The last time I blogged was nine days ago on Mother’s Day, but feels like lifetimes. Have you also experienced increasingly fuller days? I feel a lot of work is being done 24 hours a day in the seen and unseen realms, with increased dream travels, work, and remote visits, while in the day an upsurge of incredible alignments, connections, synchronicity, and instant manifestation are taking place alongside the day-to-day intentional work. All the while, veils are parting and portals opening, which the Forest Portal here is revealing more and more, and multiple timelines are becoming available to choose between or expand into simultaneously.
Three years ago I made a big life choice that started setting a new spiral in motion with the theme of merging my Earthly and Cosmic selves in a new way. And while choices are presented every day, I continue not to find any wrong choices, but merely choice that if committed to with full intention and heart, will be successful and fulfilling.
Some of this involves exploring and straddling several timelines in order to feel them out before decisions are made, as these days we don’t just jump in anymore without doing full energetic scans and walking in the potentials a bit. This is being in our multi-dimensionality.
You can see in these photos, a portal of multi-dimensional access revealing itself here.
The first photo taken from our back deck captures it to the right of the left tree trunk in the foreground and right of that you can see almost a straight line of glowing light that is actually the lake peeking through the trees and not the sunset. Although, it is in fact the sun’s rays hitting just right on the water. In person the lake and sun were golden, the mountains on the other side of the lake were darker and contrasting, making it very easy to discern. Here you get a sense that something is opening at that horizon level of the lake.
That photo was captured seven days ago and these, below, were captured two days ago of the sun halo above our Forest Portal, mirroring the portal in the forest itself….as above, so below? They both look like eyes or a nucleus of sorts.
In between these days some special and big markers for me have occurred, including Thursday 5/17’s being a shared birthday for three people in my life – my precious Cosmo (who would have been 12 in Earth years), my sweet Australian cousin Nella who turned 71 (you may recall her from my posts last year when I met her and my family in Australia for the first time where we also celebrated my Great Great Uncle’s 102nd birthday and her 70th – synchronously and exactly one year ago), and a dear friend Hillary who turned 35 (you may recall her from our Reiki and Horse Retreat we shared together three years ago) – a pivotal time right before huge shifts took place for me and my path and when the Faeries had reminded me that I can now be the “not of this world” me fully.
Yesterday was the twelve year anniversary of my French Grandmother’s passing (on my mom’s side), which signifies a matriarchal shift of energy and transformational shift of the Divine Feminine in our line of family. So a lot of pivotal energies for me framing this last week or so, coinciding with the Taurus New Moon that really showed in growth potential, as well as asked all of us to Earth ourselves some more in a new way.
The 17th also presented an instant manifestation Dave and I had just put out there involving our shared business, which involved deep explorations into where I wanted to go with things and exploring the infinite possibilities. We’ve had similar choices in the past that took some time to fully feel into, but in the end we have been very pleased with our decisions. So, this was another not to rush into and good we didn’t, as it has given us opportunity to review many possibilities and be open to even more.
So, besides my day-to-day things and working on my book when I can, I’ve mostly been focused on choices that have presented themselves in my life, dancing with the potentials, and exploring the different timelines available. The fun thing to discover is how much more mutable I have become, even beyond my native Pisces chameleon energy I’ve been known for. It is interesting to see how I entertain things I wouldn’t have thought of doing so in the past, as I truly open to my evolution with new perspectives and with the knowing that things don’t define me, but provide me opportunity to do or have more than one thing I may desire in unlimited ways.
I feel we are all straddling these interesting new potentials and that collectively this is an integral time of merging – that balance always ringing is as key.
In between all of this I’ve been remaining very balanced (unlike my past self) and grounding and Earthing quite a bit, as my garden became a focus amidst this pivotal decision time over the last week.
I’ve added a few new plants to my very lush Garden Tower, re-engineered the netting so that I no longer need the rabbit pen around it by using left over pavers we had (exactly the amount that created a circle around it) to replace the stones I found in the forest. The stones then were the exact amount I needed to finish the stone perimeter in the front yard and back yard that had been missing small segments from the previous owner – love how that all works out.
I’ve enjoyed watching all of my plants flourish, finding new discoveries continuing to grow, and planting Faery flowers and Manzanita in barrel pots we got to sit atop tree stump pedestals that had been cut down years ago.
I so adore these and feel that they’ve added just that little bit of Faery magick to everything and are gorgeous bloom sentinels lining the pathway and keeping watch over all of the creatures great and small here at the front and the back of the house. I LOVE being able to see two of them with Astrid from our Wonderland room.
