Just a short post, as I have a busy day ahead and much to prepare before heading out to Arizona tomorrow. This will be my last post for the next two weeks, as I likely won’t be back to blogging until the week of the 19th, since we’ll be immersed in family time in Tucson, then completely off-grid in the Grand Canyon backpacking, and finishing off with a contrasting celebration of vegan food extravaganzas, massages, and dancing in Vegas, briefly, before returning home. I have no idea what is in store, as this is a whole new adventure, but I am very excited to see what unfolds and is activated from this epic journey.
This is a photo of me at the rim of the Canyon in June of 2015 – nearly 3 years ago. I’ve visited the GC several times over the course of my life, since I was a little girl, but this will be the very first time venturing into the womb of her mystery. Seems appropriate and aligned timing to happen now and I have a feeling it is the first of more of these adventures to come, as the future likely holds some longer treks in there and lots more backpacking in general, since now we own our own equipment we got for this adventure.
The journey of life is a constantly surprising spiral of creative possibilities.
I’m going to miss my sweet Astrid, but know she’s in good hands with a faery friend who will care for her needs while I am away. This is the first time we are apart since she came home to me Summer Solstice of last year. I’m giving her extra love and letting her know I’ll be back, so she doesn’t think I’m abandoning her. I’m glad she will have someone with her daily and that I’ve created a magick realm to nourish her while I’m away. Also grateful for her telepathic powers, so she can check in with me and vice versa along the journey.
I was able to get half way done with my very last round of editing on my book, which feels right since trips always shift energy, so finishing it upon return will be perfect. Then things will be taking a new and fast turn in the process and opening to me having others read it for the first time, as until now no one has really had any inkling of what it’s about, nor been involved with any part of the writing process. Fun and kind of exciting suspenseful! Just like this trip to the GC!
Anyway, I want to wish everyone a wonderful couple of weeks. I will likely be able to post some quick things while away, on my Instagram, when not in the Canyon, but haven’t time for blog musings. So if you’re on there, you may see some shares of things leading up to it all and after.
Other than that, I wish everyone hoppy trails along your individual journeys these next couple of weeks and look forward to touching back in with you upon return! Much love and creative magick always!
Since my birthday my Wonderland office had the final touches fully ignited and it seems the perfect timing before heading off to Arizona in two days and on to our epic Grand Canyon adventure. Having this portal in full throttle will help in connecting with Astrid, as well as infuse the magick experienced on the journey into our home for our return. To say I love my room is an understatement. It really makes a difference for my work to have it align with my heart and to be so alive and enchanted. I feel that creating a sanctuary that speaks of and to your heart, is key. I’ve dreamed of this and am so grateful for manifesting it.
I’d been waiting to hang a few things and in the interim, synchronous stuff found their way to me and came as surprise birthday gifts that were not only exactly the right size and energy, but all tied into together from various unconnected places and people.
I had been building the entry wall layer by layer with things I had including creations from a magickal woodworker named the Jolly Geppetto, as well as received three wall hangings from friends as birthday gifts that included faeries in a faery tree, the “Bunny Trail” sign, and the magickal sayings. You can see these all here.
But it’s my tapestry that is only seen when I close the doors to this magickal realm, that really brought things to life. It’s called The Visitation and is an adaptation of Lewis Carroll’s literary classic, Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland by the late fantasy artist David Delamare. It’s of Alice with Book and Fairies, created just prior to his death in 2016. I love that it exactly matches the same workmanship, coloring, and threaded edging as my large Queen Astranaithes tapestry over my desk. And that it goes perfectly with the theme and energy here.
It’s like a parallel world when I look at it from the comfort of my cozy chair that sits directly across from it where I read, edit, or do Tarot next to my shelf of books and magick.
I also love it because of my being immersed in book writing and it really feels activating for the world I enter and how the life of a writer, or artist for that matter, is one of solitude (at least that can be seen with the human eyes). So I love having all my “friends” around me and this image on the tapestry reflects the “unseens” who are part of my life and world of creating.
And then we come to this little fellow who greets everyone who enters here…oh how I adore him!! My official White Rabbit faery, who SO reminds me of Cosmo and is essence. He stands over a foot tall and has golden butterfly wings, a sweet smile, and carries a lantern to light the way.
My sweet friend KC/Bean (whom we’re going with to the GC) found it for me. She always texts me photos of bunnies everywhere that she sees and other things she knows I love. Many of the things have made their way home to me before, but this one was extra special and has some cool connections that took place in his coming to be with me. I love that he arrived on March 1st’s Full Moon too. His lantern has a little battery operated candle in it, courtesy of Bean’s mom. He speaks to the energy and whimsy you will find when entering here. And I love all of the symbolism he embodies that reflect the layers of signs above him. He is SO alive! Like everything else here.
