New Moon Eclipse, Messengers & Soft Transitions

With Mercury still retrograde and our journeying through this year’s intense Eclipse season, we are indeed going through some major recalibrating shifts on the worldwide scene in terms of all that we’re dealing with collectively. As usual, the way we navigate our inner world will have both an effect on altering things in the outer word AND on how we personally experience it all. Like I wrote as a comment on Laura’s recent blog post (here are snippets):

“….the Eclipses and things like these are individual experiences and that’s only known by the individual and their experience, so pay attention to your own energy signature and what your chosen role in things are….the importance of intention and setting parameters so that you’re fully conscious, aware and proactively cocreating your and the collective’s experience. Manifesting is easy these days so be VERY clear what you do and don’t want to manifest….Know thyself, as they say. Lots of love and harmonious balancing to everyone through these deep reveals and openings still yet to come. We’re all here together to buffer the journey as One.”

We are being taught something of value during all of this intensity and with this Gemini New Moon Eclipse it will come through channels of communication and information with reveals happening left and right either by accountable disclosure or surprising reveal. I’ve not only been seeing this play out in the world in stages (soon to be more and more largely all-encompassing), but have been hearing individual stories of huge surprising reveals that in some cases have shattered people’s lives and hearts. Yet, overall, the message has been clear to me….while devastating or disturbing for some to experience for now, the reveals are hidden gifts supporting the highest good for all that we have yet to see within the healing process of the fresh traumas.

I suspect that all things hidden in the individual and collective mirroring fields of experience, even if the individual or group has convinced themselves that having it hidden is for the best, will come to surface sooner or later in these “cracking open” times because separation can’t live on forever.

With emphasis in North Node energies highlighted, things we glean from now or through experiences that unfold during this Eclipse will have impact on our future self.

It can be helpful to make sure you are embodying as pure of energy as you are able to, relative to your frequency expression on Earth. No one is some idea of “perfect” and to be human involves evolution, but we can still do our most conscious best in each moment.

This is an opportune time to set clear, strong boundaries, to take pause, reflect, and receive.

After my dipping into things a bit recently to collectively assist and opening the boundaries a bit to work even more deliberately, I’ve gone back to erecting the boundaries. I am still deeply involved in the same focuses, but the transformational impact was enough to set things in motion in new directions and for another future version of me to step in.

It’s best not to try to force anything during these Eclipse periods, but instead to allow the Universe to move through you and guide the way.

Synchronous with the energies, short distance travel is ruled by Gemini – the sign that the New Moon Solar Eclipse is in early this morning – and come the 14th I’ll be away on a short journey only about two and a half to three hours from here, through the 17th. This also happens to be a self-induced silent retreat (interesting given Gemini rules communication) that Dave and I are sharing in a remote sanctuary area. Because of this, I’ll likely not blog again until I return.

I’m curious what will be gleaned, received, and activated from it. The timing wasn’t planned, but what was available, yet it happens to feel significant right before our threefold anniversary on Summer Solstice of the 20th and since it starts on the day Saturn squares Uranus.

In the meantime, I continue to receive visitors sharing their support and guidance – on and off Earth – and having multitudes of dream visions. Some of these messengers in Earth animal bodies include coyote, snake, a tiny brown bird, ladybug, a special chipmunk, hawks, wild mustangs, and lots of geese.

The coyote is the very same one that keeps crossing my path – our beautiful resident coyote who uses our house as her pathway into the forest. I always just “happen” to be by the window when she crosses and she makes it a point to stop and give me a long look at her, enough so to see her gorgeous creamy fur with speckled hints of darker pattern. She came through recently with a deliberate, long pause.

Then garter snake decided to slither on by across the driveway in front of me, as I got in the car that same day.

The tiny brown bird – no more than 3 inches long from head to tail – felt like a direct mirror. We heard a bang on the window and I went outside to see if a bird hit it and fell. It’s nearly a miracle I saw her, but of course she drew me to her, as she matched the soil she was laying in under a bush in the shade. I wasn’t sure if she was hurt or stunned, but decided to support her with Reiki and other energy work. She just looked at me super calmly and listened. Then when I got up she flew off onto the limb of a nearby tree. I was happy she was fine and she reflected to me my head hit and transformational opening from it, but that all was well.

Then there was ladybug who sat on my hand at the beach for about 20 minutes and two days of geese at the beach as well – one day a group of 10 and then mainly 2 from a smaller group on another day that were coming right up to us and connecting. The geese always feel like family and they always get close enough to share long soulful eye communication with me.

On both days I found a bunch of large geese feathers – 10 on the first day and 13 the next. The second day the feathers actually floated to me while I was wading in the water.

Large flocks of geese showed up yesterday on our hike, returning to their nesting grounds for the season. We sat on the bench watching and connecting with them. There were at least a hundred.

Hawk continues to show up at punctuated times, including right before I visited my parents two days ago. I’d just seen the wild mustangs roaming by the lake in the valley – always a treat when they show up, given my horse connection since I was a little girl and their powerful meaning to my life transitions.

It was a very windy day and right as I was turning to head toward the road to their home, one was playing in the strong wind, just soaring in place with wings spread wide so I could see all the details of his feathers. After other recent hawk encounters, I felt hawk feathers were going to come to me at some point, as the feeling was strong every time I thought of them or saw one. I would actually see the feathers in my mind’s eye. Then when I got to my parent’s house after seeing the soaring, stunning hawk, my mom handed me two feathers she recently found and knew to keep for me.

One was the gorgeous, large hawk feather you see in the photo with me above. I love how it matches the leaf print on the right shoulder of my dress creating the effect of two wings from my shoulders.

And then there was a special chipmunk that showed up. I realized and received that this was our sweet Strawberry returning and the timing was uncanny!

You might recall the story of Strawberry the chipmunk I saved who got stuck in our wet cement epoxy in the garage, which took place on June 8th, 2018. Well, nearly three years later on June 5th of 2021 we made contact again. Typically chipmunks are known to live 2-5 years, but as many as 8. Strawberry was grown now and much larger, from the time of that experience as a youngster, but her fur showed evidence of not having fully come back right in all places. She did have a lot of fur, otherwise, but there were areas missing that plushness and her tail as well was thinned. Overall, she looked healthy in terms of eating well and obviously still being alive after all this time, but she was older and moved differently. I could tell her eyes were aged and the fur around her face and ears were scruffy and showing signs of aging too. But she was drinking out of the bird bath I have out for the forest animals in my garden and then jumped to my garden bench and slowly got up on the fence to lay in the sun. It took a little effort to jump across and up on it, but she made it and let me come close while I talked to her. She just layed in the sunshine absorbing the healing rays and listened to me until I was done and started back to my watering and then she jumped up into the nearby tree.

That encounter was very dear to my heart and felt full circle, much like the recent events between Eclipses and so much more.

Dave and I had seen her around not long after the first incident, and you may recall that lots of little creatures were coming by after that to learn of me and Astrid who helped, fed, and gave her Reiki and crystal energy inside the Wonderland room. They were curious about what life was like in the house on the forest where a faery and rabbit queen lived.

I actually had noticed a chipmunk around the house recently with what looked like mottled fur and wondered if it was her, but I was never close enough to get a good look and she would be off and about quickly. Until five days ago when we connected once again in close encounter that allowed me a good look at her fur and face and to feel into her energy and eyes, after our first meeting where I held her gingerly in my hands to clean and care for her after the incident.

Every encounter has been such a gift, but seeing Strawberry feels very deep for me and not only meaningful on so many layers, but also very personally reflective of me like the tiny brown bird. Strawberry’s life feels connected to mine in a way I can’t explain yet. We are growing older and making life transitions together, stronger through the trials, and living in peace amidst it all. I love that she stayed to make this her home.

I’m so grateful for these messengers and this window of peaceful ease and grace with all of the transitions evolving. I’ve felt a softening to energy again and even the scab on my head is completely healed and gone, with only remnants of a superficial scar I’ll get to wear on my crown along with others.

It’s not always an easy time out there right now, but when we listen and intend with full consciousness, we can experience things a bit softer and without surprise. We can also be there for one another to support the changes now and upcoming.

My days since my head Eclipse experience have been about soaking up rays of sunshine, immersing in the magickal and activating Tahoe waters enjoying beach days, lots of garden time, clearing the way for new things in my life, relaxing and baking, reflection and intention, very limited work hours, and short walks we’ve worked up to about 2 1/2 miles now for Dave’s knee recovery, which like my head is going extremely well.

Paying attention to the ways in which energy doesn’t feel balanced in your life on any level, and making adjustments or intentions to change that, makes a huge difference.

I also just happened to have a hair trim appointment come up, which felt perfectly unplanned in timing for today’s energy. A New Moon Eclipse refresh helped shift energies in the direction of releasing the old and softening things even more for the next phase of life transitions.

This was just two days ago after the renewing crown energy, which was also perfect like a rebirth from the head wound that I did in fact feel take place.

When my stylist asked how I wanted her to style it after the refresh, I told her, “I’ll let you choose.” She chose a soft loose wave. 😉 Perfect alignment with the softening energy in motion.

May we all ride these new waves of transition in softer ways, but with all of our hearts.

Intuition Nurtures the Parts of Us We Have Yet to Understand

I’m constantly reminded how important nurturing and supporting intuition is, the more convoluted the energetic landscape around me gets. There are SO many voices literally and subconsciously barking at us from all corners that it can become extremely challenging to navigate anything without wondering which voice is running the show. The more the world turns upside down and tries to play tug-of-war with me, the more I turn within, as the only voice that speaks my truth the best, is MY voice…the one that whispers softly to me through the vortex of my heart.

If we don’t practice listening though, then we’ll never learn how to distinguish it from the rest. Listening to intuition is the way to your truest heart calling. It’s the bridge to greater peace and strength, even when chaos is swirling all around.

The last few days have continued to be filled with messengers and sign posts of support and upcoming change that I’ll share about likely in another post, as I listen to where to focus my energy next. My head healed rather quickly, but not surprisingly, given what I know about its origins and the work I’ve been focused on. There only remains a single 3/4 of an inch long scab that is already starting to come off naturally. I still to date have had no repercussions in physical challenges, including no dizziness or pain. Very grateful for all of that.

And through it all I’ve continued to take pause when anything arises that doesn’t feel resonant, so that I can stay centered and wait for the spirit connected part of me to respond from the highest place within, rather than get caught up in any momentary ego trigger. This is how I stay in control and work with my energies in a balanced way.

Your intuition is a master navigator. So, if we can learn to take pause, listen, and feel for it before we start running on old programming and ego battles, then we can save ourselves and others a lot of unnecessary challenges.

Listening to that subtle or not so subtle inner nudge, voice, vision, or feeling you have that doesn’t always make sense, is your support system that keeps you in alignment and always has your back. We don’t need to know the why or how. That only comes through experience, once you trust the innate wisdom you DO already have within.

Intuition is always speaking to us, but we may need to retrain ourselves to pause, listen and back it up. The more we do, the easier it gets and eventually will become a seamless experience.

We are intuitive beings by nature. We just have a lot of noise in the way of believing that.

If I feel something heavy coming at me or in me, I stop to reframe things and support energy to move rather than keep me down by listening to intuition and what it is telling me in that moment to do, even if it doesn’t make sense. Sometimes intuition might tell you to do something completely opposite or seemingly random than you think you feel like doing, but if you stretch yourself for a moment to just be curious about that voice and explore a little courage to follow it, you will find yourself likely feeling a whole lot better even if you don’t have the meaning of life or even the vision yet of what the end result will be of your current quandary.

It’s perfect to go through every kind of feeling. It’s when things get stuck that having a natural guiding system can be helpful to see you through so energy keeps moving.

It’s not necessarily that you arrive at answers, but you become able to feel more balanced, hopeful, and refreshed to try things from another perspective.

Over the course of my life I’ve had a lot of intuitional voices run through me. Some I ignored and others I didn’t. The latter being my more consistent experience these days, which I’m grateful for as the ignoring didn’t make things easier.

One of the big hits I received through the voice of intuition has to do with where I currently reside.

I’ll use it as an example for what I’ve been sharing so far, to give you an idea of how something rather “random” seeming and that makes no sense at all, came to unfold for me. I remembered something I was shown years before it happened, but I tucked it away because I knew it was meaningful.

