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The Importance of Active Creativity


I couldn’t agree more with Lee on this…creativity has a power to shift everything. If you are not creating in some way, it will feel as if you are dying and in fact you ARE diminishing your life force because you are inherently a creative being. I discovered along the way that having different outlets of creativity truly helped activate more parts of my brain, but also of my heart, and definitely more of the latent parts of my DNA to come alive and awaken from their slumber. I found that rather than only have one outlet for creativity, by engaging and exploring multiple outlets this provided a constant surge of fresh energy to keep flowing, as well as helped to reinvigorate and inspire the avenue I had only been engaging until then – and of course accessed my multi-dimensional self.

This is why in the past my spirit was led to branch out from my paintings to doing commissions and animal portraits, but further diversifying to things like spiritual tattoo designs, crystal jewelry making, creating Faery wands, paintings magick stones, writing my first book and starting a blog, opening up to different forms of teaching and offerings, creating mini succulent gardens, growing my Garden Tower, sound channeling, redecorating my room or changing up my wardrobe, cutting or coloring my hair, or even stretching into different forms of paintings I’d never done and even having rabbits in my life – the ultimate abundant, fertile creativity spirit animals.

All in the vein of creativity being the essence of life and not a “hobby,” as Lee shares, and the more you engage it, the more life force, overall well-being, and expansion is available to you.

Although I’ve moved away from just about everything I mentioned above, the creativity Faery is still largely alive within me. Currently, that’s involved active creating of ventures Dave and I have been manifesting together and the huge project of completely renovating our new home and decorating it from the ground up.

It’s also been hugely invigorated by my having my own office again – the creative flame center of the home – newly decorated with lots of fresh stuff for Astrid as well.

It’s involved my mini succulent gardens that have expanded now and soon to include my Garden Tower again, come Spring.

And of course, in the meantime, my new book that although took a back-burner in the midst of the huge home renovation project, has now come around full-circle and is reinvigorated and inspired because of the break.

And the book is just the beginning of new branches to my “tree of life” (synchronously I brought home a new indoor Clusia tree for the house yesterday) to explore and expand upon, as I have a volcano of creative manifestations that the book opens the door to for this new year I kick off come my birthday’s transition of energy numerologically. I will go from an 11/2 year to a 12/3 year, bringing me back to my birth number 3, which is the creative child. So this year really should feel like being in my element and it’s no wonder I’ve been doing all of this ground work to free the flood ways for the tsunami of creativity a-flowin’.

Yet, it couldn’t flow unless I enaged it with curiosity, embrace, surrender to, and then committed action to bring it forth.

I share this as example of how this creativity has moved through me and how by tapping into other parts of my creativity, it’s not only helped open doors to new parts, but also in fact has multiplied the wellspring of creative energy I have available.

It’s assisted me in expanding, in manifesting, and in rebirthing when life hit a wall, at times became disappointing and uninspiring, or an end to one part of me had been reached.

It’s given me a new lease on life for now and provides unlimited amounts of joy and potentials I get to choose based on that alignment.

And, what I have discovered is that creativity helps you tap into your multi-dimensional self, which opens a plethora of possibilities.

Now, that ought to be a fun adventure, right?!

There truly is no end to what can be created, and created, and created…..

As Lee shares, active creativity “enlivens you and helps with depression, because depression is stifled and unused energy, and a disconnection” in general.

I love his little excerpt snippet videos that provide seeds of wisdom.

Here’s Lee on active creativity and its importance to your life:

From Treehouse to Forest Portal


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We officially moved into our new home this past Saturday 11/25 and what a wild ride that all was. I always marvel at how we manage to get things done and in general, what is possible when you set your mind and heart to it. Our first full day we enjoyed rain, cleaning the slate so to speak, and this morning (our second day and start to a new week) we were greeted by a white Winter wonderland that the snow Faeries gifted us as welcome.

I’m a Winter Faery myself, being born in the month of February, so I love the white purity of rebirthing energy blanketing our enchanted forest backyard to mirror this huge shift and transformation underway.

It was also synchronous and felt aligned with a house blessing we did last evening and a big Reiki Healing Attunement done by one single, tall, white candle I held for the ceremony.

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I won’t bore you with all the details we’ve been managing here and what yet has to be done, but let’s just say it is, and has been, one huge process that keeps spiraling around to reveal new layers of the bigger picture.

We started off living in just one section of the upstairs and soon will be able to take over the whole upstairs. Layer by layer we move forward.

All of our fur babies are doing great. They have actually gotten even more loving since here and enjoying exploring and looking out into the forest at all of the little animals. I’m excited most for Astrid because of the flooring choice we made (porcelain tile that looks like wood with texture) that is so perfect not only for all of our animals and life use durability in all ways, but allows her to be able to run confidently throughout the house without sliding like wood floors or other smooth surfaces might. Plus it’s completely waterproof! I’ve so enjoyed seeing her exploring all over without worry of not feeling stable. Yay!

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The fun parts are starting to weave in more now, which involve making creative decorating decisions with some furniture ordering we’ve kicked into gear. I’m so excited for the full tapestry of what we’ve been weaving to come together. It’s completely all new and different in style than anything we’ve had so far…and rightfully should be since we are different and this is a new beginning and path in every and all ways for us.

I also really love organizing and thoroughly enjoy the sifting through of things, purging, finding the perfect space, and getting things in order. Must be my Capricorn energies and Saturn placement. That will continue as we receive our stuff from storage we had tucked away while in the Magick Bus. Although we didn’t store furniture except for 2 or 3 pieces, there’ll be things to go through and discover again like opening Christmas gifts.

We have A LOT still to do here, but it’s incredible how much we’ve accomplished in a short time…things most people said were impossible here in Tahoe due to contractors both being booked out for months and having a very laid back approach to work. That’s not to say we haven’t had our share of challenges, but we’d always find a way and there’d always be a reason that worked out better.

Delays help alignment sometimes.

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Anyway, this is just a little update of where things are with us and my first blog from our Forest Portal, which we loving refer to our headquarters here as.

This weekend was definitely bitter sweet to say goodbye to our Treehouse in the sky overlooking the expanse of Lake Tahoe. We will definitely miss those spectacular views, but at least our condo will always be our little gem even though we’ve outgrown it. We lovingly hand it over to our new tenants on 12/1, whom we really love and know will take great care of our baby for us.

Although we’ll miss our Treehouse, we find it easy to move on and like with everything in our lives these days, the transitions are much more fluid and emotionally gentle and graceful. That I’m grateful for – having moved into a flowing process of ease.

So much has taken place from our Treehouse headquarters over the last year… so much more than I’m able to share here, but literally it’s been like moving mountains. It’s so incredible what the energy of that space supported, inspired, revealed, and ignited into motion and manifestation.

There’s still this amazing sense of flying, like all the birds we’ve engaged with from the vantage point it offered, even though we’re anchoring in more now.

We’ve moved from 7500 to 6600 elevation – still the same numerological vibration, just 900 feet and 5 minute winding drive directly down from the Treehouse. We’ll still sit above the lake, but are now within walking distance from it, have hiking and mountain bike trails directly out back, can snowshoe off our deck, not to mention are only 3 to 5 minutes from grocery stores, restaurants, and entertainment. We also only have one human neighbor directly next to us, but with lots of space between, who isn’t full time – it’s their vacation home – and tons of animal neighbors. We’ve met 4 of our neighbors (3 others across the street) already and everyone seems very nice.

We now have a forest view, views of Heavenly Ski Mountain (especially clear from my office), tiny peeks of the Lake as enchanted little gems shining through the trees, and a fenced yard touching the forest where we’ll be creating a secret garden sanctuary over time.

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So, now we find ourselves living on the enchanted forest and although it is more grounded and Earthy in nature (perfect for my Capricorn North Node), it feels very light, rich, and creatively abundant here. It’s very expansive in its own way, and of course quite nurturing and nourishing. The smells, feels, textures, and energies are prolific.

It was fun early this morning to wake up to snow and go out on our deck in my jammies taking in the smells and silence, yet listening to the whispers of my Otherworld family here, while watching squirrels still preparing for Winter before the rest of the humans woke up. I sense some Cosmic encounters upcoming.

Looking forward to the magickal adventures ahead, as I root deeper with this land and all of the surprises that await.

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Anchoring Supports Creative Expansion


Days have been CRAZY busy lately and increasingly will be in the coming weeks, as we prepare for moving in and remodeling continues to rapidly increase with overlapping contractors to accommodate that. Although work will continue through January, we should have enough done upstairs to get in at Thanksgiving, as long as things continue as they are. We’re also flowing with what shows up and ready to adjust that timing if need be.

