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Springing Into Fuller Embodiment ~ Spring Equinox Portal of Possibilities


Peace and harmony to you on this beautiful Spring Equinox portal. Where ever you are I hope you can take some time to tune in and anchor in your own “change of seasons” with some reflection on where you are on your journey, envisioning what you would like to be creating as your path continues to unfold, and honing in on what actions you can take to put it all into renewing motion. I was just thinking about the last few years and where I was on Spring Equinox…last year in the Grand Canyon on our Magick Bus adventure, the year before on the island of Amantani in Lake Titicaca for our sacred journey to Peru I organized, and the year before hosting the Reiki Renewal Retreat in Laguna Beach, CA. And now, sitting above Lake Tahoe in our treehouse in Nevada engaging in what I feel to be my life’s work come full circle.

My how things shift and yesterday and this morning I’ve been reflecting on where I’m headed and how much has changed to get to this more anchored place I feel to be in with solid direction and fullest embodiment of what’s in my heart.

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This photo is from last year’s RV adventure in the Magick Bus while exploring my favorite Glacier National Park. I love the hint of double rainbow that shows up in the clouds above and the hawk flying in the blue area of the sky that wanted to be captured in this image too.

This photo not only embodies the essence of today to me, but anchors in the visions I’m supporting from the guidance channeling through and my own intentions and dream visions unfolding.

I hope it ignites a spark of inspiration for you too.

Renewal is yours if you are willing to lovingly close doors, take action, and open to receiving new portals of experience because you’re worth it as an embodiment of All That Is.

Everything to me right now feels like we’re planting our own spirit gardens and it’s incredibly liberating and enjoyable to choose the seeds we want to see blossom and learn what each needs to be cultivated and nurtured into fruition. All the while knowing you are Spirit in motion of being and everything you do is a merging of this.

And if you don’t yet know what you want to be growing in your garden, this is a wonderful and revealing time to receive revelations and inspiration that uncover the seeds of your spirit’s truest calling.

Words that come to mind are surrender, balance, harmony, integrity, trust, and renewal.

I shared this message, below, before around the same time of year, but it still feels to be the theme and so I’ll reshare it again.

Things you might ask yourself in line with the words above are:

In what areas of your life can you surrender and stop trying to do and control it all? What can you let go of to make room for allowing and receiving?

How can you maintain your equilibrium, and remain balanced? Are you fortifying your source of energy and learning to shield yourself from all externals that knock you off your axis?

Are you being consistent with the integrity of your life and making it a priority as to your vibrational resonance you embody? Where might you release things, people, and situations that aren’t reflecting the same integrity? Are you ready to invite higher discernment into your life with the choices you make? Are you living authentically in expression of your inner truth and essence or is false ego running the show creating illusions and lack of self love and self worth?

Do you operate solely in your head and forego the knowing in your heart? Are you willing to cultivate more trust in that gut feeling, or are you more happy allowing all of the “stuff” out there to determine the course of your life? Is fear your friend or enemy?

Can you commit to letting go of the old with love, gratitude, and compassionate understanding for the way things have been, but no longer need to be? What are you willing to release in order to have the new experiences you want? Do you talk about things rather than do them?

It all boils down to how seriously you are willing to make different choices and back them up with action. The first step is the most challenging, but it all gets easier from there.

We are just like energetic coils, spiraling through the cycles of our life and able to “spring” back and regenerate ourselves.

You are more resilient than you think.

What you believe and the actions you take in support of those beliefs are shaping your experience and either bucking the natural harmony of your coiled embodiment or flowing gracefully with that spiraling essence.

Asking questions right now feels even more potent than simply sharing inspirational words, as it engages you to partner more in the empowerment you seek.

If you are willing to honestly answer the hard questions, then the next question is, are you willing to take the actions in support of helping you toward different answers you perhaps may seek to experience?

Only you can do the work.

Only you can make the changes….embrace new perspectives…and realize more expansive potentials.

I can’t do it for you and neither can anyone else.

We can only help guide you back to you, if, and only if you are ready to go there.

There is no wrong. There’s only choice and free will.

There is no timing to meet except your own soul’s gauge.

To reclaim your sovereignty you’ll need to reclaim it.

How that looks is up to you.

