This is a great article on better understanding your rabbit’s behavior. It doesn’t cover every single possibility, as rabbits, just like many souls, are complex – some more than others. So intuition, presence, patience, and experience will be the guiding forces in working to communicate with them. I am currently working with many of these rabbit body languages discussed in the article with Astrid, as I help her to feel safe, trust, and work through her past.
If you have a rabbit, are dealing with challenging rabbit behaviors (please don’t dump your bunny simply because you haven’t taken time to understand and help them – you chose the responsibility so take it – there’s reason for these connections that can enrich your life journey), are thinking about bringing a rabbit into your home as a companion, or simply want to learn more about rabbit behaviors and body language, I hope you’ll find this article below to be enlightening and supportive:
And if you follow along already on my blog, you’ve likely learned a lot from the shares of my experiences with my rabbit companions. I will continue to share the journey I have with Astrid, too, and provide any insights I can add as well.
My journey has intensified, deepened, and expanded with rabbits. And although I am, and have been my whole life, strongly empathic to all animals and identified with them the most, making it imperative I change my lifestyle choices in all ways, it became evident that my calling and path was to be a voice for rabbits and all of life through my work with them. After having assisted Joy and Cosmo to move on, I didn’t really know how things would unfold and took time to just let things evolve naturally. Then one day around 3 months ago I began feeling like something was missing, making me realize that me without a rabbit just isn’t me, and then sensed a rabbit was coming and that I was ready.
And so I heard the call and listened.
This led me to start exploring SaveABunny’s website of available rabbits for adoption. SaveABunny is a non-profit rabbit rescue organization based in Northern California and is where I was led by my rabbit/twin soul Nestor to find Joy in 2008 – taking her home two days before my birthday in 2009. It’s about 3 hours and 20 minutes from our home in Lake Tahoe, so it wasn’t like I could just go over there, so I knew things would be a process.
As I explored the bunnies on their page of rabbits for adoption I was energetically drawn to one named Big Sur. There was no information about him like most of the others, except where he came from. I did notice that his ears were half missing though. So I wanted to touch in and find out his status and background.
This was the only photo I saw of him that began this whole journey, but his soul spoke through his eyes to mine and that was it.
It took a little while to hear back, as they are a busy, volunteer-only organization but then got info he was stable and learned more about his background.
I felt he was the one and so I then talked with Dave to make sure he was on board and ok with bringing in another bunny and he told me that if I feel it’s what I want and it’s important for me and my path then he supports that.
However, I knew we had a lot of upcoming travels coming and so I knew it wasn’t a good idea to adopt him until the travels were done, as I would want to establish solidity and be there to create the feeling of home and safety – not up and leave right away, which would feel like abandonment.
After asking about my options and exploring what I could do, we all decided the best was to just wait until my travels were done and come in at that time to adopt. There was no telling what could evolve in the meantime, but the thing I was being told was to TRUST.
There was a process unfolding and it wasn’t to be rushed, as there are many working parts and variables that can always shift at any moment these day and things do in fact change overnight, not to mention my travels would shift energies as well for me, as would the rapid changes I keep making create rippling shifts. So I waited very patiently, but quite anxiously.
While in Sedona I felt more solidified with everything and asked during my labyrinth walk on the Full Moon for clarity and support with the whole process for the highest good. It was in Sedona as well that I received his name – Zephyr, which means a gentle wind or soft breeze from the west (which he was….blowing into my life from the west coast area, west of Tahoe). It also means the Greek god of the west wind.
There was connection with avian bird energy with this name and meaning that are around me so much and Zephyr Cove where we walk all the time and I would think of him.
I made a full commitment by filling out an adoption form online and this spun things further into motion and declared my readiness and commitment out loud to the Universe to welcome in a new rabbit companion, as well as continue on with my path in a larger way. A lot of synchronous things kept happening and it felt in flow.
I also had a dream of him, which was telling and something I’d been waiting to see if that would happen, as all of my bunnies communicate that way (so does Gaia my tortoise). It is indication that we are able to telepathically communicate and that there is a bond there.
And he DID come to me in dream time, which involved some communication and me being with him while we were bonding and I rubbed his third eye and the area around his sweet ears.
I later also had another dream and the connection continued daily with feeling him so strongly and communicating to him with ease.
Then on Beltane I received confirmation of my appointment and time to go in and adopt him, which ended up being on June 20th Solstice at 1:30pm. Magick was at work indeed, as Joy departed to the stars on June 21st of last year and the Solstice this year would be at 9:24 pm Pacific Time for me, so right in the transition portal of it all.
Divine perfection unfolding for sure in full circle and the closing and opening of doors.
So a little about Big Sur, who for me is Zephyr (or Baby Z, as I lovingly call him by nickname when communicating to him – all of my loves receive tons of nicknames). Both of his names seemed to perfectly align with his watery and airy nature too.
Anyway, Big Sur/Zephyr came in from Salinas Animal Services in November 2016 and came to SaveABunny soon after. He is blind in his right eye and had bite wounds beyond his ears having been bitten off. He was treated and neutered, went on antibiotics, but healed very well.
When I first inquired they said he was stable, wasn’t on medication, and his blood panel hadn’t shown anything serious.
He’s been through a lot, but remains incredibly loving and sweet (remind you of anyone? – hint Cosmo) and likely was a breeding rabbit at a meat farm, which attests for his injuries from the horrible conditions of these cruel places.
Here’s a recent photo of him showing how well he’s healed.
I find rabbits to be unique in that they transcend or bridge several categories of animals.
They are domestic, farm, and wild animals and not only are seen as animal companions/pets, but also are farmed or hunted for their meat, farmed or hunted for their fur, and are one of the most commonly used and abused animals in terms of lab testing and experiments.
Not only have rabbits become synonymous with cosmetics animal testing throughout the world, enduring horrendous suffering in the name of “beauty,” but their image is the most recognized and used on cruelty-free labeling.
American Anti-Vivisection Society shares this article:
PETA shares this article:
Rabbit meat is being promoted as the new “super meat” although not as easily commercially produced on an industrial scale (thank goodness!) because of their weaker immune systems and overall die more easily, but is still being done. There are even crazy motivation and incentive articles like this trying to get people to do it more: 7 Reasons to Raise Rabbits for Meat
Just blows my mind.
Anyway, back to Zephyr/Big Sur.
After Sedona we were in Australia and upon returning from Australia I found out when checking in that he wasn’t doing so well. He’s had a couple setbacks, went into stasis and Marcy, the founder of SaveABunny just didn’t know in any definitive way what was wrong.
Either he was having medical complications solely, or he was depressed and this was causing issues.
So she asked me what I thought, as she was thinking of moving him to a different area and potentially seeing if he wanted/needed another bunny friend.
I told her to do anything she felt was in his highest good, as that was what was most important. It wasn’t about me. It was about him.
In the meantime I connected with him and communicated all of my thoughts and sent him energy, telling him I would be there soon to see him.
A little while after I learned he was doing better and had been moved to a larger area with even more light.
