daughter Dyllan and I) wanted to help out so we decided to foster Big Sur (we already had adopted 4 rabbits previously) Well months went by and we just couldn’t fathom the idea of bringing him back. So we totally foster failed. We love him so much words cannot express. He is such a special loving soul and we are so lucky to have him in our lives. Thank you for all your help and love. He found his forever home ❤️

~Lisa

PS – I’m also an adoption coordinator at SaveABunny…I’ve always felt a draw to him since he first arrived.

And here was my reply:

Hi Lisa!! I saw your message first thing this morning and it made me smile so big. I had to wait until I could respond more in fullness to you, but I first wanted to say how VERY grateful I am that you took time to write to me about him. I have wondered so much how he has been doing, as like you had been so drawn to him and felt that love and connection. I was very challenged with my decision as to who to adopt when I did arrive there, but felt in my heart he was telling me to take Deja Vu – who is now Astrid – and that he was going to be fine, needed that time to heal, and everything would end up perfectly. I am SO happy beyond words to know you have him with you and that he is in the perfect home and you are all sharing so much love between you. It confirms what I had felt and it also speaks so much of the bond you both have and why everything turned out as it did. I am so grateful for all of the work you do for SaveABunny, giving so many homes to rabbits in need, and now loving Big Sur so dearly. And you are so welcome for the help with him. It meant a lot to me to be able to do that. I’m so glad you foster failed! 😉 I’m glad to know you are the adoption coordinator…I can’t remember now as it was nearly a year ago I had first contacted about Big Sur, but we may have spoken via email. Marcy and SaveABunny mean a lot to me and Astrid is definitely my perfect partner. I couldn’t love her more and our connection has deepened so much since last June. She’s my second adoption from SaveABunny and likely there will be more at some point. So it’s good to know you! Thank you again! ❤ Love and hugs to you

I love happy endings, don’t you? They lead to great new beginnings!

An Easter Message from Astrid


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Mirror…mirror…Astrid sends bunny kisses and wishes everyone a Hoppy Easter filled with peace, love, and joy!

Astrid says, “Rabbits are not Easter toys and DO NOT make good Easter gifts. We need a commitment for life to all of our special needs and are not low maintenance. Although we love children, we really need sensitive care so please educate yourself about us and if you feel you can meet our needs, please adopt from a rescue or shelter. We are the third most euthanized animals and likely the most misunderstood.

Astrid Update, Special Needs & Rabbit Care


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At just over two weeks, Astrid continues to adjust and settle in to her new home here with us. The journey continues to be one of patience, tuning in, and gauging where she’s at and what she’s ready for. As mentioned, although she is not physically challenged like Cosmo was, she is still quite challenged with special needs that call for an internal massaging of her emotions, conditioned behaviors, and adopted patterns that have been cultivated by her past. It is a tough journey, as any time I see things pop up I can feel where it is coming from, which is saddening, and the only way through it is to love her even more, not take it personally, and help to re-establish new patterns that support her into her more natural essence behind all of this.

Time, heart, and intuitive investment is necessary to help her through it all. And it may take months, a year….I don’t know. It could also happen more quickly, but I have no expectations or goals to meet, other than to do my best. I remember that it took 6 months to bond Joy and Cosmo, but it DID happen. And a daily investment of love, nurturing, and physical devotion also helped Cosmo to get stronger as well.

At the same time, Astrid is naturally an extremely sensitive empath, as well as highly attuned to energy and the frequencies she picks up all around her, seen and unseen.

Last night I watched these two moths resting on the outside of the window right above her sanctuary area of our bedroom. She was sitting under the window and facing toward me, however it was incredible to see how she could pick up the vibrations of their wings through the thick glass and outside in the dark – it was dimly lit inside the house too. One moth started to slowly move from one spot to another on the window, gently fluttering its wings and I watched, as one of Astrid’s ears slowly started following the flow of its flight pattern by moving in the same direction as the moth.

Vibrational resonance is her gift, but can also be her challenge, as she will mirror and take on whatever is around her.

That said, she also is blessed with an incredible strength and power that has seen her through it all and helped her to endure the pains and traumas, as well as supported her to thrive, and ultimately, to manifest a way out of what could have been her end many times.

I took Astrid in for her first wellness appointment on Monday to establish getting a handle on her physical health, since there are many unseens with rabbits.

