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Realities of Your Own Creation – My Reflections and Photo Shares from My Week Away


tania4When you begin to view life and all things having a divine order and purpose, which stems from a deep inner/intuitive knowing without the need to ego-comprehend it all the time, nor have a mapped out reasoning and proof always, then you begin to move rapidly through realities.

You make a decision every day to make something your source of authority. When you decide to stop listening to everything other than your intuitive self and decide that IT is the sacred source, then you will need no other validation.

No one will be able to validate it anyway because it is an experience that is yours alone to know.

There are many realities of experience available, which is each person’s choice.

Wouldn’t it be wonderful if this experience was a magnified version of your greatest opportunity?

meadow4While I was away this past week visiting family in Reno and my beloved Lake Tahoe, I experienced my own magnified version of greatest opportunity.

I believe that in every experience we have the opportunity to see what we want to see, and create what we want out of it.

I see magick all around, meaning, and purpose and even if others choose to see something different or think I’m off my rocker because of what I see and experience, it simply doesn’t matter. Worst case scenario is that I AM crazy, but guess what? I sure live joyously in the meantime and don’t seem to experience the challenges in the same way others do. That doesn’t mean I don’t have my own challenges, but because of my perspective on life that I’ve come to embrace, I’m no longer debilitated and can shift things immediately.

I spent a lot of time on my week off in deep, metaphysical conversation with my brother, reviewing a lot of things in my life, making new commitments to myself and my path, soaking in the powerful energies of this sacred area, explored a new area down in the South Lake Tahoe region of Echo Lakes, which includes Lower and Upper Echo Lake and others (you’ll see in the photos), refreshing in and being inspired by the mountains, forests, Crystalline water of the lake daily, and the medicine of the wild mustangs I intimately interacted with on three occasions.

I also picked up a couple of new crystal friends as gifts, but also a few for myself that include Nirvana Quartz (actually a male – white – and female – pink – pair that came together, which feels especially potent and poignant for balancing and activating wholeness), Black Tourmaline, and a special find I’ll share more on in another post – Auralite, which literally called out at the last minute from behind me.

trip4Spending time with the family is always powerful in layered ways. It brings out core reflections and patterning, gifts me with nurturing, and elevates and propels from the integration that takes place. Since being back I continue to integrate these shifts, but I do feel a tremendous transformation and further sense of knowing, expansion, peace, and focused understanding that is increasing as I move through things.

echo lake tania marieMore changes at hand indeed and I’m feeling even moreso on track with my natural self that continues to emerge with each layer I peel. It is also bringing about changes in my day-to-day and where my energy is feeling the need to be focused.

I know everyone is experiencing major transitions and “stuff” in a multitude of ways and within a multitude of realities. There truly is no greater gauge than yourself, but it’s helpful to have mirrors to reflect and help you to decipher who that “self” is. I know I was able to see and voice “me” even greater than ever this last week during conversations that in the past I would have been lost in or had other reactions to. It all helps me to not only have a better relationship with myself, but to also extend that enhanced experience in all relationships.

echo lake19Knowing something within yourself is the greatest comfort you’ll find. No amount of validation outside of that will make this experience better. The external simply feeds the same ego needs that want and need proof of everything always. Weeding out the influences you’re bombarded with and have come to adopt unconsciously will increase your self knowing and sense of sacred balance. This is determined solely by you.

I thought I would share photos of my time away this past week so that you might absorb the beautiful energy and perhaps receive a sense of inspired renewal too from them. They reflect a reality that lives within me and that constantly reflects its magick through the days of my life. Through these images you might also recognize a version of a reality you choose to create.

lake8Lake Tahoe is one of my favorite magickal places that always makes me feel suspended in a timeless “time out of time” space that is really high vibrational and clear. I always say it’s a “Crystalline Lake” and it’s no wonder as many of the Bays are named after Crystals – Emerald Bay, Crystal Bay, Agate Bay, Carnelian Bay – and there once was and still are many crystals in the area, which was and still is a sacred spot.

