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Ask Astrid Fridays ~ The Rabbit’s Corner: Deliberate Presence & Instinctive Action


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We haven’t had a message from Astrid in a while, so on today’s Ask Astrid Fridays slot, she’s asked me to share a few thoughts from rabbit’s perspective. In fact, she was quite insistent this morning, digging at my feet and pajama pant legs with her front paws over and over, and nibbling on the bows to my slippers. So here we go.

As rabbits are prey animals, Astrid knows well what it feels like to live in constant high-alert, always have an escape route mapped out, keep distance between herself and potential predator energies, manage fear in order to survive, invoke powerful territorial defense, and be choosy about who she lets into her close social space.

Sound familiar to what we’re facing currently?

Rabbits have amazing perceptive abilities and extremely fine-tuned instinctive responses that keep them aligned with actions needed. Their high-frequency, radar hearing is extraordinary, sense of smell is amazing, and with nearly 360 degree far-sighted vision (with only a blind spot in front of their nose) they can detect movement at great distances.

As animal messengers they remind us to nurture, develop, refine, and utilize the tools we have too.

Rabbits also know very well how it feels to be highly sensitive, extremely cautious, easily thrown off balance out of nervous anxiety or pain, and get worked up in a speedy heart-beat-frenzy out of fear or panic – all of which can compromise their health instantly.

And yet, they are such diverse, resilient beings and incredible, abundant survivalists, with an uncanny ability to navigate the dark labyrinth depths of life.

Astrid understands well the energetic and physical landscape we are all facing right now and she wants to assure us that we can and will get through this.

In the meantime, she urges us to spend time tuning into our intuitive hearts and trusting the instincts and nudges we have grown used to pushing aside, avoiding, or ignoring.

There are times for us to sit still as we gather helpful input from around and within us, and there are times for us to trust our instincts and intuitive guidance and act upon them in the moment to lead us where we need to go.

Astrid also encourages us to really embrace this “slow down” period to put into motion deliberate presence. By being ultra now-engaged we are more open to the gifts of the moment and learn to embrace all there is to offer for greater enrichment.

We also start to create more methodical processes, thoughtful actions, and make mindfulness an every-moment experience. Meditation no longer needs to only be a block of time you carve out separate to the rest of your life, but instead you can create life as a meditation of being.

The more we breathe in life and become more finely tuned into ourselves, the more we will take action because trust will be present.

As much as this is a time to reimagine, reinvent, and reprioritize, it is also a great practice zone for taking action on things now, and not later.

You don’t need to wait to know all the details. You simply need to take a step.

If a rabbit waited at every turn to make a move, they would definitely meet different end results. They trust, in the moment, they will know what maneuver to make when needed. Their bodies move in response to all senses on high and working in unison, not fight.

Astrid assures you it’s alright to change your mind along the way, and in fact it is necessary to be adaptable to the incoming stimulus that encourages different steps to arrive at the results you would like.

You need to take into account that things are rapidly shifting in each moment, so teaching yourself to be more flexible to the process can benefit you greatly.

Not only might you receive more along the way, but you will likely find yourself aligning with a greater good as a result.

So, embrace these times to really get to know yourself. How you respond to challenges will help you thrive in any environment. When you get through a crisis, you learn processes that will help you through anything and not only gain the assurance that you are resilient and capable, but the comfort that you can trust yourself too.

The more you decide to create presence of being as your natural way, the more you will feel comfortable taking instinctual action and lessen the restraints on being more of who you really are.

You’ll learn to relax more into your natural self and state of being, with the confidence of rising to any occasion.

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“Have you ever seen the dawn? Not a dawn groggy with lack of sleep or hectic with mindless obligations and you about to rush off on an early adventure or business, but full of deep silence and absolute clarity of perception? A dawning which you truly observe, degree by degree. It is the most amazing moment of birth. And more than anything it can spur you to action. Have a burning day.” ~Vera Nazarian

Navigating New Paths ~ Individual & Collective Impact of Our Now


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Hello again to all of our friends worldwide. Today is my first official day back after being offline for three months and so I hope you can bear with me, as this will be much longer than usual especially given the collective landscape we’re facing. I’ll be sharing some insights and experiences from these last few months, as well as announce, at the end, the special discount and support we are opening up during these challenges times, as well as our Spring, Easter, Anniversary Magick Rabbit shop sale that started yesterday.

April 1st came in a flash and with it my return to blogging and having an online presence again with our beloved community. A friend humorously asked if my return today was an April Fools’ Day joke, to which I giggled she was the only one who caught that irony, but a joke it isn’t, even though I debated about returning. Today would have been my grandmother’s 100th birthday (on my dad’s side) and interestingly she transitioned on my birthday when I was 17. That synchronicity has always held significance for me and became a legacy of hidden gifts for me to unwrap, as I have grown over the years.

Like that experience and the ancestral journey that has been my continual reframing for shifts in consciousness, ultimately I’ve come to accept invitations with an open, trusting heart, just like this return. The decision to come back earlier than planned was in answer to a collective nudge, spirit calling, and the love in my heart that feels deeply for all who have chosen to be together on Earth as she shifts so dramatically.

Speaking of DNA codes and ancestral links, during this inner time I uncovered a connection through patterns within my own lineage that shifted how I wanted to work with conditioning. While I’m aware of how fears can be passed down and feel them important to acknowledge and explore, rather than solely focusing on the shared fears I can see streaming through the line, I decided to reframe things and focus on the shared strengths/gifts/attributes and what collective result those fears created in blocking these – an unfulfilled dream. 

I could literally feel a weight lift and a rush of my ancestors’ happiness wash over me when I acknowledged and heard all of my family line’s deepest desires and secret wishes that had gone undone. It was not the fear stories they wanted me to keep retelling, but to tell their dreams and rewrite them through the manifestation of my own – individual and collective being one and the same. This meant not only to be clear with and voice them, but to actually do everything in my power not to let mine die, as that would perpetuate a haunting residual effect until it was broken.

Perhaps this may have some validity for what we are experiencing right now too. Our history holds events containing many losses that have triggered life as we know it. It also holds many keys as to how we’ve learned to carry on and continue in new ways – how consciousness has changed.

Things like this have played out before, but there feels to be a new invitation in what we face today.

It mirrored to me that within our DNA are codes we have yet to tap into and there might be a connection with things like this collective pandemic that could have the ability to ignite some of those latent codes. An activation, awakening, and/or recalibration. I don’t have the answer, but something clicked and maybe that’s all there is to feel for now.

I always receive and pass on the message, “Remember who you are.”

And then, I’ve pondered more around our current collective experience, which lead me to more possibilities worth exploring.

There is no denying the harsh realities spreading for many as people are faced with no jobs, loss of income, the potential of losing homes, the rise of stress and anxiety, the threat of not having needed healthcare or support because it’s being drained and limited, the sadness of much needed human contact, and the list goes on. Unfortunately, there are no easy, quick answers, but I know we are capable of so much more than we think. I can only offer a few of my thoughts surrounding some of these things, which I’ve pondered to help me in navigating the unknown. The more we explore outside of the box, we just might find ways to make this a little bit easier and maybe, just maybe, spark ideas to bridge the gap between those suffering most and those of us who feel more grounded and have something to offer.

By forcing us into sitting with the fear of being alone and isolated, perhaps we are provided opportunity to face this fear, realize and heal stories of separation into realization and value of togetherness, connection, and compassion as a society and consciousness as a whole. Entering the dark womb within, inevitably thrusts us out into the Great Cosmic Mystery at our heart and core. Perhaps we might see and finally experience how our very nature is unified and this includes with all of Nature, herself, and the Cosmos.

I thought that this link Dave shared with me about interconnectedness and our unity with one another and the Cosmos was a great one on The Fullness of Emptiness by Thich Nhat Hanh.

It’s not selfishness we’re being placed into experiencing, but self-actualization into greater recognition of fundamental truths that connect all of us and consciousness. Through Love’s embodiment, we are sharing with others and this just might be the greater path unfolding, rather than furthering into the illusion of isolation and division.

Love and kindness are our superpowers. And as Dave always hears me say, I do feel love is the answer to all things.

Perhaps we are experiencing an invitation, both individually and collectively. Maybe even an initiation of opening greater consciousness around all things lying below the surface we have yet to unwrap. It’s not just about the shadowy parts that remain hidden, while still operating vibrationally. It’s also about the incredible gifts that have been dormant that could free us.

