Blog Archives

So Much Joy, Gratitude & Love ~ Update On How Things Are Shaping Up


This is a post about joy, gratitude, and love – building blocks to manifesting a magickal and wondrous life and the foundations for supporting healing transmutation and implementation of passions into dreams come true. While some people might be thrown off balance or upset, down, and self-critical over a fracture (even the old me would have been too), I feel like everything is in flow, fresh, and thriving. Definitely some of that has to do with perspective, but it feels also to be about alignment and embrace of the harmonious spirals of life. I haven’t for a second felt anything other than harmony and gratitude since my hiking adventure that led to my injury, as it feels much more to be a reset aligned with life shifts, an igniting or opening (fissure) for the new to flow in, not to mention is mirroring the seasonal changes we’re going into from Summer to Autumn.

I can’t begin to tell you how beautiful things have been surrounding the onset of my fracture and what it has revealed and put into motion. It’s incredible to witness and review…in some ways mind-blowing because I can remember the difference in my processes over the course of my life with things and it’s so dramatically contrasting to what I experience now. This is how I can SEE things ARE in fact changing and can anchor in more and more gratitude.

I’d like to share a couple of updates and then some very beautiful and incredible experiences.

First off….more gratitude sent out to everyone who has sent their good and healing vibes my way and for sending Astrid birthday wishes. We so appreciate your love and I’d like to share that my foot is doing very well. I can’t believe it’s already going to be a week since it happened, come tomorrow! Time is literally whizzing by. OMGOSH!

I’ve made mental note of how my own nurturing processes are even in much higher gear, as I’m taking REALLY good care of myself with this fracture. I noted that last go-around I wasn’t as diligent with the process, although did do good things for it, but I didn’t baby my foot in the way I should have and still was focused on accomplishing and getting things done, rather than hunkering down into the full healing mode and not trying to see how much I could still squeeze out of it all.

This time it’s been pure healing, slow-down, and wise caution, not doing anything at all to inhibit my healing or see what I can possibly still do. I have been purely babying my foot, keeping my boot on at nearly all possible times (even when it bothered the Pisces me who likes my feet free! and even when I sleep) – and doing extra nurturing things, as well as making sure to ask for help, which Dave has been so sweetly pouring out anyway.

This has included long hours on the highest setting of my biomat for my foot the last few days and just recently starting up my comfrey poultices, after a friend picked up some for me since I couldn’t get out. Being my right foot, I’m in complete surrender of others taking care of me and driving me around….weeeeeee! That in the past would have bothered me and now I’m loving not being able to go anywhere and surrendering to that, but also enjoying the sweetness of support, love, and friendship.

IMG_20170915_092624723.jpg

Anyway, I am trying new poultices with comfrey root and this feels really symbolically and literally potent and even more aligned for me right now. I made a paste and wrapped in a thin cloth I placed in the freezer for just a bit….last night when I had it on it just felt so good….just like the biomat did….like aaahhhhhhh yummy healing for my foot.

IMG_20170915_203409680.jpg

The root feels so supportive of grounding, balancing, rooting, and Earthing that my Pisces feet can appreciate and integrate in a new way. After last night’s session of poultice while watching a movie, I literally woke this morning with my foot feeling stronger…literally!

I’ve also been doing Reiki on my foot and using a Selenite wand on the area of impact.

Good stuff, which I’ll continue to implement, along with wearing my boot all day (just as the doctor at the hospital told me too) other than when doing healing work like this to help compliment my healing process.

* (I’m not a doctor and nothing I share is offered as medical advice – CONSULT A PROFESSIONAL and see a doctor immediately if you have been injured. These are only my personal experiences I take responsibility for only for myself) *

21740501_10213660295368858_6651505138535894037_n.jpg

Even my sweet Astrid has been helping. I thought she would be scared of my boot and crutches when I first came home with them, but she in fact was not and in fact has immediately gone about sharing her healing energy with me, reiterating my knowing she is a healing bunny. When ever I am near her, she will come over and nose my boot/foot, which is her way (all of my bunnies’ way) of administering healing. Their noses are a channel, just like our hands, to spread the energy and love. So sweet! I remember Nestor doing this, especially once for my mom in conjunction with me doing a Reiki Healing Attunement for her, which was like a super pow! Immediately shifted my mom into balance and feeling good. Astrid is definitely demonstrating the same power-packed punch!

So that’s a foot and healing update, which I envision continuing well and being speedy based on my experience with it so far and being a good patient. 😉

On another note, I have to share this incredible thing that happened on Thursday that blew me away. We had friends over since I still was in “stay home mode” and Dave had to go out to pick up food we ordered at our fav local Thai restaurant, since T – me – wasn’t cooking and staying off her feet.

A knock came at the door and I opened it to find no one there, except these beautiful babies and a note.

IMG_20170914_190645486.jpg

I immediately knew that our amazing friends had gone back to retrieve my crystal babies.

So, I’ll back up to help you understand this, as I likely wasn’t clear in my story of my hiking injury.

I had 2 big quartz in my back pack I was carrying, as they spoke to me needing to come home and would be a part of what I will be creating in the near future. We have guesstimated them to be at least 50 lbs. So, as you can tell, I was quite determined in carrying these for miles. It didn’t even phase me, as the mind is a miraculous thing. It also officially put me into back-packer status, carrying so much and being so small.

When I fell and went into trauma shock, I asked my friends to remove the pack immediately because I needed to focus on balancing from the nausea, shock, and turning white. (I really didn’t have any pain except an initial quick impact feeling of the break that was actually pretty subtle in comparison to my last fracture, but the body reacts this way to trauma impact).

In process of balancing and readying ourselves for what was next in getting me down the mountain, I told them to leave the crystals, which Dave reiterated, as it wasn’t as important as taking care of me, being that we didn’t know the severity of things.

So they were left on the side, and I did feel this underlying sadness, but also this odd sense of continued connection that wasn’t broken.

One other friend had been carrying a quartz too and she ended up leaving as well, down further on the path, to not impede her own journey back down.

Anyway, I hadn’t forgotten them and still felt this channel of connection between them, and oddly (which I never shared with anyone) I felt like they were still with me and/or would be somehow/some way, even if it meant they’d wait for me to return later or after the Winter thaw.

So fast forward to the door opening and there they were before me with the note.

I was overwhelmed with emotion that came forth later, as I was so excited and giddy that that took over.

I then caught glimpse to the left at the bottom of the stairs, one of our friends videoing me and my reaction and knew they’d gone back to get them.

Most of my reactions were in Faery laughter and astonishment, but it was also full of exhilaration and exuberant joy and gratitude that rushed through in realizing what incredible friends I had. Like so incredible you can’t even form words except to giggle forth with joy and to form joyous tears that bubbled in my eyes later when I was hugging them over and over.

Our friends had gone back that morning on a 5 hour hike JUST to retrieve my and our other friend’s 3 crystals (likely 60+ lbs and a gift or two they found for themselves for embracing the journey of love.

BESTEST friends ever!

They also shared with us these SO SO funny videos of documenting the journey back, which had us in belly laughs. I was especially laughing at our friend’s impression of me carrying the crystals in my pack and how I was still looking around at more and saying I can carry 1 or 2 more of these babies! This was funny because they now realized just how heavy the ones I had with me were, which made my saying this hilarious as to how my determined mind took over.

This photo puts into perspective the size of just the one largest one, which is of course the heaviest too. I’m still smiling though!!

IMG_02561.jpg

The other VERY interesting thing they noted was that where I fell was exactly at the site of the quartz field we’d been waiting to reach. Dave kept saying there was another one because he’d been on the hike before, when the girls and I had stopped at the first one we found to look around. So he was telling us not to spend time because more were on the way. We never actually saw this other site, because my injury took over focus.

Well, on their way back to retrieve the crystals they found that where I fell (marked by where we left the crystals) was exactly where they were, just up the hill from there a bit. That gave me chills in thinking of the energetics of it all at work and the alignments igniting and activating once I’d reached this area infused with more crystal vibes.

The crystals are super special and you can’t even tell the beauty of them in the photos…their amazing color – one is pinkish and the other like a golden apricot – and both have all this sparkly clear quartz infusions into the raw natural quartz rock. Amazing specimens and masterful beings!!

IMG_20170914_190658287.jpg

I’m still overwhelmed by it and also anchoring in more and more gratitude and realization that this is the new reality I have created for myself (and that is possible) where everything in it is a reflection of alignment and love…supportive energies…beautiful souls working together for a greater good….everyone mindful of and helping each other’s needs and dreams, but also supporting their own and their dreams, which brings together the highest of vibes and the power of the collective to move mountains…..or in this case to carry 60+ lbs of crystals.

It literally has to be one of the most special things I’ve ever received..and I don’t mean the crystals (although I’m in awe and gratitude of them being with me), but the gesture of true love and friendship.

These same friends also picked up my comfrey for me (it even had a Tinkerbell on the bag from the store!) and brought over some amazing organic “dragonfly” spicy black chai.

IMG_20170915_092631368.jpg

After that, our other friends arrived and I was then gifted a mini wardrobe of clothes she was moving out and thought were perfect for me and they were!

I was/am really feeling the love and I know that this is mirroring the fact that I’ve finally really anchored in taking care of myself, listening to my dreams and needs too, and balancing out that martyr energy of always giving out and never receiving – not to mention have implemented healthy boundaries. In the past receiving was hard and now it feels natural because it IS the natural flow and cycle.

