Faery Succulent Garden Update


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It’s been incredible to watch my mini magickal gardens expand and flourish in just six and a half months since first creating them. I didn’t realize how fast these succulents would grow, but I now have these mini enchanted Faery forests. I think I only lost one along the way, and have added a couple of new ones (one gifted and one I couldn’t resist), as well as transplanted/moved a couple to increase density since some have been reaching for the sky and leaving sparse areas down below. Just incredible!

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I’ve since added some new treasures to them as well that I’ve found along travels and here in Tahoe (some from our new backyard forest).

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I love them so much and can’t wait to create my new sacred space with them, along with the new tortoise and rabbit topiaries I have, my Lamb’s Ears, and a new magickal addition – all of which you’ll see as the space is created.

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For now, I thought it would be a fun quick share to show you how much these have grown and what is possible even if you don’t have an outdoor garden, the time, or feel you have a green thumb. Succulents are a sweet and easy way to create Nature’s harmony in your home.

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You can see the original post here for comparison:

Faery Succulent Gardens

The Impossible Becomes Possible


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Doing something anyway that you feel is impossible, were told is impossible, or simply feel challenged by based on where you are right now in shifting your beliefs about the “possible”, will help you access the door to where the possible dwells and embody the frequency that aligns you with that reality.

If you devote your heart to realizing your limitless potential, making the “idea” of impossible, possible, and nurturing your imagination to stretch further, you will find your feet supported across the bridge of dreams where steps don’t appear to be right now.

Keep stretching your heart and mind to expand a little more each day.

The possible would love to embrace you with open arms.

Don’t let the impossible hold you back.

(Photo taken yesterday after already seeing a double rainbow over the lake)

Harmonic Frequency


Being able to know and experience peace doesn’t equate to constant bliss, but instead speaks to your ability to move into that centered place of harmony at any moment amidst chaos.

To me, ecstatic bliss is the opposite of chaos or the doldrums and creates a “this” or “that” view, but the harmonic frequency is one that dances without conditions and judgment, is always in tune with the origins of its voice, and knows only of the IS.

 

 

Play More


“Play liberates our soul, grounds us into our body, and frees our creativity. Play gifts our spirit to the world!” ~ Vince Gowmon

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“Play energizes us and enlivens us. It eases our burdens. It renews our natural sense of optimism and opens us up to new possibilities.” ~ Stuart Brown, MD

“Life is playfulness…We need to play so that we can rediscover the magic all around us.” ~ Flora Colao

“Play is not a break from learning. It is endless, delightful, deep, engaging, practical learning. It’s the doorway into the child’s heart!” ~ Vince Gowmon

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“When you are dancing and singing with joy, with deep acceptance of yourself as you are, wisdom starts happening.” ~ Osho

“The gift of Play is that it invites us to create without attachment, explore without a destination, and enjoy without complexity.” ~ Vince Gowmon

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“We fear our spontaneity because we are afraid of being wrong. To compensate, we plan, and over plan. We overthink our words and actions to make us feel safe.” ~ Vince Gowmon

“It is in playing, and only in playing, that the individual child or adult is able to be creative and to use the whole personality, and it is only in being creative that the individual discovers the self.” ~ D.W. Winnicott

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White Turkey and a Dream ~ The White Theme Continues & Pairs Up with Rabbits


This morning I was reminded of my dream from the night before last, which felt important and followed in the theme of “white” that has shown up QUITE A BIT, as you’ll see below – this time being a huge white turkey. Dream time has been rich and layered again and although I dream all the time (well we all do even if we don’t remember), the ones that linger with me usually hold significance I feel that I’m meant to know and/or continue to process and bring forth into the light of day.

Sometimes I remember every detail and sometimes just the main parts or essence that are significant.

This is just a brief share of the simple part that stood out most of that dream.

I found myself at a sanctuary – a rabbit and turkey sanctuary, that is. They were all running around loose and free together and I was walking among them.

The turkeys were all white. They were all beautiful, large, and plumply healthy.

They intermingled with the roaming rabbits and it was such a wonderful, ethereal, and magickal sight to see in these open fields, much of which was like golden oat or something and the rabbits seemed to blend well with the fields.