Just before he arrived, my mom and dad had gifted me a smaller white bunny for my birthday (pictured left) and I’d found the white bunny holding the yellow sunflower (pictured right) that matched and had to come home as his friend.
I also found this adorable laying rabbit that matched the gnomes and magick mushroom my parents gave me for Christmas. They now sit on either side of Astrid’s castle, as part of her realm, under the Faery succulent gardens sitting atop tree tables.
And the long awaited White Rabbit pillow arrived as well, which sits on my “Beam me up” out-of-this-world, green writer’s chair. This is a sweet and gorgeous watercolor pillowcase by artist Karina Soboleva all the way from Russia – where my name originates. It’s so stunning and is perfect for masterminding the new.
You’ve already seen my Wonderland book, at center of my book shelf, but now sitting atop it are two White Rabbit storykeepers – one small bunny/apprentice that was mine – and the other larger one a birthday gift from Faery Laura – unbeknownst to her that I had the little guy. Again perfect additions with their holding books and they now sit next to the Peter Rabbit (also gifted by Laura when I was in the Magick Bus) and my wands.
I also have my new and incredible “Faerie” book, dragons, and Cosmic eggs, snake skin I found on a hike once, etc. here along with a very cool piece of bark with lichen I found in the forest.
The last photo is of one of my birthday gifts to self – a custom Skeleton Key pen in Stardust Blue Lagoon acrylic with pewter fittings by the incredible Mark McCullough, who has since become a wonderful friend. It’s meant to celebrate this storybook year and that my book’s completion and manifestation is close at hand and along with writing it, I’m writing a new reality into being from my heart. There’s a mysterious and cosmic essence that beckons one deeper and perhaps may unlock the heart’s musings for my book. I also love that it goes with all the unique antique wood doors in the house and their original hardware that each features a different keyhole, but do not have keys (you can see my door handle in the photos above). I love imagining that each door is a portal into another reality and maybe, just maybe, this Skeleton Key pen might write my way into these worlds and beyond, opening them with just the right alchemy.
I think you get the theme here with everything. 😉
Writing and living fully my own reality and creating the outside to match the inside, in all ways.
I can’t stress enough the importance of “alignment” and for me that also has come to include more and more vulnerability and transparency, as I feel this can be helpful for others to merge into their own alignments too and experience magickal lives.
I hope you enjoy this fun journey into the “Wonderland” of my inner child’s imagination and heart.
“You know what the issue is with this world? Everyone wants some magical solution to their problem and everyone refuses to believe in magic.” ~ Alice in Wonderland, Lewis Carroll
I just can’t keep this beauty to myself and so here are some photos from yesterday’s epic snow day #2 of this season. In contrast, the sun was shining and the sky was brilliant baby blue. We got about a foot plus more powder and it was stunning against that bright sky. We took a sunset walk at Zephyr Cove, which proved a hearty hike in knee deep snow without snow shoes. I did wear my rainbow moonboots, which proved the perfect addition for the deep snow, immersing in Tahoe’s crystalline water, and even romancing a mallard. It was pure awe, and filled with mystery as the storm clouds approached. It concluded with duck fun and a mallard coming straight to me as soon as he saw me, and giving me some love pecks on my moonboots. I think we’re in love. 😉 I only caught the moment before he went for me. I was too giggly to do anything else. A little activation in that sunset evening for sure!
Mallard medicine includes: communication, letting go, strong sense of knowing, awareness, preparation, speaking your truth, intuition, finding your flow, not settling, water elements, creating a sacred sanctuary nest that soothes your soul, graceful self confidence, connection to ancient ancestor wisdom, luck – preparation meets opportunity, the power of being in the now moment, being at peace, letting it be, having the resources to navigate your life, taking notice of your surroundings to see the new opportunities being offered, being ready to move forward swiftly to embrace opportunities presented and to succeed with your goals, exploring your emotions and clearly navigating them so you can release what no longer serves.
Perhaps Mr. Mallard was infusing my right foot with supportive energy to be able to use my water, air, and earth energies effectively for our upcoming Grand Canyon trek, as that is the foot I fractured this last fall and he pecked on the side where the fracture was. Ducks can swim, fly, and walk, bringing these energies all together in a productive way. Thank you!
Let yourself immerse in the energies of these images. These will be the last snow beauties shared until my return from Arizona – leaving on Wednesday – since I have a lot to prepare before I head off. I’ll likely share one more post before I go. Until then, wishing you a lovely Sunday filled with wonder-full things!
