I shared about this on Facebook and received feedback that there were a few others out there who experience similar to this. I think like with most things, people don’t talk about the unusual parts of their experiences or may be afraid to share that they have qualities and gifts that others might judge them for or think they’re crazy because of it. And that is EXACTLY why I share so much of my experiences, bringing the hidden to the surface, so that others might find that connective and comforting thread to their own experiences and not feel alone.
That said, this is my share that isn’t a new observation for me, but that keeps receiving confirmation and providing affirmation of the results I experience from it.
Over the course of time and more so lately with my writing focus, I’ve seen how I actually write better and receive clearer more fluid inspiration channels when I listen to music through earphones with the volume quite loud – not just having music playing in the background.
Of course it has to be a certain kind of music that I resonate with in terms of listening to it with earphones on, but I find my flow better that way than just playing it as mood music somewhere off in the distance. Feeling the energy penetrate to my cells is activating, but there are other aspects to this I want to address.
I’ve found that my innate bilateral abilities function at heightened levels that way too.
I’ve discovered this with many things and rather than having complete silence and unilateral focus, having more going on around me seems to engage my whole brain, resulting in optimal functioning.
Having other noises/things going on occupies and engages that part of the left brain that works at filtering it out so it stays engaged elsewhere, instead of thinking about how to control things or how things should be in the moment of channeling.
In the case of music I love, it engages (not filters) other parts of the brain that might interfere by harmonizing with it (sometimes even having me sing/sound at the same time I’m auto-writing) or moving my body (like dancing with it from seated position) so that I can allow the true essence to come forth unobstructed, yet enhanced by the sound resonance that works at cellular levels.
But, I’ve also found this to work when someone else is playing music around me that I don’t like, or if they’re on the phone, talking, listening to podcasts or watching movies….anything I’m not interested in or don’t want to hear…In these cases it’s the engagement of creating boundaries by the brain that helps.
There’s definitely an enhancement quality about music I love on my writing, but I think the main thing I’m seeing is about engaging all parts of my brain in varying ways, which allows this void space for uninterrupted clarity to be received.
It also places that part of the left brain on autopilot so that it stays focused with a task while also bringing through/supporting what the right brain is musing by engaging my fingers to type what that is, out.
Manifesting the inspiration.
This feels reflective of putting divine masculine and feminine parts of me/my brain into their perfect partnership roles.
And, this then becomes more like breathing where you don’t consciously think about, but it just still happens – natural!
And lastly, then the part of my right brain that is channeling and imagining can then do its thing without interference, yet is fully and freely supported/nurtured into its fullness in that process.
I feel that this level of engaging, while might seem overstimulating and confusing for some, is actually a way to nourish my brain cells and use more of it that is available, while also expanding its abilities.
The miracle of human BEING and the accelerated integration process of dimensional shifts we’re embodying more of.
Do any of you out there also experience this or similar?
The heart is the cosmic gateway and seat of your unique soul self to all awareness and well-being of a multi-dimensional starhuman. It is the doorway to all intelligent knowing, thinking, and feeling when it is open, conscious, and loving. This allows for expansion of the human being.
(A post from my Instagram page – @taniamarieartist – I felt inspired to share here too)
What scares you most?
Now, breathe into that fear with all of your heart and explore the perspective that the fear is your most loving, wise teacher that knows your purest potentials, which you have forgotten.
Yes, you ARE that powerful.
Definition of a mystic from Andrew Harvey:
“A mystic is a king or queen of paradox. A mystic knows that death is not death, life is not life, the body is not the body, and the spirit is not the spirit…The mystic knows that he or she is an eternal being in a dying body, and that this is the supreme experience. To be an eternal being without dying in a body would only be to have one-half of the experience of God. But to be an eternal being in a body is to have both, to have the experience of transcendence and the experience of immanence, both the experience of the Divine emptiness that is creating and the experience of being the creation.
Do you understand the gift?
The gift is death, the gift is time, the gift is pain, the gift is love, the gift is extremity. When you receive the gift full in the blood of the heart you dance as Shiva. You dance as the unborn one…you dance as the liberated one in the complete divine experience, the complete divine madness, which is to be in unity with everything that lives and dies, that has ever lived or died. That is the supreme experience and that is what is being offered to humankind.”
This New Moon in Sagittarius drew out the Truth and offered us opportunity to expand into our empowerment. These crystal beings were my partners for this journey.
I listen to their essence and intuitively am drawn to which crystals would assist most greatly with current focuses and align most fluidly with the energies.
How do you harness the energies available?
Ritual, intention, going within, creating sacred space and sacred presence, inviting crystal beings, elementals, your higher self and divine forces into your daily practice, meditation, nature communing, creative self expression, greater wholeness of being…?
