Friday was a particularly key day here at the Forest Portal, when for the second time a sweet little one found her way into my care. You may remember Fiver the mouse last year who truly touched my life in the short time he and I had together. And just three days ago, it was Strawberry the chipmunk who carved out another place in my heart. I often find myself in a guardian and caretaker role to create sacredness and reverence around our animal brothers and sisters – and especially so for the most vulnerable ones.
While Fiver’s journey was beautiful and full circle in the natural cycles, Strawberry’s experience met with happier endings in terms of how our human hearts view things.
As you know from a recent blog post, Dave and I have been readying our garage to be organized and spiffed up. This included resurfacing the floor – quite a project Dave did himself – and involved thorough cleaning to prep it, and then filling in cracks in the cement with a thick repair epoxy that you apply, and finally refinishing with a strong epoxy paint finish to seal it nicely. Well, on Friday, he’d just finished the second half of the garage with the cement repair, which was drying, before finalizing the last round of paint. He then was inside working, while I got the feeling I should water my Garden Tower and plants outside. So, I went into the garage to look for my large two-gallon watering can I’d given to Dave to use for the cleaning process of the garage floor.
I walked in to look around, and immediately my eyes went to the left side of the garage where I saw movement. I knew right away it was a chipmunk who had gotten herself stuck in the drying cement epoxy. Dave had the garage door open to help it to dry, which he’d done the previous days of work, as well, but today a little one became extra curious with layers of messages and experiences tied into that choice.
I acted fast, as she was obviously frightened and desperately struggling to free herself, which was NOT going to happen on her own.
If I hadn’t shown up when I did I’m convinced she would have struggled to death with exhaustion and further emotional and physical torment, as her fragile body would not have been able to handle it, and nobody was going to go back in the garage for a while since it was drying.
Chipmunks are prey animals and extremely vulnerable and sensitive (like rabbits), despite their adventurous bravery. Plus, with that free-spiritedness comes a restlessness and desire for them to be free. This was not only “killing” her spirit, but would ultimately be her demise.
I acted fast, knowing I had to free her. I couldn’t do it with my hands, as that stuff was just too thick, plus I wasn’t sure how she would react to my handling her. So I found gardening gloves on the shelf and went to work very cautiously and gently removing each part of her body (mostly the right side) from the silvery goop imprisoning her. It only took a minute and once I had her free I yelled for Dave to come help me.
He had no idea what I was yelling about, but arrived in surprise to find me standing there holding a little chipmunk gingerly in my hands. I told him we needed to see if we could wash some of the stuff off somehow, so he immediately grabbed a bucket and went in to fill it with water and some Dawn we had on hand – which is the stuff they used to remove the oil on ocean wildlife during the spills. It was also the only stuff that worked best with Cosmo when I had to wash him, so we still had it on hand luckily.
I held her gently and she seemed to understand and didn’t struggle much, while Dave gently rubbed around her right eye, which we felt was most important, as she had it closed and the outside was fully covered, as well as the fur around it. We got as much as we could off while the stuff was still somewhat wet, but it was impossible to get everything, as it is super thick and already hardening, as well as we couldn’t rub her too hard. But we did free her eye so she could open it. Dave went to work on the rest of her body as much as possible and he got a decent amount (maybe 1/3 or more), but still she had a layer covering the right of her body, her back, and her legs.
She’d been moving a bit in my hands, but started to slow down and stopped moving. We decided to stop because she was likely in shock and any further torment would have been too much. It’s enough that she got stuck, but now she was being held, which prey animals don’t like.
So, I told Dave to get a box with towels for her and food. I held her nestled in a towel in my hands (I had removed the gloves now, as I wanted her to feel the closeness and warmth of my touch rather than the distant, non-organic gloves), as she went into a fetal position and gave her Reiki while I envisioned her healed and whole. He came back out and we wiped her a bit to try to dry her and then I put her in the towels so she could balance back and dry.
I didn’t realize Dave had also gotten his camera and before I knew it he took this photo of us, which caught me in my sadness.
I ended up sitting with her for an hour, as she didn’t move. She laid in the same fetal position and I knew she was traumatized by it all and at this point I was worried that it had been too much for her little heart, as her breathing was labored and nearly non-existent at times. I decided to get one of my amethyst crystals for her and put it in with her to aid her in calming down and balancing out.
I stayed with her, breathed with her, flowed fluid Cosmic light through to her to fill her body, and caressed her crown now and then. All the while my heart and eyes filled with tears that I brushed away in order to be there for HER. If she was going to pass, I didn’t want her to be alone. So I continued giving her Reiki and I told her, “I love you,” several times.
She kept hanging in there and I had the sunlight on her to keep her warm while her wet fur dried.
While this was going on Dave had called our local wildlife rescue, whom I also called for Fiver, and we called once for a dove too (who ended up being okay). They didn’t answer, but I was glad they hadn’t, as I remembered that when I told them of Fiver, they said there was nothing they could do and if I wanted to bring him in they wanted me to know that they would feed him to their rescue predator birds. I knew he would be better off living the rest of his time nurtured and in comfort and peace with me….I felt the same for this little chipmunk sweetie, whom I now knew was in my care and relied on me for knowing her choices she would want supported.
I didn’t know if she’d turn around or not, so I told Dave we should find a bigger box to keep her in while she recovered and we nursed her. So he did, and made holes in the top for air, then I gathered pine needles, pine cone, some branches, put in two towels, and we added some raw unsalted hazelnuts and pieces of apple to create a little healing sanctuary for her. I included the amethyst once again.
I placed her gently inside (you can see her on the left of the box above) and brought her indoors into my room so I could be with her, and kept the top closed and door closed so the cats didn’t know she was there, which avoided any added stress of their energy around her.
I kept checking on her, but she didn’t move much.
Just breathed, blinked her eye sometimes, and slightly moved her front fingers. I gently touched her back legs, as they had the most stuff on them, feeling worried they might petrify, and rubbed her gently on her head and back to soothe her with Reiki. But mostly left her in peace to recuperate.
Intuitively I felt she was a girl, whereas Fiver the mouse and Blueberry the baby rabbit I felt were boys. I decided to confirm all of this with my pendulum, which it did. I then immediately got that her name would be Strawberry. For one, it was a chipmunk that ate my strawberries before I netted my Garden Tower and potted plants. Two, it felt to be the perfect partnering name to my wild baby bunny, Blueberry (who just as I wrote that ran by my office). And three, she is just so sweet….like a Strawberry.
We had to leave for an evening Beethoven symphony, so I put Strawberry in a safe room with box lid closed on top of that so she wouldn’t be disturbed and I have to say that the whole time listening to the classical music I thought of her and sent her energy, anxious to go home and see how she was. We were bonded and connected now.
When we got home I found that not only had she moved, but she was up and about sitting on her back legs as these little ones do and cleaning her face with her paws. She then went off to hide/nestle comfortably in the towel under the pine needles, so I figured it was time to say goodnight and wish her sweet dreams. Her wet fur from cleaning her had dried AND she’d eaten quite a bit of the food. YAY!! This was a great sign.
I gave her more food for the night and told Dave that I felt if she continued well the next morning, that we should release her, as I could sense she would be miserable and not do well by being trapped in the box. She’s far too free-spirited and explorative – and sharing that essence myself, I knew that would not be supportive for her. I was prepared to care for her for however long she needed, but the least amount of disturbance to her nature was best, if in fact she was capable of going out on her own.
I went to bed feeling lighter and optimistic, grateful I had found her, she was doing better, and that she chose me for this journey.
The next morning I checked on her again and she’d eaten more food and had continued moving around. Her untouched/non-epoxy coated fur looked fluffy, and when I gently nudged her, she was moving all four legs and feet spritely like her chipmunk self.
True to her chipmunk self and what she symbolizes, she wasn’t going to let anything get her down. Depression isn’t part of their M.O., as they maintain positive outlooks on life always, teach us how to view things lightly, and never let the idea of failure get to them.
Strawberry seems like the perfect mascot for the Summer Solstice Gratitude Giveaway that just kicked off today with 39 committed souls.
They are also great leaders in bringing harmony and fulfillment to life, as they know how to balance dedication to work with playfulness and fun. They turn hardworking into an artform of adventure, where discovering new things is their joy and the way to make things more pleasureful in the process.
They also enjoy solitude and that’s just what Strawberry was needing. She mostly wanted to hide in the towels and I don’t blame her, as this was all quite the adventure she likely didn’t have a clue would be this tough.
I do have to say that she was the sweetest and trusted me fully, as I never handled her again with gloves after the first initial phase and she never tried to scratch, bite, or do anything to me. We had an understanding.
