Have you been feeling the pull to take your life to a new level of experience? I know I’m not the only one embarking on a new chapter in life right now and I know that for some this can be both a scary and exciting thing, as well as potentially intense. Change is not always easy, but can become a more fluid experience when you play in the fields of potential with curious wonder, rather than fight it. After all, these shifts are soul nudges that have answered your desires or evolutionary needs, both consciously and subconsciously. Sometimes what shows up might not seem aligned with that and yet even when those things seem separate and not connected, there’s something at the heart of it all in essence that may be a hidden gift, reminder, empowering opportunity, or core way to integrate the new path.
I’ve traveled extensively in the outer world to what are considered sacred and exotic spots, but it’s the journeys within and even the traveling between spaces and through all the energetic and emotional nooks and crannies that things like physical travel took me to, that have made all the difference. And while much of that travel has been on more etheric planes, even such things as the sacred tattoos I wear, have been ways to come into my body and harness spirituality more tangibly for this Earth plane I currently reside in.
I feel like we’re being guided through new doorways of experiences, relative to each, but that are operating on a whole new plane of existence – in essence helping to create whole new realities.
Starting all over can feel like so many things, including some unpleasant or uncomfortable variations, but mostly I see it is an opportunity, a potential to rise to the “now” occasion, a possibility for recreating from new choices – a rebirth – and a means to shape in that “now” what the “future-you” already is walking, without past restraints.
Sometimes you might have that tug of war within yourself, as you wrestle with old and new, or sometimes it’s as easy as slipping on a new pair of shoes that feel oh-so-much-more comfortable, spacious, shiny fun, and upgraded.
This last Saturday, 8/18/18 – a very cool number sequence to end on – marked the conclusion to my teaching Reiki, which has been an 11 year cycle. Synchronously, one of my students (who also captured this sneak photo of me teaching) was someone I taught Reiki 1 & 2 to, 10 years ago when she was 19. She now returned, at a completely new place in life to complete her 3rd Master Teacher level and boy has her life positively changed on every level. AND, she’s already put out there to her clientele, that she is available for teaching.
Talk about fast upgrades and changes, but it came with a lot of work over these past 10 years and willingness to keep saying, “yes” to what her soul was putting forth for her, even though her ego wasn’t understanding why and wasn’t fully on board with yet.
In some ways I’m in a similar place where my soul has put forth this inspiration and guidance, after culminating to an ending vortex of choice, and it wasn’t something I saw coming even though I toyed with things twenty five years ago.
That ending left me both fulfilled and feeling uninspired, completely soul spent, and nostalgic for a different place I call home.
In many ways, the “past me” might have seen the work I’ve been doing until recently as being my end result, and in a way it was – as it truly was more of a predictable soul path I was completing from lifetimes of build-up. Many of you likely can relate. And although not necessarily an easy path I was on, it was easier to melt into and only challenging in terms of moving into more vulnerability, clarity, and opening that throat chakra that yearned to teach, yet had the fear to transmute.
When everything pointed to endings 3 years ago, I was left with a choice and so I followed a nudge, went off into Nature (just as John Muir says, “The mountains are calling and I must go”), listened deeply, and found myself here when I might have been elsewhere.
This then put into motion a potential new cycle and so I began playing in this new field of experience and trying on how it felt. I decided to go with it, feeling a new level of inspiration was the very and only thing that would keep me here and that offered a completely new and freer embodiment, if so chosen.
Little by little, and quickly in some cases, I shed my skin and this led to now and a fresh start. During that time, a story began channeling through and I wrote when the moment moved me, while building a new life.
Perhaps the story reflects a journey intimately remembered or maybe it energetically rewrote what has been to what can be.
In any case and for what ever reason yet unknown, it is the only thing calling my heart besides seeing what is possible from living at a different and more balanced vibration.
This past Thursday, 8/16 – a day earlier than expected – I received my manuscript back from my editor (more on that shortly) and this coincided with Astrid’s early birthday gift arriving (her birthday isn’t until 9/15), which I’d ordered custom a couple of months ago, but was on back-order. No coincidence we both received something new and connected on the same day.
Astrid’s gift was this special child’s chair stitched with her name and a star on it, chosen to match my green chair and the green theme in our shared room.
I have both a green chair – my desk one – and a comfy arm chair by my book shelf, which Astrid loves to climb up and sit on. I thought she might enjoy her own arm chair so that she and I could both sit and mastermind together. Besides, every queen needs their special throne and now she has one that declares her star child essence as cosmic spirit in bunny body.
It took until yesterday to finally figure out where she wanted it, but the second I put it together and set it up for trial runs, she was exploring and jumped right in it quite comfortably.
But as the days went on, she was missing her bed and carrot cottage under the stars looking out on the forest by the door, so I moved it to a new location and put her other things back and she instantly said, “yes, that’s it!”
She climbed right in and sat there for long periods not moving at all, but just sitting up tall in it and looking at me from across the room, very regal and wise.
Then she started grooming herself and making it home. Good thing is, it’s super light and therefore totally mobile with a handle on top, so we can move it whenever she feels she wants a new vantage point.
She now goes to sit on it when I sit in my comfy chair and we gaze across at each other, feeling the immensity of our combined energies in this space.
It’s a bit like this new path for me, where I know it’s what my creative spirit is guiding, but will take some adjustments (likely a lot more work than Astrid’s few days of helping me to figure out where it belonged) in order to fit as comfortably in my own new “chair” as she does, but I’m following her example.
That brings me back to receiving my manuscript from the perfect editor I was guided to. I couldn’t be happier and more grateful for the opportunity to work with her and her feedback was just what I had hoped it would be to both support and kick me into deeper explorations with highlighted strengths and weaknesses. I feel as if I’m getting a whole new education and training in a way that works in better alignment for me than studying at a university, for example. She’s definitely my vibrational fit.
Since I had a workshop to teach last Saturday, I put aside editing and novel thoughts except for the summary letter, because I knew that once I dove in, it would be all-consuming. And quite literally, even though I still have yet to go through everything, as I’m creating the space for full digestion of it and all that I feel it will ask of me, it HAS become all-consuming on my mind. I find my thoughts are always going there and so I know where I’m meant to be.