Sometimes intuition can tell us how to navigate something immediately, or it may come beforehand to help prepare the way and remind you when the time is aligned.

The healing waters of Tahoe have always been activating for me, but I never knew anything about this lake – at least not the current me. This lake and area carry ancient memories from times long ago and these were in my DNA to awaken at the perfect timing they would be needed.

This lake called to my soul long before I even knew of her. Back in my mid 20’s during one of my biggest and most profound healing transformations while I lived in Sedona, part of my studies and inner work led me to a map and intuitive hit that pointed to Lake Tahoe. One of the things I was exploring as part of the big shifts I was undergoing at the time, was where would be most supportive for me to live.

I didn’t know anything about Lake Tahoe other than my parents mentioning they’d been there when I was growing up, nor was it ever on my conscious radar in any way. I received then the vision I was to live there. The when was unknown. I was told of a vortex and given nothing else, but a knowing around a place I had personally never even visited.

I tucked it away and forgot about it, as the timing obviously wasn’t aligned yet.

At 33, life took me there in my previous marriage to look for a house over a long weekend’s first-ever visit, knowing I was to be here even without exploring the area.

I hadn’t been comfortable living where we were in Washington state on Puget Sound, although we had a dream location on the water and a private beach with a view of Seattle. What you think you might love, doesn’t always pan out the way you’d think, as experiencing the energy of something is completely different than simply idealizing something.

We discussed this and in wanting to find that balance, even though I didn’t want to live in his home state and house, I also didn’t feel it right to live in mine or anything familiar for me either.

We decided we needed a place that was not of his or my family past…a new beginning. I remembered the strong intuitive nudge about Lake Tahoe and mentioned it to him as a possible idea. He proceeded to say, with a surprise in his eyes that I would bring it up since I’d never even been there, that he loved Tahoe, as he had visited it before and spent time skiing and working there for a Winter. It was an instant click and we made plans to explore it for a long weekend.

The intuitive hit I had was supported the moment we got to Tahoe, feeling so good to me, and within two days we were in contract to buy the perfect home overlooking the lake. We moved immediately from the Seattle area, traveling with my then twin soul rabbit, Nestor, who was a large part of navigating my life.

And so, Tahoe would come to be the place of my next transformative journey, but my intuition had been right.

It ended up being where I got a divorce, but also where I met my now husband after that happened.

I lived in Tahoe 3 years before moving away, but I constantly felt her pull. My life took many twists and turns on every front, but I always thought of and missed Tahoe, and I found my way back to her where we’ve been for the last nearly 5 years.

There is much more to the story, but the bottom line is…these waters, mountains, forests and land speak to what I have energetically needed and match my essence. My intuition knew more about me and the future me I would become, then I knew of myself in the moments I simply was wondering where would be most supportive for me to live.

And since then, I integrated into being more myself than ever on all fronts – spiritually, physically, mentally, and emotionally. I began my biggest ventures onto my path in Tahoe. I became my own person – independent and empowered in Tahoe.

I learned how to balance my astrological energies in Tahoe. I discovered how to heal many things in Tahoe.

I became an avid hiker, biker, and skier in Tahoe. The nature girl I always had been within, but never put into motion, got activated into being, right here. I’ve met the key people in my life in Tahoe, or while living in Tahoe. All of my most influential animal companions have lived in, come to me in, and visited Tahoe. And so much more.

I learned, through many adventures and explorations around the area that Lake Tahoe has the best of all the worlds I personally love, in one place – mountains, forests, meadows, wetlands, lakes galore, rivers, creeks, beaches, tropical colored waters like the ocean, stone outcroppings, desert-like areas, places that remind me of the surface of the Moon or another planet and some of my other favorite exotic areas of the world, and has the four seasons to mirror life cycles.

I also discovered that I thrive at high altitudes and it suits my essence so well.

“Although I deeply love oceans, deserts and other wild landscapes, it is only mountains that beckon me with that sort of painful magnetic pull to walk deeper and deeper into their beauty. They keep me continuously wanting to know more, feel more, see more.” ~Viktoria Erickson

I trusted an insight without seeing, simply because my soul knew something beyond explanation and it’s proven accurate.

There are other places I enjoy in the world, but only a few fingers counting of where my soul loves and knows to be resonant enough for living- I keep them close to heart and listen in case they ever call like Tahoe has in her own divine timing.

I have learned to trust my intuition even when it doesn’t make sense because it’s always proven to nurture and care for me. Intuition is not out to hurt us, even if the things it tells us equate to massive unknown changes. There is a meaning we don’t need to understand. That’s simply our minds trying to work it out. I had no idea how I would come to be here, but here I am once and again. 

This isn’t a post about Tahoe, but about following intuition, and one of the ways I have around the subject of where to live, which I know can oftentimes be a big one for people.

Intuition will guide you best, not only doing research about an area (or anything for that matter), alone, as there is no cookie-cutter place that is better than any other place on the planet for EVERYONE. There is only the place that resonates, aligns, and is most supportive for YOU at any GIVEN TIME in your life, as this can evolve based on what is best for your evolution.

I have spent time in places that others love and are also considered high-energy, vortex, and super nature-stunning places that very spiritual and in-tune people feel drawn to, support more eco-conscious and Earth-based living, as well as places that artisans love and reside in, and I found them to not work for me at all.

I am not one to name places or bad-mouth anything, as I don’t like to create biases and blanket statements or opinions that are merely from my own experience. All I know is that I’ve experienced non-harmonious, low energy, not great feelings, and heavier, denser spaces where others don’t and vice versa.

I also know that my own state of being plays a huge part in what I experience. Therefore when someone shares all the negativity they are experiencing by living somewhere, this isn’t everyone’s experience necessarily. Our own experience can cloud perspective since we will continue to magnetize or draw in things that support our beliefs and feelings adopted or support a message we may not be listening to. This could come in the form of telling you that a move would be most supportive, or you might think a move is supportive, but in actuality the place you live is activating parts of you that are needing to change and be active in new ways you have been neglecting or pushing aside.

Places can be transformational springboards for us to help us to shift and stay, or shift and move on.

And there’s nothing wrong with that, as perhaps that’s the way to move you forward. I just know that we carry ourselves where ever we go and even if we find a place that feels right, the current state we are in can magnetize more of that outwardly simply as a messaging system to view our lives through and make different choices at every moment.

I’ve only focused on intuition navigating me to where I currently am, but I’ll continue to use intuition to let me know if at any given point things change with that, but also with any part of my life in general.

There’s so much emphasis on analyzing things, but when we partner both sides of our brain together – left AND right – and infuse the heart as the mediator for that partnership, then we get led to more aligned experiences.

It’s not “just” about intuition, but indeed the better we get at listening to intuition we will find that it is the part of us that “knows” what all parts of us use their own language system to try to tell us. Each part has their own way of going about things and it can get kind of exhausting at times to appease them. They’re there for a reason to understand the power of each, yet they also simply exist within a marriage of unity.

Intuition merges gut feelings with higher self guidance and already knows the details of our analyzing side of the brain, but in a snapshot of innate inner knowing and wisdom.

Fear, doubt, expectations, misconceptions, pressure, ego, and beliefs can all be some of the stumbling blocks to hearing, trusting, supporting, and acting upon intuition. They all make it harder to receive information from spiritual sources. Intuition isn’t as dramatic of an experience as we think it’s supposed to be, or hear it to be maybe from others who experience it that way.

Don’t discount the subtle things. When I was looking at where would be best for me to live, it wasn’t this big dramatic scene that played out with lightning bolts and an angel landing in front of me speaking the words, “Lake Tahoe” and tapping my head and having a clear movie vision of myself there with rainbow lights and trumpets playing.

It was like a treasure hunt that kept unfolding and leading me to clues along the way that I kept following in the moment that seemed random and having nothing to do with a place to live. I was having a fun time exploring the dots in each moment that led me to Lake Tahoe on a map and then the feeling I had arrived at the treasure chest, but in a subtle resonance of peace and comfort. I then trusted to make mental and physical note of this to see how it would unfold since there was nothing in sight of how at the time for it making any sense to my analytical brain. I just knew somewhere within me that felt alignment with it.

If you put too much pressure on yourself and try to force things it shuts you down or you become unclear. This can be a form of self-sabotage to keep yourself small.

You doubt yourself because you weren’t supported in trusting from the time you were a child, so you have to practice to create a new support system with this and back yourself up.

Intuition nurtures the part of us we have yet to understand and I believe that the process of trusting that voice is our way of unraveling the pieces in order to return us back to it – all things are part of the whole. Intuition already has the answers of clarity without separation. Just one more of the divisions we are working toward uniting so the war within our parts no longer has to play out in the world around us.

When we learn to listen more to our intuition, we begin to experience what it truly is to live our best life yet.

Walking Through the Doorway of Balance ~ A Transparent Share & Vulnerable Disclosure

I alluded to the intensity of May 26th’s Sagittarius Full Super Blood and Flower Moon Total Lunar Eclipse in my last post entitled “The Many Faces of My Garden” and after a week of integration and receiving guidance, I’ve decided to share some of what unfolded and the meaning for me. I don’t share this for any other reason than to be of collective support in any way that it might be, and however it is received or discarded is unimportant.

What I know is that we are One, regardless if we understand what that really means and believe it or not. And therefore, everything we individually do, since we each have within us the entire blueprints of the Cosmos folded within the portal of our core essence, creates a catalytic consciousness ripple through encoded frequencies of what we say, do, think, feel, create, how we act, and simply as extension of our being in totality.

As I shared, I was called to focus on the softer Spring energy of the “Flower” Moon in that last post, but via private messages I learned that several of you were able to feel into the layers through the photos of myself I posted and understood there was a complexity of energies being journeyed through that as a whole created the eminence of what was felt, even if not seen. I also heard from others that were experiencing their own versions of what I felt and did.

Today, I will present some of those layers and complexities that were encapsulated within the other part of this particular Moon’s name – the Blood Moon – including a couple of photos from the energy of that day, as I experienced it all.

I have intentionally been engaged extra in Cosmic collective undertakings, as what is being experienced on Earth has brought things to a head in a way that I feel is catapulting mass awakening in the likes that we haven’t experienced yet. It’s not that anything is out of place, since there is a natural unfolding at work always in direct line to mass consciousness, however there has been an extreme amount of tightening and infringing interventions that are giving every last effort to fight and hold on without the highest good of the whole at heart. This, leaving a collective sense of vast division and heaviness felt by everyone from the super-sensitive to the less energy-focused individual, even if you’re in a place of peace within your individual experience.

It is precisely this that I’ve felt as a knock on my door lately in a way that ignited the part of me that came in for this Earth dance, and that everything before now has been preparation for. I know as I write this that many of you are nodding your head or feeling a tug at your core in resonance with your presence here and now.

Life still is simple to me….be the purity of my energy signature no matter what I do. That can be living as a hermit by myself on the top of a mountain, holding a nondescript job to pay the bills, spending my time gardening, in nature, or creating, having a highly visible position, being in contact with many people or no one…. all while simply being and emanating the purity of my frequency. That heart and soul alignment, void of any parameters it needs to look like, has mass effect at quantum levels of consciousness.

And that’s true for every single one of us.

Yet, the here and now presented me some choices and because of what my soul signature wants to help create in the world, the outside folded me within like a collapsing sacred geometrical origami grid and I reached out across the Cosmos for assistance and guidance on how I might participate in something deeper that can assist the whole – not any one particular segment of the world or side, but the whole.

I felt the exhaustion running rampant in the world of the game of tug-of-war and how information is always one-sided while still full of half truths. I know many of you would also love to see great reveals that carry the energy signature of highest good for the whole rather than fueling further divide.

You may remember, I’ve often declared I am not about black and white. I never was and I never will be. I am committed to the Middle Way and for much of the bigger things right now in the world I haven’t seen any clear Middle Way. So what I knew from this is that ever-more creative and vulnerable depths would need to be traversed in order to explore possibilities unseen at present.

In recent months I’ve opened myself in limited funnels to the collective more than awareness alone, even though I had erected healthy boundaries in order to more fully embody my own frequency, which was important to do being a Pisces without boundaries and to do in order to hold and impart a certain energy within the collective web. Even just that little opening has been enough to ignite greater catalytic momentum within me, as it demonstrated a tipping point of pain in the collective body, mind, heart, and soul that was being pulled tighter and tighter at each end. This indicated potential of volcanic proportions without much softening. Was there another more effective way, or is this truly where the collective is wanting to go? I’m always looking at all the possibilities and reviewing potential probabilities from each of them, as one way there simply is not.