We then were in Austin and I checked in again two nights before going in to SaveABunny to see how he was.
I received a message that he was “OK” but that it really was hard to know.
What I didn’t mention is that when I first learned he wasn’t doing well I did some work around things for myself, as I knew I was being asked to go to another level. I allowed myself to be sad and although I had released things to the highest good from the get-go, and was open to him leading me to another bunny if in fact something didn’t work out for whatever reason, I still needed to go deeper.
And so I did.
I realized that when I was inquiring about him I was wanting there not to be any further major medical issues other than needing to take into account his blindness and ears, as well as emotional challenges he might have from everything, but I know at the core of me that my path is not about certainties and perfect scenarios and not about being afraid to take in an extremely challenged bunny, or any challenge for that matter in life, as the growth for me is in the difficult decisions and expanding my emotions and abilities beyond where I’ve gotten to so far. This is what I feel to be the balancing between love and mission I’m learning and is a huge cosmic focus too being worked out collectively, I feel.
And I did a lot of work around supporting him with what ever he needed and wanted that would be for his highest good and overall for everyone involved. I also, for the first time, opened to looking at other potential bunnies on their website, in case I really would be needing to take home another. And I asked him to lead me there, if so, and that I would have the clarity to be able to make the highest decisions. I also worked through my emotions, as I was saddened by hearing of his condition and potentially not being able to take him, or worse. I was ready for anything and asked that I’d have the strength to do what was right.
If you remember in my blog post Follow the White Rabbit I shared:
“Following the White Rabbit is where the journey begins…a reminder to take chances in life, follow your intuitive nudges and gut instincts, and let your heart and inner mind lead the way. A new way of feeling, thinking, seeing, believing, and being is just around the corner, or perhaps “down the rabbit hole,” leading you to a new opportunity and a whole whimsical “Wonderland” of unlimited possibilities and magickal experiences.”
And here I found myself following the White Rabbit – Zephyr – on a new journey of surprising twists and turns and magickal unfolding. I had no idea where this path would lead, how it would end, what was involved, but down the rabbit hole I went, following my heart and intuition, regardless. I just knew this is what I needed to do – tough as it might be.
This led me to Tuesday, 6/20, Summer Solstice, a big journey, and a surprise. Sweetly, my friend here in Lake Tahoe offered to go with me on this trip, which was such a blessing and I’m deeply grateful for. I had just planned to go on my own since Dave had to work, but having Sharon along was a gift and great support for the day. She even packed us a whole cooler of drinks and healthy snacks and food and captured some photos for me. I loved that it also enabled her to connect with and learn more about the bunnies too, which she loved.
This was my transition day of easing into my cleanse (which meant backing off of food, which I did) so everything she brought was perfect, as they were light and healthy and I ate just as much as I needed to sustain for the day’s challenges.
The drive wasn’t bad at all going and we arrived as Marcy was outside and immediately it felt like yesterday I’d been there (remembering the place, the street, her) even though it was a little over 8 years ago since I’d last visited. I’ve met Marcy in person 4 times now, but it always seems like yesterday.
Anyway, she brought us in and gave us the tour, introduced us to all of the bunnies briefly, and lastly I met Zephyr/Big Sur.
He was just as sweet as he was in our communicating and what I’d felt from him. Just a love bug and he just nuzzled into my hand. My heart melted.
I had already fallen in love with him, but that was solidified and deepened.
Well, the story takes a turn here, as we ended up being at SaveABunny for nearly 4 hours, which was totally unexpected. Part of that was in connecting with the bunnies, but a large part was due to me having to process things about the challenge I was presented.
To try and not extend this out too long, I had to decide if I should really take Zephyr or not, and which bunny I should take, if in fact I didn’t.
Well, after talking with Marcy and feeling things out with him more it was evident his condition is an unknown, potentially volatile one and his blood panel had shown kidney issues likely as well, he is still up and down in behavior and eating. He had also been moved to a larger pen area next to Amandine, who is a large, white and extremely conscious, nurturing, healer, mother bunny (pictured below).
He’d gotten better from his setbacks and stasis since moving next to her.
Marcy left it up to me, because she trusts me, but wanted me to know everything to make the best decision.
And in the meantime, she wanted me to tune into one other bunny, in particular, named De Ja Vu. But to feel out all of the bunnies, in general.
So I was introduced to De Ja Vu who was just to the right a bit of Zephyr. De Ja Vu has been at SaveABunny the longest (since 2015 – so 2 years) , other than Pee Wee whose been there since 2014.
No one has wanted to adopt her because she acts assertive right away and people, in general, unless they are feeling into things a bit more, look for the cute, snuggly, beautiful breeds, and not everyone is willing to put in the extra time and effort for “special needs”.
Although De Ja Vu does not have physical challenges, she is still a special needs bunny.
Anyway, she will grunt and charge at first, but you need to look beyond this and understand what’s going on, which isn’t all just her challenges, but what she’s reflecting, as she is sensitive to every energetic nuance. Not in a “I’m going to take this personally way” but as in noticing the shifts in frequencies immediately from your state of being, feeling, and mind, or the environment.
So I pet her a bit and then sat down, as Marcy gave her to me to hold, showing me how she likes to be held.
And I sat with her for quite a while, as she relaxed and we connected…and she started to vibrate and hum, which is like their version of purring. Marcy said this is like the best compliment from a bunny.
And I felt into her and her heart beyond the “stuff”.
Marcy shared with me about her, but left me to be with her and to connect. She and I both do Reiki and intuitively feel things and communicate with the bunnies, so she didn’t want to get in the way of that, but did share her feelings.
And so my process began and the challenges continued to appear for me to rise to.
The rest of my time was spent in contemplation, feeling into things, had conversations for mirroring reflection with those dear to me, and continuing to touch in with the bunnies.
Several times I had to remove myself from the space and go outside, as I needed to make sure what I was feeling was my own and that I wasn’t absorbing all the energies around.
My biggest contemplation faced was in having made a commitment to Zephyr and not wanting to break that unless he wanted me to, as I was ready to take him in any condition he was in if he wanted that, even if that only meant his being with me for a short while.
But it had to be because that was for his highest good and not simply to satisfy something within me or even just to keep my word, because unconditional and universal love is doing what is in his best interests and releasing any attachment and personal stuff.
So this was very emotional for me, as I loved him so much and really had to know what HE wanted and that he wouldn’t be hurt if I didn’t take him.
I loved all the bunnies in there for different reasons and could have taken any of them, but I also needed to have with me the one that was in their best interest, mine, and the path together for the highest good we’d be sharing through our work together and the journey ahead and its potential collective reach. As I am embarking on a lot of new and big things and the bunny with me would be an important co-creator in that.
This was no light decision.
And after tuning in, I did feel like Zephyr/Big Sur and De Ja Vu were the two bunnies I connected with most. Amandine, the other very conscious bunny next to Zephyr would have been one too, but Marcy might be keeping her (so she’s not available for adoption) and currently she’s Zephyr’s anchor. So, I don’t entertain things that aren’t possibilities currently.