Yet, just from her letter, I can sense the enormity of this commitment and choice I’ve made with it and why nothing else can be on my plate going forward. I was curious how I would feel from receiving the feedback and the only thing it brought up for me was this incredible sense of soul challenge to grow and deepen, which inspires me. I can also feel the reality of the creative limb I’ve flown out on with this, which presents further challenges to rise to, including even the genre choice I decide upon with it.
I definitely have my work cut out for me. I never do things simply, and it makes complete sense that for something to truly engage my heart and spirit to feel inspired to continue on here – regardless of any outcome with it what so ever – it WOULD have to be the biggest challenge yet.
Any fellow writers (or creatives), will understand the journey and it is one that can sometimes take years, of which I’m fully on board and committed to. So I truly don’t know the extent of time this project will take and I’m not rushing it so that I can immerse fully in the growth and learning, feeling that this is about much more than a book – it’s a whole new adventure and journey of mind, body, heart, and spirit.
And it IS a whole new playing field, as I’ve mostly only been a blogger and put out one self-published book – Spiritual Skin, along with a lot of creative writing when I was much younger. This one has the potential for traditional publishing depending on how vulnerably and flexibly I stretch myself and even how I surrender completely to living my dharma and embracing the new lessons this path is creating for me.
In any event, the old cliche is true…”it’s the journey, not the destination” that matters and I can really feel that in traveling this unknown territory simply for sake of bringing through vibrational potential that arises from the challenge and exhilaration of experiencing how far and wide I can fly on the wings of my creative free spirit.
It will definitely involve a constant cycling through of deaths and rebirths, as makes sense with next year’s growth year #13 – death / 4 year I’ll be entering come my birthday. The 4 energy will have me focusing on foundations, sharpening skills, working hard, involved in patient, methodical approaches to goals, nurturing of projects, and overall serious approaches to career, well being/health, and relationships of all kinds for balance. All of which I’ve been preparing for with deep cleaning on all levels and flowing with the creativity that was inspiring me this last 12/3 year I’m still completing.
I didn’t need to know this information on numerology, but it is definitely interesting to see how we do in fact follow the energy imprints regardless of not being aware of them playing out.
I always start experiencing trickles of the upcoming energies before they set in fully and I can see how come this Fall, pretty much exactly after Fall Equinox, I’ll be on a different trajectory.
This also falls perfectly with my sweet and dear Laura coming to spend a fun and potent week here at the same time we co-teach and host our “Living a More Magickal Life” workshop event on the Equinox – the official ending for me to this kind of teaching platform in general. It’s not often that we get in-person time together, but when we do it has always put into motion some huge life shifts for both of us and this coming together in a month from now feels like the most potent alchemy potential we’ve created yet.
So, between now and then I am readying everything, we have some other friends visiting, I’m getting fully organized and cleaned out, creating a workable plan to put into action, reviewing my editor’s feedback, tuning in, and beginning research – that way I’m fully ready to go, come end of September, and dive fully into things.
I see Fall and Winter perfectly fitting for nose-to-the-grind action, but in my newly adapted balanced way so as not to repeat my past neurotic tendencies to overwork myself until I “crash-and-burn.” This is why Dave and I have and will continue implementing a new well-being track into our life, while we also focus on other life goals we’re creating foundations for. It will definitely be a busy 6-8 months to get things ready for the next leg of the journey.
This is why I’ve released everything else, as a way of having laser beam focus on the new and yet without any old patterns being brought into that space and reality that is forming.
There is an invitation being extended to us all I feel where a portal of fresh possibilities await.
Have you also increasingly felt drawn away from things and toward completely new ones?
Where might you create more balance in your life so that you can be more present and vibrant to what is calling your heart’s attention?
Sometimes what we think we should be doing is only a choice away from what we could be doing.
If something nudges you there is reason. Whether it directs you into a whole new life journey or supports your journey with new, you will experience invigoration from listening to that subtle voice rather than dismissing it/you.
Thank you for being part of and supporting my journey. I not only support yours equally, but do my best to keep embracing each challenge on my own, as my contribution to the collective.
As we’ve settled back in this week after our time on the Pacific Ocean, I’ve felt another shift of energy grounding subtly, but profoundly in. I just realized today that it was four years ago at this time in August that we were exploring Alaska for nearly 2 weeks and that seems fitting since it was upon returning from that journey that I knew a big life shift had to happen, and now another is organically kicking in that will change everything once again.
We just returned from 10 days away along central and southern California’s coastline, and while it was a very nurturing trip, we could sense its full circle energy, as well as its helping to reflect and integrate the new upcoming.
Like when we returned from Alaska, I knew Orange County was no longer our home and in revisiting there at the end of this trip, we no longer felt any heart ties to even the few places we had once loved and helped us while we were there. We felt a strong closure and it also offered us time to explore, in thought and imagination, the new opportunities and possibilities we’re feeling into and that are presenting themselves.
We always loved Crystal Cove, and while it still is a magickal place, it offered us a chance to seed intentions, as it had in the past, but this time as a portal door only.
We did enjoy seeing some of our dearest friends while visiting and of course, having some vegan food indulgences at some of our fav restaurants just around the corner from our then house.
Yet, like the weddings that both started and ended this trip, there was a solidification of commitment to another level of experience, life, and relationship to ourselves and each other that seemed to get kicked up a few notches. We found ourselves dreaming bigger and feeling into new choices.
On our first full day back we went to the beach here and both felt a much stronger resonance to our Lake Tahoe waters and the peace and energies most resonant to our new lives, to be flowing through this mountain air.
Interestingly, while we were away, the smoke in the Tahoe Basin from the immense fires in California was sadly the worst it had been. It started clearing a few days before our heading home and is hugely better now than it was. If not for an upcoming Reiki workshop I’m teaching this weekend, we had actually considered gathering up the fur babies upon return, and heading out somewhere else again until the smoke cleared. Something about that and its timing is meaningful. And even while we were at our favorite Crystal Cove, the nearby fire had created an ominous sky of smoke that merged an interesting portal of two worlds.
The energies shifted along the journey as well, where we were relishing in the relaxation and all of the Faery beauty and ocean magick, but nearing the last few days we were already ready to go home.