Our best snow day of the season was yesterday, which is also our first time being able to snow shoe in our forest portal backyard due to the amount of snow here at our 6600 elevation level. It was my favorite day so far this winter. So grateful to have all this magick outside our door and mostly all to ourselves, as we were creating fresh tracks 90% of the time. Fresh powder up to two plus feet deep in some places, with bridges, creeks, portals, wise tree spirits, and more enchantment around every corner. What a work out too when you’re in such deep snow, plus snow shoeing is usually two to three times more the effort.
It continues to snow so we’re looking at maybe doubling our snow depth at this rate and will be snow shoeing all weekend. This morning I woke to find another foot plus of snow. It’s supposed to continue snowing through today and maybe some tomorrow and then again the weekend we get back home from our Arizona trip. Seems like we’re being gifted snow before and after we return. Yay!
I may look cold and seem all bundled up, but truth be told I was one hot faery. Although I only had one thin sweater and one pair of thin leggings on under my jacket, I literally was sweating profusely and wishing I was in a tank and shorts. If I’m not moving I’m cold, but the second I do, watch out! It’s like an inferno within. LOL! In fact, my hands and feet will be warm, even if they are exposed or get wet. I had to remove my gloves to help breathe a bit and would have removed more if I had somewhere to put it all. If not for the beauty and snowflakes falling all around me, I would have been focused more on how uncomfortably hot I was.
A friend mentioned it’s because I’m exerting extra effort with flapping wings too, making it magick exercise. I like that. 😉
Dave is the complete opposite. He is freezing all the time, and all layered up. He can’t understand how I get so hot and can basically be wearing little to nothing in the cold temperatures. We’re like yin and yang in this respect, but I have more yang and he has more yin. I think it’s my Mars energy.
Anyway, I hope you enjoy this winter wonderland in our enchanted Forest Portal here.
If you haven’t already noticed, I’m a bit bunny crazy and the bunny energy just keeps multiplying, as rabbits do! My birthday gifts were full of bunnies (including a sweet donation to Save A Bunny in my honor and the White Rabbit ensemble pictured here), but I spent a low-key hoppy birthday week mixed with nurturing and reflection. I also experienced a big energy hop where things intensified on my birthday and then released a couple of days after, in alignment with the Virgo Full Moon. Since Astrid is a Virgo, there is definitely bunny synchronicity going on there too and I noticed some different behaviors in her as well.
As I mentioned in my last post sharing Lee’s Energy Update for March, I’ve been profusely immersed in the themes he speaks of – innovation and creativity – constantly feeling this impulse to create whether it’s baking up a storm (perhaps quite literally as we are in the midst of a 3-day snow blizzard), rearranging and decorating my office some more (will share that fun stuff in an upcoming post), transplanting and planting succulent fun, shifting my wardrobe, getting more clarity on the new directions I’m going and things I’m feeling called to implement, and finalizing the editing of my book (this last go around really shifting it the most yet).
It’s like my wellspring of creative energy is wanting any outlet possible, so I’m both going with that flow, but also being mindful of directing my energies so they don’t get too diluted. I know I have that tendency and am nipping it in the bud so that I can remain efficient with my intents and that Cappy energy wanting focus.
Virgo’s Full Moon yesterday kicked in a snow storm here and we’re already at, now, 2-3 feet at our 6600 elevation with more on the way today and tomorrow. We’re finally getting a true Tahoe winter and a late winter, as I predicted. A perfect send-off for fun snow shoeing out our backyard forest and skiing before we head to Arizona next week and our camping/trekking adventure in the Grand Canyon. Incidentally, I learned from KC, aka Bean, that the Grand Canyon’s 99th birthday as a National Park was on my birthday. Isn’t that a coinky dink?
But back to that energy shift briefly, I definitely think the Virgo energy was triggering the perfect alchemy in my Pisces counterpart, as I felt an influx of anxiety that was a mix of excitement and scary. I feel it was the realization of having tipped the scales and now am off the edge of the cliff with no turning back and it’s all about trusting what I’m feeling to do despite having no reference for it and no knowledge of outcome.
Incidentally, I was out driving two days ago, before the storm, to pick up some packages at our P.O. Box and the car in front of me had the licence plate, “TRUST.”
I wanted to snap a photo, but kept my hands safely on the wheel and instead voiced a thank you for the supportive message at the perfect time.
