What gives you indication that you’re in alignment and on the most flowing path of potential? Yes, a definite sense of greater ease and invigoration comes to mind, but it can also be a mix of new feelings flooding in alongside others. For instance, excitement mixed with fear, ready to fully take on the growth while swimming through overwhelming feelings, an influx of new people, ideas, experiences mixed with purging and fading away of old ones, greater peace and fulfillment overpowering any anxiety in the background, everything feeling more vivid and intensely probable although there are unknowns, happiness in the face of challenges, envisioning more about the future while the past flickers away, dreaming more and imagining possibilities even though you’re engaged in the day-to-day processes, and so on.
Alignment has you riding the currents, rather than swimming against them, but you are still aware of the currents.
Everything just takes on a different energy that no longer seems insurmountable. Everything feels attainable and you’re more encouraged, rather than defeated.
The 9th’s Virgo New Moon adds to this restructure time we’re in and supports a new cycle for you to embrace once you’re reviewed the old patterns that no longer serve you. And as you do, this puts you in a greater place of alignment with lighter energy that lets go of the fight.
This New Moon is helping to set the stage for the next couple months and brings an earthy wisdom into your life on a more sensual and intimate scale where your relationship to self, work, and others will figure prominently.
If you haven’t already, this is self-care time so that you don’t blow yourself out and put added stress on the adrenal glands. Perhaps committing to healthier routines of either exercise, better sleep, down-time, rest, eating better, tuning into your body and needs, self-nurturing, nature time, or all of the above would be a supportive place to start.
Being mindful of “perfectionism” tendencies and tempering that with more balance and a healthier perspective such as paying attention to the key details that will assist being most effective, rather than over-analyzing and trying to do everything. Then lessening up on achievement mentalities, proving one-self, and self-judgment to be replaced with healthy challenges that excite with soul growth potential, doing your best in the moment and knowing that is everything, along with acknowledging each step and embracing that the Universe doesn’t compare, nor test you….things are simply a choice expression you can either hold back or surrender to naturally depending on how you want to experience energy.
This is a perfect time to start a new project and nurture new ideas.
Pisces and Virgo are perfect compliments to each other for good reason. The flowy, boundary-less, self-less, bigger picture focused, watery, intuitively creative, day-dreamy, and feeling Pisces is tempered so well with the earthy, more methodical, practical, organized, day-to-day and task focused, deeply sensitive, tenderly caring of humanity, self-improvement motivated, and do-it mentality of Virgo.
So keeping in mind these energies, is a way to create balance to whatever processes aren’t working so that you can create new ones that bring in more synergy and effectiveness.
In my own life this works out to a Pisces Faery with a Virgo Bunny and a Virgo dad, as well as a mom with Virgo ascendant. 😉 Thank goodness for all of my Capricorn placements that slowly inducted me into this new life and balance needed. At first what seemed like a tormenting inner fight and separate personalities, now creates a harmonious and supportive partnership.
Hence, made me ready for my rabbit, Queen Astrid.
My t-shirt below says, “Never Underestimate the Power of a Woman with a Rabbit.” In this case, a Virgo rabbit! He he!!
Like many of you, I am feeling the “new” energy around this Moon, which has led to a lot of the things I shared in my last post that are upcoming once October 1st hits.
There’s been that increase in self-care focus, a healthy mix of exciting challenge with my next writing phase, and yes, even a new creative project beginning this Monday just after the New Moon, along with continuing to clear my life on many levels and create a healthy, organized routine that honors that partnership of energies within.
That included a two-month break from my book without even peeking at my returned manuscript from my editor, in order to refresh everything and create a new perspective once I fully devote to it.
I’ve created space for each thing in the healthiest of ways that works with my own processes and maximizes my strengths, while keeping me in alignment.
It’s also the healthiest and clearest way for me to stay focused on “right now” with things I need to complete this month while allowing things to percolate, as I have noticed that any time I turn focus on my book I am consumed with book thoughts, dreams about my editor and me working on things, and can’t think of anything else. It can be exhausting.
So, I temper that with doing only what’s at hand now, clearing energy, getting out in nature, nurturing my creative needs with other small, short-term attainable projects, and doing broader writing research through reading books that will aid me once I get back – to keep things percolating in the background without jumping hands-on.
This serves any anxious feelings that could have come up, as I tend to get really antsy to start things. By finding healthy ways to engage my energies until I CAN fully devote myself to writing, has put those kinds of feelings to rest and put me present in the moment. It also subdued the all-encompassing book thoughts so I’m not overwhelmed with everything.
And of course, I spend lots of time with Astrid.
This all also keeps me in alignment with energies I feel flowing and not getting stuck in my mind with trying to control things, but rather listening to energies and merging with what creates greater ease and potential leaps.
And speaking of leaps….we have one spot remaining in the upcoming Fall Equinox 2018 – Living a More Magickal Life workshop/event co-taught by Laura Bruno and myself. A couple of people have expressed interest so I’m always curious as to who will show up.
Every time a workshop forms, it’s like observing an energetic chess game where every move induces strategic placements and as some parts/souls move forward, others move back, sideways, or forward themselves in order to bring together alignments.
Laura and I have both experienced last minute shifts in our workshop attendees where subconscious feelings becoming prominent in one way or another based on how each person chooses what that means. Really interesting!
There are 8 days remaining to register – deadline is September 15th – miss Virgo Astrid’s birthday.
In the meantime, some additions are showing up for the event.
All participants will be receiving a special gift to add to our ceremony and to take home after.
I’ve also created a giant and powerful staff (one of my recent creative projects) that will also be revealed that day to the participants to activate portals during our experience.
And more surprises!
Next week we’ll know more about what will be a part of this day, as Laura and I are both doing last preps for the workshop then.
This is sure to take your journey to the next level.
Link below in comments to register:
Wishing you a fruitful New Moon.
Welcome September! The change of seasons has been slowly descending upon the land, casting a warm, golden glow, as the light shifts daily. There’s been a lovely crispness in the air with chilly evenings enveloping us here with thoughts of cozy fires, nostalgic aromas, and the turning of leaves. All of this inspiring new waves of energy, ideas, and visions to bring through a burst of freshness.
Have you been feeling the transitioning of seasons too?
We are still about three weeks away from the Equinox, but preparations have begun.
Here at the Forest Portal I’ve immersed in Autumnal things including baking and cooking yesterday and this morning for guests arriving this evening for Labor Day weekend. I made root veggie-based curry and enchiladas, as well as two Dutch cocoa, cacao, coffee, walnut orange-infused bundt cakes (one simply the chocolate and coffee blend and the other with the added fun).
I’ve been listening to inspiration on some new upcoming small paintings and surrendering my novel writing to allow guidance for fresh ideas to come while I prepare for another cycle of devoted work and cocooning again soon.
I also completed my cosmic shamanic staff for the upcoming Fall Equinox “Living a Magickal Life workshop and gathering event. (There is just two weeks left to grab the remaining spot for this – 9/15 is the last day to register) But wow! Is all I can say. I’ve never made anything like this and how it all came together and the result is more than I could have imagined. It’s definitely the portal opening staff I knew I was meant to create.
That happened on Thursday and the same evening was our last Music on the Beach event of the Summer where I saw the biggest shooting star I’ve ever seen, in slow motion move across the sky and then plummet behind the mountains on the other side of the lake. No on else saw it. The cosmic influences are strong lately and I’ve been immersed in meditational expansions to assist these shifts.
And on the more mundane level, but equally potent, I’ve been doing a huge closet purge and revamp, which I’m trying to finish today, gave Wonderland a full cleaning and have welcomed in new energies to help enchant the shared creative space with Astrid for our upcoming hunkering down with writing again come October 1st.
Dave and I also signed up to begin a new wellness program on October 2nd based here at the new state-of-the-art athletic training center here in Tahoe. Something very not my usual thing, but the uniqueness of this program coupled with my shifts and feeling well being at the forefront of things while I move forward into a soulfully challenging next phase, all made it very clear, intuitively, that this was the next step.
We’re both healthy (in fact as a full-circle and reset button I had my first yearly wellness, full physical and blood work done in over 20 years just recently – all normal) and do a lot of outdoor things, but this will help up the game for us and continue assisting Dave with rehabilitation from his surgery to get back out there in peak condition for skiing.
They cater to all levels of fitness and rehab needs through internationally acclaimed performance coaching to help maximize athletic performance for athletes or active, recreational lifestyles for outdoor living – hiking, biking, skiing, kayaking, etc. So, we’re pretty excited about that since not only do their experts help with balance of coordination and conditioning, but there are classes you can attend alongside your training.
So that will be interesting and great. Only other thing I’ve ever done in any similar fashion was when I was 21-23 and trained hardcore with a personal trainer and then on my own at a regular gym.
This is completely different.
I’ve since been on my own flowing wavelength of wellness and now incorporating a very supportive, flowing, but skilled level of conditioning, which mirrors a new path I’m on in general with all the new. Very nurturing, expanding, strengthening, and taking things to a different level.
I always like to see the synergy at work with what shows up through choices and alignments.
Anyway, recently since Wednesday there’s been some kind of time warp or timeline shift, as I’ve experienced being a day ahead of the day at hand. Apparently, I wasn’t the only one, as Laura shared the same thing happening to her at the same time.
Even Astrid has been in a mode of digging lately so I’m looking into creating her own digging box so she doesn’t need to dig out the crystals in the fireplace or the kitty litter box. The digging deeper metaphor is resonant.
She’s also gone through fur shedding again, revealing so many complex images and symbols, including a lot of hearts showing up and things that looked like rebirthing reflections. This “skin” shedding metaphor appearing once again.
Which reminds me of one of last night’s potent dreams that involved a rabbit and a snake. The end result was the snake bit my right hand on the bottom side of the palm very deliberately and without fear on my part. In fact, so much without fear that I was not wanting medical attention regardless of there being potential it might be poisonous. It was unsure in the dream if the snake was poisonous or not, but I was not jumping at caring about treating it.
Definite transformational energy in motion and seems I want to immerse in the venomous juices of that with all of me.
This is about the third time I’ve dreamed of a snake/s biting me – all at very pivotal points on my journey.
All this to say, Autumn shifts are settling in and I’m finding the effects in my life to be very positive and expansive in potentials.
This reminds me of these words I’ve shared before, but feel inspired to share again:
There is indeed a continuum of increasing shifts and transitions taking place for everyone on so many levels, which brings us yet again to approaching another seasonal transformation, both within and without.
Yes, Autumn is closing in upon us, and that heads us toward a period of less “light out there” so that we find the source of true “light in here” – within you. This is a time to make friends with your own inner darkness and nurturing it, as this engaged healing integration is vital for soul growth.