I did hold another bunny named Mystique who was a sweetie too, but she didn’t feel to be aligned with the path I’m on and the further work I need to evolve through and do right now, although I felt so much love for her as well.
And “coincidentally” there just happened to be a rabbit that looked just like Nestor that was directly across from Big Sur/Zephyr and a couple of bunnies that looked similar to Joy. My little ones were all around me supporting the process.
So, I weighed and weighed and would go back in to connect with both of them – Zephyr/Big Sur and De Ja Vu.
And I asked Zephyr to show me signs and let me know.
What I was getting was that even just taking him on the long trip home would be stressful for him and then I had to think of his condition and being around cats at home and how that would stress him out and/or affect his sensitive health right now.
It did not feel good.
And when I saw him inside next to Amandine, although they were not in the same pen and not right up against each other by the gate partition, they were in fact communicating A LOT. There was tons going on between them energetically and it felt to be stabilizing, balancing, and helpful in his process – what ever that was to be.
How could I remove him from that and make unsettled what was settled?
It was not about me.
And in fact, De Ja Vu is an incredibly higher conscious bunny who no one could understand, but Marcy. She was in a similar situation of potentially never being adopted, like him (since he is a white rabbit with red eyes – people don’t like that much – and physically not perfect in visual and health). She has things to work through in an unseen way and someone would need to “see” that and realize what she has to offer too.
My intuition was telling me it was her, but I had a lot to process to get my emotions on board and balanced, as all of this was emotionally challenging for me. I began my grieving, as the knowing part of me just knew.
And this was reflected in my conversations with others, as I love hearing myself out loud for mirroring.
Eventually, I had the strength to make the call and decision out loud and told Marcy.
She was elated.
I then shared with her that I felt Big Sur/Zephyr was where he needed to be right now and that Amandine was helping and to take him away from that would disturb the balance and contentment he is starting to have. I shared that he and I would still continue being connected and work together but from afar. She was so happy to hear what I shared because it confirmed for her what she felt too about the two of them and moving him with her.
We both looked over at them and could feel the energy that was palpable. Marcy said she got chills and at the same exact time, so did I, and they continued for a while extending through our entire bodies.
Everything was in divine order.
And as Marcy began the paperwork for me to adopt De Ja Vu, I looked back over at Zephyr and his cute behind started vibrating and his tail wiggled. I’d never seen this. It made me smile. And I knew in our hearts he was still my bunny, but I would be entrusting his care to Amandine to nurture in his best interests.
Meanwhile, I will be sponsoring him to help care for his needs and continue in my commitment to him.
In this way I actually have two bunnies – one by distance and one who will be with me.
Throughout the day and during adoption, I learned more about De Ja Vu including likely having been bred as a meat and fur rabbit and having been in and out of three shelters/rescues already since very young, one of which being known to be a horrible place for the animals kept there – Solono County Animal Care & Services, later to be taken in by Marin Humane Society, and then coming to be at SaveABunny.
She’s still young herself, likely no more than 3 years old (it’s always hard to tell), according to estimates on her paperwork of her age upon arrival to the other places. And in fact, would only be turning 3 come this September. Zephyr is more like 8 or 9 years old.
Physically, she’s a gorgeous bunny, which I had no idea I’d be taking home (although they’re all gorgeous to me in their own way). I never go by visual alone, but see the spirit.
And another surprise was that she has dark fur, whereas I felt a white bunny coming to me – well he did and still is with me as my angel!
Her fur is actually all these shades of almost black, charcoal, silver, and even honey golden with patterns that will continue to shift as she molts. Her fur is actually reminiscent of obsidian – especially the gold and silver obsidian valued and honored by the Mayans and also reminds me of the Cosmos.
She’s a larger bunny, very robust, sturdy, strong, and physically in great health.
However, it is her internal world that requires special needs, which is actually more challenging since you don’t know exactly what you’re dealing with and can’t see it tangibly.
She has a fight mode and this runs deep along with other emotional things. Some is a test and teaching for anyone in contact with her because of her mirroring, but also is connected to getting to the heart of her and to see if you can break through to her core – be worthy of that, plus what she’s seen and been through that she feels to be holding grief over – eventually I hope for her to come to find peace and healing here with me.
She requires a lot of patience, presence, and tuning in to really understand and work through things with her.
But SHE will also be facilitating that work and working YOU, as not only is it her stuff, but also her mirroring yours. If you shift energy just one second, she immediately reacts. Definitely keeps you on your toes and you can’t approach her with any less than yourself.
She asks you to rise to your highest and to maintain that. Otherwise, you can’t meet with that part of her. She’ll grunt and charge with her front paws, or completely with her body if she feels something off, threatened, or simply wanting to test you to see if you’ll easily back off or not get the clue, or if you’ll stand in your strength like she does…then she respects you.
Marcy feels that she’s been waiting for that right person to see her and that she could work with, all of this time she’s been there and not getting adopted. It was emotional to watch the two of them say goodbye, as Marcy told her, “You did it” and also to hear the excitement from one of the regular volunteers when Marcy shared the news.
She asked her to guess who got adopted and when she said “De Ja Vu?” and Marcy confirmed, the woman literally squealed with delight and major joy, telling me how lucky we both were and that I will just adore her.
Well, I already do and I already appreciate and am grateful for the challenge she is providing me, as she feels like the perfect rabbit for me to help me to expand further and challenge and push all of me to go beyond. And I know she’s a super conscious healing bunny who has tons of magick to reveal and will be getting her Reiki training when she’s ready.
She’s also the first female rabbit I’ve had with straight ears, as my others were lops with floppy ears. Only Cosmo and her have had the straight ears. And also Zephyr.
She also REALLY epitomizes my blog I shared about rabbits being tiny ponies, as she sure is! She’s definitely a great therapy rabbit and masterful guide in terms of her mirroring abilities. Just like horses so beautifully and transparently reflect our true vibration, which aids us in taking responsibility for ourselves, this is the M.O. of De Ja Vu. She very attentively listens to the audible and inaudible and understands everything.
And she’s a little fire cracker too! Quite the bad a– bunny with both heart and power. I’d been concerned with her sensitivities that the cats could be too much, but Marcy said “Oh, she’ll beat the sh– out of them”. And she’s been right, as she showed them who’s boss the second she’s been home and they don’t mess much with her.
She’s already created her Queen’s realm. 😉
I feel her arrival with my cleanse/fast, which began fully the day after I brought her home on 6/21 (today is day 3 of 10) is perfect too and will reset the energy for everything together, as she goes through the integration process of being here with me and us.
And perfect timing of her arrival on Summer Solstice’s portal and in the wake of the New Moon tonight. New beginnings all around!
While I am still grieving not physically having Zephyr with us and allowing the emotions to do their thing, it is such a gift that couldn’t have worked out more perfectly in that I still feel he is mine and with me and like I have two rabbits instead of one.