I was prompted to go even deeper into more levels and knowing that my Pisces self needs to implement full devoted Virgo well-being of self through fulfillment of my personal expression of “mission” for lack of a better word that I feel compelled to manifest. Although I knew this and have been on this path, all of my parts are helping me to ground deeper since I’ll be needing all the backbone strengthening possible for a spineless fish to move into the platforms I feel called to and the amount of empathic exposure and scrutiny I may be exposed to…a pretty big feat when you have to build and manifest what was never there, but not impossible! I’ve been working on that my whole life and this energy simply called for extra attention, which Astrid is so wonderfully assisting with for the bigger work I’m about to commit to. This was why the anxious feelings popped through, as Virgo energy can bring up these “what if’s?” about the future. It was a check-in and a review of “is this really what I want?”
In the end, I found my answer could only be “yes,” otherwise I have no reason to continue on here.
This Virgo Full Moon definitely turns our attention to how we manage our lives and to let go of that need to control everything, so that instead we can surrender to the fostering of our dreams through heart magick. This includes letting go of how and when those dreams manifest so that they do in a way that is for the highest good of all concerned.
The Virgo Full Moon also calls up our sensitivities and we may be easily triggered emotionally. As long as we understand what this truly is about, we can then take a breath and a pause to sink deeper into responding instead of reacting.
The Virgo Full Moon also helps us align with things most authentically in resonance so that we see what no longer serves us and our highest purpose and potentials. We can then let these go with love, knowing that anything less than supportive is simply harmful. If we allow others to drag us into chaotic dramas, this will only lower our vibration and create a feeding ground for more. Maintain your vibration above all else…I experienced this for an hour or two and was so proud of myself in turning what in the past would have taken me weeks or months, into a more profound barrier of “not on my watch.” Be grateful for these opportunities, rather than seeing them as weaknesses. You have the power to create alchemy at any moment through realization.
The Virgo Full Moon can draw up critical self examination and yet wants us to constructively love our parts as perfection in the puzzle of our personal tapestry of life.
So, it has been a profound and powerful birthday week here and I’m experiencing a further deepening into what it is I’m really doing here with the creative heart work I’m feeling called to.
And that leads to a fun and magickal announcement of potential, perfectly aligned with Virgo energy of service grounded in well-being for all.
Laura posted her workshops for March, which includes a possible workshop with me.
Yes, I may be coming out of my temporary teaching retirement for a co-creative and potent event.
And yes, it seems we’re feeling called for another in-person activation together, which is a rare event in and of itself…so a workshop will be quite something.
As Laura mentions, we are planning a visit for this Fall and seeing how there’s a potent alignment happening at the time we’re feeling, this could bring our long-felt brewing and percolating thoughts about co-hosting a workshop finally into manifestation.
We’re still feeling this out and what will be offered, but are putting it out there so you can share your feelings and thoughts as well.
Possible topics percolating, but not limited to, are “Faeries, Manifestation, Manifesting with the Faeries, Tuning into Nature, Everyday Magick, or some other inspiration TBA.” I have some other ideas evolving as well.
It would be held on 11/11/11, as 2018 is an 11/2 year at our magickal Forest Portal here in Lake Tahoe at an address that numerologically equals an 11 as well. Talk about potent.
This visit and workshop will be full circle for us, as this is where we first met – the Tahoe/Reno area – and everything we’ve gone through together first began, including my receiving Reiki Master Teacher training from her and many an adventure – oh my! Quite the energy activation in store we sense.
If this interests you, please let us know. Simply send a message via the link here.
Either way, we’re excited for this visit and look forward to the adventure of rewriting a new reality from this potent portal.
In a paraphrased version of my favorite Willy Wonka quote:
The suspenseful possibilities of what might open are terrible 😉 I hope it lasts.
I’m so glad Dawn posted Lee’s Energy Update for March, as I’ve been so immersed in the creativity and innovation he speaks about that I hadn’t had time to check it out until waking this morning to her great write up on it. I then sat in bed listening to it as the snow storm falls here. I always share his monthly updates because they resonate so much and I know they will be helpful for many who might not otherwise get a chance to see and hear them. I’m glad Dawn shares that same feeling, as I can always be assured she’ll post them too – thanks Dawn! On to Lee here, I know this video will resonate or trigger everyone and seed some things to think about in our relating to others and ourselves. This has always been a big one for me especially as a Pisces, and something I always need to stay on top of so that I’m not confusing my pleasing others with my ability to morph easily, which adds extra diligence in monitoring myself. Tricky stuff. Lee explains how to monitor things within your body and how aligned they are or aren’t with what you’re agreeing too. And then there’s the alignment with your new purpose that is lighting up now, which leads into the next theme of expressing creativity and innovation, while focusing forward on what you want to create. That’s where I have found myself solely and constantly wanting to create whether it’s baking and cooking new things, decorating and rearranging my office, re-feeling out and shifting my wardrobe, and yes…. Investing my time into all new projects and life path that are both scary and exciting like Lee shares. I think you’ll find this a supportive and inspiring update. Great for this Virgo Full Moon. Let me know what you think.
