Depending on where you live, February’s Full Snow Moon in Virgo reaches illumination either in the wee hours on the morning of Saturday the 27th, or anywhere in between that and the night before. The best view of it will be tonight, February 26th, which happens to be my birthday and will reach its highest point in the sky near midnight. I love that it’s called the Snow Moon and the reason is because typically February is the heaviest month for snow fall.
How perfect for this Winter Faery whose been on a snowy adventure navigating and braving new frontiers of experience for the past eight weeks. Every day has been an immersion into Winter Wonderlands that reflect the visions that inhabit my dreams. While I LOVE ALL seasons, the enchantment of Winter and snow is one I never tire of – very fitting as a Pisces water sign to love her seasonal realm of crystalline water.
I took this photo on Monday, February 22nd of this week while skiing at Vail on one of the most gorgeous days and also one of my braver days. It felt like a perfect reflection for the Full Snow Moon. As you can see, the Moon made her appearance, revealing her soon-to-be-debuting fullness.
According to The Old Farmer’s Almanac, this Moon also has connection to animals:
The Cree called this the Bald Eagle Moon or Eagle Moon. Bear Moon (Ojibwe) and Black Bear Moon (Tlingit) refer to the time when bear cubs are born. The Dakota called this the Raccoon Moon, and certain Algonquin peoples named it the Groundhog Moon. The Haida named it Goose Moon.
Again, so fitting, as I have a strong connection with bears you might recall from my mention of them as messengers many times in dreamland. I am also very connected with geese and the avian family at large.
And speaking of geese, a silly goose I am and always will be.
I’m constantly laughing at myself, finding the humor, and embracing the opportunity in each moment to be silly and have fun. Sometimes that includes laughing until I’m crying and nearly can’t breathe (which has happened quite often on this trip), running around like a child saying innocent things with funny faces to convey it, or free falling into the snow in the middle of snow shoeing like the photo above.
Laughter and play go hand-in-hand for me.
Play is liberating and opens you to new possibilities. It opens your heart to the wonder and helps you to find magick all around you.
Play helps you to break from inhibitions and detach from needing to know. When you play you unleash your essence, come to know yourself more, and connect with the child in every one you meet.
Playing invites you to dance in spontaneity and turn the heavy into light.
It doesn’t matter your age. These are the things that keep you ageless.
When you invite playfulness into your life more, you’ll find yourself feeling a little more free and like anything is possible.
The expansive and majestic vistas I’ve had opportunity to see the last couple of months have been the perfect landscapes to support the unlimited potential innate to us all.
And while the perfect realm for this watery spirit, it has also been the perfect realm for continued embodiment and merging of the earthy counterparts I carry strongly as my native being as well. My strong Capricorn counterpart has also been nurtured into greater fullness, finding sanctuary in the high altitudes her mountain goat heart thrives in. We’ve been sleeping at nearly 10,000 elevation and soaring up to nearly 13,000 and it’s all felt like home to me.
Snow and mountains….what more perfect an adventure for a sea-goat. 😉
And it’s not just the mountains I’ve been learning to descend sure-footedly, but also the mountains I’m seeing myself capable of ascending to literally and metaphorically.
These captures of me in my “spacesuit” feel like a great way to reflect and anchor in the start of this new cycle for me. Not only will they tell the story of such a huge leap in growth I navigated through and opened by loving my way through fears, but they will mark for me milestones in courage and the gateways I opened for all things to be possible. I’ve learned new processes that can be implemented across the board and certainly will be for the rest of this year and beyond.
A cosmic traveler I am, navigating and implementing the journey of spirit in body as one.
Interestingly, I noticed on this trip that the more comfortable in integrated embodiment I’ve become, the more silver has been woven into my entire head of hair. So although ever-more impish, as one of my dear friends likes to call me, Winter has set in for good as the guiding wisdom and constant reminder that Spring’s hope is never lost.
Today I’m 48 in Earthly years and yet the hourglass of my soul creates it’s own gauge to navigate life by.
This was going to just be a blog touching on the importance and value of art – something I often write about especially when I hear and see struggling artists, people unable to find a way to make a living with their artistic expression, people feeling their “art” not being taken seriously and just thrown aside as a hobby, or having a hard time to take leaps of faith with their creations because of such strong collective beliefs that have shaped their own.
This was percolating again when I was reading reviews of art that had been purchased in my Etsy shop and realizing how unless people come face-to-face with the experience of someone’s gift they have to share, that there can be a disconnect or devaluing that takes place. Of course, this can be connected to the feelings we have come to believe about ourselves, that are innocently conditioned.
Here is an example of just one review:
“Hi! Just wanted to let you know that I received your creations. I was a bit taken aback how stunningly beautiful they are in real life! The photos just don’t do them justice. In real life they are on a whole new level!!! I guess original art really has something so special that can’t be reproduced….”
That’s not to say that even when the art IS experienced, that someone appreciates its true value, but there’s definitely more understanding when something becomes tangible, they hear an artist share about their work in person, or when a person truly takes the time to “sit” with the work of art and receive from it.
It’s invaluable, to say the least. And this is why I support so many artisans over purchasing a lot of commercial items because there truly is a depth and richness to things made from the heart.
There tends to be a disconnect with the amount of energy, time, love, thoughtfulness, vulnerable soul-processing, and skill that creators imbue into everything they make. It’s why I love those one-of-a-kind and original pieces that bring me closer to the artist’s intentions.
That’s not to say you can’t receive from duplicates, prints, etc., as there is always an energy signature that will resound, but I love being that close to the seedling of creative impetus infused within the first birthing.
True, it will be more costly, so it’s not something I/we can always bring home, but when something really speaks to me, I don’t question the value placed on an item, as I know as an artist how much is poured into every creation that can never be measured in these terms.
I desire so much that more and more artists will get to flourish and share their gifts with the world.