That includes my bunny friends who also revealed themselves again. The mother and little baby both showed up on Cosmo’s birthday. Both connecting with Astrid and me for quite a while. In fact, the little one was not afraid at all and allowed me to open the sliding door, step outside and near him and then proceeded to listen to me talk to him for about 5 minutes before I decided to go back inside.
He seemed to have waited for me to do so. And then two days ago, on the day of the sun halo portal showing up, he returned again, and again allowing me to come outside and talk to him. A very special relationship is developing with the bunnies here and he feels connected to Cosmo. The mother is a lot more like Nestor and Astrid though.
But back to our land here – we don’t plan to do anything elaborate at this time, as we like to keep things more natural looking and with little upkeep, so these potted beauties do the trick. We liked them so much we have three more on the way for the back deck for Manzanita likely – native around here and merges well with all of the ones we already have on our property and in the forest.
At some point our labyrinth idea we have had for years may manifest, but like all things, it’s all about timing.
For now, house projects have dwindled down to only organizing half our garage left to do over the next couple of weeks with shelving on the way. And we’ll likely pressure wash and stain the house this summer to prep it for winter. That’s part of the day-to-day on top of the rental property business Dave and I run together that’s a side balance to my life.
So, while it may seem I’m not doing or putting out much these days, after having pulled away from and retired from some of my life’s work, I do in fact have a full life of different things going on while I am recreating and reimagining myself. This also creates a need to stay focused and make time for my book, as it is one of the other timelines I have merging that feels key.
Life is full and very Earthy on the one hand, which is perfect to keep my Cosmic self in check, merged, and harnessing alchemy, which requires both. It also allows for magick to be brought through into this realm, rather than keeping things and parts of ourselves separate. This also aids peaceful experiences to be the norm, rather than fighting with parts of ourselves like much of the world at large seems so good at.
Things that used to put my emotions and nervous system into a spin in my past, don’t get to me anymore because of this balance I’ve learned and because of no longer having undercurrents of feelings, sensitivities, and no boundaries controlling me. I now orchestrate my life and responses. A welcomed shift. 🙂
I’m still in process of exploring some timelines I may want to pursue, but have also put the keys in drawers on a few, for now, that I may want to revisit another time, as I follow my current heart stream. Astrid has been instrumental with that and I’ll share more about her shortly.
Processes always reveal things naturally, but there are also times we can cut to the chase and not even go down that path. As mentioned, there’s never a wrong, as everything will provide growth potential and some nice gifts to embrace, but if you aren’t capable of hearing your intuitive voice, or have someone to help guide you with that to know the timing on things and when to leave or start something, then perhaps your first instinct of the end result is the telling one that will help you not go down a path that might be more challenging for you to get out of than it might be for someone else in different circumstances.
Many times, my Pisces gift is a knowing of end results based on current momentum and while there may be much to gain along the way, not everyone has the capability based on their current patterns, to embrace all of it right now. While ultimately it doesn’t matter, since we each have our own paths, there’s something to be said for choosing wisely based on you now, and not you later. Just as you don’t try to change someone else. You either except them as they are now, or not, and have no attachment to if they will change at some point.
It’s the same with ourselves. We embrace who we are now and while we could change, there’s no attachment to if we will, and so we make decisions with as much as we know now and our patterns, without huge expectations placed on us to make these profound shifts. If we do, great, but we may not. Let it unfold naturally, as you’ll always get where ever you’re meant to go. So, if the sense is something isn’t going to end well, in the case of perhaps you’re not being able to make changes or understand your intuitive nudges, you may want to go with the decision not to do something and let the cards fall as they may. Unless, of course, you are an adventurer and enjoy the challenge of the moment to see if you can rise to the occasion.
I’ve seen this work itself out many times when people ask me for advice or have worked with me and they have chosen the path most aligned with their current momentum or that will bring about the results the way their souls know best, rather than entertain something else. And, there’s nothing wrong with that because there is no one way. In part this may be some of why I no longer resonate with teaching in the vein I have, as organic processes step more into Nature’s cycles. I love creativity as a form of natural activation of what’s already innately within.
That brings me to alignments – another natural cohesion that can take place – which I mentioned earlier because I’ve been experiencing an astounding amount of connections taking place that are true magick. This reflecting in many ways as new connections (in this life) with souls that have immediate depth, purpose, synchronicity beyond explanation, and producing creative results that are very mutually supportive. All of the details on these are too much to write, but I do want to extend gratitude for the blessings their are ringing in. The two most recent ones revolving around some rabbit creations that are very meaningful and timely for me – divinely inspired for sure.
