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Raw Honesty May Deepen the Bliss Into Actualization and Full Embodiment


shaman-heart-lemurianI’ve consistently been receiving information that something is missing from a lot of what I’m experiencing from others out there. This is a constant message that comes through and is what I have been discussing with close colleague, and touching upon in conversations and classes. I’ve also been sharing snippets in my posts and likely will continue to expand and reiterate this topic, as it feels so important to me to share.

The theme is around really living the ideas, not just talking about it, being able to throw out intellectually grand metaphysical explanations and “key” words, or inadvertently pretending to live it.

What I share may not be mainstream thought in the spiritual realm, but I have to share what I am feeling and experiencing. And given that I have my own 25 + years of experience in this realm, I do recognize the traps and the processes, since I have gone through them myself.

shaman-heart-lemurian3So, what I’ve been observing, feeling, and hearing from people is a lot of all the “so-called right words”, (and this comes from some of both spiritual leaders and the New Age community) but on an authentic energetic level, which is where my heart immediately pierces through to, I can feel there is simply something missing. The consistency and depth is lost in translation and staying stuck on the surface. People are looking like and talking the information, and even have moments of bliss, but it’s a bliss that seems to be more induced or trance-like, rather than in full conscious and deepened embodiment.

The mental faculties of concepts are all there and the fast forwarding to a Unity consciousness too, but the core foundation and deepening of this into integrated fullness is lacking. Therefore, this is also why many New Agers are unable to fully manifest and instead spend a lot of time in the bliss states and in the upper chakras solely.

There is no right or wrong in any of this, yet when I hear people coming to me with the same challenges, don’t embrace the answers they asked for, talk in metaphysical circles they aren’t aware they are doing, are having unyielding struggles, are unsatisfied when parts of their life are not in full operation to their liking despite them saying they’ve done what they have learned to do through their studies, reading, and workshops, are having things seemingly hit them out of nowhere that they thought they had already processed and healed, or find themselves leading two different lives where they experience a tug-o-war inside themselves between the part that knows and the part that can’t integrate it, then that is pointing to an opportunity in your evolution to another part of your experience to look at and embrace.

shaman-heart-lemurian4We each have our own experience so, again, there isn’t any wrong or right, nor anything in particular to attain to, unless you specifically have a desire and intention you are trying to create and find yourself unhappy or unfulfilled. Life is experience for experience sake – all of the so-called icky and nice – it’s all perfect. And, what works for one is not the same for others, and I do believe we are moving into a time where things are much easier and can happen quickly. It all depends on you.

But if you, yourself, behind closed doors, or when you approach a friend or help you’ve sought out, are not happy and intending for something more, then maybe there is something being overlooked.

And that being said, I get the sense of some new structures being built upon old and weak foundations and feeling many are “faking” it through and not even realizing it, which is taking up much more energy than simply coming back down to Earth and into the body and emotions to really move the energy through in its entirety – not just stopping at the mental level. It also is about coming into the truth and not hiding from yourself anymore, nor placing blame elsewhere.

There is an energetic, nonverbal portion of experience that sends out its own frequency and it may be very different than the frequency some “think” they are emanating from the place of bliss they have learned to maintain and feed. Sensitives will pick up on this immediately and feel that there’s something not consistent in the delivery and what they sense from you.

This has to do with how many use spirituality to avoid things like the shadow aspects, fears, and pains – called “spiritual bypassing”, how it is possible to lose yourself behind “spiritual fluff” or to over-dose on positivity without integrative grounding as a means of avoiding and repressing your inner truth and, ultimately, your inclusive Divinity being revealed, and how you may be convincing yourself you are beyond something and yet perhaps all you have done was run the other way or are just regurgitating what you “think” you should say or do spiritually, but without having fulling embodied the essence of what that truly means.

shaman-heart-lemurian5So yes, what comes hand-in-hand with this theme is not just about speaking truth to others, but in being completely honest with ourselves – and this can be done with humor and gentleness, so as to make the process one of fun rather than punishment.

