As promised, today’s Ask Astrid blog is the sequel to Wednesday’s Part 1 that shared the same title. It involves a precognitive dream I had about Astrid a few days after the collective dream involving the wild and prehistoric animals I chronicled in that post. I didn’t realize at first that the same theme ran through it until days later, as I continued interpreting and integrating the message. There were of course personal energies involved, but they reflected the bigger picture moving through me, and as a result, also moving through Astrid since she and I always go through similar things even if in different ways.
I often have some of my clearest and most telepathic or precognitive dreams come through my rabbit companions – on and off Earth – as well as my Russian tortoise, Gaia. I remember one many years back where Nestor let me listen through her ear and I journeyed through it to where my parents lived (far away from me at the time) and heard an exact conversation they were having, which I relayed to them and got confirmed the next day. It was her way of showing me that the telepathic lines were open to receive clear messages through our connection and through telepathy itself.
From then on, the telepathic channels between me and my beloved soul companions who once did, or currently do, inhabit animal bodies have been opened and I receive powerful messages to assist the shift of times through my personal experience of it.
That kind of profound dream experience has happened with Nestor, Joy, Cosmo, Gaia, and of course, now, Astrid.
But this dream I had last week was a psychic one, and what unfolded in waking life ended up having the connection to the theme from the previous one. I didn’t know until a couple of days later that it would turn out to be precognitive, but it did indeed foresee what was going to happen to Astrid and its immediate effects on both of us.
In the dream I saw Astrid after some kind of incident/accident had taken place. I didn’t know what the particulars were of how, but the result was finding her with the tip of one of her paws cut off. I remember feeling horrified about it and although it was cut off, I didn’t see evidence of blood, but could see inside as if it were hollowed out from where it came off. I looked around for a towel to wrap it in and remember having difficulty trying to figure out what vet to take her to for like an hour, as I was stressing over my sweet girl’s condition. That’s all I remember.
I woke the next morning feeling bothered by it and relayed the dream to Dave, as I usually do when I have very clear and detailed or odd ones. He told me it was just a random dream, as his way to assure me.
Well, a couple of days later, I’m woken in the middle of the night by noise downstairs. My intuition and mom instincts know immediately that it’s Astrid dashing around the living room like crazy, as a result of being spooked by our male cat, Boojum. I get out of bed because I can hear her continue freaking out and running about, and start to head down the stairs when in the dimly lit corridor I see her shadow sprinting up the stairs and the sound of her nails on the wood clambering and sliding about from her speed. She’s in flight mode and when she gets scared like that it’s hard to center and calm her for a while. The only thing she knows – that any rabbit or prey knows – is to run like heck and escape at all means. When she sees me she doubles back down the stairs leaping several steps at once and appearing to take a sliding side tumble (or at least that’s what I could make out in the shadowy dark), not expecting me to show up, and then turns back around and passes me, while heading under the bed upstairs to hide.
All I remember is being horrified by the sound and sight – just like in my dream – as I’m just thinking about her injuring herself while running blindly.
I continue down the stairs just to see if my instincts had been right and there was Boojum, sheepishly sitting upright in front of the opening to her pen, as if to say, “What? I didn’t do anything.”
I knew that he’d entered her area in the middle of the night to steal some hay or water while she was peacefully just laying there in her meditative/off-planet mode, as she does, and when she realized he was there it was too late. It felt like a stealth attack and her prey instincts put her in flight mode, feeling like she was threatened by this sneaky predator moving in the shadows nearby.
I immediately ran back upstairs to check on her and found her huddled under my side of the bed, scared. I talked to her calmly and was worried, wondering if she was alright.
I went to the center of the room in front of the bed and laid down to wait for her to come out and she did. That’s when I noticed her lifting her front right paw up now and then, as if it was tender to put weight on it. And then she stopped to sit and lick at it and groom her face and the paw. This was on and off now and then. So of course I panicked, thinking she may have broken, fractured, or sprang her paw.
I was a mom mess at 2 am.
Like I’ve done in the past with my babies, I decided to lay there on the floor with her all night if necessary. I remember once spending the entire night, awake, under the bed with Nestor when she was sick, in order to see her through the night.
So I grabbed my pillow and wrapped a towel over me (all I could find quickly) and laid by her side in the dark while administering Reiki and calling forth all of my healing energies and help. I did this for about two hours and she stayed next to me laying mostly still and only moving a few times in different positions. When she did move she was still lifting or licking her paw, but grateful for my presence, the energy, and my talking her through the fear to a place of centered calmness again. You can be assured I gave my all for love.
She nosed me a few times and after the last time she did so, she then made her way back down stairs, saying, “Thank you and I’ll be alright now.”
I felt her telling me she wanted me to get some rest, so I made my way back to bed, falling asleep while sending her more healing energy and praying for the highest good to unfold the next morning. I only slept a couple of hours.
I woke and checked on her immediately and she was doing her normal routines, eating, drinking, pooping – all signs we rabbit parents look for because they are crucial to their well being. But on rare occasion I still saw her pick her paw up slightly or lick it. Not often, but even if once, it’s enough to warrant worry.
I couldn’t see anything and there wasn’t any blood anywhere. I didn’t want to poke and prod too much in case of anything being broken. So, I felt that taking her to a vet was the better option than my digging around. The challenge being that the next day we had to leave to travel to our new location, it was a Friday, and we were in a small mountain town.
I searched online and found a local vet, five minutes away, but didn’t see anything about them treating rabbits or exotics. I looked up where we were going next and DID find a vet that treated rabbits there and had great reviews about their rabbit knowledge and care.
While I wrestled with what was in her best interests – waiting to get her to a rabbit vet, or taking her in immediately to a vet that didn’t treat rabbits, I went upstairs to get ready in case I needed to leave right away while I asked for a sign and the highest good to be clear.
As I made my way to the second floor, my eyes were directed to something tiny on the corner of the stairs. I bent to pick it up and discovered the puzzle piece needed.
It was Astrid’s nail – the whole thing! I know her nails because she has dark blackish-brown ones and they are very thick. So now I knew that she had lost a full nail in her frantic clambering on the stairs in the middle of the night. Oddly, there was no blood on it, her paw, or the carpets or stairs, and the end where it came off was hollowed.
So far, all of this mirrored my dream – the tip of her foot cut off (in fact turned out to be her nail), the hollowed out area where it came off was how the nail appeared, as well as no signs of blood. The towel I looked for in the dream to wrap her in seemed to end up being the towel I wrapped myself in for the two hours I laid with her and yes, I did spend time trying to figure out which vet was best, as I weighed all the options and played out the scenarios and how they would affect Astrid in the long run – just like how in the dream I stressed for an hour about the same.
Finding the full nail with hollowed end posed the concern that I might not be able to see the site of where the nail came off and it could get infected, and that with this kind of pressure to rip it off, perhaps she might have a broken toe or some other kind of damage.
I decided to call both vets. First the rabbit vet where we were headed to get their thoughts. They agreed that if I could get her in right away it would be better, to avoid potential infection. Problem was we’d be traveling Saturday, so couldn’t get her in that day and both vets were closed on Sunday, so Monday was only available at the new place. But to me, that was just too long to wait and wonder, or have things potentially go wrong. Still, I made an appointment there just in case, as they had barely any spots open, while I continued to assess the situation.
