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Transformation & Birthing Anew


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I imagine I’m not the only one feeling such incredible energies of fertile possibility around every corner. I find dream time wildly infused with layers of dreams after dreams that are either other timelines, foretelling, psychic touch-ins, or clearly symbolic of things playing out. And yes, definitely the identity shifts, rebirthing, and kundalini energy Lee Harris has themed for the month are hugely washing over and through me still – so much so I have deemed October the month of firmly and clearly establishing the new through developing daily scheduling, finding my flow amidst that, and deepening into essence.

I found myself purging, clearing, reorganizing, and redecorating when I thought I was done. This has involved:

  • donating or sharing with others several more bags of clothes and other items going out
  • re-imagining a 1/4 of my office including removal of the center piece to my room and a whole redo of my shelves – this won’t be fully done, as I’m awaiting some things to come in November and December, but for now is complete and oh so fresh (This included moving out the last old piece I had for 10 years, which felt important since everything else in my office is new)
  • making tons of room in my office closet to help with this
  • establishing the new style of clothing to mirror who I am now (this involves a two-part me for my active outdoor lifestyle and athletic center training and the personal lifestyle outside of that) – this always feels pivotal for full embodiment inside and out and feels much clearer than ever now
  • receiving new plants as gifts, bringing in a couple from outside for the cold months ahead, and finding new homes and decorative stands for them inside that added warmth and indoor garden delight
  • establishing our new exercise program we started on October 1st, which involves 5 days a week of training and classes that after the first couple of weeks of feeling out what we liked, is now fully established in our calendars – this will amp up with ski season added into the mix and for now involves at least 3 days of hiking as well
  • working on creating my daily schedule (just about done) to include everything on my intention list – something new since I don’t really have a schedule although manage to get things done – this feels important to be more focused and deliberate, but flowing in and out of several aspects of balanced life and work that I want to accomplish – doing this will keep me moving forward
  • dreaming up new aspects to this blog, as well as all that I’ll be involved in, which will soon have a new direction
  • planning some upcoming Winter travels
  • keeping focused on the goals we have for our life

And this big transformation has been reflected in not one, but now two rare Rubber Boas we’ve come across on our hiking paths recently.

The first you may recall was when Laura was visiting and we were descending from Eagle Lake. This first one was a luminous copper baby Rubber Boa – she captivated me!

And the second was just this past weekend on Saturday when an adult Rubber Boa was laying across the path we were hiking to Lake Tahoe from our house, on our return back home. This one was large and very worm-like – her coloring a coppery green (best I can describe it as) and she was sunning herself with her little tongue zipping in and out with slithery delight. I had a feeling it was another Rubber Boa, but had it confirmed when I looked it up and saw her exact duplicate in online photos. I say rare, because we have only ever seen the Garter Snakes here on hikes, but this is the first two times to see Rubber Boas and within just weeks of each other – both non-poisonous. Both Boas just laid there and let me talk to them. So curious and sweet!

This last Sunday I also found myself hiking 6 miles on my own while the boys were mountain biking. This was incredibly invigorating and renewed another level of my connection to nature, as I wandered the wrong right paths, connected with wonders around me, and even birthed a new sound channeling I haven’t done in a while. I shared the adventure and sound video on my Instagram. The photo above is from this hike where I was tickled with joy by the grove of baby pine trees I stumbled upon and laid with.

And the rebirthing has been reflected in not just the snake, kundalini energy, but in a powerful birthing dream I had a couple of nights ago – AGAIN. I say, “again” because this is now about the 3rd or 4th time within several months that I dream of myself giving birth. And interestingly, in this dream I gave birth back-to-back twice! I was pregnant in the dream and being assisted by a woman or female energy, who assured me it would be simple and easy – like a click I would feel physically, emotionally, and mentally. And just as she said, I felt that click and instantly the labor happened in one easy release. No pushing, pain, or anything. I never actually saw the baby come out, but something did.

This feels symbolic of my book process and my editor – she has also shown up in Tarot cards and in my dreams.

So, indeed it was symbolic of me birthing anew and may not be limited to the book, although it’s the biggest focus right now. It can also speak to the newness all around.

And this repeated a second time – this time a male and female energy assisting and this time the click was taking a bit longer, so they induced it with a little tapping at my lower back and poof! Another easy release. Talk about potent.

I have a feeling on this one too. 😉

I can only imagine this means the new I’m feeling led to bring forth will in fact not be as hard or challenging as my mind could easily make it. It will just be a very involved process and a committed one at that – perhaps even 9 months worth just like it would be to bring an actual human baby into the world. A successful release of creative energy and joyous passion is the potential awaiting the channeling ahead.

