A little update and GIANT thank you….I don’t know how many of you follow along on my Instagram or Facebook pages, but I wanted to send out a big hug and loving gratitude to everyone who has lovingly and sweetly been supportive of my journey and the material that I share there and here on my blog, who has followed along with my own evolution, as well as for all of the support over the years of the channeled work I’ve had the honor to share with so many too. I am a big believer in sharing gratitude and how important that is to deepen into within yourself, but also in acknowledging the little and big things multi-universally and individually in connection with others that truly is an expression of LOVE manifest.
I/we never know the full reach of the things we do and put out there, but doing what moves us most in our hearts is the reason that fuels it all, nonetheless. At least that’s how I feel about it.
I’m always deeply moved and surprised when I do receive a message of gratitude or a personal share in relation to something I may have done or said, as it reflects the circle of connection and woven thread that runs through everything we embody, share, and do and its direct effects, regardless of our thinking nothing we do matters.
This is also why I feel the importance of being present daily with how I’m relating to others and any situation and how I might be able to challenge myself to arise to even greater energetic experiences with my responses spoken or unspoken.
I had written a thank you on my Facebook page several days ago, but wanted to share thanks here too, as I also noticed that this blog I’ve been lovingly cultivating is nearing 1 million visitors shortly and that really struck a chord too on many levels.
Since first sharing in any of these forums, so much has changed and it’s like so many versions of myself have been embodied and shed over and over – all done very publicly, as my process of moving through fears and my desire to reflect transparency and love of every step of the journey, as well as to support more courageous and authentic ways of living from the love and creative alchemy of Spirit moving through you.
Because things are shifting in focus for me, and as you know I’ve released much of what I used to do in order to embrace what is here and now moving through me “wanting” to be brought forth, I’ve joked to friends that I’ve felt like I’ve renounced the old. This to include older versions of me and have lovingly released these things as no longer the expressions I feel to carry forward because they no longer fit AND they in fact feel more like completion and tying up loose ends of things from my soul history, rather than now versions needing to be anchored anew.
That’s not to mean that things couldn’t at some point circle round in new versions if I felt so called, as I often see and acknowledge that energy when and if it arises, but they are not present currently and the more I’ve released things, the stronger the new has been anchoring inside me.
Anyway, I will eventually be giving everything a face lift and “new” updated version to match the shifts, but it will take a little time since that’s an involved process and right now am needing to follow the steps that come first.
So, soon there will be a new website and focal point, consolidation of things, and my social media and blog will also reflect these expressions.
It all excites me, although yes, will be a LOT of work and dedication. Luckily it comes from a place of love and essence channeling through so that makes it fun and extremely rewarding.
In terms of Facebook, a few years back I had to create a new Facebook page (because your personal profile pages are only allowed a certain limit of connections that I reached) and I intended the new page to also have more of a focus of sharing my life’s work and path more in depth. I haven’t been able to keep up with updating it is often as I would like or in the way that I’ve wanted, as life’s journey has taken me into times of needing to channel my energy into balancing life and supporting shifts with my creative output and new paths emerging – this leading to not posting a lot there in general, especially when I’ve taken breaks from online. And yet, so many have still lovingly supported that channel and I thank you so much for that.
However, in the coming months and forward I will be more regularly posting things and new material there that I hope people who follow will enjoy. It will root my new focuses and embody my life’s love and greatest passions/joys to share with you, just as I do here as well – to me, my most important work yet.
If you are on Facebook and have interest and haven’t already been following there, I would like to invite you to my page: https://www.facebook.com/taniamarieartist/
And in the meantime, if you’re on Instagram, I’ve been posting the most there since it’s quick and a creatively fun outlet (this will also reflect the upcoming transitions in months to come though) and would love to connect with and follow along with your posts there too. You can find me on Instagram as taniamarieartist.
I hope you’ll find the changes to be inspirational and enjoyable, and as always, please do pass your own links along and/or connect with me on both Instagram and Facebook, as I love supporting other visionaries, artists of all genres, healers, inspirational souls, nature lovers, earth guardians, cosmic travelers, compassion ambassadors, harmony weavers, people following their hearts, courageously paving new paths, and speaking their truths.
I’m excited for where the journey is headed and although things in the world and some realities seem “off” and challenging, I still believe there is much evolving in incredible ways and new realities are being birthed with our learning to harness these energies for the highest good of all concerned.
Keep doing your part and coming from your heart.
In love, gratitude, and creative alchemy.
I thought I’d post this as a short blog after having posted it on social media because it’s special to our hearts. The photo you see here is one that our friend, Seba Johnson (history making Olympian as the first African American woman to ski in the Olympics and youngest alpine ski racer at age 14, vegan since birth, actor, speaker, and simply loving soul), captured a couple of days ago on one of the hikes we’ve shared with her since meeting and spending time with her while she’s here in her childhood home of Lake Tahoe working on her memoirs.
