You can imagine my delight and surprise when I discovered this little nest tucked above the front door two days ago. We had no idea that a Robin family had made our home theirs until I was prompted to follow a nudge to check outside. For some reason I felt that a package might have been delivered to our door, but when I went out to follow that instinct, the package I discovered was a very different one.
I was greeted by the sound of happy chirps, which made me step further out the door and follow the sound with my eyes. As I looked up I found mama Robin feeding her three little ones in a sweet nest perched high above the entryway.
If I hadn’t gone out to explore what I felt, we may never have known this nest existed, nor have had the pleasure of experiencing all the rest that was to follow with these baby birds.
Mama Robin left not long after being discovered, to forage some more, and also to watch me from the branch of a tree. She wasn’t sure yet, after being discovered, if her babies were now in danger so she called out to them to stay quiet. The babies sat back, nestled together, wide-eyed and watching me. They listened to my voice and I assured them they were safe. I knew next I wanted to assure mama the same.
Well, I had my chance, as later while I went out to water the garden, she dropped down next to me on the lawn just a few feet away. She no longer was worried, but instead sat silently listening to me with curious energy, as I told her how happy I was about her little ones and that she chose our house as their home. I let her know they were safe and I would watch out for them. She kept hopping close just cocking her head to hear for truth in my voice. She continued to follow me until I finished watering and put the hose away.
I had no idea at the time, how old the babies were. They looked quite large when I first got glance of them stretching to mama’s beak to feed. But when they had settled in together, quietly, they looked much smaller.
Having a nest around is so beautiful to me. I love their meaning and energy. You might remember that I created a nature mobile indoors with old nests I found abandoned and fallen on the ground. Eventually, after the season, I’ll likely add this nest to the mobile, too, since it won’t be used and will make room for a new one.
They are considered a lucky symbol to have in your yard or on your home, bringing good fortune to everyone living there. They represent life, growth, health, love, warmth, family stability, beauty, and a happy home. They are also known to reflect good karma returning to you for your care and responsible keeping of your environment.
As you might recall, when we first got this home and land, I made a promise to the Faeries and forest dwellers that I would take care of them and create a sanctuary here. So I’m grateful for all the little gifts they give me in return for following through with that promise.
Depending upon where the nest is located, can determine what area of your life will get an added boost of good energy and luck. In Feng Shui, the use of a bagua map can help to identify the nine main areas of luck. The front entry of the home represents career and life path. So having this bird nest above the front door points to things coming in this area. Interesting! As things are shifting with this for both Dave and I.
Robins carry fresh energy of joy, hope, renewal, simple pleasures, contentment, new beginnings, growth, transformation, power, passion, movement, rejuvenation, warmth and the sweet song of life. They strengthen your own voice, inspire prophetic visions, and assist moving forward with a heart full of laughter, grace, and perseverance for life.
When Robins show up in a prevalent way this can herald a new phase of life, may be motivating guides that encourage you to be brave again, and bring messages to you to let you know that you’re being watched over.
I had no idea that the adventures would continue in the vein that they would with this little family, but yesterday (the day after discovering them) I went out front to check on them in the morning, as I’d made a promise to watch over them and ensure they make it safely to the next phase.
I found the three of them standing upright this time and I could see what originally I had thought – that they were in fact quite big. I talked to them and they listened quietly, their eyes looking much brighter on this day. I snapped a photo and went in to show Dave, telling him that I felt they were getting ready to leave soon.
We both remarked on how they looked like wise little wizards perched there.
I checked in on them again just before our leaving to go to the beach in the afternoon, as I heard them chirping. They were sitting there still tall and alert and I continued feeling an adventure might be about to unfold.
We were only away for about two and a half hours, but upon return I found the nest empty. My instincts had been right. They were ready to fly.
Apparently around day 13 to sometimes up to 16, is when the babies turn to fledglings and get ready to leave. So, again, it was quite timely that I discovered them just the day before they were about to depart, as otherwise we would never have known they were there and wouldn’t have experienced all of the magick thereafter.
I felt like mama Robin, eager to know how they were and to make sure they made it safely. I immediately heard their little chirps, recognizing their sweet little voices, just like a mama would and went out to see if I could find them by their sounds.
I could hear all three calling to each other from different directions and knew that they were keeping in touch with each other and also communicating with their parents. I found one of them sitting on a branch of our tree just behind the garden. The others I couldn’t see, but heard.
I ended up having a call to do, but took the call in my office where I could see the little one through the sliding glass door. He stayed there the whole time until the last ten minutes, when he flew down to the top of the fence, and then disappeared.
I went outside after the call to hear for them. They all three continued chirping from new locations. I found the same one I’d been able to see before, now on an even higher branch of a tree just outside of the other end of our yard, on the forest side.
I was glad to keep hearing them and figured they were stretching their wings and practicing. Dave reminded me there was nothing I could do to help, but I still felt a natural protectiveness and desire to see them all make it safely.
One might have thought the story would end there with the fledglings making their way into the big world outside of their cozy nest, but our connection and journey together was to continue.
I had gone upstairs to tell Dave about them some more while he was doing his yoga stretches near the open sliding glass door of our room. The two kitty babies were sitting near. Boojum, atop the pillows and Sweet Pea at the screen door taking in the forest scents and sounds.
I could hear the little ones still calling out from afar and then suddenly the chirping became loud and I saw one of them land directly in front of the door next to the jacuzzi.
It was as if he sought me/us out and he just sat there chirping and chirping. He was so cute with little white feathers on both sides of his head sticking out, a very round, chubby little body, sitting atop little legs just strong enough to keep his cute roundness upright. He looked a little unsure, but stood steady crying out. After a couple of minutes, what I feel was papa Robin, appeared by his side.
Robin parents will assist them once they leave, to help teach them and make sure they are safe.
This can be a very dangerous time for the fledglings, as they practice flying and finding safe places to do so, as well as to perch since they won’t be returning to the nest. Both parents still feed them for a few days while they are learning and getting stronger. Eventually mama Robin will leave to lay a new round of eggs. Papa Robin will do a lot of the teaching until he, too, will need to leave to help with the new nestlings. At which time, the fledglings will learn from other Robins.
We were given an intimate, up-close look at the process right before our eyes. This Robin family had not only chosen our home, but chosen to reflect a beautiful gift of process, life cycles, and growth right before our very eyes.
This sweet little one kept chirping and papa Robin started talking back with a different little clucking noise and movement to get the little one to watch and learn. He hopped about and the fledgling watched. I could almost hear the whole conversation exchange, as they went through this ritual. Papa was very patient, but also knew he hadn’t much time because darkness was nearing in a few hours and the little one needed to get up high and safe before then.
Interestingly, before papa arrived, I had been telling the little one through the screen that he needed to get up high and that his father would want him safe. In arrives papa Robin, as if I already knew how this would play out.
Eventually, papa flew up to the banister as the little one looked on. Then flew to the side of the yard and suddenly the little one took off with a low fly across the trees, following. We didn’t see them again.
The whole time our kitties watched on too, with Boojum clucking along with the little fledgling.
I stayed where I was for a couple of minutes and suddenly I heard a loud, close chirping again – but it was a different fledgling!
A second one had made her way over to where we were, too, as she practiced.
Both of our cats now sat at the screen watching. I was happy we have indoor cats because I couldn’t bare anything happening to all the little forest creatures, regardless of it being nature’s way.
This little sweetie was a bit bigger and stronger than the last one and she chirped away as she hopped along. Then made her way to the stairs of the jacuzzi and then up onto the banister.
I moved to Dave’s office to watch her. She looked so regal and pure, even in her growth stage. The light was coming through the forest and upon her so beautifully, it was like a vision from heaven in a way. So much magick in this moment….and in all of these moments we’d been blessed to witness.
After a while she took off and I heard her high up in one of our back forest tree limbs. The chirping between little ones went on, as they called to each other and their parents until darkness set in.
I haven’t heard them since, including this morning, but I feel strongly they all made it safely and now nature will continue to unfold and the cycles of life will continue.
I’m excited to watch for them over the days, weeks, months and years to come, as I’m sure they will make this their home too. Or at least, some of them will. I will look for them by the bird bath and amidst the wild clover meadow lawn in the mornings.
Perhaps I will get to see them raise their families, as I saw their parents do.
However, it unfolds, to have witnessed this process has been such a gift.
It’s not often one gets an inside look at the life and adventures of the wild little ones.
