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Things You’ve Been Curious to Know


I’m going to be introducing a new, small series of blog posts that will become regular ones on either a weekly or monthly basis. I’ll announce that in the next couple of weeks. This is part of the new changes that are forthcoming and will continue to morph as I feel into everything. For now, I thought I would kick things off with opening the floor to questions from you – my friends, readers, supporters, and collective family. This may also help with creating the new series’ focuses.

I recently posted something similar as my Instagram Story’s status, realizing that while I have shared quite a bit over the years, there are still questions people have been curious about asking and message me about.

Many times we only see the person before us now, and don’t realize they’ve been through much the same that we or others have and so hearing about those pivotal shifts, choices, and processes can be supportive, reiterative, or even comforting.

Sometimes it’s just nice and fun to know those quirky things, that makes each of us human, and bridge the gap of distance in knowing each of us a little bit more since we may never meet in person, this go-around.

I’ve shared some of the twists and turns, wild rides, things and experiences people didn’t know about me, but there may be something in particular that has peeked your interest over time to ask.

While I don’t have the ability to answer all of the messages I receive in depth, I thought it might be fun to open things here to questions from you, where I can address a few of those things during my designated creative and writing time.

With that said, if there is a particular question or thing you’re curious about, I felt the nudge to open a blog post focused on answering some of those.

So, if you have something in mind that you’re curious to know more about, I’m going to open this to up to 11 questions – at least for now.

Each person can ask one question and my only request is that it isn’t in the form of wanting me to do a reading, coaching, psychic prediction of any sort, nor is a general how-to question.

This is specifically a get-to-know and/or understand me better forum, where you might be curious about how I came to something in my life through my own personal experience and that may reflect something for you since we are all connected.

A couple of examples that came through on Instagram included things like:

“How have you gotten over a broken heart or how have you been able to let go of a partner?”

“You live a very spiritual life – if that’s the right word to describe it as – how or what helped you to embrace this?”

Please submit questions via my contact page at this link: 

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Please do not write your questions as comments to this post.

I will only answer questions sent via the Contact format and only up to 11 at most.

If I see that the questions are more involved, I may break them up into more than one blog post when I answer them.

All questions will remain anonymous.

I look forward to hearing any curiosities from you.

Wishing you a positive start to your week and a gentle shift during this beautiful Autumn season of change.

 

 

A New Chapter Begins


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Have you been feeling the pull to take your life to a new level of experience? I know I’m not the only one embarking on a new chapter in life right now and I know that for some this can be both a scary and exciting thing, as well as potentially intense. Change is not always easy, but can become a more fluid experience when you play in the fields of potential with curious wonder, rather than fight it. After all, these shifts are soul nudges that have answered your desires or evolutionary needs, both consciously and subconsciously. Sometimes what shows up might not seem aligned with that and yet even when those things seem separate and not connected, there’s something at the heart of it all in essence that may be a hidden gift, reminder, empowering opportunity, or core way to integrate the new path.

I’ve traveled extensively in the outer world to what are considered sacred and exotic spots, but it’s the journeys within and even the traveling between spaces and through all the energetic and emotional nooks and crannies that things like physical travel took me to, that have made all the difference. And while much of that travel has been on more etheric planes, even such things as the sacred tattoos I wear, have been ways to come into my body and harness spirituality more tangibly for this Earth plane I currently reside in.

I feel like we’re being guided through new doorways of experiences, relative to each, but that are operating on a whole new plane of existence – in essence helping to create whole new realities.

Starting all over can feel like so many things, including some unpleasant or uncomfortable variations, but mostly I see it is an opportunity, a potential to rise to the “now” occasion, a possibility for recreating from new choices – a rebirth – and a means to shape in that “now” what the “future-you” already is walking, without past restraints.

Sometimes you might have that tug of war within yourself, as you wrestle with old and new, or sometimes it’s as easy as slipping on a new pair of shoes that feel oh-so-much-more comfortable, spacious, shiny fun, and upgraded.

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This last Saturday, 8/18/18 – a very cool number sequence to end on – marked the conclusion to my teaching Reiki, which has been an 11 year cycle. Synchronously, one of my students (who also captured this sneak photo of me teaching) was someone I taught Reiki 1 & 2 to, 10 years ago when she was 19. She now returned, at a completely new place in life to complete her 3rd Master Teacher level and boy has her life positively changed on every level. AND, she’s already put out there to her clientele, that she is available for teaching.

Talk about fast upgrades and changes, but it came with a lot of work over these past 10 years and willingness to keep saying, “yes” to what her soul was putting forth for her, even though her ego wasn’t understanding why and wasn’t fully on board with yet.

In some ways I’m in a similar place where my soul has put forth this inspiration and guidance, after culminating to an ending vortex of choice, and it wasn’t something I saw coming even though I toyed with things twenty five years ago.

That ending left me both fulfilled and feeling uninspired, completely soul spent, and nostalgic for a different place I call home.

In many ways, the “past me” might have seen the work I’ve been doing until recently as being my end result, and in a way it was – as it truly was more of a predictable soul path I was completing from lifetimes of build-up. Many of you likely can relate. And although not necessarily an easy path I was on, it was easier to melt into and only challenging in terms of moving into more vulnerability, clarity, and opening that throat chakra that yearned to teach, yet had the fear to transmute.

