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Wonderland Fully Activated



Since my birthday my Wonderland office had the final touches fully ignited and it seems the perfect timing before heading off to Arizona in two days and on to our epic Grand Canyon adventure. Having this portal in full throttle will help in connecting with Astrid, as well as infuse the magick experienced on the journey into our home for our return. To say I love my room is an understatement. It really makes a difference for my work to have it align with my heart and to be so alive and enchanted. I feel that creating a sanctuary that speaks of and to your heart, is key. I’ve dreamed of this and am so grateful for manifesting it.


I’d been waiting to hang a few things and in the interim, synchronous stuff found their way to me and came as surprise birthday gifts that were not only exactly the right size and energy, but all tied into together from various unconnected places and people.


I had been building the entry wall layer by layer with things I had including creations from a magickal woodworker named the Jolly Geppetto, as well as received three wall hangings from friends as birthday gifts that included faeries in a faery tree, the “Bunny Trail” sign, and the magickal sayings. You can see these all here.

But it’s my tapestry that is only seen when I close the doors to this magickal realm, that really brought things to life. It’s called The Visitation and is an adaptation of Lewis Carroll’s literary classic, Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland by the late fantasy artist David Delamare.  It’s of Alice with Book and Fairies, created just prior to his death in 2016. I love that it exactly matches the same workmanship, coloring, and threaded edging as my large Queen Astranaithes tapestry over my desk. And that it goes perfectly with the theme and energy here.

It’s like a parallel world when I look at it from the comfort of my cozy chair that sits directly across from it where I read, edit, or do Tarot next to my shelf of books and magick.

I also love it because of my being immersed in book writing and it really feels activating for the world I enter and how the life of a writer, or artist for that matter, is one of solitude (at least that can be seen with the human eyes). So I love having all my “friends” around me and this image on the tapestry reflects the “unseens” who are part of my life and world of creating.


And then we come to this little fellow who greets everyone who enters here…oh how I adore him!! My official White Rabbit faery, who SO reminds me of Cosmo and is essence. He stands over a foot tall and has golden butterfly wings, a sweet smile, and carries a lantern to light the way.

My sweet friend KC/Bean (whom we’re going with to the GC) found it for me. She always texts me photos of bunnies everywhere that she sees and other things she knows I love. Many of the things have made their way home to me before, but this one was extra special and has some cool connections that took place in his coming to be with me. I love that he arrived on March 1st’s Full Moon too. His lantern has a little battery operated candle in it, courtesy of Bean’s mom. He speaks to the energy and whimsy you will find when entering here. And I love all of the symbolism he embodies that reflect the layers of signs above him. He is SO alive! Like everything else here.

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Just before he arrived, my mom and dad had gifted me a smaller white bunny for my birthday (pictured left) and I’d found the white bunny holding the yellow sunflower (pictured right) that matched and had to come home as his friend.

I also found this adorable laying rabbit that matched the gnomes and magick mushroom my parents gave me for Christmas. They now sit on either side of Astrid’s castle, as part of her realm, under the Faery succulent gardens sitting atop tree tables.

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And the long awaited White Rabbit pillow arrived as well, which sits on my “Beam me up” out-of-this-world, green writer’s chair. This is a sweet and gorgeous watercolor pillowcase by artist Karina Soboleva all the way from Russia – where my name originates. It’s so stunning and is perfect for masterminding the new.

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You’ve already seen my Wonderland book, at center of my book shelf, but now sitting atop it are two White Rabbit storykeepers – one small bunny/apprentice that was mine – and the other larger one a birthday gift from Faery Laura – unbeknownst to her that I had the little guy. Again perfect additions with their holding books and they now sit next to the Peter Rabbit (also gifted by Laura when I was in the Magick Bus) and my wands.

I also have my new and incredible “Faerie” book, dragons, and Cosmic eggs, snake skin I found on a hike once, etc. here along with a very cool piece of bark with lichen I found in the forest.