This is a very meaningful tree to us. During the winter Dave and I would snow shoe here and this little tree, now about 3-4 feet taller, used to get plummeted by snow and the wind from the slope it lives on at the bottom, completely bending it over to the ground with the weight.
We would free him and dig him out every time we’d pass after a snow storm, so that he had a chance and wasn’t permanently bent. We’d do it to other trees too, but this one in particular would get hit the hardest and became connected to us.
Seba (pictured above with me on our 7.4 mile, 1200 feet climb Tahoe Rim Trail hike) thought it would be a cool idea to take photos of us with him over time to see his progress. As you can see he’s pretty straight even though at a slight angle, but doing well! During winter this was not the case and we wondered how he’d fare, as he was completely bowing to the ground.
Other large trees above him haven’t been so lucky and really are curved, twisted, warped, and likely will fall at some point. This little one was born in a challenging spot, but it is just those challenges that make you stronger and provide even more to share with others.
Life is definitely an adventure and often times a challenging journey.
Every little thing we do, DOES make a difference, even if you can’t see it right now or are provided immediate feedback and affirmation of it. You simply need to follow your heart, regardless of any reward, knowing it’s just about being in your highest essence in each moment and being in that unconditional universal love as much as possible.
We’re grateful for the time we’ve spent with Seba, her sweet dog companions Braddock and Langston, and being able to share some special places to our hearts with her, and so many synchronicities we share including living in the same place she used to (her condo is just below ours) where she spent her childhood and ski training days.
As an animal activist and vegan all of her life, enjoying the magickal and synchronous signs, honoring of Nature and Earth, our being just 2 and a half months apart in age, all adoring Lake Tahoe as our home and special portal space (she plans to live here again too), and both currently writing books, we had a lot of beautiful connections that will be lovely to keep touching in on, which now will include the growth and life of our special tree that will mirror the life shifts we all go through.
He already mirrors the challenges we’ve each been faced with and now will reflect what we embrace, nurture, and embody to bring forth for the rest of our lives.
We’re grateful for the time we’ve been able to share with our new friend Seba and for the journey that continues to provide rich experiences and beautiful surprises around each corner.
I look forward to seeing how our journeys evolve from here, and how our beloved tree will experience his own growth and evolution. We’ll be sure to nurture him, as long as we are here and as much as he nurtures us and all of life that depends on him and Nature.
(Photos courtesy of Seba Johnson)
Today, and always, I celebrate the freedom to be me and when I/we trust being myself/ourselves we will find how everything else falls into synchronous alignment. Allowing your natural essence and channel to blossom open and following that guidance directly and fearlessly you will experience greater sense of well being and greater effects of change around you. It’s when you don’t support and follow that inner guidance that you feel deadened, depleted, a loss of power, and those around you mirror similar and trigger recognition of this – true power lies in being heartfully you. So choose to trust and support the spirit within you and honor its expression, as it will guide you to the highest and most harmonious ways.
“Spiritual people can be some of the most violent people you will ever meet. Mostly, they are violent to themselves. They violently try to control their minds, their emotions, and their bodies. They become upset with themselves and beat themselves up for not rising up to the conditioned mind’s idea of what it believes enlightenment to be. No one ever became free through such violence. Why is it that so few people are truly free? Because they try to conform to ideas, concepts, and beliefs in their heads. They try to concentrate their way to heaven. But freedom is about the natural state, the spontaneous and un-self-conscious expression of beingness. If you want to find it, see that the very idea of ‘a someone who is in control’ is a concept created by the mind. Take one step backward into the unknown.” ~Adyashanti
I completed my 10 day fast and 3 days of cleansing ease-in to get slowly back into eating regularly again. And I have to say that I feel so light, clear, and more in my essence. My mom commented yesterday how my eyes have gotten so light. This seems to be one of the physical shifts reflecting from this fast and recalibration, not to mention the literal snake skin shedding of 10+ pounds of old energy I was carrying.
In all, I feel super energized and really peace filled inside and out on an increased level. I can literally feel the light flowing through and this deep sense of balance and harmony.
Definitely inspiring and freedom-invoking. Like a bird soaring on the breeze.
Today’s 4th of July marks a return to healthy eating with a deepened sense of connection to my lifestyle choices.
It also ignites new shifts in the works coming forth into my life, seeming to show through in this capture, below, just two days ago of change taking form.
Bare-faced and nature immersed… The way I feel most free. Freedom to me is being who I really am and having the courage to shine my light no matter what.
Today also marks 6 years since my French grandpa on my mom’s side passed. He is the one grandparent I connected to most who helped cultivate my belief in the artist me, and nurtured me in that direction. We had a special bond and I know he walks beside me, encouraging me like he did when he was alive, to nurture and bring forth my gifts – believing in the creative artist I am.