There are so many ways you can live life with conscious intention and work with all that is available to you to create alchemy.
Whether you utilize tools, modalities, your unique gifts, etc. the power lies within you above all else and the rest is your access to remember and stand in that truth and strength.
I’ve been blessed to have many crystal friends over the course of the years that have assisted me in knowing myself and harnessing my gifts to greater depths.
Many have moved on to assist others (including these 2 amazing herkimer diamonds above) and nearly all moved forth to new guardians both during a public and most recent private offering directly after that, leaving me with the least amount of crystals I’ve had (not counting crystal jewelry) in my presence.
I’d been guided that the last 20 (which includes 3 crystal wands) hold the frequencies of my current path and are some of my most cherished friends connected in some cases with my beloved rabbit companions who have moved on.
At some point some of these may be ready to assist others, and like now, I know that letting go is what opens new doorways and new experiences and friends to join me.
It’s amazing to observe how our lives evolve and the reflections of those changes all around us.
In many ways I’ve seen nearly all of what my life was released to the collective well to make room for the new in my own, which others have opened for me, and to allow others to step into their own versions of space I used to hold.
It’s such a beautiful process and journey we are creating together and trickling out to one another by letting go and embracing simultaneously.
I’m so excited about the new recreation of my life and life’s work and look forward to sharing it all with you, as I also look forward to witnessing and experiencing your new.
There is so much creative expression being channeled right now and new versions of everything that’s ever been, which is awesome!
Dare to create outside of the box and don’t try to be like anyone else or fit yourself into a limiting definition and paradigm that squeezes the life out of you.
Your courage to create new and more expansive versions of you creates potential for us all.
Adrenal fatigue seems to have reached epidemic proportions and affects so many people, aware or not and many people I know, including myself. Many healers, sensitives, intuitives, creatives, and visionaries are just some of the people that experience its effects a lot due to being so empathic and open to feeling energies so easily. But anyone who has an overload of energy coming at them, little to no boundaries, and a predisposition to overdrive, high levels of endurance, sensitivity to others and the energetic environment, a lot of emotional stress, etc. will experience this if haven’t already. And those are just some of the things that can contribute.
Other things which can be one or a combination of many or all of these include diet (whether or not you get high quality foods in), vitamin deficiencies, toxic overload (environmental, chemicals, pollutants, energetic), inefficient quality of sleep leading to fatigue, stress (perceived or not and especially emotional stress), going through integration of major changes in life, upgrades being assimilated, trauma, chronic diseases that place demands on the adrenals, isolation, overworked, over-driven and overachieving, pushing yourself, living in the future and not the present, worrying, living outside your means or trying to support a lifestyle you think you need to have, operating on old patterns and conditioning you’re battling, confusion, unclarity, not fully loving yourself at the core, fighting your path and gifts, forcing something, running yourself ragged and all over the place without focus (too many irons in the fire), challenged with boundaries, being in martyr or victim roles, trying to change others, trying to prove something, being out of balance…..all create an inability for your adrenals to cope with the load.
And for some, our endurance levels are higher and so we can go for a long time thinking everything’s alright, but then suddenly crash. That’s the more sneaky, challenging kind of adrenal depletion because we easily mask the symptoms and messages with our abilities to overcome, sustain with our other gifts, and fuel ourselves with energy from other sources, but never really building ourselves up, but maintaining us at a coping level that is spiraling and soon to be out of control or worse.
I’m not a doctor, medical intuitive, or any practitioner of medicine whether western or naturopathic, so my share is simply from personal experience and observation, but I have suffered from adrenal fatigue and have turned my predisposition to it into a gift.
I have, like many others, adrenal sensitivity which I was born with that will always need to be high on my radar or major crashes can, and have happened.
I lived with the symptoms of it, not knowing what it was, but did become aware in my early twenties of my having a very high level of nervous anxiety and stress that was both a symptom of my extreme sensitivity to energies I absorbed all around me since infant stage, and to my personal challenges around that, not to mention factors playing out around performing at a certain level, trying to appease others to create a harmonious environment, which was something I learned also very early on as a child to do while I observed how dynamics worked out and how I could “fix” them.
The thing is, that wasn’t a fix. It was only masking the issues.
I also had the high endurance and strength levels that carried me forward and kept pushing on.
But it came at the detriment to myself, always feeling acidic in my stomach, going through bouts of acne as a result throughout those years (now completely gone), fatigue, and then crashing.
The crashing came after years of it. So yes, you can go on for a while, but why would you want to? As by the time you crash, for those with high levels of endurance, this really means you’re in a very depleted place and the adrenals will need a long time to rebalance and readjust in order to fully recover again.
And adrenal depletion will result in so many symptoms and a spiraling effect of other health challenges if not tended to.