And that’s all that truly matters – that we are having fun and supporting the flow of our unique creativity into the world in ways relative to each of us. No other result than expression is the power we long for. If we allow that energy to get stuck, that’s when we find ourselves blocked in other areas of our lives too.

Where are you feeling stuck in your life and how can you help to move that energy through a creative outlet, idea, way of self-expression, support of a passion, etc. that you have and feel bubbling inside?

These are ways I use dreams and nature to reflect to me messages and guidance.

We have so many things, mirrors, gifts, and tools available to us. Are you present to seeing all the support and guidance you have around too?

We can even ask for our dreams to show us things, if we think we aren’t “getting it” in other ways. The same with nature and messages in general – we can ask for reflections, but you must be present to embrace them, as they will come in ways you’re not even thinking are possible.

Presence is SO important and is another message I feel to be incredibly key for us all. It helps you respond, rather than react. It helps you to see all of the support you DO actually have. It helps you have more gratitude. It helps you to know yourself, others, and everything around you more. It helps you to trust.

Last night I did a big Reiki Healing Attunement for some intentions and wishes that included things close to home and for friends and family I know could use a little boost, and of course Astrid doesn’t skip a beat in helping. There’s a part in the process where I blow violet breath and when I blew, Astrid stretched huge and yawned and while I was finishing stuff in the heart chakra, she was licking her giant Tahoe mother quartz on the ground!

She is enjoying all of the new energy, but also excited to get a stronger move-on with the writing she’s waiting to assist with again.

I haven’t had much time yet to delve deeply in that the last couple of weeks other than ideas because it became evident I needed to get all of these things worked out and in place. There’s something important about solidity, clarity, and anchoring to really support the new in greater flow, ease, and efficiency.

So, I’ve been utilizing the time to research, finish reading the last book I have to help with my writing, have some key things to continue clarifying and journaling about, and organizing all of my notes and processes to implement.

This will also involve that new blog series I’ve now made mention of twice and I promise to share it very soon! Perhaps even this week, but it won’t officially begin until Monday, October 29th.

Astrid is especially pleased about this, as soon she’ll have her own spot on part of this new blog series upcoming. Stay tuned!!

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October 2018 Energy Update with Lee Harris ~ Identity Shifts, Rebirth & Kundalini


Oh yes! It’s no surprise this energy update resonates hugely and after hearing from all of the participants of our Equinox gathering, I imagine for many many others too. Today, for me has rebirthed a new era, which indeed includes an identity shift, but more so, a complete frequency shift into my soul song signature. I forgot that on each first of the month Lee puts out his energy updates, and so when I heard it this morning it was another confirmation of everything that added to the big smile in my heart.

Astrid has been so excited this morning, running around and jumping on our bed with bursts of energy. I actually caught a small video of it I’ll be posting on Instagram shortly. I also began my feminine cycle this morning igniting a full new cycle in every and all ways and indicates full alignment of this rebirth I’ve been supporting and following.

Key points you’ll discover in Lee’s energy update includes talking about soul contracts changing – something that anchored in for me even more this past week on every level personally and inter-personally, along with the reflection he goes on to discuss that may take place with the identity shifts and soul contract changes.

He shares that this is also a time of inner work before the outer manifests.

A time for working hard on bringing new dreams and visions forth in this next cycle.

That there’s opportunity to shift faster than ever out of the old in every way right now and that new realities are beckoning.

He ends with some thoughts about life force energy rising and how this is an era of kundalini. Synchronously this was a topic spoken about in our Equinox workshop a bit and with a participant after, where I briefly shared my own experiences around this.

This energy is wanting to birth new and Lee poses the question, are you feeling or thinking your way through things when you’re hesitant about them? You can listen to the video for some good advice around this and to understand the natural movement of this energy that is heralding big and new things in.

Once again, nurturing yourself is important and Lee shares how this invites your soul in and creates a synergy of working with it, rather than against it.

A perfect message for this day and new cycle.

I also love the snippet of his sound channeling at the end – another topic very dear to me that I brought through for the Equinox gathering and I sense will eventually be coming through more in the future.

Happy October and new beginnings!

Solstice Reminders & Magick Offerings


Hoppy Summer Solstice, as Astrid says! This is a very special and magickal portal for us, not only because Astrid came to me through it last year, but Joy returned to the stars through it as well two years ago. Today so much is culminating, including the last day of the Summer Solstice Gratitude Giveaway and the last day to pre-register and still save for our “Living a More Magickal Life” Workshop. Can you say fun?! Astrid has been hopping all over this morning with excitement! Seems sweet Joy is channeling through her. 🙂

So, if you know you’d like to join us on Fall Equinox for a very special gathering with an amazing group of souls, then don’t forget to do so by end of the day to save $77.