Yet, there was much natural beauty and enchantment experienced that immersed us in Faery and vegetable garden delights, took us wandering along gorgeous coastlines, connecting with so many ocean creatures and cetaceans, discovering moonstones, tons of feathers from the amazing pelicans, seagulls, and hawks, and other sparkly quartz sea delights to create portal connections without needing to be physically there, and lots of yummy vegan food that included a very special, pampered evening with a friend who shared her new vegan cheese line with me, a gathering with friends, and some sweet time with Dave’s dad and stepmom.
It was no coincidence there were so many portals, abundance of blossoms, plants, and animals, water and faery energy, fountains, and even a wishing well….all perfect to activate new seeds of intention and reflect the promise of new.
And all of the ocean time coincided with a book I was reviewing for another author, set in Atlantis, that awakened more seed memories. I just sent in my endorsement review for the novel yesterday, which seemed to be a potent day for not just myself and Dave, but others, with things clicking in and setting the tone for another new cycle.
My Take-Away From the Last 10 Days:
Indeed there’s yet again another shift taking root, but each one is so mutable these days that it’s never about reaching any finalized stage or end result, yet truly about being most flexible and open to your highest joy and potential at every corner.
With Mercury Retrograde ending on the 18th, this all feels timely with the reflections, curiosity, explorations, solidifying – and for some – the intensity, around this time period, but also points to some leaps into new immersions just around the corner.
I feel another life-changing time period is kicking in for Dave and I, both individually and together. In many ways it does remind me a bit of the time period right before the Magick Bus adventure living in the RV for a year and a half traveling about. This took place after the impending changes following Alaska and the seeded intentions that were inspired. And while different energetically, there is a similar whole-new-start-vibe and more choices for how it all unfolds.
This Fall and Winter feels to involve a lot of focus, commitment, and work to solidify that change and catapulting to come in 2019. A lot is happening all at once and I feel that like the last couple of years, we will look back a year or two from now and be amazed at what was accomplished.
In many ways our trip was both surreal and like being in another world, as a bubble of magick always enveloped us, but while grateful for what it offered, we are happy to be home and so is a certain bunny, named Astrid, very happy about that too.
My Evolving Relationship with Astrid:
I had two dreams about her while we were away, so we were in contact, and since returning, our relationship has also kicked up several notches. We are the closest we’ve ever been, she’s been super attached to me, wanting to snuggle and immerse in loving connection, and even wanted me to hold her when I came home. She’s excited about the next level of work she and I will be doing, as in just two days I will be receiving back my manuscript from my editor – EEK!! – and the next challenging, but exciting step will kick in, as I review feedback and get cracking on the new plan in order with revision work.
But being back with Astrid has been very special and I’m loving our deepened connection and her continued softening into the love that she is. Our communication is impeccable and we are SO in tune!
She’s been extra excited running around in the morning and evenings, and watching me through the door, as I took care of my Garden Tower and plants and flowers outside. She’s actually been pawing at the window while watching me and anxious for the green yummies I just harvested for her yesterday.
Garden Tower Updates:
My small garden is doing so beautifully and is abundantly producing. I even have my very first two pumpkins ever (called Wee B Little pumpkins) starting to grow, which excites me greatly, along with another four tomatoes on the Charlie Brown Christmas tree-like tomato plants I saved, and nine Ring of Fire sunflowers all coming in – I smell Autumn just around the corner!
We and Astrid have enjoyed so many harvests and yesterday’s was no exception, as I filled a gigantic heaping bowl with every variety of herbs and greens and still there is tons on the Tower remaining. I gave everything a good pruning and watering and we have happy plants! Since the strawberries and lettuces are done, I no longer have to net the tower or any of the plants, as the forest critters are not interested and being entertained and indulged with other yummies.
And speaking of Garden Tower, my original one that used to be at our Orange County home, just found a new loving home with my dear friend and vegan cheese connoisseur/creator and her husband. The friend I mentioned who pampered me with this:
I couldn’t be happier! I can’t wait to see the Garden Tower flourish at their beautiful home, which is like a little Italian villa.
Somehow that feels full circle too, that my original one I loved so much and was one of the joys that kept me going while living there, has come into the right hands – the last thing I had a tie with in OC that always was in the back of my mind, is now put to peaceful rest and will assist my friend in the blossoming of her new business and intentions, as the metaphor for her experiences created in the garden of life.
Writing & Workshop Updates:
As mentioned, I’ll be receiving my manuscript back in two days, but since I’m teaching on Saturday and will need time to digest all that I hear back, I’ll likely not be starting back on revision work and the next stage until sometime next week. That said, it WILL be my main and only focus outside of life and shared ventures with Dave. Likely even more so now, as every step gets increasingly demanding and challenging. So, while I will continue to blog now and then, as inspired, it will still remain on the less side and not like my once daily shares.
As always, you can catch more inspiring and fun, quick updates on my Instagram page though, which has included the photos you see here in this blog, plus many more!
The day before I left, I received some new bunny additions to my Wonderland office and upon returning I had two new dragons awaiting me. These all anchoring in new energy to inspire my writing again, along with some small shifts in redecorating I often do here and there. Astrid also has a very special birthday gift arriving tomorrow – all just in time for beginning the book adventures next week.
I do feel rested and rejuvenated from our little vacation and the last month off from writing while its been with my editor, so I’m ready to dive back into writing with my wise partner, Astrid, and the rest of my spirit guides.
This Saturday ends my Reiki teaching days, as I put closure to that with the last Reiki 3 Master Teacher workshop held here. It will be a lovely day, as one of my first students joins to finally get her last level in, while another lovely soul comes to both review and cultivate her teaching skills, helping out as she feels so moved. I have some ideas percolating for this workshop that will make this a fun ending. I know a few people were sad not to be able to join this and the last Reiki 1 & 2 workshop, but I do firmly believe that all things flow in alignment and there is a beautiful reason yet unseen that will reveal itself in perfect ways.
And lastly, today marks exactly 1 month remaining to register for the upcoming Fall Equinox “Living a More Magickal Life” with Laura Bruno and myself.
The last day to register is September 15th – synchronously that’s also Astrid’s birthday. 🙂
To reiterate, this is the first and last time she and I will be teaching together and this event will end and celebrate my own closure with teaching in this format at this point in my life. So, it will be a special event with inspired topics that will assist all joining with how to move into that new with wings! We continue to tune in and be open to what wants to come through for this, but as with all gatherings of this kind, not only do surprises always show up, but the effects of what takes place on the seemingly subtle planes will continue to unfold long after the day in potent ways. So keep those keen senses about you, as magick increases before your eyes.