It felt like a beautiful reflection for life’s opening into a fresh growth cycle of potential.
A new dawn has begun.
I believe that everything we need to know is right within us – our bodies are the perfect best friend we never thought we would ever have, but divinely designed in reflection of exactly what we need. Whether our bodies operate in the way our egos desire or not, they are a miracle.
Cultivating body wisdom is an intuitive guide to understanding ourselves. Just like you can look at sky maps of the stars, planets and constellations, we can also consider our body a map of the interrelationship of the universe within and how everything is connected.
The body helps us to ground the creative life force energy that we are, into form, and provides the channel to convert energy into actions.
Everyone has a very different journey and trajectory in terms of how they will convert energy into action. However this has manifested is still in divine perfection regardless of how we judge it with our egos. This can be more challenging to embrace, if in fact we have some type of disability or limitation with the body or we dislike it in some way because we judge it against others.
Yet, it is always enough. It is always worthy. And it is more than adequate because it is a manifestation of creation with divine design in mind.
I feel that an illness, challenge, disease, etc. are ways of experiencing – not a punishment, but an act of experience. Everything can be viewed in terms of energy wanting to be experienced and there are unlimited creative ways for this to manifest as. There is no right or wrong about it.
Form is temporary, like in nature, and eventually will pass away. It goes through cycles that transform it and it only disappoints us if we hold tight to desiring it to be or look another way.
Experience lives on in infinite ways and creates eternally.
The body is our vehicle in life for what we came on Earth to do and the heart, spirit and mind work in unison as the driver.
Like every vehicle, our bodies need regular maintenance, care, nourishing fuel and good treatment (inside and out).
This is especially important at this time in human evolution where everything in the world is heightened in the most extreme ways, which takes a toll on our bodies, drains the emotions, strains the mind, and can temporarily put a damper on spirit when all of the other parts are processing and integrating all of it.
Even though spirit understands a grander alignment, the other parts of us are needing to catch up and doing all that we can to supply our bodies, emotions and minds with nurturing things, will help us stay strong and in flow with the experience spirit has set up for us.
This is why finding ways to create peace, time outs, doing something enjoyable or luxuriating in some way, and refocusing yourself at the center of your heart become vital. And there isn’t just one way to do this, since we all have different lives, likes, passions, and ways of experiencing things.
For me, I’ve found some of the greatest ways to restore vitality have to do with clearing my mind (getting things on paper and creating manageable daily schedules), creating a time-out-of-time space for myself (even if just for minutes), immersing in the natural world (the surrounding wild nature, my garden, soaking in the sun’s rays, spending time with Astrid and the kitty babies, making flower arrangements for the home), doing small relaxing or pleasurable things like tea time, daily home spa nights while watching a movie or series, letting go, having gratitude, laughing and being silly, establishing days off, and saying “no.”
These have all helped me create greater balance too, but the biggest thing I’ve found helpful for my body has been physical exercise that allows me to enjoy the outdoors and peace and quiet at the same time. This combined with a lifestyle daily intermittent fasting and even more sleep than I already usually get, help to physically integrate the fast changes we’re going through as humans right now.
Even if we can’t do physical exercise, just being outdoors or bringing nature indoors to you can have a profound effect.
For me personally, I’ve seen a huge difference in how my body performs and how some physical imbalances have all harmonized through finding the right fit of activity that integrates who I am and the energies I came to experience.
I mentioned in a recent post about a sudden accelerated level of endurance and speed in my hiking and biking activities.
But I’ve experienced many other physical shifts too. My years of mild, sporadic hypoglycemia has completely subsided, my EIB (exercise-induced bronchoconstriction), which for me is non-asthma related, has disappeared, peri-menopausal hormonal shifts have balanced out on their own so that I no longer take any herbal supplements to support (I actually don’t take any vitamins other than B12 or extra doses of Vitamin C in intervals), my adrenal glands experience consistent happiness, without trying my body dropped extra grounding weight it no longer deemed necessary to keep me integrated, and there’s a more consistent level of energy in me.
Getting outdoors and moving the body in what ever way we’re able, really does the mind heart and spirit good as well. Or at least moving creative energy through you in some way, relative to you, can help free up the blocks. The goal being, not to let energy sit stagnant. And the key being, use your creativity to be creative in finding ways that are perfect to your experience.
I wasn’t always this active, and it’s ironic that as I’ve gotten older, my physical activities have grown exponentially. It’s never too late to start caring for your body and taking on new activities. Our bodies are our vehicles in life and to the extent we are able to go that extra mile for it, it will for us too.
I’ve found that my experience requires me to both be creative AND to be physical. That’s just how my energy is set up – it’s in my astrological chart. And my body actually needs more than most people, otherwise the energy will turn on me and rage from the inside out in various forms.
At 47 1/2 I feel the healthiest, most balanced, and in the best shape of my life (so far) and do the most things physically than I’ve ever done. It didn’t happen overnight, and I didn’t even know how it would happen, but with committed effort to make inner changes in my life, open my heart deeper, and release the internalized anxiety and acidic kind of stress build-up I once used to feel – things have continued to transform and come together with more synergy. (Having Astrid in my life, just might help too). Rather than having compartmentalized experiences, I’m learning to merge life as one stream of experience.
It’s interesting because I was in complete embrace and peace with all the different things I used to experience, feeling relief I understood why and knowing how I could make adjustments to still do what I wanted to the extent that worked for me.
Creating peace around things is a perfect companion for the potential of change to happen naturally.
The energy around these three Eclipses seemed to also provide a doorway to activate more of this, and while I immersed in things like greater outdoor activities, an elevated surge of energy was able to course through my body. Astrid actually also has been experiencing a surge of energy in recent days. 🙂
It was surprising, for me, because although I have been doing a lot of natural exercise, things went to a whole new level I didn’t realize it would.
It feels like the years of trying to figure out how to harness the productive energies of my Mars placement in the first house is finally coming to fruition – organically.
So again, as I said, we each have different energy experiences we came in to have and for me this really is supporting the balance for my body.
That said, it still is vital to do self-care in your own way and some sort of body integration or physical activity to move energy is really supportive for everything we’re all going through.
So much old stuff, trauma, pain, wounds, beliefs, etc. are being loosened to the surface. So many very distinctly contrasting energies are circulating. And this can get trapped inside of us if we aren’t in some way able to move it through the body and “shake it off”.
Time-outs are increasingly important even if just five minutes of full shut down from everything to unplug and feel the power of silence.
I took a long three-day weekend off over 4th of July since Dave had Friday off of work and we decided to find our own bit of peace even amidst a busy weekend. Although this 4th of July wasn’t as crowded as past years, we still like to do our own thing. Fireworks were also banned this year so it was overall much more quiet.
We decided to fill each day with tons of nature and exercise for well being. That included ways to get out and away from everyone or to just be passing through while in motion.
This involved a long 12-mile hike on Friday, a more moderate 11-mile bike ride on Saturday, and ended with our longest-to-date bike ride on Sunday of 37 1/4 miles. The last time I attempted a 33 mile bike ride, the last half was very uncomfortable with my butt and back feeling sore and energy slowing. This time I didn’t experience any of that. In fact, not from any of the activities we did back-to-back did I have pains or soreness from and I even went above and beyond from day one, as you’ll see.
We definitely got some great physical strengthening in, soaked up immune system building pine air, and enjoyed good sleep from all the high vibes.
I want to circle back to the 12 mile hike, which was a retracing of our steps from nearly three years ago. That was the last time we did this hike to Star Lake and you may remember that story and what unfolded from my share in September of 2017, Made of Stardust.
We’ve been talking about returning and this time we decided to do it as an out and back trip rather than a shuttle adventure, like we did then with the group we were with. It was 13 miles the way we did it last time, but by doing it this way, it cut one mile off. Doing it this way also involved much more climbing than the previous time, with a cumulative elevation gain of over 2400 feet over the course of the mileage. The highest point you arrive at is 9600 feet with Star Lake sitting just over 9000 feet.
My intention with this hike, besides wanting to return to this beautiful lake I love the name of, was to integrate and harmonize 2017’s adventure that ended with me having a broken foot. Although that was perfectly in alignment with my writing goals at the time, I felt facing the trail again as the person I am today would be a powerful activation, as well as a way to overcome any trepidation that past experiences can potentially create.
And it was.
Not only is the mountain charged with such powerful energy around this spot, but I found some interesting things show up in a couple of photos, like the odd rainbow energy just above this snow patch in the trees to the right of the middle rock.
