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The Magick of Astrid Begins


Astrid’s journey continues in such a positive upswing. It appears like she’s crossed one big threshold along with revealing some of her magick, and all in just 3 weeks! At first she was taking her time to really sink into things and feel safe, as well as like she could trust the situation and us. It had its ups and downs that I knew to be patient and consistent with. I figured this could take much longer, but after the first 2 weeks, she was really making some leaps and hops. Of course, consistency will need to be continued to ensure these new behaviors become embodied fully as her natural way of being, but I’ll share more about these in the rest of this blog. Nonetheless, let’s just say I’m one happy mom.

It’s understandable, given her background and conditioning that she would have the challenges she does, and also that they not only would take time to work through, but could also crop up unexpectedly just as triggers can challenge all of us until we’ve worked through the core stuff deeply and fully.

Anyway, I had decided to get Astrid her own crystal – well actually all of my crystals are hers of course, but I wanted a special one to have as hers and that I felt would be supportive for this journey. I haven’t myself been attracted to getting a Rose Quartz, but recently had felt it in my energetic field. And then one happened my way via an online auction where I won the bidding and snatched up a beautiful very pink Rose Quartz Cathedral Tower (with yellow/gold inclusions) for a 1/4 of its value! And hence, Miss Astrid worked her energies to have this beauty.

Shortly after, another Cathedral Tower found its way to me, via the same route, where I won a bid at even a bit less than a quarter of its value and got a gorgeous blue Dendritic Opal for her as well (a new find for me and attraction, which I know was about Astrid)…it’s still on its way to us, but both it and the Rose Quartz energies feel perfect for her and in assisting her with her healing and opening journey.

The Rose Quartz will infuse her and her space with Universal and unconditional love, self love, motherly and nurturing love, purification and opening of the heart, restoration of trust and harmony, deep inner healing, peace, calmness and reassurance, comforting with grief, cleansing of negative/triggering/challenging energies, and graceful energy of the Heart Chakra.

While the Dendritic Opal (sometimes referred to as Merlinite) on its way (I’ll post photos when it’s here and after she’s interacted with it) connects to all of the Chakras, its energetic emphasis and strongest resonance will be with the color of the Chakra its base color reflects. In this case the beautiful Blue will connect with the Throat and the darker areas with the Third Eye. It works a lot too with the Solar Plexus personal power energy and creativity stemming from this point of focus.

It will also focus energies on spiritual growth, conscious awareness, clarity into her actions, and brings balance into her life and balance of the feminine and masculine energies within, as a stone of harmony. It helps with discernment and acceptance, being non-judgmental,

It attracts powerful magick and good luck, stimulates deep intuition, psychic knowing, and contact with guides and teachers in the higher realms, as well as alchemists and wizards.

Dendrite means darker tree-like inclusions in the milky white areas and other areas of the Opal, which invokes strong shamanic vibes, allows access to the energy of the natural work and communication with Elementals, takes you to higher realms and deepest, darker parts and inner states (able to understand them) to allow Nature to unfold within.

It is a stone of duality, which can act as both a stone of the light AND allows the shadow and “dark nights of the soul” aspects of your higher self to come forth for transmutation.

It’s great for automatic writing too, so I’m guessing between Astrid and I, and this stone, we’ll be able to channel some interesting stuff for my book’s completion. So, yes, it seems these new stones are great for us both. She knows what to draw in and what would be best for us both, and I’m simply her channel and conduit to help bring her manifestations into being.

They definitely feel to be perfect for Astrid’s evolution and blossoming, supporting her into her full magickal self.

And this was reiterated when I placed the Rose Quartz in front of her the first time and watched her connecting with it, as seen in these photos.

Then three mornings ago I found her on top of the chest that sits by her stuff and that holds my Tarot decks and other magickal things. It also happens to be the resting place of the Rose Quartz, as I wanted it to be near her area where she could see and connect with it, but also receive its energy over her realm. In order to get to it she needs to jump over her bowls or over a very high litter box. Either way, she did somehow, and I then saw her circle around the Rose Quartz for a bit with her body and nudge it with her nose before jumping back down again. (Wish I’d gotten photos, but I had just been woken up and was too involved in watching her to think of running to get my camera)

Right after that she was completely amped up. She began racing around like crazing, running, jumping, and becoming rambunctious in a fun loving way. I heard her run into the second bathroom and knocked over the garbage can. Then she was back in our room and started digging like crazy in her litter box – something she was doing for the first time so vigorously, and started throwing all her hay out and all over and rearranging everything. LOL!

This was the mess I caught her in and she seemed to be giggling at me and with a sneaky little “uh oh!” followed by a “hehe!”

These are the photos I caught of her and she got all cutesy with her body and head down low to ground and butt up, as if she was a puppy dog that would be wagging her tail with delight. Too cute!

She was giddy for head rubs and just giddy in general. I then went back to bed after giving her some greens since I was awake now. And when I woke later, she was still all excited and when approached by Dave she did a big bunny hop with glee.

This was all after about a week of having gone through transformations already with no longer charging, grunting, and attacking at every little thing. Only the cat lunges and chasing them off continues, and being on alert and startled by odd or sudden noises and movements, but any time I approach her or do things I did before like cleaning and feeding her, she would just come to me and put her head out wanting to be pet and would immediately get comfortable and enjoy some good long rubs and back massages. She would run to me, in fact, when ever I was near, nose me, and be inquisitive. She used to knock the bowl of pellets out of my hand with a grunt or the measuring spoon I use to give her just the right amount, but now she’s good with it all and isn’t in defensive mode.