I hope for the collective to tip the scales back in balance, so we honor, appreciate, and value the arts as we once did – the storytellers, mystics, artisans, visionaries, medicine people, astrologers, musicians, dancers, healers….were all revered.
I’m seeing a shift happen and people starting to thrive again in these regards, but there are still so many struggling and so much energy holding in opposition to these shifts that artists are working overtime to change.
And that brings me to what I uncovered, as I was sitting with all of this and some of my own past works-of-art.
It wasn’t about value per say, but it was about attachment and feeling another layer of etheric tethers (as I put it to a dear friend) releasing.
Although I do remember how many times in my past I had to explain myself and the pricing of my art – especially when it came to some of my first commissioned pieces.
Two incidents in particular come to mind: I literally had to write a long proposal finely detailing hours and work involved to an attorney once and also had to prepare information to the president of a company I was doing a mural for to back up my proposed fee. The first grueling effort succeeded and the latter got knocked down in half, but was still courageous of me to put it out there, especially since one of my greatest fears was verbally expressing myself and public speaking.
But what came to me recently has to do particularly with the In Lak’ech “Five” series I brought to life between 2006 and 2009. I chronicle some of it in this post: In the Spirit of In Lak’ech
When first I timidly put them out on my website, feeling very vulnerable in sharing such depth, I listed them at $11,000 each. Not a strange price at all in the art world given their size, time invested, and being four feet by four feet originals.
I also made prints available, figuring that the originals would likely not be going anywhere anytime soon and wanting people to receive from them still.
But what I notice now in looking back is that I don’t believe at my core that I wanted to let these originals go.
Even though my highest vision and intention was that perhaps they’d find a home in a healing center or someone’s personal sacred home space, they spoke to something very sacred within me that perhaps felt like a violation to give away, at the time.
I can’t really put a word to it.
They were indeed like babies I’d birthed, but had truly never been created for me, as the channeling aspect going into them removes me from personal ego.
Yet, it was when out of that channeling space that personal was being tethered.
I may be one to look far deeper into things than most like, want to, or perhaps are over with doing anymore – I get it because overall I’m in that space of peaceful “being” more so now – but within one there is still the other and while I prefer the simple, my innocent curiosity simultaneously can feel the bigger encompassed within that – both sides of the coin exist even if focused elsewhere. And sometimes even if I’m not in that space myself, I will explain things out for others to better understand the process that may be more seamless in experience for me now. I find that helps people to relate and find connective threads for themselves.
So, how did this play out for me?
Well, it was a mix of that value of art I spoke of before AND personal attachment.
I remember once that someone very well-off (a millionaire in fact) where I was showing my work in their gallery space asked me about one of the Five and wanting to purchase it. I told him the price and he looked at me in a strange way. Not that he felt it wasn’t worth this, but my sense was he felt entitled as someone perhaps more worldly to take advantage of someone he deemed less than that. (Interestingly, a small theme included in some or one of these paintings.)
He proposed $1500 instead of the $11,000.
I, immediately said no, but did feel that weird grating inside mixed with everything around it all that I’m sure a lot of artists feel, including that flash of all the artists that have in fact accepted what ever they could get because they felt they had no choice, but there was something more too.
There were other incidents similar or went further to even just wanting me to give them to people starting up places they thought they’d add value to.
And then there were a few months where my art hung in a hair salon studio that brought together art events, where they told me that business boomed while my paintings were there and brought much intrigue and interest.
So, yes, I dealt with the value thing and seeing how these paintings were being experienced, but as mentioned, more importantly these pieces in particular hold such a sacredness to me and depth that truly it wasn’t about the money, but I was feeling protective of something within myself.
I realize now that I had mixed feelings that were tethering me to the experiences held within the portal paintings on a super-subconscious level.
While I’ve worked so much in the past to free myself and integrate the healing of these times within my and the collective’s soul history, there is an underlying comfort resonance in holding them, or identifying with them – basically allowing them to define me in behind-the-scenes way. Perhaps even fueling a sense of purpose I felt that recently I’ve been letting go of. AND, perhaps even still holding onto a self-imposed collective burden I felt to bear in that old martyr role.
It’s that super-shadow work often spoken of where you can’t make mental sense of it and there are many layers to the onion of feelings to unmask and get to the seed of it all. Some of which is purely your own and some that is collectively conditioned.
And in so much clearing out and truest desire to move beyond the unseen tethers that may not even by own, this suddenly hit me that I need to release these paintings rather than store them away in the dark recesses – literally they’re stored in a dark area of the garage to keep them safe from the elements and such right now, as we didn’t have any place to put them in the house, with all of the other paintings on the walls.
That’s interesting to me to have such powerful creations “hanging around” in the background.
So, my original “detached and collective reasons” for creating them returned to me, which was for them to be “out there” doing their work, especially at such pivotal times as now.
These originals are so potent that to have them stored away feels like an injustice, just as I don’t store crystals when I’ve moved – either taking them with me or moving them on to other guardians.
But I did end up having to store them when we lived in the Magick Bus RV for a year and a half. I remember setting them all up in the living room together before they were taken away. A friend came over who was picking up some things from me and ended up sitting with them for an hour taking them in and receiving rushes of energy, emotions, and visions. It was the first time they were all together like this in their original form and not prints, so it was profound for me to watch someone experience them as intended, but I obviously was still not realizing the attachment.
And to feel that subconscious tethering now reminds me to release fully from inner identifications to soul wounds/feelings over lifetimes. Not simply on mental or easy to find emotional levels.
That is the gift of these Five portals is to move energy and keep it moving – that’s why they are so alive. Working with them invokes an inner igniting to happen and can continue to work layers of their imprints in unearthing and beautiful ways.
Yet, the trick, as with anything is to flow and not get stuck in identification as defining and encapsulating.
It’s taken me all of these years to uncover the true gift within them.
And I am now able to truly release the paintings so they can be that experience for someone else.
