It’s been just 7 weeks since the magickal Astrid journeyed into my heart and life, but wow how she’s shifted in this short time. As shared before, not only was she a surprise to me, but her “special needs” had created the reason for her never being adopted by anyone all this time – something I feel was Divinely orchestrated in order for her to weed out non-aligned matches for the work she came here to do and share. That to include partnering with someone who could not only “see” her, but would benefit from the gifts and wisdom she has to impart. I feel blessed she chose me and grateful I was given the insight into her heart, beyond what was present on the surface.
If you recall, she had a “fight” or defensive and protective mode conditioned into her by all that she went through, learned as response, and was affected by in her past. This caused her to grunt, charge, lunge with her front paws, and basically seem to be in attack mode nearly every single time she was approached, she saw anything come at her, her food was put in front of her, you tried to pet her, etc.
She would only be calm under certain circumstances and allow only very present, peaceful, and pure energy of specific intent frequency to come near and not be met with this kind of behavior. So she truly asked/asks you to step into your wholeness and be centered and aware of your energy and what you are projecting from within at all times, what you have going on or are carrying, your intentions, and what REALLY is going on beneath your surface and at your core.
She still is a perfect mirror for this kind of thing with others, making her a wonderful reflection and therapy rabbit if you are ready to work with the truth of your Shadow, but her behavior has completely shifted with me and I’ve seen this trickle out to Dave and a couple of others who have come into her experience lately. Although still very sensitive to energies and sounds, as well as foreign and over-bearing extraneous vibrations in the environment from any source, she has become much less defensive, and more curiously cautious.
But as I said, with me she has completely shifted into a consistently peaceful and excited nature, never attacking or grunting anymore when I approach for any reason. She actually gets super happy when I approach and runs to me, lets me caress her, and even lets me kiss her head and face when she’s sitting on the ground, which would not have been an option before without a couple of paws coming at me! LOL!
She even lets me clean the corners of her eyes gently when she gets any little crusties there, which also would have freaked her out before and caused her to either run away or grunt and charge. She knows I’m taking care of her and being like another rabbit that would help groom her if she were in the wild or had a rabbit friend she loved. After all, I am a rabbit. 😉
She also used to grunt and smack the food out of my hand when I would put it in her bowl to feed her and now she lets me do this and put more in while she’s eating without a flinch.
She also lets me pick her up without moving an inch. She just sits there peacefully and allows me to pick her up and hold her when I feel called to. Although at first I was trying to do this each day, to keep her used to it, I shifted with that notion and no longer do it everyday, since she is exhibiting closeness in all ways, and I want her to know freedom too.
Plus, I want everything to be a very organic and natural flow of experience with our relationship that is governed not by me “training” her, but rather by us listening to one another and receiving the cues and telepathy that unites us in harmonic convergence.
So I pick her up randomly every few days or so when I sense things aligned for this, which makes it even more incredible that she just sits there and allows me to do this peacefully on an inconsistent basis, since she is running free all day and could easily just be like, “No way! I want to be free always, so don’t even try it.”
That was my experience with Nestor, my twin soul. She would let me snuggle her in every way on the floor, but never ever wanted to be held. Her spirit was a free soul who could not be trapped or confined.
Joy was not so keen on it either, but once I held her she was okay with it and enjoyed the snuggles, but I would have to pick her up when she was eating in her hay/litter box, so she didn’t know what was coming.
Cosmo, of course, was just a love bug and being that he couldn’t walk anyway, he was just super content with it all and enjoyed the closeness always of being held in healing love and spreading his.
So, Astrid is very different in this regard, and to me is quite special in her reflection of a new kind of relationship and dynamic not only as a personal mirror, but a collective one I feel that is anchoring (again, but also in a new way) and being remembered.
There is this sense of balance in terms of personal sovereignty and connection with both not having to be compromised, but in perfect harmony with one another that is honored and telepathically and simultaneously experienced in a fluid understanding and alignment of frequency.
A true partnership and equality…a knowingness, or rather, beingness that is anchoring as the shared experience.
Like the Yin to a Yang, Light to Dark/Shadow, Sacred Feminine to Sacred Masculine, one half to another…each their own individual expression, but only whole with the other – both present within oneself and all around us and yet also nonexistent within that perfect merging.