We decided it was time to release her so we took her box outside my sliding door on the deck. Dave gently turned the box on its side while I held everything in place so she had a soft and easy transition with the movement. Dave then taped the box in a way it provided a small opening on the left where she could come and go as she pleased, but would keep out any larger animals.
In this way, she could choose to stay or go, and had a safe and warm place with food if she so desired or found herself not feeling as well as she thought she was.
Astrid had been a part of the whole experience, and along with me, was nurturing Strawberry with energy through the day, night, and morning. And when we took her outside and placed her down, Astrid was at the door watching over it all, as you can see here.
Dave left and I stayed a bit giving her energy and told her she could go. I put lots of protection and energy all around her for when she did decide to leave, and intended the healing energy would stay with her as long as she needed. I went inside to let her be, while I worked at my desk keeping the corner of my eye on if she went. I checked about a half hour to forty five minutes later and she was still there huddled in a corner.
I went back in and immersed in things, releasing any need to see her leave, and returned about a half hour or more to check and she was gone.
Strawberry was free, and although her fur would take time for the stuff to completely go through natural cleaning, shedding, and rubbing against nature and the elements, I knew she’d be okay and have quite the story to chat about with her friends. Chipmunks are great with communication, and hence message to us our ability to be good with words, spoken or written. So, it’s no wonder I’m telling her story now, as she chirps it in my ears to give voice to her experience.
It didn’t take her long, as several hours later, when Dave completed the last step of painting the second half of the garage floor, I was called out to the garage again to get something. The second I opened the door and stepped in, what do you know?
Another chipmunk was inside exploring, and had ventured over to the side where Strawberry had gotten stuck. (A chipmunk just ran by my office, as I wrote this – too fast to check who it was). Anyway, luckily all that cement goop was dry and the paint wasn’t sticky and had already started its process so this little one didn’t fall on the same experience. As soon as he/she saw me they ran back out through the small opening Dave had left for the drying.
Strawberry hadn’t wasted any time telling the others how she got herself into the Faery Realm with Astrid and Faery T.
And that’s how Strawberry came into my life for a couple of days, and yet her presence lingers strongly in heart and here in the Forest Portal.
She won’t be hard to spot (at least until she fully gets the stuff off of her fur), so we’re keeping an eye out for sweet little Strawberry.
I took many things away from the experience – from the simple to complex.
Some of it included things just for Dave, some for me, some for Astrid and myself, and indeed for Strawberry herself. Some of it in relation to the symbolism I mentioned chipmunks embody and some of it simply messages I derived from current experiences in our lives.
There was also the collective message to me that keeps coming up in theme of how mindfulness and thinking ten steps ahead is necessary, as to the possible repercussions and far reach things can have beyond your immediate experience. Humans and nature living in harmony isn’t something most people think about, nor how everything we do affects nature’s cycles. Ideas of progress don’t take into account nature in that mix. Technology can be used in ways that enhance and work with nature, rather than completely against it. Perhaps that’s part of why I love living in the mountains and on the forest, and why I like to keep our landscape as natural as possible, so as to blend with nature rather than change it. Our house has a lawn it came with, but I let the clover and other plants and flowers the little animals love munching on, growing on it. Things like fixing/painting your garage can be dangerous, as you saw in this story and it makes me ever-more determined to be diligent in finding ways to not repeat what I, others, or our ancestors have done to Earth’s children. I always drive slow because of all of the animals that cross the street and that I’ve seen killed by recklessness. We can always do better and at any given moment, do our best.
Native Americans view chipmunks as messengers of luck and fortune – sometimes also carelessness and yet even though they don’t think before acting, they are still lucky.
I’d say that’s accurate for little Strawberry and perhaps she might be sprinkling some of her good vibes on us about something good being on its way. Chipmunks are said to grant wishes that reflect your most treasured heart’s desires. Hmmm!
She’s definitely made an impact and through her luck, she taught us to think more like a chipmunk so as to better our lives and theirs.
I also found it interesting that she may be reflecting a message for Dave, since he had done the garage work. He recently has come upon an injury likely from skiing that got aggravated through biking and is waiting on an MRI to see what the issue is. He can still hike, but any weird turns/twists of his leg/groin area causes pain. He told me how it had him very down and worried until the last day or so, as he’s very active – like a chipmunk – and not being able to get out and do the outdoor adventurous stuff he loves, puts a damper on his spirits.
I feel Strawberry was messaging him to keep his spirits up. Even though she also was incapacitated and stuck, she didn’t give up. And while she may carry that odd fur for a while, she’s still going to enjoy life and not let it get her down. A chipmunk must keep that free spiritedness nurtured, which is why I wanted to release her as soon as possible but only if I knew she could walk and was strong. So, like her, Dave too will be ok and have his legs in working order as he likes again to get skiing and biking once things resolve and go through their healing process. Perhaps he just needs some rest and recuperation like she did, and a new perspective, with some Faery dust on top.
Synchronously, the next day after she left, Dave and I went to Tahoe Meadows for a different hike than our usual, which inspired him and got his spirits high again. He found that he could do more hiking than he thought and went out again this morning on his own for an adventure.
As for me, since I mentioned shadow work with the garage metaphor recently in a blog, Strawberry felt representative of this and how quickly we can integrate healing when we bring things to light and invite things to be seen. We all have vulnerable spots and not all of them are always hidden. And with consistent work, they become easy to see.
Strawberry showing up felt symbolic of how ease has come to this process and that things aren’t hidden anymore in my life. They also aren’t things that are bigger than me, nor scary. So while chipmunks definitely remind us of quick journeys into secret passageways, tunnels and doorways, she definitely wasn’t hiding from me – nor do I hide parts of myself away from myself anymore.
She reminded me of my most vulnerable part being my heart and that it’s capacity for love is a huge gift.
She reminded me of what is most meaningful in my life at this time, which is being a voice for the vulnerable and innocent ones – especially the big spirits in little bodies – and to use my gifts merged with theirs to inspire harmony.
She reminded me that this is and always has been my gift – to work with the animals and to be a channel for their message.
She reminded me that my home is an animal sanctuary and all that live in the forest know and I’ll be called upon again and again as a Faery godmother and guardian to those in need.
And to all of that I say yes and humbly embrace the hand they offer me.
When I held Strawberry in my hands, just like with Fiver, Cosmo, Astrid, Joy, Nestor, Gaia….and all of my little ones who have been in my life, all I can feel is both the fragility and endurance of life and love that breathes in that moment and the greatest of honor and responsibility granted for me to embrace.
To have their trust means everything to me. I will never take that for granted.
Strawberry is part of the Forest Realm and I can’t help but feel her actions that day were made with wise intention for us all, including herself. I sense a part of her who has been curious looking in on Astrid and myself in our Faery portal room got the best of her. She may have acted rash, but with chipmunk luck on her side she not only got to walk away with the greatest tale to share with the other chipmunks about what it’s like on the other side of the glass, but she got to receive the love of a Faery and her Faery bunny, enjoyed a decadent feast, and has the silver and Reiki lined fur and body to prove it.
Strawberry became a legend herself, as the magick chipmunk of the Forest Portal.
Days have been CRAZY busy lately and increasingly will be in the coming weeks, as we prepare for moving in and remodeling continues to rapidly increase with overlapping contractors to accommodate that. Although work will continue through January, we should have enough done upstairs to get in at Thanksgiving, as long as things continue as they are. We’re also flowing with what shows up and ready to adjust that timing if need be.
We weren’t able to find a general contractor we liked and was affordable to handle everything that we are, so we are the general contractors to our 15 or so different contractors, at times shifting the responsibilities back and forth, as well as sharing them together to manage it all.
It’s A LOT (as many of you may know from your own experience), as it isn’t just one simple change here and there like just new flooring, choosing paint colors, or remodeling say a kitchen or bath. It basically has entailed literally gutting/demoing most of the entire inside of the house and starting from scratch, other than the foundational footprint and layout. Our first time doing a full-on remodel, as the closest we came was in our Costa Mesa house, which we redid a lot in, but nothing like to this extent AND there we actually had a general contractor. So it’s been a great process of learning and understanding how it all works.
The entire outside hasn’t been touched (other than adding our new 8 Austrian Pines and adding a walkway bridge from my new office here shortly), but the inside is getting a whole new face lift on every level, which to me symbolizes transforming things on the inside for us too.
When Spring comes we’ll look at working on the yard and implementing some ideas there. Step by step.