You can still sign up until 9/15, as long as space is available, but we are officially over half full at this point with only 5 of the 12 spaces remaining. Although have an 8th commitment, so 4 spaces really.

You can register here: Living a More Magickal Life with Laura Bruno & Tania Marie

Today is also the last day of the Summer Solstice Gratitude Giveaway! For everyone who has joined these last 11 days, don’t forget to send me your journey with this by end of tomorrow, the 22nd.

I have a busy next couple of days, including preparation for teaching a Reik workshop Saturday, so I’ll be making the announcement of the 11 recipients of the drawing on Monday the 25th! Gifts will be sent out next week too! Stay tuned both on Facebook and here on my blog for that.

If you need reminders on the guidelines you can view them here: Summer Solstice Gratitude Giveaway

It’s truly been a powerful week with a lot happening fast and many changes underway. A lot of people I know have had some huge liberations and rebirthing, as well as powerful changes creating opportunity.

One of my sweet friends’ new business just launched officially today and another’s just this past week – in both cases I was floored and excited to learn that I was the very first sale to help ignite each into birthing! That truly was special and meaningful. I also have another friend who’s recently launched another channel of her work through a podcast and new branding, and yet another who has been envisioning the expansion of their business and rebirthing their brand/logo. And the list goes on. Overall it seems that everyone is blossoming and expanding! I imagine many of you are experiencing similar things in your own way, but it does seem that things are coming to light and clarity with potential looming like a lightning bolt of inspiration.

I got a lot done too, including finalizing my office closet cleaning/organizing with fresh clarity and space!), but did find myself a bit antsy with energy and excited that I’ll be done next week with my book’s editing. Today I’ll be doing a little Reiki Healing Attunement ritual with Astrid, getting my hair trimmed and the silvery streaks revitalized, as well as getting things in order for a potent forest workshop this weekend. I finalized some things and along with prepping the massage tables for Reiki teaching on Saturday, they will also then be released and sold next week to close that part of my journey too.

And that brings me to some magickal potency that just yesterday I got that both Astrid and I would be offering up today on the Solstice.

Many of you will remember the Magick Crystal Wands I channeled last year. They all found their beautiful partners and guardians, but there was one at the time I had felt to keep for myself. Several people were wanting it then, but it had work to do with me.

Yesterday, I received the message to release it and offer it on Summer Solstice.

So that is what I am doing – here is the info that I posted about it when first sharing it.

Merlin & Lady of the Lake Wand ~ $222 – SOLD

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This wand called to me from the shore of Fallen Leaf Lake here and I was taken back by its appearance immediately. It was already fully carved, smoothed (as if someone had rigorously sanded it), and has a beautiful golden blonde coloring with perfectly spaced dots in a design along its shaft. I do not know the type of wood it is, but I know it is not of this world, as it was ominously placed out in the open like this for me to find it, singing to me like a wizard’s wand would.

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On its own, without any added adornments, it is a powerful and complete wand, but I immediately knew that it desired elements to bring forth the harmony of its embodiment.

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This to include three irridescent blue Mallard feathers and one Blue Jay feather at the center. Along with these beauties, there sits a Tibetan Quartz above them at center and a combo of silver and gold wire individually woven and ending in triple spirals.

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And at the top, a very special Quartz point wrapped in an intertwined gold and silver wire ending in a spiral at each side.

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The Quartz at top is a small point, but large in its presence. Since this wand was already potent on its own and had a perfectly rounded bottom and softened diagonal point, it did not want any large stone, but simply one to enhance and act as a fine-tuned channel at top.

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It was evident which crystal it would be, as only this one had the exact slant to its bottom that perfectly matched flush to the top of the slant of the wand.

But as small as this Quartz point is, it is no ordinary crystal. It happens to be the one that Fiver, the mouse who I helped transition in peace and love, jumped aboard to fly off into the otherworld when he transitioned.  But to add to that, when I looked even closer I discovered perhaps why this had been the crystal chosen to be with him and why it was so powerful for journeying beyond.

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It happens to be a Channeler Transmitter Quartz, or Dow or Trans-Channeler Quartz, as they are known with perfect 3-7-3 and 7-3-7 sides to its faces, front and back. You can read more about that here: Dow or Trans-Channeler Crystal. Divine balance and connection with Universal Truth being its essence.

The Mallard Duck feathers embody spiritual freedom, grace on water, self expression, emotional strength and protection, mystic and seer, combines land and water balance, integration, and manifestation, knowing what to do and how to do it, graceful self confidence, knowing, preparedness, letting go, speaking truth, intuition, gentle flow, the now, and being that they walk the Earth, swim in the waters (fresh and ocean), and roam the sky, they are links between Heaven and Earth, or this world and another, and also represent eternal life.

