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Wonderland Fully Activated



Since my birthday my Wonderland office had the final touches fully ignited and it seems the perfect timing before heading off to Arizona in two days and on to our epic Grand Canyon adventure. Having this portal in full throttle will help in connecting with Astrid, as well as infuse the magick experienced on the journey into our home for our return. To say I love my room is an understatement. It really makes a difference for my work to have it align with my heart and to be so alive and enchanted. I feel that creating a sanctuary that speaks of and to your heart, is key. I’ve dreamed of this and am so grateful for manifesting it.


I’d been waiting to hang a few things and in the interim, synchronous stuff found their way to me and came as surprise birthday gifts that were not only exactly the right size and energy, but all tied into together from various unconnected places and people.


I had been building the entry wall layer by layer with things I had including creations from a magickal woodworker named the Jolly Geppetto, as well as received three wall hangings from friends as birthday gifts that included faeries in a faery tree, the “Bunny Trail” sign, and the magickal sayings. You can see these all here.

But it’s my tapestry that is only seen when I close the doors to this magickal realm, that really brought things to life. It’s called The Visitation and is an adaptation of Lewis Carroll’s literary classic, Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland by the late fantasy artist David Delamare.  It’s of Alice with Book and Fairies, created just prior to his death in 2016. I love that it exactly matches the same workmanship, coloring, and threaded edging as my large Queen Astranaithes tapestry over my desk. And that it goes perfectly with the theme and energy here.

It’s like a parallel world when I look at it from the comfort of my cozy chair that sits directly across from it where I read, edit, or do Tarot next to my shelf of books and magick.

I also love it because of my being immersed in book writing and it really feels activating for the world I enter and how the life of a writer, or artist for that matter, is one of solitude (at least that can be seen with the human eyes). So I love having all my “friends” around me and this image on the tapestry reflects the “unseens” who are part of my life and world of creating.


And then we come to this little fellow who greets everyone who enters here…oh how I adore him!! My official White Rabbit faery, who SO reminds me of Cosmo and is essence. He stands over a foot tall and has golden butterfly wings, a sweet smile, and carries a lantern to light the way.

My sweet friend KC/Bean (whom we’re going with to the GC) found it for me. She always texts me photos of bunnies everywhere that she sees and other things she knows I love. Many of the things have made their way home to me before, but this one was extra special and has some cool connections that took place in his coming to be with me. I love that he arrived on March 1st’s Full Moon too. His lantern has a little battery operated candle in it, courtesy of Bean’s mom. He speaks to the energy and whimsy you will find when entering here. And I love all of the symbolism he embodies that reflect the layers of signs above him. He is SO alive! Like everything else here.

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Just before he arrived, my mom and dad had gifted me a smaller white bunny for my birthday (pictured left) and I’d found the white bunny holding the yellow sunflower (pictured right) that matched and had to come home as his friend.

I also found this adorable laying rabbit that matched the gnomes and magick mushroom my parents gave me for Christmas. They now sit on either side of Astrid’s castle, as part of her realm, under the Faery succulent gardens sitting atop tree tables.

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And the long awaited White Rabbit pillow arrived as well, which sits on my “Beam me up” out-of-this-world, green writer’s chair. This is a sweet and gorgeous watercolor pillowcase by artist Karina Soboleva all the way from Russia – where my name originates. It’s so stunning and is perfect for masterminding the new.

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You’ve already seen my Wonderland book, at center of my book shelf, but now sitting atop it are two White Rabbit storykeepers – one small bunny/apprentice that was mine – and the other larger one a birthday gift from Faery Laura – unbeknownst to her that I had the little guy. Again perfect additions with their holding books and they now sit next to the Peter Rabbit (also gifted by Laura when I was in the Magick Bus) and my wands.

I also have my new and incredible “Faerie” book, dragons, and Cosmic eggs, snake skin I found on a hike once, etc. here along with a very cool piece of bark with lichen I found in the forest.

The last photo is of one of my birthday gifts to self – a custom Skeleton Key pen in Stardust Blue Lagoon acrylic with pewter fittings by the incredible Mark McCullough, who has since become a wonderful friend. It’s meant to celebrate this storybook year and that my book’s completion and manifestation is close at hand and along with writing it, I’m writing a new reality into being from my heart. There’s a mysterious and cosmic essence that beckons one deeper and perhaps may unlock the heart’s musings for my book. I also love that it goes with all the unique antique wood doors in the house and their original hardware that each features a different keyhole, but do not have keys (you can see my door handle in the photos above). I love imagining that each door is a portal into another reality and maybe, just maybe, this Skeleton Key pen might write my way into these worlds and beyond, opening them with just the right alchemy.

I think you get the theme here with everything. 😉

Writing and living fully my own reality and creating the outside to match the inside, in all ways.

I can’t stress enough the importance of “alignment” and for me that also has come to include more and more vulnerability and transparency, as I feel this can be helpful for others to merge into their own alignments too and experience magickal lives.

I hope you enjoy this fun journey into the “Wonderland” of my inner child’s imagination and heart.

“You know what the issue is with this world? Everyone wants some magical solution to their problem and everyone refuses to believe in magic.” ~ Alice in Wonderland, Lewis Carroll

Astrid & T in Wonderland ~ The Adventures Begin

There’s many things we love about our new home, but one of the standouts for Astrid and me is having our own little magickal room all to ourselves, which we call Wonderland. That to include direct access to our backyard and forest, as an extension of this new realm we’ve created together. Everything we love and that brings us joy, inspiration, and feeling of direct connection to Nature, the Cosmos, our creative wellsprings, and hearts, have been infused into this room. And yes, portals and welcoming for all of our friends, as well as for journeying into the imagination and beyond.

I’d promised to share, once things were complete and I had the time, so today is the day and feels appropriate, as I’ve been immersed more deeply in book editing since the New Moon and will be getting lost in that world more again.

There is SO much I could share about every little detail in our new sanctuary space, and for anyone who visits and IS interested, I will be happy to point them all out, share their stories, and the incredible synchronicities of how they all came together and tied into one another by their own divine weaving. It truly was as if I’d waved a magick wand with intention and then all the pieces came together and were drawn in by the energy vortex created here – but then perhaps I did 😉

“Oh, you can’t help that,’ said the cat. ‘We’re all mad here.”  Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland

Wonderland pretty much named itself, the moment I placed one of my prized birthday gifts to myself of last year, “Wonderland by Kirsty Mitchell,” center of my book case with two of my crystal wands laying atop it, framed by shelves of two Labradorite unicorns and a selenite unicorn horn above it, with my bunny collection below it. Chills rose up my back and my eyes locked in on the beautiful green, gold, and black book binding (matching my Faery Queen Astranaithes tapestry) with Wonderland written across it and knew the room and all who inhabit it had named it. We (Astrid and me) had indeed created our own version of a richly woven Wonderland.

That tapestry, which I had in our last home but feels was meant for this one, became the backdrop to my new desk space. It features the Faery Queen Astranaithes (pretty cool similarity to Astrid’s name) with her dragon familiar and harbinger by artist, Nene Thomas from her limited edition painting of the same. I’m always awed by how many people say that she looks like me and think that I had it made after myself. I’ve had several contractors now say the same thing and it always gives me chills.