Nature reminds us that we need to relinquish the need to hold on tightly with fear and to trust in the process – to allow ourselves to have everything we thought we knew about ourselves to be stripped away, only to discover a greater truth to our authenticity beneath the temporary structures.
And in the process you’ll discover the only thing that is eternal is the core essence of who you are beneath the temporal layers. You learn then that the rest isn’t as serious as you make it and is simply part of the journey to that core.
We let go, just as the trees effortlessly allow their leaves to shift colors and float off in the wind. We embrace the only permanence, which is change. And we take grateful stock of what we do have, while preparing for a new birthing that will be incubating during the symbolic stillness.
Seasonal transitions mirror the evolution of human consciousness and the dynamic shifts of life cycles.
The eternal cycles of birth and death, creation and destruction – all teach you the wisdom of harmonic co-existence. One thing does not exist without the other and through each you learn of your wholeness and cultivate courage and endurance to face that which is over, the past, the old – what must die within you – and trust in the abundant gifts that will come with the embrace of that release.
You become a conscious and active partner in the rebirthing process, as you walk through the flames of destruction with grace.
I leave you with this image. I wish I knew who the artist is, but it is an image a friend once sent me and it feels so perfectly reflective of what I feel and sense all around this time period.
May all possibilities be open to you.
In the secret garden of my dreams and imagination, many visions are growing, blossoming, and in some ways just now seeding for creative manifestation, although much more singular-focused than my past has journeyed through. It’s exciting to begin fresh and listen to the song of my heart. I imagine many of you are feeling that bubbling thrill of possibilities ahead of you and likely are also recreating your life in ways that align with and help draw in more of that reality you envision.
In the midst of this shift from old to new, I’ve found myself redecorating, planting new succulents, gridding my space with anchoring energies, and moving things around in my Wonderland office to reflect the shifting energies, as well as to create the optimal environment that will support, nurture, and inspire the many hours, days, and months ahead that I will be channeling creatively here.
Some energies have assisted with getting where I am now, but have come to the end of their road as well. While others continue to be life-long partners or still have more work to do with me and Astrid.
Do you find yourself always refreshing things in your work and living space? You may also do this with other or all areas of your life. I know I do because it helps when we are matching the frequency of what we’re drawing into our experience, just as a magnet easily brings to it the same.
If not and you’re feeling stuck, unclear, or uninspired, try moving things around, painting a wall a different color, bringing more light into a room, or adding a little something fresh – even a vase of flowers, a new plant, or a small piece of art that speaks to you can make a difference.
I find the same goes for clothes, where I either move things out when I go through big changes, or I get inspired to mix and match in new ways.
Life is definitely a work of art to me that I paint new everyday and flowing with those creative energies that cycle through has been one of the most supportive things I find that really helps keep things invigorated and cultivates clarity and alignment.
As I’ve shared in my previous post, I’ve been prepping to hunker down come end of September after our Fall Equinox “Living a More Magickal Life” workshop event and visiting/igniting things with Laura that week, so this has been a great space for getting everything set up, putting to rest some little projects around the home I wanted to do, researching, and finalizing this last month of to-do’s.
I’m almost done with the crystal staff I’ve long been wanting to create – I’ve had the wood for almost a year and it will be done in a few more days, which feels important for the Equinox ceremony we’ll be doing during the workshop event.
And speaking of shifts, we’ve had an opening come up in our Living a More Magickal Life workshop – but in the interim we’ve also felt that our original cut-off number of attendees was not aligning anymore with what we’re tuning into, so with this opening we can accommodate one more. If you feel called that registration ends 9/15. It’s always interesting to see what group forms for events such as these. My contribution to the event has been morphing and will be a powerful ending for me to go out with for this part of my ending path.
However, something that might be showing up again (in a different way) soon for me is painting, as I’ve had the feeling it will be a good partner to the heavy writing work upcoming. It will also be good prep for another project that is ahead down the path, in getting me back into that painting flow. I’ll be feeling that out in the coming weeks, but if so, I foresee some small pieces of art available that will be the product of this flow of energy channeling through. I’ll keep you posted, but most of this will likely show up on my Instagram, so keep an eye out there for any surprises.
And this leads me to those shifting energies that has again released some crystal friends of both mine and Astrid’s to anyone who feels they would be the supportive partners to your new and shifting world. Astrid has since drawn in a couple of new friends, and is ready to move on fully from her last crystal buddy. I’m constantly fascinated by this process, and the fluidity I have with it now whereas in my past I held on to things.
This includes the following four friends.
Everything is Reiki-infused, charged, and cleansed before journeying to your home.
A gorgeous rare and quite large Black Ammonite Pair that originates from the magical island of Madagascar, one of the most energy-filled centers on the planet. These hold very ancient, healing energy, and deep/root/origin wisdom.
I love the dark connecting with the hidden and shadowy recesses, but also the sparkly inner realm of it that shares how light is inherent in it all.
These fossils are between 135-395 million years old and bring the energy of Ammonite – activators of our metaphysical gifts and inter-dimensional exploration. When placed on the third eye chakra, Ammonite reveals the soul’s path, which is encoded within it. It is also useful to support rebirthing and is a powerful cleanser of any hindering patterns, helping one release mental obsessions and important past life issues.
Feng Shui masters call Ammonite the seven color prosperity stone because it’s believed not only to stimulate the flow of life force energy through the body, but to be exceedingly fortunate for abundance, vitality, health, and promoting beneficial business ventures.
These have been extremely powerful for all that I’ve currently put in motion and a lot of soul retrieval and remembering.
Black Ammonite Pair (come with two stands to hold them nicely when not working with them – perfect for an altar space) – $110 + shipping (a separate invoice will be sent once shipped) – SOLD
This beautiful very pink Rose Quartz Cathedral Tower (with yellow/gold inclusions) was first purchased for Astrid when she came home to me last year to assist her with her healing and opening journey.
The Rose Quartz will infuse your space with Universal and unconditional love, self love, motherly and nurturing love, purification and opening of the heart, restoration of trust and harmony, deep inner healing, peace, calmness and reassurance, comforting with grief, cleansing of negative/triggering/challenging energies, and graceful energy of the Heart Chakra.
There are many rainbows throughout and the bottom (which has a naturally raw edge on part of it – this isn’t chipped) is a lovely and potent hexagon. I love raw edges and openings, as they feel to be places energy flows from, as well as create that perfect imperfection and nature of essence.
A beautiful, sweet and potent crystal that channels focused energy and of course has an extra Astrid infusion.
Astrid’s Rose Quartz Tower – $121 + shipping (a separate invoice will be sent once shipped) – SOLD
Then we have this super sweet, but potent little magick wand, which is so graceful, elegant, and simple. It is not one that I made, but my first larger wand I picked up in Sedona. Before that I only had a mini Faery wand that has since moved on to a lovely new guardian.
It is made of Red Oak for the wand and then has copper beautifully wrapped around a Quartz point at the end. It’s been cleansed and activated in Oak Creek and journeyed with me on our Magick Bus adventure.
Magick crystal wand – $45 + shipping (a separate invoice will be sent once shipped) – SOLD
And last, this lovely and elegant Selenite wand, which makes a wonderful partner for clearing, clarity, balance, purification, deep peace, expanding awareness, opening the crown and higher crown chakras, connecting with angelic consciousness and higher guidance.
It’s also great for working with flexibility of the spine and supporting the skeletal system, while being an effective tool and partner for chakra cleansing and harmony.
It is like liquid light, as you can see here, just glowing and illuminated in the Sun’s energy.
It’s the perfect size and smoothness for holding, traveling, and working with and has an incredibly perfect, sharp point and rounded bottom.
Selenite Wand – $12 + shipping (a separate invoice will be sent once shipped) – SOLD
Also, for anyone interested, I have a collection of 7 books on Reiki that I’m clearing off my shelves in order to make room for a bunch of books I’ve recently brought into my life. And being that I’m moving away from that part of my life, I felt I would offer these.
Some are very new and forward ideas and others are in line with the teachings I’ve been taught and passed on. In any event, if you’re interested in exploring and widening your scope of Reiki and exploring ideas that might trigger or support your own creative and intuitive practice, I’ll offer these for shipping costs only. If no one is interested I’ll donate them to our local library, as they have a book exchange where you can donate books and take home books in place of them.
I’ve used a highlighter in 4 of them when I first read them, but they are all in perfect condition otherwise and retail in total at $138.73
If interested, you can message me, but please do so by Monday morning the 27th (that’s two days from now), as I’ll be going to the library then. First come, first served.
That’s it for now….until the next round of changing seasons.
Here’s to reinvigorating energy and new adventures!
As we’ve settled back in this week after our time on the Pacific Ocean, I’ve felt another shift of energy grounding subtly, but profoundly in. I just realized today that it was four years ago at this time in August that we were exploring Alaska for nearly 2 weeks and that seems fitting since it was upon returning from that journey that I knew a big life shift had to happen, and now another is organically kicking in that will change everything once again.
We just returned from 10 days away along central and southern California’s coastline, and while it was a very nurturing trip, we could sense its full circle energy, as well as its helping to reflect and integrate the new upcoming.
Like when we returned from Alaska, I knew Orange County was no longer our home and in revisiting there at the end of this trip, we no longer felt any heart ties to even the few places we had once loved and helped us while we were there. We felt a strong closure and it also offered us time to explore, in thought and imagination, the new opportunities and possibilities we’re feeling into and that are presenting themselves.
We always loved Crystal Cove, and while it still is a magickal place, it offered us a chance to seed intentions, as it had in the past, but this time as a portal door only.
We did enjoy seeing some of our dearest friends while visiting and of course, having some vegan food indulgences at some of our fav restaurants just around the corner from our then house.
Yet, like the weddings that both started and ended this trip, there was a solidification of commitment to another level of experience, life, and relationship to ourselves and each other that seemed to get kicked up a few notches. We found ourselves dreaming bigger and feeling into new choices.
On our first full day back we went to the beach here and both felt a much stronger resonance to our Lake Tahoe waters and the peace and energies most resonant to our new lives, to be flowing through this mountain air.
Interestingly, while we were away, the smoke in the Tahoe Basin from the immense fires in California was sadly the worst it had been. It started clearing a few days before our heading home and is hugely better now than it was. If not for an upcoming Reiki workshop I’m teaching this weekend, we had actually considered gathering up the fur babies upon return, and heading out somewhere else again until the smoke cleared. Something about that and its timing is meaningful. And even while we were at our favorite Crystal Cove, the nearby fire had created an ominous sky of smoke that merged an interesting portal of two worlds.
The energies shifted along the journey as well, where we were relishing in the relaxation and all of the Faery beauty and ocean magick, but nearing the last few days we were already ready to go home.