We weren’t able to find a general contractor we liked and was affordable to handle everything that we are, so we are the general contractors to our 15 or so different contractors, at times shifting the responsibilities back and forth, as well as sharing them together to manage it all.

It’s A LOT (as many of you may know from your own experience), as it isn’t just one simple change here and there like just new flooring, choosing paint colors, or remodeling say a kitchen or bath. It basically has entailed literally gutting/demoing most of the entire inside of the house and starting from scratch, other than the foundational footprint and layout. Our first time doing a full-on remodel, as the closest we came was in our Costa Mesa house, which we redid a lot in, but nothing like to this extent AND there we actually had a general contractor. So it’s been a great process of learning and understanding how it all works.

The entire outside hasn’t been touched (other than adding our new 8 Austrian Pines and adding a walkway bridge from my new office here shortly), but the inside is getting a whole new face lift on every level, which to me symbolizes transforming things on the inside for us too.

When Spring comes we’ll look at working on the yard and implementing some ideas there. Step by step.

On top of this, we also had to manage, and in some cases did the work ourselves, some changes and fixes to our tree house condo to prepare it for the new tenants. So we’ve been managing both places, on top of scheduling everything to align timing-wise with all that each entails. You throw in regular life, work, our other side projects we manage together, and my editing and what not, and it’s quite a lot to juggle. We may not have human children, but we do have animal children, all of whom are very sensitive, and we can tell that they are anxious to get to the new place too and so we do our best to keep equilibrium with everything and hold peace for it all.

It’s not always the easiest thing to do when there is so much being thrown at you at once. It can kind of get overwhelming, so you do need to have those anchors in place to center and balance you back so you don’t get caught up in the stress. That entails a lot of flexibility and willingness to readjust your position, and for us, has strengthened our clarity with how to communicate with others and ourselves, and of course never take something personally. I/we are learning so much through this process, not to mention, growing in new ways.

So while things might appear the same on the outside of our new home, they in fact will be operating from a whole new internal circuitry, shifting us into a different feeling experience and reality. The new trees outside are rooting new pathways for us and connection to the forest and bigger picture collective reality we’re settling into, but the foundation is solid on which we’re working from, which is good.

So, since the foundation and structure is strong, that feels anchoring of the new we’ve been working on that is solid and in place already, which is holding everything together while we reconfigure, continue to shift, upgrade, integrate, assimilate, grow into the more expansive shoes holding space for us, and create what this new is like on the inside. The fun part is, it’s all our creative choice as to how we want that to feel and look.

It’s interesting that my foot has healed just as the major crunch time with the house is happening too and timely because Dave hadn’t been feeling well the last two weeks so there were things I needed to take over, which driving and walking allowed for. Everything sort of rewired at the same aligned time and it’s been cool that I used the forest backyard as part of my strengthening of my foot and the backdrop for all of this inner circuitry of moving parts and people weaving together.

Needless to say, this is simply a little break I’m taking to provide this update, as it feels reflective of things that others might derive some symbolism from too and may mirror what you’re experiencing, from one perspective of how to view them that you may not have thought of.

Plus, it’s always therapeutic, I find, to write about things and move energy.

It also lends to why you will increasingly see less posts during this crunch time, or very simple ones, because simply I’m quite occupied in other areas right now – like BIG TIME!

So much so that even my editing has had to take the back burner for the last nearly week (with sporadic bursts when I could), so that I can not only attend to things needed, but stay on top of self nurturing, rest, and keeping balanced.

I don’t force things simply because I have a goal, because ultimately if I’m not at my best, I can’t give my best to anything and what I create will only be a small or smaller percentage of its potential.

This home base feels key right now.

I have also found that currently this approach of flowing with the energy that shows up has been ideal for my editing (I’m on my second run-through of my book) because now and then we need to step away from things to return with a fresh perspective, sometimes completely removing ourselves altogether from it for a time period.

So unless I get a very strong message that I really need to amp things up to align the timing of my book with things energetically, I’ll be inclined to trust what is showing up as where to focus, so I will be invigorated when I return to it and the process will be speedy, rather than feel labored or take ages to work through even a few sentences.

Of course, we can self-sabotage ourselves and find ways to avoid things, so it’s important to stay on top of authenticity, responsibility, and being honest with ourselves for why we are or aren’t doing something.

I check in constantly to make sure of this and am assured that right now there is a window available of letting it sit in the background percolating, while I put into place important things and keep healthy and strong.

But I assure you that I do feel a sense of timing with my book, yet trust as long as I keep moving the energy in some way, I’ll know when to jump back in fully. And I also know when I do, that it will flow more easily than what I felt right before I stepped away to handle other things. The energy was heavier and not fluid, as I usually feel. Hence, a perfect transition time.

Amidst it all, I do still feel peace mixed with excitement, as well as moments of overwhelm mixed with complete surrender. There’s that feeling of perfection with the now and also this anticipation for the new anchoring. There’s that gratitude for all that has been to create the now and also this wonder about what I can envision becoming. So yes, lots of duality dancing with each other in balance, which I only differentiate when I write, in order to explain what takes place as this simultaneously seamless experiencing.

Perhaps it’s much like my hair’s unified duality that you see here in the most recent reflective photo of me beginning this new phase of my life.

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I’ve also noticed Astrid is going through her own transitions with things right now too, which isn’t surprising. She is definitely reconfiguring things for herself, too, and learning what it means to be loved for who she is, which is encouraging her to discover how she really wants to share herself not because of fears or conditioning, but because it’s simply what feels right for her. So she’s working that out through explorations.

Interestingly, I have been getting ideas for the next project already, so I know that if that is anchoring, just as the house anchored in foundation while we rework the insides, that the infrastructure and insides of my book will rework themselves too in perfect timing.

Anchoring seems to be key, at least in my experience, then the pieces start to come together with the rest.

In the interim, so many animal spirit guides show up consistently for me due to my strong connection there, reflecting their own pieces of the story.

So many in recent weeks have shown up, that hadn’t for some time like the bears, the deer, and countless little ones all around.

I even had a hawk again outside our deck visiting several days ago. This time soaring with deliberate intent for me to see. You might remember the one that came and landed on the banister looking in on me. Well, this one my own hawk eye caught sight of down quite a ways below. I told Dave immediately, “watch, he’s going to come to us.”

And he did.

He suddenly turned around and started soaring closer and closer until he literally was soaring directly in front of our door going to the right first, disappearing at roof level, then soaring back to the left and directly in front again, then disappearing above one more time, and back to the right until he then flew off. Three fly-by’s, but each soaring in place so I could see all his feather detail and he confirmed hearing me tell Dave he was coming.

Hawk always feels to me to be about navigating and staying on path with deep presence and awareness, being open to and taking in wider perspectives, trusting my insights as they speak my truth, taking decisive actions with strength of vision and initiative behind them after surveying all creative possibilities, and knowing I have the ability to move through anything with grace and am being watched over by divine guardianship. Definitely good confirmation for it being time to bring forth gifts into action, but also a time to not act impulsively and await those air stream propulsions by assimilating everything to create alchemical alignment.

And just a few days, while on our way home, I counted 17 hawks that showed themselves (I think the most has been 44), and as we were on our way back up the mountain to our tree house – I was driving – my hawk eye caught two coyotes to the right at the side of the mountain.

They were very camouflaged and otherwise would not be seen, unless you knew where to look and how to make them out. I immediately told Dave and pointed, slowing down, and he saw them while remarking how much they blended in.

I normally have only see one coyote at a time, but two together felt significant.

Their medicine speaks to me of all things being sacred – so yes even the uncomfortable processes and the times you feel all you can do is focus on survival – that laughter and playfulness is always important to have running behind the scenes (a big one for me that I keep cultivated), about cunning and knowing how to balance risk and safety, about adaptability and the need to stay flexible always especially in seeing another way, about instinct being important to connect to, and yes about that trickster energy, but more about having integrated dual sides skillfully of wisdom and foolishness that help us learn. As way-makers they’ve been known by many to be symbolic of endings and making way for new beginnings. They also are known to mate for life and know how to nurture and protect their family – that stands out to me in seeing two this time for the first time.

And not more than two minutes after, my hawk eye caught two deer to the left on the side of the mountain this time. I slowed down again to point out to Dave who then saw them, remarking it was quite a wildlife sighting day. 🙂

The coyotes medicine was balanced out, and in some ways enhanced, with deer medicine of love, grace, gentleness, compassion, innocence, peace, beauty, fertility, femininity, humility, swiftness, acceptance, regrowth, renewal, creativity, spirituality, psychic power, subtlety, higher connection, awareness, abundance, benevolence, and watchfulness. Interesting to note there were TWO again. Really emphasizing that divine union, duality in balance, and sacred relationship with the parts within and without.