The next thing I remember was one of the turkeys stepped forward to me. He or she was HUGE! The turkey was about my height and round and plump with perfect soft white feathers and fanned tail.

The turkey opened its wings and drew me in, our chests and hearts connected, as it then wrapped its wings around me and hugged me close and snug, sinking me softly into its thick plumage.

I felt an energetic exchange and igniting or activation take place in that embrace – heart to heart.

And that’s all I remember.

I have since made the connections to the meaning for me personally about this, which takes into account the new journey that I’m on and the creative projects I’ve begun down the path of, so it may not all fully be clear to others what that would be.

If you do have your own insights, I’d be more than happy to hear what this visual brings up for you in connection with turkey symbolism the white turkey, or any of it. It IS fun to interpret dreams or explore different perspectives!

It is also very interesting how many white animals and symbols have shown up in dreams, meditations, and waking life at significant periods of time.

Here are some past links to those you might enjoy when you have time and/or want some reading material:

White Jaguar and a Dream

White Conch and a Dream

Soaring Through a New Shade of White – this about a white owl

Divine Surprises ~ Following the White Rabbit Blew Zephyr in & Cosmically Aligned Astrid – not only about the real life white rabbit, but I dreamed of the white rabbit as well, leading up to this

White Butterfly, Garden Delights & Magick Ovens

Running With My Dreams ~ A Little Nudge from White Horse

Blythe Intaglios ~ A Journey Deeper Into Origins & a Message of Hope – this link includes my visions at this sacred site that included an indigenous man on a white horse, White Buffalo and White Buffalo Calf Woman

Unicorn of the Sea ~ Dream Message from the Narwhal – about a white narwhal

Anchoring Supports Creative Expansion


Days have been CRAZY busy lately and increasingly will be in the coming weeks, as we prepare for moving in and remodeling continues to rapidly increase with overlapping contractors to accommodate that. Although work will continue through January, we should have enough done upstairs to get in at Thanksgiving, as long as things continue as they are. We’re also flowing with what shows up and ready to adjust that timing if need be.

We weren’t able to find a general contractor we liked and was affordable to handle everything that we are, so we are the general contractors to our 15 or so different contractors, at times shifting the responsibilities back and forth, as well as sharing them together to manage it all.

It’s A LOT (as many of you may know from your own experience), as it isn’t just one simple change here and there like just new flooring, choosing paint colors, or remodeling say a kitchen or bath. It basically has entailed literally gutting/demoing most of the entire inside of the house and starting from scratch, other than the foundational footprint and layout. Our first time doing a full-on remodel, as the closest we came was in our Costa Mesa house, which we redid a lot in, but nothing like to this extent AND there we actually had a general contractor. So it’s been a great process of learning and understanding how it all works.

The entire outside hasn’t been touched (other than adding our new 8 Austrian Pines and adding a walkway bridge from my new office here shortly), but the inside is getting a whole new face lift on every level, which to me symbolizes transforming things on the inside for us too.

When Spring comes we’ll look at working on the yard and implementing some ideas there. Step by step.

On top of this, we also had to manage, and in some cases did the work ourselves, some changes and fixes to our tree house condo to prepare it for the new tenants. So we’ve been managing both places, on top of scheduling everything to align timing-wise with all that each entails. You throw in regular life, work, our other side projects we manage together, and my editing and what not, and it’s quite a lot to juggle. We may not have human children, but we do have animal children, all of whom are very sensitive, and we can tell that they are anxious to get to the new place too and so we do our best to keep equilibrium with everything and hold peace for it all.

It’s not always the easiest thing to do when there is so much being thrown at you at once. It can kind of get overwhelming, so you do need to have those anchors in place to center and balance you back so you don’t get caught up in the stress. That entails a lot of flexibility and willingness to readjust your position, and for us, has strengthened our clarity with how to communicate with others and ourselves, and of course never take something personally. I/we are learning so much through this process, not to mention, growing in new ways.

So while things might appear the same on the outside of our new home, they in fact will be operating from a whole new internal circuitry, shifting us into a different feeling experience and reality. The new trees outside are rooting new pathways for us and connection to the forest and bigger picture collective reality we’re settling into, but the foundation is solid on which we’re working from, which is good.