If you feel you’ve lost your way, yourself, your innocence….you can always choose a different spiral of experience. True, it may take time and it may not be easy, but neither of those are reason to turn a back on yourself for.

Nature has many mirrors for us of challenge and resiliency, of symbolic death and renewal…and yet it goes on as that is the nature of its reality that knows what it is here to do and doesn’t judge it against anything else.

The nature of your reality is that you, too, are powerful beyond measure, are beautiful in all of your seasons of inevitable change, and no matter the roads your journey takes you, you are and always have been an embodied miracle.

The truth of it is, there is no magick.

Magick is simply when you are surrendering to your essence.

Magick is when you express your creative piece of life force energy moving through you.

Magick is simply you being you.

And when you are embodying your essence expression and trusting in the knowing of that beyond all else, everything you touch is a process of alchemy creating alignment, abundance, and grace.

That’s the “magick”. It’s a natural process.

When you aren’t being natural you don’t experience this.

It’s that simple.

From being in the core essence of you, you are then able to branch out into new things from a stable, solid, and sustainable energy source that isn’t being depleted by having to manage frustration, inner torment, or having to support inauthentic, contrived, conditioned, or illusory ideas of you, what you think you should be doing, or how you think you need to look to others.

For myself, I have come to a place of great clarity through letting go of personal stagnation I was feeling, although to the outside world would not have been detected.

This has resulted in cultivating and nurturing those key themes I mentioned at start: surrender, balance, harmony, integrity, trust, and renewal.

It’s come with letting go of EVERYTHING that doesn’t mirror the integrity I’ve become ultra sensitively discerning about.

It’s like a complete update and upgrade, which ultimately is a total renewal.

So, not only is it Spring time for the next quarter cycle of the year, but this whole year feels to be a year of allowing new blossoms to open from the work you’ve done all of these years, while also planting tons of new seeds and working them fully.

A time you can activate more trust and surrender to “knowing” while branching out and following new aspirations or creative directions.

A good time for cleaning out your spiritual, emotional, mental, and physical house literally and symbolically.

A time you can live more from a place of saying “yes” to your inner truth.

And tend to your own inner garden of blossoms, while planting like crazy.

Time to branch out into new areas that aren’t tied to anything but essence embodiment.

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This photo is from yesterday.

I was in gratitude of coming full circle to “everything” that ignited here once in Lake Tahoe, NV and was seeded in my soul, now to actually surface through the sands of time within my essence. This unfolding after having followed the threads that tied up all loose ends, integrating, weaving, and retrieving, which helped me understand more fully their reason for being there and how Spirit truly has been designing it in perfect merging of love and mission as One.

All that I/we need to know is in my/our heart(s).

And then it comes down to trusting that.

The answers have always been there. You’ve always received the inner nudges. You/we just hadn’t been taught to listen to, recognize, and support them. Now you can by choosing to do so and it will get stronger the more you do.

Wishing you an invigorating, inspiring, and revealing Spring Equinox.

Celebrating Eternal Renewal & Bonds


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Today would have been Nestor’s 14th birthday and I still celebrate and honor this powerful soul even though she left her Earthly body almost 9 years ago. She has seen to it that others of our soul family have found their way to me and me to them, constantly watches over and guides me, cares for my human self when she feels deeply, sends me messages and signs, supports me with my path and life’s work, and fuels my heart with love and devoted compassion and passion.

Oh the stories I could share that would seem incredulous.

What a magickal day she shares on this celebration of Imbolc.

So many wonderful messages have come through from her and our beloved friends recently and especially between yesterday and today.

Feeling her so much and grateful for her continued support in my life.

Where there is love there is no separation.

I am with her now, as I always have been.

Grateful Reflection & Unwavering Hope ~ Choices that can Make all the Difference


Although we moved out of our house in Orange County and into the Magick Bus in early October of last year and did a couple of small trips, we didn’t officially begin the grand adventure until one year ago to this very day. As I look back on this past year, although doesn’t seem like a very long time, I’m in awe of how much energy we moved and how transformed my entire life – I am – is since then because of that choice. It feels like lifetimes of experiences took place, and in actuality they did, not to mention a full, literal rebirthing.

It is one of the best and most profoundly shifting choices made in my life and completely supported hitting the much needed reset button for my path.