Yet, there was much natural beauty and enchantment experienced that immersed us in Faery and vegetable garden delights, took us wandering along gorgeous coastlines, connecting with so many ocean creatures and cetaceans, discovering moonstones, tons of feathers from the amazing pelicans, seagulls, and hawks, and other sparkly quartz sea delights to create portal connections without needing to be physically there, and lots of yummy vegan food that included a very special, pampered evening with a friend who shared her new vegan cheese line with me, a gathering with friends, and some sweet time with Dave’s dad and stepmom.
It was no coincidence there were so many portals, abundance of blossoms, plants, and animals, water and faery energy, fountains, and even a wishing well….all perfect to activate new seeds of intention and reflect the promise of new.
And all of the ocean time coincided with a book I was reviewing for another author, set in Atlantis, that awakened more seed memories. I just sent in my endorsement review for the novel yesterday, which seemed to be a potent day for not just myself and Dave, but others, with things clicking in and setting the tone for another new cycle.
My Take-Away From the Last 10 Days:
Indeed there’s yet again another shift taking root, but each one is so mutable these days that it’s never about reaching any finalized stage or end result, yet truly about being most flexible and open to your highest joy and potential at every corner.
With Mercury Retrograde ending on the 18th, this all feels timely with the reflections, curiosity, explorations, solidifying – and for some – the intensity, around this time period, but also points to some leaps into new immersions just around the corner.
I feel another life-changing time period is kicking in for Dave and I, both individually and together. In many ways it does remind me a bit of the time period right before the Magick Bus adventure living in the RV for a year and a half traveling about. This took place after the impending changes following Alaska and the seeded intentions that were inspired. And while different energetically, there is a similar whole-new-start-vibe and more choices for how it all unfolds.
This Fall and Winter feels to involve a lot of focus, commitment, and work to solidify that change and catapulting to come in 2019. A lot is happening all at once and I feel that like the last couple of years, we will look back a year or two from now and be amazed at what was accomplished.
In many ways our trip was both surreal and like being in another world, as a bubble of magick always enveloped us, but while grateful for what it offered, we are happy to be home and so is a certain bunny, named Astrid, very happy about that too.
My Evolving Relationship with Astrid:
I had two dreams about her while we were away, so we were in contact, and since returning, our relationship has also kicked up several notches. We are the closest we’ve ever been, she’s been super attached to me, wanting to snuggle and immerse in loving connection, and even wanted me to hold her when I came home. She’s excited about the next level of work she and I will be doing, as in just two days I will be receiving back my manuscript from my editor – EEK!! – and the next challenging, but exciting step will kick in, as I review feedback and get cracking on the new plan in order with revision work.
But being back with Astrid has been very special and I’m loving our deepened connection and her continued softening into the love that she is. Our communication is impeccable and we are SO in tune!
She’s been extra excited running around in the morning and evenings, and watching me through the door, as I took care of my Garden Tower and plants and flowers outside. She’s actually been pawing at the window while watching me and anxious for the green yummies I just harvested for her yesterday.
Garden Tower Updates:
My small garden is doing so beautifully and is abundantly producing. I even have my very first two pumpkins ever (called Wee B Little pumpkins) starting to grow, which excites me greatly, along with another four tomatoes on the Charlie Brown Christmas tree-like tomato plants I saved, and nine Ring of Fire sunflowers all coming in – I smell Autumn just around the corner!
We and Astrid have enjoyed so many harvests and yesterday’s was no exception, as I filled a gigantic heaping bowl with every variety of herbs and greens and still there is tons on the Tower remaining. I gave everything a good pruning and watering and we have happy plants! Since the strawberries and lettuces are done, I no longer have to net the tower or any of the plants, as the forest critters are not interested and being entertained and indulged with other yummies.
And speaking of Garden Tower, my original one that used to be at our Orange County home, just found a new loving home with my dear friend and vegan cheese connoisseur/creator and her husband. The friend I mentioned who pampered me with this:
I couldn’t be happier! I can’t wait to see the Garden Tower flourish at their beautiful home, which is like a little Italian villa.
Somehow that feels full circle too, that my original one I loved so much and was one of the joys that kept me going while living there, has come into the right hands – the last thing I had a tie with in OC that always was in the back of my mind, is now put to peaceful rest and will assist my friend in the blossoming of her new business and intentions, as the metaphor for her experiences created in the garden of life.
Writing & Workshop Updates:
As mentioned, I’ll be receiving my manuscript back in two days, but since I’m teaching on Saturday and will need time to digest all that I hear back, I’ll likely not be starting back on revision work and the next stage until sometime next week. That said, it WILL be my main and only focus outside of life and shared ventures with Dave. Likely even more so now, as every step gets increasingly demanding and challenging. So, while I will continue to blog now and then, as inspired, it will still remain on the less side and not like my once daily shares.
As always, you can catch more inspiring and fun, quick updates on my Instagram page though, which has included the photos you see here in this blog, plus many more!
The day before I left, I received some new bunny additions to my Wonderland office and upon returning I had two new dragons awaiting me. These all anchoring in new energy to inspire my writing again, along with some small shifts in redecorating I often do here and there. Astrid also has a very special birthday gift arriving tomorrow – all just in time for beginning the book adventures next week.
I do feel rested and rejuvenated from our little vacation and the last month off from writing while its been with my editor, so I’m ready to dive back into writing with my wise partner, Astrid, and the rest of my spirit guides.
This Saturday ends my Reiki teaching days, as I put closure to that with the last Reiki 3 Master Teacher workshop held here. It will be a lovely day, as one of my first students joins to finally get her last level in, while another lovely soul comes to both review and cultivate her teaching skills, helping out as she feels so moved. I have some ideas percolating for this workshop that will make this a fun ending. I know a few people were sad not to be able to join this and the last Reiki 1 & 2 workshop, but I do firmly believe that all things flow in alignment and there is a beautiful reason yet unseen that will reveal itself in perfect ways.
And lastly, today marks exactly 1 month remaining to register for the upcoming Fall Equinox “Living a More Magickal Life” with Laura Bruno and myself.
The last day to register is September 15th – synchronously that’s also Astrid’s birthday. 🙂
To reiterate, this is the first and last time she and I will be teaching together and this event will end and celebrate my own closure with teaching in this format at this point in my life. So, it will be a special event with inspired topics that will assist all joining with how to move into that new with wings! We continue to tune in and be open to what wants to come through for this, but as with all gatherings of this kind, not only do surprises always show up, but the effects of what takes place on the seemingly subtle planes will continue to unfold long after the day in potent ways. So keep those keen senses about you, as magick increases before your eyes.
There are still a couple spots remaining. If you feel called to join, you may register here:
Keep believing and may all possibilities be open to you!
Faery tales embody the simple and complex at the same time and are a way to communicate truths through wonder and to bring magick to the child within who holds the keys to alchemy. Faery tales, in my book, do matter and I have made it a focus to bring my own version of them to life in one way or another, as I believe there is an unseen world where other realities exist and are available to experience here and now. What we discover is how our imagination is the doorway to live the enchantment that exists, as the essence of the universe at large.
Faery tales journey us through challenges, fears, and dangers, while revealing that things aren’t always as they seem and connecting us with our deepest desires through transformational adventures.
I’ve definitely experienced all of this and find myself with a better understanding of my life through discovery of spiritual insights uncovered along the twists and turns that revealed the fantastical as real.
So, do I believe in Faery tales?
Indeed I do and I believe we are all living and creating one – each our own – with shared themes playing out creatively across the collective.
Where things are unclear and hard to understand, I believe magick explains the why’s. After all, we are the greatest miracle embodied, and it’s hard to imagine we aren’t living magickal lives because of that. I do believe a wizard lies within each of us to remember.
And although my life may look or seem more Faery tale-like now, I assure you that all the tragedy, so-called villains, brushes with death, and character arcs that truly make the full gamut of a true Faery tale, have been journeyed through more than their fair share along my adventures in humanity on Earth. And even those experiences were filled with the miraculous and magickal, despite the less than desired ideals we gravitate toward because, after all, everything is part of the divine and sacred oneness that we are.
This is the inner journey of alchemy – some call it the hero’s or heroine’s journey – Deepak Chopra calls it “The Way of the Wizard,” sharing my own feeling on the magickal you, you’ve forgotten that you are.
It’s become more obvious to me, how I’m consciously creating a reality that breathes of Faery tales and whispers of enchantment, which has included the duality that every tale travels through.
And while the villains and tragedies are no longer the focal point of my story, I still get the opportunity to live out the actualization of what I’ve learned and discovered along the way in how I process and maintain my Faery tale peace within the collective kingdom at large – invoking more of the wizard within to step forth so I may see through her eyes of trust and experience the oneness of my own being – the end becoming the beginning.
Saturday felt like another layer added to my Faery tale, and as you can see in the photos of me in the forest, I was feeling the magick indeed.
Something about wearing this gown was very shifting and we decided to capture a photo in our backyard forest before heading out. So, I walked out barefoot and these two photos were taken in the two minutes we had to spare before leaving.
When I saw the photo at the end of this post, I noted that difference I felt, coming through in the visual of embodiment. I did, in fact, feel the totality of my Faery tale and this additional character arc that is taking me on a new beginning from a naturally culminating end.
It was my parent’s 50th golden anniversary, which is a Faery tale story and milestone, in and of itself, and I felt called to wear a long gown that featured a giraffe couple – perfect for this celebration with their gentleness of spirit, beauty, gracefulness, elegance, and tenderness. I’m so grateful to have them as parents and feel blessed to be able to witness these years their love has been a guiding force in our lives.
They have definitely been living their full gamut Faery tale that all began once upon a time when a young, beautiful girl living in an old village of cobbled streets nestled at the foot of a castle in southern France was sent off to college in England by her poor family where she met her Italian prince charming from Hoboken, New Jersey who was sent overseas by his working-class family to complete his education too.
The rest is history.
They are true twin souls journeying the Cosmos together eternally, as this photo so perfectly captures.
I haven’t followed in their exact footsteps for sure, but the foundation they created has been a stabilizing and guiding factor for all that my spirit had in mind for me.
Perhaps it’s because I step out in my own version of Faery tale shoes. 😉
Can you say bunny love? (Despite my giraffe gown, I stay true to my rabbit roots)
And every morning I’m greeted by this enchanted Forest Portal we live on, and an enchanted office named Wonderland, with an extraordinarily enchanted bunny named Astrid, awaiting me.
While I do many mundane, seemingly unextraordinary things each day, they are made possible because of the miracle body I live in, and enhanced by the magickal surroundings I’ve dreamed up and created for myself.