Astrid has come to relax in knowing and experiencing this from me in how I relate to her and understand this important piece she embodies – a reminder to stay present always in that integrative place of transmutation.
She’s amazingly helped me to “see” this and the dynamics very literally playing out so that it goes beyond just concept, but becomes the experience.
She and I have this incredible relationship anchoring in Cosmic Love, which I feel is the basis of her blossoming as she has.
I can only imagine what amazing things will continue to evolve with all of this. She already exhibits so much clarity of communication with me. When I say something (even if just in mind) when I’m in another room, she will come running over in response.
And of course, I LOVE how happy she is, which she exhibits with running and jumping (or binkies, as they’re called).
Also interesting is that she’s unaffected by the wood floors, which Joy had challenge with. It may be in part her confidence and perhaps even the thickly fur-padded feet she has, but she easily gets across the wood and explores, which makes me happy that she doesn’t feel confined anywhere due to what could feel like unstable grounding for most rabbits without pads on their feet.
It’s just amazing to experience all of these shifts so quickly with her and although she still chases off a cat now and then and establishes boundaries where they are concerned, she and I have complete understanding and no need for the same.
She does, however, let Boojum (our male cat) hang out in the same room with her a few feet away, if he’s calm and honors her boundaries, which he pretty much always does now. I feel that he really wants her to be his buddy/girlfriend, like Joy was (to him at least lol). So it’s like he’s courting her by respecting the boundaries, in hopes of someday more coming from it. Too funny. But I love how Astrid manages the energy around here.
Sweet Pea (our female cat) I feel is more threatened by her since she has insecurity issues in general with everything (extra challenged by a very big female power and presence now in her environment) and has this split behavior of sweetness and passive aggressiveness if she feels she has to prove herself (like to establish that dad is hers). But overall, she too, is allowed in the same room if she stays calm and not too close or comes at her with erratic energy.
I’ve had conversations with Sweet Pea recently about this and other behaviors, which seem to have suddenly started balancing out in the last 3 days. I know she understands and listens intently when I talk with her, ultimately wanting to balance out herself and step into the role of healer kitty that she is and I shared with her was something valuable/powerful that gave her opportunity to demonstrate and walk in as an example, rather than let triggers dominate.
My feeling is that much of these dynamics will shift in supportive ways again when things change in our living situation that will be supportive of everyone even more. (Will share more on that as it evolves how I see it to happen soon).
Astrid has truly demonstrated the hidden gifts within and how everything of value is to be seen from the heart and not based on what it seems superficially. She has completely shifted and will continue to do so, as well as continue to reveal much as things evolve further.
She, like Sweet Pea, now has the opportunity to bring forth her gifts and be an example as well of all that she has to impart and embody.
She truly is the perfect complimentary part to me…the Yin to my Yang, and literally is my Divine and Sacred half as a Virgo (her birthday is 9/15/14), which is my wise opposite to the Pisces me – all perfect for the now and not only helping to bring my own parts into integrative balance and alignment more every day, but to mirror this inside and out.
I know I will continue to uncover more of her hidden gifts and feel some incredible experiences are yet to come.
There is so much all around us to help guide us into a new relationship with, and experience of, “reality” as we’ve come to react to it.
Had I been put off like so many others had, or turned away from her when I met her and experienced her merely as an unwelcome trigger or abrasive energy to fight back at, deny, or ignore, I would not have experienced her magick, gained the wisdom of her teachings, nor would she have ever revealed the treasure within that truly All That Is around us, is beckoning us to arise to.
Alchemy is ours to choose.
We aren’t sure of what kind of rabbit she is – the closest description and resemblance I have found is that of a brindle coated American Sable Rabbit.
But none of that matters, as she, to me, represents all rabbits, all animals, all plants, all humans, all life forms, All That Is and the way I relate to her is representative of my relationship to it All.
Every single form of consciousness and Spirit in form here on Earth or formlessly off-planet, all reflect my relationship and communion to Everything.
Let us walk, swim, fly, climb, vibrate, and BE in harmonic presence to what TRULY is at work here and Cosmically weaving as the Grace of Love.
