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Giving to Yourself Supports Greater Giving to Others ~ Ways I Gifted Myself for My Birthday that Create Greater Alignment & Vitality


In a world of challenging energies, heaviness, and spiraling dynamics, I like to focus (of course without denial or suppression that other realities exist) on ways of creating new realities, embodying greater personal peace, inspiring others, engaging creative energy, activating more personal empowerment, bringing a sense of solace and safe haven, or sprinkling a bit of magick, innocence, and joy where all hope feels lost.

You may recall my post from a couple of weeks back, Embodying & Emanating Essence ~ How I’m Integrating Holistic Being On Every Level, where I mentioned making literal outer changes and taking actions to align with my inner shifts, as a way to fully activate and move into that new experience and space in greater embodiment of wholeness. I mentioned some of the ways, and with my birthday approaching, I also gifted myself a few special things to reflect that as well.

My favorite birthday was two years ago when I went on my epic Iceland trip. And while I’m not going anywhere on my birthday itself this year, I decided that a few very special gifties were needed!

I find it incredibly important to support and nurture ourselves, as we often are doing that only in the “giving out to others” mode, rather than ever thinking of that giving including an outflow to us too. And when we actually do so, we are completing that circle of giving and receiving that is necessary and healthy. Not to mention, in these challenging times, taking care of yourself, loving yourself, being extra gentle with yourself, and doing special things for yourself go a long way.

This doesn’t have to be anything extravagant….it can simply be giving yourself an hour a day or each week just to yourself, making yourself a special meal, taking a bath, walking in nature, taking yourself on a date, getting yourself flowers, saving up for that thing you’ve always wanted by putting aside a little at a time just for you, telling yourself you love yourself, committing to creating boundaries that support you, or buying that special something “just because” or that you’ve longed for.

So this year I decided on three special gifts for myself, since I’ve been saving to be able to invest in my dreams, my joys, and long-term goals for my path I’m working on being able to share in the near future. Since I already devote lots of time for me now and have created a more balanced life than I ever had, which includes nature immersion on a regular basis, I felt some gifts on an alignment basis were in order.

Since I’m an artist of life and by heart, I tend to do everything creatively and to live that out loud as a form of creative power in expression, as well as a celebration and reverence for the temple body and physical life we ALSO are blessed to experience as humans.

Hence, my tattoos, which embody spiritual significance, healing integration, and potent personal expression.

This year’s gifts, however, included a new hairstyle to match the essence of me, some quartz crystal singing bowls I’d been considering for a while and got confirmation that now was the timing, and a very magickal, treasure-of-a-book collector’s item to take me into the realms of my imagination and truest being.

So, after trimming 4 inches of “old energy” off of my hair a few weeks back and to match my “highlights from the Fae” – silver gray streaks strategically growing in naturally, and to honor my desire to not color my hair in any way anymore so that it can do its thing and reveal my true and ancient “roots,” as well as support me into my own “Nature,” I decided on a non-intrusive, creative, magickal, enhancement.

This included adding extensions to match a dream I had and visions that kept coming to me over the last few months of this look from another me self, off-world, which just so happened to also mirror a long-ago brief style I had for one very Aquarian Age, Cosmic modeling shoot I did.

It just so happened that I was now back near where my old hair stylist I used to go to when I lived in Lake Tahoe and Reno many years ago, was still working at the same salon there. She also just happens to have a little girl who was born on my birthday. 😉

I discussed my desire, shared some photos, and poof! Two days ago on Valentine’s Day (that wasn’t planned, but aligned time-wise to reinvigorate a new meaning for this day than its roots), it happened.

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Briefly, she added smoky platinum extensions that would enhance and work with my silver gray streaks at the top and have both a natural and ethereal quality to compliment the Cosmic and magickal energy I wanted to create and embody more of, while still having this ancient Earth feel.

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It’s hard to capture in photos, as the color and look of the hair shifts in different lighting and with movement, but there are long streaks here and there from top to bottom and in the front, with about 4 inches of extra length along the ends to create contrast and creative flow.

The look shifts, depending on what I wear, but ultimately it is very Faery, but also mirrors my star “roots,” ancient Earth embodiments, and even some Native Indian influence that is key for me too.

Anyway, what I have discovered is immediately it shifted how I felt, including a deepening into myself and even more peace, and joy, as well as alignment with the reality I’m creating.

And because of the shifts, I also saw that another wardrobe purge would need to happen, as some of the things I have just no longer mesh with this energy. Energy is so interesting to experience with both subtle and big changes, making it clear what resonates and what doesn’t. Makes for easier choices overall!

Out with the old and in with the new!

But on to birthday gift number two to self. This was in support of how sound has become a pervading element and integral thread to my life through my voice, song, sound channeling, music, sound healing, and more.

And so I was drawn to the perfect quartz crystal singing bowls for me. I’d felt some may come for a while now, although before hadn’t been drawn to them, but was never the right time. Then a few months ago these showed up and they became one of my early birthday gifts to myself.

I originally thought I’d only be getting one, but it became perfectly clear that a pair was the aligned perfection for my desires, intents, and frequencies I wanted to create, support, and emanate with them.

This led me to a 432hz binaural beat theta wave pair of A-note 9 inch bowls – talk about potent balancing and invoking conscious dream, receptivity and opening a gateway to all things watery.