As mentioned, I will sponsor him and intend to go back to visit for longer, as Marcy offered me coming for a weekend, and he and I will continue to stay in connection and he’ll still help with my writing as he has.
Plus! Having the two of them in my life feels so balancing with my sacred male and female energy in that he’s male and white and she’s female and dark/nearly black. So they’re like my Yin and Yang. It doesn’t get any better. 🙂
But of course De Ja Vu will not remain her name, but in fact there is meaning to that name for me personally, as she reminds me of Nestor a lot. She has a very similar essence to her and that regal and strong power. So she’s like a “de ja vu” to Nestor when I look at her and feel her.
Even her behaviors are similar with her racing around and jumping in the air in delight (doing her binkies), which makes me happy to see and know De Ja Vu is content here and feeling the joy of her freedom.
She’s been wonderful so far and immediately went right to her litter box, has been eating, and already challenging us to rise to the occasion.
And ended up being the perfect one to bring home, since I was only bringing one home at this time because we don’t have room for more and that is what felt right for me right now too. She is a one-person bunny and really doesn’t want or need other bunnies because she’s independent and territorial, so she is definitely a perfect familiar for me.
But she is the only one who has been a challenge to get the right name for, so I’ve taken my time to tune in. All my other loves I’d received the name on before they came home, including Big Sur’s as Zephyr.
Yet, she was going to take her time and like with everything about her, I’d have to work at it and be patient. But in the end, I discovered she was aligning her naming with the New Moon today.
Like other magickal things showing up between her and I, her name would be no different. I’d been tuning in the last two and a half days, but nothing was feeling right. Then suddenly this morning (interesting because I felt today I’d know), her name came.
And here’s the even more magickal part of it. I told Dave the name and he got this funny look on his face. He asked, “Did you tell me that yesterday?” I said, “No.” He then said, “Did I tell you that?” And I said, “No,” again.
I said, “Why?”
He said, “Well it’s really weird because last night while laying in bed suddenly that name came into my mind and I was thinking it would be good for her and was trying to think of where I knew it from.”
I smiled. I said, “I guess you did tell me then, but telepathically. We’re so connected! Aw, we named her together and got the same one. It is meant to be. She has spoken.”
And then I find out that it all happened on today’s New Moon SuperMoon in Cancer (which will be at its height tonight, here around 7:30 pm.)
Just like her name, she is so Cosmically and Divinely aligned, as not only did she come to me as a surprise on Summer Solstice, but now gave us her name on the New Moon. Lots more magick in store from her I’m sure!
After the name came I looked into its meaning and origin, finding it is Norse (also very connected for me) and means “divine strength,” “divine beauty,” and “beautiful goddess”. She embodies all of that for sure and reflects as a mirror to see within you too.
She already has nicknames of “Astro Girl,” “Star,” and “Astie,” – the last mirroring Nestor’s nickname of “Nestie.” And the numerology is connected to my birthday of the 26th, as her name breaks down to a 26/8, so we share that as well and continues to mirror the strength she embodies and is about balance and power and is very connected to Capricorn energy, which mom has lots of and is growing into.
Couldn’t be more perfect!
Astrid has been a surprise – a much welcome one – but not anticipated and so I’m flowing with that wonderful change.
But what a journey! And so much growth and expansion already. To think it’s only just begun.
I can’t even begin to express how rich this journey has been over the last 2 and a half months and that it just keeps getting even richer. There are so many layers to all of this, but it’s been amazing and incredulous, more than people would believe or imagine.
And now my sweet girl is with me and is the perfect familiar for this Faery.
She has an otherworldly and Cosmic essence that also blends with my own, but is very solid and balances Earthy energy too. I can feel how much we’re going to be doing together and she’s so amazingly strong and powerful already, I can’t wait to see what she brings forth as the days go on.
And, we’re like two little witchies with our matching hair colors too, which I hadn’t noted until both Marcy and Sharon pointed out, separately, and then I was like, wow….it was written in the stars once again.
I’m still waiting on some more of her fun bunny things mom ordered, to arrive and finalizing set up of her realm, but she’s been enjoying what’s here so far.
I look forward to sharing more updates about Astrid with you and how things progress.
Thank you all for the shared excitement and love.
Animals have souls too and are Spirit in physical form, choosing the body and experience that best supports their journey and the collective tapestry weaving and unfolding. I have always seen them as equals and one and the same as humans. In fact, they have been, and are, my best friends, partners, co-creators, teachers/guides and students, soul mates, and twin souls. As a little girl, they were all I felt most connected to and where I felt most comfortable being in their company.
I remember a channeler once looking at my aura and energetic field and saying how many animal spirit guides I had around me – more than he’d ever seen around someone and – and even my dear Laura sharing, long ago, that she’d never met someone who’s been an animal in past lives more than me (at least at the time that she shared this). 😉
Needless to say, I love and get these sweet souls (as I know many of you do too and would share similar feelings and experiences) and know that they have much to teach us, which is why much of my life is devoted in helping to be a voice for them and their important messages/ways of teaching us, and helping people to recognize they are just like us – helping to look beyond appearances and feel into the heart and spirit.
Yes, stop judging a book by its cover extends to all books.
While I love them all, over time I’ve discovered the ones that speak most to my journey and are constantly around me (like rabbits, horses, butterflies, hawks, whales, dolphins, geese, tortoises…and others I wear on my skin as sacred tattoos). Although new animal spirit guides will wander in and out when needed and in cycles (like many of the ones I post photos of and share about in my blog and on social media, as they flow into my life).
And some in fact are my familiars.
I came into this life with a huge love for horses, likely because of my repetitive and transformative lives as one, but discovered this has been part of my integration and healing process that then has led me forward. And while horses will always be powerfully and soulfully connected, since there is that mirror of recognition and resonance, I’ve now moved into what I like to call the “tiny horse” realm.
This, of course being rabbits.
Why do I call them “tiny horses” you ask?
Well, because in fact they are more closely related to horses than they are to a rat or mouse, contrary to belief.
Rabbits are lagomorphs, not rodents, although do share similarities, but some major differences including their teeth and the fact that lagomorphs are herbivores, whereas rodents are omnivores so they have digestive differences.
There’s also differences in male reproductive parts, whereas rodents have baculum (penis) bones and rabbits do not. Humans, horses, cetaceans (whales and dolphins), and marsupials also don’t have baculum bones.
This may be one of the reasons rabbits are considered close relatives to horses because they both seem to have retained primitive traits from the most primitive boreoeutherian mammals.
Rabbits and horses have the same digestive systems, eat the same kinds of foods, have similar behaviors, sensitivities, prey instincts, and body language, not to mention they are amazing mirrors for therapy work on so many levels. Their faces and heads can literally look like a horse too, minus the long ears.
If you know about horses it definitely will help you to understand rabbits, so no surprise of my own evolution with this.
And a new “tiny horse” is on his way into my life in just 10 days! Yes, I’m doing the countdown. It’s been a long, patient journey awaiting his arrival, due to our travels, but he still hasn’t been adopted and that means our connection has been solidified through our telepathic journeys.