You can’t just give, give, give….and you can’t just receive, receive, receive…

There is a flow of exchange to be open to and grateful for and it is all-encompassing of both being inherent in the wholeness of BEING. That is also the nature of Reiki….a harmonious circuit of flow in and out, which if blocked in any way, is the cause of challenges and dis-ease.

Yesterday was my first full outing since fracturing my foot, which included errands related to the new, a hair appointment for me, visiting my parents, and Dave getting a haircut by my mom (she has been a beautician although doesn’t do it professionally anymore since leaving her birth place, France).

I was feeling high-vibed to get a refresh on my hair, which included cut/thinning for lightness and hair getting to all silver and brown (my roots), which feels SO different and SO good. There’s constantly this recreating energy taking place to keep up with the ever-shifting energies. If I’m not naturally shape-shifting, then I’m assisting it. I also thought it was fun that my stylist styled my hair with loose spirals for a change, which felt mirroring of all the snake energy around me lately and the spiraling of the journey of life in general. I don’t ever curl my hair, as I don’t have the tools and usually just let my hair dry naturally so this was a fun update although brief.

IMG_20170915_194807.jpg

We also got good news on this day/yesterday for something that has been in the works and took a huge turn the day before that could have gone a whole other way, but I worked with the Faeries, Buffalo energy, and did a Reiki Healing Attunement for, resulting in being told to fully trust, know what we want, and take assertive stance of our needs and the rest would be taken care of…and it was!

I’m saving that for a future post, but is something very exciting to me and going to anchor in everything further and more richly.

Lastly, I am happy to say that my book is back on track with the time off my feet and I should be able to have exciting news on that too here shortly!

We are all in this together and bringing your best “foot” forward with all of your parts together in unified alignment, sharing lots of love, joyous infusion and supportive action of your passions, and a LOT of gratitude and healthy balance supports harmony to take form in relative ways for each of us.

Violet Light of Transmutation & Understanding


IMG_20170831_112542391

I shared this photo just over a week ago, but yesterday I was drawn to revisit it because I remembered having found the light energy around my foot to be interesting. As you can see, my right foot is immersed in violet energy – the very foot that this Sunday took a fracture for me, as the necessary shifts, recalibrations, upgrades, and adjustments are in effect for the new to anchor in a timely manner. Since posting about my foot and adventure surrounding it, I have heard from multiple, multiple people that either they or people they knew all had similar incidents take place on or around the same day with foot fractures (in one case the exact bone and foot as mine mirroring having now balanced out their left foot same injury, also just like mine from 5 years ago), foot pains and injuries, same side knee injuries, and footing feeling off-balance in general. Seems no coincidence of course with the Full Moon in Pisces we just moved through and the huge timeline doorways of intense energy potentials between the Solar Eclipse and the upcoming Equinox. We are all experiencing those energetic tweaks to align more with the new realities we are creating, which involves changes to the frequencies in which we walk forward and anchor in with.

I remember that five years ago when I fractured my left foot twice in a row (fractured left pinky toe immediately after I healed the metatarsal fracture on that foot) it involved literally walking through the threshold of a doorway and reminded me not to leave parts of myself behind and that the core emotional realm (the hardest for us all to change) had to follow in suit with the alignments otherwise the new would be tainted with the foundations of the old.

Remember that shadow work? That’s the underlying element driving so much of the collective contrasts and drama playing out right now.

So, I did in fact, place the Seven-Pointed Faery Star on my left foot as a sacred tattoo, to assist with walking through portals with greater ease and magickal support. The left of our bodies is actually connected to our right brain, which represents the Sacred Feminine and all that she embodies symbolically and literally.

That Feminine energy has been a focal point for most spiritualists, or “New Agers”, but as I’ve mentioned, we won’t be able to forget our parts and the Sacred Masculine energy is equally necessary to restructure and bring along as well. Hence, comes in the right foot, connected to the left brain and Sacred Male.

A balancing and harmonizing “dance” is the collective’s journey and I see it clearly playing out in my own Pisces body/feet.

So, yes, there is so much more than a personal experience we go through, and yet the personal is innately collective, and vice versa.

Interestingly, I wear a jaguar sacred tattoo on my right ankle, whose own paw extends down into my right foot, mirroring my strides forward. The male energy is action oriented and taking those steps will need to be made in new ways with the calculated wisdom of jaguar without wasting energy or revisiting old patterns and ways, in order to manifest the new.

I know for myself, I’ve spent a lifetime adjusting to my body and being at home here on Earth, since the nebulous Cosmos is more native to me. It is only within the last 2-3 years really that I’ve experienced that merging and grounding, which was only possible by releasing the life I was entangled in and venturing off into full Nature immersion to know the true “nature” of me.

My feet have always felt both odd and twinkly all of my life, making sense since a fish has fins. It’s why I came into this life dancing and loving to swim, as these were more congruent with the way my feet wanted to move.

However, as time has progressed and I’ve come to understand the energies I needed to evolve into and harmonize, my Capricorn ascendant and Mars taught me about where I was headed and was the only reason I never fell off the deep end. Capricorn/Earth energies have been my anchor and also rules the bones and structures, not to mention the “male” energy. I’ve been spending a lifetime restructuring myself and readjusting into a more frequency-aligned embodiment to “walk” this current timeline with. And that has involved sometimes very “Mars-like” ways that aren’t subtle and come with great force, passion, and gusto behind them.

We all are adjusting and restructuring, in our own ways. And I share my experiences as one way of delving into how things make sense based on my own energies I came into this life with, and how we can see it all as a gift rather than punishing ourselves or others.

I’m grateful for all the healing energy and love shared and send the same to all of you.

We are discovering keys to new doorways of experience and sometimes those literal symbolic experiences make things easier for us to understand since our minds are always looking for meaning.

There will come a time that simply “knowing” will do the trick, but until then I’m happy to keep sharing what I experience since I have been told it helps others with their own experiences.

So, when I look at this photo of the violet energy around my right foot, I do not see it as an omen of something forewarning me in a “bad” way (take a look at this photo closer and feel the magickal energy and support twinkling all around), but rather I see it as a frequency adjustment that was already taking form on the ethereal level and that now the physical and other parts were going to adjust and realign with – perhaps it was even setting up the perfectly supported experience for what it/I knew on another level was coming in order for things to manifest with greater ease (hence all the support and love around me that day that made it all a gift).

Violet light is connected to the seventh frequency and crown/universal consciousness and carries the energy of transmutation (helping dissolve karma and karmic ideas) to support divine alchemy and Cosmic transformation into manifestation.

That violet light had caught my attention when I first saw the photo, and now I understand the why.

Made of Stardust


star lake (13).jpg

As I glance at the clock to begin this post my eye catches the time to read 2:26 pm. There is no randomness about that in my book, being that much of this post is centered around the theme of rebirthing, since 2/26 IS my birthday, and I’ve been seeing these numbers show up again. It’s also no coincidence my last post was titled Updates & Integrations Anchoring and my post of 6 days ago – Earthing, Faery Portals, Dream Visioning & Pisces Full Moon – spoke of the energy around the Pisces Full Moon – all of this making sense as you read on. I mentioned in that blog how Pisces rules the feet saying “dance like crazy and move energy through your feet, which will not only shake out everything from the core and move things fast, but will anchor and ground you as you connect those feet to Mother Earth – Terra. She will in turn help transmute the energy and send it back with a recharge!” I specifically also mentioned how I, myself, had just danced the hardest I have since in my twenties and then was recalibrating my sore feet for 2 days after because of it. I also mentioned having seen 5 snakes, seeing/experiencing Faery portals and new doorways of possibilities, and how pulling within sometimes is necessary.

Voila! In comes yesterday’s adventure on 9/10, leaving me to start my first day of healing recalibration on 9/11, today, which auspiciously is also the day my blog is about to hit 1,000,000 visitors – collective energy feeling entwined in this all for sure, as Pisces naturally would be.

I’ll try to keep the story simple and to the point, so I’m going to bypass a lot of the details to allow a lot of the pulling together of meanings for you to draw upon and piece together.

star lake (11).jpg

To make a long story shorter 😉 yesterday we went with a group of our dear friends here on an epic 13 mile hike to Star Lake. On the drive there I pointed out a perfectly formed dragon sculpture to Dave, naturally formed from a dead tree stump on the side of the road in Christmas Valley (having street names like Elf, Blitzen, and Portal to name a few) looking up toward the sky with wings behind it. That felt significant.21558833_10213627611471781_6098124891022284778_n

We found our trailhead, which took us along the Tahoe Rim Trail (where the still lingering Pisces Full Moon showed up across a vista seen in the photo above) and was gorgeous every step of the way. Part of the adventure involved traversing through quartz crystal-infused areas and immersing in their energy, which being Master Crystals was potent to say the least.

I’d been told I’d find a special crystal or two for an upcoming creation-to-be in the new unfolding, which did in fact take place, although in a different way (for now) than envisioned.

star lake (1).jpg

Two giant ones spoke to me and I managed to carry them in my packs to Star Lake where we enjoyed a picnic lunch. Rainbow light, Faery portals, and magick lit the journey across creeks, enchanted forests, amazing stone people outcroppings, and incredible vistas with hidden snow patches here and there, as I carried these potent beings with me. It was my first time to this lake.

star lake (15)star lake (12)

star lake (17)star lake (19).jpgstar lake (18).jpgstar lake (16).jpg

On our descent, things took a turn, as I literally found my right foot swivel under me on a rock and heard a crack. Down I came and about 30 seconds later my body went into the shock syndrome when trauma has occurred in the body.