Yes, we are being asked to dismantle things, reintegrate, exercise responsible choice, and transmute mourning into hope.

This may be an incredible struggle, especially for so many who are experiencing the harshest parts of what is unfolding. So, for those of you who have it less challenging, or are more comfortable with navigating these unknowns, you have a lot to offer. This isn’t time to close our hearts – no matter our circumstances. This is time to open them wider so not only can we receive support, but also give it.

Love is an endless, bottomless well. How we each show up in greatest heart fullness is the definition of success.

Together we can change old “norms” and create new ones.

I believe creativity is necessary on all fronts to live and to be.

It is a hope of mine that we see the blossoming of creativity and more collective-higher good innovations that can benefit the many and not the few – that to include all of nature and not just humans, planetary and not just city, state or country wide. This speaks to our place within the entire cosmic tapestry as well – all of these being taken into consideration for how our evolution affects the galaxy, universe, and multi-verses.

Perhaps this will continue to spawn new services and online outreach as people turn to their creative nature to not only entertain themselves, but to bring innovation, joy, beauty and inspiration to others.

I don’t feel this should be a time of shutting down everything out of despair, as much as it could be about one door closing in order to open many other doors of possibility – creative impulse birthing from within chaos.

It isn’t about denying feelings that are surfacing either, but about having curiosity around them. I feel the challenge is that most people have the tendency to dwell in an emotion, become debilitated or stuck in an endless downward spiral, and in fact magnetize more of that energy until they can transform it. Although rock bottom can produce an eventual, insightful change, it doesn’t always happen that way or that gracefully. I believe being curious prompts our innate creative nature to explore solutions and sometimes we need a helping hand with that and open heart to receive it.

The presence of worry can create an access point to move through and instantly shift into productive exploration and action. Evoking creative response in place of worry is curiosity in motion of stimulating creative potentials to explore and implement. The question being, is it worry or our innate nature as a creative being that leads us to remedies and results? Are they in fact connected, or has one become predominant because we are still in process of learning to trust our nature?

Maybe it doesn’t matter, as however we get to a productive result and learn a healthy process, we can reproduce more effectively each time, I feel is a great thing. Worry might be conditioned, but our nature seems to be creative energy.

We’re all being affected by what is happening, in one way or another, either directly or indirectly. We are each experiencing a wide range of emotions and thoughts on a daily basis. We all know people who have been or will be challenged.

I currently have an elder cousin, in her mid 70’s in New Jersey, and her daughter who were both infected. My cousin was diagnosed with Covid-19, quarantined, and treated in the hospital for a few weeks, but luckily has returned home after the severity subsided. I also have a friend affected. And although I do not have fear around things, I do still implement self-care measures to be at my best for any unforeseen events, to be grounded for others, and to stay strong in case my parents need me.

My life-long weakness has been my lungs since I was a little girl, so I am keeping up continued immune system support so as not to compromise respiratory health. This has progressed as I’ve gotten older with having a condition called EIB (exercise-induced bronchoconstriction) – mine not being asthma connected like it can be for others, and only brought on by very strenuous exercise that induces very fast, heavy breathing, deep laughing, and sensitivities to irritants in the air and food that constrict my lungs and produce a mucous-filled cough for 15 – 30 minutes with mild wheezing sometimes. I have learned how to keep it at bay and regulate my breathing during such things as more challenging hikes involving steep inclines.

Yet, I still maintain a steady stream of peace, love, joy, and creative output because I know these are key in moving energy in healthy ways. I also continue to work on breathing in life, embodying my own space, and living well, rather than constricting and contracting out of a feeling of not belonging here. We are here right now for a reason.

Personally, this quiet, removed period of my three month sabbatical has been productive and insightful, and I find it interesting it came during this collective darker period. I could feel the anxiety and fear circulating, yet I felt guided to continue nurturing what was calling me and maintaining my own equilibrium so as to be of greatest benefit.

As things have progressed in the world and I feel more stabilized, it feels of importance to maintain channels of connection beyond energetic alone.

This led me to return earlier than planned. I will, however, remain ultra-conscious of my time and keeping things in check and balance as I continue novel revisions and tend to things unfolding in my private life. I also want to ensure I am at my best so I can be there for others optimally.

One thing I feel we all can offer to each other, alongside greater love and compassion, is the example of our own experiences with things and sharing our own attempts at making things better. Even what we view as our own little world is in fact part of the greater sum whole of the collective world and as even science teaches – there are no isolated systems and separate parts….in simplistic terms, space is the unification of all things. Einstein has referred to it as the unified field theory and in Tibetan Buddhist teachings, Oneness is expressed as dependent arising.

In other words, both simply being, choosing, acting upon, changing, integrating, and healing within our own experience and sharing about these things, has quantum and immeasurable effects on the sum collective.

We see and experience ourselves in one another.

I know I learn a lot from others sharing their experiences, as well as receive inspiration, joy, and reiteration from their timely messages. We live in a time of amazing bridging opportunities through technology that with discernment and filtering, can provide wonderful access to a plethora of information, support, connection, comfort, and creativity.

Life continues strange and unknown for us all right now, but despite the energy pervading I’ve felt particularly stable. That doesn’t mean I don’t go through different streams of feelings, but I find my way back to center. That becomes particularly helpful when empathing everything going on. I don’t think that in the past I would always have been able to maintain peace, but perhaps because of committing to a practice of supporting what I feel in my heart, rather than taking on what is outside of it, I believe this may be my saving grace.

It seems like the more we can connect with and trust that heart anchor, the less we get thrown off balance. This indeed takes consistent and committed practice and it likely won’t go without some stumbles, but with curiosity and kindness toward our process, it does strengthen and get easier.

While I know there is a lot of uncertainty and concern dominating thoughts and actions in the world, I feel guided to focus on ways we can bring more love, creativity, and changes we do want to see into the forefront of discussions. That isn’t to downplay the real, harsh, and sad experiences, but it is to refocus our energies on productive momentum that can help us navigate ways to harness that silver lining just as Nature continues on after each season or devastation.

And all of it is about taking each step, one at a time. We’re all learning to navigate new ways and this will take adjustments, tweaking, exploring, and experimenting, in order to find a new balance. Even just little changes or embarking on something new and creative in your life can make a huge difference right now. It will involve open hearts and minds and a willingness to take new actions with kindness toward self and others. It may involve greater trust and deeper respect for that which we can’t readily see, but is inherently sacred in experiencing.

Tempering of mind and heart calls us forth to play with this alchemy. What feels like a jolt of incredulous surprises may be a flash of genius in disguise. Improvisation and leaps of faith will accompany this New Earth curriculum we are being trained in. The Fool may in fact be the Wise One.

As a way to share my thread and how I’ve been funneling my energy and focus, I’m going to touch upon some of the things that have taken place since the start of the year. If you’re on Instagram or Facebook, I’ll likely share more photos from the last few months on those platforms with accompanying messages or insights, rather than bombard this blog post with everything.

The photos shared in this blog are the most recent and symbolic for me of this time period and the journey ahead. They include Astrid and me on the Spring Equinox of the 19th of March and a new beginning marker that took place two days later on the 21st – more on that to come.

As mentioned in my Spring Equinox A Message of Hope post, we saw a Miracle March here with Spring snow after a very dry Winter. These first few photos were taken after five magickal snowy days that brought a few feet our way. Astrid and I received inspiration to mark this memorable time with a short photo shoot right off the back deck.

I love the contrast of an enchanted white landscape (like a pure, blank canvas awaiting) and the two of us full of fertile creativity merging together and woven into the scene.

Rabbits are the epitome of Spring. They embody the energies of rebirth, balance, vitality, creative potency, regeneration, fertility of mind, body, and emotion, inspiration, prosperity, agility, receptiveness, and eternity. This symbolism manifests in associations with Springtime, the Dawn, the Moon and Sacred Fire, the Cosmic Egg from which the Cosmos is produced, the Circle and Infinity symbol, Marriage, Androgyny and Hermaphroditism, as well as Madness, Genius and Inspiration (which seem to go hand in hand). Rabbits can bring a message of nurturing your intuitive impulses and nudges from your heart and soul.

My off-white dress adorned with golden stars (reminding me of our Cosmic connection) leaped into mind when I got the idea to capture a symbolic photo of this portal and create an inspiration-marker for this time period.