When I reflect upon my life, I can easily pinpoint the pivotal choices and time periods that changed everything in big ways, and this is definitely one of them…in some ways, may be the game-changer in my world finally bringing me to the place I always believed and never lost hope of all the years of my life since a child, knowing it wasn’t until my later years -forties – that I’d truly return to myself and receive the benefit of all the committed work I focused on in a life of growing up very fast.

Only now to return to the innocence of the inner child that I devoted myself to preserving and freeing fully, which took on a lifetime of maturing quickly and inviting in lifetimes of integrating and traveling through the darkness.

It’s empowering to reflect back and recognize the growth and change you have made. To see how it all makes sense even though at the time it made none at all.

I recently have gifted myself many symbolic and tangible things in celebration and have fully embraced self nurturing like never before. I have felt it to be like a birthday celebration every day, which seeing my birthday 2/26…2:26…226 showing up constantly over the last year has reiterated, as a reflective message from All That Is resetting the button cosmically.

And yesterday, when I saw 2:26 again, after all that has taken place these last few days and weeks, it felt not only like a personal renewal, but one collectively, as so much is shifting for us all, even if you can’t see it yet.

We are even currently experiencing that very wet and cold winter I, and others, had felt would be coming…with flowing abundance of water for many areas that have been in need here in the West.

Tons of rain and snow fall abound and it is like a huge cleansing, refresh, reminder, and like healing tears asking of us to remember these watery depths that are needed as a part of the journey and in knowing your wholeness and to have reverence for the journey.

Great creative potential and fertility comes in the embrace of feeling and emotion, in being willing to walk hand-in-hand with our shadow, welcoming change, and being flexible and mutable with our thoughts, beliefs, feelings, and actions so we can fluidly align with harmonic resonance.

Where ever you are right now, allow yourself to be more gentle and loving with all of it….to flow, to free yourself a little bit more, be more fluid, reward and enjoy life, reflect on those things knocking at your heart, love where you are, find ways to not judge or compare, and embrace the energy before you. Things are not always what they seem.

I know for myself that I have a ton of creative projects to manifest, and yet embracing the flow of energy has been most conducive to how these will not only come to be, what has been needed to keep shaping them, but is aligning with the ebbs and flows of collective energy…the pulling back of the rubber band at the right moment so that when released they shoot with great force, momentum, and focus….

For example, I’m now on my third revision of my book so far and I haven’t even finished it yet. I love how when you honor stepping away, there’s always a reason that presents itself…and each time it’s continued to infuse a whole new layer to the inspiration channeling through – reflective of more that I open up to as well.

I am not even in editing mode, I’m just being guided to rework the layers of myself, experiences, energies, collective at large into a renewed version of what that is in the now channeling through without frustration or questioning.

It’s become much more than originally started as and I love that too, as I’ve never had any attachment whatsoever to what was coming through or how it had to be.

I never even knew/know the story until it channels through.

I never edit, just write…I never judge it….just express it.

These revisions remind me of how I paint with layers over layers and the person viewing the painting will never know what is infused literally under the surface of the painting image they see, but they will feel it.

It’s also like music and sound channeling, where layers get harmonized together.

And with each expression of art, there is intention, energy, experience, feeling….that weaves into those layers too.

I’ve been in my joy with this and that is the only thing that matters. And I couldn’t be in that place of experience without everything I’ve experienced, the processes, the learning, the growth, and the choices made and honored.

I encourage everyone to find that passion you can just be you with and flow passionately with, without any attachments, judgment, boundaries, and goals except simply to express yourself and what you can’t not share because it is your breath of life.

And don’t lose hope, as the miracles often happen just when you thought there was nothing left to hope for.

I remember just before the Magick Bus came into our lives, I experienced a year of feeling and knowing the endings in all ways very profoundly and that completion translated as a choice in how I wanted to reset…and at the time without vision of what I see now, it felt like a cosmic return was in order. So I allowed myself to go to the depths of those feelings, mourning, explorations in depth, and found one answer in it all that could mean renewal here on Earth.

It meant letting go of everything I’ve known and been, taking a leap of faith, and being willing to face a new adventure of discovery from a completely fresh slate no longer tied to all that was (this life and beyond).

I was willing to take that leap and chance, to see what I could conjure up in the process of relaxing into creating a new relationship with nature and the nature of me.