So, since the foundation and structure is strong, that feels anchoring of the new we’ve been working on that is solid and in place already, which is holding everything together while we reconfigure, continue to shift, upgrade, integrate, assimilate, grow into the more expansive shoes holding space for us, and create what this new is like on the inside. The fun part is, it’s all our creative choice as to how we want that to feel and look.

It’s interesting that my foot has healed just as the major crunch time with the house is happening too and timely because Dave hadn’t been feeling well the last two weeks so there were things I needed to take over, which driving and walking allowed for. Everything sort of rewired at the same aligned time and it’s been cool that I used the forest backyard as part of my strengthening of my foot and the backdrop for all of this inner circuitry of moving parts and people weaving together.

Needless to say, this is simply a little break I’m taking to provide this update, as it feels reflective of things that others might derive some symbolism from too and may mirror what you’re experiencing, from one perspective of how to view them that you may not have thought of.

Plus, it’s always therapeutic, I find, to write about things and move energy.

It also lends to why you will increasingly see less posts during this crunch time, or very simple ones, because simply I’m quite occupied in other areas right now – like BIG TIME!

So much so that even my editing has had to take the back burner for the last nearly week (with sporadic bursts when I could), so that I can not only attend to things needed, but stay on top of self nurturing, rest, and keeping balanced.

I don’t force things simply because I have a goal, because ultimately if I’m not at my best, I can’t give my best to anything and what I create will only be a small or smaller percentage of its potential.

This home base feels key right now.

I have also found that currently this approach of flowing with the energy that shows up has been ideal for my editing (I’m on my second run-through of my book) because now and then we need to step away from things to return with a fresh perspective, sometimes completely removing ourselves altogether from it for a time period.

So unless I get a very strong message that I really need to amp things up to align the timing of my book with things energetically, I’ll be inclined to trust what is showing up as where to focus, so I will be invigorated when I return to it and the process will be speedy, rather than feel labored or take ages to work through even a few sentences.

Of course, we can self-sabotage ourselves and find ways to avoid things, so it’s important to stay on top of authenticity, responsibility, and being honest with ourselves for why we are or aren’t doing something.

I check in constantly to make sure of this and am assured that right now there is a window available of letting it sit in the background percolating, while I put into place important things and keep healthy and strong.

But I assure you that I do feel a sense of timing with my book, yet trust as long as I keep moving the energy in some way, I’ll know when to jump back in fully. And I also know when I do, that it will flow more easily than what I felt right before I stepped away to handle other things. The energy was heavier and not fluid, as I usually feel. Hence, a perfect transition time.

Amidst it all, I do still feel peace mixed with excitement, as well as moments of overwhelm mixed with complete surrender. There’s that feeling of perfection with the now and also this anticipation for the new anchoring. There’s that gratitude for all that has been to create the now and also this wonder about what I can envision becoming. So yes, lots of duality dancing with each other in balance, which I only differentiate when I write, in order to explain what takes place as this simultaneously seamless experiencing.

Perhaps it’s much like my hair’s unified duality that you see here in the most recent reflective photo of me beginning this new phase of my life.

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I’ve also noticed Astrid is going through her own transitions with things right now too, which isn’t surprising. She is definitely reconfiguring things for herself, too, and learning what it means to be loved for who she is, which is encouraging her to discover how she really wants to share herself not because of fears or conditioning, but because it’s simply what feels right for her. So she’s working that out through explorations.

Interestingly, I have been getting ideas for the next project already, so I know that if that is anchoring, just as the house anchored in foundation while we rework the insides, that the infrastructure and insides of my book will rework themselves too in perfect timing.

Anchoring seems to be key, at least in my experience, then the pieces start to come together with the rest.

In the interim, so many animal spirit guides show up consistently for me due to my strong connection there, reflecting their own pieces of the story.

So many in recent weeks have shown up, that hadn’t for some time like the bears, the deer, and countless little ones all around.

I even had a hawk again outside our deck visiting several days ago. This time soaring with deliberate intent for me to see. You might remember the one that came and landed on the banister looking in on me. Well, this one my own hawk eye caught sight of down quite a ways below. I told Dave immediately, “watch, he’s going to come to us.”

And he did.