If you keep having a recurring challenge come up, couldn’t it just be possible you are missing the mark that is something you don’t want to look at and address? Could it be that at this point in the game, there isn’t anything or anyone anymore to blame, and really it is that you’ve shifted that energy onto yourself and attacking yourself, but out of avoidance of responsibility are unable to acknowledge this, as this would mean your life would shift?

That can be very scary for some people to know they now have to live up to the highest potential and wholeness that they are innately. So many fears surround this, even ones we don’t want to admit, as how could you possibly be afraid to step into your fullness?

The fact is, nearly everyone is, or has been at some point in their life. But once they do step into it, they realize how silly it was to have ever lived anything but from that truth and wholeness. We fear that which we can’t see, or what it means in terms of the changes that would need to be made that alter the lives we have become accustomed to accepting, even if uncomfortable. It’s easier to do known maintenance, than to explore a whole new world of adventure where each moment is unknown.

So it is easier to project onto things and people than to actually say, “Yes, I’m the one keeping me from me.” If you’ve done everything and you know it all already, then what else might it be?

Again, there is no fault in this. It’s just truth shining its unconditional love on you saying, “Come into the light fully. You are Divine. You are loved and always will be. You’ve done nothing wrong, but it’s now time to live in the light of you.”

We have to be willing to let our ego and stubbornness step aside, to truly have courage to “see” and embrace what we ingeniously are hiding from. It isn’t enough to say, “Yes, I know that”. If we truly did, then there wouldn’t be an issue, would there? There is a slight, sometimes so subtle perception, acceptance, release, altering, that can make the difference. And indeed that can sometimes be to say, “I don’t have all the answers” and “I’m the one self-sabotaging myself”.

This is a subject I feel very passionately about from that Universal place of seeing everyone in their wholeness. I honor where everyone is in their own chosen evolutionary experience and I honor the truth you feel in your heart. But I also honor the parts you may not see and that you’ve shared are not fulfilled, and it is from this place that I share this so that one day it might open an inner dialogue within that begins a new journey of exploration for you.

This post is one, as I shared, that is based on an important theme message that keeps channeling through to me, but was inspired by a crystal friend whose energy speaks to the heart of this and the process.

Yesterday, I was sharing a crystal with a friend that was interested in any new crystals I may have available. I hadn’t yet put it in my shop, until this morning. Because of the inner promptings and the fact this crystal’s energy was brought into my awareness yesterday, I felt this was another nudge to write on this topic. The crystal that I’m sharing is a supportive tool to all of this and more.

shaman-heart-lemurian6It is called a Shaman Heart Lemurian and it is an amazing being that I adore and honor, but definitely only for a soul ready to really embark on a powerful journey without fear and to honestly face the necessary steps to bring everything you “know” into actualization. This is a time for no longer just talking about something. It’s about walking the walk. This crystal being will help access that transmutation if you are willing to really put your fears behind you.

Shaman Heart Lemurian Properties:

These unassuming looking Lemurians call to those who are ready to take the next step in the process of integrating higher consciousness on Earth by grounding it for expression in our lives and bodies. Shaman Heart Lemurian Seeds from Brazil activate the connection between spiritual consciousness and the powerhouse of light energy within the human heart.

The Smokey Quartz reflected in the base, as well as the iron and lithium on their surface, help these stones to bring higher frequencies down into the heart, then express them through the lower chakras into our physical reality. They also allow access to the higher frequencies more typical of Lemurian Seed crystals. Instead of simply sending you “out there,” however, they assist in the integration of higher frequencies on a physical level and are therefore very useful for those who wish to express these higher frequencies through their everyday activities and, especially, for those in the process of changing their life structures to reflect a higher awareness of their path.

The Shaman Heart Lemurian is one way we can support the process of integration and deepen that into “embodying” the higher frequencies you have come to love, in a way that encapsulates the full picture and will support you into “living” the concepts and manifesting your desires.