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Some info about these:

“Alpha brain waves are present in deep relaxation with the eyes usually closed and while day-dreaming. The relaxed detached awareness achieved during light meditation is characteristic of Alpha and is optimal for programming your mind for success. Alpha heightens your imagination, visualization, memory, learning and concentration. It lies at the base of your conscious awareness and is the gateway to your subconscious mind. The voice of Alpha is your intuition, which becomes clearer and more profound the closer you get to 7.5Hz. Alpha Brain Waves (8 to 12 cycles per second) This brain wave indicates a relaxed state of mind, a state of relaxed alertness, good for inspiration and learning facts fast. In this meditative mind state we tap into internal “antenna” like qualities, visions, powerful ideas, mindless creation of the incredible, internal feeling & sensations. Studies have shown that learning in Alpha State enhances the performance of students. It also develops the interest of studies in students more than they have ever learned in tense environment. Frequent gaps of 2 to 3 minutes after every 30-minute study period relaxes their minds and the alpha state will prove its efficiency with great ease and fun. But learning is more than just absorbing information, so changing the state of mind to operate Beta, Alpha and Theta is most likely to produce the best learning, cognition and creativity, while also staying in a relaxed state. Alpha is the brain wave associated with relaxed, daydreaming states of mind; it’s a state of relaxed, detached awareness. Many people are “in alpha” while watching TV. Alpha is often called a “hypnogogic” state because you may experience spontaneous mental imagery.”

I love them and they are perfect for creating that balance and return to natural harmony. I’m enjoying exploring more and more and combining them with my own sound, tibetan bowl, and my chakra drum, which was a gift to myself almost two years ago, to see what I can tap into and activate!

Then we come to my third gift to self, which was cool on timing of when it got into my hands, as it couldn’t be sent to a P.O. Box, which is what we have, so I had it sent to my parent’s house and it just so happened to arrive right before we visited them two days ago. So, right after my hair appointment we went to my parent’s for a pre-birthday dinner celebration and I was able to see it for the first time and then take it home.

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A little about this book, which I posted on my social media shares:

This incredible body of work wrapped up in an equally exquisite masterpiece of highest quality and creatively passionate delivery is the most magickal book I now own. I’ve been so excited to receive it, as it is one of my birthday gifts to myself by this multi-faceted, award winning British fine art photographer, Kirsty Mitchell who also has a background in fashion design and costume making. The story behind the book and each image is so beautiful and poignant… Dedicated to her mother who passed from cancer in 2008, the project took 7 years to come to fruition through her dedication and love and some costumes and props for just one shot taking up to 6 months to create. The name of the book speaks for itself, taking you through dream worlds that reflect memories of the stories her mother used to read to her as a child, now brought to life – a way to make fantasy real and to step into it completely. The book is a personal journey and includes each image’s story and behind the scenes. This book is huge and beautifully embossed! – 4.5 pounds and almost 15″ x 11 1/2″ x 2 1/4″ with several shots of each scene – some with fold out pages. I’m in love!

This book felt like the perfect companion to my new hair that helped me step into those otherworlds I now felt more in aligned frequency with. And perfect as to the reality I want and am creating – life created as art, the magickal made practical, Earth and Cosmos merged, dreams manifested…..

I know I live life by the beat of my own drum, but I wouldn’t have it any other way. And like I always say, if I’m happy and not hurting anyone, and potentially spreading a little inspiration, joy, creative support, or magickal pixie dust fun along the way, then I think that’s an enhancement I can contribute to the collective and not a detrimental one.

I’ve learned that whether simple or more extravagant (it doesn’t matter), self-nurturing and investing time, energy, and/or resources in yourself, your healing, your growth, your business, and your dreams and passions, really make a difference in having more vitality, clarity, potency, and drive to fulfill your path and have more to give to others from a richly authentic place of who you really are.

I no longer feel depleted, resentful, or in lack because of the things I’ve implemented to take care of myself and have more balance and equality in my life with input and output. I don’t rely on others for things I want or that make me happy and healthy. And I don’t feel any lack because success and joy isn’t measured by needing certain returns, but knowing I’m doing everything I can right now to support my well being and in turn, highest good by the way I then can connect with others without attachments of any kind.

A New Moon & A New You


With today’s New Moon in Capricorn – the last of the year before we welcome in 2017 – I wanted to pause a moment to share how so much has shifted this year for me in terms of the structures and “routines” of my life, which Capricorn energy focuses much upon. While the energies abound also place focus on a time of review, rest, and nurturing of your own inner needs, Capricorn will assist with how to harness these in a responsibly resonant way that reflects who you are and the path of intents you are activating in your life.

This will involve honestly looking at the intricate details of how you’ve been living your life, how you go about your daily processes, your approach to life, and the amount of energy and time you extend to all things including, but most importantly – you.

Who are you?

Are you embodying the “you” you were born to be and share with the collective?

Do you relish in being yourself?

What are you doing to empower yourself and the gifts you were born to cultivate?

Are you ready to unleash your natural talents and release the limiting inhibitions, old patterns, and fears of increasing the magnitude of energy you came here to shine?

Are you willing to reclaim your origins of purity that naturally align you in harmony?