It’s important to keep on top of your animal companion’s health, especially where rabbits are concerned because many things go unnoticed with them and if caught early can help avoid major challenges later. It’s also key to be very present and aware with them, noticing any little shifts in behavior, eating, and eliminating. Often times challenges are due to teeth issues so make sure to get them checked regularly.

But in general, check in and learn to understand and communicate with your sweet ones, as you will learn so much and create a stronger bond for overall well being and spiritual evolution and connection. They have so much to teach and so much they want to help us with, just as much as we can help them to also come into their fullness.

Astrid came away from her appointment with flying colors. The sweet, gentle, and incredibly knowledgable vet – I just love her and all of my bunnies have at one time or another been to her – said she was in wonderful health, perfect, healthy weight for her at 6 pounds 12 ounces, and in general she said I’d chosen well.

I feel that was a mutual thing however, and in this case since Astrid was a surprise, I feel this was Cosmically written in the stars for us and she’d chosen me for reasons I have yet to see.

The vet is exceptional at seeing and understanding the needs of rabbits and made note of very tiny points on her right bottom teeth that we’ll just want to keep an eye on. She has no problems, nor may this ever become a problem, but for precaution we will have her rechecked in 3 months instead of the normal 6 months to ensure nothing starts developing. Being proactive is important where bunny teeth are concerned. Likely she’ll wear them down on her own with continued good eating, but I like knowing that my vet is on top of things, as Astrid’s health and well being is my priority as her mom and guardian.

And good eating involves feeding them the right things that are healthiest for their sensitive digestive systems and healthy for strong teeth and helping to keep these always-growing-teeth naturally filed down.

I only give my sweet ones the very best. If it’s something I wouldn’t eat then they don’t get it either.

So that includes a variety of organic greens (cilantro, parsley, dandelion greens, carrot tops, spring mix, small amounts of kale, etc.) and small bites of fruit like strawberry or apple now and then and bits of carrot, the healthiest 2nd cut timothy hay, timothy pellets (in small measured quantity – 1 -2 tablespoons tops), drops of goji juice in their water, herbal blends of superfoods for general health and immune support (an echinacea blend and a calendula, chamomile, dandelion leaf, dandelion root, elder flower, flaxseed powder, goldenrod, hawthorn leaf, hibiscus flower, lavender, milk thistle powder, nettle, oat groats, green oat tops, plantain, raspberry leaf, red clover flower, rosehips, rose petals, strawberry leaf vita-licious blend I give her), and small (because you don’t want to overdue the sugar) natural, untreated pine cones (like these pictured with Astrid below) coated in healthy botanicals that support their natural foraging instincts.

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I also provide a variety of chewy balls and twists of natural things like meadow, maize, willow and even mini logs/bits of tree to work those teeth and feel like they’re out in the fields and forests.

Here you see Astrid enjoying her cherry hibiscus pine cone (you can actually see her tongue out licking her lips in the photo below). There’s also a blueberry parsley pine cone as well.

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She’s so good at grazing and not inhaling her food all at once like my other bunnies would. They’d be crazed when I brought stuff out and it would be gone quickly.

Astrid is much more calm about food and takes her time, but still loves her food. This pine cone she just nibbles on each day… So I don’t need to worry about her over doing things.

It makes me happy I can provide her with good things to make up for never having a forever home and all the past torment, pain, and grief I know she’s seen and experienced.

I will continue to work with her to help her through her challenges, while also listening to what she has to share through them about herself and for me too.

She has already given me a big piece of wisdom, which I shared at the end of my last blog post, but I know this will only continue to increase the more time we spend together.

I have loved seeing her relax into things here and watching her enjoying her freedom as she runs and jumps around like crazy. 

On her good days she runs to me when I come near to say hi and nudge me with her nose. She’ll follow me and there are little to no grunts or attacks that take place.

But that doesn’t mean that is gone, as with everything, it’s all a process and while she has great days and moments, she’ll have the past creep up unexpectedly. Any little shift can result in a shift in her as well, which then takes time to rebalance again.

She also is very sensitive to too much energy around and will mostly stay in the second bedroom or under the bed there if there is too much going on, like having guests over. Then the second they leave she comes out. 

She can’t take having too much all at once and definitely needs to be introduced to energies and other people slowly, as well as one at a time. Otherwise, her fight mode kicks in high gear. One reason why she’s so good at keeping the cats at bay, even if they are just being curious. Her attack mode is nothing to play around with!