This spirals us to the last update and most dear to me – Astrid.
That’s where the “inner ear resonance” part to the title of this post comes in. During this full week was also when Astrid started displaying some behaviors I took note of right away. Rabbits ask of us to be on our intuitive tip-toes all the time and ultra present. I noticed she was starting to shake her head and ears more excessively than normal. One might think it cute, but I had a sense there was something up. I kept watch for about 2-3 days noticing it was continuing and not simply just a fleeting irritation.
I then called to make an appointment Friday morning and the first available was yesterday. Interestingly, Astrid stopped the shaking head/ears behavior over the weekend, but I went with my instincts and took her anyway. We discovered that the left ear that had a bit more wax than normal in it last check up, had now created a plug, and the right ear that had no wax, now had some. Also, the inner canal was a bit red. The vet said that her hair follicles in her ear are for some reason not dispelling the wax as they normally do.
I definitely did the right thing in listening to my instincts, as an infection is starting and by being proactive, we can stop it from becoming something really serious. Ear infections for rabbits are not little things. Their ears are so sensitive, but infections can be horrible if not caught and treated in time, including could turn into head-tilt. But we won’t go there, as we’re on top of things and will continue with the current protocol – not fun to administer in her ears – and recheck in about 10 days.
Ears seem symbolically and literally significant right now – I have sensed my own shifting along with my eye sight. Ear canals are likened to birth canals and reflect the spiral and womb. In Egypt, ears aid the gods in hearing prayers so would be like hearing whispers from our higher self or the otherworldly parts of us. Ears provide the ability to be open to hearing new info and perspectives and knowing when to act upon what we receive. They are portals and antennae to receive thoughts, feelings, vibrations, and sound frequencies physically and telepathically. A channel to hear and know the truth within and without and as a result of that deeper inward hearing we can experience greater resonance and alignment on deeper levels of experience.
It’s interesting that I’ve seen Astrid communicating telepathically with so many of the creatures here in heightened collective activity – a variety of birds, squirrels, chipmunks, rabbits, and even spiders (too many photos capturing these moments to share). They all come outside her door. Even during this last week she started having symptoms, her telepathy has been on all-time high, demonstrating the inner ear, eye, mind, heart are the powers behind everything.
She’s going through her own shifts right now, mirroring my own, and during this week of choices, I can clearly see what Astrid wanted me to know – the answer that reflects my heart is the one to listen to and she’s ready to continue when I am from a deeper level of understanding. I love her so much and love how my rabbit companions have always and only been the ones to ever know how to guide me most effectively. Right now I plan to continue with our work together and help her to get back to her vibrant self with incredible cosmic ears. This is her this morning healing with Buddha.
As for us, we’re looking forward to summer and all the outdoor activities and events upcoming – lots of Tahoe Herbivores’ Meetups to come including our annual Music on the Beach events that are a huge hit, an upcoming Full Moon drumming circle, and hikes and fun! If you live in the area or are passing through during that time, check us out on Meetup.
I have two Reiki workshops this summer, (still some spaces to join both of these) and one co-taught magickal workshop in Fall with Laura (already 1/3 full) – the last of my teaching, as that journey comes full circle. You can register at the links provided.
Dave and I have a 10 day August trip – the only travel right now we have planned in California for two wedding events, family and friend time, and time in Yosemite – a first for me. We lucked out on all of it in getting something last minute that we wanted and being gifted an awesome accommodation too. Dave was invited to speak in Hawaii next year for his book, but we felt into that as not being aligned.
End of Summer visitors are starting as we have Labor Day weekend booked here with friends and then of course Laura coming out. I sense we may get a couple more visitors too, so that will be fun. I’m so looking forward to beach time and kayaking, as well as incredible hikes, but mostly right now I’m looking forward to my book’s completion.
That’s what’s been evolving here and what’s upcoming – in current sight at least. This is a little longer post to touch in and provide some updates as energetic gauges with all of you in your own worlds, as I haven’t posted for a while and don’t post regularly right now. I find that we always go through similar in our own relative ways, and sharing definitely chimes in those synchronous alignments.
Since I’ve been quiet, I figured I would do a little summary of main themes in my life – a way of also letting you know I’m still here working away on things to bring forth and share.
Seasons are shifting quickly, time is moving rapidly, veils are no longer boundaries, daylight is lingering longer, and expansion is happening in ways you aren’t even recognizing.
This was too cute and special not to share here. Yesterday’s moments captured were of Astrid communing with her spider friend. She retreated to the exercise room – a favorite getaway for her that is next to our Wonderland room. She was having one of those evenings of quiet time to herself in a meditative zone and then I realized she was communicating with this spider you see to her right. They stayed like this quite a while.