When everything pointed to endings 3 years ago, I was left with a choice and so I followed a nudge, went off into Nature (just as John Muir says, “The mountains are calling and I must go”), listened deeply, and found myself here when I might have been elsewhere.

This then put into motion a potential new cycle and so I began playing in this new field of experience and trying on how it felt. I decided to go with it, feeling a new level of inspiration was the very and only thing that would keep me here and that offered a completely new and freer embodiment, if so chosen.

Little by little, and quickly in some cases, I shed my skin and this led to now and a fresh start. During that time, a story began channeling through and I wrote when the moment moved me, while building a new life.

Perhaps the story reflects a journey intimately remembered or maybe it energetically rewrote what has been to what can be.

In any case and for what ever reason yet unknown, it is the only thing calling my heart besides seeing what is possible from living at a different and more balanced vibration.

This past Thursday, 8/16 – a day earlier than expected – I received my manuscript back from my editor (more on that shortly) and this coincided with Astrid’s early birthday gift arriving (her birthday isn’t until 9/15), which I’d ordered custom a couple of months ago, but was on back-order. No coincidence we both received something new and connected on the same day.

Astrid’s gift was this special child’s chair stitched with her name and a star on it, chosen to match my green chair and the green theme in our shared room.

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I have both a green chair – my desk one – and a comfy arm chair by my book shelf, which Astrid loves to climb up and sit on. I thought she might enjoy her own arm chair so that she and I could both sit and mastermind together. Besides, every queen needs their special throne and now she has one that declares her star child essence as cosmic spirit in bunny body.

It took until yesterday to finally figure out where she wanted it, but the second I put it together and set it up for trial runs, she was exploring and jumped right in it quite comfortably.

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But as the days went on, she was missing her bed and carrot cottage under the stars looking out on the forest by the door, so I moved it to a new location and put her other things back and she instantly said, “yes, that’s it!”

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She climbed right in and sat there for long periods not moving at all, but just sitting up tall in it and looking at me from across the room, very regal and wise.

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Then she started grooming herself and making it home. Good thing is, it’s super light and therefore totally mobile with a handle on top, so we can move it whenever she feels she wants a new vantage point.

She now goes to sit on it when I sit in my comfy chair and we gaze across at each other, feeling the immensity of our combined energies in this space.

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It’s a bit like this new path for me, where I know it’s what my creative spirit is guiding, but will take some adjustments (likely a lot more work than Astrid’s few days of helping me to figure out where it belonged) in order to fit as comfortably in my own new “chair” as she does, but I’m following her example.

That brings me back to receiving my manuscript from the perfect editor I was guided to. I couldn’t be happier and more grateful for the opportunity to work with her and her feedback was just what I had hoped it would be to both support and kick me into deeper explorations with highlighted strengths and weaknesses. I feel as if I’m getting a whole new education and training in a way that works in better alignment for me than studying at a university, for example. She’s definitely my vibrational fit.

Since I had a workshop to teach last Saturday, I put aside editing and novel thoughts except for the summary letter, because I knew that once I dove in, it would be all-consuming. And quite literally, even though I still have yet to go through everything, as I’m creating the space for full digestion of it and all that I feel it will ask of me, it HAS become all-consuming on my mind. I find my thoughts are always going there and so I know where I’m meant to be.

Yet, just from her letter, I can sense the enormity of this commitment and choice I’ve made with it and why nothing else can be on my plate going forward. I was curious how I would feel from receiving the feedback and the only thing it brought up for me was this incredible sense of soul challenge to grow and deepen, which inspires me. I can also feel the reality of the creative limb I’ve flown out on with this, which presents further challenges to rise to, including even the genre choice I decide upon with it.

I definitely have my work cut out for me. I never do things simply, and it makes complete sense that for something to truly engage my heart and spirit to feel inspired to continue on here – regardless of any outcome with it what so ever – it WOULD have to be the biggest challenge yet.

Any fellow writers (or creatives), will understand the journey and it is one that can sometimes take years, of which I’m fully on board and committed to. So I truly don’t know the extent of time this project will take and I’m not rushing it so that I can immerse fully in the growth and learning, feeling that this is about much more than a book – it’s a whole new adventure and journey of mind, body, heart, and spirit.

And it IS a whole new playing field, as I’ve mostly only been a blogger and put out one self-published book – Spiritual Skin, along with a lot of creative writing when I was much younger. This one has the potential for traditional publishing depending on how vulnerably and flexibly I stretch myself and even how I surrender completely to living my dharma and embracing the new lessons this path is creating for me.

In any event, the old cliche is true…”it’s the journey, not the destination” that matters and I can really feel that in traveling this unknown territory simply for sake of bringing through vibrational potential that arises from the challenge and exhilaration of experiencing how far and wide I can fly on the wings of my creative free spirit.

It will definitely involve a constant cycling through of deaths and rebirths, as makes sense with next year’s growth year #13 – death / 4 year I’ll be entering come my birthday. The 4 energy will have me focusing on foundations, sharpening skills, working hard, involved in patient, methodical approaches to goals, nurturing of projects, and overall serious approaches to career, well being/health, and relationships of all kinds for balance. All of which I’ve been preparing for with deep cleaning on all levels and flowing with the creativity that was inspiring me this last 12/3 year I’m still completing.

I didn’t need to know this information on numerology, but it is definitely interesting to see how we do in fact follow the energy imprints regardless of not being aware of them playing out.

I always start experiencing trickles of the upcoming energies before they set in fully and I can see how come this Fall, pretty much exactly after Fall Equinox, I’ll be on a different trajectory.