However, she is still the little power bunny guardian and Queen of the realm here and although Boojum, our male cat, persists in his hopes to be buddies with her like he felt he was with Joy 🙂 she is keeping him at bay and working her boundaries. Astrid isn’t so sure yet, as he’ll definitely have to earn her trust and still, I sense she will be helping to keep him in line by setting the rules and boundaries for him to honor or be met with her energy that seems quite scary to both him and Sweet Pea, our female cat. Both cats seem very curious about her and are found often just watching her constantly, yet if they try to do anything she’s not comfortable with, you’ll find a cat sent off running fast!

Boojum doesn’t give up though and constantly sits near, watching and waiting. This was a capture from a few mornings ago of Astrid letting him hang out a little bit, at a distance, but as you can see she was on patrol alert.

That said, she is starting to get used to knowing I won’t hurt her (this is from her past conditioning as a bunny in this life and not as the spirit she really is), as she likely had experienced much of both directly and indirectly in her past. She also lets me pick her up while just sitting there letting me. No trying to get away or wiggle, which if I had experienced would have halted me from continuing further.

And little by little her magickal self has begun to be less and less hidden, but more apparent, not to mention her similarities to my dear Nestor are starting to reveal themselves more. Astrid (or Astie as I lovingly call her) definitely feels like a very close comrade to Nestie – and when I say that I mean in the Cosmic sense beyond this realm and shared missions, not just as rabbit.

I’m sure I’ll learn more about the connection and her story in general, as things evolve. Right now, I’m letting it happen organically and naturally, rather than even inquiring.

She definitely does things by the beat of her own drum and in her own timing, which will not be dictated by anyone or anything, except her. Although, will continue to mirror me.

I also just received a cute, new bunny house and bed I purchased for her to make her space and realm special and magickal. I haven’t put them together yet, but will share them and hopefully some cute photos of her with them when I do.

And, like with all of my loves – Nestor, Joy, Cosmo, and Gaia, I immediately put out intention of drawing in the perfect carved bunny stone that matched her essence and would also be of her energy. I always get a small carved stone/crystal rabbit or tortoise to represent each of them. The reason I do so is multi-purpose in serving as stand-ins for them when I do energy work, Reiki Healing Attunements, or sacred ceremony of any sort so they can join me (I like tangible along with etheric energies present), to bring with me when I travel (especially when I’ve been to sacred spots and vortexes across the globe to do healing work), to carry with me if I want a physical sense of them where ever I go, and to be with me when their physical presence is actually gone, as well as to sit on my night stand by my head as I dream at night.

Anyway, I was led to a lovely Snowflake Obsidian rabbit carving that not only looks like her form, but really feels energetically aligned for her as well.

This stone is good for balancing of body, mind, and spirit during changes, is calming and soothing, supports transformation in general, purification, manifestation, fulfillment, psychic abilities, teaches the value of mistakes and successes, is a stone of purity, helps release stressful mental patterns, promotes calmness, inner centering and focus during any chaotic situations, helps remove and cleanse harmful energies and keeps you rooted as a protective and grounding stone, is good for healing and releasing energy blockages by bringing truths to surface (this is due to its volcanic origin that draws things out), and supports past life work and healing of old karmic patterns. It connects to the Root Chakra and to the sign of Virgo, which synchronously Astrid is by birthday. I didn’t know of the stone’s connection to Virgo until after it arrived home.

I just love this rabbit carving.

Astrid seemed pleased when I presented it to her, as I like them to enchant the stones with their energy, which she did.

So more and more I am seeing how she loves crystals, too, and has an affinity to working with them. In many ways I feel that I will be supporting her sense of safety to bring out her “already” gifts, rather than teaching her things. Not to say I won’t help her with processes, but my sense is she knows how to do a lot of energy work and magick on her own, will help remind me of my own gifts, and be a conduit for me to connect with the other realms, as well as to access the unknown magick within for working greater alchemy.

Just this past Tuesday she also revealed some other cool stuff. I had a phone call with my best guy friend that day whom I’ve known for years and lifetimes. We had several years of separation and going different ways, but had reconnected the last year and have picked up again in a new and beautiful way.

I was sitting on the floor while talking to him on the phone and was sharing about Astrid and how she came to me, her journey so far, and our connection. Astrid was under the bed, but she knew I was talking about her and felt the energy of the conversation and who I was talking to – recognizing our connection.

She normally doesn’t come out from under the bed, as this is her nap and personal integration time of the day, but out she came, wiggling her way to me with a lot of energy and curiosity. She came to me, nosed me, got on her hind legs and stretched her front paws up on my thigh and reached head up toward me/the phone. She stayed doing this and circling around on my left side to let me know she knew and to let me know of her telepathic powers and acknowledgment of my friend Mykal and our connection.

I immediately told Mykal about this and got chills because it reminded me of Nestor and how she was my personal gauge of people.

If Nestor liked someone she would go to them when they entered her or my space and let them pet her. If she didn’t like someone she would not come out, act up, or even pee on them (she did this to an ex-boyfriend of mine both when he held her and when I took her overnight to his place – peeing in several corners of his home). This peeing behavior was not normal because she was very good at cleanliness and going in her litter box. It was deliberate in saying she did not approve.