And it is just this that took me through the vulnerable levels of processing, much like mourning. So while in conversation with my Cosmic family and powers that be, I talked very openly and transparently about what I was seeing and feeling with the collective energies. I allowed both human perspective and bigger picture one to come forth and voice the nature of experience unfolding.

I allowed expression of frustration in not yet understanding the next step on how to address everything, while remaining curious to the subtle seeds I could sense lived within every choice and experience, still yet untapped. And this then took me through my sensitive heart concerns at the human level, which allowed the anger to move through with responsible admission, accountability, and declaration of truly needing assistance to transmute the current situation we are all in, as although it’s being chosen, it also feels limited simply because we haven’t yet tapped into potential.

Cosmic beings, or what I refer to as Star family, or to some light beings, Galactic Federation, God, Goddess, the Universe, etc. of higher multi-dimensionality do not interfere with things. We must ask and invite the help. We must also step up and be ready and willing to do what is necessary to align with that help.

A lot unfolded over the course of weeks, as I worked toward releasing more old collective energies and trauma and focusing on stepping more fully into the new the best I could, and then culminated again the day of the 25th – the day before the Full Moon Total Eclipse. I’d been working toward readiness to go the next level, to receive insight, and to declare it was time. Time for a big “reveal”. Time for a big “upshake” (these were literal words I used) and with everything I intended, asked for help with, and invited, I always, always laid parameters in place of what I was willing to have experienced in order for any or all of this to happen.

I am no longer out of control or unaware of what could take place if I don’t make clear intentions because I’ve learned that from the past. Ask and you will receive, but if you don’t say how you don’t want to receive it, then you have no idea how that will unfold.

So, what happened next was not a surprise and I knew I’d be okay because of this. So, what I’m sharing is not in need of, or to gain, sympathy. It’s shared only in transparency of my experience and understanding, as I feel it’s ever-more important these days to share the full gamut of the journey so that we embrace the layers and complexities as part of the wholeness of experience. Moving through energies is natural. Trying to block, deny, or judge them is unnatural.

To premise things, it’s likely also because of my commitment I spoke of to the middle and balanced way and how much I’ve devoted these last several years to creating balance and staying grounded and embodied, that I did not experience what likely would have been experienced given any other time period in my life previous to having implemented these things. I’ve made it my focus to integrate spirit in body more fully in the understanding of the miracle that we truly are and merging my star/Cosmic self with the human expression of that.

Before, I was an uncomfortable, floaty, perhaps clumsy emanation and seeping energy vehicle of that Cosmic being in human body and I’ve been learning progressively over the course of my life to activate the responsible empowerment that this partnership can truly be. I’m still learning. 🙂

I chose this photo even though it was taken a few months ago, as it pictures me wearing earrings I had custom made to reflect and support the energies I choose to walk through the doorway of balance with daily. As a Water sign with Earth ascendant, heavy also in Air with prominent Fire placements, it was clear upon birth this was to be my embodiment – balance. I finally got it. The earrings are custom zodiac hoop earrings – one with the sign of Pisces and aquamarine hanging from it and the other with the sign of Capricorn and a garnet hanging from it – my Sun and Ascendant/North Node/Mars signs.

So back to the evening of the 25th, last Tuesday. I was immersed in finalizing a lot of house projects and a deep cleaning of the house while home alone for the week. It was around 7 pm that night that I was just finishing the very last room to mop, which would complete the entire house and all of my intended goals while Dave was away. I was mopping in the kitchen area and saw a piece of white fur on the ground from our female cat since our fur babies are shedding. I bent down to pick it up and when I stood up quickly to return to mopping, the top left of my crown came in direct contact with the extreme edge of our granite island countertop. It was hard and it was fast. It immediately hurt a lot, jolted quite the energy through, and instinctively, I immediately placed my left hand over the place of impact to administer Reiki and Cosmic healing. I held it there a minute or so and then removed my hand.

I didn’t expect to see that my palm was fully covered in blood. It immediately put me in what felt like an out-of-body experience in order to handle the situation, as normally if I see blood or have a very bad physical trauma, or even see the same happen to someone else close to me, I get very faint, white, and nearly pass out. In talking to a dear Cosmic friend of mine who experiences the same, she shared this is likely because we’re still not used to blood, as our light bodies are more resonant. That finally made a lot of sense to me.

Anyway, none of these usual reactions took place, even though my mind scanned through all the possibilities quickly in order to assess things. I knew I needed to stop the blood and I was exploring the possibility of skull fracture, as well as running through what to do. I went immediately for a clean towel and ice pack and got both of them on my head, continuing Reiki and checking on it after a bit to monitor the blood amount.

I knew that head injuries can cause a lot of blood regardless of the depth of laceration, so I had to feel into anything else. I called my parents right after sitting myself down on the couch to stay calm and keep the cloth and ice on. I wanted to make sure someone knew about what happened in the event of anything unforeseen, and also to get their insights on anything I might not be aware of to physically do. They only live an hour away so if necessary they could come help. After talking with them for a bit I noticed the blood was slowing down and faster than I thought. By the end of our talking I was only seeing a small impression on the clean side of the cloth that was in the shape of the laceration – about 3/4 of an inch.

I could tell I didn’t need stitches, nor any medical assistance, and by examining my head I didn’t feel it to be a fracture. Of course there was a lot of swelling and tenderness, and many sensations and twinges going on, but no real pain other than the initial contact. I, of course, had many messages and thoughts flooding through as well and the sensation of energy downloads.

I expressed immediate gratitude on many levels to my Cosmic family and the Universe, for the direct message, confirmation of our work together, and for overseeing my ultimate protection within the parameters I laid out.

Long story short, for the next three nights I slept upright in bed to keep my head raised, especially so the first night in case of anymore bleeding, and then continued in that vein because it felt better than laying flat. It’s not that there was pain, but the sensations and pressure made me intuitively feel it wasn’t good to lay down yet and so I didn’t.

That night was right before the Eclipse, which took place at around 4:18 am our time here. So, this was in the window of the hours and energies leading right up to it. That night I also couldn’t go to sleep for a long time. Not because of pain and not because of discomfort in how I was sitting upright, as I didn’t have either, but because I was wide awake and super alert. The two cats were on both sides of me and I kept hearing things and feeling energies and even our male cat would quickly turn his head at the same time I would sense or hear something. I could feel a lot of extraterrestrial/Cosmic energies, which made sense given things I’d been engaged with.

I finally did get to sleep and the only dream I remember that night was one based in the present where I had the head injury and was slowly walking around to make sure I didn’t fall or get dizzy. I had presences around me that I was communicating with and they handed me a walking stick to make sure to help keep me balanced while I was healing. But this was no simple walking stick. The walking stick had a dragon on it. The dragon felt to be alive or enchanted with magick, as the head moved on the top of the stick. This, I would be walking with from here on. That’s all I remember.

I’ve known that head injuries are a literal and symbolic rewiring. The left side of the head is connected to the collective mind of logic and intellect and all that we’re dealing with out in the world right now is playing with these old thought waves and fears that have gotten stuck in a continuously spinning circle and methodically robotic state. It’s not the intuitive right brain side that flows in creativity, feeling, and just “knows” without proof, but is the fear and the analyzing, the black and white, aggression and old male side that I “cracked” open. The very energy I have been trying to navigate so much these past months.

I have found that like Earth releases steam through earthquakes, as I believe I mentioned before, that this experience also was like that…a way of releasing collective steam and trauma, as I’ve always played out collective things more consciously than going through motions of it automatically just being connected as everything and everyone just IS. Part of this being because I’m a Pisces and part of it we’ll just say is my energy signature. Synchronously, my sense of this “letting off steam” like earthquakes do, literally unfolded later too, as I’ll share shortly.

The blood is a form of old energy release and transformation and the totality of this experience became an activation of an upgrade recalibration from old to new that I’ve been trying to navigate a way for as my part, to assist the collective. It also made a poignant point of access for downloads of information to stream through, for heightened awareness and altered perception, preparation for the next phase of me, and a lead point to assist in deciding what role I’m willing to continue taking in the bigger picture here.

I will mention that I do have a natal Sagittarius Moon like the Full Moon was in that day and some transit aspects with the Eclipse, as well as have Mars in the first house which funnels how my enormous amounts of energy will channel through me – the head and face being directly impacted. I’ve been learning to put into effect my Mars powered by Capricorn to temper what could be reckless, impulsive, raw, and wild energy into more effective energy. So, while this was still a very Mars-like experience, there were many layers of Capricorn tempering that softened the blow from that literal and energetic “sharp edge.”

Yet, as I’ve been messaged and see this, these energies merely directed my personal role and expression within the collective field, the timing, and an igniting of things within my DNA that haven’t been ready to be released yet. We all have things express through, relative to each of us and our energy signatures and set-up. I do tend to have dramatic things and with a strongly placed Mars in the first house a head activation is right on course with possibilities. Yet, as I mentioned, rather than this actually turning into a more horrendous experience had I not been prepared energetically or consciously, it was one both myself and my Cosmic co-creators knew I could handle.

This is about collective stuff I personally invited for literal recalibrating, as I was ready for bigger and felt “enough is enough”….”it’s time.” I decided to step forth and stretch my neck into just a bit of growth discomfort to engage change.

And as mentioned, because of my Middle Way and balance commitment and anchoring, this led to not having any dizziness, vertigo, nausea, headaches, or pain other than initial impact, still to this day, and in fact the laceration began its scabbing process within a day and is in the itchy healing mode now. The swelling is pretty much gone and the sensitivity at the site is very minimal. I have had interesting sensations moving up and down the left side and even in my ear, warmth, twinges, etc. It’s felt like a snake at times in Cosmic embryonic fluid moving and swirling inside. Something incubating and evolving in preparation for birth through the opening/doorway created.

And, something kept me strong to handle this on my own without anyone to help me in person.

To put into context, I’ve had now about four major head traumas or hits that I can recall in my life, beginning at age three. The last one was when I got the side of my car hit while I was at my very last office job in my late 20’s. Needless to say, it told me what I knew – it was time to quit and move forward with my life. But my brain was sloshed around hard in my skull from that and I did in fact have vertigo for a few days after. The first day being the worst where I was standing in my kitchen and my head literally pulled and dropped me down fully to my left (left again) and I fell on the floor “just” missing the kitchen counter.

And here I was without that, to date, even though my brain received a huge blow moving everything from crown to base and even activating the jaw at onset of the initial impact. I remember sharing with my parents that I felt like a click in the jaw with the weight of the blow compressing everything between crown and jaw.

Definitely a personal evolution demonstrating the miraculous way our bodies can handle things in reflection to how we manage energies. Not that we have to experience things in certain ways, but with greater conscious intent, we can navigate and integrate things much differently and heal rather quickly. I’ve been taking it easy each day and being conscious of going slow and being deliberate, just in case. I don’t take anything for granted or assume, as every day is a new day to navigate by the energies of the moment revealing themselves and then aligning the best we can to meet with them rather than push against them.

I’d like to now back-track slightly to give a little sequential rundown of things leading up to and unfolding after the “impactful” threshold was crossed into a point of no return.

On 5/24, while hiking down to the post office and UPS store from the house through the forest and onto the street, I noticed the clouds in the sky were unusually expansive and radiating looking – different than what I’d seen in the sky recently. I saw this both as I approached the street, beaming up and out from above the lake, and also through the tree tops of the forest right before getting back to the house.

On the way I also noticed a bear statue I hadn’t remembered seeing – likely because I don’t walk that way usually – and for some reason I was told to get a photo with it, so I did. I later realized why, as it foreshadowed what I was about to find and to understand its energy very clearly as the messenger it was.

Not more than fifteen minutes after that, on the way back I noticed these layered doorways – tree limbs creating portals upon portals like inter-dimensional gateways folded into one another (much more profound in person):

And right after that I found this:

A giant sacrum bone, which I understood right away to be from bear. I’ve mentioned before how I always get led to bones, transitioned animals, fur or feathers of wild animals, and find unusual things in general. But this sacrum bone from bear was quite potent. I know the sacrum to be a sacred bone and portal, as I’ve researched and written about it due to my injuries in the tailbone and sacrum in the past, and residual activations in the form of pulsing deep pain that take place there when energetic things are shifting. In the text link above, you might also, like myself, find this interesting:

“Sacredness of this bone is also related to a belief found in various parts of the globe that the sacrum is the ‘resurrection bone’ from which residual raw material remaining after death a person will be reborn, presumably by attracting the spirit residing within.”