The other of my last year’s birthday gifts I shared in the above link as well, 432hz binaural beat theta wave pair of A-note 9 inch quartz singing bowls, also made center stage of my room along with all my musical instruments, including a Chakra drum, Tibetan singing bowl, and flute and shamanic energy rattle I took home from Peru. Sound channeling will be a focal point and anchoring foundation of this new realm and for the first time I would have a space they could soak in the sun’s rays and support my musical musings.

I was hesitant at first to put them out, as Astrid likes to explore everything and I wanted to make sure she wouldn’t jump up there and knock over the crystal bowls or crystals. But within the first couple of days, I realized she was quite aware that this was sacred and she had no intention of doing anything but take in the energy of it all and support the creating to be channeled from them. She also seems to love her crystal orgonite Dragon. A chip off the old block.

Wonderland reflects the child within the soon-to-be 45-year-old-me, who I will eternally be, despite my silver hair.

It also reflects childhood dreams, my and Astrid’s essence, the author and artist me, and the love I have for my child – Astrid.

Others have human children while I have animal ones….they are all spirits embodying different forms, but for me I’ve chosen to support and co-create with the ones covered in fur that reflects their tender hearts. It is simply my path and what aligns most with my heart.

One of my intentions with this space was to make it feel like an indoor Faery garden, while still to have the practicality of being my creative/master-minding office space and meeting Astrid’s needs, feeling cozy, inviting, and transporting, overtly sharing who I am, but most of all I wanted to be surrounded by Nature and Magick.


  • the round sparkly green shag rug at center that mirrors grass – a favorite place for Astrid to lay
  • green in general being the focal color of everything (also connecting to the heart chakra)
  • two tapestries of the forest in green

  • four metal accent tables my succulents (2 topiaries and 2 Faery gardens) sit on that are tree branches with cardinals sitting on them (incidentally they just so happen to mirror the one red part of my Faery Queen tapestry, which is a cardinal)
  • a three tiered leafy vine metal shelf that happens to match the accent tables and houses all of my 25 Tarot decks

  • raw quartz (small and large that I found mostly all here in Tahoe) and crystals abound
  • two goddesses residing over the realm – Earth (she sits with two rabbits upon her) and Water (a Mernymph holding a harp) – depicted in collector’s plates a dear faery friend gifted me
  • two topiaries – a rabbit and turtle – decked out in succulents I planted on them
  • two pots of succulents with dragonflies and raw stones that sit atop my book case
  • two mini Faery succulent gardens (each their own realm)
  • three succulent wall planters – a star, a butterfly, and a musical note – that I planted and waited to root so they could be hung as live art (this was that big project with the over 100 succulents I hinted at before. I actually just got 15 more, as I’m adding in some, with a few others on the way because I’m creating a succulent centerpiece for our dining room table

  • tons of rabbits, butterflies, Faeries, dragons, Cosmic Eggs, unicorns, and even mermaids everywhere! This to include a little Faery village at the top of my book shelf resided over by Horus (a one-of-a-kind statue I picked up in Egypt) and includes a Merfaery shell house, a Faery house and even a happy little Gnome amidst the group next to a bottle of pixie dust.

  • I had gotten a rabbit foot mat for the sliding door, but it has become the foot mat under my desk instead because Astrid loves it so much and likes to lay on it by my feet when I’m there – I don’t blame her, as the three rabbits look exactly like her, not to mention there’s a rabbit hole to the left of them I think she is journeying down.

  • a garden stone mushroom and two Gnomes with moss that my parents gave us for our outdoor Faery garden when we get around to it, but for now they have become part of this realm and Astrid loves them so we’ll see if they end up staying

I have a video of her pretending to be part of the Gnome family and playing statue along with them, but it’s too large to upload here. She loves licking the mushroom and the Gnomes as well, which it captures, and exploring everything in sight within her realm.

  • a solar Faery with crystal ball globe also for the garden, but has taken a liking to my desk for now

  • a six and a half foot staff awaiting me to channel it into life
  • and more!

Everything is so alive and has a story to share. I couldn’t be more in my joy here even though I know for many this room would not be their cup of tea.

Yet here, the tea parties are ongoing and Faeries, bunnies, and the like are always sharing in jubilee, as this is a place for imagination and reality to meet.

“It’s always tea-time.” Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland

A portal to take you out of one reality and into another. Once you step in here, time is forgotten. Each of the tapestries and the painting act as large portals where the Other Realm can enter through. I remember in the last house when I first hung my painting that now again hangs here, that night I awoke and saw Gnomes, Elves, Faeries, and the like all jumping out of it and running through the halls. That’s when I knew it was alive with magick.

I love my desk, which is made of reclaimed wood atop metal legs to be safe from Astrid’s need to move energy through her teeth, as I have all of my beloved rabbit soul family (and Gaia) there in picture frames, embodied in their crystal reflections, and their ashes sitting in gorgeous pendant bottles supporting me daily with my channelings. I’m just missing my first bunny, Twinkie, as I am looking for the right photo and frame. But even how this desk came to me, the third-time’s-a-charm desk that was sent out, as each of the others was broken, was super cool. This was the most beautiful of the three and had a vibrant blue on the top third of it matching the blues in the painting and tapestry. The company never questioned a thing and just kept sending me new ones. We ended up with two for one because we were able to piece parts together from the other two, so we’ll have an extra for the garage.

But even my desk chair command post is out-of-this-world green (blending Nature and Cosmos – beam me up!) and will soon have a supportive pillow, which is the last thing on the way from Russia that showcases a sweet watercolor of a white rabbit by artist, Karina Soboleva.

I got a mini desk converter that allows me to create a stand up desk when I want to get off my Faery butt, by attaching legs to it that can be adjusted and placing my computer on top of it. It has a pull out side mini desk that holds a notebook and pen, a cup or water bottle holder and even a cell phone holder. The legs on it can also be extended so that I can create a mini desk that stands near my favorite chair so that I can sit in it to write and work, or move it next to a couch to do the same. Comfort and physical fitness versatility in one!

One of my other favorite things is the comfy labyrinth circle chair next to my book case where I can read, work, or do Tarot readings in comfort and in the company of the two bunny pillows that reside there. One of them reminds me of the Velveteen Rabbit, as it is so real and alive. It features a primitive, folk art standing rabbit pillow by Arnold Print Works of North Adams, MA. that is a vintage reproduction made c. 1960s. The Arnold Print Works of North Adams, MA dissolved around 1947, but this bunny remains alive and full of magick. The bottom of the fabric has seals on it of 1876 and 1892, so I take it that it is a reproduction of one from that time period.

Astrid seems to love the chair too and likes to talk to all of her friends up close and personal.

She seems especially interested in the two lower shelves of mom’s book case that house our rabbit collection, as well as hold hold our music and children’s books.

And speaking of vintage, that reminds me of our antique doors I made mention of in a previous post. One of the cool things I LOVE about this home is the antique doors. They are all originals and come from some old mansion in Reno that the previous owner purchased and put into this home. Each and every one of them is different and has all of the original brass hardware on them. They are quite old, worn, and different sizes, but beautiful. We’ve cleaned them down since all of the renovation and they just shine. I may shine them up myself later with some linseed oil even further, but the wood is really stunning. None of the locks work, and the ones with key holes would need a skeleton key, which do not exist, except for the one downstairs bathroom that has a big latch lock on it, almost like a barn door or something.

Anyway, I love these, as they feel like portals to different worlds and realities. The other cool antique that came with the house is an old claw-foot tub and that too draws me in to float off to another time and space reality, and adds this wonderful mix of old and new and timelessness here.