He suddenly turned around and started soaring closer and closer until he literally was soaring directly in front of our door going to the right first, disappearing at roof level, then soaring back to the left and directly in front again, then disappearing above one more time, and back to the right until he then flew off. Three fly-by’s, but each soaring in place so I could see all his feather detail and he confirmed hearing me tell Dave he was coming.

Hawk always feels to me to be about navigating and staying on path with deep presence and awareness, being open to and taking in wider perspectives, trusting my insights as they speak my truth, taking decisive actions with strength of vision and initiative behind them after surveying all creative possibilities, and knowing I have the ability to move through anything with grace and am being watched over by divine guardianship. Definitely good confirmation for it being time to bring forth gifts into action, but also a time to not act impulsively and await those air stream propulsions by assimilating everything to create alchemical alignment.

And just a few days, while on our way home, I counted 17 hawks that showed themselves (I think the most has been 44), and as we were on our way back up the mountain to our tree house – I was driving – my hawk eye caught two coyotes to the right at the side of the mountain.

They were very camouflaged and otherwise would not be seen, unless you knew where to look and how to make them out. I immediately told Dave and pointed, slowing down, and he saw them while remarking how much they blended in.

I normally have only see one coyote at a time, but two together felt significant.

Their medicine speaks to me of all things being sacred – so yes even the uncomfortable processes and the times you feel all you can do is focus on survival – that laughter and playfulness is always important to have running behind the scenes (a big one for me that I keep cultivated), about cunning and knowing how to balance risk and safety, about adaptability and the need to stay flexible always especially in seeing another way, about instinct being important to connect to, and yes about that trickster energy, but more about having integrated dual sides skillfully of wisdom and foolishness that help us learn. As way-makers they’ve been known by many to be symbolic of endings and making way for new beginnings. They also are known to mate for life and know how to nurture and protect their family – that stands out to me in seeing two this time for the first time.

And not more than two minutes after, my hawk eye caught two deer to the left on the side of the mountain this time. I slowed down again to point out to Dave who then saw them, remarking it was quite a wildlife sighting day. 🙂

The coyotes medicine was balanced out, and in some ways enhanced, with deer medicine of love, grace, gentleness, compassion, innocence, peace, beauty, fertility, femininity, humility, swiftness, acceptance, regrowth, renewal, creativity, spirituality, psychic power, subtlety, higher connection, awareness, abundance, benevolence, and watchfulness. Interesting to note there were TWO again. Really emphasizing that divine union, duality in balance, and sacred relationship with the parts within and without.

Interesting that there was predator and then prey – another balance exhibited in Nature’s cycles and not too far off from collective things exhibiting themselves a lot these days.

I will continue to draw upon their meanings for me personally, as I move through these full days and equally full and symbolic nights of layered dreams and even more animals spirit guides showing up in them to include, bat, spider, cats, and rabbits.

There is much going on with everyone everywhere and not only is there a lot of things being unveiled in the collective as well, surfacing as challenges in order to help to heal, but I know of many dear friends going through huge hurdles right now and I can’t help but feel both a sense of withdrawal to preserve my energy, but also this inversion within that withdrawal of deepening into greater ways of being able to share my love with them all. More duality playing out in a unified way that makes sense only to the heart.

I wish everyone greater peace with all that you are experiencing directly or indirectly. It’s something I constantly work on for myself as well, to know peace and harmony more intimately by the day.

We are reconfiguring things for sure and where it leads is unknown, but can only be navigated by a heart anchored in love.

 

Spiraling Cycles of Life & Regeneration


Everything in life goes through cycles of death and rebirth, breaking down and regenerating – basically spiraling through an evolutionary process of wholeness and natural surrender into peaceful being. That is how Nature does it and where we can heed guidance from in terms of returning to the “nature” within us too. Life truly is miraculous when we see it through eyes of surrender, rather than control, and yet also just “is”.

Calls to mind this month’s Energy Update with Lee Harris on that death and birth energy.

I always like to draw upon personal experience to help reflect how things unfold when we apply these ways of embracing life, which at times create those a-ha’s as well.

And I also, for myself, find it fun to see the reiteration of Nature’s cycles in my life. Everything is constantly spiraling, yet always taking us to a new level of experience – not back to the same place from which we started, even if in fact we seem to find ourselves in a similar space with things because it’s always at a different level due to the changes we’ve implemented or have had implemented with our embrace or not.