Astrid was very excited about this too and we giggled together when a gust of wind blew snow from the tree branches down upon us, adorning our fur and hair with magickal snowflakes. It felt like pixie dust that Nature celebrated as a sprinkling of shared delight.

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During my time away these past three months I would say the key words that jumped out at me around my experience were nurturing, peaceful, productive, regenerative, and clarifying. When I saw these photos after – as you never know what will be captured – I felt these words reflected again.

I didn’t realize how much I really needed this time and was so grateful I committed to listening to my needs. I feel it also helped me to prepare for what we are all now facing and to understand how I could funnel energy more productively.

I found myself resting a lot (I still continue to enjoy even more sleep than I already get, which speaks to integrating everything out there to help acceleration in here), continuing to immerse in nature and outdoor exercise, spending time on strengthening inner vision, focusing on the steps without rushing or pushing, and working on my craft (writing) as if I were taking college courses I never did, which included tons of researching, reading novels in my genre and writing craft books. In fact, at one point I read about fifteen books of 250-500 page length in just under three weeks while still doing other things in my life alongside this. They do say that writing and reading go hand-in-hand and of benefit is to be doing both always as a writer.

I feel solid with the precursor work I needed and as if I condensed years of training into these three months. Although I’ve only recently just embarked on the next very involved and tedious writing phase, I feel equipped and clarified with my direction and process at hand. There are many layers yet to come, as writing is definitely the art of process, but I love how it is reflecting so much about life as a journey. Writing and living are great reflective companions for me right now in teaching me how to cultivate a new approach and seed new experiences.

So, although my novel is not complete yet, I feel really good about the groundwork I was able to achieve and that I now have behind me exactly what I need. I feel it’s healthy to adapt to what shows up that may provide a more effective path for your goal.

During this time I have also been implementing more imagination and visualization, alongside exercises to expand in new ways and have seen great benefits to releasing and stepping away as needed.

We did enjoy several celebrations that included birthday travels in January to celebrate a dear friend’s 45th, celebrated my mom’s 77th, my brother’s 50th, and my 47th birthdays, did some family reunion travel to Tucson, celebrated Dave’s transition to part-time on his way to retiring, and hosted friends. I was floored and warmly surprised by so many sweet gifts and messages that poured in for my birthday, despite my being offline and out-of-touch. It moved me greatly to receive such loving gestures and was a precursor to showing me how connected we still can be and how that can touch us, even under these distancing circumstances.

This connection has continued in an upsurge of Dave organizing virtual lunch dates with friends and family so that we can enjoy connecting and sharing time – a super fun way to bridge distance. Dave has been attending online meditations, having been displaced out of regular local gatherings, and we’ve been keeping a healthy connection via virtual outreach in general.

On a self-nurturing, but eerie note, alongside doing things important to me, Dave and I are over three months in on implementing many lifestyle changes, budgeting, reprioritizing, and self-care for long-term vibrancy. I also did some big cleaning out purges and reorganization. We actually started all of this on 12/26/19 and that is what I find so ironic, as none of what is here now was there then.

One of the things we implemented is time-restricted eating – a form of fasting where we eat normally during a shorter window of time each day and fast the rest of the time. This has been shown to have many health benefits including on the immune system. We’ve chosen a 6 hour eating and 18 hour fasting window as a lifestyle change and not a diet. (Note: Please do your own research on this or consult a doctor especially if you have any pre-existing conditions or take medications before implementing anything). We’re enjoying the benefits of feeling good, having more energy, inner calm, and mental clarity (Dave actually sleeps the best he has in years) and it suits our lifestyle, as we do it in the breakfast and lunch window when we are most active. We also happen to be vegan (14 years strong for me), eating plant-based whole foods and are active daily outdoors. We feel extremely blessed and grateful that we live in a low populated mountain community where access to nature is easy and right out the back door, so we are still able to enjoy this lifestyle even with current social restrictions.

I also find myself baking a lot again and enjoy creating new meals. I’ve even implemented new processes for Astrid to prepare her greens with even more gourmet touches that make it both easier for me and tastier for her!

And speaking of Astrid, she has gone through her own upgrades during these few months to include new bunny adornments and friends for our shared room, new bunny cams so mom can check in on her always and a new sitter for all the fur babies (these were implemented before everything happened in the world), new toys and treats from friends that came on mom’s birthday, and even a royal coronation!

After all, every rabbit queen that presides over realms and lives in castles must have her very own crown too.

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As you can see, hers is a delicate lacing of gold with six of our favorite sunflowers adorned all around it.

A unique crown of sixteen quartz crystal points and three ethically and responsibly obtained (through the natural cycle of life and antler shedding) roe deer antlers found its way to me a few years ago.

Astrid insisted that we take at least one photo on Spring Equinox with us both wearing crowns and so we did. Somehow it just felt empowering and activating. Astrid knows. 🙂

She also loves wearing hers and sits proudly with it on without shaking it away. Dave laughed at how much Astrid enjoys wearing her crown.

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Another thing that showed up included us recently coming across the tree we saved three years ago in one of our largest winter snow seasons ever. We not only found him strong and taller, but now had a baby! You can see the baby (who we dug out of the snow from our recent snow fall) next to Dave below. We plan to make sure his offspring will fair strong and well too!

Seeing our tree and his baby was another sign of hope and renewal in my eyes.

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I’m such a nature faery and animals are always direct messengers for me – this time period away being no exception. There’s been a couple of giant jackrabbits (one deliberately slowing to cross our path while hiking in Tucson on a Full Moon – this was also the official adoption day of our special needs rabbit, Cosmo), many cottontails leading up to that Full Moon (we even saw our first Spring cottontail on our front lawn nibbling on exposed greens peeking through the snow on the day after the Equinox – maybe a grown-up Blueberry or Hope), coyotes, chickadees, hawks, and even two great horned owls cross my/our paths as spirit guides these months.

I share these as reminders that answers and messages show up all around us, for anyone big on animal spirit totems and symbolism. The great horned owls were especially auspicious and showed up at Casa Grande Ruins National Monument in Coolidge, Arizona. They are a couple that have made the ruins their home for the last 20 years. We saw the female in her nest perched on the ruins and the male above in the rafters of the roof that protects the ruins. Talk about ancestral spirits.

One of the other interesting interactions took place twice for me with chickadees. On a mid-February snowshoe I had chickadees landing on me several times and several at once. I put my arm out and they came to sit on my shoulder, arm, and out-stretched finger. This was right on and around the Mercury in Pisces and Mars in Capricorn of  2/16 and 17 – these just so happen to be my natal astrological chart placements. A nice pre-birthday gift from Nature.

This happened again on 3/21, right after a very significant unfolding that took place while on a snowshoeing picnic at one of our favorite spots.

Dave and I got engaged.

This wasn’t something high on our radar, as it’s not something we feel is a “should,” but we also don’t hold any judgment one way or another around it either. We’ve lived committed as life partners for nearly 12 years already, yet the message came through around this on another level and we listened. Even the date of the wedding was received without thought. It will be on 6/20/2020.

While I have heard about many events including weddings being understandably cancelled and postponed, this was not an option for us and we decided to be creative and open to ways to bring in the essence of our intentions. It was clear for us that holding the energy of hope and light amidst darker, challenging, and unknown times was exactly the alchemy we wanted to anchor for ourselves and others.

It was also clear for us, personally, to not allow anything to dictate or control our desire to deepen, initiate, and emanate greater potentials of love. Just as death and sadness can be portals to love – darker, chaotic times I feel are asking for us to reach deeper into the lining of love surrounding it all. And therefore, we wanted to anchor in and bring forth love and celebration amidst chaos. We will shine our own lights now, not later, in the ways we feel called to bring our pieces of the thread into greater clarity.

Yes, we can and will still celebrate love! In times like these, that is exactly what I feel we need the most. Not recoiling, but rejoicing in the power we do have to share – love.

The frequency we embody and emanate has profound effects.

We later learned that the date that came through held potent alchemy and was in fact the Summer Solstice – a very special and favorite day personally to me. It happens to be the day Astrid came into our lives, there will be a New Moon, it’s the longest day of the year with most light, it’s nearly exactly in the middle of both of our birthdays, and the next day is Father’s Day, a Solar Eclipse, and happens to be the day my rabbit Joy transitioned from her earthly body.

Anyway, we our planning to hold a very simple, no-frills ceremony in nature here in Lake Tahoe on our own while we live-stream it as a virtual wedding to our family in blood and heart. That way they can still be there with us, while we anchor in and create a new beginning.