He reminds me, too, to freely let that wild visionary artist out and not let anything conform to any standards, rules, and ideals of others/society in terms of that creative part of me with any of my projects. This speaks true, as even with the book I’m writing, it will not follow any parameters other than my inner guidance and creative heart – creating my own genre.
And that is freedom to me.
These recent photos taken of me in the last two days really feel to reflect the deeper me I keep accessing more parts and layers of on this journey – integrating so many layers of timeless spirit. The parts unbridled and nurtured with love that I am drawing forth and have been sinking into greater comfort to share out loud.
And speaking of layers and journeys….last night’s dream was a potent one that is too far involved in symbolism to explain its meaning, but I felt to share it, as it feels very significant right now and I love writing things out to deepen the template of its birth and unfolding in my life.
The dream was set in an otherwordly dimension. I remember something/someone was following me or trying to stop me and my escape was through this journey I took – but in fact was the original focus I was on, anyway and not anything I was running from, but determined not to be deterred from.
I was traveling these parallel realities in this moving almost enclosed like rapidly moving escalator (best way I can describe it, but at the speed of light) that went forward diagonally then back diagonally and so on, along timeliness but not really past or future but different levels of now reality. (think the movie, Interstellar to sort of get a feeling/glimpse of an idea, when Cooper is in the Black Hole peering through the timeline layers of bookshelves)
I could see windows on each level with glimpses of that timeline and the people/beings/things within each. And each window/timeline was numbered.
I chose to stop at #47. (Could have age significance or numerological symbolism, as this number does in fact speak to everything powerfully – I’m 44)
I got out in what was an odd reality with people dressed creatively as if Alice in Wonderland-like combined with futuristic look that were at like a gathering or celebration. Things were sort of dark and felt like night or underground.
There was a room I entered where ahead of me was a dark tunnel labeled The Rabbit Hole with red around the black tunnel.
Now, originally this was not the destination where I was going, nor the focus of why I was traveling. I can’t remember the specific goal, but I was on a mission trying to do/fulfill something or free something, but stopped here.
I realized there was a sort of ritual or quest/game journey going on that only certainly people or initiates would undertake, which involved The Rabbit Hole.
I could feel the depths, layers, and potentially scary things needing utmost courage that were down in the dark depths where a giant White Rabbit was – but not easily found and quite the magickal trickster who I felt had a shadow side that would need cunning to outsmart.
If chosen to take on this task, you were not guaranteed survival, but you would enter the Rabbit Hole alone with only inner vision to guide you. That is, if you had the courage to find the White Rabbit.
Then a cloaked woman showed up and asked if I wanted to find the White Rabbit or set all of the White Rabbits free.
In her arms she carried black cloaks, which I would need to wear if I chose the mission and accepted the task to enter into the darkness and see if I could do so.
I agreed because I instinctively got the feeling this was the key to the bigger goal/mission I was originally on. I had to do this if I was to accomplish the bigger picture.
And so, in my dream, I was getting ready to enter The Rabbit Hole and had just done so.
I don’t remember anymore.
This somewhat seems to echo the symbolism I shared in this post of mine from a month ago today:
Yes incredibly freeing life changes are a-knockin’. And it will take the greatest onpour of spirit essence into it all to manifest.
It makes sense that I took this purposeful and necessary “detour” to follow the White Rabbit, which is symbolic of the transitional journey and process, as well as the new opportunities, ideas, and paths being pursued.
And this just may be the journey calling many of us, too, right now.
Despite people’s doubts or inability to understand where I’m heading, despite the hurdles and challenges, or the shadow dynamics that will need to be journeyed through…I forge on as the artist of life I was born to be. Whom my grandfather saw in me. And whom I have the freedom to embody and choose to express however I desire.
We each do. Remember that.
(The first photo of Astrid and me reminds me almost of an Alice in Wonderland image…or a Faery with her familiar. Although Astrid is not white, she embodies the shadow I will journey within The Rabbit Hole and is also the illusion perceived in what our eyes alone tell a story to us about. The true gift is revealed to those willing to travel through the illusion and alchemy is achieved when we discover truth through the vision of our hearts. This reveals how light and shadow is within us all and what seems like a Dark Rabbit, may in fact also be the White Rabbit in disguise. And vice versa. One of the many gifts Astrid is sharing with me, as I had felt a White Rabbit coming to me – Zephyr indeed is that. However, I am learning that Astrid embodies the less obvious (the complex layers of my new journey) and is initiating those ready to work true magick and alchemy in understanding the realities of perception and true vision, along with true power.)
Woo! The last 10 days have been quite the journey. As mentioned, I’ve been on a fast/cleanse since the first full day Astrid came home and right as Summer kicked in. Today is actually my 10th and final day of the process itself, but I won’t be returning to regular food until Tuesday (coincidentally the 4th of July!), as there’s a 3 day ease-in process to prepare the body and stomach for food again. So it’s really like a 13 day cleanse – or nearly 2 weeks. However, in some ways I feel I’ve been cleansing longer, as being in Austin, Texas for a week in the high heat and humidity, had me sweating out toxins too. And in general, have just felt like an energetic purge has been taking place.