It’s time to hit the reset button, if you haven’t already, to revitalize your experience of life, restore your faith and trust in why you are here and how who you are can make a difference, and it’s an opportune time to do all things self-nurturing and supportive of regeneration and recreation of your life lived most authentically.

All this to mirror Nature with your own innate ability to renew through the cycles of life.

I know this year of 2016 was a challenging one for many and while I didn’t experience it in that way, I did learn what was important and vital to my own “nature” and have been implementing that more than ever.

Although I did see my two bunny loves transition and went through my own literal and profound death experience (allowing purification and a new “more me” to be reborn and step into my body while the old me was released) this year (the things that contributed to the collective #9 year of closure), I was able to maintain my vibration through it all and that came with my commitment to nurturing myself, flowing with the energies and inevitable transmutation that was necessary, listening to my needs, reclaiming parts of me, spending tons of time in Nature, balancing and softening my life, and returning to who I really am.

So, my experience of 2016 was cathartic and deeply nourishing and revitalizing, whereas I could have experienced it in a traumatic way.

And a lot of this, as mentioned, has been in realizing, embracing, and putting into motion the need for self nurturing and retrieving back my power in a personally empowering way that ultimately allows me to be more of a responsible contributor to the collective.

I’ve never nurtured myself and honored my energy as much as I have this year and this has continued to increase.

I saw so many things I desired personally and wanted to heal within myself, truly anchor.

I saw the anxiety and fixations on things disintegrate completely.

And life has become soft, flowing, responsive, and increasingly harmonized. It’s truly something I awe at when I really look at the changes that have taken place over the course of my life and how I feel now versus before. It gets me emotional to realize the difference I feel in comparison to the life I was once living.

And I have seen that when I honor these things within myself that the Universe/All That Is has been conspiring to support it all even more.

This especially so with the self nurturing, as my life has become surrounded with tangible and non-tangible forms of everything nourishing to my mind, body, heart, and soul.

I’ve shifted the way I approach everything I do and have shifted the anxious over-achiever-me into the peacefully flowing, confident, and anchored co-creator.

Even the place we live in currently is such a dream and has everything I could want to support this new cycle in my life to ensure well being and cultivation of what I’m birthing.

From a dream view in a sacred place that I love, which I face daily, a jacuzzi with light therapy and sauna to provide relaxation and purification, a biomat to nourish deeply, and Christmas gifts from my family and ourselves of a shiatsu foot massage with heat I use on my Pisces feet daily, a flameless candle fountain with flowing water energy, LED wax candles that can remotely be programmed for color therapy, daily nature immersions, creative time spent making delicious, healthy, and comforting foods, surrounding myself with reflections of my heart, having the ability to focus on my passions and doing what I love, blessed with incredible friends, family, and spirit guidance….I’m feeling like I live in a dream and day spa round the clock and almost have to pinch myself that this is the experience I manifested through a life of dedication, despite discouraging years of challenge.

To say I’m grateful is a HUGE understatement.

And that goes along with truly being grateful to myself for hanging in there, continuing to forge ahead, and never giving up.

I tormented for so many years in my teens, early twenties, and thirties with why life had been so hard and wondering if ever I would experience what I envisioned possible in feeling.

And it wasn’t until I started integrating all aspects of my life and bringing physical and spiritual together in a sensual merging and honoring of the gift, beauty, and meaning of both being of stardust and living as a human, that life has emerged as such.

Now I’m truly seeing that the hope I held onto was not in vain.

And this is only the beginning…for me, for you, for us all.

I know this year was very hard for everyone and still may feel challenged, but I’ve also seen and heard of so many seeing the cycles of change through and coming out the other side with renewed zest for life and new beginnings emerging from seeing their dreams begin to manifest, realizing what they’ve accomplished, getting clarity on their path and direction in life, new more aligned dream jobs manifesting, engagements, marriages, pregnancies, births, moves to heart home places, dream travels actualized, new life adventures begun (several people jumped in rv’s this year too)….and more.

The end of one era and walking through the door of a new one.

And through it all it’s key to take care of you, as that will ensure all that you desire to do “out there”.

I realize the importance of taking care of me and it’s provided me so much more to give out to others without ever feeling depleted anymore and I’ve learned the most supportive way to be on path for me that will continue to honor myself and others simultaneously.

And this will include continuous self nurturing, reviewing my life to make any necessary adjustments that optimize things, continuing to strengthen my boundaries, creating intents and goals that keep me on point and utilizing more and more productive use of what I have available.

Capricorn energy is a guiding force in my life with it as my ascendant, North Node, and having Mars propelling it in my first house, and it wasn’t until recently that I’ve understood how to harness this energy.

I can only imagine what might be with continued cultivation and paying attention to the responsive integration of its energy in my life.

This New Moon highlights Capricorn essence for us all…and while this may be a cycle currently we’re moving through that can propel you when you harness what it is showing you in your life, I believe that working with all of the signs and energies in their most productive forms, throughout the year, will support us into living as the wholeness we are.

Holiday Nourishment Inside & Out


christmas flowersIt’s been a cozy, nourishing, simple, yet potent Christmas Full Moon and Winter Solstice. And with it being a Cancer Full Moon, it was no wonder that we felt called to share this time quietly at home mostly to ourselves with some time mixed in that was celebrated with family.