And the light creating some kind of gateway anchoring each side of this creek.
Before I went I was getting from Astrid that there were more raw quartz in mind for us that were up there to retrieve. She was right, as I found 3 that spoke to me and received blessing on using for our Earth-grid here.
I deliberately took the same backpack I had last time, which isn’t the greatest in terms of carrying things (material and without a waist strap to shift weight to your waste instead of your shoulders), but very light and roomy.
Not only did I carry these wonderful crystalline beings for half of the 12 miles on my own, but I’m happy to report no injury and my newfound strength and endurance had me capable of completing our hike in great time. I also never once had my EIB coughing that always would happen when I was doing strenuous uphill climbing and even with the added 27.4 pounds on my shoulders (yes we weighed them), I was able to do the elevation climbing without falling behind Dave. He remarked later that this is the exact weight of his mountain bike and how crazy that sounds to have basically carried his bike 6 miles. I had to agree.
I had to swing the backpack up my back so that I could carry most of the weight in my arms by holding the straps, but it worked.
I was amazed at the physical changes, as these are things I would not have imagined me doing, especially given my EIB.
But I’m happy that I did things the way I did so that I was able to actually experience the profoundness of how much things have transformed. It’s not something I need to repeat, yet it demonstrated what is possible.
I think I’m actually turning into the mountain goat I’m meant to be – I say that due to all my Capricorn energy.
And I believe I’ve found my way to move all of that deeper energy, emotion, and stored trauma up and out – my way of “shaking it off”.
That day also happened to be the day before 4th of July, which is the 9 year anniversary of my grandpa’s transition – he died at 96. I had a very special relationship and connection with him, despite his living in the south of France where my mom and her family are from. We would spend special time together on his long visits (sometimes a year) and we had a special bond. He is the one who helped cultivate my artistic gifts, as he would sit with me on his lap drawing for hours when I was a little girl and so I am grateful for his nurturing the artist in me and for seeing the value in that. He never wanted me to stop creating.
Creativity is connected with the importance of moving energy through the body in various forms. Our creative life force wants to be experienced and if we shut it down we can experience blocks and challenges. So, in fact, my grandpa was nurturing the importance of this from the start.
And being at Star Lake was also a perfect place for reflection on things to include my grandpa in the stars now as my guide. Perhaps he even showed up in a dance of starlight in the lake.
It’s especially meaningful that I wear his wedding band as my own, knowing he is with me even more along this new journey. Everything he stood for I carry forth through my own embodiment, in my own unique way.
He loved to draw, spend time in the garden, loved animals, loved to laugh, and had his own strong connection to his beliefs. Although more religiously based than my organic spirituality, he was giving, full of gratitude, and loved his family.
I know he is happy and proud seeing me as I am today and would have tears of joy for this union, knowing I wear what was so meaningful to him – a way to honor his bond of love with my grandma and the cycles of life meant to continue and expand further.
In many ways, during uncertain times, I feel I am rewriting my story and as I do, it is rewriting a lineage of stories.
As we each do this, we collectively ignite something different for the future.
And as we each do this, let us not forget our bodies – physical and emotional bodies – while we progress forward with our minds. All of these parts create divine union of our spirit in motion of experience.
In order to meet the new reality we envision, integrating all that good stuff through our miracle vehicles I believe will help get us there.
No matter where you find yourself in the experience of your body, there is a perfect path only you can carve that is vital to all of us. Loving our bodies as they are right now, allows us to really embrace how energy wants to move through it.
As we head into a big Fourth of July weekend, celebrating Independence Day, I’ll be starting a long weekend away from work with a kick-off hike to a special place today. It’s been extra busy lately and this month is no exception, but it all feels very productive for change. I thought I might share some of the things on the sidelines here that add balance and an extra infusion of joy to my busy days. I feel that anything we can do that helps us experience joy, peace, connection, and inspiration in some way is vital with all that’s going on in the outside world.
Nature is always my go-to, and that has included my garden. I always have a lot of little forest friends to share it with and recently new friends have joined the family to include a little frog named Atreyu and a lizard named Fantasia.
Atreyu is the guardian of the garden, making the Garden Tower his home where he surveys everything from the highest tier. I shared about him on Instagram and here is his story:
My frog friend is always there each day to greet the morning and give me a peaceful rush of wise energy when our eyes meet. This dear little one is so bold and courageous, although so tiny. He isn’t afraid to come near and share a conversation over the aroma of herbs wafting through the air. He welcomes a bath when I water the plants and hops right back out as if to say, thank you. He even stretches his legs and demonstrates his bravery, as he surprises me with his calm demeanor hanging over edges and swinging down into the tower holes below.
Most of all he sits peacefully watching over his realm. I often catch him shifting gaze to the sky and then inward to explore the vastness of his soul. A couple of days ago I asked what his name was and he gave me Atreyu. “Really?” I smiled in my heart when hearing his reply. I add, “That’s from one of my all-time favorite novels and movies ever – The Neverending Story – the one who follows the Middle Way.”
My mystical frog friend just looked at me wide-eyed, still, as he breathed in and out with certainty and a kind smile. I could see the stardust swirling within his eyes.
The heart-shaped spot on the top of his head mirroring the bridge between all worlds – where the path of the Middle Way lies. I looked up the name after our exchange, while Atreyu returned to his lush herbal sanctuary. The book says, Atreyu means “son of all” because he’s an orphan raised by all members of his village. Greek mythology shares the meaning to be “fearless”. Upon further investigation other meanings include “bold guardian,” one who is virtuous and saintly, who often does the unexpected, and a person of unmatched confidence who strives to better himself. My sweet little frog friend might be tiny, but his soul is immense. He is the guardian of the garden, the one who will always tell me the truth, and who has no fear to walk the Middle Way.
Fantasia is a rock and crystal dweller and loves to hang out by the old stumps along the garden pathway and sit atop the raw quartz. She also explores the garden and the potted plants, equally enjoying a conversation with me when I come through. She’s one of the biggest lizards I’ve seen around the Forest Portal – very wide and thick around the middle, making me wonder if she’s pregnant. It’s around that time, so it wouldn’t surprise me and the symbolism of that would be telling of things birthing in my own life.
She, like Atreyu, is also very brave and curious. She listens intently when I talk to her and will come closer to cock her head with understanding. Yesterday, I asked her if she liked all the new things in the garden and I could swear she smiled. She’d been watching me place a new addition and it seemed to please her. I’ve seen her play with other lizards and one, half her size, who appeared to court her, but when she’s had enough she lets them know. She’s kind, but strong, and the others respect the power she embodies.
She’s the queen of the rock dwellers and takes much pleasure in the simple things, but she’s no fool. Fantasia tells me her name is inspired by the enchanted garden I’ve created here – a fantasy dream come true for her, as much as it was for me. She then gives me a wink, adding that it might just also speak to the enchantress that she is, but that’s a story for another time. 😉
Alongside my friends that keep me happy here, I continue to enjoy watching the garden and yards shift with the seasons. July is always when the wild blooms really start to pop all over, so the meadows and forests are enjoying the colorful burst right now.
Our yards are now full with lush clover and clover blossoms and tons of wildflowers lining the edges, as well as peeking here and there. And all the rest of the plants are continuing to cycle through bloom-time. As one group ends their flowers for the season, a new group begins. And my garden plants are growing larger by the day. I think they will be late bloomers in August and September, with some of my perennials coming in this month.
The new addition Fantasia was happy about, is this butterfly, solar light wind spinner.
It is a gift from my parents that I picked up from them yesterday and it really has added the perfect touch.
Every time I can’t think of how else I could make things better, it shows up. Just like the his and her Faery stump seats you saw in a previous post.
I always envisioned some for the garden and last Sunday at the trailhead parking where we hiked there was a composting site being gathered of stuff cleaned out from yards and from forest fire clearing they have to do here regularly for safety, as well as clearing near powerlines and thinning, etc. and they had a few perfect stumps so we picked these two up. Even though life cycles are normal and they choose dead and decaying trees it’s still sad.
So I’m happy to repurpose and be giving these sweet stumps a home full of love in our garden sanctuary where the animals and faeries can enjoy them too and their life-giving energy can be celebrated. Going to find them their perfect place, but for now they are soaking in their new home vibes at the edge of the forest.
I have iron butterfly and dragonfly beauties in the garden, orbs, faeries, rabbits, gnomes, faery doors, mushrooms, crystals, and owls. There are both white and colored little flower solar lights that light up at night alongside the solar lanterns. And of course we have the high and low water stations for the animals, a bench for me to share with them, and a faery arch.
