Once upon a time there was a rabbit named Nestor.
She was made of stardust and reminded me I was too.
Life became magickal and my heart opened wide.
I’ve never been the same since…..
(Painting “Nestor” by me, Tania Marie)
As I glance at the clock to begin this post my eye catches the time to read 2:26 pm. There is no randomness about that in my book, being that much of this post is centered around the theme of rebirthing, since 2/26 IS my birthday, and I’ve been seeing these numbers show up again. It’s also no coincidence my last post was titled Updates & Integrations Anchoring and my post of 6 days ago – Earthing, Faery Portals, Dream Visioning & Pisces Full Moon – spoke of the energy around the Pisces Full Moon – all of this making sense as you read on. I mentioned in that blog how Pisces rules the feet saying “dance like crazy and move energy through your feet, which will not only shake out everything from the core and move things fast, but will anchor and ground you as you connect those feet to Mother Earth – Terra. She will in turn help transmute the energy and send it back with a recharge!” I specifically also mentioned how I, myself, had just danced the hardest I have since in my twenties and then was recalibrating my sore feet for 2 days after because of it. I also mentioned having seen 5 snakes, seeing/experiencing Faery portals and new doorways of possibilities, and how pulling within sometimes is necessary.
Voila! In comes yesterday’s adventure on 9/10, leaving me to start my first day of healing recalibration on 9/11, today, which auspiciously is also the day my blog is about to hit 1,000,000 visitors – collective energy feeling entwined in this all for sure, as Pisces naturally would be.
I’ll try to keep the story simple and to the point, so I’m going to bypass a lot of the details to allow a lot of the pulling together of meanings for you to draw upon and piece together.
To make a long story shorter 😉 yesterday we went with a group of our dear friends here on an epic 13 mile hike to Star Lake. On the drive there I pointed out a perfectly formed dragon sculpture to Dave, naturally formed from a dead tree stump on the side of the road in Christmas Valley (having street names like Elf, Blitzen, and Portal to name a few) looking up toward the sky with wings behind it. That felt significant.
We found our trailhead, which took us along the Tahoe Rim Trail (where the still lingering Pisces Full Moon showed up across a vista seen in the photo above) and was gorgeous every step of the way. Part of the adventure involved traversing through quartz crystal-infused areas and immersing in their energy, which being Master Crystals was potent to say the least.
I’d been told I’d find a special crystal or two for an upcoming creation-to-be in the new unfolding, which did in fact take place, although in a different way (for now) than envisioned.
Two giant ones spoke to me and I managed to carry them in my packs to Star Lake where we enjoyed a picnic lunch. Rainbow light, Faery portals, and magick lit the journey across creeks, enchanted forests, amazing stone people outcroppings, and incredible vistas with hidden snow patches here and there, as I carried these potent beings with me. It was my first time to this lake.
On our descent, things took a turn, as I literally found my right foot swivel under me on a rock and heard a crack. Down I came and about 30 seconds later my body went into the shock syndrome when trauma has occurred in the body.
I have only experienced this with fractured bones, major contusions, my unbearable tailbone pains, or when empathing someone else’s injury. Although not foreign to me, it doesn’t make it any more fun. 🙂 Shock is a response the body has to trauma or intense pain where it shuts the body’s systems down to deal with it and can result in things such as weakness, cold sweat, irregular breathing, chills, turning white, nausea, etc.
For me it’s usually weakness, turning white, nausea, and close-to-fainting that I experience.
I knew to just sit down, close my eyes, focus on breathing slowly, energetically balancing myself, and having some water. And that was what I did with the assistance of the best team of friends one could ask for to be there with me through it. It subsided after about 10-15 minutes and after that I was back to my Faery self, but with what I intuitively knew to be a bone fracture – later confirmed.
What happened from there on was an adventure itself and truly for me was not phasing me or wavering my spirits in any way, once I balanced back out, about what happened to me, but just had me on high consciousness about what was evolving all around me, the meanings, and how this may have affected the others in ways that could be worse than anything I was experiencing.
That’s an empath for you, feeling the amazing group of compassionate empaths I had with me.
I already knew how incredible these souls all are, but when you go through challenges like we did together you really come to know the depths of the bonds shared and get to see the best and worst of people. In this case I saw nothing but the best and after just a couple of days before having been locked in an escape room together with them called Trapped in Tahoe – it solidified how well we worked together under pressure and never a negative vibe coming forth.