It was all about being cozy, nurturing, and nourishing from the inside out, which includes both tummy and inner world.

I spent time on Winter Solstice in my own ritual of complete solitude, which included working with my crystals and sacred shamanic gifts the Earth, animals, and Peruvian shaman had given me.

Yes, I dug deeper and continue to, getting honest with some of my deepest desires and how to be even truer to them.

But alongside that, nurturing in general just has felt to be most important since I decided to take my sabbatical and continue to be focused inward, although am back.

And that nurturing definitely includes good, comfort, nourishing food!!

I was wondering what to make for our Christmas Eve dinner on our own, and of course Miss Laura chimed in with sharing her vegan meatloaf recipe that unfolded a long texting between us about food, recipes, yummy ideas….and ending in us sharing a virtual meal from across the states.

You can read about her meals and get some of the recipes at that link, along with others here: Vegan and Vegetarian Holiday Options

I ended up making these all vegan dishes:

  • chickpea vegan meatloaf with maple glaze and creamy thick coconut mushroom gravy
  • roasted brussels sprouts
  • coconut milk/rosemary mashed potatoes made with yukon gold and sweet potatoes with chives and “bacon” bits
  • almond snowballs that taste just like marzipan
  • little strawberry elves
  • turmeric lemonade

meatloafmeatloaf4snowballsstrawberry elvesturmeric lemonadeWe also, like Laura and her David, then shared a vegan, Whole Foods bought Christmas meal Dave’s family got for us at their house, which included a Celebration Field Roast, mixed grilled brussels sprouts and potatoes, cranberry sauce, and grilled mangoes, followed by a vegan chocolate birthday cake for Dave’s brother’s wife along with some of my snowballs I brought over that were hits. It was here we also took the only Christmas photo I have of us.xmas

Even the photo seems to reflect the nurturing and comforting energy that has surrounded and supported us, inside and out.

And Christmas night we wanted something light when we returned home, so I created my version of the tempeh cobb salad Laura also had shared with me.

I made mine with  Arugula from my mini garden, chopped carrots, cherry tomatoes, chives, cucumbers, vegan bacon bits, ground pepper, “fried chicken” tempeh – tempeh marinated in tamari, lemon juice, olive oil, and dried rosemary covered in bread crumbs on the skillet and tossed together with a home made mustard dressing with apple cider vinegar base.vegan cobb saladcobb salad

We were given a gift certificate to a local, cozy, eclectic restaurant – The Gypsy Den – and so we enjoyed that last night with warming comfort foods like vegan stew, chili, rye bread, veggie wraps, and a piece of coconut cake. I especially enjoyed the Mayan cocoa with almond milk in a giant warm mug.

And now, after the last Crystal Magick workshop I’ll be teaching here, which Nature conspired to make a perfect day of sunny warmth to teach it outdoors on the beach, my mouth is watering to have Christmas Eve leftovers and just-baked organic Italian bread whose aroma is calling to me right as I finish this off!

Today’s workshop also touched on how to uncover and work with deep, hidden, and repressed emotions, and so the Full Moon’s Cancer energy continues to nurture deeply and anchor in the heart of all matters.

Sometimes the heart of things for us Faeries, is simply the nourishing meals of hearth and home.

At the least they sure do balance all the energy being channeled. And that helps us keep our feet on the ground when our wings would be taking to flight rather easily. 🙂

 

 

Farewell For Now ~ I’ll Be Offline September 1st Through November 30th


GAM_9836 webI thought about how I could likely write a really long post as this last one before I head offline on my 3 month sabbatical, but am guided to make this brief and instead share a simple message to leave with you in the form of the video below that speaks a message of the heart.

While it seems like long that I’ll be gone, with the way time moves like a flash, before you know it I’ll be back again, although much will have transpired not only for myself, but I know for each of you as well.

When I return I’ll share about my process and experiences during these months away, and will look forward to catching up on yours.

A few simple reminders as I leave, along with clarity on this time away, as I’ve received a lot of messages where it seems people haven’t understood what this time means for me or some of the services I offer.

This three month personal sabbatical is about just that….it is for personal things, of which involve creative projects, personal nurturing and listening within, and now also a physical transition from house to RV living, which just so happened to coincide with this time off, but was not planned as such.

I am NOT embarking yet on the grand RV adventure, although perhaps might do small jaunts here and there for several days or a week at a time, but I’ll still be stationed in Orange County at a beach-side RV park, until further pieces unfold. It’s all a process. In the meantime, I’m so looking forward to simplified living and following my heart.

I won’t be online, so basically off-grid to everyone, and unable to answer messages, emails, and questions. I am basically creating a Tania bubble without distractions or energetic pulls.

In terms of services, they will all (at least the ones I will continue to feel called to offer) be available when I return beginning December 1st. I will be offline September 1st – November 30th.

There will be new offerings upcoming in the time I return that will continue to evolve and be presented at the times I feel guided to offer them. I’ve gotten hits on how things are evolving and so I’ll be sharing that little by little when I return. I may also be shifting gears with focuses, as I am following the energy of the collective’s needs, coupled with my own energetic shifts, so greater emphasis will be placed on specific offerings, as well as new ones that have shown up, as mentioned.

