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How to be Ultra Spiritual with JP Sears


This is hilarious and yet goes along with my thoughts….. embody rather than emulate.

It also goes so beautifully with this post of mine, “Do You Wear a Spiritual Disguise? ~ Losing the Mask and Finding Your Truth

Thank you my dearest Laura SO much for the awesome belly laughs this morning in sharing this.

10 Spiritually Transmitted Diseases – A Little Humor to Explore Self-Awareness


I woke up with both this blog article and the one I refer to at the beginning: “Do You Wear a Spiritual Disguise? – Losing the Mask and Finding Your Truth” on my mind. Rather than repost each separately, I’m just reposting this one since it links to both. But I do hope you’ll take the time to explore each link, as I feel this collective energy heightened again (perhaps with all of the shifts and moving through a lot of old patterns and emotions going on) and I think using some humor, as well as a dose of some bitter sweet personal honesty can truly help us to embody those pure heightened vibrational levels.

I think we all at some point or another have been, or are, caught in some of these patterns and perhaps they are something we will always be practicing mindfulness of on our evolutionary journey. It is what it is and not something to beat yourself or other’s up about…just something we can choose to be aware of if in fact we’d like to change that.

The funny part always is, that it’s really easy NOT to see yourself in any of these scenarios when you’re caught up in them, as the “spiritual ego” is quite ingenious in talking circles around yourself with all of the acquired lingo learned to “rise above”.

But I do feel that it would benefit us not to get caught in “spiritual bypassing” – a term Robert Augustus Masters uses to describe the avoidance game. I also feel that grounding is key, as well as having personal integrity to “walk the walk” and not just float on “spiritual fluff” or regurgitated words we “think” we need to say.

These would help to integrate your experience and rather than feel you need to educate someone else, that they “need” your help, that you speak with superiority over the way others practice their own spirituality – taking advantage of every moment to ensure they know how you “think” it should be done and where you find fault in them, or that you make sure that they know all the knowledge you’ve attained in every conversation you have, it may benefit to practice the art of mindfulness and stillness, to sit with the thoughts that come up and explore where they come from before acting upon them.

A little unconditional spiritual compassion for ourselves and others, in honor of the many paths available for people to explore besides the one that you are, could all really make a difference in the vibrational frequency you wish to embody.

And if you don’t get a chance to read the link on “wearing a spiritual disguise” I’ll share this passage that I love from Masters:

“True spirituality is not a high, not a rush, not an altered state. It has been fine to romance it for a while, but our times call for something far more real, grounded, and responsible; something radically alive and naturally integral; something that shakes us to our very core until we stop treating spiritual deepening as something to dabble in here and there. Authentic spirituality is not some little flicker or buzz of knowingness, not a psychedelic blast-through or a mellow hanging-out on some exalted plane of consciousness, not a bubble of immunity, but a vast fire of liberation, an exquisitely fitting crucible and sanctuary, providing both heat and light for the healing and awakening we need. Most of the time when we’re immersed in spiritual bypassing, we like the light but not the heat. And when we’re caught up in the grosser forms of spiritual bypassing, we’d usually much rather theorize about the frontiers of consciousness than actually go there, suppressing the fire rather than breathing it even more alive, espousing the ideal of unconditional love but not permitting love to show up in its more challenging, personal dimensions. To do so would be too hot, too scary, and too out-of-control, bringing things to the surface that we have long disowned or suppressed. But if we really want the light, we cannot afford to flee the heat. As Victor Frankl said, “What gives light must endure burning.” And being with the fire’s heat doesn’t just mean sitting with the difficult stuff in meditation, but also going into it, trekking to its core, facing and entering and getting intimate with whatever is there, however scary or traumatic or sad or raw.”

Tania Marie

HigherConsciousnessJoke http://spiritualscientific.com/humor

You might recall my post “Do You Wear a Spiritual Disguise? – Losing the Mask and Finding Your Truth” which touched on not just how we “walk the walk” in our truth with others, but how honest we are with ourselves. It also shared a humorous take from Aalif Surti on the different masks many of us wear.

I find humor to be a great way to playfully take our power back with the realizations that are brought to light.

In the vein of this humorous approach, I found this article, shared with me, written by Mariana Caplan, Ph.D. on “10 Spiritually Transmitted Diseases” to also be playfully enlightening, while having the potential to hit to the core if embraced with that personal honesty and integrity. What do you think?