I have only experienced this with fractured bones, major contusions, my unbearable tailbone pains, or when empathing someone else’s injury. Although not foreign to me, it doesn’t make it any more fun. 🙂 Shock is a response the body has to trauma or intense pain where it shuts the body’s systems down to deal with it and can result in things such as weakness, cold sweat, irregular breathing, chills, turning white, nausea, etc.

For me it’s usually weakness, turning white, nausea, and close-to-fainting that I experience.

I knew to just sit down, close my eyes, focus on breathing slowly, energetically balancing myself, and having some water. And that was what I did with the assistance of the best team of friends one could ask for to be there with me through it. It subsided after about 10-15 minutes and after that I was back to my Faery self, but with what I intuitively knew to be a bone fracture – later confirmed.

What happened from there on was an adventure itself and truly for me was not phasing me or wavering my spirits in any way, once I balanced back out, about what happened to me, but just had me on high consciousness about what was evolving all around me, the meanings, and how this may have affected the others in ways that could be worse than anything I was experiencing.

That’s an empath for you, feeling the amazing group of compassionate empaths I had with me.

I already knew how incredible these souls all are, but when you go through challenges like we did together you really come to know the depths of the bonds shared and get to see the best and worst of people. In this case I saw nothing but the best and after just a couple of days before having been locked in an escape room together with them called Trapped in Tahoe – it solidified how well we worked together under pressure and never a negative vibe coming forth.

Sometimes experiences work in mysterious ways for valuable reasons and although you’d want to label them “negative” or “bad”, in fact have nothing but silver linings and beautiful purposes in a bigger picture way.

Dave called 911 and immediately a Search and Rescue team was dispatched to meet us, but we were in a hard to reach area, so to make it easier we had the goal of getting to the High Meadows area where vehicles could reach us. And that’s just what our team did with Dave and our friend, Happy, taking turns piggy-back riding me down the 2+ miles to get there, giggling and keeping everyone smiling the whole way with jokes and lightness.

star lake (3).jpgstar lake (4).jpgstar lake (6).jpg

Our timing couldn’t have been perfect, as as soon as we arrived, the SAR team was just pulling up and getting ready to start hiking up to us. Not far behind them was the rest of the emergency and sheriff team.

I had to laugh as we approached, when the first guy said something about wanting to know if there was a woman along the way that they were there to pick up. I was wearing a “Love” hat and on Happy’s back, so apparently I looked like a little girl and so they had no clue it was me.

I said, “that’s me!” He was like, “oh!” And we went on to meet the woman (that so happened to be vegan we learned immediately) who was at the truck and equally seemed surprised when Happy asked if he could put me on the bed of the truck. She was like, “Oh, yes!” again not realizing I was the one in need. LOL!

star lake (5).jpg

Literally right after I was sat down on the edge of the back of the truck, my friend Bean (who’d been wearing a hoodie that said 1973 – my birth year on it) points behind me where I discover a hawk flying toward us and then above so I can see its feathers and coloring. I knew I was being watched out for, as Hawks are always my guardians, sentinels, and sky messengers to communicate between Earth and Cosmos. I got chills.

I felt a little weird, to say the least, the whole time creating so much attention and more so when several vehicles and a big team shows up for little ol’ me like something out of a movie with wilderness survivors being rescued. This was no big deal in my opinion, but apparently people DO really care and when someone’s in any kind of need, “LOVE” (as my rainbow hat said) has the ability to shine through.

star lake (7).jpgstar lake (8).jpgstar lake (9)star lake (10).jpg

It’s not my usual to be the center of attention since I stay more quiet normally, but I knew there was purpose for that as well and to relax into the beauty of group dynamics and team work unfolding before my eyes, which made me think of all of the mirroring things taking place everywhere with the fires and hurricanes, and major world events.

These times call for unification, compassion, and finding the common threads of humanity and love to come together for a higher good.

I was grateful and I embraced the love pouring out here, and across the globe, despite the contrast of dynamics at work, and yet because of it.

After vitals and taking in info I was carried into the Sheriff’s truck and the rest of the gang hopped in the other trucks and we were whisked down the remaining miles to our cars awaiting us at the trailhead.

I refused the ambulance and so we thanked everyone who had showed up SO fast – they were ALL SO FANTASTIC – and headed to the hospital to await my findings that turned out to be what I thought – a fracture to my right foot.

Not just any fracture, but a mirroring metatarsal fracture to what happened to my left foot FIVE years ago. This time being the FIFTH bone of the metatarsal (different than last time), but a clean fracture again, so no surgery needed.

The doctor said he was shocked again at my age and told Dave, no offense when he had the first thought I may have been his daughter. I normally don’t look THAT young, but apparently in my attire, baseball hat, and pony tail, I was giving off “little girl” today.

Made me wonder if this had in part to do with the rebirthing energy. Hmmmm…

After being given a boot, crutches, and a 6-8 week healing prognosis, we made our way home and I made my way up the 105 steps feeling the totality of the day’s events, life shifts, and soulful journeys illuminating.

It was auspicious that only 4 days earlier I had shared a “Throwback Thursday” post via Instagram and Facebook about my 2/25/12 gallery event that took place the day before my birthday (and had birthday celebrations involved) where I showed up in a Frankenstein-like black shoe because of the left foot metatarsal fracture that was still healing.

But during the time I was being piggy-backed on this day of 2017, I was reviewing much, including how much my processes and progress had shifted since then, as I remember being initially upset and down on myself when that one took place, until I pieced together the meaning.

This time was so different. It’s hard to explain, but it was like this seamless, natural unfolding. I wasn’t in the least bit phased or even taken off center, except to deal with the physical trauma I had to initially integrate to catch up with the other parts of me that were on board already – definitely feeling like part of those upgrades and physical recalibrations to help align with all the fast transformations taking place.

Transformation leading me to those FIVE snakes I’d recently just seen AND the full snake skin I found Saturday (just the day before this took place). I found it at an Indian site on Spooner Lake hidden between the sacred stone people formations to the site, which was nearly impossible that I’d seen it (of course meant to be). Right before that I’d found a big group of feathers from one of the black and white water fowl there. Definitely signs of rebirthing, shedding old skin, and watery support to flow with it all.

And that watery energy seemed to be a focal point in that feet are ruled by the sign of Pisces, my native sign, and the sign the Full Moon was in. It also happens to be a collective energy sign, which so much of the day’s events felt to be tied into and reflecting, not to mention, as a Pisces would be natural to tap into and play out.

On one level I felt myself, as others too are going through, helping to release some of the pressure in the collective field through the fissure in my bone, which represents structures breaking down to make way for more flexible, new ones. Something Mother Earth Herself does and is doing.

It seemed no coincidence that the hurricanes were raging through Bimini when this was taking place (an area that I’m deeply connected to as you know), and my good friend Jenny was in the eye of it all, having refused to evacuate in order to stay with the home and her ARC (Atlantis Rejuvenation Center) that held the energy for Atlantis there. I’d briefly messaged with her some personal things around this, but had felt a huge resurgence and shift with the energy around that collective experience too.

It seemed no coincidence, also, that we were surrounded by crystal energy (hugely connected to Atlantis) and I had been carrying the load of 2 big ones when my incident took place. It felt deeply symbolic and later I also realized how these crystals had activated and ignited a shift for me that was actually softened through the fracture in my foot rather than being something potentially bigger.

Once again I was experiencing a profound rebirthing on many levels and was opening the portal in my foot/my nature to receive the new Earth energy streaming through.

Terra is recalibrating and so must we.

And personally, also, because of recent events that swooped into our lives heralding in quick changes and anchoring of new, I had to put the conclusion to my book on hold over and over. That had been the only thing I’d been bothered by (as nothing phases me these days), although understood all the moving pieces were necessary to take place to assist this, and so I embraced the shifting timeline peacefully. I also realized that there was some leeway because other shifts were being supported and needing to anchor in simultaneously since it is all connected.

However, I did realize that I had recently, a few days ago, adamantly stated the time was now and no further adjustments could be made because the window was opening, but wouldn’t remain so. This meant I would not be doing outings and any spare time aside from things I HAD to do to support our new manifestations, would all funnel into completing my book.

I remember having mentioned to the girls on the hike yesterday about being mindful of intentions along the hike, since we were surrounded by so much potent energy and the quartz. I realized later how my own intentions were manifesting.

Well, the crystals DID help me to manifest that determination, as now I will definitely NOT be ABLE to do anything except write.

Outer and inner aligned and so I know the portal is fertile for completion.

Hence, more reason to be grateful for this experience, which immediately was the first thing I thought of when it happened.

My Mercury is also in Pisces, which ties in with how I communicate and YES, write. 😉

I will have more to share later including exciting news on our living situation, but for now I must hunker down and embrace the gift I’ve been given and what the crystals opened for me and for us all to create new realities.

I recently heard that while Bimini looks like a war zone right now, that they are okay. Fires have continued elsewhere, hurricanes are still raging through…Nature is doing her own rebalancing, as are the forces at work providing us potentials to rise up.