In terms of sacred tattoo designs. I’ve received an influx of messages in the last few weeks, right before heading off. So to clarify those questions being asked, please visit this link, below, for more important information on details about working with me on co-creating a design when I return. It addresses the waiting list that is now at Januray 2016, upcoming rate changes, and how you can still schedule a design with me while I’m away:

Answers About Sacred Tattoo Designs For While I’m Away

I’ve already been asked to teach a Reiki 3 Master Teacher workshop in December when I return and a Crystal Magick workshop, so I’ll keep you posted at that time on those and their dates here locally from a new location.

I’ve also been asked to offer other things and been needing to support people and the energy showing up in myself in different ways. So I’ll put that into play and/or bring them to you more upon return.

I may also know then, more about the evolving plan for the adventure. Right now it’s a day-by-day process that calls for trust, patience, and listening for the alignments.

When I do return, I’ll be sharing and working from my new abode on the RV. The new space will create its own shifts with things.

While I’ll miss connecting with you, honestly, I am very excited to have this time to myself, as it is much needed and being integrally guided.

That experience of feeling comfort with physically removing myself and being on my own more or altogether, comes from having a sense of peace within myself, and also knowing and experiencing the unity and love no matter where I am and if I’m alone.

I know that distance never separates us, regardless, as the connection is always experienced in the heart and soul no matter where one is on Earth or beyond. A good reason for, and exercise in, practicing telepathy! 😉

Telepathy is something I use constantly with my dear friends, clients, animal companions, and souls off-Earth, and especially my Faery sis, Laura. She and I are always going through mirroring things (whether exactly or in relative ways), or experiences that balance out one another at different spectrums that unite, despite our rarely ever connecting in person or even by voice on the phone. You can likely keep up with energetic things that may be evolving with me during these three months, by following along her journey at her blog. 😉

I’ll leave you with this video message, shared with me today by my Cosmic brother, Amaru, whom I’ve journeyed with in Peru and beyond. A perfect, simple, and beautiful expression of what I feel in my heart.

Here’s to it really being a good day…EVERY DAY that you are alive in your body on Earth.

In love and creative magick always.

See you soon.

Just A Quick Reminder Of My Unavailability for 3 Months


I’m so excited! Even more so, now that we officially reserved our RV spot. 😉

Only 10 more days until I fully unplug and go into my sacred space of personal sabbatical beginning September 1st.

And that looks like:

  • no social media
  • no blogging
  • limited online time for only my writing or personal needs/won’t be keeping up with anything else
  • no addressing things for others
  • not answering messages/emails
  • simply not available or engaged…..except to the unique signature stream of creative frequencies wanting through me, solely as an expression of pure energy I’m guided to channel as the breath of life for me

At half way to 43, this will be the third intentional time I do this and each one increases in depth, purpose, and meaning for me.

Two of the times have been a couple of years long, and this time 3 months, but it’s all about quality versus quantity.

And who knows what I might be guided to do next 😉

I’ve reminded myself to be patiently present with each moment of closure until then, and fully immersing in the work I’m finishing, with all of me, before heading off.

Almost there!

Please remember that I’ll be completely offline for 3 months, returning December 1st.

I can’t tell you how soulfully I am looking forward to it.

So, if there’s anything you need assistance with, questions I can clarify answers for, providing an understanding of the scope of my availability for things upon return, etc., please let me know in the next 10 days.

FYI:

I only have 2 spots remaining for December for sacred tattoo designs before we’re looking at scheduling out to January of 2016.

You can still get on the waiting list during my sabbatical by placing a deposit at the link here: Life Changing Tattoos

As I Began to Love Myself


This is a reblog from a reblog of a reblog from Summer of last year posted by Galactic Free Press, shared by Laura, and reshared by me. 🙂 I guess that means it just might be kind of important.

I can’t tell you how many clients I’m working with, friends, and people I hear from that are all currently working on this theme right now.

So, I felt called to post it again.

I’d like to add a couple of “Heart Thoughts” from Louise L. Hay in addition.

While I know these are some challenging things to embrace for ourselves…they truly are key. I can’t tell you how instrumental your own love for yourself is.

And while I don’t believe solely in reprogramming through affirmations, reading and reciting these words to ourselves with honest reflection and vulnerability, can help to uncover the energetic, emotional, mental, and physical blocks to them so that we can start to shift back into our most natural selves, one layer at a time. This takes some work and courage, but with dedicated commitment to yourself and to living the life you desire, you CAN get there.

So pay attention to the resistance, tightness, pains, thoughts, feelings, etc. when you read and tell yourself these things. What messages do those pains and areas have to share with you? What does your inner child desire from you to support and nurture? What has she/he longed to hear or receive from you?

What you desire from another, or life itself, is the very thing you hold the key to gifting to yourself right now.

Here’s Louise:

“Be gentle, kind and comforting with your inner child as you uncover and release the old, negative messages within you. Say: All my changes are comfortable, easy and fun.

I love myself totally in the now. Love is the biggest eraser there is. Love erases even the deepest imprinting because love goes deeper than anything. If your childhood imprinting was very strong, and you keep saying, ‘It’s all their fault. I can’t change,’ you stay stuck. Do a lot of mirror work. Love yourself in the mirror from the top of your head to the tips of your toes. Dressed and naked. Look into your eyes and love you and your child within.”

