You are the first garden you must learn to tend. There is no one else that can do this as well as you. How little or how much you care about this garden, shows. The kinds of things you nourish yourself with, how much you cultivate certain practices as important, and the things you choose to give energy to mentally, emotionally, physically, and spiritually will have an effect on how you show up in the world.
Life used to seem so complicated to me until I realized that I was the only one making it that way. By buying into all of these ideologies that were part of “this or that” ways of believing, I created a lot of nonsensical pressures that had absolutely nothing to do with the essence of me.
And yes, that included the spiritual realms I was drawn to move more into as I journeyed through life.
The bottom line that I learned, is that I never really wanted to belong or feel assured by any particular group or movement. I always had only desired to be contently me – just like Nature and the Cosmos both are.
Everyone has their own journey, but it took completely undoing myself, stripping away all the energetic debris that had brushed off of everyone onto me, in order to do that.
I still fully believe had it not been for jumping into an RV for a year and a half to immerse in nature, I would not be here still. And yet it’s also on that adventure into the unknown that literally the old story me walked out of my body in a river, and a new story walked in.
I would never be the same again, nor could I go back ever again – even if I wanted to.
Ever since then, I’ve been recalibrating what it feels like to be in this body with a fresh soul perspective. It’s taken time to feel things out, explore the possibilities to cultivate, and decide where to go from here.
Kind of like being a child all over again, but having a different level of consciousness.
It’s much like my garden after Winter’s frost and snow.
Everything is fertile, lively, and jubilant to feel the warmth of the Sun, wiggle, stretch, and unfurl every inch of life loose from the soil, see what will be possible in terms of abundant growth, wonder what will bloom or what will wait to gain greater strength for the next season or year, and what just goes all out to create the most incredible burst of life right here and now.
With less than two years until I turn 50, I see what the previous me who was just starting out in body then, had felt all along about this time period of my life. I always experienced things as if I was outside of myself watching myself go through everything and although knew better, relinquished to the feeling of purpose it all had to just go through it. I felt on some level that the real choices and freer me would begin in the latter half of my life.
That earlier life was both a mirage to keep me occupied and undo patterns and illusions, while things in the world were playing out, and also an intricate labyrinthian journey to the center of me.
I was on a complex crash course so I could re-enter the world with simplicity.
Stripping down to the bare me.
And literally unzipping my body suit so that a whole new emanation of myself could slip in upon the old one’s release.
Every time I look at my garden – each season, each day, and several times a day – I see this release taking place in every moment while new life steps in.
There’s reason my garden is just steps outside of my creative space and office. There is a mirroring that takes place every minute I make a new choice.
I find it easier and easier to let go of things and make peace my daily goal. I experience the simplicity of life unfolding as its own work of art at every stage. I finally feel comfortable in my skin in a way that both honors my human expression that I decided to have at this time on Earth AND my Cosmic connection that merges with me daily in gratitude for the opportunity to experience it all and live out the potentials I can contribute with others to create.
It’s as if both the land all around us where we live – the forests, mountains, lakes, and meadows, as well as the land I’m nurturing into a garden and yard while also supporting its wild, raw nature to do as it pleases, have become one with me.
And the more I drop into that deeper connection within, the more I seem to physically change alongside Nature, naturally.
I love to adorn myself like my flowers and join the dance, but I also love to be raw like the soil, rocks, bark, and moist sprouts. I feel whole in any expression, but only walk in expressions that are me in every moment of my wild heart’s resonance – not for anyone else and not to mirror anyone else.
We are each our own flower and plant within the garden of life – no less or more than any other. Yet, what the land, Nature, and Earth teach us, is that great care is needed to support a thriving, harmonious and abundant garden.
Yes, that’s you!
It’s amazing how much of that rainbow and portal energy keeps showing up in photos, as you’ll see below, especially when I’m out being with all of it, standing stronger in my essence, nurturing myself alongside my copartnering outdoor realm, and adding recognition of the magick that is here with little touches of enchanted beings and portals of my own.
I mentioned that I would share some photos of the yard and garden before things really start to emerge and today’s Earth Day felt like the best time to do that, along with messages of tending to our inner and outer gardens as being equally essential and worth the devotional investment.
I like to document the before and after and to see how much things evolve from onset of one season to the next.
I’ve taken these photos in this post over a period of the last two to three weeks, during which several new friends have joined the garden.
Most of them are solar lights, as I truly love the twilight and night magick they create, but some are simply sweet souls who spoke to me. Some I’ve already shared, so I’ll only introduce the new ones.
We have this cute little blossom snail who lives near one of the new solar faery houses at the pathway entrance.
Then there’s these ever-precious ones – a rabbit riding a tortoise. I just HAD to bring them home as they remind me of Joy and Gaia who were best friends and I really was feeling my Russian Tortoise, Gaia, needed to be part of the garden here along with the rabbits and magickal beings. They are so life-like, it’s truly endearing.
Incredibly, but not surprisingly, look at the energy that showed up RIGHT after I placed them by the gnome and faery portal door at the base of one of the guardian trees where there are also crystals laid in the ground as a path in front of the door.
It took me a little while to hear where they wanted to go, but I think they’re happy here, don’t you?
Then there’s this beautiful mushroom blossom solar light that sits to the right, next to the pathway.
It has a monarch and poppy – like the ones that grow in my garden – on top.
And last, this gorgeous, enchanted moon faery with solar light orb. I just love how she’s holding a star and blowing it a kiss.
And of course you already saw these two twin white bunnies who are ever-so wonderfully overseeing the growth of my yellow lilies.
It’s one happy, secret faery garden family! And still growing!
I have many ideas that are incubating like the seeds beneath the soil.
Check out all these happy wildflower babies reaching for the sunshine!
The rainbow energy and portals seem to confirm a Cosmic smile of the harmony being created here too.
And the forest animals are all expressing their happiness as well. Their fountain and bowl are filled regularly with fresh water, which brings every variety of bird in for baths and drinks, along with chipmunks and squirrels enjoying a nice refreshment too. There’s a chickadee couple that loves to visit me when I’m out watering the garden, but it was this Steller’s Jay just two days ago that was the sweetest.