Sometimes experiences work in mysterious ways for valuable reasons and although you’d want to label them “negative” or “bad”, in fact have nothing but silver linings and beautiful purposes in a bigger picture way.
Dave called 911 and immediately a Search and Rescue team was dispatched to meet us, but we were in a hard to reach area, so to make it easier we had the goal of getting to the High Meadows area where vehicles could reach us. And that’s just what our team did with Dave and our friend, Happy, taking turns piggy-back riding me down the 2+ miles to get there, giggling and keeping everyone smiling the whole way with jokes and lightness.
Our timing couldn’t have been perfect, as as soon as we arrived, the SAR team was just pulling up and getting ready to start hiking up to us. Not far behind them was the rest of the emergency and sheriff team.
I had to laugh as we approached, when the first guy said something about wanting to know if there was a woman along the way that they were there to pick up. I was wearing a “Love” hat and on Happy’s back, so apparently I looked like a little girl and so they had no clue it was me.
I said, “that’s me!” He was like, “oh!” And we went on to meet the woman (that so happened to be vegan we learned immediately) who was at the truck and equally seemed surprised when Happy asked if he could put me on the bed of the truck. She was like, “Oh, yes!” again not realizing I was the one in need. LOL!
Literally right after I was sat down on the edge of the back of the truck, my friend Bean (who’d been wearing a hoodie that said 1973 – my birth year on it) points behind me where I discover a hawk flying toward us and then above so I can see its feathers and coloring. I knew I was being watched out for, as Hawks are always my guardians, sentinels, and sky messengers to communicate between Earth and Cosmos. I got chills.
I felt a little weird, to say the least, the whole time creating so much attention and more so when several vehicles and a big team shows up for little ol’ me like something out of a movie with wilderness survivors being rescued. This was no big deal in my opinion, but apparently people DO really care and when someone’s in any kind of need, “LOVE” (as my rainbow hat said) has the ability to shine through.
It’s not my usual to be the center of attention since I stay more quiet normally, but I knew there was purpose for that as well and to relax into the beauty of group dynamics and team work unfolding before my eyes, which made me think of all of the mirroring things taking place everywhere with the fires and hurricanes, and major world events.
These times call for unification, compassion, and finding the common threads of humanity and love to come together for a higher good.
I was grateful and I embraced the love pouring out here, and across the globe, despite the contrast of dynamics at work, and yet because of it.
After vitals and taking in info I was carried into the Sheriff’s truck and the rest of the gang hopped in the other trucks and we were whisked down the remaining miles to our cars awaiting us at the trailhead.
I refused the ambulance and so we thanked everyone who had showed up SO fast – they were ALL SO FANTASTIC – and headed to the hospital to await my findings that turned out to be what I thought – a fracture to my right foot.
Not just any fracture, but a mirroring metatarsal fracture to what happened to my left foot FIVE years ago. This time being the FIFTH bone of the metatarsal (different than last time), but a clean fracture again, so no surgery needed.
The doctor said he was shocked again at my age and told Dave, no offense when he had the first thought I may have been his daughter. I normally don’t look THAT young, but apparently in my attire, baseball hat, and pony tail, I was giving off “little girl” today.
Made me wonder if this had in part to do with the rebirthing energy. Hmmmm…
After being given a boot, crutches, and a 6-8 week healing prognosis, we made our way home and I made my way up the 105 steps feeling the totality of the day’s events, life shifts, and soulful journeys illuminating.
It was auspicious that only 4 days earlier I had shared a “Throwback Thursday” post via Instagram and Facebook about my 2/25/12 gallery event that took place the day before my birthday (and had birthday celebrations involved) where I showed up in a Frankenstein-like black shoe because of the left foot metatarsal fracture that was still healing.
But during the time I was being piggy-backed on this day of 2017, I was reviewing much, including how much my processes and progress had shifted since then, as I remember being initially upset and down on myself when that one took place, until I pieced together the meaning.
This time was so different. It’s hard to explain, but it was like this seamless, natural unfolding. I wasn’t in the least bit phased or even taken off center, except to deal with the physical trauma I had to initially integrate to catch up with the other parts of me that were on board already – definitely feeling like part of those upgrades and physical recalibrations to help align with all the fast transformations taking place.
Transformation leading me to those FIVE snakes I’d recently just seen AND the full snake skin I found Saturday (just the day before this took place). I found it at an Indian site on Spooner Lake hidden between the sacred stone people formations to the site, which was nearly impossible that I’d seen it (of course meant to be). Right before that I’d found a big group of feathers from one of the black and white water fowl there. Definitely signs of rebirthing, shedding old skin, and watery support to flow with it all.