Interesting that there was predator and then prey – another balance exhibited in Nature’s cycles and not too far off from collective things exhibiting themselves a lot these days.

I will continue to draw upon their meanings for me personally, as I move through these full days and equally full and symbolic nights of layered dreams and even more animals spirit guides showing up in them to include, bat, spider, cats, and rabbits.

There is much going on with everyone everywhere and not only is there a lot of things being unveiled in the collective as well, surfacing as challenges in order to help to heal, but I know of many dear friends going through huge hurdles right now and I can’t help but feel both a sense of withdrawal to preserve my energy, but also this inversion within that withdrawal of deepening into greater ways of being able to share my love with them all. More duality playing out in a unified way that makes sense only to the heart.

I wish everyone greater peace with all that you are experiencing directly or indirectly. It’s something I constantly work on for myself as well, to know peace and harmony more intimately by the day.

We are reconfiguring things for sure and where it leads is unknown, but can only be navigated by a heart anchored in love.

 

New Moon Winds of Change


Yesterday’s Libra New Moon brought winds of change here to stir things up, clear, refresh, and provide new perspectives supporting the potential of creating greater balance in our lives especially in terms of the relationships we have with everything – each other, things, Nature, ourselves, the sacred feminine and masculine within all, and the world and Cosmos at large. There’s a continual offering presented where we can learn to cultivate bridges of deeper compassion and connection that will lead to new doorways of experience.

We experienced high high winds throughout all of yesterday and last night, which I loved hearing as I fell asleep, cozy in our bed with gratitude for the warmth to cocoon in. I had a lot of energy this morning for some reason, which woke me at 4 am and had me awake for the next two hours in bed listening to the snow blowing outside, until I fell back asleep for a brief snooze again.

I’d taken a peek outside and knew the morning would be beautiful since I could see the snow all around in the dark amidst the dense sky swirling with energy. And when I did wake again, the sun opened everything to beautiful clarity revealing a lovely dusting of snow creating this enchantment.

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Snow just for a day in between Autumn’s splendor.

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Yesterday was another busy day here, but I also had a hair appointment in the midst of everything, which was perfectly aligned without my doing, on the New Moon. I’d made the appointment a couple of months ago and it just happened to fall on this day, which seemed perfect for a refresh.

On the way there I saw a beautiful coyote out in the golden fields within the farmlands of Minden. The coyote was plush and nearly golden herself – almost undetectable except that I happen to have a hawk eye of my own. She was very focused and seemed to be stalking something. Not long after, a very large hawk appeared upon a fence railing, eyeing me, as I eyed the coyote. Coyote and hawk medicine seemed perfect for the energies around.

Anyway, I’d felt called for a bit of change and so I cut another nearly 4 inches off to recharge and we added more of my natural dark brown back into my hair for extra dramatic contrast with the silver that felt good for the current energies and Autumn/Winter seasons, not to mention got me back to my “roots”. 😉

In the Summer my hair had gotten so light all around, as you might remember, and that supported the shifting I was needing. And now I anchor back into a contrast of dark and light, embodying the merging of both, and reminding me that all is sacred.

I guess my hair was much longer than I thought, as even after the 4 inches off, it is still so long. Somehow the New Moon feels to have plumped and lengthened my hair, as it is healthier than ever.

Astrid and I are even more mirrors of each other physically now, which I love. I can’t get over it sometimes how perfect she is for me, and vice versa. We feel one and the same on many levels.

I also love how every step of the journey always feels so right these days because of following the guidance and flow of energy in every moment.

And so the winds of change blow through in many ways, including creating a bit of chaos in the midst of it all with everything in transition for us here. Our new home is in complete disarray, as it’s been virtually all internally demolished for the contractors to implement our remodeling visions. And even our current tree house is going through a bit of a face-lift preparing it, at the same time, for its new tenants. While we live with inflatable furniture, folding chairs and tables, and boxes temporarily these last months.

Add on my crazy editing mode I am doing as I can amidst it all (feeling to complete by end of year) and other aspects of our lives I’m co-managing that are all creating full time jobs for me right now (good thing I’ve switched gears), it’s definitely a process unfolding and there’s nothing to do but take it patiently, a day at a time.

I could easily get swept up into panic, anxiety, stress, worry, discouragement, and even dismay if I let current conditions and all of the collective things going on affect me, but instead my experiences paint me a different story. They teach me that all things have a season and reason, and that keeping focus, balance, and being grateful and not neglecting nurturing of needs along the way, will see me through…always.

It can be challenging when nothing seems to have a result currently, but that’s when we need to pull from our inner core like the tree and her roots that always keep her stabilized despite how the elements and seasons shift her outer appearance.

I could easily start judging it all, second-guessing, or even wondering what the heck I’m doing with my book that perhaps only I will ever love. But that, in and of itself, is enough for me – to be true to what my heart wants to share and express. That wouldn’t have been in the past when I was affected by other’s opinions of me or had a lesser version of self love, or what love in general really means.

I am grateful for my vision that can see beyond the current swirling of energy, as that is what anchors my peaceful embrace of it all and reminds me at any moment how it’s all necessary and key to keep riding those air currents flowing through.

Just as everything was dark in the wee hours today and I couldn’t see anything but swirling snow and wind, while a fog set in and covered the lake and everything around us, the light of day did come and the clouds parted, to reveal the splendor it was stirring into creation.

Interestingly, the same happened with my hair yesterday, as somehow an odd thing happened where for a moment my hair was deep lilac. I WAS wearing a big amethyst ring and a purple and pink top with spirals on it, so it was curiously peculiar my hair was reflecting this energy. My hair stylist was not worried though, as she said my hair follicles were really open and absorbing, so they just absorbed more pigments than normal and she knew that shampooing with a clarifying shampoo would immediately balance it back. And that’s exactly what happened without any cause for alarm, creating exactly what I’d envisioned and naturally balanced me out.

The New Moon really opened things wide, but we have to be willing to go through some moments of oddness, confusion, disarray, unknowns, periods of chaos and potential upheaval, before things settle into clarity and balance again.

This morning I was excited to see our new home and land with its first dusting of snow and this is what greeted us by the light of day.

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I know so many are going through relationship shifts, job changes, moving to new homes, health crises, experiencing departures of loved ones, going through huge loss, and are at the precipice of making or needing to make huge leaps….Wishing everyone grace and ease with all the changes in life’s seasons you are experiencing and the ability to find peace within the chaos, and vision within the temporary fog.

Challenge Yourself to Find New Perspective & Create Balance While Moving Through the Times In Between


Finding gifts, meaning, purpose, opportunity for expansion and new perspectives, challenges to rise to and invoke greater creativity and imagination, the silver lining, and love in everything that shows up in my life is the way I choose to live and is what helps me to flow with the rapidly shifting experiences and potential hurdles that reflect themselves to me. There are many ways in which life can be lived, and many ways in which we can adapt our reactions into more conscious and present responses.

Currently, we have a lot going on here for the next few months, which could be stressful and debilitating if we allowed that to take hold, but each day I keep singing, giggling, and tackling each hurdle as they come, greeting each morning with gratitude and finding lightness in my approach and footstep I embark the moment’s journey on.

When I find myself caught up in the details, I remind myself of the bigger picture. And when the bigger picture seems too overwhelming, I focus on the moment and what I can do right here and now to the best of my ability. It’s a constantly evolving and continuously balancing dance to engage with ever-greater presence each day.

The Autumn beauty and light has painted its way into life here in the mountains, and it reminds me of how I can continually paint a new picture of how I want to be, the reality I choose to create, and the way I look at the world around me.

If there is something I don’t like, then I create more of what I do love. But to dwell in things feels counterproductive, except as fuel for the new. It is easy to become paralyzed by anger, fear, confusion, and over-thinking things. While I know of the dichotomy of experiences around me, I choose to be a creatrix of the way I want to see the world and send love to the things that need it.

Life is moving forward here, and alongside remodeling and preparations for moving, I am in the beginning stages of editing my book and have also begun some of the cleaning out for our new life in motion. It all feels very aligned with each other and aligned with Nature’s cycles. I’m definitely feeling that harvest of abundance, enjoyment of life’s gifts and nourishment, and also the preparation for Winter, and sense that Spring will be when all things come to blossom from this work and focus right now that is rich with gifts if I see it all that way and enjoy what each has to offer in the moment.

Official remodeling work begins tomorrow on the new home, and I’ve been slowly moving step-by-step through my book. If I were to think of all that needs to be done in a general way, that would likely throw me off center….instead I make lists of to-do’s and do what feels natural and in flow, but I don’t let it debilitate and stop me, otherwise nothing would get done. So even if it’s one small thing a day, this is still movement forward. I don’t judge the process.

