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The Silver Lining


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I had no idea (at least not mindfully) when I took the only appointment open for a hair transformation this week that it would be in the energy of the approaching Full Moon today, nor did I think about the choice of clothes I wore that day other than wanting my bunny loves with me. I simply felt that this change was essential, as I’d become bored and no longer aligned with the rapid shifts taking place, not to mention was feeling out of sorts with my inside-out essence expression. This Full Moon is in the fire sign of Sagittarius, which happens to rule the Moon in my astrological chart in the house of Pisces (my Sun sign). So there is/was certain to be an intense, very transformative and expansive energy pervading, which the Full Moon would then bring to clarity in order to know which changes and adjustments would best support us in peaceful flow.

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2017 is a year of new beginnings for us all collectively and this shift will entail aligning more than ever with our highest path at this time. This may involve moving through some heavy stuff and “karmic” growth, but will provide deep healing as long as you can continue to see the “silver lining,” keep an open mind, invite new perspectives, and find the joy from the innocence of your inner child’s heart. Truth and freedom play big right now and finding ways to nurture yourself while also committing to more personal responsibility is key. This is a time for really tuning into a mission, dream goal, or heart-focused purpose that truly calls to you while tempering a narrow, but flowing focus to manifest it, so as not to dilute your energy.

With things transforming for me right now, the energy activated in Australia, and new doors about to open, I outgrew any of the changes I had already made, which then had me feeling like I was wearing clothes that didn’t fit, in a metaphorical, but also literal way.

So I have been clearing out and donating clothes, got a few new things, and really, really needed to change my hair even though I just did a little over 4 months ago. I get antsy about stuff if even a little bit feels energetically off and not lining up.

This led me to be even more vulnerable outwardly, which I’m finding no end to, and revealing more of myself without care of what that may seem to others (I have had many looks since the change, when out and about). And so I decided to intensify what has already been happening with my hair much more dramatically and much more “me” feeling with an enhancement to my silver.

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I had tons of silver growing naturally, especially in two stripes near the front that were growing long, areas underneath, and then scattered and glistening throughout. I decided why not just go full on, or “Full Moon,” which got written to a friend by auto correct and felt right on, I guess, since I later received multiple reflections of “Moon essence,” “Moon child,” “Moon shine,” “Moon beam”….

And that then aligned with the Full Moon hot air balloon tank I was wearing with three white Cosmic rabbits flying in it across the Cosmos – representing my dear Nestor, Joy, and Cosmo who have moved on to the Otherworld.

My sweet friend Dawn mentioned something else I hadn’t thought of, that I was aligning with the new bunny (coming in 11 days) love’s Cosmic whiteness, as the magickal White Rabbit embodied. I loved that!

Not to mention prepares for a 10 day energetic cleanse I’m physically doing on Solstice, bunny love’s arrival, and what that portal offers.

Anyway, there’s something more than I can express happening (and it’s collective although I’m experiencing my own version of it) and it seems to be reflecting outside as well, as both yesterday and today have manifested magickal rainbow portals (3 of them!) over Lake Tahoe since I got my hair done Wednesday afternoon. And the weather shifted to this mystical energy from being at the beach just Tuesday (the day before) and sun bathing then and the days before in 70’s very warm weather, to now this mysterious, brisk, winds-of-change, stormy look and feel and dropping to the 50’s overnight.

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Yesterday’s rainbow was a full one directly in front over the lake, which then intensified and started to split at center…..creating almost like two worlds converging. Perhaps another sign of this literally happening with multiple realities and worlds simultaneously existing, yet diverging.

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And this morning’s first rainbow was a partial one, however, it lasted for an hour and a half, dissipating, intensifying, dissipating, intensifying….

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After about a half an hour a full one appeared directly in front again (actually, while I was writing this) and just skimming where lake and bottom of mountains meet, but this one glided across the lake from left to right. Incredible!

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I have been realizing the increased vulnerability I have been cracking open from depths within and how things are just melting away and also melding in that molten love. It’s amazing how deep things run, but not surprising giving the limitlessness of All That Is.

And to me, this silver feels to increase my feelings of fuller, expansive embodiment of me, as well as no longer blending into the world, but fully creating my own Cosmos on Earth – so to speak – increasing my joy and comfortability within my skin here, which has increased over time with changes I’ve been making and things brought to light.

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We all have different ways in which we integrate transformation. I happen to choose and initiate as many as possible lol!

And interestingly, shifting my hair in this way is a process, which has small parts of my hair gold as well – all blending together – cool and warm colors, metallic energies of Sun and Moon. Feels like alchemy to me.

Many Native Americans believe that hair is spirit’s physical manifestation of growth that opens/enhances extrasensory perception and symbolizes connection to all things, as if like tentacles reaching out to the world around us. Cutting hair represents doors closing and heralds new life and doorways, honoring the past while making way for the future.