Devastation has hit many places recently and likely will continue, but there is opportunity for rebuilding from the ground/core up and hopefully doing so with greater consciousness and mindfulness of the Whole.

And this is why, for me, while I can see the connection….on a personal level I just feel like life goes on and when something happens it isn’t even surprising, but is feeling more and more like my aligning with Nature’s processes that simply cycle through and needn’t have any stigma attached to them since they are fluid changes that are part of All That Is.

I personally feel there is grace available in everything…a purpose…a potential…a doorway…and there’s no need to waste time being upset, as there’s so much to be grateful for and far worse potentials to go through and others are in fact going through, to be complaining about a fracture.

I could only see all of those things…the silver linings….the incredible gifts….yesterday, and not a second of anything other than that moved through me. Not a second.

The doctor yesterday at the hospital kept trying to get me to take pain meds, which I kept refusing. He said I “made it too easy.” I thought to myself…. “It can be.”

There’s no coincidence we were at Star Lake and I wore my mirroring tank top that said, “Made of Star Dust”.

star lake (14).jpg

We are being shown glimpses into our divine nature, our origins, our connection, our truth of Being and our unlimited potentials.

The heart of a star is within each of you to embody and contains the building blocks of how to turn this human experience into an exquisite creation of a New Earth collective.

(End note: I worked on and off on writing this today and saw 5:55 when done, although still had to plug in the photos – those transformational 5’s again!)

Upgrades and Integrations Anchoring


IMG_20170909_084448148_HDR.jpg

So, so many changes in process for everyone and speeding up so fast that you hardly have the time to realize truly just how much IS happening and transforming before your eyes, despite thinking nothing much has or that you haven’t really accomplished anything. That’s just the ego speaking and judging, as when you stop to take it all in and review it all with gratitude, you’ll find that indeed nothing is the same and you’ve actually moved through and/or are processing, integrating, living, and implementing a lot and it’s really a whole other plane of experience than what was. And even if you have been resisting, your life likely STILL is different – just maybe not quite what you intended or imagined, but still available to you to change into that if you hop aboard and start choosing to create what you DO want.

Anyway, we’re all experiencing upgrades in relative ways and one example is a dear friend of mine who’s been making leaps and bounds, which seems to have manifested in the Magick Crystal Wand she became the guardian and keeper of.

She, too, has been experiencing the wild adventures and energy work via RV living on and off while she goes through a lot of transformations and deep integrative healing and expansion. On one of her journeys, her Twin Seer, Bridge Weaver Wand – As Above, So Below Magick Crystal Wand seemed to mirror the shifts, as it suddenly and mysteriously had its Rainbow infused Lemurian Quartz point pop off, but was still attached by the coiled gold wire spiraled around it. We talked about this and how it mirrored how one of my crystals exploded on the Magick Bus, but hers instead seemed to just propel itself with the upgrades and expansion, as well as healing she was experiencing and embracing in big ways with her path.

She/the Wand was ready for more!

IMG_20170909_084510329_HDR.jpg

And immediately I told her, I felt this meant an upgrade was needed to her wand to match the new reality she had readied herself for, which she felt too. So I had her send it back to me, which wouldn’t you know it arrived on the day of the Solar Eclipse!

I’d had a lot going on here, so I didn’t open the box until I was able to work on it, which wouldn’t you know was the Pisces Full Moon. And I completed it yesterday with new upgrades to match hers and support the new journey, as well as big upcoming RV adventure taking her into the next leg of her work.

Before sending it out today, I photographed the new creation so that you can see the changes from the photos in the link above of its original state (colors aren’t as vibrant as in person due to the morning sun still rising). I love how the Pisces Moon, however, was still out today for the photos, as you can see it to the right of the wand. So cool too, as it was gone behind the mountains the previous days by this time. Rapid shifts!

Alongside the Lemurian point it had another quartz activator below and two turquoise around that, all in gold wire wrapping and with 3 Goose feathers at top.

IMG_20170909_084537985_HDR.jpg

Interestingly, when the wand arrived, the feathers were mottled and although I could have nurtured them back into shape, I felt the feathers were in need of an upgrade too.

New changes I implemented included rewiring the entire top with new energy, removing the 3 Goose feathers there with 4 new feathers that called to me (this includes a white Seagull feather, 2 twin pigeon feathers transitioning from light to dark gray, and one smaller one with the same, but an additional dark gray spot – love the energy of the light and shadow gradations all integrated harmoniously as One – adding 5 Golden Ray Selenite Blossom Petals below the 10 quartz points, and a very light, lavender Amethyst that’s like a violet/white flame reminding me of the Violet Breath in Reiki as the heart of it all where I then also added between the Golden Ray Petals and Amethyst, a flowing group of 3 more feathers (that makes 7 in all now instead of the original 3), which include two large Goose feathers (a very dark one and a silver one – working with those contrasting and complimentary energies again and seeing the “silver lining” in it all), with a blue Steller’s Jay feather atop the two as the integrating point bringing clarity, wisdom and higher plane enlightenment to it all. Weeeeeeee!

To add to the descriptions in the link above on the original energies of the elements included, I’ll just paste in the new additions below for this Magick Crystal Wand’s guardian:

Five Golden Ray Selenite Blossom Petals  – Golden (Ray) Selenite are powerful, beautiful, and high vibrational Crystals that have come to light calling in the highest frequency of white light and the Golden Ray of Buddha, some say, storing Ancient Priestess teachings and can be used for a variety of metaphysical purposes – making them excellent for any healing environment. It connects to the Solar Plexus, Third Eye, Heart, and Crown Chakras, helping to integrate, open, and activate them. This supports us in creatively manifesting what is from our heart, directing our will in a loving, joyful manner. We are then able to create our reality based on intention, trust, and joyful wisdom. It helps you to become attuned to, and harmonized with, your soul purpose for this lifetime. Focuses are on joy, manifestation, and creation/creative energies and are really good for digestive issues and addictions, as the dis-ease of one’s will.

Amethyst – Increases nobility, spiritual awareness, opens crown, psychic abilities, inner peace and healing, calmness, healing of body, mind and soul, positive transformation, protection, meditation, balance, relieve stress, communication, opens intuition, supports sobriety, helps with disorders, enhances memory, focus, and motivation.

Seagull Feather – These feathers bring the winds of new heart freedom, personal authentic power, creative self expression, and joyous new perspective to breathe in, ride, and navigate these constantly fluctuating energy streams with perseverance and vision to more clearly see the opportunity and purpose within everything.

Pigeon Feather – Pigeon and Dove both carry the same symbolism of peace and love, but also carry clear vision and dream messages that provide glimpses into things coming and confirm you are “on path”, divinity at work, blessings coming, opening mind and heart, healing, gentle self-nurturing, surrender and release, embrace the integrity of your natural self and purity of your creative spirit to nurture imagination and follow your own true path, as you cultivate hope for the new. The “between times,” but also heralds how the physical and spiritual are more rapidly merging with the thinning of veils that arrive with your willingness to see more clearly.

Steller’s Jay Feather – Blue Jay brings the energies of clarity (in this case double clarity/vision to express purity and truth of heart and soul with great clarity of thought in bringing these through to share), communication, presence, wise and balanced use of personal power, resourceful adaptability for ease, creative self-expression and assertion, sound and song, authenticity, and bringing higher thoughts into action.  Their crest that reaches into the heavens, directly links both Earth and Universal/Cosmic energies, bridging them for integration and active expression of divinity brought into embodiment.

IMG_20170909_084602407_HDR.jpg

I loved it before and I love it even more now!

Embrace, be gentle and patient with, don’t judge, and LOVE every step of the journey, as it is all a beautiful reflection of creative energy in action. The new is anchoring in and the new is also yours to keep recreating! There is no end result to strive for…simply a wondrous journey to enjoy!

Earthing, Faery Portals, Dream Visioning & Pisces Full Moon


Since the Solar Eclipse’s reset, there’s been a rush of very different energy pouring in – for some intensely forcing changes and for others like a welcome jet propulsion into the new. Everything seems to continue to be a step-by-step process of taking it all slowly without rush and truly anchoring in each step with depth of intention and understanding. With tomorrow’s Full Moon in Pisces (my native sun sign), intuition will be on an all-time high, so listening to it and trusting it will be key to support moving into your true power. This moon will help you to gain deeper insights and understanding about the seeds you’ve been planting in your garden, the intentions you have for them, and will illuminate what truly is guiding your life so that you have a broader grasp on the creative forces at work and how to harness them.

Boundaries again are a constant theme in order to create well being and is a lesson for the boundless Pisces energy to understand how to balance in a healthy way.

This is a powerful time for deep soul level closure, to exercise greater compassion rather than judgment, and to practice radical acceptance, which helps you to release suffering. Suffering is a refusal to accept things. It’s time to give up the suffering, do an energy cleanse, and ask how you can make the changes then engage action to do them.

Synchronously we were at a free Celtic rock concert for the Young Dubliners on Saturday where I danced the hardest I have since my twenties. When I say danced hard, I mean hard…I was doing my own version of the Riverdance and literally was jumping, hopping, kicking, jiggling, and wiggling nonstop through about 6 songs with sweat pouring, heart racing, and just powering through despite feeling as if I might not catch my breath, but did, then was in the dancer’s-high zone. My friend who joined me said she heard me giggling and cackling throughout like never before, which made her see my inner Faery come through. That Irish music definitely released a DNA chord within. I literally shook free and coughed out all the old on the drive home after! Talk about an energy cleanse! And feet were recalibrating two days after.