“Each one of us is always working with the three-year old child within us. Most of us, unfortunately, spend our time yelling at that child, and then wondering why our lives don’t work.

I embrace my inner child with love. 

Take care of your inner child. It is the child who is frightened. It is the child who is hurting. It is the child who does not know what to do. Be there for your child. Embrace it and love it and do what you can to take care of its needs. Be sure to let your child know that no matter what happens, you will always be there for it. You will never turn away or run away. You will always love this child.”

“At least three times a day, stand with your arms open wide and say: I am willing to let the love in. It is safe to let the love in.

I am worth loving.

You don’t have to earn love any more than you have to earn the right to breathe. You have a right to breathe because you exist. You have a right to be loved because you exist. That is all you need to know. You are worthy of your own love. Don’t allow your parents or society’s negative opinions or popular prejudices make you think that you are not good enough. The reality of your being is that you are lovable. Accept this and know this. When you really do, you will find that people treat you as a lovable person.”

And here is last year’s reblog:

via Galactic Free Press

[UPDATE from commenter Sharon: Charlie Chaplin didn’t write this. It is someone else’s work that he read. I tried searching for the proper author but the internet is failing me today. He was clear that he didn’t write it though, just recited it. Haven’t found a good link but did discover the piece is a work of Kim and Alison McMillen.]

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“As I Began to Love Myself”

As I began to love myself I found that anguish and emotional suffering
are only warning signs that I was living against my own truth.
Today, I know, this is “AUTHENTICITY”.

As I began to love myself I understood how much it can offend somebody
As I try to force my desires on this person, even though I knew the time
was not right and the person was not ready for it, and even though this
person was me. Today I call it “RESPECT”.

As I began to love myself I stopped craving for a different life,
and I could see that everything that surrounded me was inviting me to grow.
Today I call it “MATURITY”.

As I began to love myself I understood that at any circumstance,
I am in the right place at the right time, and everything happens
at the exactly right moment. So I could be calm.
Today I call it “SELF-CONFIDENCE”.

As I began to love myself I quit stealing my own time,
and I stopped designing huge projects for the future.
Today, I only do what brings me joy and happiness, things I love to do
and that make my heart cheer, and I do them in my own way and in
my own rhythm. Today I call it “SIMPLICITY”.

As I began to love myself I freed myself of anything that is no good for
my health – food, people, things, situations, and everything that drew
me down and away from myself. At first I called this attitude
a healthy egoism. Today I know it is “LOVE OF ONESELF”.

As I began to love myself I quit trying to always be right, and ever since
I was wrong less of the time. Today I discovered that is “MODESTY”.

As I began to love myself I refused to go on living in the past and worry
about the future. Now, I only live for the moment, where EVERYTHING
is happening. Today I live each day, day by day, and I call it “FULFILLMENT”.

As I began to love myself I recognized that my mind can disturb me
and it can make me sick. But As I connected it to my heart, my
mind became a valuable ally. Today I call this
connection “WISDOM OF THE HEART”.

We no longer need to fear arguments, confrontations or any kind of problems
with ourselves or others. Even stars collide, and out of their crashing
new worlds are born.Today I know THAT IS “LIFE”!

-Charlie Chaplin

Hitting the Reset Button ~ My Upcoming Move & Sabbatical


Since many of you are not subscribed to receive my monthly newsletter, and this month’s updates seem important to share, I am going to repost June’s newsletter here for all of my blog readers and friends, as it pertains to why you won’t be seeing me online for an extended period of time beginning September 1st, and yet you’ll still know I haven’t fallen off the edge of the Earth (at least not yet 😉 ).

I’ll simply be on a personal sabbatical for several months, which entails my unavailability on all accounts, which will overlap with my moving. So this pertains to services I offer, which you may want to take advantage of before then, otherwise I won’t be able to assist you until I return. I’ll post two separate blogs following this, specific to how this pertains to workshops and sacred tattoo design consultations.

As I replied to a dear friend this morning who was sharing similar experiences and asking how I was:

“I’m doing well…just getting clearer and lighter. And taking advantage of the windows presenting themselves…following where I’m guided and doing what I need to stay true to myself and my path, which ultimately is for the highest good. I’m in a mode of needing to pull back from everything, as my contracts are done and I now am in a place of creating from a clean slate.”

Here’s my newsletter update:

I’m a bit behind on June’s newsletter, as we are already slowly approaching the half-way mark of this month – incredible!

And while there is SO much that has taken place this first half of the year and upcoming, I’m going to keep things as succinct as possible.

Some of what I have to share may come as a surprise, but if you really know me, you should know by now that I’m constantly moving and reinventing myself and don’t intend to stop that ever.

As we approach the Summer Solstice, I am envisioning revitalization for everyone’s current experiences. Remember that this is a time of blossoming, celebrating, embodying self-awareness and your Higher Self, releasing the old patterns of suppression, and recharging the mind, body, and spirit to bring what you desire into your life.

And that only comes if you are willing to release ALL that no longer serves you.

I recently made the declaration out loud in the presence of an intentful, intimate gathering, that I was moving forward and saying goodbye to everything old and hindering in any way. This included creating new aspirations, as even the ones I had just months ago, no longer stand.

