Every day is a gift, each moment is an adventure unfolding, and every breath is an opportunity for expansion. It’s been an incredible journey with surprises around every corner and most recently, surprises discovered in our own backyard. We haven’t yet moved into our new magickal dream house, but we visit each day to manage remodeling, care for our new trees, and when time allows, explore a bit of our enchanted forest garden. I’d made promises to the Faeries to work with the energy here and in turn they opened the doors for this house to manifest and have sprinkled hidden treasures to uncover along the way.
I’ve already begun to plant some seeds of new in our front yard for the Faeries, which include five daffodil and five iris bulbs that were gifted to me by Faery sis Laura. If all goes well, they’ll be blooming once the snow thaws, bringing enchantment and color to the entrance of our home, lined along the large trees and Manzanita where I felt called to place them. As mentioned, an earth worm showed up while I was doing so, which felt like an affirmation of placement and gratitude.
We’ve been starting to work on a few changes to the area just outside my new office as well, and have been dream journeying with ideas for the yard there that will become a Magick Sanctuary that will at some point include a labyrinth and more. A work in progress for sure and can’t be started until Spring. For now we are focusing on the inside of the house, as truly the yard is a Nature’s work of art already.
We knew this was a magickal space, sitting on the National Forest with only one house to the right that isn’t on top of us, but also aren’t year-round neighbors, however we continue to discover just what the Faeries had in store for us with guiding us here, as we uncover more of their surprise gifts each day.
Today marks seven weeks since my foot fracture, and I’m no longer wearing my healing boot. I’m now able to wear regular supportive shoes and am moving around well. This has enabled me to start doing some easy hikes and walks, which include the beginning of explorations in our forest backyard.
We have an endless circuit of hiking trails out back that lead all over, including connecting to the Tahoe Rim Trail. I have only walked about a mile so far, but in doing so last week, discovered some treasures!
Not only did the Faeries leave raw quartz directly behind the house and along the trail….gorgeous pieces of pink quartz….but we discovered some very cool things about where the house sits, including having views of Heavenly Mountain Ski Resort.
We are exactly smack middle of two year-round flowing creeks, literally just a quarter of a mile in either direction (we clocked it) and about 3-4 minutes walk. What incredible energy that is having flowing water and the magick of these little Water Nymph areas perfect for this Pisces.
Here’s a short clip of one. The other has a bridge over it. This one has a log bridge over it.
Throughout the trail there are beautiful granite outcroppings of large stones that create sacred areas and energy as well. Some are large and others smaller. In some cases create rings or circles, and in other cases are just deliberately placed and have distinct shapes. I didn’t capture all of these in photos, but this is one of the larger areas.
And to our surprise we have very tiny peeks of Lake Tahoe. Not the full, expansive view of our tree house, but indeed open channels and portals connecting her energy with our home, both seen from the deck and back rooms of the house, and also wider openings along the trail just yards out.
This became extra apparent as we were there at sunset and I saw what appeared like two Suns setting. Then I realized the second was actually the Sun reflecting on the water and I could actually see the waves rippling on the surface of the Lake.
They don’t show up in the photos much, but give you a tiny idea. In person, it’s quite magickal.
I love the streaming of water and light through these little doorways, which creates this incredible portal of flowing energy tying in so many elements here that it’s almost beyond words to describe the feeling of. It just feels perfect, aligned, and definitely meant to be, plus creates a lot more mystery, magick, and mischief!
The dances of light that have been present the last few visits at our home have been revealing too and excite me as to all that will continue to reveal itself when we do in fact live here and what will take place and become possible in creating.
Oh what magick we will weave with secret visitors abound!
I love this video of the light in the yard and if you look closely near the railing you’ll see this magickal little white energy flying through the air and following my movement…then disappear.
Gratitude overflows and excitement builds. Yet patience is my constant partner for all that lies ahead and is unfolding step-by-step.
Life continues to be a journey of trust, loving commitment, and continued dreaming…
This morning’s gift….four deer just below our window spent the morning grazing. An older buck with full antlers, a younger one with little antlers growing, and two females. It was such beauty and grace to watch and such lovely medicine to experience and be messaged with. This same window was where a black bear gave us a show rolling in the snow this past winter. And the deck is where a hawk landed, facing in at me, and so many variety of large and small birds (including eagles) fly by and land, as well as squirrels and chipmunks come play. It’s truly wonderful to experience and I know will continue tenfold at our new home on the forest.
I’ve written before on deer symbolism, which includes so many lovely energies:
love, grace, gentleness, compassion, innocence, peace, beauty, fertility, femininity, humility, swiftness, acceptance, regrowth, renewal, creativity, spirituality, psychic power, subtlety, higher connection, awareness, abundance, benevolence, watchfulness, and is associated with the moon, the dawn, and the easterly directions.
The stag in particular symbolizes the same, but includes masculinity (which brings balance), regeneration, guidance, healing, connection to the Earth and forest, alertness, pride, independence, purification, strength, and nobility.
I thought I would share some of the photos I capture this morning, as I spent about a half hour or more just watching them.
I also found it a beautiful synchronicity, since my dear friend Dawn is visiting and she is very connected to deer medicine as well, having a couple of sacred tattoos of them she wears on her skin, and her blog is in fact called Deer Heart Reiki
We have continued to share some magickal times and sweet moments while she has been visiting. Today she’ll get to meet Astrid and we’ll take in a lovely forest hike before she heads off tomorrow morning, which will be sad, but also just a continuation of the journey and cycles we share.