I continue to watch my office evolve into more and more of the whimsical imagination within my child heart and can’t tell you how happy I feel and supported by all of the energies and beings that inhabit it with Astrid and me.
Every single thing has meaning, purpose, and carries a specific frequency of energy that speaks to the Faery tale story of my life and every experience I’ve had or am creating from the “future” backwards.
It is the 45 year old, adult version of my inner child, revered and cherished. And it is from this place of whimsy embodied that I dream up the new and bring my book and any other dreams alive.
I don’t know what the future holds with anything. I just know that I’ll live fully every interesting twist to the path in the forest, where ever they may lead. It’s my Faery tale to create and so it is that I will!
And Faery tales wouldn’t be complete without a Faery wand!
I recently had the opportunity to channel a new Mystery Magick Crystal Wand for a sweet and magickal spirit in Romania, and this is what came through.
Harmony is such a pure and, of course, harmonious embodiment of cosmic love, empowerment, transformation, self-awareness, creative birthing, and bringing forth gifts of the heart for humanity.
This is the only wand I’ve created outside in Nature. I created half of it while on the shore of Fallen Leaf Lake – the birth place of its beautiful wood branch. And the forest and waters there infused it with their song. I then completed the rest on the forest and garden of our home.
It’s quite a unique wand with a Triple Goddess Lemurian Phantom Quartz as a point! Woah! Can you say wow?! I had no idea that the crystal choosing to be the focal point had all of this going on until I looked and felt deeper into it.
It is a 5-sided Isis crystal as well and with three faces having 5 sides, we get that Triple Goddess effect. It actually has only 3 faces, which is unusual, as the other three triangular sides do not create faces, but simply create triangular points.
And you can see the phantom very clearly. A phantom looks like another crystal inside mirroring the shape, but ethereal (white or colored material – in this case gray). These phantoms provide indication of the experiences and transformations of the crystal’s evolution, represent the many phases of life you experience in a lifetime, helps to break through limitations, and grow beyond fear and blocks. They also help bring humanity together to support the planet.
Then along the shaft we have 3 Super Seven crystals that are super magickal little worlds of their own, one double terminated Rose Quartz, and one double terminated Chevron Amethyst, as you can see in these photos at the lake just after I completed that phase of the creation.
Super Seven creates a powerhouse of healing crystal energy to the wand’s embodiment bringing together the seven stones within it in combination with the other three types of crystals found on this creation. It can assist in all endeavors and helps to bring conscious awareness to the most challenging things that have been hidden or repressed within you. It is very protective and enhances psychic energies, while being energizing and expansive.
Rose Quartz creates the wand’s embodiment and focus of universal, unconditional love and helps restore harmony and trust, balances and opens the heart chakra, promotes all levels of love including self-love, brings calm and peace to healing, and encourages forgiveness and self-worth.
Chevron Amethyst creates the wand’s embodiment of peace, inner strength and courage, promotes self-discovery, helps remove resistance to change and helping oneself, dissipates negative energies, builds trust in intuition, cleanses, supports meditation and crown chakra illumination, amplifies energies for manifestation, and helps diminish potential addictive tendencies and recovery of any present addictions.
All entwined with rose gold wire enhanced by rose satin cord (that creates little rosettes throughout where knots are needed), and then anchored with two larger and perfect, darker twin Goose feathers, with one pure white Goose feather at center of the two – all silky and luminescent in quality.
The Goose and its feathers embody loyalty, forging ahead with bravery and confidence, teamwork and comradery, protection, clear communication, determination, dedication, fellowship, fidelity, fertility, the balance of knowing when to lead or follow, compassionate keepers of the community and embody the sacred circle and sanctity of the cycles of life, astute navigation, discernment of life path and choices, teamwork, protection, and committed responsibility. Geese never leave one of their own behind for any reason. They will stay with the sick and injured until they are either well again, or to support them as they transition.
The twin energy of the two larger Goose feathers brings together that which is within, merged, so that that without will reflect this integration and harmony. The white feather is the transmutational bridge that integrates it all with grace and purity. I have the white feather anchored strongly at center, while the two twin feathers are free flowing to the sides.
They ask you to remember your origins, to trust your intuition, communicate your needs and vulnerabilities, and honor and protect what is most of value.
Having a wand is a perfect and active way to focus energies while also a way of waving magick infusions into everything you are creating.
It was the perfect project for me to channel right now during my in-between book journey while I work on preparing the next phases after my editor returns it to me. It helps me to percolate the energies and keep momentum, as I want to preserve that enchantment and creative imagination to be ready for the leap to come. This is one of the things that has kept that going.
And in the meantime, I continue to imagine with great clarity, dream big, surround myself with everything that speaks to my essence, imbibe the frequencies I intend for the story of life I’m creating, and live as boldly and courageously as possible, as the character of my own Faery tale.
There’s definitely been an increased awareness around waking dreams and seeing how every part of the journey is a part of the creative story being woven.
We are the story tellers and story keepers of life unfolding. Faery tales have many twists and turns and are filled with imagination creating the embodiment of experiences that encompass the alchemy of you.
Hoppy Summer Solstice, as Astrid says! This is a very special and magickal portal for us, not only because Astrid came to me through it last year, but Joy returned to the stars through it as well two years ago. Today so much is culminating, including the last day of the Summer Solstice Gratitude Giveaway and the last day to pre-register and still save for our “Living a More Magickal Life” Workshop. Can you say fun?! Astrid has been hopping all over this morning with excitement! Seems sweet Joy is channeling through her. 🙂
So, if you know you’d like to join us on Fall Equinox for a very special gathering with an amazing group of souls, then don’t forget to do so by end of the day to save $77.
You can still sign up until 9/15, as long as space is available, but we are officially over half full at this point with only 5 of the 12 spaces remaining. Although have an 8th commitment, so 4 spaces really.
You can register here: Living a More Magickal Life with Laura Bruno & Tania Marie
Today is also the last day of the Summer Solstice Gratitude Giveaway! For everyone who has joined these last 11 days, don’t forget to send me your journey with this by end of tomorrow, the 22nd.
I have a busy next couple of days, including preparation for teaching a Reik workshop Saturday, so I’ll be making the announcement of the 11 recipients of the drawing on Monday the 25th! Gifts will be sent out next week too! Stay tuned both on Facebook and here on my blog for that.
If you need reminders on the guidelines you can view them here: Summer Solstice Gratitude Giveaway
It’s truly been a powerful week with a lot happening fast and many changes underway. A lot of people I know have had some huge liberations and rebirthing, as well as powerful changes creating opportunity.
One of my sweet friends’ new business just launched officially today and another’s just this past week – in both cases I was floored and excited to learn that I was the very first sale to help ignite each into birthing! That truly was special and meaningful. I also have another friend who’s recently launched another channel of her work through a podcast and new branding, and yet another who has been envisioning the expansion of their business and rebirthing their brand/logo. And the list goes on. Overall it seems that everyone is blossoming and expanding! I imagine many of you are experiencing similar things in your own way, but it does seem that things are coming to light and clarity with potential looming like a lightning bolt of inspiration.
I got a lot done too, including finalizing my office closet cleaning/organizing with fresh clarity and space!), but did find myself a bit antsy with energy and excited that I’ll be done next week with my book’s editing. Today I’ll be doing a little Reiki Healing Attunement ritual with Astrid, getting my hair trimmed and the silvery streaks revitalized, as well as getting things in order for a potent forest workshop this weekend. I finalized some things and along with prepping the massage tables for Reiki teaching on Saturday, they will also then be released and sold next week to close that part of my journey too.
And that brings me to some magickal potency that just yesterday I got that both Astrid and I would be offering up today on the Solstice.
Many of you will remember the Magick Crystal Wands I channeled last year. They all found their beautiful partners and guardians, but there was one at the time I had felt to keep for myself. Several people were wanting it then, but it had work to do with me.
Yesterday, I received the message to release it and offer it on Summer Solstice.
So that is what I am doing – here is the info that I posted about it when first sharing it.
Merlin & Lady of the Lake Wand ~ $222 – SOLD
This wand called to me from the shore of Fallen Leaf Lake here and I was taken back by its appearance immediately. It was already fully carved, smoothed (as if someone had rigorously sanded it), and has a beautiful golden blonde coloring with perfectly spaced dots in a design along its shaft. I do not know the type of wood it is, but I know it is not of this world, as it was ominously placed out in the open like this for me to find it, singing to me like a wizard’s wand would.
On its own, without any added adornments, it is a powerful and complete wand, but I immediately knew that it desired elements to bring forth the harmony of its embodiment.
This to include three irridescent blue Mallard feathers and one Blue Jay feather at the center. Along with these beauties, there sits a Tibetan Quartz above them at center and a combo of silver and gold wire individually woven and ending in triple spirals.
And at the top, a very special Quartz point wrapped in an intertwined gold and silver wire ending in a spiral at each side.
The Quartz at top is a small point, but large in its presence. Since this wand was already potent on its own and had a perfectly rounded bottom and softened diagonal point, it did not want any large stone, but simply one to enhance and act as a fine-tuned channel at top.
It was evident which crystal it would be, as only this one had the exact slant to its bottom that perfectly matched flush to the top of the slant of the wand.
But as small as this Quartz point is, it is no ordinary crystal. It happens to be the one that Fiver, the mouse who I helped transition in peace and love, jumped aboard to fly off into the otherworld when he transitioned. But to add to that, when I looked even closer I discovered perhaps why this had been the crystal chosen to be with him and why it was so powerful for journeying beyond.
It happens to be a Channeler Transmitter Quartz, or Dow or Trans-Channeler Quartz, as they are known with perfect 3-7-3 and 7-3-7 sides to its faces, front and back. You can read more about that here: Dow or Trans-Channeler Crystal. Divine balance and connection with Universal Truth being its essence.
The Mallard Duck feathers embody spiritual freedom, grace on water, self expression, emotional strength and protection, mystic and seer, combines land and water balance, integration, and manifestation, knowing what to do and how to do it, graceful self confidence, knowing, preparedness, letting go, speaking truth, intuition, gentle flow, the now, and being that they walk the Earth, swim in the waters (fresh and ocean), and roam the sky, they are links between Heaven and Earth, or this world and another, and also represent eternal life.
Blue Jay brings the energies of clarity (in this case double clarity/vision to express purity and truth of heart and soul with great clarity of thought in bringing these through to share), communication, presence, wise and balanced use of personal power, resourceful adaptability for ease, creative self-expression and assertion, sound and song, authenticity, and bringing higher thoughts into action. Their crest that reaches into the heavens, directly links both Earth and Universal/Cosmic energies, bridging them for integration and active expression of divinity brought into embodiment.