And in the meantime, I pay attention to the sign posts and support that show up and I enjoy the discoveries along the way.

This has included seeing a lot of beauty in nature in what ever way I am able to with my still-healing-foot (which is at the half way point already at one month/4 weeks today!) – I’m about to head out later this afternoon for more – discovering new plants in our new yard each time I visit, planting 5 daffodil bulbs gifted to me by Faery Laura so we’ll have connected flowers come Spring, ordered our new Austrian Pines, already measured, mapped out, and ordered new things for my and Astrid’s room (it will be a bunny and Faery play world for creation making, imagining, and journeying), and have enjoyed some incredible new sightings and reflections.

These have included tons of hawks in the last couple of days….just Friday seeing 13 (a cool number) and extraordinary configurations I’d never seen, right after another. I’ve seen two hawks before sitting next to each other, which I did again, but right before them, literally several yards away, I saw THREE hawks sitting in a row, next to each other. Talk about incredible! Hawks are so dear to me and are my amazing navigators bridging Earth and Cosmos. They also always chime in with support and a thumb’s up that things are on track and magick is at hand!

I also saw out in a ranch field, what definitely appeared to be a fox, as it was very different than a coyote both in coloring and its physical appearance and attributes. I thought that was pretty darn cool, as it was the same day I reposted my black fox blog and had received a message from a friend that she just got a fox tattoo and we were discussing this energy abound for the collective right now.

So, I do find it hard to dwell in stresses or what seems wrong in the world, when so many things point to another possibility, perspective, and reality of things being aligned and on track…of support always around to help guide us another way if we in fact find things to be disappointing in other regards.

And as mentioned, I’ve already planned out my new room/office/Astrid’s sanctuary in the new home, which feels important and key to have that percolating and already imagined on a new plane of experience, and in the new reality unfolding. Since it always feels like the brain child of our home, where my office is, I feel like having already created/imagined this and put it in motion with planning it out on paper and already ordering things, seems to be anchoring all the new that is taking place there and will be.

I’m so excited about Astrid’s new things, which will be her Christmas gifts, since the timing will work out for that with move-in likely. I feel she is too and has had a hand in the planning of it all.

So, amidst the craze of things yet to do, and things in process, but not yet manifested, I am working with what is at hand and creating the reality of my visions on another timeline ahead of the now, but simultaneously merging.

There are infinite ways to approach life and to choose how to embrace it all. These are some of the ways I do and what makes life enjoyable every step of the way.

Find that balance and see how to temper things with the inversion of what’s possible on the other side.

 

 

 

 

So Much Joy, Gratitude & Love ~ Update On How Things Are Shaping Up


This is a post about joy, gratitude, and love – building blocks to manifesting a magickal and wondrous life and the foundations for supporting healing transmutation and implementation of passions into dreams come true. While some people might be thrown off balance or upset, down, and self-critical over a fracture (even the old me would have been too), I feel like everything is in flow, fresh, and thriving. Definitely some of that has to do with perspective, but it feels also to be about alignment and embrace of the harmonious spirals of life. I haven’t for a second felt anything other than harmony and gratitude since my hiking adventure that led to my injury, as it feels much more to be a reset aligned with life shifts, an igniting or opening (fissure) for the new to flow in, not to mention is mirroring the seasonal changes we’re going into from Summer to Autumn.

I can’t begin to tell you how beautiful things have been surrounding the onset of my fracture and what it has revealed and put into motion. It’s incredible to witness and review…in some ways mind-blowing because I can remember the difference in my processes over the course of my life with things and it’s so dramatically contrasting to what I experience now. This is how I can SEE things ARE in fact changing and can anchor in more and more gratitude.

I’d like to share a couple of updates and then some very beautiful and incredible experiences.

First off….more gratitude sent out to everyone who has sent their good and healing vibes my way and for sending Astrid birthday wishes. We so appreciate your love and I’d like to share that my foot is doing very well. I can’t believe it’s already going to be a week since it happened, come tomorrow! Time is literally whizzing by. OMGOSH!

I’ve made mental note of how my own nurturing processes are even in much higher gear, as I’m taking REALLY good care of myself with this fracture. I noted that last go-around I wasn’t as diligent with the process, although did do good things for it, but I didn’t baby my foot in the way I should have and still was focused on accomplishing and getting things done, rather than hunkering down into the full healing mode and not trying to see how much I could still squeeze out of it all.

This time it’s been pure healing, slow-down, and wise caution, not doing anything at all to inhibit my healing or see what I can possibly still do. I have been purely babying my foot, keeping my boot on at nearly all possible times (even when it bothered the Pisces me who likes my feet free! and even when I sleep) – and doing extra nurturing things, as well as making sure to ask for help, which Dave has been so sweetly pouring out anyway.

This has included long hours on the highest setting of my biomat for my foot the last few days and just recently starting up my comfrey poultices, after a friend picked up some for me since I couldn’t get out. Being my right foot, I’m in complete surrender of others taking care of me and driving me around….weeeeeee! That in the past would have bothered me and now I’m loving not being able to go anywhere and surrendering to that, but also enjoying the sweetness of support, love, and friendship.

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Anyway, I am trying new poultices with comfrey root and this feels really symbolically and literally potent and even more aligned for me right now. I made a paste and wrapped in a thin cloth I placed in the freezer for just a bit….last night when I had it on it just felt so good….just like the biomat did….like aaahhhhhhh yummy healing for my foot.

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The root feels so supportive of grounding, balancing, rooting, and Earthing that my Pisces feet can appreciate and integrate in a new way. After last night’s session of poultice while watching a movie, I literally woke this morning with my foot feeling stronger…literally!

I’ve also been doing Reiki on my foot and using a Selenite wand on the area of impact.

Good stuff, which I’ll continue to implement, along with wearing my boot all day (just as the doctor at the hospital told me too) other than when doing healing work like this to help compliment my healing process.

* (I’m not a doctor and nothing I share is offered as medical advice – CONSULT A PROFESSIONAL and see a doctor immediately if you have been injured. These are only my personal experiences I take responsibility for only for myself) *

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Even my sweet Astrid has been helping. I thought she would be scared of my boot and crutches when I first came home with them, but she in fact was not and in fact has immediately gone about sharing her healing energy with me, reiterating my knowing she is a healing bunny. When ever I am near her, she will come over and nose my boot/foot, which is her way (all of my bunnies’ way) of administering healing. Their noses are a channel, just like our hands, to spread the energy and love. So sweet! I remember Nestor doing this, especially once for my mom in conjunction with me doing a Reiki Healing Attunement for her, which was like a super pow! Immediately shifted my mom into balance and feeling good. Astrid is definitely demonstrating the same power-packed punch!

So that’s a foot and healing update, which I envision continuing well and being speedy based on my experience with it so far and being a good patient. 😉

On another note, I have to share this incredible thing that happened on Thursday that blew me away. We had friends over since I still was in “stay home mode” and Dave had to go out to pick up food we ordered at our fav local Thai restaurant, since T – me – wasn’t cooking and staying off her feet.

A knock came at the door and I opened it to find no one there, except these beautiful babies and a note.

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I immediately knew that our amazing friends had gone back to retrieve my crystal babies.

So, I’ll back up to help you understand this, as I likely wasn’t clear in my story of my hiking injury.

I had 2 big quartz in my back pack I was carrying, as they spoke to me needing to come home and would be a part of what I will be creating in the near future. We have guesstimated them to be at least 50 lbs. So, as you can tell, I was quite determined in carrying these for miles. It didn’t even phase me, as the mind is a miraculous thing. It also officially put me into back-packer status, carrying so much and being so small.

When I fell and went into trauma shock, I asked my friends to remove the pack immediately because I needed to focus on balancing from the nausea, shock, and turning white. (I really didn’t have any pain except an initial quick impact feeling of the break that was actually pretty subtle in comparison to my last fracture, but the body reacts this way to trauma impact).

In process of balancing and readying ourselves for what was next in getting me down the mountain, I told them to leave the crystals, which Dave reiterated, as it wasn’t as important as taking care of me, being that we didn’t know the severity of things.

So they were left on the side, and I did feel this underlying sadness, but also this odd sense of continued connection that wasn’t broken.

One other friend had been carrying a quartz too and she ended up leaving as well, down further on the path, to not impede her own journey back down.

Anyway, I hadn’t forgotten them and still felt this channel of connection between them, and oddly (which I never shared with anyone) I felt like they were still with me and/or would be somehow/some way, even if it meant they’d wait for me to return later or after the Winter thaw.

So fast forward to the door opening and there they were before me with the note.