But the first time Mykal came over to meet Nestor and see my place, the second I opened the door to him Nestor ran to the door to greet him. I instantly knew she knew him and the connection between us all. She did this to another dear soul from a past Egyptian experience as well, whom she and I were both connected to.

Interestingly, Joy did this once too, nipping an ex of mine when he came to visit after I’d been challenged in leaving him. That was confirmation.

And now, Astrid was doing the same through the energy of the phone call with Mykal.

Mykal and I both were heart warmed by her doing this. And as soon as I acknowledged her she then went back under the bed. She simply wanted me to know of her magickal powers, telepathic abilities, soul recognition, and how I can be sure she’ll help me to know of energies that come into our space and what and who aligns or not.

My powerful little guardian and magick worker.

And speaking of magick, yesterday evening as I was connecting with her and gently petting her head and back I saw something very enchanting.

Each time my hand did a full swoop from her third eye, crown, and then the rest of the length down her spine and chakra column, I saw a thick gold filament of energy appear in her auric field after finishing to the end of her root chakra. It kept showing up each time my hand completed traveling through her chakras.

Alchemy is at work between us and this incredible Cosmic magician in rabbit form is making herself known to me with each day of trust and love that passes.

More chills as I write this.

How deeply honored and blessed I feel that she chose me. I am committed to helping to bring her magick to the world in the way she has come to share it.

How grateful I am to Marcy of SaveABunny and Zephyr who led me to her.

And how grateful I am that I can SEE her and so much more that I once didn’t understand fully when my journey first began with my rabbit companions.

I mentioned before how a lot of people have said how Astrid’s hair and my own match in color and that we look like we were meant to be together.

I also had two people tell me “she looks like you!” Both meaning in it more than a physical way, they explained.

Well, this Thursday I saw my hair stylist to get a freshening up on my own Cosmic hair that I had done before Astrid came into my life (unknowingly), and she asked me about my rabbit, as she knows my whole story and how connected I am with them and knew I would be adopting one soon (although at the time she was told about Zephyr).

She asked to see a photo of Astrid and immediately said, “oh my gosh, she looks like you!” She said she didn’t mean it to be about her hair although was similar too, but that if she could imagine me with a rabbit, Astrid was it – she was my reflection.

I got more chills of acknowledgment and feelings of myself having crossed a threshold just like Astrid. Each of my bunny loves have mirrored my journey and aspects of me. And as I’ve continued to step more and more into my essence, alignment is being revealed directly.

The new journey has been ignited and she and I are bonded in heart, spirit, body, and mind.

Astrid Update, Special Needs & Rabbit Care


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At just over two weeks, Astrid continues to adjust and settle in to her new home here with us. The journey continues to be one of patience, tuning in, and gauging where she’s at and what she’s ready for. As mentioned, although she is not physically challenged like Cosmo was, she is still quite challenged with special needs that call for an internal massaging of her emotions, conditioned behaviors, and adopted patterns that have been cultivated by her past. It is a tough journey, as any time I see things pop up I can feel where it is coming from, which is saddening, and the only way through it is to love her even more, not take it personally, and help to re-establish new patterns that support her into her more natural essence behind all of this.

Time, heart, and intuitive investment is necessary to help her through it all. And it may take months, a year….I don’t know. It could also happen more quickly, but I have no expectations or goals to meet, other than to do my best. I remember that it took 6 months to bond Joy and Cosmo, but it DID happen. And a daily investment of love, nurturing, and physical devotion also helped Cosmo to get stronger as well.

At the same time, Astrid is naturally an extremely sensitive empath, as well as highly attuned to energy and the frequencies she picks up all around her, seen and unseen.

Last night I watched these two moths resting on the outside of the window right above her sanctuary area of our bedroom. She was sitting under the window and facing toward me, however it was incredible to see how she could pick up the vibrations of their wings through the thick glass and outside in the dark – it was dimly lit inside the house too. One moth started to slowly move from one spot to another on the window, gently fluttering its wings and I watched, as one of Astrid’s ears slowly started following the flow of its flight pattern by moving in the same direction as the moth.

Vibrational resonance is her gift, but can also be her challenge, as she will mirror and take on whatever is around her.

That said, she also is blessed with an incredible strength and power that has seen her through it all and helped her to endure the pains and traumas, as well as supported her to thrive, and ultimately, to manifest a way out of what could have been her end many times.

I took Astrid in for her first wellness appointment on Monday to establish getting a handle on her physical health, since there are many unseens with rabbits.

It’s important to keep on top of your animal companion’s health, especially where rabbits are concerned because many things go unnoticed with them and if caught early can help avoid major challenges later. It’s also key to be very present and aware with them, noticing any little shifts in behavior, eating, and eliminating. Often times challenges are due to teeth issues so make sure to get them checked regularly.

But in general, check in and learn to understand and communicate with your sweet ones, as you will learn so much and create a stronger bond for overall well being and spiritual evolution and connection. They have so much to teach and so much they want to help us with, just as much as we can help them to also come into their fullness.

Astrid came away from her appointment with flying colors. The sweet, gentle, and incredibly knowledgable vet – I just love her and all of my bunnies have at one time or another been to her – said she was in wonderful health, perfect, healthy weight for her at 6 pounds 12 ounces, and in general she said I’d chosen well.

I feel that was a mutual thing however, and in this case since Astrid was a surprise, I feel this was Cosmically written in the stars for us and she’d chosen me for reasons I have yet to see.