“Alice: How long is forever? White Rabbit: Sometimes, just one second.” Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland

The door on my office door is a skeleton key door and suits the energy of Wonderland with its old world feel.

I also love that our room is downstairs because it makes it feel like a Rabbit Hole and a secret Faery realm, which is supported by the fact that this room and the exercise/meditation/art and guest room and bath only sit under half of the house and the rest of the house under the main, upstairs living space is underground and has a crawlspace under it and under the deck. So in fact, Wonderland is on one end of the rabbit hole before you surface.

I’ve been gifted a lot of cool things right before creating Wonderland, which includes a bunch of Faery, Gnome, Unicorn, and Rabbit collector’s pop up and children’s books (all now finding the perfect place on my book case), some lovely old rabbit figurines (including a collector Blackberry rabbit from Watership Down, the collector’s plates I mentioned, and some other fun things like Faeries and orbs created by a sweet friend from resin, crystals, and metals for me and Astrid.

Yet, it’s Astrid’s special things I gifted to her as Christmas gifts that make my heart smile biggest. This includes her very own castle, as every Queen MUST have one!

Her castle has a tunnel in between and places to go inside and on top, where she can survey her realm while munching on hay and snacks, or taking a nap under the stars with her three crystals I placed there with her blanket.

I had a video of her eating from her special hay bin atop her castle, then moving to center over her tunnel to pose, and finally making a dash to her cushion throne under the center table. It was pretty cool, but too large to upload.

So, instead, here are some photos of Sleeping Beauty taking a snooze inside of her castle (front and back end sticking out in intervals), her peeking out to see if the coast is clear, and then making a mad, magickal dash when she thought no one was looking.

She also has a new bed/slash digging box decked out with loads of eco-nesting materials that are safe and edible, but cushy for her too.

She’s able to move in and out of her digging box bed to her castle with ease. Everything is set up for fun and wee!

AND, there’s the bunny romper room, rainbow lotus playhouse that sits under mom’s painting, titled “Once in a Blue Moon,” featuring Nestor and Joy (I plan to add Cosmo to it when I have time).

Her Lotus world houses her other bed/throne, litter/hay box, food/snack/water dishes, and a new play table that get this – it’s actually called the “Wonderland Play Table!”

It features birchwood legs for chewing, a digging box floor, two snack mobiles to chew and pull, and a top to hop on and survey her land from.

She still has her favorite two-story carrot house that now looks out on the side yard and forest from our new sliding door and deck (in the summer I’ll be able to put up her pen there for her to enjoy the outdoors and go in and out).

And she adores the grass-like shag rug at center that is anchored by three giant raw quartz that I found hiking here and has a little meditation/cushion support seat for mom to create her music there on the altar table that acts as another house for her.

If she’s not in her castle tunnel, on the second story of her carrot house, or by my feet, she can be found under this table – mostly on the seat cushion like a proper Queen – or laying next to her favorite giant Mother Quartz.

It pleases me so much that she loves her room and that I have been able to gift her what she deserves after all that she’s been through. I’ve always wanted to have something like this for my bunny loves, and now I finally can. I remember the first day she entered her realm and explored, and those moments we shared of mutual love and gratitude for the journey we both went through to get here. She and I both shed tears of joy and sunk deeper into our connection.

I’m grateful to be able to reflect to her that I SEE her and know who she is.

And I know she appreciates having her own space, which for the most part the cats stay away from. For 90% of the day that’s where you’ll find her. The rest of the time she might go exploring a bit, or come find us upstairs in the living room to watch movies with us at night, but mostly she loves the in between Faery times at dusk and dawn to herself, where she’ll be either at a window or sliding glass door peering out at the forest, stars, and Moon, or she’ll be jumping and racing about on one of the upstairs area rugs, which is sure to make anyone who sees her, giggle out loud.

And since we got the downstairs room put together, which is next to Wonderland, she is interested in that as well…especially curious about the exercise bike and all of the cushions, but also seemed to be giving mom’s easel a little nose nudge and lick of magick for future creations to come.

I’m curious to see if she’ll be as fascinated with mom’s rebounder, as Joy was.

I hope you enjoy this stroll through Wonderland through Astrid’s eyes and my own. I’ve laced this blog post with photos of it, Astrid enjoying it, and a couple of videos.

I love sharing my space with you, as it’s a way to give you a glimpse into the heart of me and Astrid, as well as an inside look at my creative realm and how I create it energetically and literally to support my intentions and life.

Maybe it might inspire others to create any kind of sacred space for yourself with intention that really supports, cultivates, nurtures, and inspires you to bring forth the best of you and your gifts you have to share.

I look forward to being in our space every day and am excited to see what will evolve from it.

Let the adventures begin!

Down the rabbit hole we go …..

“Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?’
‘That depends a good deal on where you want to get to,’ said the Cat.
‘I don’t much care where -‘ said Alice.
‘Then it doesn’t matter which way you go,’ said the Cat.
‘- so long as I get SOMEWHERE,’ Alice added as an explanation.
‘Oh, you’re sure to do that,’ said the Cat, ‘if you only walk long enough.”

Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland

Experience Magick Without Need for Explanation

I had this blog on my mind the last couple of days so I found it and am reposting it. I couldn’t just reblog it, as I already had once and WordPress lets you only do so one time. So I’m copying and pasting it here with different photos. Perhaps it speaks to your journey right now.


I just can’t get enough of this photo that a sweet friend tagged me in on Facebook. It’s not mine, but it sure speaks to my life hehe! And felt perfect for this blog post.


When magick finds you, embrace it and allow it to wash over you like a beautiful jasmine kissed breeze or a warm, rolling summer wave of Caribbean aqua silk ocean water.

Immerse yourself and just be with it.

When you find even just a little bit of magick in your life and you try to explain it, reason it out, and catch it, most often it will go away.

There are things in life meant to be experienced with a soft, brief yet soulful gaze, a gentle caress whose effects linger but the touch is but for a moment, or like a graceful butterfly that dances lightly around you just brushing your skin with whisper kisses, but never lingers long enough to settle.

After all, these things are fragile and not meant to be held, caged, or stopped to try to control them in any way, although they will create moments of time standing still and will take your breath away.

They are moments of magick.

Logic is a need to explain, prove, reason out, or have some control over something before you will believe it.

As humans, we tend to use logic solely or at least more than other things like intuition…and so we only learn a part of the truth.

While logic helps us to reason and decide if what we learn, hear, and see makes sense to us or not, and if we would like to choose that as our experience, it can also stop us from experiencing more.

Our senses shift when we come into a physical body and we tend to lose the ability to hear our spirits or to feel what authentically makes us whole. This happens because we begin to listen with other parts of us that feel more tangible…our ear and eyes alone do the listening and seeing and the unseen parts of us, well….go unseen and unheard.

The same holds true for our touch…only things we can tangibly feel with our physical senses and hold, make more sense to us, but the things felt only with the heart and soul we tend to disregard and won’t trust or believe in them to hold the same value, let alone let them guide our lives.

So despite having so many gifts naturally innate to who we are on a soul level, we begin to let others and other conditioning do all the thinking for us and make all of our choices for us too. To the point that we are no longer guiding the course of our own lives, but allowing others to tell us how to live.

Just because something can’t be explained or reasoned out, doesn’t mean it isn’t real or valuable.