Just two days ago I solidified things further by ordering all of his new supplies, gifts, and special herbal and nutritional items to make him feel right at home and fortified in well being. We don’t have much room in this small treehouse up in Lake Tahoe, so I couldn’t go all out as I wanted to with Faery bunny extravaganza, but he will have the best of nutrition and loving touches of which I can integrate in here to meet his needs. Will be tight, but full of love.
And in the one photo I do have of him, which is what drew me in in the first place, I do have to say he looks like a tiny horse for sure.
Excited for the journey we will share for however long is meant to be.
I will continue to be a voice for the spirits in animal bodies, especially through my magickal rabbit friends, as our Cosmic connection aligns most with my own.
Following the White Rabbit is where the journey begins…a reminder to take chances in life, follow your intuitive nudges and gut instincts, and let your heart and inner mind lead the way. A new way of feeling, thinking, seeing, believing, and being is just around the corner, or perhaps “down the rabbit hole,” leading you to a new opportunity and a whole whimsical “Wonderland” of unlimited possibilities and magickal experiences.
It feels like so many of us are at the precipice of incredible life changes and the White Rabbit is symbolic of this transitional journey and process, as well as the new opportunities, ideas, and paths you contemplate pursuing or that are knocking on your door to get your attention. Sometimes these unexplored new roads and dreams simply beckon us to follow for the sheer joy and adventure of it because with that approach and lightness of curiosity, you aren’t attached to outcomes and defined parameters and will more fluidly enjoy the process, not to mention receive rich experiences that lead to unimaginable fulfillment.
One of the many things rabbits symbolize is abundance. So when we are faced with this “White Rabbit” offering we are being asked to look at what areas in our lives we would like a greater abundance of a particular experience, feeling, or thing – the white symbolizing purity of essence, a blank canvas to create from, and unlimited possibilities of how you can experience the thing you want since white reflects all the frequencies of light and full spectrum of colors in unity.
Do you want more peace, joy, love, creativity, well being, health, freedom, etc. in your life?
There are many opportunities that present themselves to us daily…some more enticing to follow than others, some opening doors to your dreams if you have the courage to do so, and some simply there to reflect our ability to manifest, but not necessarily needing to pursue.
When you decide to follow the White Rabbit you have engaged the innocence within that desires something more, knows there is another perspective or way to live your life, or feels ready to wander into your dreams more than simply in your imagination, but with all of you.
Sometimes the unbelievable invites us to play and challenges us to expand our horizons and travel a more extraordinary journey that can change our life in all the ways we dreamed and then some.
No matter how ridiculous something seems and how foolish you feel to even entertain it, it is exactly these incredulous things that will help us to make the magickal tangible.
The above photo I posted is of me in one of my favorite tanks, which happens to have an Alice in Wonderland theme, including a White Rabbit, with the message below it, “Follow the White Rabbit”.
I often wear it hiking and did also Down Under – no pun intended in mirror of “Down the Rabbit Hole” 😉 These are times/experiences where I find magickal gifts along the journey from nature and listen and observe for those White Rabbit opportunities showing up along the path that lead me to new ideas, perspectives, and doorways that change my life for the good.
And below, you’ll find a photo of me in my favorite Halloween costume from a few years back, as the White Rabbit. I love this image captured with the skull. It paints a whole story itself.
And synchronously, after my sweet Joy and Cosmo moved on to the otherworld, I had been sensing a white rabbit would be entering my life next and that is exactly what is taking place and so many white rabbit signs have been showing up, especially in Australia to reiterate this and the symbolism.
I will be sharing the story of this rabbit soon, but it all definitely feels potent in terms of a new and exciting journey I’m saying “yes” to and following, literally with my own magickal White Rabbit to guide the way.
Where in your life have you turned an eye to opportunities out of fear or feelings of unworthiness?
Perhaps you might decide to invite a White Rabbit into your life with readiness to embark on an exciting journey, knowing and intending you are in the right place, at the right time, doing the right thing.
Ready, set, go!
So much is rapidly unfolding right now in my life, and I know from what I’ve heard from others that the same holds true – Spring has sprung indeed! It’s incredible how all that I knew was percolating and being anchored over the course of the last months, Winter, and year, is coming into manifestation now. And the New Moon in Aries really kicked things in gear with igniting several layers of events unfolding, my own seeding of intentions with certainty of action, and even some surprise arrivals that couldn’t have been cosmically timed better, along with today’s honoring of my dear Nestor…aligning at once.
But first, a sharing of reverence to the spirit who has been my guiding light in life.
I can’t believe it’s been 14 years (today) since this incredible being found me again and re-entered my life in the physical. What a gift you are in my life, even from afar now where you travel the Cosmos like the Cosmic Pilgrim that you are. Thank you Nestor, my twin soul, for everything you have and continue to teach me, for challenging me to be more of who I really am, to help me know the real meaning of love, and for knowing me better than I knew myself. I wouldn’t be where I am and creating what I am right now without your guidance and the tough, tough experiences you threw at me and stood by with your unwavering love and belief in me, so patiently. Where responsibility failed me at times, love helped me rise to the occasion. You are cherished and honored now and always.
It is no coincidence that everything unfolding and arriving in my life right now is connected to this portal day of your arrival. I know, also, that Joy, Gaia, and Cosmo would not have found me either, if it hadn’t been for you.
I love how you continually weave your magick and soon it will be known just how much you’ve changed the course of everything.
It is also no coincidence that a new crystal friend found its way into my life, arriving home to me on the New Moon.
Because of your teaching to me to trust my nudges, this led me to divine alignment in seeing a post by a crystal keeper of a new offering in his collection. The crystal I saw was spoken for, but it wasn’t the crystal itself, but the description that had caught my eye….”Red Rabbit,” And so I inquired, nonetheless, discovering he had just two more available. And one of them I knew instantly you had in mind for me and had helped me navigate to.
It was even given to me at discount and I had a feeling I would find surprises in store. I was sent a quick video of the crystal that went so fast it was hard for me to fully tell, but I had a feeling this was a magickal one. I was able to only discern the number of sides to most of its faces, but one was hidden, so I couldn’t confirm and didn’t feel called to ask about, as I knew to just trust.
And when it arrived, it was in fact what I had felt.
This is not only a potent and beautiful crystal in its own right of being, but turned out to be a Channeler Transmitter Quartz, or Trans Channeler/Dow Crystal as they are known. These seem to keep finding me, as I discovered Fiver’s Quartz was also this, which sits atop my Magick Crystal Wand I kept for myself, and I found two other crystals that will be fashioned into a scepter, which just so happened to be this as well.
Dow Crystals have perfect 7-3-7-3-7-3 face sides and are rare, remarkable healing stones bringing balance and harmony.
AND, to add to that, it is self-healed, has wonderful “root” energy for grounding its high vibes, has laser crystal essence for focus and fine-tuning communication within and with other worlds, and also holds scepter energy, which helps transmit directional energy to the heart of the matter from the higher planes.