As I shared, in the coming couple of months we’ll be moving into our new home and this will herald another leap of change in our lives. Of course these involve energetic shifts and openings, but I can literally see how these shifts have evolved and why, even just in terms of the homes we’ve been, and will be, living in. The journey is constantly humbling, as I review the course of my life and experiences that haven’t always been so clear to me, let alone clean and easy. Things are drastically different these days, but that has only been because of a continued commitment to delve deeper and not become complacent. To keep rising out of the ashes and do it another way. These days are times of unveiling and constant stripping away of comfort zones and veils that even the more conscious can easily pull, or have pulled, over themselves.
Everyone is going through a rewiring process and in some cases that leads to a richer and fuller embodiment than ever known, when embraced and implemented. And in some cases this can lead to a “shift or leave” syndrome we keep experiencing with so many departing this Earthly plane of existence.
There’s no right or wrong in this, but simply a choice. We are constantly presented choices, as this is a free will zone.
I definitely don’t do things in any perfected way and definitely have gone through some crazy stuff because I, too, understand the confusing, painful, challenging, and sometimes tormenting energy we have here to deal with.
It is through finding solace within my own voice that I experience peace and find the clarity that guides my way.
And recently that led us back to Lake Tahoe and we found ourselves in this “tree house” or “castle in the sky” at the highest point here being 7500 elevation that overlooks the lake.
It’s as if we physically manifested a realm to literally help us rise above things, to elevate us in this state of being in things, but not of them, so that we could suspend all the “noise” around us and receive clarity on our path….and peace within chaos.
From this place so much has streamed in, inspiration has channeled through, and creative manifestation has been able to take form in an all-encompassing and multi-dimensional way.
After being on the road and deeply immersed in Nature for over a year in the Magick bus, this state of suspension atop the air streams that blew in and all around us, supported an opening to take place that helped sift through all of our thoughts and ideas, so that we could hone in on the most effective and all-fulfilling path for us. It was no surprise to me that this has been during such huge times of shifting and upheaval the collective and Earth is experiencing.
It’s as if the winds that blew through here carried with them the whispers of collective thoughts and beliefs and I was experiencing it all swirl around me, but could then understand from this perspective how they were my choice to either grab from the air and attach to, or continue to allow them to stream by with gratitude for their reflection.
It is here that I completed the story that my book shares.
It is during our remodeling and transition phase that I edit it now.
And it will be in the new home where completion anchors and expands into the next phase.
We will be going from this elevated point that enabled expansive vision of sky and water (and review of multi-perspectives and potentials) to support our process….to a 900 feet drop in elevation to 6600 feet that will be rooting us into the abundant and mysterious forest for the next phase.
We’ll still be remaining at very high altitude, as this is where I thrive and feel most me, but with a new support system that will integrate the energy more (Earth and Cosmos as One), as well as deepen the creative inspiration into manifestation.
We’re dropping down a bit to merge with Nature more, rather than hover in the air above it. This also merges us back into things at large more too. And, it will bring us within closer proximity to getting to the lake for our water connecting – could even bike or walk there if we really wanted, or drive within minutes. Feels like the perfect happy medium for us at this stage and the seclusion and magick of the forest feels to nurture with the sense of sanctuary now desired.
I’ve also seen this shift take place with the plant friends I’ve surrounded myself with, which has grown since living here. I went from having only one plant on the Magick Bus (after I gifted away my mini garden I had at first to my friend in Montana), to now having seven little lush worlds with tons of plant beings in these magickal Faery gardens I’ve created to infuse my life with expansive energy.
The same has happened with crystal friends too. I had so very little crystals, after nearly all moving on in the time before leaping onto the Magick Bus, which continued when arriving here, but then had a small influx of new crystal beings coming in to support the creation of this new space and infuse our environment with the perfect energy needed. Some I felt were working in the now and others working in the new space that only existed in the ethers and would become anchors there once that timeline came into being.
I still have very very few crystals, especially considering I once lived in a crystal cave when I first moved out on my own to my space at the north end of Tahoe. But the few with me now are very deliberate and are shared between Astrid and myself, as well as support our family as a whole. And since we’re preparing to move, most are boxed right now except for a few in the space to support the change.
You’ve already seen Astrid’s Dendritic Opal and Rose Quartz Towers, so I’m only sharing the ones I haven’t yet. I haven’t posted much on crystals lately, but know that so many of you love them and enjoy shares on them. I have mentioned how many crystals I never had a huge draw to have come into my experience now, and so you’ll see some of those here.
The ones I’ve kept out for now are what you see in the photos here, which include my male and female Labradorite unicorns, a Lapis Lazuli fish, a Goldstone rabbit, an incredible Ocean Jasper sphere with portals and amazing naturally infused sacred circles in perfect geometric synergy throughout (hard to capture, but you can kind of see one of these in the photo), and this incredible Fluorite.
The Fluorite is like nothing I’ve seen and truly embodies the essence of my focus – merging Earth and Cosmos – as the bottom half is this exquisite layered journey through Earth’s womb in the brown and the top half is this ethereal experience of violet and white. Within each there are remnants of both interlaced, creating balance. And then we find sparks of rainbow and one larger one at top.
I just love it and knew immediately it was to come home and mirrored the journey I have been, and will continue, on.
Harmony within and without. 11:11 when I write that.
I love reflecting on and deepening into the processes and share them as a way for others to also see how we can utilize them to understand the why’s and to have gratitude for each piece and step of the way.
Even the not so fun, uncomfortable, challenging, and painful parts still apply to “life as an experience”and process we can teach ourselves to become more present to and receive the reflections of.
If I’d continued to circle round and round with my attachment to those times in my life, I would have remained stuck and could not have created something different, or perhaps would no longer be here even. Through trials and tribulations, trial and error, and experimentation, we reach a little further each time.
I don’t think it’s easy, but I do know anything is possible.
I now have new hurdles to jump if I want to continue to create more and what I feel called to bring forth, but with the experiences behind me, I have built strength and resilience to face them with a lighter approach.