There are several portals in the garden, but the animals, faeries, and I keep those secret. They are available to anyone with an open heart to discover.
And Queen Astrid is definitely aware of those portals. She’s been extra reflective these days. This is where I’ll find her, after partially awakening from her nap under or atop her castle tower. I say partially awake because she’s in an in between place when she sits here. She’ll sit gazing out upon the garden, the sunlight may have just hit an angle to lay upon her, or is just about to. Her fur puffed out around her face and even if I come near she is content not to move. Is she tuning into life just outside the door, or much more? Sometimes I can feel her leave, as she journeys. Her eyes deepen and become windows to the cosmos. Wherever she is called, wherever she does her work, I’m always grateful she decides to return and that she chooses to be here with me too
All of these things round out my days with simple pleasures of joy and peace. I don’t allow myself to do all work and no play. I also cut myself slack on things, as well as take breaks in between everything, even if just to go water, say hello to my friends, lay in the sun for a half an hour to soak in vitamin D and invigoration, or go on a walk or hike when I think I can’t.
And in addition I’ve been really drawn to different color frequencies, revolving them out on a daily, monthly, or seasonal basis.
Vibrant color is something I am drawn to very much and right now I’m feeling purples so I just created some bouquets for the house filled with only lavender and purple tulips.
Not only is the fragrance so lovely, but the deep mauve purple of the tulips feels mysterious, creative, royal, and luxurious alongside the feminine grace and tender beauty of the lavender.
Together, there’s a magick emanating and the opening for greater spiritual wisdom, peace, independence, and empowerment brewing.
These are just some of the ways I infuse well being and harmony into my days and life. Of course, Astrid plays a big role in that for me, the sanctuary indoors and outdoors I create, the food I make to nourish my soul, the choice of adornments I wear or products I use on my body, the people I share my life with, the activities I engage in, the work I do, and the dialogue I run in my mind to match my heart’s truest depths.
Are you feeling stressed or thrown off your equilibrium right now?
What are some things that set your heart a flutter that you could use more of in your life?
And how might you commit just a bit more to bringing that forward to enjoy?
FREEDOM OFFERING REMINDER:
Today and tomorrow are the last days to sign up for the special 1 hour phone sessions at $99. The link will be removed after midnight on Saturday the 4th. My availability is filling up, so please let me know as soon as you can so I can ensure getting your time and day needs filled with these and to ensure we have enough time to get your sessions in this month. You can get up to 4 of these for a full month of weekly work before I take a break from sessions beginning August.
Please also let me know if you want to register for the upcoming Reiki Level 1 class that will be in August. I need to have time to schedule things and send materials to everyone, so registration for at least that class will need to be done by end of next week at latest.
The Magick Rabbit Clearance sale on original paintings ends Sunday the 5th and there are only 4 paintings remaining now.
All can be found at this link: FREEDOM OFFERING
Happy 1st of July! It’s incredible that we’re already halfway through 2020. The collective is rapidly speeding through change and it’s not going to slow down.
Some quick reminders, before today’s Energy Update share, that starting today through the 4th, the freedom offering of 1 hour phone sessions at $99 are now available. You can get up to 4 of these for a full month of weekly work before I take a break from sessions beginning August. Also beginning today through the 5th is our Magick Rabbit Clearance Sale on original paintings. And last, if you still feel called to join an online Reiki certification training class, please let me know by the 15th – new or review student. These classes quickly filled up again since opening up spaces, but due to the high demand of people really wanting to go this next step, I’m looking into options to accommodate everyone, as I don’t want to turn anyone away who’s ready for change.
The link to all of this is in Monday’s post: FREEDOM TO BE
I think this month’s Energy Update is going to hit home for many of you. In Lee’s words, he shares the following themes in the forecast:
- Tiredness/Exhaustion (tired mind, body + energy)
- We are in a POWER, FREEDOM + CONTROL triangle fight right now
- NEW Purpose coming online – that will look like taking more action on the internal rearranging of the last few months. 2nd half of month action will be especially supported. And will flow.
- Dark then light energy spikes – in quick succession
- Fiery strong energy from second half of July
- SAFETY triggers – “The System/the planet/my body isn’t safe.” The UNEARTHING of everything grounded allows for multidimensional awareness and connection to rise
- The UNEARTHING of everything in the shadows allows healing to occur (RACIAL INJUSTICE, one example)
- Healing can be painful – look after yourselves and be patient with others and mindful of stresses and imbalancesright now
- Messy uncomfortable world re-birth for the next few years
- That doesn’t have to look a certain way for you – harness your skills, your intentions, your learnings and your HEART energy.
Life is a work of art and you are the artist, magickally and wildly weaving your web of colorful desires into being.
Don’t be afraid to do your thing mightily.
The triple series of Eclipses is soon to be book-ended with the second Lunar Eclipse Full Moon in Capricorn this Sunday, July 5th. It will continue to add transformational Earth energies for the collective with dramatic shift-potentials for key things that have been messaging us for a very long time and are now at a tipping point.
The dance between Cancer and Capricorn energies we’ve been experiencing, has been and is calling attention to both our personal and work life, grooming us to understand and implement boundaries in regard to professional and self-care routines. New structures are urging us to imagine, create, and build, but first we must remove the old foundations so that they can thrive strongly.
If we haven’t been cultivating and nurturing well being as a priority, we have opportunity to do so and this last Eclipse provides the opening for any release, cleanse and purge that will ultimately serve you and others in the highest ways whether you can see the full picture of that or not right now.
Change can sometimes be painful, but it doesn’t have to be prolonged. It’s incredible what can happen once we take the leap of faith and act.
Pay attention to subtle and profound messages, constant repetitive thoughts and patterns, the dialogue and stories you continue to tell yourself and hold on to, what is being reflected to you by others or nature that you push away or refuse, and the beliefs you carry overall – these are defining your inability to change, but nothing is black and white and nothing is incapable of having a doorway out.
Things in our lives can receive a heightened illuminating quality within and without where we may have illusions revealed and our perspectives altered. It’s definitely a point of loving release and mourning for the old stories and experiences, as we embark on the possibilities of new beginnings.
The freedom to be is at your fingertips.
Although life can throw us some obstacles and twists and turns, your creative life force provides you a way to experience and mold things into better alignment. To constantly tell yourself you can’t do something is the mantra you’ve agreed to continue playing out as your life statement. There are no absolutes in life, except that life WILL change for better or worse, depending on our perspectives and how we creatively harness them.
COACHING SESSIONS UPDATE & FREEDOM OFFERING:
I’m going to be taking a break from offering intuitive energy guide coaching sessions beginning August, so that I can focus solely on the upcoming Reiki classes, my book, and other life developments underway. I will resume these again some time later in the year, but for now you can continue to schedule sessions through July only.
I will be discontinuing the 20% discount on all email and phone sessions after July as well. So, if you have felt called to harnessing energies right now for change and would like to work with me, you have between now and end of July to request a session and receive this special.
Something new I’m going to make available JUST for July is a special freedom offering to support anyone who has the motivation, desire, accountability, and is ready to take action. This is a divinely inspired gift for these potent times.
Between July 1st and July 4th, I’m offering one hour phone sessions at an incredible $99 only!
This is meant to support major change collectively that is opportune and timely right now.
I’ve edited this section since posting, which is why if you read it when it first went up, the information is different. I reflected on how I believe consistency, commitment, and momentum is key to creating change and so I’m only going to be offering a limited number of these you can purchase within a limited timeline.
You can purchase up to 4 of these heavily discounted sessions, however they need to be used within the month of July. This equates to one session a week.
You may purchase for self or other as a gift – please just let me know in a message who it’s for. The sooner these are scheduled, the more opportunity we have to get a jump start on anchoring your intentions and creating momentum for your goals.
This special has expired, so I’ve removed the Paypal purchasing option.
I may have another special in the future when I return back to offering sessions again.
BE YOU EMPOWERMENT REIKI CLASSES UPDATE:
Our upcoming online Reiki classes are approaching come this August. I’ll be contacting the group in the next week or so to schedule the date and time of our first Reiki Level 1 training and to provide the deadline for your final payment.
The classes are full, but as I’ve been ordering and getting materials together, I’ve been reviewing stuff with the online training (especially after seeing how things went with our Zoom wedding) to see what is possible. Given some more people were interested, I’m going to be able to open a couple of spots and opportunities.