And that watery energy seemed to be a focal point in that feet are ruled by the sign of Pisces, my native sign, and the sign the Full Moon was in. It also happens to be a collective energy sign, which so much of the day’s events felt to be tied into and reflecting, not to mention, as a Pisces would be natural to tap into and play out.
On one level I felt myself, as others too are going through, helping to release some of the pressure in the collective field through the fissure in my bone, which represents structures breaking down to make way for more flexible, new ones. Something Mother Earth Herself does and is doing.
It seemed no coincidence that the hurricanes were raging through Bimini when this was taking place (an area that I’m deeply connected to as you know), and my good friend Jenny was in the eye of it all, having refused to evacuate in order to stay with the home and her ARC (Atlantis Rejuvenation Center) that held the energy for Atlantis there. I’d briefly messaged with her some personal things around this, but had felt a huge resurgence and shift with the energy around that collective experience too.
It seemed no coincidence, also, that we were surrounded by crystal energy (hugely connected to Atlantis) and I had been carrying the load of 2 big ones when my incident took place. It felt deeply symbolic and later I also realized how these crystals had activated and ignited a shift for me that was actually softened through the fracture in my foot rather than being something potentially bigger.
Once again I was experiencing a profound rebirthing on many levels and was opening the portal in my foot/my nature to receive the new Earth energy streaming through.
Terra is recalibrating and so must we.
And personally, also, because of recent events that swooped into our lives heralding in quick changes and anchoring of new, I had to put the conclusion to my book on hold over and over. That had been the only thing I’d been bothered by (as nothing phases me these days), although understood all the moving pieces were necessary to take place to assist this, and so I embraced the shifting timeline peacefully. I also realized that there was some leeway because other shifts were being supported and needing to anchor in simultaneously since it is all connected.
However, I did realize that I had recently, a few days ago, adamantly stated the time was now and no further adjustments could be made because the window was opening, but wouldn’t remain so. This meant I would not be doing outings and any spare time aside from things I HAD to do to support our new manifestations, would all funnel into completing my book.
I remember having mentioned to the girls on the hike yesterday about being mindful of intentions along the hike, since we were surrounded by so much potent energy and the quartz. I realized later how my own intentions were manifesting.
Well, the crystals DID help me to manifest that determination, as now I will definitely NOT be ABLE to do anything except write.
Outer and inner aligned and so I know the portal is fertile for completion.
Hence, more reason to be grateful for this experience, which immediately was the first thing I thought of when it happened.
My Mercury is also in Pisces, which ties in with how I communicate and YES, write. 😉
I will have more to share later including exciting news on our living situation, but for now I must hunker down and embrace the gift I’ve been given and what the crystals opened for me and for us all to create new realities.
I recently heard that while Bimini looks like a war zone right now, that they are okay. Fires have continued elsewhere, hurricanes are still raging through…Nature is doing her own rebalancing, as are the forces at work providing us potentials to rise up.
Devastation has hit many places recently and likely will continue, but there is opportunity for rebuilding from the ground/core up and hopefully doing so with greater consciousness and mindfulness of the Whole.
And this is why, for me, while I can see the connection….on a personal level I just feel like life goes on and when something happens it isn’t even surprising, but is feeling more and more like my aligning with Nature’s processes that simply cycle through and needn’t have any stigma attached to them since they are fluid changes that are part of All That Is.
I personally feel there is grace available in everything…a purpose…a potential…a doorway…and there’s no need to waste time being upset, as there’s so much to be grateful for and far worse potentials to go through and others are in fact going through, to be complaining about a fracture.
I could only see all of those things…the silver linings….the incredible gifts….yesterday, and not a second of anything other than that moved through me. Not a second.
The doctor yesterday at the hospital kept trying to get me to take pain meds, which I kept refusing. He said I “made it too easy.” I thought to myself…. “It can be.”
There’s no coincidence we were at Star Lake and I wore my mirroring tank top that said, “Made of Star Dust”.
We are being shown glimpses into our divine nature, our origins, our connection, our truth of Being and our unlimited potentials.
The heart of a star is within each of you to embody and contains the building blocks of how to turn this human experience into an exquisite creation of a New Earth collective.
(End note: I worked on and off on writing this today and saw 5:55 when done, although still had to plug in the photos – those transformational 5’s again!)