She’s quite the guardian bunny.

But she truly thrives in and needs a peace filled environment and to be approached with utter purity of heart to help engage her to meet that with hers.

She is a special one and has also been helping me to work through more emotions around my bunny loves that have been cropping up since her arrival, including around Zephyr/Big Sur and my convictions around my path.

I love how we mirror each other and once again she shows me that the alchemy of togetherness with my rabbit familiars is more potent than me alone.

Update on Joy & Reflections of the Bonds Shared


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While we’ve been exploring, creating, and living life where life finds us, my focus has also been on the little ones and ensuring their lives are as rich as ours. Joy and Cosmo are in their golden years at 10 and 12 years old – equivalent to being 100 and 120 in our years – so they have special needs and have recently each had health challenges that simply mean a weaving in of reflective care has been necessary to become a natural part of our lives like everything else.

I shared about Cosmo recently having gone through allergies that turned into pneumonia and how we got him back to balance again. He continues to do well, and I continue to do my best to keep his allergies at bay, which has been successful. He continues to need me more and more, but he’s happy, spirited, loving as ever, and a healthy little ancient one.

I was just commenting recently on how his fur has evolved since his being with us for nearly a year and a half. When he first came to us his fur was much more coarse and, of course, dirty and matted. He now has beautiful velvety fur nearly matching Joy’s and even his back end he lays on is so clean in comparison and I’ve learned to manage his cycles of matting to keep him looking beautiful. It’s amazing what good care, diet, and nurturing love can do.

And the same has been true with Joy and her recent challenge, in how the right care can make all the difference.

I mentioned in a previous post that she had a health issue come up right after I got a handle on Cosmo’s and he was balanced out again.

I thought I’d share more in detail about that, as I’m always wanting to help others out there with rabbits in understanding and caring for their little ones, as best as possible, through the things that I experience with my rabbits and that I learn. Plus, I like to share how our animal companions reflect so much for our own journeys.

So, I’d noticed Joy had started being more silent…that may sound funny since rabbits don’t make noise, but that doesn’t mean they don’t communicate in their own way. And she had been more internal, spending time off by herself, and just huddled, although was still eating and acting normal in other ways when not off on her own.

That immediately put me on alert to observe and keep an eye on her, as she is an extremely sensitive one and she also tends to process a lot.

Since that has been the case with her, in terms of needing her own space and time and going through things energetically, I allow her that space and don’t just jump on taking her to a vet just because she needs time to herself. As long as she eats and eliminates, I’m not on major alert, although energetically support what she’s going through best that I can.

Sometimes she, or we all, just need a little quiet time to work through things.

But when I started noticing her having difficulty eating…moving food around in her mouth, rolling it from one side to another, and spitting some out, half chewed…I knew something was up.

And since rabbits can get severe issues with their teeth – since they constantly are growing and can grow the wrong way (up or down into the jaw), can grow points and sharpness if not properly gnawed down through their hay eating, and can develop infections, and abscesses that then affect everything else, especially their delicate digestive systems and GI tracts…this was a red alert for me.

If there was a teeth issue, she’d potentially need dental surgery. And putting a rabbit, let alone an elderly rabbit, under is always sketchy.

So, I watched this for a day and she was able to eat a little, was still eliminating, but since she couldn’t get all of her food in, I got her on her critical care food right away – something to keep on hand if you’re a rabbit guardian, as it provides all the needed nutrients, but is a mixture that looks like ground flax that you combine with water into an apple sauce texture so that they can still eat easily.

We followed the instruction on the back in terms of amount per weight to provide, but later found out we could have given her even more.

And I started calling around to find a rabbit vet in the area.

This took place while we were in Colorado Springs on a Thursday…we were leaving to Golden on Sunday. It also happened to be right before Memorial Day.

So you can imagine I had quite the challenge getting her an appointment. I called about 15 places…half in Colorado Springs, a quarter in Golden, and the rest some ER places.

Every single place was booked until later the next week or had no rabbit doctors on duty at all. I was sent from one place to another each time I called.

In the end, I got an appointment for the following Wednesday in Golden and in the meantime just focused on managing any pain she had with Reiki, pumped her with Echinacea, and fed her the critical care food to see her through. I monitored that she was eating and eliminating, as if any of that stopped, I would have taken her to any ER or vet, regardless of having a rabbit doctor or not, as that would be a dangerous condition that couldn’t wait.