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Blue Jay brings the energies of clarity (in this case double clarity/vision to express purity and truth of heart and soul with great clarity of thought in bringing these through to share), communication, presence, wise and balanced use of personal power, resourceful adaptability for ease, creative self-expression and assertion, sound and song, authenticity, and bringing higher thoughts into action.  Their crest that reaches into the heavens, directly links both Earth and Universal/Cosmic energies, bridging them for integration and active expression of divinity brought into embodiment.

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So both bird spirits linking and bridging here and beyond, personal and collective, immediate and bigger picture.

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And next we have Astrid’s offering.

Dendritic Opal ~ $111 – SOLD

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It stands 6 inches tall and is 2 inches wide at base.

You’ll remember I shared this crystal back when Astrid came home to me. She was given a couple of crystal friends, but this is the one she would like to offer on today’s Solstice.

It is a lovely raw crystal that is pale silvery blue in person with some darker areas and wonderful portals.

Here’s some info on the stone: Dendritic Opal and here: Dendritic Opal

Here are photos of Astrid activating it.

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Wishing everyone an invigorating Summer Solstice!

Sending love and creative magick to all!

The Importance of Active Creativity


I couldn’t agree more with Lee on this…creativity has a power to shift everything. If you are not creating in some way, it will feel as if you are dying and in fact you ARE diminishing your life force because you are inherently a creative being. I discovered along the way that having different outlets of creativity truly helped activate more parts of my brain, but also of my heart, and definitely more of the latent parts of my DNA to come alive and awaken from their slumber. I found that rather than only have one outlet for creativity, by engaging and exploring multiple outlets this provided a constant surge of fresh energy to keep flowing, as well as helped to reinvigorate and inspire the avenue I had only been engaging until then – and of course accessed my multi-dimensional self.

This is why in the past my spirit was led to branch out from my paintings to doing commissions and animal portraits, but further diversifying to things like spiritual tattoo designs, crystal jewelry making, creating Faery wands, paintings magick stones, writing my first book and starting a blog, opening up to different forms of teaching and offerings, creating mini succulent gardens, growing my Garden Tower, sound channeling, redecorating my room or changing up my wardrobe, cutting or coloring my hair, or even stretching into different forms of paintings I’d never done and even having rabbits in my life – the ultimate abundant, fertile creativity spirit animals.

All in the vein of creativity being the essence of life and not a “hobby,” as Lee shares, and the more you engage it, the more life force, overall well-being, and expansion is available to you.

Although I’ve moved away from just about everything I mentioned above, the creativity Faery is still largely alive within me. Currently, that’s involved active creating of ventures Dave and I have been manifesting together and the huge project of completely renovating our new home and decorating it from the ground up.

It’s also been hugely invigorated by my having my own office again – the creative flame center of the home – newly decorated with lots of fresh stuff for Astrid as well.

It’s involved my mini succulent gardens that have expanded now and soon to include my Garden Tower again, come Spring.

And of course, in the meantime, my new book that although took a back-burner in the midst of the huge home renovation project, has now come around full-circle and is reinvigorated and inspired because of the break.

And the book is just the beginning of new branches to my “tree of life” (synchronously I brought home a new indoor Clusia tree for the house yesterday) to explore and expand upon, as I have a volcano of creative manifestations that the book opens the door to for this new year I kick off come my birthday’s transition of energy numerologically. I will go from an 11/2 year to a 12/3 year, bringing me back to my birth number 3, which is the creative child. So this year really should feel like being in my element and it’s no wonder I’ve been doing all of this ground work to free the flood ways for the tsunami of creativity a-flowin’.

Yet, it couldn’t flow unless I enaged it with curiosity, embrace, surrender to, and then committed action to bring it forth.

I share this as example of how this creativity has moved through me and how by tapping into other parts of my creativity, it’s not only helped open doors to new parts, but also in fact has multiplied the wellspring of creative energy I have available.

It’s assisted me in expanding, in manifesting, and in rebirthing when life hit a wall, at times became disappointing and uninspiring, or an end to one part of me had been reached.

It’s given me a new lease on life for now and provides unlimited amounts of joy and potentials I get to choose based on that alignment.

And, what I have discovered is that creativity helps you tap into your multi-dimensional self, which opens a plethora of possibilities.

Now, that ought to be a fun adventure, right?!

There truly is no end to what can be created, and created, and created…..

As Lee shares, active creativity “enlivens you and helps with depression, because depression is stifled and unused energy, and a disconnection” in general.