I then called the local vet to ask if they saw rabbits, see what they thought, and to relay the incident, as to me it felt like something that could be assessed even if not expert with rabbits being that dogs and cats can also lose nails.
To my luck, the technician that answered was very sympathetic to the situation, has had many rabbits of her own, knows how to handle them, and knows quite a bit about them. She asked the doctor if she’d see Astrid even though it’s not her specialty and the doctor was more than accommodating. She relayed that if any extra advice or meds were needed that the doctor would confer with rabbit vets she knew in other areas. They were completely full that day, but said if I could drop her off in the next half hour after their scheduled surgery that morning, they would fit her in in between the appointments that day and watch her for us in the meantime.
So, I took her right away. I was sad to have to leave her for a few hours, especially since we were traveling the next day, which meant she’d have to be in her traveling case two days in a row. I also didn’t like leaving her with an injury by herself, but with the pandemic, curbside drop-offs and pick-ups are the only way anyway.
Of course I spent those long hours away from her thinking of her, telepathically talking to her, and sending energy while I calmed myself down in the solitude of the mountain on a ski run all by myself awaiting the doctor’s call.
And I got the best possible news. The doctor called and confirmed that she had torn off the nail, but there was no redness, no blood, no swelling, or any signs of inflammation or tear to the skin surrounding it. Although it was a relatively new injury, it all looked fine. The soft inner part of the nail stub was still there (why I saw the hollowed out bottom portion of the nail) and she said that’s why her paw is sensitive. She said it’s like if we cut our nails too short and that sensitivity we’d experience. So if she happens to touch it a certain way, this is why she will pick it up or lick it, as it’s tender. But the good thing is, it is not a weight bearing toe that she lost it from. So this is why there’s only occasional tenderness experienced.
And, she examined the foot and toe and felt no breaks in the bone so didn’t feel it necessary to x-ray her. Even if her toe had been fractured, it simply would have to heal on its own, as there’s little they can do and she said that rabbits heal pretty quickly in this regard. That actually was the case for the human/part rabbit me 😉 as I’ve broken my toe and both feet in recent years and there was no setting involved – just natural healing time to mend.
The doctor noted the same as I did that Astrid didn’t seem to be in any major pain except for the random tenderness, which had already decreased since the time of first impact. We both agreed that meds didn’t feel like the right option since she continues with all of her normal behaviors, is moving around normally, and there’s no sign of infection beginning. Meds can mess with their digestive systems and eating behaviors. So, I was told to keep an eye on her and if any behaviors change or I notice infection beginning, her not able to stand on the paw, or bad odor from the paw (sign of infection), to bring her in immediately. The nail will eventually grow back and once it starts in a few weeks, it will grow strong around the inner soft part and she’ll be good as new. This vet said they actually weren’t going to be open this weekend at all, but told me to call her and she’d come in just for her, which was very sweet. Or, I could take her to the rabbit vet in our new location.
I went to pick her up and she was so happy to see me and go back home. She continued on with normal behaviors and I hardly saw her pick her paw up, if at all, and the next morning we were on the road with Astrid on my lap in her carrier doing amazing as she always does.
We arrived at our new place where we won’t be leaving again for four weeks, so it’s the perfect settled time to allow her nail to heal, while there’s a good rabbit vet close by if needed, and for both she and I to integrate all of the energy themes streaming through.
And it didn’t take her long to get comfy in her new surroundings. I was grateful to find there to be no stairs in the new place, wall-to-wall carpeting so it would be soft on her paws, and a cozy compact home for the family to be all close together. Since getting here I haven’t actually seen her lift or lick her paw like she was anymore and she’s continued with all normal behaviors. In fact, she’s zoomed around with exuberance, binkied, and flopped harder than I’ve ever seen her flop (even Dave remarked he’d never seen her do this) – all signs of one happy, healthy, secure bunny. And she’s continued to have a fully open pen 100% of the time with mutual trust between us.
She’s even found her new throne.
Don’t you just love all the cute, eclectic western boots surrounding her and the bears, moose, and fish on the ottoman guarding her that connect with the animal messenger theme of Part 1 and with how I keep mentioning the recurring appearance of bears in my dreams, the sighting of the moose a few weeks ago, and my being a Pisces (the fish, who inhabit the watery emotional depths of the sub and unconscious).
The boots feel to reflect the spirit of independence, confidence, endurance, the American dream, traditional values, and visions of the old South West. They also speak to New Frontiers and having a dream you’re not afraid to go after. And while they were the beginning of freedoms for some, they also stomped on the freedoms of others.
Astrid LOVES this chair so much and will sit in it while we watch movies at night, lay in it sometimes awaiting us to come home from our outdoor time, and sits in it at night while we sleep. How do I know that? Because I can see both the chair and her pen space from where I sleep at night and can see her shadow and silhouette of her ears peacefully sitting on her throne listening to the silence of the night darkness.
It’s a great vantage point for her to stay centered and aware of all that is around her. Perhaps assisting her to be more present and conscious with expecting the unexpected.
It’s been a huge relief to see her bounce back immediately and on her way to healing. It’s also been so beautiful to see her pick right back up and build upon all of her enhanced connective, joyous, and expansive behaviors she’s evolved into on this journey. The cats have even been hanging out with her more. We’ve witnessed more nose-to-nose encounters with Boojum and Sweet Pea hanging out with her under the bed.
And as for the tie-in with Part 1, indeed there is the connection to releasing primal patterns that came through the actual experience itself that Astrid went through.
She had a moment of vulnerability, like I did the day I could feel the streaming through of collective anxiety, and then got overwhelmed by the oncoming primal energy that Boojum in his predator and very raw, primal behaviors embody. He’s not a super spiritually focused soul, but instead has come into this life to be more base and core focused in his experience of life – to feel the sensual aspects of physicality, luxuriating in ego-based immediate needs, and being instinctual and survival motivated. In this way, he reflects to me Astrid’s T-Rex.
Boojum didn’t mean to harm Astrid, but the primal energy he carries was a trigger to the core prey essence that is embedded within Astrid’s DNA, even if she IS conscious of more. And when we aren’t present and grounded (she is often integrating and journeying off-planet or in the in between realms), then things can knock you off balance very easily. They can take you by surprise and cause trigger reactions instead of having the ability to respond with more presence when you are embodied and centered.
The wild and prehistoric animal dream in Part 1 spoke to the clearing initiation for big change coming through the purging and releasing of old core energies. These collective pools of untamed, primitive and survival mode instincts have been unconscious for so long and are now surfacing in order to integrate them more consciously through compassionate embrace.
On some level Astrid called this experience up in order to move through more of these patterns and releases, just as I was working through them after the dream, and we all are worldwide.
As I mentioned, we also seem to help buffer the energy for others, the more we each can work through the energies, and I feel that Astrid did her own share of that buffering in taking on the old prey/predator, victim/perpetrator energies. On a soul and higher self level, she wasn’t afraid to face this fear – one of the greatest she would have as a prey animal. And played out this triggering experience in order to move through it, just as I have been facing the fears of the mountains through skiing every day these past weeks so I can integrate the core patterns more of these unknown terrains and these vulnerable spaces.