I’m opening one more spot in the Reiki Level 1 and 3 classes to a new student.
And I’m opening two more spots in Reiki Level 2 to a new student.
I’m also opening the online classes to two past students who want to review. If this is of interest, please let me know as soon as you can. I already have one past student scheduled in for Reiki Level 1.
The deadline to register for Reiki Level 1 is July 15th.
You can register here:
MAGICK RABBIT FREEDOM CLEARANCE SALE:
In honor of the upcoming 4th of July Freedom Day, please enjoy a 60% off clearance sale on all 6 original paintings in our Magick Rabbit Etsy Shop between July 1st and July 5th only – our biggest sale yet that makes owning an original an incredible steal.
You can hop and shop the sale here:
Spread your wings dear souls, live from your wild heart, fly free and dip into the nectar of life to experience more vibrant and empowered living.
Summer Solstice rolled around quickly, as the hours, days, and years do now, and with the longest period of daylight came the lighting up of a new beginning in my life. Saturday 6/20/2020 was our wedding day igniting at 5:55 pm, but it was also a New Moon, Solar Eclipse for us PST peeps, Astrid’s third anniversary of her adoption, and preceded 6/21’s Father’s Day, which was also Joy’s departure from the Earth plane four years ago when it happened to be Summer Solstice and a Full Moon that year. It was indeed a very packed day and weekend, which was equally enhanced by a build up of astrological influences before and after, a very full week of prep, personal monumental shifts underway, and worldwide historical events unfolding to include a pandemic that was our reason for creating a virtual experience for this mountain matrimony event.
Please bear with me in today’s longer post, as I haven’t blogged since the 15th. It seems fitting to share it on Ask Astrid Fridays’ spot since she is so intertwined with all that is igniting.
Perhaps this new “lighting up” reflects the feeling I’ve had since as far back as I can remember that the second half of my life would truly be the best years yet and when I really started living. Summer Solstice feels profound for me and telling of a new chapter I’ve long wondered would be like. I also feel that recent Eclipses and overall energy dynamics unfolding, are creating quite the collective paradigm shifts.
If Saturday was any small indication, I feel that the foreshadowing senses I’ve had for so long, are indeed underway for an exciting new adventure with unlimited potentials.
One might wonder, just as we did, how a virtual Zoom wedding broadcasted by amateurs doing it for the first time from the middle of the forest in a mountain town at 6600+ feet of elevation would turn out.
Tons of hiccups, distant, cold, and detached, disappointing, a full-on disaster?
I’m happy to report the complete opposite and then some unfolded.
It was so successful that we’ve joked about this becoming the new thing or perhaps we could support others as zoom wedding advisors lol! But all kidding aside, it’s been amazing to hear the feedback on what we had no idea until the day of, how it was actually going to go down. We’re far from the first to do this, but I have to say that it was hugely rewarding, memorable, and extremely beautiful.
Everything far exceeded our dreams and not only were we pleasantly surprised by minimal technological challenges, but were overwhelmed by the outpouring of beautiful, extremely moving, and loving energy we received. It was so powerful that I had a hard time going to sleep that night, as my energy was through the roof from all the good vibes shared between everyone. That, alongside being up while the Eclipse was happening, definitely felt like an activation and timeline leap!
I literally felt like a Solar Eclipse and Summer Solstice, myself, with all of the light from the longest day having been shared and received, creating a powerful ball of energy deep at my core that couldn’t help but still seep out with loving vibrancy and vitality around the edges of the New Moon, even when darkness was abound.
While things turned out more than what we imagined, at the same time they WERE all that I envisioned they could be in essence and then some! I’ve said from the beginning, and over and over, that the theme for the wedding would be “simple and sweet” and “perfectly imperfect.” So even the sweet little hiccups were part of that synergy, creating the innocence and purity that is reflective of our values.
The alchemy of this day seemed evident in the dance of light codes and elemental energies that were present during the ceremony – we even had a lizard couple playing and perching on the pyramid rock altar that sat directly between and behind us, throughout the whole thing. Although this was a day to share our union, it truly felt like much more than that. Everyone present created a beautiful energy beam of collective intention on such an auspicious portal day.
And on our end, this intention was harnessed by an incredible Herkimer Diamond crystal that came to me just a week before the wedding through a dear crystal and cosmic friend of mine who had just received a new shipment of exquisite Herkimers. The clarity of these Herkimer Diamonds was incredible alone. I had only seen one photo of the one I had him send me, and its description. I immediately asked if it was taken and he said, “It’s yours!” What made this one special was that it is a sharp, clean, direct, and mystical Dow or Trans-Channeler crystal, which is unique in itself, but to have a Dow Herkimer Diamond is extremely rare. And when she arrived I discovered big rainbows inside (an exciting added surprise) and that it is a record keeper (with triangles etched on the face)! I call her a she, but she is very balanced between her sacred feminine and masculine energies. I look forward to exploring more with her and finding out what other surprises she has in store, but I knew without a doubt that she should anchor the center of our ceremony and union, as a way to channel the energy from this sacred experience out to the collective.
A quick explanation of a Dow/Trans-Channeler crystal is that it has three perfect seven-sided faces in between three perfect three-sided triangle faces – 7-3-7-3-7-3. It’s considered a being of perfect light, energy, and physical form, accesses all planes of existence, splits light into all colors (rainbow comes to mind with the rainbow inclusions this one has), they activate higher chakras, but strengthen and open energy via all chakras between you and the Universe for greater Source connection, truth, and higher wisdom/guidance, exist in enlightened reality alone where love heals and transcends all challenges, accelerates conscious re-programming, and embody divine balance and connection. I placed the crystal directly center of our gold wedding bands sitting atop a Selenite charging plate between us (from another dear crystal friend), not only to charge the energy of our rings that symbolically would bring union between us, but would charge the merging energies of sacred feminine and masculine energies (Yin and Yang) that we could transmit out via this potent channeler, for the collective through our love.
It literally turned 11:11 am here, as I wrote that. 😉 I’m writing in parts when I have time.
Other auspicious happenings just before the wedding included seeing a baby Sierra Garter Snake two days before the wedding on a distanced hike with our only two wedding attendees (officiate and witness).
This little one literally glided in such a light way, she appeared to be flying or swimming across the blade of grass tips in the meadow.
Then, a large coyote running through the wedding site on the day before, while we were prepping and testing out the setup and connection. Then, a rare marmot sighting popping out from the forest to greet me, on the same day, as I drove away after dropping off Dave and Paul (our friend/one wedding witness/photographer/helper) to tackle a mountain bike ride for the first time on the most extreme, black diamond trail known as “Mr. Toad’s Wild Ride” (cool reference to life and foreshadowing to symbolism that showed up yesterday).
Snake, coyote and marmot all carrying their own powerful symbolism.
And then, two dead chipmunks I found and buried (one, three days before wedding and one directly after the ceremony) – more on their significance to me in a bit.
We were very lucky to have our friend Paul able to join us. All three of us had been diligent with quarantine precautions in order to make it possible for him to come. We needed one witness alongside our officiant in order to seal the ceremony officially and still maintained distancing for the event. But with Paul around, it was a huge help on many levels, and offered some fun before and after the wedding with nature immersions.
This offered Dave and Paul time to do some mountain biking they love, which helped let off steam with all the prep going on, and me, some alone time in nature, as I would often hike the trail they were doing, on my own. We also did hikes together and sometimes I stayed home in order to do things like bake the wedding cake and make flower arrangements, while getting in some downtime too.
Something interesting took place upon the very first hike I did alone, the day after Paul’s arrival, and has continued since. I’ve always been a decent hiker, but suddenly I noticed transforming into a power hiker and I can only pin it to some form of rebirth taking place.
The guys did a long bike ride, while I hiked ten miles that first day – the most I’ve done alone. I always clock the hikes on my Sports Tracker, as I like to know how far we’ve gone and how much we have left. Well, on this day I had gone three miles, up nearly 1600 elevation gain, in only one hour (a personal best!). I’m usually a bit slower on the inclines, as I am mindful of my breathing so I don’t get my EIB cough. But I powered through it and ended up doing the full ten miles in nearly exactly three hours (3:01 to be precise). That included a stop to bury the first chipmunk I mentioned. I stopped my tracker in order to take a twenty minute picnic lunch break at the top overlooking Lake Tahoe and resumed it upon beginning again so only my hiking was timed. At the speed I went, I also got to see the boys twice – once going up and once going back – as I was in line with their speed of biking to the point of intersection our trails had, even though they were doing nearly three times the mileage.