I tried to stay as positive as possible and not fall into any worry spiral that wouldn’t be supportive for her. This may be challenging in times like these, but staying as balanced as possible is the best thing we can do since our animal companions will take on exactly what we’re feeling.

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I gave her my crystal rabbit and tortoise statue that are connected with Nestor and Gaia, to provide her tangible support from her dear friends so that she could feel them close while they were helping her energetically from afar.

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It’s tough when you are sitting there waiting and feel somewhat helpless, knowing your loved one is going through pain. But it’s a test of having peace within chaos, as we can create different realities with the power of our centeredness.

I was seeing her start to lose her balance and fall a lot, indicating an infection, as well as frantic for food, despite my feeding her the critical care. I noticed her losing weight, but she still was eating and eliminating and still actively doing things like engaging with me and Cosmo and cleaning herself.

Then we left Colorado Springs and got to Golden. I started to see her improve. Her balance returned and she was able to eat her pellets and some veggies again, alongside her critical care.

I made a connection to the much higher than normal radiation in that area that had also affected sensitive mom, feeling much more drained while integrating that energy, as a transmutational process.

Joy is the ultra energy sensitive one and immediately picks up on energies, as well as tries to work with them with all of the powerful gifts she has for the greater good. But like Nestor, her fragile body isn’t always realized since her energy is so big and boundless, and so it doesn’t always support the things her soul are committed to doing.

So either the radiation was the trigger to the challenge, or she had a challenge that the radiation intensified, as her symptoms were also those of one affected by this.

Anyway, we finally made it to her appointment day, thanks to a lot of Reiki support also from a few friends that were sending her some at the same time, and keeping her eating and staying focused on the positive.

Long story short, we met with the female doctor who was very knowledgeable, once again, and we received her prognosis.

She was able to examine her thoroughly, which she remarked on being rare, but Joy allowed her to fully explore her mouth like no other rabbit she’d examined. This identified no issues there.

Phew!

She said her teeth were healthy and beautiful, without points, and the two potential issues of either growing up or down into the gums was not apparent in the easy ways to determine these.

Her heart sounded great, her eyes although blind in one and cataracts in the other were healthy, and nothing else apparent.

But she felt that since I mentioned her losing her balance, that indicated likely an ear infection, which would also cause nausea. In her case, not an outer infection, since the outer ear looked healthy, but rather an inner one.

This can’t be seen except maybe with a high power xray – not recommended for her age since she’d have to be put under for it and doesn’t always show up regardless – and so she felt we should treat the inner ear infection since that was safe and either way would take care of that, and in the interim we decided on a thorough blood testing to run two panels and check on everything including her organs.

In the meantime, we also gave her subcutaneous fluids for her dehydration due to the extreme weight loss, bringing her to only 3 pounds.

That was the sad part, as that nearly week of waiting and not knowing we could give her more critical care, plus her not able to eat other things until the last two days that her ability to do so returned, got her way down in weight.

No doctor would provide info over the phone when I called during our waiting, since they didn’t know her status and that was understandable since they could be liable for misdiagnosing, however also frustrating since there was no outside help.

Makes one turn within and call upon their own resources, which is always a powerful thing.

I was sent home with pain meds for her – the same Cosmo is on – and medication for her infection while we waited on the tests.

This now put us on huge regimes for both bunnies between each of their special needs and regular and special feedings, while I worked on trying to fatten Joy up.

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And so, I am basically running a bunny nursing home these days with all that my dear ones are in need of in their older age.

This last vet we visited said she usually tells people that rabbits live until about 8 years old (only because they require specific care and attention that isn’t common out there), so at 10 and 12, she said mine are like 100 and 120 years old.

Ancient ones indeed, but ultimately these two are tough ones and although there are challenges that call for my time and energy, it’s a gift to be able to live out their golden years with them and support them with their paths. I love them with ALL of me.

We were supposed to hear on the blood tests the next day, but somehow Joy’s blood had gotten lost and hidden on a shelf.

The doctor did call once or twice each day to check on Joy, but it wasn’t until he third day that we received the results.

The doctor was not happy at what had happened so not only did she give them a piece of her mind, but gave me a $100 credit back for the mix up, which was unexpected, but very kind of her.

What we learned was twofold.

The first panel indicated things connected to dehydration so that was normal and we had addressed already.

The second panel showed a bit low white and red blood cell counts, which indicated one of two things.