To seal things with a confirming sign, right after we got engaged I saw a chickadee on the tree next to us. As Dave stood by my side, I put out my finger and the chickadee landed on it. He/she sat there for about 4-5 seconds and then returned to the tree-top.

Since there was no ring involved and everything has been an organic unfolding, it felt like Nature blessed our union and provided the elements of most meaning for us, sealed with a chickadee kiss upon my finger.

Chickadees are fragile, joyful songbirds that symbolize flexibility, curiosity, courage, good fortune, and encourage more trust and positive outlooks around social behavior. But don’t let appearances fool you. I love how vulnerable they are and yet how brave. They are small, but fierce, rising to the occasion. Unaware of their tiny physical stature, they will protect their own from much larger birds, as well as voice themselves with clarity.

On a side note: As far as rings go, although there were none officially involved with the engagement, like with everything so far, that as well has unfolded organically and symbolically. Dave’s mom so generously offered me her grandmother’s beautiful ring – Dave’s great grandmother – as an engagement ring. And for my wedding band I’ll be using my grandfather’s (on my mom’s side) simple wedding band – he and I have the exact same finger size. My mom also found my great grandmother’s (on my dad’s side) simple wedding ring – also a perfect fit – that is a sweet match with my grandfather’s band, so that can be a set. All of them are rich with history and symbolism to me. I love heirloom pieces and repurposing these rings feels perfect for these times we’re facing and meaningful. It also goes well with the ancestral energies I’ve been working with.

In the past I would have wanted all my own things, but now I love the connection and evolution – how past and present will build upon, merge strengths, recreate, and support one another into a new future beginning.

The remainder of the photos in this post are from that special day, to conclude this return post with love, hope, and light we felt strongly seeded in the landscape around and within us.

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So yes, a lot of significant changes have happened and are happening in my life, as a result of these past few months of turning inward. It’s all unfolding alongside significant worldwide changes.

And if it wasn’t enough to simply know things are shaking up for some big shifts, the Earth, herself, did some literal shaking too.

The day after the Equinox, on the 20th, we experienced a 5.0 earthquake just 27 miles away that rocked the house and when we returned home on the 21st of our engagement we experienced a 3.5 aftershock of that same epicenter. We normally don’t feel earthquakes around here, but we were definitely in alignment with these.

In fact, Astrid alerted me about the first one, although I didn’t know it at the time. She has a plant-based stack of cups that were gifted to her by a dear fellow bunny mom and her bunny that she hasn’t shown much interest in until the day of the earthquake. Right before the earthquake rumbled through the house, Astrid started playing with her stacking cups while I sat at my desk. I turned around to see what the clanking was about and was so happy to see her playing with them. She did this for several minutes before I decided to start videoing it so that I could show our friend that gifted them to her. I then video’d about a minute of the fun and thought she might be done. I stopped the video, but realized she was continuing, so I restarted.

The new video only lasted ten seconds, as right as I hit record she suddenly stood still with eyes bugged out and ears and body in alert mode. Then the earthquake rolled through, shaking the house and our downstairs room a lot – accompanied by that earth rumble noise. Well, Astrid took off like a flash as soon as the rockin’-and-a-rollin’ kicked in, dashing around and behind her castle to make for her tunnel to hide. Once under cover, she gave out one loud thump.

I felt it was wild that I caught this all on video and after things settled, I realized Astrid in fact had been using the stacking cups as a way to alert me to what she knew was about to happen. Animals know, but especially very tuned in, underground rabbits who are strongly connected to inner Earth and her vibrations, as well as finely attuned to slight frequency shifts in the energy field.

Luckily, Astrid didn’t stay hidden for long like she can do when frightened by something she senses, sees, or hears. After a few minutes she came out and went to her cups again, moving them around just briefly, then ran over to me and nudged my foot. I felt she was confirming the cups were indeed her way of coding to me and now used them as an “all is well” message.

Interestingly, since then she has begun to “play” with her cups more regularly, but now that she knows I understand they are one way to communicate to me I find her playing with them when she knows it’s feeding time, or any other particular thing she wants to draw my attention to, as a way to tell me.

So, I’ll definitely be keeping on alert to further cup codes in the future.

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If you’ve stuck with me this far, a big thank you is in order. Being away for so long definitely built up a lot to share, even though it’s not all expressed in this post. And it is all definitely leading me on new, unknown paths along with all of you.

Yet it all brings me to where I feel led currently.

I have received a lot of clear messages these last few months and unlike times in my past, I immediately listen to, trust, and implement them. And as I started off this post with, one of the messages received was about opening back up a couple of support lines in order to be there for others in need.

Because I’ve created a strong base and implemented the important precursor work needed, although I’ll still be deeply immersed in an extensive amount of novel revision work, I feel confident in being able to stay committed and balanced.

This means I can once again offer one-on-one coaching sessions, which I refer to as Intuitive Energy Guidance Sessions.

I will also offer distant Reiki Healing Attunements for energetic support to help with greater peace, clarity, immune boosting, alignment, and any other needs mentally, emotionally, physically, or spiritually.

Not included on the page is that I’m open to discussing the possibility of online Reiki training for the students that have shown interest in wanting to complete their levels, as I feel this could be important on a bigger picture level in raising collective vibrations and supporting you with more empowering tools that can bridge distance. You’ll need to please contact me so that we can have a discussion around this.

Please refer to this new page on my website for details about how these offerings might be of benefit. The page will also have the new discount pricing and sliding scale details available:

Special Discount Coaching Sessions & Reiki Support for these Challenging Times

As of yesterday, March 31st through April 30th, our Magick Rabbit Etsy shop is also hosting a big store wide Spring Easter Anniversary Sale to help infuse some joy, inspiration, and sweetness into your life while you nest at home. It could also be a sweet an easy way to share love and connection with family and friends right now.

Details are found here, including the direct link to our creative shop:

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There is future potential of my creating some free weekly or monthly messages and/or videos you will be able to subscribe to. This could include some virtual gatherings. Currently, I am holding off on implementing any of that, as I need to see how things go with what I already have on my plate in terms of my individual projects and these new offerings. I’ll keep you posted though and as always, am open to hearing from you on how you’re doing, any questions, or interests in relation to any or all of this in the comments below.

As an extra line of support, I thought I’d share Lee’s April Energy Forecast message (I hope you were able to see his forecasts the last couple of months including a mid-March special update). As always I smile at how they align with what I receive (we are ALL SO CONNECTED), which is the only reason I share them since they vibrate at the same frequency for me. I smile hugely at several things he said that chimed in with my experience, including ancestral energies and a very brief Atlantis mention that coincided with an Atlantean dream I had two nights ago where I found a coded gift.

Holding you all in heart and envisioning the highest good for everyone.

Keep nurtured, implement responsible action, indulge creative response, and love even more.

Sending you all a huge energetic hug of love.

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“I will not die an unlived life. I will not live in fear of falling or catching fire. I choose to inhabit my days, to allow my living to open me, to make me less afraid, more accessible, to loosen my heart until it becomes a wing, a torch, a promise. I choose to risk my significance; to live so that which comes to me as seed goes to the next as blossom and that which comes to me as blossom, goes on as fruit.” ~Dawna Markova

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A Message of Hope


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Although I still intend to continue with my sabbatical, I received the strong message to peek out briefly on today’s Spring/Autumn Equinox portal (depending on which hemisphere you’re in) to extend my heart and voice to the collective in this challenging time. I’ll write more when I officially return, but for now I’ll say that I find it fascinating something nudged me to retreat nearly three months ago, and I am understanding more of what that meant now. For one, it has allowed me to anchor a stronger frequency of inner clarity and peace, which has helped prepare the way for what we are collectively now experiencing.

Although I may have a different way of navigating things, I know that we will each experience things relative and valid to our journey and there is no judgment in that. What I do believe is that for those of you who feel more balanced, peaceful, and hopeful, that your thread of the tapestry is much needed right now. And to you, I extend extra gratitude for the strength of embodiment you are holding as way-showers and anchors for many who may find themselves struggling to keep their heads above the murky waters right now.

I don’t presume to know what you’re each going through, but I can feel the tumultuous nature of energy right now swirling and understandably it will be confusing, to say the least. This is something none of us in this lifetime have really ever had to go through and so, together, we are navigating our way one day at a time.

“TOGETHER” being the unifying point.