And that’s always how I approach life….seeing the “silver lining” and believing when no one else does. This is increasing, which is timely with what I’m working on manifesting short and long term for the journey ahead and my heart’s mission. Gonna take everything I have!

So while my threads of silver hair reflect much more than this, too hard to explain all of here, they also seem to bring this into literal light and hence, the “silver lining” mentioned above as an approach that may be helpful for us all, coming full circle.

How might you open more to the possibilities before you? You really do have opportunity to experience life differently, if you really commit to that, no matter what challenges are present. Each pain is a seed wanting to sprout freely without your restraining its growth.

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A Personal Year Review & Insights for Harnessing Upcoming Energies


As we near the end of the year and come upon some powerful energies this month that will be assisting our transition into a collective new dynamic for the coming 2017, I wanted to reflect a bit upon my own life, share vulnerably on these changes, and how some of this has played out for me to provide a perspective on some ways to utilize energies. I know it’s been a challenging year for many and I went through some of my own mourning with losses, yet they were in actuality reflections of the new being confirmed in arrival.

While collectively 2016 was a closure year numerologically holding the vibration of #9, for me it was actually my personal beginnings year, as a #1 since my birthday. So, coupling that with the collective, I was able to reclaim so many parts of myself, embraced the value of my individuality, taking action on supporting my needs and personal sovereignty, reviewed much and ended an era in my life, literally went through a rebirthing, and brought forth more of my truth I desire creating with from here on out, as I weeded through it all.

This included eradicating the old definitions of many things, including leaving behind the idea of “service” for a life of “being” for the highest good of all concerned.

For almost the first two months of 2017, I’ll share being in a #1 year with the collective, but come my birthday on 2/26 (a number I have seen in wild, nearly daily abundance this year as I’ve been rebirthing) I will step into the energy of a #2 year, which will bring me very deeply into a sacred feminine place that my sacred male I’ve been working on this last year, will be supporting.

A time where I listen completely within and support with action what moves through me. A time also when inner knowing aligns me with personal timing regardless of what others are doing, understanding when to make moves and when to wait. A time of heightened intuition, psychic energy, prophetic dreams, telepathy, and inner peace as beingness.

While things may appear to slow down since more is done within or in developmental phases this year for me, there will be significant movement forward and progress unfolding – all supported also by the collective #1 year.

The year for me will be focused on relationships of all kinds – the one with myself and my parts, with friends and beloveds, with business relationships, with life at large, and with All That Is. A time of collaborations, cooperation, and greater compassion that understands and values everyone’s differences.

It will be a year focused also on my own sense of reality and fine tuning that amidst a world of many other realities that my sensitivities will navigate me through in alignment with what I’ve learned in my #1 year about who I AM and knowing my boundaries more.

My inner will surface more than ever on the scene.

And this makes complete sense, since I am very focused on new creations right now that I’m being guided to bring forth and that speak to my deepest passions and essence. So it is all coming from a very deep place within me.

And here’s a little review on how my #9 and #1 year brought me here, to give you an idea of how this process has translated for me.

In brief, during my #9 year I literally felt walls closing in on me. I was left uninspired, felt trapped, knew things had passed their peak, and that everything I’d been doing had run its course, including where I lived.

Regardless of how this sounds I’ll share anyway, that I began receiving many cosmic visitations, clear messages, and an invitation to move beyond my life here if I so desired. I went through cosmic upgrades and rewiring, and understood I’d completed much more than just an Earthly cycle I’d been working on, but soul cycle in general.

I knew I had to choose and new inspiration came in that I understood would be one way I could recreate my life….in came the Magick Bus at the exact mid point of my #9 year. It took until the beginning of 2016 to fully get underway and leave Orange County altogether so I spent the end of that year moving out of our house and into the rv, selling my car, simplifying down to the bare basics and essentials I valued, and awaited divine timing that kept supporting this venture magickally into being when others had no idea how. And everything very rapidly aligned with this embrace and choice to support this rebirthing.

The little over a year spent on our rv journey during my #1 year, was a literal huge movement of energy in my life, and both reinvigorated me and literally saved my life in terms of giving me reason to choose to continue on here. But it would have to be in a 100% completely new way. And so I spent all of my time focused on knowing myself, fully immersing in nature to know the nature of me, and one-by-one let go of everything I kept understanding needed releasing.

Yet, I also richly received so many gifts – the greatest in reclaiming myself and strengthening my relationship to the purity of that above all else. In essence, raising my vibration more and more – a constant evolution I focus on and keep digging to reveal.

And again, at the half way point of my #1 year, something big took place, this time a very literal rebirthing that took me through a death cycle that washed away the old and helped me reclaim an even stronger sense of empowerment.