I love his little excerpt snippet videos that provide seeds of wisdom.

Here’s Lee on active creativity and its importance to your life:

Christmas Reflections & New Stage of Life


It’s been a big week so far, beginning with warm celebrations at my family’s house in Reno for Christmas, some completions, and a huge day today for Astrid. I was able to complete my office, except for a new sliding glass door and three special things to hang, which meant it was time for the reveal to her. And boy was it the best day of her life, and my life with her, yet! She had a huge day of joyful tears, soulful release, and courageous leaps – quite literally!

This mirrors me, as I’ve been reflecting on all that has completed and is about to begin in my own life, which was reiterated by the Tarot cards I pulled on Christmas.

My family and I always pull cards at the holidays to see what current theme is streaming through and what the New Year holds for us. All of them were very accurate, and mine were no exception to that.

They spoke to the rebirth taking place for me, an inner calling surfaced, release from all karmic ties, and everything coming together in my life story as I reach a significant stage on my journey.

Synchronously, the last week or so I’ve had an influx of people inquiring for services I have let go of and items I used to offer. To all of them I politely said no, but shared my gratitude for the reflections. It’s become much easier to do this, as I get the clearest yet about myself and what I want and don’t want.

As I felt into the messages of the cards, it was such a relieving confirmation and when I saw Astrid’s joy today and felt and heard her own release and depth of gratitude, I knew we were riding this new path together in all ways. Her feelings were mine reflected, and vice versa.

I will soon share a post on Astrid’s explorations and fun in our new shared room, which got its name a few days ago.

For now I’ll just share this one tiny peek of her in one of her play areas, standing tall and proud, and want to express the touching moment for us.

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After she explored a bunch, she returned to the center of the room where I sat. Normally when she’s excited, she’s very interested in doing her own thing and will jet off if you come to her. But this time she came right to me and I put my hand on her head and caressed her softly, as we shared words.

Her eyes softened and lids lowered and she melted into my hand. All I could hear and feel was her joyous release and appreciation.

Like me, she’s had a long, hard journey.

Like me she’s waited patiently and kept going and believing, even when there seemed no hope.

Like me, she is experiencing the best time of her life now and receiving reflections of all the work she’s put into things, come to fruition…finally.

I could see her past and all she went through to get to this moment…how she waited for the right time and person to adopt her.

No one would and kept passing her by because they couldn’t “see” her.

She waited nearly three years, which is a lot for a little rabbit, as all of her friends at the rescue got adopted and left her behind.

And now, here she was, being gifted a magickal rabbit playroom fit for the queen that she is.

It was all overwhelming for her in a beautiful full circle way.

I felt both of our hearts open wider and our connection deepen, as we both shed tears of gratitude.

I knew her journey, as it mirrored so much of my own.

I’ll share again more in an upcoming post, but today was a huge day for us both. And on top of that, she learned to go up and down the big staircase all on the same day.

I knew she could do it, but thought it might take longer.

Astrid proved her bravery, as within a couple of hours she was up the stairs. And just a bit ago, she made it down.

It was such a cute process….the down that is, as she kept coming to me to help her. She kept nosing my ankles and then tugged on my pant legs with her teeth, to help. So I gave her a pep talk and went to the stairs to show her how. It took a little while, as she kept checking the first step down and then circling to regroup. And then it was done.

Today was a BIG day for both of us on so many levels. Speaks to the New Year to come!

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Here are some photos from our lovely Christmas we all shared as a family, which was festive, fun, and full of giggles and yummy vegan feasting! Grateful to have parents that support our vegan lifestyle and always make, buy, or search out vegan restaurant options for us. My brother (who is absent in the photos due to camera shyness, but far from absent in the shenanigans shared) is vegan and was actually vegan a few years before I even knew what being vegan was. Both my mom (makes the entrees) and dad (makes the desserts) got in on the vegan creations and sent us home with care packages and apple dumplings to enjoy for the mornings.

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Grateful also to have Faery folk as parents, which brings to Christmas and all holidays the magick I love.

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The painting hanging here in their living room is an original by me of Venice that I painted while living in Sedona in 1997 – my first major painting I ever did – as an anniversary gift to my parents (it replicated a photo from their trip there, with a little “T” twist)

 

Such warmth shared all around! And wonderful gifties too!

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I hope everyone that celebrates Christmas enjoyed a warm, peace, and love filled one and that the holiday season (however you celebrate or don’t) was a perfect reflection of you.

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Faery kisses to all!