Then this:

“…the sacrum as a focal part of the pelvic girdle represents a metaphor for the cosmic portal linking this world with the Otherworld while emphasizing the generative or (pro)creative aspect of the life cycle, just as the jawbone as a focal part of the skull represents another metaphor for the cosmic portal, but one emphasizing the analytical or destructive aspect of the cosmic cycle.”

And this:

“…If the human body can be said to have “portals” or loci of transformative power where the body’s interior is connected with the external world, and perhaps also with the Otherworld, the sacrum in the pelvic girdle is likely one of these, while the jawbone in the skull constitutes the other.”

Interesting in relation to my finding the sacrum/sacred bone portal and having the crown to jaw activation with the impact the day after. A full book-ended portal circuitry:

“…If the body can be viewed as a microcosm, then its form is either a template for or a reflection of other cosmic levels, and its form is our only guide to the appearance and operation of these other levels, incomplete as this guidance may be.  The body has two ends regulating the passage between the inside the body and outside of it, and at these two ends are portals.  One end has the mouth; on the other end are the anus and the water producing urethral orifice (and in females there is also the entrance to the birth canal).  Concentration of power is in the bony appurtenances surrounding these portals, and most focally these bones are the lower jaw and the sacrum (sometimes including the coccyx).  On a slightly more inclusive scale, these bones are the upper skull and the lower ‘inverted skull.’ “

And I’ve mentioned before how much bear messengers have been visiting me more than any other over the course of the last year and a half or so and their Arcturian connection.

A couple of minutes after discovering the bone in the meadow grass, this heart stone led the way home (the heart being the bridge and portal to Unity):

That night I’m led to a documentary film that contains messaging exactly reflective of and in response to my Cosmic conversations, confirming and assuring things are in motion.

On the evening of 5/25 I hit and activated my head. I had texted Dave a photo of me since he was away, as he wanted to see how I looked. This is what I sent him below.

As you can see, Sweet Pea was nestled behind my head to the left, very relaxed and without stress and what you can’t see is Boojum nestled to my right on the couch next to me in the same comfortable positioning. I’m sharing this photo because it captures a transitional energy between human and spirit. You can obviously see the trauma impact on the physical including my disheveled hair I parted to care for the wound, but what I noticed was the clarity and lightness of my eyes that seemed to be transcending the experience. My eyes tend to lighten when my energy shifts.

There was no scream or cry of pain when it happened, nor tears. I immediately went into caretaker mode of myself while also reviewing the incredulous way instant manifestation was at work.

That night I slept upright, as I said, and placed a white cloth around my head in case of any more blood seeping through in the night. I noticed that I ended up looking like a nun and when I woke in the morning this is the photo I sent Dave, as he wanted to see how I was feeling/looking. I didn’t move from my position all through the night, nor did the cats on both of my sides, as you can see their fur left and right.

Again, I noted a transcendent kind of look in the photo and for someone who had gone through what I had, I looked quite at peace and almost refreshed.

The early morning of 5/26 was the Eclipse, which I didn’t see because I was sleeping, but also was being very self-nurturing and careful, so I wasn’t going to get up and move without need, nor would I set an alarm to disrupt healing rest.

Dave returned home late that night. He came back two days earlier than originally planned because the best date for a surgery he wanted was on 5/27. He tore his meniscus back in late Fall, and although was still able to ski, bike and hike, there was still a level of discomfort and pain during some of the activities – mostly hiking – that made him decide to go ahead with surgery to clean up the meniscus, which should lead to alleviation of this.

Ironically, I became his caretaker even though I was still doing my own healing, waking early that morning to get him into surgery and picking up things he/we needed and then taking care of things while he rested that day. I had a giggle at myself and the situation when I was sitting in the hospital waiting for him to be released. Here I was coming to pick him up as his guardian, while unbeknownst to them I had just had a head injury and was sitting there with matted dried blood under my hat. LOL!

I hadn’t wanted to wash my head and hair while it was sensitive, so as not to disturb the cut from healing and scabbing, so I had only opted to gently clean it up the night of the incident, spraying hydrogen peroxide onto my scalp to saturate the area and tenderly dabbing it with cotton pads.

On the morning of 5/28 the “upshake” I asked for and letting off of steam continued from my intentions and personal embodied release, or blood-letting. I woke up at 5 am and as soon as I opened my eyes an earthquake hit. Again, in all the time we’ve lived in Tahoe the years previous to our return to Southern California and the years following our Magick Bus adventure, I don’t recall feeling any quakes here. I mentioned in a recent post how several had been popping up around the perimeter of the area (as recently as April and May) – nearly all on the California side (we live on the Nevada side of the lake) – and were connected with energetics I felt moving through or something I was engaged in thinking through.

Well, on this morning of 5/28, not one, but SIX earthquakes all centered in the same area of the northwest California side all hit. The first at 5 am and continued through late morning. We felt four of them, but the earthquake records I tune into showed in fact six took place. The epicenter was apparently near the middle of the lake 8 kilometers from a town on the California shore. The middle of the lake being interesting since the lake is split in two sides – one half in California and the other half in Nevada. What also seemed unusual is that they grew in size from the first one. I believe the first was 2.7 and the second came in at 4.2, then one at 3.1 then 2.8 or 2.9, and I don’t recall the others, but in the upper 2 range I believe.

I’m grateful for the energy releases that take place personally and Earth-connected, as I believe these help to diffuse things without major explosions or greater trauma. There felt to be no coincidence that these came within the energy of the Eclipse days, things on the collective scene, and my own personal work and experience, since everything is connected.

That same day I had already planned to do some yard work and did end up removing a dead tree and some dead bushes from the previous owner – out with the old. I had been taking the days easy to make sure to support healing from the head hit, only walking out in my garden for grounding, so I continued to do things slowly even with this activity, but it did feel good to move out in nature and literally move out old energy.

On this day I also found a partially formed nest in the rocks on the side of the house where one year I found a fully formed nest that is now part of my mobile I made for our bedroom of a variety of abandoned old nests I’ve found. This partial nest feeling like the trials of life in process along the journey.

And besides waking to the earthquakes, I had also seen momma Robin at onset of the morning in her nest above our front door entrance, likely incubating her eggs. She doesn’t leave the nest while doing so and dad comes to visit throughout the day – a lovely sign of rebirth and hope, but also of that nurturing and mothering energy I was cradled in both by myself and in softened after effects from my hit, courtesy of reflective Cosmic energies.

On this day we also saw the return of our first tree frog who suddenly appeared.

He was so cute listening to me talk and then he turned toward the impression of what looked like a doorway in the wood siding, as if to say he’d come through this little portal and that there are other realms all around us to slip in and out of if we so desire too.

Look at him touching his nose to it, head fully engaged with the round etched doorway.

A pure and open heart can lead the way.

On 5/29 I felt ready to plant all the new friends I shared in my last post and did – in with the new.

On 5/30 I saw a starship above me while sun bathing – each day I’d been sitting out in the sunshine, as it is so nourishing to me and the Sun’s rays activate healing – and while looking up there it was maneuvering in and then made a backwards motion and zipped right back through the dimensional doorway disappearing. Just like frog seemed to indicate.

Residual flickering crafts or energy particles all around the area showed up right after, but only with a softened gaze that would not have been detected by the eye otherwise. Following that, our first beautiful yellow swallowtail made an appearance, enjoying our blossom tree and fluttering across the deck where we sat.

Indeed a contrast of events, but painting a visual story of messengers imparting the transformation of energy in motion and rebirthing hope on the way.

I also learned that on May 26th at the exact time of the Eclipse, a dense solar flare hit Earth’s magnetic field.

On May 22nd sunspot AR2824 unleashed a sequence of solar flares and one of these struck Earth’s magnetic field on May 26 producing a G-2 Class Geomagnetic Storm and auroras. The solar storm took place at the precise moment that a super blood moon total eclipse became visible across much of the globe.” The text link here will take you to a YouTube video about it if interested.

So, yes, if you felt this Eclipse as big too, this underscores things some more.

This photo was taken on 5/28 – just 3 days after my incident. I wore my custom Cosmic Serpent Song earrings that weave a starry night sky above a desert and volcanic landscape. Woven into the starry sky is the Ursa Major Little Bear constellation as well. The energy of these earrings felt reflective of the activation at hand and I noted again a clarity and lightness to my eyes continued. You can also see my dragon peeking out from my left shoulder mirroring the dragon walking stick energy in my dream of that night.

If you read this far, thank you for listening. I was told to share this experience and more around my role as I know and experience it, so I’m leaning into trusting there’s reason for that. I’ve always been forward about my experiences and Cosmic connection. I’m being told the time for more of that reveal is now.

What is the take away from all of this and what does it mean?

Maybe it means nothing at all.

Maybe it means everything.

Maybe all that I share is some kind of invitation down The Rabbit Hole simply to play in Wonderland, as a break from the world you live in, and the nonsensical is my little girl desiring some playmates.

Or, maybe what I and others share might possibly be true on some or all levels.

Curiouser and curiouser indeed, the world we live in and what we’re experiencing is.

Experience is the only way I’ve learned that makes the biggest impact. Disclosure merely opens the doorway for exploration of possibilities you’ve not yet ventured into. Yet, within the words, feelings, thoughts, visuals, and energies we share, the frequency seeds are available and recoding each of us daily.

It’s one of the reasons I try to keep my vibration as pure as possible and erect boundaries or make certain kinds of choices that help me stay aligned. I came in with innocence and I intend to leave the same way I came.

As a Pisces and by nature of my Cosmic emanation on Earth that I am in this particular human body carrying the signature frequency I do, I’m always very actively experiencing collective things as conscious personal expressions and personal things as conscious collective expressions. We all do, regardless of whether we know we are or not because of Unity consciousness. I am just one of many who experience this in a more sensory and literal way, so it makes it much more every-day-profound, or normal, depending on your perception. Everything I do and experience is a simultaneous act and knowing of this full gamut of existence in the here and now. It all sounds much more complicated when I have to write things out, but it’s instantaneous in my daily experience.

There’s so much more to this, as with any experience, and the layers are beyond words to weave. So, I rely on the encodings within my words and energy shared, as everything we put out has a frequency and since the purity of frequency is so key, I do my best to share that alignment.

Part of what I received from this is that this created an access point that not only cracked the old layer to allow increasing release, but that the next phase of more reveal in the collective also involves shifting me, and each of us, into greater embodiment of the original signature I and we carried into Earth this time around, but wasn’t time for yet.

Leading up to and since this event, there’s been an increase in my Cosmic experiences and even the kinds of conversations, openings, and activities happening with people around me that hadn’t before, and what’s being facilitated has all shifted like a light switch from off to on.

So, the great divide we are experiencing, has sped up the emergence of voicing this – almost like a tectonic shift where the Earth’s tectonic plates move toward or away from one another – creating earthquakes or volcanic eruptions. Tectonic shifting has huge impact on the planet. The plates move slowly always, but friction causes the edges to get stuck and as the edges overcome that friction, an earthquake releases the energy. And when the plates move away from each other a volcano (formed by a tectonic plate moving under another) can erupt to release magma to fill the crack.

Earth naturally releases and reheals, just as our miraculous human bodies do. And I feel collective energies running through my veins in much the same way, releasing and reweaving, activating, and anchoring. I have an agreement to share these in more seamless experience, rather than as a separate observation or understanding.

Division is inherent within wholeness and vice versa. Yet, when we only focus on division, we forget the natural state of Oneness that never left us even though we only chose to feed one side.

Whenever we divide, we weaken.

Division can’t go on forever, before something erupts from the core to heal the separation. Just as magma rises to fill in the crack, something new will need to rise to return our focus and understanding of consciousness back to a unified field of experience.

No layer is better or worse, but the key to how to return to that experience and knowing of Unity is hidden within each. The division may be needed to crack things open to the next phase, so that something new can emerge.

One question is, how much suffering are we willing to go through until we meet in the Middle Way? Another asks, is there a way to transmute the pain of division even while divide continues?