(Side note: I always have number sequences showing up for me…at different intervals, different numbers more than others and sometimes all of them. Recent days have seen a prominence of 5’s (my favorite), which herald huge transformational shifts and supportive change (with less frequent other sequences). Then yesterday I had so many 11:11 on 8/8 time and date stamps come through for me on everything and continued both with actually 11:11 and 1:11 sightings. Synchronously, I started writing this post yesterday, finishing it today, but when I wrote the title to kick this post off it was 11:11 on 8/8. 😉 )
As we approach Spring Equinox, I felt a simple sound channeling wanting to come through that felt to reflect this shift from one season to another, from experience to experience, of releasing the old to step into the new, and that stirring of a seed within the dark, nurturing womb reaching through the dirt to touch its tendrils to the light. This is about the moments in between and the deliberate presence of breath during the transmutation….until the last moment. Much love to all.
A perfect message, I feel, for now from Lee and very resonating with what I’ve been experiencing and sharing with clients, and feels like a flowing tie-in to recent posts I’ve felt led to express. Always appreciate Lee’s shares.
I have felt the potent healing power and fertile creative potential of this Full Supermoon (Beaver Moon) for sure, which we haven’t seen this close since 1948 and won’t again until 2034. So to say it provides great potential, is an understatement and there’s no coincidence it is aligned with so much on the collective scene going on like the election and its implications for opportunity on a grand scale.
In simple terms we’re looking at our values with this Taurus Moon and that goes for the self, life in general for ourselves and the collective, and our beliefs around money and abundance as well. Taurus brings in a calming, grounding energy to help us balance things and with a Scorpio Sun, tempers that with our passions brought to the surface in strong, focused, yet patient ways, while integrating our deepest shadow and hidden treasures.
Steady and persevering like the Tortoise and with a focus on abundance and gratitude, rather than lack and denial of the beauty inherent in and around us. A call again for a return to harmony with Earth and partnering with Nature to create change.
We have the ability to channel our emotions and passions productively and to release, cleanse, and transform the toxicity that is running the show.
Since the Moon symbolizes our inner world and all things emotionally hidden, our deepest desires and dreams, and yes, our unconscious shadow and underlying fears, this is a chance to bring it all to the surface and truly feel and see it, learn from it, and then creatively produce from the core truth of our essence once it is revealed, by peeling away those veils.
There’s huge potential for change taking place as we end 2016 – a collective “9” endings year for us, before we begin 2017 – a collective “1” beginnings year. What will we choose to cultivate in this new era?
This Supermoon is amplifying and illuminating the toxicity for us, collectively, that we can choose to cleanse, release, and transform.
Personally, it has illuminated important pieces for me for sure and also strengthened the affirmations of my own values and stance in reflective support of them.
In our new place we are surrounded by windows that we leave open all day and night, since we are high above everything and so we can receive the beauty and gifts of Nature 24 hours a day.
There are tree beings surrounding some, with extended arms offering their gifts.
There’s the lake and mountains offering their expansive wisdom.
And morning, day, and night the Sun and Moon dance in light and colors so brilliantly.
What has been most special is the Moon, which moves around to the windows during the middle of the night where Her light then glows directly on my face as I sleep.
I love waking and being illuminated by Her magick.
And with the Supermoon energy She has been supportive in helping me to move through my own emotions and mourning.
I found myself waking up in the middle of the night just two nights ago filled with feelings about Cosmo and feeling him strongly. And as I looked, the Moon was illuminating the room and I was drenched in Her light. I could see the rabbit on the Moon’s surface and knew that Her magick, along with my beloved rabbit family were helping me to heal.
I had a lot of emotional release through the night with the help of the Moon and Cosmo.
And it was just what I needed, as while I did experience release of emotions during the time leading up to and of Cosmo’s transition, I was also needing to be strong for him and Dave. Then we had the whole move transition the last couple of weeks, and now as it has come to closure I’m able to release the rest of my natural mourning process.
The Moon has been my best friend in that process helping to bring out all that needs to and then helping to turn it into alchemy for creative potency.
Some may say these are the “blues of sadness” I am moving through, but I feel them to be the “blues of magick.”
This evident in the colors that showed up all around me on our hike yesterday and that I was immersed in.
It was not a “sad” blue, but an “enchanted” blue revealing all the hues of its beauty that are my favorite and this movement through my own pains as the natural beauty inherent in love and life, felt to be embodied as my true aura and put me forever in the realm of my nature and essence.
I will continue to embrace the flow and release that this beautiful and powerful Supermoon assists me in, as well as invite any more to come forth that needs to be transmuted as well.