Literally “dropping into” this new space, I invite a merging to take place that creates the space for more.
I remember how last year at this exact time, when we first arrived back in Tahoe with the Magick Bus, we spent a lot of days at Fallen Leaf Lake taking in the Fall colors. Synchronously, this last Friday the 13th marked two years since we’d officially moved into the Magick Bus in 2015 on a New Moon. A beautiful full circle celebration and truly the life choice that changed everything for us, and especially for me. Today marks five weeks to the day already in my foot’s healing process and it’s doing very well with all the nurturing I’ve given it. Yesterday I was itching to get out more and so we did about a 3+ mile, relatively easy hike with my boot along Fallen Leaf Lake because the Autumn colors were calling me again. It felt so good to be out in nature with all the smells and sights.
SO much has changed since we put into motion our Magick Bus plan and made that leap with complete trust, detachment of results, and non-judgment of the process. It feels like lifetimes ago and also holds lifetimes within those two years of major movement of energy and manifestation that we experienced – even more than what I express here.
As I shared on Facebook, everything these days seems to point to an elevated need for patience, presence, process, and peace – the four p’s!
And when a dear friend asked about what I referred to in terms of the “process” part, I shared:
Processing what comes up and always being aware that everything involves a process… Just like life is a journey, but there are steps and stages to go through. Each of those steps being integral and important. We often get caught up in the result and want to know the outcome but you won’t until you go through the process, as each step can shift things and open to something completely different, but potentially better. That goes back to patience and presence. Patience with what you’re wanting to see in the world or create in your life. Presence with what’s before you now revealing insights and gifts to get you to the next step. And peace within along the way to anchor yourself and keep balanced.
Nature reflects and guides us on this life cycle so beautifully.
Not only has our journey the last two years been about all of this incredibly, including finding ourselves back here after a nine year cycle of where we began, but currently with our home remodeling and my book editing, I/we’re fully needing to live this day in and day out – not just simply as a thought we read for the moment and agree with, but as an actualized experience we embody.
I hope you enjoy these photo captures from yesterday’s hike and that you can receive the wisdom Nature has to share.
I LOVE the light encircling everything, bringing that full circle experience into visible acknowledgment.
Challenge Yourself to Find New Perspective & Create Balance While Moving Through the Times In Between
Finding gifts, meaning, purpose, opportunity for expansion and new perspectives, challenges to rise to and invoke greater creativity and imagination, the silver lining, and love in everything that shows up in my life is the way I choose to live and is what helps me to flow with the rapidly shifting experiences and potential hurdles that reflect themselves to me. There are many ways in which life can be lived, and many ways in which we can adapt our reactions into more conscious and present responses.
Currently, we have a lot going on here for the next few months, which could be stressful and debilitating if we allowed that to take hold, but each day I keep singing, giggling, and tackling each hurdle as they come, greeting each morning with gratitude and finding lightness in my approach and footstep I embark the moment’s journey on.
When I find myself caught up in the details, I remind myself of the bigger picture. And when the bigger picture seems too overwhelming, I focus on the moment and what I can do right here and now to the best of my ability. It’s a constantly evolving and continuously balancing dance to engage with ever-greater presence each day.
The Autumn beauty and light has painted its way into life here in the mountains, and it reminds me of how I can continually paint a new picture of how I want to be, the reality I choose to create, and the way I look at the world around me.
If there is something I don’t like, then I create more of what I do love. But to dwell in things feels counterproductive, except as fuel for the new. It is easy to become paralyzed by anger, fear, confusion, and over-thinking things. While I know of the dichotomy of experiences around me, I choose to be a creatrix of the way I want to see the world and send love to the things that need it.
Life is moving forward here, and alongside remodeling and preparations for moving, I am in the beginning stages of editing my book and have also begun some of the cleaning out for our new life in motion. It all feels very aligned with each other and aligned with Nature’s cycles. I’m definitely feeling that harvest of abundance, enjoyment of life’s gifts and nourishment, and also the preparation for Winter, and sense that Spring will be when all things come to blossom from this work and focus right now that is rich with gifts if I see it all that way and enjoy what each has to offer in the moment.
Official remodeling work begins tomorrow on the new home, and I’ve been slowly moving step-by-step through my book. If I were to think of all that needs to be done in a general way, that would likely throw me off center….instead I make lists of to-do’s and do what feels natural and in flow, but I don’t let it debilitate and stop me, otherwise nothing would get done. So even if it’s one small thing a day, this is still movement forward. I don’t judge the process.
And in the meantime, I pay attention to the sign posts and support that show up and I enjoy the discoveries along the way.
This has included seeing a lot of beauty in nature in what ever way I am able to with my still-healing-foot (which is at the half way point already at one month/4 weeks today!) – I’m about to head out later this afternoon for more – discovering new plants in our new yard each time I visit, planting 5 daffodil bulbs gifted to me by Faery Laura so we’ll have connected flowers come Spring, ordered our new Austrian Pines, already measured, mapped out, and ordered new things for my and Astrid’s room (it will be a bunny and Faery play world for creation making, imagining, and journeying), and have enjoyed some incredible new sightings and reflections.
These have included tons of hawks in the last couple of days….just Friday seeing 13 (a cool number) and extraordinary configurations I’d never seen, right after another. I’ve seen two hawks before sitting next to each other, which I did again, but right before them, literally several yards away, I saw THREE hawks sitting in a row, next to each other. Talk about incredible! Hawks are so dear to me and are my amazing navigators bridging Earth and Cosmos. They also always chime in with support and a thumb’s up that things are on track and magick is at hand!