True, we can stand amidst it all and be the peace ourselves. This moves mountains for us and others when we come to know that space that exists within all spaces.

Yet, I feel that some of that also is asking each of us to stand more in the truth of who we really are and not being afraid of truth in general – to be ready for reveals on all fronts, as there will be many and we will need many of you to help others through them. You have prepared for this even if you think you don’t know how or are afraid of what others might think when you actually step forward into the light.

It’s hard to do, but we have each other and there are many others doing it too, I assure you.

It only takes 1% of the Earth collective to create the shift needed.

Only 1%.

I will continue forth, more fully embodying my Cosmic star essence that walked into this human body from birth, as this is where my true freedom lies. The profound experiences all throughout my life from child to adult have never waivered. Yet what used to only be behind closed doors has and will continue to step fully into light. I didn’t understand it back then, but I do now.

As I said, walking in the purity of my frequency, no matter what, is what I intend to continue doing. How that will look, I have not yet chosen, but I am reviewing things from all angles, including revisiting the invitation I received several years ago. For now, this disclosure is key to that promise of energy signature emanation I embodied as.

I’ve shared this before and I’ll share it again.

Yes, I’m a Bridge Creator for the Middle Way, but I am also a Cosmic Ambassador of harmony between all forms of consciousness on and off Earth, throughout the Cosmos and various Star Systems and Galaxies. That is who I truly am as an expression of All That Is. And it’s been both an incredible and challenging journey to contain, integrate, and walk that within human form, but, like many of you likely also feel who love with all of who you are, is worth the commitment.

I carry the seeds of Unity like each of you do. And I’m engaged in a form of Cosmic gardening, to cultivate, nurture, and activate those seeds into the blossoming of expanding and inclusive awareness, creative potential, and Cosmic love.

Forget what you think you remember, and remember what you’ve always known.

Regardless of what others think of me or anything I share, the truth is I TRULY care.

I love you.

What ever or who ever I am, let that truth sink into your heart. Lean into it.

From One to One, I love you.

June Energy Update with Lee

We welcome in June today and edge closer to nearly half way through 2021 already. I read this morning how the Earth is spinning at a faster rate than it has in the last 50 years and with the increase in everything, things are actually being sped up even though it feels like dragging your feet in the mud at times.

This is a big month for me personally, with some key things hitting mid-month and a threefold anniversary on the upcoming Summer Solstice, as well as a big life shift birthing that will begin come end of the month I sense, but as you’ll see from Lee’s update, it’s also energetically big for the collective.

I’m no longer surprised when I listen to Lee’s updates about the nearly exact synchronicity of themes and wording used to describe current energies and experiences that I have either just shared in a blog, have come through as messages and revelations in my personal life, or that I was about to share. We are all connected and share the web of energy waves. Whether we’re conscious of that or not, it’s happening and the echoes are confirmations to that unified field.

I think you’ll see what I mean in the upcoming blog I post, which I’ve been piecing together as it channels through over the last few days. There’s a lot involved with it and I’ve been told to take my time with it, as the frequency of anything put out is very key, especially these days.

The rest of what I add here is a summary in either exact or paraphrased words from Lee’s beautiful share, just in case you don’t listen to it.

I’ve added a few photos from recently, of the trail out back in the forest I journey often. They felt like the perfect reflection of June energy emerging and I particularly loved the dance of light and shadow playing together, as well as the rainbow lining the path below.

A rainbow bridge connecting the two in harmony.

Here begins info included in Lee’s share:

None of us are here to do this alone, as he says. “We’re all taking care of our patch of the garden…we’re all a whole group of gardeners creating a very different garden together.” – That felt like an echo to my last blog, The Many Faces of My Garden.

Pressure around restrictions has been felt, but we’re going to start feeling ease and see restrictions crumble faster because of the wave of people gathering together to do this.

Density is being lessened as far as its hold on people, partially because of our exhaustion with it all and being done with it – more people will be breaking out of the chrysalis and cocoon. Heart power is coming back out in a bigger way.

Revelations and things being revealed that have been lied about, the shadow that’s been hidden and misused will continue to come to light in the next few years. Things you thought or were told are going to have a hanged man result in showing you a whole other perspective you had hidden from you.

Lean into balancing yourself while revelation and reckoning continues on for the next few years.

Different beliefs over things is what’s caused war against others. You can still love one another and have different beliefs. This is where we need to focus and be with these feelings to make greater peace with the fact that different realities will be experienced by everyone and different layers of experience will be all around you the next few years. We need to reckon with how we feel and react, as that is going to play a huge part in it.

Most of you will be here now to birth the new, not to clean up or battle the old world. You need to create and have a creative practice in some way even if just behind closed doors.

Emergence of higher mind and clarity is on the rise around what you do and don’t resonate with and then taking action on that clarity. June presents support for visionary ideas on new things this month and activating forward direction and momentum.

Energy spikes will be lively and on the rise collectively with heightened experiencing. Lee recommends waiting out the spikes before rearranging your life. The amplified energy can feel like a super power in the moment, but let it settle so you have greater clarity from a more peaceful space where things will be smoother and cleaner when you do take action. Your body is slower than your soul to move, so let things settle and integrate, while you tend to your inner garden and allow a more natural mergence to flow.

Deep internal healing is leading to group awakening. More tenderness and vulnerability is awakening within people, taking us away from autopilot and robotic experiencing. It’s like relearning a whole new way of being like fresh curious children emerging from the cocoon womb.

Unification is on the rise even though we see and experience division. The awareness of feeling of the division indicates the process of change is in motion for group awakening.

The integration is happening from the inside out and life reviewing may be more prevalent right now to support new life directions. Upgrades will continue to be presented, so don’t be desperate to take the first offering.

Many of these themes I’ll be expounding on in my own personal share soon. But for now, here’s Lee:

The Many Faces of My Garden

This Sagittarius Full Super Blood and Flower Moon Total Lunar Eclipse was a doozy and I’m still letting everything settle that has evolved leading up, on and after, as to what if anything I might share upcoming. I’m tuning in to receive that message, but in the mean time, a garden update and musing has been in the works and feels like the creation energy theme to focus on for now under the softer Spring energy of the “Flower” Moon. Later, I might focus more on the “Blood” Moon energy theme in an upcoming post so that we hit the contrasts.

So, here we go.

I’ve noticed that every time I set foot in my garden, I feel a little bit different than the day before. Like the clothes we wear, the colors, things, environment and people we surround ourselves with, and the energies and emotions we move through daily, I’ve seen how garden time shifts something within, draws something out, and a new person reflects back to me in the mirror thereafter.

This happens to me in Nature, period. AND when hanging out with Astrid or when I’m in a creative zone painting, drawing, writing, singing, sounding, and dancing. The places that reflect my nature in some way, bring out the colorful best in me.

I got the idea that while I started documenting the seasonal shifts my garden goes through this year that I would, this time, also include myself within the photo journaling to see what evolution takes place all around. I usually only post photos of the evolution of my plants and garden additions, but I wondered what I might see if I became part of the landscape. So, that’s what I did.

What I noticed when I went through the photos later, is that there is indeed something different that takes place when I spend time in my garden. It’s not just that I step out in an array of varying wardrobe that feels right for what I’m engaging in, but I saw a variance in parts of my essence that showed through as well. And those pieces of essence felt to reveal some of the more tender or deep parts of me.

What it said to me is that these moments I spend in the world of my garden are some of the truest times for me, just like when I’m exploring nature trails, communing with Astrid, sound channeling, creating, or gazing at the stars. I lose myself in the richness of holding and working with tender life essence in my hands and the grace of cultivating beauty from the very core of my being.

I’m sure if someone photographed me while I was doing any of these other activities that we’d see the various faces of my essence revealed, too.

But for now, we’ll focus on my garden, as it’s taken on more of a direct mirroring for me these days and so I’ve experienced a deepening in the connection I have with her.

If the garden is our metaphor for life, we begin to see her start to reflect our unique style in how we design her and we begin to see how we reflect the fundamental foundation we have to work with, of the land she embodies from the start.

We share a symbiotic relationship and I notice that the way I create with my garden is the way I create in my life, in general. Also, the type of yard and garden I have is a mirror of my spirit.

Everyone’s garden is different, just as their lives are and therefore each person decides what they want their garden to be – a vegetable garden, flower garden, rock garden, native garden….a variety of all.

You can learn a lot about a person based on observing their garden and yard, the types of things that they value most, or even how much a person cares for themselves and nurtures certain qualities or values in life by how they cultivate their garden.

You can also see how the person interacts with other variants that are out of their control in the garden and if they find a happy medium, work with the elements, fight the elements, or try to control them anyway. Are they stubborn, domineering, flexible, wild, cultivated, enjoy creating beauty, desire to revive the land, looking to grow all their needs or have specific intents, are tidy or relaxed, tight or flowing, are serious and fully devoted, or simply love an eased approach and enjoy things in balance?

All of this comes through when you view someone’s garden.

And like me, my garden has gone through its own interesting cycles while we’ve teetered back and forth between Winter and Spring. It’s also been going through changes while I navigate the collective landscape and move through the various heavy and challenging energies. I’ve found that I’m actually seeing my garden evolve the most right now, becoming more of what it was meant to be, although I wasn’t clear about that at the start. I just kept moving forward and she revealed herself to me along the way.

I made a promise to the faeries of the land before the house officially became ours, to care for and create what they wanted here and a natural alignment has evolved between us.

I see their joy in how all the animals and plants sing and I feel their approval in the delightful whispers within sparkles of rainbow lights and portal beams they show me.

I’m also understanding my garden better and my relationship to her and what I’d like that to be. AND, where I hadn’t really felt called to expand much before, I have very slowly branched out into other areas and started to work toward bigger visions I have without limiting what I can do, but still doing it within the framework of my personality and desire for balance, flow, ease, beauty, and abundance – one step at a time.

When I’m feeling an ebb, my garden, like our nature activities, is my medicine and shows me what it needs too.

When I’m not sure what to do next or how to do it, I am planting seeds to inspire intention.

When I’m feeling a flow, my garden is sprouting and flourishing.

When I’m challenged in how to create the new, I find myself envisioning bigger garden goals and taking steps toward them.

“To plant a garden is to believe in tomorrow.” ~ Audrey Hepburn

I’ve been capturing photos along the way to document the changes, as I love to see how nature evolves through the seasons of life. Everything is only in the very beginning stages of Spring, as things here in the high altitude mountains run later than average. So blossoms are only just barely starting to pop.

A favorite being these two twin blossom trees that grow together – one on each side of the fence merging in blooms at the top.

I’ve already shared some of the faery friend additions to the garden, including those that are solar lights to create twilight enchantment, but there are a few more new arrivals since, including some that found their way from Wonderland to the Enchanted Garden at the Forest Portal.

These include two glass butterflies, an Om gnome holding two crystal orbs, playful poppa and baby bunny gifted to me by magickal faery sis Laura for my birthday that was in my office until recently, a sweet blossom and bird solar gnome welcome host, two magickal “Dream” and “Love” stones, two Sun and Moon large garden stepping stones I’m using as Cosmic sentries opening a portal to the pathway, a butterfly bird house, a white rabbit from my parents and turtle and rabbit moss topiaries that I’ve all also had in my office until now.

I enjoy having an easy garden and living in the mountains I prefer to have plants that I don’t have to keep replanting. So, after experimentation, I mentally made note to have nearly all perennials with the occasional annuals for some veggie fun in the Garden Tower.

This intuitive nudge was later underscored when I lost my sweet basil plants to one of our surprise frosts several weeks back, even before the recent snow. Luckily I had harvested a bit from them, but they didn’t make it. I took it as the message to stick to as close to 100% perennials with the few, fun veggies that might speak to me that year – at least until I have a greenhouse.

That said, I have been slowly planting new perennial additions, as the store gets in plants that call me. The newbies have been added to the main garden, rock garden, side yard, and Garden Tower while all of my other perennials do their thing.

And do their thing they all have, as everything is just flourishing with joy and my Garden Tower herbs are enjoying the most abundant return yet even before starting to add some friends.

The only exception being two little tomato plants – Sun Gold tomatoes and Husky cherry red tomatoes.