So both bird spirits linking and bridging here and beyond, personal and collective, immediate and bigger picture.
And next we have Astrid’s offering.
Dendritic Opal ~ $111 – SOLD
It stands 6 inches tall and is 2 inches wide at base.
You’ll remember I shared this crystal back when Astrid came home to me. She was given a couple of crystal friends, but this is the one she would like to offer on today’s Solstice.
It is a lovely raw crystal that is pale silvery blue in person with some darker areas and wonderful portals.
Here are photos of Astrid activating it.
Wishing everyone an invigorating Summer Solstice!
Sending love and creative magick to all!
This is a magickal little share on a very synchronous and auspiciously aligned return that just took place, taking things on a new leg of the spiral. Some of you may remember my giant amethyst rabbit that used to be a huge part of my and my little ones’ lives for many years – about 7 – 8, I believe. Then about a little over three years ago it became time for us to part ways, as I had a new journey and adventure that was taking me in a new direction, our time then was complete, and she needed a new crystal guardian to cherish and work with her. That took her clear across the states to the east coast, landing in New York City.
Before then, I taught a crystal workshop, where her new keeper first met her and expressed interest. This also happened to be a very pivotal and transformational time in my life where I was hitting a conclusion on this Earth plane and had an invitation to move on, which I considered heavily. It was also during this time, four years ago, that I was experiencing similar rips in timelines, parallel realities, and odd things showing up, just as I mentioned in my post yesterday that is occurring now as well. I was actually reminded of this, this morning when on Facebook, memories from this exact time, four years ago, popped up on my timeline that shared the experiences I was having that mirrored now. And after that, a huge cosmic influx of experiences and messages kept pouring through that something big was underway, offering me a choice. It wasn’t too long after that that Cosmo came into my life and so did the Magick Bus, and everything took a renewing turn and a new choice was made for a while.
My rabbit, Joy, was with me at the time, and she was very affected by these experiences that she was highly aware of like me. It freaked her out, in fact, as she was seeing things walking alongside our shared reality. I remember the night experiences of seeing someone in our house going about their living, but obviously it was in another dimension than my current one. I would smell cigarette smoke and hear things, as well as saw a portal open through my painting one night (the same one of Nestor, Joy, and the Moon that I have currently in my office) with magickal creatures coming out of it. Anyway, needless to say, it was quite an experience and recently there’s been a similar one, which hasn’t been experienced since that time four years ago.
Joy also happened to be very connected to that rabbit amethyst, which came home to me right after she came home to me. It had a lot of cosmic energy and was connected with my rabbit, Nestor. Gaia was also here when it first came home to me and the two of them would spend a lot of time with it, sitting near or in it, gridding and connecting. The crystal was a portal in and of itself.
It was a big deal when she left to go with her new guardian, (and emotional for me) but I knew it was the right thing without a doubt, and would be very instrumental and helpful to my friend she went with. And in fact, she was.
There’s too many details to recount of recent, but I’d felt the amethyst rabbit a lot now and then, over the course of her being away. I’d heard some stories from my friend she went to and so the connection was always strong and never broken.
With recent shifts, a new leg of my journey and potentials opening, as well as Astrid now in my life, and similar experiences beginning, it was not surprising to me that this crystal in some way would find her way to me again.
I believe Astrid has called it in, as well as the work I’m currently focused on, and what’s unfolding. Not to mention, her current guardian is also going through huge shifts (I see it’s 11:11 on the clock as I’m writing this) and a pivotal life change. She had mentioned to me months ago that the amethyst had expressed it would be breaking in pieces and she started seeing cracks.
Well, she did in fact break into several pieces, which was both very sad and also very beautiful to both myself and my friend, as it definitely mirrors shifts personally and collectively happening, as well as cracks in veils ready to be revealed, and expansion bursting in creative potential. She broke in mostly big pieces, but two smaller ones, too.
I messaged her just a few days ago, not knowing it had broken, to just touch in with her, as I was feeling her and the shifts she was going through. We hadn’t spoken in months. It was then that she told me the amethyst had done as she said and the piece at the very top broke just as she said it would and told me she wanted to send me that piece.
It arrived yesterday, along with the other smaller piece and the timing is auspicious given everything.
This piece is very meaningful to me, as it is the very top of it that was the ears of the rabbit. It includes the ears, top of crown chakra, and extending part way to the third eye.
Ears of my rabbits have always been key in our communicating telepathically and are in general, power parts of them. So having this and the other lovely piece that was part of the outside outline of the rabbit, really is a gift and lovely surprise to have back with me.
Not only are they smaller and more easy for me to hold and engage, but are easy for Astrid to connect with – I let her sniff with her energetic nose as soon as it arrived. I’m excited to see what comes next between her and the crystal, as well as for the three of us. It also keeps an open channel between my friend and I even more so with these pieces connecting us.
And the ear piece now can sit on my desk next to my computer while I work. I have it turned on its side so that the inner ear part is receiving and flowing out to me. I think it’s also very cool that photos of Nestor, Joy, Cosmo, and my crystal bunny statues of all of them, including Astrid are right behind it. You can’t see, but Gaia’s crystal statue and photo are to the right too.
I couldn’t be more excited and grateful.
It was a beautifully immersive Nature weekend here and the weather aligned perfectly making Earth Day and the time surrounding it, to be one of gardening fun for me. It also continued to add to the powerful experiences happening lately in both waking and dream life – a bit more on that below. So spending most of the weekend outdoors between hiking, enjoying our new outdoor furniture we just set up, getting my hands in the soil planting, being barefoot, and even spending hours in my bathing suit, really was balancing.
We want to keep our yard low maintenance, so we plan to just have it cleaned up, getting our sprinkler system up and running again, and basically that’s it at this time. We do still want to create a labyrinth, but I think that will evolve in aligned time, as I don’t see it being something we just quickly throw together.
In the meantime, I get to enjoy the daffodil and iris bulbs I planted in Fall AND the tons of bulbs I discovered around the perimeter of the backyard this weekend that seem to also be daffodils.
Apparently the previous owner planted these, so I’ll have lots of blooms (to add to my first you see here) without the work each year and soon all of the trees and bushes will also be blooming and producing berries, so between all of that and the forest, I feel fulfilled.
The only time I want to devote to anything will be with my Garden Tower, but even it is an experiment, as the weather and seasons are far different from California where my other tower was a success and seeds were easy. So it will be a daily intuitive process, as even still we have frost nights and can get surprise weather. I’ve taken the steps for that already (which I utilized last night), and for the critters galore we have, but I’m just going to feel it out, learn on my own, enjoy the journey, and see what magick might happen. I’ll do my best, but don’t have intention to force anything, nor try things more than once. So we’ll see how it all goes. For now, it’s fun and easy and either way, is incredibly rewarding – especially to nurture goodness I’ll get to share with Astrid for her first home-grown experience.
I decided to put my seedling plants in pots for now until they’re stronger and bigger, but wanted to get going in case they don’t get big enough. If they continue strong I’ll either get larger pots or transplant them in the tower if room becomes available. I have veggies and herbs growing on the tower and then in pots I have strawberries, two variety of mint, and basil (I’ll share them another time as I forgot to snap photos). Other than that, my plants are all low maintenance indoor ones (all thriving too!) with a couple versatile indoor/outdoor plants. Just enough to keep this faery happy.
And that takes me back to the powerful experiences lately including some synchronous events that have happened since receiving and wearing a new necklace from a very magickal and eco-friendly artisan in Colorado. It’s a potent turquoise, Tibetan bead, and ethically sourced python vertebrae bone (from natural cycle of life) necklace.
After receiving it I found a smaller vertebrae bone in the forest on one of our hikes.
And yesterday, I felt it was perfect to wear for Earth Day, and this day I found a shell in the forest on our hike, which was odd, and later I saw a white owl flying with my mom while my parents were visiting, just ahead of our back deck that landed in a tree a little less than a quarter of a mile ahead.
I felt compelled to go see if I could find it and set course on my own for the tree I saw it land in. As I approached, the energy shifted greatly and felt very other-dimensional. I did not find the owl that now seemed to disappear, but I did find a strange and much larger bone that was older and porous, right near where the owl should have been.
It might be another vertebrae, although it would be from a very large animal. I’m not sure, but this along with strange events lately, all point to a shift and cosmic activity.
Owls are usually connected with extraterrestrial energy, sightings, experiences, etc. and white owls especially. Actually, come to think of it….these sightings, findings, and experiences all point to dreams I’ve shared as blog posts before that included one on White Owl, White Conch, and perhaps even the White Jaguar one plus encounters and death energy experiences on our RV adventure. Recent discussions have even pointed to everything I experienced two+ years ago where things were headed on a different trajectory at the time that would have placed me elsewhere.
Anyway, this more recent stuff, added to the night stuff I’ve been experiencing, all points to heightened activity again and a splitting of veils to alternate realities.
Dreams have been prophetic and high in telepathic/psychic energy, as well as providing access to parallel realities and inter-dimensional activity happening all around me where what is thought to be reality is merging with all the usually unseen ones that are becoming easily accessible now. I wake from feeling awake and experiencing a lot of activity in our home and around us that is wild. Both realities feeling as real as the other and not able to discern sometimes.
This happens on my hikes at times too, where my mind is going to very expansive and transcendent thoughts that suddenly feel like a rip in the matrix and where I’m suspended and almost floating because I crack the code.
Many of you are likely experiencing these time-line merges and openings, alongside your own version of awakenings and significant insights that point to a pivotal transformation underway. Even my tailbone speaks to some energy activation underway.
In any case, Earth Day was immersive in more than one way and a new week points to new directions unfolding.
There are so many directions I could take this share, given the layers of experience that unraveled in Grand Canyon National Park this last week – mirroring the multi-layers of rock found there “that serve as windows into time.” Rather than orchestrate my direction, I’m going to allow an organic channeling to flow of insights, experiences, and connections, in whatever way they want to come through. Perhaps more will be felt via the energy in the photos shared. Either way, as usual, it’s impossible to really explain in words what is felt and to encapsulate what is so expansive and complex. And so, some mystery will be left to explore within yourself while I reserve some of those sands of time for divine unwrapping. Besides, I am very anxious to get back to completing my book, especially so now with the new integrated energy and Spring opening her gateway.
We were away for nearly 11 days, beginning our trip with Tucson explorations and lovely family time, continuing the adventure deep within the Grand Canyon, and rounding things out with integrative contrast and fun in Las Vegas. I considered these travels a birthday celebration, as I’d just celebrated mine about a week prior to our disembarking.