I wrote before that I in fact had no intention of doing any kind of a cleanse, as I’ve really just not felt called to it anymore, having done so many in the past. However, I got the hit that it would be of benefit energetically at this time with all the new things coming, which is the only reason I followed the guidance.
Some people cleanse for health reasons, to lose weight, fast for longevity and spiritual benefits, but I simply did it for a complete energetic reset to shift my frequency and on all levels, remove any old, to start anew.
That said, of course all of the other reasons people do this for would still end up happening during the experience, but they were not my focus, nor goal.
Since it wasn’t my intention to do a cleanse, and literally was spiritual guidance, I wanted something easy in terms of not needing to buy a kit, nor buy a bunch of things and maintain a regime of preparations. I wanted low maintenance and low effort – other than commitment.
So I ended up doing the Master Cleanse (very effective especially for my personal goal), which I’d only done once before, about 6-7 years ago. However, that time I had to stop at 8 days because my hypo-glycemia was kicking in and I don’t play around with that. Always listen to your body!
This time I made it through the 10 days yay! And quite extraordinarily too.
Never do a fast or cleanse without consulting your doctor, if in fact you have other health conditions and are taking medications. I’m not a doctor, nor health expert, I just do things I feel guided to do and know only my own personal experience of them. But we are all different and need different things, precautions, and protocol.
I also don’t personally recommend this particularly cleanse for everyone, as it is really challenging. It takes a commitment, tempered with listening to your body, and will put you to the test for sure.
My experience was this.
The first 4 days were great. I loved the drink, felt good, and was active everyday doing hiking 3 of the days (3-5 miles) and kayaking 1 of the days. All of which was incredible, but I had the energy to do it.
Then the next 3 days became challenging in terms of waking in the morning feeling ultra weak, until I got going and started intaking the liquids I was supposed to, which then got me back on track and feeling fine. I also started thinking about all the food I wanted to eat when it was done and collecting recipes – living vicariously through the imagination. But while I’ve heard of people who fast getting lower back aches and pains, likely due to toxins from the kidneys and organs they’re cleansing, I instead had mild aches right above my knees, which was interesting, but uncomfortable and odd. This would happen at night before bed, making it challenging to find a comfortable position until I finally fell asleep and then it was gone when I woke. I wonder if symbolically this had to do with moving forward in life in a new direction and the increased flexibility needed for the next “leg” of the journey. I also wasn’t able to do the level of outdoor exercise/activities I was, and decreased it to just short walks and beach/swimming time to relax, but still get some good vitamin D and nature. Considering, these were pretty mild challenges since I know people can go through some crazy stuff.
But the last 3 days were back to being great. No more weak mornings, aches went away, and energy rose. I was able to do short 2 mile mild hikes and generally felt energized. I was able to work with prepping the wood for some of the Magick Crystal Wands, which took energy sanding and sealing. I wasn’t thinking about food anymore either, but instead what I also found in these last few days was that my body now was not really interested in intaking anything, yet had lots of energy. I felt more like a breatharian and light being, having a hard time consuming the amounts they say to drink, and so I listened to my body instead.
And here I am now completing the course today, feeling clear, light, and definitely in a different state of mind and being. I had made it over the hump and the detox period and got myself to the other end, or the “light at the end of the tunnel.”
I did in fact lose likely about 10 + pounds (I don’t own a scale, but I can vividly tell by the dramatic change in my body – Dave noticed too), which again was not my goal, but just happens of course if you’re not eating anything and flushing everything out during the process. You do have a special lemonade drink you intake, which is composed of water, maple syrup, lemon juice, and cayenne, but other than that you are taking a senna tea (which helps bowel movements since you’re not intaking any solid food) at night and a salt water flush in the morning (don’t leave home until that flush out is done or you’ll have accidents!), which is helping to eliminate everything and move out toxins, as well as clean out your colon and digestive system, inducing forced bowel movements.
I will likely gain all or at least some of this back, as I get back into a normal routine again, but the key is to keep on a healthy momentum, otherwise cleanses are a waste of time if you jump back into junk food and unhealthy food, in general, and the benefits will be temporary only. It’s a good opportunity to make those lifestyle and dietary changes you’ve been feeling called to do.
I don’t plan on another cleanse, unless something strikes me like this one to be essential for my evolution. But I did find this one to be perfect in timing with Astrid’s arrival, the onset of Summer, New Moon Supermoon, some things shifting in our lives, and a new path about to happen for me.
Again, I don’t recommend this for everyone and don’t even recommend it to anyone who hasn’t thoroughly been advised or looked into it themselves, as it is NOT a piece of cake. To me it’s like fasting, with the benefits of cleansing. But like with any cleanse or fast, you’ll bring up a lot of stuff on many levels, including emotional, that may be tough to handle. Not to mention, you’ll go through some physical adjustments while those toxins move out! Yet, there is opportunity to refresh and revitalize, as well as take your life to another level and feel more alive, clear, and light.