And that choice led to here with a plethora of inspiration and knowing there are still yet some things I feel passionately compelled to bring forth while here. And they mirror my heart alone.

So I’ve risen to the occasion of creative power to not only create anything I want, but to recreate a new reality of experience at large. Something available to us all.

“Like water, be gentle and strong. Be gentle enough to follow the natural paths of the earth, and strong enough to rise up and reshape the world.” ~Brenda Peterson

Frog & Moon Magick


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The amphibious and metamorphic essence of frog is one that feels very close to me of recent. And it’s no wonder I’ve seen so many frogs along our travels, like this one, since Nature reflects to us our mirror. Frogs are strongly connected to the water element and since fluidity has become the journey more than ever, I’m seeing how their essence in so many ways does in fact partner in the flow. They are truly magickal creatures that speak of renewal, purity, cleansing, healing, transitions, abundance, creative fertility, and opportunities abound.

Indeed their ancient wisdom helps foster new perspectives and assists us to leap or swim swiftly from one level of consciousness to another – from this world to the Otherworlds. Frogs help us to experience the Great Mystery with ease and swim in Moon Magick and all of her gifts of the Sacred Feminine.

And how perfectly fitting frog is with our upcoming Full Moon in Aries this Sunday the 16th, which is a Super Moon heralding a real lively burst of energy available to harness and that partners these Sacred energies in a productively beautiful dance.

Frogs help us to find courage in accepting new ideas, to foster a sense of self-nurturing, and to discover connections between ideas. And like this Full Moon’s energy, they align with this being the time NOW to focus on healing and freeing yourself from pain and suffering by cleansing all toxicity from your life (people, habits, things, ideas, etc.) that’s impinging on your freedom and both hurting and holding you back.

Both Aries and frogs are about exciting opportunities being presented and your ability to act now and get things done you’ve been wanting to or procrastinating.

Any projects been knocking at your door?

Hop to it!

You’ll be supported with ease.

When a frog jumps into your life it may be indicative of the opportunities that can be discovered in the now of your transition. And this Moon energy will help to positively get those underway.

The frog has a unique growth cycle and undergoes some incredible transformations in its progression and attainment of full adulthood, just as we humans do. Hence, frog understands what it feels like to endure some serious growing pains, and uncomfortable and even yucky feelings, along that transition.

Their ability to lay enormous amounts of eggs lends to their fertility symbolism as well as being synonymous with abundance.

Frog’s medicine reminds us of our ties and bonds with all life, help us to understand our emotions more deeply, support healing transformations and cleansing rebirth, and activate the remembrance of our ancient origins of cosmic watery essence.

Aries is also the initiator of beginnings and partnered with our sound healing friend the frog, remind us of our song that ignites our essence into wholeness.

Inspired by a Tahoe Return


20161007_181241_resized.jpgGolden rays of illumination breathe into me.

The lingering aroma of pine giants merge as the scent of my soul.

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Alpine majesties of Earth’s love reaching for greater heights guide my journey with stability.

Crystalline waters of liquid alchemy wash over and through me.

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There is harmony here in the mystery of your depths.

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Your fertile meadows are the fields of potential.

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Enchanting spirits of the elements join me in jubilee of this return.

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Here I retrieve and remember the parts of me I never lost.

Where this leads I do not care.

Where I am is all that I know.

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Exploring Calf Creek Falls


20160409_161502_resizedYesterday, our last day in Escalante, ended with a beautiful six mile roundtrip hike to Calf Creek Falls – the 126 feet high lower falls.

This is an incredibly beautiful hike that has 14 interpretive stops along the way, leading you to the cool, shady haven of the falls.

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It follows Calf Creek the entire way, meanders over cliffs and through canyons, which at this time of the year was full of beautiful purple blossoms and purple cactus that almost looked painted at times with splashes of yellow.

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The area is also home to the North American Beaver, so we did see evidence of dams and lodges.

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Above the canyon ledges were several granaries built by the ancient Fremont Culture that inhabited Utah from AD 700 to AD 1300.

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There were also incredible painted figures at the bottom of one of the smooth cliffs. These are three large figures done in red pigment and have a trapezoidal shape (hard to fully see them in the photo, as it is across the canyon, but which also shares how large they are). The three figures are typical Fremont-style rock art with elaborate head dresses and seem to be holding hands together. Only speculative ideas on their meaning are available – religious ceremonies, deities, lineages, information, maps, or even warnings.