The vet is exceptional at seeing and understanding the needs of rabbits and made note of very tiny points on her right bottom teeth that we’ll just want to keep an eye on. She has no problems, nor may this ever become a problem, but for precaution we will have her rechecked in 3 months instead of the normal 6 months to ensure nothing starts developing. Being proactive is important where bunny teeth are concerned. Likely she’ll wear them down on her own with continued good eating, but I like knowing that my vet is on top of things, as Astrid’s health and well being is my priority as her mom and guardian.

And good eating involves feeding them the right things that are healthiest for their sensitive digestive systems and healthy for strong teeth and helping to keep these always-growing-teeth naturally filed down.

I only give my sweet ones the very best. If it’s something I wouldn’t eat then they don’t get it either.

So that includes a variety of organic greens (cilantro, parsley, dandelion greens, carrot tops, spring mix, small amounts of kale, etc.) and small bites of fruit like strawberry or apple now and then and bits of carrot, the healthiest 2nd cut timothy hay, timothy pellets (in small measured quantity – 1 -2 tablespoons tops), drops of goji juice in their water, herbal blends of superfoods for general health and immune support (an echinacea blend and a calendula, chamomile, dandelion leaf, dandelion root, elder flower, flaxseed powder, goldenrod, hawthorn leaf, hibiscus flower, lavender, milk thistle powder, nettle, oat groats, green oat tops, plantain, raspberry leaf, red clover flower, rosehips, rose petals, strawberry leaf vita-licious blend I give her), and small (because you don’t want to overdue the sugar) natural, untreated pine cones (like these pictured with Astrid below) coated in healthy botanicals that support their natural foraging instincts.

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I also provide a variety of chewy balls and twists of natural things like meadow, maize, willow and even mini logs/bits of tree to work those teeth and feel like they’re out in the fields and forests.

Here you see Astrid enjoying her cherry hibiscus pine cone (you can actually see her tongue out licking her lips in the photo below). There’s also a blueberry parsley pine cone as well.

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She’s so good at grazing and not inhaling her food all at once like my other bunnies would. They’d be crazed when I brought stuff out and it would be gone quickly.

Astrid is much more calm about food and takes her time, but still loves her food. This pine cone she just nibbles on each day… So I don’t need to worry about her over doing things.

It makes me happy I can provide her with good things to make up for never having a forever home and all the past torment, pain, and grief I know she’s seen and experienced.

I will continue to work with her to help her through her challenges, while also listening to what she has to share through them about herself and for me too.

She has already given me a big piece of wisdom, which I shared at the end of my last blog post, but I know this will only continue to increase the more time we spend together.

I have loved seeing her relax into things here and watching her enjoying her freedom as she runs and jumps around like crazy. 

On her good days she runs to me when I come near to say hi and nudge me with her nose. She’ll follow me and there are little to no grunts or attacks that take place.

But that doesn’t mean that is gone, as with everything, it’s all a process and while she has great days and moments, she’ll have the past creep up unexpectedly. Any little shift can result in a shift in her as well, which then takes time to rebalance again.

She also is very sensitive to too much energy around and will mostly stay in the second bedroom or under the bed there if there is too much going on, like having guests over. Then the second they leave she comes out. 

She can’t take having too much all at once and definitely needs to be introduced to energies and other people slowly, as well as one at a time. Otherwise, her fight mode kicks in high gear. One reason why she’s so good at keeping the cats at bay, even if they are just being curious. Her attack mode is nothing to play around with!

She’s quite the guardian bunny.

But she truly thrives in and needs a peace filled environment and to be approached with utter purity of heart to help engage her to meet that with hers.

She is a special one and has also been helping me to work through more emotions around my bunny loves that have been cropping up since her arrival, including around Zephyr/Big Sur and my convictions around my path.

I love how we mirror each other and once again she shows me that the alchemy of togetherness with my rabbit familiars is more potent than me alone.

The Journey Begins with Ups & Downs, but Always Love


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Astrid has been settling in while mom continues to make her feel comfy, loved, and surrounded in bunny magick fitting of this Faery bunny. She’s a powerful girl, whose power I have yet to fully know, but also has Earthly challenges I’ll be continuing to assist her with, as she helps me too. I’ve received so many sweet messages from everyone about Astrid, including how beautiful she is and how her power just jumps through the photos I share in huge ways – in some cases feeling struck by her energy with a “wow” effect. I’ve also really enjoyed the reflections of so many saying that she and I look alike and how our hair matches, all of which reiterate to me that she was meant to be here and indeed is my familiar. Thank you to everyone for your loving thoughts and messages.

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I will continue to update you on her and our journey, which is the purpose of this post to share some photos of how she is adjusting to her new surroundings. I still have some sweet and magickal things on their way, which I ordered for her.

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I want Astrid to feel like the Queen that she is and to know she is loved, safe, and recognized for the enchanted and cosmic soul she embodies. I love creating a Faery bunny realm for her and since our kitty babies have basically the whole house (you know cats), it’s nice to know she has her little sanctuary that is her own.

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In the meantime, I continue to patiently work with her to help her day-by-day to move through the past that has created the fight mode she has. I will continue to tune in to get more of her story and background as to why she is so easily startled by everything, feels threatened and defensive, and what happened to create that attack mode.

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Some of it I sense already in the scary things she’s experienced and seen happen to animals around her in one of the horrible shelters she was held in – Solona County Animal Care. I feel she holds pain and grief, as a healer/sensitive, for what the others went through and that weren’t as lucky as she was. She developed defense mechanisms and her power, magickal energy, strength, and bravery fought her way through things that others weren’t so lucky to get away from or knew how to cope with.