I could keep them now, fully living in that freeing energy I’ve now discovered and harnessing it for endless renewal, but they were always meant for others.
The only way I would truly know their gifts is to have journeyed with them all of these years, so I’m grateful for the discovery – one that is very hard to put into words. I’m not sure I’ve explained it well here, but it was a huge shift that happened yesterday when I cracked the code within.
As the link I shared above about their process expresses, these paintings remind me of hieroglyphics mixed with sound coding and telepathy. A journey backwards and forwards in time and encompassing both my personal and a collective “history” spanning what I believe to be very pivotal timelinks carried within our very DNA.
While I process things differently these days and my life is more simplified, like these images that appear as snapshots, they are also encompassing of so much more.
These five pieces, except the last two that were combined in one year, took each a year to create on their 4 feet by 4 feet very detailed canvases. This in part due to my own processing, research, and discoveries, the collective timing, and travels I did to work with the energies at sacred sites across the globe.
I actually have a journal notebook I kept with all of the detailed research and coding I was discovering along the way and working out like a treasure map before starting to paint each of them.
They include encoded messages that are sound-woven and frequency-embedded for that transmutation.
These paintings were my interpretations and new perspectives of each element as seen through different astrological signs in their highest potential (Divine Male and Female aspects). They incorporate Mayan glyphs and act as integrative portals that bridge time and come through an ancient story that weaves Sumerian and Babylonian, Ancient Egyptian, Ancient Druid and Celtic Ireland, Atlantis and Lemuria, and the Cosmic Earth.
They are layered with energetic symbolism that can help shift things on a DNA level by simply viewing them – something I witnessed when I showed them a few times separately and some individuals would find themselves moved to sit and meditate with them. One time in particular stands out, seeing a young man with tears streaming down his face while sitting in front of Air.
And like Lee Harris spoke of in his last Energy Forecast for May about a new wave of people awakening to greater awareness than they have before in different ways and being more ready for conversations they weren’t open to in the past, I’m seeing how the original seed of intention in these paintings is more relevant now than when first created.
This has led me to truly release them to the world this time and whomever might feel called to them.
While that “value of art” thing is still very important I feel in helping to shift things collectively and bringing awareness and honor to the creative arts and even our relationship to nature because the arts connect us with the “nature within,” I am ready to let them go at huge discount simply because I feel the importance of their living out their purpose.
Like the mother must release their child at some point to live their life, I do the same and know I am no less or more because of their physical presence in my life.
I had thought about offering them each at $2000 instead of their original $11,000, and all five for $10,000 – less than one’s value, but I’m now going to open it to best offers so that they can truly go where they can do the work they were meant to and fulfill the vision I had of them as meditation pieces, either individually or as a collective story for integrative healing on deepest levels.
So, if one or all of them speak to any of you, please let me know of your desires and we’ll go from there.
I do have to reiterate that these are 4 feet by 4 feet, so I will have to ask that shipping be covered as well because they will take special packaging and shipping costs.
The five are shared throughout this post in the order they were created. I hope you enjoy viewing them again, as much as I’ve enjoyed resurrecting them in a new way.
And if they don’t find new homes, this whole process is still rich in the discoveries I’ve made that I know will domino-effect out through our collective connection.
UPDATE: The five paintings have found their new home with an amazing new guardian and keeper who is keeping all of them together and will be working with them as the sacred portals they were intended as. I’m so happy that they can stay as a unit, even though I was open to them finding homes where ever they were meant to be.
For this week, Whimsical Wednesdays and Monday Musings are coming together from each corner of my worlds – both the artist and writer me – to share an emerging theme of vision and perspective. Since everything is interconnected, it wasn’t a surprise to me to hear from a very tapped-in friend about this theme swirling around in her life and my “seeing” it sneak through with the experiences people are having on a wider scale. And, of course, it hit home here both with myself and my partner, Dave.
Perhaps some of you may chime in as well on this.
Vision and perspective feels important, as it relates to everything shifting so much in the way we are experiencing the world and collective right now. There seems to be a call to alter our perceptions overall and even a mass movement in terms of the things more people are becoming ready to see now. As layers of the veil peel back, we are being asked to see with new eyes and trust what is being shown/felt because that will be more key in creating a different reality than the one we may have thought was the only version of reality available.
As I mentioned, this has been popping up in our own ways here, as just this last week Dave went through a scary experience of discovering he had a detached retina that had potential implications of loss of eye sight if it hadn’t been caught in time, or if the procedure didn’t work. It was a whole very interesting and involved process to go through with quite advanced technology used to fix this, but in the end he avoided having to have the more invasive surgery under general anesthesia, as the first procedure has been successful.
He’s currently recovering this week, but it definitely was “eye-opening” on many levels.
Interestingly, this last Sunday I decided to try some reading glasses for the first time and bought some. I had bad vision when young – was legally blind in fact – and wore contacts/glasses until around 30 or so when I finally decided to have lasik surgery to correct it. I’d always been afraid of doing the surgery, or didn’t want to see on some level, and then embraced that and it was like woah! So weird to see so clearly – like everything was surreal.
My distorted vision had kept me “feeling” safe all of those years, and now I was ready to expose myself and support my gifts, rather than suppress them.
Anyway, until just last summer, I hadn’t gone back to an eye doctor since, because I had better than 20/20 vision. I started noticing some shifts and had them checked out and they said I’m starting to shift now in all ways – near and far sighted, along with some slight astigmatism. However, my prescriptions were so low that it wasn’t recommended I had to get them filled since they’d likely change a lot. It was felt that I could think about it in a year or two when they shift more or just pick up some over-the-counter readers at the store.
I hadn’t done that until now, feeling maybe I would try it out and transition myself slowly. I actually have come to love glasses as I’ve grown older and admire them on people, unlike the younger me who was more self-conscious about it and preferred the blurry world when I didn’t need to see clearly like in school, work, or while driving. I feel that they also add a layer to one’s personality and personal style. Perhaps they may even be more fitting to the artist/writer me I’m evolving into.