This article had some interesting insights to ask ourselves.

As Mariana starts off with:

“The following…

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Some of My Greatest Life Challenges I Overcame


tania marieSince the collective field of experience is currently one of intense transition, which may include both challenges and liberating experiences from moving through those challenges, I felt I would reshare about some of my greatest challenges in life.

If you missed Annabel Ruffell’s interview with me: Written Interview with Tania Marie you may not have read my answer to her question, “What has been one of your greatest challenges over the years, either with the work that you do or in another area of your life, and how did you overcome it?”

When I looked back through my life to answer this question, I saw the many really rough paths I went down and all the colored and intense choices I made. So I likely could have shared a long list of challenges along with an entertaining tell-all, lol, but I felt to focus on the ones that enveloped a large umbrella of experiences for me and that had big impact on my life, then and now.

So today, as I was tuning in, it came to me to elaborate a bit on my answer I gave for the interview (including the answer itself and some additional insights) since I had to keep things condensed for that piece.

I feel that people often don’t think that others go through challenges, who seem to have things together now. I know that people can’t believe it when I share in workshops some of what I’ve been through in my life and some of the experiences I have under my belt.

We all go through our own personal “stuff”, but ultimately it’s only in how that individually translates into personal experience that is different, as the underlying challenges are shared by many. And if it wasn’t a challenge in this life for you, it may have been in a previous. 😉

So it is very untrue to think that you are all alone in experiencing challenges, as the reason things get to a more balanced place for some people is due to having embraced the full journey of the challenges and learning a process of how to shift that into a new and more freeing experience. And as they do this, this ability becomes available more readily to others since we are all connected.

This journey of learning new processes and consistently and constantly keeping check on yourself to work with the energies, delve deeper when needed, and utilize what you’ve learned about yourself to rebalance when you get “off”, is a continual life experience. It just gets easier and more fun because you learn the magickal little tricks to transmute things.

Anyway, I’d like to share a little more of my answer to the questions about these three particular challenges in my life to reiterate how we all go through this and no matter where I might stand now, I can tell you from the depths of my heart, I didn’t know if I’d physically, let alone mentally or emotionally, make it to this point. But, having gone through the darkest hours, I know anything is possible and although I laugh now at things, it was far from laughable then.

Since this isn’t a book, I won’t go into details on everything or how these challenges, or others, translated into specific experiences, but I just wanted to bring this realization of the ability we have to move through the intense times in our lives by resharing this.

Yes, no matter how “bad”, “heavy”, or “thick” your experience feels, you DO have the ability to move through it and experience greater freedom and lightness. Shifting your perspective on the challenge can do you a world of support, as I promise you the alchemy lies within your recognition of the gift within each and every experience you come to judge. There is a latent beauty awaiting your acknowledgment.

The challenges are what make the journey so enriching and the present so dear and deserving of gratitude.

So here is my expanded answer to the question, “What has been one of your greatest challenges over the years, either with the work that you do or in another area of your life, and how did you overcome it?”

It is challenging to pick just one, as a few come to mind – vulnerability, creating boundaries, and voicing my truth (fear of speaking). And yet they are all tied together I feel.

The boundless nature that created overburdened and confusing experiences made it tough to hear the voice within, let alone to express it openly to others, or even be able to say an empowered “yes” or “no”, as personal discernment was clouded.

The learned fear of appearing weak and affected by things emotionally (which was confused also by over-stimulation I hid from in order to survive the incredibly taxing emotional drain) created a need for a mask and worry about someone discovering my truth.

The fear of speaking resulted in a learned behavior from things around me (as well as was soul “history” connected) that made me think/believe that when someone voiced truth they were punished, denied, quieted, dismissed, or ridiculed. Hence, the fears I carried for a long time.

I remember being free of all of these when I was a very young child. I had no qualms about expressing myself in front of others in any creatively expressive way. Be it singing, dancing, performing, sharing about something I loved, make-believe…I was also very in touch with my feelings and bringing that through me expressively. I didn’t need a sense of boundaries, as I was simply being me naturally as Source expression.

I’ve always believed that when we choose to embody into a human vehicle of expression, the denser experience of this reality both offers us the gifts we chose to come in to be able to experience, as well as the perfect challenges that will provide the evolutionary journey of free will to unravel. The development of fears, suppression of truth and creative self-expression, denial of free will, and illusionary veils, all cloud those seeded impulses. I remember as a very young child, between birth and 5 years of age, embodying the expression of my soul clearly – I believe we all in some way demonstrate this from onset.