It pains me greatly to feel all the horrible things that she and the others have been through. I’m so grateful and lucky she was removed from there and got away from all of it, including where she originally came from and what was in store for her, as some of the way she is also is from how she was raised and what she was raised for.

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But of course, some of this “sensitivity” is also about her healing abilities and gifts in being such a mirror and reflection to our own vibrations and making us aware of being present and acknowledging of our shadow aspects – she isn’t a dark colored bunny for no reason. 😉

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It also served her in weeding out potential adopters because no one could “see” past her behavior initially and really “see” her. Nor did anyone want to take the time to work with her and understand the magick and power beneath it all, just waiting to be supported and recognized.

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What a patient girl she was waiting nearly 2 1/2 years for that alignment to happen. I’m so grateful she chose me and that Marcy at SaveABunny had the intuition to connect us, feeling we would be perfect for each other and a good match.

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We are definitely equals and so I’m devoted to assist her with the Earthly stuff she went through so that she can purely focus on shining her amazingness.

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She goes through ups and downs, has spent a lot of time processing and integrating the journey to get here and her new home, has breakthroughs then set backs….but it’s part of the process of which I’m VERY aware of.

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I just keep loving her through it and both giving her the space she needs, but also helping her to rise above things by not letting her push me away. I know that we must meet as equals in our power and this will assist the alchemy for her healing. So I rise to the occasion too.

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She got a visit from her grandma and grandpa on Sunday – my mom and dad – which didn’t go so well and it was an off day for her, which increased into her worst day so far and kept her hiding in our second bedroom all day and night and in super attack mode. I’m glad she got to meet them and know she has an extended family here full of love for her, but also learned that she really needs extreme easing into everything and too much new, energies, and people can be compounding for her…so we’ll take things slower and not introduce her to too much all at once.

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Luckily, with the love and patience provided, she came out and has had two really good days since with a complete turn around. So I think she really is learning to process and with the communication I share with her, she really understands and is trying her best to move through with my encouragement.

I just love seeing her relaxed and enjoying herself, displaying pure joy when she races around from room to room with exuberant energy and jumps and twists in the air doing her binkies, which says to me she’s one happy, grateful bunny and is loving her freedom and all the nurturing. (I do spoil her with only the best in bunny food, supplies, and healthy yums – can do a separate post on the goodness she receives). It warms my heart.

I will not give up on her, as I have never done so with any of my babies. It took me six months to bond Joy and Cosmo, but boy was that ever worth the patience and work to help Joy through her own defenses she had, as they then became inseparable and soulmates. The best thing that ever happened to both of them. And I never gave up on Cosmo with his condition either, nor did I force Nestor out of her independent mode. I learned what they each needed and desired to be who they really are and supported that.

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I love these photos that show how Astrid is following in Joy’s footsteps (they both were adopted from SaveABunny) as a little portal/doorway guardian.

 

I’ll continue doing so with Astrid and fully believe that together we can achieve anything. I’m grateful that she chose me and grateful for Zephyr and Marcy who connected us and made our partnership and bond possible. I know we are both in for a lot of surprises along the way and a lot of adventures yet to have together. For now we take each day as it comes and I’ll continue showering her with the love she deserves so that she knows she has a forever, safe, and nurturing home that she can blossom in and where we can cultivate a new journey together.

 

 

Astrid Says its Magick Crystal Wand Time Again ~ Taking Only 5 More Commissions


Twin Seer Bridge Weaver Wand (1)It’s Magick Crystal Wand time again in more focused mode – that’s the message loud and clear from Astrid. She is merging into her role beautifully, just as thought, and alongside her magickal and Cosmic timings of entering my life on Summer Solstice and communicating her name on the New Moon Supermoon in Cancer, she’s picking right up where Nestor especially, but Joy and Cosmo too, left off in giving me directives with my work she’ll be partnering in. Yesterday I found and heard her gnawing on my magickal wood pieces that are meant to be channeled into wands, scepters, and staves, and immediately got her message she was ready to help and telling me it was time to get fully back into it.

Luckily she only gnawed on the ones for me and where I’ll be wrapping with vegan leather, but she was definitely in tune with me, as the last couple of days while I’ve been getting organized and settled to open the space back again for this, I’ve been saying to myself “it’s time to create!”

She’s so in tune, as her behavior was an immediate reiterating message and that she agrees and is ready too! So cute!!

And so like Nestor who always was a part of the paintings and creations I was involved in. She would hang out with me while painting and when I was done she would sign the right corner along with me by placing her teeth marks there. 🙂 Joy also loved our painting time and even got into the paint literally to help out. Hehe!! So Astrid seems to be marking the wood with her energy signature too, along with letting me know to “hop to it!”

I’ve been away so much and in between trips only had time to begin the new commissions because of so much transitioning with the travels, personal business Dave and I have been managing, and then Astrid came and there’s been integration time with that, so I plan to now immerse fully back into completing the ones I started and can begin any new commissions as well.

That said, since I have a lot already on my plate between the current commissions and finalizing my book, I will only be able to take a very limited amount of new commissions for the Magick Crystal Wands.

Likely about 3 to perhaps 5 more at the most at this time and then I may need to take a break until I feel caught up.

Thank you all for your patience and I can’t wait to immerse in the energy of these wands and seeing them into manifestation fully now, especially having my co-creator, Astrid, with me to help out.