For me it’s been great, despite the middle challenge I had to go through to get to the other side, which is like anything in life worth having and experiencing.
I would never force myself, if I thought my body couldn’t handle it or was starting to show signs of deterioration and inability to move forward for its own good. I checked in and it was simply about embracing the uncomfortable for a bit because it was just part of the cleanse/detox that if flowed with and not fought, would get me to the side of ease and grace.
It also made me look at things in my life again, in review, which has been powerful, affirming, and grounding, and even my relationship with food, which has both deepened and expanded as well.
Getting to where I am now I know that I don’t “need” food, but I do love and appreciate that part and choice of being human and being able to enjoy the sensuality of life and nature’s goodness. It makes you experience both sides of the coin (our Cosmic and Earthly selves) and integrate them in a balanced way that works perfectly and harmoniously for you.
And as I’ve been telling people a lot recently before this cleanse, it has anchored in the fact that I live for now and bringing forth everything possible that passionately lives in my heart and am not concerned about the future, nor of death. Nor do I strive for longevity. For me it’s about quality of life and as long as I feel I’m doing everything I can right now and living from the joy and peace of my spirit, then that’s more than enough for me.
I feel just so super charged with momentum of what’s in motion and ready for any new things that come my way. I also received some insights for my wands that will challenge my creative abilities. I also had future visions and heart ties that spoke through from the other side of their doorways. And lots of synchronicity and alignments showing up as fuel to my focus.
So overall, the nudge to do this in fact has been reiterated and I’m sure I’ll find out more of the benefits, as the days go on following full completion of this journey.
As promised, I wanted to share a blog purely devoted to our experience of the Crystal Castle & Shambhala Gardens in Byron Bay since there were just too many photos to devote to social media space alone. Although what is felt and experienced in person can never be fully grasped in any one or even 100 photos alone, at least these will give you an idea and feel for what this magickal and potently sacred place is like. It was one of my top three favorite experiences of the trip, although they can’t be compared. It felt incredibly important to be here when we were, which wasn’t planned, but happened to align with the New Moon, as well as timely and important to supporting the manifestations of goals and dreams in our lives.
We visited the Crystal Castle & Shambhala Gardens, getting there right when it opened and we’re so glad we did, as it provided a wonderful time of day and a much clearer space with not many people to share it with. And, as shared, seemed perfect right at the precipice to the New Moon. Incredibly super-charged activation galore took place too! I had no expectations of what we’d find or experience, but it exceeded imagination, as well as ignited it.
We were greeted and embraced by stunning botanical gardens, rainforest, World Peace Stupa, views, Aboriginal mural, labyrinth, enchanted crystal cave, crystal fountain, sound healing, music of the plants experience, crystal matrix, amazing statues, fossils, Damanhur spiral, rose quartz reflexology walk, the biggest and most beautiful natural crystals in the world, and more… all found here.
Everywhere you turn there are crystals galore and I love how they are integrated naturally into the grounds and nature, as if they were always there and which merges Earth and Cosmos so beautifully.
Even the pathways are encrusted with crystals, geodes, and stones in patterns and sporadically, but all intentfully. The labyrinth path is also laden with rose quartz. The whole place is a huge crystal grid and energy center that sends a beam out into the etheric realm for manifestation.
A Faery’s dream world!
Each step taken was with great intent and everything we came upon along our wandering through this enchanted place received a “wow!” from both of us. We engaged every experience pure of heart and full with love and gratitude. I was in such reverence of these crystal giants, ancient ones, Earth and Cosmic historians and record keepers, master beings, sentinels and guardians. And with each labyrinth or spiral walk, turn of a prayer wheel, and communion, I blasted out energy to the collective, as well as more intimately for personal intentions, hopes, and dreams.
I used to only engage in energy focused out to others, but have come to equally voice my own desires for the highest good of all concerned knowing that they are one and the same.
I was amazed, but not surprised, to see the energy captured in the photos (and glad we took them), especially when Dave and I stood between the different sets of Amethyst guardians, as it felt like we were in a vortex, activating a portal, and experiencing the crystal matrix of creation. We were being guided through portal after portal, traversing the Cosmic dimensions, one world into the next, and the next.
I was surrounded by beings of light and I felt the giantness of my own being. I felt as tall as the Amethyst guardians by my side. And they were there to remind me of this actuality.
Chills after chills ran through me and I knew everything was not only possible, but happening now. I felt the incredible love and support surrounding me, and how it is there for us all if we open to it despite not seeing it at times in our lives.
I felt at home. Yes, this was home. These beings were my family….my memories….my heart…my spirit.