I was overwhelmed with emotion that came forth later, as I was so excited and giddy that that took over.

I then caught glimpse to the left at the bottom of the stairs, one of our friends videoing me and my reaction and knew they’d gone back to get them.

Most of my reactions were in Faery laughter and astonishment, but it was also full of exhilaration and exuberant joy and gratitude that rushed through in realizing what incredible friends I had. Like so incredible you can’t even form words except to giggle forth with joy and to form joyous tears that bubbled in my eyes later when I was hugging them over and over.

Our friends had gone back that morning on a 5 hour hike JUST to retrieve my and our other friend’s 3 crystals (likely 60+ lbs and a gift or two they found for themselves for embracing the journey of love.

BESTEST friends ever!

They also shared with us these SO SO funny videos of documenting the journey back, which had us in belly laughs. I was especially laughing at our friend’s impression of me carrying the crystals in my pack and how I was still looking around at more and saying I can carry 1 or 2 more of these babies! This was funny because they now realized just how heavy the ones I had with me were, which made my saying this hilarious as to how my determined mind took over.

This photo puts into perspective the size of just the one largest one, which is of course the heaviest too. I’m still smiling though!!

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The other VERY interesting thing they noted was that where I fell was exactly at the site of the quartz field we’d been waiting to reach. Dave kept saying there was another one because he’d been on the hike before, when the girls and I had stopped at the first one we found to look around. So he was telling us not to spend time because more were on the way. We never actually saw this other site, because my injury took over focus.

Well, on their way back to retrieve the crystals they found that where I fell (marked by where we left the crystals) was exactly where they were, just up the hill from there a bit. That gave me chills in thinking of the energetics of it all at work and the alignments igniting and activating once I’d reached this area infused with more crystal vibes.

The crystals are super special and you can’t even tell the beauty of them in the photos…their amazing color – one is pinkish and the other like a golden apricot – and both have all this sparkly clear quartz infusions into the raw natural quartz rock. Amazing specimens and masterful beings!!

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I’m still overwhelmed by it and also anchoring in more and more gratitude and realization that this is the new reality I have created for myself (and that is possible) where everything in it is a reflection of alignment and love…supportive energies…beautiful souls working together for a greater good….everyone mindful of and helping each other’s needs and dreams, but also supporting their own and their dreams, which brings together the highest of vibes and the power of the collective to move mountains…..or in this case to carry 60+ lbs of crystals.

It literally has to be one of the most special things I’ve ever received..and I don’t mean the crystals (although I’m in awe and gratitude of them being with me), but the gesture of true love and friendship.

These same friends also picked up my comfrey for me (it even had a Tinkerbell on the bag from the store!) and brought over some amazing organic “dragonfly” spicy black chai.

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After that, our other friends arrived and I was then gifted a mini wardrobe of clothes she was moving out and thought were perfect for me and they were!

I was/am really feeling the love and I know that this is mirroring the fact that I’ve finally really anchored in taking care of myself, listening to my dreams and needs too, and balancing out that martyr energy of always giving out and never receiving – not to mention have implemented healthy boundaries. In the past receiving was hard and now it feels natural because it IS the natural flow and cycle.

You can’t just give, give, give….and you can’t just receive, receive, receive…

There is a flow of exchange to be open to and grateful for and it is all-encompassing of both being inherent in the wholeness of BEING. That is also the nature of Reiki….a harmonious circuit of flow in and out, which if blocked in any way, is the cause of challenges and dis-ease.

Yesterday was my first full outing since fracturing my foot, which included errands related to the new, a hair appointment for me, visiting my parents, and Dave getting a haircut by my mom (she has been a beautician although doesn’t do it professionally anymore since leaving her birth place, France).

I was feeling high-vibed to get a refresh on my hair, which included cut/thinning for lightness and hair getting to all silver and brown (my roots), which feels SO different and SO good. There’s constantly this recreating energy taking place to keep up with the ever-shifting energies. If I’m not naturally shape-shifting, then I’m assisting it. I also thought it was fun that my stylist styled my hair with loose spirals for a change, which felt mirroring of all the snake energy around me lately and the spiraling of the journey of life in general. I don’t ever curl my hair, as I don’t have the tools and usually just let my hair dry naturally so this was a fun update although brief.

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We also got good news on this day/yesterday for something that has been in the works and took a huge turn the day before that could have gone a whole other way, but I worked with the Faeries, Buffalo energy, and did a Reiki Healing Attunement for, resulting in being told to fully trust, know what we want, and take assertive stance of our needs and the rest would be taken care of…and it was!

I’m saving that for a future post, but is something very exciting to me and going to anchor in everything further and more richly.

Lastly, I am happy to say that my book is back on track with the time off my feet and I should be able to have exciting news on that too here shortly!

We are all in this together and bringing your best “foot” forward with all of your parts together in unified alignment, sharing lots of love, joyous infusion and supportive action of your passions, and a LOT of gratitude and healthy balance supports harmony to take form in relative ways for each of us.

Violet Light of Transmutation & Understanding


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I shared this photo just over a week ago, but yesterday I was drawn to revisit it because I remembered having found the light energy around my foot to be interesting. As you can see, my right foot is immersed in violet energy – the very foot that this Sunday took a fracture for me, as the necessary shifts, recalibrations, upgrades, and adjustments are in effect for the new to anchor in a timely manner. Since posting about my foot and adventure surrounding it, I have heard from multiple, multiple people that either they or people they knew all had similar incidents take place on or around the same day with foot fractures (in one case the exact bone and foot as mine mirroring having now balanced out their left foot same injury, also just like mine from 5 years ago), foot pains and injuries, same side knee injuries, and footing feeling off-balance in general. Seems no coincidence of course with the Full Moon in Pisces we just moved through and the huge timeline doorways of intense energy potentials between the Solar Eclipse and the upcoming Equinox. We are all experiencing those energetic tweaks to align more with the new realities we are creating, which involves changes to the frequencies in which we walk forward and anchor in with.

I remember that five years ago when I fractured my left foot twice in a row (fractured left pinky toe immediately after I healed the metatarsal fracture on that foot) it involved literally walking through the threshold of a doorway and reminded me not to leave parts of myself behind and that the core emotional realm (the hardest for us all to change) had to follow in suit with the alignments otherwise the new would be tainted with the foundations of the old.

Remember that shadow work? That’s the underlying element driving so much of the collective contrasts and drama playing out right now.

So, I did in fact, place the Seven-Pointed Faery Star on my left foot as a sacred tattoo, to assist with walking through portals with greater ease and magickal support. The left of our bodies is actually connected to our right brain, which represents the Sacred Feminine and all that she embodies symbolically and literally.

That Feminine energy has been a focal point for most spiritualists, or “New Agers”, but as I’ve mentioned, we won’t be able to forget our parts and the Sacred Masculine energy is equally necessary to restructure and bring along as well. Hence, comes in the right foot, connected to the left brain and Sacred Male.

A balancing and harmonizing “dance” is the collective’s journey and I see it clearly playing out in my own Pisces body/feet.

So, yes, there is so much more than a personal experience we go through, and yet the personal is innately collective, and vice versa.

Interestingly, I wear a jaguar sacred tattoo on my right ankle, whose own paw extends down into my right foot, mirroring my strides forward. The male energy is action oriented and taking those steps will need to be made in new ways with the calculated wisdom of jaguar without wasting energy or revisiting old patterns and ways, in order to manifest the new.

I know for myself, I’ve spent a lifetime adjusting to my body and being at home here on Earth, since the nebulous Cosmos is more native to me. It is only within the last 2-3 years really that I’ve experienced that merging and grounding, which was only possible by releasing the life I was entangled in and venturing off into full Nature immersion to know the true “nature” of me.

My feet have always felt both odd and twinkly all of my life, making sense since a fish has fins. It’s why I came into this life dancing and loving to swim, as these were more congruent with the way my feet wanted to move.

However, as time has progressed and I’ve come to understand the energies I needed to evolve into and harmonize, my Capricorn ascendant and Mars taught me about where I was headed and was the only reason I never fell off the deep end. Capricorn/Earth energies have been my anchor and also rules the bones and structures, not to mention the “male” energy. I’ve been spending a lifetime restructuring myself and readjusting into a more frequency-aligned embodiment to “walk” this current timeline with. And that has involved sometimes very “Mars-like” ways that aren’t subtle and come with great force, passion, and gusto behind them.

We all are adjusting and restructuring, in our own ways. And I share my experiences as one way of delving into how things make sense based on my own energies I came into this life with, and how we can see it all as a gift rather than punishing ourselves or others.

I’m grateful for all the healing energy and love shared and send the same to all of you.