As shared, this was reiterated and deepened in meaning when I discovered my 45th birthday of 2/26 was shared with Grand Canyon’s 99th birthday as a National Park. The plot thickens. 🙂
I’d also only recently become aware of the hidden and highly covered up potential of Egyptian temples and Tibetan connections within the GC that no one seems to want to acknowledge – no surprise there since it would mean acknowledging science and history were all wrong in so many ways, not to mention, open up more gateways to knowledge that could shift and awaken so much. I knew this would only be an introduction to the GC, but I had a feeling I’d receive my own confirmations of this while there, which would set up future explorations.
Our travels had us in Tucson, Arizona 3/7 – 3/10, leaving early that morning to venture north to the Grand Canyon to meet our friends. Tucson prepped us with beautiful hikes, good vegan food, rest, and family connecting – all perfect for the adventure ahead. On the way north we stopped for a brunch in Phoenix at a wonderful vegan cafe – Nami – where we enjoyed a hearty meal and picked up a box of vegan donuts, pastry, and cupcakes to share with our friends for dessert and breakfast – our last fun, city food before hitting nature fully. We passed Sedona as well, where I caught a glimpse of the red rock there while we headed up the highway. That also felt like an energetic grid light-up, like every little piece was part of a puzzle coming together.
We arrived fairly early on the 10th – around 2:30 pm – giving us plenty of time to prep, go through our equipment, have our friends help us pack our backpacks, enjoy a great vegan pizza and salad bar meal, indulge in vegan goodies we brought, relax in the jacuzzi, and get a good night’s sleep before our 3/11 trek! It started to rain this day and rained through the night, feeling so perfect as a cleansing and clearing, to give us a fresh start. A potential for full on rain and some rain was there for the first couple of days of our adventure, but this didn’t end up happening. There was no way of knowing for sure what weather we’d have for our hiking, as it changes moment to moment, but we were prepared for anything and in the end it was absolutely perfect! Faery powers activate!
We were in the GC 3/11 – 3/14.
I found it interesting that during this whole trip there were some cool alignments and celebrations happening that really made it all even more impactful and synchronously symbolic.
While in Tucson on the 9th I celebrated the anniversary of officially adopting Cosmo in 2015 (although he came home to us in January of that year). That day I also found a small sparkly quartz stone that was shaped like a rabbit’s ear, mirroring his lovely ones that were always illuminated in energy. I also saw several cottontails that greeted me each day. And coyote medicine made an appearance as well.
While in the Grand Canyon I celebrated my 17 year anniversary of my legal name change to Tania Marie, which was on the 12th (our second day of trekking and arrival to the Colorado River. On this day I’d felt renewed, especially after the previous night’s experience I’ll share later. This felt very potent not only sharing my birthday with the GC, but now having my true birthing into who I am taking place while within her womb.
There was also the time change on 3/11 – the day we hit the GC trail – that didn’t affect us in Arizona since they don’t change time, but was universally a leap ahead an hour, mirroring my leap into this adventure.
We road-tripped it to Las Vegas 3/15 – 3/17 and then returned home to Lake Tahoe on St. Patrick’s Day which also happened to be a New Moon in Pisces – my sign – and again feeling like a rebirthing that indeed took place. We ended up arriving home to several feet of fresh snow from another snow storm, giving us the most snow we’ve had all season. This mirroring the purity of energy in the snow storm we got to enjoy as a send-off to our trip, now greeting us upon return and creating a fresh start.
Perfect timing with Spring Equinox today, adding to the spark of new and renewal.
That’s a brief overview of timing and alignments, and now onto more of the GC.
Rewind to several months ago when KC – aka Bean and Clint – aka Happy – were visiting in Lake Tahoe for the Summer. You likely remember that I’d fractured my right foot on September 10th of last year, during an epic 13 mile hike to Star Lake. It took 2 months to heal with some integration back, so in November I was slowly starting to get out hiking again to strengthen that foot. It was also right before they left back to Arizona that they put out the idea of our doing a trek with them in the Grand Canyon, so that they could share their favorite place, besides Lake Tahoe, with us and our other two Tahoe friends, Sharon and Paul.
I was the first to say an immediate “yes” to it and I held strong to that conviction the last 3 and a half months or so, which materialized now. Dave wasn’t sure if he’d be able to with work and wasn’t able to get excited because he had a lot going on at the time to think about it, but I kept intending and Dave ended up being able to and got just as much on board. I spent the last few months prepping my feet for what I knew would be the most demanding of hikes I’ve done, and even though I also had a deep cut to the back of my ankle that took place in early February that was still healing, I knew I’d not be deterred and continued saying “yes.”
I know many were concerned for me, my feet, and thought there’d be a “story” from this adventure too, since I tend to be more fishy as a Pisces (with fins rather than feet) and can have some strong symbolism manifest in my feet that align with big shifts in my life, but I’m happy to report none of that took place and in fact, my shifting into my Capricorn North Node – or Cappy as I like to call it – seems to be boldly in effect.
It also was no coincidence that our sweet friends and GC experts (who have been hiking there nearly 15 years) are a Capricorn and Cancer, respectively. This merging beautifully with my Capricorn North Node, Rising and Mars, as well as my Cancer South Node, and with Dave’s Cancer North Node, Rising, and Capricorn South Node. We were like puzzle pieces to each other and further even, as I later discovered more astrological links between us in researching their charts with my brother for them.
And I have to say that the earthing done in such a power place as the GC, with so much linked “history” and resonance with my higher self, as well as rich in layers of Cappy energy, was healing and integrating in ways that created leaps within.
It seems that all the times as a child and the couple of visits in recent few years to the rim of the GC were prepping me for this full immersion that divinely aligned with knowing Bean and Happy, which although we’ve been friends on Facebook for 5-6 years, only manifested in the flesh this last summer. I couldn’t imagine going into the Grand Canyon with anyone else, as not only are they such seers and feelers of her mystery and beauty, but are back packing experts and incredible trail guides, which was exactly what this Pisces with Cappy North Node in training needed!
That leads us into a little overview of the rim-to-river-and-back trekking we did before further explorations for all you technical peeps and to add some perspective to the overall experience and challenge. I may not get all the terms down properly, as I’m going off memory, but I’m sure Bean can chime in in the comments, if I have something off.
We started at about 6800 elevation, which was at the rim, and descended to about 2200 elevation, which was the Colorado River’s base. However, with the ascending and descending that takes place throughout, we did about 5000 total elevation gain with our hiking (the most previously to date I’d done was 3300 in Montana without a backpack). The guys totaled 30 miles and us faeries totaled 32 miles, as we did a lot of little mini expeditions into faery lands and to treasure hunt.
This doesn’t sound like much over the course of 4 days, however, backpacking increases the intensity and challenge of regular hiking about 2-3 times. We likened it to snow shoeing and how that also increases the time and intensity of hiking at about the same level.
I carried about 25+ pounds on my back and Dave had about 35+ pounds.
There are different types of trails as well….we went down a threshold trail and connected to a primitive trail. The more raw the trail, the more technical and less traveled.
There are apparently 4 levels or classes of hiking with 4 being the most challenging on the scale. We were doing Class 3 hiking. So we kicked off my very first experience of all of this with a bang! Bean and Happy said they had confidence in us that we could handle it given our hiking and activity level we do consistently and the elevation we live at, otherwise they’d never take us on such a trek. I’m proud to say we rose to the occasion!
In our trails we had sections of what they call Black Diamond, which is like the ski runs with that being the hardest of any. And also were on some Double Diamond sections, which involves climbing with hands and legs, where you either hand off your trekking poles or bracelet them around one wrist while you climb up rocks in canyons.
I had no idea what to expect, but as I mentioned, I just said, “yes” to it all, despite likely my greatest fear being heights (specifically being on an edge, but not flying or paragliding). Likely because of my Pisces fish feet that hadn’t fully merged into their Cappy mountain goat hooves – yet.
As I said, this was my very first time doing any of this, as my camping experience is limited to a couple childhood times, but I’ve never done the full-on back packing, camping and trekking like this, despite all of my hiking.
So, this being the first was really a huge leap….as not only did it not go in baby steps of introducing me, but took me pretty full-on in every way to fully immerse me in the most challenging of everything that would help me arise and conquer.
This wouldn’t have been possible at any other time in my life, as this is when I’ve been most in my “nature,” aligning me the most with Nature.
And given the Capricorn energy that’s been beckoning me further, I indeed needed that mountain goat courage and sure-footedness to navigate my new path in life. Hence, I called in the “Grand-est” adventure to help with that leap.
It seemed Mother Nature was also on our side in aiding this plight, as we had the most incredible weather you could ask for.
We started the hike with rain that only lasted about an hour, which made all the colors of the Canyon pop and created amazing fog and clouds that slowly revealed the mystery below us in divine increments, and then turned into perfect sunshine and shading throughout the rest of our days that was mild and comfortable.
Our first night was the coolest at about 40 and then warmed as we descended, but our days were high 60’s to 70 with gorgeous light, stunning clouds and sunsets, and even a mysterious wind for a portion of our last day’s ascent, blowing in change and moving seeds of time before we reunited with civilization above and into a new timeline – as indeed it feels a time leap and shift took place.
There are so many layers of experience including personal, group, and collective, involving integration, spirit retrieval, activation, renewal, anchoring, healing, strengthening, parting veils, and so much more! Rich and sacred indeed, which to me was even mirrored in my hair.
I normally have my hair down, but felt called to ask Bean to braid it for the journey to make things easier, but also to connect with my “roots” more and the Native vibe. The first two days I had two french braids woven into my hair, then a free flowing “down” hair vibe at the river in between the last two days of one inverted french braid to round things out. Not only is braiding a very sacred ritual that weaves in intention, but the symbolism of two braids – feeling like me riding the middle balancing duality like the Chariot in Tarot – and then the inverted one braid – as integrating and transmuting the two into a whole new and potentially parallel reality.
It was interesting to see the photos of my braids after, as I’ve never seen underneath my hair except for in front where I see both on top and under where my silvers are most evident. But in getting to see the inverted french braid photo, I was able to see how silvers are interwoven everywhere in my hair and that made me extra giddy. Most people wouldn’t necessarily be happy about that, but I was quite ecstatic to find them literally threaded throughout and that added another layer of ancient and new side-by-side. Much like just being in the Grand Canyon felt….taking me back ages, but from a new perspective of now. Old and new me coming together – that Trinity energy of Maiden, Mother, Crone spiraling in a vortex of One.
And speaking of vortexes, you better believe I experienced that here. The most profound being on our first night at one of three incredible campsites we enjoyed.
Our first day (which was greeted with a mule deer on our path just before we reached the trail head) was filled with new vistas around each corner and much to tantalize the senses. When we stopped for lunch at the creek, Bean and I went exploring down it a ways and came upon magickal waterfalls….a faery land indeed!