This also falls perfectly with my sweet and dear Laura coming to spend a fun and potent week here at the same time we co-teach and host our “Living a More Magickal Life” workshop event on the Equinox – the official ending for me to this kind of teaching platform in general. It’s not often that we get in-person time together, but when we do it has always put into motion some huge life shifts for both of us and this coming together in a month from now feels like the most potent alchemy potential we’ve created yet.

So, between now and then I am readying everything, we have some other friends visiting, I’m getting fully organized and cleaned out, creating a workable plan to put into action, reviewing my editor’s feedback, tuning in, and beginning research – that way I’m fully ready to go, come end of September, and dive fully into things.

I see Fall and Winter perfectly fitting for nose-to-the-grind action, but in my newly adapted balanced way so as not to repeat my past neurotic tendencies to overwork myself until I “crash-and-burn.” This is why Dave and I have and will continue implementing a new well-being track into our life, while we also focus on other life goals we’re creating foundations for. It will definitely be a busy 6-8 months to get things ready for the next leg of the journey.

This is why I’ve released everything else, as a way of having laser beam focus on the new and yet without any old patterns being brought into that space and reality that is forming.

There is an invitation being extended to us all I feel where a portal of fresh possibilities await.

Have you also increasingly felt drawn away from things and toward completely new ones?

Where might you create more balance in your life so that you can be more present and vibrant to what is calling your heart’s attention?

Sometimes what we think we should be doing is only a choice away from what we could be doing.

If something nudges you there is reason. Whether it directs you into a whole new life journey or supports your journey with new, you will experience invigoration from listening to that subtle voice rather than dismissing it/you.

Thank you for being part of and supporting my journey. I not only support yours equally, but do my best to keep embracing each challenge on my own, as my contribution to the collective.

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Happy Anniversary Astrid! ~ One Year Summer Solstice Gateway


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My first connection with Astrid on 6/20/17 wearing my magickal Peter Rabbit dress

You may recall that it was one year ago, today, that magickal Astrid chose me and I embraced her vision of a different level of experience than what I thought at the time. She had the foresight of something bigger and more challenging for me and she was right, as since she came into my life things have transformed rather quickly and continue to reveal surprises with every new experience I open to. Most of it has been laying new foundations for what’s to come, but in saying “yes” to her, to the journey, and ultimately, to me, a domino effect is in motion.

Last year Summer Solstice was on the 20th – this year the 21st – which holds both Astrid and Joy in the magick of this incredible portal that has become very significant for me and a favorite life-changing gateway.

My sweet angel bunny, Joy, transitioned on June 21st two years ago, which was under a Full Moon Solstice energy. And Astrid stepped in on Summer Solstice, one year ago. The full story of Astrid’s journey to me was chronicled in this blog post: Divine Surprises ~ Following the White Rabbit Blew Zephyr In & Cosmically Aligned Astrid

So much has changed since her arrival into my life and part of that has ignited the true magickal child within me, as I’ve set up her and my Wonderland Room to fully nurture our essence and activate our heart’s imagination and vision in bigger ways.

Although I started my book before she came, it is with her at my side that everything came pouring through rapidly and took on a more expansive embodiment. She challenged me to go further, to not accept less than my highest with it, and provided a channel and doorway to access more to bring onto the pages. I find it beautiful that I will be completing this second phase of the book by month’s end or sooner, aligning with the Solstice gateway energy. The first phase was writing the full story, the second was my editing and reworking of it, and third will take it out of my hands to an official editor. There are many parts to the process, but I’m committed to going through each in the fullest of ways possible, without rushing any part of it.

This last year also saw a lot of expansion for Dave and I, as we moved into our new Forest Portal home and rapidly put together our shared business almost overnight. With Astrid came anchoring of visions and setting foundations for growth and opportunity. She reminds me to take each day fully and not get caught up in details, nor try to bend the outcome, as they will come together with each step taken.

There’s a level of presence, purity, courage, and commanding recognition of self that one must meet Astrid with and this can only be if one is consistently doing so in their life in totality. And hence, she has me stepping up my game, so to speak.

And in this year, huge transformations for Astrid have also taken place with the softening of her defensiveness and aggression that had built up from a past of not being seen for who she is and not being treated with the value she deserved. The barriers to her heart have been melting away, as my own have expanded further with her. She’s revealed her magick with much more to come! And, she’s met my own child heart in innocent exuberance, as we play together everyday.

She is so engaging and loves to run, hop, and twist in the air with delight, shake her head and ears, as I say her name with playful energy, and teases me to come chase her. We have a little play ritual where she waits for me each night in the same place and we first snuggle, then I tap her bunny buns and she takes off jumping (or rather springing in the air) and racing, waiting for me to catch up and then takes off this way and that, each time looking for me to keep following like a game of tag. Once she tires she throws herself between the cushions on the floor and that’s the sign it’s time to snuggle again and so we do. I can’t tell you how fun it is and I just laugh out loud the whole way – another lesson of balancing work and play and to have fun while enjoying life fully.

We have many fun rituals and also sweet ones…all of which I cherish. She is extremely wise and intelligent, knows her name and if I call her she will come. She has her ways of communicating to me when she wants things and anything I tell her, she fully understands.

And although she’s super independent, she has no problem with me picking her up and holding her, which I only do if necessary, as truly I like to honor her freedom and encourage our equality.