Although I read that tomatoes are technically perennials, they grow as annuals here in the states so are known as “tender” perennials especially with our cold winters and frosts. They were hit hard by our unexpected snow storm and frost last Thursday through Saturday, but they made it! Even though I lost about half or two thirds of each plant, the other percentage stood strong and they are still going. Yay!

Speaking of my Garden Tower, I did get new worm friends for the compost and they’ve been chugging along doing their thing while I feed them all the good faery kitchen scraps they can munch on to their hearts’ content.

The perennial returns I have growing in the Garden Tower include lavender, sweet mint, Italian oregano, bee balm, peppermint, parsley, thyme, strawberries, and wild flower.

The perennial additions I’ve added so far include one purple sage, two rosemary, and one more each of peppermint and Italian oregano. I’m excited to add some more and fill up the tower as the right plants find me.

And for my rock garden the perfect plants did finally find me to add to the three I have already. I can’t remember the name of these previous three, but they create sweet little blue star flowers. Their new friends include three White Fancy Dead Nettle that will bloom in early to mid Summer and three Festuca Blue Fescue Grass that will bloom mid to late Summer. I’m looking to still add three more plants so that they’ll all fill in the area lovely.

For the side yard I decided to go wildflower crazy, seeing how amazing my garden is doing with the perennials returning there and how much the pollinators love them. You can see how thick and abundantly they are growing back this year. Weeeeeeeee!

They’re even bigger since taking this photo and the first orange blossoms have sprung!

So I bought a pound of seeds to add to a bunch of little packets and gifted seeds I was sent from a friend, and seeded the entire little side lawn and then threw the left overs in the beds out in the front yard.

I’m so excited that I already see tons of baby seedlings sprouting everywhere! Yay!

And if they do as well as the ones in my garden, I should have a blanket of wildflowers growing on both sides of the two guardian trees and more out front.

If all goes well, crazy wildflower faery will strike again next year, adding more!

The new additions also to the side yard are berry bushes, which I’m excited about. I planted seven new perennial berry bushes along the little rock terrace at the end of the lawn of wildflower seeds, and next to my mock orange bush.

The new berries include two blueberry, two raspberry, one evergreen huckleberry, one black elderberry, and one Rubus Snowbank Berry aka white blackberry. Some have already grown quite a bit and others were smaller starter plants, but all are doing really really well even after our surprise snow.

First I planted them, then I added wire tunnel hoops, and last I covered them with secured netting.

For now, while they grow, the simple netting structure helps protect them from the little forest creatures plucking the blossoms and berries to come. At first I didn’t have enough pegs, so I used rocks to keep it tight. I’ve since replaced them with pegs all around and just kept a few rocks for extra sturdiness.

As they grow, I’ll adjust the whole set up to make it larger. This is why I opted for easy, since I’ll have to change it over time. I also got a metal butterfly trellis next to the white blackberry bush for when it starts growing, as it likes to climb.

I did get some more perennial flowers too – three rose and one white foxglove, one fireball dahlia, three purple African daisy, and three Lavendula Stoechas aka Spanish Lavender.

I added two of the rose foxglove to my main garden and gave my parents the other rose and the one white foxglove.

The other seven new flowering plants I split between pots on the back deck and lining the walkway in the main garden.

Alongside all the fun new plants, I’ve enjoyed watching some of my favorites return, like the variety of daffodils out front, some new tulips, a few irises, and my blossom trees.

Of course, Nature planted her own beauties, too. So along with returns of my own labor I look forward to, there are always surprises that the wind or forest creatures blow and bring into the yard and garden, as well as the wild and free, like fields of yellow dandelions that I love.

I’m flower crazy in general and so come Fall I plan to put in tons more bulbs of many varieties, seed tons more wildflowers next Spring and continue adding what ever flowers speak to me when they show up at the store. I’m always in the mood for more foxglove and lavender, and am really wild about lilies.

Right now orange and purple seems to be the color therapy scheme and attire of the first round of blossoms to arrive at the Spring dance.

And hats galore seem to be part of my attire always these days, whether in the garden, sun bathing, or out hiking. To dress them up with additions like my garden that reflect my personality, some magickal hat pins have found their way into my life. You already saw this one – Forest Witch – that embodies one layer of my energy.

And these two reflect another layer of my energy.

Here’s a better detailed close-up of what is making me feel as I do in the photo above. A Cosmic Rabbit with Moon and stars dreaming in a bed of lilies and Brigid’s lamb with Celtic Triskelion, Sun at her forehead, and snowdrop flowers.

This weekend I’m hoping to get in the new plant babies awaiting, but due to an eclipse incident I’m needing to lay low and take it easy for a while. I’m sure some garden grounding will likely do me some good when I am able to get back to it.

These are all the newcomers excited to join the party.

I have two Aromatico Blue English Lavender, three French Lavender, two English Lavender, (can you tell I love lavender?), three dalmation purple Foxglove (never too much Foxglove for a faery), one Belleza dark pink Gaura, one Belleza white Gaura, five little Albion strawberry plants, one sweet pepper (tasty green bell), one Italian parsley, one cilantro, one large Sungold tomato, and drumroll……four sweet Lamb’s Ear! All of these except a couple veggies for the Garden Tower are perennials.

I’m SO excited about the Lamb’s Ear, as it’s one of, if not my favorite plant and I have missed mine so much.

I used to have one in Costa Mesa that I grew from a tiny cutting I brought home across the water wrapped in a wet paper towel in a baggy that a woman gave me on Catalina Island because I was complimenting her plant. It flourished into a hugely abundant and gorgeous plant, which I then had to leave behind when we jumped aboard the Magick Bus. We rented our house out and it ended up dying without me to care for it. I was so sad.

Since, I’ve always wanted another, but never found any and then these four – the only ones at the store – appeared. I had been thinking about how I might find some recently and there they were. I, of course, adopted them all.

I’ll continue filling in my Garden Tower as well and implement plans for the side yard, step-by-step. We may even be extending the fence to the side yard, which will give me tons more space to do fun things in eventually. The previous owners never fenced in the actual entire footprint of the land that is connected to our home, but we likely will. Whether this year or another, it’s in the plan, as well as creating a privacy fence on the other side between us and our one neighbor to replace the old cattle looking fence there that tends to have posts fall over with the snow.

For now, a good majority of the side yard is wild, which I do love. I’ve intuited ways to stay in that wild energy while weaving in some creativity and magick.

I have some really fun visions for things, but am taking time to breathe and only do what feels in flow and not taking on too much all at once. That’s been my go-to with things these last few months…more slow motion for balance and recalibration rest. The latter really being underscored since the Full Moon Eclipse.

So there’s a little inside look into the many faces of me and my garden.

Perhaps photos speak more volumes than words.

The relationship we share is similar to her being my inner child – a reflection of that tender part of my imagination, hopes, dreams, and joy.

The relationship between us is also reflective of her being the elder me – a reflection of the serene years of bigger picture wisdom where nothing else matters except weaving alchemy between my silvery crown to those Earthen roots to create harmony and grace of being in every moment of all cycles of expression.

We have become one.

Cycles of Mourning Leading to Renewal ~ Flower Moon Blossoming Potential

Waking up to Jack Frost’s sneak appearance heralded an interlude blog post before returning to the shares lined up in my intuitive queue. 😉

I’ve continued to experience strange, but mysteriously beautiful and odd things, as well as powerful messengers, findings, and even dreamscapes – both my own and of me appearing in other people’s dreams they share with me.

Coyote continues to cross my path – she just did again two days ago – I found another Algiz Rune in the forest (below), discovered nearly half of a transitioned female mallard duck, and held space for my dear Cosmo, whose birthday it just was four days ago.

Finding the female mallard came right after seeing mallards swimming in the pond with only one duckling. The others may not have made it, but then seeing the one female dead was like a rebirth cycle right before my eyes.

Bones and transitioned animals always seem to find me amongst other discoveries. It appears to be my role as a bridge to also witness and hold space for the natural cycles. I honor every one I find in their own way, bury, do energy work, and receive the messages.

Finding the female mallard also spoke to my own shifts and rebirthing I feel underway, although the form is unknown as to what will unfold.

The enchanted and mystical sightings of late on hiking trails hold promise that whatever does, will be in divine flow. In these times, having these supportive messages has brought much needed comfort.

There’s a sacred feminine aspect transmuting across the collective. It is this depth I’ve been navigating recently as to its merging with the new.

The winds of change indeed keep blowing and in fact we have Spring snow blanketing everything today. It came in late yesterday and continues on as I write this. We’re at about five or six inches where we are and more up at the mountain tops.

So, yes, just as the blooms begin to pop along the trails here, a Spring snow storm blows in. Continuing in the theme of “expect the unexpected” these beauties you see in all the photos from yesterday, above and below, are under a little snow blanket today that tucked them in last night.

The weather shifted mid-hike yesterday and as we climbed up the trail with full lake view the whole way, we watched as the clouds started to engulf the north end of the lake and edge toward us. On our descent, the warm sunshine turned to brisk wind and clouds.

There were so many beauties starting to emerge, including the very first wild irises, and to think this is just the beginning though is incredible, as there will be so many wildflowers everywhere in all varieties from miniature for only faery eyes to see, to large and center stage for all eyes to gaze upon.

Indeed you know I stop to smell all the flowers and marvel at their beauty. Their time in the sunlight is fleeting so I embrace every moment I have to experience them when I can. You never know what’s coming next and the time you’ll have to enjoy something. “Do it now” is my way of living life fully.

A Spring snow blanket now casts its wand of enchantment everywhere and actually feels so perfect for what I’m experiencing within, as the waves of intensities and softness ebb and flow. Cocooning in reflection and transformative incubation is where I find myself still, so it doesn’t surprise me that Jack Frost is still sneaking about. In fact, I find him comforting.

That’s also mountain life for you, as if you choose to live in the mountains of any region, nature and weather patterns are ever-changing, moment-to-moment. That’s the beauty of why we live here and personally I have found every change to be consistent with my inner world. Perhaps it is for others, too, even if they choose not to embrace it.

But the element of surprising changes is also reflective of the unpredictability of these times and we can either fight or flow with – the latter being more like Mother Earth.

There’s a constant cycling of death and rebirth, mourning and renewal happening, but with everything speeding up, it all seems as though it’s intensified more than usual. I continue to hear of the loss of loved ones, including animal companions, everywhere and even if one is not experiencing these literal physical losses it may come in the form of symbolic transitions within certain areas of our lives or certain aspects of our individuality and human expression.

Many souls are not meant for the new frequencies coming in and others are able to support the new frequencies far better from off-planet. And even their transition itself aids the shifts in motion, as everything carries an energy signature and key codes that are connected to the whole continuum of what is in momentum.

A lot of transitions continue as the Earth collective recalibrates and everyone decides, on a soul level and within their divine contracts, where their role is most useful. If we only identify as human, this can all be confusing and devastating. When we begin to soften our scope into curious exploration of more than just these physical bodies, we start to understand a bigger picture at hand.

We are mourning and celebrating every moment.

Having experienced the worst loss in my life has helped prepare me for every loss that’s come after and helped me transmute them as the gifts, rather than punishments, that they in fact are. That doesn’t mean our human hearts don’t feel pain, but every feeling is a portal to The Great Mystery.

As I ride another wave of complex and contrasting energies, I see that we’re in the doorway of the next Lunar cycle and so everything I’ve been seeing around me and feeling within doesn’t feel out of sorts.

I’ve always been extra connected to Earth and her cycles – in fact since I was young, I’ve actually seen how I’m tied into her expressions including earthquakes and shifting weather patterns. Interestingly, we’ve felt quite a few earthquakes over the last month or so that have taken place on the California side. We live on the Nevada side, but these recent shakes have echoed inner shifts and my own “letting off steam” during processing. We actually had never really ever felt any rocking and rolling while living here in the years now, or previously. And suddenly 4 to 5 rumbles have rolled in closer proximity and I found it reminiscent of years ago when I would have something huge change in my life or an epiphany happen and boom!

But like the blossoms that have emerged, I have in fact felt a softening of the rough edges to collective energies I’m transmuting. I am also taking steps to amp up my energetic boundaries, do some intentional personal spell castings of my own, and getting my hands in another faery kitchen alchemy creation from yesterday’s gorgeous manzanita harvest – the last of the season.