I also saw out in a ranch field, what definitely appeared to be a fox, as it was very different than a coyote both in coloring and its physical appearance and attributes. I thought that was pretty darn cool, as it was the same day I reposted my black fox blog and had received a message from a friend that she just got a fox tattoo and we were discussing this energy abound for the collective right now.
So, I do find it hard to dwell in stresses or what seems wrong in the world, when so many things point to another possibility, perspective, and reality of things being aligned and on track…of support always around to help guide us another way if we in fact find things to be disappointing in other regards.
And as mentioned, I’ve already planned out my new room/office/Astrid’s sanctuary in the new home, which feels important and key to have that percolating and already imagined on a new plane of experience, and in the new reality unfolding. Since it always feels like the brain child of our home, where my office is, I feel like having already created/imagined this and put it in motion with planning it out on paper and already ordering things, seems to be anchoring all the new that is taking place there and will be.
I’m so excited about Astrid’s new things, which will be her Christmas gifts, since the timing will work out for that with move-in likely. I feel she is too and has had a hand in the planning of it all.
So, amidst the craze of things yet to do, and things in process, but not yet manifested, I am working with what is at hand and creating the reality of my visions on another timeline ahead of the now, but simultaneously merging.
There are infinite ways to approach life and to choose how to embrace it all. These are some of the ways I do and what makes life enjoyable every step of the way.
Find that balance and see how to temper things with the inversion of what’s possible on the other side.
I had this blog on my mind the last couple of days so I found it and am reposting it. I couldn’t just reblog it, as I already had once and WordPress lets you only do so one time. So I’m copying and pasting it here with different photos. Perhaps it speaks to your journey right now.
When magick finds you, embrace it and allow it to wash over you like a beautiful jasmine kissed breeze or a warm, rolling summer wave of Caribbean aqua silk ocean water.
Immerse yourself and just be with it.
When you find even just a little bit of magick in your life and you try to explain it, reason it out, and catch it, most often it will go away.
There are things in life meant to be experienced with a soft, brief yet soulful gaze, a gentle caress whose effects linger but the touch is but for a moment, or like a graceful butterfly that dances lightly around you just brushing your skin with whisper kisses, but never lingers long enough to settle.
After all, these things are fragile and not meant to be held, caged, or stopped to try to control them in any way, although they will create moments of time standing still and will take your breath away.
They are moments of magick.
Logic is a need to explain, prove, reason out, or have some control over something before you will believe it.
As humans, we tend to use logic solely or at least more than other things like intuition…and so we only learn a part of the truth.
While logic helps us to reason and decide if what we learn, hear, and see makes sense to us or not, and if we would like to choose that as our experience, it can also stop us from experiencing more.
Our senses shift when we come into a physical body and we tend to lose the ability to hear our spirits or to feel what authentically makes us whole. This happens because we begin to listen with other parts of us that feel more tangible…our ear and eyes alone do the listening and seeing and the unseen parts of us, well….go unseen and unheard.
The same holds true for our touch…only things we can tangibly feel with our physical senses and hold, make more sense to us, but the things felt only with the heart and soul we tend to disregard and won’t trust or believe in them to hold the same value, let alone let them guide our lives.
So despite having so many gifts naturally innate to who we are on a soul level, we begin to let others and other conditioning do all the thinking for us and make all of our choices for us too. To the point that we are no longer guiding the course of our own lives, but allowing others to tell us how to live.
Just because something can’t be explained or reasoned out, doesn’t mean it isn’t real or valuable.
There are many things that you can’t really fully explain – like love, imagination, faith, inspiration, how things like music happen, why artists, writers, and poets hear, feel, and see what others don’t, a mother’s bond with her child that transcends all, how twins are so in tune with each other even when separated, nature’s miracles, and even the miracle of you right here and now….
Aren’t the things you can’t explain just as, if not more so, important than the things you can?
Invite a little more magick into your life without a need for explanation and your natural gifts will begin to flourish, not to mention your life will feel more fulfilling and yes…become more magickal.
As I’ve mentioned in a recent post, we have been exploring new terrain and discovering hidden gems all within and around the Lake Tahoe area – our current home base. Places and spaces I never knew about and had never adventured into during the time I’ve lived in this area in the past, but those were times of inner exploration more than the reflection of the outer that that entailed. They were also times of journeying out and beyond this realm, which then turned inside out and bringing the beyond into my now experience here on this Earth plane in order to merge them both and release myself from the confines created.
This new terrain seems to reflect the new inner landscape and more Cosmic blossoming that is opening further, as more truth is revealed and freedom unleashed.
The more free I become, or rather, I return to embodying and just “being”, the more my spirit overflows and cannot be contained in anyway. This reminding me of my dear Nestor and her huge spirit that was too much for her tiny, yet powerful rabbit body, and now also of my sweet Astrid who more and more reminds me of Nestor’s Spirit and truly feels much more to be a wild rabbit than domesticated one – literally she feels like those incredible Snowshoe Hares I fell in love with in Montana – and that all of the “fight” she has/had was in response to anything trying to take that away from her or to confine her in unnatural ways not aligned with who she knows herself to be – breaking free from the illusions and being powered over.
This was clearly demonstrated with myself this past Saturday on an epic hike we did with friends to a new and incredibly beautiful and expansive spot – Lake Aloha (reminding me not only of beautiful Montana, but of a Cosmic and otherwordly terrain).
I showed up in an aqua bunny tank top and butterfly skirt over my merfaery bathing suit with my Chaco sandals without a jacket and holding my small matching aqua backpack in my hands – my usual. Everyone else was all geared up, big packs strapped around their bodies, hiking shoes and clothes, hiking poles (except for Dave), jackets and beanies/hats (it was 7:30 am and about 48 degrees), etc.
They felt I could use a jacket (although I was content in the sun and ready to take on the wind of the boatride) so I was given an extra one and then proceeded to strap me into my back pack.