Lee shares what the energy is about this month.
We need to check in with ourselves in regards to people pleasing. Coming up allot for people and releasing that. When we agree to do something but our body is not in alignment with that it’s a key that we are people pleasing.
Also noted was conflict. Conflicting opinions, sharp edges where that’s concerned. Lee suggested to focus on the positive outcome of change and not what is dissolving, which will help to ride the wave of creativity into the newer realms.
Lastly, creativity assists in allowing us to come into our purpose as we are all needed. Now through June there will be lots of focus on our intent and execution of what that might look like.
Thanks so much Lee Harris.
I won’t be blogging on my birthday, which is this Monday 2/26, so I thought I’d share some thoughts in a post, today, on this nine year anniversary of Joy’s arrival into my life – one of the greatest birthday gifts to date! Although age is meaningless to the eternal spirit, it IS interesting to reflect on all of the judgments and ideas we have around age, which also deters people from humanly acknowledging it, as well as determines life protocol for many to try to reverse it or even speed it up. Although, I’ve never taken issue to stating my age, I have been guilty of all of these things in my past.
In fact, rather than be afraid of or feel protective of my age to the degree of feeling it is no one’s business, I was quite the opposite, where I was adamant to share my age because I could feel the judgments of others upon me and my insecurity around that to blast through their ideas about me. In part, this was my own projection, but being an intuitive, it was largely in response to knowing what people were thinking, and wanting to nip that in the bud immediately.
I recall having meaningful conversations with people in my past and knowing by my outside appearance and things they alluded to, like asking what school I was going to (when in fact I was way past high school and college age) and the way they looked at me in a protectively patronizing way, that they weren’t taking me seriously. Coming from a past of “feeling the need to prove myself” anyway, this of course was my perfect experience called up to move through that.
But, at the time, it just made me want to blurt out how old I was because I knew the connotations attached to age that obviously I was buying into, too, as a sensitive and boundary-less Pisces. So, rather than hide my age, I wore it on my sleeve. And perhaps that might run deeper than simply this, as I also knew the ancient aspects of spirit and to come back again on Earth, starting all over, might even feel demeaning.
Although I know it is a gift and meaningful choice, now, there would definitely have been unconscious anger or resentment over incarnating – an experience locked deep in our DNA, I feel, as a whole, for many reasons.
And so, there I was fighting back with announcing my age, to appease my feelings that not only in fact what I had to say was meaningful and important, but my incarnating here had purpose I was trying to remind myself with this declaration.
I’m not sure if I’m conveying this in the depth of potency it has, but in realizing and understanding this, it made a huge shift and got more parts of myself aligned and on board, rather than having an internal fight against myself, which only adds to the depletion of self love and creates more fragmenting and less empowerment.
The greatest battle and ongoing war, is truly the one within and I believe it stems from so much subconscious anger at our humanness.
And this made sense, as I always felt more inhuman and thus laid ahead a journey of merging and a return to natural harmony.
Then there was the young me wishing I was older and wanting to race through the years as fast as I could because I not only knew my younger years would be the hardest, but I also soulfully knew it wasn’t until later, in my mid-forties, that I would find my peace and really start “living.” A cruel form of intuitive vision when you know you STILL have to go through the years to get there. Yet, I wanted to escape, as much as I knew I couldn’t.
And still yet, there was the me who bought into these ideas of physically reversing age. Mind you, not in any fanatical way, but I was aware of ways in which one could “look” their best and all of those catch phrases even in the spiritual community that are about longevity, reversing the clock, ways one “should” look or how life should look if you are “ascending,” and what you “should” be able to do and accomplish if you are in fact turning back the sands of time.
I still marvel at this messaging and collective-buy-into, today, and although I understand aging is not a spiritual attribute, we are still on a three dimensional planet, we do still have individual journeys that are not measured by a certain amount of time we need to be here, and we are still judging what something looks like and associating it with living a life that’s “less than” if in fact it doesn’t fit into what collectively we see as “ideal” and “vibrant”. Just another form of self-abuse masked as spiritual enlightenment.
Are there things you can do to reverse physical appearance? Sure, but if in fact you are healthy, happy, and aligned in your expression of you, why then does that matter here on Earth?
