April Energy Update from Lee Harris: Unexpected Events, Creative Energy on a High and The Past Meeting the Future
Today is a blog outside of my series themes because it feels important to share. This month’s energy update really rings in for me from Lee and I imagine will for many of you as well. I’ve noticed in the last week or so this anxiety energy emerging alongside the peace I feel. It made me want to linger in the void and even literally stay on the plane in between our vacation destination of Miami, where we were the last week, and our home in Tahoe. West to East to West I traveled and experienced extremes in altitudes, weather, and energies. Literally feeling like traveling between pasts and futures and reviewing thoughts of each as well and having them meet. It had my head throbbing upon return, trying to integrate the fast shifts I felt happening and the energies my sensitivities were picking up.
The trip was unexpected, as we were supposed to have friends visit, but cancelled last minute. With vacation days already booked we felt the Universe was telling us it was “us” time to prepare for the new momentum, and so we stayed the course of self-nurturing. The trip took its own twists and turns, as we were originally set and booked for Cabo, but found out my passport had expired in December and Dave’s was lost. It land-locked us in – an odd feeling for me, as I’ve had a passport for as long as I can remember – and had us having to change plans literally the day before leaving upon discovery of this. Obviously big reason to have this happen, as it is so unusual.
We did end up having a big downtime of literally doing nothing much but beaching it, nature, nurturing, and good vegan food, which was more necessary than I realized.
Huge surges of creativity coming through, but that sense of whoa! and feeling it blast through so much and how powerfully shifting it will be, which had me on edge and paralyzed to not want to budge forward or backward. But interestingly, also completely at peace with it at the same time and knowing there’s nothing to be worried about. I’m taking the nurturing steps to support myself through it, as I can feel how important it is to keep moving forward and take things to the next level of completion on this spiral.
There will always be new spirals and each one will seem challenging, but life is ever-transforming and expanding. It’s part of growth.
Synchronously my knee injury – MCL tear – has gone through a very quick healing process because of this slowing down, self nurturing, and staying the course it put me on. At just 4 weeks I’m back to regular activities, which is highly unusual given the type of injury that takes normally quite a while to heal. It’s still mending, but is not causing challenges – simply mindfulness and steady, deliberate, forward momentum.
This week, while we were away, we focused a lot on ever-presence, gratitude, savoring, and meeting everything with love. Talking things out and finding ways to invite even more joy and peace in.
Interesting also that we were just 2 hours from Bimini, and if we’d had our passports would have ventured there for a day since Dave has never been. As I sat on the beach looking on on the Atlantic Ocean, I could feel that Atlantean energy from there and these waters was coming to me instead and there would be an upgrade with throat and higher heart energies rolling in on the waves and winds to assist that growth to move forward and repattern things and release from things.
So this anxiety felt to be individual in feeling at a precipice of huge change, but also how that repatterning is connected with the collective, as with sensitives, we know we pick up “others” as if our own stuff, alone.
I also noticed “shadow” themes resurfacing in a new layer of peeling back the onion. Big big shifts that will bring up a lot of discomfort and even perhaps ugly feeling or looking things temporarily, that speaks to not having to continue to dwell in those old feelings, but how we can revision the new. This involves finding peace with now and focusing that desire for change in recreating what we want to experience, rather than continuing to look back.
So yeah, the three themes Lee talks about were certainly coming up this week during reflecting and made me smile in hearing his reflective message.
Definitely a new shift forward is happening now and there are ways we can move through it with greater ease.
My sharing this is about how I have and am experiencing this in my own way, as demonstration of what Lee shares about here:
Rebirthing seems to be a theme running through the collective and just today it came through to me through five different streams of experiences and messages from others. One of them being Astrid, as rabbits reflect this symbolism well. She’s been very eager the last couple of days to not only nudge me hard at my ankle, but has bee-lined to me in order to grab a hold of my pant leg with her teeth to get my attention.
Likely she knew of the energy overload I was experiencing and the upgrade about to take place, but it also seems she’s been really keen on my being with her so that we can navigate the unknowns together.
Rabbits are very at home in the labyrinth Netherworld where intricate underground passageways and dark twisting tunnels are the norm and where they feel secure navigating their travels by intuition and inner light alone.
Change is no stranger to them and they are accustomed to making decisions in the face of fear and maintain peaceful focus amidst chaos.
After all, their survival relies on it.
This sense of self and ingenuity is a gift that reflects to us our ability to master the same within us awaiting our reclaiming.
As Lee shared in his December Energy Update yesterday, “We are built to handle change.”
And as the ever-rebirthing rabbit says, “You, too, can get in touch with change and ride the sands of time, as the seasons weave their cycles.”