I don’t have the answers, nor do I believe anyone does, but I feel with all of my heart that there’s a collective acceleration in motion that has the potential of sparking new pathways like none we’ve yet to experience.

Much is revealing itself and each person is going to experience that unveiling at varying levels. If you’re one who has gone through the stripping away of things and remembers how challenging the repatterning process was, then perhaps you can lend extra compassion for others newly experiencing this.

While we are being forced inward, I would say that on some level we knew this inner journey was needed. We simply now aren’t able to run away from it as easily.

There is opportunity in what seems to be a challenge. There are answers within what poses a “problem”.

We each have tools, gifts, unique aspects of ourselves that we can call upon now. If you’ve been avoiding, repressing, forgetting, not utilizing, or waiting for a “better” time to use what you have, “now” is that better time.

Many of you have prepared all your life and this is opportunity to “walk the talk” and shine your incredible light. Many of you have wished to have time to work on things or wanted to make changes and now you can. And some of you may not know where to start, in which case I might say, try by engaging your imagination and doing something within your own experience of channeling creative energy in some way.

Creative energy harnessed, will open the airwaves to creative solutions on many fronts.

Let’s also not forget to bring some lightness into our lives and the lives of others right now. Humor, curiosity, and playfulness can go a long way in healing pains. Love can transform and so tenderness toward self and others is vital.

When you find yourself worrying, remember that worry takes you away from being present to the now and what you do have to be grateful for. Worry won’t change outcomes, but may make you more vulnerable to them or more receptive and magnetic to them.

You can only control your reaction to something and by shifting your reaction and vibrational frequency, you not only accelerate your own, but accelerate the collective’s potential to create new realities as well.

What you do with now is what truly matters. Now is all you really have.

The past and future are all shaped and reframed right here and now.

I’m reminded by my own journey of extreme adversity I experienced over my lifetime and it brings to mind the resiliency it taught me, which got stronger each time.

I learned that the lows don’t last forever.

I learned that any slight tweak of curiosity shifted my perspective.

I learned that I could get back up no matter how many times I got knocked down.

I learned that I received inspiration in my darkest hours.

I learned that I could create anew in ways I wasn’t able to see at the start of the pain and confusion.

I learned that an open mind and heart can do wonders.

I learned that like nature, I had the the ability to surrender to the rhythm and discover my truest potential within every mini death cycle.

I’d like to share these ironic paradoxes with you.

During this time away I celebrated my birthday and on my birthday eight purple irises bloomed out of no where in the front yard. My birthday is at the end of February, so this is completely out of character, especially given we live at high altitude where the temperatures are much colder, despite not having snow that month.

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My parents who have irises and daffodils down 2000+ feet from us in Reno didn’t even see anything close to starting to bloom in their yard, nor did any of my neighbors who all have daffodils and irises in their front yards, too, every year. Not a single one bloomed except mine.

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And yet they bloomed, nonetheless, in the face of adversity.

They felt like a gift and symbol of hope and renewal on my birth-day.

In fact irises symbolize faith, hope, purity, and wisdom.

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During this time away we’ve had a very peculiar winter.

Last year was our biggest ever. This year was awful in terms of snow pack and precipitation. We only got spurts of snow on random occasions and in fact February saw not one drop of rain or snow – the driest February here in 150 years with the least snow in this month, which was zero.

I hoped for some late precipitation because the truth is, while I heard people saying they were loving not having the snow here and “dealing” with it, I know that a dry winter equates to a very dry summer, droughts, and fires. And while fires can be regenerative, as I’ll share more on below, humans have more challenge than nature to weather the extremes.

Balance is key, and while nature knows her balance, she also reflects to us where and when we’re out of balance and then corrects that.

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Well, finally on Friday, March 13th we got a huge snow storm that brought several feet over four days. Such a blessing! This continued with sporadic flurries and another downfall last night that brought about eight more inches here, with a forecast of more snow starting Sunday through next week. Of course the very top of the mountains are getting twice as much as even our high elevation of 6600 feet.

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We were well below the winter percentages, but this is all raising our snowpack percentage for the season to a much healthier place, which will be a great help to nature and ultimately the people. In fact, they’re calling this Miracle March.

The snow came out of the blue, right before and during the shift into Spring. Ironically, they shut down the ski resorts right when the best snow came, but it also took place right when things shifted into putting people in a distancing mode and being called back “inside.”

Coincidence?

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Snow came in the face of adversity.

Snow came in support of renewal, incubating things a little bit longer.

When the odds are stacked against things, miracles can happen – the irises bloomed and the snow gracefully covered the landscape with hopeful and pure potential.

It reminds me of another example nature has for us, which I’ll leave you with.

“Serotinous” is a scientific term for a seed that requires an environmental trigger in order to be released. Some pine cones will wait patiently for years for enough heat to activate them. And there is also the case of fire-activated seeds, meaning some seeds need fire to germinate, and also patiently lay dormant for years to bring a fire their way.

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Fire is a way (or mechanism) by which a forest regenerates.

There are various types of pine trees that are stimulated into creation via lightning and drought that set forests ablaze when the heat is on. We may think the origin is outside of the tree “out there” when it is the Earth “in here” cultivating and magnetizing.

When fire is observed as taking all life, these seeds in fact are birthed.

Much like the phoenix rising from the ashes, these seed species accelerate onto a new growth course activated by forces beyond their control, but carrying inherent wisdom within.

Sometimes being burned has creative potential to activate regenerative transformation for us as well.

We may not be able to control things, but there may be something beyond current understanding that in fact knows what it is doing.

There is no black and white.

There is unlimited potential and the opportunity to choose creatively in the now, is where our power lies.

So, although today is the first day of Spring here, we in fact are immersed in a white blanket of pure grace incubating creative and unlimited potentials.

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Astrid and I wanted you all to know that although we are offline and out of sight for the time being, we are very much doing what we feel to be our parts and sending out love and support. We feel strongly that it was important to connect with all of you in the midst of this challenging time, as just because we are physically distancing worldwide doesn’t mean we are not connected. We are all in this together no matter what spectrum of experience is taking place in our individual worlds.

We feel it’s so important and valuable to us to continue to embody the highest version of ourselves in these times and bring through love and compassion in everything we do, knowing that we affect the collective vibrational experience by our individual choices and actions.

Although technology isn’t always used in the highest of ways, technology right now is a beautiful gift and way of feeling that connection and being there for our collective family worldwide.

Prayer, intention, creative visualization, meditation, sound, song, healing energy, Reiki, etc. can all be wonderful ways to help support others and the planet by distance.

And nature, of course, is a reminder and bridge to our hearts, empathic intelligence, and reflection of connection amidst diversity.

You are not helpless. You are powerful beyond measure.

Remember that.

Remember who you are.

And remember the heart is the gateway and bridge between all separation perceived and experienced.

I will continue my sabbatical through the end of March, but will return April 1st. I actually felt that I would remain offline for another three to four months beyond that, but was strongly guided to come back earlier and just be mindful of keeping balanced. We each have value to embody and I plan to do what I can to deepen into that.

I’ll share more when I return to include opening up support systems again from my offerings to those in need or wanting to really catapult in these opportune times of accelerating transformation and regeneration. We’ll also have a big Magick Rabbit storewide sale running to bring creative joy into this renewing season, which you can read about here.

May all possibilities be open to you.

I love you.

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Stepping into a New Blueprint of Life ~ Last Blog Post of 2019 as I Begin Sabbatical on the 1st of 2020


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Don’t be afraid to shine your unique light in this world. Your light will help guide the way for others and align you with life itself. ✨🌟✨May your courage deepen and the creative impetus of transformation shine brightly within you. May 2020 be the year you stand up and step forward.

It’s amazing how fast 2019 has flown and now we sit at the precipice of 2020. I remember what a big deal it was when we hit 2000, now already twenty years ago! Life is rapidly evolving and it continues to be interesting to observe what we as a collective are choosing to create here on Earth. There seems to be an increase in individual experiences branching off to form new realities. But does that mean reality splits will take place, or is it simply that courageous innovators are forging new landscapes so the rest of us can journey and merge there when ready? As with all new inventions, it takes time for the collective to get on board.

My experience, ever since the Capricorn New Moon Solar Eclipse of Christmas, has been that of a completely new blueprint being formed in a very literal way. Although viscerally felt as well, we actually have spent time drafting this intentional blueprint in the physical and have physically experienced it root.

It feels as though DNA is rearranging and awakening – a true rebirth and renewal.