I’m excited for the mysterious unknown that will continue to unfold, but in the meantime I’m happy for what is.

So, today, I just want to acknowledge this incredible star child who has honored me with her partnership. I don’t know where the journey is headed, but I know we will have fun the whole way, while we expand into more of who we really are.

45 & Alive!


I won’t be blogging on my birthday, which is this Monday 2/26, so I thought I’d share some thoughts in a post, today, on this nine year anniversary of Joy’s arrival into my life – one of the greatest birthday gifts to date! Although age is meaningless to the eternal spirit, it IS interesting to reflect on all of the judgments and ideas we have around age, which also deters people from humanly acknowledging it, as well as determines life protocol for many to try to reverse it or even speed it up. Although, I’ve never taken issue to stating my age, I have been guilty of all of these things in my past.

In fact, rather than be afraid of or feel protective of my age to the degree of feeling it is no one’s business, I was quite the opposite, where I was adamant to share my age because I could feel the judgments of others upon me and my insecurity around that to blast through their ideas about me. In part, this was my own projection, but being an intuitive, it was largely in response to knowing what people were thinking, and wanting to nip that in the bud immediately.

I recall having meaningful conversations with people in my past and knowing by my outside appearance and things they alluded to, like asking what school I was going to (when in fact I was way past high school and college age) and the way they looked at me in a protectively patronizing way, that they weren’t taking me seriously. Coming from a past of “feeling the need to prove myself” anyway, this of course was my perfect experience called up to move through that.

But, at the time, it just made me want to blurt out how old I was because I knew the connotations attached to age that obviously I was buying into, too, as a sensitive and boundary-less Pisces. So, rather than hide my age, I wore it on my sleeve. And perhaps that might run deeper than simply this, as I also knew the ancient aspects of spirit and to come back again on Earth, starting all over, might even feel demeaning.

Although I know it is a gift and meaningful choice, now, there would definitely have been unconscious anger or resentment over incarnating – an experience locked deep in our DNA, I feel, as a whole, for many reasons.

And so, there I was fighting back with announcing my age, to appease my feelings  that not only in fact what I had to say was meaningful and important, but my incarnating here had purpose I was trying to remind myself with this declaration.

I’m not sure if I’m conveying this in the depth of potency it has, but in realizing and understanding this, it made a huge shift and got more parts of myself aligned and on board, rather than having an internal fight against myself, which only adds to the depletion of self love and creates more fragmenting and less empowerment.

The greatest battle and ongoing war, is truly the one within and I believe it stems from so much subconscious anger at our humanness.

And this made sense, as I always felt more inhuman and thus laid ahead a journey of merging and a return to natural harmony.

Then there was the young me wishing I was older and wanting to race through the years as fast as I could because I not only knew my younger years would be the hardest, but I also soulfully knew it wasn’t until later, in my mid-forties, that I would find my peace and really start “living.” A cruel form of intuitive vision when you know you STILL have to go through the years to get there. Yet, I wanted to escape, as much as I knew I couldn’t.

And still yet, there was the me who bought into these ideas of physically reversing age. Mind you, not in any fanatical way, but I was aware of ways in which one could “look” their best and all of those catch phrases even in the spiritual community that are about longevity, reversing the clock, ways one “should” look or how life should look if you are “ascending,” and what you “should” be able to do and accomplish if you are in fact turning back the sands of time.

I still marvel at this messaging and collective-buy-into, today, and although I understand aging is not a spiritual attribute, we are still on a three dimensional planet, we do still have individual journeys that are not measured by a certain amount of time we need to be here, and we are still judging what something looks like and associating it with living a life that’s “less than” if in fact it doesn’t fit into what collectively we see as “ideal” and “vibrant”. Just another form of self-abuse masked as spiritual enlightenment.

Are there things you can do to reverse physical appearance? Sure, but if in fact you are healthy, happy, and aligned in your expression of you, why then does that matter here on Earth?

If I want to have silver hair or wrinkles, why does that automatically mean I’m deficient? Or that there’s something wrong? I am still part human, and that part isn’t necessarily what I’ve chosen to walk in forever. Perhaps these indicate my true eternal quality? Why is there only one way to characterize this or see it?

There isn’t just one way, and I feel that the faster we open ourselves to multiple perspectives and possibilities, the faster we will free ourselves into a more grace-filled way of being and come into our multi-dimensionality.

Why do I bring this up?

Well, for one, I feel that vulnerability and transparency are powerful and key things to bring forth into our lives in greater frequency right now. Something I just shared yesterday on my Facebook feed with these reflections:

Everything points to going deeper into our hearts and connecting through them, with these as the guiding forces. The more we nurture these within, the more we encounter empowered embodiment, authentic experiences, connections, clarity, and alignment in our manifestations. And, the less we encounter triggers, hidden surprises, and forced change or reaction to what is revealed in the collective environment.

I feel that being vulnerable and transparent isn’t so much about allowing everything to bombard us as it pleases, but involves also a healthy balance of knowing and exercising our boundaries. This isn’t about hiding or repressing ourselves, however, but about knowing how to say “no” and not allowing certain frequencies to shift our own. Being openly expressive is not draining in this vein, but empowering and helps increase vitality. What is draining is when we fight our true expression or are having to deal with unwanted energies. Vulnerability and transparency is being willing to share the truth in our hearts and this helps others not to be afraid to do the same too. Fear around this is draining our energy, as we use so much of it to hide, worry, or create walls, which inhibit our gifts to shine through.