If you are interested in this piece and the courageous journey of integration it can support you with, you can find it in my Etsy Shop, Crystal Illumination, here:

Shaman Heart Lemurian

This crystal is one of many ways we can support the process of integrating all parts of ourselves in alignment and consistency – to really “be” that which we speak of enduringly, and not just momentarily.

If this post speaks to you, wonderful. And if not, that’s perfect too. But do pay attention to the subtle feelings you feel when you read it, as if you find something triggering you, listen to the words you say when that happens, and the feelings you feel when it does, and then do with it as you may.

Always honoring you in your wholeness only. ❤

Do You Wear a Spiritual Disguise? – Losing the Mask & Finding Your Truth


Truth allows you to live with integrity. Everything you do and say shows the world who you really are. Let it be the Truth. ~Oprah Winfrey

The Truth needs no rehearsal. ~ Barbara Kingsolver

It can be easy at times to think of ourselves as two entirely different individuals – our old and our new self. This becomes easier to do, the more we journey along our spiritual path. This “new” self feels to us to be much more enlightened, and in many cases it is, however, sometimes even the spiritually evolved version of ourselves can still be wearing a mask that it hides behind – a spiritual disguise.

Energetic themes seem to flow in cycles and the last couple of weeks have made poignant a recurring one that feels of importance to share on. I have been picking up on the themes of integrity, authenticity, truth, and how that interrelates with the purity, innocence, and playfulness of our inner child – all leading back to that “return to natural harmony within and without” and “walking the walk.”

These aren’t just themes of importance for people who are just beginning to become more aware and conscious of things, or even for people who are operating with a majority of unconsciousness, but also for all of us who are already on a path of conscious evolution for quite some time. This feels to be coming through in order to support us in how we can take things to another experience of depth that will have profound effects.

What comes hand-in-hand with this theme is not just about speaking truth to others, but in being completely honest with ourselves – and this can be done with humor and gentleness, so as to make the process one of fun rather than punishment.

I juggled with how I wanted to share on these topics, finding there was a lot wanting to come through about them, but in the end had been guided, rather, to share a couple of specific, brief writings from others I was led to that I felt would provide not only insightful perspective, but in one case, some humor – something I feel to be of extra importance these days in approaching ourselves and our experiences.

The topics within these themes that I keep feeling strongly abound are:

  • Using spirituality to avoid things like our shadow aspects, fears, and pains – something author and psychotherapist Robert Augustus Masters calls “spiritual bypassing”
  • How we lose ourselves behind “spiritual fluff” or are over-dosing on positivity without integrative grounding, as a means of avoiding and repressing our inner truth and, ultimately, our inclusive Divinity being revealed
  • How we convince ourselves we are beyond something and yet perhaps all we have done was run the other way or are just regurgitating what we “think” we should say or do spiritually, but without having fulling embodied the essence of what that truly means

I really resonate with what Masters shares in this particular excerpt from his book, Spiritual Bypassing: When Spirituality Disconnects Us from What Really Matters:

“True spirituality is not a high, not a rush, not an altered state. It has been fine to romance it for a while, but our times call for something far more real, grounded, and responsible; something radically alive and naturally integral; something that shakes us to our very core until we stop treating spiritual deepening as something to dabble in here and there. Authentic spirituality is not some little flicker or buzz of knowingness, not a psychedelic blast-through or a mellow hanging-out on some exalted plane of consciousness, not a bubble of immunity, but a vast fire of liberation, an exquisitely fitting crucible and sanctuary, providing both heat and light for the healing and awakening we need. Most of the time when we’re immersed in spiritual bypassing, we like the light but not the heat. And when we’re caught up in the grosser forms of spiritual bypassing, we’d usually much rather theorize about the frontiers of consciousness than actually go there, suppressing the fire rather than breathing it even more alive, espousing the ideal of unconditional love but not permitting love to show up in its more challenging, personal dimensions. To do so would be too hot, too scary, and too out-of-control, bringing things to the surface that we have long disowned or suppressed. But if we really want the light, we cannot afford to flee the heat. As Victor Frankl said, “What gives light must endure burning.” And being with the fire’s heat doesn’t just mean sitting with the difficult stuff in meditation, but also going into it, trekking to its core, facing and entering and getting intimate with whatever is there, however scary or traumatic or sad or raw.”