And rather than have something really horrible happen, it was only her nail – the tip of the foot that represents Pisces, watery, unconscious energies (like the ocean the animals ran to in my previous dream) that broke off. But it was not a vicious or horrible injury. It was one that evoked tenderness, both in helping to remember the value of the incident and the energies through physical tenderness, and to represent the bridge to wholeness and healing – through a tender heart and more compassion and kindness.
This was demonstrated by how she’s held no ill feelings toward Boojum or either cat, when she could very well have gone into defensive mode with charging and grunting and running them off when they come around. She could also have allowed the old triggers to consume her and put her in fear mode, but neither happened.
Instead, I’ve seen her AND the cats both engaging one another more since we arrived to our new place and without animosity or fear. They have been sitting closer, edging into each other’s spaces, seeking to be with one another, and Astrid has even allowed Boojum to sit at the back of her throne above and behind her while she sits in it, with both of them at peace. There’s even been a lot of super cute engagement on Astrid’s part where we witness her literally hopping in front of Boojum back and forth, asking him to play with her.
Just as I wrote in Part 1, “the interaction confirmed for me that these energies only hurt us if we try to run from them, dismiss, fight, or even deny them. There’s a sense of their wanting acknowledgment and understanding of their place within the framework.”
Although Astrid was thrown into a core reactive place of panicked fear when Boojum startled her, it was evident after the two hours I laid with her doing energy work for the highest good that night, that she had moved through things and integrated it with my support.
We are both deepening into being bridges of compassion for the collective purging, as best we each can. And while the DNA redesign that we’re all experiencing is hugely transformative, it feels like it can be integrated with greater ease than one might think. It asks of us to be open to the possibilities, to expect the unexpected, surrender to tenderness, and to trust that things are in divine alignment for the highest good of all concerned.
So, Part 2 was about a revealing, precognitive dreamscape that prepared me for the unraveling of Astrid’s literal experience to release primal patterns. On some level, the dream helped me to process things on the subconscious levels so that I could be more present for her.
Yet, at the same time, it was a shared experience of releasing primal patterns, as I feel everything Astrid does as if it’s my own, and so we went through it all together. I got to have my triggered reactions to it all, breathe my way back to centering and empowerment, and together we harnessed love to walk us through it. Not to mention, I was able to look at my own old patterns of judgment or fear around these energies through those raw emotions that took place at 2 am in the full darkness of the night.
But when brought to light in the dawn of the day, the shadowy figures, horrifying sounds and sights, and raw fears all softened to reveal the heart’s resiliency through compassion and willingness to understand each part for what it is.
Of course there is so much more I could express about all of the symbolism that took place through this experience, but you may be able to uncover those pearls for yourself.
I actually thought that this would be the conclusion to this theme desiring to be channeled through, but in fact on 2/2/21, three nights ago, I had another dream that wants to be shared and within that dream I was specifically shown three parts. So, I guess there’ll be one more.
Both Astrid and I have been feeling this Scorpio Full Moon in the days leading up to it quite strongly. I wasn’t paying attention specifically to it, but Astrid just like all rabbits, was hugely attuned to the Moon and the Cosmic frequencies pulsing through Earth. She gave me her wise and endearing look when I had that a-ha moment of connecting dots to recent experiences with the energies abound. She knows I don’t need confirmations of things, but that it does put reason to the rhyme of cycles that take place seemingly out of the blue.
There is definitely a collective release taking place and a ton is shifting on the subtle inner landscapes, which I feel is what is happening to so many people I’ve heard from where there’s a mix of intensity surging through alongside breakthroughs. It’s also what’s playing out on the world-wide level.
I recently explained it like this to a dear friend after my post about releasing the In Lak’ech series of Five paintings:
After posting that yesterday, I found myself done for the day. It was kind of a collapse or surrender. I am feeling the collective release it involves, which I feel is taking place right now across the globe, as we enter greater depths of these shadow parts finally. They are awakening to the conscious level more, or at least starting to surface or break away… this reminds me of cleaning a caked-on greasy pan in sink water. The more you scrub, the dirtier and murkier the water gets, and it might take a while to scratch away at it, but small particles release and eventually surface before everything is wiped away. It feel like the collective is at these stages of scrubbing and releasing stuff into the consciousness pool and now we’re all figuring out what to do with them and what kind of clarity we would like to see come from it. And individually, we’re doing this too for the collective…Although I know we are constantly cracking these codes to free us of conditioned enslavement, the impact on these subtle levels is so tricky. We may see it, or not, but then to actually do something with it is a whole other thing.
We are left with a dilemma, when once we tap into more of our true power, as to what we want to create from here on forth.
Astrid and I have both been going through a huge purging on the outer landscape, to reflect what we’re shifting on the inner landscape.
I shared about it on my Instagram and that’s what the photo above is about, which felt so fitting for Astrid’s post message today about letting go.
This was the caption I used for it:
After a year and a half of enjoying her royal throne, with only small redecorating touches recently, she decided to follow in mom’s footsteps and completely go wild with change. She’s been watching me with wide eyes, as first I did tiny changes (and so she mirrored that) and then I undid both our shared office space and my bedroom closet, throwing things on the floor and bed big time (and so she did the same), as I completely revamped everything with the biggest Spring purge and reorganizing I’ve done to date. Immediately in response, Astrid decided to go crazy on her chair and not only broke through the pretty adornments I’d added for her from her last redecorating choice, but took out the foam insides into bunches of pieces! I couldn’t do anything but laugh when I saw her laying like this so proud with evidence of her work all around her, as if to say to me, “look at the work I’ve done too so I can embrace the new!” So, I’ve since redecorated her center rug without chair, which she’s feeling out and enjoying so far. I did find another chair, in case she decides she wants one again, that I think may work very well for her without need for “redecorating” but am holding off to see how she likes the new set up first and will go from there. Gotta love her! We’re so much alike!
We are both enjoying the fresh openness created by these changes, which allows for the new to flow in more freely and easily. It’s also enabled us to draw in what is frequency-aligned because of our shifts, while also holding an open free space for the unknowns we can’t see yet to find their way to us.
Sometimes we don’t know what is to come or what something looks like that we want, but in letting go, we clear our energy fields so the clarity of that authentic-now inner voice can bring to us the perfect things we had no idea with our minds would be for our highest.
A clear heart draws in clarity.
We become the abundant beings that we are and the way to draw in something aligns all on its own because of taking that action of trust.
Every time we trust and release, abundant energies continue as they are meant to, by flowing in and out.
This Scorpio Moon highlights letting go, regenerating, deepening, intensifying, creating more intimacy with all of our parts, reclaiming our essence and inner wisdom, delving into the mystique and magick of the inner labyrinth, invoking greater courage, clarifying more understanding, making way for the new, and reviewing or perhaps even renewing any intentions you may have.
A flooding of emotions can definitely be part of this, as fears, deep unconscious and shadowy stuff releases into light.