AND, another surprise I didn’t see in the video, because he was holding it in a way that covered this, it has a key! A key helps you gain access to information, healing insights, and hidden things, as well as aspects of ourselves by unlocking doors. So, yes, a little portal action to discovery. This is usually and easily recognized by a six-sided indentation on the side of face of the crystal caused by another crystal.
And add to one of its nicknames – “Red Rabbit” – this was like hitting the crystal jack”rabbit”pot for myself with this lovely one.
A little on the crystal properties and generals.
It is an Amphibole Quartz, which is only found in Brazil – a mine in the mountains of Bahia to be precise. They are also known as “Angel Phantom” or “Angel Wing Phantom” sometimes – this is because of inclusions looking like wispy angel wings, and “Red Rabbit” – because of the white streaks flowing through the red like a rabbit dashing through the desert (their white tails create the streak when they run).
They have a beautiful, sweet, pure, but strong energy.
Some of these crystals are more etheric (like mine) in their inclusions and others are very pronounced and more solid appearing – almost like those colored sand creations you can make. This can include hematite (the red), kaolinite (the white), limonite (the yellow), and lithium (the pink).
Because of this mix of inclusions and their infused properties, they create balance on so many levels and assist with grounding and manifesting that which is in the higher realms of experience.
It was a first for me to know of these (all in divine timing) and I can understand why this one has come to me, given I don’t really bring many new crystals in anymore. I don’t look for them or even intend to have more crystals, but a select few have seemed to find me recently due to the new being created.
These crystals bring peace, harmony, serenity, surety, strong sense of quiet confidence with decisions and taking on the unknown and new, but also ground and provide raw energy and drive to do so despite obstacles, and do so with clarity, cohesion, and practicality (hematite), support self-worth, joy, vitality and abundance of energy, and inspiration to share with self and others (limonite), emanate love, compassion, empathy, integrity, and working for the highest good (lithium), and channel inspiration, connection, and channeled light from Crown Chakra and Angelic/etheric realm.
They call it a “manifestation crystal extraordinaire” that assists when we are faced with mountains to cross over and that’s good because I will need it for things upcoming!
It’s also a very potent protector (with discernment to help avoid reactions and fear-based decisions) and cleanser of all toxicity within and without, great for lucid, restful, informative, and peaceful dreaming, past life recall, but also helps you to see your gifts, strengths, increase self-empowerment, and infuses the importance and presence of more high-vibrational universal love, joy, and beauty into your life.
I love what Victoria of Ethereal Energies of Quartz Crystals shares about them:
“This is the perfect tool for the inter-dimensional era we have recently entered, so much unrest, worry, anxiety and fear are running amuck in the daily world news. We all need to take a deep breath and realize by our thoughts, feelings and beliefs today, we create the future we will live in tomorrow. The Amphibole Quartz is exactly what we need to give us that little extra boost of confidence, courage and protection we could all benefit from while we are creating the new us.”
My loves from beyond sure know just what I need for the journey ahead we’re co-creating and their timing is impeccable.
And yesterday, Dave and I had a bunch of things light up, but it was also a significant day just for me because I knew with clarity and conviction that I would get my first draft of my book completed by the time I leave for Australia, as so many things came together to support that. I hadn’t had that definitive feeling happen until then (as I’ve just been flowing along) and I anchored it in while I wrote another small, key part of the story as my action in support of that declaration.
Of course that doesn’t mean it will be done then, as there is a lot of reworking and editing to do, but to have the entire story done will be huge and finish off the cake, while the rest will be the icing that will unravel rather quickly I imagine from there.
Support is all around. It’s time, especially now, to manifest with certainty of action that backs your intents, connect with the essence behind your desire and how it can help bring more love and light into the world and is connected with All That Is, and believe the help and assistance will be there.
You can have the miracles and make the leaps desired.
You can write a new chapter in your life and recreate anew.
Today would have been Nestor’s 14th birthday and I still celebrate and honor this powerful soul even though she left her Earthly body almost 9 years ago. She has seen to it that others of our soul family have found their way to me and me to them, constantly watches over and guides me, cares for my human self when she feels deeply, sends me messages and signs, supports me with my path and life’s work, and fuels my heart with love and devoted compassion and passion.
Oh the stories I could share that would seem incredulous.
What a magickal day she shares on this celebration of Imbolc.
So many wonderful messages have come through from her and our beloved friends recently and especially between yesterday and today.
Feeling her so much and grateful for her continued support in my life.
Where there is love there is no separation.
I am with her now, as I always have been.
So much rapid change taking effect in very literal ways for everyone and I’ve found it to be directly tied to greater embodiment of one’s own essence and authenticity, which then emanates clearly through. It’s connected to the messages we’re receiving about stepping up, raising our vibrations, and living out loud with greater courage and integrity to our nature of origins. And when we do, everything shifts in direct reflection to that in our environment, interactions, experiences, realities, and even how we start to look physically in correlation to our energetic frequency glowing from the inside out.
And the more we embrace who we are and aren’t afraid to put it out there, the more others feel greater ease and comfort in doing the same too.
I’ve written before on how my lifestyle and life path changes have changed so much for me as a result of embracing deeper integration of my uniqueness and what feels most authentic to myself, along with making balance and harmony a foremost focus and experience.
And while we speak often about the emotional, mental, and spiritual ways this happens and takes effect, we often overlook the physical because there’s an undercurrent of negativity placed there or invalidation of it because that’s thought to NOT be part of “ascension” ideas and living a spiritual life.
Time and again I’ll reiterate that it’s about integration….physical and spiritual together in harmony and each reflecting the other.
“The very reason each exists is to integrate wholeness and realize the partnership they share, one channeled through the other.
The physical becomes sacred.
The spiritual becomes tangible.
And together they exist simultaneously in harmony.”
(Excerpt from my book, Spiritual Skin)
I’ve always been quite literal in making outer transformations or taking actions that match my shifts internally or the shifts I desire to make, so as to create a space for me to grow into. Such has been the case, for instance, with my sacred tattoos. But it’s also been with things like my hair, my clothing, adornments, and even my body or face morphing.
A lot of this is that I tend to feel “not myself” if the outer doesn’t match the inner or where I’m headed and some of it is as a direct result of needing to express my personality, unique creative self expression, and way in which feels most aligned with the “real” me.
Some simply happens naturally and some with intention to match the natural.
So, as mentioned, with so many shifts lately for me in very dramatic ways, I’ve seen this naturally express itself with how I look and my desires to share how I feel.
Some results that naturally happened are my hair growing long very quickly, my silver grays growing in abundantly, but in a very almost deliberate way (someone recently called them “highlights from the Fae,” which I’ve now adopted and love), my body taking on a naturally balanced, more Earthly fullness rather than my waif self, my skin finding its healthy, clear balance because of my own, and my body becoming fully adorned with sacred and balanced art that feel like adornments reflecting the inside out I couldn’t imagine not being there (some people have shared they can’t imagine me without them and that they’ve never seen tattoos placed in such a way where they are like they’ve manifested themselves in transparency of revealing what’s underneath.)
