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A Magickal Day with Kate Magic

kate and taniaYesterday I had the chance to reconnect with my dear friend, Kate Magic, whom you may remember was the Faery that joined me in Iceland for my birthday celebration. This also gave me a nice break in the middle of my week, and take a time out for me after completing a lot of things.

Kate is out here for two weeks visiting from England, as she loves to visit California once a year. Plus, this year she’s putting on a very special, private VIP dinner party next week I have the honor of joining. This will be a spectacular 5-course raw vegan gourmet extravaganza hosted by the amazing and infamous Chef Ito at the new downtown Los Angeles Au Lac restaurant.

I’m so looking forward to it, as that day may be a big celebratory day on a personal level (news upcoming), so the timing is auspicious to say the least. I’m excited to sample her fantastic creations, as Kate makes raw vegan food the way I like it….true Faery food – light and without nuts or garlic.

I’ve sampled some of her amazing chocolate and chocolate cakes, but looking forward to what yummy surprises she has in store and getting a chance to taste a variety of goodies.

If you’re not familiar with Kate, she has Europe’s premier raw food and super food online store and resource, not to mention teaches raw food courses and is one of the best raw food chefs and authors in the world. She also just happens to be a fellow tattoo aficionado, wearing her own amazing array of sacred and magickal body art.

I love promoting conscious visionaries and magickal creators who are bridging the love and birthing the new!

Thanks to my Faery sis, Laura Bruno, who introduced us, as it’s been a truly special connection over the last 5 years, since our first meeting in 2011. We usually see each other about once a year, but this year three times! Kate and I both remarked that it is an exceptional year, 2015…and it also happens to be the year I’ll be seeing Laura again in the flesh and for our longest time together, which is huge since we’ve not been in physical presence for like 6 years or something!

But yesterday was just one of those days that remind you that the new IS here already and that it’s there for those with eyes, ears, and hearts to see, feel, and create it. And when in harmony with each other and in natural harmony with Nature, there is much to experience, manifest, and enjoy!

I already live in my own little magickal bubble (so funny because Kate has a website called “Kate’s Magic Bubble“), so it’s fun when I connect with those that also live in their own too. Then it’s like that bubble expands and the magickal possibilities just expand along with it.

So my morning kicked off with a huge Raccoon sighting on the deck. SO, in fact we DO actually have both an Opossum AND Raccoon that regularly visit our backyard.

Raccoons have a lot of interesting symbolism including understanding and revealing the nature of masks we and/or others wear, disguise, dexterity, seeking guidance, curiosity without fear, shape shifting, secrecy, resourcefulness, stealth, ingenuity, cleverness, dexterity, socializing, courage, self defense when necessary, and support during transformations.

It’s like a whole woodland enchanted realm going on here in the middle of the neighborhood that’s not rural or anything. I guess all the Faery magick, plants, fruits, blossoms, and energy are drawing in the whole animal kingdom, as we have tons of Hummingbirds, Monarchs, Ravens, and a variety of small Birds, Geese that fly over honking as their path along their transiting journeys, as well as Lizards (one of which lived in our garage a while), neighborhood and ferrel cats that are constantly roaming through and resting in corners of the yard, a Bee colony that decided the inside of our chimney was home for their hive and came through the house…you name it!

Anyway, Raccoon kicked things off and then I was off!

From start to end our day was just beautifully inspiring, healing, and igniting…definite activations at hand. Things can happen instantly…and sometimes it’s simply trusting your guidance which aligns you in the right place at the right time, connecting with a particular soul vibration in person, holding a crystal, etc. If you’re ready, willing, and open…anything can happen.

So I drove out to L.A. to pick Kate up. The weather was an amazing 80’s kind of day. We both showed up in our own Faery attire – she in a colorful shorts jumper that matched her colorful tattoos with red velvet, golden starred flats and me in a more woodlands Faery attire in teal and brown from a true Elven company that creates specifically “Faery” clothing with smokey jelly shoes with sparkles! LOL!

We first set off for Life Food Organic for lunch. I’d always heard about it and wanted to try it, so it was a treat to do so. It’s in Hollywood so parking can be a bit crazy, but of course just as we pull up, someone is pulling out of their spot and so we get amazing, easy, and quick parking.