This will be my last blog post of 2019 and also the last for the next several months while I honor a commitment to myself and this new blueprint. The first day of 2020 will see me begin my sabbatical, which will take me offline and off-grid for at least 3 months, to be assessed at that point if I return or need longer.

If you missed my announcement of this, you can find more details of what this means and looks like in my post Winter Solstice Sheds New Light

The Magick Rabbit Etsy Shop will remain open simply to package and ship any potential orders during that time only. We’re grateful for such a sweet year of support experienced from our creations and how these last days of 2019 saw some beautiful send-offs and full circles with the very last custom creation, a big international order that came through a cosmic rabbit connection, and even one of our original paintings offering 50% proceeds to rescue rabbits – Garden of the Gods (ocelot spirit totem) – anchoring in a new home through an Egyptian synchronicity.

Many full circle things have been taking place and even the potent renewal energies of Christmas saw my ballet shoes and tutu from childhood find their way back to me.

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My mom presented me with this box, after reading my blog post – Remember the Light that You Are ~ Christmas Eve & Christmas Eclipse Wishes of Hope & Manifestation

Finding these feels like merging and reclaiming parts of myself. They also feel symbolic of me “stepping” up and forward into the new energy with all of me, as the first photo of this post puts into action.

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My mom went on to share with me some old photos she found that she thought I might like to see again. They included this one above and the one below.

A wee faery ballerina and winter child sprinkling magick through her self expression and totally immersed in the joy of snow for one of the first times. I didn’t grow up in snow, living in Southern California, and now it is my playground in my mountain home of Tahoe.

The middle of my sabbatical will see me celebrating my 47th winter birthday within the stillness of white wonderland landscapes here. They will be my inspiration for expansion during this quiet, but deeply active time.

2019 was a big year of creativity for me, nurturing the core essence of myself, and taking pause without rushing into what was next. Things I thought I was going to do turned into embracing and doing what was more important than my ideas. What I found is that this not only aligned me with other things I’ve been patiently waiting for, but it put to rest and amplified what was also necessary to strengthen my voice. I also made some beautiful new friendships and deepened others, which have been truly enriching.

I feel much more supported and ready to take on what’s next in 2020 – even in regard to what felt most challenging. And even in the midst of unknowns, I actually have greater clarity on all fronts. I sense that the changes will speed along faster than they would have if I had tried to do them last year and that indeed the biggest level of transformation for our little family, yet experienced on all fronts of life, will be flowing in.

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During the last couple of weeks since returning home from our winter holiday abroad, Astrid has also been mirroring the changes, which is no surprise since we are deeply woven together as one.

She had time to process a lot while I was away and even experienced some dynamics shift with the cats that our sitter shared with us. Her ears, which are her antennas for tuning into the finest of frequencies, also went through some detoxing, cleansing, and rearranging. Thankfully, she’s a very healthy rabbit, but on occasion she gets extra build up of wax in her ears that she can’t clean herself. This is what took place again and so I brought her to the vet upon noticing her behavior, which confirmed that indeed she had wax build-up and some red inflammation inside. We’ve been administering ear drops since and she’ll go back for her check up on the 2nd – this Thursday and aligned with the new year – which will also include her full six month physical exam. It’s not been fun giving her the drops, as it’s very stressful for bunnies to have ears probed among other things, but she seems to be doing well and the scratching and shaking of her ears and head seemed to have dissipated. Crossing fingers, toes, and wings that that means the drops are working.

Astrid’s ears may be healing, but they are as beautiful and tuned in as ever. Clearing out the gunky wax and cooling the inflammation within feels very aligned with and symbolic of this energy of clearing out the old and burning through it to create new alchemy for 2020. It feels like she has been in preparation for the next part of our upcoming work together and having clear ears will help her to tune in ever-more deeply to the beyond and communicate telepathically with me as well.

She and I are always aligned.

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I have a feeling many of you might be sensing and experiencing similar things that I’ve described here for myself and Astrid. I have also heard from many how 2019 was really a challenging year and how much you’re looking forward to a fresh start and release to some of the pains and struggles you felt bombarded by. I know also that an increase in life transitions from this plane of existence (along with many facets of life transitioning)  have taken place this year, which has been increasingly hard for people to go through on top of the daily challenges. I sense this is going to continue to happen because of how energy is shifting rapidly and souls are finding/choosing their place in the collective experience of this. We feel it as a loss because we’re human, when Nature experiences loss every second and knows it as the fluidity of wholeness.

I’ll leave you with Lee’s 2020 Energy Forecast where he touches on the six “headlines” he senses for our upcoming collective year that reiterate my own experiences. I think it may provide you the hope and inspiration perfect to start the year off with.

These include:

  1. Blinding Clarity
  2. The Rise of Love through Death Awareness
  3. Collaboration and Teams
  4. Grounding via Nature
  5. Creativity at High Speed
  6. Heart Healing

This photo feels energetically perfect to end with – one taken of Astrid and me in our Forest Portal backyard.

We love you and wish you every possibility available for greater peace and grace.

Although we won’t be actively present in a visual way, know that we are present with you always and that you can meet with us in your heart portal.

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Wish Upon A Star


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This is my last creation for 2019 – Wish Upon A Star 🌟🐇 Magick Rabbit Keepsake Dream Chest. I think it speaks for itself and feels to embody the perfect energy and hope for our upcoming 2020 year as a collective, as well as my own journey beginning the 1st.

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I just completed this sweet custom chest yesterday for a beautiful soul.✨ She was in love with The Great Conjunction Keepsake Chest and wanted something in a similar vein that inspires her to dream bigger.

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This chest will be a place to put her dreams and wishes in to send out to the Universe like dandelion seeds carrying hopes and intentions to the stars.

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There is a sweet white angel rabbit on the front to nurture and carry her dreams into the beyond and a graceful black rabbit of The Great Mystery on the back leaping through portals of new possibility.

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The two create harmony and balance for imagination to take flight.

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There are many portals and a cosmic orb tree also part of this cosmic landscape the rabbits journey through.

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I added a Tigers Eye at the front clasp to support a life lived with courage while experiencing the enjoyment and celebration of it. This also aligns with experiencing abundance, as well as provides encouragement and hope. A great stone for new beginnings, growth, focus, self confidence, standing in your power, and grounding while working toward goals and dreams.

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We share it as a portal of inspiration and hope to gaze upon for all of you.

I love how it turned out. ✨ And Astrid does too. She sat behind me the whole time while I worked on it and then gave it the nose nudge approval when it was completed, which infused some extra rabbit magick into it.

We’ve been experiencing some sweet synchronicities since returning from the UK, which have all been connected to rabbits and other important energies in our lives, as well as an increased depth that is anchoring intentions seeded for the upcoming year and beyond. And for these, and more, we are truly grateful.

We will be sharing one more blog post to end 2019 with before I head off on my sabbatical that begins on the 1st of 2020. So stay tuned for that.

Remember that our shop will remain open while I’m on sabbatical, but just won’t have any new items being added: The Magick Rabbit Etsy Shop

Remember the Light that You Are ~ Christmas Eve & Christmas Eclipse Wishes of Hope & Manifestation


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Christmas Eve is one of my most favorite times of the year and it doubles as my sweet rabbit’s birthday (Joy) whom is now a sparkly star in the Cosmos. She was white and silvery gray, just as the coloring of this ballet headdress I’m wearing. This was the only gift I got myself while away on our holiday travels because it was so meaningful for me.

I’ve written before that during my childhood I very much wore my essence on my sleeves until around Kindergarten, when it started to take a backseat into the shadows. I loved singing and dancing and ballet was a natural expression for me. Being uninhibited with my creative self expression came easy then and I wasn’t shy about being me or performing. I was fortunate enough to play Clara in the Nutcracker and would not only be given ballet solos and got to perform at elderly homes too, but was given singing solos in the large church we were welcomed to be a part of the choir in, despite not being church members.

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So, when I saw this headdress at the Royal Opera House in London, I immediately knew it was the special thing I wanted from this trip and would be a full circle way of honoring, celebrating, and empowering that part of me even more. It would also be a reminder to continue following my dreams.

This is The Sleeping Beauty Rabbit Headdress that is part of their Animalesque bespoke collection created with fabric from the Royal Opera House costume archives. To have this from costume fabric of the classical ballet performance, is a way to honor that dream in me and a parallel timeline and reality where I believe I went on to be a classical ballerina – it’s one of the only things I often envision and wonder about how my life would have been different if that part of me had continued on.