On top of this, we also had to manage, and in some cases did the work ourselves, some changes and fixes to our tree house condo to prepare it for the new tenants. So we’ve been managing both places, on top of scheduling everything to align timing-wise with all that each entails. You throw in regular life, work, our other side projects we manage together, and my editing and what not, and it’s quite a lot to juggle. We may not have human children, but we do have animal children, all of whom are very sensitive, and we can tell that they are anxious to get to the new place too and so we do our best to keep equilibrium with everything and hold peace for it all.
It’s not always the easiest thing to do when there is so much being thrown at you at once. It can kind of get overwhelming, so you do need to have those anchors in place to center and balance you back so you don’t get caught up in the stress. That entails a lot of flexibility and willingness to readjust your position, and for us, has strengthened our clarity with how to communicate with others and ourselves, and of course never take something personally. I/we are learning so much through this process, not to mention, growing in new ways.
So while things might appear the same on the outside of our new home, they in fact will be operating from a whole new internal circuitry, shifting us into a different feeling experience and reality. The new trees outside are rooting new pathways for us and connection to the forest and bigger picture collective reality we’re settling into, but the foundation is solid on which we’re working from, which is good.
So, since the foundation and structure is strong, that feels anchoring of the new we’ve been working on that is solid and in place already, which is holding everything together while we reconfigure, continue to shift, upgrade, integrate, assimilate, grow into the more expansive shoes holding space for us, and create what this new is like on the inside. The fun part is, it’s all our creative choice as to how we want that to feel and look.
It’s interesting that my foot has healed just as the major crunch time with the house is happening too and timely because Dave hadn’t been feeling well the last two weeks so there were things I needed to take over, which driving and walking allowed for. Everything sort of rewired at the same aligned time and it’s been cool that I used the forest backyard as part of my strengthening of my foot and the backdrop for all of this inner circuitry of moving parts and people weaving together.
Needless to say, this is simply a little break I’m taking to provide this update, as it feels reflective of things that others might derive some symbolism from too and may mirror what you’re experiencing, from one perspective of how to view them that you may not have thought of.
Plus, it’s always therapeutic, I find, to write about things and move energy.
It also lends to why you will increasingly see less posts during this crunch time, or very simple ones, because simply I’m quite occupied in other areas right now – like BIG TIME!
So much so that even my editing has had to take the back burner for the last nearly week (with sporadic bursts when I could), so that I can not only attend to things needed, but stay on top of self nurturing, rest, and keeping balanced.
I don’t force things simply because I have a goal, because ultimately if I’m not at my best, I can’t give my best to anything and what I create will only be a small or smaller percentage of its potential.
This home base feels key right now.
I have also found that currently this approach of flowing with the energy that shows up has been ideal for my editing (I’m on my second run-through of my book) because now and then we need to step away from things to return with a fresh perspective, sometimes completely removing ourselves altogether from it for a time period.
So unless I get a very strong message that I really need to amp things up to align the timing of my book with things energetically, I’ll be inclined to trust what is showing up as where to focus, so I will be invigorated when I return to it and the process will be speedy, rather than feel labored or take ages to work through even a few sentences.
Of course, we can self-sabotage ourselves and find ways to avoid things, so it’s important to stay on top of authenticity, responsibility, and being honest with ourselves for why we are or aren’t doing something.
I check in constantly to make sure of this and am assured that right now there is a window available of letting it sit in the background percolating, while I put into place important things and keep healthy and strong.
But I assure you that I do feel a sense of timing with my book, yet trust as long as I keep moving the energy in some way, I’ll know when to jump back in fully. And I also know when I do, that it will flow more easily than what I felt right before I stepped away to handle other things. The energy was heavier and not fluid, as I usually feel. Hence, a perfect transition time.
Amidst it all, I do still feel peace mixed with excitement, as well as moments of overwhelm mixed with complete surrender. There’s that feeling of perfection with the now and also this anticipation for the new anchoring. There’s that gratitude for all that has been to create the now and also this wonder about what I can envision becoming. So yes, lots of duality dancing with each other in balance, which I only differentiate when I write, in order to explain what takes place as this simultaneously seamless experiencing.
Perhaps it’s much like my hair’s unified duality that you see here in the most recent reflective photo of me beginning this new phase of my life.
I’ve also noticed Astrid is going through her own transitions with things right now too, which isn’t surprising. She is definitely reconfiguring things for herself, too, and learning what it means to be loved for who she is, which is encouraging her to discover how she really wants to share herself not because of fears or conditioning, but because it’s simply what feels right for her. So she’s working that out through explorations.
Interestingly, I have been getting ideas for the next project already, so I know that if that is anchoring, just as the house anchored in foundation while we rework the insides, that the infrastructure and insides of my book will rework themselves too in perfect timing.
Anchoring seems to be key, at least in my experience, then the pieces start to come together with the rest.
In the interim, so many animal spirit guides show up consistently for me due to my strong connection there, reflecting their own pieces of the story.
So many in recent weeks have shown up, that hadn’t for some time like the bears, the deer, and countless little ones all around.
I even had a hawk again outside our deck visiting several days ago. This time soaring with deliberate intent for me to see. You might remember the one that came and landed on the banister looking in on me. Well, this one my own hawk eye caught sight of down quite a ways below. I told Dave immediately, “watch, he’s going to come to us.”
And he did.
He suddenly turned around and started soaring closer and closer until he literally was soaring directly in front of our door going to the right first, disappearing at roof level, then soaring back to the left and directly in front again, then disappearing above one more time, and back to the right until he then flew off. Three fly-by’s, but each soaring in place so I could see all his feather detail and he confirmed hearing me tell Dave he was coming.
Hawk always feels to me to be about navigating and staying on path with deep presence and awareness, being open to and taking in wider perspectives, trusting my insights as they speak my truth, taking decisive actions with strength of vision and initiative behind them after surveying all creative possibilities, and knowing I have the ability to move through anything with grace and am being watched over by divine guardianship. Definitely good confirmation for it being time to bring forth gifts into action, but also a time to not act impulsively and await those air stream propulsions by assimilating everything to create alchemical alignment.
And just a few days, while on our way home, I counted 17 hawks that showed themselves (I think the most has been 44), and as we were on our way back up the mountain to our tree house – I was driving – my hawk eye caught two coyotes to the right at the side of the mountain.
They were very camouflaged and otherwise would not be seen, unless you knew where to look and how to make them out. I immediately told Dave and pointed, slowing down, and he saw them while remarking how much they blended in.
I normally have only see one coyote at a time, but two together felt significant.
Their medicine speaks to me of all things being sacred – so yes even the uncomfortable processes and the times you feel all you can do is focus on survival – that laughter and playfulness is always important to have running behind the scenes (a big one for me that I keep cultivated), about cunning and knowing how to balance risk and safety, about adaptability and the need to stay flexible always especially in seeing another way, about instinct being important to connect to, and yes about that trickster energy, but more about having integrated dual sides skillfully of wisdom and foolishness that help us learn. As way-makers they’ve been known by many to be symbolic of endings and making way for new beginnings. They also are known to mate for life and know how to nurture and protect their family – that stands out to me in seeing two this time for the first time.
And not more than two minutes after, my hawk eye caught two deer to the left on the side of the mountain this time. I slowed down again to point out to Dave who then saw them, remarking it was quite a wildlife sighting day. 🙂
The coyotes medicine was balanced out, and in some ways enhanced, with deer medicine of love, grace, gentleness, compassion, innocence, peace, beauty, fertility, femininity, humility, swiftness, acceptance, regrowth, renewal, creativity, spirituality, psychic power, subtlety, higher connection, awareness, abundance, benevolence, and watchfulness. Interesting to note there were TWO again. Really emphasizing that divine union, duality in balance, and sacred relationship with the parts within and without.
Interesting that there was predator and then prey – another balance exhibited in Nature’s cycles and not too far off from collective things exhibiting themselves a lot these days.
I will continue to draw upon their meanings for me personally, as I move through these full days and equally full and symbolic nights of layered dreams and even more animals spirit guides showing up in them to include, bat, spider, cats, and rabbits.
There is much going on with everyone everywhere and not only is there a lot of things being unveiled in the collective as well, surfacing as challenges in order to help to heal, but I know of many dear friends going through huge hurdles right now and I can’t help but feel both a sense of withdrawal to preserve my energy, but also this inversion within that withdrawal of deepening into greater ways of being able to share my love with them all. More duality playing out in a unified way that makes sense only to the heart.
I wish everyone greater peace with all that you are experiencing directly or indirectly. It’s something I constantly work on for myself as well, to know peace and harmony more intimately by the day.