I mention this because something around this new beginning, Solstice, New Moon, and Eclipse really physically shifted something. There were other physical changes that took place for me too, which included losing nearly two and a half pounds in a week to add to the already transformational physical shifts intermittent fasting has done over the last six months of losing twelve and a half pounds and saying goodbye to some of the imbalances experienced. This includes my no longer experiencing the EIB coughing (exercise induced broncho-constriction), having greater vitality and endurance, my peri-menopausal body/hormones balancing out on their own without herbal supplements anymore, and in general feeling clearer, lighter, and more inspired. I never set out to lose any weight, as I always feel perfect at the weight I’m at being reflective of the energy needed – ex: more grounded and embodied or lighter and mutable, etc. Lifestyle intermittent fasting was something Dave and I started (it was actually his idea) for all of the health benefits and we’ve ended up really liking how we feel physically with it. Yet, this time period in my life seems to be refreshing things and the added embodiment/weight that I previously needed to ground, manifest, and anchor things, is finding its new equilibrium. So, rather than having to physically have that to bring my once very wispy self back to Earth, I seem to be energetically embodying the balance I need to be in both places – Cosmos and Earth. That’s a huge deal for me!
But I’d like to circle back briefly to the two chipmunks and their connection to my bunny, Joy, who passed four years ago on the 21st of June (Summer Solstice that year), as I feel this theme speaks most loudly, to me, amidst all that has unfolded.
It’s the theme of how grief and death can crack you open to joy and rebirth, which speaks to the seamless connection of everything that creates wholeness. Endings are beginnings and beginnings are endings.
At the same time that we were experiencing a big heart and life opening with increased depth, and subtle, but profound expansion, also present were endings, death, mourning reminders, and contractions simultaneously – the celebration of the circle of life and the Universe’s nonjudgment around these cycles.
While I was filled with vitality hiking, my attention was drawn to be present to honoring the sacred dance of life and death when the sweet, peacefully positioned chipmunk laid directly on my path. I’m convinced he’d been accidentally hit by an oncoming mountain bike at some point recently and it felt like a quick death. I still sent Reiki to the time of impact and gave him love, then proceeded to bury him, and created a little marker around his burial place. Interestingly, after I did this many chipmunks chattered at me along the way back, as if they knew I took care of one of them. I was grateful for nature’s way of teaching me.
Then, the second chipmunk I discovered on the hike back, after the wedding ceremony was complete. I stopped to honor him and felt the potent synergy of this meeting once again. It was late and I was carrying a load of things from the ceremony with a ways to go, so I placed him safely under a bush next to a pine cone, telling him I’d return to bury him the next morning. I followed through with that promise, hiking back to where he was and decided to carry him home with me this time, to bury him by a special old natural sculpture tree trunk behind the house. Again, grateful for the full circle ending and new beginning teaching and realizing the sacredness of life these dear ones were celebrating with me.
It all mirrored the bitter and sweet of Joy and Astrid – my two rabbit companions I adopted from SaveABunny. Four years ago, Joy departed this Earth plane on the Solstice and one year minus a day later on the Solstice of three years ago, Astrid came into our lives. We both mourned, honored, and celebrated the lives of these two dear souls in rabbit bodies on our wedding day and all around me reflections continued of the sacred circle of life.
It was the same with all of my animal companions’ transitions – the first major one being Nestor’s whose departure did literally crack my heart and soul wide open to experience the Cosmic depths of everything possible all at once.
Death cracks us open to life.
Mourning cracks us open to heart expansion.
Sadness cracks us open to joy.
And the spiraling of life continues as a single thread with no true ending or beginning, although there are many such continuous sparks igniting simultaneously.
And all of this echoed loudly to me through the personal and the collective experience we’re creating right now and always.
The bunnies, animals and nature always teach me the most and I’m not surprised their energy would be framing this important day in our lives.
I was surprised, though, at how astoundingly the souls in human bodies enveloped us with such a magnitude of loving support on our Solstice wedding. It truly was overwhelming to us and really created a most memorable experience of collective togetherness that deepened bonds in beautiful ways.
From our very dear friends, Reid, who so beautifully accepted and honored us with conducting our ceremony and Paul, who stood up for us and took on many wedding hats for us to bring it all together, to all of our family members that gave readings and toasts, and extended family and beloved friends who joined us….it was a day to remember.
In Dave’s dad’s words, “I was extremely skeptical of a zoom wedding, actually quite disappointed it was going down that way. But it turned out to be quite spectacular, more dramatic, amusing and above all moving than any other I’ve ever seen.”
Although we didn’t have a big in-person wedding to coordinate, it still had a lot of little details, mostly technologically, that had to be worked out and until the moment of truth we really didn’t know what would happen. Here are some day-before practice shots in the forest at our site.
Dave was brilliant in his execution of fine-tuning everything and I know it was a huge relief for him when it all DID come together, as I just knew it would in perfect imperfection. He deserved this little break after setting up, while we waited to begin.
He was quite stressed by the technology aspect of pulling this off in the middle of the forest with us hooked up to his phone’s hot spot alone and wondering if all parts would work. I kept telling him it was going to be just fine, sent energy to the day, and released it for the highest good – however that was meant to be.
Here’s a little look at what was going on behind the scenes. It was a perfect merging of nature and technology – harnessing the best of each in harmonious partnership.
I believe that having no attachments really helped, and it made it possible for me to focus on some of the smaller, more fun details like the flowers, wedding cake, attire, and tiny touches that were energetically important like the Herkimer Diamond as a source of broadcasting and channeling the love out into the world from our tiny point at center of the forest.
It was a simple, but enchanted Woodland Wedding faery dream and I could feel the presence of the otherworldly beings, whom of course had personal invites to join too.
My dress also arrived just eight days before the wedding. I had it custom made by a clothing artisan friend who creates slow, eco fashion with all natural components.
The dress is a take-off of a new upcoming style called the butterfly dress because of the little flutter sleeves and is organic cotton and hemp, hand-dyed in a natural indigo dye that slightly shifts from lighter to darker, just at the bottom and two-layered skirt edge. Together, we dreamed up this two-piece ensemble – dress with underskirt – and is something I can and will use for many years to come.
I wanted to keep in line with simple and sweet, natural, and having a light faery touch in the blue family, which is my favorite.
Everything about it was exactly what I envisioned and to the ensemble I added a pair of vegan Faery/Elven shoes I’ve had for a while, but never felt right until now to wear.
Everything about it was exactly what I envisioned and to the ensemble I added a pair of vegan Faery/Elven shoes I’ve had for a while, but never felt right until now to wear.
My bouquet and one flower arrangement were my creation done on the morning of the big day.
I put together a mix of flowers I picked both from the forest (lavender lupine) and my garden (purple salvia) and found the exact flowers I wanted just down the street at our local supermarket. Two musts were sunflowers (my favorite) and I wanted pink Gerbera daisies.
I had a vision of the other color frequencies and types to reflect Summer Solstice joy and pure vitality and there they all were! I used a round vase with crystals in it for the arrangement (a vase I saved from this year’s birthday arrangement my dear friend Dawn sent me) and my bouquet I arranged, rubber-banded, wrapped the long stems in soaked paper towels inside a baggie with some water, and then wrapped that in a gauzy blue, white, gray and green material I had with flower and butterfly motif, and then spiral-tied it up with a satiny green leaf vine ribbon that had ribbon vines hanging from it.
And then there was the cake. I knew I wanted something with an infusion of lavender, so I could use my dried garden lavender I have from last year’s fall harvest.
Then blackberry came to mind to blend in somehow. And in the end, the evening before the wedding, I created a vegan blackberry lavender chocolate cake using the inspiration of a recipe I found that I tweaked into my own creation, as always. I doubled the recipe and baked one very high cake.
While it baked I made a blackberry lavender jam mixed with a fluffy butter-creamy-like whip. I then sliced the cake in half once cooled and layered the jam in between.
I whipped up a batch of butter-cream icing that I drizzled with some of the blackberry lavender liquid from the jam I made in a pot, so that the icing would turn lilac when mixed together. It worked! And then I played around with white and green icing decorations simply guided by inspiration into a sweet little design.