If I want to have silver hair or wrinkles, why does that automatically mean I’m deficient? Or that there’s something wrong? I am still part human, and that part isn’t necessarily what I’ve chosen to walk in forever. Perhaps these indicate my true eternal quality? Why is there only one way to characterize this or see it?
There isn’t just one way, and I feel that the faster we open ourselves to multiple perspectives and possibilities, the faster we will free ourselves into a more grace-filled way of being and come into our multi-dimensionality.
Why do I bring this up?
Well, for one, I feel that vulnerability and transparency are powerful and key things to bring forth into our lives in greater frequency right now. Something I just shared yesterday on my Facebook feed with these reflections:
Everything points to going deeper into our hearts and connecting through them, with these as the guiding forces. The more we nurture these within, the more we encounter empowered embodiment, authentic experiences, connections, clarity, and alignment in our manifestations. And, the less we encounter triggers, hidden surprises, and forced change or reaction to what is revealed in the collective environment.
I feel that being vulnerable and transparent isn’t so much about allowing everything to bombard us as it pleases, but involves also a healthy balance of knowing and exercising our boundaries. This isn’t about hiding or repressing ourselves, however, but about knowing how to say “no” and not allowing certain frequencies to shift our own. Being openly expressive is not draining in this vein, but empowering and helps increase vitality. What is draining is when we fight our true expression or are having to deal with unwanted energies. Vulnerability and transparency is being willing to share the truth in our hearts and this helps others not to be afraid to do the same too. Fear around this is draining our energy, as we use so much of it to hide, worry, or create walls, which inhibit our gifts to shine through.
We can all shine, regardless of age, physical appearance, the list of accomplishments you have, or the things you own in your life.
The way I’ve discovered doing this is to live life out loud and to “create life as a work of art” – my motto.
I share the photo above, as it is the most recent photo of me (a week old) that reflects a much more peaceful, harmonious, grounded, embodied, softer, more secure, gently joyful, balanced, and creatively passionate me.
Vibrant bursts of color reflect my soul song frequency and inspire creativity to bubble through. Perhaps it’s the artist me or perhaps I’m simply inspired by Nature and how she exudes life force in every shade of beauty possible. Her blossoming myriad of expressions sing of love.
She is a woman of my heart and the only example I take to heart of how to live in the grace of being.
I love that now I have no emotional trigger or any tiny weirdness around my human expression and emanation of my spirit.
I will still always have resonance to otherworlds, but no longer need to prove that, nor anything else about my being here the way I choose to show up, as once my younger Earthly self felt she needed to do.
Merging embrace of my multi-dimensional self allows me the ability to enjoy each different aspect for what ever they are and however I am choosing to express them, without attachment.
They are ALL me and as the artist me, and using the power of creative love through me, I know their intrinsic beauty and value in the spiral of consciousness.
I now walk this reality as alive as ever, because it is my canvas to create in the reflection of my essence and my playground for exploration and total freedom of how I want to share that in any given moment.
Although chronological age is not important, the numerology factor is still interesting and revealing to explore.
45 is a combination of the energy of 4, 5 and their combined total of 9.
4 builds solidity and stability, foundations for self and others, draws forth passion and drive together for achieving success (whatever that means to you), and 5 adds personal freedom, adventure, creativity, courage to explore unknowns, letting imagination go free, versatility, major life shifts through lessons learned, while 9 brings things full circle, adds patience, intuition, soul mission, inner strength, sense of personal responsibility, humanitarianism, global focus, living and leading by example, and spiritual enlightenment.
These feel to be the energies I’m integrating at this time of my life and the foundations of where I am and where I’m headed.
I read that 45, numerologically, has a focus on putting your efforts and energy towards the things in your life that enhance and fully embody who you truly are – from the smallest of things to the largest of things – what we surround ourselves with, what we wear even, the things we focus on and are working on bringing into the world, and our lifestyle choices and overall life in general. It’s also about really putting things into full-embodied action so results manifest, keeping focused, and integrating a more pragmatic way to be a guiding force.
I’m also going to be igniting a 12/3 year come my birthday and this speaks to the creative rebirth taking place for me, an inner calling surfaced, release from all karmic ties, and everything coming together in my life story as I reach a significant stage on my journey.
So, while I may have been wanting to fast forward things in my younger years, I can understand why that visionary part of me was looking forward to now, as this truly is the most full-circle time of my time here on Earth – this life and aspect of my multi-dimensional self – and the most peace-filled.
There is peace no matter what today or tomorrow brings, as there is peace right here and now in my heart.