I did experience just that also on the hike yesterday, as in conversation I moved through, made conscious, and claimed something huge in a Scorpio way, which will have huge effects on my own shadow integrated.
It is not always easy, I know! But the support is there. It truly is, if you truly invite and embrace it.
Yesterday’s beautiful 8 mile hike on Angora Lakes Trail (I love the reference to rabbits in the name and there was even a young woman with a little dog named “Tiny” that went by us on the hike – that was one of Joy’s nicknames – so my sweet bunny loves were all around me) was incredible in so many ways. We keep discovering hidden gems of lakes and new hikes all the time here in the back country of Lake Tahoe.
I played with my shadow and invited her peacefully in.
I found a piece of an old honeycomb with potent hexagon sacred geometry.
I looked at the reflections in a puddle illuminating the truth.
I got to see Fallen Leaf Lake from above at a new perspective.
I saw more reflections at the lower lake of Angora in the light of the Sun.
I then discovered the alchemy within my emotions that revealed the magickal blue inherent always regardless of the light being present, as we came upon Angora Lake just as the Sun dipped behind the mountains. I am the light.
And that knowing creates a ripple effect out to everything I touch and experience, transforming it all instantly.
Angora Lake reminded me of a beloved place in Montana that I miss and will return to soon, being anchored by the ashes of my sweet Joy and Nestor.
I even wore my cosmic pants in honor of Cosmo.
There is new life awakening from the natural cycle of all things. And that’s worth smiling about.
This is a good explanation and perspective of the shadow work available to the collective that I wrote about in my blog on the state of things…. It’s not simply about choosing love and light and pulling to the other side, as that only creates more separation, opposites that evoke defense, and cognitive dissonance. To truly love, one must look to where these things that trigger us so much are within us (likely more unconscious), where they stem from if even just conditioned, in your DNA, in the collective as a whole, and the old you ran away from or turned your back on, and to work with that and embrace it in order to transmute it. Otherwise it will just crop up again in another form.
Spiritual bypassing is not the answer.
And let me assure you that there is collective unconscious shadow work on either side of the coin that’s not addressed in this post. It just seems that one appears or feels more obvious.
Nothing is a one sided experience.
There is unconscious shadow stuff running the show all around us, and is the reason that some ask why they can’t manifest certain things or in general.
My guess is as a collective we chose the more obvious as to help us potentially move through this work finally, otherwise it could continue working under the surface and create further challenge.
The way through is to go through it with eyes, ears, mind, heart, and soul wide open.
Thanks to my good friend Kate for sharing this post, as I think it might provide additional insight and support for people:
Such a great update from Lee that so resonates with my own observations. Yes, magick is breaking through with the alchemy of these intense times if we embrace the opportunity for transmutation. I’ve been observing that all of what has exploded to the surface is unfortunately, but never too late, the process we chose since nothing else seemed to get our attention. Everything is and will rise to the surface blatantly in our faces that has either been hidden from us, or that we’ve been hiding from.
The volcano was inevitably going to fully erupt, as denial, turning a blind eye, abuse of all that is sacred, and blame was not going to last forever.
Now is the time to let in the light, by walking with full conscious awareness through the shadow.
As Lee asks:
How are you going to play the game differently?
There’s been a literal shattering of the old into the new and a powerful swoosh of cosmic energies streaming in that are shaking things up in transmutational ways for sure! It’s not arbitrary that I had just recently reshared about the prominence of my Golden Selenite Flower – on 10/10 to be exact – and then on 10/23 when things lit up for us it had a spontaneous explosion. This signifying the end of an era, but also reflecting the unlimited creative potentials we’d opened up to and are flowing in, not to mention a deeper merging of human and star self in a multi-dimensional and formless way.
I mentioned in my post Cosmic Blossom & Cosmic Energies how this crystal had messaged me in wanting to be more intentionally active with my creative work and had come to sit alongside me on my desk daily to assist with that.
It’s no surprise that this crystal supports “creative manifesting from your heart,” “assists you to create your reality based on intention, trust, and joyful wisdom,” “helps you to become attuned to, and harmonized with, your soul purpose for this lifetime,” and “focuses on joy, manifestation, and creation/creative energies.”
That’s exactly what I’ve been harnessing and bringing forth more of in embodiment with all the new we’re creating. And the focus has been in cultivating very free-flowing, non-attachment, and full openness to exploring constantly evolving, creative potentials and their probabilities before choosing and jumping aboard the best alignment.