The elements that I now embrace and channel as my joy and service in one, weave the very same essences I had demonstrated then.

However, as creative beings we are unlimited in the ways we can choose to bring forth these expressions and, in effect, unlimited in how we will travel the journey in order to do so. And what I find is that the more we open to ourselves and dig deep into the well of shadows and fears, the more our creativity and heart expand, as well as our latent gifts become integrated and actualized.

Yet, this all rapidly, almost overnight, shifted after the age of 5. I remember hiding my emotions and creating a tough outer shell, but then cowering in a dark corner on my own, or in the shower to cry. I felt the need to appear strong and somehow correlated feeling-expression, especially crying, with being weak. So, I never showed it.

The irony was that in fact I felt SO VERY deeply, and these feelings that I would not express outwardly, wreaked havoc inwardly causing not only physical issues, but outer triggers. Hence, they were reflected in every relationship I experienced where I could have these suppressed feelings triggered into conscious awareness. And they were worked out in very heavy and tormenting dream time as well.

Much, much later I came to see how that suppression of emotional expression had been cultivated in me, accepted into my experience by seeing examples around me, as well as became the only way I knew how to protect the very vulnerable beauty that would ultimately liberate me later. Yet, in the meantime I grew out of my natural expression and built a tough outer skin to my heart.

I also became very confused as to what was me and what wasn’t, as being a Pisces we don’t know boundaries. This hadn’t been a problem when a child because my natural essence was speaking clearly. However, life throws us a lot of loud noises that soon may start to overshadow our truth if we don’t have the support to keep cultivating authenticity, don’t have examples of it around us, and simply don’t understand enough yet. And being intuitively sensitive, it was as if I was an emotional and psychic sponge, not only accumulating everyone else’s feelings (both expressed and unexpressed), but their thoughts and beliefs as well. I literally had no idea anymore of who “I” was and what were “my” thoughts.

You can imagine how overbearing this might one day become and indeed it did – to the point of causing a tormented war inside of my head of voices and confusion that likely would have seen me in a psychiatric ward or on prescription drugs, if I hadn’t had the ability to creatively manage it and the willingness to accept every part of experiencing it in full so that I could come to understand myself and my uniqueness.

I faced feeling EVERYTHING without the mask of alcohol, drugs, or any mind-altering substances. I just knew the way through it for me, was to FEEL it ALL and come to realize the natural process of how to move the energy on my own. And this remains my process and my personal choices to not utilize anything to take me outside of myself.

And I went through this for years, which seemed never-ending. The processes available now are much quicker and efficient because of the willingness, determination, and commitment I rekindled each time I came to my point of complete destruction and surrender.

We all have the potential and ability now to move through things in accelerated fashion, to mirror accelerated times, and to reflect the work a collective has invested in commitment to this process.

I remember friends in high school who said to me, “I wish I could be you for just one day”. And those words struck a deep chord in me bringing my reply to them, “Don’t ever wish to walk in someone else’s shoes, as you have no idea what they are really experiencing”.

And I believe that this, along with my own desire to be more natural and authentic, has driven me to live consistently and transparently from the inside out, without the masks and without illusions. “Walking the walk” is so important to me and to truly be “living” the reality of my experience to the best of my ability in each moment and in all ways.

In the meantime, back to the challenges I faced, I also learned a fear of speaking my truth or sharing that openly with others, as well as feared making a mistake in front of others, feeling what I said had to be some idea of “perfect,” what ever that meant.

And the greatest feat of all was that I was able to hide it (and everything really) from everyone.

I used to try to hide the fullness of my unique expression and the magickal side of me, although in some ways it just seeped out nonetheless. But now, I am no longer afraid of the light and power within, nor to express my truth of how that channels through me. But I also take great care in exercising responsibility and discernment.

So, regardless of being petrified to the core of giving a speech, being called upon in class, standing out, or even talking in front of a small group of people I knew, you wouldn’t have known it because I learned how to perform in the moment of need, or to create my way out of things, since I did still have those latent abilities.

It was not an easy task, as it took everything in me to do so, but it also took a lot to undo these.

Yet it wasn’t natural, and natural is what I strive for.