I needed to create brand new ones, am continuing to purge everything from my life that doesn’t align with that energy, and am investing in me and only the now-aligned and cherished experiences I choose.

It’s a time of the Divine dance, union, and balance of the Feminine (Earth, Mother, Moon) with the Masculine (Sky, Father, Sun) energies. And this is something experienced WITHIN me.

It’s a time that the Mayans believed to be for spiritual initiation and change, creating ceremony to balance the Earth’s energy – “balance” and “harmony” always definitely being key.

This is an opportune time where we can invite the Sun’s energy to connect with our Higher Self and to follow inspiration and dreams, while tuning inside and realizing the alchemy of “as within, so without”.

Yes, it is time to fully embody yourself as the Sun, the Light, the All That Is – you are the creator creating through the heart and soul of you. When you truly recognize and live this, you will just know.

And if you’re feeling anything similar to what I am, that Light cannot hide any longer, without creating challenge and pains.

So choose wisely and choose from the heart.

This update will contain a bit more of the personal, but I always feel that this enables others to identify with similar experiences and to find comfort and connection through them.

That said, I have been mentioning an upcoming move and while we still do not have the exact date yet – since a huge amount of things are all being orchestrated right now, I’ll be working a lot of energetics, and awaiting windows – our projected timing is October or thereabouts 4 months from now. 

At least that gives you a better, more concrete idea, as I’m not sure people have taken me seriously about this, but I assure you I’m quite serious I will not be here in Costa Mesa, CA for much longer and have been saying this is the last Summer here. 

People keep asking where we’re moving to – and to that I’ll say, there is no specific place at this time that we are moving to, as we will be moving around for quite a while until/or if a specific place calls to touch down again. Until then, we’ll be exploring like gypsies in an RV.

As mentioned, this has been an incredibly busy year for me and I’ve been traveling nonstop – all with great intention and each trip has been hugely supportive, nurturing, and activating for me. I just returned from Sedona, and Goshen just before that, and between the two of these a ton has shifted like overnight.

Everything is amped up – you might be experiencing the same – instant manifestation, deeper knowing, alignments, divine support, and increased intuition, visions, connection, and energy enhancement.

One of the only challenges that presented themselves were my bunny loves going through some things recently, but that immediately corrected itself when I was reunited back with them. And in the end I now have two special, special needs bunnies – Cosmo with his spinal disability and Joy with one blind eye.

Yet those challenges were so supportive to both them and me in unseen gifted ways. They always know what mom needs and because of them I got in touch even more deeply with myself and integrated a lot. That experience also drove home that I want only to cherish this moment doing and being with what is most important to my heart only.

The other challenge has been that I’ve had email issues for months now, which I believe I’ve addressed. I apologize if you’ve tried to email me and had your emails bounced back, or never heard from me because I never received it, but apparently the Universe was filtering my emails, preparing me likely for the next announcement.

I will be taking a personal sabbatical starting September 1st. Right now I’m being shown that it will be for 3 months, but I’ll be taking heed from Spirit on that and following intuition, as I’m guided. 

What this means is that I will not be available for anything during this time. You will not see me online in any format – no social media, no blog articles and posts, no services offered, and not answering questions.

What this looks like for me is that I am going underground for a bit in order to create without any distractions or things pulling at my energy and time. I have some new creative projects I am being guided to work on and the only way I feel this can be done the way I want it, is to fully immerse myself into my “Tania bubble” in order to do so.

I also want to spend personal quality time in ways that I need right now only, and as I shared, am working a lot of energetics for what is being created.

It feels like I’m hitting a reset button in my life on all fronts and I have to say I so LOVE it.

That’s why a lot of things this year have shifted so much and I started seeing the focus that Spirit was directing me, was about self-nurturing, creative cultivation, recharging, and major downloading.

So several events and trips cancelled and have been cancelled, or were shifted into a different focus – all divinely orchestrated. This is why I just embrace things and am not attached to any outcome, as I know there is always a silver lining and amazing reason to discover from changes that take place. And I believe this is why so many things have flowed with a great sense of grace and peace…because I just moved with the energy, not against it.

So, that all said, I’ll still be putting out another two newsletters before I disappear 🙂 and I’ll still be winding down things and available between now and end of August for scheduling and requests.

For more details on these offerings, along with a “Create Your Own Workshop” opportunity, due to this announcement and my being away for a while, please see below.

Wishing everyone an invigorating Summer Solstice! Sending out love and creative magick to all!

Preparation to Depart ~ Will Be Away Through the First Week of June


Just a quick note to let you know I’ll be leaving again very early tomorrow morning – getting picked up at 4 am actually, so an early start means getting to bed early this evening and shutting down early today.

As mentioned, I was supposed to be away this week, but the bunnies had other plans for me, so I’m now reconnecting with the second half of my planned trip flying into Flagstaff, AZ to spend a night and day at the Grand Canyon, and then the rest of the week in Sedona – another home away from home I’ve spent a lot of time in, including two years of my life when I lived there.

I’m happy that we have a wonderful house and animal sitter for the babies, so I feel good now that their health is balanced, that they will be well cared for.

And now mom will get in some energy work of her own in the vortexes of Sedona, while soaking in that Red Rock energy and Nature goodness hiking.

I’ll be gone through the 5th of June, but not back to work until Monday the 8th.