I had the Sea Wrap (getting my Pisces on) and a Wellness Elixir as well as a Tonic. It was all fantastic and energizing. While there, Annie, the owner of Life Food Organic came through so Kate was able to catch up with her since they’re good friends. In the meantime, I was sighted by a Facebook friend I’d never met in person who came over. Really sweet soul with amazing eyes who surprised me when he said, “Are you Tania?” I’m always a little wary about who’s calling me, as I do like to keep sort of a low profile/incognito essence when out, but I was delighted when he introduced himself and we chatted about sacred tattoo designs and the possibility of me helping him with one.

lake shrine3With tummies satisfied, we ventured on to the Self-Realization Fellowship Lake Shrine Temple, which I suggested to her as something new for us to do together, if she hadn’t been there. She hadn’t, and so it was a treat for all since it had been a while since I had myself. This is an amazingly beautiful and serene sanctuary in the middle of the city and just a couple minutes from the ocean’s edge that was dedicated by Paramahansa Yogananda in 1950.

We first made way to the Temple, which was filled with powerful stillness and only 3 other visitors meditating there at the time. We sat upfront and did our own short personal meditations and then quietly left. Kate had a powerful healing as an extension of one that came earlier in the day for her as well and I received an image of a Dragon and Swan in mine….both really powerful symbols.

lake shrine4We then continued on to the garden walk around the perimeter of the lake, stopping at different points to take in the beauty of the amazing blossoms, lake, waterfall, and abundance of animals. There were a ton of aquatic Turtles floating, swimming, sunning, a Swan couple, Mallard Ducks and new little Ducklings, a variety of Birds and Fish including beautiful Koi, one Hummingbird that said hovered and said hello, Monarch Butterflies, and amazing red/orange and lilac Dragonflies.

lake shrine2Kate remarked that it was the most beautiful place she’d ever seen. We truly felt like two Faeries in the Garden of Eden and all of the animals were coming to greet us and talk to us, particularly this one family of Turtles that just kept hanging out below us and listening to us talk.

We giggled that the male was trying to court us and we were like two Juliets on the balcony/pier deck over the water and he was Romeo down below wooing us. 😉

swansWhile we walked around the lake we suddenly just felt guided to sit on one of the benches. It so happened to have a beautiful mosaic of two Swans on it so we each sat on one of them. And no more than thirty seconds later we notice straight ahead in the sky there was a rainbow portal that appeared.rainbow portal1

None of the other few people around seemed to take note…we wouldn’t have seen it if we didn’t sit there…and there was and hadn’t been any rain.

rainbow2At first the clouds it was in were shaped like a heart and then turned into a cat’s face. Kate happens to have a soulmate cat that it reminded her of. We both got chills and felt like we were in another dimension/world. This was like a New Earth and Garden of Eden or Faery Realm. Kate was really blown over and kept remarking it was like this whole rush of something “else” had opened.

We finally ventured on as the rainbow diminished and spent a lot of time just hanging out by the water taking it all in and talking about different things.

I showed her my new tattoo and we discussed the significance of Cicadas and the Diamond essence, which are both a part of it. She was fascinated by the Cicada, which was a prelude to something you’ll see later, and their ability to wait up to 17 years to birth.

friendsWe also discussed, as we often do, the energies abound and collective themes coming up, as well as our personal processes and what we’ve learned. One such theme was that of it no longer being about “holding” space, but rather, it’s about “creating” space and that is done by us following our hearts and joys and courageously venturing forward into new realms, knowing that IS service. This trickles out collectively and it isn’t a focus of “how can I be of service?” but instead knowing being in your essence IS of service.

duck and turtle2Turtles came up because there were so many there at the lake and she asked me about their symbolism and I shared how many ancient myths, such as those of the Indigenous North Americans, describe the world as resting on the turtle’s back – many still refer to North America as Turtle Island.