Winter Solstice Reflections


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As I sit here watching the snow gently fall, creating magick all around me, I am in gratitude of the cycles and seasons of life that have brought me to this very moment. I’m also in awe of the perfection of this sweetness falling from the heavens like powdered sugar, in perfect creation of what will be a potent and memorable day. This Winter Solstice has been chosen by my beloved Cosmo as the day to spread some of his ashes upon the lake to join in alchemy with Joy’s and Nestor’s, igniting a sacred wave of shifts abound.

Other things are also taking place today and ending/beginning, so I will be reflecting upon and adding energy to the magickal brew a-stirring.

Today marks another new cycle and change of seasons as we welcome in the Winter Solstice (for the Northern Hemisphere and Summer Solstice for the Southern Hemisphere). This brings the end of the old year’s cycle, as we begin anew, and provides a supportive time to make leaps in consciousness by moving within to shine your light, as the light lessens on this shortest day/longest night of the year (or longest day of the year for you Southern Hemisphere folks).

We’ve been continuing to clear in preparation for new and more natural ways of living from our highest and likely you’ve been experiencing heightened awareness of all things in your life through varying ways of experiencing these, relative to each, and coming to feel more self alignment and merging taking place.

This is creating an upsurge of excitement, as you feel the energy field welcoming you into your truth more than ever.

Where ever you are in your journey, is perfect, and likely you have that sense, even if moving through the “ick” still, that there’s something different this time in the experience.

I simply would encourage you to let go, do what ever you can to maintain your own inner balance and harmony so that you can vibrate at your own relaxed and natural personal frequency, and compassionately realize that you are different than everyone else and therefore you only need to exercise your own sovereign free will and lovingly allow them to do the same.

More and more you will be experiencing, embodying, and emanating so much more light, which is not to be feared, but to be celebrated.

Through this Winter Solstice “gateway” you can be mindful of this turn of seasons to be more soul driven and may feel called to take some moments to honor this flowing change of life cycles. Perhaps creating a special sacred space or ritual act to honor the “return of light” that this Solstice is reminding us.

Candles and crystals come to mind when I think of ways you might symbolically create that space, or perhaps simply envisioning and imagining (imagination is a powerful tool) the light and inner fire of your heart and soul expanding and filling your entire body and emanating out and joining with the light of our Great Central Sun, allowing yourself to take up more space and be who you really are.

Winter Solstice provides a supportive time to honor the remembrance of light that you are, for making those leaps in consciousness by moving within to shine your own light, and to “see the light” even when things get dark and you’re unsure of what to do, where to go, or even how to think or feel.

There is so much potential available to each of you and it is up to each individual how you choose to embrace this or not. It’s an opportunity to completely reinvent yourself and your life and to do things more differently than ever before, which will take the courage of being willing to shine your light even if no one else around you is.

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A lovely Christmas card I received this year from a beloved friend that reminded me of the little faery ballerina me, alongside a photo of me at 3 years old practicing my ballet poses. 

Childhood memories of myself as a ballerina and the passion I expressed through me with dance brings depth to the meaning of today’s “rebirthing of the Light” and life and spirit.

We all have the opportunity to courageously be born again like a seed of light, as we deepen into the stillness of the dark.

There is much hope and promise within remembering the heart of who I am and what was alive within me as a child. Some of what I/we may have forgotten.

There’s an integration that takes place and frees me even more when I reclaim those parts of my essence.

What this means to me is that what ever it is I do take action to bring forth in my life, the little girl within me will be dancing her heart out while doing it, as the dream is the reality I choose to live and nothing less than that.

Wishing you a liberating and enlightening Winter Solstice.

May your courage deepen and the creative impetus of transformation shine brightly within you.

Moon Magick & Rebirthing


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For the past month my birthday keeps popping up on the clock, so alongside the portal times like 11:11, 1:11, 2:22, 3:33, 4:44 and 5:55, my birthday – 2:26 – has now taken over prime sighting spot, which feels to be a confirmation and activation of rebirthing. This continued last night when I woke up at 2:26 am to find the Full Moon’s light beaming brightly through the front windows above and across the fresh field of possibilities that is our current home view, calling me to sit up on the dashboard and set intentions since it was only an hour away from the Moon reaching its fullest at 3:27 am. And after, I was compelled to take some photos, which turned out quite interesting, as well as were halted by my camera shutting itself off. I thought it was the batteries, but in the morning when I woke up to check it, it was working again. I then returned to bed, but on my way back I saw that the Moon was sending a beam of light onto Cosmo in his safe haven under the table too.

The photos throughout this post are from last night’s Moon – no flash used – and taken in succession.

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We’re in our new home of Elk Island National Park, which is about 2 hours from Saskatchewan (our next adventure).