The doctor is focusing on the one which would be association with infection.

The other one could possibly indicate cancer.

She’s not going there nor am I since she’s eating and doing better.

Plus, to put energy and focus there would be as toxic as cancer itself and create a reality that may not otherwise be there or would not support a spontaneous healing if in fact it was this, because we could be feeding it rather than simply seeing her in her wholeness.

So we treat the infection and watch her. If she stops eating or losing more weight we need to look further.

I’m happy to say she continues to eat well and doing all the normal things we’d want her to do.

The only challenge right now is getting her back on her hay, which is good for her teeth and digestion – the only thing rabbits really need in their diet, as the rest is like icing on the cake or yummy indulgences.

Joy has become addicted to her critical care food, which isn’t bad since it has everything nutrient-wise she needs, but to return her back to her regular diet would be good.

She’s eating her pellets, greens, and berries too and no more balance issues present.

So I continue to try and although the doctor said I could cut back on some of her critical care feedings, I also don’t want to starve her when she is still underweight. I tried for a couple of days, but she refused and so I find it more important that she is strong and perhaps will have to find other things for her to chew on if she decides critical care food is the new regime.

But this experience has revealed other things and may have had multiple purposes.

I’ve noticed Joy increasingly opening and being more vulnerable. She has learned from Cosmo about licks of appreciation and messaging. So she gives me tiny licks now and then, which is something new for her and a sweet reflection of her affection.

She continues to lean into Cosmo more, opening her heart so vulnerably to him and showing how much she does really need and enjoy the comfort of his love, which is so heart warming. I often find her not only energetically leaning into him, but physically she exhibits this by letting her weight fall into him, her head hidden in his fur, and simply just wanting to be as close as physically and energetically possible.

All of this is such beautiful expansion for her and learning to feel safe by exposing herself in this way and opening the walls of fear around her heart to letting someone in.

Something mom has learned too, and along with her.

And I also feel this experience has been partly a manifestation of her wanting and needing more nurturing, or at least voicing to me that she’s ready for more again. Whereas she’s always been self sufficient and not wanting to burden me (at least that’s how she would have seen it), she’s asking for help and she’s liking what she sees Cosmo receive with the extra physical attention due to his needs. So I feel she’s wanting some of the same.

That also reflects to me her opening to her own needs of love and self love, rather than just always being of service. Again, great reflections of the same mom has and is going through.

They both continue to keep me focused in the moment and on what’s truly important and of value in life, as those precious moments of caring for them, although can physically ask a lot of me, are true streams of giving and receiving out of pure unconditional love.

They have also taught and continue to teach me so much about rabbits and now to include elderly and special needs care, which may prove as training for the potential vision I have with this in a possible future to come.

They also continue to reflect all of the important things my soul desires to learn, and mirror my personal processes, as well as play out potential realities to spare me of the same, by my learning through their living it out for me so that I can consciously embrace the message. That’s how connected and heart bonded we are.

They continue to help me understand deeper levels and access the information for my writing, as my cocreators and partners in that dance.

And in the times each day where they are snuggled together and I place my head in the middle of them with hands and arms around them, we realize the power of love through the trinity of alchemy we bring together through our hearts.

But it is the looks of complete bliss on their faces, the way these two fragile, but powerful beings lean into me and each other, and the simple tender licks they give and reflect back during our group huddle, that makes me feel invincible, eternally and endlessly flowing in the power of love.

Love’s Eternal & Healing Bond


20160520_074349I’m so grateful these two have each other to see them through rough times and to cherish during all times.

After having seen Cosmo through his recent challenges, Joy has her own to face right now, and it’s such a gift to see them balance that support between them, which helps mom too.

Having two elder bunnies: Cosmo 10 and Joy 12, these are precious moments that remind me of what’s truly important and of love’s eternal beingness.

The Dance of Natural Cycles ~ Cosmo’s Celebration, Teachings & Update


 

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Today being Cosmo’s 10th birthday, I couldn’t not share a blog post update, as I honor and love him so much and his sacred male energy he embodies. It’s amazing how much he mirrors me, right down to having a #3 life path like mom and although he’s in a #4 year starting today and I’m in a #1 year, his being 10 years old mirrors a new cycle and beginning along with mom yet again.

We just celebrated this morning with a turmeric filled raspberry as a birthday cake, of which Joy received her own raspberry to share in the yum.