Usually the Steller’s Jay are much louder and like to boldly vocalize their dominion over certain spaces or at least express their boundaries and voices. This one started off talking in similar fashion, but the tone was different and wanted my attention. Then when he knew he had it his voice softened into what would be similar to a cat’s purr. It was a little bit like a sweet cooing that doves and pigeons make, but more. It reminded me of our parakeets that would fluff out and nuzzle into us warmly with affection. This was a cuddly sweet talk that felt like he was so happy and if I’d been on the branch with him, he would have snuggled into me and expressed his joy.
A love song and dance perhaps? He was definitely quite comfy and pleased.
Equally pleased is the yard out front that’s in a dance of yellow daffodils and wild dandelions right now with even more still on the way that are on their own blooming timelines. We have a large tree on the lawn that will be surrounded by blooms soon, which will look like a faery ring. These current daffodils followed my late Winter, pre-Spring, birthday purple irises. And there will be tulips coming soon too. I intend to plant a ton more bulbs come Autumn.
Step-by-step things evolve.
I spent time clearing the yard and garden, tidying old growth up, and planted a ton of wild flower seeds in the garden to add to all the wild growth already sprouting like crazy. Tiny clover is beginning to return on the lawn in patches. I’m looking forward to seeing it all filled in again. For now, this is a transitional time period where the brown and dried remains of Winter turn over, mirroring our own in between phases.
I’m still waiting for my favorite store to get in their herbs, veggies, and flowers, so I can add some things to my Garden Tower and garden. For now, I did find four little sweet basil plants I added to the Tower for Astrid and they smell SO good.
Well, all of what’s already growing back in the Tower does. The sweet basil is doing really well alongside all of the lovely regrowth from last year of mint, lavender, strawberry plants, wild flowers, thyme, parsley, and other herbs. The basil plants are the only new babies I’ve planted so far. Everything else you see everywhere is what’s naturally coming in on its own.
Incredibly, I even have two baby pine trees that have decided to make the Tower their incubation realm. They’ve been growing there since last Spring. I even have a couple more growing in pots. If they actually are able to stay healthy and strong, I’ll likely let them grow a bit more and then try to transplant them. They seem happy for now though with their friends.
Perhaps the tree frog that made the Tower her home last year wanted her own forest here too. 🙂 I hope she’ll return.
Here in the mountains things take a little longer since temperatures are colder longer and more variable, but there are always those plants and blooms who like to do their own thing and just go all out when ever they please – just as I mentioned before.
We actually had a little snow last night that I saw remnants of on the deck railings, rain the night before, and some snow a day or two before that. It all melts immediately, but things are not predictable here.
Every one of these plants and blooms has a little bit of me in them and vice versa. So, too, does the variety of terrain in the mountains that we have. Even the weather mirrors my own shifting waves of energy and wild unpredictability. We share a symbiotic relationship and the more increased time I spend outdoors, which is daily as it is, the more I relax into me.
And the more me I am, the easier it is to ride any energy currents that flow in and out around me.
The more me I am, the more easily I recognize what is me and what is not me.
The more in touch with myself I feel, the more I can handle things that pop up and they aren’t so surprising.
The more I tend to the garden of me, the more peace, flow, vitality, and compassion I experience.
Our Spring Scorpio Full Moon on this coming Monday night of the 26th is going to be a Super Pink Moon – the first Supermoon of the year.
This could be a more difficult and deeply emotional or triggering Moon to navigate through due to the challenging planetary aspects surrounding it that may bring to surface some unexpected things. With Sun in Taurus and Moon in Scorpio right now, we are being prompted to look at the contrasts of form and transformation, personal joy with the simple and sensual aspects of life and the intangible complexities of shared things, building and comfort and destruction and change, and how we can find balance with these.
This is a time for going deeper and exploring our values and the far-reaching effects they have. While we are in a Taurus cycle of grounding spirit in flesh, Scorpio then calls up the mysterious, secretive, and repressed so that we may need to be more vulnerable in order to understand ways of finding peace within ourselves even when the world seems upside down, or when we are being called to deconstruct, let go, and recreate what we thought was the holy grail of our lives.
The more we can tend our inner gardens, the more we understand the Nature of things and how to partner with them more effectively, if in fact we desire seeing a more thriving world and Earth.
Be bold, brave and unafraid to create those massive Cosmic ripples – this was yesterday’s message from Bald Eagle.
This last photo is from yesterday’s bike ride. The day before, while riding along the lake, I had a vision of Bald Eagle flying near, although did not see one with my eyes. This continued when I was sun bathing on the deck later, feeling Bald Eagle close and like he could land on the roof any minute. Little did I know that the next day we would actually have a visit.
When we arrived to the lake we biked to Dave, who didn’t know I had been thinking about Eagle, asked “When was the last time we saw that one Eagle at the lake here?”
At that moment Eagle flew overhead and landed in the tree across the lake. You can catch glimpse of him here with a second Eagle to the left in the shadows.
I love stuff like that.
When we’re in tune with ourselves, everything conspires in unison.
Eagle symbolizes freedom and courage to look ahead, the value of vulnerable truth and revealing honesty, liberation, electrifying inner vision clarity, embody the Spring, dawn, and new life, and to Native Americans are Earthly incarnations of the Thunderbird spirit who shoots lightning bolts from her/his eyes to invoke revitalization, rebirth, creation, and transformative healing. Eagles carry the messages of spirit and are the divine channels to receive these from.
A perfect messenger for this time of year, the upcoming Full Moon, and the unfolding energies on the planet right now.
Happy Earth Day!
Although we still walk through patches of melting snow and ski upon fresh powdered sugar-laced grounds that surround us here in the high mountain altitudes of the Sierra Nevadas, the sunshine illuminates in warm vernal rays, the skies have begun to moisten the forests with cleansing rains mixed with whispers of Jack Frost’s lingering goodbyes, and the Earth is singing in green bursts of celebration.
There are still the morning dawns of ice diamonds upon branches, brisk chills in the Zephyr winds, and snow tracks from burrow to burrow of the snowshoe rabbits turned white. Yet muddy trails emerge for hopeful feet to journey upon lotus promised grounds.
“If there comes a little thaw,
Still the air is chill and raw,
Here and there a patch of snow,
Dirtier than the ground below,
Dribbles down a marshy flood;
Ankle-deep you stick in mud
In the meadows while you sing,
“This is Spring.”