There are still a couple spots remaining. If you feel called to join, you may register here:
Keep believing and may all possibilities be open to you!
As I move through my own journey and hear from others, I constantly notice themes and a big awareness around process. Process has always been inherent in everything, but there’s an increased awareness of process in everything and greater presence around every step. And through that moment-to-moment experience, clarity, commitment, courage, creativity, communication, and celebration are stand-outs.
I’ll break them down, as I see them.
- Clarity – there’s not only a greater need for crystallizing clarity of your intents, feelings, actions, and thoughts to create greater alignment, but there’s also an increased clarity, in general, being felt by many around their dreams and desires that is amplifying the manifestation of them and implementing a lot of life shifts in motion on every level. Veils are parting and awareness is increasing and with the intent to have greater clarity and willingness to truly see and feel, you will break down more barriers to yourself. With clarity comes focus and effective use of energy when you are able to identify what’s going on and what has been speaking to you from within. Now is a time to go within and trust what you receive so you can affirm clarity with actions you take.
- Commitment – there’s a greater need now than ever for unwavering commitment to the things that are most meaningful to you, which includes taking care of and nurturing your own needs as an example of your own life working. With commitment comes care – you realize how important and crucial some elemental things are to your well being and to producing what you want to share with the world, and you care enough to see that through. As we’ve all learned, until you value yourself and what you have to give, you will be left searching for empty value elsewhere. Now is the time to make a firm commitment to what is nudging at your heart. This helps others to do the same.
- Courage – it’s going to be scary, yes, and yet now more than ever there is greater support in seen and unseen ways to help you do what you feel clarity and commitment around. Courage of the heart is essential and it won’t erase fear, but it will accompany you through the journey with the right amount of encouragement to take you through the challenging stuff, step-by-step. If you REALLY want something and REALLY want to make changes, clarity around what that is, commitment to what ever it takes, and the courage to see it through are key. There’s no greater time than now to make leaps and grow exponentially. Courage will see you through the dark areas, as you navigate a new path. Everyone – even the people you admire and see as hugely successful – have harnessed courage to do what they’re doing. It gets easier, but without fears and uncertainties, we wouldn’t have opportunity to rise to the occasion. Remember, while others are leaders for you, you are a leader for others.
- Creativity – cultivating and channeling creativity is vital – I wrote a little about that in my last post Feeling the Potency of Creative Alchemy in Action. Creativity is your power to choose differently, imagine unlimited potentials, flow your life force freely, ignite your passion, and bring love and action together as manifestation. No matter what channel you bring creativity through, the importance is simply that you DO bring it through and this will continue creating new realities and new Earth experiences. You are naturally a creative being and when you are creativity in action, this will help you to trouble shoot any area of your life with curious imagination, as well as help you to bring forth your dreams and goals. Clarity of energy moving through you, commitment to that energy that wants through, courage to keep that fire fueled no matter what, and the willingness to engage your creativity that is throbbing to be expressed. Through creativity we can forge new ways and find new solutions. We can create humanity at its highest.
- Communication – there is heightened importance and need for communication and that includes the communication you have with yourself. Learning to make that a more present, gentle, tender, and open process will benefit you greatly and then help you to be the same with others. Communication is key for all types of relationships and the willing to be honest with yourself and others, while patient, and compassionate. Communication is essential to business endeavors, whether you work alone or co-create with others. You will have the need to enhance your communication skills with customers, clients, and co-workers, or people that you need to engage along the way that will be integral to your goals. There will also be importance in extending your reach of communication to include diversity of people, animals, plants, the Unseens, Nature and the Cosmos at large. This will help you to be in tune and aligned, so that things happen more seamlessly. As we evolve, communication is evolving and there are many forms whether through the written or verbal word, through art, music, your craft…communication goes beyond and into telepathy, which is felt through every interaction and increasing as we are shifting. Brushing up on your communication skills and bringing clarity, commitment, courage, and creativity to the process of how you share yourself is invaluable. The better you communicate to yourself and others, the more fine-tuned and aligned you are with your intents.
- Celebrate – a vital part of the process and journey is to remember to celebrate every step of the way. This includes the small and large accomplishments, the ways in which you have overcome hurdles, something new you’ve been able to do, and each part you move through, regardless if the ultimate outcome has happened or not. This is part of that core gratitude that really makes a difference and how you truly enjoy life to the fullest without punishing yourself along the way. There is always something to celebrate and that starts with you being here in this moment and choosing to be alive at such a creatively fertile time. As Dewitt Jones shares, “celebrate what’s right with the world.” Have clarity of your thoughts, intents, feelings, and desires, then devote yourself to commitment of what you want to manifest, have the courage to see your commitment through, channel your creativity because your piece of the thread in the tapestry is needed and contains your vitality and fuel for your dreams, communicate with yourself and others along the way to help motivate and remain clear and aligned, as well as to support transparency and vulnerability, and then celebrate every step of the way!
So how has this been applying to me currently? Well, mostly with my book’s process – basically my main and only focus at this time in my life, besides the balance of life in general and things I do with Dave, our shared business, and in my personal life.
I’ve definitely seen, after coming to closure with so much from this life’s “past” and every other “past” life and feeling harmony flow through increasingly, that my next spiral of evolution and growth stems around this book – regardless of outcome.
I’ve definitely had clarity with the story, my intent and dream vision with it, and knowing whole-heartedly it is what I desire deeply to bring forth.
I’ve definitely made a soul and heart commitment to it and have just taken that to the next level, with this third phase I’m in with it. The first phase was in writing the full story, the second was in editing and reworking it myself to the best ability I knew how, and the third now involves an outside professional I’ll be working with. More on that…I’ve committed to seeing it through step-by-step and not rushing any part of it and doing it no matter what, taking risks with it in terms of how I’ve written it, and am holding myself to see it through to the end.