I have always had a very committed soul sense of knowing I had something here I was to do, even if I didn’t connect yet with what that was. And although I meandered along my path in varying directions, it was this inner knowing and commitment in me, that was ready to go to all lengths to integrate the why’s of my tormented experience.

The process to move the energy of these challenges was a conscious commitment, from early on (in high school), to a personal growth mission focused on becoming more natural. This involved a lot of courage and tears, very painful challenges, a willingness to keep experiencing the results of choices out loud to those around me that could judge and did, a lot of personal work and willingness to stand on my own, raw honesty and deep introspection, integrating reflections, and constant belief and trust in what I knew was possible. 

The vulnerability came much more easily, as the more I opened to a deeper sense of life and spirituality, the more my experience of life became the type of beauty that could not be contained because the purity of the natural pierced and burned through the veils.

The boundaries took a bit longer because of the personal discernment and empowerment needed to listen through the “noise” for my voice AND due to the teachings, one discovers on a spiritual journey, that Oneness is the focus.  So, I remembered that this is simply something to reawaken and integrate into conscious daily actions, but without losing my unique individuation. I believe we came here to experience through the personal expressions of creative energy that are unique to us each. Otherwise, we would not need different human bodies. So to honor that unique human temple that we each are and understand ourselves within the framework of Oneness, so that we can fully learn and experience the particular expression and mission we each chose this time around, is important.

As for the fear of speaking, I came to believe that our greatest fear is simultaneously our greatest gift when integrated. So being that I teach, one would not think this to have been a fear, or that I don’t constantly challenge myself to even bigger things within this realm. Yet, it was.

The way through it, was to “go through it”, allowing the vulnerability to work itself out through action. No amount of “to yourself” time engaged in personal work will really prepare you in the way that actually doing something will, although provides the basis for integration. I spent years on personal work, but it was in the actual “doing” that I made the huge leaps in shifting my challenges.

And taking it in small steps is perfectly fine, not to mention, will move the energy. I find that the hardest part of change is the first step. The rest after that becomes easier.

So, on my own terms, in the step that felt acceptable yet still challenging enough, was how I began. And what I discovered is that when I just said yes, without the need to know how, the way was experienced. I was shown the importance of self acceptance and the value of what I had to impart as a unique being, without judgment or comparison. This would speak for itself in allowing remembrance to be my guide.

The Universe supported me by also making sure I would do it without my programmed, old ways I used to do things when I had the fear and was forced to speak. Rather than allow me time to prepare, memorize, force-feed achievement-needs and performance expectations, I was meant to trust in the simplicity of acceptance of self and the value of what I had to impart as a unique being. Trust in knowing I had what I needed, I’d be guided in the moment, and since I’m speaking about the things I love, align with my truth, and have spent my life devoted to and believe in, the passion of that truth will speak for itself.

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Me teaching Reiki with my crystal friend in hand as I speak

I only ask before each time I speak, that I have the perfect words in the moment. Then I breathe and relax into the presence of the moment with all of my senses, and allow what wants to come forth to move through me – focusing only on the moment and not worrying about what comes next. By narrowing my experience to the fullness of the now, rather than expanding outward and forward to try and foresee or control something coming, I am able to relax into full and peaceful presence.

I also am known to speak while holding a specially chosen crystal friend in my hand, which is my creative way to energetically support me to authentically access what is needed with clarity of heart and mind connection.

The rest is the beautiful process of the journey and continually I get to learn in each moment how to take things to the next level, by embracing the next challenge.

I have found that the commitment to being in the role of someone who imparts personal authenticity of experience and perspective to others, is a commitment to vulnerably speaking my processes out loud, realizing the individual expression that I am, and embracing being okay with learning in the moment, in front of others – vulnerability, creating boundaries, and voicing personal truth.

This has been the most enriching way to move the energy of the fear through me by coming to learn who I am more naturally, without all of the “noise”, and to support greater flow of that expression to freely move through.

You can read the full interview, along with my answers about the journey that I am on, how creativity enhances your life, how to transform limiting beliefs and fears, and my visions for humanity and the Earth here:

Written Interview with Tania Marie Reiki Master Teacher, Visionary Artist, Author, Sacred Tattoo Designer by Annabel Ruffell

10 Spiritually Transmitted Diseases – A Little Humor to Explore Self-Awareness


You might recall my post “Do You Wear a Spiritual Disguise? – Losing the Mask and Finding Your Truth” which touched on not just how we “walk the walk” in our truth with others, but how honest we are with ourselves. It also shared a humorous take from Aalif Surti on the different masks many of us wear.