This last week was full of nature’s magick and many beautiful encounters with souls in animal suits, especially a variety of butterflies flying at and all around me and mustangs open to personal connection. While kayaking a mother duck (I’m not sure what breed) and her brood of 13 ducklings were sunning on rocks (you’ll see in one of the photos as well) and then all went for a swim, which was quite a sweet sighting and rich message.

reno backyardThe area my parents live in Reno is nestled at the Virginia Range foothills and between it and the Sierra Nevada Range that has a really nice energy and peace to it that is soothing, but potent. I love spending time in their Faery garden where we shared mornings and evenings relaxing and talking.

Every day I find more and more to be grateful for and the depth increases with each consciously present moment.

I hope you enjoy the photo collage of these beautiful energies.

Sending love to everyone as you journey through new potential realities of your own personal creation.lake tahoe reno 2014 (9)

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A Magickal Journey of Healing Activation in Lake Tahoe and Reno


Lake Tahoe

I just returned from a long weekend to visit my family and places close to my heart. I was excited both to return and to share with friends for the first time. It had been a while since visiting Reno and Lake Tahoe (two places I used to live – Reno for a year and Lake Tahoe for 3 years – before moving back to Southern California), other than the quickie, whirlwind trip I made in the Spring to pick up my paintings and some items my parents were storing for me, with Allison (partner in Joyful Earth Crystals). I have found that the Reno/Tahoe area is one of those energy vortex areas similar to Sedona that will either draw you in or spit you out and you either resonate with it or you don’t. Laura Bruno and I have both experienced this and for a while she was actually banished from Reno. (Laura and I met in Reno, while I was living in Tahoe and she in Reno, but we both have lived in both areas in N. Nevada, including have both lived in Sedona and Seattle and California – we seem to be on the same trajectory) I loved living both in Reno and Tahoe, but especially have missed Lake Tahoe, since on the last trip there with Allison, we were only allowed to come in, get my stuff and quickly exit before a major storm was hitting that would have trapped us. Even when we first landed that time, the sky was so ominous and it wasn’t inviting as it usually energetically is.

Allison and I, second day at Lake Tahoe on the floating pier

So I was never able to show Allison my beloved Lake Tahoe on that trip, nor spend time there, since I’d moved. So I’ve been anxious to return indeed. That all changed this last weekend and the energy was completely different! In fact, it seems Lake Tahoe did not want me leaving, period.

I love visiting my family, as I am very close to them and actually lived at home until I was 29 (and even returned to living with them briefly around 31). We have a very different dynamic to our family and while it has its interesting twists, turns and challenges, we have this bond and unspoken commitment to work together on stuff – at first, the parents teaching the kids and in our late teens to early twenties having that reverse.

My parent’s house front yard – a mini castle in faery land

back of house from the rock garden

My parents run the best unofficial B & B there is. They have a lovely Zen feeling home, all Feng Shui by my mom and brother with beautiful front and back faery yards, between a view of Mt. Rose and the Sierra Nevadas and the Virginia Range its nestled up against. Another lovely gift their home provides is the ability to connect with the wild mustangs that roam down from the Virginia Range, right through the wash beside and behind their home and all along the marshlands that surround them. We were blessed on this trip, twice, to see one of the groups of wild mustangs – 6 of them – that wander through. So beautiful! My mom is a great cook, and although not vegan, she always makes us awesome vegan meals, makes sure to stock up on things we need for our smoothies and snacks, and they even got a beautiful vegan chocolate cake with raspberry filling from Whole Foods for their 44th Anniversary so that we could all celebrate with yummyness. (Our trip this time happened to coincide with their anniversary, which was very cool.) And my parents home is a sanctuary to our beloved little ones who are no longer physically with us – Nestor and Chuck – as my parents have all of their photos in the family room (including photos of Joy and Gaia, their current grandchildren), Chuck has a special burial in the yard, and Nestor’s photos can be found in several rooms. 🙂

back yard with rock garden and view of mt. rose and sierra nevadas

meditating frog statue in garden that i gave my parents

some of the many gorgeous flowers in the faery rock garden – these were my favorite

Chuck’s special burial ground memorial

some of beautiful flowers my dad picks daily to make lovely bouquets for the house – he loves cultivating his garden and mom works the energies, loving to connect with her faery friends

Nestie, Joy, Gaia, and Chuck – all of my parent’s grandchildren being honored on their library shelves in the family room (I love how you can see some of the many New Age books my mom has that they are near. I see atlantis, numerology and crystal bible – the rest are on the upper shelves)