Well, this Pisces Moon encourages the energy of dance since Pisces rules the feet. So dance like crazy and move energy through your feet, which will not only shake out everything from the core and move things fast, but will anchor and ground you as you connect those feet to Mother Earth – Terra. She will in turn help transmute the energy and send it back with a recharge!

That watery Pisces energy is also about dreaming – whether receiving prophetic dreams or engaging imagination to dream big.

This has been a big one for me. I’ve been engaging dream visioning and just going wild with them, as long as they are aligned with the “now” me in every way.

So yes, dream a little dream…..or make it a big one! I am!

Don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t do something and don’t let their doubts become yours.

Also, learn to temper engaging intentions and detachment, envisioning, but also not overly talking about them. Keep a little bit of the magick to yourself so that you don’t lose the momentum. Patience is key, but don’t give up!

True, it will take dedication, drive, endurance, time and major effort, but if you believe in it, it’s the breath of life to you, and it fills your heart with joy and passion then you owe yourself and those that will be touched by your dream who you can’t see right now or gauge analytically, the opportunity to make it happen.

Live life to your fullest and responsibly harness your creative potential as example.

I’ve been immersed in a lot here (I bet you have too!), but continue to have a good majority of my life focused on “Earthing” in Nature and working closely with the Faeries and Elementals of the land to co-create and manifest together. Not to mention, continuing to engage my Star family from beyond, including my dear ones who have moved on, as well as the magickal Cosmic Astrid. It’s a balancing and merging of Earth and Cosmos.

This has continued to lead me on paths to new portals of discovery and doorways (including literal multi-dimensional doors of possibilities – more on that another time) showing up and opening.

I can’t begin to tell you how much has happened so quickly and anchored in in the last 5 months. Incredible! And as I look back I can see how that balance of alignments, patience, release, intention, and action have all come together.

I’ll share the exciting news on things soon, but it really has all become this fluid experience with some things immediately showing up and others all percolating, but are their own realities on a different timeline that are and will merge once I continue jumping them. And at the same time I’m seeing how there is always “something better” that reveals itself, just as is always my intention I voice when working on manifesting things. This ends up bringing together the most aligned outcomes that combine the ingredients of all that I love in an alchemical recipe only the Cosmos Itself within me knows how to do. And that involves stepping out of ego and attachments, and being open, open, OPEN to any and all possibilities that result in the highest good for all concerned.

And during these times, although I’ve been super active and life has been full, I’ve also been very inner (if you can believe that). Truly a Yin/Yang synergy of experience. And it is the inner time and the things I do actually keep to myself that allow me to put out the amount of energy that I do, as it does help me to conserve and restore, as well as continue to fuel things with a gusto of momentum.

I have huge amounts of passionate fire roaring inside and yet I’m letting it out in the bursts needed without crashing or burning out and without ever losing its fuel.

I continue to hold the expansive visions, while allowing things to organically morph along the way. Sometimes I’m so excited I could burst, but that’s when the Earthing and Nature immersion aids me in bringing my energy back down to a healthy kindling and allows a channel of support to come from the Spirits I honor and cherish.

It’s been so interesting to me that I’ve seen the most snakes I’ve ever seen recently in the last few weeks here (5 total – my fav/special #). Potent transformation energy! We don’t have rattlesnakes, but I’ve seen every size of Garter Snake from the tiniest of babies, to adolescent, to mature snake – Maiden, Mother, Crone energy perhaps? All aspects of myself merging, just as Earth and Cosmic parts do (this echoing a very prophetic and powerful experience I had in dream time just a little over two years ago that was the doorway to where I am now, but could have gone a different direction.

It’s 1:11 here as I conclude and paste in this, which I recently shared in an Instagram/Facebook post:

There are times when being alone or pulling within are necessary especially if you are doing very public work in terms of your path. There are spirits who may seem very visual and yet most of who they are and what they do goes unseen and is kept to themselves. But even if others see you, it doesn’t mean they REALLY see you or even fully know you, as you may be a reflection…truth mirror…or simply can’t be seen yet in totality because what you carry or embody isn’t understood yet.

I love you.

My Perfect Partner – Yin to My Yang


It’s been just 7 weeks since the magickal Astrid journeyed into my heart and life, but wow how she’s shifted in this short time. As shared before, not only was she a surprise to me, but her “special needs” had created the reason for her never being adopted by anyone all this time – something I feel was Divinely orchestrated in order for her to weed out non-aligned matches for the work she came here to do and share. That to include partnering with someone who could not only “see” her, but would benefit from the gifts and wisdom she has to impart. I feel blessed she chose me and grateful I was given the insight into her heart, beyond what was present on the surface.

If you recall, she had a “fight” or defensive and protective mode conditioned into her by all that she went through, learned as response, and was affected by in her past. This caused her to grunt, charge, lunge with her front paws, and basically seem to be in attack mode nearly every single time she was approached, she saw anything come at her, her food was put in front of her, you tried to pet her, etc.

She would only be calm under certain circumstances and allow only very present, peaceful, and pure energy of specific intent frequency to come near and not be met with this kind of behavior. So she truly asked/asks you to step into your wholeness and be centered and aware of your energy and what you are projecting from within at all times, what you have going on or are carrying, your intentions, and what REALLY is going on beneath your surface and at your core.

She still is a perfect mirror for this kind of thing with others, making her a wonderful reflection and therapy rabbit if you are ready to work with the truth of your Shadow, but her behavior has completely shifted with me and I’ve seen this trickle out to Dave and a couple of others who have come into her experience lately. Although still very sensitive to energies and sounds, as well as foreign and over-bearing extraneous vibrations in the environment from any source, she has become much less defensive, and more curiously cautious.

But as I said, with me she has completely shifted into a consistently peaceful and excited nature, never attacking or grunting anymore when I approach for any reason. She actually gets super happy when I approach and runs to me, lets me caress her, and even lets me kiss her head and face when she’s sitting on the ground, which would not have been an option before without a couple of paws coming at me! LOL!

She even lets me clean the corners of her eyes gently when she gets any little crusties there, which also would have freaked her out before and caused her to either run away or grunt and charge. She knows I’m taking care of her and being like another rabbit that would help groom her if she were in the wild or had a rabbit friend she loved. After all, I am a rabbit. 😉

She also used to grunt and smack the food out of my hand when I would put it in her bowl to feed her and now she lets me do this and put more in while she’s eating without a flinch.

She also lets me pick her up without moving an inch. She just sits there peacefully and allows me to pick her up and hold her when I feel called to. Although at first I was trying to do this each day, to keep her used to it, I shifted with that notion and no longer do it everyday, since she is exhibiting closeness in all ways, and I want her to know freedom too.

Plus, I want everything to be a very organic and natural flow of experience with our relationship that is governed not by me “training” her, but rather by us listening to one another and receiving the cues and telepathy that unites us in harmonic convergence.

So I pick her up randomly every few days or so when I sense things aligned for this, which makes it even more incredible that she just sits there and allows me to do this peacefully on an inconsistent basis, since she is running free all day and could easily just be like, “No way! I want to be free always, so don’t even try it.”

That was my experience with Nestor, my twin soul. She would let me snuggle her in every way on the floor, but never ever wanted to be held. Her spirit was a free soul who could not be trapped or confined.

Joy was not so keen on it either, but once I held her she was okay with it and enjoyed the snuggles, but I would have to pick her up when she was eating in her hay/litter box, so she didn’t know what was coming.

Cosmo, of course, was just a love bug and being that he couldn’t walk anyway, he was just super content with it all and enjoyed the closeness always of being held in healing love and spreading his.

So, Astrid is very different in this regard, and to me is quite special in her reflection of a new kind of relationship and dynamic not only as a personal mirror, but a collective one I feel that is anchoring (again, but also in a new way) and being remembered.

There is this sense of balance in terms of personal sovereignty and connection with both not having to be compromised, but in perfect harmony with one another that is honored and telepathically and simultaneously experienced in a fluid understanding and alignment of frequency.

A true partnership and equality…a knowingness, or rather, beingness that is anchoring as the shared experience.

Like the Yin to a Yang, Light to Dark/Shadow, Sacred Feminine to Sacred Masculine, one half to another…each their own individual expression, but only whole with the other – both present within oneself and all around us and yet also nonexistent within that perfect merging.

Astrid has come to relax in knowing and experiencing this from me in how I relate to her and understand this important piece she embodies – a reminder to stay present always in that integrative place of transmutation.

She’s amazingly helped me to “see” this and the dynamics very literally playing out so that it goes beyond just concept, but becomes the experience.

She and I have this incredible relationship anchoring in Cosmic Love, which I feel is the basis of her blossoming as she has.

I can only imagine what amazing things will continue to evolve with all of this. She already exhibits so much clarity of communication with me. When I say something (even if just in mind) when I’m in another room, she will come running over in response.

And of course, I LOVE how happy she is, which she exhibits with running and jumping (or binkies, as they’re called).

Also interesting is that she’s unaffected by the wood floors, which Joy had challenge with. It may be in part her confidence and perhaps even the thickly fur-padded feet she has, but she easily gets across the wood and explores, which makes me happy that she doesn’t feel confined anywhere due to what could feel like unstable grounding for most rabbits without pads on their feet.