I engaged my imagination, creativity, and let myself go wild with dreaming. We both imagined big and were full with inspiration and belief in what we imagined.
Alongside each activation and what also felt like more initiations into the next phase of the journey at a new level, I experienced three manifestations of support and gifts.
While walking the labyrinth, soft, sweet feathers showed up along the path, one after another and another, and as I circled to center and back. Angelic support was all around and the feathers reminded me of letting my heart be free to fly as love guides me to soar on toward my joy and dreams and not be held back by the past, nor dwelling on it. I loved the Buddha and giant Amethyst being that resided over the labyrinth. I spent time after with the both sharing the love.
Then later while walking through the bamboo path, which was like this amazing tunnel opening to doorways at both ends and a statue of Vishnu riding on the shoulders of Garuda – both feeling potent as Vishnu is one of the three most important Hindu gods that supports, sustains, and governs the universe. His role is to return to the Earth in troubled times and restore balance of good and evil…to restore justice and order when they are threatened. And Garuda is the bird-god (birds are so prominent in my life and always gifting me feathers) who represents courage and our higher spiritual aspirations. He is said to have brought the nectar of immortality from heaven to Earth.
Just as I entered this tunnel I looked down and this beautiful bamboo creation appeared on the path directly in front of me. It was woven natural and green bamboo with bamboo woven flower that is like a case to hold pens or pencils. That felt to support my writing and the weaving of words and inspirational ideas into a story, not to mention writing the story of my life’s journey in general.
And the third manifestation was a crystal.
Just after I’d spent time between the two most giant Amethyst guardians (you can see more of their amazing energy manifesting in the photo below), I went to walk in the grass, away from any crystals and suddenly I was called to look down and saw something partially hidden in the grass. I reached down and was amazed to find a quartz crystal cluster. It was nothing like any crystals within the vicinity or even any I’d seen along our wandering throughout at that point. But there it was. And it feels so ancient and Cosmic. It appears to be part of a much larger crystal, as if it was taken from one to be connected to its energy and channel it, but for me to have as a gift. I was in deep gratitude of this gift and it feels like it will be assisting me with things to come.
That night I also had a dream that felt important. Not only did it come after the Crystal Castle experience, but on the New Moon. I haven’t had an extraterrestrial dream for a while (at least that I remember), which in actuality are never “dreams,” but my journeys with them when I’m most able to travel interdimensionally and freely. As a Pisces, my “dream” journeys are potent and where everything important takes place. Much of why sleep is actually a chance to do my most intricate work and why it’s so essential to me to have that time.
Anyway, part of the dream was about my engaging with a group of ET’s…different than ones I can remember working with. I had decoded something that they needed and had been trying to decode themselves for a very long time, but couldn’t figure out. I created symbols that embodied the energy of what I decoded and put them into a ring that reflected this. I can still see the symbolism that was created. And this acted like a portal opener or key to something. I also had images on an old recorder or something that they didn’t want others to get a hold of and see, and although I would never tell or show anyone I knew that meant they wanted me to relinquish them and so I did, to keep it safe. It felt much like I was doing some bridge work that felt important on a Cosmic level. And not surprising with the Cosmic activations of the day.
Also, what I found interesting was that I never feel called to do any sort of physical cleanses anymore, as it just doesn’t resonate and I’ve basically been making shifts on all levels without the need for them anymore. At a couple of junctures along my journey I had done some, especially this one time period of some of the largest shifts into my current path I’ve been on when I did a 180 in my life kind of overnight (but not really if you look at the build up before of work done). That time period also coincided with being 100% raw vegan and feeling I needed a complete reset and boost up several levels, so along with the raw I did several major cleanses. This took me to a new level of experience and clarity. Then over the course of time, since, I balanced and harmonized out.
But for some reason I received the message of one cleanse being supportive at this time, right after I left the Crystal Castle. My sense is that is tied to another sort of reset and anchoring of this new journey I’m on and inviting in/being invited to/stepping into.
I wondered when it would take place, thinking perhaps right when I returned home, but in fact I received that it will begin on Summer Solstice, which also happens to align with when the new bunny love is entering my life and also timely with how the project I’m working on with my writing is lining up in terms of its process. Not to mention, some other things taking place in our lives.
I’m normally not interested in these kinds of things anymore – cleanses that is – but to receive that message when I’m not focused on it, seems like I shouldn’t ignore it and so I embrace this and will begin as instructed. It will be a 10 day cleanse and reset.
So, yes, a lot was ignited and took place with this experience, but also wouldn’t have happened if we hadn’t been in Australia when we were and how it all aligned.
And we also discovered a most amazing, enchanted, magickal mushroom in the gardens that was hidden. Did it manifest just for us like these other gifts? Was it indication of this vortex we’d entered? Was it reflective of our beliefs creating what we see?
I believe it is all of these and more.