I’ve eluded to the incident in past posts, and while I won’t go into details of the experience, as it is much too layered and involved in complex ways I am guided not to discuss because of larger ramifications, I did have a treacherous incident one day both in a glacial river and wild deep forest where a new me stepped out of it all and has not been the same since.

One could say that the cosmic waters from which my Pisces nature is born of, were the very waters that cleansed and rebirthed me.

And I have found myself experiencing life through very different eyes, hearing with new ears, feeling with heightened sensitivities, and expanding with a deepened heart.

I am not the same and yet more so me.

I’ve increasingly made harmony with my past and with what ever and who ever comes around me and understand that from that place I needn’t fight, but hold strong to my vibration, which does the work for me.

What comes around is in alignment, or provides me the opportunity to translate what I learn in greater ways of actual beingness. And therefore things shift instantly when I put that to action and come and go as is perfect. Not as a result of hiding or fighting, but in learning to be more me, creating my own reality that allows me to perceive everything differently, and coming daily more and more from my heart.

As there’s no limit to how far one can go with that.

Struggle only arrives if working against our nature and the energetic field of experience flowing through.

And so, I am utilizing the end of this year, tomorrow’s Full Moon, upcoming Winter Solstice and Mercury Retrograde, the Capricorn energy (my rising sign/ascendant and North Node to guide the next phase of my life), and the transitions of collective energies with the New Year alongside energetic dynamics at work to strengthen all of this and support all that I have in motion into greater manifestation.

This to include my mourning process with Joy and Cosmo who have confirmed the closure of one life fully into a new one for me that has been rooting.

This confirmed again recently with Thanksgiving’s sightings of the 27 hawks and dead owl within 35 minutes, the magickal alignment of the amazing place we’re currently living in, prophetic dream sequences, and literal signs over Lake Tahoe’s portal from my view of it here that included the Arcturian symbol I wear as a sacred tattoo, rainbow portals, and shooting stars. Not to mention, the resurgence of things in a new way and the departure of things, effortlessly.

This time period will continue to clarify and ground things as I focus only on the new projects and my life path I’ve chosen to move forward with.

So I’ll remain immersed in my writing, which is like literally rewriting my life as I do in a way, and receive nature’s reflections.

Returning to Southern California for Christmas will also be like a solidification of closure with our old way of life there, as I return as the new me and we stay in a different location that actually was one we began with on our rv journey, near Malibu.

Even being here in Tahoe has reclaimed the original essence of what this place was for both Dave and I that has rewritten the history we had here and created a new reality and experience of it that is completely new from what once was – a place we both went through symbolic deaths, now providing more rebirthing to my literal one.

And that brings me to sharing about the collective energies, so that you can weave your own experiences into the unfolding realities you choose to create, while putting closure to this year.

The Gemini Full Moon (the Twins) represents the Yin and Yang in balanced harmony and rhythmical dance together and illuminates relationships with others and with the parts of yourself. It’s about sharing and communicating, as well as the day-to-day practicalities and logical curiosity. While Sagittarius brings expansion, creativity, intuition, freedom, and dream energy. This Full Moon in Gemini with Sun in Sagittarius speaks to using both sides of the brain in partnership, which will support you in being able to manifest your heart’s desires and create those extraordinary things you dream of.

Mercury has been slowing down too in preparation for the retrograde on the 19th. This offers a very powerfully transformative period to harness before the new beginnings year of 2017 begins. A time for digging deep and bringing forth your truth. And with Mercury being in Capricorn brings a personal responsibility to the forefront, and rebuilding structures, clearing out and creating sustainable, strengthened stability of Earthiness to your life from the core out.

Lots of releasing, restructuring, reclaiming, and rewriting, as you realize who you really are.

Capricorn also focuses energies on the male patriarchy, the old and new male in process of transmutation, father figures in our lives, and our own sacred male in his truest, authentic power who supports our sacred female into hers.

Capricorn begins on the 21st, Winter Solstice, which puts focus on you being the light and shining brighter in the face of shadowy turbulence. The presence of darkness and your having embraced its beauty and gifts, now can empower you into greater wholeness because of understanding and harnessing this alchemy.

The productive and healthy aspects of the masculine are highlighted now (while the old has fully surfaced into awareness) and are in need of compassion, and integrating and bringing him to the foreground in equal partnership with the productive and healing aspects of the feminine for wholeness.

Relationships are a reflection of your relationship with yourself and the work you do within.

So nurture yourself and strengthen your physical body, as it is the vehicle to bring forth all that is within you that you desire to create. It is also the reflection of how you’re cultivating your inner world, being indicative of where to makes shifts.

By listening within and being vulnerable with yourself and others, your true power will shine forth and your inner male and female parts can understand each other’s needs, which can turn reactions into conscious, partnered responses.

An amazing year of potentials awaits us all.

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