It’s just amazing to experience all of these shifts so quickly with her and although she still chases off a cat now and then and establishes boundaries where they are concerned, she and I have complete understanding and no need for the same.

She does, however, let Boojum (our male cat) hang out in the same room with her a few feet away, if he’s calm and honors her boundaries, which he pretty much always does now. I feel that he really wants her to be his buddy/girlfriend, like Joy was (to him at least lol). So it’s like he’s courting her by respecting the boundaries, in hopes of someday more coming from it. Too funny. But I love how Astrid manages the energy around here.

Sweet Pea (our female cat) I feel is more threatened by her since she has insecurity issues in general with everything (extra challenged by a very big female power and presence now in her environment) and has this split behavior of sweetness and passive aggressiveness if she feels she has to prove herself (like to establish that dad is hers). But overall, she too, is allowed in the same room if she stays calm and not too close or comes at her with erratic energy.

I’ve had conversations with Sweet Pea recently about this and other behaviors, which seem to have suddenly started balancing out in the last 3 days. I know she understands and listens intently when I talk with her, ultimately wanting to balance out herself and step into the role of healer kitty that she is and I shared with her was something valuable/powerful that gave her opportunity to demonstrate and walk in as an example, rather than let triggers dominate.

My feeling is that much of these dynamics will shift in supportive ways again when things change in our living situation that will be supportive of everyone even more. (Will share more on that as it evolves how I see it to happen soon).

Astrid has truly demonstrated the hidden gifts within and how everything of value is to be seen from the heart and not based on what it seems superficially. She has completely shifted and will continue to do so, as well as continue to reveal much as things evolve further.

She, like Sweet Pea, now has the opportunity to bring forth her gifts and be an example as well of all that she has to impart and embody.

She truly is the perfect complimentary part to me…the Yin to my Yang, and literally is my Divine and Sacred half as a Virgo (her birthday is 9/15/14), which is my wise opposite to the Pisces me – all perfect for the now and not only helping to bring my own parts into integrative balance and alignment more every day, but to mirror this inside and out.

I know I will continue to uncover more of her hidden gifts and feel some incredible experiences are yet to come.

There is so much all around us to help guide us into a new relationship with, and experience of, “reality” as we’ve come to react to it.

Had I been put off like so many others had, or turned away from her when I met her and experienced her merely as an unwelcome trigger or abrasive energy to fight back at, deny, or ignore, I would not have experienced her magick, gained the wisdom of her teachings, nor would she have ever revealed the treasure within that truly All That Is around us, is beckoning us to arise to.

Alchemy is ours to choose.

We aren’t sure of what kind of rabbit she is – the closest description and resemblance I have found is that of a brindle coated American Sable Rabbit.

But none of that matters, as she, to me, represents all rabbits, all animals, all plants, all humans, all life forms, All That Is and the way I relate to her is representative of my relationship to it All.

Every single form of consciousness and Spirit in form here on Earth or formlessly off-planet, all reflect my relationship and communion to Everything.

Let us walk, swim, fly, climb, vibrate, and BE in harmonic presence to what TRULY is at work here and Cosmically weaving as the Grace of Love.

(Side note: I always have number sequences showing up for me…at different intervals, different numbers more than others and sometimes all of them. Recent days have seen a prominence of 5’s (my favorite), which herald huge transformational shifts and supportive change (with less frequent other sequences). Then yesterday I had so many 11:11 on 8/8 time and date stamps come through for me on everything and continued both with actually 11:11 and 1:11 sightings. Synchronously, I started writing this post yesterday, finishing it today, but when I wrote the title to kick this post off it was 11:11 on 8/8. 😉 )

Amplifying the New with Heightened Vision


Two mornings ago on the last day of July, heralding in the most incredibly potent month of 2017, I received a powerful visit by Hawk. The arrival of this sentinel messenger was nothing short of “wow” and truly was as if she descended from the Cosmic realm to bring her gifts of wisdom. Today also happens to be the 2 year anniversary of our Magick Bus RV arriving home to us – an event that changed everything into the most authentic and highest version of reality yet – and I find myself utilizing the same processes I did then to manifest that entire experience with what we’re/I’m working on manifesting now that will create another big reset.

But back to Hawk.

It was morning and I was sitting at the table facing the beautiful view of Lake Tahoe’s portal when suddenly from above and beyond I see a large bird descending and soaring directly at me. She came to land on the banister of our deck, directly in front of me and peered through the sliding screen door no more than 20 feet ahead.

For the last 4-5 years Hawk has become prevalent in my life as an animal spirit guide. This isn’t to say they haven’t been my guides for longer, as I have a strong connection to Horus that transcends lifetimes and a special one-of-a-kind statue of him from Egypt (away in storage currently) that has been with me since 2007 (10 years now).

IMG_20170731_085733732.jpg

Hawk always shows up at very key and important times in my life, when I’ve been contemplating or anchoring in a new venture and direction, and even when I’ve first taken home my bunny loves when adopting them (onset and arrival home), as well as each time I’ve taken them to important vet visits (watching over them and heralding a green light). One time was specifically connected to Joy’s eye doctor visit when I was concerned about her eyes and discovered she was blind in one, but now had incredible inner vision.

On this morning of Hawk’s arrival, I was in awe with chills, as we are already up so high here like a tree house in the sky, so it is an awe-inspiring sight to watch the birds soaring on air streams directly out front and many times right at level of our deck. Has always made me feel like a bird, myself, soaring along with them. So seeing her powerful presence come right at me was breath-taking.

She then sat there peering directly at me from different angles of her ever-watchful eyes, moving her head to catch all perspectives. I didn’t want to move because I knew she would leave if I did, so I sat for a bit (about 1-2 minutes) just watching and receiving. Luckily my cell phone was right next to me so I was able to snap two quick photos from where I was (capturing one of the magickal moments that takes place in my life and isn’t just me writing about it) through the sliding screen door and was able to gesture to Dave who was on a work phone call, to look. He hadn’t noticed her until I got his attention and then he, too, was amazed.

We see all types of birds soaring from here including Eagles, Turkey Vultures, Ravens and a variety of smaller birds like Steller’s Jay, Robin, Doves, Wood Peckers, etc. Normally only the Ravens and smaller birds, along with Squirrels and Chipmunks come onto the deck (peering in the door, playing, getting my attention), so this was quite a gift and blessing to have Hawk arrive, which felt especially meaningful and potent right now for me.

After connecting a bit with her, I a slowly got up and she opened her wings and leapt up on our roof. 

I’ve written about Hawk Spirit Symbolism before, which you can read in greater detail at the link provided.

IMG_20170731_085741139_HDR.jpg

She was beautiful. I’m sure it seems odd that I would resonate so much with Hawks since I am a Rabbit person, who are prey to these predator birds. But my experience, as shared, with Hawk has been supportive with my Rabbits. So, there seems to be an incredible synergy and linked dynamic somehow to the connection between the two for me. And, of course, they are one of my animal spirit guides.

In the last months of living here I have seen SO Many. Some days within a half hour counting upwards of 44 sightings one after another.

But having Hawk two mornings ago come seek me out seems to be an invitation to a higher experience and new dimensional reality being embarked upon where deep and clear inner vision – the kind that sees inside out – is streaming in. For me, this feels more to be a vision of the higher heart and knowing that “sees” me through everything upcoming.

I will need to continue to see beyond the veils and what seems to be, in order to know how to navigate what truly is. (Astrid just peeked from within her Magick Carrot House as I wrote this – she’s been sitting in there very quiet and meditative for a while).

The collective is going through mass shifts, which continues to include extreme experiences across the board.

Personally, I have also been experiencing a major transition, although has felt very peaceful and harmonious.

I write about the greater majority of shifts and experiences here, in order to be transparent and support or inspire in any way that others might also connect with and/or help make you not feel like you’re alone in what you’re going through.

Some small portion of my personal life remains more intimate to myself and Dave, however, as we all do need a little space of sacredness to remain in tact.

That said, we have recently shifted from renters to owners of our Tahoe Tree House, which has been and continues to be an evolving piece of the entire pie. And this has all been coinciding with a lot of major energetic/literal moving pieces in our life right now, anchoring in a new era.

I also just completed my last Magick Crystal Wand (I haven’t shared them all, but will share this last one shortly), which opened my writing to move into full time once again – perfect timing alignment of course. This currently on short hold until Monday, as we have an incredibly busy next few days with things at our home to make a clear transition of the previous owners’ things to be removed since we rented fully furnished and have been living in a transitional phase. This bringing me closer to the 8/8 Lion’s Gate, which feels perfect to be working on its conclusion.

New decisions are being made and intentions set for the next leg of the journey and it’s so fun to watch them evolve with each step taken.

I amped things up big time with a Reiki Healing Attunement recently and it really kicked things into gear. I did the same with the Magick Bus at onset, without knowing the rest of the story and all fell into place. Taking a step forward gets the ball rolling.

Seems to be the name of the game in general. Sure, it’s about riding the energy waves and evolving with that, but it’s also about anchoring in intentions with steps and not sitting idle like a helpless person unable to move unless you see something happen before you do.

You’ll see it when you not only believe it, but act as if it’s happening by moving forward and then making adjustments along the way.

Hawk has arrived at onset of this heightened time period bringing me gifts of higher vision possible that will lead me on a potentially greater destiny than I was on track for before. Definitely like jumping train tracks into a parallel, but different timeline. She also seemed to be amplifying and acknowledging recent decisions, reminding me of the support around, and to stay connected to that clarity of vision despite the “noise”.