I was not too pleased with the whole thing to say the least LOL! Although very grateful for such caring friends.
I felt confined and so not me.
They snapped this funny photo because I looked/felt like I was in a straight jacket and they all agreed it was so “not” me. We all giggled because it was true.
And as we got to the other side after our boat ride, the jacket came off quickly and was returned, and my back pack slowly found itself unsnapped and then eventually only strung over one shoulder.
One of our friends kept laughing along with me noting how I “just wasn’t having any of it” and slowly was morphing back and returning to myself. LOL!
I later got another trail name, “Pocahontas” (to add to Bunny Love and Five Feathers) from one friend because that seemed to depict more of my hiking “style” in terms of that nature connection and being unequipped with “things” yet grounded in that relationship to all that is around me.
They all said I was a Faery and we know that Faeries need to be free.
Anyway, the point is…the more I know who I really am, the less things that aren’t aligned with that are able to be a part of my reality. I can easily morph and adapt when necessary, but I don’t accept something constricting and binding me anymore unless I choose it myself as a temporary experience to move in and out of.
It’s fun to see this play out and how collectively it reflects a lot as well.
What I’ve also found so extremely exciting and wonderful is how many of the new places we’ve been discovering mirror my other favorite place/s in Montana. I’m seeing how those portals keep opening and manifestation is in action big time (that to include intentions that are one-by-one coming into being).
I’m also increasingly experiencing both a contrasting resonance and peace of knowing and being more myself and merging a grounded experience here, and yet detaching more and more from here. It feels like a continued veil removal and cutting out of the “matrix” so to speak or illusion of what all of this here really is about. (777 word count with that) and with disempowering other energies, being able to carve my own reality as was always my/our ability that we forgot.
It’s like fully pulling back the curtain (not just a glimpse) on the so-called magician and seeing/revealing him/her for what he/she truly is – a puppet master pulling the strings.
The strings are getting cut and true magick is being revealed, which ultimately is the origin of being.
I’m constantly walking this experience of both creating a new reality here and living that in fullness of me, and also simultaneously knowing as much as I’ve become comfortable in this new balance, I have Spirit working out other multi-realities that are simultaneously removing this one. If that even makes sense. I feel both peace in what you see of me and harmony in the elsewhere living this out.
That’s likely as far as I want to take that conversation for now, as it’s beyond words to describe and not necessary at this time.
And the experiences here lately have been mirroring this for me, as well as providing opportunity for deeply expanding explorations while hiking and immersing in these realities created.
I find myself both playing in and removing from at once.
Photos captured of me this past Sunday at Lake Aloha and recently seem to continue to reveal this natural dichotomy and harmony, as well as a playful wisdom that seems to have taken full hold and embodiment….unseriously serious and “in things, but not of them.” I am remembering more fully, and it’s a rich fullness of knowing rather than intellectualizing.
I keep hearing about the intensity of energy being experienced by many in varying ways. The huge changes people are going through, choosing, and being thrust into in challenging ways.
And a lot of focus being put on these energetic events this month….experiences we can choose to harness and transmute in ways perhaps not as thought, but to reveal and be more than what you’ve been told (by any source for that matter).
Yesterday was interesting energetically. There were some expected surprises (if that makes sense), some more revealing of odd energies I’m no sucker for, and some deep symbolism that played out in auspicious ways.
The morning kicked off with Dave scaling a 30 foot borrowed ladder from people painting a house just at the bottom of our huge flight of stairs, which I assisted with. It was quite the process not only carrying this thing, but also in moving it into 4 positions next to our large picture windows (portals). The goal was to clean our windows (especially because 3 birds had left full imprints on the center of each) and to protect our bird family from any further trauma and potential death by placing these snowflake reflective decals on them made just for that. We’ve had so many incidences of birds hitting the window (luckily only majorly stunned and no deaths), but we want to avoid this altogether if possible.
Interestingly, birds are very attracted here, as you’ve seen from posts of mine speaking about the birds that have come to land and explore. I also one day had a group of different birds all congregating and fluttering outside the picture window where I was writing (again another manifestation of what I was infusing in the book). So there may be dual reason to their flying into the windows, which could also be a means to get through the illusion and that they feel the portal energy here.
So yes, Dave risked his own neck to save theirs.
But the ladder and climbing to such heights to these portal windows was so symbolic too…and my supporting the anchoring of them for Dave, was kind of a cool symbolism as well.
I won’t bore you with the details of our task, which was highly stressful, but in the end successful.
After, we returned the ladder back down the stairs and I found a Steller’s Jay feather not far from where we took it.
Then Dave said, look over there across the street. There’s a dead Steller’s Jay. So I left Dave and went immediately to him. I find SO many Steller’s Jay feathers and they are always around me these days, as well as all around our deck and trees outside our windows.
I knew I was to take him with me and got the message (reiterated later, before knowing this, by my shamanic friend Dawn) that he was gifting me his wings and tail as well – a merging of his medicine into my own to honor and carry with me, as well as to aid the process/experience I’ve been sharing about. So I picked him up gently and carried him up the 105 steps to the side of the building where we had been
I’ve shared before about Steller’s Jay:
They symbolize bold, fearless energy, and the power of presence and how to use personal power effectively. The crest on their heads connect them to the sky and above, drawing energy and wisdom through the crown and reminding us that our true power needs to be applied in a balanced way that integrates both spirit and body, mind and heart. Since they are very resourceful, they too symbolize adaptability and how to do so more efficiently. They also symbolize a great amount of talent, but a talent that needs to be developed and used wisely. In this way they mirror to us, if one has also appeared for you, that this is a time in your life where you can begin to support the inherent wisdom within you to mature and come forth in a bigger way. Steller’s Jay also alerts us that anything of value, spiritual growth, and relationships takes work and they show us how to activate our internal resources to do this. Communication abilities are strong, access to memories and assimilation of them come to awareness, risk taking, seizing opportunities, discovering new things to explore, balancing intelligence with silence and patience to align with divine timing all come through Steller’s Jay in message. Their crest that reaches up also places attention at the energy centers of the head/crown, indicating an increase in new spiritual knowledge and wisdom that may become activated. – this indicating a psychic channeling of information from the crown. (A message I was given twice in my channeled readings received in Sedona, twice at two different intervals over the last 2 years about energy no longer being moved up the spine like Kundalini usually does for most, but that I’d be channeling through my crown now in this next part of my life.