Astrid knows change very intimately and has braved the new every step of the way. Recently she shared about her own upgrade to a Castle Tower, and while it had mirrored our own shifts up until then, it was also foreshadowing more change upcoming for me.
That hit yesterday, as I’ve added a heap load of new into my life recently (including a wave of new energy painting) and its been a process to integrate a balanced schedule with it all.
I’ve been feeling a build-up of energy in a way I can’t describe and it catapulted me to this suspended point outside of this or that. It released tethers that provided any sense of familiarity and detached me even more.
Astrid says, “This is the Cosmic way, and when you are at home within this unknown, you realize the power of your own inner light above all else.”
It keeps coming at me with the expression of new inspiration and focuses, along with the stripping away of layers, the joy of surrendering things to others ready to own their own level of responsibility and reclaiming, and the deepening gratitude that stretches me to farther reaches of heart generosity that lives for today.
Astrid often sits tall and looks me straight into my heart with piercing wisdom that seems both so far away and so tangibly rich.
She says, “This is because I reflect the heart’s Great Mystery that can only be experienced by way of both loving and letting go more. Then you experience the vastness and beautiful complexity of Cosmic Love.”
She continues sharing “This overload of energy is a liminal space you’ve been experiencing as a compilation of layering new pieces onto pieces you don’t want to forget, while juggling ways to hold them within the still limited version of unrealized potential, rather than relaxing into these things already being who you are. The reminders have already done their work and the memory can now let go into the ease of embodiment. It’s time to create from the impetus of fertile inspiration and allow these to rebirth completely anew.”
And so, yesterday, my mini Notebook (the computer I’ve been using the last 5 years) finally and fully overloaded. I’ve been receiving messages from it over the past few months that there was no space remaining and our attempts to delete things went in vein.
Then my computer said, “No more.”
Just as Astrid said, “Come join me as you already are.”
Ironically and synchronously this took place yesterday directly after I posted Lee’s December Energy Update and right after I received an email from a very special spirit and artisan who after a couple of months since onset of our correspondence, had completed creating “a celestial muse” she was working on in collaboration with me that happens to embody “creation” and not surprisingly, but without me saying anything, wove the song of my heart into being.
It just so happened that I was ready for this, as anything of importance to me – truly only my new novel – is stored on a tiny little chip, and things that might “seem” important, but speak of the old days for me, were surrendered away. I let it all go, including several years of saved emails and work correspondence from days of the past and embraced Dave’s extra, heavy duty computer as my new replacement, which I’ve been using for our shared side business bookkeeping.
The overload caused everything to run in circles, take forever to implement, reverse working at all without hours of dissecting, and simply not listen to or understand commands.
In essence, I would not be moving forward unless I walked into a much more expansive field where pieces are not even present to remind me and only embodiment speaks for itself.
All of the new energy couldn’t keep piling on to things working in the background and using up space in one way or form. A larger playing field within the vortex of my heart had to be opened where things move freely and are simply an intrinsic part of me.
I said goodbye to the memories while closing all access of return and this new and vastly larger platform now provides the space for that “impetus of fertile inspiration” Astrid spoke of.
Better yet, I have no attachment to it and anything on it, which feels extra freeing, as I don’t feel the computer to be mine. It is more of a portal and conduit to bring things through, but to shut away and detach from at end of each day.
And then today, some wonderful and full circle soulful unfoldings took place when the perfect guardian said yes to my passing on three sacred items that speak of what has been some of the greatest importance to me and my lifetimes, which I only recently had also been nudged to surrender over in trust.
Astrid was specifically involved in this, literally getting my attention and moving these pieces into my awareness.
I couldn’t ask for a wiser companion.
I’ve also found myself giving out in bigger ways than ever lately, feeling that vastness and abundance, without need to hold on. There are infinite ways for things to come about. To hold onto something as an idea of insurance was also robbing the good it could do in so many other ways now, including the very way I thought it might one day help.
Astrid has been quite the muse in all of this – amusing and musing!
When I do something from that infinite place she binkies with delight – I call it a Cosmic Binky.
When I’m missing the point or urgency, she grabs hold of my pant leg.
When I’m “getting it” and download her wisdom, she peers deeply through me in her Buddha Bunny- like stance with eyes dark as the Cosmos and a twinkle of starlight at center.
This morning, as we were still prepping Dave’s computer for me I was upstairs at our usual Ask Astrid blog time so Queen Astrid came running upstairs to get me. She waited patiently beneath the graceful towering giraffes – her grounded sentinels of grace and divine purpose.
From there she was downloading today’s message, as she helped me to connect the dots with all the latest happenings.
Every day a new layer of fine-tuning is integrated.