We are discovering keys to new doorways of experience and sometimes those literal symbolic experiences make things easier for us to understand since our minds are always looking for meaning.

There will come a time that simply “knowing” will do the trick, but until then I’m happy to keep sharing what I experience since I have been told it helps others with their own experiences.

So, when I look at this photo of the violet energy around my right foot, I do not see it as an omen of something forewarning me in a “bad” way (take a look at this photo closer and feel the magickal energy and support twinkling all around), but rather I see it as a frequency adjustment that was already taking form on the ethereal level and that now the physical and other parts were going to adjust and realign with – perhaps it was even setting up the perfectly supported experience for what it/I knew on another level was coming in order for things to manifest with greater ease (hence all the support and love around me that day that made it all a gift).

Violet light is connected to the seventh frequency and crown/universal consciousness and carries the energy of transmutation (helping dissolve karma and karmic ideas) to support divine alchemy and Cosmic transformation into manifestation.

That violet light had caught my attention when I first saw the photo, and now I understand the why.

Made of Stardust


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As I glance at the clock to begin this post my eye catches the time to read 2:26 pm. There is no randomness about that in my book, being that much of this post is centered around the theme of rebirthing, since 2/26 IS my birthday, and I’ve been seeing these numbers show up again. It’s also no coincidence my last post was titled Updates & Integrations Anchoring and my post of 6 days ago – Earthing, Faery Portals, Dream Visioning & Pisces Full Moon – spoke of the energy around the Pisces Full Moon – all of this making sense as you read on. I mentioned in that blog how Pisces rules the feet saying “dance like crazy and move energy through your feet, which will not only shake out everything from the core and move things fast, but will anchor and ground you as you connect those feet to Mother Earth – Terra. She will in turn help transmute the energy and send it back with a recharge!” I specifically also mentioned how I, myself, had just danced the hardest I have since in my twenties and then was recalibrating my sore feet for 2 days after because of it. I also mentioned having seen 5 snakes, seeing/experiencing Faery portals and new doorways of possibilities, and how pulling within sometimes is necessary.

Voila! In comes yesterday’s adventure on 9/10, leaving me to start my first day of healing recalibration on 9/11, today, which auspiciously is also the day my blog is about to hit 1,000,000 visitors – collective energy feeling entwined in this all for sure, as Pisces naturally would be.

I’ll try to keep the story simple and to the point, so I’m going to bypass a lot of the details to allow a lot of the pulling together of meanings for you to draw upon and piece together.

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To make a long story shorter 😉 yesterday we went with a group of our dear friends here on an epic 13 mile hike to Star Lake. On the drive there I pointed out a perfectly formed dragon sculpture to Dave, naturally formed from a dead tree stump on the side of the road in Christmas Valley (having street names like Elf, Blitzen, and Portal to name a few) looking up toward the sky with wings behind it. That felt significant.21558833_10213627611471781_6098124891022284778_n

We found our trailhead, which took us along the Tahoe Rim Trail (where the still lingering Pisces Full Moon showed up across a vista seen in the photo above) and was gorgeous every step of the way. Part of the adventure involved traversing through quartz crystal-infused areas and immersing in their energy, which being Master Crystals was potent to say the least.

I’d been told I’d find a special crystal or two for an upcoming creation-to-be in the new unfolding, which did in fact take place, although in a different way (for now) than envisioned.

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Two giant ones spoke to me and I managed to carry them in my packs to Star Lake where we enjoyed a picnic lunch. Rainbow light, Faery portals, and magick lit the journey across creeks, enchanted forests, amazing stone people outcroppings, and incredible vistas with hidden snow patches here and there, as I carried these potent beings with me. It was my first time to this lake.

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On our descent, things took a turn, as I literally found my right foot swivel under me on a rock and heard a crack. Down I came and about 30 seconds later my body went into the shock syndrome when trauma has occurred in the body.

I have only experienced this with fractured bones, major contusions, my unbearable tailbone pains, or when empathing someone else’s injury. Although not foreign to me, it doesn’t make it any more fun. 🙂 Shock is a response the body has to trauma or intense pain where it shuts the body’s systems down to deal with it and can result in things such as weakness, cold sweat, irregular breathing, chills, turning white, nausea, etc.

For me it’s usually weakness, turning white, nausea, and close-to-fainting that I experience.

I knew to just sit down, close my eyes, focus on breathing slowly, energetically balancing myself, and having some water. And that was what I did with the assistance of the best team of friends one could ask for to be there with me through it. It subsided after about 10-15 minutes and after that I was back to my Faery self, but with what I intuitively knew to be a bone fracture – later confirmed.

What happened from there on was an adventure itself and truly for me was not phasing me or wavering my spirits in any way, once I balanced back out, about what happened to me, but just had me on high consciousness about what was evolving all around me, the meanings, and how this may have affected the others in ways that could be worse than anything I was experiencing.

That’s an empath for you, feeling the amazing group of compassionate empaths I had with me.

I already knew how incredible these souls all are, but when you go through challenges like we did together you really come to know the depths of the bonds shared and get to see the best and worst of people. In this case I saw nothing but the best and after just a couple of days before having been locked in an escape room together with them called Trapped in Tahoe – it solidified how well we worked together under pressure and never a negative vibe coming forth.

Sometimes experiences work in mysterious ways for valuable reasons and although you’d want to label them “negative” or “bad”, in fact have nothing but silver linings and beautiful purposes in a bigger picture way.

Dave called 911 and immediately a Search and Rescue team was dispatched to meet us, but we were in a hard to reach area, so to make it easier we had the goal of getting to the High Meadows area where vehicles could reach us. And that’s just what our team did with Dave and our friend, Happy, taking turns piggy-back riding me down the 2+ miles to get there, giggling and keeping everyone smiling the whole way with jokes and lightness.

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Our timing couldn’t have been perfect, as as soon as we arrived, the SAR team was just pulling up and getting ready to start hiking up to us. Not far behind them was the rest of the emergency and sheriff team.

I had to laugh as we approached, when the first guy said something about wanting to know if there was a woman along the way that they were there to pick up. I was wearing a “Love” hat and on Happy’s back, so apparently I looked like a little girl and so they had no clue it was me.

I said, “that’s me!” He was like, “oh!” And we went on to meet the woman (that so happened to be vegan we learned immediately) who was at the truck and equally seemed surprised when Happy asked if he could put me on the bed of the truck. She was like, “Oh, yes!” again not realizing I was the one in need. LOL!

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Literally right after I was sat down on the edge of the back of the truck, my friend Bean (who’d been wearing a hoodie that said 1973 – my birth year on it) points behind me where I discover a hawk flying toward us and then above so I can see its feathers and coloring. I knew I was being watched out for, as Hawks are always my guardians, sentinels, and sky messengers to communicate between Earth and Cosmos. I got chills.

I felt a little weird, to say the least, the whole time creating so much attention and more so when several vehicles and a big team shows up for little ol’ me like something out of a movie with wilderness survivors being rescued. This was no big deal in my opinion, but apparently people DO really care and when someone’s in any kind of need, “LOVE” (as my rainbow hat said) has the ability to shine through.

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It’s not my usual to be the center of attention since I stay more quiet normally, but I knew there was purpose for that as well and to relax into the beauty of group dynamics and team work unfolding before my eyes, which made me think of all of the mirroring things taking place everywhere with the fires and hurricanes, and major world events.

These times call for unification, compassion, and finding the common threads of humanity and love to come together for a higher good.

I was grateful and I embraced the love pouring out here, and across the globe, despite the contrast of dynamics at work, and yet because of it.

After vitals and taking in info I was carried into the Sheriff’s truck and the rest of the gang hopped in the other trucks and we were whisked down the remaining miles to our cars awaiting us at the trailhead.

I refused the ambulance and so we thanked everyone who had showed up SO fast – they were ALL SO FANTASTIC – and headed to the hospital to await my findings that turned out to be what I thought – a fracture to my right foot.

Not just any fracture, but a mirroring metatarsal fracture to what happened to my left foot FIVE years ago. This time being the FIFTH bone of the metatarsal (different than last time), but a clean fracture again, so no surgery needed.

The doctor said he was shocked again at my age and told Dave, no offense when he had the first thought I may have been his daughter. I normally don’t look THAT young, but apparently in my attire, baseball hat, and pony tail, I was giving off “little girl” today.

Made me wonder if this had in part to do with the rebirthing energy. Hmmmm…

After being given a boot, crutches, and a 6-8 week healing prognosis, we made our way home and I made my way up the 105 steps feeling the totality of the day’s events, life shifts, and soulful journeys illuminating.