~Christopher Pearce Cranch, A Spring Growl
As we step through the potent Spring Equinox Gateway, I am reminded that Nature reflects to us how to navigate the inner realms by way of surveying Her landscape as our own spiritual terrain.
Ostara is the Goddess of Spring who nurtures the innately rich land and keeps a loving eye on all the sprouting new life emerging from Winter’s blanket. This time of awakening from quiet preparation gets stirred by her fertile spell into inspired action.
She illuminates opportunity and the dawning of a new cycle, where possibility stirs in every new bud of life.
The sensual, soft, and magnetic aspects to the sacred feminine she embodies, also carry powerful creative forces like no other that can give and take away life through birth and rebirth.
This is the access point to the field of potential within the vortex of your heart.
There are many symbols that represent the generative powers of Spring – some of my favorite including the rabbit or hare, butterflies, blossoms, and The Cosmic Egg.
For Winter Solstice I was called to share with your heart, a visual spell from the essence of my spirit and once again I drop into the well of my heart’s depth to bring forth another of my spirit’s emanation. The creative energy of my signature frequency heeds the call to express herself as a form of transformative regeneration to join with the collective’s intentions to create a New Earth experience.
Through our creative energy, we each weave a thread of activation that unites the collective tapestry.
We each embody an energy signature and archetype by birth. My own, from onset of Earthly emergence this life, carries the numerology of the number three when my birthday is broken down simplistically. This is the energy signature of The Empress in Tarot ~ creative abundance and manifestation, unlimited fertile possibility, harmony, love, Earth Mother nurturing and growth, creating beauty, sensual comfort, stability, birthing of new beginnings that constantly recreate themselves, and wholeness from bigger picture Cosmos to smallest Earthly detail.
Synchronously, the qualities of Ostara are found in The Empress. And so it is no wonder I walk this Earth with a rabbit familiar and rabbits have been my soul companions for years – my first appearing when I was twelve years old. It’s also no coincidence that when I first, very consciously, began my spiritual journey and asked to receive the symbol of my life’s work, it came to me as the butterfly.
And ever since each of these first appearances in my life, both have been prolific in presence and uncanny experiences, not to mention have shown up in consistent, guiding ways.
So, when I received the message that I would be sharing another visual spell for this seasonal turn of the Wheel, it became clear I was to embody my birth essence in honor of Ostara and Spring.
My Venus in Aquarius has been speaking very loudly these days and partnered with my inner Empress, the creative expressions you see here are my answer to the Spring nudges, carrying a specific encoded message from heart to heart.
While Astrid would have lovingly danced with me, I decided to let her rest and support me from the comfort of her castle tower overlooking things from her dream state, as she’s already bravely taken on so much this Winter with our journeys. She instead helped choose the pieces to accompany me, including a golden rabbit as her stand-in.
I hope you enjoy this creative expression from my thread of the tapestry and here’s a Spring Equinox Prayer and Ostara Poem to accompany the journey as you flutter softly through our transitioning forest and garden here with me:
The dancing hare foretells the spring,
With fertility and new life this time does bring,
Gay Eostre dances on the earth,
As seeds and flowers come to birth.
Tulips and daffodils come into bloom,
And life sprouts from the Mother Earth’s womb,
Birds lay their eggs now and the light is growing,
Catkins and blossoms on the leaves are showing.
The sun reaches forth with his hand,
To the Maiden of flowers returns to the land,
Their dance brings new balance into our life,
Planting the seeds to overcome strife.
We grow with the flowers and the trees,
Winters gloom banished on a spring breeze.
The joy of new birth enters our hearts,
As we look forward to Beltane’s love.
May this portal of renewal activate your own rebirthing of creative expression, abundant potential, and harmonious, inspired action.
Today’s Musings are threefold. I’d like to first start off with a short reshare of part of a blog post I wrote over 3 1/2 years ago that feels important again. It speaks to fostering hope and how powerful it can be in your life. I know that many people are experiencing a wide range of things from having some pretty fantastic openings, finally getting over the threshold and starting something new, to experiencing some sudden roadblocks and unexpected changes that are perhaps confusing, frustrating, or disconcerting after feeling like things were moving along well.
While we’re still in Winter, we are in fact closing in on Spring Equinox when daylight will start to increase again and more illumination and growth will take place – basically reminding us that light always returns, new life, beginnings, and seeds of change are at hand.
It speaks to hope.
But wouldn’t it be nice to bring that light and hope with you all year round?
When things get “dark” why is it that we forget all of the experiences where the light shined again in our lives, or how good it felt when we gave ourselves the nurtured opportunity to have fun, explore, be creative, take a break, and recharge?
I shared this once, but want to put it out there again…. I propose we each commit to taking a “Hope Holiday” on a daily, weekly, and monthly basis, as seems most beneficial to your life and personal experiences.
What does that mean?
It means allowing yourself to hope and dream, creatively engaging your imagination and bringing the music of your heart into your every day, even if just for a couple of minutes of day-dreaming, journaling, or visualizing. Doing this to the extent that you give yourself permission to immerse so fully into that minute or two that your body tingles and sings from your heart with that “becoming” that takes place, as you get lost in your hopes.
This isn’t to deny that you may be experiencing something very dark and restrictive feeling, as that is a valid feeling to allow yourself to explore. But it is a way to actively engage yourself into learning how to make a safe space for your heart’s desires to see the light.
The more you do this, the more that part of you feels supported and begins to expand with your cultivated love, much like a garden.
Your couple of committed minutes of daily “Hope Holiday” journeying may turn into any opportunity in the day you find yourself worrying and going over your usual mental chatter religiously. You’ll soon discover how much more productive you are because your energy is being engaged in a way that can create more of the things you want. And this starts a ripple effect into manifestation.
Small seeds of hope become blossoms of creation.
Hope is a place all to yourself that no one can take away from you. It’s like a self-induced “holiday” you can take at any time, and go anywhere you’d like with it….it’s only limited by your imagination.
It is where you are free to dream and activate your creative potential as a powerful multi-dimensional, creative being.
There are unlimited possibilities because you are an extension of a limitless Source gifted with evolutionary experiences at your will’s choice.