There are many things that you can’t really fully explain – like love, imagination, faith, inspiration, how things like music happen, why artists, writers, and poets hear, feel, and see what others don’t, a mother’s bond with her child that transcends all, how twins are so in tune with each other even when separated, nature’s miracles, and even the miracle of you right here and now….

Aren’t the things you can’t explain just as, if not more so, important than the things you can?

Invite a little more magick into your life without a need for explanation and your natural gifts will begin to flourish, not to mention your life will feel more fulfilling and yes…become more magickal.


Rabbit Hole Initiations ~ Freedom & Alchemy are Ours to Choose



Today, and always, I celebrate the freedom to be me and when I/we trust being myself/ourselves we will find how everything else falls into synchronous alignment. Allowing your natural essence and channel to blossom open and following that guidance directly and fearlessly you will experience greater sense of well being and greater effects of change around you. It’s when you don’t support and follow that inner guidance that you feel deadened, depleted, a loss of power, and those around you mirror similar and trigger recognition of this – true power lies in being heartfully you. So choose to trust and support the spirit within you and honor its expression, as it will guide you to the highest and most harmonious ways.

“Spiritual people can be some of the most violent people you will ever meet. Mostly, they are violent to themselves. They violently try to control their minds, their emotions, and their bodies. They become upset with themselves and beat themselves up for not rising up to the conditioned mind’s idea of what it believes enlightenment to be. No one ever became free through such violence. Why is it that so few people are truly free? Because they try to conform to ideas, concepts, and beliefs in their heads. They try to concentrate their way to heaven. But freedom is about the natural state, the spontaneous and un-self-conscious expression of beingness. If you want to find it, see that the very idea of ‘a someone who is in control’ is a concept created by the mind. Take one step backward into the unknown.” ~Adyashanti

I completed my 10 day fast and 3 days of cleansing ease-in to get slowly back into eating regularly again. And I have to say that I feel so light, clear, and more in my essence. My mom commented yesterday how my eyes have gotten so light. This seems to be one of the physical shifts reflecting from this fast and recalibration, not to mention the literal snake skin shedding of 10+ pounds of old energy I was carrying.

In all, I feel super energized and really peace filled inside and out on an increased level. I can literally feel the light flowing through and this deep sense of balance and harmony.

Definitely inspiring and freedom-invoking. Like a bird soaring on the breeze.

Today’s 4th of July marks a return to healthy eating with a deepened sense of connection to my lifestyle choices.

It also ignites new shifts in the works coming forth into my life, seeming to show through in this capture, below, just two days ago of change taking form.

Bare-faced and nature immersed… The way I feel most free. Freedom to me is being who I really am and having the courage to shine my light no matter what.


Today also marks 6 years since my French grandpa on my mom’s side passed. He is the one grandparent I connected to most who helped cultivate my belief in the artist me, and nurtured me in that direction. We had a special bond and I know he walks beside me, encouraging me like he did when he was alive, to nurture and bring forth my gifts – believing in the creative artist I am.

He reminds me, too, to freely let that wild visionary artist out and not let anything conform to any standards, rules, and ideals of others/society in terms of that creative part of me with any of my projects. This speaks true, as even with the book I’m writing, it will not follow any parameters other than my inner guidance and creative heart – creating my own genre.

And that is freedom to me.


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These recent photos taken of me in the last two days really feel to reflect the deeper me I keep accessing more parts and layers of on this journey – integrating so many layers of timeless spirit. The parts unbridled and nurtured with love that I am drawing forth and have been sinking into greater comfort to share out loud.

And speaking of layers and journeys….last night’s dream was a potent one that is too far involved in symbolism to explain its meaning, but I felt to share it, as it feels very significant right now and I love writing things out to deepen the template of its birth and unfolding in my life.

The dream was set in an otherwordly dimension. I remember something/someone was following me or trying to stop me and my escape was through this journey I took – but in fact was the original focus I was on, anyway and not anything I was running from, but determined not to be deterred from.

I was traveling these parallel realities in this moving almost enclosed like rapidly moving escalator (best way I can describe it, but at the speed of light) that went forward diagonally then back diagonally and so on, along timeliness but not really past or future but different levels of now reality. (think the movie, Interstellar to sort of get a feeling/glimpse of an idea, when Cooper is in the Black Hole peering through the timeline layers of bookshelves)

I could see windows on each level with glimpses of that timeline and the people/beings/things within each. And each window/timeline was numbered.

I chose to stop at #47. (Could have age significance or numerological symbolism, as this number does in fact speak to everything powerfully – I’m 44)

I got out in what was an odd reality with people dressed creatively as if Alice in Wonderland-like combined with futuristic look that were at like a gathering or celebration. Things were sort of dark and felt like night or underground.

There was a room I entered where ahead of me was a dark tunnel labeled The Rabbit Hole with red around the black tunnel.

Now, originally this was not the destination where I was going, nor the focus of why I was traveling. I can’t remember the specific goal, but I was on a mission trying to do/fulfill something or free something, but stopped here.

I realized there was a sort of ritual or quest/game journey going on that only certainly people or initiates would undertake, which involved The Rabbit Hole.

I could feel the depths, layers, and potentially scary things needing utmost courage that were down in the dark depths where a giant White Rabbit was – but not easily found and quite the magickal trickster who I felt had a shadow side that would need cunning to outsmart.

If chosen to take on this task, you were not guaranteed survival, but you would enter the Rabbit Hole alone with only inner vision to guide you. That is, if you had the courage to find the White Rabbit.

Then a cloaked woman showed up and asked if I wanted to find the White Rabbit or set all of the White Rabbits free.

In her arms she carried black cloaks, which I would need to wear if I chose the mission and accepted the task to enter into the darkness and see if I could do so.

I agreed because I instinctively got the feeling this was the key to the bigger goal/mission I was originally on. I had to do this if I was to accomplish the bigger picture.

And so, in my dream, I was getting ready to enter The Rabbit Hole and had just done so.

I don’t remember anymore.

This somewhat seems to echo the symbolism I shared in this post of mine from a month ago today:

Follow the White Rabbit

Yes incredibly freeing life changes are a-knockin’. And it will take the greatest onpour of spirit essence into it all to manifest.

It makes sense that I took this purposeful and necessary “detour” to follow the White Rabbit, which is symbolic of the transitional journey and process, as well as the new opportunities, ideas, and paths being pursued.

And this just may be the journey calling many of us, too, right now.

Despite people’s doubts or inability to understand where I’m heading, despite the hurdles and challenges, or the shadow dynamics that will need to be journeyed through…I forge on as the artist of life I was born to be. Whom my grandfather saw in me. And whom I have the freedom to embody and choose to express however I desire.

We each do. Remember that.

(The first photo of Astrid and me reminds me almost of an Alice in Wonderland image…or a Faery with her familiar. Although Astrid is not white, she embodies the shadow I will journey within The Rabbit Hole and is also the illusion perceived in what our eyes alone tell a story to us about. The true gift is revealed to those willing to travel through the illusion and alchemy is achieved when we discover truth through the vision of our hearts. This reveals how light and shadow is within us all and what seems like a Dark Rabbit, may in fact also be the White Rabbit in disguise. And vice versa. One of the many gifts Astrid is sharing with me, as I had felt a White Rabbit coming to me – Zephyr indeed is that. However, I am learning that Astrid embodies the less obvious (the complex layers of my new journey) and is initiating those ready to work true magick and alchemy in understanding the realities of perception and true vision, along with true power.)