My new thing in recent years has been to gift myself birthday gifts to not only celebrate the new energy with supportive things that light up my heart, but to celebrate all that I’ve gone through to be here.
This year seemed to start a few months early, as truly wonderful birthday gifts were received from friends, loved ones, and family far before now, and some incredible surprises along the way that truly touched my heart.
So many of them were rabbit-focused and went along with the theme of my Wonderland office, with Alice in Wonderland fun.
My favorite gifts-to-self include the colorful, handmade shawl you see me wearing in the photo, two necklaces (including an incredibly magickal rabbit and a powerful “origins” and DNA activator), another gorgeous Faery book (I gifted myself one last year too), a custom made pen (for the writer me), a custom made wand (for the ancient me), and a “crown” chakra headpiece I’ve had intention of for years, but took until now to draw in the perfect one. Seems appropriate.
I don’t have any particular plans this year on my birthday, so we’ll see what intuitively and organically shows up, but we will be embarking on a super fun adventure March 7th – 17th, which feels to be my birthday journey of origins and more.
We’ll be heading to Arizona, first spending 3 days with Dave’s family in Tucson and then heading up to the Grand Canyon to meet up with our sweet friends you’ve heard me mention in past Summer posts – KC, aka Bean, and Clint, aka Happy. My Faery and Elf friends who returned my two giant quartz to their momma after my foot fracture and who took me on a Cirrus G6 private flight over Lake Tahoe.
From there, we head into the GC for an epic trekking and camping adventure, to introduce the energy and magick of this realm to us. Well, more me, because Dave has been inside of the GC before, but I haven’t. I’ve only explored the rim. Nor have I ever done this kind of trek, as I only camped a tiny bit when I was a little girl. Our adventures have been limited, but oh-so not limiting, to the Magick Bus RV living.
But come March, Bean and Happy (who will be working in the GC starting a week after our adventure, are GC experts, and love her inside and out) will be sharing her with us through their eyes, as we venture into her mysteries for several days. This will be an intro only, as we couldn’t do a super long trek this go-around, so more will definitely have to come once we sink our feet into the Earth here.
The reason I said this will be a journey of origins and more has to do with the ancient Earth here and the energy, which I know will be activating for me and synchronizes with my origins theme, because apparently there are hidden Egyptian temples that predate Egypt by 7000 years tucked safely away in the canyon walls for only certain eyes to see (this info coming to me all at once from several sources). Regardless of actually seeing them, the energy will be there and this connects more dots with why I felt so compelled to go on this trip, why it fell into place so seamlessly (including super challenging permits they were able to get for us for it), and ties into that Africa energy (which I’ve had more interesting dots light up with other connections too, since those posts).
A “Grand” birthday/new year/kick off indeed!
However, the greatest gift is this storybook year for me, and that my book’s completion and manifestation is close at hand and along with writing it, I’m writing a new reality into being from my heart.
I’m so grateful for every chapter of this story of life and that you have all been willing to colorfully show up and play in it with me, through the fun and challenge, and through the mystery and adventure of it all.
Yesterday we took an afternoon walk along Zephyr Cove – a favorite go-to for us on busier days. And upon this walk we discovered an enchanted realm of ice sculptures, courtesy of Mother Nature, the incredibly powerful Lake Tahoe Queen, and good ol’ Zephyr. We stumbled upon exquisite, mysterious, and magickal ice formations, which we’ve never seen before except for one time last year at Fallen Leaf Lake. How lucky we felt to find them, feeling like we were walking through Earth’s natural gallery, as we explored and encountered each different ice spirit and their unique energy. They don’t call this Zephyr Cove for nothing, as that wind sure is a shapeshifter for the waters of Tahoe.
The ones we saw last December at Fallen Leaf Lake were much more ice castle-like and lacy. Whereas the ones from yesterday were all so organic and different. Some looking like extraterrestrial beings, sea creatures, fire, mirrors of nature around them, Elementals caught in motion, fascinating portals, and also delicate, Faery ones creating an ice kingdom.
I love the variety and even the large boulder rocks covered in cascades of icing and thick blankets of bubbly ice just oozing with frosty delight.
There was an interesting juxtaposition of a large controlled fire in the background and also red and fiery energy that was showing up in some of the photos behind the ice sculptures. Sometimes the red and golden glows were part of the natural landscape, but particularly in the first photo of this post, the red just appeared atop the ice.
Anyway, I thought you’d enjoy these beautiful and otherworldly creations, as I take you along the walk we enjoyed yesterday, stopping to explore each and every one of these beautiful works of art.