I take many a “Hope Holiday,” but tomorrow being my birthday will have me creating even more space than a few minutes of that for myself.
Tomorrow I turn 46, which in and of itself is just a number, but numerologically does carry its own energy. It will be a different day for me on many levels and I plan to engage in some things that I love and that embody the energy of how I want to walk forth into this new life cycle.
Yesterday I celebrated my rabbit, Joy, who was my birthday gift to myself and from my rabbit, Nestor, 10 years ago. It is also fascinating that parts of the Amethyst Rabbit came home to me, which was connected to both of them, in time to celebrate my birthday too. And, my sweet friend, KC (aka Bean), pointed out that one of the pieces was in a new form of rabbit that looks exactly like Astrid when she stretches out relaxing. That reveal was similar to when I first took home the Amethyst and noticed the very distinct rabbit I had not seen initially. All things confirming what our hearts lead us to.
Lots of bunny love surrounding this time for me and that will lead to the third part of this share today, upcoming shortly.
I always feel a shift with each birthday, but this increasingly is happening the older I get. Things accelerating and many things finally feeling most naturally at peace and in flow.
This year will be a big year of focused work alongside creativity for me and feels like it will be pivotal on many fronts personally, as a union with my life partner, and from a wider scope of how I weave into the collective.
I have taken a break from my book in order to return with fresh perspective, but will be going full time back now after my birthday. It seems to be my focal point this year, feeling this is the year to finalize it. And I’m so grateful I now have abundant rabbit creativity flowing alongside it – my rabbit companions sure know just what I need to support and nurture the harder work I have ahead of me with that.
I’ll likely start sharing more about my book in the coming months, once I solidify more with it.
Although I love my new threefold series of blogs each week, there is chance this may evolve into only Ask Astrid Fridays, as she and I can cover a lot on those days and being that they are much more involved with tuning in, too, they do take a lot to put out there. So, we may expand that day’s blog, as a result and Monday and Wednesdays blogs either will go dormant for a while, or be more sporadic.
I’ll have to see how my schedule unfolds in the next couple of weeks, and will keep you posted.
That leads to the third part of this musing that ties us back into the “Hope Holiday” theme quite literally by sharing one of four new mini rabbit Faery gardens that will be hitting The Magick Rabbit Etsy shop tomorrow.
It’s titled, The Holiday, but in its description you’ll find much of what I shared here at start of this blog, as it embodies that message.
In all, I will have 7 more mini themed worlds to add to the shop – these will be the last in general – but tomorrow you’ll see just 4 of them, as I will be starting on new items I’m excited to share with you soon.
Remember, however, if one of the mini gardens you love gets sold, I can replicate most of them. So, you can just let me know and I’ll see what I can do.
The other 3 new gardens will be in the shop likely by end of this week, or beginning of next. The last three will include a grand finale garden, and two micro mini gardens.
For now, here are the 3 others that will hit tomorrow. In order of photos they’re titled, Spring’s Promise: The Cosmic Egg, The Gift, and Believe.
I think you can kind of feel the theme of these new ones. 🙂
If you haven’t perused The Magick Rabbit yet, I think you might find it enjoyable even if you don’t find yourself purchasing something, as each mini rabbit Faery garden is a storybook world, just like the paintings.
Just looking at the images and then reading the first paragraph of each garden’s description will infuse inspiration and nurturing reminders.
We’ve spent a lot of meaningful time not only creating them with love, but sharing each of their stories with you.
I include either their mini story and/or energy they were created to share with you as daily reminders, mini guardians, or sacred altars.
As I like to say:
There’s a storybook tale within each creation to reflect your journey, as the adventure it is – all shared through the heart of one Magick Rabbit and one Rabbit Faery.
And as a tie-in with all of this I also would like to announce that the bunnies have inspired a celebration sale that will kick off tomorrow on my birthday – 2/26.
It will be a 3 day sale only 2/26 – 2/28, taking us to the end of February, as a cycle of activation and closure all at once.
This will be a 20% off store wide sale, to include the four new gardens with every $30 minimum purchase.
I believe it will go live at 12:01 pm my time tomorrow (PST), but it might click in earlier, as technical things have a mind of their own sometimes.
Our way of celebrating this new energy cycle the bunnies and I are embarking upon, while also celebrating the same for each of you if you feel drawn to bringing one of the energies of the creations and art into your life.
Thank you for all being a part of our lives and for helping to inspire these creations too. As while they come from our hearts, they are in answer to what we tune into out there.
If interested in exploring more of the creations in the shop and tomorrow’s sale you can find it all here:
Wishing everyone a wondrous Hope Holiday, however you choose to enjoy it.
Rebirthing seems to be a theme running through the collective and just today it came through to me through five different streams of experiences and messages from others. One of them being Astrid, as rabbits reflect this symbolism well. She’s been very eager the last couple of days to not only nudge me hard at my ankle, but has bee-lined to me in order to grab a hold of my pant leg with her teeth to get my attention.
Likely she knew of the energy overload I was experiencing and the upgrade about to take place, but it also seems she’s been really keen on my being with her so that we can navigate the unknowns together.
Rabbits are very at home in the labyrinth Netherworld where intricate underground passageways and dark twisting tunnels are the norm and where they feel secure navigating their travels by intuition and inner light alone.
Change is no stranger to them and they are accustomed to making decisions in the face of fear and maintain peaceful focus amidst chaos.
After all, their survival relies on it.
This sense of self and ingenuity is a gift that reflects to us our ability to master the same within us awaiting our reclaiming.
As Lee shared in his December Energy Update yesterday, “We are built to handle change.”
And as the ever-rebirthing rabbit says, “You, too, can get in touch with change and ride the sands of time, as the seasons weave their cycles.”
Astrid knows change very intimately and has braved the new every step of the way. Recently she shared about her own upgrade to a Castle Tower, and while it had mirrored our own shifts up until then, it was also foreshadowing more change upcoming for me.
That hit yesterday, as I’ve added a heap load of new into my life recently (including a wave of new energy painting) and its been a process to integrate a balanced schedule with it all.
I’ve been feeling a build-up of energy in a way I can’t describe and it catapulted me to this suspended point outside of this or that. It released tethers that provided any sense of familiarity and detached me even more.