I have never actually seen one of these in nature ever – a Faerytale mushroom come to life! If you washed off the dirt you’d reveal more of its white polka dots. What an incredible discovery. There was definitely a portal here, as I actually didn’t even know these really existed except in the magickal realms. Well, I guess I was in one! And it felt to indicate that I’m literally, more and more, living in the world of my own creation and that isn’t the same for everyone although perfect for each of us, as it’s based on our vibrational alignment with belief meeting resonance and reality.
Incredible doesn’t begin to express it all. And gratitude doesn’t either in terms of what I feel toward it all.
These aren’t even all of my photos. I didn’t even capture half of what you can find here. Imagine that!
I imagine everyone has their own individual experience here at the Crystal Castle, just like we all do with everything in life, but I do believe that it will bring to the forefront, reveal, and amplify things for you in terms of your beliefs and has the potential of presenting doorways of experience for you to enter if chosen and ready.
I said yes, again.
It’s been a fully packed and fun filled last several days with Lynne Day “in da house,” but wanted to send out some Easter wishes of renewal, creativity, and cosmic expansion. Between the back-to-back Sedona and friend visit here in Tahoe, it’s really felt like a celebration of Spring, joy, and inspiration. I know not everyone is experiencing the openings and flow, but within every experience is opportunity for us to embrace and make new choices.
It’s not that I don’t come up against challenges or have a lot of contrasting things come up around me, but it’s my approach to life, the inner peace I’ve found, understanding things from a bigger picture perspective, and having put to practice a process that is now natural, that enables me to be in the experience and reality of my own choosing without being thrown off my balance.
Anyway, I don’t intend this to be a long blog, but did want to reshare this post on Easter and rabbits for anyone interested and open to exploring more:
And I also wanted to briefly share the joyous and inspiring energy from the last few days of Lynne’s visit, which although was only 2 1/2 days, was quite rich and packed in a bunch.
We got to experience a lot, which included belly laughs until we literally cried and cried, shenanigans galore (or as Lynne calls them, bananigans), good food, good conversation, lots of nature time and exercise (Lynne and I would go out on a hike before lunch, then again with Dave after lunch, outdoor music and food, play time with the kitties, a bald eagle sighting and connection (her spirit animal), lots of goose fun, tons of discoveries and treasures, both snow days and sunshiny warm and crystalline still days, a sound bath by me with my crystal bowls, and yes, banana time! (For more background on the “bananas” please visit the link on Lynne’s name at the beginning).
On our last day banana we decided to seal our banana relationship once and for all with a little ceremony and activation all choreographed by us, directed and inspired by Lynne, and executed solely by us. You’ll see some of the photos below of the “nuptials” and celebrations….the banana adventures have just begun!
(Photo disclaimer: It has to be mentioned that these shots were all taken solely by us bananas…yes, even the panorama shots of us at both ends was intricately directed by Lynne and executed by us where one of us would start out in position while the other started the panoramic filming…then once out of lens would run and take over camera duties while the other ran into position in time to be in the shot. Lol!! And we did them in one take!!!!)
If you follow along on Instagram or Facebook, I’ve already posted our journey there, so I’ll just share some of the photos here to hopefully infuse some lightness, laughter, and love in your day.
As truly, that is what matters the most.
How much you can find the humor in things, enjoy what there IS, take things lightly, and feel the love constantly flowing through you.
After the “nuptials” we met Dave for another outdoor, live music lunch before Lynne flew off.
My parents then gave us a surprise visit a few hours after Lynne left.
Isn’t my mom adorable? She posed this way herself with two pine cones (one she found and one I found for her – both she was taking home). As above, so below….A true Faery!
We took them on a walk along the Lake, which gifted us all this, which I’m sharing with you and hope it brings all things full circle, as I’ve been seeing in my own life with everything.
I no longer experience life as a challenge, but simply as a state of being and adventure of spirit in rhythmic harmony. That’s a huge thing to say after everything, but more importantly to experience. This has enabled me to move in and out of experiences easily, to understand my processes and ability to transform everything, to not have to defend my reality or how I engage with experience, and feeling more at home because I’ve found that within and embraced creating my own world that merges now and then, but mostly dwells in its own realm.
I was musing with a dear friend of mine on major shifts we’ve been feeling and we shared mutual inability to explain things in fullness because words are too definitive and finite, and don’t really encompass the nebulousness of shifts that are taking place or being felt.
I went from hardly being here a year and a half ago to a return to the body, but in a new way that is in it, but not of it – just like my experience is in things/this world, but not of it. This taking place with my release of my life and heading out on our Magick Bus adventure where I immersed in nature, retrieved parts of myself, and created a new relationship with everything.
No more stigma with being here, around the physical body, able to see through different eyes and how I could integrate things in the way of transmutation.
It’s hard to explain, but there’s been increased and more regular levels of what I call grace in suspension.