We can all shine, regardless of age, physical appearance, the list of accomplishments you have, or the things you own in your life.

The way I’ve discovered doing this is to live life out loud and to “create life as a work of art” – my motto.

I share the photo above, as it is the most recent photo of me (a week old) that reflects a much more peaceful, harmonious, grounded, embodied, softer, more secure, gently joyful, balanced, and creatively passionate me.

Vibrant bursts of color reflect my soul song frequency and inspire creativity to bubble through. Perhaps it’s the artist me or perhaps I’m simply inspired by Nature and how she exudes life force in every shade of beauty possible. Her blossoming myriad of expressions sing of love.

She is a woman of my heart and the only example I take to heart of how to live in the grace of being.

I love that now I have no emotional trigger or any tiny weirdness around my human expression and emanation of my spirit.

I will still always have resonance to otherworlds, but no longer need to prove that, nor anything else about my being here the way I choose to show up, as once my younger Earthly self felt she needed to do.

Merging embrace of my multi-dimensional self allows me the ability to enjoy each different aspect for what ever they are and however I am choosing to express them, without attachment.

They are ALL me and as the artist me, and using the power of creative love through me, I know their intrinsic beauty and value in the spiral of consciousness.

I now walk this reality as alive as ever, because it is my canvas to create in the reflection of my essence and my playground for exploration and total freedom of how I want to share that in any given moment.

Although chronological age is not important, the numerology factor is still interesting and revealing to explore.

45 is a combination of the energy of 4, 5 and their combined total of 9.

4 builds solidity and stability, foundations for self and others, draws forth passion and drive together for achieving success (whatever that means to you), and 5 adds personal freedom, adventure, creativity, courage to explore unknowns, letting imagination go free, versatility, major life shifts through lessons learned, while 9 brings things full circle, adds patience, intuition, soul mission, inner strength, sense of personal responsibility, humanitarianism, global focus, living and leading by example, and spiritual enlightenment.

These feel to be the energies I’m integrating at this time of my life and the foundations of where I am and where I’m headed.

I read that 45, numerologically, has a focus on putting your efforts and energy towards the things in your life that enhance and fully embody who you truly are – from the smallest of things to the largest of things – what we surround ourselves with, what we wear even, the things we focus on and are working on bringing into the world, and our lifestyle choices and overall life in general. It’s also about really putting things into full-embodied action so results manifest, keeping focused, and integrating a more pragmatic way to be a guiding force.

I’m also going to be igniting a 12/3 year come my birthday and this speaks to the creative rebirth taking place for me, an inner calling surfaced, release from all karmic ties, and everything coming together in my life story as I reach a significant stage on my journey.

So, while I may have been wanting to fast forward things in my younger years, I can understand why that visionary part of me was looking forward to now, as this truly is the most full-circle time of my time here on Earth – this life and aspect of my multi-dimensional self – and the most peace-filled.

There is peace no matter what today or tomorrow brings, as there is peace right here and now in my heart.

My new thing in recent years has been to gift myself birthday gifts to not only celebrate the new energy with supportive things that light up my heart, but to celebrate all that I’ve gone through to be here.

This year seemed to start a few months early, as truly wonderful birthday gifts were received from friends, loved ones, and family far before now, and some incredible surprises along the way that truly touched my heart.

So many of them were rabbit-focused and went along with the theme of my Wonderland office, with Alice in Wonderland fun.

My favorite gifts-to-self include the colorful, handmade shawl you see me wearing in the photo, two necklaces (including an incredibly magickal rabbit and a powerful “origins” and DNA activator), another gorgeous Faery book (I gifted myself one last year too), a custom made pen (for the writer me), a custom made wand (for the ancient me), and a “crown” chakra headpiece I’ve had intention of for years, but took until now to draw in the perfect one. Seems appropriate.

I don’t have any particular plans this year on my birthday, so we’ll see what intuitively and organically shows up, but we will be embarking on a super fun adventure March 7th – 17th, which feels to be my birthday journey of origins and more.

We’ll be heading to Arizona, first spending 3 days with Dave’s family in Tucson and then heading up to the Grand Canyon to meet up with our sweet friends you’ve heard me mention in past Summer posts – KC, aka Bean, and Clint, aka Happy. My Faery and Elf friends who returned my two giant quartz to their momma after my foot fracture and who took me on a Cirrus G6 private flight over Lake Tahoe.

From there, we head into the GC for an epic trekking and camping adventure, to introduce the energy and magick of this realm to us. Well, more me, because Dave has been inside of the GC before, but I haven’t. I’ve only explored the rim. Nor have I ever done this kind of trek, as I only camped a tiny bit when I was a little girl. Our adventures have been limited, but oh-so not limiting, to the Magick Bus RV living.

But come March, Bean and Happy (who will be working in the GC starting a week after our adventure, are GC experts, and love her inside and out) will be sharing her with us through their eyes, as we venture into her mysteries for several days. This will be an intro only, as we couldn’t do a super long trek this go-around, so more will definitely have to come once we sink our feet into the Earth here.