It was auspicious that only 4 days earlier I had shared a “Throwback Thursday” post via Instagram and Facebook about my 2/25/12 gallery event that took place the day before my birthday (and had birthday celebrations involved) where I showed up in a Frankenstein-like black shoe because of the left foot metatarsal fracture that was still healing.

But during the time I was being piggy-backed on this day of 2017, I was reviewing much, including how much my processes and progress had shifted since then, as I remember being initially upset and down on myself when that one took place, until I pieced together the meaning.

This time was so different. It’s hard to explain, but it was like this seamless, natural unfolding. I wasn’t in the least bit phased or even taken off center, except to deal with the physical trauma I had to initially integrate to catch up with the other parts of me that were on board already – definitely feeling like part of those upgrades and physical recalibrations to help align with all the fast transformations taking place.

Transformation leading me to those FIVE snakes I’d recently just seen AND the full snake skin I found Saturday (just the day before this took place). I found it at an Indian site on Spooner Lake hidden between the sacred stone people formations to the site, which was nearly impossible that I’d seen it (of course meant to be). Right before that I’d found a big group of feathers from one of the black and white water fowl there. Definitely signs of rebirthing, shedding old skin, and watery support to flow with it all.

And that watery energy seemed to be a focal point in that feet are ruled by the sign of Pisces, my native sign, and the sign the Full Moon was in. It also happens to be a collective energy sign, which so much of the day’s events felt to be tied into and reflecting, not to mention, as a Pisces would be natural to tap into and play out.

On one level I felt myself, as others too are going through, helping to release some of the pressure in the collective field through the fissure in my bone, which represents structures breaking down to make way for more flexible, new ones. Something Mother Earth Herself does and is doing.

It seemed no coincidence that the hurricanes were raging through Bimini when this was taking place (an area that I’m deeply connected to as you know), and my good friend Jenny was in the eye of it all, having refused to evacuate in order to stay with the home and her ARC (Atlantis Rejuvenation Center) that held the energy for Atlantis there. I’d briefly messaged with her some personal things around this, but had felt a huge resurgence and shift with the energy around that collective experience too.

It seemed no coincidence, also, that we were surrounded by crystal energy (hugely connected to Atlantis) and I had been carrying the load of 2 big ones when my incident took place. It felt deeply symbolic and later I also realized how these crystals had activated and ignited a shift for me that was actually softened through the fracture in my foot rather than being something potentially bigger.

Once again I was experiencing a profound rebirthing on many levels and was opening the portal in my foot/my nature to receive the new Earth energy streaming through.

Terra is recalibrating and so must we.

And personally, also, because of recent events that swooped into our lives heralding in quick changes and anchoring of new, I had to put the conclusion to my book on hold over and over. That had been the only thing I’d been bothered by (as nothing phases me these days), although understood all the moving pieces were necessary to take place to assist this, and so I embraced the shifting timeline peacefully. I also realized that there was some leeway because other shifts were being supported and needing to anchor in simultaneously since it is all connected.

However, I did realize that I had recently, a few days ago, adamantly stated the time was now and no further adjustments could be made because the window was opening, but wouldn’t remain so. This meant I would not be doing outings and any spare time aside from things I HAD to do to support our new manifestations, would all funnel into completing my book.

I remember having mentioned to the girls on the hike yesterday about being mindful of intentions along the hike, since we were surrounded by so much potent energy and the quartz. I realized later how my own intentions were manifesting.

Well, the crystals DID help me to manifest that determination, as now I will definitely NOT be ABLE to do anything except write.

Outer and inner aligned and so I know the portal is fertile for completion.

Hence, more reason to be grateful for this experience, which immediately was the first thing I thought of when it happened.

My Mercury is also in Pisces, which ties in with how I communicate and YES, write. 😉

I will have more to share later including exciting news on our living situation, but for now I must hunker down and embrace the gift I’ve been given and what the crystals opened for me and for us all to create new realities.

I recently heard that while Bimini looks like a war zone right now, that they are okay. Fires have continued elsewhere, hurricanes are still raging through…Nature is doing her own rebalancing, as are the forces at work providing us potentials to rise up.

Devastation has hit many places recently and likely will continue, but there is opportunity for rebuilding from the ground/core up and hopefully doing so with greater consciousness and mindfulness of the Whole.

And this is why, for me, while I can see the connection….on a personal level I just feel like life goes on and when something happens it isn’t even surprising, but is feeling more and more like my aligning with Nature’s processes that simply cycle through and needn’t have any stigma attached to them since they are fluid changes that are part of All That Is.

I personally feel there is grace available in everything…a purpose…a potential…a doorway…and there’s no need to waste time being upset, as there’s so much to be grateful for and far worse potentials to go through and others are in fact going through, to be complaining about a fracture.

I could only see all of those things…the silver linings….the incredible gifts….yesterday, and not a second of anything other than that moved through me. Not a second.

The doctor yesterday at the hospital kept trying to get me to take pain meds, which I kept refusing. He said I “made it too easy.” I thought to myself…. “It can be.”

There’s no coincidence we were at Star Lake and I wore my mirroring tank top that said, “Made of Star Dust”.

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We are being shown glimpses into our divine nature, our origins, our connection, our truth of Being and our unlimited potentials.

The heart of a star is within each of you to embody and contains the building blocks of how to turn this human experience into an exquisite creation of a New Earth collective.

(End note: I worked on and off on writing this today and saw 5:55 when done, although still had to plug in the photos – those transformational 5’s again!)

Upgrades and Integrations Anchoring


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So, so many changes in process for everyone and speeding up so fast that you hardly have the time to realize truly just how much IS happening and transforming before your eyes, despite thinking nothing much has or that you haven’t really accomplished anything. That’s just the ego speaking and judging, as when you stop to take it all in and review it all with gratitude, you’ll find that indeed nothing is the same and you’ve actually moved through and/or are processing, integrating, living, and implementing a lot and it’s really a whole other plane of experience than what was. And even if you have been resisting, your life likely STILL is different – just maybe not quite what you intended or imagined, but still available to you to change into that if you hop aboard and start choosing to create what you DO want.

Anyway, we’re all experiencing upgrades in relative ways and one example is a dear friend of mine who’s been making leaps and bounds, which seems to have manifested in the Magick Crystal Wand she became the guardian and keeper of.

She, too, has been experiencing the wild adventures and energy work via RV living on and off while she goes through a lot of transformations and deep integrative healing and expansion. On one of her journeys, her Twin Seer, Bridge Weaver Wand – As Above, So Below Magick Crystal Wand seemed to mirror the shifts, as it suddenly and mysteriously had its Rainbow infused Lemurian Quartz point pop off, but was still attached by the coiled gold wire spiraled around it. We talked about this and how it mirrored how one of my crystals exploded on the Magick Bus, but hers instead seemed to just propel itself with the upgrades and expansion, as well as healing she was experiencing and embracing in big ways with her path.

She/the Wand was ready for more!

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And immediately I told her, I felt this meant an upgrade was needed to her wand to match the new reality she had readied herself for, which she felt too. So I had her send it back to me, which wouldn’t you know it arrived on the day of the Solar Eclipse!

I’d had a lot going on here, so I didn’t open the box until I was able to work on it, which wouldn’t you know was the Pisces Full Moon. And I completed it yesterday with new upgrades to match hers and support the new journey, as well as big upcoming RV adventure taking her into the next leg of her work.

Before sending it out today, I photographed the new creation so that you can see the changes from the photos in the link above of its original state (colors aren’t as vibrant as in person due to the morning sun still rising). I love how the Pisces Moon, however, was still out today for the photos, as you can see it to the right of the wand. So cool too, as it was gone behind the mountains the previous days by this time. Rapid shifts!

Alongside the Lemurian point it had another quartz activator below and two turquoise around that, all in gold wire wrapping and with 3 Goose feathers at top.

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Interestingly, when the wand arrived, the feathers were mottled and although I could have nurtured them back into shape, I felt the feathers were in need of an upgrade too.

New changes I implemented included rewiring the entire top with new energy, removing the 3 Goose feathers there with 4 new feathers that called to me (this includes a white Seagull feather, 2 twin pigeon feathers transitioning from light to dark gray, and one smaller one with the same, but an additional dark gray spot – love the energy of the light and shadow gradations all integrated harmoniously as One – adding 5 Golden Ray Selenite Blossom Petals below the 10 quartz points, and a very light, lavender Amethyst that’s like a violet/white flame reminding me of the Violet Breath in Reiki as the heart of it all where I then also added between the Golden Ray Petals and Amethyst, a flowing group of 3 more feathers (that makes 7 in all now instead of the original 3), which include two large Goose feathers (a very dark one and a silver one – working with those contrasting and complimentary energies again and seeing the “silver lining” in it all), with a blue Steller’s Jay feather atop the two as the integrating point bringing clarity, wisdom and higher plane enlightenment to it all. Weeeeeeee!