I’ve noticed that since Astrid’s chair was removed, she’s spent a lot of time on the center of her round sparkly green, grass-looking rug under her favorite black iron butterfly sleigh where magickal things sit atop the three platforms that float above her.
It feels to be like an etheric rabbit tunnel of that deep mystery, magick, and Cosmic abyss she is harnessing for transmutation.
I get that she wanted some more open space right now as a clear slate she and I can create from.
Astrid shares, “As you write your new story, so am I. And yet, we are writing it together. One that tells of many journeys yet to share in ways creativity has yet to birth. We are engaging a Cosmic excavation accessed deep within our hearts and it connects us both to the heart of ourselves, and to one another – to include all consciousness. Most importantly it connects us to the heart of creation that is ours to weave anew. So what holds you back? Although time is an idea, there is no greater moment than now to begin. It doesn’t matter what has gone before. With every discomfort and stretch you dismantle the hold of roots awaiting the elixir of your love. What blossoms is of your making.”
I don’t know about any of you, but I for one have enough of anyone writing my story for me. And that includes the stuff I carry as both past fears, perceived limitations, and shared ancestral and collective conditioning.
Astrid is a protector of the sacred, embodied in a strong, courageous, and enduring rabbit body. She walks the worlds of both light and dark. She is both warrior and harmony keeper. She is a bridge of understanding and compassion because she has walked in each reality and can move in and out when necessary. She is action-oriented and also eternally patient.
She is a warrior of unconditional love in its highest form.
Today happens to be Cosmo’s birthday – my sweet rabbit son in the stars. He would have been 13.
He is an ambassador of love and compassion in pure essence.
Astrid is like the great guardian or protector of what he stands for both because she is the same AND because she has extra layers that enable her to merge into worlds he needn’t step into. He is the energy and she both is that energy as well as protects it with the ability to engage on levels that invoke the seed of potential to stir.
We all have different gifts and to embrace with clarity what they are is part of this letting-go energy through self-reflection that permeates.
If we are willing to see the hidden, which can be engaged with curiosity and a willingness to simply observe it without judgment, we can begin to bridge a new and more clear understanding of what stories have been our motivations in life.
We can see what has been working overtime in the background simply because we didn’t acknowledge it.
To have that willingness to see something creates a click within.
Just because we see it, doesn’t mean it can hurt us.
It only hurts us when we don’t want to see it, so it sabotages our lives because it can.
Astrid and I send our deepest love to you during these reflective and intense energies. You are not alone.
Last weekend Astrid received a new, wood castle tower to replace her toppling over, cardboard carrot cottage. I got her the cottage when she first came home to live with us and she immediately went at renovating it by chewing open the carrot windows and widening doorways to let in more light, create clearer vision, and have easier in-and-out access. Eventually, she started chewing the backside wall almost completely where the second story sat above the first, and the whole house became the Leaning Tower of Pisa – or like a friend said, “the Leaning Tower of Carrot.”
And this is where today’s blog inspiration comes from, as Astrid points out, “There is nothing random about this, mom. Reflect back for a moment and you’ll see what I mean.”
She’s right. When I first gave her the carrot cottage we were living in our condo – the tree house in the sky above Lake Tahoe – and were in a bit of flux with our living situation and decisions on what we wanted to create from there, what home looked like to us, new ideas around business ventures and long-term planning, and even what I wanted to do with my current inspirations of writing and so forth.
Hence, a bio-degradable, non-permanent, and easily mobile carrot cottage for Astrid – my reflective counterpart.
But just as we outgrew our tree house and decided upon a forest-side dream home that we, too, wanted to renovate, Astrid let out her energy larger and larger and I began to create a room of similar dream-home quality for her.
This all coincided with us rapidly moving many parts of our life at once, and setting into place brand new foundations that were strongly anchored, but also much more integrated and balanced. We continued to fine-tune our lives, cleared out the old, listened to what our hearts had to say, and worked on getting greater clarity of focus and efficiency while building and recreating.
Astrid continued to mirror this and more and more shifts to her little Wonderland realm began to happen while I listened to her needs and saw her for who she is. So, even what she started off with when first moving into this home, transformed. Much like it did for me.
All but that cardboard carrot cottage, which every morning she would chew away on more and more.
She tells me that she was doing this for three-fold reason.
One, she was moving energy through that chewing, as rabbits do, and this in reflection and addition to changes she processes and supports beyond even herself.
Two, she was trying to get my attention that this house just won’t do anymore. “I want a better lookout place to oversee things in the forest and to see into the Cosmos when the stars come out. I want a stronger fortress to create boundaries when I need them from the energies abound, so I can do my work more easily. I prefer my feet feeling grounded and supported with a strong foundation, rather than walking on flimsy, moving cardboard. I prefer castles over cottages because it’s who I am and deserve it – thank you for seeing that. I want to go bigger.”
And three, she wanted to remind me about the concept of building the new, which you can’t do upon an old foundation because the new structure will simply fall down. In order to build the new, you must work from the ground up, clear out all of the old that lies deep under the surfaces as well – the hidden stuff – and then rebuild and recreate from a whole new vision. This will create something lasting.
She’s so right.
Astrid would like me to break the latter one down further into digestible pieces of understanding. So, here we go.
Many times we try to build the new, but we don’t take time to look under the demolished building to see what it was standing on in the first place.
You can’t simply just put on new clothes, change location, get plastic surgery, or buy a new car.
Whatever you carried with you from before will still be there emanating and magnetizing things regardless of what the outside looks like.
But, if you do some psychic surgery, excavate into the emotional caverns of your heart, explore the inner realms and dig up the roots of your beliefs and patterns, you can then integrate and transmute, clear, and move beyond.
Then, the new you create has the ability to firmly root in clear fresh soil, without any of the old plants fighting for nourishment and energy.
Your new won’t come toppling down surprisingly one day when these old roots start surfacing again.
Astrid knows of these things because she and her rabbit family are so connected to Mother Earth.
They hear her vibrations and understand the inner workings that support vibrant and renewing ecosystems.
They hear the vibrational frequencies emanating beneath the surface and can see beyond what we present to them.
They see things for how they really are.
And so Astrid compels us to take a deeper look.
If we want to stand firm with our new visions, then we need to be willing to tear down, chew up, and process that stuff we don’t want to experience anymore, find their gifts, and transmute them into a brand new reality.
Don’t forget your parts along the way.
If your carrot cottage no longer suits the essence of you, then build yourself a strong castle tower where you can see more clearly from.
Yet, don’t forget those roots!
Astrid thinks everyone would do well with having some rabbit teeth for those nasty little buggers.
Chew, grind, and chew again, until they’re broken down and easily digestible.
Doing so will provide the nourishment needed to create new realities based on wisdom of the past and vision of the future, integrated right here and now.
Have a question for Astrid? She welcomes you to share them and we both send a lot of love to everyone processing the old and working on creating and building the new.
Faery tales embody the simple and complex at the same time and are a way to communicate truths through wonder and to bring magick to the child within who holds the keys to alchemy. Faery tales, in my book, do matter and I have made it a focus to bring my own version of them to life in one way or another, as I believe there is an unseen world where other realities exist and are available to experience here and now. What we discover is how our imagination is the doorway to live the enchantment that exists, as the essence of the universe at large.