I’ve definitely had to muster up my greatest courage with it – or at least my next level of courage, as I’ve moved through many other levels of courage in the face of fears I’ve had up until this point. That included my fear of speaking and having shyness, which led me to embrace teaching, fear of speaking up for myself and saying “no” and having boundaries, which led me to have healthy ones, fear of looking crazy and feeling insecure about who I really am and the magickal me, which led me to vulnerably put that all out there without apology and even create this blog where I share so much, helped me to be at my best with overall well-being, and to no longer be energetically drained, and fears of having no support or security in order to take leaps, which led me to jump into what has called me greatest in my heart to bring forth as my essence expression – or work as some might call it. And now my next level of courage is in phase three of my book where I am handing it over to a professional editor who will completely dissect it and tear it apart, leaving me very vulnerable and at the end, with another round of reworking to do. I had some good news take place yesterday in hearing back from the developmental editor of my choice, after sending her a letter of my intent to work with her and it looks like we’ll be co-partnering likely beginning the end of this week and will be sharing a working relationship for a while. This next phase is a huge process and to say I’m both excited and scared, is definitely accurate! But I am more excited and proud of myself than anything, which brought me to tears at end of last week before I sent her a letter, as I could feel the immensity of this step that was bigger than my book, and I could literally feel a huge leap taking place for my path and my vibrational frequency I have been operating at. And this commitment solidifies the realness of everything and aligns me even more with the vision I have, as I put belief, heart, and clarity of intent into action. There’s no turning back. I was so happy when she accepted working with me and although I’m still far from any outcome, I’m sinking my teeth into it all and sucking the marrow of life, as they say. There is still a very long road ahead, as I’m not rushing any part of it, but I’m excited to be pushed to my highest capabilities and to be challenged to dig deeper than ever to make this the best possible book I can channel it to be.
I’ve definitely been channeling creativity. I think it’s impossible for me not to be, as I would literally die if I wasn’t and when I stop, is when I won’t be here anymore. So onward-ho with creative flow! It’s definitely been my best friend on this writing adventure!
I’ve definitely been engaging greater clarity of communication when engaging myself and others and have put into action all of the things I’ve learned, more and more, so that truly communicating even at tough times, has become so much easier, and so much more present and aware. Communication is definitely coming through for this book, as I work with the written and telepathic word, for the co-partnership with my new editor, and in receiving communication from the Other Realms in channeling it.
And lastly, I’ve definitely been in celebration mode with every part of the process. In the past I’ve had a tough time with processes, because the visionary in me always saw things as whole and the end results, so to have to take things apart, piece-by-piece and go through the human journey, was tough. No longer so. Perhaps I’ve bridged timelines and experiencing it all at once now, or perhaps I’m just more present and grateful, and truly living what life is about and each piece as beautiful without expectation, attachment, and need for a result.
It’s all changed everything and the whole game for me. I know so many others that are also experiencing greater fluidity with it all, and I believe whole-heartedly that we all can.
And just for giggles and a heads-up, here’s two more C’s I’ve experienced and coming up.
Contacts – I’ve noticed an interesting influx of contacts in the last couple of weeks about a variety of things, that include inquiries about old services, invites to be on podcasts, synchronicities shared with people internationally, and even some odd inquiries on things I didn’t even know I had out there. All speaking to me to collective connection (some more C’s) and alignment both in knowing my boundaries and attracting reflections.
Crystals – Stay tuned either tomorrow or some time this week, as with a little opening in time on my hands and another big shift happening, a few crystal friends are ready to move on and I may have some custom and healing openings as offerings. More soon!
This is just a brief continuation of yesterday’s post on celebrations. I can now add a potent dragon to the mix and invigorated inspiration! After realizing I’d be taking my writing to the next level, rather than find myself exhausted by the process, I was even more excited than before if you can believe it! It feels as if I was reborn. And to add to that, a very powerful friend arrived to aid this next step.
What I didn’t realize was that the very special gift I’d gotten myself to celebrate my progress so far on my book, had in fact arrived on yesterday’s 15th Nestor anniversary as well! I wasn’t able to pick it up at the P.O. Box until today, as it got there late, but that just added to all the alignments.
When I unwrapped the box I smiled wide at seeing it was numbered 11 of 100. More alchemy at work, especially given that 1:11 and 11:11 are my constant companions daily right now.
She is the storyteller, spell caster, word weaver, guardian of the Cosmic library, and writer’s familiar. More synchronicity to her than I can share right now, but wow I love her!
I can’t tell you how vibed up she gets me, as she is so extraordinary and alive! I’d fallen in love with her in a very special dragon and faery store in a castle – the Excalibur in Las Vegas, but my faery friend, Bean, found her more inexpensively elsewhere for me so I waited to order her. I literally had my breath taken away when I saw her, said to myself “she’s the one!” and now she reigns over Wonderland here.
I have her facing who ever walks through my door upon entry, but when I sit at my desk she peers down at me through her left eye with her wings spread in fullness at me, and the page of her book held to my gaze.
And on top of that, after realizing I’d be editing again to really challenge myself further with my writing, I got super vibed up yesterday and now all I want to do is write, as the new inspiration pours in.
So, off I go!
Just wanted to share my joy and how every moment can be like new when you see the possibilities available in everything!
And it doesn’t hurt to have a special friend, or friends, to help! 😉
Happy Libra Full Moon tomorrow!
Fifteen years ago, today, back in 2003 Nestor – my twin spirit – returned to me on Earth as a magickal rabbit. She left this Earth realm at the age of 5, which was young for a bunny, but she has always been a Cosmic Navigator when it comes to divine alignments so it in fact was alchemy at work. Today, I also received happy news and confirmations, as well as took another synchronous turn along my book writing journey.
It’s been nearly 10 years since Nestie (her name of endearment) transitioned back, which feels like lifetimes ago now. Oh, how much has changed since then, catapulted because of her, and yet she’s ever-present in my life. I receive some of her signs and messages via the number 5, which holds special meaning for us. And today’s 15 year mark is three times that 5, coinciding with her time confirmations she sends at 5:55.
And today, I also received an update on the white bunny who I almost adopted, but who paved the way for Astrid to be with me instead. His rescue name is Big Sur, but I knew him as Zephyr. His story is in the link I just provided, but I hadn’t been able to get information on him until today, of all days.