It is a welcome centerpiece to my Wonderland office and Queen Astrid’s Faery realm – reminding me, every time I enter, to keep my dreams nurtured, alive, take action on them, and to dream even bigger. This is part of the reason I am taking my personal sabbatical, in order to fulfill a dream and promise, whereas becoming a classical ballerina I’ll have to leave to the parallel reality me.

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I share it for today because it embodies the magick of this time of year for me that sparks my inner child in very big ways. It also speaks to that “rebirthing of the light” that Winter Solstice ignites and the New Year offers as potential. And with Christmas night’s New Moon Solar Eclipse in Capricorn, there is an added energy of hope and new beginnings with strong manifestation energy available. A wonderful time to be aware of messages and signs that call to your heart to invest in following.

Christmas Eve is so full of sparkly enchantment and it’s the lights that are a big source of inspiration to me. Seeing them shine amidst the dark is not only reflective of the stars in the Cosmos, but of the sparks of light we each as a collective embody amidst the abyss of experience here on Earth.

We all have the opportunity to courageously be born again like a seed of light, as we deepen into the stillness of the dark.

There is much hope and promise within remembering the heart of who I am and what was alive within me as a child. Some of what I/we may have forgotten.

There’s an integration that takes place and frees me even more when I reclaim those parts of my essence.

What this means to me is that what ever it is I do take action to bring forth in my life, the little girl within me will be dancing her heart out while doing it, as the dream is the reality I choose to live and nothing less than that.

May your courage deepen and the creative impetus of transformation shine brightly within you.

Merry Christmas Eve and Christmas! I wish you all a wondrous holiday filled with the spirit of love, hope, kindness, inspiration, and unlimited possibilities.

 

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I leave you with this poem found and shared with me by a sweet friend one year that I’ve always loved and kept:

 

“Celebrate life, laugh and sing;

Dance with me in a faerie ring!

Sing for the elfin, the little folk all:

If your heart be pure they will heed the call.

 

If your soul be gentle and peaceful within,

You will be accepted as faerie kin.

For you the woods will glitter and shine,

And worlds of magic will always be thine.

 

For you every valley and mountain and moor,

Will lead to another faerie door.

You’ll walk with the fey folk hand in hand,

And the Earth will become an enchanted land.”

–Dolfyn

Winter Solstice Sheds New Light


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Drover’s Inn, Scotland

Magickal Winter Solstice wishes from my heart to yours! Today is one of my favorite times of the year and it felt like the perfect day to share my announcement. This day is a celebration of the longest hours of darkness, but also a rebirthing of the Sun, which mirrors the same within us – as within, so without. This creates an energetic portal for regeneration and inward focus that can lead to insightful guidance on the months and year ahead. Winter Solstice reminds you of the light that you are regardless of circumstances and that this truth of your essence will always be even in your darkest hours.

For some reason, the photo above is one of my most favorite from our trip for its symbolism and transporter effect. I took it while we were at our last stop on the day tour in Scotland at Drovers Inn, which was established in 1705. This is an 18th century original stone lodge and pub that has been welcoming travelers for over 300 years to include infamous outlaw Rob Roy MacGregor. I could literally feel the step back in time of old tales and mystique while we enjoyed refreshments by the log fire and holiday decorations. The photo feels like I am a time traveler entering into another time period and with the dark decor and early darkness outside, the illuminating candlelight felt like the flame of warmth and inner truth within being reflected without.

A perfect mirror for today’s Winter Solstice AND the perfect symbolism for the turn of events my journey is taking right now.

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Solstice and Christmas decor on our mantle – perfect illumination reflections

It couldn’t have been more perfect to be exploring castles and magickal faery lands of Scotland for the Full Moon this month, to be in such rich historical settings alongside such progressiveness (i.e. vegan being normal in the UK) during an astrologically potent month of change, and immersing in Stonehenge’s energy within days of the Solstice.

The energies experienced were perfect reflections and nurturing support to me and what I needed right now. And the essence of what I was surrounded by and walked among was telling of what is possible.

The trip came together quickly and without far-in-advance planning, so I always know that things like that are an act of flow and alignment. Having a Winter holiday was a perfect way to anchor in the change of seasons and a new turn my path is taking.

I went through very soft, subtle shifts while away, but powerful nonetheless, and they have been reflected in the interactions that have taken place with synchronous encounters, as well as dream insights, and continuous strings of confirming or guiding experiences. I love that things are more gentle and flowy these days instead of the more dramatic ways things used to happen for me.

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Outdoor Christmas tree down our street – magickal spirit of the holiday season

I knew and stated clearly on the trip what I needed to do next. My thoughts and senses building up to it became anchored. And upon returning home to our Winter Wonderland here in the mountains, the beautiful holiday lights and magickal spirit of the season continued to remind me what I needed most and would be essential for the year upcoming.

I hope you enjoy this rendition of a Christmas classic by Lee Harris and Narada Wise – one I used to sing so much as a child and performed in the church choir when I was only three years old. I so love that Lee is going deeper than ever into his musical gifts this year. I love singing and the music of the heart. There was so much caroling on our trip that we got to engage in and it reminded me how vital this aspect of myself is.

Please take a moment to be with the beauty and simplicity of this song set against the silence and wonder of a beautiful snowscape. Winter is pure, refreshing enchantment to the soul.

So, that leads me to my announcement that I am going to be taking a personal sabbatical for several months. I’ve done this once before for a three-month period when I was transitioning from life in our home in Costa Mesa to life on the Magick Bus RV traveling around.

There is a lot transitioning in our lives right now and the beginning of 2020 feels potent for life changes. I’ve also been feeling a very deep pull to go within even more and be in my own experience. And, my book is calling for me to complete it once and for all and that will be my only focus during this time outside of personal life things.

This is about taking advantage of the windows presenting themselves and following what I need to stay true to myself and what feels most important to me. Once again, I’m in a mode of needing to pull back from everything, as my contracts are done and promises I’ve made when I was given a new lease on life a few years ago need to be fulfilled that will take all of my time, effort, focus, and courage to break through any fears surrounding things. I also want to spend personal quality time in ways that I need right now only with myself, Astrid, Dave, loved ones, Nature and the Cosmos.

I have had two different urges pulling at me and this satisfies both so that I can see where the next part of my journey and life feels most nurturing to continue as.

What this personal sabbatical means and looks like on the outside is that I will basically be going underground (or underwater since I’m a Pisces) for a while – to start that looks like three months and I’ll assess how things are going at that time if I extend that or feel ready to surface again. That entails no blogging, being off of social media, not answering questions through my contact page or messages in general, etc. It also entails my not being engaged in anything other than what I mentioned above – so no more Intuitive Guidance sessions, etc.

I will still keep The Magick Rabbit Etsy Shop up for now. Since the holidays are concluding soon, orders will slow down and just shipping out packages seems manageable to me right now to have in the background since it will be sporadic and not excessive. However, if I feel something shift with that, I will close the shop and place an announcement on the shop page of temporarily being away on sabbatical.

Right now I’m feeling that this sabbatical will begin on 1/1/2020, but if something shifts I may start it sooner. In the latter case, I will make that announcement here so that my friends and readers know.

Originally I felt the potential that I would start it today, but felt that it would be better to ease into that and since I hadn’t given notice, it would allow for time to respond to any last minute messages from anyone.

But today’s Winter Solstice feels like the perfect potent portal to anchor and declare this next stage for me – a time of going within and shining my inner light to guide me through the unknown and the vast new possibilities.

I’d like to conclude with this other favorite photo of mine from our trip. It’s of enchanting Inveraray Castle of Argyll, Scotland. It is the ancestral home of the Duke of Argyll, Chief of the Clan Campbell.

This image, for me, encapsulates so much of what I’m feeling from where I stand now and what I see and feel as potentials ahead – the kingdom where faerytale stories come to life, magickal journeys are possible, mystery and romance are everyday muses, adventures of chivalry into soul courage take place, and the unknown path opens into delightful surprises…

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Inveraray Castle, Scotland – Faerytale portal where time has stopped

Time Travels Rich with Grounding Goodness


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Home again and haven’t had much time to really integrate everything yet, as the last two days upon return have been extremely full. So this is just a brief way of touching in and anchoring back, while seeing how everyone is doing so far this month. I know 2019 has been a doozy for a lot of people and this is an extremely packed energetic month with Solstice approaching and the New Moon Solar Eclipse of Christmas on the way still. You can read more about the energies in Laura’s post from yesterday at the link included. We also went through quite a powerful Full Moon. I was in Scotland for that, which felt particularly key, especially since being there was literally last minute with only days of notice.