Interestingly we saw our only snake of our trips so far, on this hike.

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Not sure of the type, but was not a rattlesnake and likely not poisonous, but it slithered quickly across the our path ahead and into the brush quickly, then made its way out from the brush back toward us and hid under a rock.

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It moved quickly and seemed to time its appearance with us in order to see it, but then quickly disappeared back to the shadows.

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Snake medicine is powerful and last night I also dreamed of black panther that kept coming at me….so a lot of shamanic and deep shadow, mysticism, and cosmic energies abound. Still making sense of all of the messages.

There was much lush vegetation in this wetlands habitat due to the creek, which makes it an ideal home for many animals, bird varieties, reptiles, fish, and plant life.

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It was much colder near the falls that are set back in the shady canyon. Scarlet monkey flower, maiden -hair fern, and Easter flower are said to bloom near the seeps in the cliff walls here at certain times of the year.

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We started our day with lunch at Kiva Koffeehouse, which is a unique and secluded spot outside of the main town of Escalante on the way to our hike.

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It sits atop a hill with great views all around. And to our delight, which I had called ahead to make sure of, they had a couple of yummy vegan options including a vegan fire roasted corn and potato soup and veggie sandwiches with carrot salad, fruit, home made vegan bread and hummus on the side.

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Even their hot drinks like lattes, mochas, and hot chocolates all had vegan options with choice of almond, oat or soy milk… So I enjoyed a chai latte with lunch, warming up from a cold morning that was just finishing off from rain all night and first part of the day.

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We have lucked out with everything, including weather, as the rain started the day before, but had only sprinkled during our time at the petrified forest, which made the wood vibrant for us. Then rained hard again after and all night and morning.

But it didn’t rain once while we were on this hike and the sky in fact opened to lovely blue skies.

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We talked to others coming back from the falls, as we were heading to them, saying that it actually was freezing and hailing at the falls when they were there right before us.

We didn’t experience any of this, but the sky did darken and gray once again when we finished the hike and made our way home, although did not rain again and today the sun is shining.

I love the image of this portal in the sky and glowing rain off in the distance, as we drove back last evening.

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Another door has opened for us from our time spent here in Escalante and all that has been received.

And from the snake and black panther medicine, something big seems to be initiating and needing my embrace in a bigger way again.

I wonder what will be next as we continue our journey with three more Utah National Parks, heading off to Capitol Reef today.

“Springing” Back Into Your Essence & Branching Out


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While it may be Spring, there are pockets of areas, like where we are, that are experiencing a slower transition from Winter, with snow still making an appearance and brisk days and nights still our companions.

It’s a beautiful thing experiencing the Spring snow while still seeing all of the wildlife celebrating, offspring enjoying their first immersions of life, and trees, plants, and flowers all peeking through.

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I love the contrast and I love how it mirrors our own unique journeys that at times will be both inward and outwardly focused, need introspection mixed with action taken on the guidance received there, and may seem like not much is happening on some levels when a whole lot actually is and is getting ready to leap forward.

Because of these reflections today and the sights I saw on yesterday’s hike on Sheep Creek Trail, which we started in the evening at 5pm and ended at about 7:30pm due to the extension of light at this time of year, I was moved to share the message I wrote for April’s newsletter on this 1st of the month.

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So for those of you who don’t receive my newsletter, here is the message, accompanied by some photos from yesterday that show contrasts of light and dark…Winter and Spring:

We just celebrated a change of seasons this month with the Spring Equinox on the 20th and are now experiencing the Full Moon Eclipse in Libra on this day of the 23rd. And don’t forget the Solar Eclipse in Pisces that took place on the 8th.

A powerful month of revealing revelations indeed that can uncover the seeds of your soul’s true path.

Words that come to me are surrender, equilibrium, integrity, trust, and renewal.

In what areas of your life can you surrender and stop trying to do and control it all? What can you let go of to make room for allowing and receiving?

How can you maintain your equilibrium, and remain balanced? Are you fortifying your source of energy and learning to shield yourself from all externals that knock you off your axis?