And unfortunately, for myself, and I know for others, once you feel you’ve recovered, you tend to go back to the same way of life again, unless you decide to stop the spiral once and for all and focus on how to correct things at the core.
I’m happy to say that I no longer experience the effects of adrenal fatigue and it’s been because of a lifelong journey and commitment.
I’d been told by naturopathic doctors that it would be a lifelong battle, and I would have to manage and maintain it with herbs constantly.
I came to accept that and believe what they said, which only put me further into a victim role and that I could never really be in control of my health. Used it as my “excuse” in a way, or keeping me from fully being whole. And although I accepted that and learned to love it as a gift, I felt still that I could go beyond this and not define that as part of my wholeness, but simply a part of my story to wholeness that I was rewriting.
Each time I went to a naturopathic doctor and they gave me a protocol, while also discussing underlying roots, they were surprised at how quickly I turned it around. But then I’d fall back again after a couple of years.
Until, I really got it at the core.
Everyone will be different, but for me, the difference was in the commitment to myself.
Changing my lifestyle, changing the way I thought, felt, and acted as a result.
Focusing on living only from pure expression of my essence integrity and what I “needed” as the breath of life to me to bring forth through everything I did.
Learning how to create and have stronger boundaries…saying yes and no very clearly.
Releasing myself more and more from past patterns I’d identified from past life, childhood, genetic predisposition, and DNA conditioning.
Letting go of the word service and just being me.
Not pushing myself, relaxing into divine timing, trusting that what I do is enough and is perfect despite devised ideas of what I “should” be doing or performing as.
Finding my own definition of success.
Living a balanced life and immersing fully into nature.
Taking time for me so I have a deep fortified well to give authentically and responsibly from.
My diet has always been good and clean eating 100% vegan for nearly 11 years now, but changing from even being tight and strict with it in terms of only eating the cleanest of these types of foods, but rather living more flowing and by my intuition (continuing to eat 100% vegan, but whatever I desired including fun vegan goodies). This to include eating in a more balanced way that helped decrease my sensitivities because of ONLY eating clean, plus eating more relaxed and naturally, drawing me to a balance and not living in a mindset of if I dirty up my diet that I have to make up for it. No pushing or punishment. No binge and then deprive….Just pure flow.
Fully loving myself and not just saying the words.
Following my passions and singing my song.
Flowing with life and aligning with it rather than trying to control it.
Seeing everything as a gift and turning triggers into alchemy.
Knowing what is my stuff and what is not.
Being honest with myself, learning to live more from pure observation, and more by example.
Embodying my beliefs and nurturing what strengthens that.
And so on….
I’m grateful to say I’ve been able to stop taking the adrenal herbs and am still balanced and without fatigue or any symptoms I used to have, but instead live with increased vitality and inspiration and finally have that peace inside and out – alkalinity of mind, body, heart, and soul has returned.
I tried it as an experiment, as I do believe that if we thoroughly work from the core, we CAN find our way back to balance. And it has proven my theory, at least for me.
That as long as I continue in this vein, and put balance and harmony of being at the forefront of my life, then my body will find its natural balance.
And if ever something slightly shows up, rather than wait until it gets worse and ignore it, to pay attention, be ultra present, and immediately make the adjustments where needed and this can change it around instantly. As our bodies are simply messengers with gifts to reveal to us a remembering of our true nature and of the balance required as its innate foundation.
A return to natural harmony is always available in our daily practice of choice and widening perspectives.
I don’t recommend doing anything without your own doctor’s approval, as again I’m NO doctor.
I just constantly am working with energies at the metaphysical level and finding my way back to me.
If you suffer from high levels of stress, perhaps you may want to add into your protocol, a thorough visit into your own patterns and work from the inside out to rebalance mind, body, heart, and soul as a holistic way of being.
Adrenal fatigue is your ticket to you. Remember who you really are.
And as a result, the more of us that remember and embody that, the world will reflect it in greater proportions too.
I’ve been blessed with these four magickal souls in rabbit bodies in my life and have been forever changed because of them. They’ve all reminded me of my song, helping me get to where I am today. Our love transcends time, not to mention opens gateways through it. We have so much more to create together and I welcome walking that path with them in my heart and others that will join, as we do.
“The spiritual path is not a solo endeavor…We are in it together and the company of spiritual friends helps us realize our interconnectedness.” ~Tara Brach
I’m grateful for all of my soul family who have been a part of my life and helped me to remember who I am, which includes all connections that have intertwined and of course friends, loved ones, biological family, Cosmic family, and the other amazing souls who have come to me in animal bodies including the incredible Gaia my Russian Tortoise, Tee-Ta my first turtle love, Iris the white parakeet with aqua cheeks, and Sweetie and Girl my two powder blue parakeets.