Faery tales journey us through challenges, fears, and dangers, while revealing that things aren’t always as they seem and connecting us with our deepest desires through transformational adventures.
I’ve definitely experienced all of this and find myself with a better understanding of my life through discovery of spiritual insights uncovered along the twists and turns that revealed the fantastical as real.
So, do I believe in Faery tales?
Indeed I do and I believe we are all living and creating one – each our own – with shared themes playing out creatively across the collective.
Where things are unclear and hard to understand, I believe magick explains the why’s. After all, we are the greatest miracle embodied, and it’s hard to imagine we aren’t living magickal lives because of that. I do believe a wizard lies within each of us to remember.
And although my life may look or seem more Faery tale-like now, I assure you that all the tragedy, so-called villains, brushes with death, and character arcs that truly make the full gamut of a true Faery tale, have been journeyed through more than their fair share along my adventures in humanity on Earth. And even those experiences were filled with the miraculous and magickal, despite the less than desired ideals we gravitate toward because, after all, everything is part of the divine and sacred oneness that we are.
This is the inner journey of alchemy – some call it the hero’s or heroine’s journey – Deepak Chopra calls it “The Way of the Wizard,” sharing my own feeling on the magickal you, you’ve forgotten that you are.
It’s become more obvious to me, how I’m consciously creating a reality that breathes of Faery tales and whispers of enchantment, which has included the duality that every tale travels through.
And while the villains and tragedies are no longer the focal point of my story, I still get the opportunity to live out the actualization of what I’ve learned and discovered along the way in how I process and maintain my Faery tale peace within the collective kingdom at large – invoking more of the wizard within to step forth so I may see through her eyes of trust and experience the oneness of my own being – the end becoming the beginning.
Saturday felt like another layer added to my Faery tale, and as you can see in the photos of me in the forest, I was feeling the magick indeed.
Something about wearing this gown was very shifting and we decided to capture a photo in our backyard forest before heading out. So, I walked out barefoot and these two photos were taken in the two minutes we had to spare before leaving.
When I saw the photo at the end of this post, I noted that difference I felt, coming through in the visual of embodiment. I did, in fact, feel the totality of my Faery tale and this additional character arc that is taking me on a new beginning from a naturally culminating end.
It was my parent’s 50th golden anniversary, which is a Faery tale story and milestone, in and of itself, and I felt called to wear a long gown that featured a giraffe couple – perfect for this celebration with their gentleness of spirit, beauty, gracefulness, elegance, and tenderness. I’m so grateful to have them as parents and feel blessed to be able to witness these years their love has been a guiding force in our lives.
They have definitely been living their full gamut Faery tale that all began once upon a time when a young, beautiful girl living in an old village of cobbled streets nestled at the foot of a castle in southern France was sent off to college in England by her poor family where she met her Italian prince charming from Hoboken, New Jersey who was sent overseas by his working-class family to complete his education too.
The rest is history.
They are true twin souls journeying the Cosmos together eternally, as this photo so perfectly captures.
I haven’t followed in their exact footsteps for sure, but the foundation they created has been a stabilizing and guiding factor for all that my spirit had in mind for me.
Perhaps it’s because I step out in my own version of Faery tale shoes. 😉
Can you say bunny love? (Despite my giraffe gown, I stay true to my rabbit roots)
And every morning I’m greeted by this enchanted Forest Portal we live on, and an enchanted office named Wonderland, with an extraordinarily enchanted bunny named Astrid, awaiting me.
While I do many mundane, seemingly unextraordinary things each day, they are made possible because of the miracle body I live in, and enhanced by the magickal surroundings I’ve dreamed up and created for myself.
I continue to watch my office evolve into more and more of the whimsical imagination within my child heart and can’t tell you how happy I feel and supported by all of the energies and beings that inhabit it with Astrid and me.
Every single thing has meaning, purpose, and carries a specific frequency of energy that speaks to the Faery tale story of my life and every experience I’ve had or am creating from the “future” backwards.
It is the 45 year old, adult version of my inner child, revered and cherished. And it is from this place of whimsy embodied that I dream up the new and bring my book and any other dreams alive.
I don’t know what the future holds with anything. I just know that I’ll live fully every interesting twist to the path in the forest, where ever they may lead. It’s my Faery tale to create and so it is that I will!
And Faery tales wouldn’t be complete without a Faery wand!
I recently had the opportunity to channel a new Mystery Magick Crystal Wand for a sweet and magickal spirit in Romania, and this is what came through.
Harmony is such a pure and, of course, harmonious embodiment of cosmic love, empowerment, transformation, self-awareness, creative birthing, and bringing forth gifts of the heart for humanity.
This is the only wand I’ve created outside in Nature. I created half of it while on the shore of Fallen Leaf Lake – the birth place of its beautiful wood branch. And the forest and waters there infused it with their song. I then completed the rest on the forest and garden of our home.
It’s quite a unique wand with a Triple Goddess Lemurian Phantom Quartz as a point! Woah! Can you say wow?! I had no idea that the crystal choosing to be the focal point had all of this going on until I looked and felt deeper into it.
It is a 5-sided Isis crystal as well and with three faces having 5 sides, we get that Triple Goddess effect. It actually has only 3 faces, which is unusual, as the other three triangular sides do not create faces, but simply create triangular points.
And you can see the phantom very clearly. A phantom looks like another crystal inside mirroring the shape, but ethereal (white or colored material – in this case gray). These phantoms provide indication of the experiences and transformations of the crystal’s evolution, represent the many phases of life you experience in a lifetime, helps to break through limitations, and grow beyond fear and blocks. They also help bring humanity together to support the planet.
Then along the shaft we have 3 Super Seven crystals that are super magickal little worlds of their own, one double terminated Rose Quartz, and one double terminated Chevron Amethyst, as you can see in these photos at the lake just after I completed that phase of the creation.
Super Seven creates a powerhouse of healing crystal energy to the wand’s embodiment bringing together the seven stones within it in combination with the other three types of crystals found on this creation. It can assist in all endeavors and helps to bring conscious awareness to the most challenging things that have been hidden or repressed within you. It is very protective and enhances psychic energies, while being energizing and expansive.
Rose Quartz creates the wand’s embodiment and focus of universal, unconditional love and helps restore harmony and trust, balances and opens the heart chakra, promotes all levels of love including self-love, brings calm and peace to healing, and encourages forgiveness and self-worth.
Chevron Amethyst creates the wand’s embodiment of peace, inner strength and courage, promotes self-discovery, helps remove resistance to change and helping oneself, dissipates negative energies, builds trust in intuition, cleanses, supports meditation and crown chakra illumination, amplifies energies for manifestation, and helps diminish potential addictive tendencies and recovery of any present addictions.
All entwined with rose gold wire enhanced by rose satin cord (that creates little rosettes throughout where knots are needed), and then anchored with two larger and perfect, darker twin Goose feathers, with one pure white Goose feather at center of the two – all silky and luminescent in quality.