She reminded me that every time my energy gets an “upgrade,” so do my computers and cell phones.
And we both know that this is true for many of you out there as well.
Our energy shifts affect things around us.
Rabbits are finely attuned to energies and reflect them to the tiniest degree.
My two other rabbits, Nestor and Joy, used to have physical blow-outs because of the expansive energy they would channel and their bodies had to readjust, which isn’t the easiest always for bunnies.
Astrid is much better at managing her energy and wants me to understand those tweaks and fine-tunings that can help with optimizing my own.
This time it wasn’t about forcing a change by crashing my computer and losing things, but more about mindfulness that gave me the option of tweaking realizations and moving forward more effectively and in bigger ways.
As we go through changes, which right now everyone is experiencing in varying degrees of relative intensity, there are ways to tune into those little tweaks so that we can all optimize our energy.
Sometimes they’re easier to see and feel than others, so reflections like these can assist us.
For me, it seems Astrid is sharing that just as she fully chewed down and got rid of her Carrot Cottage so it no longer takes up any space, in order to make space for her Castle Tower, so too did I need to look at the tiny ways space was being held by things I already embody.
I had even saved the top roof of the Carrot Cottage with the idea to create a little house upstairs for her and she was not interested in the least bit.
So I’ve since removed it completely once she said, “I told you we’re done mom. I love the memories it held of my being welcome to my forever home, but our love is now permanent and the cardboard house takes up space our hearts can use to create and anchor new growth in.”
So, in reflection, while I may have given up the work and things of the past, if it still sits there even as storage space on a computer, or as an item tucked away on a shelf, they’re still taking up space I could breathe more freely in and by removing them I brush away the dust of memories and awaken the sparkle of birthing new stars.
Astrid smiles. “Change is like the beautiful birth of a star.”
I think this extra expanded insight on Lee’s October update around identity shifts will speak to many of you on how to feel out the new opportunities on every level that are coming toward you.
In summary, Lee shares the following, but do listen to the video if this speaks to you:
Sit with the possibilities to feel them out before saying “yes.” Don’t just take the first upgrades that come along. Truly check in if your body is settled and at peace with it or if your mind is the one buzzing about it with excitement.
I know quite a few people going through these opportunities right now a-knocking that are really exciting in new ways they didn’t know was possible….and while you can’t do anything wrong, you may also be able to choose more from the deeper wisdom within.
There’s stuff coming at us really fast and turning over new things constantly…if you feel overwhelmed, take time before deciding things quickly to ensure old patterns aren’t still operating in the decision-making process.
You can choose tiny steps based on old patterned fears or choose based on the sensory body telling you it’s a huge upgrade.
No wrong in either. Simply choice and awareness around how and why you are choosing what you do.
One of the things Lee shares about on a potential way this sensory experience might translate for some of us has indeed kicked in since October 2nd when I began my new exercise routine implementing a much more involved experience of 5-day commitment to working with my body at the athletic center with coaches for training and classes. Something I thought I’d not be interested in, but makes complete sense as to why I listened to my body during this identity shift of my own I’m anchoring.
How are things in this vein translating for you?
So, so many changes in process for everyone and speeding up so fast that you hardly have the time to realize truly just how much IS happening and transforming before your eyes, despite thinking nothing much has or that you haven’t really accomplished anything. That’s just the ego speaking and judging, as when you stop to take it all in and review it all with gratitude, you’ll find that indeed nothing is the same and you’ve actually moved through and/or are processing, integrating, living, and implementing a lot and it’s really a whole other plane of experience than what was. And even if you have been resisting, your life likely STILL is different – just maybe not quite what you intended or imagined, but still available to you to change into that if you hop aboard and start choosing to create what you DO want.
Anyway, we’re all experiencing upgrades in relative ways and one example is a dear friend of mine who’s been making leaps and bounds, which seems to have manifested in the Magick Crystal Wand she became the guardian and keeper of.
She, too, has been experiencing the wild adventures and energy work via RV living on and off while she goes through a lot of transformations and deep integrative healing and expansion. On one of her journeys, her Twin Seer, Bridge Weaver Wand – As Above, So Below Magick Crystal Wand seemed to mirror the shifts, as it suddenly and mysteriously had its Rainbow infused Lemurian Quartz point pop off, but was still attached by the coiled gold wire spiraled around it. We talked about this and how it mirrored how one of my crystals exploded on the Magick Bus, but hers instead seemed to just propel itself with the upgrades and expansion, as well as healing she was experiencing and embracing in big ways with her path.
She/the Wand was ready for more!
And immediately I told her, I felt this meant an upgrade was needed to her wand to match the new reality she had readied herself for, which she felt too. So I had her send it back to me, which wouldn’t you know it arrived on the day of the Solar Eclipse!