This is his second birthday we’ve had the opportunity to celebrate with him and already nearing on one and a half years soon of his being a part of the family.

So many blessings he has brought since the first day of his arrival.

I’m grateful for all of the loving thoughts and healing energy that has been shared to help him through all of his physical challenges and the latest one, which is also the reason for this update.

Many of you have asked how he is and so I wanted to share the good news and relief.

I ended up taking him to another vet where we were in our new location of Montrose, as his sneezing hadn’t subsided. He’d finally shown signs of getting better, but then suddenly was having attacks of 30-40 sneezes at a time, which concerned me.

Again, I was so lucky to find a great doctor who knew rabbits and was so kind and took all the time in the world to help.

I’d spoken to the doctor at the previous vet who had given a few routes to go at this point, which the new doctor agreed with upon seeing him.

Cosmo was given a full exam and upon doing so the doctor shared that he looked and felt healthy in all ways. His breathing and heart all sounded good and he didn’t hear any congestion anymore, which the previous doctor had upon first taking him in when this all started. This indicated his pneumonia was gone.

A couple of things came through on examining him though, which weren’t surprises.

One of which was that he’s developing cataracts. I’d just in the last week started noticing his eye coloring shifting from dark black to a bluish white slightly when light hit at center.

Anyway, one eye had a whiter web like area, more than the other, but his eyes are healthy and he isn’t blind at this time. Blindness may be developing, which is just age taking form, so eventually he may go blind like Joy. For now, the doctor said his eye sight would be like if you threw white paint on a glass window.

We decided to take the least invasive approach to look further into any possibilities so that we felt better and that was to do some mild xrays rather than a culture through his nose and throat which he would need to be sedated for.

He showed the xrays to me and he couldn’t find anything in them indicating anything to be concerned about, which would be like white spots in the lungs, etc.

His organs all looked healthy and normal.

The only thing that did show up, which was the second thing that came up in his visit was the bad arthritis in his spine and shoulders, which we already knew he had, but it continues to develop and increase with age.

The doctor suggested adding a form of glucosamine blend he’s had good results with to his Metacam pain relief I give him to also help with inflammation, because it is likely very painful and will increase. I’d noticed his sensitivity along his spine and it again is due to age and his injury, where the bones in the spine split and get jagged, then the growth caps the ends, which fuses the bones. Hard to explain, but for anyone, let alone a fragile rabbit, it’s painful stuff.

But all of this is the normal aging process, but he’s a healthy aging bunny, just like Joy.

After all, they are doing quite well in terms of long lives where rabbits are concerned – him being 10 and Joy 12. The vets always tell me I must be doing something right since they don’t see that that much. 8 – 12 in optimal conditions is their life span, but that doesn’t happen much since rabbits require specific care and diligence. The doctor in Durango told me the longest living bunny he’d seen was 18….so anything is possible.

Anyway, the doctor didn’t feel the need for any concern at this time with the sneezing, as there isn’t indication of anything he can find and since his behavior hasn’t changed and his eating and eliminating is all good and hasn’t changed, then there’s no cause for alarm.

The rabbit’s digestion, GI tract, and eating is the most important aspect to their health.

So he’s thinking it could be that he developed allergies from sensitivities (I’d mentioned that I started to notice that when I put him in his hay to eat he would sneeze right away, then that continued to increase into big sneezing attacks at any time) and that there may have possibly been a defective batch of hay with mold, which happens.

Then, being sensitive, like mom, he was affected and could have developed a mild case of pneumonia from that with his immune system down and inflamed. That would indicate why his week of meds took care of the pneumonia and cleared his lungs, but that he is still sneezing and can get nasal. But he has no discharge from the eyes, nose, or ears, so none of the things like Pasteurella were affecting him.

So, he suggested I do a thorough cleaning of everything – bedding, litter box, get rid of the hay and start a new hay bag, give everything a big spring cleaning and see if it goes away, which could take a couple of weeks.

He said he could give me antibiotics if that makes me feel better, but he didn’t suggest it, as it isn’t the best to give them, and I agreed I’d rather not go that route and see if he just gets over it with the changes.

He hadn’t gotten worse, so that was good. And yet he hadn’t fully gotten better. It was the lingering that I didn’t want to chance since rabbits are so fragile and respiratory things can be fatal.

So I did the big cleaning and that has seemed to have hugely shifted things for him.