So when this crystal, which had become a favorite, burst with exuberance, it felt to reflect this actualization and a message of stepping into a more empowered place fueled by passion merged with harmonious surrender….and of course letting go in order to be more of who I am.
So rather than be sad, I celebrated this change I’d embraced.
Here is an article for more on ways to approach crystals having “accidents,” which is one of the most popular pieces I’ve shared:
Life here on Earth is taking a different turn and different ways of approaching things are being called for.
Everything is changing and rapidly. The peace will be found within your ability to embrace these rapid shifts.
As mentioned in my post Portals of Peace, I found it auspiciously prophetic that I was holding this crystal during my last sound channeling called Black Moon Rising.
And so peace pervades my experience all around, including the expansion of my crystal friend into her true multi-dimenionality….a reflection of my own greater experience of this and the cosmic support streaming in.
It is no coincidence that the day it took place was the day we were guided to the new home space we will be living in for the next 6 months through the rest of fall and winter, seeing us into the spring of our own “blossoming”.
It is no coincidence that it happened seamlessly on that day while we were driving by 5 different rental properties we were potentially interested in. We drive by to first feel it out if worth touring inside.
It just so happens that the one we ended up with didn’t have an address we could find at the time in the listing, so we found the number and called.
It just so happens the owner was there and when we asked for the address to drive by, he said to come on over and see it.
It just so happens it was the rental I had loved the most from the photos and description and really wanted to see.
It just so happens that when we walked in, it was everything we had hoped, and more.
It just so happens we both loved it.
It just so happens that it had only been on the market 11 days and we were the first to see it.
It just so happens that he accepted our two cats and rabbits even though he advertised no pets.
It just so happens it has things that will be nurturing of our time there and my finishing my book and projects, completely supported with inspiration.
It just so happens that the place is all furnished, as we wanted it, and all white with beautiful sea life paintings for our watery selves and the sun pours in like an illuminated star high up at 7450 elevation (I love being as high up as possible), feeling like you’re in the heavens with a heavenly panoramic view of the lake and forest, and 2 minutes from Heavenly Mountain Ski Resort.
It just so happens the place resembled in essence and appearance a dream I had and a room where I was receiving a cosmic upgrade.
And after viewing it, we knew.
And then we went on a hike where our first bald eagle sighting here at the lake took place, along with great blue heron showing up too and some symbols written in the dirt on the path that reiterated a profound confirmation.
So while I could get hung up on being sad about this crystal shattering, I am instead joyous of her transformation that equates to my own and know that her infiniteness is now fully actualized and even greater unlimited possibilities will be streaming in for the rest of the journey ahead.
We are both of the dark and the light…we are their alchemical transmutation. When we remember and walk responsibly through the shadow of our truth, we recognize and embody the brilliance of our creative power.
We often are focused on searching for the light, and yet the mysterious magnitude and beauty is in walking the recognition of our complexity within the cosmic abyss of our consciousness in totality.
Every time I see amazing displays of light around me and the environment I find myself in, I realize it is only because I am embracing the dance with shadow and understanding its immeasurable potential, that these experiences and appearances are possible.
And in return, they are reflecting that message if in fact we don’t realize this.
It is how we responsibly utilize these energies that becomes the focus and creates the challenge we are here to harness with intentful awareness every step of the way so as not to duplicate recurrences of our past, but to align us with future expansive probabilities through the presence of all-encompassing consciousness now.
“In order for the light to shine so brightly, the darkness must be present.” ~Francis Bacon
Butterflies are messengers and have the ability to bring clarity to our mental processes and communication, help with organization of projects, and assist with finding the next steps to take on the journey. Within all of this there’s an air of being ready to embrace it all with some level of internal growth and transformative expansion when butterflies are our totems.
Back in my early 20’s I received the butterfly in meditation upon what my soul path symbol was and they have been with me ever since in proliferation.
I’ve been harnessing my inner butterfly in more profound ways, but recently things have felt to take another pivotal turn with being on point with this energy and so I thank you my sweet butterfly friends who have graced my conscious journey.
My focus has been on activating latent DNA and supporting the same collectively in order to access greater freedom, courage, and total transmutation.
We are capable of this and butterfly reflects to us our innate personal power we are realizing.