Then she did a big energy stretch, yawn, and release to move and shift the energy all the way down through her toes. It was fascinating to watch. They continued to stay together after that and I left them alone, returning about five minutes later and the spider was gone.
Astrid spent a lot of time meditating in this spot before and after and was also tuning into the plants in the garden tower, as they’re right outside this door. I love when she takes time to herself away from her normal routine, as you know she’s up to something big with her own work.
There’s indeed a lot of transmutational rebirthing energy spiraling around and Astrid is helping to weave that into form with me. Spiders are abundant and more so downstairs in our realm where we do the underworkings of things. Astrid’s definitely not put off by shadow work.
Anyway, I remembered sharing a post on spider symbolism and when I found it I smiled at the synchronicities of the timing of that blog and the similar experiences then, happening now.
This post: Crossing Path With Tarantula ~ Messages of Timing & New Doorways of Opportunity is from four years ago, mirroring yesterday’s post about the synchronous things happening in my life now that were happening then. And now this little spider reminder had me finding this blog post from that time period as well.
Here are a few excerpts from that post that speak to me on my life and writing focus, but for the full explanation on spider medicine and things that were occurring then, you can visit the blog link above.
…Generally speaking, Spiders are the weavers of experience that desire to share that creativity with others. They are the assertiveness of Creative Force in communication of all forms, seeking to discover and create the reflection of your heart’s hidden desires, and to fulfill your dreams through the wisdom of what you weave…
…Spiders help you to tune into the ancient wisdoms and integrate them into your life, realizing that everything you now do is weaving what will come to be. You are remembering your role as a keeper and writer of your own destiny, and just as the center of the web is always small (representing you), the web is eternally expanding (representing your unlimited, creative potentials). You are limited only by your own view of self…
…Spider also teaches the written alphabet, runes, and symbols so they help with weaving your words, creating deep meaning, and writing with creativity and power that brings others into greater connectivity with your message…
This is a magickal little share on a very synchronous and auspiciously aligned return that just took place, taking things on a new leg of the spiral. Some of you may remember my giant amethyst rabbit that used to be a huge part of my and my little ones’ lives for many years – about 7 – 8, I believe. Then about a little over three years ago it became time for us to part ways, as I had a new journey and adventure that was taking me in a new direction, our time then was complete, and she needed a new crystal guardian to cherish and work with her. That took her clear across the states to the east coast, landing in New York City.
Before then, I taught a crystal workshop, where her new keeper first met her and expressed interest. This also happened to be a very pivotal and transformational time in my life where I was hitting a conclusion on this Earth plane and had an invitation to move on, which I considered heavily. It was also during this time, four years ago, that I was experiencing similar rips in timelines, parallel realities, and odd things showing up, just as I mentioned in my post yesterday that is occurring now as well. I was actually reminded of this, this morning when on Facebook, memories from this exact time, four years ago, popped up on my timeline that shared the experiences I was having that mirrored now. And after that, a huge cosmic influx of experiences and messages kept pouring through that something big was underway, offering me a choice. It wasn’t too long after that that Cosmo came into my life and so did the Magick Bus, and everything took a renewing turn and a new choice was made for a while.
My rabbit, Joy, was with me at the time, and she was very affected by these experiences that she was highly aware of like me. It freaked her out, in fact, as she was seeing things walking alongside our shared reality. I remember the night experiences of seeing someone in our house going about their living, but obviously it was in another dimension than my current one. I would smell cigarette smoke and hear things, as well as saw a portal open through my painting one night (the same one of Nestor, Joy, and the Moon that I have currently in my office) with magickal creatures coming out of it. Anyway, needless to say, it was quite an experience and recently there’s been a similar one, which hasn’t been experienced since that time four years ago.
Joy also happened to be very connected to that rabbit amethyst, which came home to me right after she came home to me. It had a lot of cosmic energy and was connected with my rabbit, Nestor. Gaia was also here when it first came home to me and the two of them would spend a lot of time with it, sitting near or in it, gridding and connecting. The crystal was a portal in and of itself.
It was a big deal when she left to go with her new guardian, (and emotional for me) but I knew it was the right thing without a doubt, and would be very instrumental and helpful to my friend she went with. And in fact, she was.
There’s too many details to recount of recent, but I’d felt the amethyst rabbit a lot now and then, over the course of her being away. I’d heard some stories from my friend she went to and so the connection was always strong and never broken.