My mom ended up giving me some readers that she had and I got another super cheap pair after these first ones you see here, so I have five now at different levels to see what works best or to transition with.
What I’ve found interesting and synchronous to all of this is that while these vision and eye shifts have been taking place, I’ve noticed another big shift in perspectives and approach to my life, overall, which in essence is speaking to what I feel is more alignment.
I know very clearly the type of artist I am now and what I truly love painting and how.
I also was shown that my art is more about being an outlet for creative expression and joy when I feel moved in that direction and not something that feels to be a vocation, but more so an extension of simply who I am.
My writing feels more evolutionary for me – not necessarily that I see it vocationally either, but much more deepening and expanding in terms of growth and moving me out of all comfort zones, as well as facilitating creative expression as a honed in skill that merges and balances both sides of my brain, and that returns me to my more natural self – and voice.
It makes sense that my novel is also going through a huge shift too, which is a result of my stepping away from it for so long and returning now with “fresh perspective.”
I’ve been taking this return in steps, as I think I’ve mentioned before, and creating bite-sized morsels with it that create less overwhelm and more immediate levels of accomplishment, while also remaining detached from any end result ideas.
I envision a lot of work ahead, but the process being much more reflective of where I am now.
The steps I’ve taken so far have been researching a lot of links and books, both my editor had suggested, and ones I felt led to, and printing out the entire manuscript, then page-by-page marking it up with notes and highlighting that didn’t translate when I printed it on our only black and white printer.
Currently, I’m rereading the manuscript and journaling while I do so – both taking notes of major things I want to keep in mind for overall shifts I’ll be making and also somewhat processing my thoughts and ideas on where I may go with things.
Once I’m done reading I’ll have a greater handle on the direction, as I want to let the entire journey guide me, rather than make any decisions yet.
Everyone has their own process, but I’m learning to create mine and what works best for me, along the way.
I had no idea what I threw myself into when first I embarked on this writing adventure, as it is nothing like my first book I quickly pulled together and self-published, and nothing like what I had first envisioned it was going to be.
I’ve simply been embracing every twist and turn along the journey.
I literally jumped off the cliff and am now getting a crash course on what all is involved, learning along the way, and going through the growing pains rather fast – thank you to my editor!
I could never have done it before or had the ability to step back from personal investment in something, as I can now. And even since last I completed the first draft, it’s amazing to see how much I’ve shifted and my perspective has expanded, which of course translates into a whole new story!
My current reading and journaling stage is perfectly aligned for Dave’s downtime week, as I’m able to take my manuscript with me while we enjoy long beach days now that the weather is so nice and we’re in the shoulder season without crowds or noise lakeside – minus a few birds who like to come around and offer their perspective. 😉
Interestingly, yesterday we saw a bald eagle fly above us. She or he was then air-wrestling with a raven who likely wasn’t too excited the eagle was nearby. Our second bald eagle sighting in the last couple of weeks – so yes vision is definitely on a high!
Bald eagles symbolize the courage to look ahead and great vision.
Pure Spirit shares: When an eagle appears, you are on notice to be courageous and stretch your limits. Do not accept the status quo, but rather reach higher and become more than you believe you are capable of. Look at things from a new, higher perspective. Be patient with the present; know that the future holds possibilities that you may not yet be able to see. You are about to take flight.
I also recently shifted camera perspective on myself in a literal kind of way and rather than just sharing photos via my social media avenues, I’ve been nudged into adding some self-videos now and then that remove the barrier that a photo can still create and welcomes people into my world with a more personal, transparent experience of who I am and what my daily world is like.
Recently, I shared a look into my creation space, which the photo at my desk above is from, offering an insight to how I create a nurturing world around me that supports and inspires the dreamy worlds I imagine, via my writing and painting, into life.
I imagine, also, that things will continue to shift as my perspective widens and my vision adjusts into its new level of clarity.
Have any of you been experiencing themes around how perspective changes your experience, or having vision come up in literal or more symbolic ways – including perhaps even an emphasis on intuition stepping forward, more psychic vision becoming clarified, or things you didn’t see before suddenly making sense and stepping out on the scene now?
I thought you might find this last photo fun. I also recently moved these two whimsical dolls into position right in front of me at my desk, so that when I’m working on my computer they are actually staring right at me – and me at them.
I find myself looking into their eyes often while writing and alongside all of the other friends in the creation space I share with Astrid, it’s amazing how many eyes are on me.
They have special meaning to me and are connected with my novel, symbolically representing two of the characters.
The perspective of seeing through their eyes, but mostly that they are seeing through to the heart of me, keeps me focused on that key piece.
This is a short announcement that felt perfect for today’s Whimsical Wednesdays from The Artist’s Corner post, even though I’m not regularly keeping up with these weekly posts like I used to due to needing time to focus back on my writing.
I’ve decided to make custom commissions available again, for now, on a limited basis.
I’m not sure how many I’ll actually be doing, or for how long, but I’m guessing it will only come in as is perfectly aligned with my timing needs.
So this means I’m open to creating animal companion portraits and creative pieces, although I do have a special place in my heart for animals.
As you can see I can do straight portraits or add a creative or surreal essence to them.
I shared on Instagram, a reflection on my past artwork and received a lot of beautiful and touching comments, including some inquiries. People were especially moved by the animals and more ethereal and cosmic paintings.
I contemplated revisiting this and due to cutting back, or pausing for a short time, on production of pieces for my Etsy shop, I have decided to make this option available again on a limited basis since I am devoting most of my time to writing.
I did accept a commission that will be a unique portrait on wood with crystals for the woman you may remember won one of the auctions for the bunnies and I posted the sweet story about her daughter who had led her to this from the stars. The portrait will be of her angel daughter.