The last photo is of one of my birthday gifts to self – a custom Skeleton Key pen in Stardust Blue Lagoon acrylic with pewter fittings by the incredible Mark McCullough, who has since become a wonderful friend. It’s meant to celebrate this storybook year and that my book’s completion and manifestation is close at hand and along with writing it, I’m writing a new reality into being from my heart. There’s a mysterious and cosmic essence that beckons one deeper and perhaps may unlock the heart’s musings for my book. I also love that it goes with all the unique antique wood doors in the house and their original hardware that each features a different keyhole, but do not have keys (you can see my door handle in the photos above). I love imagining that each door is a portal into another reality and maybe, just maybe, this Skeleton Key pen might write my way into these worlds and beyond, opening them with just the right alchemy.

I think you get the theme here with everything. 😉

Writing and living fully my own reality and creating the outside to match the inside, in all ways.

I can’t stress enough the importance of “alignment” and for me that also has come to include more and more vulnerability and transparency, as I feel this can be helpful for others to merge into their own alignments too and experience magickal lives.

I hope you enjoy this fun journey into the “Wonderland” of my inner child’s imagination and heart.

“You know what the issue is with this world? Everyone wants some magical solution to their problem and everyone refuses to believe in magic.” ~ Alice in Wonderland, Lewis Carroll

The Beginning

Once upon a time there was a rabbit named Nestor.

She was made of stardust and reminded me I was too.

Life became magickal and my heart opened wide.

I’ve never been the same since…..

The Beginning


(Painting “Nestor” by me, Tania Marie)

The Alchemy of Storytelling


I feel that all of you creative visionaries channel from a place that exists between worlds (time out of time) and when you tune in to that frequency, you receive a clear broadcasting of Source’s creative expression, which reveals the all-encompassing beauty, wisdom and mystery of All That Is through You.

You each have a unique role in the collective story being woven. 

The only thing for you to do is to embrace your unique Cosmic role as channel for your thread.


(This is actually a reblog of a post from 3 years ago, but was unable to directly reblog it so I copied and reposted because it felt aligned with right now)

How Do You See The World?


You Are A Visionary


Full SuperMoon in Aquarius Energy – July 22nd, 2013

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Artist: Susan Seddon Boulet – Aquarius

I’ve found myself in the last week or two needing more rest, sleeping deeply, dreaming a lot, and waking up a bit later than usual. There is a lot going on in the inner realms and to trust and embrace the needs to retreat and nurture what is within is essential. This allows for things to naturally percolate while you are still actively engaged in a state of awareness, even if not fully “acting upon” at the moment. This will support leaps to take place as direct result.

It’s really important to become more and more acutely aware of your vibration and frequencies moment to moment and when and what seems to drive it up and down. It’s essential to find your center and realize that everything that takes you away from this is simply a temporary story that is not aligned with your highest vision of the soul and an illusion that does not have power over you unless you give it power.

Sitting in stillness of mindfulness is a powerful place and the energies for today are supporting this, as shared in Laura Brunos’ Oracle Report for today. It’s always nice to see we are synchronously feeling in alignment.

Here is a short summary of the Full Moon energy we are immersed in today:

This is a time to be the beauty of who you are and to express your truth and creative self-expression as is aligned with your highest. What you put out there right now in intention is powerful. This is a time to realize your power and say “yes” and “no” firmly, and mean it with all of your heart. It’s also a time to take stock of your energy and see how it can best be used efficiently, realizing where you are focusing over-time in areas that no longer are deserving of your energy, time, resources – be it job, relationship, or any other focus. There should be a balance of giving and receiving in all that you do.

I’ve seen this play out in my own life, where I used to give and give, but the channels of receiving were not as open, which ultimately will block the energy flow in all areas of life to bring in your abundance. And in opening the receiving end in equal balance, it has been a hugely supportive shift that is in more natural alignment and creates so much more joy and benefit, not to mention harmony and release of false resentments.

Everything has to be able to spiral in cycles, flow freely, move in and out. So really stay aware of your energy and vibration and see where things are blocked, unbalanced, where there are fears or you are focused on things taking away your attention or adding unnecessary anxiety. Have you become comfortable with and found a way to “put up” with things that are not aligned and limiting? Where are you placing your attention and how might it be helping you to avoid what your Higher Self set out for you this life?