His update news is that he just got adopted by his foster, who is one of Save A Bunny’s best volunteers and is doing great! Apparently he sleeps on the bed with his new family’s kid and is “SUPER DUPER LOVED,” as it was expressed to me. This made me so happy and gave me great comfort in knowing “he is in a really great home,” as it was also expressed and that everything was as it was meant to be.
I believe, in a way, he sacrificed himself for the highest good in terms of providing me the message I should take Astrid instead of him, and in the end because I listened even though it was difficult on my heart, we all got our happy endings.
Ultimately, in the condition he was in back then, he wouldn’t have done as good being with me despite the love and care I would have provided because of our living situation in tighter corners at the time where having the cats around him would have stressed him out and still maybe now even would have been too stressful for him. Astrid can hold her own. Plus, at the time he had a nurturing momma bunny caring for him, which seems to have done him good.
I still have a sadness around not having been able to bring both him and Astrid home, but I know it’s all come to full circle peace and perfection.
In the meantime, the connection shared with Astrid has continued to deepen and yet still I feel is just at the tip of the iceberg in terms of where it will go. For a few months I was feeling the potential of another bunny coming in to be her companion, but I received confirmation on that as well. A lot has shifted and in tuning in with her I am getting that she doesn’t want any physical bunny friends at this time (she just nudged me with her nose to my ankle as I wrote that!) Smarty pants!
While I was away for the 11 days in Arizona, we connected and touched in and at one time she showed me two rabbits that are around her. I believe that her bunny friends are in the spirit realm, just as mine are, and that as I’m recognizing things more, she is anchoring into peaceful recognition of her path and purpose within mine. There is a lot for us to do still and she wants us connecting deeply without any other bunnies around, as that changes the dynamic and our work together. We have a very intimate path ahead of us that only she can assist with at this time to get me and her to the next step along the journey. Adding more energy to the mix will dilute that contract.
So, maybe when she’s older she will want a friend, but for now we have stuff to do! I will, of course, maintain open channels of communication with her in the event she shifts with her feelings on that, as I do want her to be happy and fulfilled. When we are both feeling that wholeness we are then able to do our best work. And however that is meant to look and be, is what I support.
Anyway, all of this has really anchored and it’s beautiful with the timing of celebrating Nestor on Earth, to celebrate these two bunnies on this plane of existence too.
I have been having a lot of telling rabbit dreams recently, along with several dreams of Save A Bunny’s founder, Marcy, who is a dear friend. There has been a lot of potent dreams with other animals and people as well that include very specific messages that I don’t know in waking life (to confirm when I do awake) that are streaming through in Pisces dreamland where I receive a majority of my psychic clarity.
Things are definitely getting more and more interesting with each turn.
And the last thing, which I mentioned at the start, is the synchronous turn my book took along its process too. It coincides with Nestor and our fav number 5.
As you may remember, last time I shared an update I had completed my 4th and final round of editing – or at least I thought!
It seems the 5th time is the charm and fulfills the magickal points of the star, mirroring Nestor’s Cosmic essence.
After I finished the 4th editing run, I then was tutored by Dave who helped show me how to officially format my book – I’m SO not techy. That proved very helpful and I was able to get it formatted quite quickly because I had already placed it in a structured mode from the get-go, so I only had to implement the final touches.
We also had a discussion about writing, I reviewed some writing notes and passages I had and that he showed me, and this all prompted a feeling to take another look before handing my book over to the next eyes and ears – an official editor.
However, yesterday, as I was reviewing it, I also was seeing it with new eyes, myself, and felt that before that next huge leap, it needs one more go-around from start to end. This one feeling to be taking things to a whole other level, as I’ve done the most shifts in the latter edits than the beginning. I think I’ve been going through even more changes than I’ve been aware of that, like my courage shown in taking on the Grand Canyon, are now ready to climb to a level I have to go with pushing myself further and accessing an even deeper recess of what is possible with my writing. It’s really something to observe as process within myself.
Writing is no simple task, at least not if you really want to take it to another level. I didn’t push myself with my first self-published book, except to write it and get it out there (which in and of itself was a big deal for me, as I had such an aversion to it), but I also didn’t feel at the time that I needed to, as I had different ideas for it then.
I’m having to unearth new parts of myself now, or perhaps latent ones, and also be willing to take risks and learn a new language so to speak.
I love how things are seen with greater clarity as I put one foot in front of the other! 😉
Thank you Nestor!
And thank you Dave, as after yesterday’s confirmation that I would be once again editing with a renewed version of myself, I was gifted with his reaffirming assessment.
Dave read the first 3 chapters today – making him the first to read any of it.
I’ve always seen him as my best critic because although we share a love and telepathic bond, we definitely lead with a different part of our brains. So, to have him review something is very telling for me. He is also a published author with an outside publisher, so he has insights that are helpful, even if we write completely different genres. He also is quite the poet, however, and is well read, so I value his opinion.
I have been prepared with this journey for the worst criticism, as that is what artists of any kind are subject to and that definitely is true for the writing world. It seems all the work I’ve done on myself has gotten me to the place where I’d be able to throw my work to the wolves so to speak, and not be emotionally affected by it. As in the past, that would have been a tough thing for me to do. This is also why it took me long to embrace blogging, but now I just free-flow write it and don’t have attachment to the material in terms of how it will be received. Good thing, as this book definitely needs to be approached in an unconditionally attached way too.
Anyway, without going into detail, I was pleasantly surprised by the feedback Dave provided and was also pleased with how I felt in waiting for his response, which remained unattached. Yay!
But this also means, off to work I go and likely will be in deeper this time, so I can’t promise when and where I’ll pop up again. As always, I take each day at a time and see where inspiration leads. I just know that I’m fully committed to this process and it is providing quite the evolutionary potentials for me.
It’s been an incredibly busy month both in our personal and professional lives here and yet also incredibly rich with so much new sprouting, planting of seeds, anchoring of new cycles, and putting dreams into motion. This is a short update and words of inspiration before this Faery goes Down Under, as I’m immersed in things here before I leave for 19 days until 5/28 – traveling on Wednesday May 10th’s Full Moon in fact (known as the Full Flower or Big Leaf Moon) and will be in Australia for the New Moon of May 25th too, which is so cool. You’ll be able to follow along my travels via Instagram and Facebook, but I will not be available via text, phone, nor instant messaging. I’m keeping things simple with just wi-fi while away and will check emails now and then, but mostly only sharing quick inspirational photos of travels via social media.