So, if you were interested in one of these from before, you may want to jump in here and let me know, as I’m constantly needing to make adjustments and not sure how long I’ll be able to continue offering these.

Here is the link for ordering:

Commission a Magick Crystal Wand

The numbers reflected at the link are not up-to-date, as I haven’t had time to adjust them since I received orders, but they’ll reflect in availability when ordering.

If you have any questions please contact me here: 

Contact Tania

And remember if you spoke to me before about my creating a custom piece for you, please go ahead and place your order at the link above as well for your choice of Magick Crystal Wand. This will get the ball rolling with things.

I can only imagine how potent these will be with Astrid’s help.

The Silver Lining


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I had no idea (at least not mindfully) when I took the only appointment open for a hair transformation this week that it would be in the energy of the approaching Full Moon today, nor did I think about the choice of clothes I wore that day other than wanting my bunny loves with me. I simply felt that this change was essential, as I’d become bored and no longer aligned with the rapid shifts taking place, not to mention was feeling out of sorts with my inside-out essence expression. This Full Moon is in the fire sign of Sagittarius, which happens to rule the Moon in my astrological chart in the house of Pisces (my Sun sign). So there is/was certain to be an intense, very transformative and expansive energy pervading, which the Full Moon would then bring to clarity in order to know which changes and adjustments would best support us in peaceful flow.

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2017 is a year of new beginnings for us all collectively and this shift will entail aligning more than ever with our highest path at this time. This may involve moving through some heavy stuff and “karmic” growth, but will provide deep healing as long as you can continue to see the “silver lining,” keep an open mind, invite new perspectives, and find the joy from the innocence of your inner child’s heart. Truth and freedom play big right now and finding ways to nurture yourself while also committing to more personal responsibility is key. This is a time for really tuning into a mission, dream goal, or heart-focused purpose that truly calls to you while tempering a narrow, but flowing focus to manifest it, so as not to dilute your energy.

With things transforming for me right now, the energy activated in Australia, and new doors about to open, I outgrew any of the changes I had already made, which then had me feeling like I was wearing clothes that didn’t fit, in a metaphorical, but also literal way.

So I have been clearing out and donating clothes, got a few new things, and really, really needed to change my hair even though I just did a little over 4 months ago. I get antsy about stuff if even a little bit feels energetically off and not lining up.

This led me to be even more vulnerable outwardly, which I’m finding no end to, and revealing more of myself without care of what that may seem to others (I have had many looks since the change, when out and about). And so I decided to intensify what has already been happening with my hair much more dramatically and much more “me” feeling with an enhancement to my silver.

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I had tons of silver growing naturally, especially in two stripes near the front that were growing long, areas underneath, and then scattered and glistening throughout. I decided why not just go full on, or “Full Moon,” which got written to a friend by auto correct and felt right on, I guess, since I later received multiple reflections of “Moon essence,” “Moon child,” “Moon shine,” “Moon beam”….

And that then aligned with the Full Moon hot air balloon tank I was wearing with three white Cosmic rabbits flying in it across the Cosmos – representing my dear Nestor, Joy, and Cosmo who have moved on to the Otherworld.

My sweet friend Dawn mentioned something else I hadn’t thought of, that I was aligning with the new bunny (coming in 11 days) love’s Cosmic whiteness, as the magickal White Rabbit embodied. I loved that!

Not to mention prepares for a 10 day energetic cleanse I’m physically doing on Solstice, bunny love’s arrival, and what that portal offers.

Anyway, there’s something more than I can express happening (and it’s collective although I’m experiencing my own version of it) and it seems to be reflecting outside as well, as both yesterday and today have manifested magickal rainbow portals (3 of them!) over Lake Tahoe since I got my hair done Wednesday afternoon. And the weather shifted to this mystical energy from being at the beach just Tuesday (the day before) and sun bathing then and the days before in 70’s very warm weather, to now this mysterious, brisk, winds-of-change, stormy look and feel and dropping to the 50’s overnight.

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Yesterday’s rainbow was a full one directly in front over the lake, which then intensified and started to split at center…..creating almost like two worlds converging. Perhaps another sign of this literally happening with multiple realities and worlds simultaneously existing, yet diverging.

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And this morning’s first rainbow was a partial one, however, it lasted for an hour and a half, dissipating, intensifying, dissipating, intensifying….

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After about a half an hour a full one appeared directly in front again (actually, while I was writing this) and just skimming where lake and bottom of mountains meet, but this one glided across the lake from left to right. Incredible!

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I have been realizing the increased vulnerability I have been cracking open from depths within and how things are just melting away and also melding in that molten love. It’s amazing how deep things run, but not surprising giving the limitlessness of All That Is.

And to me, this silver feels to increase my feelings of fuller, expansive embodiment of me, as well as no longer blending into the world, but fully creating my own Cosmos on Earth – so to speak – increasing my joy and comfortability within my skin here, which has increased over time with changes I’ve been making and things brought to light.

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We all have different ways in which we integrate transformation. I happen to choose and initiate as many as possible lol!

And interestingly, shifting my hair in this way is a process, which has small parts of my hair gold as well – all blending together – cool and warm colors, metallic energies of Sun and Moon. Feels like alchemy to me.

Many Native Americans believe that hair is spirit’s physical manifestation of growth that opens/enhances extrasensory perception and symbolizes connection to all things, as if like tentacles reaching out to the world around us. Cutting hair represents doors closing and heralds new life and doorways, honoring the past while making way for the future.