I’d had a lot going on here, so I didn’t open the box until I was able to work on it, which wouldn’t you know was the Pisces Full Moon. And I completed it yesterday with new upgrades to match hers and support the new journey, as well as big upcoming RV adventure taking her into the next leg of her work.
Before sending it out today, I photographed the new creation so that you can see the changes from the photos in the link above of its original state (colors aren’t as vibrant as in person due to the morning sun still rising). I love how the Pisces Moon, however, was still out today for the photos, as you can see it to the right of the wand. So cool too, as it was gone behind the mountains the previous days by this time. Rapid shifts!
Alongside the Lemurian point it had another quartz activator below and two turquoise around that, all in gold wire wrapping and with 3 Goose feathers at top.
Interestingly, when the wand arrived, the feathers were mottled and although I could have nurtured them back into shape, I felt the feathers were in need of an upgrade too.
New changes I implemented included rewiring the entire top with new energy, removing the 3 Goose feathers there with 4 new feathers that called to me (this includes a white Seagull feather, 2 twin pigeon feathers transitioning from light to dark gray, and one smaller one with the same, but an additional dark gray spot – love the energy of the light and shadow gradations all integrated harmoniously as One – adding 5 Golden Ray Selenite Blossom Petals below the 10 quartz points, and a very light, lavender Amethyst that’s like a violet/white flame reminding me of the Violet Breath in Reiki as the heart of it all where I then also added between the Golden Ray Petals and Amethyst, a flowing group of 3 more feathers (that makes 7 in all now instead of the original 3), which include two large Goose feathers (a very dark one and a silver one – working with those contrasting and complimentary energies again and seeing the “silver lining” in it all), with a blue Steller’s Jay feather atop the two as the integrating point bringing clarity, wisdom and higher plane enlightenment to it all. Weeeeeeee!
To add to the descriptions in the link above on the original energies of the elements included, I’ll just paste in the new additions below for this Magick Crystal Wand’s guardian:
Five Golden Ray Selenite Blossom Petals – Golden (Ray) Selenite are powerful, beautiful, and high vibrational Crystals that have come to light calling in the highest frequency of white light and the Golden Ray of Buddha, some say, storing Ancient Priestess teachings and can be used for a variety of metaphysical purposes – making them excellent for any healing environment. It connects to the Solar Plexus, Third Eye, Heart, and Crown Chakras, helping to integrate, open, and activate them. This supports us in creatively manifesting what is from our heart, directing our will in a loving, joyful manner. We are then able to create our reality based on intention, trust, and joyful wisdom. It helps you to become attuned to, and harmonized with, your soul purpose for this lifetime. Focuses are on joy, manifestation, and creation/creative energies and are really good for digestive issues and addictions, as the dis-ease of one’s will.
Amethyst – Increases nobility, spiritual awareness, opens crown, psychic abilities, inner peace and healing, calmness, healing of body, mind and soul, positive transformation, protection, meditation, balance, relieve stress, communication, opens intuition, supports sobriety, helps with disorders, enhances memory, focus, and motivation.
Seagull Feather – These feathers bring the winds of new heart freedom, personal authentic power, creative self expression, and joyous new perspective to breathe in, ride, and navigate these constantly fluctuating energy streams with perseverance and vision to more clearly see the opportunity and purpose within everything.
Pigeon Feather – Pigeon and Dove both carry the same symbolism of peace and love, but also carry clear vision and dream messages that provide glimpses into things coming and confirm you are “on path”, divinity at work, blessings coming, opening mind and heart, healing, gentle self-nurturing, surrender and release, embrace the integrity of your natural self and purity of your creative spirit to nurture imagination and follow your own true path, as you cultivate hope for the new. The “between times,” but also heralds how the physical and spiritual are more rapidly merging with the thinning of veils that arrive with your willingness to see more clearly.
Steller’s Jay Feather – Blue Jay brings the energies of clarity (in this case double clarity/vision to express purity and truth of heart and soul with great clarity of thought in bringing these through to share), communication, presence, wise and balanced use of personal power, resourceful adaptability for ease, creative self-expression and assertion, sound and song, authenticity, and bringing higher thoughts into action. Their crest that reaches into the heavens, directly links both Earth and Universal/Cosmic energies, bridging them for integration and active expression of divinity brought into embodiment.
I loved it before and I love it even more now!
Embrace, be gentle and patient with, don’t judge, and LOVE every step of the journey, as it is all a beautiful reflection of creative energy in action. The new is anchoring in and the new is also yours to keep recreating! There is no end result to strive for…simply a wondrous journey to enjoy!