And of course the way I dress has gone, and continues to go, through constant transformation, which is why I move out clothes often and bring in new that are more reflective and help me feel like “me” just as my tattoos help me to feel more at home in my own skin.
I immediately can feel “off” if my hair or clothing is not matching the vibe of how I’m feeling and what I’m creating in my life currently – literally, making me feel quite energetically icky and out of place.
And over this last year that has taken a huge turn, as mentioned already in my hair taking its natural, ancient and cosmic “roots”, and just this Saturday while visiting and taking my parents out to celebrate my mom’s upcoming 74th birthday tomorrow, I knew I needed to have my hair freshened and purged.
My mom used to be a beautician (what her family did back in France), so she’s done my hair a lot over time and Saturday we chopped off four inches to my very long hair. This felt necessary, as the ends are literally and symbolically the oldest parts and carry the energy of the past…so it felt important to literally shed it, just like my dreams of snake skins recently, and how I regularly enjoy body scrubs to slough off old skin too.
Being that my hair had grown so long, it still remains so, but it was amazing once again to see and feel how that made a difference even without getting a whole new hairstyle – yet. 😉 I not only looked different, but felt completely lightened and new and it even activated the next phase of change upcoming with more hair shifts to match dreams and visions I’ve been having of my origins.
But on top of this, I’ve purged, minimized further, and refreshed my wardrobe as well, and all of this has really become outwardly a reflection of the magickal parts of life and my wanting daily to, in all ways, live fully as all that I love and really am, and will keep me clearly focused on the path ahead in the most embodied and aligned way.
This has seemed to morph me literally into my Faery Bunny self, with hints of cosmic, ancient, and water nymph/mer qualities.
So while people may have felt this about me, it really isn’t something one would have to “feel into” anymore, as it’s becoming quite literal.
I feel and see this to be happening more and more with many people, as things shift and we’re lighting up those latent parts of our DNA, stepping up and out, and integrating more of our Cosmic and Earthly selves, we are seeing this in how we find ourselves walking in our human bodies as more of the otherworldy beings we have retrieved and remembered, through physical form here.
Exciting times and feels so much more natural.
So while most people know I’m a rabbit lover or perhaps a crazy rabbit lady 😉 some may not know how far that extends, but truly my life is immersed in Faery bunny energy through and through.
These are just some photos of the magickal bunny wardrobe I have and wear below. Photos include: 3 sparkly vegan rabbit shoes (I normally only wear flats, but bunnies have me reaching to new heights again these days when I feel so called), matching vegan rabbit purse, a one-of-a-kind amethyst carved rabbit ring, a purple satin skater dress with dancing bunnies, an aqua poodle skirt with bunny border, and my Peter Rabbit collection of vintage 60’s dress, wedge heels, vintage Beatrix Potter original sweater, and my Peter Rabbit statue from Laura.
Laura has even said I’ve literally turned into a Faery bunny, like this photo that briefly captured this in me seeping through in one of my shape shifting moments a couple of years ago and now seems to be the pervading emanation these days, although has integrated with the other elements I shared above, too. I’m curious to see how this will evolve and morph in the days and months ahead.
But what you don’t see pictured here is that my wardrobe and sacred space also include a vintage rabbit cardigan, 4 rabbit t-shirts, 3 rabbit tank tops, 3 rabbit leggings, 1 rabbit sweatshirt, several rabbit pendants and rings, 1 rabbit scarf, rabbit flannel jammies, rabbit artwork, a stuffed rabbit I sleep with (the surrogate bunny to my little ones that they enchanted), a rabbit support pillow, crystal rabbits, and other rabbit pieces for my sacred space.
And the rest of my wardrobe contains various other elements of “me” and anything that doesn’t I either have, or will continue to weed out.
I’ve fully cracked open the Cosmic egg and all the “me” is oozing out for sure without worrying what others may think. Just simply about living a life of passionate purpose by looking within and seeing what truly moves me and melting into that love.
One sweet friend of mine shared, “I love your daring use of fantasy fairy elements proving that fashion is for fun and personal pleasure and in this case also the delight of others.”
It reiterated to me, that when we embrace what truly brings us the greatest joy, express that in any and all forms, and understand how we can utilize all aspects of life and the material in creative, healthy, and valuable ways, we also bring that same energy to others to experience through our expressions and to mirror the relative possibilities within each other to do more of what supports this too in life.
So while I could just feel and emanate my essence energetically, I’ve been guided to literally take this through to all levels of experience, to include the physical as an expression of consistency and action in a holistic way and through every avenue of my existence here.
Having peeled back the layers I find clarity in my divine desires and that all things I’m about are truly encapsulated in the focus of what inspires me most. Channeling this into soul fulfillment, dream manifestation, and the reality of my choosing is the gift of letting this desire move through me and that includes moving through me in any and all ways – sharing and expressing my deepest divine desires and beingness.
One of my oracle tarot cards I recently pulled, shared this beautifully,
“Desire sometimes gets a ‘bad rap’ in spiritual circles, or it is celebrated as being something that should be pursued without restraint. The truth that will serve most spiritual aspirants best is somewhere in the middle of these two extremes. Desire need not be a distraction from your spiritual journey nor a goal to be pursued at any cost, even to your own integrity. Desire on the spiritual path can become a way to know what is going to move and inspire you enough to see you through the challenges that arise when you want to create a contribution to the world. If you long to bring your ideas to life, rather than keep them only as ideas, then desire can become enlivening fuel for the spiritual path, motivating you to act rather than hesitate. Searching for your true soul desires helps you find what it is you can believe in more than fear or doubt.”
I believe that living our authenticity in any and all ways that feels truest to ourselves and expresses our passions is effective use of creative power and supportive of personal empowerment and frequency, joyous living, and inspirational motivation that aligns and supports us with our intents, while igniting similar fires within others.
Plus, it simply brings a little sparkle of joy to the day, some giggles, and smiles…and if nothing else, that’s worth a lot!
Today would have been the 2 year anniversary of my precious rabbit, Cosmo, having first entered and graced my life with his presence. But he was long before that spreading his messages of healing, as an ambassador of compassion and peace for the Humane Society International – End Animal Testing Campaign in China.
This is an ad from that campaign where Cosmo is featured with actress Zhu Zhu – the first Chinese celebrity to ever speak out about animal testing in China.
I am honored that I could help continue to bring his messages and be his voice for the time he was with us and will continue to spread his message.
I’ve written extensively about him in my blog and shared what he taught everyone who came in contact with him and experienced his unconditional and unwavering love and peace, despite having lived an extremely challenged life and being a special needs rabbit.
Today, and always, I honor this incredible soul that changed me forever in the best of ways and continues to make a difference in the world.