I find humor to be a great way to playfully take our power back with the realizations that are brought to light.

In the vein of this humorous approach, I found this article, shared with me, written by Mariana Caplan, Ph.D. on “10 Spiritually Transmitted Diseases” to also be playfully enlightening, while having the potential to hit to the core if embraced with that personal honesty and integrity. What do you think?

This article had some interesting insights to ask ourselves.

As Mariana starts off with:

“The following 10 categorizations are not intended to be definitive but are offered as a tool for becoming aware of some of the most common spiritually transmitted diseases.”

These are just some of the “spiritually transmitted diseases” that are encountered on the path of spiritual evolution. We gain spiritual maturity through the uncovering of deeper layers for integration and gracefully embracing refinement of the knowledge we gain through growth.

The 10 Spiritually Transmitted Diseases include:

Fast-Food Spirituality, Faux Spirituality, Confused Motivations, Identifying with Spiritual Experiences, The Spiritualized Ego, Mass Production of Spiritual Teachers, Spiritual Pride, Group Mind, The Chosen-People Complex, and The Deadly Virus: I Have Arrived

You can read the article in its entirety here:

10 Spiritually Transmitted Diseases

 

Raw Honesty May Deepen the Bliss Into Actualization and Full Embodiment


shaman-heart-lemurianI’ve consistently been receiving information that something is missing from a lot of what I’m experiencing from others out there. This is a constant message that comes through and is what I have been discussing with close colleague, and touching upon in conversations and classes. I’ve also been sharing snippets in my posts and likely will continue to expand and reiterate this topic, as it feels so important to me to share.

The theme is around really living the ideas, not just talking about it, being able to throw out intellectually grand metaphysical explanations and “key” words, or inadvertently pretending to live it.

What I share may not be mainstream thought in the spiritual realm, but I have to share what I am feeling and experiencing. And given that I have my own 25 + years of experience in this realm, I do recognize the traps and the processes, since I have gone through them myself.

shaman-heart-lemurian3So, what I’ve been observing, feeling, and hearing from people is a lot of all the “so-called right words”, (and this comes from some of both spiritual leaders and the New Age community) but on an authentic energetic level, which is where my heart immediately pierces through to, I can feel there is simply something missing. The consistency and depth is lost in translation and staying stuck on the surface. People are looking like and talking the information, and even have moments of bliss, but it’s a bliss that seems to be more induced or trance-like, rather than in full conscious and deepened embodiment.

The mental faculties of concepts are all there and the fast forwarding to a Unity consciousness too, but the core foundation and deepening of this into integrated fullness is lacking. Therefore, this is also why many New Agers are unable to fully manifest and instead spend a lot of time in the bliss states and in the upper chakras solely.

There is no right or wrong in any of this, yet when I hear people coming to me with the same challenges, don’t embrace the answers they asked for, talk in metaphysical circles they aren’t aware they are doing, are having unyielding struggles, are unsatisfied when parts of their life are not in full operation to their liking despite them saying they’ve done what they have learned to do through their studies, reading, and workshops, are having things seemingly hit them out of nowhere that they thought they had already processed and healed, or find themselves leading two different lives where they experience a tug-o-war inside themselves between the part that knows and the part that can’t integrate it, then that is pointing to an opportunity in your evolution to another part of your experience to look at and embrace.

shaman-heart-lemurian4We each have our own experience so, again, there isn’t any wrong or right, nor anything in particular to attain to, unless you specifically have a desire and intention you are trying to create and find yourself unhappy or unfulfilled. Life is experience for experience sake – all of the so-called icky and nice – it’s all perfect. And, what works for one is not the same for others, and I do believe we are moving into a time where things are much easier and can happen quickly. It all depends on you.

But if you, yourself, behind closed doors, or when you approach a friend or help you’ve sought out, are not happy and intending for something more, then maybe there is something being overlooked.

And that being said, I get the sense of some new structures being built upon old and weak foundations and feeling many are “faking” it through and not even realizing it, which is taking up much more energy than simply coming back down to Earth and into the body and emotions to really move the energy through in its entirety – not just stopping at the mental level. It also is about coming into the truth and not hiding from yourself anymore, nor placing blame elsewhere.