And that’s always how I approach life….seeing the “silver lining” and believing when no one else does. This is increasing, which is timely with what I’m working on manifesting short and long term for the journey ahead and my heart’s mission. Gonna take everything I have!

So while my threads of silver hair reflect much more than this, too hard to explain all of here, they also seem to bring this into literal light and hence, the “silver lining” mentioned above as an approach that may be helpful for us all, coming full circle.

How might you open more to the possibilities before you? You really do have opportunity to experience life differently, if you really commit to that, no matter what challenges are present. Each pain is a seed wanting to sprout freely without your restraining its growth.

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Tortoise & Baby Bunny Bond


This sweet article from Hilary Hanson came out in The Huffington Post on my birthday, but I didn’t have a chance to post it until now. It seems fitting that an article about a rabbit and a tortoise bonding was shared on a day connected to me, since we all know about my sweet Gaia and bunnies, but most especially the bond Gaia and Joy shared. My sweet friends have been around me so much and so when Dave shared this article with me on my birthday, I had to smile again at their messages of love and divine alignment.

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I hope you enjoy this short, sweet article:

Tortoise Takes In Baby Bunny On Cold Night, Begins Beautiful Friendship

Remembering a Courageous Soul & Messages of Faith on the Eternal Journey


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Tiny Gaia when she first entered my life

The moment you want to give up is when you need to dig as deep as you can to keep believing even more, as you’re so close to breaking through the veils and into the light of your heart.

It’s one of those time cycles where I feel a stronger pull to my cosmic origins, and needing to remind myself of balancing and grounding in order to fully be present in this current Earthly experience. And while feeling these pulls elsewhere, it’s no wonder I’ve also been sharing reverence for my beloved Russian Tortoise, Gaia, whom has been away on mission since the end of April.

She, along with my beautiful, physically departed Nestor, have been heavily on my mind. And I know that they are both cosmic pilgrims engaged in their soul essence journeys of the heart.

gaia outsideI know many of you have followed along with their stories, in particular Gaia’s of recent, and may remember she had for the first time hibernated for a short period this winter, returning auspiciously before the end of Winter, but right at the perfectly timed moment in my life. And then, not long after she had returned, she then disappeared again and has been gone since the end of April, now approaching 5 months and oddly during the dead of a very hot Summer here.

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Gaia checking out my painting Air, as I worked on it in my solarium

I haven’t recently had the sense she is returning, but if she in fact at some point still does, it will be her most surprising and magickal feat to date, which would bring a huge smile to my usually unsurprised self. In the meantime, I have been supporting her energetically in the work she had been called away to do, knowing she is always with me in heart.

But it hasn’t been until recently that I’ve felt the need to honor her more appropriately, especially if she has chosen to move beyond this Earthly realm like Nestor. That’s what it feels like in my heart, and perhaps her original idea of returning has shifted due to my own shifts.

Having gone through what will always be the most heart-wrenching experience of physically losing Nestor in the most dramatic/traumatic of ways at a very challenging soul leap time in my life that nearly took my own breath away, I have gone through the worst and so am able and prepared to handle physical loss, or anything for that matter, with an unconditionally, unattached love and deep honor. Perhaps Gaia chose this way, as mirror to the place I have arrived with this – with no need for closure to the eternal, nor need to physically see and experience that transition from life to afterlife. I am aware that transitions from one dimensional experience to another can be gently chosen, just as much as harshly chosen, depending on what we need to learn and what our attached beliefs are.

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Gaia exploring inside my Amethyst – found her sleeping here several times

I’ve also found it interesting, since both Gaia and Nestor were always not really “all here” when they were, that as such expansively powerful, cosmic beings that they chose these tiny bodies to manifest as. And yet their power was evident, not only in the strength those little bodies physically exhibited, but in their presence and the magickal things they would do each day while with me.

I know part of the reason they came in those bodies, was so that we could be together as we were, and yet as much joy as they brought me in this life, it gives me greater joy to know that they are no longer confined by those bodies in any way and can be the freedom seekers of the Cosmos that they are. Afterall, they spent very little of their time in those bodies, even when they WERE with me, as they were constantly traveling and doing work inter-dimensionally. They remind me of myself and it’s no wonder we have been together across times.

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Gaia and Chuck

Gaia was such a mentor for Joy and the two of them were best friends. Gaia also had the opportunity to connect with Chuck, while he was still alive, and was an avid companion of the ethereal Nestor (also a friend of Chuck’s).

crystalsI found it interesting that on my desk, where I have some of my crystals that support me daily, that the stone statues of Hematite (Nestor) and Rhodonite (Gaia) that I have carried with me on many of my global sacred journeys to have their energy symbolically and physically present where I was doing spiritual work, have always been next to each other on my desk. And the larger Serpentine stone statue of Joy, who is a bit more Earth-bound than they are, (although truly is the embodiment of a bridge between worlds, is a channeler and Crystal worker), is separate, yet connected by the large Cosmic Crystal between them.

And, both Nestor and Gaia are now physically gone, leaving Joy and I together here on this Earth plane.

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Best buddies, Joy and Gaia

Joy is my ever-faithful companion who alerts me to all energetic nuances and presides over our shared domain, as a guardian of the sacred. But over time, even Joy’s presence has shifted, as she used to physically take part in any workshops I taught from home, and now her presence although felt, is no longer there – choosing to remain in my office to support from afar.