Divine Surprises ~ Following the White Rabbit Blew Zephyr In & Cosmically Aligned Astrid

My journey has intensified, deepened, and expanded with rabbits. And although I am, and have been my whole life, strongly empathic to all animals and identified with them the most, making it imperative I change my lifestyle choices in all ways, it became evident that my calling and path was to be a voice for rabbits and all of life through my work with them. After having assisted Joy and Cosmo to move on, I didn’t really know how things would unfold and took time to just let things evolve naturally. Then one day around 3 months ago I began feeling like something was missing, making me realize that me without a rabbit just isn’t me, and then sensed a rabbit was coming and that I was ready.

And so I heard the call and listened.

This led me to start exploring SaveABunny’s website of available rabbits for adoption. SaveABunny is a non-profit rabbit rescue organization based in Northern California and is where I was led by my rabbit/twin soul Nestor to find Joy in 2008 – taking her home two days before my birthday in 2009. It’s about 3 hours and 20 minutes from our home in Lake Tahoe, so it wasn’t like I could just go over there, so I knew things would be a process.

As I explored the bunnies on their page of rabbits for adoption I was energetically drawn to one named Big Sur. There was no information about him like most of the others, except where he came from. I did notice that his ears were half missing though. So I wanted to touch in and find out his status and background.

This was the only photo I saw of him that began this whole journey, but his soul spoke through his eyes to mine and that was it.

It took a little while to hear back, as they are a busy, volunteer-only organization but then got info he was stable and learned more about his background.

I felt he was the one and so I then talked with Dave to make sure he was on board and ok with bringing in another bunny and he told me that if I feel it’s what I want and it’s important for me and my path then he supports that.

However, I knew we had a lot of upcoming travels coming and so I knew it wasn’t a good idea to adopt him until the travels were done, as I would want to establish solidity and be there to create the feeling of home and safety – not up and leave right away, which would feel like abandonment.

After asking about my options and exploring what I could do, we all decided the best was to just wait until my travels were done and come in at that time to adopt. There was no telling what could evolve in the meantime, but the thing I was being told was to TRUST.

There was a process unfolding and it wasn’t to be rushed, as there are many working parts and variables that can always shift at any moment these day and things do in fact change overnight, not to mention my travels would shift energies as well for me, as would the rapid changes I keep making create rippling shifts. So I waited very patiently, but quite anxiously.

While in Sedona I felt more solidified with everything and asked during my labyrinth walk on the Full Moon for clarity and support with the whole process for the highest good. It was in Sedona as well that I received his name – Zephyr, which means a gentle wind or soft breeze from the west (which he was….blowing into my life from the west coast area, west of Tahoe). It also means the Greek god of the west wind.

There was connection with avian bird energy with this name and meaning that are around me so much and Zephyr Cove where we walk all the time and I would think of him.

I made a full commitment by filling out an adoption form online and this spun things further into motion and declared my readiness and commitment out loud to the Universe to welcome in a new rabbit companion, as well as continue on with my path in a larger way. A lot of synchronous things kept happening and it felt in flow.

I also had a dream of him, which was telling and something I’d been waiting to see if that would happen, as all of my bunnies communicate that way (so does Gaia my tortoise). It is indication that we are able to telepathically communicate and that there is a bond there.

And he DID come to me in dream time, which involved some communication and me being with him while we were bonding and I rubbed his third eye and the area around his sweet ears.

I later also had another dream and the connection continued daily with feeling him so strongly and communicating to him with ease.

Then on Beltane I received confirmation of my appointment and time to go in and adopt him, which ended up being on June 20th Solstice at 1:30pm. Magick was at work indeed, as Joy departed to the stars on June 21st of last year and the Solstice this year would be at 9:24 pm Pacific Time for me, so right in the transition portal of it all.

Divine perfection unfolding for sure in full circle and the closing and opening of doors.

So a little about Big Sur, who for me is Zephyr (or Baby Z, as I lovingly call him by nickname when communicating to him – all of my loves receive tons of nicknames). Both of his names seemed to perfectly align with his watery and airy nature too.

Anyway, Big Sur/Zephyr came in from Salinas Animal Services in November 2016 and came to SaveABunny soon after. He is blind in his right eye and had bite wounds beyond his ears having been bitten off. He was treated and neutered, went on antibiotics, but healed very well.

When I first inquired they said he was stable, wasn’t on medication, and his blood panel hadn’t shown anything serious.

He’s been through a lot, but remains incredibly loving and sweet (remind you of anyone? – hint Cosmo) and likely was a breeding rabbit at a meat farm, which attests for his injuries from the horrible conditions of these cruel places.

Here’s a recent photo of him showing how well he’s healed.

I find rabbits to be unique in that they transcend or bridge several categories of animals.

They are domestic, farm, and wild animals and not only are seen as animal companions/pets, but also are farmed or hunted for their meat, farmed or hunted for their fur, and are one of the most commonly used and abused animals in terms of lab testing and experiments.

Not only have rabbits become synonymous with cosmetics animal testing throughout the world, enduring horrendous suffering in the name of “beauty,” but their image is the most recognized and used on cruelty-free labeling.

American Anti-Vivisection Society shares this article:

Rabbits in Science

PETA shares this article:

Rabbits in Labratories

Rabbit meat is being promoted as the new “super meat” although not as easily commercially produced on an industrial scale (thank goodness!) because of their weaker immune systems and overall die more easily, but is still being done. There are even crazy motivation and incentive articles like this trying to get people to do it more: 7 Reasons to Raise Rabbits for Meat

Just blows my mind.

Anyway, back to Zephyr/Big Sur.

After Sedona we were in Australia and upon returning from Australia I found out when checking in that he wasn’t doing so well. He’s had a couple setbacks, went into stasis and Marcy, the founder of SaveABunny just didn’t know in any definitive way what was wrong.

Either he was having medical complications solely, or he was depressed and this was causing issues.

So she asked me what I thought, as she was thinking of moving him to a different area and potentially seeing if he wanted/needed another bunny friend.

I told her to do anything she felt was in his highest good, as that was what was most important. It wasn’t about me. It was about him.

In the meantime I connected with him and communicated all of my thoughts and sent him energy, telling him I would be there soon to see him.

A little while after I learned he was doing better and had been moved to a larger area with even more light.

We then were in Austin and I checked in again two nights before going in to SaveABunny to see how he was.

I received a message that he was “OK” but that it really was hard to know.

What I didn’t mention is that when I first learned he wasn’t doing well I did some work around things for myself, as I knew I was being asked to go to another level. I allowed myself to be sad and although I had released things to the highest good from the get-go, and was open to him leading me to another bunny if in fact something didn’t work out for whatever reason, I still needed to go deeper.

And so I did.

I realized that when I was inquiring about him I was wanting there not to be any further major medical issues other than needing to take into account his blindness and ears, as well as emotional challenges he might have from everything, but I know at the core of me that my path is not about certainties and perfect scenarios and not about being afraid to take in an extremely challenged bunny, or any challenge for that matter in life, as the growth for me is in the difficult decisions and expanding my emotions and abilities beyond where I’ve gotten to so far. This is what I feel to be the balancing between love and mission I’m learning and is a huge cosmic focus too being worked out collectively, I feel.