I’m discussing possibilities on another.
I love that they don’t have any time frame, so I am free to work on them as I am able in between my writing and needs for creative flow breaks.
I do love creating unique multi media pieces on large wood rounds, or items like the talisman necklaces, and keepsake chests.
I also have mini silver wood frames I can create pieces in or small canvas boards.
I’m open to larger canvas pieces too, but are more time intensive and costly for shipping – so just something to keep in mind.
I’m just putting it out there and if you feel drawn to have a custom piece of art created for you and it resonates with both of us, please feel free to contact me if you are interested.
I’m not sure if I’ll mention this a lot, but am putting it out there now and I might create custom listings in my shop where you can choose.
Please let me know if you have any ideas and we’ll go from there.
You can visit this page for some more of my work:
I posted some of the animal companion portraits and other past works on my Instagram page, so if you’re interested in seeing some more of those and aren’t on there, I’ll find a way to send you them if needed.
Welcome Spring and welcome to my whimsical world. Since today is a day to celebrate renewal and new beginnings, I thought I might briefly write a short share on what started things rolling for me in my life that foreshadowed this new spiral of life I find myself journeying like many of you.
Although my parents were not fully aware of the totality of my name’s meaning at the time, or at least that I know of, I find it extraordinary that they chose one with the root being Titania – The Faery Queen. I know they wanted a strong name and one that could also be pronounced in French for our family in France without changing how it sounded. I know they knew it had Russian origins and I think their research, at that time, related it to “princess” or a Russian princess. I’m sure if I’m forgetting anything my mom will chime in since she reads my blogs. 😉 It was obviously meant to be.
Some of the things I did as a little girl that link to today include loving and talking to animals – having a way with them that was different and preferring their company, surrounding myself with stuffed animals that filled my bed and floor, easily entertaining myself in my imaginary world while I played on my own, drawing well at an early age and drawing animals mostly, writing creative stories especially about horses – then later in my early twenties I started writing children’s stories and a memoir that I never did anything with, taking ballet and always dancing and being on my toes, singing all the time and was in a choir, dreaming of magickal places, being musical and playing the piano, reading spiritual growth books around 14 after our mom introduced us, getting my very first furry animal companion – a rabbit, and having a lot of strange experiences and encounters I couldn’t explain.
Little by little, I stepped away from things, as the other half of the Pisces fish explored what was in the world of others’ realities. Yet, the wonderer fish half never disappeared – she simply wanted to swim up a different stream of energy, while the other pulled up another.
And eventually pieces of each were at war, or created separate worlds to live in.
After my last divorce, I started exploring more of what the little girl me had first introduced into my life, not simply as a separate or hidden world, but as the one world – recapturing the wanderlust, creative, whimsical, and spiritually inclined me that made connections to everything that moved through me.
Reiki, crystals, painting, teaching, more rabbits and a tortoise, sacred travel, integrating past lives, deeper experiences and continuation of extraterrestrial encounters, healing from the inside out, going vegan, immersing in Nature, and more, all hit around the same time of the ending of the marriage and embarking on my own.
And in experimenting with each part and different versions of how they channeled through, I honed in on what things I loved best, but also learned that it would take both of my fish halves, to create a life of peace and joy, ability to manifest, and truly live – not just survive.
Nature and the Cosmos, along with my rabbit companions, became my way-showers and immersing fully into a nomadic life on the road in an RV where I left an old me in a river up in Alberta, wiped the slate clean to return back to natural harmony.
In the end, after both fish explored, they found themselves not on separate streams, but in fact, on forks of the same stream that eventually led back together.
This is where I find myself now.
A place where painting and creating rabbit whimsy puts me in a place of joy and writing my second book with rabbits as the main characters – my tiny horses of today, challenges me to greater heights, while exposes my deepest vulnerabilities and truth.
To wander is to live in wonder and I’m definitely a wonderer.
My sweet friend, Mark, of Ravenwood Inspired asked if I could send him a photo of me and the two magickal wands he created for me, as part of “March meet the maker” on Instagram, because I was his first Instagram customer, and first Instagram friend. Mark and I have become dear friends since, or rather rekindled a sweet connection.
Anyway, this is the photo I sent him, along with two others, but we both agreed this one oozed Faery mischief. Or as Mark said, “I can feel the mischief radiating through cyberspace.”
It was taken the same day as the above photo, and both felt perfect for this post, as a full circle igniting of the new energy and bringing together those two fish parts within me to create harmony and manifest the world of whimsy and wonder, love and peace, and all things magickal that the little girl me stepped into this world dreaming of and the little girl me in woman’s body now, is beginning to make a reality.
It’s interesting how it took teal hair, creating a Wonderland room of all of my childhood dreams and loves, and going back to what I loved most as a child, to see a reflection of myself being most me. A portal to harmony.
And with the Super Full Moon in Libra, today on Spring Equinox, focusing on balance and the relationships to all things we have in life merging into focus, I feel clarity aligning for what’s to come.
Today created a reflection on everything and seeing myself in these photos spoke to a long journey ending and also just beginning.
Are you feeling the freshness of possibility in the air?
Have any of you struggled with parts of yourselves at war, only to discover they were meant to be great allies?
Wishing you a wondrous Spring, as we all sprout the seeds of our dreams and essence a little bit more each day.
And now for some fun!
If you’re on INSTAGRAM, hop on over to our newest post so that you can join Spring’s Giveaway to win this whimsical mini garden and follow the guidelines that will have it traveling to your home.
This is our second Giveaway and we hope you’ll find it to be a fun one! Celebrating Spring Equinox we thought we’d share our gratitude for the love you’ve all shown by offering this sweet rabbit mini garden inspired by Spring ($48 value).
This is meant to be a creative and fun giveaway and the recipient will be announced on Saturday the 23rd.
Happy Spring and happy creativity!