And she then connected that with our seeing so many turtles that it tied in with our no longer “holding” and “carrying” energy for everyone anymore…it not being about something so heavy and demanding.aquatic turtle

And I saw how all the turtles we were seeing were all swimming and floating…these turtles were in bliss as they danced through the water. They were light, quick, free, and mutable. This spoke to the message and how our own “loads” have been lightened, if we embrace that truth. We can let go of and release the old and old ways, the baggage, the karma, the heaviness…and simply move into our grace of being.turtle

This mirrors for me, as I shared I recently lost 9 physical pounds from my two sacred journeys. It hasn’t returned. And while that’s a lot for someone small, along with it not being really noticeable to anyone, it was the manifestation of this energetic release and message at a very core level that took place and solidifies my thought on this for myself, as I do feel lighter and freer and find myself in a place right now of choices and deciding where I want to go next without any thought of what I “need” to do, but what do I “want” to do – navigating the waters of life like our aquatic turtle friends.

So we hung out for a while with just “being” in this enchanted sanctuary realm – our personal magickal bubble for the day.

lake shrineThat’s when Hummingbird buzzed in front of us and hovered to say hello. Kate had never seen one in person, but we both wear one as tattoos on our skin.

We watched the family of Turtles – mother, baby, and father playing in the water, the Ducklings following mom over to one of the Swans that was napping on shore.

swanThe male Mallards all gathering for some bonding time. Dragonflies racing back and forth in front of us and then the red/orange and lilac one dancing together. The moss covered waterfall flowing. And the sun glistening like Faery dust on the water.

This was Heaven on Earth.

We then decided to go to the beach to get our feet in the sand and water. So we made our way to the exit and explored the small museum connected to the shop on the way out. In the museum we got to experience Paramahansa Yogananda’s personal Crystal collection and wow was it fantastic! Special beings indeed.

My only sadness was that they were there behind a case, and although together with other Crystal friends, being honored and revered, as well as bringing in amazing energy to the Temple sanctuary, I wondered if there might be another way to have them be of service rather than off in a secluded little area of a tiny space.

Synchronously, the way to the beach was the same way I had to go to drop Kate back at her place, but it was also the way to another of her friends’ home in Santa Monica. She had originally talked to this friend about a potential meeting at 4pm that day because they are going to be filming a cooking episode together this weekend, but she wasn’t sure on our time together, so had said she couldn’t.

Well, after our magickal time on the beach, which I’ll share in a second, I said I could drop her there since it’s on the way as long as she can get back home. She messaged him and found out he was in fact there even though she’d said she couldn’t come, and our timing from when we ended up leaving the beach to getting her to his place was exactly 4pm, just as they originally discussed. Things just fell into place.

But back to the beach, as if things couldn’t continue more magickal…they did. We took our shoes off and left them in the car and made our way to the sand. We walked the length of the beach talking and feeling the refreshing water on our feet. As we walked we saw tons of very interesting jellyfish all along the shore that looked like little spider webbed disks…really amazing and symbolic. Then on our return walk something caught my eagle eye in the water, just after I had said to myself in my head “something magickal’s gotta happen here at the beach to end our day with.”

And there they were! A large pod of dolphins just ahead. Interestingly, Kate had asked me not too long before this if it was me she was with when she saw some dolphins on the beach and I’d said, “no.” But the dolphins said, “yes!” and created it then.

This was quite a big pod and they were not in transit, but likely were feeding on a school of fish. But they were like none I’d ever seen on the beaches here. Usually I see them just swimming up the shore, as they feed. So you get a glimpse of their dorsal fin and curved body each time they surface. But these dolphins were SO joyous and excited. I swear they were putting on a show for us and display of their happiness we were there.

We kept seeing them do little jumps and flips with full tail flutes up in the air.

We had fun watching them, as we got to the end of our walk and were now fully aligned with their location in the water.

Kate then said, “they’re going to put on one last send off for us in a big way… like fireworks and all!” We giggled, but in fact, no more than a few seconds after that, one dolphin shot straight up in the air and did a huge curved leap, splashing in the water…the biggest leap yet! And after that…everything died down and they were gone.

We smiled and said, it’s amazing the magick that is possible to create and when together with others who match that vibration of openness and pure intention, the possibilities are endless!