We are reconfiguring things for sure and where it leads is unknown, but can only be navigated by a heart anchored in love.
Well, bear magick and medicine was at it again. Just two days ago, four beautiful black bear showed up on my path, along with the abundant Kokanee salmon, during what was a short, but ever potent and rich experience. The last time bear had visited was near the end of Winter, when they were coming out of hibernation a bit early and now to see them preparing and fattening up for Winter, is definitely another full circle experience. Not to mention the timing for me/us that is also full circle, marking the ending and beginning of things. Paired together with the symbolism of salmon, I’m feeling the depth of these animal spirit guides’ reflections anchoring alongside the mirroring journey of my life.
It was a gorgeous late afternoon where we’d planned to meet up with our friends Bean and Happy at Taylor Creek, before heading to a dual purpose dinner party (welcoming our friends/guests Paul Shapiro, vice president of policy for The Humane Society of the United States and his girlfriend Toni Okamoto, founder of Plant Based on a Budget and author of The Super Easy Vegan Slow Cooker Cookbook to town and a going away party for Bean and Happy – boo!), so they could see the salmon before leaving Tahoe yesterday morning on their next adventure. It ended up being the perfect send-off for them, as well as the perfect celebration for us.
Our friends had arrived their well before us and were checking out all of the salmon, after doing the short Rainbow Trail there. Dave and I arrived about a 30-45 minutes after them and made our way down the trail too – my second short Nature walk in the last few days without crutches since having my boot, as the previous day my parents had visited to take me to lunch, followed by a walk along Zephyr Cove.
Everyone that passed me along the trail kept saying, “oh you’re so brave and hard-core,” to which I would just giggle not thinking I was doing anything extraordinary except getting out in nature, which seems natural to me!
I got lucky that because my boot slows me down, I came into the clearing just as mom and two cubs had also just arrived. Dave had gone ahead to find our friends and unfortunately missed them. I had just enough time to watch them stand up and look at me, then scurry off behind mom in the trees.
If you look closely in this photo you will see the two cubs at middle, center looking at me from the other side of the creek’s bank.
And here’s mom and mom and a cub to the left in the trees.
I was then joined by Bean, who so sweetly had come after me to see how I was getting along in case I needed help, but sadly the mom and cubs were gone, so we moved on ahead and joined Dave and Happy, checking out the salmon. As we continued further a solo black bear appeared and we spent quite some time watching him fish for salmon.
I was so happy another one showed up, as I had hoped Bean and Happy would get to see a bear before they left, and so they did! Perfect! And wonderful energy with it all for them, as they are branching out into new directions to explore.
All of this took place only several yards away, as we watched from the bridges and platforms, which made it even more special to view them so close in their natural setting.
This guy turned to me and asked, “can you run?” as he looked at my boot. I said, “no.” He replied, “then we’re safe” and laughed. LOL!
Well, I never felt threatened anyway, but did get a giggle out of that. Of course Happy turned to me and said, “I wouldn’t leave you behind if that happened.” Aw!!
Anyway, they were beautiful cinnamon coated bears and truly magnificent to watch. But so were the salmon. Just tons of them, as well as large crawfish, beautiful ducks, and gorgeous Autumn landscapes and lighting that truly made everything magickal.
These are some photos that Bean took with her better camera of the stunning salmon.
I marveled at the symbolism of it all and how perfectly reflective it was for me, once again.
Salmon symbolize returning home to regenerate, overcoming obstacles, end of a cycle and a new start, drive despite challenges to return to their origins (home), creativity, growth, maturity, abundance, enthusiasm, remaining in harmony with Nature’s rhythms rather than fighting them (flowing with the currents beneath the surface), not being deterred by seeming impossible odds, having a strong drive to reproduce in order to feel peace (however this is not just about children, but about anything creative – this runs the gamut from artful masterpieces to the next great novel, one source says), having very strong desires/passions and ability to tirelessly manifest them, enjoying life and sharing those richness with others (Native Americans see them as symbols of wealth, abundance, and providence), and remaining innocent, childlike, light-hearted, and open always. Salmon have shown up now a few times since our Magick Bus RV adventure, which has been a beautiful reflection each time and timely now once again.
Bears symbolize fearless ancient medicine, empowered Sacred Feminine energy and that Divine Mother embodiment, strength, transformative energy, and courage we have within to call upon in order to take action without fear, while remaining grounded and in rhythm with Earth and Nature’s cycles. They remind us of observing ourselves in every moment and self-reflecting, knowing the timing on things and aligning with the “when” and “where” to unfold divinely, teaching us laws of respect and boundaries and strengthening and voicing our own, as well as honoring those around us, and reflecting natural leader abilities within that invite relaxing into and bringing forth in innocent, creatively passionate ways that share the vitality of our own unique self-expression. Bears have been very potent for me also since the Magick Bus, and become near and dear. The last time they showed up, as mentioned, was linked with coming out of hibernation for me with creative rebirthing, which was exactly what happened on every level of my life and what Dave and I have been creating this year, as well as what I have (especially with my book). However, now I’m seeing the bears in this heightened state of nourishing and fattening up for the Winter, which feels perfect to both my book and personal life situations being nurtured, where there will be a turning within to the home and finalizing my book with editing and preparations to take it to the next step during Autumn and Winter.
This brings me to my exciting news that reflects all of this.
Yesterday was a big day for us, as we became the official, very happy owners of our new dream home! All culminating the morning after our bear and salmon encounters on a gorgeous day, as you can see here of a quick snap I took on our drive through Gardnerville to handle business. A morning that included five geese, a hawk, and sweet jackalopes (bunny reindeer) that were reflecting the support at every uncanny turn.
I’ll just share briefly that we’ve spent the last year here in Tahoe really deepening into our desires and dreams, working on building foundations and roots to support all of that, and listening to guidance on everything, which included lots of personal projects we accomplished in rapid speed, and big decisions around anchoring versus a plethora of other ideas that hugely shifted trajectories and timelines.
The expansive, nurturing, and inspiring space we’ve been living in, really helped solidify and clarify everything for us, and with our lives taking big turns, so too did we.
With both our little family growing (to include the magickal Astrid now alongside our kitty babies, Boojum and Sweet Pea), and the dreams we’ve had feeling the need to blossom and not wait anymore on, as well as being met with everything we explored and discovered here about ourselves that Lake Tahoe has, and more so now reflects for us, we felt a new and mirroring home space was calling that would nurture and nourish all of this.
And through countless magickal and synchronous unfoldings (way too much to share), everything aligned us with the perfect home base for all of this.
Our lake view condo will be taken over by a blossoming and amazing, young couple here shortly, as we prepare for our move to our new home on USFS land (United States Forest Service), where we will officially live in the enchanted forest full of Faeries and animals galore! Much magick awaits and will be created, as so many plans are in the works for this space.
To say I’m excited is an understatement, and although we have a very busy 4 months or so ahead of us before we’re fully settled, it is all SO worth it. A dream come true and perfect timing and unfolding in every way.
So yes, I’m feeling that “return to home to regenerate” and ultimately to my origins (both as a Cosmic AND Earth being, but also to Tahoe where everything started for us and where I received message to be long ago – and followed – without ever having been here or knowing what it was like), as well as an ending and beginning that salmon medicine brings, not to mention a definite surge in creativity, growth, harmony, and maturity in our lives all coming from creating things that would seem impossible (something that will continue being a theme for sure). For everything coming, I definitely feel that a strong foundation now is necessary. Whereas before, the need to move energy literally had to take hold in full embodiment of everything in our lives to create the huge momentum and leaps needed. Now things can settle in one regard, as the tree and its roots that will be the supportive foundation for all of the branches I/we will be growing.
And definitely, we’ve/I’ve been listening to those inner rhythms in flow with Nature, to align with everything and knowing just when to make moves and wait patiently, and are setting up our creative cocoons and hibernation caves (home) with everything nurturing and nourishing to our souls so we can continue in the cycle of rebirthing and recreating over and over with all that is in motion in our creative lives, like bear so beautifully shares with her medicine. Those two cubs that stood up and looked right at me, felt so reflective of my deep childlike innocence really coming forth now more than ever, and the playful vitality I feel to create, simply because it is peace for me to do so.
And speaking of childlike innocence, yesterday evening I showed up at an event sporting my bunny dress and magickal crowned rabbit necklace to represent the rabbits I love and adore.
Last night we had the opportunity to attend the sold out TedX event in South Lake Tahoe at Lake Tahoe Community College. Last year’s sold out inaugural event of 100, more than doubled to 250 this year with an incredible lineup of locally-known and world-renowned speakers from here and around the country. The event had food and drinks available during the reception and intermission including vegan wraps! and an after party at The Loft.