The reason I said this will be a journey of origins and more has to do with the ancient Earth here and the energy, which I know will be activating for me and synchronizes with my origins theme, because apparently there are hidden Egyptian temples that predate Egypt by 7000 years tucked safely away in the canyon walls for only certain eyes to see (this info coming to me all at once from several sources). Regardless of actually seeing them, the energy will be there and this connects more dots with why I felt so compelled to go on this trip, why it fell into place so seamlessly (including super challenging permits they were able to get for us for it), and ties into that Africa energy (which I’ve had more interesting dots light up with other connections too, since those posts).

A “Grand” birthday/new year/kick off indeed!

However, the greatest gift is this storybook year for me, and that my book’s completion and manifestation is close at hand and along with writing it, I’m writing a new reality into being from my heart.

I’m so grateful for every chapter of this story of life and that you have all been willing to colorfully show up and play in it with me, through the fun and challenge, and through the mystery and adventure of it all.

 

Spritely Mischief & Magick


There’s been a rainbow sprite sighting on the Tahoe Rim Trail (TRT). Keep your eyes open for mischief and magick in the High Sierra. You never know who or what you might see.

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And what you might get yourself into and discover by walking with a light foot and heart through it all….and life.

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Because every day should be filled with fun, giggles, mischief, magick, and weeeee! Heart tickles to you from rainbow sprite me!

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It’s always a gift to get outside and explore what nature is up to each day. So much incredible discoveries, expansive views, tiny details, and portal potency.

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Especially heart warming is getting to see our tree friend whom we helped and nurtured all last winter during the craziest snow fall here in Tahoe. You might remember my posts on him last winter. The huge drifts of snow would come down the mountain on him and had him bent over, highest limbs touching the ground. We’d dig him out every time we passed and give him love. So wonderful seeing him strong and having grown several feet already this year! He’s nearly straight and looks like he’s going to be just fine.

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Other trees end up getting uprooted. What was also sweet is that right behind him a new baby tree is growing. I know he’ll take good care of her. The two photos of us each by the tree show how big he’s gotten. When it was my turn to get my photo with him I started walking toward him and tripped on a bush or root buried in the snow. We felt he wanted me there from that perspective, but also wanted to have a little fun with me. So we took the photo of me after my fall looking up at his beauty. That photo is above.

And below is the world of wonder as seen through a sprite’s eyes.

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At the end of the day, it’s not how much you have or have accomplished that matters, but how much more your heart opened. Nature helps mine expand and deepen daily more than I thought possible. If you feel your heart tight like a bud or wilted and hurting in some way, let nature in. She has a way of touching the hardest to reach places and bringing a warm smile where you thought you never could feel again.

I See An Angel


To the reflection I see in you…..each and every one of you:

I honor your blossoming journey and the sweet fragrance of your soul.

Every day your delicate petals unfurl a little bit more, revealing the essence of who you are.

What do you see when you peer deeply to the core of you?

I see an angel recognizing their reflection for the first time and awakening into the embodiment of that grace.

Every day is opportunity to deepen into recognition and reverence of the individual journey… the unique frequency signature of each soul, and the beauty and richness that diversity brings to our lives and our growth.

Within each soul seed lies unlimited potential for expansion and creative enrichment within and without.

Let us sink gently into our hearts so that we may soften our relationship with ourselves, others, our animal brothers and sisters, Earth’s gardens, the here and beyond.

There is no threat to an open heart…only more love to be discovered beyond the lines you’ve chosen not to cross.

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Perspective for the New Year


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One of the creeks behind our house is frozen over about half way down so you can walk across it and see the pockets of translucency and density. For some reason this brings to mind the questions of how we can be more compassionate and sensitive in handling very sensitive matters with others? How we can fine tune the balance of mindfulness and heart in understanding the individual journey and what it truly means to embody something unconditionally? No matter what spectrum of beliefs, ethics, and virtues we hold, it seems that the tendency is to make others wrong and to fight, ridicule, point fingers, assert our righteousness, or hurt others in effort to make them like us. This appeases the ego, but doesn’t take into account temperance of the heart. The ice cracks and the gap between greater connection and understanding widens. The anchor disappears, the bridge collapses, and with that the opportunity dissipates for seeding possibility of expanding our journey. When we remove compassion in its full embodiment, we increase the likelihood of disconnect and growth for everyone involved with the fostering of a deafening ear. There is something to learn from every point on the spectrum. Perhaps the next time we find ourselves “walking on thin ice” we can sink deeper into our hearts and ask ourselves the harder questions as to how we are living the example of our convictions.

(Reposting this from my Instagram page. I love what one friend reflected in addition…how the image of the ice looks like the surface of the Moon and mirrors the micro/macrocosm)

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Surprise Gifts from the Faeries


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Every day is a gift, each moment is an adventure unfolding, and every breath is an opportunity for expansion. It’s been an incredible journey with surprises around every corner and most recently, surprises discovered in our own backyard. We haven’t yet moved into our new magickal dream house, but we visit each day to manage remodeling, care for our new trees, and when time allows, explore a bit of our enchanted forest garden. I’d made promises to the Faeries to work with the energy here and in turn they opened the doors for this house to manifest and have sprinkled hidden treasures to uncover along the way.

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Back view of house

 

I’ve already begun to plant some seeds of new in our front yard for the Faeries, which include five daffodil and five iris bulbs that were gifted to me by Faery sis Laura. If all goes well, they’ll be blooming once the snow thaws, bringing enchantment and color to the entrance of our home, lined along the large trees and Manzanita where I felt called to place them. As mentioned, an earth worm showed up while I was doing so, which felt like an affirmation of placement and gratitude.