This gift – like a rebirthing again of the Steller’s Jay energy into my own felt hugely important and supports this grounded soaring of Cosmic origin that I’m experiencing and feels more like embodied spirit.
I did an energetic honoring and blessing and then buried the Steller’s Jay under the picture window portals. I placed 5 stones (one at center and 4 around to the 4 directions).
I then remembered that when we transitioned the previous owner’s refrigerator out of our place to put in our new one, I had found Fiver’s little body I kept frozen in it until Winter thawed enough to bury him properly. I had forgotten he was there and discovered him just two Saturdays ago. I knew the timing would reveal itself on where and when to bury him.
Yesterday was the day. And so after I buried the Steller’s Jay, I went to retrieve Fiver and brought him down wrapped in the sweet little white cloth I’d placed him in that was his bedding. I also remembered the only raw quartz that had been found at Lake Aloha on Sunday – only granite was all around so this quartz seemed out of place. So I knew to bury it along with Fiver and took it too.
I went down and did the same with doing an energetic honoring and blessing for Fiver and buried him a couple of feet from the Steller’s Jay in the same manner. After, I found 2 small heart stones that I placed on top of the center stones to each of their burials.
Everything felt full circle…closure…great peace….and I knew these dear ones would not only aid others to journey beyond and through the portals as they have, were, and now guarded as way showers, but would also infuse their wisdom, protection, and energy to the other mice, birds, and animals here, not to mention be guardians and teachers of that wisdom for anyone living here.
Both of their spirits soaring and a part of my own – of anyone’s ready to listen and remember.
And I’m listening to Astrid as well and I sense she, too, is exhibiting what I’m discovering along with her.
Just in the last few days she’s expanded as well and came to me for the first time in a dream – the way my sweet friends communicate with me in more depth. In the dream she hopped very high with exuberance, three times for me. It not only indicated her joy, but to me felt reflective of these new leaps and heights of experience now opening and the #3 has its own significance for me as well.
And then I woke immediately finding her in wake life running and jumping too. She also just learned how to hop up on the bed and is excited about that – this morning hopping up and me finding her whiskers brushing my face, as she came to wake me.
Things are definitely and sweetly expanding and reaching new heights (in all directions) and there is this sense of having reached a precipice and just catching glimpse and feeling of what lies beyond…and beyond…and beyond…
A little update and GIANT thank you….I don’t know how many of you follow along on my Instagram or Facebook pages, but I wanted to send out a big hug and loving gratitude to everyone who has lovingly and sweetly been supportive of my journey and the material that I share there and here on my blog, who has followed along with my own evolution, as well as for all of the support over the years of the channeled work I’ve had the honor to share with so many too. I am a big believer in sharing gratitude and how important that is to deepen into within yourself, but also in acknowledging the little and big things multi-universally and individually in connection with others that truly is an expression of LOVE manifest.
I/we never know the full reach of the things we do and put out there, but doing what moves us most in our hearts is the reason that fuels it all, nonetheless. At least that’s how I feel about it.
I’m always deeply moved and surprised when I do receive a message of gratitude or a personal share in relation to something I may have done or said, as it reflects the circle of connection and woven thread that runs through everything we embody, share, and do and its direct effects, regardless of our thinking nothing we do matters.
This is also why I feel the importance of being present daily with how I’m relating to others and any situation and how I might be able to challenge myself to arise to even greater energetic experiences with my responses spoken or unspoken.
I had written a thank you on my Facebook page several days ago, but wanted to share thanks here too, as I also noticed that this blog I’ve been lovingly cultivating is nearing 1 million visitors shortly and that really struck a chord too on many levels.
Since first sharing in any of these forums, so much has changed and it’s like so many versions of myself have been embodied and shed over and over – all done very publicly, as my process of moving through fears and my desire to reflect transparency and love of every step of the journey, as well as to support more courageous and authentic ways of living from the love and creative alchemy of Spirit moving through you.
Because things are shifting in focus for me, and as you know I’ve released much of what I used to do in order to embrace what is here and now moving through me “wanting” to be brought forth, I’ve joked to friends that I’ve felt like I’ve renounced the old. This to include older versions of me and have lovingly released these things as no longer the expressions I feel to carry forward because they no longer fit AND they in fact feel more like completion and tying up loose ends of things from my soul history, rather than now versions needing to be anchored anew.
That’s not to mean that things couldn’t at some point circle round in new versions if I felt so called, as I often see and acknowledge that energy when and if it arises, but they are not present currently and the more I’ve released things, the stronger the new has been anchoring inside me.
Anyway, I will eventually be giving everything a face lift and “new” updated version to match the shifts, but it will take a little time since that’s an involved process and right now am needing to follow the steps that come first.
So, soon there will be a new website and focal point, consolidation of things, and my social media and blog will also reflect these expressions.
It all excites me, although yes, will be a LOT of work and dedication. Luckily it comes from a place of love and essence channeling through so that makes it fun and extremely rewarding.