With recent shifts, a new leg of my journey and potentials opening, as well as Astrid now in my life, and similar experiences beginning, it was not surprising to me that this crystal in some way would find her way to me again.
I believe Astrid has called it in, as well as the work I’m currently focused on, and what’s unfolding. Not to mention, her current guardian is also going through huge shifts (I see it’s 11:11 on the clock as I’m writing this) and a pivotal life change. She had mentioned to me months ago that the amethyst had expressed it would be breaking in pieces and she started seeing cracks.
Well, she did in fact break into several pieces, which was both very sad and also very beautiful to both myself and my friend, as it definitely mirrors shifts personally and collectively happening, as well as cracks in veils ready to be revealed, and expansion bursting in creative potential. She broke in mostly big pieces, but two smaller ones, too.
I messaged her just a few days ago, not knowing it had broken, to just touch in with her, as I was feeling her and the shifts she was going through. We hadn’t spoken in months. It was then that she told me the amethyst had done as she said and the piece at the very top broke just as she said it would and told me she wanted to send me that piece.
It arrived yesterday, along with the other smaller piece and the timing is auspicious given everything.
This piece is very meaningful to me, as it is the very top of it that was the ears of the rabbit. It includes the ears, top of crown chakra, and extending part way to the third eye.
Ears of my rabbits have always been key in our communicating telepathically and are in general, power parts of them. So having this and the other lovely piece that was part of the outside outline of the rabbit, really is a gift and lovely surprise to have back with me.
Not only are they smaller and more easy for me to hold and engage, but are easy for Astrid to connect with – I let her sniff with her energetic nose as soon as it arrived. I’m excited to see what comes next between her and the crystal, as well as for the three of us. It also keeps an open channel between my friend and I even more so with these pieces connecting us.
And the ear piece now can sit on my desk next to my computer while I work. I have it turned on its side so that the inner ear part is receiving and flowing out to me. I think it’s also very cool that photos of Nestor, Joy, Cosmo, and my crystal bunny statues of all of them, including Astrid are right behind it. You can’t see, but Gaia’s crystal statue and photo are to the right too.
I couldn’t be more excited and grateful.
Although it’s not Easter, this is an informative, short article from National Geographic that touches on some of the misunderstandings around rabbits that are not isolated to just one time of the year.
“It takes a patient person to become friends with these silent and subtle animals,” says Margo DeMello, president of the House Rabbit Society.
Here’s the article link:
Mirror…mirror…Astrid sends bunny kisses and wishes everyone a Hoppy Easter filled with peace, love, and joy!
Astrid says, “Rabbits are not Easter toys and DO NOT make good Easter gifts. We need a commitment for life to all of our special needs and are not low maintenance. Although we love children, we really need sensitive care so please educate yourself about us and if you feel you can meet our needs, please adopt from a rescue or shelter. We are the third most euthanized animals and likely the most misunderstood.
Fifteen years ago, today, back in 2003 Nestor – my twin spirit – returned to me on Earth as a magickal rabbit. She left this Earth realm at the age of 5, which was young for a bunny, but she has always been a Cosmic Navigator when it comes to divine alignments so it in fact was alchemy at work. Today, I also received happy news and confirmations, as well as took another synchronous turn along my book writing journey.
It’s been nearly 10 years since Nestie (her name of endearment) transitioned back, which feels like lifetimes ago now. Oh, how much has changed since then, catapulted because of her, and yet she’s ever-present in my life. I receive some of her signs and messages via the number 5, which holds special meaning for us. And today’s 15 year mark is three times that 5, coinciding with her time confirmations she sends at 5:55.
And today, I also received an update on the white bunny who I almost adopted, but who paved the way for Astrid to be with me instead. His rescue name is Big Sur, but I knew him as Zephyr. His story is in the link I just provided, but I hadn’t been able to get information on him until today, of all days.
His update news is that he just got adopted by his foster, who is one of Save A Bunny’s best volunteers and is doing great! Apparently he sleeps on the bed with his new family’s kid and is “SUPER DUPER LOVED,” as it was expressed to me. This made me so happy and gave me great comfort in knowing “he is in a really great home,” as it was also expressed and that everything was as it was meant to be.
I believe, in a way, he sacrificed himself for the highest good in terms of providing me the message I should take Astrid instead of him, and in the end because I listened even though it was difficult on my heart, we all got our happy endings.
Ultimately, in the condition he was in back then, he wouldn’t have done as good being with me despite the love and care I would have provided because of our living situation in tighter corners at the time where having the cats around him would have stressed him out and still maybe now even would have been too stressful for him. Astrid can hold her own. Plus, at the time he had a nurturing momma bunny caring for him, which seems to have done him good.