We hardly saw any people while trekking – no more than a handful or so, until the last day when we were on the home stretch. And that included completely private campsites we had all to ourselves and the spirits of the Canyon.
It was at the first site that those hidden Egyptian connections were firmly confirmed for me.
To begin, let me rewind to the jewelry I felt called to wear for this entire trip. I normally don’t wear jewelry hiking – or at least it’s seldom and rare – but I was called to wear 3 bracelets – sunstone, obsidian, and citrine – and one necklace with a very special pendant.
The pendant is a turquoise Horus that I got on one of my travels to Egypt. I immediately was told to wear it. All of these stones I felt would be supportive to my integrating and anchoring in Earthy and empowering energy for the trek, while protecting and infusing me with just what I needed. (In the above photo you see it hovering over Horus Temple and below hovering over Tower of Set. If you know their story, bringing them together was for balancing).
Little did I know that so many of the peaks and citadel formations of the Canyon are Egyptian named. One just so happened to be Horus Temple. 😉
On this first night Bean found us an incredible camping site that literally rocked my world.
We set up tents near the edge of the Canyon overlooking the Colorado River on both sides (each of us having a view of the river at both ends) with the Tower of Ra, Horus Temple, and Tower of Set behind and to the right of him all overlooking us! Osiris Temple was off in the background behind them. (There’s also Zoroaster Temple and Isis Temple – not sure if I’m missing others, but these are the Egyptian ones I became aware of on this journey).
It felt like no coincidence this would be our first night’s camping site, making it an initiating and activating experience for sure. The light of the setting Sun on Ra was incredible and the colors just painted themselves brilliantly, as we settled in.
Like all days and evenings, we enjoyed yummy vegan food and never felt deprived or without. We had bags of trail mixes, peanut butter pretzels, some of my fav dry roasted almonds, vegan jerky (bought and home made), my favorite Chocolate Peanut Butter and Chocolate Mint Clif Builder’s Protein Bars, and hearty Outdoor Herbivore breakfast and dinner meals of oatmeal with chunks of apple, quinoa, and seeds, raisins and cinnamon, Basil Walnut Penne with crushed basil and walnuts, and Cheddar “Mac” with sundried tomato and nutritional yeast. Our friends brought along their own mixes of meals we got to share and sample, along with fun vegan candies as treats now and then. We would carry all of our water and filter and make water along the way at creeks and the river.
This first day was our longest trek all at once of 11 miles. As mentioned, miles in the Canyon are not the same as miles on regular terrain, as there is more to take into consideration with the type of trail, technical maneuvering, caution of foot placement, elevations changes, climbing and descending on varying terrain, and of course carrying your heavy back pack and taking breaks for water and food to fuel along the way. So it can double or nearly triple your time, depending on your skill or experience level.
We set up camp, marveled at our views and the energy there, filled our tummies, enjoyed conversation awaiting the stars to appear, and settled in for our first night – the coldest of the nights since we were at around 4000-4500 elevation and quit exposed. Luckily we were all prepared with our layers and thermals and our sleeping bags that take 20 degree weather.
Anyway, this first night was the most interesting for me, as not only were my quads adjusting to the new ways of using their muscles in carrying a pack and climbing giant steps, but I had a hard time falling asleep for what seemed like an hour or more.
Because the mountain was moving.
I laid on the side of tent that was closest to the edge of the Canyon and nearest to the Tower of Ra. And when I say it was moving, I mean I literally was on edge because I could feel the non-solidity of a very solid mountain that was rolling toward Ra, Horus, and Set and that our tent was flowing off the mountain as if on a waterfall. But not down, as in falling into the Canyon, but down and off the edge into a magnetized glide toward these towering Guardians.
I was ready to get up and get outside the tent to actually see it, but being that it was cold out and I was mixed with excitement and nervousness, I stayed put. I resigned to the fact that the Horus pendant I was wearing, in fact was creating a grid between me and Horus Temple and the others, literally drawing me to them, or rather, soaring on his wings to return “home.” Or, perhaps it was acting as a key that opened a portal. I’d say it was both, but that’s just me.
I knew then these “conspiracy” theories, which I never thought of in that light anyway because I believed, were in fact reality. There was definitely a vortex here, definitely an Egyptian connection, and the mysteries of the ancients were opening themselves to me…welcoming me…or in fact, welcoming me back. Just as with my first trip to Egypt, where everyone I’d met on the streets would look me deeply in my eyes, as if to recognize me and kept saying “welcome back” and “welcome home,” as they handed gifts to me.
Egypt has always been one of, if not my most powerful connections in this lifetime to help open and unravel things for me. I felt at home in the Canyon and there was a sense of the familiar, as well as a lessened sense of my normal fear of heights – or perhaps it was an increased sense of my ability to power through it and access that technical focus and mind/heart connection that created ultra awareness and sensibility. Perhaps it was an added layer of my Egyptian spirit activation or a recall of doing this all before, in another time and space.
There was no denying what I knew in my heart and spirit…Egypt was here and SO much more, and I’d been here too, long, long ago.
The rest of that night continued interesting with dreams after dreams and awakening and sleeping on and off likely because of the potent energy surging through me and my body adjusting to all these new and old experiences merging at once. Like another soul retrieval and return to “origins” I’ve been speaking about, but I definitely felt the presence of divine and powerful beings around me.
And yet, I woke the next morning to a gorgeous sunrise and new day feeling refreshed and ready to go. Although there was definitely something new in the air.
We took in our surroundings over breakfast, thankful for this incredible site and the energy we got to experience here. Then prepped and made our way after a group shot.
This next day we had about 4 miles to go (if I’m remembering correctly) to our River destination.
I remember how this day I felt lighter and the backpack that I was learning my way around the previous day in terms of adjusting just right and finding my body balance, was no longer a thought. From here on, I did not really notice my backpack and came to feel it to be almost nurturing to have there…like a shell to a turtle.
In fact, I always call myself a turtle when I hike, as my usual hiking is to have a consistent turtle speed (allbeit, this is usually faster than the average person, is slower than most experienced people). This is how I maintain my energy levels without getting depleted, is a way I can enjoy my surroundings and check things out, and is also my preferred mode even more so now in order to strategize each move deliberately and thoughtfully to avoid “incidents.” I’m definitely the rabbit and tortoise dichotomy, incarnate. 😉
We reached a creek and followed a bed of rocks that led us to the Colorado River where we set up our next private campsite on the most beautiful beach all to ourselves.
The sand was silky between our well-traveled toes and here we quickly set up camp so that we could enjoy a full day and night.
We reached camp around the same time of 2-2:30 and here is where we washed clothes in the River and also enjoyed a very invigorating and cold, refreshing bath immersing in the flowing water where the rapids rolled by.
We always washed up every night with things we brought along, but this was our best bathing of the journey that left us fully renewed and revitalized.
Explorations were in store a bit, as we checked out the incredible Vishnu layer of black rocks here that are so smoothly carved they appear like fine sculptures with razor sharp edges in some places.
In some areas they are laced with white and blue glazed crystalline layers that are truly magnificent.
There were so many incredible stones, fossils, crystals, layers of the Canyon rock that we discovered along the way, including 100’s of heart-shaped rocks that lit up our path with love, as if placed by angels that were supporting us along the way. Some of the incredible pieces dated back 1.7 billion years, as in the case of the Zoroaster Granite of the Vishnu layers.
The fossils dating 2.6 billion years of shells, small sea creatures, worms, and salamander/lizard-like prehistoric beings. Amazing!
I also loved the Chert, which are these layers of “microcrystalline or cryptocrystalline sedimentary rock material composed of silicon dioxid” that comes in these gorgeous colors of electric blues, aquas, greens, purples, whites, and clear in between the red stone layers. Some looking like cosmic galaxies and others like pieces of colored glass in interesting shapes.
This was a day of fun, relaxing, and games, as we took in the rays of the sun kissing our skin with tans and blushing glows and I literally let my hair down.
We played Hanged Man on the dunes (where Oompa Loompa – my phrase stole the winning words), played Rock/Paper/Scissors to see who would do the dishes (Dave lost), explored the rocks, watched the rapids and a few rafters and kayakers come down them, Dave did his yoga stretches, Clint made us fresh water with his filter, we created our group “cover photo,” and then relaxed with our warm, hearty meals on the dunes until the stars came out.
We then were dazzled by the incredible clarity we could see, watched interesting moving objects (some I knew were of another origin), and even got out my Sky Map app on my phone to check out where everything was located.
Speaking of phones….my new one is incredible. I didn’t take my regular camera because I didn’t want to lug something heavier. So I opted for my cell phone to capture moments, of which most of the photos you see here are from, minus some that Bean took with her camera. I put it in airplane mode for the trip, but kept it on all day to take photos of the journey, only shutting it down at dinner time until the next morning. It lasted the whole 4 days, and actually I had about 38% battery still remaining when we returned. So I’m pretty impressed with the battery. I have an Android G5S Plus.
Anyway, I digress.
We all had a great night sleeping at the River. How incredible to hear the rapids right outside our tent all night and then we even got a random, surprise rain in the middle of the night for about an hour or so, which added to the lovely sounds that lulled me to sleep. I slept well and dreamed well. Oh did I dream so much on this trip!
The next morning we woke with the confirmed decision that instead of remaining at the River for another full day and night, as we originally planned, that we would instead make our way back slowly so as to break up the last day’s ascent and get in another different campsite. We left after lunch, just before noon, enjoying a relaxed morning where Bean and I explored the Vishnu layers of incredible and potent stones and crystals amidst the pools of Colorado magick. We were sad to leave here and held in our hearts the memories.
Then we headed off to do our first 4-5 mile return. Doesn’t sound like much, but again it’s quite different in Canyon miles with backpacks in the mix.
This is where we encountered some of the more challenging parts to the hike with ascending and climbing and some more exposed edges to test my fears. We’d had 2 or 3 along the way down, but the way back would present more. Our entire trip was one big loop, which is something we decided upon, as a group at onset. We could either do a down and back the same way, or this big loop. We opted for the loop and the extra challenges of the trail, as it just felt right and didn’t seem like if we’re going to do something, not to get the fullest experience possible out of it. At least that’s my take on things….all in or not.
Here is where I began to really utilize my mental skills even more. I’ve always said and continue to feel that this kind of stuff isn’t a physical thing, but a mental one. And the heart comes into play into that, hand-in-hand, as your heart needs to be in it as well. When heart and mind come together, then anything is possible, despite physical challenges you may think you have.
And this was my take on this, which is why having never done it, felt I could and I did.