Astrid says, “This is the Cosmic way, and when you are at home within this unknown, you realize the power of your own inner light above all else.”
It keeps coming at me with the expression of new inspiration and focuses, along with the stripping away of layers, the joy of surrendering things to others ready to own their own level of responsibility and reclaiming, and the deepening gratitude that stretches me to farther reaches of heart generosity that lives for today.
Astrid often sits tall and looks me straight into my heart with piercing wisdom that seems both so far away and so tangibly rich.
She says, “This is because I reflect the heart’s Great Mystery that can only be experienced by way of both loving and letting go more. Then you experience the vastness and beautiful complexity of Cosmic Love.”
She continues sharing “This overload of energy is a liminal space you’ve been experiencing as a compilation of layering new pieces onto pieces you don’t want to forget, while juggling ways to hold them within the still limited version of unrealized potential, rather than relaxing into these things already being who you are. The reminders have already done their work and the memory can now let go into the ease of embodiment. It’s time to create from the impetus of fertile inspiration and allow these to rebirth completely anew.”
And so, yesterday, my mini Notebook (the computer I’ve been using the last 5 years) finally and fully overloaded. I’ve been receiving messages from it over the past few months that there was no space remaining and our attempts to delete things went in vein.
Then my computer said, “No more.”
Just as Astrid said, “Come join me as you already are.”
Ironically and synchronously this took place yesterday directly after I posted Lee’s December Energy Update and right after I received an email from a very special spirit and artisan who after a couple of months since onset of our correspondence, had completed creating “a celestial muse” she was working on in collaboration with me that happens to embody “creation” and not surprisingly, but without me saying anything, wove the song of my heart into being.
It just so happened that I was ready for this, as anything of importance to me – truly only my new novel – is stored on a tiny little chip, and things that might “seem” important, but speak of the old days for me, were surrendered away. I let it all go, including several years of saved emails and work correspondence from days of the past and embraced Dave’s extra, heavy duty computer as my new replacement, which I’ve been using for our shared side business bookkeeping.
The overload caused everything to run in circles, take forever to implement, reverse working at all without hours of dissecting, and simply not listen to or understand commands.
In essence, I would not be moving forward unless I walked into a much more expansive field where pieces are not even present to remind me and only embodiment speaks for itself.
All of the new energy couldn’t keep piling on to things working in the background and using up space in one way or form. A larger playing field within the vortex of my heart had to be opened where things move freely and are simply an intrinsic part of me.
I said goodbye to the memories while closing all access of return and this new and vastly larger platform now provides the space for that “impetus of fertile inspiration” Astrid spoke of.
Better yet, I have no attachment to it and anything on it, which feels extra freeing, as I don’t feel the computer to be mine. It is more of a portal and conduit to bring things through, but to shut away and detach from at end of each day.
And then today, some wonderful and full circle soulful unfoldings took place when the perfect guardian said yes to my passing on three sacred items that speak of what has been some of the greatest importance to me and my lifetimes, which I only recently had also been nudged to surrender over in trust.
Astrid was specifically involved in this, literally getting my attention and moving these pieces into my awareness.
I couldn’t ask for a wiser companion.
I’ve also found myself giving out in bigger ways than ever lately, feeling that vastness and abundance, without need to hold on. There are infinite ways for things to come about. To hold onto something as an idea of insurance was also robbing the good it could do in so many other ways now, including the very way I thought it might one day help.
Astrid has been quite the muse in all of this – amusing and musing!
When I do something from that infinite place she binkies with delight – I call it a Cosmic Binky.
When I’m missing the point or urgency, she grabs hold of my pant leg.
When I’m “getting it” and download her wisdom, she peers deeply through me in her Buddha Bunny- like stance with eyes dark as the Cosmos and a twinkle of starlight at center.
This morning, as we were still prepping Dave’s computer for me I was upstairs at our usual Ask Astrid blog time so Queen Astrid came running upstairs to get me. She waited patiently beneath the graceful towering giraffes – her grounded sentinels of grace and divine purpose.
From there she was downloading today’s message, as she helped me to connect the dots with all the latest happenings.
Every day a new layer of fine-tuning is integrated.
She reminded me that every time my energy gets an “upgrade,” so do my computers and cell phones.
And we both know that this is true for many of you out there as well.
Our energy shifts affect things around us.
Rabbits are finely attuned to energies and reflect them to the tiniest degree.
My two other rabbits, Nestor and Joy, used to have physical blow-outs because of the expansive energy they would channel and their bodies had to readjust, which isn’t the easiest always for bunnies.
Astrid is much better at managing her energy and wants me to understand those tweaks and fine-tunings that can help with optimizing my own.
This time it wasn’t about forcing a change by crashing my computer and losing things, but more about mindfulness that gave me the option of tweaking realizations and moving forward more effectively and in bigger ways.
As we go through changes, which right now everyone is experiencing in varying degrees of relative intensity, there are ways to tune into those little tweaks so that we can all optimize our energy.
Sometimes they’re easier to see and feel than others, so reflections like these can assist us.
For me, it seems Astrid is sharing that just as she fully chewed down and got rid of her Carrot Cottage so it no longer takes up any space, in order to make space for her Castle Tower, so too did I need to look at the tiny ways space was being held by things I already embody.
I had even saved the top roof of the Carrot Cottage with the idea to create a little house upstairs for her and she was not interested in the least bit.
So I’ve since removed it completely once she said, “I told you we’re done mom. I love the memories it held of my being welcome to my forever home, but our love is now permanent and the cardboard house takes up space our hearts can use to create and anchor new growth in.”
So, in reflection, while I may have given up the work and things of the past, if it still sits there even as storage space on a computer, or as an item tucked away on a shelf, they’re still taking up space I could breathe more freely in and by removing them I brush away the dust of memories and awaken the sparkle of birthing new stars.
Astrid smiles. “Change is like the beautiful birth of a star.”
Oh yes! It’s no surprise this energy update resonates hugely and after hearing from all of the participants of our Equinox gathering, I imagine for many many others too. Today, for me has rebirthed a new era, which indeed includes an identity shift, but more so, a complete frequency shift into my soul song signature. I forgot that on each first of the month Lee puts out his energy updates, and so when I heard it this morning it was another confirmation of everything that added to the big smile in my heart.