The weather is beautiful and sunshine abound, which created a refreshing and lovely day of exploring on our first hike.

We encountered more magickal animal friends without skipping a beat, picking right up again where we left off before our 3 day city touch-in.

I’ll share the animals along with our time here in Elk Island after the week comes to closure, but I will say that snowshoe hare magick was the first to greet us, with a long connecting time with me, as she allowed me to get quite close. And then she reappeared at the end of the hike at the same place, since it was a big 6+ mile loop.

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Rabbit and Moon magick – it doesn’t get much better for me personally. Well, except when you add in the great gray owl that swooped across our path too. 😉 It was a day of enchanting woodland connections for sure, as you’ll see soon.

For now, I’m just embracing the calm serenity I feel since we arrived here with only the sound of wind rustling in the quaking aspen surrounding us.

The field of dreams we are looking out upon, which is golden and green in the sunlight, feels like a place to create anew as we desire. It feels like a place of rest, renewal, and watering of intentions that are made here.

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So when the Moon beckoned me last night to awake at the time of personal rebirthing – 2:26 – I took its hand and embraced the welcome into this portal of potentials.

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Here are some words about the energy right now that resonates with what I’ve been feeling and sharing, from intuitive astrologer, Sarah Varcas:

“Practice not allowing anything to stick in your energy field. Visualize it as flowing water, rushing wind. See its constant motion.

By identifying with the trials of life, buying into their drama instead of claiming our freedom, we create substance where movement should be, calcifying thoughts and feelings unnecessarily. Recognizing and reversing this process is key to profound and lasting change.

The mind is both our liberator and our jailer now. If we allow it to oppress us with demands for ever greater ‘proof’ of this or that, evermore detail to justify what we know instinctively to be true, we will tie ourselves in mental knots that drain our energy and produce no useful outcomes.

But if we can expand our mind to embrace possibilities previously discounted, to consider life from new angles, we could experience liberation like never before.

The veils between the egoic and higher minds are paper thin now and we can break through so easily, with just the slightest effort, if we choose.

However we feel at this juncture, we can rest assured there are new perspectives just waiting to be seen, something we simply haven’t perceived about our situation which can revolutionize the path ahead.

We may, however, be too distracted to take ourselves in hand. An accumulation of stress and anxiety, despair or depression – even the tedious boredom of a life lived in black and white – can all keep us from recognizing the power of the present moment and the alchemical force unleashed when we live it fully and without regret.

We may have invested too much energy in anticipation of an ideal future when everything magically falls into place, not realizing the magic is us, living on purpose, with clear intent and for the greater good right now.

This Moon has little time for fears and failings, excuses and justifications. It simply wants us to get a grip and move ahead by arriving fully in the present, with our power intact and our resolve firm and clear.

If we find ourselves resistant at this Moon, wrestling with external pressures that threaten to change our course, discernment is vital.

We cannot and do not live apart from the world and must attend always to the constant feedback loop which occurs between us and our environment both near and far.

Sometimes we must stand firm in the face of external pressures. At other times those very pressures are the touch of the divine reminding us we may be losing our way, drifting off track or blind to something we cannot afford to ignore.

If resistance energizes and clarifies intent, it is probably keeping us on track. If it drains us and destroys our peace, distracting from positive action which could blow the cobwebs away, we may well be resisting the very thing that will set us free.

Beware the seduction of certainty in the face of current confusion. It can only ever be a thin veneer atop an infinitely complex existence beyond anyone’s power to fully understand.

Knowing it’s okay not to know, being at peace with paradox, embracing with an open heart all insights gleaned, even that we’ve been wrong all along.” 

It May Not Happen Overnight, but it DOES Happen


Any time someone tells me that they can’t do something, I don’t hear the excuse, but what I do see is their light diminishing a little more with each answer they come up with.

Their life force and spark dimming at the loss of passion flowing through.

Why I don’t hear the excuse is because I don’t believe it.

Anyone whether it has been someone learning how to paint with their toes or mouth because they have no hands, or who has discovered and invented something that ends up helping everyone’s lives that others thought was a crazy idea in the first place, or the single mother who creates a seven-figure at-home business while caring for her children and working part time jobs, the addict who becomes sober and inspires others to do the same while they start over back in college and land an amazing job, the high school drop out that becomes a brilliant entrepreneur and leads others to do the same, the retiree with a love for animals who opens his home to care for the neglected and homeless dogs, the woman told she has three months to live due to cancer and has gone on to live 20 years past that timeline and still going strong, the orphan who makes her way and later opens a home to other girls like her…..

They all do what they do and achieve what they have because they, too, don’t believe in anything others have to say and don’t listen to the roadblocks their sabotaging egos would otherwise have them believe.