Are you being consistent with the integrity of your life and making it a priority as to your vibrational resonance you embody? Where might you release things, people, and situations that aren’t reflecting the same integrity? Are you ready to invite higher discernment into your life with the choices you make? Are you living authentically in expression of your inner truth and essence or is false ego running the show creating illusions and lack of self love and self worth?

Do you operate solely in your head and forego the knowing in your heart? Are you willing to cultivate more trust in that gut feeling, or are you more happy allowing all of the “stuff” out there to determine the course of your life? Is fear your friend or enemy?

Can you commit to letting go of the old with love, gratitude, and compassionate understanding for the way things have been, but no longer need to be? What are you willing to release in order to have the new experiences you want? Do you talk about things rather than do them?

Renewal is yours if you are willing to lovingly close doors, take action, and open to receiving new portals of experience.

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It all boils down to how seriously you are willing to make different choices and back them up with action. The first step is the most challenging, but it all gets easier from there.

We are just like energetic coils, spiraling through the cycles of our life and able to “spring” back and regenerate ourselves.

You are more resilient than you think.

What you believe and the actions you take in support of those beliefs are shaping your experience and either bucking the natural harmony of your coiled embodiment or flowing gracefully with that spiraling essence.

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Asking questions right now feels even more potent than simply sharing inspirational words, as it engages you to partner more in the empowerment you seek.

If you are willing to honestly answer the hard questions, then the next question is, are you willing to take the actions in support of helping you toward different answers you perhaps may seek to experience?

Only you can do the work.

Only you can make the changes.

I can’t do it for you and neither can anyone else.

We can only help guide you back to you, if, and only if you are ready to go there.

There is no wrong. There’s only choice and free will.

There is no timing to meet except your own soul’s gauge.

To reclaim your sovereignty you’ll need to reclaim it.

How that looks is up to you.

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If you feel you’ve lost your way, yourself, your innocence….you can always choose a different spiral of experience. True, it may take time and it may not be easy, but neither of those are reason to turn a back on yourself for.

Nature has many mirrors for us of challenge and resiliency, of symbolic death and renewal…and yet it goes on as that is the nature of its reality that knows what it is here to do and doesn’t judge it against anything else.

The nature of your reality is that you, too, are powerful beyond measure, are beautiful in all of your seasons of inevitable change, and no matter the roads your journey takes you, you are and always have been an embodied miracle.

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The truth of it is, there is no magick.

Magick is simply when you are surrendering to your essence.

Magick is when you express your creative piece of life force energy moving through you.

Magick is simply you being you.

And when you are embodying your essence expression and trusting in the knowing of that beyond all else, everything you touch is a process of alchemy creating alignment, abundance, and grace.

That’s the “magick”. It’s a natural process.

When you aren’t being natural you don’t experience this.

It’s that simple.

From being in the core essence of you, you are then able to branch out into new things from a stable, solid, and sustainable energy source that isn’t being depleted by having to manage frustration, inner torment, or having to support inauthentic, contrived, conditioned, or illusory ideas of you, what you think you should be doing, or how you think you need to look to others.

For myself, I have come to a place of great clarity through letting go of personal stagnation I was feeling, although to the outside world would not have been detected.

This has resulted in cultivating and nurturing those key themes I mentioned at start: surrender, equilibrium, integrity, trust, and renewal.

And setting off on our RV adventure is the literal and symbolic vehicle for moving the energy I chose in action to take to support the needs I had personally of embodying my essence to the fullest possible.

This has come with knowing what I need to do without knowing and seeing any outcome whatsoever.

It’s come with letting go of EVERYTHING that doesn’t mirror the integrity I’ve become ultra sensitively discerning about.

It’s like a complete update and upgrade, which ultimately is a total renewal.

So, not only is it Spring time for the next quarter cycle of the year, but this whole year feels for me to be a year of allowing new blossoms to open from the work done all of these years, while also planting tons of new seeds and working them fully.

I’m trusting and surrendering to “knowing” solely, branching out by following new aspirations, and creating ultra focus and mega boundaries due to exponential sensitivities arising – all in response to life shoving me up to passion in all areas of experience.

We left Sedona on Sunday the 20th (the first day of Spring) and once again she’s proven to be the manifestor and regenerator that I’ve known her to be in my life and for anyone who is ready to embrace her potent energies of potential.