Back in the car we went, feeling full to the brim in enchantment, along the water and then pulled up at her friend’s place, which was just 12 minutes away – getting us there as the clock chimes in at 4pm like I mentioned. This also just so happens to be the time I had told her that I needed to head back home in order to make it by 6pm to feed the little ones. 😉

We never planned our timing and the only thing we knew we were going to do was go to Lake Shrine. The rest just unfolded, as we flowed with the natural rhythms of the day.

When we pull up to his place we giggle again, as the apartment building is decked out with lovely metal dolphins all over each of the balcony railings to the apartments. The only building like that.

We said our see-you-laters, as next week I’d get one more chance to see her before she heads back to England. And later that night, when I was home, she emails me to tell me that when she and her friend left to get her back home, guess what they see?!

A Cicada!

Full circle magick, especially since she’d been so fascinated by my sharing about them and wasn’t sure she’d seen one before.

And along with many other small things we kept seeing and had come up, it was again that reiteration of how we can create our own experience no matter what else is going on anywhere else. If we stay in the purity of our wondrous imaginations and the childlike wonder of our hearts, life dances with us.

That doesn’t mean you don’t ever have the dark times and you don’t explore the shadow…on the contrary, that’s very essential to HOW to be able to create magick…by knowing how to work the shadow and alchemical transmutation.

I can’t wait to experience my upcoming time with Laura and the magick that will take place! We’ve had some unbelievable adventures and I look forward to creating more!

Remembering, Honoring & Celebrating a Dear Soul – Cliff Durfee

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Cliff and I at the Self Realization Fellowship Hermitage and Meditation Gardens

It’s been a very challenging, intense, and volatile period for the collective. We’ve been experiencing the passing of many beautiful souls, both in human and animal bodies that are making their transition. Things are shifting in ways that have immense impact and hopefully create the impetus for immense change.

Like many of you, I have also experienced the passing of dear ones, and have been supporting others going through the same. As you may know, my sweet Russian Tortoise, Gaia, recently moved on into her cosmic self, and just Friday a very dear friend of mine moved into the peace and expanse of his soul.

It is he that I wish to honor and remember today, after just learning of his passing yesterday.

Some of you may know him as well, so if this is your first time learning of this, I hold you in love as you integrate the news.

The beautiful soul I speak of is Cliff Durfee.

You may remember my post about his wonderful book, Stories for the Inner Ear, which includes my thoughts on it, as well as a bio of Cliff for anyone interested in knowing more about the life he led and other books he’s authored.

As his bio shares, Cliff spent the last thirty years + “devoted to personal and spiritual growth, developing intuition, and supporting people in aliveness, love, and laughter.” And this truly is who he IS at heart – always giving, always open to deepening his experience, gratitude, and understanding of the mysteries of life.

He often told me of the stories from his past where he had opportunity to meet and engage with people like Shakti Gawain, before her books became popular (an author that was important along my journey), as well as Wayne Dyer, Louise Hay, and others. He had such a wealth of knowledge and richness of experience to share. And in recent years had become devoted to educating people on chemtrails, and shared with me his passions of projects he was wanting to create to support others.

If you haven’t read “Stories for the Inner Ear”, I highly recommend it for the reasons you’ll find at the link. Plus, it will really give you a glimpse of the heart and soul of Cliff.

There’s so much I could say about Cliff, but really want mostly to remember the beauty of who he is and always will be, as his soul lives on in every way and in every one of the people he touched with his immense heart.

Cliff and I became good friends online via Facebook maybe 6 years ago, and we then continued a friendship outside of that forum, on Skype messaging and calls, as well as emails. The world wide web certainly has made it possible to enjoy wonderful connections and bridge the space between physical distance, even if it does create other issues to be mindful of.

We always shared a special and mutually admiring friendship, but it wasn’t until a couple of years ago that we finally had the chance to meet in person, even though we lived about an hour to an hour and a half apart. Divine timing is always at work.

This would be the only time we connected in the physical, but it was so perfect and reflective of who we each are in essence and the beauty of our friendship. I’m so grateful for it.

On that day, I went down to visit him in Encinitas and we spent a lovely day together, as he showed me his world and we shared many a hug, smile, and laughter.