I still have a sadness around not having been able to bring both him and Astrid home, but I know it’s all come to full circle peace and perfection.
In the meantime, the connection shared with Astrid has continued to deepen and yet still I feel is just at the tip of the iceberg in terms of where it will go. For a few months I was feeling the potential of another bunny coming in to be her companion, but I received confirmation on that as well. A lot has shifted and in tuning in with her I am getting that she doesn’t want any physical bunny friends at this time (she just nudged me with her nose to my ankle as I wrote that!) Smarty pants!
While I was away for the 11 days in Arizona, we connected and touched in and at one time she showed me two rabbits that are around her. I believe that her bunny friends are in the spirit realm, just as mine are, and that as I’m recognizing things more, she is anchoring into peaceful recognition of her path and purpose within mine. There is a lot for us to do still and she wants us connecting deeply without any other bunnies around, as that changes the dynamic and our work together. We have a very intimate path ahead of us that only she can assist with at this time to get me and her to the next step along the journey. Adding more energy to the mix will dilute that contract.
So, maybe when she’s older she will want a friend, but for now we have stuff to do! I will, of course, maintain open channels of communication with her in the event she shifts with her feelings on that, as I do want her to be happy and fulfilled. When we are both feeling that wholeness we are then able to do our best work. And however that is meant to look and be, is what I support.
Anyway, all of this has really anchored and it’s beautiful with the timing of celebrating Nestor on Earth, to celebrate these two bunnies on this plane of existence too.
I have been having a lot of telling rabbit dreams recently, along with several dreams of Save A Bunny’s founder, Marcy, who is a dear friend. There has been a lot of potent dreams with other animals and people as well that include very specific messages that I don’t know in waking life (to confirm when I do awake) that are streaming through in Pisces dreamland where I receive a majority of my psychic clarity.
Things are definitely getting more and more interesting with each turn.
And the last thing, which I mentioned at the start, is the synchronous turn my book took along its process too. It coincides with Nestor and our fav number 5.
As you may remember, last time I shared an update I had completed my 4th and final round of editing – or at least I thought!
It seems the 5th time is the charm and fulfills the magickal points of the star, mirroring Nestor’s Cosmic essence.
After I finished the 4th editing run, I then was tutored by Dave who helped show me how to officially format my book – I’m SO not techy. That proved very helpful and I was able to get it formatted quite quickly because I had already placed it in a structured mode from the get-go, so I only had to implement the final touches.
We also had a discussion about writing, I reviewed some writing notes and passages I had and that he showed me, and this all prompted a feeling to take another look before handing my book over to the next eyes and ears – an official editor.
However, yesterday, as I was reviewing it, I also was seeing it with new eyes, myself, and felt that before that next huge leap, it needs one more go-around from start to end. This one feeling to be taking things to a whole other level, as I’ve done the most shifts in the latter edits than the beginning. I think I’ve been going through even more changes than I’ve been aware of that, like my courage shown in taking on the Grand Canyon, are now ready to climb to a level I have to go with pushing myself further and accessing an even deeper recess of what is possible with my writing. It’s really something to observe as process within myself.
Writing is no simple task, at least not if you really want to take it to another level. I didn’t push myself with my first self-published book, except to write it and get it out there (which in and of itself was a big deal for me, as I had such an aversion to it), but I also didn’t feel at the time that I needed to, as I had different ideas for it then.
I’m having to unearth new parts of myself now, or perhaps latent ones, and also be willing to take risks and learn a new language so to speak.
I love how things are seen with greater clarity as I put one foot in front of the other! 😉
Thank you Nestor!
And thank you Dave, as after yesterday’s confirmation that I would be once again editing with a renewed version of myself, I was gifted with his reaffirming assessment.
Dave read the first 3 chapters today – making him the first to read any of it.
I’ve always seen him as my best critic because although we share a love and telepathic bond, we definitely lead with a different part of our brains. So, to have him review something is very telling for me. He is also a published author with an outside publisher, so he has insights that are helpful, even if we write completely different genres. He also is quite the poet, however, and is well read, so I value his opinion.
I have been prepared with this journey for the worst criticism, as that is what artists of any kind are subject to and that definitely is true for the writing world. It seems all the work I’ve done on myself has gotten me to the place where I’d be able to throw my work to the wolves so to speak, and not be emotionally affected by it. As in the past, that would have been a tough thing for me to do. This is also why it took me long to embrace blogging, but now I just free-flow write it and don’t have attachment to the material in terms of how it will be received. Good thing, as this book definitely needs to be approached in an unconditionally attached way too.