There is an energetic, nonverbal portion of experience that sends out its own frequency and it may be very different than the frequency some “think” they are emanating from the place of bliss they have learned to maintain and feed. Sensitives will pick up on this immediately and feel that there’s something not consistent in the delivery and what they sense from you.

This has to do with how many use spirituality to avoid things like the shadow aspects, fears, and pains – called “spiritual bypassing”, how it is possible to lose yourself behind “spiritual fluff” or to over-dose on positivity without integrative grounding as a means of avoiding and repressing your inner truth and, ultimately, your inclusive Divinity being revealed, and how you may be convincing yourself you are beyond something and yet perhaps all you have done was run the other way or are just regurgitating what you “think” you should say or do spiritually, but without having fulling embodied the essence of what that truly means.

shaman-heart-lemurian5So yes, what comes hand-in-hand with this theme is not just about speaking truth to others, but in being completely honest with ourselves – and this can be done with humor and gentleness, so as to make the process one of fun rather than punishment.

If you keep having a recurring challenge come up, couldn’t it just be possible you are missing the mark that is something you don’t want to look at and address? Could it be that at this point in the game, there isn’t anything or anyone anymore to blame, and really it is that you’ve shifted that energy onto yourself and attacking yourself, but out of avoidance of responsibility are unable to acknowledge this, as this would mean your life would shift?

That can be very scary for some people to know they now have to live up to the highest potential and wholeness that they are innately. So many fears surround this, even ones we don’t want to admit, as how could you possibly be afraid to step into your fullness?

The fact is, nearly everyone is, or has been at some point in their life. But once they do step into it, they realize how silly it was to have ever lived anything but from that truth and wholeness. We fear that which we can’t see, or what it means in terms of the changes that would need to be made that alter the lives we have become accustomed to accepting, even if uncomfortable. It’s easier to do known maintenance, than to explore a whole new world of adventure where each moment is unknown.

So it is easier to project onto things and people than to actually say, “Yes, I’m the one keeping me from me.” If you’ve done everything and you know it all already, then what else might it be?

Again, there is no fault in this. It’s just truth shining its unconditional love on you saying, “Come into the light fully. You are Divine. You are loved and always will be. You’ve done nothing wrong, but it’s now time to live in the light of you.”

We have to be willing to let our ego and stubbornness step aside, to truly have courage to “see” and embrace what we ingeniously are hiding from. It isn’t enough to say, “Yes, I know that”. If we truly did, then there wouldn’t be an issue, would there? There is a slight, sometimes so subtle perception, acceptance, release, altering, that can make the difference. And indeed that can sometimes be to say, “I don’t have all the answers” and “I’m the one self-sabotaging myself”.

This is a subject I feel very passionately about from that Universal place of seeing everyone in their wholeness. I honor where everyone is in their own chosen evolutionary experience and I honor the truth you feel in your heart. But I also honor the parts you may not see and that you’ve shared are not fulfilled, and it is from this place that I share this so that one day it might open an inner dialogue within that begins a new journey of exploration for you.

This post is one, as I shared, that is based on an important theme message that keeps channeling through to me, but was inspired by a crystal friend whose energy speaks to the heart of this and the process.

Yesterday, I was sharing a crystal with a friend that was interested in any new crystals I may have available. I hadn’t yet put it in my shop, until this morning. Because of the inner promptings and the fact this crystal’s energy was brought into my awareness yesterday, I felt this was another nudge to write on this topic. The crystal that I’m sharing is a supportive tool to all of this and more.

shaman-heart-lemurian6It is called a Shaman Heart Lemurian and it is an amazing being that I adore and honor, but definitely only for a soul ready to really embark on a powerful journey without fear and to honestly face the necessary steps to bring everything you “know” into actualization. This is a time for no longer just talking about something. It’s about walking the walk. This crystal being will help access that transmutation if you are willing to really put your fears behind you.

Shaman Heart Lemurian Properties:

These unassuming looking Lemurians call to those who are ready to take the next step in the process of integrating higher consciousness on Earth by grounding it for expression in our lives and bodies. Shaman Heart Lemurian Seeds from Brazil activate the connection between spiritual consciousness and the powerhouse of light energy within the human heart.