I’m unclear whether I’ll put together any big blog when I return like I usually do from travels – maybe just a summary take-away. I will see how the moment moves me when things take place, but quick shares are much more conducive to my life these days than long recounts of experiences unless I really have the time.
The energy has felt very potent the last few days and I’ve felt to be in preparation for this trip energetically. My body seems to be recalibrating to a lot of new as well as has been channeling a lot of energy and downloads, so I’ve been resting when prompted, which is unusual for me who never takes naps. I continue to experience massive synchronicities, instant manifestation, and how everything I write about happens in the real world while I’m writing it.
I did a powerful Reiki Healing Attunement a few days ago and within hours everything I did it for came to be. (Another of my reminder nudges that if you have this as a tool, or any other tools you’ve learned, please don’t forget to use them, as they are powerful, but not only that, it’s your way of meeting intention with action and owns that you’re a co-creative partner who’s stepping up!)
Anyway, my writing has been going excellent, despite the full schedule of things, but also because of the full schedule and my honoring my body’s needs, the strong sense I had about a week ago that the last part would be written upon return from Australia has come to be. I got the message that there is something in Australia that will shift within me and open me to the conclusion of my book, so to just keep a healthy pace with writing and the timing would reveal itself.
Everyone has their own way of writing, but for me it hasn’t been an outlined plan, nor did I know the story until it wrote itself. So basically when I sit down each day, the material is channeled. I don’t try to foresee or start writing parts of it in my head. At the end of the day I let it be and start fresh the next…and then it flows when it is ready. So it’s very alive and has been a super fun process for me.
So I will basically have it all done before I leave except the very last part, which will conclude the week I return. I’m super excited! Again, this is only the first draft, which means I have much editing and what-not to do.
I’ll also be getting back to some Magick Crystal Wand creating when I return, but I’ve concluded my client work this week and will be immersed in my dreams, as well as welcoming in a new co-partner into my life when back! Yay!
Quick update on Dave’s speaking tour in Australia for Voiceless – it’s been going amazing. I’ve heard feedback from others in Australia and via social media on how awesome his talks have been. Very proud of him. He’s had quite a busy tour with just the first weekend he arrived in Sydney and this weekend off in Tasmania to explore (he said the MONA Museum there is the most incredible museum he’s ever been to and like a Disneyland for adults) before he completes his last four talks this week, back-to-back. He’s already done three for full rooms in Perth, Adelaide, and Sydney. He’ll be concluding with Hobart, Canberra, Brisbane, and Melbourne. In between talks he’s been in media interviews and been enjoying the local vegan food. An article he wrote came out in The Age last week, as well as an article in The Guardian was done on his talk and came out a couple of days ago, with another from The Guardian from a post-talk interview with him due out in a few weeks by them as well. Busy guy!
Looking forward to joining him in Melbourne shortly for our adventure exploring the area between there and Brisbane.
Until, then, here’s some last words before I go.
I posted these photos of my Selenite Spiral Unicorn Horn Wand because it’s been one of the supportive energies for me during my time alone and writing, along with my newly created Faery Succulent Crystal Gardens and some other magickal friends. But more importantly I’m sharing them for inspiration to ignite the dreamer within you to focus and act upon those dreams. Besides we could all use a little Unicorn magick in remembering who we really are.
Unicorns help make your dreams a reality – taking you on a freeing ride beyond limitations and beyond the wildest parts of your imagination.
They are masters of the light and transformation who can bestow the gifts of magick to those who are pure of heart, or who commit to a life of pure expression.
These mystical beings help us to believe that anything is possible and support us to do what is thought to be impossible.
Life is fleeting…a blink of an eye…yet many of us keep pushing off the things in life we know in our hearts we would love to experience AND came here to experience.
Tomorrow is no guarantee, but you do have this moment.
Express the things you’ve wanted to share with others, do something courageous toward your dreams, experience something new you haven’t, and savor what you do have.
It may make all the difference and begin to write a new chapter that begins the first day you really start living.
I am always enthralled by my dream time and how rich it is. I’ve had many interesting dreams recently again, but the one that stood out most was of the tiny aqua tortoise two nights ago. I love how each time my Russian Tortoise, Gaia, assists me with my writing, she will show up in my dream that very night, or vice versa – show up the night before and I’ll know she has something to share for the day’s writing ahead. I’m so grateful for my spirit family and especially my tortoise and rabbit companions who share their loving support always.
In the dream it actually started out with me on a journey – this time in a smaller RV – and about to embark. Before leaving I catch glimpse of a tiny (baby-sized) tortoise with aqua shell scurrying across the ground of what seemed to be like a garage or storage area. This little tortoise was fast!
The only other tortoise I know to be so fast is my beloved Gaia. She not only had strong presence, patience, and deliberate, persistent action, but she could move between those methodical, soldier-like steps of intention into a speedy sprint.
I knew right away this was a manifestation of Gaia coming through in this mighty and speedy little tortoise. She was reminding me not to forget the gifts and tools I have, not to mention the guiding support to lean into with this journey.
I went after her trying to pick her up, as she dashed quickly in and out of things in this storage area, making it challenging to get her, but also calling forth my not wasting energy, but focusing intentfully on what would be most effective in scooping her up without zig-zagging about.
And soon I did have her in my hands and just remembered how sweet she looked, her deep eyes and almost smiling face, with a fully aqua painted shell home she carried on her back and her coloring reminding me more of a sea turtle – interestingly just the size and similar essence to a tiny figurine I was gifted by a dear friend that sits on my dresser.
That was all I remember.
But as mentioned, since she’d come through that day with writing support and channeling the part of the story I was tapping into, I knew this was no coincidence, but timely and symbolic manifestation on her part.
Her small size felt to indicate these as reminders more than a blaring warning or that I was off-track and needing a huge sign. It also felt like she was helping me to fine-tune these elements and gifts rather than outright teaching me it from scratch. So definitely about honing in on things even more and tweaking so I can optimize.
Aqua happens to be my favorite color, but this is also a color that holds much pertinent energy to my life and this undertaking right now.