Peacock and Buddha statue entry – I loved how the glass front door to the house showed in the peacock painting, like a secret portal within and how my left side appears coming from that glass portal doorway as i take the photo

wild mustangs at sunset in the wash just behind and to side of parent’s house

wild mustangs walking through the wash pass by house

group of 6 mustangs greeting us in the morning. the stallion stays ahead to watch out for the group

Our trip kicked off with a couple of days traveling up and around the lake, since it’s only about 45 minutes (or less, by Tania mountain driving time) from my parent’s home and easy to drive to, and ended, as it began, in Reno. We enjoyed an awesome lunch of creative, vegan sushi and did some hiking, then time spent down by the water to connect with the energy. Allison and I split off from our partners to go to the water’s edge and relax for a bit, before we all headed to the Shakespeare festival that evening at Sand Harbor, which is a cool outdoor venue with the lake as the backdrop. There ended up being reason for us to be there alone.

vegan sushi and key

I was so happy to show her one of my spots I love and to dip my feet and legs in the refreshing and magical waters. Faery sparkles lit up the water’s surface, as usual. The lake was very beautiful and just as I remembered her. We were down by the water not long before I discovered my parent’s car key was gone. Interestingly, when we were at the sushi place in Incline Village, I had taken a photo of one of the yummy rolls and the car key, unintentionally ended up in the photo. I jokingly posted it on facebook, saying “the key to yummyness.” This same key turned out to be the key to much more!

I had placed the key on the rock while taking in the lake and when we got up it disappeared, even though it sat right next to our two cell phones and they were still there, but no key. Simultaneously, a wave had come in from a passing boat and so it seems the waters swallowed up the key. We looked and looked, even with the help of others that were around, but to no avail. It likely is trapped in crevices of the rocks under the water where we could not see or reach. It became clear the lake was sending me a message – she did not want me to leave and where last time we were kept away from her, this time we were being held her willing captives. 🙂 A very powerful sign for me indeed.

Allison and I at Lake Tahoe – Hexagon energy and orb on and coming off of me

I had to call my parents to save us – requiring them to drive up and down the mountain just to bring us a spare key, but they did and in the process of waiting we had more time with the lake and chances to take some photos that revealed some interesting energies indeed, once Chris (Allison’s hubby) joined us by taking a taxi to where we were.

As you can see in these photos, there is a very clear hexagon energy that appears on my torso with an orb of light coming off of it. It seems to move from these two photos, but the photo taken directly after it shows nothing. We noticed that several photos taken at the lake over the two days displayed some interesting energies.

Close up of the Hexagon and orb energy on and around me – this is the second photo taken and you can see how it moved from it’s more centered-on-me position in the previous photo

this is the third photo taken after the first two with hexagon and orb, but as you can see, it is now gone.

The lake has always been very magickal and healing for me during some of the most major time periods of my life. One full moon, when my mom came to visit me, she and I had gone down to the lake at nearly midnight following her arrival from the airport, and we did a special sacred ceremony for Nestor who had recently passed. We spread a tiny bit of her ashes in the lake (something I have done at many of the sacred energy vortex places in the world where I have traveled to imbue her magic into the Earth and to assist healing and activation through these energy spots with our depth of connection and her very potent energy). So the lake is alive with Nestor’s energy, along with the both powerful and calming energy she already possesses. I get the sense this hexagon energy somehow is connected with her and even shows up in a pale blue color – blue being a color connected with her and me.

me and my beloved lake tahoe – see how the energy coming off of my crown chakra looking like the faery sparkles on the water are radiating towards it or from it

I can’t begin to tell you how lovely it feels to sit by the water and have my feet in it. Very healing indeed and a healing actually did take place.

I’ve written about breaking my foot twice over the last several months and experiencing tailbone issues that I never have in the 11 years since breaking my tailbone. I knew it was connected to things I have been processing and integrating, along with all the shifts and energies currently taking place that are recalibrating and affecting our bodies. But this new daily pain from (in terms of physical trigger explanation) what seemed to be compression and it being either out of place, not healed properly, etc. (coccydynia it’s called that can create excruciating pains and problems from sitting down, getting up and any sitting/laying maneuvers that put pressures on the coccyx area) has been a last reminder of energies to focus on.