I’m cleaning my spiritual, emotional, mental, and physical house literally and symbolically.

I’m living from a place of saying “yes” to my inner truth.

And I am tending to my inner garden of blossoms, while planting like crazy.

Time to branch out into new areas that aren’t tied to anything but essence ecstasy.

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The Changes That Have Taken Place ~ All Services Ceased, Health is Great, New Creations On The Horizon To Share


For those of you who don’t receive my newsletter, this was an important announcement I made in my early April one for this coming month that felt worthy of reiterating here, as it pertains to how things have evolved with the services I was still offering.

I already announced that most of what I used to offer was being ceased for the time being, but I was still open to a set amount of hours a week of Intuitive Guidance Coaching sessions and had shifted over to offering a set amount of Private Immersive Retreats at destinations along our RV adventure.

However, while in Sedona I received the message that all of this was to cease and so I fully surrendered to that knowing that came through me. Perhaps they will return at some later time in a new way, but that’s not for me to know or wonder about right now.

I will solely be focused on my creative projects and integrating the energy of all of our experiences at the destinations we arrive to, infusing what I receive into my new work, and continuing to retrieve parts of my ancient voice and essence.

This doesn’t mean I’m dropping off the face of the Earth or pulling away completely like I did when on sabbatical, but it does mean that I’m remaining focused with my energy on what I feel I need to be doing.

My life is very public and while I share much of it and doing the videos is a way to connect more intimately with you, I am being guided that I also need my/our time in a much bigger way right now that feels balanced and supportive of my own needs.

And I’m so grateful to be at a place in my life where I have manifested the ability to do so with total support, which came through a lot of hard work.

This is something I just know I need to do. And my service right now is in channeling the authenticity of me and the love I feel through my essence expression.

I’ve already returned deposits received for retreats and continue to field requests for services and products I once offered. I’m so grateful for everyone’s supportive love and understanding with all of this, as I know it has come somewhat abruptly and surprisingly.

I assure you it is a natural progression of coming to closure with cycles within my life and as a soul in general, completing contracts.

It’s been interesting, as I’ve even been receiving requests for a lot of things I have stopped doing for a while, and not just things I’ve only just recently ceased. Requests for crystal pendants, crystals, custom paintings, in-person Reiki sessions, you name it….

This is once again a sign to me of the cleansing process doing its thing, as when we are letting go of the old, we tend to call up the old as it moves through us.

This doesn’t mean we’re meant to keep doing those things since we are manifesting what seem like opportunities (although that’s for you to check in on personally and decide for yourself).

However, for me, I see it as the moving out and sometimes also as a test of my boundaries and strength to say “no” to what I don’t want and “yes” to what I do. As if I don’t, the endless cycle of stagnation would continue on as long as I let it, or until my body gives out.

A few people have inquired, asking if I am alright in terms of my health or anything else. I guess they are wondering if I am making these changes in response to a health crises and only thinking I would make such choices in the wake of serious challenges.

I understand where these questions come from, as it has been a conditioned way to decide to make changes ONLY when you’re up against a wall.

However, you DON’T have to wait until you hit a crises in order to make major changes in your life. If you embrace the flow of energy when it moves through you, shifts can happen gracefully.

We all feel the signs when that energy first appears. The challenges come when we ignore them and think we can outrun the energy stream flowing in.

I’m happy to report my health is in great condition, especially with all the outdoor exercise daily, and I’d like to keep it that way, which is why I know what the path is that I need to take to ensure it stays as such. I’ve learned my lessons!

I do know that I had lost my personal feeling of spark and with everything coming to closure on soul levels, it is why I had come to a crossroads a while ago of being able to choose if I wanted to continue here on Earth or move on.

A choice that I seriously considered.

But instead I have chosen the path of renewal, here for the time being, and this has been supported by All That Is sharing the gifts that have been manifesting in my life since – beginning with the RV, clarity, deepening into all areas of my life, manifesting the opportunity, and now the inspirations channeling through.

So, for an unknown period of time I will be channeling my energy differently and within my own experience of creation while we are on this RV adventure.

Anything can change at any moment, as it always continues to, which I will honor when it does. But for now, I remain in cultivation mode of new creations to share with you when they are ready to emerge.