People use all sorts of vices, including relationships and “only” focusing on helping others, and turn their backs on the relationship with themselves. It’s a common, but mis-interpreted thought that this is selfish and once again takes us back to the point that you haven’t anything real and lasting to provide others, if you haven’t taken care of your own needs. And by aligning with your soul authenticity, you will discover your divine collective service that flows naturally and without karmic creation or hidden resentments and one-sidedness.

It’s time to heal the healer and come to know the dance with your essence. Release all that doesn’t serve, that distracts, that blocks…and reveal your authenticity so that it can help you laser focus from the heart.

There is a lot of energy now supporting you to be more courageous and confident and feel ready to really take some bold leaps in your life with greater trust and inner knowing. Aquarius is also very altruistic and expansive in terms of your connection to the collective and community – in essence – cocreation. It’s also a very progressive, forward-thinking and moving sign that assists us in learning to be unconditional, unattached, and authentically compassionate from a place of power. And Leo, where the Sun currently is, will assist us in realizing the balance of how this comes about most productively and efficiently, when we know our true selves and bring forth our radiant heart’s self-expression and creative power.

You come to be of greatest service when you have learned to serve your truth.

And the Aquarius Full Moon reminds you that everything can be, and is, more fun when done together as this cohesive experience. Balance is always key. And learning discernment and timing for logic and intuition and when to take action and when to rest and be still is what we are learning.

It is time for you to be who you really are despite anything anymore. Do not be afraid to be you. While it may seem you are being different than many around you, I assure you that once “you” step out, not only will you feel more alive and realize there was nothing to fear, but you will suddenly find yourself drawing in others doing the same as you. This is where to focus – not on the vibrations that take you away from this, but that lead you further toward you.

There’s a focus with this Full Moon on energy and what you do with it, how you express it, and how well you’ve learned to process and manage it. In general, I feel this is our focus anyway, but being spot-lighted currently if you haven’t taken note already. You are an unlimited being and the creative potentials you have in how you want to perceive and utilize the energy is up to you. This is a time to exercise that. Aquarius is an air element so there is focus on the mind and shattering old patterns of thoughts and beliefs, releasing them fully so you can break out and explode into the more freeing expression of you.

Don’t be surprised if there is a feeling of build-up right now, or irritations being heightened. It’s merely sharing that you can no longer compress and repress things. If you just allow things to release through creative expression you can avoid having a blow out or shattering take place to your life. Taking responsibility, you can release things little by little and assist the process to be more natural and manageable than if you continue avoiding it and having it explode.

You can’t afford to hold anything in or back anymore. It’s going to come up and out whether you like it or not. Do whatever you are drawn to, to release it, but do it – be it exercise, dancing, writing, singing, painting, etc., express and do it, but with the awareness that it is for the highest good of all concerned.

Yes, your shadow aspects are at center stage, but realizing they are friend, not foe, you can utilize their assistance in integrating their messages for wholeness. Be gentle with yourself and others. There is no need for blame, only the courage to take responsibility for the now moment you can change it all in.

Creative power is one of your most valuable gifts available innately to you. It’s sad to see it forgotten and underutilized. Make it a goal to harness it from here on out. It is your ability to be creative and keep challenging your unlimitedness that will assist you in integrating things with greater ease, efficiency, and harmony. It will also keep you in your center and able to realize you can always get back there if momentarily taken off-center with less and less down time.

This Full Moon allows the visionary you to come to forefront, to be inspired with vision for creative action on a global level. You are capable now of changing your way of thinking and feeling towards a more expansive experience that has profound effects and reach for the highest good in collective and future productivity.

Finding the balance of emotion and intellect, you can harness a powerful source and force for inspired creation. Trust, flow, allow, let go, and be willing…You are in process of creating a new reality with clarity of vision that will contribute to the New Earth experience that has lasting effects because it takes into account all aspects of your highest soul vision in relation to the collective.

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