Our friend Paul Shapiro (mentioned above) was one of them who took the stage discussing the revolutionary “Clean Meat” – also the inspired topic of his forthcoming book.
There were many amazing speakers sharing their insights – all leaders in their own fields. You can check out the visionaries here:
My favorite speaker was photographer, director and Zephyr Cove resident Dewitt Jones who has photographed stories around the world for 20 years with National Geographic, published nine books, and directed two Academy Award-nominated documentaries. He moved me to tears, being a man of my own heart, with his talk that got him the only standing ovation. He so beautifully expressed the perspective of my own life and I felt the deep love in that reflection and mirroring, once again experiencing that full circle and collective connection.
Dewitt’s talk explored a mindset that he learned while working for National Geographic, and being out in nature, of celebrating what’s right with the world and not just focusing on what’s wrong with life, although not denying or ignoring any aspect of it, but rather seeing from a different perspective and the wholeness inherent in it all.
I was compelled to thank him after and he gifted me one of his bracelets.
It’s that message I want to leave you with, which is one of the foundations of my own life.
Celebrate What’s Right With the World and your life will be enriched.
Two mornings ago on the last day of July, heralding in the most incredibly potent month of 2017, I received a powerful visit by Hawk. The arrival of this sentinel messenger was nothing short of “wow” and truly was as if she descended from the Cosmic realm to bring her gifts of wisdom. Today also happens to be the 2 year anniversary of our Magick Bus RV arriving home to us – an event that changed everything into the most authentic and highest version of reality yet – and I find myself utilizing the same processes I did then to manifest that entire experience with what we’re/I’m working on manifesting now that will create another big reset.
But back to Hawk.
It was morning and I was sitting at the table facing the beautiful view of Lake Tahoe’s portal when suddenly from above and beyond I see a large bird descending and soaring directly at me. She came to land on the banister of our deck, directly in front of me and peered through the sliding screen door no more than 20 feet ahead.
For the last 4-5 years Hawk has become prevalent in my life as an animal spirit guide. This isn’t to say they haven’t been my guides for longer, as I have a strong connection to Horus that transcends lifetimes and a special one-of-a-kind statue of him from Egypt (away in storage currently) that has been with me since 2007 (10 years now).
Hawk always shows up at very key and important times in my life, when I’ve been contemplating or anchoring in a new venture and direction, and even when I’ve first taken home my bunny loves when adopting them (onset and arrival home), as well as each time I’ve taken them to important vet visits (watching over them and heralding a green light). One time was specifically connected to Joy’s eye doctor visit when I was concerned about her eyes and discovered she was blind in one, but now had incredible inner vision.
On this morning of Hawk’s arrival, I was in awe with chills, as we are already up so high here like a tree house in the sky, so it is an awe-inspiring sight to watch the birds soaring on air streams directly out front and many times right at level of our deck. Has always made me feel like a bird, myself, soaring along with them. So seeing her powerful presence come right at me was breath-taking.
She then sat there peering directly at me from different angles of her ever-watchful eyes, moving her head to catch all perspectives. I didn’t want to move because I knew she would leave if I did, so I sat for a bit (about 1-2 minutes) just watching and receiving. Luckily my cell phone was right next to me so I was able to snap two quick photos from where I was (capturing one of the magickal moments that takes place in my life and isn’t just me writing about it) through the sliding screen door and was able to gesture to Dave who was on a work phone call, to look. He hadn’t noticed her until I got his attention and then he, too, was amazed.
We see all types of birds soaring from here including Eagles, Turkey Vultures, Ravens and a variety of smaller birds like Steller’s Jay, Robin, Doves, Wood Peckers, etc. Normally only the Ravens and smaller birds, along with Squirrels and Chipmunks come onto the deck (peering in the door, playing, getting my attention), so this was quite a gift and blessing to have Hawk arrive, which felt especially meaningful and potent right now for me.
After connecting a bit with her, I a slowly got up and she opened her wings and leapt up on our roof.
I’ve written about Hawk Spirit Symbolism before, which you can read in greater detail at the link provided.
She was beautiful. I’m sure it seems odd that I would resonate so much with Hawks since I am a Rabbit person, who are prey to these predator birds. But my experience, as shared, with Hawk has been supportive with my Rabbits. So, there seems to be an incredible synergy and linked dynamic somehow to the connection between the two for me. And, of course, they are one of my animal spirit guides.
In the last months of living here I have seen SO Many. Some days within a half hour counting upwards of 44 sightings one after another.
But having Hawk two mornings ago come seek me out seems to be an invitation to a higher experience and new dimensional reality being embarked upon where deep and clear inner vision – the kind that sees inside out – is streaming in. For me, this feels more to be a vision of the higher heart and knowing that “sees” me through everything upcoming.
I will need to continue to see beyond the veils and what seems to be, in order to know how to navigate what truly is. (Astrid just peeked from within her Magick Carrot House as I wrote this – she’s been sitting in there very quiet and meditative for a while).
The collective is going through mass shifts, which continues to include extreme experiences across the board.
Personally, I have also been experiencing a major transition, although has felt very peaceful and harmonious.
I write about the greater majority of shifts and experiences here, in order to be transparent and support or inspire in any way that others might also connect with and/or help make you not feel like you’re alone in what you’re going through.
Some small portion of my personal life remains more intimate to myself and Dave, however, as we all do need a little space of sacredness to remain in tact.
That said, we have recently shifted from renters to owners of our Tahoe Tree House, which has been and continues to be an evolving piece of the entire pie. And this has all been coinciding with a lot of major energetic/literal moving pieces in our life right now, anchoring in a new era.
I also just completed my last Magick Crystal Wand (I haven’t shared them all, but will share this last one shortly), which opened my writing to move into full time once again – perfect timing alignment of course. This currently on short hold until Monday, as we have an incredibly busy next few days with things at our home to make a clear transition of the previous owners’ things to be removed since we rented fully furnished and have been living in a transitional phase. This bringing me closer to the 8/8 Lion’s Gate, which feels perfect to be working on its conclusion.
New decisions are being made and intentions set for the next leg of the journey and it’s so fun to watch them evolve with each step taken.
I amped things up big time with a Reiki Healing Attunement recently and it really kicked things into gear. I did the same with the Magick Bus at onset, without knowing the rest of the story and all fell into place. Taking a step forward gets the ball rolling.
Seems to be the name of the game in general. Sure, it’s about riding the energy waves and evolving with that, but it’s also about anchoring in intentions with steps and not sitting idle like a helpless person unable to move unless you see something happen before you do.
You’ll see it when you not only believe it, but act as if it’s happening by moving forward and then making adjustments along the way.
Hawk has arrived at onset of this heightened time period bringing me gifts of higher vision possible that will lead me on a potentially greater destiny than I was on track for before. Definitely like jumping train tracks into a parallel, but different timeline. She also seemed to be amplifying and acknowledging recent decisions, reminding me of the support around, and to stay connected to that clarity of vision despite the “noise”.
And this speaks to the collective energy present as well and available to us all.
If interested in the energies of this gateway month of August, here’s a link posted by Linette you may enjoy listening to on a Forecast of Energies this month:
Animals have souls too and are Spirit in physical form, choosing the body and experience that best supports their journey and the collective tapestry weaving and unfolding. I have always seen them as equals and one and the same as humans. In fact, they have been, and are, my best friends, partners, co-creators, teachers/guides and students, soul mates, and twin souls. As a little girl, they were all I felt most connected to and where I felt most comfortable being in their company.
I remember a channeler once looking at my aura and energetic field and saying how many animal spirit guides I had around me – more than he’d ever seen around someone and – and even my dear Laura sharing, long ago, that she’d never met someone who’s been an animal in past lives more than me (at least at the time that she shared this). 😉
Needless to say, I love and get these sweet souls (as I know many of you do too and would share similar feelings and experiences) and know that they have much to teach us, which is why much of my life is devoted in helping to be a voice for them and their important messages/ways of teaching us, and helping people to recognize they are just like us – helping to look beyond appearances and feel into the heart and spirit.
Yes, stop judging a book by its cover extends to all books.
While I love them all, over time I’ve discovered the ones that speak most to my journey and are constantly around me (like rabbits, horses, butterflies, hawks, whales, dolphins, geese, tortoises…and others I wear on my skin as sacred tattoos). Although new animal spirit guides will wander in and out when needed and in cycles (like many of the ones I post photos of and share about in my blog and on social media, as they flow into my life).
