Posted by Tania Marie's Blog
It’s easy to get down on yourself if you aren’t producing at the rate you would like to be, or find other things in life “getting in the way” of your passions. This can go for any project or intent/goal/dream you may have, but for purposes of this post and today’s weekly series’ theme, let’s just focus on writing and I’ll share a bit about my own process and discoveries around delay and resistance versus trust and alignment.
There have been huge spurts of momentum when it comes to my book and then there have been large lulls where it seems nothing is happening – I’ve been in one of those for a while.
I’m one to keep check on myself, as I know how easy it can be to find excuses, self-sabotage, procrastinate, or even hide behind spiritual ideas as reasoning to not go about doing something.
I’ve been ingenious with it in the past, so I don’t let myself get away with it in the present.
So, when I check in with myself I ask myself how I feel about my book and writing.
When I think about it does it bring up joy or fear, do I feel resistance somewhere in my body, does it give me anxiety, or make me excited?
I will touch in now and then to stay on top of having clarity with my feelings, as that’s how I’ll know if I’m avoiding something or simply riding and flowing with the current energetic streams – something I would call “being in alignment.”
The key here is that you need to be honest with yourself.
And then I’ll look at the things going on in my life and how they are affecting me.
Do they feel to have their own flow and natural cycle? Or are they making me feel angry, resentful, or even compounding some of the emotions and feelings I’ve uncovered – in essence triggering me to pay attention to them?
If the latter is where you find yourself, then it may in fact be that there is some kind of resistance or avoidance going on, or that there are feelings you haven’t dealt with that if uncovered, acknowledged, and allowed them space, could help release the blocks and free up more space.
But not all things that come up in your life is about finding ways to run away from something.
It’s true that “to everything there is a season.”
Sometimes the work doesn’t happen on the visual and physical plane, but takes place in the background and percolates while your attention is drawn elsewhere to allow that natural process to take place.
Sometimes what you are writing needs to go through its own transformation – or you as a writer need to as well – and that might entail you moving through something in order to come at it from a different and more expansive perspective, or perhaps the collective is going through something that will make what you’re writing be more timely.
I have found this to be accurate for me during the process of writing my current book.
It isn’t happening overnight, but when it does happen, it happens very fast.
There have been different reasons for each lull spanning from at one time avoiding it (in came fracturing my foot to ensure I couldn’t), to needing to anchor in other things in my life to create harmony for the process, to needing to deepen into my creative process and expand my understanding, to needing time for research and letting go, to clarifying my purpose with the writing, to needing to step away from it in order to come at it with completely fresh heart, mind, and eyes, and to awaiting things to shift on a bigger picture level.
Sometimes there are things that can help your writing process that are beneficial to allow in, despite your ideas around what you think you should be doing instead.
For example, if I didn’t allow for the creative spurt of art and other artsy expressions right now to come through that have been a temporary focus, then I would be keeping myself away from experiencing greater inspiration, imaginative flow, and freshness with my writing. I would limit what could be more expansive when I return to it, not to mention, I’d be resisting the kind of joy it is bringing me and would miss out on that experience.
The same goes for getting out in nature. If I forced myself to stick only to writing, I’d lose the greater well-being and nurturing being outside can provide me that will support more excitement and energy with my writing. Plus, moving helps move energy on all levels and frees up blocks, just like creative expression can do.
If we remain stringent with the process, I believe we hinder our writing.
Life is about balance and writing is too.
It’s true that creative genius has come through what some might call “mad” writers and artists. Yet, that process doesn’t always bode well for the rest of their lives or even how long they live.
I believe it’s valuable to find your balance and to know yourself in the process.
So checking in with how you’re feeling and what’s really at the core of why you are doing or not doing something is key. Be curious as to how your process is helping or hindering.
Writing is definitely a journey and it’s a very honest, vulnerable, and transparent one. I believe the more honest you are with yourself, the more honest the story woven through your words will be.
So, now, when I find myself frustrated I’m not making headway, I have found that this is simply a conversation between me and myself to take up, as the resistance isn’t there, and alignment is showing itself to be in flow. This means I have a belief or idea around progress or achievement that I need to reconcile within myself and let go, relax, and surrender even more to the process and journey.
Do you go through similar experiences with your writing or passions?
What do you do if you find yourself resisting?
Remember to be gentle and loving around your curiosity, as the inner you will feel more comfortable revealing her or his truth, if she or he doesn’t feel threatened.
Let yourself know you have your back and only want to love yourself more into expressing the truth of who you are through your writing and passions.