The Smokey Quartz reflected in the base, as well as the iron and lithium on their surface, help these stones to bring higher frequencies down into the heart, then express them through the lower chakras into our physical reality. They also allow access to the higher frequencies more typical of Lemurian Seed crystals. Instead of simply sending you “out there,” however, they assist in the integration of higher frequencies on a physical level and are therefore very useful for those who wish to express these higher frequencies through their everyday activities and, especially, for those in the process of changing their life structures to reflect a higher awareness of their path.

The Shaman Heart Lemurian is one way we can support the process of integration and deepen that into “embodying” the higher frequencies you have come to love, in a way that encapsulates the full picture and will support you into “living” the concepts and manifesting your desires.

If you are interested in this piece and the courageous journey of integration it can support you with, you can find it in my Etsy Shop, Crystal Illumination, here:

Shaman Heart Lemurian

This crystal is one of many ways we can support the process of integrating all parts of ourselves in alignment and consistency – to really “be” that which we speak of enduringly, and not just momentarily.

If this post speaks to you, wonderful. And if not, that’s perfect too. But do pay attention to the subtle feelings you feel when you read it, as if you find something triggering you, listen to the words you say when that happens, and the feelings you feel when it does, and then do with it as you may.

Always honoring you in your wholeness only. ❤

Do You Wear a Spiritual Disguise? – Losing the Mask & Finding Your Truth


Truth allows you to live with integrity. Everything you do and say shows the world who you really are. Let it be the Truth. ~Oprah Winfrey

The Truth needs no rehearsal. ~ Barbara Kingsolver

It can be easy at times to think of ourselves as two entirely different individuals – our old and our new self. This becomes easier to do, the more we journey along our spiritual path. This “new” self feels to us to be much more enlightened, and in many cases it is, however, sometimes even the spiritually evolved version of ourselves can still be wearing a mask that it hides behind – a spiritual disguise.

Energetic themes seem to flow in cycles and the last couple of weeks have made poignant a recurring one that feels of importance to share on. I have been picking up on the themes of integrity, authenticity, truth, and how that interrelates with the purity, innocence, and playfulness of our inner child – all leading back to that “return to natural harmony within and without” and “walking the walk.”

These aren’t just themes of importance for people who are just beginning to become more aware and conscious of things, or even for people who are operating with a majority of unconsciousness, but also for all of us who are already on a path of conscious evolution for quite some time. This feels to be coming through in order to support us in how we can take things to another experience of depth that will have profound effects.

What comes hand-in-hand with this theme is not just about speaking truth to others, but in being completely honest with ourselves – and this can be done with humor and gentleness, so as to make the process one of fun rather than punishment.

I juggled with how I wanted to share on these topics, finding there was a lot wanting to come through about them, but in the end had been guided, rather, to share a couple of specific, brief writings from others I was led to that I felt would provide not only insightful perspective, but in one case, some humor – something I feel to be of extra importance these days in approaching ourselves and our experiences.

The topics within these themes that I keep feeling strongly abound are:

  • Using spirituality to avoid things like our shadow aspects, fears, and pains – something author and psychotherapist Robert Augustus Masters calls “spiritual bypassing”
  • How we lose ourselves behind “spiritual fluff” or are over-dosing on positivity without integrative grounding, as a means of avoiding and repressing our inner truth and, ultimately, our inclusive Divinity being revealed
  • How we convince ourselves we are beyond something and yet perhaps all we have done was run the other way or are just regurgitating what we “think” we should say or do spiritually, but without having fulling embodied the essence of what that truly means

I really resonate with what Masters shares in this particular excerpt from his book, Spiritual Bypassing: When Spirituality Disconnects Us from What Really Matters:

“True spirituality is not a high, not a rush, not an altered state. It has been fine to romance it for a while, but our times call for something far more real, grounded, and responsible; something radically alive and naturally integral; something that shakes us to our very core until we stop treating spiritual deepening as something to dabble in here and there. Authentic spirituality is not some little flicker or buzz of knowingness, not a psychedelic blast-through or a mellow hanging-out on some exalted plane of consciousness, not a bubble of immunity, but a vast fire of liberation, an exquisitely fitting crucible and sanctuary, providing both heat and light for the healing and awakening we need. Most of the time when we’re immersed in spiritual bypassing, we like the light but not the heat. And when we’re caught up in the grosser forms of spiritual bypassing, we’d usually much rather theorize about the frontiers of consciousness than actually go there, suppressing the fire rather than breathing it even more alive, espousing the ideal of unconditional love but not permitting love to show up in its more challenging, personal dimensions. To do so would be too hot, too scary, and too out-of-control, bringing things to the surface that we have long disowned or suppressed. But if we really want the light, we cannot afford to flee the heat. As Victor Frankl said, “What gives light must endure burning.” And being with the fire’s heat doesn’t just mean sitting with the difficult stuff in meditation, but also going into it, trekking to its core, facing and entering and getting intimate with whatever is there, however scary or traumatic or sad or raw.”