The Goose and its feathers embody loyalty, forging ahead with bravery and confidence, teamwork and comradery, protection, clear communication, determination, dedication, fellowship, fidelity, fertility, the balance of knowing when to lead or follow, compassionate keepers of the community and embody the sacred circle and sanctity of the cycles of life, astute navigation, discernment of life path and choices, teamwork, protection, and committed responsibility. Geese never leave one of their own behind for any reason. They will stay with the sick and injured until they are either well again, or to support them as they transition.
The twin energy of the two larger Goose feathers brings together that which is within, merged, so that that without will reflect this integration and harmony. The white feather is the transmutational bridge that integrates it all with grace and purity. I have the white feather anchored strongly at center, while the two twin feathers are free flowing to the sides.
They ask you to remember your origins, to trust your intuition, communicate your needs and vulnerabilities, and honor and protect what is most of value.
Having a wand is a perfect and active way to focus energies while also a way of waving magick infusions into everything you are creating.
It was the perfect project for me to channel right now during my in-between book journey while I work on preparing the next phases after my editor returns it to me. It helps me to percolate the energies and keep momentum, as I want to preserve that enchantment and creative imagination to be ready for the leap to come. This is one of the things that has kept that going.
And in the meantime, I continue to imagine with great clarity, dream big, surround myself with everything that speaks to my essence, imbibe the frequencies I intend for the story of life I’m creating, and live as boldly and courageously as possible, as the character of my own Faery tale.
There’s definitely been an increased awareness around waking dreams and seeing how every part of the journey is a part of the creative story being woven.
We are the story tellers and story keepers of life unfolding. Faery tales have many twists and turns and are filled with imagination creating the embodiment of experiences that encompass the alchemy of you.
This was too cute and special not to share here. Yesterday’s moments captured were of Astrid communing with her spider friend. She retreated to the exercise room – a favorite getaway for her that is next to our Wonderland room. She was having one of those evenings of quiet time to herself in a meditative zone and then I realized she was communicating with this spider you see to her right. They stayed like this quite a while.
Then she did a big energy stretch, yawn, and release to move and shift the energy all the way down through her toes. It was fascinating to watch. They continued to stay together after that and I left them alone, returning about five minutes later and the spider was gone.
Astrid spent a lot of time meditating in this spot before and after and was also tuning into the plants in the garden tower, as they’re right outside this door. I love when she takes time to herself away from her normal routine, as you know she’s up to something big with her own work.
There’s indeed a lot of transmutational rebirthing energy spiraling around and Astrid is helping to weave that into form with me. Spiders are abundant and more so downstairs in our realm where we do the underworkings of things. Astrid’s definitely not put off by shadow work.
Anyway, I remembered sharing a post on spider symbolism and when I found it I smiled at the synchronicities of the timing of that blog and the similar experiences then, happening now.
This post: Crossing Path With Tarantula ~ Messages of Timing & New Doorways of Opportunity is from four years ago, mirroring yesterday’s post about the synchronous things happening in my life now that were happening then. And now this little spider reminder had me finding this blog post from that time period as well.
Here are a few excerpts from that post that speak to me on my life and writing focus, but for the full explanation on spider medicine and things that were occurring then, you can visit the blog link above.
…Generally speaking, Spiders are the weavers of experience that desire to share that creativity with others. They are the assertiveness of Creative Force in communication of all forms, seeking to discover and create the reflection of your heart’s hidden desires, and to fulfill your dreams through the wisdom of what you weave…
…Spiders help you to tune into the ancient wisdoms and integrate them into your life, realizing that everything you now do is weaving what will come to be. You are remembering your role as a keeper and writer of your own destiny, and just as the center of the web is always small (representing you), the web is eternally expanding (representing your unlimited, creative potentials). You are limited only by your own view of self…
…Spider also teaches the written alphabet, runes, and symbols so they help with weaving your words, creating deep meaning, and writing with creativity and power that brings others into greater connectivity with your message…
I shared this photo just over a week ago, but yesterday I was drawn to revisit it because I remembered having found the light energy around my foot to be interesting. As you can see, my right foot is immersed in violet energy – the very foot that this Sunday took a fracture for me, as the necessary shifts, recalibrations, upgrades, and adjustments are in effect for the new to anchor in a timely manner. Since posting about my foot and adventure surrounding it, I have heard from multiple, multiple people that either they or people they knew all had similar incidents take place on or around the same day with foot fractures (in one case the exact bone and foot as mine mirroring having now balanced out their left foot same injury, also just like mine from 5 years ago), foot pains and injuries, same side knee injuries, and footing feeling off-balance in general. Seems no coincidence of course with the Full Moon in Pisces we just moved through and the huge timeline doorways of intense energy potentials between the Solar Eclipse and the upcoming Equinox. We are all experiencing those energetic tweaks to align more with the new realities we are creating, which involves changes to the frequencies in which we walk forward and anchor in with.
I remember that five years ago when I fractured my left foot twice in a row (fractured left pinky toe immediately after I healed the metatarsal fracture on that foot) it involved literally walking through the threshold of a doorway and reminded me not to leave parts of myself behind and that the core emotional realm (the hardest for us all to change) had to follow in suit with the alignments otherwise the new would be tainted with the foundations of the old.
Remember that shadow work? That’s the underlying element driving so much of the collective contrasts and drama playing out right now.
So, I did in fact, place the Seven-Pointed Faery Star on my left foot as a sacred tattoo, to assist with walking through portals with greater ease and magickal support. The left of our bodies is actually connected to our right brain, which represents the Sacred Feminine and all that she embodies symbolically and literally.
That Feminine energy has been a focal point for most spiritualists, or “New Agers”, but as I’ve mentioned, we won’t be able to forget our parts and the Sacred Masculine energy is equally necessary to restructure and bring along as well. Hence, comes in the right foot, connected to the left brain and Sacred Male.
A balancing and harmonizing “dance” is the collective’s journey and I see it clearly playing out in my own Pisces body/feet.
So, yes, there is so much more than a personal experience we go through, and yet the personal is innately collective, and vice versa.
Interestingly, I wear a jaguar sacred tattoo on my right ankle, whose own paw extends down into my right foot, mirroring my strides forward. The male energy is action oriented and taking those steps will need to be made in new ways with the calculated wisdom of jaguar without wasting energy or revisiting old patterns and ways, in order to manifest the new.
I know for myself, I’ve spent a lifetime adjusting to my body and being at home here on Earth, since the nebulous Cosmos is more native to me. It is only within the last 2-3 years really that I’ve experienced that merging and grounding, which was only possible by releasing the life I was entangled in and venturing off into full Nature immersion to know the true “nature” of me.
My feet have always felt both odd and twinkly all of my life, making sense since a fish has fins. It’s why I came into this life dancing and loving to swim, as these were more congruent with the way my feet wanted to move.
However, as time has progressed and I’ve come to understand the energies I needed to evolve into and harmonize, my Capricorn ascendant and Mars taught me about where I was headed and was the only reason I never fell off the deep end. Capricorn/Earth energies have been my anchor and also rules the bones and structures, not to mention the “male” energy. I’ve been spending a lifetime restructuring myself and readjusting into a more frequency-aligned embodiment to “walk” this current timeline with. And that has involved sometimes very “Mars-like” ways that aren’t subtle and come with great force, passion, and gusto behind them.