I don’t know what it is about these blossoms, but they really touch my heart and feel like the perfect ingredients needed right now. I managed to harvest eighteen cups this time of the sweetest little faery blossoms that tickle my heart. And as the snow falls today, I’ll be cooking up batches of delight with them.

With a heart full of gratitude, I thank the Elementals of the land for their gifts and blessings. All I want to do these days is immerse in the richness of Earth all around me. Thank goodness for the bounty of nature we live in. There is nothing to complain about and everything to be thankful for.

There’s been a plethora of enchanted and mysterious little finds, including a bunch of portals and vortex areas like these:

Check out the tiny door at the bottom of the giant juniper across a mini faery field of lichen, juniper needles and berries, and yellow wild flowers.

I’ve definitely been anchoring more into my inner Forest Witch lately.

Finding this incredible giant tree root creating a witchy throne portal full of deep mystery and powerful energy, was just the perfect activation.

This coming Wednesday the 26th ignites the Sagittarius Super Blood Moon Total Lunar Eclipse – this Full Moon is also known as the Flower Moon (synchronous to all the wildflowers in bloom right now) and will undoubtedly continue to inspire a plethora of blossoming transformation in our lives.

It’s a time to be explorative and adventurous, add variety – the spice of life to our lives, communicate with clarity, be open to possibilities and options beyond your limited scope, stay open minded in general, release attachments to anything rigid and that blocks you to your wholeness, and embrace the potential for emotional cleansing that leads to renewal.

Full Moons are a time for taking stock of all you DO have to be grateful for and to be extra mindful of all that you complain about day-to-day and moment-to-moment.

How might you refocus that attitude to be more effective in actually funneling energy toward change, rather than constantly spinning a web of negativity and limited perspective? Everything that bothers you holds the alchemy needed to free you.

Look at what needs a little clean up in your life and pluck things out so you can recreate more with conscious intention.

Try to recognize the good in your life and all the blessings around you, including the people around you who despite any perceived shortcomings have their own challenges they face relative to their life path, which we have no idea about since we’re only here living out our own – and may not even really connect the dots to all of that ourselves.

This is a time to reflect and then plant literal and symbolic seeds, then water them with more true, unconditional and compassionate love.

Sacred & Wild ~ Expect the Unexpected

While robin mom and dad sing sweet calls to each other from the railing just under their new nest in the eave of our front door, coyote continues to cross my path. It appears to be the same coyote, as I recognize the beautiful thick creamy coat she has and those pointy ears and bushy tail. This is about the fourth time recently she pays me a call telling me to “expect the unexpected” and remember that all and yet nothing is sacred within The Great Mystery. This shape-shifting both great and foolish one sings of illumination by way of seeing the humor in things and remembering primal connections.

A neighbor had recently pointed out where a coyote den is for one of the packs in the area – one of the large, sacred stone outcroppings we have in the forest. It just so happens to be a two minute walk across the forest, in direct line to the side of our house. No wonder we hear them howling so loudly. It’s such an eerily beautiful and mysterious call that awakens an ancient connection within.

It seems to be in alignment with that feeling of stripping away more and more layers and being both more vulnerable and stronger in the process. Likely why I have been receiving the contrasting messengers that embody each of these, separately or in unison.

There’s a desire to shed skin and be in silence…almost embryotic in the moist, enriched darkness, while things swirl all around me.

Meanwhile the wild essence of things call to me, like the primal howl of coyote. I’ve been ever-more drawn to all the wild flowers and everything found in the nooks and crannies of the forest. I’ve been yearning to create, do, and move things with my hands and having nostalgic memories of life simplicity and my days in the animal and elemental realms.

Just two days ago this led me to make some manzanita blossom jelly in the faery kitchen. It was my first time making this from the prolific blooms on our our wild manzanita bushes surrounding the house.

It felt so good to forage gingerly for these blossoms, taking my time to hand pick with conscious intention and connection to only what called that spread evenly so as not to remove more than any one bush wanted to give so that the pollinators still have plenty to enjoy.

I only brought home enough to make two jars full and so enjoyed getting my hands into the process, thanking each little blossom for their gorgeous juice.

I documented the process because it was so pretty and felt called to add a little infusion of lavender because I love creating intuitive faery blends. I was pleased with the result, but got ideas for little changes if I end up making it again sometime, including a syrup. The fragrance and taste is subtle, but lovely, and feels connected with the heart chakra energy that is so lit up as vital these days.

The sweet yet wild essence feels aligned with that depth of primal sacredness I’m venturing through. The two being perfect, complimentary ingredients to one another as part of that personal alchemy I mentioned in my last post I’m needing to drop into and create.

Synchronously, yesterday we got to enjoy a cloudy, drizzly Spring day in the middle of sunny, Summer-like beach days we’ve been experiencing.

We were unsure of what hike we wanted to do, but let our hearts do the guiding. We ended up at a new, off-the-beaten track trail we’ve never done that wasn’t too far from our house – maybe eight minutes drive. Our eyes spotted it rather than a map.

And between the cloudy, darker skies and being on our own, it ended up being the perfect immersion for the current navigated energies.

I called it a “deep forest” day.

Dave said it was the perfect trail and day for something “supernatural” to appear. (No joke, Astrid just gave a loud, single thump as I’m writing this part and is on high alert).

We followed the softened trail into thicker forest that brought us upon old remains of likely when settlers, miners, or tree loggers were in the area, including rusted tins and metal parts, and remains of old pathways and small dwellings.

Old stone path to something – perhaps a dwelling
Wood framing lodged in the ground perhaps as foundation to a dwelling or structure – interesting reflection to the Algiz Rune upcoming

The trail led us along a creek to a small, extremely enchanted and mysterious little waterfall area that Dave said reminded him of a small grotto.

The energy here touched a chord with my inner nymph and sybil energy. Perhaps an ancient song and vision may spark from this journey.

The trail didn’t go much further than crossing over it to another old remains area, and upon circling back I then found what you see in the photos below, in the order you see them in.

The second, smaller whitish silver Algiz came after I showed Dave the first, larger one and started to share about some of its meanings, including how its name literally means Elk and how the White Elk was a Norse symbol of divine protection and blessings.

To make their appearance more “supernatural” for Dave’s sake 😉 I had been connecting with the devas and elementals of this area upon entering and asking for some specific signs and help with things I continue reflecting upon, as well as asking for permission in passing through in harmony.

This is the Algiz Rune in perfect form – one of the Runes I wear on my skin. This particular one is part of the Runic coding that lines the spine of my dragon tattoo on my left arm, as you can see.

If you look up the Algiz Rune, you’ll see how perfect this sign was for some of what I mentioned.

It was also perfect for what I did not mention.

On our return back on the same trail we saw a forking trail going off in another direction that we followed until its end at some stone outcroppings.

Here we saw this tree portal, quite the stone outcropping fortress across the way with two window portals at the top right, and a perfect altar creating a heart shape, rabbit ears, chalice, or even a slight version of Algiz again? Even the top of the tree portal was in the shape of Algiz. Hmmmm! Curiouser and Curiouser.

Seeing the altar mirrored a vision I had received several days ago about a space I’m to create.

The days and energy have been an immersion into the sacred and wild and even as I’ve been redecorating my office, I’ve been called to create a designated altar area that houses the natural wonders and mystical treasures that have found me over time. Right now, I have many scattered throughout in intentional places and some I keep in boxes stored out of sight, but they are to be gathered together and brought “out of the closet”.

Lineages spanning the ages are being called up, integrated, and transmuted.

I feel a calling to anchor more deeply in the ancient and also honor the primordial…the Earth and the Cosmos…the wild heart within that is all powerful.

While messengers continue to whisper “expect the unexpected,” signs also continue to point to support, guidance, and protection assuring me to keep trusting without knowing, no matter what unfolds.

Walking on the Edge ~ Creators Creating Personal Alchemy

As we walked into the energy of May 11th’s New Moon, it called us to feel into the old and decide what heavy baggage we no longer wanted to carry forth into the new. With the Moon being in Taurus, the energy of what ever our personal goals and intentions were for entering this cycle, there was going to be a need for patience and grounding, since Earthy Taurus moves slowly. There would be a nudge toward more mindfulness and clarity on what you really want under the influence of this energy before actually proceeding, and a lot of persistent patience and trust would be in need of nurturing.

If you experienced a few more challenging, confusing or even darker days leading up to the New Moon, you’re not alone. I did, too, and others I heard from chimed in. It’s not unusual, in general, for that to culminate around this cycle, but there was something more going on that some of us sensitives seemed to notice that was riding along the currents as well.

What ever the themes and energies were that emerged for you, these I feel are sacred messages as to what’s to be alchemized not just for the lunar month, but also the journey at large, ahead.

You may have sensed a shift to more material and physical things to include your body, your home, daily, and simple routines or mundane things and these would both be helpful, as well as inspiring creative changes like redecorating, wearing new colors and styles, experimenting with new foods, and creating beauty all around you.

As creators, walking into the new we want to see, with trust and courage, is what’s needed – not knowing the end result and not knowing how, but moving into it and watching it work out in the moment. When in doubt, we will need to remember to foster words of gentle encouragement to ourselves and look inward to understand our personal alchemy. When feeling discouraged or lost, we may need to call upon support systems – on and/or off Earth, or simply from within.

While we may need to learn to be our own muse at times, there are many muses around us that can be uplifting and inspiring. Anything can be our muse – a person, animal, plant, color, energy, feeling, place, spirit guide, etc. They will carry codes of creation to spark new realities.

In any event, these are the times of the creators – you – and what we’re journeying deeper into is bringing forth personal alchemy in a way that helps make changes in your life more fun and with greater ease, which ultimately has an effect for the collective as well.

If you find yourself at a crossroads and unable to see what’s next, you’re not lost or alone. I find that the further we journey in these rapidly accelerated times, the less we’re going to have foretelling of what’s around the corner. We’re being invited into a different way of experience that leads from the heart’s alignment to spirit.

We’ve oscillated between choosing either mission or love (what’s the most far-reaching responsible and compassionate thing or where our heart tugs) and we are learning to merge these so there is no sacrifice.

It’s not just a human endeavor, but a cosmic journey we’re embarking on and helping to harmonize.

It also feels to be about going beyond black and white to play in the gray – the middle way.

It’s not a clear cut path, as we’re creating it as we go along and many are not only working with us, but awaiting and cheering us on to embody this alchemy.

Two days before the New Moon, I felt a very heavy energy and it felt like it wanted to consume me, discourage, and close the shutters on the light I saw through the window. I found myself being pulled down and ego wanted reason to stay in that, wallow and linger there, and even fully give up. I’d been aware of this energy for a while, but had managed to keep it at bay. Then it charged forth just like that Taurus bull, but with fiery eyes and sharp horns staring straight at me, I had to decide how to dance with him – would I fight the bull, tease and taunt it, run away from the bull, surrender to defeat by the bull, or?

I decided to use love and speak the language of the heart. I stepped into my vibrational frequency in order for personal alchemy to come through.

And this helped open a door that was closed before. It wasn’t the answer, but it created a way for something else to emerge.

From there, I still had the heaviness, even though I “bought” time and thoughts, visions, and feelings swirled within me. Ego still wanted a reason to linger there, but intuition stepped in.

I felt exhausted and betrayed by the energies unfolding. Being in nature always helps, especially being active outdoors, and so I did keep moving the energy and being curious about what it all meant.

Contrary to the ego voice, when I returned home, intuition told me to go out and do my wildflower seeding even though I felt like doing nothing. I immediately started feeling the energy shift and my energy rising, little by little. By the end, I was revitalized both with energy and perspective, and hope returned. This act that my intuition guided me toward, was a literal “seeding” of new intentions and potentials.

I watered them after.

The next day following, I did more outdoor activity and really moved the energy in a bigger way to the point of having conversations out loud with my star family and the Universe, as I hiked and passed through different stages of feelings. Nature was there to absorb and help recharge all that I released, and transmutation took shape.

After that vulnerable and raw release, even more perspective and doors opened, and although I didn’t actually arrive at any particular answer, there was possibility where there hadn’t felt to be any before.

And by the time the day of the New Moon arrived, energies continued to shift and soften and has continued as so.

Still no answers, but more was revealed and I can feel a way even though I don’t know what it is.

And through all of this I’ve had a lot of interesting messengers showing up, which point to my sensing the approach of one of the biggest shifts of my life upcoming.

This is all indicating a call to a new path opening and changes ahead.