I then came across a post by the light-hearted and humanistic Aalif Surti who shares, as he puts it, “a colorful mandala of spirituality, creativity and humor” through his blog. In his post, The Buddha Mask (And Other Spiritual Facades), he explores masks we wear as protection, elimination, and escapism, but as he says, “And while masks appear to prevent Life from hurting us, sadly they also prevent us from truly experiencing Life – except through narrow eyeholes.”

I hope you enjoy his humorous take on how even therapists, healers, and seekers put on a spiritual display and a way we can playfully take our power back in the realization of this.

Here is Aalif Surti’s post, which you can see also at the link above:

As seekers, we may believe we have become aware now and dropped our false personas, but sometimes we have only traded it in for a new mask – a spiritual persona. In a hilarious group session a few months ago, my mentor GD helped us dissect and laugh at the masks we may wear as seekers, healers and therapists. Here’s my light-hearted summation of the key spiritual ‘displays’:

The Buddha Mask: You’ve seen the statue, now meet the person. Unaffected by others, far removed from worldly emotions, this mask says: You can’t touch me… I am beyond it all. Behind it hides sensitivity, fear and confusion. During my early Vipassana days, some people called me ‘aloof’ instead of ‘aalif’!

The Positivity Mask: Those who practice affirmations and positive thinking sometimes feel compelled to uphold an abnormally high frequency of ecstasy. Ask them how they are, and an automated voice reply comes: “AMAZING! Life is full of miracles!!” But when it is a mask, their eyes, their energy, and their aura tell a different story.

The ‘Superior-Seeker’ Mask: They enter a room, and the whole room suddenly feels unworthy. They carry a subtle air of superiority. They are on the high road to heaven and they smile beatifically upon all the creepy crawlies with an air of cultivated compassion. Proving superiority all the time is a dead giveaway for a sense of inferiority inside.

The Messiah Mask: They are out to change the world – one flailing, resisting human at a time. These are the givers of support and nurturance and advice… whether anyone asks for it or not! But give they must, because they need to avoid the confusion and emptiness within. A beautiful, socially approved mask and hence more difficult to let go of…

The Pundit Mask: References obscure texts and uses big Sanskrit words. Will disrupt a conversation to quote a 16th century Indian mystic or a little-known modern non-dual teacher. It’s a mask when they talk the talk, but don’t walk the walk.

The Lost-in-Space Mask: They find a way to bring Pleiadians, Archangels and Entities into every normal conversation. They would interrupt you to whisper conspiratorially that there’s a 6th dimensional entity behind you right now! They take name-dropping to a whole new dimension.

While the masks may be twisted and rigid, the people underneath these masks are not foolish or nasty. They are you and me, GD said, innocently trying to cover up a wound of not-being-enough by putting on a show. Masks are a way of saying ‘I am special’ but ironically, each mask ends up proving the opposite: each mask reveals a lack of self-love and self-acceptance-as-I-am.

All of us play a variety of roles in life. When we are conscious of the role playing, there is no problem. Masks are problematic because they are compulsive and unconscious, and the behavior comes from ego not insight.

And whenever the ego creates a mask, it has to suppress the opposite in oneself – a compulsive giver finds it hard to ask for help; the intellectual ceases to listen and ask questions; Buddha-face cannot show vulnerability or intimacy when needed.

When someone asked GD at the end of the workshop how she could prevent the mask from coming back on later, GD replied, “Make a joke of it, phone us all up and say: ‘Hey look, my mask is back!’ The moment you become aware, it loses its power. And once you make it a joke, it disappears.”

And in the absence of masks, he reminded us, we can become like the beautiful little children we all are inside – who can be all of the above when required – and their exact opposite when required – without holding onto any particular face.

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