And I did a lot of work around supporting him with what ever he needed and wanted that would be for his highest good and overall for everyone involved. I also, for the first time, opened to looking at other potential bunnies on their website, in case I really would be needing to take home another. And I asked him to lead me there, if so, and that I would have the clarity to be able to make the highest decisions. I also worked through my emotions, as I was saddened by hearing of his condition and potentially not being able to take him, or worse. I was ready for anything and asked that I’d have the strength to do what was right.

If you remember in my blog post Follow the White Rabbit I shared:

“Following the White Rabbit is where the journey begins…a reminder to take chances in life, follow your intuitive nudges and gut instincts, and let your heart and inner mind lead the way. A new way of feeling, thinking, seeing, believing, and being is just around the corner, or perhaps “down the rabbit hole,” leading you to a new opportunity and a whole whimsical “Wonderland” of unlimited possibilities and magickal experiences.”

And here I found myself following the White Rabbit – Zephyr – on a new journey of surprising twists and turns and magickal unfolding. I had no idea where this path would lead, how it would end, what was involved, but down the rabbit hole I went, following my heart and intuition, regardless. I just knew this is what I needed to do – tough as it might be.

This led me to Tuesday, 6/20, Summer Solstice, a big journey, and a surprise. Sweetly, my friend here in Lake Tahoe offered to go with me on this trip, which was such a blessing and I’m deeply grateful for. I had just planned to go on my own since Dave had to work, but having Sharon along was a gift and great support for the day. She even packed us a whole cooler of drinks and healthy snacks and food and captured some photos for me. I loved that it also enabled her to connect with and learn more about the bunnies too, which she loved.

This was my transition day of easing into my cleanse (which meant backing off of food, which I did) so everything she brought was perfect, as they were light and healthy and I ate just as much as I needed to sustain for the day’s challenges.

The drive wasn’t bad at all going and we arrived as Marcy was outside and immediately it felt like yesterday I’d been there (remembering the place, the street, her) even though it was a little over 8 years ago since I’d last visited. I’ve met Marcy in person 4 times now, but it always seems like yesterday.

Anyway, she brought us in and gave us the tour, introduced us to all of the bunnies briefly, and lastly I met Zephyr/Big Sur.

He was just as sweet as he was in our communicating and what I’d felt from him. Just a love bug and he just nuzzled into my hand. My heart melted.

I had already fallen in love with him, but that was solidified and deepened.

Well, the story takes a turn here, as we ended up being at SaveABunny for nearly 4 hours, which was totally unexpected. Part of that was in connecting with the bunnies, but a large part was due to me having to process things about the challenge I was presented.

To try and not extend this out too long, I had to decide if I should really take Zephyr or not, and which bunny I should take, if in fact I didn’t.


Well, after talking with Marcy and feeling things out with him more it was evident his condition is an unknown, potentially volatile one and his blood panel had shown kidney issues likely as well, he is still up and down in behavior and eating. He had also been moved to a larger pen area next to Amandine, who is a large, white and extremely conscious, nurturing, healer, mother bunny (pictured below).

He’d gotten better from his setbacks and stasis since moving next to her.

Marcy left it up to me, because she trusts me, but wanted me to know everything to make the best decision.

And in the meantime, she wanted me to tune into one other bunny, in particular, named De Ja Vu. But to feel out all of the bunnies, in general.

So I was introduced to De Ja Vu who was just to the right a bit of Zephyr. De Ja Vu has been at SaveABunny the longest (since 2015 – so 2 years) , other than Pee Wee whose been there since 2014.

No one has wanted to adopt her because she acts assertive right away and people, in general, unless they are feeling into things a bit more, look for the cute, snuggly, beautiful breeds, and not everyone is willing to put in the extra time and effort for “special needs”.

Although De Ja Vu does not have physical challenges, she is still a special needs bunny.

Anyway, she will grunt and charge at first, but you need to look beyond this and understand what’s going on, which isn’t all just her challenges, but what she’s reflecting, as she is sensitive to every energetic nuance. Not in a “I’m going to take this personally way” but as in noticing the shifts in frequencies immediately from your state of being, feeling, and mind, or the environment.

So I pet her a bit and then sat down, as Marcy gave her to me to hold, showing me how she likes to be held.


And I sat with her for quite a while, as she relaxed and we connected…and she started to vibrate and hum, which is like their version of purring. Marcy said this is like the best compliment from a bunny.

And I felt into her and her heart beyond the “stuff”.

Marcy shared with me about her, but left me to be with her and to connect. She and I both do Reiki and intuitively feel things and communicate with the bunnies, so she didn’t want to get in the way of that, but did share her feelings.

And so my process began and the challenges continued to appear for me to rise to.

The rest of my time was spent in contemplation, feeling into things, had conversations for mirroring reflection with those dear to me, and continuing to touch in with the bunnies.

Several times I had to remove myself from the space and go outside, as I needed to make sure what I was feeling was my own and that I wasn’t absorbing all the energies around.

My biggest contemplation faced was in having made a commitment to Zephyr and not wanting to break that unless he wanted me to, as I was ready to take him in any condition he was in if he wanted that, even if that only meant his being with me for a short while.

But it had to be because that was for his highest good and not simply to satisfy something within me or even just to keep my word, because unconditional and universal love is doing what is in his best interests and releasing any attachment and personal stuff.

So this was very emotional for me, as I loved him so much and really had to know what HE wanted and that he wouldn’t be hurt if I didn’t take him.

I loved all the bunnies in there for different reasons and could have taken any of them, but I also needed to have with me the one that was in their best interest, mine, and the path together for the highest good we’d be sharing through our work together and the journey ahead and its potential collective reach. As I am embarking on a lot of new and big things and the bunny with me would be an important co-creator in that.

This was no light decision.

And after tuning in, I did feel like Zephyr/Big Sur and De Ja Vu were the two bunnies I connected with most. Amandine, the other very conscious bunny next to Zephyr would have been one too, but Marcy might be keeping her (so she’s not available for adoption) and currently she’s Zephyr’s anchor. So, I don’t entertain things that aren’t possibilities currently.

I did hold another bunny named Mystique who was a sweetie too, but she didn’t feel to be aligned with the path I’m on and the further work I need to evolve through and do right now, although I felt so much love for her as well.

And “coincidentally” there just happened to be a rabbit that looked just like Nestor that was directly across from Big Sur/Zephyr and a couple of bunnies that looked similar to Joy. My little ones were all around me supporting the process.

So, I weighed and weighed and would go back in to connect with both of them – Zephyr/Big Sur and De Ja Vu.

And I asked Zephyr to show me signs and let me know.

What I was getting was that even just taking him on the long trip home would be stressful for him and then I had to think of his condition and being around cats at home and how that would stress him out and/or affect his sensitive health right now.

It did not feel good.

And when I saw him inside next to Amandine, although they were not in the same pen and not right up against each other by the gate partition, they were in fact communicating A LOT. There was tons going on between them energetically and it felt to be stabilizing, balancing, and helpful in his process – what ever that was to be.

How could I remove him from that and make unsettled what was settled?

It was not about me.

And in fact, De Ja Vu is an incredibly higher conscious bunny who no one could understand, but Marcy. She was in a similar situation of potentially never being adopted, like him (since he is a white rabbit with red eyes – people don’t like that much – and physically not perfect in visual and health). She has things to work through in an unseen way and someone would need to “see” that and realize what she has to offer too.