And don’t forget that today’s also the last day of the 20-25% off Spring Sale on all mini gardens at #themagickrabbit Etsy shop – direct link below.
This includes huge savings to celebrate Spring, renewal, rabbits, and nurturing the garden of your life. 🐇💚🌻🦋🍃
I haven’t showcased this one yet, but with life’s lessons pointing to a need for more balance in our lives collectively, this one jumped out to share in all its sweetness.
It’s titled, A Balanced Life is a Happy Life, and it shares the energy of harmony being key and that living life fully, keeping in mind a healthy balance, creates greater well being and enjoyment. Relaxing into a natural flow will align you with the cycles of life and create more peace as you move through experiences.
You’ll find easy-to-browse categories and see all the savings including amazing values on rare vintage pieces and elaborate gardens at https://www.etsy.com/shop/TheMagickRabbit
Whimsical Wednesdays ~ The Artist’s Corner: If You Don’t See What You’d Like in the World, Create it Yourself
We’re creative beings by default, regardless of whether you feel you have a creative bone in you or not. We all have creative potential to not only express through the creative forces at the root of our being, but to actively co-partner in remaking our shared world and collective experience. We each embody a unique expression of All That Is and are a part of the life cycles of birth and death transmuting into new forms over and over, just like the life and death of a star.
When we find ourselves unhappy or unsatisfied with what we see and experience around us in the outer world, we can look within at ways we can tap into our creative power to start reshaping the inner world of our experience. In this way, we start to experience shifts in domino-effect that have far-reaching benefit.
If you wish to see something “out there” try creating it “in here.”
This can be in larger ways like desiring to experience more compassion in the world, so you commit to walking in compassion as much as you can on a daily basis, starting with having compassion for yourself.
Or, it can be in smaller ways, like wishing you could find that perfect item that you envision, but no one carries, so you make it yourself.
In each case, and all of the myriad of other examples and possibilities in between these, you are using your creative energy to create something. You are taking initiative and action by harnessing the creative forces within you to find ways to bring about/birth from the impetus of an idea, inspiration, strong desire, or dream.
And this makes you powerful.
Yes, you are powerful.
You are co-creating life and the type of experience of life you want to have, regardless of what is out there or not.
I actively engage in both types of “creating,” choosing to be more of the things I want to experience in the world and creating little bits of magick my imagination and heart desire.
The latter is what I did recently with two little rabbit Faery gardens I created for me and Astrid.
And in doing so, not only did I create something I wanted, but wasn’t out there (at least that I knew of), but the energy carried within each creation has twofold reach in not only making my heart happy and creating sweet energy for Astrid and me, but in creating these mini worlds, I’m creating a space of potential – like a timeline or portal – that acts like creative visualization for manifestation. They help to draw in layers of meaning, possibilities, and integration into the “now” experience.
This is the new creation I just made yesterday for our Wonderland room.
It’s called Royal Cosmic Wedding: Union of Inner Harmony.
Just the title likely gives you a hint at the energy embodied here, speaking about that marriage of wholeness within the divine perfection that we already are. And if there is any imbalance or turmoil within these parts of ourselves, it unifies them in harmony and understanding.
It’s created atop a vintage white porcelain castle planter and is currently the centerpiece to our room sitting on the highest platform of Astrid’s butterfly sleigh that she sleeps under.
To further help you understand the symbolism within it, here is what I included in the creation:
There’s a black AND a white bunny, a unicorn, a bunny in a swing at top center, two bunnies holding the Faery Queen’s white gown, a crown I found and glued atop her head, puffy white cattail on the reeds that double as nature and stars, a green dragonfly on one of them, and there’s a little book on a silver plaque holder that says “Once upon a time” with words beginning a story and an image of a castle on it. All of the figures sit atop gold sparkly stepping stones like gold coins that light and support the way.
It and Once Upon A Time: The Rabbit Faery Queen are the two mini themed magick rabbit worlds I decided to create and keep for Astrid and me.
Bringing art and love together, to me is “creating life as a work of art” – my personal motto.
Art, to me, is a manifestation of love.
When we create something from ourselves, no matter what it is, it is an extension of the love within us expressing creatively and that reaches out to another’s heart, bringing us together.
Everyone’s creativity, because it comes from the source of harmonious love, has value.
And in exploring, discovering, and bringing forth our creative energy, we are celebrating the hidden gift of being alive.
Note: Although I cannot create another of the Royal Cosmic Wedding: Union of Inner Harmony, due to the one-of-a-kind vintage castle planter, I did make a second of Once Upon A Time: The Rabbit Faery Queen for our Etsy shop, The Magick Rabbit, that sold. I can make more of that one if someone’s interested.
I’ll be sharing 3 new mini rabbit Faery gardens either this or next week – the last ones I’m making, as I’ll be focusing on new creations for the shop to share over the next weeks and months.
More mini rabbit Faery gardens can be found here, along with the original magick rabbit paintings, prints, greeting cards, and journals:
Today’s whimsy from the Artist’s Corner is a sneak peak at what’s been creatively going on behind-the-scenes here at The Forest Portal and to announce the upcoming new Etsy shop launch many of you have been asking about. But first off, in the midst of things here, we did announce our Giveaway recipient on 2/1 – the date we originally thought we’d launch our shop, but instead made it a fun event that helped raise some small funds for rescue rabbits.
The recipient – Kelsey, a fellow bunny lover and mom of two sweet rescue bunnies – received this Magick Rabbit Orb (the first mini rabbit faery garden I created) and a surprise gift in the drawing.
She also helped raise the most money for the buns! For every entry I committed to donating $1 to a rabbit rescue, but in the end I decided to double and match the amount so that two rescues could receive a little help. We sent that off today to a larger organization, Bunny World Foundation – where we adopted our special needs bunny, Cosmo, from and to a microsanctuary devoted to rabbits and those in Ryan’s care (mostly special needs bunnies) whom we have come to love and consider part of our bunny family.