Astrid has been so excited this morning, running around and jumping on our bed with bursts of energy. I actually caught a small video of it I’ll be posting on Instagram shortly. I also began my feminine cycle this morning igniting a full new cycle in every and all ways and indicates full alignment of this rebirth I’ve been supporting and following.
Key points you’ll discover in Lee’s energy update includes talking about soul contracts changing – something that anchored in for me even more this past week on every level personally and inter-personally, along with the reflection he goes on to discuss that may take place with the identity shifts and soul contract changes.
He shares that this is also a time of inner work before the outer manifests.
A time for working hard on bringing new dreams and visions forth in this next cycle.
That there’s opportunity to shift faster than ever out of the old in every way right now and that new realities are beckoning.
He ends with some thoughts about life force energy rising and how this is an era of kundalini. Synchronously this was a topic spoken about in our Equinox workshop a bit and with a participant after, where I briefly shared my own experiences around this.
This energy is wanting to birth new and Lee poses the question, are you feeling or thinking your way through things when you’re hesitant about them? You can listen to the video for some good advice around this and to understand the natural movement of this energy that is heralding big and new things in.
Once again, nurturing yourself is important and Lee shares how this invites your soul in and creates a synergy of working with it, rather than against it.
A perfect message for this day and new cycle.
I also love the snippet of his sound channeling at the end – another topic very dear to me that I brought through for the Equinox gathering and I sense will eventually be coming through more in the future.
Happy October and new beginnings!
Hoppy Summer Solstice, as Astrid says! This is a very special and magickal portal for us, not only because Astrid came to me through it last year, but Joy returned to the stars through it as well two years ago. Today so much is culminating, including the last day of the Summer Solstice Gratitude Giveaway and the last day to pre-register and still save for our “Living a More Magickal Life” Workshop. Can you say fun?! Astrid has been hopping all over this morning with excitement! Seems sweet Joy is channeling through her. 🙂
So, if you know you’d like to join us on Fall Equinox for a very special gathering with an amazing group of souls, then don’t forget to do so by end of the day to save $77.
You can still sign up until 9/15, as long as space is available, but we are officially over half full at this point with only 5 of the 12 spaces remaining. Although have an 8th commitment, so 4 spaces really.
You can register here: Living a More Magickal Life with Laura Bruno & Tania Marie
Today is also the last day of the Summer Solstice Gratitude Giveaway! For everyone who has joined these last 11 days, don’t forget to send me your journey with this by end of tomorrow, the 22nd.
I have a busy next couple of days, including preparation for teaching a Reik workshop Saturday, so I’ll be making the announcement of the 11 recipients of the drawing on Monday the 25th! Gifts will be sent out next week too! Stay tuned both on Facebook and here on my blog for that.
If you need reminders on the guidelines you can view them here: Summer Solstice Gratitude Giveaway
It’s truly been a powerful week with a lot happening fast and many changes underway. A lot of people I know have had some huge liberations and rebirthing, as well as powerful changes creating opportunity.
One of my sweet friends’ new business just launched officially today and another’s just this past week – in both cases I was floored and excited to learn that I was the very first sale to help ignite each into birthing! That truly was special and meaningful. I also have another friend who’s recently launched another channel of her work through a podcast and new branding, and yet another who has been envisioning the expansion of their business and rebirthing their brand/logo. And the list goes on. Overall it seems that everyone is blossoming and expanding! I imagine many of you are experiencing similar things in your own way, but it does seem that things are coming to light and clarity with potential looming like a lightning bolt of inspiration.
I got a lot done too, including finalizing my office closet cleaning/organizing with fresh clarity and space!), but did find myself a bit antsy with energy and excited that I’ll be done next week with my book’s editing. Today I’ll be doing a little Reiki Healing Attunement ritual with Astrid, getting my hair trimmed and the silvery streaks revitalized, as well as getting things in order for a potent forest workshop this weekend. I finalized some things and along with prepping the massage tables for Reiki teaching on Saturday, they will also then be released and sold next week to close that part of my journey too.
And that brings me to some magickal potency that just yesterday I got that both Astrid and I would be offering up today on the Solstice.
Many of you will remember the Magick Crystal Wands I channeled last year. They all found their beautiful partners and guardians, but there was one at the time I had felt to keep for myself. Several people were wanting it then, but it had work to do with me.
Yesterday, I received the message to release it and offer it on Summer Solstice.
So that is what I am doing – here is the info that I posted about it when first sharing it.
Merlin & Lady of the Lake Wand ~ $222 – SOLD
This wand called to me from the shore of Fallen Leaf Lake here and I was taken back by its appearance immediately. It was already fully carved, smoothed (as if someone had rigorously sanded it), and has a beautiful golden blonde coloring with perfectly spaced dots in a design along its shaft. I do not know the type of wood it is, but I know it is not of this world, as it was ominously placed out in the open like this for me to find it, singing to me like a wizard’s wand would.
On its own, without any added adornments, it is a powerful and complete wand, but I immediately knew that it desired elements to bring forth the harmony of its embodiment.
This to include three irridescent blue Mallard feathers and one Blue Jay feather at the center. Along with these beauties, there sits a Tibetan Quartz above them at center and a combo of silver and gold wire individually woven and ending in triple spirals.
And at the top, a very special Quartz point wrapped in an intertwined gold and silver wire ending in a spiral at each side.
The Quartz at top is a small point, but large in its presence. Since this wand was already potent on its own and had a perfectly rounded bottom and softened diagonal point, it did not want any large stone, but simply one to enhance and act as a fine-tuned channel at top.
It was evident which crystal it would be, as only this one had the exact slant to its bottom that perfectly matched flush to the top of the slant of the wand.
But as small as this Quartz point is, it is no ordinary crystal. It happens to be the one that Fiver, the mouse who I helped transition in peace and love, jumped aboard to fly off into the otherworld when he transitioned. But to add to that, when I looked even closer I discovered perhaps why this had been the crystal chosen to be with him and why it was so powerful for journeying beyond.
It happens to be a Channeler Transmitter Quartz, or Dow or Trans-Channeler Quartz, as they are known with perfect 3-7-3 and 7-3-7 sides to its faces, front and back. You can read more about that here: Dow or Trans-Channeler Crystal. Divine balance and connection with Universal Truth being its essence.