I had been working on the other levels to integrate and balance the issue and even had a special cushion to sit on to assist physically, as I don’t let anything bring me down or prevent me from living my life and doing what I am here to do. Not even my foot stopped me and it now is completely healed after I’ve integrated the energy behind it. I was ready to try physical things to help my tailbone, very reluctantly I might say, as I just didn’t really want to go that route unless I needed to. My plan was to look into either acupuncture or chiropractic support and had just gotten info from Allison on a good acupuncturist in the area to contact when back from this trip. Secretly though, I was not liking the idea and intending I wouldn’t have to go.

Well, it seemed I got my wish. As for now, it appears that I have received a miraculous 360 with it, just from the one visit where I lost the key. I didn’t notice it until we went to the Shakespeare show and were sitting in the plastic chairs on the sand hill. Not the most comfortable chairs and to top it off mine was sitting half flat and on a rise. Normally something like this without my special cushion would be very bad for my tailbone and getting up would have been horrible pain. But when we did get up, I was suddenly amazed to find I had no pain. And this continued on the drive home – no pain.

allison and i goofing off at the waterfall in above emerald bay – see a rainbow energy to the left of me

we took several shots and the energy persisted but moved – see how it now is more golden and has moved directly over us and in that root chakra area – notice we haven’t moved our position, but the energy has. the energy here over the root chakra, the previous hexagons over my lower torso area overlapping the lower chakras – definitely something assisting my healing

111!! activate and manifest! – i didn’t notice how bizarre this photo of me was until a good friend of mine on facebook pointed out that it was weird how this photo makes it appear i have no tattoos and how odd that is, since they have become so much a part of me. very strange! i even look different energetically in this photo. hmmmm

The next day we visited the lake again, spending time all around it to show Allison and Chris the lake since they never have experienced it, and I took some time just for me to sit with my legs in the water at the end of the floating pier bar of the Lone Eagle connected with the Hyatt in Incline Village. We even got to explore an area I hadn’t where a waterfall was at Emerald Bay, which was beautiful. So that was great and we managed to get some shots there that showed some more energies. Allison also took a fall for me, as we climbed down some rocks to get to the waterfall. If I had gone first, we both feel I may have easily slipped like she did and either hurt my foot or tailbone again, but she went first and buffered the fall more than I likely would have. Thank you Allison! And again, after the whole day of driving and sitting, still none of the compression pain. Of course I kept testing it and rocking back and forth on my butt to see what was up. 😉 But the regular daily feelings I had experienced for months had disappeared.

I have noticed that it seems an adjustment naturally took place, as there is only a tiny bit of bruising kind of feeling, but it has moved in its location and it is not a pain or compression feeling. So it seems, for now, my tailbone is in its process of integrating and balancing this new healing it has received. yay!

kayaking through the tahoe waters and prehistoric stones – view from my vantage point at head of the kayak

Needless to say, the time we all spent at the lake was really wonderful and made me realize how much I love and miss it. Allison and I both found very similar stones, each on our own while stone hunting at a beach we all kayaked to, so we each took a little Tahoe home with us. Kayaking the lake waters was amazing and I just loved the refreshing, silky feel of the water on my skin and to be on the water itself. Reminds me time and time again just how much of a water sign – Pisces – I am and that I belong in and on it. I used to dream of and intend to live on a boat, as sea sickness is not something I ever experience and to be in a floating mode all the time, is so natural to me. Perhaps that intention will one day come true, like it almost did twice before. The first time the thought came to me was when I lived in Sedona and I have found that many things that have come to me while living there, have been telling of future things. Who knows!

I was so happy that Allison and Chris had a chance to connect with my brother while visiting too. He provided them mini astrological readings about their personal placements in their charts, as well as other information and entertainment. LOL! They would be up until 2 or 3 am each night receiving downloads of infos (I had to get to bed earlier and not stick around like I normally would, as I could tell how much I was processes, healing, and integrating things, which was making my body need extra rest and feeling depleted from the previous week and these super highs I kept getting with rushes of massive energy that would be like an amped up batter charge boost. Then I’d kind of energetically crash like my computer and cell – another reminder for the need of nourishment, rest and balance while all these varying degrees of energy waves roll in and out). It was all meant to be, as I feel it was important for Allison and Chris to connect and receive the information from my brother and that for me, I needed to be doing my inner processing in dream time.