My intuition was telling me it was her, but I had a lot to process to get my emotions on board and balanced, as all of this was emotionally challenging for me. I began my grieving, as the knowing part of me just knew.

And this was reflected in my conversations with others, as I love hearing myself out loud for mirroring.

Eventually, I had the strength to make the call and decision out loud and told Marcy.

She was elated.

I then shared with her that I felt Big Sur/Zephyr was where he needed to be right now and that Amandine was helping and to take him away from that would disturb the balance and contentment he is starting to have. I shared that he and I would still continue being connected and work together but from afar. She was so happy to hear what I shared because it confirmed for her what she felt too about the two of them and moving him with her.

We both looked over at them and could feel the energy that was palpable. Marcy said she got chills and at the same exact time, so did I, and they continued for a while extending through our entire bodies.

Everything was in divine order.

And as Marcy began the paperwork for me to adopt De Ja Vu, I looked back over at Zephyr and his cute behind started vibrating and his tail wiggled. I’d never seen this. It made me smile. And I knew in our hearts he was still my bunny, but I would be entrusting his care to Amandine to nurture in his best interests.

Meanwhile, I will be sponsoring him to help care for his needs and continue in my commitment to him.

In this way I actually have two bunnies – one by distance and one who will be with me.

Throughout the day and during adoption, I learned more about De Ja Vu including likely having been bred as a meat and fur rabbit and having been in and out of three shelters/rescues already since very young, one of which being known to be a horrible place for the animals kept there – Solono County Animal Care & Services, later to be taken in by Marin Humane Society, and then coming to be at SaveABunny.

She’s still young herself, likely no more than 3 years old (it’s always hard to tell), according to estimates on her paperwork of her age upon arrival to the other places. And in fact, would only be turning 3 come this September. Zephyr is more like 8 or 9 years old.

Physically, she’s a gorgeous bunny, which I had no idea I’d be taking home (although they’re all gorgeous to me in their own way). I never go by visual alone, but see the spirit.

And another surprise was that she has dark fur, whereas I felt a white bunny coming to me – well he did and still is with me as my angel!

Her fur is actually all these shades of almost black, charcoal, silver, and even honey golden with patterns that will continue to shift as she molts. Her fur is actually reminiscent of obsidian – especially the gold and silver obsidian valued and honored by the Mayans and also reminds me of the Cosmos.

She’s a larger bunny, very robust, sturdy, strong, and physically in great health.

However, it is her internal world that requires special needs, which is actually more challenging since you don’t know exactly what you’re dealing with and can’t see it tangibly.

She has a fight mode and this runs deep along with other emotional things. Some is a test and teaching for anyone in contact with her because of her mirroring, but also is connected to getting to the heart of her and to see if you can break through to her core – be worthy of that, plus what she’s seen and been through that she feels to be holding grief over – eventually I hope for her to come to find peace and healing here with me.

She requires a lot of patience, presence, and tuning in to really understand and work through things with her.

But SHE will also be facilitating that work and working YOU, as not only is it her stuff, but also her mirroring yours. If you shift energy just one second, she immediately reacts. Definitely keeps you on your toes and you can’t approach her with any less than yourself.

She asks you to rise to your highest and to maintain that. Otherwise, you can’t meet with that part of her. She’ll grunt and charge with her front paws, or completely with her body if she feels something off, threatened, or simply wanting to test you to see if you’ll easily back off or not get the clue, or if you’ll stand in your strength like she does…then she respects you.

Marcy feels that she’s been waiting for that right person to see her and that she could work with, all of this time she’s been there and not getting adopted. It was emotional to watch the two of them say goodbye, as Marcy told her, “You did it” and also to hear the excitement from one of the regular volunteers when Marcy shared the news.

She asked her to guess who got adopted and when she said “De Ja Vu?” and Marcy confirmed, the woman literally squealed with delight and major joy, telling me how lucky we both were and that I will just adore her.

Well, I already do and I already appreciate and am grateful for the challenge she is providing me, as she feels like the perfect rabbit for me to help me to expand further and challenge and push all of me to go beyond. And I know she’s a super conscious healing bunny who has tons of magick to reveal and will be getting her Reiki training when she’s ready.

She’s also the first female rabbit I’ve had with straight ears, as my others were lops with floppy ears. Only Cosmo and her have had the straight ears. And also Zephyr.

She also REALLY epitomizes my blog I shared about rabbits being tiny ponies, as she sure is! She’s definitely a great therapy rabbit and masterful guide in terms of her mirroring abilities. Just like horses so beautifully and transparently reflect our true vibration, which aids us in taking responsibility for ourselves, this is the M.O. of De Ja Vu. She very attentively listens to the audible and inaudible and understands everything.

And she’s a little fire cracker too! Quite the bad a– bunny with both heart and power. I’d been concerned with her sensitivities that the cats could be too much, but Marcy said “Oh, she’ll beat the sh– out of them”. And she’s been right, as she showed them who’s boss the second she’s been home and they don’t mess much with her.

She’s already created her Queen’s realm. 😉

I feel her arrival with my cleanse/fast, which began fully the day after I brought her home on 6/21 (today is day 3 of 10) is perfect too and will reset the energy for everything together, as she goes through the integration process of being here with me and us.

And perfect timing of her arrival on Summer Solstice’s portal and in the wake of the New Moon tonight. New beginnings all around!

While I am still grieving not physically having Zephyr with us and allowing the emotions to do their thing, it is such a gift that couldn’t have worked out more perfectly in that I still feel he is mine and with me and like I have two rabbits instead of one.

As mentioned, I will sponsor him and intend to go back to visit for longer, as Marcy offered me coming for a weekend, and he and I will continue to stay in connection and he’ll still help with my writing as he has.

Plus! Having the two of them in my life feels so balancing with my sacred male and female energy in that he’s male and white and she’s female and dark/nearly black. So they’re like my Yin and Yang. It doesn’t get any better. 🙂

But of course De Ja Vu will not remain her name, but in fact there is meaning to that name for me personally, as she reminds me of Nestor a lot. She has a very similar essence to her and that regal and strong power. So she’s like a “de ja vu” to Nestor when I look at her and feel her.

Even her behaviors are similar with her racing around and jumping in the air in delight (doing her binkies), which makes me happy to see and know De Ja Vu is content here and feeling the joy of her freedom.

She’s been wonderful so far and immediately went right to her litter box, has been eating, and already challenging us to rise to the occasion.

And ended up being the perfect one to bring home, since I was only bringing one home at this time because we don’t have room for more and that is what felt right for me right now too. She is a one-person bunny and really doesn’t want or need other bunnies because she’s independent and territorial, so she is definitely a perfect familiar for me.

But she is the only one who has been a challenge to get the right name for, so I’ve taken my time to tune in. All my other loves I’d received the name on before they came home, including Big Sur’s as Zephyr.

Yet, she was going to take her time and like with everything about her, I’d have to work at it and be patient. But in the end, I discovered she was aligning her naming with the New Moon today.

Like other magickal things showing up between her and I, her name would be no different. I’d been tuning in the last two and a half days, but nothing was feeling right. Then suddenly this morning (interesting because I felt today I’d know), her name came.


And here’s the even more magickal part of it. I told Dave the name and he got this funny look on his face. He asked, “Did you tell me that yesterday?” I said, “No.” He then said, “Did I tell you that?” And I said, “No,” again.