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We’ve been starting to work on a few changes to the area just outside my new office as well, and have been dream journeying with ideas for the yard there that will become a Magick Sanctuary that will at some point include a labyrinth and more. A work in progress for sure and can’t be started until Spring. For now we are focusing on the inside of the house, as truly the yard is a Nature’s work of art already.

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We knew this was a magickal space, sitting on the National Forest with only one house to the right that isn’t on top of us, but also aren’t year-round neighbors, however we continue to discover just what the Faeries had in store for us with guiding us here, as we uncover more of their surprise gifts each day.

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Today marks seven weeks since my foot fracture, and I’m no longer wearing my healing boot. I’m now able to wear regular supportive shoes and am moving around well. This has enabled me to start doing some easy hikes and walks, which include the beginning of explorations in our forest backyard.

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We have an endless circuit of hiking trails out back that lead all over, including connecting to the Tahoe Rim Trail. I have only walked about a mile so far, but in doing so last week, discovered some treasures!

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Not only did the Faeries leave raw quartz directly behind the house and along the trail….gorgeous pieces of pink quartz….but we discovered some very cool things about where the house sits, including having views of Heavenly Mountain Ski Resort.

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We are exactly smack middle of two year-round flowing creeks, literally just a quarter of a mile in either direction (we clocked it) and about 3-4 minutes walk. What incredible energy that is having flowing water and the magick of these little Water Nymph areas perfect for this Pisces.

Here’s a short clip of one. The other has a bridge over it. This one has a log bridge over it.

Throughout the trail there are beautiful granite outcroppings of large stones that create sacred areas and energy as well. Some are large and others smaller. In some cases create rings or circles, and in other cases are just deliberately placed and have distinct shapes. I didn’t capture all of these in photos, but this is one of the larger areas.

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And to our surprise we have very tiny peeks of Lake Tahoe. Not the full, expansive view of our tree house, but indeed open channels and portals connecting her energy with our home, both seen from the deck and back rooms of the house, and also wider openings along the trail just yards out.

This became extra apparent as we were there at sunset and I saw what appeared like two Suns setting. Then I realized the second was actually the Sun reflecting on the water and I could actually see the waves rippling on the surface of the Lake.

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They don’t show up in the photos much, but give you a tiny idea. In person, it’s quite magickal.

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I love the streaming of water and light through these little doorways, which creates this incredible portal of flowing energy tying in so many elements here that it’s almost beyond words to describe the feeling of. It just feels perfect, aligned, and definitely meant to be, plus creates a lot more mystery, magick, and mischief!

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The dances of light that have been present the last few visits at our home have been revealing too and excite me as to all that will continue to reveal itself when we do in fact live here and what will take place and become possible in creating.

Oh what magick we will weave with secret visitors abound!

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I love this video of the light in the yard and if you look closely near the railing you’ll see this magickal little white energy flying through the air and following my movement…then disappear.

Gratitude overflows and excitement builds. Yet patience is my constant partner for all that lies ahead and is unfolding step-by-step.

Life continues to be a journey of trust, loving commitment, and continued dreaming…

Deer Heart Medicine


This morning’s gift….four deer just below our window spent the morning grazing. An older buck with full antlers, a younger one with little antlers growing, and two females. It was such beauty and grace to watch and such lovely medicine to experience and be messaged with. This same window was where a black bear gave us a show rolling in the snow this past winter. And the deck is where a hawk landed, facing in at me, and so many variety of large and small birds (including eagles) fly by and land, as well as squirrels and chipmunks come play. It’s truly wonderful to experience and I know will continue tenfold at our new home on the forest.

I’ve written before on deer symbolism, which includes so many lovely energies:

love, grace, gentleness, compassion, innocence, peace, beauty, fertility, femininity, humility, swiftness, acceptance, regrowth, renewal, creativity, spirituality, psychic power, subtlety, higher connection, awareness, abundance, benevolence, watchfulness, and is associated with the moon, the dawn, and the easterly directions.

The stag in particular symbolizes the same, but includes masculinity (which brings balance), regeneration, guidance, healing, connection to the Earth and forest, alertness, pride, independence, purification, strength, and nobility.

I thought I would share some of the photos I capture this morning, as I spent about a half hour or more just watching them.

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I also found it a beautiful synchronicity, since my dear friend Dawn is visiting and she is very connected to deer medicine as well, having a couple of sacred tattoos of them she wears on her skin, and her blog is in fact called Deer Heart Reiki

We have continued to share some magickal times and sweet moments while she has been visiting. Today she’ll get to meet Astrid and we’ll take in a lovely forest hike before she heads off tomorrow morning, which will be sad, but also just a continuation of the journey and cycles we share.

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Creating Space for the New & Reflections of the Process


As I shared, in the coming couple of months we’ll be moving into our new home and this will herald another leap of change in our lives. Of course these involve energetic shifts and openings, but I can literally see how these shifts have evolved and why, even just in terms of the homes we’ve been, and will be, living in. The journey is constantly humbling, as I review the course of my life and experiences that haven’t always been so clear to me, let alone clean and easy. Things are drastically different these days, but that has only been because of a continued commitment to delve deeper and not become complacent. To keep rising out of the ashes and do it another way. These days are times of unveiling and constant stripping away of comfort zones and veils that even the more conscious can easily pull, or have pulled, over themselves.