I have only heard a tiny sneeze here and there and one sneeze attack, but overall it’s continued to diminish and like the doctor said, it could take a couple of weeks.

Or, he may have developed an allergy in general to hay, which I will monitor, and then other protocol would need to be tried like moistening or steaming his hay a bit to get rid of the dryness. Hopefully that won’t be necessary, as right now he’s doing better, but if I don’t see the sneezing completely dissipate, I’ll definitely try a different brand of hay, then go to more drastic things like the steaming possibility.

Hay is the most important part of the rabbit’s diet, so it can’t be eliminated.

In the interim I had started him back up on his Echinacea and turmeric and adding in the stuff for his joints the doctor gave me. And of course lots of Reiki and love.

I’ll keep you posted on how things evolve.

I feel much better knowing that he got through the pneumonia and that he may just be sensitive like mom with allergies to odd things.

I’ll keep monitoring him and Joy, as I do. I may end up with two blind aging, sensitive bunnies and hopefully they just continue to age gracefully.

I’ve joked, but it’s true….it’s a full time bunny elderly home here. As I’ve mentioned before, it is a total commitment to caring for and making an animal companion part of your family.

What does that look like here?

Every other day changing all the floor bedding with two loads of laundry, litter box and water/goji changing daily, three different feedings a day, meds and holistic things twice a day for both, constant cleaning throughout the day and checking on them, moving Cosmo to his food and water throughout the day and feeding him his cecotropes, bathing and drying him once day, therapy for his legs, and 2-3 checks every night to help get Cosmo to his food, water and feed him his cecotropes.

I do it all with love and no regrets or complaining.

All I desire for both of them is just that…peace as they age normally without major challenges. I often intend and ask that when their time is here that they just fall asleep, but it is not up to us how things will evolve, as nature has its process and there is a natural cycle to all things, as well as purpose soulfully chosen.

That was very clear the day before I took Cosmo to the vet and we experienced both the most magickal time with rabbits out on our hike AND the most traumatizing.

It reiterated that as hard as we try, there just are things and reasons beyond our comprehension that simply are part of those cycles and while we may want to intervene, judge them, and have attachments to desired outcomes, there is divine perfection that will always take place despite all efforts otherwise.

Cosmo’s path is unknown and when and where that leads will never be expected, although can be supported.

Right now is all there is and the choice of how to perceive each moment with fight or unconditional compassion.

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This was reflected in our experience that day where we saw the most rabbits ever.

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They were not scared, just hanging out, running around playing, and exhibiting such life, joy, and vibrancy. There were even two at once, reminding me of Joy and Cosmo, that were jumping and playing together.

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And then on our drive out of the park – Black Canyon of the Gunnison – the opposite of the spectrum took place.

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I was looking at something in my lap at the time so I didn’t see anything until after, but our car suddenly swerved like crazy and when I looked up, we were nearly off the road. Apparently a rabbit had run out on the road and Dave tried his hardest to avoid it. I glanced in my rear view mirror of the passenger side and saw it laying in the road. I covered my eyes in tears and felt the pain of the impact, as if it were my own.

Dave drove back to see if there was anything we could do, but it was too late. I couldn’t bring myself to look, as I felt I’d seen it already within that intense feeling that came over me.

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It was traumatizing, as I said, for both of us and we drove home in silence after I assured Dave it was not his fault…me with silent tears streaming down, sending the rabbit Reiki for peace and asking Nestor to see it home, while also understanding the mystery that is always divinely unfolding.

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I reflected a long time on all of the meanings of this and came up with many messages, including how seeing all of the rabbits and the full circle experience with them mirrored the exact timing of a big commitment to a path and a change implemented directly in connection with this in my life that needed a deeper knowing in order to move forward.

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But one of those messages was also just as I shared earlier.

That the nature of things is life and death. There are endings and beginnings to all things and this is the natural law and cycle.

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While we can do everything in our power to try to avoid something, there is simply a flow…a dance…of consciousness that knows better.

This sweet rabbit who moved on was helping me/us to reach deeper and work through more acceptance of the inevitable.

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All I can do is offer my love and devoted care to seeing that my little ones have all that they could possibly have to help their journey in the way that is theirs to choose.

The rest is out of my hands and as it is meant to be.

I will give my all to make that as harmonious as possible in all ways, including through being there for them, rather than thinking only of my own emotional needs.

They will be able to make those choices more clearly without my interference.