And this speaks to the collective energy present as well and available to us all.

If interested in the energies of this gateway month of August, here’s a link posted by Linette you may enjoy listening to on a Forecast of Energies this month:

August 2017 Astrology & Numerology Forecast The Great Leo Eclipse

 

The Silver Lining


tania (11).jpg

I had no idea (at least not mindfully) when I took the only appointment open for a hair transformation this week that it would be in the energy of the approaching Full Moon today, nor did I think about the choice of clothes I wore that day other than wanting my bunny loves with me. I simply felt that this change was essential, as I’d become bored and no longer aligned with the rapid shifts taking place, not to mention was feeling out of sorts with my inside-out essence expression. This Full Moon is in the fire sign of Sagittarius, which happens to rule the Moon in my astrological chart in the house of Pisces (my Sun sign). So there is/was certain to be an intense, very transformative and expansive energy pervading, which the Full Moon would then bring to clarity in order to know which changes and adjustments would best support us in peaceful flow.

tania marie.jpg

2017 is a year of new beginnings for us all collectively and this shift will entail aligning more than ever with our highest path at this time. This may involve moving through some heavy stuff and “karmic” growth, but will provide deep healing as long as you can continue to see the “silver lining,” keep an open mind, invite new perspectives, and find the joy from the innocence of your inner child’s heart. Truth and freedom play big right now and finding ways to nurture yourself while also committing to more personal responsibility is key. This is a time for really tuning into a mission, dream goal, or heart-focused purpose that truly calls to you while tempering a narrow, but flowing focus to manifest it, so as not to dilute your energy.

With things transforming for me right now, the energy activated in Australia, and new doors about to open, I outgrew any of the changes I had already made, which then had me feeling like I was wearing clothes that didn’t fit, in a metaphorical, but also literal way.

So I have been clearing out and donating clothes, got a few new things, and really, really needed to change my hair even though I just did a little over 4 months ago. I get antsy about stuff if even a little bit feels energetically off and not lining up.

This led me to be even more vulnerable outwardly, which I’m finding no end to, and revealing more of myself without care of what that may seem to others (I have had many looks since the change, when out and about). And so I decided to intensify what has already been happening with my hair much more dramatically and much more “me” feeling with an enhancement to my silver.

tania (2).jpg

I had tons of silver growing naturally, especially in two stripes near the front that were growing long, areas underneath, and then scattered and glistening throughout. I decided why not just go full on, or “Full Moon,” which got written to a friend by auto correct and felt right on, I guess, since I later received multiple reflections of “Moon essence,” “Moon child,” “Moon shine,” “Moon beam”….

And that then aligned with the Full Moon hot air balloon tank I was wearing with three white Cosmic rabbits flying in it across the Cosmos – representing my dear Nestor, Joy, and Cosmo who have moved on to the Otherworld.

My sweet friend Dawn mentioned something else I hadn’t thought of, that I was aligning with the new bunny (coming in 11 days) love’s Cosmic whiteness, as the magickal White Rabbit embodied. I loved that!

Not to mention prepares for a 10 day energetic cleanse I’m physically doing on Solstice, bunny love’s arrival, and what that portal offers.

Anyway, there’s something more than I can express happening (and it’s collective although I’m experiencing my own version of it) and it seems to be reflecting outside as well, as both yesterday and today have manifested magickal rainbow portals (3 of them!) over Lake Tahoe since I got my hair done Wednesday afternoon. And the weather shifted to this mystical energy from being at the beach just Tuesday (the day before) and sun bathing then and the days before in 70’s very warm weather, to now this mysterious, brisk, winds-of-change, stormy look and feel and dropping to the 50’s overnight.

rainbow.jpg

Yesterday’s rainbow was a full one directly in front over the lake, which then intensified and started to split at center…..creating almost like two worlds converging. Perhaps another sign of this literally happening with multiple realities and worlds simultaneously existing, yet diverging.

rainbow split

And this morning’s first rainbow was a partial one, however, it lasted for an hour and a half, dissipating, intensifying, dissipating, intensifying….

small rainbow

After about a half an hour a full one appeared directly in front again (actually, while I was writing this) and just skimming where lake and bottom of mountains meet, but this one glided across the lake from left to right. Incredible!

rainbow gliding

I have been realizing the increased vulnerability I have been cracking open from depths within and how things are just melting away and also melding in that molten love. It’s amazing how deep things run, but not surprising giving the limitlessness of All That Is.

And to me, this silver feels to increase my feelings of fuller, expansive embodiment of me, as well as no longer blending into the world, but fully creating my own Cosmos on Earth – so to speak – increasing my joy and comfortability within my skin here, which has increased over time with changes I’ve been making and things brought to light.

tania (9)

We all have different ways in which we integrate transformation. I happen to choose and initiate as many as possible lol!

And interestingly, shifting my hair in this way is a process, which has small parts of my hair gold as well – all blending together – cool and warm colors, metallic energies of Sun and Moon. Feels like alchemy to me.

Many Native Americans believe that hair is spirit’s physical manifestation of growth that opens/enhances extrasensory perception and symbolizes connection to all things, as if like tentacles reaching out to the world around us. Cutting hair represents doors closing and heralds new life and doorways, honoring the past while making way for the future.

And that’s always how I approach life….seeing the “silver lining” and believing when no one else does. This is increasing, which is timely with what I’m working on manifesting short and long term for the journey ahead and my heart’s mission. Gonna take everything I have!

So while my threads of silver hair reflect much more than this, too hard to explain all of here, they also seem to bring this into literal light and hence, the “silver lining” mentioned above as an approach that may be helpful for us all, coming full circle.

How might you open more to the possibilities before you? You really do have opportunity to experience life differently, if you really commit to that, no matter what challenges are present. Each pain is a seed wanting to sprout freely without your restraining its growth.

tania (4).jpg

Trust, Abundance & Balance ~ A Message to Leave You With


As shared, I’ll be away from blogging for a while after today, as I have a personal goal to meet with completing my book’s first draft before leaving for Australia on May 10th and away for 19 days. I’ll be joining Dave who will already have been touring for two weeks speaking about his book Meatonomics, and then we’ll be leaving for a week to Austin, Texas less than two weeks after our return. Alongside this full plate I am also energetically preparing for a new addition to my life coming in once we fully return from all the travels, which is the focus of this short blog before I head off.

The short story, which I will fully share when it happens, is that a new bunny love will be joining me in partnership and it’s all divinely aligned itself in incredible potency on the upcoming Summer Solstice portal. It’s all truly a magickal story and timing that I know my beloved rabbits have set up as such.

Without going into detail, a special rabbit has made connection with me the second I became ready and made my own realizations and commitments and we are in relationship telepathically until we can be together.

I felt that since I will be away so much, this was not conducive to bringing the bunny love into my life, as my priority is establishing a stable and supportive experience for the physical bonding, and it is not responsible of me to just up and leave bunny love with a pet sitter.

So, once again, I am being asked to trust with all of my heart and walk fully in that trust of knowing that if it is meant to be this little love will be there when I return to adopt on the appointment date that has been set upon my arrival home.

I explored with the rabbit rescue my options and this was the only one that made most sense to everyone, but also asked of me to be in that trust given that anyone could come along and connect and want to take this love home during the two months of waiting.

I believe with all of me that we will be together, and that these two months are preparation, as well as standing in the truth of my trust. I know that if we change and shift together over what takes place these two months then when I go to pick this love up, all will unfold as set in motion.

But either way, what has been set in motion is that a bunny love will be coming home with me nonetheless on that day, and if we both shift differently, it is because another has taken place of the new alignment created.

However, this little love has a special story and needs, I’ve already received the name, and we have connected in dream time indicating a bond that no matter what takes place is already playing out.

It’s such a beautiful connection I can’t wait to share, but for now the reason of my sharing is simply to reiterate the message of trust.

There is no reason to act out of desperation with anything. There is no reason to worry or do things that would not be responsible simply because we don’t want to lose out on something or are trying to control a situation and outcome that needs the freedom of choice, growth, and natural transformation to take place.

As mentioned before, abundant beings recognize the unlimited way abundance plays out when we trust and that there’s no need to attach to any one idea because more will show up.

And also, when you stand in the truth of who you are and trust with your heart, that’s all the confirmation you need.

So, there is much preparing for birth in the next two months for me with the first draft of my book completing (still have a long way to go, but that’s the biggest step), some transformative travels, and preparing myself for a new co-creative partnership that is going to support the next phase of my life.

All of this to balance things out and remain true to my spirit.

And the need to pull back from writing blogs right now is to conserve my inspiration and creative writing, as well as devote my time where it is most needed.

So I’ll not be posting until that goal is met, or if I do feel a strong guidance would only share a very short channeled message or reblog an important theme.

And as mentioned, I’ll only be sharing via Instagram/Facebook during this time if you happen to be on those platforms (although may be limited in interaction), since they are quick ways to still stay in touch and share some daily inspiration and beauty with you, while creating that healthy balance for me as well.

So I’m not completely retracting, just continually tempering that perfect support that ensures optimal well being, creative output, and resonance for the highest good.

Wishing you all a beautifully transformative Spring, rich in abundant expressions of your creative spirit and loving trust.