In terms of Facebook, a few years back I had to create a new Facebook page (because your personal profile pages are only allowed a certain limit of connections that I reached) and I intended the new page to also have more of a focus of sharing my life’s work and path more in depth. I haven’t been able to keep up with updating it is often as I would like or in the way that I’ve wanted, as life’s journey has taken me into times of needing to channel my energy into balancing life and supporting shifts with my creative output and new paths emerging – this leading to not posting a lot there in general, especially when I’ve taken breaks from online. And yet, so many have still lovingly supported that channel and I thank you so much for that.
However, in the coming months and forward I will be more regularly posting things and new material there that I hope people who follow will enjoy. It will root my new focuses and embody my life’s love and greatest passions/joys to share with you, just as I do here as well – to me, my most important work yet.
If you are on Facebook and have interest and haven’t already been following there, I would like to invite you to my page: https://www.facebook.com/taniamarieartist/
And in the meantime, if you’re on Instagram, I’ve been posting the most there since it’s quick and a creatively fun outlet (this will also reflect the upcoming transitions in months to come though) and would love to connect with and follow along with your posts there too. You can find me on Instagram as taniamarieartist.
I hope you’ll find the changes to be inspirational and enjoyable, and as always, please do pass your own links along and/or connect with me on both Instagram and Facebook, as I love supporting other visionaries, artists of all genres, healers, inspirational souls, nature lovers, earth guardians, cosmic travelers, compassion ambassadors, harmony weavers, people following their hearts, courageously paving new paths, and speaking their truths.
I’m excited for where the journey is headed and although things in the world and some realities seem “off” and challenging, I still believe there is much evolving in incredible ways and new realities are being birthed with our learning to harness these energies for the highest good of all concerned.
Keep doing your part and coming from your heart.
In love, gratitude, and creative alchemy.
I thought I’d post this as a short blog after having posted it on social media because it’s special to our hearts. The photo you see here is one that our friend, Seba Johnson (history making Olympian as the first African American woman to ski in the Olympics and youngest alpine ski racer at age 14, vegan since birth, actor, speaker, and simply loving soul), captured a couple of days ago on one of the hikes we’ve shared with her since meeting and spending time with her while she’s here in her childhood home of Lake Tahoe working on her memoirs.
This is a very meaningful tree to us. During the winter Dave and I would snow shoe here and this little tree, now about 3-4 feet taller, used to get plummeted by snow and the wind from the slope it lives on at the bottom, completely bending it over to the ground with the weight.
We would free him and dig him out every time we’d pass after a snow storm, so that he had a chance and wasn’t permanently bent. We’d do it to other trees too, but this one in particular would get hit the hardest and became connected to us.
Seba (pictured above with me on our 7.4 mile, 1200 feet climb Tahoe Rim Trail hike) thought it would be a cool idea to take photos of us with him over time to see his progress. As you can see he’s pretty straight even though at a slight angle, but doing well! During winter this was not the case and we wondered how he’d fare, as he was completely bowing to the ground.
Other large trees above him haven’t been so lucky and really are curved, twisted, warped, and likely will fall at some point. This little one was born in a challenging spot, but it is just those challenges that make you stronger and provide even more to share with others.
Life is definitely an adventure and often times a challenging journey.
Every little thing we do, DOES make a difference, even if you can’t see it right now or are provided immediate feedback and affirmation of it. You simply need to follow your heart, regardless of any reward, knowing it’s just about being in your highest essence in each moment and being in that unconditional universal love as much as possible.
We’re grateful for the time we’ve spent with Seba, her sweet dog companions Braddock and Langston, and being able to share some special places to our hearts with her, and so many synchronicities we share including living in the same place she used to (her condo is just below ours) where she spent her childhood and ski training days.
As an animal activist and vegan all of her life, enjoying the magickal and synchronous signs, honoring of Nature and Earth, our being just 2 and a half months apart in age, all adoring Lake Tahoe as our home and special portal space (she plans to live here again too), and both currently writing books, we had a lot of beautiful connections that will be lovely to keep touching in on, which now will include the growth and life of our special tree that will mirror the life shifts we all go through.
He already mirrors the challenges we’ve each been faced with and now will reflect what we embrace, nurture, and embody to bring forth for the rest of our lives.
We’re grateful for the time we’ve been able to share with our new friend Seba and for the journey that continues to provide rich experiences and beautiful surprises around each corner.
I look forward to seeing how our journeys evolve from here, and how our beloved tree will experience his own growth and evolution. We’ll be sure to nurture him, as long as we are here and as much as he nurtures us and all of life that depends on him and Nature.
(Photos courtesy of Seba Johnson)
Today, and always, I celebrate the freedom to be me and when I/we trust being myself/ourselves we will find how everything else falls into synchronous alignment. Allowing your natural essence and channel to blossom open and following that guidance directly and fearlessly you will experience greater sense of well being and greater effects of change around you. It’s when you don’t support and follow that inner guidance that you feel deadened, depleted, a loss of power, and those around you mirror similar and trigger recognition of this – true power lies in being heartfully you. So choose to trust and support the spirit within you and honor its expression, as it will guide you to the highest and most harmonious ways.
“Spiritual people can be some of the most violent people you will ever meet. Mostly, they are violent to themselves. They violently try to control their minds, their emotions, and their bodies. They become upset with themselves and beat themselves up for not rising up to the conditioned mind’s idea of what it believes enlightenment to be. No one ever became free through such violence. Why is it that so few people are truly free? Because they try to conform to ideas, concepts, and beliefs in their heads. They try to concentrate their way to heaven. But freedom is about the natural state, the spontaneous and un-self-conscious expression of beingness. If you want to find it, see that the very idea of ‘a someone who is in control’ is a concept created by the mind. Take one step backward into the unknown.” ~Adyashanti
I completed my 10 day fast and 3 days of cleansing ease-in to get slowly back into eating regularly again. And I have to say that I feel so light, clear, and more in my essence. My mom commented yesterday how my eyes have gotten so light. This seems to be one of the physical shifts reflecting from this fast and recalibration, not to mention the literal snake skin shedding of 10+ pounds of old energy I was carrying.