The Mallard Duck feathers embody spiritual freedom, grace on water, self expression, emotional strength and protection, mystic and seer, combines land and water balance, integration, and manifestation, knowing what to do and how to do it, graceful self confidence, knowing, preparedness, letting go, speaking truth, intuition, gentle flow, the now, and being that they walk the Earth, swim in the waters (fresh and ocean), and roam the sky, they are links between Heaven and Earth, or this world and another, and also represent eternal life.
Blue Jay brings the energies of clarity (in this case double clarity/vision to express purity and truth of heart and soul with great clarity of thought in bringing these through to share), communication, presence, wise and balanced use of personal power, resourceful adaptability for ease, creative self-expression and assertion, sound and song, authenticity, and bringing higher thoughts into action. Their crest that reaches into the heavens, directly links both Earth and Universal/Cosmic energies, bridging them for integration and active expression of divinity brought into embodiment.
So both bird spirits linking and bridging here and beyond, personal and collective, immediate and bigger picture.
And next we have Astrid’s offering.
Dendritic Opal ~ $111 – SOLD
It stands 6 inches tall and is 2 inches wide at base.
You’ll remember I shared this crystal back when Astrid came home to me. She was given a couple of crystal friends, but this is the one she would like to offer on today’s Solstice.
It is a lovely raw crystal that is pale silvery blue in person with some darker areas and wonderful portals.
Here are photos of Astrid activating it.
Wishing everyone an invigorating Summer Solstice!
Sending love and creative magick to all!
I couldn’t agree more with Lee on this…creativity has a power to shift everything. If you are not creating in some way, it will feel as if you are dying and in fact you ARE diminishing your life force because you are inherently a creative being. I discovered along the way that having different outlets of creativity truly helped activate more parts of my brain, but also of my heart, and definitely more of the latent parts of my DNA to come alive and awaken from their slumber. I found that rather than only have one outlet for creativity, by engaging and exploring multiple outlets this provided a constant surge of fresh energy to keep flowing, as well as helped to reinvigorate and inspire the avenue I had only been engaging until then – and of course accessed my multi-dimensional self.
This is why in the past my spirit was led to branch out from my paintings to doing commissions and animal portraits, but further diversifying to things like spiritual tattoo designs, crystal jewelry making, creating Faery wands, paintings magick stones, writing my first book and starting a blog, opening up to different forms of teaching and offerings, creating mini succulent gardens, growing my Garden Tower, sound channeling, redecorating my room or changing up my wardrobe, cutting or coloring my hair, or even stretching into different forms of paintings I’d never done and even having rabbits in my life – the ultimate abundant, fertile creativity spirit animals.
All in the vein of creativity being the essence of life and not a “hobby,” as Lee shares, and the more you engage it, the more life force, overall well-being, and expansion is available to you.
Although I’ve moved away from just about everything I mentioned above, the creativity Faery is still largely alive within me. Currently, that’s involved active creating of ventures Dave and I have been manifesting together and the huge project of completely renovating our new home and decorating it from the ground up.
It’s also been hugely invigorated by my having my own office again – the creative flame center of the home – newly decorated with lots of fresh stuff for Astrid as well.
It’s involved my mini succulent gardens that have expanded now and soon to include my Garden Tower again, come Spring.
And of course, in the meantime, my new book that although took a back-burner in the midst of the huge home renovation project, has now come around full-circle and is reinvigorated and inspired because of the break.
And the book is just the beginning of new branches to my “tree of life” (synchronously I brought home a new indoor Clusia tree for the house yesterday) to explore and expand upon, as I have a volcano of creative manifestations that the book opens the door to for this new year I kick off come my birthday’s transition of energy numerologically. I will go from an 11/2 year to a 12/3 year, bringing me back to my birth number 3, which is the creative child. So this year really should feel like being in my element and it’s no wonder I’ve been doing all of this ground work to free the flood ways for the tsunami of creativity a-flowin’.
Yet, it couldn’t flow unless I enaged it with curiosity, embrace, surrender to, and then committed action to bring it forth.
I share this as example of how this creativity has moved through me and how by tapping into other parts of my creativity, it’s not only helped open doors to new parts, but also in fact has multiplied the wellspring of creative energy I have available.
It’s assisted me in expanding, in manifesting, and in rebirthing when life hit a wall, at times became disappointing and uninspiring, or an end to one part of me had been reached.
It’s given me a new lease on life for now and provides unlimited amounts of joy and potentials I get to choose based on that alignment.
And, what I have discovered is that creativity helps you tap into your multi-dimensional self, which opens a plethora of possibilities.
Now, that ought to be a fun adventure, right?!
There truly is no end to what can be created, and created, and created…..
As Lee shares, active creativity “enlivens you and helps with depression, because depression is stifled and unused energy, and a disconnection” in general.
I love his little excerpt snippet videos that provide seeds of wisdom.
Here’s Lee on active creativity and its importance to your life:
It’s been a big week so far, beginning with warm celebrations at my family’s house in Reno for Christmas, some completions, and a huge day today for Astrid. I was able to complete my office, except for a new sliding glass door and three special things to hang, which meant it was time for the reveal to her. And boy was it the best day of her life, and my life with her, yet! She had a huge day of joyful tears, soulful release, and courageous leaps – quite literally!
This mirrors me, as I’ve been reflecting on all that has completed and is about to begin in my own life, which was reiterated by the Tarot cards I pulled on Christmas.
My family and I always pull cards at the holidays to see what current theme is streaming through and what the New Year holds for us. All of them were very accurate, and mine were no exception to that.
They spoke to the rebirth taking place for me, an inner calling surfaced, release from all karmic ties, and everything coming together in my life story as I reach a significant stage on my journey.
Synchronously, the last week or so I’ve had an influx of people inquiring for services I have let go of and items I used to offer. To all of them I politely said no, but shared my gratitude for the reflections. It’s become much easier to do this, as I get the clearest yet about myself and what I want and don’t want.
As I felt into the messages of the cards, it was such a relieving confirmation and when I saw Astrid’s joy today and felt and heard her own release and depth of gratitude, I knew we were riding this new path together in all ways. Her feelings were mine reflected, and vice versa.