I photographed the cake with these gifts that actually arrived just the day before the wedding! Two hand-painted chalice glasses from the ever-sweet and magickal Laura that arrived all the way from England just in time. She actually ordered them on the Lunar Eclipse, preceding this Solar Eclipse. The stag for Dave and the rabbit of course for me. We used these for toasting after the wedding.
Then the wedding fiasco happened, as there must be at least one or more to remember days like this by, right?
I had placed the cake on my new cake platter that sits high atop the cutest little bunny pedestal who is on his back holding the cake up with his nose and thumpers. I literally had just finished and went to pick up the platter when the bunny came unglued! LOL! The bunny broke off of the bottom and the top platter went down, with the cake sliding backwards onto the counter. As it did, the top layer slid across the jam and there was a puddle of jam at the back that was no longer between the cake. I yelled out, “Paul, Dave, grab the cake!” And we all somehow pushed the back of the layers back together the best we could very gingerly so as not to break the cake. We couldn’t get it perfectly aligned without damage, so there was a one inch gap at the front. I was able to get most of the jam back in and some in the gap and then went to work on remaking icing to try to camouflage the difference and fixing the design that got partially smooshed.
I still remember my sweet faery friend KC (aka Bean Bunny) texting me “It’s always a mess when the bunny comes unglued! – sorry I had to.” LOL! And it was the perfect punctuation from my bunny family to ensure that not only I keep things light, innocent, and fun, but to remind me that everything would be “perfectly imperfect” and they were there to oversee that.
So I experienced about 30 seconds of freaking out, followed by a rush of peace and deciding it was exactly as meant to be, to laugh about it, and to trust I’d be able to put things back together in a meaningful way.
I don’t know how I did it, but I did get it back about 98% with only part of the back where it slid having a little bit of jam mixed with the icing.
Originally we were going to try to see if it was possible to hike the cake to the wedding site, but after this I knew it was meant to stay home and enjoy after the wedding to create a second celebration.
Rather than be upset about anything, as even our rehearsal tech-check dinner done the Monday before the wedding hadn’t gone so smooth, we just kept trucking along, trusting all would come together…and it did. Again, beyond our wildest imaginations.
It was perfect in every way and even though we couldn’t have people there in person, it actually ended up being better because people we likely would never have had the joy to share it with, were able to, more people than usual got the chance to give toasts and share, and for some reason the whole thing created a depth of connection and intimacy that everyone was surprised about.
We were floored by the powerful energy of the event and the feedback from the people sharing how it was one of, if not the most meaningful, inspirational, and moving weddings they’ve experienced. Some even said it was the best. Wow! We’re just floored and speechless, as we had no idea. We just wanted it to be authentic to us and let the rest unfold the way it was meant to be.
To say we feel humbled is an understatement. There were many a tear being shed for sure – most of them by me! LOL! I was smart and had a package of tissues ready and one in hand right off the bat.
There were also many funny moments, including my inability to remember some of the ring lines while placing Dave’s on his finger and pushing the ring on with all my might because his knuckle had swelled with the warmer temperatures while hiking to the site with equipment to set up two hours ahead.
Dave didn’t disappoint with his touching and humorous vows either and guests chimed in with laughter and tears of their own.
There were many moving and sweet moments – too many to write about, but I did want to share some of how this day and the days leading up and following have unfolded. It’s both a way to create a memory log for myself and a way to share what felt like so much more than just something between us that had many layers of symbolic significance.
We had an extraordinary showing of loved ones that would never have happened if in person. Apparently there were 80+ attendees, which included dear family members from Australia and all areas between coast to coast of the U.S. Our Europe-based family and close friends were unable to make it due to time differences and some friends had internet challenges leaving them unable to get on, but we felt every single one of them and all of you, who have all sent so many heartfelt wishes and made your presence in spirit known.
The wedding ceremony also included five different readings by family members and a fun toasting celebration after.
The entire ceremony was written originally by us, the readings hand-picked and reworded by us, our vows written by us and not shared with each other until the day, and we included a twelve minute video at the beginning chronicling our nearly twelve years together that included photos of us with loved ones.
I did want to mention one lovely full circle attendee, my sweet friend Marcy – the founder of SaveABunny – who shared a sweet toast that highlighted Astrid. I so wished we could have had her and the kitty babies there, but she was strongly connecting and a part of the ceremony nonetheless. We also told everyone that we didn’t need any gifts, but that if anyone wanted to, they could donate to one of two non-profit animal organizations that are dear to us. My choice was SaveABunny and Dave’s was APRL (Animal Protection & Rescue League). We don’t have official word yet, but so far the generous gifts raised are totaling a very generous over $2000 in donations. We can’t thank everyone enough for supporting the bunnies and animals. Again, it’s all overwhelming and our hearts are overflowing.
I wanted to end with some of the wonderful things that have taken place since the wedding that all feel very richly interwoven with the theme of cracking open through the continuity of endings and beginnings.
After the wedding we continued to enjoy some beautiful nature immersion on some of our favorite hikes while Dave still had some days off. We didn’t officially take a honeymoon due to the state of things making travel not possible, but every day here we feel is a honeymoon. We’ll look into travels later down the road for continued celebrations.
The day after the wedding we did one of our favorite hikes in Hope Valley – a perfect name for current energies – and while picnicking on some rocks over one of the three lakes’ water you see on this hike, my cell phone decided to take a swim.
My astrologer sister-in-law later pointed out – “Haha that is SO Mercury retrograde in Cancer!” And indeed it was! Miraculously, after being immersed in foot deep water for several seconds, it continues to work just fine! Right after it happened, I bubbled it in Reiki when I sent energy backwards to the point of time when it fell in the water and supercharged it too. After that I shut it down for the rest of the hike and took out the SIM card overnight when we got home, to ensure it would dry. I’m grateful it’s okay so no new phone is in order. Perhaps it just wanted a refresh/rebirth like me! Hehe!
Three days after the wedding my incredibly beautiful irises made their debut with two blooms and three more on the way! My first small purple irises, as you might recall, bloomed miraculously for my birthday at the end of February and now these beauties blooming as a wedding gift.
Other garden delight wedding gifts include my bubblegum pink rose bush blooming right after the wedding, my wildflower seedling plants suddenly flourishing strong, and a new lilac pompom bloom emerging with delphinium, salvia, and my fuschia foxgloves on the way soon.
And one of the sweetest garden nature gifts is our front and side clover lawns!
I’m so in love with the lush clover that rolls in billowy pillows of little white and yellow blossoms now, looking like the faery meadow I envisioned.
It buzzes with pollinator excitement all day and look at the other wild flowers that are popping up on our faery clover meadow, too!
It’s exactly what I had hoped for – so dreamy! I’m in love!
Then Wednesday was Dave’s last day off so we decided to hike around Chickadee Ridge and Tahoe Meadows where we got engaged. We found a different trail on the Tahoe Rim Trail we haven’t done that circled around the mountain tops at nearly 9000 elevation. We then climbed off-trail enjoying the magick both below and above us.
The Earth was covered with tuffets of sweet enchanting little faery flowers all around and the sky
revealed a bunny portal, a “T” and other magickal things including a dragon head and neck reaching up into the sky (didn’t get photo of it).
The bunny felt to be from my sweet Joy whose ashes had returned to me the day after this day, four years ago. It was a beautiful gift from her to connect with my bunny loves she’s flying with in the stars and to know they are supporting and guiding me/us with their love.
After the hike we decided to enjoy our very first official beach day and got our annual beach pass for the season. We picked up a to-go lunch picnic and relaxed lake-side with chairs and umbrella, soaking in vitamin D, immersing in the fresh water, and receiving a guest visitor.
Right as we walked to our spot I actually found two twin goose feathers (perfect for our wedding unity) and then this sweet one made a beeline for us! There was a ton of connecting and eye contact that took place in a very deep way with him.
It was another full circle, as one of the things Dave shared in his vows was a funny story about me protecting a goose in a very vocal way on the beach one day from an abusive guy. It was as if the goose knew and wanted to return the favor with a little sweet communion and added giggle.
And last, I’ll leave you with this sweet discovery and his message.
While I went out yesterday to water my garden and prepare a hole for our new mock orange blossom bush wedding gift, a new, sweet little one greeted me – my first mountain frog friend. He’s decided to make the top of my Garden Tower his little habitat. We don’t often see frogs here, although hear them a lot in the meadows and near creeks. Isn’t he cute?