Anyway, without going into detail, I was pleasantly surprised by the feedback Dave provided and was also pleased with how I felt in waiting for his response, which remained unattached. Yay!
But this also means, off to work I go and likely will be in deeper this time, so I can’t promise when and where I’ll pop up again. As always, I take each day at a time and see where inspiration leads. I just know that I’m fully committed to this process and it is providing quite the evolutionary potentials for me.
Since my birthday my Wonderland office had the final touches fully ignited and it seems the perfect timing before heading off to Arizona in two days and on to our epic Grand Canyon adventure. Having this portal in full throttle will help in connecting with Astrid, as well as infuse the magick experienced on the journey into our home for our return. To say I love my room is an understatement. It really makes a difference for my work to have it align with my heart and to be so alive and enchanted. I feel that creating a sanctuary that speaks of and to your heart, is key. I’ve dreamed of this and am so grateful for manifesting it.
I’d been waiting to hang a few things and in the interim, synchronous stuff found their way to me and came as surprise birthday gifts that were not only exactly the right size and energy, but all tied into together from various unconnected places and people.
I had been building the entry wall layer by layer with things I had including creations from a magickal woodworker named the Jolly Geppetto, as well as received three wall hangings from friends as birthday gifts that included faeries in a faery tree, the “Bunny Trail” sign, and the magickal sayings. You can see these all here.
But it’s my tapestry that is only seen when I close the doors to this magickal realm, that really brought things to life. It’s called The Visitation and is an adaptation of Lewis Carroll’s literary classic, Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland by the late fantasy artist David Delamare. It’s of Alice with Book and Fairies, created just prior to his death in 2016. I love that it exactly matches the same workmanship, coloring, and threaded edging as my large Queen Astranaithes tapestry over my desk. And that it goes perfectly with the theme and energy here.
It’s like a parallel world when I look at it from the comfort of my cozy chair that sits directly across from it where I read, edit, or do Tarot next to my shelf of books and magick.
I also love it because of my being immersed in book writing and it really feels activating for the world I enter and how the life of a writer, or artist for that matter, is one of solitude (at least that can be seen with the human eyes). So I love having all my “friends” around me and this image on the tapestry reflects the “unseens” who are part of my life and world of creating.
And then we come to this little fellow who greets everyone who enters here…oh how I adore him!! My official White Rabbit faery, who SO reminds me of Cosmo and is essence. He stands over a foot tall and has golden butterfly wings, a sweet smile, and carries a lantern to light the way.
My sweet friend KC/Bean (whom we’re going with to the GC) found it for me. She always texts me photos of bunnies everywhere that she sees and other things she knows I love. Many of the things have made their way home to me before, but this one was extra special and has some cool connections that took place in his coming to be with me. I love that he arrived on March 1st’s Full Moon too. His lantern has a little battery operated candle in it, courtesy of Bean’s mom. He speaks to the energy and whimsy you will find when entering here. And I love all of the symbolism he embodies that reflect the layers of signs above him. He is SO alive! Like everything else here.
Just before he arrived, my mom and dad had gifted me a smaller white bunny for my birthday (pictured left) and I’d found the white bunny holding the yellow sunflower (pictured right) that matched and had to come home as his friend.
I also found this adorable laying rabbit that matched the gnomes and magick mushroom my parents gave me for Christmas. They now sit on either side of Astrid’s castle, as part of her realm, under the Faery succulent gardens sitting atop tree tables.
And the long awaited White Rabbit pillow arrived as well, which sits on my “Beam me up” out-of-this-world, green writer’s chair. This is a sweet and gorgeous watercolor pillowcase by artist Karina Soboleva all the way from Russia – where my name originates. It’s so stunning and is perfect for masterminding the new.
You’ve already seen my Wonderland book, at center of my book shelf, but now sitting atop it are two White Rabbit storykeepers – one small bunny/apprentice that was mine – and the other larger one a birthday gift from Faery Laura – unbeknownst to her that I had the little guy. Again perfect additions with their holding books and they now sit next to the Peter Rabbit (also gifted by Laura when I was in the Magick Bus) and my wands.
I also have my new and incredible “Faerie” book, dragons, and Cosmic eggs, snake skin I found on a hike once, etc. here along with a very cool piece of bark with lichen I found in the forest.