And some in fact are my familiars.
I came into this life with a huge love for horses, likely because of my repetitive and transformative lives as one, but discovered this has been part of my integration and healing process that then has led me forward. And while horses will always be powerfully and soulfully connected, since there is that mirror of recognition and resonance, I’ve now moved into what I like to call the “tiny horse” realm.
This, of course being rabbits.
Why do I call them “tiny horses” you ask?
Well, because in fact they are more closely related to horses than they are to a rat or mouse, contrary to belief.
Rabbits are lagomorphs, not rodents, although do share similarities, but some major differences including their teeth and the fact that lagomorphs are herbivores, whereas rodents are omnivores so they have digestive differences.
There’s also differences in male reproductive parts, whereas rodents have baculum (penis) bones and rabbits do not. Humans, horses, cetaceans (whales and dolphins), and marsupials also don’t have baculum bones.
This may be one of the reasons rabbits are considered close relatives to horses because they both seem to have retained primitive traits from the most primitive boreoeutherian mammals.
Rabbits and horses have the same digestive systems, teeth similarities, eat the same kinds of foods, have similar behaviors, sensitivities, prey instincts, and body language, not to mention they are amazing mirrors for therapy work on so many levels. Their faces and heads can literally look like a horse too, minus the long ears.
If you know about horses it definitely will help you to understand rabbits, so no surprise of my own evolution with this.
And a new “tiny horse” is on his way into my life in just 10 days! Yes, I’m doing the countdown. It’s been a long, patient journey awaiting his arrival, due to our travels, but he still hasn’t been adopted and that means our connection has been solidified through our telepathic journeys.
Just two days ago I solidified things further by ordering all of his new supplies, gifts, and special herbal and nutritional items to make him feel right at home and fortified in well being. We don’t have much room in this small treehouse up in Lake Tahoe, so I couldn’t go all out as I wanted to with Faery bunny extravaganza, but he will have the best of nutrition and loving touches of which I can integrate in here to meet his needs. Will be tight, but full of love.
And in the one photo I do have of him, which is what drew me in in the first place, I do have to say he looks like a tiny horse for sure.
Excited for the journey we will share for however long is meant to be.
I will continue to be a voice for the spirits in animal bodies, especially through my magickal rabbit friends, as our Cosmic connection aligns most with my own.
Today in the States, as we’re already the 18th of May here in Australia, would have been Cosmo’s 11th Birthday. He’s as strong as ever in my heart and life and has been traveling with us here Down Under. I haven’t much time to post, as we’re heading to Sydney today and have a drive ahead, but wanted to honor him with some animal friends we’ve encountered in the last couple of days since I posted. Yesterday, the 16th, happened to be our family parakeet, Chuck’s anniversary of passing 6 years ago, and today, the 17th is also my 3rd Cousin, Nella’s 70th birthday (whom I just met for the first time in Australia), as well as my sweet friend, Hillary Schneider’s 34th birthday of Epona Rise (you may remember her from our Reiki and Horse Retreat a couple summer’s back). So lots to celebrate!
We had a tremendous time in Tathra seeing more black swans and kangaroos, exploring amazing Bournda Lagoon, Hobart Beach, and Moon Bay (providing us intimate private time with Nature, since it was all secluded except for us). And yesterday in Canberra we explore Black Mountain Nature Reserve, climbing the mountain and trekking some offbeat tracks, encountering us with wallabies and kangaroo in the wild. So amazing! And the gifts continue with feathers galore and even wallaby fur. Shamanic magick all around and loving having all my animal brothers and sisters with me close. A wonderful gift of love, harmony, and mutual reverence, as well as feeling of being close to my little ones who are off world, as they make me think of them so much.
I love you Cosmo! And I’m loving our time here in Australia. Enjoy these photos.
Two nights ago this precious soul’s journey became entwined with mine. Fiver is his name, which immediately came to me when I embraced my role as his guardian, caregiver, and bridge worker to support his soul’s choices. The name, Fiver, comes from a favorite story of mine – Watership Down – the name of a fragile, but powerfully gifted rabbit with psychic insight who initiates the journey of his fellow rabbits of the warren to their safety and freedom with his gift of vision and sixth sense. Five also happens to be my favorite number since I was a child and the energy it carries of big, swift, and sometimes surprisingly good change is fitting.
Very unfortunately Fiver became badly injured by our cats, but I managed to save him in the middle of the night when I woke and knew what was going on. It was not the first time, as another of this little one’s family was not as lucky about a week or two ago. That first incident took place on an ominous night where we felt a 5.7 earthquake that had rumbled from within Earth 70 miles away, and two large aftershocks. Following the earthquake, the incident with the mouse took place and then I went into a dream awareness state where it felt like a parallel reality had been cracked open by the earthquake and there in our place and walking through our room was a woman with short blonde hair who thought it was her place and didn’t understand why we were there.
This has happened before in our Orange County home where a parallel reality of a man living in our house on another timeline began to appear to me and my rabbit Joy and we would both feel his presence after my night experience of him walking past our bed just like this woman. And I would smell cigarette smoke in my room at various occasions when there was none. My room in that home seemed to be the nucleus and portal, which became apparent when I hung my painting, Once in a Blue Moon, on the wall of my two rabbits, Nestor and Joy, and that same night I woke seeing elves, faeries, gnomes and the like crawling out of it and running through the house.
Needless to say, shifts continue here and two nights ago Fiver was part of another one when he decided to emerge….likely, in part, he came in to seek warmth and food, but he and I have discovered much more of our connection through this sad yet seemingly deliberate unfolding.
Little Fiver was quite traumatized, as you can imagine, and badly injured on his lower half of the body, unable to use his back legs (not sure if his lower back was also injured or just his legs), which reminded me right away of my sweet rabbit Cosmo.
I immediately made him a warm, soft bed in a cookie tin that first night and put some food in it for him.
I found it amazing that at one point yesterday he was sitting up and I watched as he placed one hand over one of his legs that was injured (and exactly where there appeared to be a bruise/darkened area at his joint), and then his other little human-like hand over the other far worse off leg.
I swear he was giving himself Reiki or at the very least was trying to heal and ease the pain in his legs. Incredible!
The next morning (today) he was still with us and had moved to the opposite side of the tin, ate a bit, and pooped. I helped prop him up and gave him more fresh food. He seemed to love bread crumbs the best and heartily ate and drank for the first half of the day and pooped and peed. That was a good sign.
He was still very anxious, but after giving him a lot of Reiki and others sending him some too, he seemed to calm down nicely and then went into a slumber, only stirring a bit here and there. He seemed to be slowing down and needing to rest. I felt he was in preparation and the energy had provided him the peace to be able to process everything and get to a centered place.
I had called the wildlife care facility up here as soon as they opened in the morning yesterday, who provided me my slim options. They said, in all honesty, with wild mice that are brought in, they will euthanize them and feed them to the hawks and falcons they have in their care there, as normally they buy mice for this. Or, I could care for him.
While the euthanizing part sounded like a potentially peaceful option, if Fiver wanted that, the rest he picked up on and it felt traumatizing to him (despite being part of the circle of life) so when I checked in with him he gave me an immediate “no”.
The situation in general, with the cats, the idea of the hawks (spirit guides of mine as well) all again reiterated the nature of things, but also helped me to continue deepening with this and heal more of the natural tendencies to judge it. As while I embrace it, understand, and know the bigger picture, a part of me knows this “nature” has evolved and wasn’t always “the way”. There’s no coincidence as to why I am drawn to rabbits (and also have had tortoises), as it feels more to be of this harmony, and yet I continually draw more to me that invites wholeness regardless of the human reality I am involved in currently.
To truly love, one must love all the ways that All That Is expresses loving itself.
Anyway, upon further inquiry with Fiver, and presenting him his options, he opted wanting to stay with me and receive the love and comfort, which to him outweighed the pain.
I wholeheartedly supported him and he’s been with me ever since.
I spent most of my entire day yesterday caring for him and being with this “heaven on earth” majesty all around me that was so surreal it overwhelmed me and was the perfect essence to blanket us in, not to mention created such a beautiful world for little Fiver to experience – or was it that his energy and our connection was being mirrored in our surroundings?
It was a day of stillness and peace.
And I enjoyed seeing him enjoy his food and feeling cared for.
I’ve checked in time and time again and he continues to want to stay. It’s my commitment to honor his guidance above all else, knowing the importance of honoring a soul’s wishes, as well as the path that has been chosen between contracts made in the bigger picture, overall.