I then came across a post by the light-hearted and humanistic Aalif Surti who shares, as he puts it, “a colorful mandala of spirituality, creativity and humor” through his blog. In his post, The Buddha Mask (And Other Spiritual Facades), he explores masks we wear as protection, elimination, and escapism, but as he says, “And while masks appear to prevent Life from hurting us, sadly they also prevent us from truly experiencing Life – except through narrow eyeholes.”

I hope you enjoy his humorous take on how even therapists, healers, and seekers put on a spiritual display and a way we can playfully take our power back in the realization of this.

Here is Aalif Surti’s post, which you can see also at the link above:

As seekers, we may believe we have become aware now and dropped our false personas, but sometimes we have only traded it in for a new mask – a spiritual persona. In a hilarious group session a few months ago, my mentor GD helped us dissect and laugh at the masks we may wear as seekers, healers and therapists. Here’s my light-hearted summation of the key spiritual ‘displays’:

The Buddha Mask: You’ve seen the statue, now meet the person. Unaffected by others, far removed from worldly emotions, this mask says: You can’t touch me… I am beyond it all. Behind it hides sensitivity, fear and confusion. During my early Vipassana days, some people called me ‘aloof’ instead of ‘aalif’!

The Positivity Mask: Those who practice affirmations and positive thinking sometimes feel compelled to uphold an abnormally high frequency of ecstasy. Ask them how they are, and an automated voice reply comes: “AMAZING! Life is full of miracles!!” But when it is a mask, their eyes, their energy, and their aura tell a different story.

The ‘Superior-Seeker’ Mask: They enter a room, and the whole room suddenly feels unworthy. They carry a subtle air of superiority. They are on the high road to heaven and they smile beatifically upon all the creepy crawlies with an air of cultivated compassion. Proving superiority all the time is a dead giveaway for a sense of inferiority inside.

The Messiah Mask: They are out to change the world – one flailing, resisting human at a time. These are the givers of support and nurturance and advice… whether anyone asks for it or not! But give they must, because they need to avoid the confusion and emptiness within. A beautiful, socially approved mask and hence more difficult to let go of…

The Pundit Mask: References obscure texts and uses big Sanskrit words. Will disrupt a conversation to quote a 16th century Indian mystic or a little-known modern non-dual teacher. It’s a mask when they talk the talk, but don’t walk the walk.

The Lost-in-Space Mask: They find a way to bring Pleiadians, Archangels and Entities into every normal conversation. They would interrupt you to whisper conspiratorially that there’s a 6th dimensional entity behind you right now! They take name-dropping to a whole new dimension.

While the masks may be twisted and rigid, the people underneath these masks are not foolish or nasty. They are you and me, GD said, innocently trying to cover up a wound of not-being-enough by putting on a show. Masks are a way of saying ‘I am special’ but ironically, each mask ends up proving the opposite: each mask reveals a lack of self-love and self-acceptance-as-I-am.

All of us play a variety of roles in life. When we are conscious of the role playing, there is no problem. Masks are problematic because they are compulsive and unconscious, and the behavior comes from ego not insight.

And whenever the ego creates a mask, it has to suppress the opposite in oneself – a compulsive giver finds it hard to ask for help; the intellectual ceases to listen and ask questions; Buddha-face cannot show vulnerability or intimacy when needed.

When someone asked GD at the end of the workshop how she could prevent the mask from coming back on later, GD replied, “Make a joke of it, phone us all up and say: ‘Hey look, my mask is back!’ The moment you become aware, it loses its power. And once you make it a joke, it disappears.”

And in the absence of masks, he reminded us, we can become like the beautiful little children we all are inside – who can be all of the above when required – and their exact opposite when required – without holding onto any particular face.

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