I’ve written before about frog symbolism, but I’ll copy and paste it in here to make it easy to read:
The frog speaks of luck, purity, rebirth, renewal, fertility, healing, metamorphosis, transitions, dreaming, and opportunity. In many cultures, the frog symbolizes shamanism and magic as well, teaching us to leap swiftly from one level of consciousness to another – from this world to the Otherworlds. Frogs help us to find courage in accepting new ideas, to foster a sense of self-nurturing, and to discover connections between ideas.
When a frog jumps into your life it may be indicative of the opportunities that can be discovered in the now of your transition. The frog has a unique growth cycle and undergoes some incredible transformations in its progression and attainment of full adulthood, just as we humans do. Hence he understands what it feels like to endure some serious growing pains, and uncomfortable and even yucky feelings, along that transition. And their ability to lay enormous amounts of eggs lends to their fertility symbolism as well as being synonymous with abundance.
Different meanings are found from all over the world. The Egyptians share with us the Frog-headed Heket who is an Egyptian Goddess of birthing and creation. The Celts believed the frog represented curative and healing powers because of its connection with water and cleansing rains and to them, was deemed lord over all the Earth. Western and European views see the frog as a symbol of resurrection and spiritual evolution, deemed by the 3 stages of development (egg, tadpole, and fully formed amphibian). The 3 stages also associate the frog, for Christians, as a symbol for the holy trinity and resurrection and are found often in Christian art under this guise. To the Chinese the frog is an emblem of yin energy and good luck. Feng Shui practices recommend putting an image of a frog in the east window of your home to encourage child birth and a happy family life.
Frogs have also been considered a link between the living and dead, represented by Asian custom believing if you placed a jade frog in the mouth of the deceased, not only would this insure safe passage for their transition, but would allow the spirit to communicate more clearly with living loved ones. In Japan, frogs are especially good luck charms for travelers and wearing one was thought to provide safe passage on long voyages, particularly across waters. The frog took on a more cosmic symbolism for Ancient Hindus however, believing frogs not only signify darkness, but that they project the world into orbit in space.
Again, there’s that theme of synergy between the dead and living, or endings and beginnings all being connected, rebirth, and metamorphosis – something I spoke about in my wedding vows to Dave. My new frog companion is here to stay, as he greeted me this morning again with wide-eyed wonder. He’s a peaceful, curious, and dear little one who seems to reflect the huge quantum leap of hope, faith, and adventure underway for us all, with the promise of enriching metamorphosis and fulfilling potentials to be revealed.
Everything is connected with a sweet thread of continuity whether we realize it or not. While Summer Solstice was a portal of transformation for us, it was also one for the collective, as is everything we experience different ends of in our own ways.
I don’t know what the future looks like for any of us, but I trust it is unfolding in perfect imperfection, has simple and sweet things to value that we often overlook, and is above all, a Great Mystery to respect, marvel in, and honor that will take us on continuous adventures that mirror Mr. Toad’s Wild Ride.
We couldn’t be more grateful to have received and experienced such blessings and love on this day – a day that proved my receiving the date “randomly” when weddings were far from our minds, is why trusting those little nudges makes all the difference.
Here’s to cracking open fresh beginnings for all of us!
This is likely my last post until after our wedding, as this week is full of meaningful preparations. I thought that I’d leave you with some flower inspiration via thoughtful quotes and photos from yesterday’s garden tending. Everything continues to grow and bloom, reflecting the beauty of life in process.
I discovered our very first rose – this sweet pink one – was in continued awe over the vibrant
yellow lilies that are two-thirds open now, and squealed in joy over the flourishing baby clover and
the bed of wildflower plants that are joyously reaching for the sun!
Astrid was also very excited, as I took in our first Garden Tower harvest to her this weekend that overflowed the basket with her favorite delicious fragrant herbs.
A Steller’s Jay feather also wanted to join in the abundance that day.
Yesterday was a huge gift out back along our Forest Portal trail. We were discussing wedding details when suddenly a baby cub emerged from the Aspen trees. Momma bear was close behind and they were an incredibly beautiful sight to experience. Momma bear is our resident bear that we’ve seen several times here in the backyard. We know her because she wears a tagged collar for monitoring purposes. This is the first time we see her with a cub. She had only one and the sweetheart was so tiny and adorable – likely not very old at all. Both slowly walked passed us not far from the trail, with mom stopping to check us out, but continued on peacefully with baby trailing close behind.
I have SO many bear dreams in recent months (the most of any repetitive theme) that this was an added punctuation to all of those messages.
Later we saw a baby duckling paddling around the pond on our way to the lake. She was on her own, but I’m sure mom wasn’t far and likely went off to get her something while she remained safe in the brush at pond’s edge.
So much new growth, blossoming, and birthing and it all feels like beautiful symbolism for this new life beginning for us.
Let us sing in color, flourish with new growth, laugh in flowers, and imagine like little children.
“If you have a garden and a library, you have everything you need.” ~ Marcus Tullius Cicero
“Like wildflowers; You must allow yourself to grow in all the places people thought you never would.” ~ E.V.
“Open the bloom of your heart and become a gift of beauty to the world.” ~ Bryant McGill
“Every flower must grow through dirt.” ~ Laurie Jean Sennott
“Flowers are a proud assertion that a ray of beauty outvalues all the utilities in the world.” ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson
“A flower’s appeal is in its contradictions — so delicate in form yet strong in fragrance, so small in size yet big in beauty, so short in life yet long on effect.” ~ Terri Guillemets
“All the flowers of the tomorrows are in the seeds of today.” ~ Indian Proverb
“She is like a wildflower; beautiful, fierce, and free.” ~ Unknown
A last reminder that our Summer Solstice Magick Rabbit Sale ends at Midnight on June 20th. It’s been sweet to see some of the prints and greeting cards becoming favorites for people. Whimsical fun and love can be found here:
Astrid is always on top of keeping me abreast of what’s important and she does it by embodying that example. I found her centered atop her castle tower between the crystal-gridded corners, with one paw outstretched between the quartz and heart-carved lake stone. Both of these creating a balanced flow of energy she can draw upon.
She’s well aware that energies out there in the world are topsy-turvy and so she anchors herself solidly, using the tools she has to keep grounded, centered, resilient, and at peace.
When there seems like nothing you can do about the external, she reminds us that we can do everything about the internal.
What’s essential and important is to stabilize yourself, connect your root with Earth’s core, and find ways to sink more deeply into your body so that you can create greater equilibrium and strength from the inside out.
Rabbits can easily have their physical bodies and health thrown off balance by the slightest stresses or lack of attention to well being.
In many ways, so can we, although we might be able to endure things longer before they erupt.
That doesn’t necessarily make us stronger.
It may just mean that rabbits have less tolerance for habitual patterns that are out of alignment.
Whatever is key to your well being, peace of mind, joy, purposeful passion, and ability to give and receive gifts to and from the world, tend to that.
These make you a better advocate toward the changes you want to see.
Review the vital elements that are ingredients for your version of fulfillment and success and anchor these with solid heart and soul commitment and conviction. Merge the feelings around these with the actions that bring them forth. Imagine yourself as if you already are these things and feel where in your body, parts of you don’t believe or are holding you back for one reason or another.
Ask Earth to help you see clearly and to make the most beneficial shifts.
You can draw upon Earth’s support and strength, envisioning her supportive energy flowing up through your feet, helping to clear and release old patterns, and infusing you with a solid new foundation to build upon.
Astrid’s message for the week is simple.
Anchor what’s vital, as these are the fundamental ingredients to creating a new personal and collective experience.
Following the Sagittarius Full Moon Lunar Eclipse of Friday the 5th, we experienced a weekend of mixed weather and adventures, which included yesterday evening’s June snow surprise that created a wonderland of mystical beauty.
The snow came down in faery delight for a couple of hours and left a sweet frosty blanket of powdered sugar this morning that is melting by the kiss of sunshine now.
Weather in the mountains is always unpredictable and in my book, that’s part of what makes it a beautiful, fun adventure to live here.
Much like life on Earth has the potential to be.
Friday’s Eclipse was the first of three consecutive Eclipses this season, bringing continued life transformations to the scene.
Changing our perception reroutes our trajectory and alters the landscape of experience.
Cultivating greater courage helps us to forge new realities and question what has been.
Opening our hearts to other’s perspectives and to feeling the truth of their reality cultivates true compassion.
We each have our own version of truth and reality, but the journey is simply the journey.
Simple energy creating energy for divine unfolding of energy experiencing energy.
And along the way beautiful gifts can show up in the most unusual, surprising, and unexpected ways.