Since returning back to Tahoe, I’ve found so many cycles in my life come full circle (a ton in fact!), but open and expand into ever-greater spirals of new.

Today, I find myself in a spiral and full circle of it being one year since we moved into this tree house in the sky above Lake Tahoe and we are now in preparation to be moving into our new home just a couple of weeks away – likely to fall on Thanksgiving itself, which is quite the symbolism of gratitude in abundance for sure.

My fractured right foot has also joined my left one in completely healing, as Sunday (yesterday) marked 8 weeks since that incident. I’ve been back to regular shoes the last couple of weeks, driving, and being able to do short hikes, which help strengthen and exercise the new bone structure I’ve rebuilt.

I have found that each time I’ve fractured my feet (this is the third fracture (I had two in a row to my left – just 2 months apart from each other – and this one to the right) that it has always been at a period of huge upgrades in my life in process and restructuring needed for how I would be walking through, anchoring and grounding in, and how my Pisces self (symbolized in feet) would be swimming through the next phase of my journey with these transformations implemented. It’s a whole regeneration process, as I build the new in every way from the ground up!

Always so timely. Always so reflective. Always so aligned.

It brings to mind this old post I shared back in February of 2014 titled Contractions and Expansions – Spiraling Fractures Shedding their Way to the Pearl Within

Spirals are definitely about the mystical creative or creation process and involve Cosmic wisdom in expanding awareness and connective motion. The flow of inner and outer in balance and harmony, as natural progressions of evolutionary, unified, and holistic growth. It’s definitely a “weeeee” process of surrendering into that journey of wholeness and the adventure of initiating ever-new threads of a grand tapestry within the Great Mystery.

I’m sitting here surrounded by my succulent mini gardens and seeing the reflection of this wisdom in the nature of their being, especially in the new little Crassula Buddha’s Temple, spiraling around in perfect sacred geometry tiers, that my sweet friend Dawn brought me as a gift when she visited on her own full circle trip back to Tahoe.

I’ve also just done a big purge of my closet, cleansing out everything old and from a time no longer of the “now me energy,” as I prepare for this new cycle I/we’re about to embark upon and not wanting to be holding on to anything that represents the past and old so that I can move more freely and unencumbered by things holding me back in any way. I’ll be doing the same when I begin setting up everything in the new space, as anything not representative of the new energy is out, out, OUT!

Astrid definitely represents this new spiraling cycle too and I’ve been working on creating a whole new environment for her and I in my upcoming new magickal portal office, Faery/Bunny play world, and creative imagining and manifesting space. Hehe! That was a mouth full.

There’s so much more I could share in how these spiraling cycles are taking effect in my life, but many I already have in the stories expressed along the way, if you’ve been joining me along the journey.

My question to you, is how might you aid your own process of natural regeneration and rebirthing? Where might you let go more? Where might you open more softly to new perspectives and new ways of being?

It’s all happening anyway, and we can make it more gentle and less challenging if we embrace Nature’s gifts of wisdom.

 

November Energy Update with Lee Harris


A wonderful Energy Update for the month of November by Lee Harris. I hope you take time to listen to it in its fullness for the seeds of wisdom. I always align with his messages and this one is definitely on point with my own feelings for sure.

Lee speaks about birth and death energy being big through end of the year with everything and how the energy right now seems slow in order for everything to align and agree with the new, yet is still in motion to expand.

As he shares, we are here also to have a human experience and growth through that. This is the beauty of Earth and her gifts. He reminds us that division strengthens togetherness and provides insights on how to perceive and work with things within ourselves that show up differently than what we desire, in order to experience the change we want to see.

Taurus Full Frost Moon, Shifts Illuminated & Faery Synchronicities


Woke to some brief snow flurries, which will be continuing on and off and increasing today in preparation for a much larger snow storm tomorrow (might bring 1-3 feet) – perfectly coinciding with the Full Moon in Taurus, also known as the Frost Moon since it’s the time of the first frost – sync wink. 😉 Also aligning with my current focuses of home remodeling, moving prep, editing my book, getting back into nature again, and balancing it all with good food for well-being. Days are full indeed and do require a monitoring of my energy, which creates these shifts in output I’m able to sustain.