The last photo is of one of my birthday gifts to self – a custom Skeleton Key pen in Stardust Blue Lagoon acrylic with pewter fittings by the incredible Mark McCullough, who has since become a wonderful friend. It’s meant to celebrate this storybook year and that my book’s completion and manifestation is close at hand and along with writing it, I’m writing a new reality into being from my heart. There’s a mysterious and cosmic essence that beckons one deeper and perhaps may unlock the heart’s musings for my book. I also love that it goes with all the unique antique wood doors in the house and their original hardware that each features a different keyhole, but do not have keys (you can see my door handle in the photos above). I love imagining that each door is a portal into another reality and maybe, just maybe, this Skeleton Key pen might write my way into these worlds and beyond, opening them with just the right alchemy.
I think you get the theme here with everything. 😉
Writing and living fully my own reality and creating the outside to match the inside, in all ways.
I can’t stress enough the importance of “alignment” and for me that also has come to include more and more vulnerability and transparency, as I feel this can be helpful for others to merge into their own alignments too and experience magickal lives.
I hope you enjoy this fun journey into the “Wonderland” of my inner child’s imagination and heart.
“You know what the issue is with this world? Everyone wants some magical solution to their problem and everyone refuses to believe in magic.” ~ Alice in Wonderland, Lewis Carroll
It seems appropriate on today’s National Love Your Pet Day to give thanks to my ever-magickal partner, Astrid for choosing me to be her guardian and co-creator. Not only does she bring so much joy and love into my life, but she’s also the bestest companion for this leg of my journey. She’s my ghostwriter and biggest cheerleader and fan, helping me to bring my book to life, speed up the process, and keep me on point. She helps me with editing everyday, sitting by my feet and even taking over mom’s editing chair if I abandon it. She has her own way of telling me to “hop to it!” and follows in the footsteps of Nestor and Joy in how they used to do a quick nibble to the right bottom corner of my paintings to infuse their signature and energy. Here you can see her nibbling in some of her own energy infusions into the story’s creation, encouraging me not to stop the momentum.
And a big momentum is what I’m in the flow of right now, as my book has come back into main focus, with the completion of all house renovations finally. Yesterday, was a huge day finalizing the third round of edits. I’m feeling one more “hop” through to really tie everything up, feel out the flow now with all the edits, and tighten it up one last go around, including final formatting.
I’ve found that editing the tough parts is so much easier when I can tangibly hold the pages and mark them up with pencil, rather than using the computer – hence the pages Astrid is able to help out with. Seems she prefers that too. 😉
I’m a very hands-on person, which is why I also prefer actual books to ebooks. There’s something that triggers my brain more and all parts of my senses to have things physical. That’s why I also keep hand written lists, a daily calendar on my desk, write notes on my hand when I’m out, and never use technology to keep me organized. Anyone else like that?
Anyway, Astrid is excited and I’m excited too. She is anxious about getting the book done and our Wonderland writing room is perfect nurturing for that. I love having her by my side, as she’s perfect inspiration for this faery. I can’t tell you how much she’s supported its manifestation and its content.
She seems to be mirroring the shifting phases of the book too, with her own shifting fur.
I don’t call her the magick rabbit for nothing!
Could this be why I heard the nickname “Bubbles” whispered in my ear recently?
Or is it that Astrid is reflecting her joy in this name, or simply the joy bubbling through in exuberance for her new life, feeling safe and loved, and for being recognized for the gifts and path she has come to experience and share?
My bunnies always get nicknames, that shift as their energy shifts. They’re not names I make up, but that just come through. Astrid expresses her joy running, jumping, hopping, and twisting that feels like a bubble of passion rising to the surface and exploding. People call this a “binky” and here it earned her the nickname “Bubbles,” which I love because it expresses her silly side in compliment to her serious one.
In any case, her shape-shifting fur continues to change and produce beautiful symbols and markings. Here you see her incredible fur gifting us circles, or bubbles, and that gold at the back of her neck is aglow. Not visible is her silver toes, feet and tummy.
Her exuberance keeps “bubbling” through and she ceases to amaze.
Nestor is the only other rabbit of mine that has done this with her fur. Always producing uncanny symbols I would call either hieroglyphics or crop circles.
Astrid has a lot of Nestor qualities, so it’s not surprising. In many ways, it’s like a piece of Nestie is in her, which makes our connection even more special.
Thank you Astrid for your way of keeping me on point, just as Nestor used to. I definitely needed your solid presence, commitment, sense of personal responsibility, wisdom, and joyous inspiration for this book and the rest of what’s to come after that!
Celebrating you with some extra love and recognition today. Hope you love the curly meadow twist chewy treat you’ll find in your romper room bunny play land.
An extra gift of gratitude for being my ghostwriter, teacher, and best friend.