It seems appropriate on today’s National Love Your Pet Day to give thanks to my ever-magickal partner, Astrid for choosing me to be her guardian and co-creator. Not only does she bring so much joy and love into my life, but she’s also the bestest companion for this leg of my journey. She’s my ghostwriter and biggest cheerleader and fan, helping me to bring my book to life, speed up the process, and keep me on point. She helps me with editing everyday, sitting by my feet and even taking over mom’s editing chair if I abandon it. She has her own way of telling me to “hop to it!” and follows in the footsteps of Nestor and Joy in how they used to do a quick nibble to the right bottom corner of my paintings to infuse their signature and energy. Here you can see her nibbling in some of her own energy infusions into the story’s creation, encouraging me not to stop the momentum.
And a big momentum is what I’m in the flow of right now, as my book has come back into main focus, with the completion of all house renovations finally. Yesterday, was a huge day finalizing the third round of edits. I’m feeling one more “hop” through to really tie everything up, feel out the flow now with all the edits, and tighten it up one last go around, including final formatting.
I’ve found that editing the tough parts is so much easier when I can tangibly hold the pages and mark them up with pencil, rather than using the computer – hence the pages Astrid is able to help out with. Seems she prefers that too. 😉
I’m a very hands-on person, which is why I also prefer actual books to ebooks. There’s something that triggers my brain more and all parts of my senses to have things physical. That’s why I also keep hand written lists, a daily calendar on my desk, write notes on my hand when I’m out, and never use technology to keep me organized. Anyone else like that?
Anyway, Astrid is excited and I’m excited too. She is anxious about getting the book done and our Wonderland writing room is perfect nurturing for that. I love having her by my side, as she’s perfect inspiration for this faery. I can’t tell you how much she’s supported its manifestation and its content.
She seems to be mirroring the shifting phases of the book too, with her own shifting fur.
I don’t call her the magick rabbit for nothing!
Could this be why I heard the nickname “Bubbles” whispered in my ear recently?
Or is it that Astrid is reflecting her joy in this name, or simply the joy bubbling through in exuberance for her new life, feeling safe and loved, and for being recognized for the gifts and path she has come to experience and share?
My bunnies always get nicknames, that shift as their energy shifts. They’re not names I make up, but that just come through. Astrid expresses her joy running, jumping, hopping, and twisting that feels like a bubble of passion rising to the surface and exploding. People call this a “binky” and here it earned her the nickname “Bubbles,” which I love because it expresses her silly side in compliment to her serious one.
In any case, her shape-shifting fur continues to change and produce beautiful symbols and markings. Here you see her incredible fur gifting us circles, or bubbles, and that gold at the back of her neck is aglow. Not visible is her silver toes, feet and tummy.
Her exuberance keeps “bubbling” through and she ceases to amaze.
Nestor is the only other rabbit of mine that has done this with her fur. Always producing uncanny symbols I would call either hieroglyphics or crop circles.
Astrid has a lot of Nestor qualities, so it’s not surprising. In many ways, it’s like a piece of Nestie is in her, which makes our connection even more special.
Thank you Astrid for your way of keeping me on point, just as Nestor used to. I definitely needed your solid presence, commitment, sense of personal responsibility, wisdom, and joyous inspiration for this book and the rest of what’s to come after that!
Celebrating you with some extra love and recognition today. Hope you love the curly meadow twist chewy treat you’ll find in your romper room bunny play land.
An extra gift of gratitude for being my ghostwriter, teacher, and best friend.
Let today be a reminder of love being the most powerful force and transmutational energy that can change your life and experience of it. This isn’t isolated to one day a year, but available always. It’s so easy not to be vulnerable to love and allow a hardening around our hearts to taint us. But as easily as we can stop the flow, we can also start choosing to release that tension and allow natural harmony to wash over, in, through, and around us once again. And as you ponder love’s healing power and the many ways there might be past injuries to the heart still guiding your life, remember that the greatest healing love starts with loving yourself. It is from that place within that everything else will be a reflection of or perspective of.
Try saying “I love you!” at least ten times to yourself today, as you look yourself in the eyes through a mirror. Add a good self hug in there too. You deserve it.
Then try doing this each day until you break down the barriers around your heart, release what’s under those closed doors to heal, and the painful tears turn to joyous tears, as you come to see the beauty of your spirit truly for the first time.
If you don’t have a loved one to share today with, good news. The best friend and lover is yourself. Do something sweet and generous for you. Whatever that may be that speaks to your heart. Simple or big, it doesn’t matter. Just do it and indulge in self nurturing. Your spirit, heart, body, mind, and soul will thank you.