I said, “Why?”

He said, “Well it’s really weird because last night while laying in bed suddenly that name came into my mind and I was thinking it would be good for her and was trying to think of where I knew it from.”

I smiled. I said, “I guess you did tell me then, but telepathically. We’re so connected! Aw, we named her together and got the same one. It is meant to be. She has spoken.”

And then I find out that it all happened on today’s New Moon SuperMoon in Cancer (which will be at its height tonight, here around 7:30 pm.)

Just like her name, she is so Cosmically and Divinely aligned, as not only did she come to me as a surprise on Summer Solstice, but now gave us her name on the New Moon. Lots more magick in store from her I’m sure!

After the name came I looked into its meaning and origin, finding it is Norse (also very connected for me) and means “divine strength,” “divine beauty,” and “beautiful goddess”. She embodies all of that for sure and reflects as a mirror to see within you too.

She already has nicknames of “Astro Girl,” “Star,” and “Astie,” – the last mirroring Nestor’s nickname of “Nestie.” And the numerology is connected to my birthday of the 26th, as her name breaks down to a 26/8, so we share that as well and continues to mirror the strength she embodies and is about balance and power and is very connected to Capricorn energy, which mom has lots of and is growing into.

Couldn’t be more perfect!

Astrid has been a surprise – a much welcome one – but not anticipated and so I’m flowing with that wonderful change.

But what a journey! And so much growth and expansion already. To think it’s only just begun.

I can’t even begin to express how rich this journey has been over the last 2 and a half months and that it just keeps getting even richer. There are so many layers to all of this, but it’s been amazing and incredulous, more than people would believe or imagine.

And now my sweet girl is with me and is the perfect familiar for this Faery.

She has an otherworldly and Cosmic essence that also blends with my own, but is very solid and balances Earthy energy too. I can feel how much we’re going to be doing together and she’s so amazingly strong and powerful already, I can’t wait to see what she brings forth as the days go on.

And, we’re like two little witchies with our matching hair colors too, which I hadn’t noted until both Marcy and Sharon pointed out, separately, and then I was like, wow….it was written in the stars once again.

I’m still waiting on some more of her fun bunny things mom ordered, to arrive and finalizing set up of her realm, but she’s been enjoying what’s here so far.

I look forward to sharing more updates about Astrid with you and how things progress.

Thank you all for the shared excitement and love.

Follow the White Rabbit

white rabbit

Following the White Rabbit is where the journey begins…a reminder to take chances in life, follow your intuitive nudges and gut instincts, and let your heart and inner mind lead the way. A new way of feeling, thinking, seeing, believing, and being is just around the corner, or perhaps “down the rabbit hole,” leading you to a new opportunity and a whole whimsical “Wonderland” of unlimited possibilities and magickal experiences.

It feels like so many of us are at the precipice of incredible life changes and the White Rabbit is symbolic of this transitional journey and process, as well as the new opportunities, ideas, and paths you contemplate pursuing or that are knocking on your door to get your attention. Sometimes these unexplored new roads and dreams simply beckon us to follow for the sheer joy and adventure of it because with that approach and lightness of curiosity, you aren’t attached to outcomes and defined parameters and will more fluidly enjoy the process, not to mention receive rich experiences that lead to unimaginable fulfillment.

One of the many things rabbits symbolize is abundance. So when we are faced with this “White Rabbit” offering we are being asked to look at what areas in our lives we would like a greater abundance of a particular experience, feeling, or thing – the white symbolizing purity of essence, a blank canvas to create from, and unlimited possibilities of how you can experience the thing you want since white reflects all the frequencies of light and full spectrum of colors in unity.

Do you want more peace, joy, love, creativity, well being, health, freedom, etc. in your life?

There are many opportunities that present themselves to us daily…some more enticing to follow than others, some opening doors to your dreams if you have the courage to do so, and some simply there to reflect our ability to manifest, but not necessarily needing to pursue.

When you decide to follow the White Rabbit you have engaged the innocence within that desires something more, knows there is another perspective or way to live your life, or feels ready to wander into your dreams more than simply in your imagination, but with all of you.

Sometimes the unbelievable invites us to play and challenges us to expand our horizons and travel a more extraordinary journey that can change our life in all the ways we dreamed and then some.

No matter how ridiculous something seems and how foolish you feel to even entertain it, it is exactly these incredulous things that will help us to make the magickal tangible.

The above photo I posted is of me in one of my favorite tanks, which happens to have an Alice in Wonderland theme, including a White Rabbit, with the message below it, “Follow the White Rabbit”.

I often wear it hiking and did also Down Under – no pun intended in mirror of “Down the Rabbit Hole” 😉 These are times/experiences where I find magickal gifts along the journey from nature and listen and observe for those White Rabbit opportunities showing up along the path that lead me to new ideas, perspectives, and doorways that change my life for the good.

And below, you’ll find a photo of me in my favorite Halloween costume from a few years back, as the White Rabbit. I love this image captured with the skull. It paints a whole story itself.

And synchronously, after my sweet Joy and Cosmo moved on to the otherworld, I had been sensing a white rabbit would be entering my life next and that is exactly what is taking place and so many white rabbit signs have been showing up, especially in Australia to reiterate this and the symbolism.

I will be sharing the story of this rabbit soon, but it all definitely feels potent in terms of a new and exciting journey I’m saying “yes” to and following, literally with my own magickal White Rabbit to guide the way.

Where in your life have you turned an eye to opportunities out of fear or feelings of unworthiness?

Perhaps you might decide to invite a White Rabbit into your life with readiness to embark on an exciting journey, knowing and intending you are in the right place, at the right time, doing the right thing.

Ready, set, go!


tania marie white rabbit

White Rabbit Magick – Joy Gets Her Own Wonderland House

Joy’s new cardboard house

I share my art studio/office/healing and crystal room with my sweet bunny companion, Joy. And now she officially has her own little home that resides within our shared room, compliments of dad. It is a cardboard house she can sleep in and chew all at once with a little cardboard pathway up to it!

She’s like the White Rabbit in her Wonderland magick house now (being that she’s mostly white with gray spotting and back). Our shared space is one that holds a lot of potent energy with every crystal, except for two large ones in the dining room, that I have residing in the space with us where we work and play together.

As I’ve shared before, Joy is quite the healing bunny and loves working with crystals, as well as loves to help mom with Reiki and intuitive sessions – acting as a telepathic channel or conduit/bridge between us and the Spirit world, between Nestor (my dearly departed twin soul) and I, and between Earth and the Otherworlds.

Joy sleeping in her cardboard house

Like Nestor, she loves to also work with Tarot cards and will choose some with her teeth, assist with my painting and gets very excited about them, will channel answers through my pendulum, and when I place either my hand on her or my Third Eye to hers, will channel messages and visions to me to assist myself or to assist in readings I am giving others.

She is definitely a magickal little bunny and rightfully so, deserved her own little magick Wonderland house she can call her own and can simultaneously chew on to work those teeth and nerves (good for rabbits so they don’t chew things that can be both damaging to house or themselves)! It has three stories, with little ramps to each (the top one is the penthouse deck) and several doorways and window openings to make it a perfect bunny tunneling expedition. So far she’s staying grounded at the bottom floor hanging out, napping and chewing her cardboard carpeting.

I love my sweet little Joy and give her a reciprocation of the beautiful love and support she provides me. What a cutie!!!


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