And although you see me here, I have actually been more inner these days in order to recalibrate what I’m downloading and how that will look.

I don’t see what new world I’ll land in, but perhaps it’s a new one I’m creating as a creator, which will take some time to manifest.

Or, maybe it’s the world I remember best, calling me back.

Whenever I am on the precipice of major change, hawk shows up as both confirmation things are being supported behind the scenes and as guide to help me with passage between realms. The day after the heaviest of feelings, she flew above and landed atop a barren old tree in the clearing to make sure I saw her and waited for me. As I approached, she looked down and watched me the whole way to her. After I reached her and thanked her, she then took flight above me and circled for about three minutes, close, then farther, and back again. I could see her beautiful feathers clearly.

I’ve been spending a lot of extra time outdoors in receptive and releasing mode because, as I mentioned, it helps me to move energy and listen. If I’m not out on the trails, I’ve been heavily in my garden implementing new ideas, or in extra close communion with Astrid, my cocreator.

In my spare time, I’ve been completing one task at a time, finishing projects, and now stepping into reorganizing and redecorating my office, garage, closet, and kitchen pantry – all feeling right in line with the New Moon energies, as well as the earthing time.

As I shared earlier, the last five days have brought some interesting animal guides to me as messengers. Besides the unusual now THREE bald eagle sightings within less than two weeks, coyote crossed behind our house just as I looked up from the kitchen while cooking, a coyote pack howled close by while I was gardening, followed by an owl hooting in the trees, I found part of a skunk’s tail fur, a large piece of porcupine fur and quills, an old fallen bird’s nest, and

Old fallen bird’s nest and large piece of porcupine fur/quills
Same as above, but with addition of goose down feathers, beautiful dead moth, and skunk fur

discovered robins have returned and built a new nest at the same place above the eaves of the front door for their family.

There were also four turkey vultures that circled and coasted on the wind in front of us while we sat on a rock cliff overlooking Tahoe – that’s when the third eagle showed up right after being

chased by smaller birds – I found a beautiful dead moth in a box where some of my gardening things were kept in the garage that looked like it had been deliberately preserved, I found a plethora of various bird feathers (one appears to be hawk), including a soft, tender bunch of new goose down feathers from

geese friends that left it behind for me, Dave found a very large black raven feather while I connected with hawk, and six geese followed us, nested near us by the water and waited a few

hours for us to return from our bike ride. I also found a huge spider downstairs that was one of the biggest I’ve seen in a while and the first zebra swallowtail of the season glided toward us on the trail.

Then there’s this gorgeous, huge silvery “gray” squirrel who has been visiting profusely outside my office and in the garden. He’s quite the shape shifter and little wizard.

Here he is on the light just outside my office door, peeking in
Here he is on my garden bench – look at that gorgeous, huge, fluffy tail

Transformation is afoot in a very big and contrasting way, and I feel that the only way to navigate it all is to be in and create personal alchemy right now, as that’s all we have at our fingertips.

Knowing our own vibration and how to manage and raise it, becomes vital in these times.

I’m seeing how energies are trying to intervene and even confuse, deter, or try to block the new, but you truly can find another way.

Even if it just opens a door, or buys time, implementing intuitive being and your own inner muse frequency can ignite personal alchemy for change to ignite.

Sometimes you feel like softly closing your petals for a while and other times you bubble with exuberance to open them wide. Where ever you find yourself is perfect and doesn’t change this fact – a flower you are.

I’ve been observing my new tulips daily, watching as they open and close in response to the light and heat. They aren’t diminished by this contraction of tucking in for the night or folding up on a rainy day.

It’s a way to keep their pollen dry and protected so that when they do open to the next morning’s light, they are ready to dance with visiting pollinators and share their sweetness they have enriched to gift.

Happy Mother’s Day to ALL

There are many ways to be a mother and there are many meanings for what a mother is to each of us.

Regardless of how that looks and comes to be for each, the one we feel to call “mother” in our lives is one who provides us creative life energy, cultivation, nurturing, sensitivity, vulnerable strength, unconditional love, as well as tough love, patience, consistency, reflections of true beauty in all forms, and even recognition and implementation of boundaries – all encapsulated in the embodiment of the Sacred Feminine.

Me and my garden at the very start of the Spring season spreading love to nurture abundant growth

Whether you are a plant or fur baby momma, mother to a child – biological, adopted, fostered – a mother figure to others in general, care-taker of another human, animal, garden or Mother Earth herself, or creatrix birthing from the feminine source of your creative power in any way – you are a mother – you are a goddess.

Me and my Garden Tower perennial babies bursting forth with vitality just yesterday

This Divine Mother Energy can cross all imaginary boundaries of cultures, religions, races, species, life forms and beyond.

Me and one of my fur babies – Boojum – our only son who is a momma’s boy

Much love and gratitude to all “mothers,” especially Mother Earth who provides us abundantly in every way imaginable.

And much respect and honor to the Sacred Feminine within us all that nurtures the very sacredness of spiritual potential and life substance.

You are honored today and all the days of your life.

Whimsical Wednesdays ~ The Artist’s Corner: Templates for a New World

Today is another of those special days I hold dear in heart. May 5th is Gaia’s birthday – my sweet Russian Tortoise who slipped between the veils one day, not long after my own birthday the same year of her disappearance. She would have been 18 today, but her ancient soul spans the ages. It is also on May 5th that my twin soul’s ashes – Nestor – came home to me 13 years ago. I always marvel at the navigation our soul companions in animal bodies have.

Today is also 5-5-5. May being the 5th month, it’s the 5th day of the month and 2021 when added together is a 5! 555 is a very special messaging code that Nestor has always given to me and has continued to be a way she and my other star family communicate with me.

Gaia is a master of frequencies and grid work, and her knowledge goes way beyond simple sciences, but spans into the very depth of the Great Mystery.

Sharing a Whimsical Wednesdays art blog today feels like a perfect way to honor Gaia, as she (like all of my rabbits too – Nestor was the first and Gaia followed) always used to love being with me while I painted, and so enjoyed checking out my work in order to assist me with the energies I needed to imbue into them.

You can see her doing that in the photo below with my painting, Air, which we created together in my solarium overlooking Lake Tahoe.

Tahoe has been quite the nurturing presence for many of my paintings and other creative works of art, and today – in honor of Gaia and Nestor – I’d love to share two special pieces I was gifted the choice to cocreate.

The first is a painting I mentioned last year that I had the opportunity to work on. The project was to create a book cover and although it was completed in 2020, it is in 2021 that I get to reveal the final product.

I was so excited to receive a surprise tag on both Instagram and Facebook from the amazing Gary Savitsky about his book being in its last stages before release. After the proof of his new book had just arrived, he shared this photo:

It is humbling to have been a part of this amazing birthing of his, as the artist for his featured cover you see here. The title is Gateway to the Four Pillars ~ Qigong for Present Times and the Modern Mind.

This has been a many year project for Gary, and I came into the process only just last year when this cover was channeled. It was my part to help bring his visions into being and this definitely was a divine unfolding from first contact to completion of project.

Gary is a certified Master Sound Healer, Founder of Four Pillars Qigong, an inspirational spiritual calligraphy artist, energy healer, intuitive and author. Side, fun note – he’s a Rabbit in Chinese astrology.

Gary’s currently doing the last review and finalization, then it’s a first print run. I look forward to sharing more about his book when it’s formally released, but couldn’t be more excited for Gary and everyone who will experience his book.

Below I’m sharing the original image in its solo version – precover – that I first sent to Gary via email attachment before sending it to him in Thunder Bay, Ontario so you can see the full painting on its own.

It was quite the journey to create and like with everything I end up working on, it had perfect reflections for personal and collective unfolding – living portals that open the door to energies we have yet to comprehend fully and templates for new realities we are creating.

That brings me to the next painting, which is truly an experience brought to life on another basswood portal. You might recall this Magick Portal wood plaque I created in November of last year of precious Maribelle:

Well, her momma asked if I would create a very special and important piece of all of her dear soulmates in rabbit bodies and of course I was more than excited to do that for her, as you know how much rabbits mean to me, but more so these sweethearts and their mom had also become very special to me. There is always beautiful reason why paths cross and the timing is also always divine.

In both wood portal projects, I was given creative license to channel what divine image came through. The only thing I did ask and was given, was a photo of each of her sweethearts that she felt captured their essence the best. I was so excited when I saw the photos of them, as they spoke to me immediately as fitting into the vision that had ignited as soon as she had asked me to create this piece. Their positions were perfection for this new world.

Painting on wood has been my new favorite medium these days and I felt that this piece should be a companion to the first I did, but also the shape and larger size of the basswood I just happened to have left, felt to be the ideal landscape that could come to life as their dreamscape.

The new piece is meant to be an “experience” and not a dry portrait – just as the first one was created to be as well.

I like to think outside the box when painting something, create what you wouldn’t imagine possible from seemingly random, disconnected things someone asks for, or weave together new life and the unexpected from what could just be taken in a straightforward, static approach, and feel each creation to be a portal or window into another reality, feeling, vision, potential… where everything is possible.

This latest Magick Portal is definitely that – where possibility lives and a new reality awaits.

When I learned that I would be painting four rabbits in one piece, I knew that the vision I had imagined could now take form that involved a vista I had seen both in reality and in my dreams.

My favorite hike we do in the area has the most incredible landscapes that are my absolute ideal with every element that I love. One of these is this particular area that fills with wild lilac irises during only a very short window of the season. I have rolled in this meadow with only the irises and felt the most free and alive than ever. This photo I captured would be the world for these four souls in rabbit bodies – my inspiration.

And it’s just such surroundings that remind me of a far away place my soul only remembers, which reflects my favorite dream – laying in a meadow on a desolate planet with rabbits all around and on top of me. A dream I know these sweethearts’ mom shares too.

This was to be the dreamscape for these four sweeties – a place where they could play, frolic, and be free….forever. A place they can enter in dreamtime, have as their sacred and safe place they can go to if old triggers scare them, and the place that will always be there for them when they are ready to navigate their way back to the stars from which they came, and that they are. A place where they will always be together, free, living their best life, and their soul family in human bodies – their Earth parents – can always visit them too, and one day be there with them – an eternal Heaven on Earth.

This portal painting is also my vision of a New World. A place where all sentient beings live in harmony, are honored, and there is a synergy of relationship to the land and each other.

Two of these sweethearts in the painting are ex-lab rabbits – meaning rabbits that are used and abused in experiments to create products for humans. All of them are rescue rabbits from various situations. This is the vision that came through as a divine message, new template, and key codes spoken through these Earth angels.

A New World Awaits ~ Heaven on Earth (title of this Magick Portal)

I couldn’t have done it without them and they brought forth a dreamscape I had envisioned into life. I wanted them to feel alive, nurtured, honored, and free…forever.

Here are a few more photos in different lightings.

This is the stand I got for it – the perfect way to showcase this work of art.

And here are some close-ups of each of the rabbits with their live portraits – in order of appearance: Maribelle, Roger, Kewpie, and Marshmallow. These are my muses.

As always, detail and colors are hard to capture in photos, but I think these do a decent job in reflecting the essence of this piece and each of these souls.

The shape of the piece is a very unusual and naturally flowy wood that is almost 17 inches at the very widest across and about 10 ¾ inches at the tallest height then varies in between. I realized that I don’t take photos of my artwork with me in it anymore. That only seemed to happen back in the days when I would do a showing somewhere at a gallery or festival. But I got the message that to highlight the shape and size of this piece and because of its special meaning, this one needed capturing together with me and this is what happened:

And this:

Divine activation and confirmation – don’t you think?

When we first took these photos I happened to be wearing Honey Moon Wings – woven beaded earrings of the Lycaenidae family of butterflies in shades of Earthy amber honey with a hint of lavender and violet and tiny crescent Moons inside the wing. Perfect Earth and Cosmic harmony energies with a hint of reflection to the lilac irises.

I realized later that I actually had Monarch Wings to match the two butterflies in the painting (there’s also a Swallowtail) and put them on. Boojum decided to join for one last photo before wrapping this creation off and shipping to its new home. I think he approved! Boojum does love his rabbit friends.

I feel humbled to work on pieces like this because I know it is bigger than me. I’m just a channel or conduit for the messengers and messages.

I love what I do and am grateful for the opportunity to be this bridge.

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