I’m trying to get through back-logged emails right now before I head off, but please be aware I’ll be a bit out of touch this week unless there’s something urgent to address. I apologize for my tardiness on responses these days, but I’ve had a lot to manage and needing my own time to myself. Thank you for understanding, as my work output to share with you will be the better for it.

Wishing everyone a beautiful weekend and week ahead, as we approach Summer. Yay!

When I return, I’ll likely have some announcements and a new monthly newsletter that will come out the week I return.

Wishing everyone a graceful flow with all the intense energies I know many are experiencing, alongside the Retrograde energies.

Lots of love to you.

Listen To Your Body & Love Yourself Into Balance


Today would have been my beloved Nestor’s 12th birthday on the physical plane, yet I still honor her each year on this day, as there was so much she brought to my life, taught me, and continues to support me with from the beyond.

Some of the things she taught me about are the importance of listening deeply within and acting upon/supporting what I hear, how important balance is in life, and the need to nourish and nurture myself body and soul in order to optimally function and be of most benefit in service to others through that nurturing of self.

Her little body was hardly able to hold the vastness of her huge energy and powerful soul. She constantly was blowing herself out physically because of the energetic work she was always doing and supporting others with (on Earth and beyond), and then had crashes where she needed to rebalance, which I supported her with.

I used to be the same way. Going, going, going, giving, energetically flowing things out, constantly expanding and shifting my energy, and taking on tons more than humanly possible, along with not having boundaries, nor being able to stand up for myself until pushed over the edge.

It also eventually would create huge crashes and severe physical manifestations that would then force me to regroup and recharge. I could go on for months and years sometimes doing this, before a major crash would take place.

But just because we are enduring and strong, capable of going on for long periods of time the way we are doing things before crashing, doesn’t mean this is healthy and productive. Not to mention, it also isn’t the natural flow of energy. Your body warns you and provides you with messages along the way to help you to avoid greater severity.

Reflecting on this and how much my life has changed and now IS more flowing, harmonious, and balanced where I don’t experience the crashes and I understand my processes so that I can shift them immediately, brought me to share this with others today prompted by Nestor.

I’ve been to the places of self-sacrifice, even victimhood and martyrdom, and I know the unhealthiness it creates.

I know the importance of listening within and supporting what is in the highest good for all involved through responsible accountability and keeping things balanced and nourished from the inside out.

So please listen to your body…listen to the messages it whispers, as well as cries out loudly.

Your body has an intelligence that works in partnership with your soul.

Our duty is to be the loving nurturers of ourselves.

If your body tells you it is tired…then rest.

If it aches and pinches you with pains…take heed of what is going on in your life currently or what you have been avoiding or repressing.

If your body is not feeling vibrant and healthy…nourish it and your soul with the enriching things it needs physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually.

You are a miraculous temple of divine intelligence.

Honor that knowingness with love of self in all the ways needed.

It’s also important to create your own personal sanctuary either as a literal place you go to, one that you create, or one you travel to inwardly by imagining a nurturing, safe, and enchanted environment that inspires and supports you.

Know that that special place of serenity and empowerment lies within you always and is available to you when ever you need it.

In the center of your beingness is a place of power that can shift your experience instantly.

Make an effort to journey there and bask in the love and beauty that resides within and you will discover a way to bring balance and harmony back to your life, despite what is going on around you.

Self-nurturing is vital and not a luxury.

May you experience and embody harmony within and without.

Time to Unplug


meditating in Bimini

Meditating in Bimini last Summer’s Retreat

I’m heading out tomorrow morning to host the “Accelerate Your Vibration” Bimini Retreat for the beautiful, very intimate group we have, so it will be a week of unplugging while away on the island, and fully immersing.

I will be unavailable during my time away and won’t be back into the flow of things again until the week of the 28th, and slowing adjusting back the 26th. 

So if you message me or need any assistance, please be aware I will not be able to respond until then.

I’m very much looking forward to our little “time out of time” island vortex we’ll be in, as interruption-free space is sacred and valuable. It’s like a creative pause that births those breakthroughs. We don’t have to go off to an island to create that, as we can create down-time sacred space anywhere, IF we have the self-discipline to do so. Retreats like this however, make it essential, so we aren’t pushing it off.

I feel that many fear the true “down-time” as it can be scary to actually “be” with ourselves because then we have to face what we are able to see, hear, and feel for the first time. The craving for stimulation and always needing to connect is a way, I believe, to avoid self nurturing, not to mention accountability and responsibility.

Whatever the reasons, if you find yourself unable to just “be” and unplug, then perhaps making a commitment to yourself to do so this weekend would be a good start. Find some time to do nothing and relax into yourself.

The more you give yourself permission to do this, the more you’ll realize how much your body and soul have been craving it, and it will become a natural necessity for well being in your life.

I wish everyone peace of heart, lots of love, and creative flow. 

 

Dates to Remember:

July’s Special good through end of the month

August 24th’s Crystal Magick and the Journey Within: A Creative Exploration for Personal Alchemy Workshop – Registrations close August 20th

September 4th – 7th Horses & Reiki: Living with Vibrational Integrity – A Four Day Certification & Experiential Retreat in British Columbia – Registrations close August 31st

 

 

 

 

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