I got to see the wonderful place he called home and the trees, flowers, and plants outside his place that he often told me about that were dear to him and that he could see out his window from where he worked and talked to me (including stories on how he saved many of them and some trees he stopped the tree cutters from cutting down).

I had the chance to meet the lovely little parakeet that adopted him (Sweety Bird) and shared some tea, as he showed me some of his life treasures, including an angel I’d sent him, which he said was so dear to him.

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Cliff and I at Moonlight Beach

I also had the chance to visit some of his favorite spots including exploring the Self Realization Fellowship Hermitage and Meditation Gardens above the ocean, his favorite lunch spot – Lotus Cafe and Juice Bar – for a vegan lunch and shared dessert, and then a long walk and continued meaningful conversation on his favorite Moonlight Beach.

How grateful I was and am that I got to see all these reflections of him that he held so dear, as well as share stories and hear of the wonderful experiences he’d had in his life and the stories behind his lovely book.

And even though we physically met only once, our connection was one that extended well beyond, as a soul friendship running very deep and dear.

Cliff was to me such a pure soul that exuded love, gentleness, compassion, and innocence. While he was such a wise man, that was all embodied in an incredibly sweet child.

It is this place that he and I met so beautifully and the thing we both respected and admired in one another.

Cliff often wrote the sweetest messages and comments on my posts that truly touched me, and he daily extended his gratitude in deep ways for who I was. He told me I’d inspired him to be vegan, and often sent me vegan recipes he found, knowing how much I liked to make things. He always commented on my posts when I shared a vegan dish I’d made, saying how he wished to be my next door neighbor so we could share in the yummyness.

I wished we could have too. And yet now we are in a way. I’ll smile every time I make something in the kitchen, knowing he is right beside me enjoying the process and now able to be with me to enjoy them as he wanted.

He often made mention that that one day we shared as friends, meeting in a timeless sacred space, changed and infused him with a new outlook on life, by his being able to experience seeing life through my eyes that day.

And yet, it is I who felt most gratitude and honor FOR HIM, as it was the reflection of who he is that drew out the essence of who I am. I often told him in each of our exchanges, how dear he was, and how much I so appreciated him.

Never did either of us take for granted any conversation or connecting time, no matter how small or short it may seem.

He often called me his angel, and yet he is now mine living in the expansive freedom, joy, purity, and love that he is in my heart and in all of the hearts of those who hold him dear and the many he has, and will continue to touch with his soul, and through his beautiful work he gifts us.

Cliff is one of those very special souls that you are truly blessed in life to be graced with their presence. I did and always will adore him.

I did not have the chance to be with him in his last days, but I did have the opportunity to talk to him, which I’m so grateful for. My connection with him, kept me intuitively in tune, and when I felt something and hadn’t heard from him, it made me check in with him. That is how I found out about his sudden turn of events with his health, which was completely out of the blue.

We then were able to have a beautiful and positive conversation, which was to be the last, as he called me from the hospital, the day before being released to hospice at home. We shared some tears, and some laughs (he still had his lovely humor despite the prognosis), and he told me the peace he was in, and that he truly was okay with whatever was to be. He asked if I could send him some Reiki for the pain, which I continued to do each day, and we planned that when he was settled back home, I was going to go visit him, but this did not come to be.

Friday, something told me to check in with him. So I messaged him, but no answer. I felt something, yet it wasn’t until yesterday that I discovered it was the morning of that very day I checked in with him (8:15 am) that he passed.

cliffHowever, that conversation that we last shared was perfect and lingers with me. We were both able to say from our hearts (several times) the most important thing, which is how we left the conversation upon hanging up, “I love you so much”.

And that is the message I hope to leave with each of you, and which he impressed upon me so much, as I was reflecting yesterday about him at the beach.

To live each moment fully. To embrace what is most important in life and of lasting value. And to always say, share, and be all the things that you are, would always wish to say to or wish to hear from others, even if you aren’t receiving it, and to not waste a single moment.

I honor and celebrate you Cliff in the expansive freedom and grace of who you are now and always. I’m so grateful to have been touched by the love you so generously share. We are all so gifted by your presence.

Reflecting the love and joy that you are and celebrating you in every breath of life.

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