We also ended up having four other surprise recipients during the Giveaway who all received a 5% discount to use, if so inspired, on the upcoming shop launch.
Now, back to today’s share, but continuing with the theme of love.
After a lot of things shifting, some items being delayed at my printer’s office, needing more time to put everything together without pressure (because it’s all about fun and flow), and Astrid and our bunny family feeling into what day felt aligned for everything, we’ve decided upon Thursday, February 14th – Love Day – for our shop launch.
This also goes along with Astrid’s last message of love on Ask Astrid ~ Your Higher Heart Can Free You and the love my rabbit companions have cultivated within my life beyond words – the inspiration for all of this and my greatest joy in life.
I’ll be working on all of the final touches, along with the listings, between now and 2/14, so hopefully I’ll figure out all the little details easily, as I’ve been away from Etsy for like 5 years. However, the shop update is intended to be scheduled to launch and go live at 11:00 am PST on Valentine’s Day.
Anyone interested in some of the one-of-a-kind pieces that will be included, along with the original five whimsical rabbit paintings I shared in a previous post, this will assist you in setting clocks if you have felt them call.
I WILL also have prints of the original paintings, along with greeting cards and blank notebook journals that will make them available to more than one person, but there are only one of each five original paintings available.
After the shop launch, I’ll be creating more original pieces to share with you as well.
AND, alongside my paintings and items with my art on them, are the new inspirations I’ve been working away on – magickal mini rabbit faery garden DIY (do-it-yourself) kits.
And this is what I’m sharing a sneak peak of today, as I’ve finally gotten around to photographing everything to prepare the shop listings.
These are enchanted little themed worlds Astrid and I have dreamed up and brought forth into manifestation from our imaginations.
I’ve created 30 so far (which includes the Magick Orb that was part of the Giveaway), but I have another 4 – 6 that might make it into this first shop update, too, depending on timing.
Some are one-of-a-kind and can’t be duplicated, as they include things like unique, vintage planters, but many of the pieces you’ll see I will be able to recreate (either exactly or nearly exact) if you fall in love with something and it gets to someone else’s heart before you have a chance to bring it home yourself.
Everything is part of the collection we call “The Magick Rabbit ~ Storybook Tales of Wonder and Whimsy Come to Life.”
The photographs you see below are peaks at just some of what you can look forward to with these mini themed worlds that offer inspiration and reminders for life, along with providing a magickal little portal of possibility, joy, specific energies, and love to infuse each day with – all through the messages of rabbits as way-showers to hearing your song.
I’ve done all the procuring for you, Astrid and I dreamed up the visions, and the end results – photos – act as way-showers as well. They are of exactly all the pieces you will receive in your DIY kit and demonstrate how you can joyously put together your mini garden with your own hands, once received.
I’ll have several photos on the listings of all the different angles to assist with this, but for today I’m just sharing one sneak peak of some of them, along with their theme title.
We love inspiring creativity and hands-on expression so you can feel like the co-creator of your life and these easy-to-create beauties, while adding your own magick touches or inspirations. There’s something very empowering about moving creative energy through you and this will be a super easy and fun way to do just that.
Everything will take minutes to create, but the reward will be ever-lasting.
You’ll be able to start browsing on February 14th at 11:00 am PST at this link:
Now on to the bunny sneak peak of just some of what you can look forward to from my, and Astrid’s, heart to yours.
From the red rocks of Sedona to the white wonderland of Tahoe, I sit here surrounded by winter blankets of snow swathing the Forest Portal of our home.
We arrived back Monday evening, still vibrating in the energy of the Full Moon Lunar Eclipse – also a Super Blood Wolf Moon – and I’m just now fully integrating back in time for today’s Whimsical Wednesdays share from the Artist’s Corner.
We were away between Friday 1/11 and Monday 1/21, enjoying quite a full vacation and igniting of the new for 2019. Since we were driving, we decided on a stop-over in Las Vegas the first night to break up the drive – only exploring out for delicious comfort vegan food at The Modern Vegan for both dinner and early brunch, but the rest of our time was spent in the magick of Sedona’s high vibes.
We spent several days on our own anchoring in the energies, as Sedona welcomed us back, and then the rest of the time was with dear friends who all journeyed there from both the Grand Canyon and Tahoe to reunite.
I also had the chance to connect with two sweet friends that live in the area, we set intentions and sent out prayers from the Peace Garden two separate mornings, and of course we sampled all the great vegan eats and some new finds!
Every day was filled with tons of outdoor fun and exercise that tallied up to 60+ trail miles we ventured on foot and bike in 8 days – although I only went mountain biking once and Dave went three times making his mileage come to 74.
We thought it would be fun to see just how much adventure our feet take us on. 🙂
Unlike past blogs, I won’t be recounting our entire trip, but instead will be focusing on how Sedona was actually the birthing of my art and the “art of living” for me.
If you’d like to see a full photo journaling of the adventure, you can find all the beauty and adventure at my Instagram page here, even if you’re not on Instagram:
TaniaMarieArtist – (If you see two overlapping white squares in the right hand corner of a photo it means there are several photos to each post. You can click on them and then click the arrows to venture through)
It was interesting that our friends asked me about my time in Sedona, having me recount the evolution of my experiences with her energy since the beginning.
Although I now experience flow, joy, and tons of nature immersion, it wasn’t that way at start. Her powerful vortexes asked of me to dig deep, purge, cleanse, heal, and strip away everything I knew how to on a daily intensive that lasted for nearly two years. My journeys then were journeys into the inner sanctum of my heart and I only ventured out on small occasion to walk or drive somewhere where I could meditate, anchor in the work I’d done, set intentions, and receive insight for what was next. Other than that, I had no contact with anyone and in fact, had made a clean break from the life I had before.
I can share more another time, but it was very intense and hard work.