When they get frustrated they continue on.

When they cry themselves dry those tears become the force behind their momentum.

When they reach an impasse, they build a bridge.

When a door closes, they knock on another.

When they hit rock bottom, they choose to rise again, and again, and again….

You CAN do the things you want to do and you CAN start doing them today.

Or maybe the way you think it needs to look or be is limiting you and opening to the possibilities can bring in the perfect way.

What lies before you is not a deterrent, but a stepping stone.

Nothing is a sentence…it is all just a message that with shifts and new choices made can be an empowering thing.

And as I mentioned in a previous post a couple of days ago about the pioneering spirit:

Lift yourself up and discover how incredibly more powerful, able, resourceful, resilient, and creative you are than you think.

You don’t need to know how.

The road doesn’t need to be clear.

You simply need to allow your heart to fuel your mind with passion that is food to the creative will.

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Just a little sparkly message from Cosmo to support those creative nudges you’re feeling.

Yes, this is the perfect time to listen to your inner nudges and begin anew.

You know what is calling to you…trust that inner voice and encourage your soul child.

The Creative Power of Water


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“Rain showers my spirit and waters my soul.”  ~Emily Logan Decens

 

Last night, while asleep, the rain began and continues.

It is such a gift to hear the sacred water dance between Mother Ocean’s powerful rhythmic waves and Father Sky’s raindrop drumming that keep tempo with one another.

At times soft and gentle.

At times with penetrating force.

All the while soothing my watery soul.

Even Great Blue Heron joined in the dance at water’s edge this morning, within view from our cozy little home.

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I dreamed last night of my French grandmother who passed several years back.

In the dream I gifted her two things.

A small Buddhist trinket and a red spray bottle vial.

I remember in the dream thinking oh boy she’s going to flip over the first, as she was very religious, but she didn’t freak and accepted the gift.

The red vial I explained was to bring her courage and that she could use it to mist her face with her favorite rose water she always liked to use, as a way of refreshing and renewing.

Besides the time I’ve spent here in Avila Beach in my early thirties, we’ve spent a lot of time up and down the coast with my immediate family and family from France and the East Coast.

Seems not only am I continuing to retrieve parts of myself, but am helping healing down the ancestral lines as well, as my grandparents have been coming to mind recently and of course Nestor is here assisting.

All of this watery energy feels so good and perfect.

There is no sadness, only embrace and gratitude for the perfection of it all.

Native American Indians know the importance of water in all of its forms as being the “water of life” and a most vital, life-giving element.

Rain symbolizes renewal, cleansing, change, abundance, fertility, rebirth, nourishment, rejoice, and forgiveness.

Rain clouds are considered a magickal symbol of good future prospects.

And yet for some, rain can be depressing, frustrating, and dark.

Water is the unconscious so it isn’t a mystery why it would be felt as such, because it is symbolic of the mystery within the depths of you – a place not many want to venture, or can only manage dipping in, but not fully submerging.

It can feel like drowning to experience that darkness until you understand its potential for you to learn to navigate the waters and become adept like our cetacean friends and our primal shark family.

And yet that darker experience is also where the deepest cleansing takes place that supports you to rise again.

Cathartic purging, which the rain symbolizes so flowingly, will take you through a period of release as things rise to the surface to be washed away. It then may feel like hitting rock bottom, or a dark night of the soul. But this is where the inspiration sparks and the new awareness shines for renewal.

This is why rain symbolically embodies rebirth, as with that release comes water’s supportive energy for you to powerfully recreate yourself in a new and more empowered way.

You understand creative power, which is a dual process of deepening and releasing alongside inspiration and expression.

As I said that two dolphins appeared RIGHT where the waves break to shore (closer even than the photo I captured). Incredible! Seemed almost too close, but then they were making themselves known and bringing their joyous and playful energy to the watery domain many fear…inviting and beckoning us deeper to experience the release and freedom.

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The rain and water carries abundant fertile potentials.

It fuels imagination from the source of your feelings bursting forth into creative sparks.

It’s the energy of flow and perpetual change – the constant creative source of expression that purifies the soul.

I welcome this watery day and energy for which I’ll be reflecting in, painting in, strolling in, and cozying up surrounded in.

I’m accepting dolphin’s invite and seeing where they lead.

Neptune – God of the Sea – beckons too, as the RV next to us just left and all I caught was its name in the side window “Neptune”.

Will you accept the invitation deeper?

What might you discover that could bring greatest fulfillment and possibilities to your life if you do?

“Remember that every drop of rain that falls bears into the bosom of the earth a quality of beautiful fertility.”  ~George Henry Lewes

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