It’s always amazing to me to look at how the tapestry has been woven into such richness because of all of the threads.
Yesterday we made our way down to Reno to share the day, warmth, cheer, and decadent delights with my family. It also proved quite auspicious. It’s nice to be close to them again to visit and especially so around holidays, as my parents are known for decorating the house in festive magick throughout. They are definitely the parents of a Faery, harnessing their own creative and artist alchemy to beautify and create dreamy realms that echo the heart of one’s inner child.
The photos here are but a tiny sample of how things were decorated, as they had splashes of autumn beauty everywhere.
From moment of entering their own mini castle in their little oasis sitting between two mountain ranges next to a wash and with their own season mini creek bed amidst their Faery yard, you feel and smell the welcome of entering into a place that nurtures the heart.
We shared a lovely day, enjoyed a huge feast both mom and dad prepared, followed by dad’s gourmet baked goods all made with love. They always make us everything vegan too.
The rest of the day was filled with conversation, naps for some with full tummies before dessert, and lots of metaphysical talk, and Tarot and homemade Rune fun, as we delved into explorations in both.
And we topped it all off with dad’s apple and pumpkin pie.
I marveled over how magickal the piece on my plate lit up with sparkly Faery dust and crystalline light.
Curiously, I had brought my small laptop with me, feeling like I wanted to share just the beginning of my book I’m writing with my mom, which would be the first time anyone but myself and those helping to channel it would hear it.
But apparently it was not the time even to share a glimpse of it with anyone, as when I pulled it out to do so, my computer wouldn’t turn on. The battery was completely drained, which has never happened before that quickly. And I did not bring my charger.
I got the message. It was still not time for it’s reveal.
And this occurred on a day that was filled with potent symbolism and messages leading up to arriving to my parent’s house.
Within a short span of about 35 minutes I’d seen 27 hawks. That’s incredible! They just popped up everywhere I turned. So many variety too. Some perched in trees, at the edge of meadows, on light posts, and a few flying straight at the car. All of them very very close, so I could see the full detail of their feathers, colors, faces, and incredibly powerful bodies. Each one, as if time stood still and locked in on them with a zoom lens and pause into timelessness. Amazing!
It was like an armada of sentinels and felt to be messengers from the Cosmos and my star family.
And, in the midst of the hawks, which are one of my main spirit guides, I also saw one most beautiful barn owl, which is my favorite owl and is part of my life path from here forward.
This incredible owl had unfortunately transitioned, but with such a beautiful, peaceful expression full of grace on its face. Her head turned, facing me directly.
And once again, time stood still, zoom took place locking in on her face, and another timeless pause so that she is etched in my mind’s eye.
This all felt powerfully meaningful for my life right now and what I’m involved in.
And then this morning as I was enjoying my favorite apple dumpling, my dad had made for us to bring back home, for breakfast with a homemade latte, I looked up and another incredible sighting appeared over Lake Tahoe’s portal directly in front of me where I sat at my computer.
An Arcturian symbol was etched in the sky, hovering over the Sierra Nevada Range, specifically over Mt. Tallac. This is a symbol of their main starship and one I wear in a sacred tattoo.
This is all no coincidence.
Something is afoot and it feels incredibly alchemical and much support is all around.
And so I continue forward and keep my senses on all-time high to be with what is unfolding.
There are messages everywhere and the more we open to presence and embrace, while expanding our perspectives, the more we see and receive them.
Not your completely typical Thanksgiving, but it fused Earth and Cosmos, physical and ethereal, nurturing comforts and expansive alchemy, human and star essence….my kind of celebration of life with the best of both worlds.
One of the ultimate spiritual lessons in life is gratitude. Gratitude for all the big AND little things…the seen AND unseen…the full gamut of experiences released from judgment and categorized value.
Focus on what there IS…not what you “think” you lack, as all things have a wider meaning with hidden gifts that reveal themselves when we release attachment and learn to understand how the highest good is always as work.
We just haven’t unwrapped the abundance yet, but the more gratitude you embrace, the more abundance you experience.
Gratitude isn’t just something to extend toward the so-called “good” things in life, but to ALL things – relinquishing the need to define, categorize, idealize, cast away, and judge them. That includes the “imperfect” that IS perfect and richly integral in our lives.
Today and always may you embrace the kind of gratitude that creates true alchemy.
Sending out deepest heart-to-heart gratitude for each and every one of you who is braving this journey together at this time in our collective experience. I know times get tough and intense, but you’re here and that speaks volumes. Thank you for your courage and love and for all of the love you’ve shared with me and others. Your light helps raise the vibration and makes more possible for us all. Keep shining and know that you are appreciated beyond measure.