To be honest, although my quad muscles worked through soreness at night when I was still and slept (mostly the first 2 nights), I never felt them during the day while moving and the same went for anything else. Yes, I breathed hard through it all, but breath is important. And yes, it took continued effort, but that was my mind pushing me. I didn’t feel any discomfort in the process, only effort in mentally staying alert and pushing on.
The only physical things were my constantly running nose, which always happens whenever I do any kind of hiking – easy or hard – in any weather and any altitude (my body’s cleansing I believe), and the breathing. I was the master nose blower, and had my own hankie just for it. Boy, must I have moved energy through that beak! LOL!
But the instant I would stop, I immediately went back to normal and felt fine.
This truly marveled me, as I wondered how it would feel and if I’d be completely wiped after each push. But instead, it was like my body balanced out and then prepared for the next gusto. Incredible! I also immediately noted how each day I grew stronger and stronger. The first day having been most challenging to heave myself up the very big reaches my legs needed to lift me up and needing an extra push from behind now and then, and then the next day and the next, getting through it more on my own with only an occasional boost if I was at an edge and needing to make a big leap up so as to ensure my balance and safety. I’m not going to lie and say this was easy, as I definitely think you shouldn’t tackle something like this if you aren’t prepared in whatever fashion that means for you…physical training, mental training, or simply getting yourself in overall well-being shape. However, it was extraordinary to me that it wasn’t as hard as I imagined it could be. You see, although I do a lot of hiking, I’m not one to really enjoy the uphill parts of hiking. I do it, but I find it less fun. 🙂
But I’d have to say that the challenge and technicality of this uphill stuff in the Canyon really helped me rise to the occasion and tap into interesting parts of myself….my Cappy.
The technicality and the prospect of falling with the wrong move, really kept me alert and everything interesting. It’s hard to explain, but definitely it had to be all of my Capricorn energy lighting up and saying “finally! here you go accessing your placements and now we can show you what you’ve had inside of you all along to utilize!” Amazing!
And the comradery of our very encouraging, nurturing, supportive, and positive group made all the difference too. There was no rush and yet we moved right through it. There was only LOVE. And having those voices and energies of confidence and encouragement with me, really helped me dig deeper and bring out the best to match theirs. GOOD STUFF!
And this got me to campsite 3 and our last night in the Canyon.
This was another beautiful vista place that offered us a wonderful sunrise in the morning with the Moon. It is also where all of the lovely colorful Chert was.
AND this is where my inner goat interfaced with the Desert Bighorn Sheep.
Until then we hadn’t seen these although they and many other animals are around in the Canyon. We heard screeching Hawks (yay! one of my spirit guides and connected with Horus), saw Condors off in the distance, Raven greeted us by the River (I found a large feather there too, of which I’m not sure to which big bird it belongs yet), heard and saw lots of other smaller Birds, Lizards, a Tarantula, smelled Mountain Lion pee several times and the smell of Ungulates strongly at certain points (Mule Deer and Bighorn Sheep), AND the night at the river, Bean and I saw a ring-tailed cat (which was quite the gift!)
She and I had gone down to the river to pee before bed (hehe) and up above us she saw two eyes glowing. She mentioned it to me and I looked up and the ring-tailed cat emerged coming down closer instead of running off and hiding. This enabled us to catch glimpse of it fully and that long, cool ringed-tail. You can Google them to see what they look like. Really cute!
But back to my inner goat and the Bighorn Sheep. That last night while everyone was asleep, I woke up with the sense of something and then I heard footsteps outside. I knew it wasn’t Bean and Happy because they usually have their head lamps on if they get out, plus these foot steps were multiple and ongoing. First right to the left of our tent. Then to the back of our tent. Then in front and heading down the plateau and mountain. Then back to beside us. It would go fully quiet and then it started all over. I wanted so much to open the tent and peer out at them, but I was afraid I’d scare them off and so I sat there listening to the footsteps and breaths.
I knew in my heart they were the Bighorn. It gave me chills as I sat up in the darkness and listened and tried to connect. I felt so much that they had come to infuse me with their energy and prep me for the last day of those hardest miles we had left ahead. I knew this was no coincidence, but a divine encounter. One, best left in the mysterious abyss of the night where knowing was more powerful than proof.
And yet, proof is what I got the next morning that I wasn’t in fact making it up, as I found hoof prints around our tent and around the campsite and when I asked Bean and Happy if they heard anything, they concurred. Dave had been fast asleep. I hadn’t dare woken him, as he’d been getting the best sleep of his life the last three nights. Nature does a body good!
This was also the night Astrid came into my dreams 3 times. I’d definitely been amping up the communicating and connecting with her over our time away, but this was the first deliberate time she came into dream time. I knew she was connecting with me and through the dream symbolism, I pieced together that she was experiencing what I was and that she was taking on things along with me, sharing that she and I are one and she was with me all the way. It made me feel good that our bond was so strong and her letting me know there wasn’t anything she wasn’t aware of was enlightening as to her blossoming gifts she is sharing. The dream also indicated that she missed me a lot and then there was another part I’m still trying to decipher as to its symbolism or literal meaning. My sense is it in part indicated that she had two rabbit spirits that were with her providing her companionship while I was away. Yet, there is another level to it as well.
Anyway, I was grateful for the Bighorn, as I know this assisted with my fear of heights. All in all, I was really proud of myself and surprised myself with how well I did with this on the entire journey. I had my moments where the adrenaline rushed, my mental faculties were on all-time high to stay focused, and I had a second of scare-pause, but I moved right through it in a much easier and quicker way than I ever have in the past.
Quite a feat for me given I had a heavy pack and was climbing at times, as well as on some very exposed and slanted edges that really didn’t seem much like a trail. LOL! But I remained collected and mentally engaged, which if anything would have been more draining than the physical involved. I did the same process I do with skiing where I only focus on what’s in front of me and don’t take in all of the rest to distract. If I got to a drop off, I never looked down, just forward and focused on what to do to stay balanced and grounded.
Bean wanted to ensure I’d take in the views, so she’d point them out. I would only look when I had both feet planted firmly and my body positioned comfortably and anchored. I didn’t want anything throwing me off, nor did I get ahead of myself, speed up and take anything for granted, nor get cocky about what I’d accomplished. Every step was new and fresh and taken with the same presence as the last. I even invited any continued suggestions and guidance along the way in how to approach difficult areas, as this kind of engagement of the brain helped keep me fully embodied. Bean didn’t want to over-mother me, but I said to keep the dialogue going because it worked well. At the same time it seemed a good fit for her too, since she could practice her trail leading for the future. She and Happy are great guides! If you’re ever so lucky to have them, you will be blessed.
This got me through it. And it wasn’t all the time that I was faced with challenge, as it got easier and easier. I just kept up with the process, as it needs to become second nature. I’m retraining myself into my nature. And that is like muscle memory. You need to keep doing it and not take it for granted just because it works once. With consistency, it will become normalcy.
And the last stretch of a little over a mile up to the rim took my mental focus to get out that last push. Usually when I’m in that kind of push, I go quiet. This is when I’m digging deep and I become the energizer bunny that keeps chugging along. So I got through the last hard haul up with consistent momentum bringing me to the top and feeling quite full-circle.
There wasn’t a sense of exhaustion. On the contrary, there was a sense of revitalization. There was both a joy in accomplishment, but a sadness at the ending of a beautiful, memorable, and epic experience.
It definitely took me to a new level of inner connection and embodiment. And returning was an odd sense of reluctance mixed with excitement. Reluctant to leave this wonderful place and experience, but excited to see what’s next because of it.
There was also a sense of being yet again in a different reality than everyone we returned to and that timeline jump shifting into a different gear.
A sense of suspension in the moment, not knowing if you want or need to move forward and happy to just be in that void space.
Two mule deer greeted us at the top of the canyon and on our drive to dinner there was a very large herd of Elk and like a hundred or more congregating Ravens, like I have never seen before, all together in one area. It was odd, ominous, but also super cool! Everything felt different. Had we’d entered some alternate reality we really wanted to keep moving into?
We did continue on though, enjoying our evening back with yummy food and rest before road tripping it to Las Vegas, where we would be flying home out of. There we indulged on vegan delicacies, danced to move the energy, laughed so hard, played, walked a lot, and integrated back into a world that was no longer familiar, but like a muscle memory, became easier to return to when infused with lightness of heart.
Thank you GC for helping me to merge the parts of myself needed for the path I’ve chosen right now, for anchoring in my Cappy energy, and supporting me in the best way possible to move through my fear of heights and learn new processes for conquering any mountain! Thank you also for opening the door to your mysteries and hidden treasures, of which I know I’ll discover more of in the future. It’s no wonder why Happy and Bean love you so! You truly are magnificent!
Upon returning home we saw another coyote in the fields before heading up the mountain and coyote tracks on our driveway. I’ve already settled in, but find my surroundings both different and extra nurturing. I immediately heard my closet call for a Spring cleaning – perfect timing – and sang a cosmic lullaby to Astrid, as I held her close and she tranced into peaceful unity with me. I’ve been enjoying the expansion of a new book I started reading since onset of the trip (a new thing for me who hardly reads these days other than the book I wrote) and am extra charged to finish that book this month, also just in time for Spring.
I’ve reflected on how amazing it is to have such incredible friends and soul family with me at this time of my life. The kind most of my life I never knew the experience of and now am seeing that only that which is most resonant and reflective of my heart is what I am surrounded by. This to include my dear Astrid who has really shifted in mirror to mom, since my return home. Our connection is beyond beautiful. There’s so much to be grateful for and Dave and I talked about all of this upon return home, reviewing our lives now and all that is in them.
And Bean and Happy are definitely treasures more valuable than any crystal or discovery one can unearth. It was definitely bitter sweet to say farewell for now, after our incredible 8 days with them.
But for now, they go off to live out one of their dreams on their bucket list – working at the Grand Canyon for at least the season – and we return to the next leg of our paths to see where and when they will merge again.
To you two, THANK YOU! Thank you for sharing your love of the GC with us, sharing your time, and letting us see through your eyes. Thank you for making this next leap in my/our lives possible. I’d explore any canyon or mountain with you!
And mountains are what I foresee ahead. There will be many, but as my Bighorn Sheep/Cappy friends have assured me, I have everything I need within myself to do what ever I decide I want to. There’s no mountain too tall or too scary for T!
In the end, a new beginning was written and once again I find myself both filled with gratitude and also in wonder of what I will say “yes” to next.
(If you made it this far, thank you for coming along the adventure with me, as I integrate it all through sharing. As a writer my biggest problem isn’t writer’s block, but not being able to stop writing!
May the spirit within these images of the Grand Canyon lift you and reach depths that allow you to soar. Happy Spring Equinox and Renewal! Or as Astrid would say, Hoppy Spring!)