I will soon share a post on Astrid’s explorations and fun in our new shared room, which got its name a few days ago.
For now I’ll just share this one tiny peek of her in one of her play areas, standing tall and proud, and want to express the touching moment for us.
After she explored a bunch, she returned to the center of the room where I sat. Normally when she’s excited, she’s very interested in doing her own thing and will jet off if you come to her. But this time she came right to me and I put my hand on her head and caressed her softly, as we shared words.
Her eyes softened and lids lowered and she melted into my hand. All I could hear and feel was her joyous release and appreciation.
Like me, she’s had a long, hard journey.
Like me she’s waited patiently and kept going and believing, even when there seemed no hope.
Like me, she is experiencing the best time of her life now and receiving reflections of all the work she’s put into things, come to fruition…finally.
I could see her past and all she went through to get to this moment…how she waited for the right time and person to adopt her.
No one would and kept passing her by because they couldn’t “see” her.
She waited nearly three years, which is a lot for a little rabbit, as all of her friends at the rescue got adopted and left her behind.
And now, here she was, being gifted a magickal rabbit playroom fit for the queen that she is.
It was all overwhelming for her in a beautiful full circle way.
I felt both of our hearts open wider and our connection deepen, as we both shed tears of gratitude.
I knew her journey, as it mirrored so much of my own.
I’ll share again more in an upcoming post, but today was a huge day for us both. And on top of that, she learned to go up and down the big staircase all on the same day.
I knew she could do it, but thought it might take longer.
Astrid proved her bravery, as within a couple of hours she was up the stairs. And just a bit ago, she made it down.
It was such a cute process….the down that is, as she kept coming to me to help her. She kept nosing my ankles and then tugged on my pant legs with her teeth, to help. So I gave her a pep talk and went to the stairs to show her how. It took a little while, as she kept checking the first step down and then circling to regroup. And then it was done.
Today was a BIG day for both of us on so many levels. Speaks to the New Year to come!
Here are some photos from our lovely Christmas we all shared as a family, which was festive, fun, and full of giggles and yummy vegan feasting! Grateful to have parents that support our vegan lifestyle and always make, buy, or search out vegan restaurant options for us. My brother (who is absent in the photos due to camera shyness, but far from absent in the shenanigans shared) is vegan and was actually vegan a few years before I even knew what being vegan was. Both my mom (makes the entrees) and dad (makes the desserts) got in on the vegan creations and sent us home with care packages and apple dumplings to enjoy for the mornings.
Grateful also to have Faery folk as parents, which brings to Christmas and all holidays the magick I love.
Such warmth shared all around! And wonderful gifties too!
I hope everyone that celebrates Christmas enjoyed a warm, peace, and love filled one and that the holiday season (however you celebrate or don’t) was a perfect reflection of you.
Faery kisses to all!
As I sit here watching the snow gently fall, creating magick all around me, I am in gratitude of the cycles and seasons of life that have brought me to this very moment. I’m also in awe of the perfection of this sweetness falling from the heavens like powdered sugar, in perfect creation of what will be a potent and memorable day. This Winter Solstice has been chosen by my beloved Cosmo as the day to spread some of his ashes upon the lake to join in alchemy with Joy’s and Nestor’s, igniting a sacred wave of shifts abound.
Other things are also taking place today and ending/beginning, so I will be reflecting upon and adding energy to the magickal brew a-stirring.
Today marks another new cycle and change of seasons as we welcome in the Winter Solstice (for the Northern Hemisphere and Summer Solstice for the Southern Hemisphere). This brings the end of the old year’s cycle, as we begin anew, and provides a supportive time to make leaps in consciousness by moving within to shine your light, as the light lessens on this shortest day/longest night of the year (or longest day of the year for you Southern Hemisphere folks).
We’ve been continuing to clear in preparation for new and more natural ways of living from our highest and likely you’ve been experiencing heightened awareness of all things in your life through varying ways of experiencing these, relative to each, and coming to feel more self alignment and merging taking place.
This is creating an upsurge of excitement, as you feel the energy field welcoming you into your truth more than ever.
Where ever you are in your journey, is perfect, and likely you have that sense, even if moving through the “ick” still, that there’s something different this time in the experience.
I simply would encourage you to let go, do what ever you can to maintain your own inner balance and harmony so that you can vibrate at your own relaxed and natural personal frequency, and compassionately realize that you are different than everyone else and therefore you only need to exercise your own sovereign free will and lovingly allow them to do the same.
More and more you will be experiencing, embodying, and emanating so much more light, which is not to be feared, but to be celebrated.
Through this Winter Solstice “gateway” you can be mindful of this turn of seasons to be more soul driven and may feel called to take some moments to honor this flowing change of life cycles. Perhaps creating a special sacred space or ritual act to honor the “return of light” that this Solstice is reminding us.
Candles and crystals come to mind when I think of ways you might symbolically create that space, or perhaps simply envisioning and imagining (imagination is a powerful tool) the light and inner fire of your heart and soul expanding and filling your entire body and emanating out and joining with the light of our Great Central Sun, allowing yourself to take up more space and be who you really are.
Winter Solstice provides a supportive time to honor the remembrance of light that you are, for making those leaps in consciousness by moving within to shine your own light, and to “see the light” even when things get dark and you’re unsure of what to do, where to go, or even how to think or feel.
There is so much potential available to each of you and it is up to each individual how you choose to embrace this or not. It’s an opportunity to completely reinvent yourself and your life and to do things more differently than ever before, which will take the courage of being willing to shine your light even if no one else around you is.
Childhood memories of myself as a ballerina and the passion I expressed through me with dance brings depth to the meaning of today’s “rebirthing of the Light” and life and spirit.
We all have the opportunity to courageously be born again like a seed of light, as we deepen into the stillness of the dark.
There is much hope and promise within remembering the heart of who I am and what was alive within me as a child. Some of what I/we may have forgotten.
There’s an integration that takes place and frees me even more when I reclaim those parts of my essence.
What this means to me is that what ever it is I do take action to bring forth in my life, the little girl within me will be dancing her heart out while doing it, as the dream is the reality I choose to live and nothing less than that.
Wishing you a liberating and enlightening Winter Solstice.
May your courage deepen and the creative impetus of transformation shine brightly within you.