In the meantime,  I will continue to share monthly newsletters that will mostly be of inspiration and messages channeling through along with any updates that manifest along the way. I will also continue with regular blog posts and videos when inspired.

I still remain on Facebook, where my newsletter, blog, and videos are uploaded for my friends there, however there will be minimal ability to interact there that much and only when it doesn’t interfere with the time and energy needed to focus on my creative projects.

That said, if you need to message me, it’s always best to email me rather than message me on Facebook. At any time I may feel to pull energetically off completely, only leaving my pages there active for the updates to be shared, since I know some people only connect via that avenue and don’t like subscribing or emailing.

If you do choose to, you can subscribe to my blog or YouTube channels here:

Tania Marie’s Blog

Tania Marie’s YouTube Channel

This is my way of remaining connected, to share the inspirations and new energy that move through me, to bring the world, nature, and the sacred closer to heart to others through the images and experiences shared, and to provide reflections that may be supportive to anyone interested.

There will be more to come via videos that won’t all make it to newsletters, as this platform continues to grow as a means of connecting what channels through me to you.

Again, I thank you all for so much loving support and for the connections we experience together.

I hope that in some small way you might find inspiration from any of the things in which I share, as I find from so many of you.

Soul Purification at Avila Beach


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Well, we landed again in our new temporary home of Avila Beach, just steps from the ocean.

We weren’t sure if we’d end up here, as the rv park isn’t one you can make reservations at and up until about a couple of hours before we came, it was full.

But we just ventured forward along the path and put out intention, trusting that where ever we were meant to be, we would be.

There were a couple of other spots we could go to in Pismo Beach, or near by….they just weren’t quite like this one where you had the potential of being basically on the water.

We checked in via phone when we were about two and a half hours away and the woman said that there was one spot open on the bluff above looking over the ocean, but she couldn’t hold it.

So I sent out energy to save a spot for us for the highest good.

We checked in again when we were about a half an hour away because if it was full we would go to another beach rather than wasting time driving there.

At that point she said there were now two spots open. One on the bluff, but now also one on the beach.

Things were looking good.

When we drove up, they were still both available and we got to choose.

Being that we’d already been up above on a bluff overlooking the ocean, I chose the spot on the beach when Dave said, “you choose.”

And so we landed here, just a few feet from the water’s edge.

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As as soon as we arrived a large type of vulture landed just in front of the rv by the rocks you see in the photos…renewal/rebirth, cleansing, protection, high awareness and new vision abound.

Vulture reflects a time of purification, perhaps new and valuable insight, trust in patience for alignment, and knowing how to use our power effectively.

Another interesting and meaningful piece of the story about being here is that I’ve spent time here twice in my past, as my parents had a time share that we were able to transfer anywhere and chose here twice.

One time I went with them and the other time I spent a week by myself.

The time I was with my parents I had Nestor with me too. So she actually has spent time here in Avila Beach with me.

I remember her loving to sit by the open sliding glass door and look out at the ocean and breathe in the ocean air.

The synchronous thing is that from where the rv site we have is, I can see the resort where the time share that I stayed at with her is up on the cliff across the way.

Ironic, as she would have been looking out the way where I am now.

It’s almost like a dimensional doorway transcending time and space where we are sharing the same ocean and looking through it to each other.

It’s really special to be here again now after all of these years and having Joy and Cosmo here with me.

Interesting that vultures do help you with new perception on things including the past, as well as embody that cleansing for a rebirth.

I’m sensing that I will do a sacred ceremony and throw some of Nestor’s ashes in the water while we are here.avila beach3

As soon as we were all set up, as there’s a ritual of preparation both for leaving and coming, we enjoyed some appetizers and refreshments, giving the fur babies some snacks too. Then, relaxed watching the water until the sun set and we’ve continued enjoying the ocean with all of the lights off as evening’s glow rolled across the dark watery abyss.

Looking forward to waves as my lullaby tonight.

And seeing what Nestor may have to share in dream time, as I do sleep with her sacred box of ashes just to the left of my bed.

Sweet dreams.

Infinitely Creating Me


Cello in dream like landscape

Cello in dream like landscape – Image source: http://www.theself.net/spiritual-music/spiritual-music/

Every day I listen for the music of my soul and I compose a new melody that harmonizes with that flow.

I am endlessly creating myself…..

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