It can represent our unconscious and the instincts we have, wanting us to take notice and support. I take this as Gaia sharing to just trust this next flow of information coming through and to surrender to almost what I’d call “automatic writing” that has and will continue to take place. I will not need to dictate anything.
Aqua is also highly creative energy, light-hearted and still carries a strong individuality. This speaks to me too about the writing I’m engaged in and how it is being carried through me, but also of me.
It’s also definitely about inspiration, focus, concentration, communication between heart and spoken/written word, clarity, and even has been linked with the “electronic age” where computers are a form of wide-scale communication. To me speaking to again, trusting the translation that takes place if I let my parts work in balanced partnership and weave thoughts and words from their true source. And of course, I do type on a computer and to understand the collective reach of what’s taking place, not to mention is a way Gaia communicates to me through electronics with her ability to tap into this energy.
It’s also a color of calm invigoration, restoration, recharge of spirits, encourages healing, compassion, and our intuitive abilities that have the ability to open doorways to greater spiritual growth.
I have found this journey with my writing to be all of this and Gaia seems to be encouraging the process and path, sensing I had a moment of pause where I stepped out of that automatic writing place and was stumped for a bit before I jumped back onto the frequency train of allowing.
Aqua is a perfect color to support expression and confidently focus us with our speech and bringing through ways of describing things we might find hard to express. So it’s a wonderful color to surround ourselves with while also enhancing our gifts, help us make decisions, move forward, carry us through successfully, get us out of a rut or indecisive place in life or with a project, and all the while calming our nerves so we can return to center.
Gaia was definitely reminding me of the aura I carry with me with aqua always having been in and around my life, and to surround my process in this essence to carry me to closure with the story.
The things about tortoise/turtles is that they can live and journey both in water and on land, so there is again that balance of diving into our sensitivities and bringing them into concrete form. A bridge between the imagination and manifestation.
Vulnerability will be part of the journey when they show up and at times this will need withdrawing into our “shell” to bring forth something deeper, but also knowing we have the support to share it and that courage will be there when needed.
Normally turtles/tortoises can signify a need to slow down, but in the case of Gaia and this tiny turtle manifestation of her, she was moving quickly. I feel it represents that things will move more rapidly now with things, if I continue to go in this flow she is sharing, but also to be aware of how I can still navigate intentfully and more effectively. By continuing to be aware of my energy out-put and acting instinctively rather than just doing things without engaging my ability to think 10 steps ahead in the moment to understand the flow of energy currents I can ride, I will bring things together with productive results.
When ever I do this, then I meet with harmonious outcomes and merge as one with what is unfolding as an equal partner in tune with the natural rhythms.
There is so much we can learn by symbolism that comes through and many ways and perspectives to receive and see them as, but I believe we are guided to the ones that we need to know most.
I’m grateful to Gaia for her taking time from her ever-full missions she’s on to support me with mine – well….ours. 🙂
Since many of you may be like myself right now, engaged in, beginning, or thinking about jumping into new projects, shifting gears with life path focuses, channeling creations, and manifesting dreams, I thought to share a perspective and change that I’ve implemented into my life that has made a difference for me. It has to do with talking about the specifics and communicating to others the details around these things you’re engaged in and focusing energy and time on. While I’m a BIG communicator and LOVE to share, I’ve discovered that the less I talk about and share details pertaining to my current work, focuses, and plans, the more energy, enthusiasm, motivation, and inspiration I have to channel into them.
Science shares that humans are social animals, which lends good reason to why we like to talk a lot and that communication is actually programmed into us as a conditioned tool and way to thrive, and in effect, survive.
I’d add that on another level, we also tend to talk a lot when we’re unsure of things, lack confidence, are nervous, need an ego boost, or even to avoid having to actually “do” what we’re talking about. We can make it seem like we’re doing a lot when we engage in talking about all the details and plans, but then when it comes down to it, are not actually doing much at all.
I’ve generally always been one to share everything with others in my past, whether friends, family, loved ones, as a way to share my excitement, but then found myself shifting gears because I change so much, and others maybe thinking I was flaky because of this. Or, doing just as I shared above, wanting others to share in the excitement, perhaps even unconsciously engaging them to voice their concerns or doubts because I had fears around the things myself – so in this case projecting them to be voiced back at me.
But what I’ve discovered and implemented in most of my life across the board with how I approach everything now is with greater silence.
Silence is a source of power without need to explain, defend, or have its ego rubbed. I find it a great source of inner trust for myself and what I feel in my heart, and yes, a way to maintain the integrity of, and fuel for, my passion.
Stephen King wrote a memoir once on writing, but what he shared I feel pertains to anything we are passionately engaging in our lives.
He said something to the effect of if you talk about what you’re writing too much, it will diminish your enthusiasm about it. You lose your motivation to actually write it, by talking about it.
I feel this applies to things and projects in general, including talking too much about your plans with things. It diminishes your need to actually follow through, like it’s already been done by energetically discussing it in length and feeling satisfied from that, rather than the actual application of the plans and ideas.
To keep things fresh and in your mind, while retaining motivation to actually “do” the things, you may find it supportive to focus on them within your own experience, without the need to express it out there.
That doesn’t take away from the communicating within yourself, with your spirit guides, and magickal support system, nor does it mean to stop creative visualization, intentions, and things like vision boarding, brainstorming, inner exploration, etc.
It also doesn’t mean that some form of feedback can be helpful with things including hearing ourselves talk about it (although the latter I’ve found to be more effective when I talk it out loud to myself or run through the dialogue and scenarios in my own mind), but then it’s about choosing an effective channel for that that truly is about receiving helpful reflections and food for thought you may not be able to see or come up with because of your current focus, rather than simply about a need to talk as a form of using up your creative spark and energy that is being misdirected.
But there does seem to be something diminishing and extracting about external communicating, especially when in overdrive and as an unrealized self-sabotaging mechanism to avoid actually doing the thing or hiding the fears you have around it that aren’t being addressed.
And there does seem to be something about saving up that excitement like the voluptuous and pregnant Empress in the Tarot, who is fertile with creative abundance, ready to lavish it into streams and channels of focused passion.
So, the next time you have this urge to explain and express all the details of what is moving through you to create, try funneling that urge into the creation itself and you may find your inspiration and flow, not to mention your drive, that much more vital and fresh, and your intuition enhanced by your confidence and trust.