Dream posts continue, as this was another meaningful dream I felt compelled to share now that I’ve had time with it for myself. The day after my dream I posted yesterday about the two blue snakes and gila monster, as you might recall was the day “The Tree Beckoned and I Followed.” Well, after that experience in finding the presence of orbs all around me inside the tree portal (appearing like I’d stepped inside the Cosmos) that night I had another potent and healing dream that brought full circle a gift from my beloved rabbit, Joy, who has also been showing up so profoundly lately.
Synchronously, this was also the night of the marches collectively taking place.
Since many of you so sweetly sent messages and love about Joy when she transitioned and have followed along with my bunny love’s journeys, I thought this might be not only conclusive as a companion piece to my share about Joy’s last moments and days on Earth in the physical I wrote and spoke about extensively in this post “In Life & Death, “Joy” Is Always There,” but may also be supportive to others who have experienced loss of their beloved animal companions and loved ones in demonstrating the eternal connection that does not end and how we are continually being supported by the connection shared.
In my dream on Saturday 1/21, Joy was with me and she had taken ill, just like in the end before she left in waking life. The odd thing was that her tail came off in the dream and it was very large – much larger than normal size. It literally broke off on its own, but perfectly. I could see all of the tiny bones and ligaments that connect it to her bum, but where it broke off was so clean and precise, without blood or any signs of injury. This indicates to me a sense of no suffering being experienced on her “end” and a clean “ending” and healing closure at the “tail end” of this experience. The tail being so large and furry feels to be definitive in this closure and the “end of an era” again reiterated for me, balance being restored, and that I’m using intuition, creativity, and wisdom in my life more than ever and this will be increasing.
Although rabbit’s feet are connected to “lucky charms,” the tail may also be considered as such since there is connection with rabbit’s tails as their way of escaping predators with the white flash of the tail confusing them as to their exact location when in pursuit.
I also feel this symbolism she showed me is directly connected to my book, but that’s for me to understand the connection, although I will say that direct healing is involved on many levels with its unfolding.
But back to the dream….
I then notice her feet, especially the left one, and they look exactly like Fiver’s – the mouse that I nurtured recently.
These mouse feet were only on her back legs, just like Fiver’s back legs were the only part of him that showed signs of his injury from the impact to that area and lower back.
That left leg on her was completely limp, red, bruised. I remember one spot on Fiver’s leg had a bruised, red area, so again tied in with him.
Then in the dream she comes and lays on me, as I comfort her and caress her.
In the dream I start calling around to vets to get her in (just as I did in waking life when she took ill), but I get the sense she won’t make it in time to get there. In real life, she had just made it to the ER after a long over an hour’s drive and then passed not long after I left her in the doctor’s care to monitor over night, at her request.
So, now in the dream I am aware she won’t make it and I will just be with her to help her transition peacefully, just like I was there for Fiver.
She is in my arms and then suddenly she lets out a little cry, followed by one last big breath and I know she is leaving her body with that.
Nestor had let out a piercing, excruciating cry when she left this Earth, but this was different….it was soft and although rabbit’s only cry when in pain, it was an indication of release rather than suffering to me and not as tormenting to experience as Nestor’s was.
(BTW, this is how she actually transitioned when I left her at the ER, as the doctor shared this with me when she called to tell me that she let out a soft cry and took a big breath and went.)
I then rub her head softly, as she lays in my arms and tell her over and over that I love her, wanting that to be the last thing she hears before she completely goes and slowly her heart and breathing wind down to nothing.
I’m sobbing in the dream and at this point can feel my half wake state in real life and know and can hear me wimpering in real life too.
Although emotional, it was a gentle experience and was not at all a dream, but completely a reality she and I were sharing for a purpose and rewriting the end together.
I felt that she was connecting me to understand a deeper healing than I may have been aware of that I had through Fiver.
Perhaps wanting me to know she had projected a part of herself in Fiver when he had come to me, or that he had been sent to me by her, as a way for me to experience this healing with him through her.
This may include being there with her at the very end when she transitioned, since I was not when she passed, as I had left her at the ER by her choice in not wanting me to have to go through that experience.
Although I knew she wanted that and maybe thought I was not ready yet for this, I felt like I wished I’d been there. Maybe her seeing how I handled Cosmo’ passing, made her now know I was ready and she gifted me this experience in “dream” time and with Fiver, so I could relive being there with her.
And she gifted it in a gentle, beautiful way.
Even the way that Fiver jumped on the crystal when he transitioned, like blasting off into the Cosmos, could have been a sign of connection with her since Joy was so connected to crystals herself and always layed with them and had their points jutting into her body to receive their energy, working with gridding our homes and journeying with them.
This dream, as they all are to me, was very “real time”. And I did feel this sense of deepening closure and peace knowing I supported her this way and that I was strong enough now to keep going through these kinds of experiences in supporting these sweet souls in their transitions.
And afterall, Joy is a cosmic traveler, shape shifter, and portal journeyer. You might recall that she and Nestor showed up in Glacier National Park as the two cosmic deer on the day I spread their ashes, from this post: Spreading Ashes, Spreading Joy ~ Cosmic Encounters & Sacred Connections
So connecting with Fiver is not far from reach for her either. 😉 And creating timeline jumps for us to relive/recreate what “is” would be right up her alley too. I love how she changed the “ending” and that I could be with her.
Quick side note and speaking of Nestor, the day after that dream we headed down the stairs from our place and the crew was there shoveling the snow as they do and one guy says to the other to alert him we were coming up behind him since he was busy shoveling and didn’t see us, “Watch out Nestor.” I smiled so big knowing my sweet Nestor was wanting to chime in too with reiteration to the dream connections.
And to add to the timings and synchronicity, another tie-in with Joy took place just a couple of days before my dream of her. I received a voicemail message from the doctor in Jackson, Wyoming who did her surgery. The story line of this is included in the above post on her transition.
He was such an angel, who came in on his day off to do this, talked to me on the phone, provided me his personal number and went above and beyond in helping her/me.
A little rewind…..about a month or a few weeks after Joy passed I’d sent him a plant with a nice thank you note just wanting to acknowledge how grateful I was for everything that he’d done for us. He even called me the night she transitioned after talking with the ER doctor that night (late I might add) to give her background right before she passed.
I actually never heard from him after I sent the thank you gift, so I wasn’t sure if he got it, but figured that our crossing of paths was complete.
Then 6 months later he calls and in his message says he just wanted to say hello, was thinking of me, thanked me for the nice plant and thoughtful card…and told me whenever I had time to give him a call to talk because he had felt such a good vibe from me and really connected with me, so he wanted to see how I was.
I was so touched and it felt like Joy’s way of starting to get the ball rolling with her plan of recreating the “end”.
And then back to the day at the tree portal, right before that night’s dream, I now was able to connect the dots and that this portal was activating the opening to this experience Joy was setting up for me to rewrite “history” and I feel that larger orb above me was her.
What an experience and how gracious and loving Joy is to gift me this one thing I had wished.
There are no limitations to our connections, eternal love and bonds, and what is possible.
I feel a greater lightness and deepening of my love with her and my loves, and gratitude for her gifts in knowing what would be perfect for my journey and moving forward with my work.