Synchronously Taurus does involve energies of structure (editing my book and remodeling house, not to mention restrengthening my foot bone), stability (anchoring in our new home and new “footing”), home environment (relaxing into that warmth and beautifying it, which we are), Earthy, grounding, and involving connecting with the wisdom of Nature (my foot is healed – 8 weeks this Sunday – and I’ve been back to regular shoes and short hikes/walks), enjoyment of good food (I’ve been in baking and cooking mode to keep the nourishment flowing), patience (we’ve had to have a lot of that with the 15 or so different contractors we’ve been managing and with the process of my book), and the need to stay open-minded and flexible so as not to fall into that stubborn and fixed trap that is possible with Taurus, when different choices, paths and perspectives present themselves.

The energies definitely seems to tell the story of my life right now. Couldn’t have written it any clearer and on point if I did it myself, but then I am writing it AND my book. Hehe!

An opportune time for balancing your feelings with practical life actions indeed.

Anyway, it’s been super fun and quite hilarious (at least to both Laura and I) how much we always mirror each other and go through the same things at the same time, or our own version of them relative to our lives.

In current times, however, we have the exact same things taking place with both having manifested our new, dream homes and being in writing mode.

We always seem to take turns leading into it all, as my book writing has been ongoing for months while Laura was preparing her new home and then prepping for writing mode.

Now Laura is in writing mode beginning this month, while I edit and am preparing our new home.

We were actually going into contracts all around the same time, but for us that shifted into a different version than thought and expanded, taking us into where we are now.

Also funny and synchronous was her blog this morning sharing her writing update, needing to focus her writing energy, her Taurus husband starting full-time living at their new home, and their starting a new chapter all around. That’s all at the link above.

Sound familiar?

I do also hear of similar things others are experiencing as well out there, but the stuff she and I mirror is uncanny.

And in alignment with her blog announcement, last night (unbeknownst to her) I’d shared to all my Facebook friends how my days and weeks have been drawing on my creative energy and focus with everything involved with the new home and my book so much so that I only have small bursts here and there to offer because, honestly, I feel spent mentally and unable to disperse the creative energy needed right now for these important projects, to anything else. This leaves me without tons of energy or time to do as much in other areas or to even keep up with replying and commenting in the depth I usually like to.

But I am still staying connected, just needing to funnel my creative energy and preserve it, as this keeps it potent for these needs right now.

And as I said in my post on Facebook, I just want you to know I’m here, really care, and am still connected and seeing your shares and comments, while sending you love. Thank you for your friendship and love too. It means so much and helps greatly with all that I am creating. 

I’m excited to share some of that in the coming months.

Samhain Sunset & Astrid Magick


Astrid didn’t need a costume, as she embodied the perfect Halloween bunny last night with her mysterious dark brindled coat of shape-shifting markings, silver toes, belly, and tail, and a Crescent Moon eye. I took this photo of her last night right after the sun set and my auto flash went off, which not only captured two giant orbs around her body, but caught the light just right creating a red and gold Moon in her eye. I’m guessing that Cosmo and my other bunny loves wanted to make an appearance. Astrid was definitely in a calm zone, not wanting me to leave her and kept nosing my leg to get my attention and transfer energy. She was definitely comforting me with my Cosmo thoughts.

I’d just finished my first run-through of reading my book from start to end, since completing it, which included a first round of simple edits and cutting my superfluous writing down 23 pages so far. That felt perfect to complete on this special day, which had so many connections to Cosmo and much more. I still have more rounds of editing to go – it’s quite a process – perhaps completing by end of year (my goal) before it will be in a form for feedback from others.

For now, I remain the only person who has read any of it and that feels perfect in remaining true to my voice.

This is something my bunny loves have taught me the importance of…remembering my song and singing it.

It was a quiet day and evening, which felt perfect for honoring my sweet Cosmo, tuning in with my bunny loves, and for focusing on the other joy of my heart – my book.

Even the sky reflected this calm and mystery in a perfect Samhain sunset of orange and black clarity.

I snapped this photo before the one of Astrid.

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The veils were definitely thin and the love was definitely strong.

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