And while that doesn’t mean I won’t have feelings and move through what ever comes up, it does mean that I can release them more freely in a way that celebrates the process of just being and a natural cycle moving through.

Interestingly, last night I had what seems to be a linked dream.

In it, my last parakeet I had while living in Sedona back in my mid twenties came to me.

I haven’t had any messages from her since her passing.

She was pure white with aqua patches at both sides of her cheeks – beautifully unmistakable.

Her name was Iris – from Greek mythology – goddess of the rainbow and messenger of the gods.

And in the my dream she was in fact coming to me with a message from beyond.

She morphed back and forth between her little parakeet form and a large white cockatoo-like bird, which felt like another version of her embodiment when she has been with me in other times.

She showed me a tiny terrarium that had some faery flowers in it and what seemed like ashes of both her and Nestor in it or perhaps just simply their essence – like a sacred mini vessel that was very alive and in this time capsule in the etheric realm that carried their essence eternally.

She then spoke to me telepathically and said something to the effect of, “it’s time to let it all go now” and I knew she was both literally referring to the ashes of Nestor that I have and all that they represent, but also symbolically saying to release all of the limiting versions of life that humans hold.

I woke knowing that there was even greater depth to her appearance and message, much of it rooting in the subconscious, but still integrating.

And I knew that Nestor’s ashes would be leaving me, as I had felt they would except for the little bit in my tiny pendant bottle of emerald green heart chakra glass, for now…almost like that tiny terrarium in the dream.

And yet, at some point it may all go, as like all of life and all consciousness, they are within me/us – no separation and no loss…just eternal being.

Iris came with her message from the beyond, to help me move through another layer of understanding the ancient limitless soul and the true bond that lives on timelessly.

Both she and the rabbit that moved on that day on our drive back from seeing the frolicking rabbits, were helping with this bigger picture I’ve been focused on and that would be key to my writing that has been evolving.

A long way to share this beautiful day of celebration and reverence for Cosmo and all that he embodies.

And yet it is all tied together.

Today I celebrate his life and natural cycles.

I celebrate his strong and loving spirit that keeps him going despite all odds.

I celebrate his eternal being and presence, and the boundless stream of love that runs through us now and always.

I celebrate his soul path and the choices he makes.

I celebrate our union, his bond with Joy, and the love he not only gives all of us, but that he has received like never before because of the journey he’s chosen.

You continue to teach me so much in every way, but especially about living without limits, as although your body is small, fragile, and special, you continue to fulfill your path, greet each day with open arms, make the impossible possible, and give love in unlimited abundance.

No matter where your path leads our hearts will be the bridge.

I love you Cosmo and am grateful your choices included a dance with me.

I will always be right HERE with you.

 

One Step Closer…


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Update on the little ones:

As you can see, we have graduated to removing the second pen barrier that was keeping Joy and Cosmo (aka Blizzy) unable to have direct contact.

If you remember, I had to devise a way to separate the two of them enough so they couldn’t touch each other, since Joy was very aggressive at first charging at the pen, biting, and grunting. So, I put a second pen around it, which enabled them to see and smell each other, but did not allow direct contact.

This has been for two weeks, but I removed the second barrier Sunday night and I’m happy to report, all is well!

Joy over time has become balanced and more relaxed, so I figured it was time to test things out officially. And I couldn’t be more proud of her. She remains calm and merely sniffs, as they touch noses. Although she has heightened senses of alertness at times, there is no grunting, charging, biting, or any signs of aggressive behavior.

Right now they are both sleeping as I write this, with Joy right up against the pen, much like in this photo, and Cosmo where you see him in the photo, but fast asleep.

It’s wonderful to see them right up next to each other in peace throughout the day without any issues.

Knowing all that I do about Joy and her sensitivities, as well as her fears, this is SO amazing and courageous of her.

Yes, I’m a happy mom and I’m feeling good about the next steps to come, which include some neutral zone bonding, face to face.

Btw, Cosmo is doing really well. He just had a check up today and he’s maintaining his weight, which is great, some muscle improvement was evident in his legs, the sharp points on his teeth are gone (which was due to the wrong diet he had previous to coming to me), we had all the mottled, matted, knotted hair on his side and rump shaved to start fresh (it had gotten this way from not being tended to with regular cleaning and keeping him dry and sanitary, previous to coming to me), we have some new leg therapy extension exercises to implement, we are decreasing his meds, and he will begin acupuncture next week!

YAY!!

 

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