Everyone is going through a rewiring process and in some cases that leads to a richer and fuller embodiment than ever known, when embraced and implemented. And in some cases this can lead to a “shift or leave” syndrome we keep experiencing with so many departing this Earthly plane of existence.

There’s no right or wrong in this, but simply a choice. We are constantly presented choices, as this is a free will zone.

I definitely don’t do things in any perfected way and definitely have gone through some crazy stuff because I, too, understand the confusing, painful, challenging, and sometimes tormenting energy we have here to deal with.

It is through finding solace within my own voice that I experience peace and find the clarity that guides my way.

And recently that led us back to Lake Tahoe and we found ourselves in this “tree house” or “castle in the sky” at the highest point here being 7500 elevation that overlooks the lake.

It’s as if we physically manifested a realm to literally help us rise above things, to elevate us in this state of being in things, but not of them, so that we could suspend all the “noise” around us and receive clarity on our path….and peace within chaos.

From this place so much has streamed in, inspiration has channeled through, and creative manifestation has been able to take form in an all-encompassing and multi-dimensional way.

After being on the road and deeply immersed in Nature for over a year in the Magick bus, this state of suspension atop the air streams that blew in and all around us, supported an opening to take place that helped sift through all of our thoughts and ideas, so that we could hone in on the most effective and all-fulfilling path for us. It was no surprise to me that this has been during such huge times of shifting and upheaval the collective and Earth is experiencing.

It’s as if the winds that blew through here carried with them the whispers of collective thoughts and beliefs and I was experiencing it all swirl around me, but could then understand from this perspective how they were my choice to either grab from the air and attach to, or continue to allow them to stream by with gratitude for their reflection.

It is here that I completed the story that my book shares.

It is during our remodeling and transition phase that I edit it now.

And it will be in the new home where completion anchors and expands into the next phase.

We will be going from this elevated point that enabled expansive vision of sky and water (and review of multi-perspectives and potentials) to support our process….to a 900 feet drop in elevation to 6600 feet that will be rooting us into the abundant and mysterious forest for the next phase.

We’ll still be remaining at very high altitude, as this is where I thrive and feel most me, but with a new support system that will integrate the energy more (Earth and Cosmos as One), as well as deepen the creative inspiration into manifestation.

We’re dropping down a bit to merge with Nature more, rather than hover in the air above it. This also merges us back into things at large more too. And, it will bring us within closer proximity to getting to the lake for our water connecting – could even bike or walk there if we really wanted, or drive within minutes. Feels like the perfect happy medium for us at this stage and the seclusion and magick of the forest feels to nurture with the sense of sanctuary now desired.

I’ve also seen this shift take place with the plant friends I’ve surrounded myself with, which has grown since living here. I went from having only one plant on the Magick Bus (after I gifted away my mini garden I had at first to my friend in Montana), to now having seven little lush worlds with tons of plant beings in these magickal Faery gardens I’ve created to infuse my life with expansive energy.

The same has happened with crystal friends too. I had so very little crystals, after nearly all moving on in the time before leaping onto the Magick Bus, which continued when arriving here, but then had a small influx of new crystal beings coming in to support the creation of this new space and infuse our environment with the perfect energy needed. Some I felt were working in the now and others working in the new space that only existed in the ethers and would become anchors there once that timeline came into being.

I still have very very few crystals, especially considering I once lived in a crystal cave when I first moved out on my own to my space at the north end of Tahoe. But the few with me now are very deliberate and are shared between Astrid and myself, as well as support our family as a whole. And since we’re preparing to move, most are boxed right now except for a few in the space to support the change.

You’ve already seen Astrid’s Dendritic Opal and Rose Quartz Towers, so I’m only sharing the ones I haven’t yet. I haven’t posted much on crystals lately, but know that so many of you love them and enjoy shares on them. I have mentioned how many crystals I never had a huge draw to have come into my experience now, and so you’ll see some of those here.

The ones I’ve kept out for now are what you see in the photos here, which include my male and female Labradorite unicorns, a Lapis Lazuli fish, a Goldstone rabbit, an incredible Ocean Jasper sphere with portals and amazing naturally infused sacred circles in perfect geometric synergy throughout (hard to capture, but you can kind of see one of these in the photo), and this incredible Fluorite.

The Fluorite is like nothing I’ve seen and truly embodies the essence of my focus – merging Earth and Cosmos – as the bottom half is this exquisite layered journey through Earth’s womb in the brown and the top half is this ethereal experience of violet and white. Within each there are remnants of both interlaced, creating balance. And then we find sparks of rainbow and one larger one at top.

I just love it and knew immediately it was to come home and mirrored the journey I have been, and will continue, on.

Harmony within and without. 11:11 when I write that.

I love reflecting on and deepening into the processes and share them as a way for others to also see how we can utilize them to understand the why’s and to have gratitude for each piece and step of the way.

Even the not so fun, uncomfortable, challenging, and painful parts still apply to “life as an experience”and process we can teach ourselves to become more present to and receive the reflections of.

If I’d continued to circle round and round with my attachment to those times in my life, I would have remained stuck and could not have created something different, or perhaps would no longer be here even. Through trials and tribulations, trial and error, and experimentation, we reach a little further each time.

I don’t think it’s easy, but I do know anything is possible.

I now have new hurdles to jump if I want to continue to create more and what I feel called to bring forth, but with the experiences behind me, I have built strength and resilience to face them with a lighter approach.

Literally “dropping into” this new space, I invite a merging to take place that creates the space for more.

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