To add to the descriptions in the link above on the original energies of the elements included, I’ll just paste in the new additions below for this Magick Crystal Wand’s guardian:

Five Golden Ray Selenite Blossom Petals  – Golden (Ray) Selenite are powerful, beautiful, and high vibrational Crystals that have come to light calling in the highest frequency of white light and the Golden Ray of Buddha, some say, storing Ancient Priestess teachings and can be used for a variety of metaphysical purposes – making them excellent for any healing environment. It connects to the Solar Plexus, Third Eye, Heart, and Crown Chakras, helping to integrate, open, and activate them. This supports us in creatively manifesting what is from our heart, directing our will in a loving, joyful manner. We are then able to create our reality based on intention, trust, and joyful wisdom. It helps you to become attuned to, and harmonized with, your soul purpose for this lifetime. Focuses are on joy, manifestation, and creation/creative energies and are really good for digestive issues and addictions, as the dis-ease of one’s will.

Amethyst – Increases nobility, spiritual awareness, opens crown, psychic abilities, inner peace and healing, calmness, healing of body, mind and soul, positive transformation, protection, meditation, balance, relieve stress, communication, opens intuition, supports sobriety, helps with disorders, enhances memory, focus, and motivation.

Seagull Feather – These feathers bring the winds of new heart freedom, personal authentic power, creative self expression, and joyous new perspective to breathe in, ride, and navigate these constantly fluctuating energy streams with perseverance and vision to more clearly see the opportunity and purpose within everything.

Pigeon Feather – Pigeon and Dove both carry the same symbolism of peace and love, but also carry clear vision and dream messages that provide glimpses into things coming and confirm you are “on path”, divinity at work, blessings coming, opening mind and heart, healing, gentle self-nurturing, surrender and release, embrace the integrity of your natural self and purity of your creative spirit to nurture imagination and follow your own true path, as you cultivate hope for the new. The “between times,” but also heralds how the physical and spiritual are more rapidly merging with the thinning of veils that arrive with your willingness to see more clearly.

Steller’s Jay Feather – Blue Jay brings the energies of clarity (in this case double clarity/vision to express purity and truth of heart and soul with great clarity of thought in bringing these through to share), communication, presence, wise and balanced use of personal power, resourceful adaptability for ease, creative self-expression and assertion, sound and song, authenticity, and bringing higher thoughts into action.  Their crest that reaches into the heavens, directly links both Earth and Universal/Cosmic energies, bridging them for integration and active expression of divinity brought into embodiment.

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I loved it before and I love it even more now!

Embrace, be gentle and patient with, don’t judge, and LOVE every step of the journey, as it is all a beautiful reflection of creative energy in action. The new is anchoring in and the new is also yours to keep recreating! There is no end result to strive for…simply a wondrous journey to enjoy!

Earthing, Faery Portals, Dream Visioning & Pisces Full Moon


Since the Solar Eclipse’s reset, there’s been a rush of very different energy pouring in – for some intensely forcing changes and for others like a welcome jet propulsion into the new. Everything seems to continue to be a step-by-step process of taking it all slowly without rush and truly anchoring in each step with depth of intention and understanding. With tomorrow’s Full Moon in Pisces (my native sun sign), intuition will be on an all-time high, so listening to it and trusting it will be key to support moving into your true power. This moon will help you to gain deeper insights and understanding about the seeds you’ve been planting in your garden, the intentions you have for them, and will illuminate what truly is guiding your life so that you have a broader grasp on the creative forces at work and how to harness them.

Boundaries again are a constant theme in order to create well being and is a lesson for the boundless Pisces energy to understand how to balance in a healthy way.

This is a powerful time for deep soul level closure, to exercise greater compassion rather than judgment, and to practice radical acceptance, which helps you to release suffering. Suffering is a refusal to accept things. It’s time to give up the suffering, do an energy cleanse, and ask how you can make the changes then engage action to do them.

Synchronously we were at a free Celtic rock concert for the Young Dubliners on Saturday where I danced the hardest I have since my twenties. When I say danced hard, I mean hard…I was doing my own version of the Riverdance and literally was jumping, hopping, kicking, jiggling, and wiggling nonstop through about 6 songs with sweat pouring, heart racing, and just powering through despite feeling as if I might not catch my breath, but did, then was in the dancer’s-high zone. My friend who joined me said she heard me giggling and cackling throughout like never before, which made her see my inner Faery come through. That Irish music definitely released a DNA chord within. I literally shook free and coughed out all the old on the drive home after! Talk about an energy cleanse! And feet were recalibrating two days after.

Well, this Pisces Moon encourages the energy of dance since Pisces rules the feet. So dance like crazy and move energy through your feet, which will not only shake out everything from the core and move things fast, but will anchor and ground you as you connect those feet to Mother Earth – Terra. She will in turn help transmute the energy and send it back with a recharge!

That watery Pisces energy is also about dreaming – whether receiving prophetic dreams or engaging imagination to dream big.

This has been a big one for me. I’ve been engaging dream visioning and just going wild with them, as long as they are aligned with the “now” me in every way.

So yes, dream a little dream…..or make it a big one! I am!

Don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t do something and don’t let their doubts become yours.

Also, learn to temper engaging intentions and detachment, envisioning, but also not overly talking about them. Keep a little bit of the magick to yourself so that you don’t lose the momentum. Patience is key, but don’t give up!

True, it will take dedication, drive, endurance, time and major effort, but if you believe in it, it’s the breath of life to you, and it fills your heart with joy and passion then you owe yourself and those that will be touched by your dream who you can’t see right now or gauge analytically, the opportunity to make it happen.

Live life to your fullest and responsibly harness your creative potential as example.

I’ve been immersed in a lot here (I bet you have too!), but continue to have a good majority of my life focused on “Earthing” in Nature and working closely with the Faeries and Elementals of the land to co-create and manifest together. Not to mention, continuing to engage my Star family from beyond, including my dear ones who have moved on, as well as the magickal Cosmic Astrid. It’s a balancing and merging of Earth and Cosmos.

This has continued to lead me on paths to new portals of discovery and doorways (including literal multi-dimensional doors of possibilities – more on that another time) showing up and opening.

I can’t begin to tell you how much has happened so quickly and anchored in in the last 5 months. Incredible! And as I look back I can see how that balance of alignments, patience, release, intention, and action have all come together.

I’ll share the exciting news on things soon, but it really has all become this fluid experience with some things immediately showing up and others all percolating, but are their own realities on a different timeline that are and will merge once I continue jumping them. And at the same time I’m seeing how there is always “something better” that reveals itself, just as is always my intention I voice when working on manifesting things. This ends up bringing together the most aligned outcomes that combine the ingredients of all that I love in an alchemical recipe only the Cosmos Itself within me knows how to do. And that involves stepping out of ego and attachments, and being open, open, OPEN to any and all possibilities that result in the highest good for all concerned.

And during these times, although I’ve been super active and life has been full, I’ve also been very inner (if you can believe that). Truly a Yin/Yang synergy of experience. And it is the inner time and the things I do actually keep to myself that allow me to put out the amount of energy that I do, as it does help me to conserve and restore, as well as continue to fuel things with a gusto of momentum.

I have huge amounts of passionate fire roaring inside and yet I’m letting it out in the bursts needed without crashing or burning out and without ever losing its fuel.

I continue to hold the expansive visions, while allowing things to organically morph along the way. Sometimes I’m so excited I could burst, but that’s when the Earthing and Nature immersion aids me in bringing my energy back down to a healthy kindling and allows a channel of support to come from the Spirits I honor and cherish.

It’s been so interesting to me that I’ve seen the most snakes I’ve ever seen recently in the last few weeks here (5 total – my fav/special #). Potent transformation energy! We don’t have rattlesnakes, but I’ve seen every size of Garter Snake from the tiniest of babies, to adolescent, to mature snake – Maiden, Mother, Crone energy perhaps? All aspects of myself merging, just as Earth and Cosmic parts do (this echoing a very prophetic and powerful experience I had in dream time just a little over two years ago that was the doorway to where I am now, but could have gone a different direction.

It’s 1:11 here as I conclude and paste in this, which I recently shared in an Instagram/Facebook post:

There are times when being alone or pulling within are necessary especially if you are doing very public work in terms of your path. There are spirits who may seem very visual and yet most of who they are and what they do goes unseen and is kept to themselves. But even if others see you, it doesn’t mean they REALLY see you or even fully know you, as you may be a reflection…truth mirror…or simply can’t be seen yet in totality because what you carry or embody isn’t understood yet.

I love you.

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