I kept him fed, gave him water which he also sipped, and had him next to me all day no matter where I was, giving him love, Reiki, and little rubs as he slept.
I wasn’t sure he would make it through the night, but did have him next to me to sleep, alongside all of my crystals to support him. Nestor, Joy, Gaia, and Cosmo, my loves who have transitioned already, have been supporting the process and await him whenever he decides, to help guide him lovingly on the other side.
Between all of us we have a bridge created to assist him on both ends and this is part of the message I’ve continued to received with all I’ve experienced with my animal companions and all of the animals that cross my path and come into my life, is that I am one who is here to help animals cross over and I’ve been in “training” so to speak to fully embody the unconditionally compassionate and detached place where I can love them fully, deepen my communication with them, and do what is in their best interests and highest good solely.
And this has deepened my connection to how much my soul is invigorated by the exchange and care I am blessed to give and have with these beautiful and powerful souls in animal bodies. Animals are everything to me and to have the honor of this place in supporting their transitions and soul path choices is one I do not take lightly, but fully embrace with overflow of love.
It is also in preparation for a near future-me manifestation that is in process of coming to be step-by-step.
But, as mentioned, there are layers to Fiver being with me. And one connection is with Cosmo, since he is very much reflecting the same special needs that he did.
I had to take a break, as little Fiver has just passed right next to me as I’ve been writing of this beautiful experience with him.
I will continue now….I needed time to support that, honor the moment and him, and do the energy work to help. Oh, such sweetness he’s brought.
It seemed as if last night that could have transpired, but his strength amped up this morning, despite not wanting to eat. It felt like he was testing out his limitations as he was deciding and that he had been doing soul searching last night, as well as receiving all of the support from those guiding him and the crystals.
Fiver had refused all food and water this morning, but kept wanting me to rub him and comfort him, as his body was starting to prepare.
He moved around quite a bit and his body started looking much better and rejuvenated, his eyes keeping open rather than closed like they were pretty much all day and night before, and even had used one of his legs, which was not possible before.
I’d placed a small quartz point in with him, as well as a black tourmaline.
I kept him close and kept comforting him, never more than inches from him at all times.
A friend, literally minutes before his passing, had offered to do some gentle Qigong for bruising and broken bones. He was open to this. I understand now why he wanted it.
Suddenly, he had begun to move around looking more like his mouse self, but filled with peace and strength…and he got up on all fours, which he had not been able to do, although was trying all morning, walked a bit, then was able to push off his back legs and do a little mouse jump a few inches forward.
Incredibly, where he jumped was DIRECTLY over and centered above the tiny quartz point I had placed in there – the point facing toward his head and almost like he was riding a crystalline rocket to the Cosmos, as you can see here (I was so wow’d I’d immediately grabbed my camera, as it was incredulous).
He was alert, beautiful, and stood there exhibiting his fullness and how he once used to look for about a half to three quarters of a minute with his once limp legs now holding him strongly.
Both Dave and I had witnessed this. And then he suddenly went stiff and his spirit left, leaving him to sink softly upon the quartz point – his resting place and conduit to travel to the Beyond.
I knew he was gone.
It was without struggle, without noise or anquish, it was without any feeling of stress…It was simply like he literally was whole, released from pain,had a surge of energy, and took to flight, just as I’d seen earlier with a Raven that had messaged me outside the window and did the same.
I gently picked him up and placed him in my palm with my other loosely around him. I blessed him, did energy with his Chakras, and guided him to his friends awaiting him.
I placed him for now gently in his bed and covered him with a little cloth blanket. I will prepare a proper burial for him.
He looked and felt like a little, precious angel in my hands and his body had completely rejuvenated…his fur looking so lovely in comparison to the day before and his limp, lifeless legs looking strong in the position he now came to rest in.
What an honor. What a gift. What a healing and soul embodiment he has provided.
I had missed caring for my little ones and Fiver returned that deep soul joy and love I had an empty space with. And with the clarity he helped me to anchor and realize within myself and how this is my path and will continue, I feel this greater peace and wholeness…a deep healing and soul retrieval once again.
This dear little mouse, who had his own path I assisted, and lavishing him with love and comforts he’d never known, helped me into expanding bigger by claiming parts of who I am and affirming I’m on path.
Avia Venefica shares about Symbolic Mouse Meaning:
“Our ancient ancestors observed their affinity for ground-burrowing, and likened this to mice being ‘one with the Mother’ (Mother Earth, that is). This ground-loving behavior was also seen as a connection to the Underworlds (or Otherworlds, depending upon your source of reference). This kind of connection makes the mouse a kind of mediator between physical life and recycling life (spirit energies in transition). This Earth and Underworld connection continues in western, medieval Europe, where folk superstitions tell of mice possessing the ability to carry souls of humans who have passed from this physical life.
In Native North American Indian symbolism, tribes such as the Navajo established the mouse having governance over the southern quadrant of their medicine wheel, which represents a macrocosmic view of life. The southern quadrant of the medicine wheel holds sacred tenets such as new beginnings, connection with the Mother (Nature/Earth). It also represents youthfulness and innocence. Because the mouse is quite modest, and connected so closely with the Mother Earth, it has gained grained prominence in this and other branches of Native wisdom.
Mice are incredibly prolific, as mentioned earlier, and can bear up to a dozen pups every four to six weeks. That’s a lotta mice. This is symbolic of fertility, abundance, and expansion. For example, a mouse in your awareness could be symbolic of your ability to mass-produce new births in the form of new ideas, development, creativity, social connections – any number of opportunities are available for us to give birth often and abundantly, the mouse is a reminder of that.”
All of this rings in for me on more levels than I can express here since it would make this a very long post.
Fiver definitely whispered many things to my heart and soul and the symbolism of his tiny, but mighty mouse soul spoke deeply in a way only one so innocent and pure could for me.
Mice also remind us of being ultra aware, seeing what is right before us, and then to take action in alignment with that. They want us not to neglect things we might overlook, nor to scatter our energy, and to stay aware of everything going on to avoid dangers and pitfalls. In this way we can get ultra focused. In this way they are showing us the path to the bigger things, by focusing on and discerning the little things in the moment, adapting, and remaining determined.
Thank you Fiver, for the sweetness you embody, for the love and healing that you nurtured my heart with, for the confirmation of my role, for reaffirming and keeping me laser focused on the path I’m now on, and for infusing abundant inspiration to the prolific creative projects I have in the works.
You are honored and will be physically missed, but I am grateful to have you as a soul guide joining with the rest of our family, that is now yours too.
To hold you Fiver in my hands – so beautiful that you are – and caress your cheeks, head, and injured, fragile little perfectly imperfect body was like touching an angel’s wings.
You are my angel of hope sweet Fiver, forever more.
With all of the shifts I’ve experienced recently and recent expansion through that, the creative flow has been directly affected with greater inspiration.
This includes the channeling of Magick Stones that were on hold through navigating the recent challenges.
I’m happy to share that I am back in full swing again and feel reinvigorated with a creative burst of artistic expression.
I have 5 custom pre-order requests that will be focused on first, but 6 more stones have come into my experience, making 11 total I’ll be working on.
That also means that there will be 6 others available once I complete the first 5 orders.
So, if you were interested in one, perhaps there will be a perfect reflection of you in this new batch of potent Magick Stones.
You can contact me if interested in one for yourself and would like to pre-order.
Otherwise, these 6 Magick Stones will become available once completed.
The 6 stones to come run from $33 – $44 + $7 shipping/handling.
Until then, I will be sharing the stones along the way that are completed.
Today I start with the first, which is quite the potent stone.
When you receive your stone you will be provided information about its medicine, any animal spirit guides, symbolism, etc., along with the sacred area it was found, and the energy it holds to support you with.
Here is an example of the one I’m shipping today, below.
Capturing photos of these stones is incredibly challenging, as they are sealed with a protective, durable, glossy enamel over the acrylic paint. So any light source at all creates a shine and glare, plus makes it hard to get photos with clarity.
However, these images should provide an example. As you can see, the images are revving up in this new batch.
The stones are exponentially more beautiful in person and that is when you can truly appreciate the hand work and energy.
Even though they are sealed, you still want to be very gentle with them and treat them sacredly, as they are still delicate and like anything sacred, you’d want to mutually share honor with them.