Our trip was originally supposed to include London and Paris, but interestingly huge strikes hit Paris on the 5th and did not dissipate. The strike affected transportation and so in fact our Eurostar train tickets were cancelled and there was no way even to fly in. All things are always in divine order, so we just decided to change destination to Scotland – somewhere neither Dave nor I have been.

We’d both been to Paris and London, although many years ago. For me it had been thirty years for Paris and London and a second trip twelve years ago to London and other parts of England including Glastonbury, Avebury, and a couple of other areas including Brighton, as well as a sacred trip to Ireland.

Although Scotland was definitely a place I wanted to visit, it was meant for a brief touch-in now. We only had three days there, but it was enough to know I loved it and would love to return again.

It was interesting that not only were we there for the Full Moon, but also during the big elections taking place in the UK that really are putting into motion a big shift there.

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This was a very different trip for me, as the past has seen me always on spiritual trips to sacred areas or very nature-focused journeys. I’ve done city stuff as well, but the majority has not been that and definitely not recently. So this was a really great experience and felt very balancing and grounding.

I still always bring the deeper presence and senses with me, so everything becomes much more than meets the eye, but our main focuses were indulging in incredible vegan food explorations (of which there was tons and made the U.S. look light years behind), enjoying the culture of the cities (we took in several symphonies and orchestra performances in both destinations and enjoyed opera singing at a restaurant where the servers perform in between waiting tables), immersing in the holiday cheer (a favorite for me with everything lit up in splendor and Christmas Markets and festivities at every square), and seeing the main sights of interest to us, which included touristy kinds of things rich in history.

We packed in A LOT in the nine days we were there and we learned which things we like the most and what we would do more of and leave out for future trips. I shared a photo montage of all of the journey via Instagram and Facebook, which included incredible captures of everything we saw and put in our tummies as well. It’s very easy to pop photos up there in my off time, but doing so in blogs is much too time consuming. I hope that if you’re on those platforms you can get a chance to see the photos, as I love sharing the inspiration and energy.

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What I do feel inspired to share are some of the photo captures of me at some of my favorite areas that seem to reveal how I felt like a time-traveler and literally did feel as if I was stepping into a different part of myself, as well as had new layers of myself activated simply by being there. I also felt like time stepped outside of time and a parallel reality ripped open that I was walking in the entire trip. I was me, but not me.

It was interesting to me that the minute we stepped from airport to taxi in Scotland, I smacked my skull hard on the roof of the car while getting in. Luckily I didn’t have any issues, although temporarily for a couple of minutes was a painful crack that even knocked my jaw closed bringing teeth to teeth. I didn’t react because I knew I was getting my welcome activation with a crown chakra opening by stepping back here again for the first time this life.

I really love Scotland even though we were mostly only in Glastonbury and one day took a full day countryside tour to get a feel for the outlying magickal areas.

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I was definitely swept back into times I’ve experienced there before. The castles and the land are pure magick and the Christmas Market there was just so sweet and made me so happy.

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All that we experienced both there and in London was amazing and our last day touring Stonehenge for two hours was a perfect closing day that ended with my getting to be with the bronze statue of Peter Pan in Kensington Gardens. The statue warmly greeted me with rabbits and faeries all around the base. Weeeeeee!

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Between the two – Stonehenge and Peter Pan – I was transported into a gentle and soft deepening of my essence. A perfect way to bring closure to the journey and start anew.

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I sat at Stonehenge and received visions of the area as a Stargate and felt the subtle continuation of inner awakenings that seemed to be reflected in interesting exchanges with people that took place.

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Originally we were going to be seeing a show at the Moulin Rouge in Paris that this year just happened to be titled Féerie (Faery in English), but this was apparently still the plan for me, as unbeknownst to me Dave got us tickets for a symphony in Glastonbury where I learned we’d be listening to The Faery Queen Suite by Purcell. What are the chances of this all going on while I was there? 😉

I have so many friends in England, Ireland and Scotland, but unfortunately this trip I could not connect with anyone as we were very much in need of our own immersion and personal space to experience what was there for us on this much needed vacation, as well as celebratory and exploratory trip. I know I’ll be back, so future trips will definitely have room for connections.

Overall, the trip reiterated to me that a new time is upon me and us as a collective. I hope to post something on the Solstice and it may include an announcement that was part of the confirmation and clarity the trip gave to me.

Until then, I do hope that everyone is doing well and embracing the opportunity of these energies to look within for the true light that is you, despite what is going on around you.

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Farewell for Now


astrid.jpgIt’s always bitter sweet to be leaving on vacation, as the mix of excitement for the journey ahead merges with the sadness of leaving behind my best friend. Thankfully, Astrid and her sibling kitties Boojum and Sweet Pea have the best playmate and sitter one could ask for and thankfully she and I connect telepathically and in dreams. Still, it’s hard to say even a temporary farewell, especially when Astrid and I have been growing even closer these last few weeks through a lot of the changes we’re sharing.

Nonetheless, tomorrow is take-off day as we depart overseas for some international travel in Europe – the first time since Australia in 2017 that I leave the country with my newly renewed passport.

It’s been quite some time since I’ve been in Europe – 12 years to be exact – but it’s been on our radar a lot lately and things lined up to make this trip happen.

Some other things have lined up to also alter a small portion of the trip, clearly aligning us with what’s for the highest good, as we had to change part of our plans at the last minute this morning due to things going on overseas. The Universe always has a very deliberate way of redirecting me, as energies shift. The same thing happened the last time we tried to leave for a trip at the start of this year. I always know that there are good reasons for the changes.

Anyway, I just wanted to send my warmest wishes to everyone and let my friends and readers know that I will be away from blogging while away. I’ll be returning to the states on the 17th, but then have some important things happening in the days upon coming home that may keep me from blogging for a while – perhaps not until the 20th or so. I will be on before Christmas though and especially before the New Year with announcements.

If you’re on Instagram or Facebook I may share some bits of our journey while I’m away on those platforms – although not sure how much I’ll be online or not since I’m not getting a phone plan and will only have wifi access mostly in the hotel.

So until then, lots of love. I know there are a lot of potent astrological transits this month, including a big Full Moon while I’m away. I wish you an illuminating couple of weeks and a transformational month!

Revisiting “Preparing the Way”


Some of you may not know I have a YouTube Channel although I haven’t posted any new videos for a few years. I started it while living in the RV to share inspired messages and sound channelings that came through along the journey. I first shared this video in June of 2016. It’s called, Preparing the Way and it has been in my heart a lot lately, as I reflect on the upcoming year.

It came through on a very sacred day of supporting and guiding a precious soul in my life into the afterlife on the first day of Summer after the Solstice Full Moon. I went for a walk as a way to center and balance and checked in on my friend’s dog since everyone had gone hiking while I stayed with my beloved. I was sitting in a waterfront cabin on Lake Hebgen in West Yellowstone, facing the water as this moved through me. It was also a nurturing way to bring peace and healing to myself during a challenging time. It is dedicated to Joy.

What flowed through I feel speaks to the transitional energy right now of one thing becoming something altogether new, and so I felt guided to post it in case it is supportive to someone, as it is for me then AND now. This is the reason for this surprise blog amidst a busy week.

I’ve been revisiting the channelings and find that they feel even more relevant now. Perhaps when we do things from our heart and essence it stamps that eternal timelessness on it.

I am also literally currently “preparing the way,” as I prep for leaving this Saturday on a meaningful trip. However, this speaks to much more than the travels ahead, but to the fullness of the journey awaiting then and beyond.

And speaking of “preparing the way.” Tomorrow will end our Magick Rabbit Mega Holiday Sale – it will go through midnight on the 5th of December.

It’s not just the last day of the sale, but the last day to get orders in before I leave on vacation to ensure your gifts arrive for Christmas.

A lot has moved on to loving homes, but we still have some sweet stocking stuffer ideas and unique items that are all handmade and start as low as only $16.96. We also have only 3 Magick Rabbit ornaments left that are $6.99 each if interested (they’re not in the shop). Everything is 10-50% off, which includes incredible deals on original art with 50% proceeds going to rescue rabbits.

Hop and shop here: The Magick Rabbit Etsy Shop

 

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