In all, I feel super energized and really peace filled inside and out on an increased level. I can literally feel the light flowing through and this deep sense of balance and harmony.
Definitely inspiring and freedom-invoking. Like a bird soaring on the breeze.
Today’s 4th of July marks a return to healthy eating with a deepened sense of connection to my lifestyle choices.
It also ignites new shifts in the works coming forth into my life, seeming to show through in this capture, below, just two days ago of change taking form.
Bare-faced and nature immersed… The way I feel most free. Freedom to me is being who I really am and having the courage to shine my light no matter what.
Today also marks 6 years since my French grandpa on my mom’s side passed. He is the one grandparent I connected to most who helped cultivate my belief in the artist me, and nurtured me in that direction. We had a special bond and I know he walks beside me, encouraging me like he did when he was alive, to nurture and bring forth my gifts – believing in the creative artist I am.
He reminds me, too, to freely let that wild visionary artist out and not let anything conform to any standards, rules, and ideals of others/society in terms of that creative part of me with any of my projects. This speaks true, as even with the book I’m writing, it will not follow any parameters other than my inner guidance and creative heart – creating my own genre.
And that is freedom to me.
These recent photos taken of me in the last two days really feel to reflect the deeper me I keep accessing more parts and layers of on this journey – integrating so many layers of timeless spirit. The parts unbridled and nurtured with love that I am drawing forth and have been sinking into greater comfort to share out loud.
And speaking of layers and journeys….last night’s dream was a potent one that is too far involved in symbolism to explain its meaning, but I felt to share it, as it feels very significant right now and I love writing things out to deepen the template of its birth and unfolding in my life.
The dream was set in an otherwordly dimension. I remember something/someone was following me or trying to stop me and my escape was through this journey I took – but in fact was the original focus I was on, anyway and not anything I was running from, but determined not to be deterred from.
I was traveling these parallel realities in this moving almost enclosed like rapidly moving escalator (best way I can describe it, but at the speed of light) that went forward diagonally then back diagonally and so on, along timeliness but not really past or future but different levels of now reality. (think the movie, Interstellar to sort of get a feeling/glimpse of an idea, when Cooper is in the Black Hole peering through the timeline layers of bookshelves)
I could see windows on each level with glimpses of that timeline and the people/beings/things within each. And each window/timeline was numbered.
I chose to stop at #47. (Could have age significance or numerological symbolism, as this number does in fact speak to everything powerfully – I’m 44)
I got out in what was an odd reality with people dressed creatively as if Alice in Wonderland-like combined with futuristic look that were at like a gathering or celebration. Things were sort of dark and felt like night or underground.
There was a room I entered where ahead of me was a dark tunnel labeled The Rabbit Hole with red around the black tunnel.
Now, originally this was not the destination where I was going, nor the focus of why I was traveling. I can’t remember the specific goal, but I was on a mission trying to do/fulfill something or free something, but stopped here.
I realized there was a sort of ritual or quest/game journey going on that only certainly people or initiates would undertake, which involved The Rabbit Hole.
I could feel the depths, layers, and potentially scary things needing utmost courage that were down in the dark depths where a giant White Rabbit was – but not easily found and quite the magickal trickster who I felt had a shadow side that would need cunning to outsmart.
If chosen to take on this task, you were not guaranteed survival, but you would enter the Rabbit Hole alone with only inner vision to guide you. That is, if you had the courage to find the White Rabbit.
Then a cloaked woman showed up and asked if I wanted to find the White Rabbit or set all of the White Rabbits free.
In her arms she carried black cloaks, which I would need to wear if I chose the mission and accepted the task to enter into the darkness and see if I could do so.
I agreed because I instinctively got the feeling this was the key to the bigger goal/mission I was originally on. I had to do this if I was to accomplish the bigger picture.
And so, in my dream, I was getting ready to enter The Rabbit Hole and had just done so.
I don’t remember anymore.
This somewhat seems to echo the symbolism I shared in this post of mine from a month ago today:
Yes incredibly freeing life changes are a-knockin’. And it will take the greatest onpour of spirit essence into it all to manifest.
It makes sense that I took this purposeful and necessary “detour” to follow the White Rabbit, which is symbolic of the transitional journey and process, as well as the new opportunities, ideas, and paths being pursued.
And this just may be the journey calling many of us, too, right now.
Despite people’s doubts or inability to understand where I’m heading, despite the hurdles and challenges, or the shadow dynamics that will need to be journeyed through…I forge on as the artist of life I was born to be. Whom my grandfather saw in me. And whom I have the freedom to embody and choose to express however I desire.
We each do. Remember that.
(The first photo of Astrid and me reminds me almost of an Alice in Wonderland image…or a Faery with her familiar. Although Astrid is not white, she embodies the shadow I will journey within The Rabbit Hole and is also the illusion perceived in what our eyes alone tell a story to us about. The true gift is revealed to those willing to travel through the illusion and alchemy is achieved when we discover truth through the vision of our hearts. This reveals how light and shadow is within us all and what seems like a Dark Rabbit, may in fact also be the White Rabbit in disguise. And vice versa. One of the many gifts Astrid is sharing with me, as I had felt a White Rabbit coming to me – Zephyr indeed is that. However, I am learning that Astrid embodies the less obvious (the complex layers of my new journey) and is initiating those ready to work true magick and alchemy in understanding the realities of perception and true vision, along with true power.)