Royal Mystical Purple Magick Stone with Metallic Gold Accents
Great Horned Owl & Swan Medicine with Sacred Geometry
Sacred Black Canyon of the Gunnison, Colorado by the Gunnison River where a Deer appeared
Inner grace balance of shadow and light
Bridging new realms
Connecting with Source
Revealing inner child and inner beauty
Seeing into the dark and unconscious to shed fears and reveal deepest desires
Strength and courage of peaceful warrior
Wisdom of your tuth
Listening to your soul song and they mysteries of music
While we’ve been on our grand adventure journeying around in the Magick Bus to where we feel called to integrate, retrieve, move, and heal energy from the places we land, I’ve been surrendering myself to how this energy wants to move through me.
Sometimes that may not look like much, as the process is internal, but when the energy moves through me into a form that needs to be channeled that can look something like sound healing, inspired messages and ideas, support for my writing and creative projects, and even “Magick Stones”.
In general, the energy guides me and I listen.
And one thing that channeled through me was the message that I was to create some special Nature Portals from the magickal areas we have been visiting that would help one walk through the energies on their own sacred journey or vision quest.
Particular stones would speak to me that were meant for this project and these were turned into the creations you see here – Magick Stones.
Each Magick Stone embodies its own sacred energies and combined with the visions that channeled through for each, they also carry an individual medicine and speak their messages to us via Animal, Plant, and Magickal Being Spirit Guides.
I didn’t know why I was to create these – only that I needed to. And so I did.
I didn’t know that they would be revealed publicly, nor that they would be offerings for the collective when I first received the message.
But as I completed one after another, it became clear that these were in fact not for me, although the process of channeling and creating them was clearly something for me to do.
It has been a joyful experience and a wonderful side project that has been a way to move energy through and again embrace however that is meant to look.
I had already worked with the energies myself so I realized that these would be another way for others/the collective to work with the sacred energies of Mother Earth beyond simply reading about the areas and energies I share in my blog, or seeing photos that I post.
These are tangible, live energies that will call to whom they are meant to be and work with.
Each has a power and you’ll know which it is that can assist you when you gaze upon them and allow them to speak to your heart.
The ten Magick Stones you see here have all been hand painted by myself with acrylic paints and sealed with a protective, durable, glossy enamel.
They each embody a Chakra energy and color and then one is White and two others are Black. You will be able to sense what energies they all carry, by their Spirit Guides and the colors that channeled through.
They make great meditation stones, intention stones, companions at your work space, by your bedside or for dream time work under your pillow. They can also be placed in your garden, in plant pots, or in any sacred space, healing room, or altar.
But they are Spirit Guides ready to work with you and be engaged to assist you walking through new doorways of experience on any or all levels – physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.
Whether for yourself or as a gift to someone you know it would be perfect for, these carry a lot of energy not only of their own, but infused with the integration of energy I’ve experienced in these place, with Reiki by myself, and a lot of love and attention to detail in bringing their spirit into manifestation.
No two are alike…each is a unique creation.
Due to my traveling and things not always being accessible, I can only offer these to people living in the U.S. right now.
International orders and shipping not available.
When you place your order I will include with your Magick Stone a signature card that will also detail where each stone is from and their Spirit Guide energies.
I am guided not to reveal their origin or to go into detail about their energies until you receive your Magick Stone so that your choice is based on what you feel rather than details provided.
Let your heart guide you.
This is part of their message. Out of your head and into your heart.
I don’t know if there will be more of these in the future or not, as I’m simply channeling the messages.
The stones either speak to me or they don’t and those that do let me know if they want to be revealed as Magick Stones in this way.
So, these could be the only ten stones I create, or at some future time, more might come to me.
As with all things in my life right now, I only live in the moment and support that energy wanting through at the time.
I hope you enjoy these Magick Stones as much as I have enjoyed bringing them to life and having them with me. It’s been like having a bunch of friends all chatting with me every day they’ve been in my presence.
~ MAGICK STONES ~
Prices Below – Shipping & Handling of $7 will be added to your order at check out
Master of the Light ~ Unicorn, Gold Metallic Spirals & Faery Star Violet Magick Stone #1 – $33 – SOLD
Life Eternally Blooming ~ Sunflower & Swallowtail Butterfly Deep Blue Magick Stone #2 – $44 – SOLD
Song of the Sea ~ Seahorse & Starfish Soft Aqua Magick Stone #3 – $44 – SOLD
Ancient Mother of Life & Flower of the Sea Faeries ~ Sea Turtle, Sea Anemone, Stars & Ocean Swirls Emerald Green Magick Stone #4 (Gold Metallic Stars & Sea Turtle Shell) – $55 – SOLD
Desert Doorways Into the Other Worlds ~ Cactus Blossoms & Jack Rabbit Yellow Magick Stone #5 – $55 – SOLD
Sacred Guardian of Life & Dreams ~ Lotus Tree of Life & Gnome Orange Magick Stone #6 – $55 – SOLD
Creative Cycles of Whimsical Deliberation ~ Snails, Mushroom & Spiral Vines Red Magick Stone #7 – $44 – SOLD
Ancient Wisdom & Cosmic Illumination ~ Barn Owl & Full Moon with Gold Metallic Glow Black Magick Stone #8 – $44 – SOLD
Sweet Nectar of Life ~ Hummingbird & Rainbow Daisy Vines White Magick Stone #9 – $44 – SOLD
Vortex Womb of the Inner Sanctum Treasures ~ Baby Golden Dragon & Cosmic Dragon Vortex Black Magick Stone #10 (Baby Dragon & Cosmic Dragon’s Eye are Gold Metallic) – $77 – SOLD
I’ve posted this link (below) before, but felt guided to share it again so that you can take a moment to breathe in your intentions and discover what animal spirit guide is by your side right now with a message of support to assist you with them.
This is a great way to put closure to the current year, by focusing on the energy that will open doors for you in the new year.
Take your time to focus and be clear with one particular area of your life you would like support with, or something larger you are wanting to manifest for the year ahead.
I decided to explore The Enchanted Forest twice.
The first time was in asking a broader question to assist me with 2016 intents I have.
The second time was in asking a very “now” question to support some anxiety I’ve been working through around putting closure to this year and accomplishing projects at hand in order to do so.
My animal spirit guide wisdom was perfect.
For the first I received:
The Butterfly ~ Transformation, Acceptance, Gratitude
The ultimate symbol of transformation is now an integral part of your life. Be glad, for you are the butterfly!
The butterfly energy will allow you to continually transform, gradually lifting your level higher and higher as you cycle through the stages of birth, crawling, cocooning and flight for each new stage of your life.
And as you go through this process, over and over, learn to accept that each stage is a necessary part of transformation. Butterfly energy will help you not only accept, but actually enjoy the early crawling stage, as you learn new skills and new ways of being. This energy will also help you understand that the chrysalis stage, wrapped in a cocoon with direction unclear, is a necessary state before you can emerge in your full glory.
And as you finally emerge as a butterfly, something that will happen to you many times in your lifetime, stretch out your beautiful wings and fly, enjoying life to the fullest, engrossed within this moment and this moment only, as you drink the nectar of the garden and give thanks for the many blessings of your life.
And then, of course, you will do it all over again, for you are the butterfly.
This made so much sense on a multitude of levels, especially since I continue to be in the chrysalis stage within my cocoon and will be for a while longer. And also because long, long ago butterfly had been received to me as my symbol for my life’s work.
The second I received was equally perfect in message to assist me with flow right now:
The Doe ~ Effortlessness, Awareness, Intention
You are blessed indeed to have the beautiful doe as your power animal. She appears delicate, but she is very strong. Her strength comes from her deep connection to all that surrounds her. She will teach you to stand within the moment, quiet and observant, sensing all that is, feeling each leaf of the forest as a deep part of your being.
She will also teach you lightness, lightness of the spirit and of the feet. With a deep intuitive sense of what is, you will know exactly when to take action and to do so decisively, moving quickly and gracefully in response to your knowing. She will teach you to sense the world around you so deeply and instinctively that you are always one step ahead of the events coming your way.
Let her light spirit fill you with the freedom and joy of being, so that you bound and leap through life effortlessly, always sure-footed, always deeply attuned, even when entering a new part of the forest. She will help you welcome the new experiences of life, giving a joyous welcoming to new beginnings.
As the doe, you will learn to be fearless, to trust your intuition completely and know that a deep awareness and connection with the world, combined with a belief in yourself, is the best possible protection there is.
That was definitely supportive and I could feel a release and relief in reading Doe’s message reminder to me to sink deeper into right now.
So now it’s your turn!
Take your own journey into the Enchanted Forest here to receive a supportive message:
And if you DO journey into the Enchanted Forest, I’d love to hear what Animal Spirit Guide was awaiting you. Please leave a short note in the comments with the friend that met you there.
Magickal blessings to you!!