The first night we were there was the only night I stayed up really late. I stayed up until 2:30am with my mom and brother discussing energetic things that I also feel were tied to the Root Chakra/tailbone stuff and that by my going to even greater depths in reiterating and realizing things in order to share with them (my mom in particular) I feel that that also aided in my healing process with my tailbone. Along with the Lake energies and whatever the hexagon energy on my torso was connected with, and feelings of integration and balance for the entire trip that I was working with – these all made for quite an experience. I found myself holding balancing energy and helping to shift energies. I also became extremely wiped out from all the intensities of things transforming. I have also been finding more and more magick than normal taking place and my intuition getting stronger and more clear. This is definitely a time to follow nudges, as alignments are taking place more than ever. Allison has also been experiencing this, as of late. (Synchronously, I had everyone pull a tarot card on the onset of us all coming together the first night, to set the stage for where our energies were at, and I pulled the Justice card #11 – equilibrium, harmony, restoration of balance, neutrality, order restored, accountability, integrity, carefully considered choices, clear vision – themes I was energetically working with). The ability to find “peace in chaos,” is a theme and motto I always say.

my lovely smokey quartz heart

We definitely all received a lot of activations and empowering new perspectives and experiences, relative to each, and upon our last day we visited a favorite crystal store where we each were drawn to one special crystal that called to us to take home. (Actually, Dave got two cool fossil stones, millions of years old) Mine is this lovely smokey quartz heart with amazing rainbows throughout (only one pictured here). Seemed perfect, as among other things, smokey quartz is good for strengthening adrenals (always been an issue for me), balances, is mildly sedative and relaxing, initiates movement of kundalini, dissipates and subconscious blocks, grounds, centers, great for meditation, dream awareness and channeling abilities, and is connected with the root, naval and solar plexus.  🙂

My brother and I had talked a lot about the lower chakras, but the Root in particular and how important these energies are to integrative healing and is a piece that many forget in their quest for spiritual awareness. Reconnecting with the “Root” of who we are on deep levels and understanding the energies of this Chakra can help to liberate us.

beautiful tahoe meadows

faery fields – tahoe meadows

yay faery land! – tahoe meadows

ahhhh lovely – tahoe meadows

path way to the otherworld – tahoe meadows – love the energy on the right of path that showed in the grass – faeries welcoming me as i enter!

baby tree sprouting – yay!

just breathtaking this faery meadow is

this tree was so awesome up at lake tahoe – reminds me of the Ents in Lord of the Rings – ancient shepherds of the forest and allies of the Free Peoples of Middle-earth during the War of the Ring – talking tree entities – this one was so alive and ready to walk forward – notice his two arms – one extended to the left and one curved and raised to the sky

I was happy that Allison and Chris got a chance to experience and see everything, including having the wild mustangs come visit the house twice – yay! For me, I wish the trip could have been extended, but at the same time, I feel the time spent there and all that took place was perfect in every way. I do hope to return again and spend more time in the faery garden of my parent’s home and up at the lake and in the faery forests. I was happy to hike Tahoe Meadows the morning before we left. Truly a gorgeous faery land, as you can see from the photos. Lake Tahoe and the mountains and forests surrounding are truly one of the most beautiful and magickal places in the world and energetically one of the resonating spots for me.

Upon returning I am inspired with new energy to finish a tattoo for a special client I have been working on in pieces. I have not rushed it, as I have learned to do, as I know the energies I experience and timely shifts assist in the creation process. Same goes for the #5 painting that has been sitting waiting in unfinished form for the last 3 weeks. I now know I can finish it as well and the energy received, was what has been needed from my last two trips to mountain/lake/forest areas in Tahoe and Big Bear.

I will continue to work on the integration and balancing energies, which do ultimately assist in helping one to thrive in any experience no matter what and to diffuse anything that is presented to us as well. I believe my little smokey quartz heart will be assisting this process to work through my heart and clear remnants of things to continue moving forward in wholeness, rather than with any feet or parts left behind in another reality that is not the one I am intent on continuing to create and experience.

Love and Magick to everyone!!!

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