We all are adjusting and restructuring, in our own ways. And I share my experiences as one way of delving into how things make sense based on my own energies I came into this life with, and how we can see it all as a gift rather than punishing ourselves or others.
I’m grateful for all the healing energy and love shared and send the same to all of you.
We are discovering keys to new doorways of experience and sometimes those literal symbolic experiences make things easier for us to understand since our minds are always looking for meaning.
There will come a time that simply “knowing” will do the trick, but until then I’m happy to keep sharing what I experience since I have been told it helps others with their own experiences.
So, when I look at this photo of the violet energy around my right foot, I do not see it as an omen of something forewarning me in a “bad” way (take a look at this photo closer and feel the magickal energy and support twinkling all around), but rather I see it as a frequency adjustment that was already taking form on the ethereal level and that now the physical and other parts were going to adjust and realign with – perhaps it was even setting up the perfectly supported experience for what it/I knew on another level was coming in order for things to manifest with greater ease (hence all the support and love around me that day that made it all a gift).
Violet light is connected to the seventh frequency and crown/universal consciousness and carries the energy of transmutation (helping dissolve karma and karmic ideas) to support divine alchemy and Cosmic transformation into manifestation.
That violet light had caught my attention when I first saw the photo, and now I understand the why.
As I continue to observe the collective energies, I am also constantly observing my own and both the reflections and contrasts that compliment and synergize the journey unfolding. I’m fascinated at the process and how I’ve been led to shift in ways of incorporating the macro within the micro experience…the wholeness of All That Is residing in the way I integrate and transmute energies as an experience of my own remembering and healing empowerment. I continue to go through shifts in my perspective on so much, which has changed the course I have been on and resulted in complete shifts of the way of life I once knew and committed to, to something altogether different. This has definitely led me to release a lot from my life and to understand the repetitive cycling nature of my focuses that needed to come to full circle closure once and for all.
And as always, these take on forms in the physical, as well as the energetic realms. And I see how rebirthing is a totality of experience that even transforms how I look because of the inner changes that take root. I can look back over the course of my life and just by seeing photos of myself, my physical form, hair colors and styles, clothing, demeanor, facial and eye color shifts, I can tell you the story of what I was embodying within.
I don’t know on the conscious level what I’m doing always when I make these changes, as it seems to be an inner knowing that takes hold without need to understand…they simply begin to take form because I have this strong urging, inspiration, and impulse that says do this! even if I can’t understand fully why or that it seems odd to what I’ve known of myself thus far.
This has been evolving in the last several months with my hair – believed my many Native Americans to be the spirit’s physical manifestation of growth that opens/enhances extrasensory perception and symbolizes connection to all things, as if like tentacles reaching out to the world around us.
Without meaning to, my hair has increased in lightness, as I’ve continued to support the dramatic “silver lining” of it to come through in the physical. This started slowly, but as you can see in the photos, has taken over about 75% of my hair. I still have the dark underlining – symbolic of both light and dark existing together and both a part and separate to each other – but now this halo of lightness pervades.
I’ve never been drawn to light hair for myself really, but something has definitely shifted with that and because of the silver essence, I am feeling at home in it, likely because of the Cosmic reflections/implications and not simply Earth-based ones inherent in it for me.
But symbolically, it also speaks to the rebirthing energy abound – for me, so many others, and the collective at large. There indeed seems to be an identity shift going on to more expansive ways of being and embodiment. I’m noticing it in many people I know and have discussed this with Laura who also is in process of her own shift in this regard – yet to be determined.
Perhaps many of you will identify with this as well and the journey I’m sharing will speak to your own transformations taking root on many levels.
For me, I’ve always been drawn to the dark….hence my dark, black sacred tattoos and for many many years having black hair (my natural is a medium/dark brown, which is the darker areas you see between the silver in the photos)…interestingly my skin also easily browns and can get very dark/even has gone quite black from the sun throughout my life.
I see this as the journey I’ve embarked on in knowing my shadow and being willing to also take on that energy for the collective in reflection to help bring things to the surface. It also speaks to me of the ancient connections, roots, and heavier/intense layers of soul history and within my DNA that I was led on a journey to dig deeply into, research, reclaim and understand in a new way – some of this being a pattern of recycling, but then finally breaking free of it.
And in mirror of the fluidity of life now being experienced and a shift into more lightness and gentle flow with things, I can see very clearly why this lightness has taken over my Crown Chakra.
Light haired – light hearted, as Laura mentioned, which was actually an auto-correct typo in texting with her that made much sense. 😉
That is definitely what I am feeling, as the heaviness has dissipated – even with all of the intensities in the collective right now. Perhaps that would seem odd to feel that, but since change begins with us and collective harmony will be a result of that peace within, I don’t find it surprising.
And yet this lightness is a new revisiting on the spiral of evolution, although exquisitely familiar. It feels infused with something fresh, inspiring, inviting, and full of creative potential.
It has not forgotten its parts.
It knows its wholeness.
And it contains sound seeds of harmonic confluence.
A field of dreams we have entered and reality is yours to dream into Being.
Yet be wary of what you intend to manifest, as it WILL.
I increasingly am seeing how responsible co-creation is of the essence. (something else Laura and I have discussed a lot)
Along with harnessing increasing power and magick, one must be conscious of the ramifications inherent in that experience and its far-reaching effects.
I remind myself constantly about seeing things from as many possible angles and probably potentials, and making sure to incorporate the highest good of all concerned in everything, as well as to be specific as to what I DON’T want to happen in order for my manifestations to take form, just as much as what I would love.
Dream big, but dream responsibly!
It’s been just 7 weeks since the magickal Astrid journeyed into my heart and life, but wow how she’s shifted in this short time. As shared before, not only was she a surprise to me, but her “special needs” had created the reason for her never being adopted by anyone all this time – something I feel was Divinely orchestrated in order for her to weed out non-aligned matches for the work she came here to do and share. That to include partnering with someone who could not only “see” her, but would benefit from the gifts and wisdom she has to impart. I feel blessed she chose me and grateful I was given the insight into her heart, beyond what was present on the surface.
If you recall, she had a “fight” or defensive and protective mode conditioned into her by all that she went through, learned as response, and was affected by in her past. This caused her to grunt, charge, lunge with her front paws, and basically seem to be in attack mode nearly every single time she was approached, she saw anything come at her, her food was put in front of her, you tried to pet her, etc.
She would only be calm under certain circumstances and allow only very present, peaceful, and pure energy of specific intent frequency to come near and not be met with this kind of behavior. So she truly asked/asks you to step into your wholeness and be centered and aware of your energy and what you are projecting from within at all times, what you have going on or are carrying, your intentions, and what REALLY is going on beneath your surface and at your core.
She still is a perfect mirror for this kind of thing with others, making her a wonderful reflection and therapy rabbit if you are ready to work with the truth of your Shadow, but her behavior has completely shifted with me and I’ve seen this trickle out to Dave and a couple of others who have come into her experience lately. Although still very sensitive to energies and sounds, as well as foreign and over-bearing extraneous vibrations in the environment from any source, she has become much less defensive, and more curiously cautious.