Little by little with their support and teaching experiences through them, and as I have shifted into my own empowerment, accessing the connections and communications beyond space and time in a more tangible way, and have released attachments, they have all been able to move into different roles in my life and into their trueness.

The more these transcendent shifts anchor, the more I receive inklings of where my own soul direction is leading and the timeliness of that.

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Gaia inside her house

It’s all a beautiful journey and I’ve been reflecting on all of this, as thoughts and memories of Gaia have been flooding me recently. It’s brought some bitter sweet tears and yet joyous ones in celebration of her eternal expansiveness.

And I felt it time to make a memorial of sorts in her honor, regardless if she did in fact one day, out of the amazing blue, return. I want her to know how much I am eternally grateful for all that she is, and all that she has been and will continue to be in my life. Like all of these precious and astounding souls, she has taught me so much and she has saved my life more than once.

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Gaia’s sanctuary under the Plumeria

I have decided to keep her home outside where it has been, as a memorial for her, and also to mark the area I believe she entered Earth’s core through. As it is there I discovered her last time when she returned. If she does in fact miraculously return, then she will have her home to welcome her. Although I hope if she does, that I will still be here to welcome her. This is part of why I am not feeling her returning. I trust, as always, that she’s tuned into my messages, even though they have a bit of a time lapse where she is. We’ve never not been in sync, so there’s that. 🙂

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Plumeria above Gaia’s house

Interestingly, not too long ago, this area where her house sits that has two Plumeria and one large succulent bush, had completely shifted. The large succulent bush had uprooted itself one night and as it did, had taken down the two Plumeria. I had always reflected on this as a sign of the work she was doing below ground, as well as a mirror of impending change that was to take place and the uprooting in my own life.

Since, the bushes have been replanted and supported, with hopes they would survive, and have. So much so, that the Plumeria are now in full bloom – I just was checking them out this morning when I took these photographs – and I love that they surround Gaia’s house with their fragant beauty.plumeria

The perfect reflection of the joy and grace she brought to my life, this time around, when I was most in need.

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Plumeria symbolism includes natural beauty, charm, grace, new life, new beginnings, creation and recreation, the Sun, perfection of all things as is, dedication, devotion, love, immortality, healing powers, liveliness, life, and birth.

plumeria5I believe these are perfect messages for where ever the new journey ahead may lead. And however that is to take form, I can only trust in the faith and belief that I will have the same kind of courage these amazing souls have graced my life with.

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Three courageous Star Jasmine

I also found three Star Jasmine this morning that had blossomed “out of season”. Jasmine flowers symbolize many things to many different cultures, including love, romance, sensuality, amiability, nobility, grace, and elegance, but more importantly, they hold strong spiritual significance, as a constant symbol of divinity and hope.

These three Jasmine felt like magickal reminders of these three dear and immeasurable souls in my life, as well as embody, to me, the powerful will of the courageous soul that doesn’t accept the boundaries others choose to believe in and is capable of blossoming in the darkness.

Full Moon & the Mayan Moon Goddess – Opening Your Heart Even Wider


On this magickal Sagitarrius Full Moon Lunar Eclipse, I wanted to honor the energies abound. So much is available for the embracing. Don’t forget to review your life – discard, release, and then with abundant love and creative inspiration, dream the new into being. A time for wondrous reflection and illumination. If you thought your heart was open enough, it’s time to open it even more! They say we don’t utilize the full capacity of our brains, but the same holds true for our hearts. Let us not forget this healing jewel we each have access to. At any moment we can choose greater, more compassionate, present, limitless love. And this full moon with its abundant Sagitarrian energy, supports this beautifully.

This eclipse is an opportunity to examine your belief systems (Sagittarius) and keep an open mind to new ideas (Gemini – the sign we’re in this month) that will help you to create new structures (Saturn) for the change and transformation that is to come  (Uranus/Pluto).  Yet your heart must remain open, because the work of the soul (Chiron/Neptune) is not yet complete. So enter into the journey of this eclipse free from fear and with a spirit  of adventure and curiosity and you will be on your way.

I am reminded of the Mayan Moon Goddess, Ix Chel, (synchronously that I have tattooed over my heart chakra on my back due to my Mayan, moon and rabbit connection, amongst other things, and in honor of the partnership with my dear departed bunny, Nestor) as I bask in this abundant, opportunistic energy and all that she embodies. Having Moon in Sagitarrius and being born on a full moon definitely makes today feel extra special for me personally, but collectively it is such a potent time of anchoring in what you desire.

Today, as I focus on a synergy of personal and collective healing and envisioning, creative painting, designing and Reiki, along with some other intentful manifesting, I feel my heart set aglow with her loveliness. Remember to dream bigger than ever before with intent for the highest good.

For those of you not familiar with Ix Chel, here is a description for you.

Ix Chel: The Mayan Moon Goddess or “Lady of the Rainbow.” The Mayans, like Buddhists, associated the moon with rabbits. Ix Chel is a shape-shifter, consorting with the rabbit in
spring, as the rabbit is considered the scribe of the moon calendar. She is often depicted holding a rabbit in her arms, a symbol of her life giving abundance and fertility, whose profile can be seen on the face of the moon. She is the Mayan Goddess of creativity (as inspiration for artists), magic, weaving, health, healing, sexuality, childbirth, and the
energy of all water-our most essential life giving ingredient. The Mayan stepped pyramid is Ix Chel’s mountain where she reigns as the feathered serpent energy of transformation.

Ix Chel Statue Depiction

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