It also opened the door to my artistic journey I’m on now.
Although I drew nearly all of my life up until that moment, for joy and only once for actual pay, it wasn’t until I started uncovering layers within myself that I decided to purchase some oil paints, canvas, and start truly painting for the very first time in my life while on this inner journey living in Sedona.
It didn’t happen right away, but the more I released and healed, the more I felt the call to express myself on canvas.
The first painting I created was for my parents – it was an oil painting of Venice they have in their living room today – an image I replicated from their travels there. I just jumped right in, as if I’d been painting all of my life, but in actuality I was simply moving the energy that I had released from within that echoed of my lives on this earth and the artist within me that had always been there.
Upon completion of this painting, I then created some symbolic paintings that seemed to echo not only the healing and insights I’d received, but the messages of empowerment and transformation that were taking place.
I also created a few charcoal pencil portraits of my grandparents and others.
In essence I was tapping into the well of creative energy as a form of communicating what was within me and channeling through me, while also adding layers of healing that aided the work I was doing – giving myself therapy on every level imaginable and with every tool available that I knew of and was learning along the way.
My art became a form of self expression, much as this Super Full Moon in Leo has beckoned forth from us all – to shine like the light that you are and to birth new creative things from the power within that you embody innately.
It was in Sedona when this creative birthing took place, that I knew art or creative expression was an important part of who I am and what I needed as the breath of life to bring through.
And since, I’ve continued to channel creativity, as it flows through me in its many forms of expression that shift as I do.
It is also then that I realized life could be lived as a form of art and how the “art of living” started to manifest as my way of life – everything seen as a way to create beauty and inspiration, as well as to paint my way through experiences and weave the story I wanted to tell with different strokes of colors and feelings that reflected my essence.
From then on, even though I would still have more layers to journey through, I lived much more presently and with intention.
Sedona helped bring me back to the core of who I am and it was up to me how I wanted to paint the rest of my journey from the heart.
So while my first encounter with Sedona was intense, there has always been a love affair with her energies, knowing she supported exactly what I needed. Since that time, every trip thereafter has been softer and more joyous, flowing, and activating, igniting major shifts and leaps at just the precisely aligned moments.
I was always a willing partner to her dance, but I’m no longer struggling to keep up.
Creativity continues to ooze from each encounter with her and greater inspiration comes forth, providing me choices and new possibilities.
This trip was no exception, as I found myself not only receiving inspiration on the new, fun images I’ll be creating next, but also found myself dancing with yet another potential timeline I hadn’t entertained before.
I didn’t know until the trip was approaching that we’d be there for this powerful Full Moon Eclipse.
Perhaps many of you also felt its potency and like something has shifted and/or released. It seems as though things are moving forward and receiving a green light, after a thoughtful pause for a bit.
I shared this with a dear friend about my experience with it:
The eclipse was a powerful experience, although gentle too. We actually had opportunity to watch half of it with an astronomer and telescope, which was very cool to see it so clear and close. It was very clear in the evening and then a thin veil of clouds emerged, which made it symbolic, to me. It did not affect viewing, but I could tell there was still a very thin veil – so as if those layers are very close to full reveal collectively soon. The astronomer had about 4 telescopes set up and we could see star clusters as well, like the Pleiades. We left to go back to our Airbnb home because we had to pack and leave very early the next day for the long drive home, so I watched the second half there. The house was perfectly situated with the moon right in front of the main sliding door and windows and patio, so I watched the whole thing. It was very moving because at the same time I got word that a favorite bunny of mine (that I’ve followed on Instagram for a while) had passed right as the eclipse was darkening. I saw that he’d become ill earlier that day and I had a feeling something might happen. It was very potent to say the least, and being that he reminds me of my male bunny, Cosmo, because they had the same exact special needs and the same unconditionally loving demeanor and expressions, it hit me hard. It was quite something that this bunny, Flynn, had chosen such a powerful portal just like my bunnies Cosmo and Joy had, to depart – one on Samhain and the other on Summer Solstice Full Moon. It wasn’t random and it just clicked in a bunch of things, as well as felt like a big shift. Very heart opening and moving. So, it did ignite some memories, but also a seed of new. A lot through the bunnies, but deeper levels. I’m not sure as of yet what the new entails, but that it is a seedling awaiting choices that can ignite new timelines.
Something very profound hit me while watching the eclipse, which I haven’t felt in the past with other ones. It was special and sacred to come through rabbits, whom I hold most dear and reflective for me and my life. They, too, symbolize creative abundance and fertile impetus for the new. The Moon, of course, has a large rabbit on it. 😉
I received a big hit to my heart and core of what is a must for me to do right now.
The rest is a story yet to unfold, but will do so as I support this creative expression to live as the art of me – my creative contribution to the new beauty we’re weaving together as a collective.
New Etsy Shop Update:
Originally there was intention to start a Giveaway this past Monday 1/21, but with travels and such things shifted and Astrid has chosen this Friday 1/25 to begin the Giveaway instead. This will take place on Instagram.
There’s potential of things shifting with the shop launch date, which is set for Friday 2/1, but for now it’s still that date. I will be checking in with Astrid and my other star bunnies, as the days unfold here. I have a lot to prepare for the launch, and two items have been delayed until the 8th or sooner due to an office move my printer is undergoing.
I always trust my rabbit familiars with their impeccable and keen navigation, so I’ll defer to them if they want us to go ahead and launch on 2/1 with most of the items, adding the two later that first week of February. (Laura mentioned that the Lunar New Year is not until the 5th and the 8th the Moon enters Aries, so who knows what the bunnies have up their thumpers!)
Or, if we’ll just launch everything together when I know they will all be ready.
Either way, it’s coming up very soon and I have lots to prepare. So I’m off!
It was a wonderful trip away and I’m also happy to be back. I hope you all had a great week and that the energy of this Full Moon Eclipse has ignited a creative transformation within you too.