But as I said, with me she has completely shifted into a consistently peaceful and excited nature, never attacking or grunting anymore when I approach for any reason. She actually gets super happy when I approach and runs to me, lets me caress her, and even lets me kiss her head and face when she’s sitting on the ground, which would not have been an option before without a couple of paws coming at me! LOL!
She even lets me clean the corners of her eyes gently when she gets any little crusties there, which also would have freaked her out before and caused her to either run away or grunt and charge. She knows I’m taking care of her and being like another rabbit that would help groom her if she were in the wild or had a rabbit friend she loved. After all, I am a rabbit. 😉
She also used to grunt and smack the food out of my hand when I would put it in her bowl to feed her and now she lets me do this and put more in while she’s eating without a flinch.
She also lets me pick her up without moving an inch. She just sits there peacefully and allows me to pick her up and hold her when I feel called to. Although at first I was trying to do this each day, to keep her used to it, I shifted with that notion and no longer do it everyday, since she is exhibiting closeness in all ways, and I want her to know freedom too.
Plus, I want everything to be a very organic and natural flow of experience with our relationship that is governed not by me “training” her, but rather by us listening to one another and receiving the cues and telepathy that unites us in harmonic convergence.
So I pick her up randomly every few days or so when I sense things aligned for this, which makes it even more incredible that she just sits there and allows me to do this peacefully on an inconsistent basis, since she is running free all day and could easily just be like, “No way! I want to be free always, so don’t even try it.”
That was my experience with Nestor, my twin soul. She would let me snuggle her in every way on the floor, but never ever wanted to be held. Her spirit was a free soul who could not be trapped or confined.
Joy was not so keen on it either, but once I held her she was okay with it and enjoyed the snuggles, but I would have to pick her up when she was eating in her hay/litter box, so she didn’t know what was coming.
Cosmo, of course, was just a love bug and being that he couldn’t walk anyway, he was just super content with it all and enjoyed the closeness always of being held in healing love and spreading his.
So, Astrid is very different in this regard, and to me is quite special in her reflection of a new kind of relationship and dynamic not only as a personal mirror, but a collective one I feel that is anchoring (again, but also in a new way) and being remembered.
There is this sense of balance in terms of personal sovereignty and connection with both not having to be compromised, but in perfect harmony with one another that is honored and telepathically and simultaneously experienced in a fluid understanding and alignment of frequency.
A true partnership and equality…a knowingness, or rather, beingness that is anchoring as the shared experience.
Like the Yin to a Yang, Light to Dark/Shadow, Sacred Feminine to Sacred Masculine, one half to another…each their own individual expression, but only whole with the other – both present within oneself and all around us and yet also nonexistent within that perfect merging.
Astrid has come to relax in knowing and experiencing this from me in how I relate to her and understand this important piece she embodies – a reminder to stay present always in that integrative place of transmutation.
She’s amazingly helped me to “see” this and the dynamics very literally playing out so that it goes beyond just concept, but becomes the experience.
She and I have this incredible relationship anchoring in Cosmic Love, which I feel is the basis of her blossoming as she has.
I can only imagine what amazing things will continue to evolve with all of this. She already exhibits so much clarity of communication with me. When I say something (even if just in mind) when I’m in another room, she will come running over in response.
And of course, I LOVE how happy she is, which she exhibits with running and jumping (or binkies, as they’re called).
Also interesting is that she’s unaffected by the wood floors, which Joy had challenge with. It may be in part her confidence and perhaps even the thickly fur-padded feet she has, but she easily gets across the wood and explores, which makes me happy that she doesn’t feel confined anywhere due to what could feel like unstable grounding for most rabbits without pads on their feet.
It’s just amazing to experience all of these shifts so quickly with her and although she still chases off a cat now and then and establishes boundaries where they are concerned, she and I have complete understanding and no need for the same.
She does, however, let Boojum (our male cat) hang out in the same room with her a few feet away, if he’s calm and honors her boundaries, which he pretty much always does now. I feel that he really wants her to be his buddy/girlfriend, like Joy was (to him at least lol). So it’s like he’s courting her by respecting the boundaries, in hopes of someday more coming from it. Too funny. But I love how Astrid manages the energy around here.
Sweet Pea (our female cat) I feel is more threatened by her since she has insecurity issues in general with everything (extra challenged by a very big female power and presence now in her environment) and has this split behavior of sweetness and passive aggressiveness if she feels she has to prove herself (like to establish that dad is hers). But overall, she too, is allowed in the same room if she stays calm and not too close or comes at her with erratic energy.
I’ve had conversations with Sweet Pea recently about this and other behaviors, which seem to have suddenly started balancing out in the last 3 days. I know she understands and listens intently when I talk with her, ultimately wanting to balance out herself and step into the role of healer kitty that she is and I shared with her was something valuable/powerful that gave her opportunity to demonstrate and walk in as an example, rather than let triggers dominate.
My feeling is that much of these dynamics will shift in supportive ways again when things change in our living situation that will be supportive of everyone even more. (Will share more on that as it evolves how I see it to happen soon).
Astrid has truly demonstrated the hidden gifts within and how everything of value is to be seen from the heart and not based on what it seems superficially. She has completely shifted and will continue to do so, as well as continue to reveal much as things evolve further.
She, like Sweet Pea, now has the opportunity to bring forth her gifts and be an example as well of all that she has to impart and embody.
She truly is the perfect complimentary part to me…the Yin to my Yang, and literally is my Divine and Sacred half as a Virgo (her birthday is 9/15/14), which is my wise opposite to the Pisces me – all perfect for the now and not only helping to bring my own parts into integrative balance and alignment more every day, but to mirror this inside and out.
I know I will continue to uncover more of her hidden gifts and feel some incredible experiences are yet to come.
There is so much all around us to help guide us into a new relationship with, and experience of, “reality” as we’ve come to react to it.
Had I been put off like so many others had, or turned away from her when I met her and experienced her merely as an unwelcome trigger or abrasive energy to fight back at, deny, or ignore, I would not have experienced her magick, gained the wisdom of her teachings, nor would she have ever revealed the treasure within that truly All That Is around us, is beckoning us to arise to.
Alchemy is ours to choose.
We aren’t sure of what kind of rabbit she is – the closest description and resemblance I have found is that of a brindle coated American Sable Rabbit.
But none of that matters, as she, to me, represents all rabbits, all animals, all plants, all humans, all life forms, All That Is and the way I relate to her is representative of my relationship to it All.
Every single form of consciousness and Spirit in form here on Earth or formlessly off-planet, all reflect my relationship and communion to Everything.
Let us walk, swim, fly, climb, vibrate, and BE in harmonic presence to what TRULY is at work here and Cosmically weaving as the Grace of Love.
(Side note: I always have number sequences showing up for me…at different intervals, different numbers more than others and sometimes all of them. Recent days have seen a prominence of 5’s (my favorite), which herald huge transformational shifts and supportive change (with less frequent other sequences). Then yesterday I had so many 11:11 on 8/8 time and date stamps come through for me on everything and continued both with actually 11:11 and 1:11 sightings. Synchronously, I started writing this post yesterday, finishing it today, but when I wrote the title to kick this post off it was 11:11 on 8/8. 😉 )