I am not focused on living an orgasmic life (another thing my friend and I touched upon) of heightened experiences of emotion and feeling (although I’ve flowed with this), but rather, a state of being both beyond the senses and all encompassing that creates that peace, grace, or harmony. Even these words could be limiting, but are closest to what I can find.
And yet, I move in and out of things/experiences by choice and when needed, always knowing my core state of being can navigate me through and back.
Things continue to morph and how things will look is continually unfolding, but as I’ve mentioned, it feels like an integration of Earthly and Cosmic being as a return, yet from a different perspective.
While sharing all of this…this is simply a small portion of MY OWN experience and not indicative of anyone else’s journey, as we will each create our own realities and have our own experiences to go through, which creates a full spectrum of possibilities and potentials along the collective web, as we realize the grand illusion of so much more than even we thought we were aware of.
And yet, this is all perfect too.
This leads me to how I recently embraced the nudge to come out of some of my sabbatical of sorts, I’ve been in, but truly it’s been a reset on life.
I felt there was call to open up a channel to help guide some who were ready for a big shift or going through one themselves, so that they could feel more grounded and empowered in their new life reset too.
This started back up two days ago on the 1st of March, which was quite a powerful day, so much so that literally right as I was ending my last client call the power went out here for 3 hours and did so throughout the neighborhood. Granted there was no storm, no winds, nothing visible that caused this like other times it’s gone out, so indeed felt connected with a stepping up and bigger embrace of energy all around taking place, which needed a reset.
What I’ve come to see is that the types of souls and clients that are drawn to work with me are people who have done the work, are very aware and conscious, are extremely magickal and powerful, are living an integration life, been through great challenges and hurdles, but are strong and endured, and are in the midst of making the next huge leap, ready to let it all go, move forward, and ground into their new life and passions they’ve always felt called to.
All they need is that extra guidance, insight and perspective, reflection, reiteration, and boost to step fully through the door and no longer straddle two worlds.
My goal is to get these people up and out and without need for reliance on lengthy and long-term coaching, as these are not souls that need this. I like to empower people to step out into the world and know they have the ability to do it, feel confident, and realize their power, then go for it. Again, this is why a particular kind of person comes to me who truly is ready for that and that’s why they show up.
I love the beautiful synchronicities (pretty astounding in many ways) that is shared with these souls, which speaks to the alignment of resonance and timing for these connections that you just know was agreed upon way before now.
I feel humbled to witness their journeys, and how they even reflect for me, my own, and am so happy for them, as these are some extraordinary souls who by their stepping into greater responsibility and commitment, will continue to lead the way for many others.
Just from our first call (the second rounds begin again today here shortly, as I like to kick things off the first week with giving things a big boost) so much movement took place because of their courage.
I’m not sure how long I’ll be offering these sessions for two clients per 5 weeks, but I know it will be as long as souls I share an agreement with are looking for that guidance and as long as I am able to provide the energy and time, which is why I honored that balance that felt right for me too.
You can read about this here: Intuitive Energy Guidance/Coaching
I’m grateful for the experiences I’ve gone through that allow me to be a stable anchor and draw upon what I’ve moved through, as well as be able to not be affected psychically from the interactions, as I would have been in the past due to my inability to productively use my sensitivities/empathing and not having energetic boundaries.
And while I’ve said there are aspects of my previous work/services I offered that I will never offer/open up again, a couple might show up in different ways or if I’m nudged like with the sessions.
That said, I was just asked about teaching a Reiki Master Teacher workshop here in Lake Tahoe this summer by one of my past students who would be traveling this way for it. This aligns with the kind of guidance and support I’m nudged to offer at this time for people ready to step up and out.
So there is potential, depending on the nature of the workshop – if private or group – that I may be able to offer that to anyone interested in moving forward with their Reiki journey, or wants to review or deepen into things with your practice (maybe stepping into this more now that you’re ready) if you’ve gone through the training a long time ago, or with another teacher.
If this calls to you, you can let me know by contacting me here so we can discuss things and I’ll see what kind of interest develops for putting this together: Contact Tania Marie
And a quick update.
During a lot of the powerful energy and shifts lately, I’ve completed my first four magick crystal wands I’ve been working on. I’ll be sharing them soon. I ended up finding two more branches in the forest that spoke to me, so two turned into four.
I still have a scepter and two staves to create/channel, but they are going to take a while because they are much larger and have a lot involved. Plus, my hands need a break, as working with these creations takes a toll on them, plus there is a lot of intent, energy alignment, and more going into these…I’ll share that when I share them.
I love the way we each are uniquely journeying, and yet we’re simply being, which encompasses a frequency within the collective harmonics. Although individual and whole within that personally, we are simultaneously part of a whole that IS.
Lots of love to you.
The difficulty and challenge seems to always lie in the finding of a hidden place, thing, or part of yourself, wherein lies the test.
Once you are a vibrational match and the alignment is activated into the embrace of being, this acceptance constitutes your no longer having need for testing.
Then, the return is simple.