Peaceful Transformation & Updates on Changes Being Implemented


I can’t tell you enough how much I’m witnessing both in my own life and that of others, an incredible, consistent, and rapid amount of change taking place in really big, sometimes surprising, yet always supportive ways. There’s been an increase in the last few weeks of full-circle experiences, messages of re-strengthening boundaries, a need to continually reassess and realign ourselves with what’s truest and most authentic to our spirit and heart right now, the power of choice with committed action to back it up, wake-up calls in terms of health and life shifts, and experiences paralleling timelines, but on a whole other plane and frequency with the closing and opening of doors rapidly sliding into manifestation.

I keep hearing from many about these reflections and have been witnessing a wide gamut of contrasting experiences from people including death, suicide, marriage, endings and beginnings of relationships, births, pregnancy, career changes, reassessing life paths, health crisis, what was going forward suddenly and abruptly shifting gears, but also immediately opening to a better potential.

It all reiterates to me the power of choice and action that supports it without worrying over the fine details and whether it’s “the” answer, but merely following what you’re guided to follow in the moment and trusting All That Is/Universe/God/Goddess/Source to handle things from there.

Declaration of intent and willingness to move forward in all ways will manifest doors opening and closing for us that will mirror the paths most aligned with us following our truth right here and now. So releasing the worry over whether something is it right or wrong just simply can be surrendered, as we’ll know immediately where things are leading once we make a choice by what manifests as direct result.

We seem to get too caught up in decisions and tormented by being “wrong” when there isn’t a wrong…simply a trust that whatever you do, you’ll be supported in the highest way. So we just need to believe that and be open to how things manifest, as result of our movement forward, and its always being for our highest good.

Anyway, transformational energies are swirling around big time and this beautiful Moth (pictured above) that Lynne and I connected with on a hike at Fallen Leaf Lake while she was here, really embodied so much of this frequency, not to mention embodied the peaceful trust I speak of.

She was so serene on a pebble at water’s edge, with waves rolling in, both of us around her, a man and his dog with us whom we came across and were talking with, and even us nudging her pebble she sat on, while talking to her. She was anchored and peaceful, but also so royal in her presence, undisturbed or thrown off her own inner balance and harmony by anything around her.

If you look closely at her, especially her head and body, you might see what I do….how much she reflects her Faery Queen essence in this Moth form.

Powerfully potent energy that just mesmerizes me when I look at this, which is why I am sharing this photo, captured by Lynne and courtesy of her for this post. If you remember, I shared my own magical photo of her from the other angle in another post, but this one really captures her essence and otherworldly energy.

All of this also is in line with a conversation I was having with Laura yesterday about living a magickal life and what that entails, which we both reflected on in our own lives and those around us.

We both agree that to live a life of daily magickal experiences this entails a great deal of discipline.

That seems counter-intuitive, but in fact goes hand-in-hand.

I can’t tell you how many people I know and have seen, who energetically and physically crash while trying so hard to “be” something, rather than simply “being” because they think that will make the magick happen. Or who wait for the magick to start happening before they will commit to their authenticity and heart fully.

I’ve also been seeing people go through more periods of heavy-duty flus, colds, or energetic illness suddenly than they ever have (or perhaps hadn’t had) in very short periods because of extremes and perhaps still “trying” to fit a certain template of “being” they think they need to do in order to live magickally, when in fact magick is simply “being” in the discipline of authenticity and harmonious rhythms flowing in and out.

The key to life, at least that I’ve discovered, is balance so that you don’t have those highs and lows and ups and downs in dramatic ways and when you learn to discipline yourself in this way of being, a magickal life unfolds effortlessly. This also entails saying “enough is enough” to old patterns and cycles, so that you can continue to flow on your own spiral of life.

I feel that this stems from your committed responsibility to being you/the Source of you for the highest good of all concerned.

I went through the crashes myself. I went through the huge pendulum swings of extremes. I always considered myself an extremist in fact….and yet that wasn’t actually my “nature.”

My and our nature is harmony and a return to natural harmony is our spiraling journey I feel.

We really are at a point where everything instantly manifests and there are tighter and tighter reins on your luxury to deny or hide things from yourself, as well as assessing if you’re outweighed in any given area – big ones that come to mind is over-giving or over-receiving.

And in the spirit of this constantly shifting energy and my own need to keep honoring my own authenticity, boundaries, and most harmonious state of “being,” I have had to again reassess some things recently and even had a big flow-in of opportunities to help me feel that out with.

So as example, I’m sharing some of those changes that entail my connection with others, but I am experiencing quite a few in other more personal realms as well.

As mentioned, I’ve recently experienced a bunch of full-circle things that herald to me a big leap about to take place, but also reflected how things can come back around at another frequency/whole other plane of experience when you do the work.

But also, as I’ve mentioned in past posts, when you’re in process of, or about to make huge changes, a lot of things will flow into your experience that could confuse you at first because they may be the very things you’re shifting out of.

This is simply part of that transformational process and an opportunity to revisit your relationship to the things with greater peace and anchoring and without “charge” or “trigger”…like that cleansing that stirs things up for us to simply embrace as natural cycles.

So, also recently, I’ve received requests for my past services circle round in another abundance all at once and a ton of messages, which provided me opportunity again to anchor deeply in my authentic knowing of where I am now and what to say “no” to very clearly and with loving gratitude.

I’ve turned away potential new clients, credited back purchases of art prints, and said “no” to a bunch of requests, potential opportunities, and services, as simply it was most aligned with the new energy I’m focusing on and committing to, to do so.

And I did so with utmost gratitude and reflection on the beauty of it all and the honor that it was.

Sometimes things like this confuse people that maybe they’ve made the wrong choice to go in the direction they have, could possibly play on desperation energy (really big one I feel circulating these days) in reflection to still being in process of believing in their abundance or strengthening their belief in the new, or simply could feel like a message to split their energies between old and new.

While none of that would be wrong to do, as all things will lead us to exactly where we are to be in the timing that is right for each of us, and yet these could also create that straddling of two worlds, continually feeling confused and unclear, drain you of your energy because of not supporting fully what is speaking most authentically to your heart, or block other opportunities from coming in.

After all, if we truly believe we are abundant beings, then we ARE abundant beings. There isn’t only one opportunity that will arrive and by saying “no” that’s it. You have the ability to manifest limitless opportunities and each one will provide a different level of potential.

There isn’t just one way to do something for sure. Yet there are ways of choosing that can make you feel more in flow, clear, invigorated, and in alignment.

All that to say, “I hear and feel you.”

I’ve also had to continuously go through these processes in my own way over time as well.

And with discipline and practice, I’ve been able to move into a peaceful and easier flow that has enabled me to consistently experience balance now and harmony, whereas I mentioned, I used to experience extremes and then energetic crashes or physical manifestations of stress created by this feeling of being pulled in opposing directions, or of not owning who I am and claiming my authentic voice fully.

It is with doing so that I’ve come to be able to say I no longer experience stress, anxiety, worry, tormenting inner dialogue (to the point of thinking I’m crazy), fears around who I am and showing up as so, crashes, extremes, physical manifestations of being inwardly divided, relationships of all sorts that were doomed to go no where and reflect what I wasn’t honoring in myself, nor the need to monitor foods I eat other than remaining true to being 100% vegan to match my truth, and instead only draw in more of this harmony I experience.

It’s a drastic life change that others wouldn’t notice unless they really knew me “once upon a time” in all ways. I’m so grateful for all of it and what it’s all taught me, not to mention am grateful for the reflections that show up.

But I do have to mention that things have shifted even with recent offerings I’ve put out.

I had foresight to say when I did put them out there that I didn’t know how long I’d be offering them and they may be temporary. And now that has manifested.

This includes (at least at this time) my not taking on any more new Intuitive Energy Guidance/Coaching clients after I finish working with current clients already with me. I’ve so been enjoying the beautiful and so meaningful and timely way in which these soul contracts have come into being. I can’t say enough how I honor these people and the courage they have. I also am awed by the soul connections we share and I’m totally devoted to them with all of my heart.

I feel that my listening to guidance was aligned perfectly with these contracts with them, but that I am to revisit full commitment to honoring now one I have with myself and the collective with full devotion toward what I’ve put into motion.

This in part due to my need to put all that I have into my current project and something else soon entering my life.

I also will only make myself available to teach Reiki this Summer to the people I have already spoken to offering this to if they desire.

That means I’m back to no services offered, but all in order to be able to offer more later from the depths of my heart.

I’ll still be creating Magick Crystal Wands, as that feels in alignment with immediate soul-satisfaction and desire to create something tangible with my hands that balances the writing I’m involved with – it’s all about balance to me! But these are the only two things I’ll be engaged with.

I can’t thank everyone enough for your understanding. It’s truly meaningful to me how supportive you’ve been and how much love you’ve shared during my own transformational journey I’ve chosen to vulnerably be open about in order to support you into your own authentic choices.

Also, beginning this Sunday I will likely not be blogging for a while, or in very limited, short blogs because I will be focused on completing the first draft of my book before heading off to Australia on May 10th. I’ll feel that energy out, but my sense is I’ll need to withdraw there for the time-being.

I need to conserve my inspiration and creative writing for that project. So during that time I’ll only be sharing via Instagram/Facebook if you happen to be on those platforms, since they are quick ways to still stay in touch and share some daily inspiration and beauty with you, while creating that healthy balance for me as well.

Here’s to peaceful transformation for us all!

I love you!

%d bloggers like this: